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Kim was having a shit day, and she knew Shego could tell. Her fighting was too predictable, and the villainess deflected each blow effortlessly. This wasn’t a real fight; Shego already knew how to stop her. She’d found all the weak spots in this attack, and could break through it easily. Kim knew she should care, but today, it just seemed like too much effort.
“Gotta say, I’m getting tired of the silent treatment here Kimmie. Mocking you is half the fun.” Kim didn’t reply, just tried to hit her again and took a step back when Shego moved forwards to block it. She didn’t realized she was being pushed towards a wall until her back was up against it.
She dully recognized that Shego could kill her at that moment. She probably wouldn’t fight it. But instead of attacking, Shego placed her hands on the wall on either side of Kim’s shoulders, trapping her in place. “So what’s your sitch, Princess?” Shego tapped her fingers against the wall as Kim scowled at her. “Where’s the buffoon, Cupcake?” Kim blinked back tears and replied through gritted teeth. “He took the day off.” She knew it didn’t sound believable, she was never a good liar. Please let it go.
She didn’t let it go. “Yeah I know bullshit when I hear it Kimmie. So you finally realized you’re too good for him?” Kim couldn’t hold back the tears anymore. To her surprise, Shego dropped her hands and took a step back. “When I beat you, it’s going to be because I’m better, not because you’re too caught up in your little feelings. Whatever you’ve got going on, fix it.”
She walked away, leaving Kim confused. What the hell just happened?
“But Shego, what do you mean she escaped? She’s a college student and…Now, Shego, no need to get testy, I – AH” Kim heard a blast of plasma hit the wall. With a sigh, she turned to leave the lair.
She held herself together long enough to get back to her apartment and finish the report that was due in the morning. Finally, dressed in her pajamas, she broke down crying. 12 hours ago, her and Ron had still been dating. She had imagined a future with him. And now…now, she was all alone. And she was such a mess that even Shego was pitying her. Running out of tears, she curled up with her pandaroo and fell asleep.
–oOo–
The next morning wasn’t any better. She dragged herself to class, but she barely heard what the professors were saying. It had been almost 4 years. She’d just bought tickets to visit him over spring break. She – suddenly Kim was fighting back tears again. I will not cry during lecture.
After class, Kim sat in the library for hours, staring at her screen and trying to work. Eventually, she gave up and went home. As she walked through the front door, her eyes drifted towards the bottle of vodka on the counter. Drinking to ignore problems can lead to a dependence on alcohol, she reminded herself. She walked further into the apartment, put down her backpack, and decided she was going to get drunk out of her mind, consequences be damned.
A few hours later, she didn’t even notice someone climbing through her window until that person was standing right next to her, hands on her hips, and a smirk planted on her face. “You look like shit.”
Kim’s eyes shot open. “Shego!” She tried to get up, but the floor seemed to move as she leapt off the couch, and she fell down, tangled in blankets. After a minute of struggling, she managed to stand in a rough approximation of a fighting stance. Shego kept her hands on her hips and laughed.
“If I didn’t fight you when you were crying, what makes you think I’ll fight you when you’re too drunk to walk?”
“I can walk!” Kim tried to punch Shego, but she misjudged both Shego’s location and her own balance, and ended up hitting thin air before tripping over the blankets and falling down again.
“Yeah, that’s what I thought. And I’m not here for a fight Kimmie.”
Not here for a fight? Still laying on the floor, Kim stared up at the ceiling and tried to process that thought, but her mind was clouded by the alcohol. Eventually she asked the question out loud.
“Well, I wanted to find out why the hell you’re so off your game, but I don’t think you could answer that one right now. So here’s what we’re gonna do Kimmie. You’re going to go to bed, and tomorrow I’m going to come back so we can talk about this. Sober. Kay?”
Kim was confused, but nodded. Shego turned to leave, taking the rest of the vodka with her. “Hey! I was drinking that!”
“I think you’ve had enough to drink tonight.” The window slid shut behind Shego before Kim could answer. For the second time in two days, Kim thought What the hell just happened? before sliding into unconsciousness.
–oOo–
When she woke up in the morning, she still felt awful, but for a completely different reason. Her skin was sticky after being buried under so many blankets, and her back was stiff from the floor. Her head was pounding, and she was pretty sure something had died in her mouth. When she tried to check the time, she found out that her phone was dead. The microwave showed that it was a little after 1pm. Well shit. All her classes on Thursday were before noon. Why the hell did I get drunk on a weeknight? She immediately shut off the part of her brain that wanted to answer that question. She knew the answer, and she didn’t want to think about it.
As she started to clean up, she realized that she couldn’t find the bottle of vodka. That’s weird, I definitely didn’t drink all of it… After a moment, she shrugged it off. Who knew where her drunk mind might have hidden it. Besides, if last night was any indicator, she was probably better off without it. Having cleaned her apartment, Kim grabbed her backpack and went to the library to get some work done.
When she finally got back, it was a little after midnight. As she opened the door to her bedroom, she heard a familiar voice say, “It’s not nice to keep a girl waiting Kimmie.”
Kim lunged for the light switch and slipped into a fighting stance. She definitely didn’t expect to see Shego lounging on her bed. “Shego, I don’t know why you’re here, but you’re going to leave right now.”
The villainess sighed and got off the bed. “Fine, let’s do it your way then.”
This time, Kim was completely focused on her fighting, her anger at Shego’s invasion overruling her sadness about Ron. However, she was unprepared for Shego to abandon traditional fighting and tackle her onto the bed. Kim ended up on her back with Shego straddling her waist.
“Kay Kimmie, I’m not planning to move any time soon. I said I’d be back, so let’s do this.” She sighed at Kim’s look of confusion. “Don’t tell me you forgot I was even here. You really need to drink less Cupcake.”
Kim reached back into her foggy memories of the night before, and came up with some hazy images of Shego standing in her living room. “I thought that was a dream.”
“Nope, it was real. And I’ve been waiting for a while, so are we doing it or not?”
Kim wracked her brain, trying to figure out what “it” was. She was suddenly very aware of Shego’s warm weight against her hips, and the phrase “I’ve been waiting” echoed in her mind. What did I agree to last night?
“Uh Shego, I don’t know what I said last night but I uh…”
She trailed off as Shego lowered her face towards hers. Kim’s heartbeat sped up, and she wondered if Shego was going to kiss her. Then she wondered if she wanted her to. But Shego leaned past Kim’s face and hissed into her ear, “You were going to tell me about the buffoon. So spill.”
No. There was no way she’d agreed to that. “Why do you care, Shego?”
“Remember, Kimmie, my job is to fight you. It’s a hell of a lot less fun if you’re not fighting too. So start talking.”
“Fine. Can you at least get off me?”
“Why? Do you find this distracting?” Without waiting for a response, Shego moved to sit on one side of the bed, still smirking.
Kim sat up and sighed. It seemed like there was no way out of this. “We broke up.”
“Yeah I got that. What I don’t get, is why you wasted 4 years with a guy who wasn’t even close to your league, and why you’re such a wreck now that you finally ditched him.” She looked up and saw the tears in Kim’s eyes. “…he broke up with you, didn’t he?”
“Not exactly.” Kim suddenly realized it would be nice to talk to someone about this. She wasn’t ready to talk to her family or Monique yet, and none of her friends at school actually knew Ron. And they were always used to her being upbeat and happy…she had no idea how they would handle something this serious. So Shego really wasn’t a bad choice. She started talking, keeping her eyes trained on her bedspread.
“He went to college in Japan. There was this really good culinary school, and there was a place nearby where he could keep training his monkey powers, and he was so excited to go. I knew I’d miss him, but it just seemed so perfect for him. So I stayed here and he went to Japan and I tried so hard. I mean, I texted him all the time, we had weekly video calls, I visited him whenever I could. He still came on missions sometimes.” Kim was crying at this point. “It seemed like everything was going so well, you know? He loved the school and he always seemed so happy. For almost four years, I thought we were so happy. And he just…” Kim broke down sobbing. This was her first time saying it out loud, and it hurt so much. Strangely, Shego didn’t mock her, just sat and watched silently. When she stopped crying, Shego handed her the box of tissues that had been next to the bed. “I got a text that was supposed to go to someone else. It had her name, and…he was my best friend for so long, and now…They’ve been together for two and a half years and he never told me. He wasn’t even going to tell me now, he just…messed up I guess. Texted the wrong person.” She finally looked up at Shego. “And that was two hours before I got the call about you and Drakken.”
“Well, that explains why you couldn’t fight at least.”
Kim was stunned. “That’s it? You’re the only person I’ve told about this, and that’s all you have to say?”
Shego shrugged. “What’s there to say? The buffoon was obviously an asshole as well as an idiot. I mean, he’s dating a girl like you and he thought your feelings weren’t worth a damn. You don’t need someone like that in your life, Princess. But I never understood why you stuck with him in the first place. You could do so much better.”
“Do you have any suggestions? For people who are better?” Kim was shocked by the words that had come out of her mouth, but she refused to take them back.
Shego laughed. “I don’t do guys, Pumpkin. If you’re looking to try the other side, I could probably come up with some names, but with guys you’re all on your own.”
Kim thought about this for a minute but couldn’t think of anything to say. So she said, “Do you want to have a drink?”
Shego quickly discovered that Kim had an impressively low tolerance for alcohol. She was tipsy after one drink, and noticeably drunk by the end of her third. It wasn’t until her fifth drink that she asked, “What’s it like to have sex with a woman?”
“I’m not going to describe it for you, Kimmie. It’s good. What’s it like have sex with a man?” Kim’s face was already flushed from the alcohol, but it turned an even brighter shade of red. “You were with the buffoon for four years and you two never…Damn, he really is an idiot.”
“Huh?”
"Kimmie, you’re fucking hot. He had a free pass to fuck you anytime he wanted, and he spent his time making eyes at some girl in Japan instead. Hell, if I had the chance to fuck someone that looked like you…” Shego suddenly trailed off, realizing what she’d just said. She must have been more drunk than she realized.
“You want to have sex with me?” Kim whispered.
Shego shifted uncomfortably. “Well I wouldn’t exactly pass up on the opportunity if it came up.”
“And if I’m giving you an opportunity?”
Shego’s eyes glinted dangerously. “Then you’re too drunk to say it now. Same deal as before, I’ll come back tomorrow and you can tell me if you’re backing out. Catch ya later Kimmie.”
As she left, Kim replayed the conversation. Why the hell had she said any of that? She had quite literally asked Shego to have sex with her. Kim had always wanted her first time to be special, to be with someone she loved. Someone who was most definitely male and not evil. But then she remembered Shego’s warm thighs bracketing her hips, the way her heart sped up when she thought Shego was going to kiss her. She tried to imagine how Shego’s lips would feel against hers.
“Yep, I have officially lost it.”
–oOo–
On Friday morning, Kim was filled with nervous excitement. She was going to have sex with Shego. Tonight. As she made her way to her first class, she realized that this was the first time since the breakup that she’d felt something besides the horrible, aching sadness.
When she got home that night, Shego was already leaning against the wall of her bedroom. “So Kimmie, what’s it gonna be?”
Too late to back out now. “Yes.” The word was quiet, and Kim wouldn’t meet Shego’s eyes, but she knew the villainess heard her.
She stepped closer, put her hands on Kim’s waist, and whispered into her ear, “Are you sure about this?” Kim nodded, and Shego whispered, “That’s good, because I’ve been dying to fuck you Princess.” She kissed the spot behind her ear. “I promise I’ll make you feel good. I’ve gotten lots of compliments.”
“Why are you being nice, Shego?”
“For tonight, let’s just forget about the hero/villain stuff. Right now, I’m just a girl who’s going to fuck the living daylights out of you. How does that sound?”
Kim shivered at Shego’s words and nodded without hesitation, and Shego pressed her lips against Kim’s. They felt softer than she had expected, and more demanding. Shego wrapped one arm around Kim’s waist and put the other behind her head, pulling Kim’s mouth closer to hers. When she brushed her tongue across Kim’s lips, they parted without hesitation, and she groaned as Shego’s tongue moved against hers. The sensation of Shego lips on hers made her feel lightheaded, and she wrapped her arms around the other woman’s shoulders to steady herself. Shego pulled her even closer, until their bodies were flush against each other. Shego’s breasts pressed against hers and their hips pushed together, and Kim felt heat pooling in her stomach.
It had never felt like this when she kissed Ron. Not at prom, not flying in her car after graduation, not sitting in his bed as he hesitantly touched her chest. She wondered if he was kissing Yori, if he was touching her, if they were laying in his bed doing what she was about to do right now, with Shego.
Shego broke the kiss to take a breath and nipped at Kim’s lower lip as she pulled away. When Shego leaned in to kiss her again, she pressed eagerly into her mouth, holding the older woman tight against her. In that moment, she didn’t care what Ron was doing. Any lingering doubts vanished. She wanted this. She wanted this. She wanted this. She pulled back with a gasp and looked at Shego. “I want you.”
The look in Shego’s eyes made Kim shiver. “Get on the bed Kimmie.”
Unsure of what to do, she sat back against headboard. With a growl, Shego pulled her forward and kissed her again, more aggressive than before. Kim felt like her head was spinning as Shego pushed her onto her back and crawled on top of her, still kissing her. When Kim ran out of breath, Shego started kissing down the side of her neck. Kim tilted her head to give her more space, and moaned as she felt Shego’s hands sliding under her shirt and across her stomach. She trailed her hands up Kim’s torso, pushing her shirt with her, and Kim lifted her arms to let Shego remove it. She suddenly felt incredibly exposed, and resisted the urge to cross her arms over her chest. Before she could put any thought into it, Shego was there, kissing and licking the top of her chest, tracing patterns over her stomach, bringing one hand to touch Kim over her bra. Shego moved her mouth back to Kim’s ear and tugged on it gently with her teeth. As she slipped a hand into Kim’s bra and traced tight circles around her nipple, she whispered, “How are you feeling Kimmie?”
Kim couldn’t answer. Nothing that she had ever experienced came close to the feeling of Shego’s hand on her breast. Shego growled in frustration and burned Kim’s bra away before leaning down and sucking hard on one of Kim’s nipples, while her hand continued to tease at the other one. Kim cried out in pleasure and arched her back, pushing herself further into Shego’s mouth and hands. She felt more heat pooling in her stomach and lifted her hips, trying to chase…something. Trying to get more of whatever it was that Shego was giving her. Seeing this, Shego laughed and licked a path down Kim’s torso, still keeping one hand occupied with her breasts. Kim felt her stomach muscles tense under Shego’s touch, and experienced a strange thrill of anticipation when Shego roughly pulled her pants down her legs. Shego trailed her fingers up Kim’s calves and traced patterns on the inside of her thighs.
“Shego please,” Kim whined.
Shego hummed in acknowledgement and moved her fingers along the edges of Kim’s underwear, sliding her fingertips just underneath the waistband.
“Shego I need more, please, give me more.”
Kim moaned as Shego cupped her over her underwear, bucking her hips into the pressure, whining when Shego moved her hand away.
“Oh is that what you wanted Princess? All you had to do was ask.”
She traced patterns over Kim’s underwear, then leaned back to Kim’s ear and exhaled hotly onto it, eliciting another moan. “This is your last chance Cupcake. If you want me to stop, you have to say it now.”
Kim’s response was frantic and immediate. “No please don’t stop, god just keep going.”
Shego grinned and burned Kim’s underwear away as she had her bra. She ran a single finger over Kim’s slit, then slipped it inside. Kim had heard that this was supposed to hurt, but she didn’t feel any pain, just a pleasure more intense than anything so far. Shego began to move her finger in and out, and her thumb brushed over Kim’s clit, and the heat in her stomach boiled over.
She screamed as she was hit with intense pleasure. Just as she felt her heart rate start to slow, Shego lowered her mouth and Kim felt her tongue go inside. Still sensitive from her first orgasm, it didn’t take long for her to reach a second one. Shego sat up and kissed Kim, long and hard, letting her taste herself on the other woman’s tongue. Then she sat back and waited for Kim to recover.
“So Kimmie, are you gonna say something here, or are you just gonna stare at the ceiling for a little longer?”
That snapped Kim out of her daze. “That was…wow.”
“Yeah that’s real articulate Princess. You know any words with more than one syllable?”
Kim rolled her eyes. “It was incredible.” And she was way better than Ron would have been.
“Damn straight I was.” Kim realized she must have said that out loud. Which was strangely more embarrassing than the fact that she was sitting next to her archenemy, completely naked. “I’m offended that you’d even compare me to that buffoon.” She scoffed. “Probably just gets off and then leaves the girl to finish herself. You’re lucky you got me instead, Cupcake.” Kim nodded. She had been so worried about her first time being special but this…it didn’t matter that it was with Shego. It was more than she had ever imagined sex to be.
“Okay Kimmie, you just had sex for the first time. In your words, incredible sex. What the hell are you thinking about so hard right now?”
“Just that this made me forget about Ron for a little while.”
“Glad to wipe that look off your face then. Maybe you’ll actually be able to fight next time.”
Kim felt a slight twinge of something like disappointment. “So that’s it? You just wanted to come here, do this, and leave?”
“I told you Kimmie, you’re fucking hot. I wasn’t going to turn down a chance to fuck you. And it didn’t seem like you were complaining while I was doing it.” Kim’s face flushed. “Unless there’s something else you want, I’ll see you the next time Dr. D needs you to blow something up.”
Kim watched Shego stand up and walk through her bedroom door. She could think about this in the morning. For now, she just wanted to go to sleep and bask in this amazing feeling.
–oOo–
Kim slept in late on Saturday. It was a mistake since she had an exam on Tuesday, but since her life was already such a shit show, she decided she could put off studying for a little longer.
She had thought she was a mess when she found out that Ron cheated on her, but now it was even worse. She’d forgotten about her issues with Ron…by having sex with Shego. Insane, incredible sex — not that she had anything to compare it to — with her enemy. Even worse, she couldn’t talk to anyone about it. Even if she had told someone about Ron, there was no way she could explain this. She’d always thought of herself as straight, but would a straight girl have enjoyed that so much?
She shook her head to clear her thoughts, and ran through her current list of problems. I have a former best friend and ex-boyfriend who cheated on me for two and a half years. And my only distraction so far has been having sex with Shego. Who is evil. And a woman. So now I’m single, questioning my sexuality, can talk to no one, and I have a calc exam on Tuesday that I haven’t studied for.
Kim gathered her books and went to the library. The exam was definitely the easiest to fix.