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It had started six years ago.
At first he hadn't thought much about it, surdenly not thought that it was it that was happening.
That Day he had felt fine at first, then he became tired, really tired.
He had looked in the bathroom mirror and he Saw that he was pale, his Lips blue.
He started to cough.
He tried to get himself to bed But dizziness tolk over and he fell to the bathroom floor.
From then on he could feel occational Waves of sadness,disspare, pain. He ignorer it But that's how it started.
As the years went by the waves of happiness overcame him more often, it was maybe more like a Whiff of Happy that happened once every couple of months. It never lastes long and it wasn't much. It was more than in the beginning, Where the pain almost became unbeareble at times.
He found someone to love, he got engaged. This is Where he should be.
He Got married.
Him and his Wife never talked about it. He tried to hide it But she knew and they left it like that.
It was a rare thing.
Why try and find a person who carried so much pain, When he was Happy here with the life he made for himself.
The Universe might not agree and may not have planned for it to be ignored But he was fine with being married, being a stepdad, being successfull and he was fine with being with someone he shared No, rare, cosmic Bond with. He was fine being Robert.
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Six years ago he sat in a car, the garage locked, the engine on.
He woke in hospital, dissapionted at still being alive. Angry and sad about still having to carry so much pain.
Not fine with being Aaron.