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   secrets i have held in my heart are harder to hide than i thought (i wanna be yours) by bruhlinski

   Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

   • Teen And Up Audiences
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/F, F/M, M/M
   • Complete Work

   23 Aug 2023

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Kaedehara Kazuha/Scaramouche
   • Minor or Background Relationship(s)
   • Diluc/Jean (Genshin Impact)
   • Kong | Aether/Xiao | Alatus (Genshin Impact)
   • Beidou/Ningguang (Genshin Impact)
   • Albedo/Kaeya (Genshin Impact)
   • Tartaglia | Childe/Zhongli (Genshin Impact)
   • Kaedehara Kazuha
   • Scaramouche (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc (Genshin Impact)
   • Jean (Genshin Impact)
   • Kong | Aether (Genshin Impact)
   • Xiao | Alatus (Genshin Impact)
   • Beidou (Genshin Impact)
   • Ningguang (Genshin Impact)
   • Albedo (Genshin Impact)
   • Kaeya (Genshin Impact)
   • Tartaglia | Childe (Genshin Impact)
   • Zhongli (Genshin Impact)
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Scaramouche is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact)
   • Touch-Starved Scaramouche (Genshin Impact)
   • Scaramouche is Called Kunikuzushi (Genshin Impact)
   • Fluff
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Angst
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Foster Care
   • Alternate Universe - Modern Setting
   • Alternate Universe - High School
   • Kaedehara Kazuha Needs a Hug
   • Scaramouche Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact)
   • Everyone Needs A Hug
   • Scaramouche is Soft for Kaedehara Kazuha
   • almost everyone is gay
   • Scaramouche is In the Closet
   • Openly Gay Kaedahara Kazuha
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • holy shit
   • the canon divergence is so big
   • nothing makes sense
   • No Beta reader we die like Tomo
   • and dilucs dad
   • i wrote this intead of studying
   • Tartaglia | Childe is Good with Children (Genshin Impact)
   • childe is a good big brother
   • Self-Harm
   • Heavy Angst
   • Like
   • Really heavy
   • trust me - Freeform

   Summary

   When Kunikuzushi saw Kazuha for the first time, he immediately thought of three words.
   The first one was 'white'. The second one was 'beautiful'. The third one was 'faggot'.

   Basically this is the story of traumatized Scaramouche who sits incredibly deep in the closet and suffers form severe internalized homophobia, and with the power of friendship and gay love everything will be fine but don't be silly, there's gonna be plenty of angst

   The same trigger warnings for the entirety of the work:
   -homophobic slurs
   -internalized homophobia
   -panic attacks
   -selfharm (the act itself and the after-math)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   62,351

   Chapters:

   20/20

   Comments:

   711

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   Bookmarked by Atlas_zEvA

   09 Jul 2025

   Bookmarker's Notes

   THESE ARE MY BABYS OH MY LORD 100000/10 my heart I love this