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Halo by Suoulvr
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
19 Apr 2026
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Sometimes he thought about dying.
Can “sometimes” mean every day?
He doesn’t know.Nirei thinks he wants to die. Maybe.
He longs for too much. He desires too much.
And yet, he wants to die.They look at him. They greet him.
And he smiles.He thinks about the pills he used to steal from his mother so he could sleep, even if just a little.
To die, even if just a little.They touch his hair.
They kiss him.He thinks about how his ribs tighten, as if they wanted to crush something soft and fragile inside.
He breathes the same. He smiles the same.They laugh with him.
He laughs with them.
And he thinks about the balcony in his room.
The height.
The fall.The air hitting his face.
They desire him.
He despises himself.
Or they despise him, and then he tries to desire himself.
Nirei is miserable.Series
- Part 3 of Nirei angst
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Morning by Suoulvr
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
25 Aug 2024
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Less than an hour to go, and Nirei could pull out his stomach with his bare hands, draw an X on his throat and rip out his vocal cords, pull out every single eyelash, and rot in that room.
He was sure that if his mother saw him like this she would let him skip school, maybe he should pretend he was sick, he had always been very sickly and there was a chance his mother would believe him.
Or he could go back to begging her on his knees, throw away the last dignity he had left, cry and puke his guts out.
"Dear, it's time to get up!"
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- Part 2 of Nirei angst
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Dying by Suoulvr
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
22 Jul 2024
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He's good at reading people and it's sadly obvious how they look at him with pity, the same look they give to the people they help, he shouldn't be the one receiving the same look, when he's supposed to be at their side, to be at the same level, to be their ally.
He knows this because Suo or Sakura would never receive a look like that, even if Sakura caused an imminent need to help him, not even when they were helping Anzai with his unfortunate situation. Nirei could never see that kind of look directed at any of his classmates except him, it hurt him, just a little, it felt like a needle stuck in his skin, small and harmless, it could almost be ignored, but it never goes away, in fact, in the moment someone touches the
needle, the pain returns.Or
How Nirei spends his entire life thinking about dying.
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- Part 1 of Nirei angst
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Kuroo's house was quiet, contrary to what was expected from the safe and reliable image he had formed over the years, Kuroo's house is really quiet, although it was the least he expected after years of screaming, broken glass and pillows to minimize the arguments, after all his family of four ended up becoming Kuroo and whoever was there, Kuroo and the few times his father tried to act like what that man was, his father, Kuroo and his grandparents when they found the time to be with him, or most of the time Kuroo and kenma, games, not very quality food and meaningless disputes, but still silent, kuroo wished that it were nostalgic for when it was a noisy house, but along with the noise came violence. And maybe it was a bit boring and lonely, he preferred silence a thousand times.
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Or basically kuroo dealing with silence, the reasons for it and the consequences of it
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Reo was used to inappropriate touching, it was a constant thought in his mind that weighed heavily, cutting off his breathing and making his eyes blurry.
or how Reo burns from the touch of others.
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Nirei angst by Suoulvr
Fandom Wind Breaker (Anime), Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga)
19 Apr 2026
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angst about Nirei Akihiko from WIND BREAKER!!
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Kozume Kenma finds himself restless at his best friend, Kuroo Tetsurou's 30th birthday party watching all of their friends eyeing Kuroo's unclaimed neck. Kenma thinks he has to put an end to that. Little does he know, he's falling right into Kuroo's plan.
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23 May 2026
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He wanted to burrow under the sheets, get away from his mind and leave, to finally be able to run, a death as small as lead, a way to leave and fly. When he spiked, he used to feel like he was flying so high he could touch the sky.
Now that he was falling, would you catch me in the wind?
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Bookmarked by Suoulvr
23 May 2026
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Just Stay Here (till the dawn comes) by kuro_shinji
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga)
11 May 2026
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In their third year, Akihiko had decided that he would go to the local university, and so did Haruka and Hayato. Having feelings for both boys, Akihiko was heartbroken since he knew that there was no way they would have any romantic feelings towards him. Not only that, Haruka and Hayato actually had feelings for each other, which further broke Akihiko's heart. But no matter, Akihiko had decided that he'd live with it. Being able to spend more time with Haruka and Hayato was worth the heartbreak.
Bookmarked by Suoulvr
19 May 2026
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mimosa pudica by ruinsofphaidie
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
18 May 2026
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“But, the truth really is I’m not lying,” and then, because Haruka’s jaw tightens and a vein on his forehead ticks, Hayato continues, with an amused, almost private, smile, “I just don’t think I’d be very good at what you’re asking me to do.”
Akihiko blinks. The confusion is written plain on his face. “Good at…living together?”
It's no surprise that Hayato's no good at opening up. Haruka just really wishes he could give it a try. Especially when Haruka wants so badly to move in together and build a home with both of them.
Mimosa Pudica
(/mɪˈmoʊzə pjuːˈdɪkə/)
(n.) Commonly known as the shame plant; a sensitive plant whose leaves curl inward when touched, often symbolizing the instinct to hide from vulnerability.Series
Bookmarked by Suoulvr
18 May 2026
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A Man Called Nirei Decides to Die by yutang_smile
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
17 May 2026
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They wouldn't be better off.
Nirei knew that. He had always known it, really. He was only lying to himself. Because if he didn't lie to himself, he wouldn't have the courage to do this. But if he didn't do this, he would never have the chance to find out — that he didn't actually want to do it.It was an absurd circle. He had trapped himself inside it. Now he stood at the center of that circle and saw that the start and the end were the same point — he wanted to live. He wanted to live with them.
He had spent so long writing so many pages of plans, buying what he needed, erasing his traces, trying to disappear from this world in the calmest, least burdensome way possible. But in the end, he still wanted love. Still wanted to be seen. Still wanted to have those two hold his hands and hear them say, "You're alive."
Bookmarked by Suoulvr
18 May 2026