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Part 1 of We Won (Or We Think We Did)
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Walk With Me/Try Again

Summary:

“Why are you here?” Jotaro asks quietly. It’s so direct that it makes Kakyoin pause. He had forgotten that Jotaro hated beating around the bush.

“I could ask you the same question,” Kakyoin scoffs. “I know how to board a bus and get to a hotel on my own, you patronizing-”

“When Jiji said they were sending someone else he seriously meant you?” Jotaro questions, seemingly more to himself than anyone else, considering how he hunches inward, voice so quiet it’s almost hard to hear over the waves.

Kakyoin blinks, the heat of anger pausing in his chest due to overwhelming shock at the pure audacity. Kakyoin blinks again, and the anger resumes, about 20 degrees hotter. “Excuse me?”

-

Part 4 AU where Kakyoin is alive but at a cost. As he figures out how to pay that cost, he tries to help wrangle the Morioh kids while also trying not to strangle Jotaro (it'd be nice if they could also learn how to communicate again too, but Kakyoin attempts to be realistic).

Notes:

hey all
while this is not the first thing I've ever written, this is the first thing I've ever shared publicly and I am very very very nervous......
however kakyoin has eroded my brain for uh (checks watch) 14ish months now so truly this was inevitable i think
anyway one last thing i'd like to note: i do have the whole fic planned and i have the first four chapters done. I'm gonna post the first four on a weekly basis but i can't promise a schedule for the rest cause i simply do not trust myself-
BUT i do plan on finishing this thing so just give me some patience....
anyway thank u for clicking i hope u enjoy (":

(See the end of the work for other works inspired by this one.)

Chapter Text

The scratch of a sudsy sponge against a plate crusted with sauce crackles in Kakyoin’s ears. He grimaces, a shudder of disgust running through his shoulders, before remembering he’s supposed to be listening to whatever Joseph is saying to him on the other side of the phone.

Lightly rolling his shoulder in a vain attempt to adjust the hold of the house phone that’s pinned to his ear, Kakyoin scowls at the plate in his hands. Seriously, his roommate is such a slob…

Couldn’t he have at least rinsed this thing when he was done? Kakyoin sourly questions, wrinkling his nose. He scrubs the plate a little harder, the flakes of sauce giving way under the sponge’s ministrations.

“-So, I already felt bad,” Joseph croaks into the phone, and Kakyoin blinks, remembering he was in a conversation.

“Right,” Kakyoin says absent-mindedly as he leans down to slide the clean-enough plate into the dishwasher. He hisses a sharp breath as his spine creaks in protest, warning tingles of pain spreading up from the small of his back.

He straightens slowly, wary of if jumping back up to a straight position would just make it hurt worse. No new flashes of pain emerge as he straightens, but the dull ache that’s always present remains.

Kakyoin sighs before turning back to the sink, eyes narrowing at the last remaining bowl sitting in the basin.

“He’s a good kid…I know that much. I really wish I had been there for him,” Joseph sighs into the phone. Kakyoin avoids rolling his eyes at the self-pity. Did Joseph really need to call him about this?

He feels a flash of guilt over the thought, though; of course he does. He can’t really talk to anyone else, after all; his wife certainly won’t hear his woes over his illegitimate son, Polnareff is off somewhere in the Mediterranean last Kakyoin heard, Avdol is entrenched in all the work that comes with being the head of the Speedwagon Foundation’s stand department, and Jotaro…

Kakyoin’s lip picks up into a snarl unrelated to the disgusting bowl he’s cleaning, this time the dish dirtied with dried ice cream -- or was it gelato? Kakyoin can’t remember which one his roommate prefers -- rather than sauce.

He sighs but gets to work. As much of a pain as it is, Kakyoin is the most available set of ears for Joseph to chat to in terms of workload and willingness…even if he’s a good chunk of the world away in Greece.

“Apparently he’s taken to the news of me being his dad fairly well,” Joseph says, his voice shining with something a little lighter in pitch than the soft, sad wheeze it had been.

“Oh?” Kakyoin questions just to be polite, gritting his teeth as the bowl slips from his soapy hands into the warm water of the sink.

Kakyoin avoids growling audibly and instead brings his arm to his face, clenching his teeth around the fabric of his sleeve and jerking the cloth up to keep it from getting soaked.

Kakyoin then sends the hand into the sudsy depths, eyes narrowing as he tries to find the bowl again.

“Yeah…” Joseph sighs, the sound surprisingly not pitiful. Kakyoin would almost call it proud, but Joseph doesn’t know his son enough to feel pride over him. “He’s really adaptable, it seems. But it makes sense; apparently, he has a stand too…”

Kakyoin blinks.

“Does he?” Kakyoin adjusts his hold on the phone with another roll of his shoulder, pinning it more comfortably to his ear, setting his elbows against the sink’s basin.

“Yeah,” Joseph’s croaky phone replies. “Calls him…Crazy Diamond, I think?”

Kakyoin hums. Crazy Diamond… “That’s a nice name for a stand. Do you know what it does?”

Joseph sighs. “I…I know I was told, but I…I don’t…” He trails off.

Kakyoin allows him the moment to try and dig through his memories, a small seed of concern planting itself in the soil of his chest the longer Joseph stays silent.

“It’s okay, you don’t have to-”

Joseph snaps his fingers, the phone just picking up the sound over the static of long-distance. “Oh! That’s right! He can fix anything. Just a touch and things revert to their original state – even people!”

Kakyion blinks, becoming conscious of the dull ache in his back again, the nerves rolling under wave after wave of discomfort. His fingers lose grip of the sponge, hands falling lax into the warm dishwater. “Must be nice,” Kakyoin murmurs.

Joseph hums. “Yeah…”

They both stay silent for a moment.

“Oh, sorry, I got off-track,” Joseph’s creaky voice comes through the phone. Kakyoin huffs out a breath quietly before reaching down into the depths of the warm, soapy dishwater to grab the sponge again.

“He’s a good kid, is what I mean,” Joseph backtracks. Kakyoin hums as he grabs hold of the bowl again, gently fishing it out of the sink, water sloshing as he pulls it out. Kakyoin blinks at it; it seems the soak in the water did it well, as most of the ice cream stains are gone, now.

Swiping around the rim of the bowl with the dripping sponge, Kakyoin tunes back into Joseph’s venting.

“Basically, I already felt bad about not being there…but now his grandfather is dead too. His funeral was yesterday…or what it the day before? Japan is pretty far ahead of New York’s time zone…” Joseph rambles in a soft, breathy tone that comes out creaky from a throat worn out after a lifetime of use.

Kakyoin’s brow furrows, absent-mindedly setting the bowl on the counter rather than risk bending to put it in the dishwasher again.

“Poor kid…” Kakyoin murmurs, bracing his elbows against the brim of the sink again before leaning his weight on them. “That’s a lot of changes in a short period of time. Didn’t he also just start his first year of high school?”

Joseph sighs, a burst of static coming through the phone’s speakers. “Yeah. I feel so bad…he shouldn’t have gotten caught up in stand business…”

Kakyoin blinks, fingers curling against his palms. “Wait, what? What stand business?”

Joseph sighs again. “Well, when the news about Josuke came out, I used Hermit Purple to get a spirit photo, if just to check in on him…but I saw- I saw…something concerning.”

Kakyoin huffs out a breath; he already knew this part, but… “Okay…”

“So, that was part of why I sent Jotaro to Morioh to meet Josuke in my stead…he was also sent to take care of any trouble.”

Anger is a strange emotion. It usually burns, usually starts from the stomach as a glorious wildfire before using one’s blood as a trail of gasoline; but this time, Kakyoin feels it start as a slow, lukewarm infestation in his chest, spreading to his stomach, down to his legs, up to his arms. It moves along more with his breathing than his heart pumping. He shivers, teeth clenching.

“What does that have to do with Josuke’s grandfather dying?” He asks, getting an idea of where this was going, but needing confirmation anyway.

“Oh,” Joseph’s voice sounds so sad, so weak, the old, crinkled texture of his tone more pronounced, and it only makes something pop in Kakyoin’s stomach, makes the anger spread faster, up to his neck, rushing past his ears. “Well, I guess Hermit Purple gave me a warning rather than a picture of Josuke himself because Josuke’s family was…is in danger.”

Kakyoin inhales slowly. “Okay, right, and wasn’t…”

His face twists into a scowl, but he tries to reign in his temper at least audibly as he says, “Wasn’t…your grandson supposed to stop that?” His voice comes out flat.

Joseph hums before he sighs. “Yes, but I guess he wasn’t fast enough…when he called earlier, he said the stand user got the jump on Josuke-”

“And why wasn’t he there himself? Wasn’t that the whole point of sending him?” Kakyoin seethes into the phone, bordering on a growl.

“Kakyoin,” Joseph warns. Kakyoin huffs and says nothing, grinding his teeth together. “…But yes, it was. Though Jotaro was right outside when it happened. He wasn’t slacking…just…” Joseph lets out a long sigh, and Kakyoin almost feels bad for letting his anger blind him to his old friend’s grief. “Oh, my poor boy, Josuke…he really is a Joestar, unfortunately, huh?”

Kakyoin hums some sort of response, but static that has nothing to do with the poor connection of the phone is starting to fill Kakyoin’s ears.

His fists clench in the water of the sink, and Kakyoin angrily jerks a hand out to pull the plug on the water, staring at his soapy reflection as the water drains. He has bags under his eyes. His brows are furrowed, the shadows around his mouth rather pronounced with how deep his frown is.

“I feel so bad…I want more than anything to check on himself myself, but-” Joseph sighs, and he sounds his age, all 79 years packed into a single sound, “but…traveling is hard for me. I wouldn’t be able to get there for a few weeks…”

Kakyoin hums, sympathetic, leaning against the phone next to his ear. “I’m sorry, Mr. Joestar,” he says, voice soft despite the lukewarm anger in his veins slowly heating up, minute by minute, like a pot setting to boil.

Joseph hums. “…This is part of why I called you, tonight.”

Kakyoin nods. “Yeah, I can guess. It makes sense you’d want to talk about this kind of st-”

“It wasn’t just to talk,” Joseph interjects, voice firmer and so much more like the old man Kakyoin knew ten years ago that it makes Kakyoin almost freeze. “I…I have a favor I want to ask of you.”

Kakyoin pauses, ribbons of surprise dancing in his chest. “Oh. Yes, of course, what is it?”

“I trust my grandson,” Joseph starts, voice still firm, but cracks breaking it apart from the illusion of his younger self, “but I- I just- I worry. Jotaro is there to focus on stands now that he’s met Josuke in my stead. So I…”

Joseph sighs and Kakyoin hums in encouragement.

“I know…I know you’re planning on going for your doctorate soon,” Joseph says, and understanding slams into Kakyoin, briefly washing away traces of the anger that had climbed him from head to toe, “but I also know you haven’t actually started yet…and it would only be until the stand business is taken care of, which shouldn’t be too long, I don’t think. Just…I’m asking if can you go to Morioh and watch over Josuke?”

Kakyoin doesn’t respond for a moment, surprise still weaving around his heart, but honor at being trusted with something so important blooming in his stomach, the petals of it almost tickling him from the inside out.

“Kakyoin?” Joseph questions and Kakyoin takes a breath.

“Mr. Joestar…are you sure? Don’t get me wrong, I’d be honored you’d entrust your son to me, but-”

“I’m sure,” Joseph affirms, “You’re a capable young man, Kakyoin. And I remember how good you were with the baby on our trip!”

Kakyoin freezes then, flashes of Death 13 and the morning following his defeat zipping through his mind, and he has to bite his tongue to avoid chuckling in disbelief.

“So you’re not bad with kids either. I know…it’s a lot to ask, but-”

“I’ll do it,” Kakyoin interrupts, fingers flexing. “I’m honored that you’d ask me. And beyond that, your grandson clearly can’t manage to do his job right on his own. Your son also means a lot to you, even if you haven’t met him…so I’d just hate for something to happen to him before you do.”

Joseph is quiet for a moment. Kakyoin’s heart is beating, and he’s not sure if it’s out of apprehension or the return of the slowly, but surely, warming anger in his system at the mention of Jotaro.

“You’re sure?” Joseph asks, tone heightening in hope, and Kakyoin knows he couldn’t say no now.

He lets out a breath. “Yes, I’m sure. Your grandson doesn’t seem to prioritize Josuke’s safety, so I will.”

Joseph hums softly at that. “You two should really talk.”

Kakyoin barks out a sardonic laugh. “You should really give that lecture to him then.”

Joseph is silent for a beat, before saying, “Okay…if you’re sure you don’t mind. I just…want to ensure he’s safe, is all.”

Kakyoin breathes out slowly. “Of course I don’t mind. He sounds like a good kid.”

“He really does…” Joseph murmurs, before clearing his throat. “Alright. Thank you, Kakyoin. Let me know if you need anything while you’re over there, okay?”

Kakyoin laughs, the sound as plastic as the phone against his ear. “I will.”

“Okay…thank you, again Kakyoin. You’re always such a good listener, and now this?” Joseph says.

Kakyoin bites back any flash of guilt over the listener part – he’s let Joseph rant, of course, but he only has the peace of mind to actually listen only half the time at most – and says, “…It’s the least I can do.”

Joseph hums, his voice as creaky as an aged deck’s floorboards. “…I’ll call the Speedwagon Foundation, then.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Wh- huh? You don’t have to-”

“I want to,” Joseph says firmly. Kakyoin closes his mouth. “Besides, their sea fare is the quickest and more comfortable in the world. If you’re going to Japan on my behalf, it’s the least I can do.”

“…You don’t need to expend resources on something I’m already willing to do,” Kakyoin counters quietly.

Joseph chuckles. “Of course not. But the Speedwagon Foundation would be more comfortable with more of their people on the ground in Morioh anyway, and they also have a soft spot for me.”

Kakyoin can hear the wink in the last part of Joseph’s sentence, and it startles a laugh out of him. “Nepotism isn’t something to brag about, Mr. Joestar.”

“It’s not technically nepotism,” Joseph counters. “I was never a blood relative of Robert E. O. Speedwagon.”

Kakyoin snorts, leaning onto his elbows to give his feet a break, something his back murmurs about as he’s moving, before quieting down as he settles. “Okay, Mr. Joestar, whatever you say. Definitely not a point of interest that you have the definition of nepotism memorized.”

Anyway, ” Joseph huffs, and Kakyoin snickers again, something in his chest loosening. “I’ll call the Speedwagon Foundation. Great accommodations, you know? Just take it as a recommendation from an old man.”

Kakyoin stays quiet, chewing on his tongue.

“Avdol would funnel you cash once he finds out you’re headed there to help with the stand situation anyway,” Joseph comments, and Kakyoin exhales, “so it’s either now or later when you’d eventually get some SPW support. Might as well have a pleasant trip in that case, right?”

“…Fine,” Kakyoin grumbles.

“Great,” Joseph’s creaky voice says. He sounds smug; Kakyoin can just imagine the smirk on his face and the set of his sky-blue eyes. “I’ll call them once we’re done, then. They do work fast though, so you’ll probably be shipped out tomorrow…”

“That’s fine,” Kakyoin says, ignoring the ache in the shoulder that’s been holding the phone to his ear for a while now as it also strains to hold his weight. “It’s not like I’m doing anything here for myself anyway.”

Joseph hums. “Okay, then. Call me when you wake up and I’ll let you know where you need to be and when for pick up.”

Kakyoin huffs but nods before saying, “Yeah, okay.”

Silence settles between the connection as both Kakyoin and Joseph wait for - something. Kakyoin doesn’t know what, exactly.

“…Jotaro may be- surprised, to see you,” Joseph starts cautiously, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes.

“Yeah, I’m sure,” He snorts sardonically.

“Ka-” Joseph starts, his voice sad, but Kakyoin interrupts him.

“So, it’s a good thing I’m there for you and not him then, huh?”

Joseph goes silent again. Kakyoin’s hand squeezes and releases from a fist once, twice, his fingernails digging into his palms, the muscles shaking with the pressure before relaxing, over and over.

Joseph finally sighs, the sound loud enough to lead to a burst of static. Kakyoin grimaces at the noise.

“Just…try and be nice,” Joseph says. Kakyoin chuckles once, twice, before erupting into a series of snickers. He can hear the disapproving expression Joseph must have on his face, but Kakyoin doesn’t care. Joseph certainly can’t judge him over anything, given current circumstances.

“If it helps you sleep at night, I doubt he’ll even come near me. So long as he leaves me alone, I’ll treat him with the same courtesy.” Kakyoin eventually manages to stop the snickers long enough to say, his voice colored in dry amusement.

Joseph sighs into the phone. Kakyoin feels a flair of anger, one vicious strand of white-hot stretching across his chest before it fades.

“I guess…that’ll have to do,” Joseph says. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow.

“In your own words, I’m there for your son, Joseph,” Kakyoin says lowly. “If anything gets in the way of that main objective, I have no problems moving them back out of it.”

Joseph is silent for another moment. Kakyoin focuses on keeping his breathing calm, conscious of the rise and fall of his chest. Unfortunately, making himself aware of his body brings forth a spike of pain in his back, and Kakyoin scowls.

“Okay,” Joseph finally gives in. “…Thank you again, Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin breathes out slowly. “It’s nothing. He’s your son, he’s a standuser, I’d get to go back to Japan…it’s not asking a lot, from me.”

“Kakyoin…” Joseph trails off, and Kakyoin feels a sense of fondness in-between the annoyance.

“I’m serious. You’re my friend. Friends do favors for one another,” he says.

“You’re a good kid, Noriaki.”

Kakyoin stills.

Neither of them says anything for a moment; the only sounds are the crackle of the phone connection, and the crickets Kakyoin can hear outside.

The silence stretches for only a beat before Kakyoin says, “I’ll call you when I wake up.”

“…Okay. Stay safe, Kakyoin.” Joseph’s voice crackles through the speakers again.

“You too,” Kakyoin says quietly. There’s a pause, but then there is the click indicative of the other line hanging up.

Kakyoin presses his lips into a thin line, eyes narrowing at the sink before he breathes out and hangs up himself, then places the phone onto the counter.

Kakyoin rolls his shoulders, his mouth creeping downward into a grimace when the motion makes the base of his spine ache, pain traveling in a sluggish wave. Kakyoin sighs before reaching over to grab the bowl he had placed onto the counter, pivoting to slide it into the dishwasher, too wary to simply twist his waist.

Kakyoin crouches to place the bowl into the tray, but his back protests like he had bent over anyway. Kakyoin grits his teeth as pain rushes from the spot, wailing softly into his ears, the cries ringing.

Kakyoin focuses instead on bringing the dishwasher door closed with him as he slowly stands back up again, his back crying out at every movement it’s forced to make.

Kakyoin just exhales through his nose, before clicking the dishwasher door into place.

Tapping at the controls, Kakyoin sets it to run a wash cycle, then turns back to the sink when the machinery kicks up, the synchronous sound of controlled water and soap washing over dishes overlaying Kakyoin’s ears. It makes it easier to ignore the cries of his back.

Kakyoin grabs a paper towel and dries his hands, before glancing at the trashcan in the corner of the room.

It’s only a few steps away.

Kakyoin takes one hesitant step, his walk slow like a deer creeping through uncertain territory. His back, while still hurting, doesn’t flare up in any particular pain. Kakyoin breathes out before taking another step.

As his heel connects with the worn tiled floor of the kitchen, sensation rockets up the back of his leg, getting caught in the tangled mess of nerves his lower back is now. His back cries in pain, fire seeming to spread across his waist, and Kakyoin sucks in a breath, eyes narrowing as he focuses on the trashcan.

Kakyoin tunes back into the dishwasher. The water is audibly being swirled around the dishes, sounding almost like rain, but with a trickle more similar to a stream. It’s cool in comparison to the fire of his back and Kakyoin clings to it.

Sighing, Kakyoin calls forth Hierophant, a tentacle appearing and gently wrapping around the rolled-up towel in Kakyoin’s hands. His stand’s skin is smooth with a waxy texture, and always cool to the touch; it’s another thing he clings to in addition to the audio of the dishwasher.

Watching as Hierophant tosses the rolled-up paper towel into the bin, Kakyoin can’t help the relief he feels when it goes in instead of bouncing off the rim. His face still sours at the notion, though. What a silly thing to be relieved about.

“Thanks,” He mutters, and Hierophant’s tentacle just waves before dissipating again.

Turning back to the sink, Kakyoin retreats the two steps to grab the phone again. His back grumbles with each thud of his foot against the floor, each adjustment between his hips, but Kakyoin refuses to dignify it with any attention. His back cries anyway.

Kakyoin buries his face in his hands and takes a long, long breath, his lungs stretching, the muscles tensing in appreciation. Kakyoin holds it for a moment just to keep the stretch going for longer, before he breathes out, the air getting caught in his cupped hands and warming his face.

Kakyoin stands there for a moment, very still, before he moves away from his hands and grabs the phone again.

Kakyoin drags his feet back over to the phone holder, glancing at the time the digital clock on it reads.

11 P.M…

Kakyoin exhales slowly. Time for his meds, as if his back wasn’t reminding him enough.

Shuffling to the transition of kitchen-to-hallway, Kakyoin grabs the crutches he left leaning against the wall.

Slotting his arms through the bracers haphazardly, Kakyoin hikes down the hall to the bathroom.

The metallic creaks of the crutches as they take and give Kakyoin’s weight is the only sound echoing in Kakyoin’s head other than the audible rush of blood throughout his system. His chest is cool in excitement – it’s been a while since he’s been to Japan – but his belly is stewing in something hotter, something that spills down to his legs and lets him ignore how tired they are. It’s confusing.

Kakyoin blinks as the door of the bathroom creaks while he shoulders past it. He shakes his head, his bangs brushing his forehead as he does. It almost tickles. He lifts one hand and flicks on the light, yellow overlaying his vision while he knocks the door closed with the end of one of his crutches.

Sighing, Kakyoin slips his arms out of the crutches and grips the bathroom counter. His hips are starting to hurt too, now. Great…

Gaze focused down on the gleaming silver of the sink, Kakyoin ignores the way his temples whine over staring at something so bright and shiny as he raises one hand to the bathroom cabinet, prying it open. He sees the flicker of movement in his peripheral, but he ignores the reflex to glance up at the mirror.

Pointedly directing his gaze to the cabinet, Kakyoin eyes the wall of medicine staring back at him. Everything from over-the-counter stomachache relievers to prescription painkillers Kakyoin could probably get arrested just for possessing if he had no medical reason for them all adorn the three thin shelves. Orange and white plastic bottles have been crammed together to make up for the lack of space, pill packets set on top of them.

Kakyoin sighs, braces one hand against the counter, and reaches up with the other. He’s leaning more over the sink onto his arm than he is on his legs. His bicep burns the slightest bit due to hefting most of his weight, but Kakyoin has come to enjoy the strain throughout the years.

Snatching his painkillers, Kakyoin hesitates for only a moment before placing the bottle down on the counter and reaching back up for a bottle of sleep aids.

Huffing, Kakyoin eases back on the arm he was bracing himself with and pops open the caps of the bottles. Snatching the sleep aid bottle first, Kakyoin shakes a couple of pills into his palm. Then, picking up the painkillers, Kakyoin pauses for a moment.

He shakes two pills into his hand but keeps the bottle tipped, considering.

Kakyoin stares at the reflection of the bathroom light glinting off the rim of the orange plastic. He stares at the small, oval-shaped pills in his hands. They’re smaller than his pinkie finger. His back twinges. Kakyoin’s eye twitches.

He shakes two more pills into his hand, thumb covering the instructions on the wrapper around the bottle.

Kakyoin quickly shoves his palm to his mouth, swallowing the pills down before he has time to backtrack.

Wincing at the feel of the pills sticking to his throat in their attempt to slide down without the aid of a drink, Kakyoin swallows repeatedly to help them along, putting the caps back on the pill bottles again.

Bracing one hand against the counter once more, Kakyoin shoves the bottles back into place in the cabinet. A couple of others fall from the harsh treatment, the shelves not wide enough to accommodate such force.

“For fuck’s sake,” Kakyoin mutters, jerkily snatching up the loose bottles before they roll off the counter – the absolute last thing he needs right now is to get onto his knees on a bathroom floor – and placing them back into the cabinet, motions gentler but seething.

Kakyoin shuts the cabinet door and collapses to his elbows on the bathroom counter, legs bent the slightest bit underneath him.

Kakyoin sighs, the sound coming out broken from the rocks of his throat before he blows a strand of hair away from his face.

He should brush his teeth, while he’s here.

Kakyoin glances up and catches his reflection. It’s much like the reflection he saw in the soapy water earlier; bags hang from his eyes like bats off a cave wall. His forehead shines just the slightest bit from sweat. His brows are furrowed. His hair makes him look like he’s on fire.

Kakyoin’s teeth clench and he hoists himself back onto his legs, letting out a heavy breath at the swift lift.

Ignoring how he can feel his face twisting into another scowl, Kakyoin snatches his crutches, slipping his arms into the bracers once more.

Kakyoin turns quickly from the mirror to the door, jerking out a hand to twist the knob with a turn of his wrist. The door opens, but Kakyoin’s hasty movements cause his crutch to bump into the door, closing it again.

Dammit-” Teeth bared in a full snarl now, Kakyoin retreats his hand, tightening his fist around the grip of his crutch with such force that his knuckles are white.

Hierophant’s tentacle appears at Kakyoin’s silent command, reaching out from him to twist around the doorknob instead, yanking it open.

Kakyoin nudges the door further with his foot before storming out into the hall, walking the few steps from the bathroom to his bedroom quietly, save for the soft creaks of his crutches. The sound echoes in his head, bouncing off the walls of his skull, drilling into his brain, just like the fleshbud once did.

All the ice of excitement in Kakyoin’s blood is now melted into something warmer, something thicker, and it’s almost suffocating. Kakyoin feels like he’s breathing in sulfuric gas. Kakyoin feels like it’s coming from himself.

Once again using Hierophant to twist the knob, Kakyoin gently kicks open his door, the hinges creaking softly in protest as it swings inside the room. Kakyoin rushes himself inside and closes the door with the butt of one of his crutches.

He sighs, his lung slowly deflating with the exhale. It helps to make the wildfire in his veins feel a little less stifling.

Kakyoin rests his head back against the door, adjusting his weight to be held solely by his crutches rather than his legs.

He takes in a deep breath, holding it in his lungs if only to feel the stretch of the organ again. He is alive, and damn does it hurt.

Adjusting his weight to lean against the door and one crutch, Kakyoin lifts one arm and wipes the thin sheen on sweat on his forehead, sighing as he does so. Gross…

Kakyoin drops his arm, hand finding its place on the grip of his crutch again. It’s clammy with sweat. Kakyoin rolls his eyes before hoisting himself back up.

Letting out a sigh, Kakyoin walks the few steps to his bed, nudging aside a couple of articles of dirty clothes that didn’t make it to the hamper. He sits down on his bed gingerly, the springs creaking under his weight. His back does appreciate being able to sit fully down, at least. The painkillers might a factor in that though.

Kakyoin sighs. Whatever the case may be, he’s just glad the cries of it have shut up a little.

He glances at the alarm clock on his bedside table. Bright, neon green letters read back 11:23 P.M. Kakyoin sighs again.

He lays down on the bed, keeping his legs swung over the side. He stares at the plain white ceiling of his room. White like his painkillers. White like the hospitals he’s been in and out of for ten years.

Kakyoin closes his eyes.

He figures he’ll pack in the morning.


The small Speedwagon Foundation cruiser slows as it nears port, which makes the rocking of the waves against the vessel more noticeable. Kakyoin is sitting in the tiny cabin, the plush seats colored a soft, bright red. It contrasts against the dark wood of the deck nicely, in Kakyoin’s opinion.

The crew of the ship moves about outside to prepare for docking, calling to each other both to banter and to give orders and confirmations. Kakyoin can’t make out any specifics, though. Boats have never been his specialty, at least not the logistics of sailing one.

Kakyoin’s crutches lay on the long bench beside him – the only bench that’s able to squeeze into the cabin. It wraps around three of the four walls of the room, with a small table in the center. Kakyoin sits facing the door – theoretically, he could look out the windows to see the shore inch closer, but he stays staring at his undrunk cup of green tea.

It stopped steaming a while ago. It’s probably cold by now, Kakyoin figures. He still stares at it as if he’s considering drinking it any moment now.

His fingers flex and relax incrementally in his lap. Kakyoin isn’t sure if he’s tired or alarmed.

There’s a knock on the cabin door.

Kakyoin blinks before he pushes his sunglasses back up the bridge of his nose. “Uh- come in.”

The captain pushes through the door, nodding his head in polite greeting toward Kakyoin. “Good afternoon, Mr. Kakyoin. We’ve almost arrived in Morioh Port – it will only be another ten minutes or so until docking.”

Kakyoin nods. “Yes, thank you.”

The captain tips his hat and Kakyoin huffs out a chuckle. “It’s not a problem, Mr. Kakyoin. Anything for a friend of Mr. Joestar’s.”

Kakyoin hums, dropping his gaze back down to his tea.

“Good luck,” the captain says abruptly. Kakyoin looks up, eyes narrowing.

“Huh?”

The captain chuckles bashfully. “Just- good luck. Joestar business is usually…messy business. So, good luck.”

Kakyoin laughs, the sound ringing in the small quarters. “Ah, yes, I guess that’s true. Thanks.”

The captain tips his hat again. “Yeah. Some of the boys will help with your luggage once we doc-”

“Ah, that’s okay,” Kakyoin interrupts, voice a little too cheery. “I don’t have much, and what I do have, I can handle myself.”

The captain eyes him, and Kakyoin huffs before summoning Hierophant’s tentacles, stretching them over to the corner where Kakyoin shoved his duffle bag when he first boarded. Hierophant dutifully hoists the bag into the air and brings it over to sit on the opposite side of Kakyoin from his crutches.

The captain jumps as the bag seems to float all on its own to Kakyoin before he laughs bashfully. “Right! Standuser. Okay then, if you’re sure,”

Kakyoin nods.

The captain tips his hat one more time before leaving. Kakyoin rolls his eyes.

“Even if I wasn’t a standuser, I could handle one damn duffle bag…” Kakyoin grumbles under his breath. Hierophant pats his knee with a tentacle placatingly. Kakyoin retrieves the stand back into himself.

He sighs, leaning against the back of the bench, his head lightly thunking against the window behind him. Ten minutes, then. Ten minutes to figure out what to say…

When Kakyoin called him the next morning, Joseph had given him a rundown of the current situation in Morioh and a warning that the Speedwagon Foundation had told Jotaro another standuser was on the way.

“I don’t think they mentioned it was you, just that another pair of hands was coming in to help on my behalf,” Joseph had said, voice a little anxious. “So, Jotaro will be waiting for you when you dock.”

Joseph probably was worried that Kakyoin would blow up at that news – which he supposes he can’t blame the old man for. However, he didn’t throw a fit.

Truthfully, he just felt numb over the prospect of seeing Jotaro again. He’s sure that’d change once he saw his face, but right now, he only mildly dreaded it. What would he say? What could he say?

He might not have to say anything. It might only take Jotaro getting one look at Kakyoin walking off the ship with crutches before he turns away with a disgusted sneer. Kakyoin isn’t sure what he would do if that happened. He’s not sure if he hopes for that, or something else.

Kakyoin chuckles at himself before burying his face into his hands, sighing.

Even after everything, he still wasn’t sure what he wanted from Jotaro. He really was pathetic.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, holding it in his lungs, the muscles in his chest thrumming cheerfully at the stretch, before he sits back up, lowering his hands back down to his lap. Now wasn’t the time to get self-deprecating, at least. He’s sure Jotaro will do enough of that for him, verbally or otherwise.

Kakyoin glances at the crutches at his side. He wasn’t going to be able to rely on them forever – the change in elevation from Greece to Japan alone would probably cause his body to be confused for a few days, prompting need for his wheelchair. But having Jotaro see him like that…

Kakyoin runs a hand through his hair, forcefully tugging his fingers through the strands of his long bang. Some hairs pull loose from his low ponytail as a result. Kakyoin grimaces, teeth clenched behind his lips.

He’ll think I’m weak anyway. It doesn’t matter if I’m using the crutches or the wheelchair.

The churning in his stomach doesn’t ease despite this. Kakyoin rolls his eyes at his own body’s dramatics.

The ship docks minutes later, just as the captain had predicted. He pokes his head into the cabin to inform Kakyoin, but he had already picked up on the change, considering he could see the docks just outside the window and could hear the crew calling to each other as they tied and anchored the ship down.

“Mr. Ka- Oh! I see you’re already rearing to go!”

Kakyoin hums some sort of response as he stands, the handgrip of the duffle bag slung onto the grip of one of his crutches, Kakyoin securing it by wrapping his hand around it. “Sure am.”

The captain laughs again. “Well, Mr. Jotaro is waiting for you just onshore. Good luck with your mission!”

Kakyoin grimaces, his bottom lip wanting to fall down into a frown, but his top lip wanting to pull back into a sneer. “Great. Thanks.” He says flatly.

The captain laughs nervously, before leaving Kakyoin to be. He feels a little bad over the rough dismissal, but he’s more focused on preparing himself for whatever Jotaro will – or won’t – say.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, holding it in his lungs before he makes his way out the cabin door. His steps are careful, precise; just because they’re docked now doesn’t mean the waves stopped rocking the boat, and there’s a fairly large step from the cabin door to the deck. The last thing Kakyoin wants is to fall on his face in front of Jotaro…

Kakyoin keeps his gaze trained on the ground. The less he has to see, the better. He just needs to make it to the Morioh Grand Hotel in one piece, preferably with his dignity intact.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” he can distantly hear a crewmate call, “the ramp off is just over here.”

Kakyoin nods. He feels freezing yet overheated at the same time. He musses with the sleeve of his cardigan on the bracer of his crutch while fingering his scarf with the other hand for a moment, before he continues the march off the boat, following the crewmate’s direction.

The creak of his crutches is the only sound Kakyoin can hear in addition to the gentle wash of the waves against the shore and ship. The sounds complement each other, strangely; both are soft and subtle, despite one being manmade and the other being natural. Kakyoin steps off the ramp.

At the top of his peripheral, he can see desaturated blue shoes. Kakyoin swallows. He can’t keep his tail tucked now.

Taking a deep breath, Kakyoin looks up.

An ocean surrounded by a field of snow. Jotaro’s sea-blue eyes are dreary, overcast, a storm-warning, his white coat and matching pants adding to the cold weather allure.

His eyes are weighed down by bags. His eyes are trained on Kakyoin’s face. His eyes are widened just so, just enough for Kakyoin to pick up on it like he used to. Kakyoin’s fingers twitch on the grip on his crutch.

“…Kujo,” Kakyoin finally says. His voice isn’t croaky, thank fuck. He tightens his grip on his crutches so his hands stop shaking.

Jotaro just stares at him. Kakyoin feels like bugs are crawling underneath his skin, scuttling over each other and scratching his tissues in their search for food. Maybe Kakyoin is the food. His eye twitches.

Kakyoin lets another beat pass in silence before he continues with, “Well, I need to drop off my luggage, so…”

There. A clear dismissal. They won’t need to talk anymore, at least for now. Kakyoin still feels too hot and too cold at the same time, the sweat forming on his back not sure if it wants to simply cool him off or outright freeze him. It feels like spiders crawling down his spine.

Jotaro still won’t stop staring.

Kakyoin’s face twitches, a band of white-hot iron stretching across his chest, settling his body’s debate over what temperature it wanted to be.

“What?” Kakyoin snaps, his throat ragged from the bugs digging under it.

“You have a limp now,” is all Jotaro says, his voice quiet and strained.

Kakyoin stares at him before laughing in disbelief. “I have a limp- are you serious? Ten years and I show up in the middle of a stand investigation, and all you can say to me is I have a limp?”

“It hasn’t been ten years,” Jotaro counters quietly, voice still strained and soft, as if, despite the fact they’re beginning to argue, Kakyoin would break if he raises his voice. Kakyoin grits his teeth, but it does nothing to stop his face from twisting into a snarl.

“Right. Because one phone call four years ago that lasted less than 15 minutes definitely counts. You know, I didn’t consider that legitimate for your sake, but if you want to include it, fine. Ten years and all you can say to me in that time are comments about my damn disabilities.”

Jotaro looks vaguely ill as if he’s going to throw up. His face is scrunched up and his brows are furrowed slightly. He has a grimace. Kakyoin hates it.

“Why are you here?” Jotaro asks quietly. It’s so direct that it makes Kakyoin pause. He had forgotten that Jotaro hated beating around the bush.

“I could ask you the same question,” Kakyoin scoffs. “I know how to board a bus and get to a hotel on my own, you patronizing-”

“When Jiji said they were sending someone else he seriously meant you?” Jotaro questions, seemingly more to himself than anyone else, considering how he hunches inward, voice so quiet it’s almost hard to hear over the waves.

Kakyoin blinks, the heat of anger pausing in his chest due to overwhelming shock at the pure audacity. Kakyoin blinks again, and the anger resumes, about 20 degrees hotter.

Excuse me?” Kakyoin asks lowly, glaring as hard as his brows will allow at Jotaro. Jotaro jumps just the slightest bit and looks up like he forgot Kakyoin was there. Kakyoin almost wants to snort at that.

“You can’t be here,” Jotaro starts, voice firm, and Kakyoin feels a flare of fire in his arms, making him twitch. If he wasn’t holding onto his crutches, he probably would’ve punched Jotaro. “It’s too-”

“Don’t fucking talk to me about my right to be here,” Kakyoin snarls, voice spiked and angry like a red-hot needle. “You don’t have a right to be here yourself, so get off your high damn horse.”

“What are you talking about?” Jotaro asks, voice tired and gravely. Kakyoin wants to punch him in the throat. “I just mean it’s too danger-”

“Well it’s a good thing then that I can handle myself just fine, thank you, ” Kakyoin hisses, taking a step forward, the creak of his crutches almost deafening. Jotaro takes a step back and Kakyoin could almost feel vindication. “Just because I don’t punch all threats away like a child doesn’t mean I can’t handle them.”

Jotaro blinks, before his brow furrows, face darkening under the shadow of his own glare. “Don’t give me that. I’m just trying to look out for you. You shouldn’t be here.”

“I don’t need you to look out for me,” Kakyoin seethes, taking another step forward. “I don’t want you to look out for me. If you even dare to try while I’m here, I’m going t-”

“Kakyoin, you need to go, ” Jotaro insists, voice finally raising beyond the edge rumble it had become. He reaches a hand out like he’s going to hold onto Kakyoin’s shoulder or arm, but he flinches back as if burned when he consciously realizes. Good, Kakyoin thinks, exhaling sharply, don’t fucking touch me.

“You need to go,” Jotaro reiterates, and Kakyoin’s eyes snap back to his face from his hand. “You need to leave before you can get hurt-”

“And you need to leave before you get another person killed! ” Kakyoin yells, voice sharp and jagged like his throat is made of a rocky shore.

Jotaro flinches back, and Kakyoin notes this with a sick sense of satisfaction. “Wh- what-”

“The kid’s grandpa has already died under your watch,” Kakyoin continues, voice low and dangerous, like a predator lowering its body to prepare for a pounce to kill. “I am not letting anyone else die because you’re so fucking arrogant you think you can do it all by yourself.” Pounce complete.

Jotaro opens and closes his mouth once, twice, before he angles his head down and shields his eyes with the brim of his hat.

“I’m not going anywhere, especially not at your request,” Kakyoin finishes, chest heaving from fury alone.

Jotaro just takes it for a moment. He’s so still that Kakyoin can’t even see him breathe. Maybe he truly wasn’t in that moment.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro finally says, voice so soft Kakyoin has to strain to hear it, “…go home.”

“If anyone needs to go home,” Kakyoin snaps, “it would be the person who already messed up to the point of an innocent man dying.”

Jotaro shudders once, the shiver running through his whole body before he returns to that unnatural stillness.

Kakyoin hates it.

“Kakyoin-”

“Kujo Jotaro,” Kakyoin snarls, stomping into Jotaro’s personal space, ignoring the slight whine in his arms caused by the force he used to swing his crutches forward, “Contrary to your belief, I am not useless. The Speedwagon Foundation thinks so. Joseph thinks so. I am here to help the kid and nothing more. If you say one more goddamn word about me going home, I am going to show you personally how capable I am.”

Kakyoin can’t see Jotaro’s expression, shielded by both the brim of his hat and the hand he’s using to keep it pinned down. He says nothing to the threat, just breathes quietly, Kakyoin barely catching the huff of breath past the waves and gulls of the beach.

“Joseph told me you’re trying a stakeout with the kid. Is that true?” Kakyoin asks low in his throat after a few beats of silence.

Jotaro swifts his jaw. “…Yes.”

“Great,” Kakyoin says, his voice dry and displeased despite his words, “then I am going to go with you to get this standuser to fuck off, and then we never have to talk again. But as long as that kid is threatened, I’m sticking around. Got it?”

Jotaro swallows. Kakyoin can hear his heart beat uproariously in his ears. He can hear the blood rush through his own veins. It burns like molten rock.

“…Fine,” Jotaro relents, still hiding his face, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes.

“Don’t say that like I needed your permission,” Kakyoin hisses. “But glad we can agree.”

Having said this, Kakyoin then wordlessly passes Jotaro, the only sound echoing between them being the creak of his crutches and the soft thumping of his duffle bag against his leg as it swings while he walks. Kakyoin knocks their shoulders purposefully, trying to alleviate some of the impulse he had to hit Jotaro with the action. It kind of works. Kakyoin will take it.

Jotaro stumbles back only a step from the impact, jaw clicking as he grits his teeth, but he keeps his head down and says nothing.

Good, Kakyoin thinks, but something thicker and colder than anger twists in his stomach over it.

Kakyoin walks up the beach to the road, sticking to the wooden boardwalk as he does so. He was serious about getting to the hotel on his own, after all.

Kakyoin sighs when he reaches the street, eyeing the bus stop just across from where he is as he runs a hand through his hair. This was going to be such a pain if Jotaro persisted.

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. What an arrogant asshole.

Chapter 2

Notes:

hey all second chapter! btw this is what my part 4 kakyoin looks like just for everyone's reference

Chapter Text

“So…” Josuke crosses his arms, eyeing Kakyoin suspiciously with his trademark Joestar-blue eyes. “Who is this?”

“This is Kakyoin Noriaki,” Jotaro introduces from the doorway of Josuke’s house, voice tired and raw like it was weighed down by rocks and had to strain against a gravel road to get out of Jotaro’s throat. “He’s a fellow standuser. He’s…an old fr-”

“I’m old friends with your dad,” Kakyoin pipes up, shooting Jotaro a glare. Jotaro ignores it, but he does shut his mouth with a soft click of his teeth. “I’m here on his behalf to help with the situation going on.”

“Oh,” Josuke says, blinking, before he looks Kakyoin up and down, his pompadour bouncing slightly as he does. Kakyoin wonders what product Josuke could possibly use that keeps the hair in place while also not stiffening it to an absurd degree. “Uh, okay. If Mr. Jotaro vouches for you, I guess you can’t be with Angelo…”

At the mention of the standuser they were facing off against, Josuke’s face darkens, and he lowers his head as he turns and lets Kakyoin and Jotaro in through the door.

Kakyoin frowns at the reaction, but he says nothing as he heads inside, his crutches creaking slightly, while the soft thuds of Jotaro’s footfalls echo behind him.

The Higashikata house is a nice one, Kakyoin thinks. The entrance opens to a cozy hallway, fit with framed pictures and a shoe rack.

Kakyoin glances at the photos on the wall: a young woman with hair the same color as Josuke’s is holding a tiny version of him, both beaming into the camera, Josuke’s smile showing off his lost front tooth; a photo of Josuke at the beach Kakyoin had arrived in Morioh on, staring intently down at one of the tidepools, the lighting all wrong but the focus on Josuke sharp; a photo of the same young woman from earlier at a graduation ceremony, holding a diploma in one hand and a toddler version of Josuke on her hip with the other, smirking into the camera.

Kakyoin averts his gaze and takes off his shoes.

“So, er, do you know what’s going on?” Josuke asks as he leads them further into the house towards the kitchen.

Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle. “Yes, I do. I was given a basic rundown after being asked to come.”

Josuke exhales, and Kakyoin can’t decipher if it was a sigh of relief or not. “Ah, great. That’s good. Right.”

“Josuke,” Jotaro calls, and Josuke jerks his head up.

Jotaro hands Josuke an unopened plastic water bottle. Josuke stares at it for a moment before taking it.

“Thanks, Mr. Jotaro,” he mutters before twisting it open and taking a few sips.

They sit down at Josuke’s round dinner table, and Kakyoin hesitates for only a moment before he eases into a seat, biting back any sounds or expressions at the ache his lower back sends out over the motion. He settles his crutches into his lap, huffing down at the table.

Jotaro slides an unopened water bottle towards Kakyoin, and Kakyoin eyes him, lips on the edge of a grimace. Jotaro doesn’t look at him though; he just opens his own water bottle and takes a sip.

Kakyoin averts his gaze and paws the water bottle closer but doesn’t open it yet.

“Kakyoin knows most of the details already,” Jotaro states, and Kakyoin’s eyes flash to him again, irritation warming his blood. “I think he just might need a brush on Angelo’s st-”

“I can talk for myself, Kujo,” Kakyoin snaps, and Jotaro shoots a glare at Kakyoin before he tugs the brim of his hat down and shuts up.

Turning to Josuke, whose gaze is rapidly switching between the two, Kakyoin says in a more polite, lighter tone, “But he is right that I don’t know much about Angelo’s stand. It’s water-based?”

“Uh, yeah,” Josuke stammers, eyes lingering on Jotaro in confusion before he turns to Kakyoin. “His stand travels through water- or, any fluid, really, but he seems to prefer water. It’s why we’re drinking from bottles.”

Kakyoin nods.

“He attacks by basically getting his stand into some liquid, waiting for that liquid to enter someone’s body, and then…” Josuke’s face darkens, voice trailing off.

“Interesting…” Kakyoin muses. “So he’s long-distance?”

Josuke grimaces, brows furrowing inward. “Sure. I wouldn’t call it interesting though. More a pain in the ass.”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh then, which startles Josuke out of his darkened thoughts. “You’re right. It’s just rare when I meet other standusers with long-ranged abilities.”

Josuke blinks before his eyes widen. “Oh- right, you have a stand. It’s long-ranged too?”

Kakyoin nods, summoning Hierophant Green for Josuke to see. He can feel the impression of weight and warmth against his shoulder as Hierophant leans against him, settling under his long bang. “Yeah. My Hierophant Green can become a mass of tentacles. Good for stabbing and as a sensory field. He can also shoot projectiles and…”

Kakyoin frowns, flashes of a school nurse he never learned the name of flashing through his head. Jotaro stays silent.

“…and that’s all I really use him for. He’s quite versatile though.”

Josuke nods, eyes focused on Hierophant Green from where he’s resting against Kakyoin, expression open and curious. “His name’s Hierophant, you said?”

Kakyoin smiles, a pleased buzz starting to ease away the irritation in his blood, cooling the heat of anger to the warmth of comfort. “Yeah. Hierophant Green. I’ve had him since I was a kid.”

“Oh!” Josuke’s eyes light up at that, and Kakyoin almost chokes from how familiar the expression is. Just like when Jotaro talked about ships on the journey- “I’ve also had my Crazy Diamond since I was a kid!”

At these words, Josuke summons his stand, and Kakyoin’s breath hitches.

Color-wise, they couldn’t be more different. Crazy Diamond is all baby blues and saturated pink, while The World was a sickly gold and inky black, with only the occasional flash of green.

But physique? It was too similar. The same cylindrical helmet, the same heart motif in their armor, the same intense eyes, the same strong hands clenched into fists, fists that would tear-

“Josuke!” Jotaro barks, and Josuke blinks, surprised, his stand silently dissipating due to the disruption of focus.

“What?” Josuke asks, looking alarmed. “Did you hear something? Is Angelo-”

“Good grief…” Jotaro mutters, shielding his face with his hat. Kakyoin lets out a breath, staring down at the table. He swallows once, twice, before he brings his hands up to open his water bottle, passing the slight tremble in his fingers off as them being too cold. It was a cloudy day, after all, and his gloves were fingerless.

“What?” Josuke questions again, voice high with insistence.

“…Got too excited there,” Jotaro finally says, and Josuke tilts his head, brows furrowed in confusion.

“Huh?”

Kakyoin takes a couple of sips before he caps his water bottle again, pointedly not looking at Jotaro. “Don’t worry about him. He’s just jealous because he hasn’t had Star Platinum all his life.”

Josuke turns his focus back to Kakyoin, eyes wide again. “He hasn’t?! But he has such good control over Star Platinum!”

Kakyoin chuckles. “Nah. He’s a novice compared to us.”

Josuke flaps his hands excitedly while Jotaro grumbles wordlessly. Kakyoin ignores him and instead smiles at Josuke. Joseph was right; he really was a good kid.

“Sorry,” Josuke says after setting his hands down, a small but genuine smile on his face, “I just don’t think I’ve met another standuser who’s had their stand all their life.”

Kakyoin offers a small smile of his own. “I get it kid, no worries.”

Josuke nods, his pompadour bouncing again, and for some reason, it reminds Kakyoin of Joseph on the trip to Egypt; the excitement, the silliness, the switching of focus -- it was all so reminiscent of Joseph that Kakyoin’s chest aches a small bit.

Jotaro stands then, his chair groaning against the floor as it’s pushed back, and Kakyoin drops his gaze to glower down at the table.

“I’m going to go and do a parameter check,” Jotaro announces, and Josuke nods. “You two stay. Don’t leave unless there’s a problem in here.”

Kakyoin’s lip picks up into a snarl, and he jerks his head up to glare at Jotaro. Jotaro is pointedly not looking at him. Coward, coward, coward, Kakyoin thinks furiously.

“Don’t tell me what to d-” Kakyoin starts to snap, but Jotaro turns away from the table and heads towards the kitchen doorway.

“I’ll be back soon.”

Kakyoin outright growls like a dog, snatching his crutches into his arms and pushing his own chair back to stand, intending on chasing after Jotaro if only to smack him, when Josuke says, “You don’t really like Mr. Jotaro, do you?”

Kakyoin blinks, before turning to look back down at Josuke. Josuke is frowning up at Kakyoin, resting his elbows on the table.

“What?” Kakyoin asks, the venom he was saving for Jotaro dropping from his voice, but the dry tone remaining.

Josuke shifts uncomfortably, and Kakyoin has the mind to feel bad for being so caught up in his own pettiness that he was about to leave the kid he’s supposed to be protecting alone during a stand investigation. Kakyoin sits back down.

“Just,” Josuke says, gesturing vaguely with his hand, “you look pretty pissed off every time Mr. Jotaro speaks.”

Kakyoin hums, chewing on his tongue. “…He just aggravates me is all.”

Josuke looks at him skeptically, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes.

“It’s nothing you need to concern yourself with, kid,” Kakyoin sighs, sinking into his chair. “…Kujo and I went on a mission together once, and he just…” Kakyoin frowns, gazing down at the table. “…He didn’t handle the aftermath well at all.” There, that was sort of the truth.

“Oh,” Josuke says, understanding coloring his voice. “I think I get it.”

Kakyoin nods. Josuke doesn’t try to clarify any ideas he has and Kakyoin doesn’t elaborate.

“Anyway,” Kakyoin drawls, and Josuke looks up at him again. “So, how long is your mom gonna be away?”

Josuke’s face tightens with seriousness, brows furrowing and eyes gleaming clearer in the orange kitchen light. “Four more days. I told her to take a week off to spend time with relatives.” Josuke looks down then, voice lowering. “I would’ve wanted her to do that anyway, but it also gives us time to take care of Angelo while she’s safe…”

Kakyoin thinks back to the pictures he saw in the hallway; how wide little Josuke’s eyes were when he was in frame with his mom, how the tidepool photo was taken by a novice who clearly cared about the subject of the photo.

“I promise we’ll get him before she comes back,” Kakyoin murmurs, voice firm.

Josuke raises his head, but his eyes stay trained on the table, brows furrowed. “But it’s already the third day and there’s been no sign of him…”

Understanding dawns on Kakyoin’s mind. “That’s why Kujo is scouting right now, looking for signs. If Angelo won’t attack first, then we will.”

Josuke is quiet for a moment, before he nods, looking up at Kakyoin again. “…Yeah. You’re right.” Josuke smiles despite the worried furrow between his brows remaining. “We’ll kick his ass.”

Kakyoin smiles himself then, nodding. “That’s the spirit, kiddo.”

“Don’t call me kid or kiddo,” Josuke whines, voice heightening to the common frequency of a teenager complaining. “I just started high school, I’m not a baby anymore.”

Kakyoin laughs, but he understands, memories of the trip to Egypt flashing in his mind. Josuke scowls at him, and Kakyoin puts up his hands in surrender, still chuckling. “No, you’re right. Sorry, Josuke,” Kakyoin snickers, “You just remind me of me when I was your age.”

“Don’t talk like you’re 50 unless you want me to treat you like you are,” Josuke grumbles, and Kakyoin wheezes, ignoring the flare of pain in his stomach in order to keep laughing. Josuke chuckles himself then, settling more into his own chair.

It’s quiet for a beat, Kakyoin focusing on collecting himself, while Josuke takes a sip of his water. Kakyoin pushes his sunglasses further up his nose from where they had slipped during his laughter, and Josuke eyes this, gaze training on the heart-shaped frames.

Kakyoin raises a brow and Josuke drops his eyes, clearing his throat, before saying, “Can I ask you a- uh, maybe invasive question?”

Already having an idea of what the question is, Kakyoin steeples his fingers, resting his head on top of them. “Shoot.”

“Uh,” Josuke says, sheepishly rubbing the back of his head. “Well, since you don’t mind me asking, why are you wearing sunglasses? It’s cloudy…and also we’re inside.”

Kakyoin raises a brow at him before he brings up a gloved hand and gently grips his frames, taking his sunglasses off. Kakyoin can’t see the finer details of Josuke’s face with them off, seeing as they were prescription, but Josuke’s mouth does drop open noticeably when he presumably takes notice of the scars over Kakyoin’s eyes.

“It’s weird, you’re right. But the sunglasses save me from awkward questions regarding the scars,” Kakyoin says matter-of-factly, slotting the frames back onto his face. Josuke looks a little embarrassed, and Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle, giving him a reassuring smile. “…Also, I’m more sensitive to light, so on cloudy days, the contrast between the lights in the house and the sky through the windows can give me headaches.”

Josuke nods, still looking guilty. “No, that makes sense. I’m sorry I was so rude.”

Kakyoin laughs again, waving a hand. “It’s not rude at all. Frankly, it’s kinda rude of me if anything else, but, well, I’d rather have a pain-free head than be seen as polite.”

Josuke chuckles then, tension leaving his shoulders, and Kakyoin takes a sip of his own water, snickering into the rim of it.

“Anyway,” Kakyoin segues, adjusting the way his frames sit on his face, “since I’m gonna be here with you and-” Kakyoin’s upper and lower lips disagree on what they want to do, his lower lip grimacing, his upper lip beginning to curl into a snarl, ending up with an expression that’s the picture definition of disgust, “-and- Kujo, while we hunt down Angelo, do you mind showing me around? Because it might take a couple more days.”

Josuke blinks, before standing up out of his chair when the sentence computes. “Oh, right! Shit, sorry, that completely slipped my mind,” Josuke says hastily, before slapping a hand over his mouth.

Kakyoin laughs again, his stomach and back grumbling in pain at the strain it puts on his muscles, but Kakyoin can’t care. He can’t remember the last time he met a kid – or adult, for that matter – as effortlessly funny as Josuke. “Don’t worry, Josuke, I’m not gonna tell your mom you cussed in front of me.”

Josuke exhales before shaking his head. “Jeez…thanks. She can be a real stickler about that stuff.” He frowns. “Same with teachers. Is it an adult-past-their-30s thing?”

Kakyoin snorts but says nothing, just grips his crutches again before hoisting himself up from the chair, grimacing as his back whimpers in pain.

“So I know the house is big, but there’s not a whole lot going on,” Josuke starts as he leads the way out of the kitchen, continuing down the hallway. “There’s the front door and then the kitchen right next to it, basically. But further down-”

Josuke gestures to an entryway, “-is the living room.”

Kakyoin snorts at the halfhearted theatrics. He must be really bored with the stakeout lasting so long.

Kakyoin follows Josuke into the room, though, and hums, impressed with the cozy feeling of the area. 

There’s a window on one far side of the room, and a door, presumably leading to the backyard, on the other.

As for the room itself, there’s a soft-looking, plush sofa in front of a small coffee table, and a worn-out recliner nearby, all focused on the television in the middle of the room.

Kakyoin squints. “Is that a Super Nintendo?”

Stationed next to the television is an unassuming gray cube, with a cord attaching it to a controller and a game cartridge Kakyoin can’t make out the details of pushed into the top.

Josuke jolts, turning to Kakyoin with wide eyes. “You know what it is?”

Kakyoin chuckles. “Of course I do. Video games don’t stop being fun just because you grow past your teen years.”

Josuke looks like he’s found a treasure trove, eyes so wide and mouth open in awe, and Kakyoin can’t help but laugh again, shaking his head.

“Shut your mouth, you’ll catch flies,” Kakyoin teases, and Josuke does, his teeth clicking together, before he blinks a couple of times as if trying to compute the reality of an adult liking video games.

“So- you still play then? You get it?” Josuke asks, eyes still comically wide.

Kakyoin nods, mouth curled up in amusement. “Yup.” He leans down then, closer to Josuke’s height, and says in a faux-whisper, “Best part of playing video games when you’re an adult is that no one can tell you to shut the game off.”

Josuke looks like he’s been told what the cure of death is, amazement so clear on his face Kakyoin could probably see it even without his glasses, and it reminds him almost painfully of the fact that this is a kid . He resists the urge to ruffle Josuke’s hair.

“Ah- uh- did you wanna play some?” Josuke spits out, and Kakyoin snorts but shakes his head sadly.

“Ah- It’s hard to see with the glasses,” Kakyoin explains, gesturing to his face, and Josuke deflates the slightest bit. “And while I could just sit close to the TV, it is bad for you. The last thing I wanna do is make my eyes worse.”

Josuke nods, head lowering. “Yeah, I guess that makes sense…”

“But,” Kakyoin continues, and Josuke’s head shoots up, making Kakyoin snicker, “if you wanna play, I’d be interested in watching. Gotta make sure the younger generation is doing all right if you get what I mean.”

Josuke chuckles then, but his eyes are still wide, and he rushes over to the television to set up a video game. Kakyoin gingerly takes a seat on the sofa, sighing as he sinks into the cushions, his back grumbling in appreciation over the support.

“I won’t play long,” Josuke assures absent-mindedly, more focused on setting his television to the right channel, and Kakyoin smiles to himself.

“I don’t mind if you do,” He replies, but Josuke shakes his head.

“Nah, I’m interrupting the house tour for this, after all.”

Kakyoin hums, leaning back into the sofa. “I insisted though.”

Josuke pauses thoughtfully at that, head tilting to the side, but before he can respond, the television flickers on, and The Art of Fighting’s title screen flashes on.

Kakyoin blinks. “Fighting game, huh? Reminds me of Street Fighter.”

“You played Street Fighter? That’s like a cult classic now,” Josuke replies as he starts up a level, stretching out his hands as the game loads.

Kakyoin snorts. “Don’t say that, you’ll make me feel old. But yeah, I used to play it in arcades all the time.”

“Not my fault if you are old then,” Josuke responds cheekily, before yelping as his character is hit with a combo from the computer-AI enemy. “AH- what the hell-”

Josuke fires back with a combo of his own, thumbs flying across the buttons of his controller, and Kakyoin’s brows raise, impressed. “You’re pretty good at this.”

“Ah, really?” Josuke responds, voice showcasing how he’s more preoccupied with his game than the conversation. “That’s good to hear from a veteran gamer, I think.”

“Josuke,” Kakyoin scoffs good-naturedly. “You said if I stopped calling you kid, you wouldn’t treat me like I’m 50.”

Josuke snickers before he performs another combo, knocking the opponent he’s facing down. In a real fight, this could be the end of it -- but the enemy still has health left, Kakyoin notes, his eyes flickering to the top of the screen.

“You know a lot of combos,” Kakyoin compliments, and Josuke chuckles bashfully, one hand leaving the controller to rub the back of his head.

“Ah, well, I use this game as stress relief sometimes...so, I guess that might be why I’m used to it?” Josuke replies, before jerking his hand back to the controller, performing a close-call dodge away from the enemy. Kakyoin almost wants to clap over that one.

“That’s good,” Kakyoin comments instead, trying his best to track Josuke’s character’s movement on the screen past his sunglasses, “it’s good to have things to throw your frustration at.”

“Yup,” Josuke responds absent-mindedly, before the game’s speed slows and Josuke hunches forward. Kakyoin glances up at the health bars; the enemy’s is almost depleted. Final move time, then.

Josuke performs a series of button mashing and keypad tapping, and his character on the screen turns the commands into fighting prowess; he grabs the enemy’s shoulders, then forces him down, slamming his chin right against his knee.

In a real fight, that’d be it, but Josuke’s character continues, lifting up the opponent and bringing their spine down sharply against his knee, kanji in a dramatic font jumping up, spelling out CRACK!!

A victory screen flashes on the screen, and Josuke stretches his arms, before turning back to look at Kakyoin.

“So, how’d I do?” He asks, eyes shining, and Kakyoin chuckles.

“That was really good, Josuke. I see the kids are in good hands.”

Josuke rolls his eyes good-naturedly. “And that doesn’t make you sound old?”

“Hey,” Kakyoin barks back with no bite, and Josuke laughs.

“As fun as it is though, video games won’t help me get better with real-life fighting,” Josuke says, turning thoughtful, “and I’ve gotta get stronger now that such weird shit is going on.”

Kakyoin hums, his brows furrowing, and nods slowly. “I guess…”

Josuke shrugs, glancing back up at Kakyoin. “But at the same time, video games also exaggerate. Like, that last move could’ve killed someone in real life, right?”

Kakyoin glances down at his hands, nodding still. “Yeah. It’s easier to kill someone in real life than it is in a video game,” he murmurs.

“Wha- have you?” Josuke asks, jerking his head up to Kakyoin. “Killed someone, I mean?”

Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably, blurry memories he only half remembers, and blurry memories he can never forget crossing his mind. “Yes.” Kakyoin sighs, leaning his head against the back of the couch. “They’re- people are right when they say it changes you. You can’t ever erase the fact.”

Josuke stays quiet. He exists the game to the main menu, and Kakyoin can’t help but feel a little bad that he might’ve killed the kid’s mood.

“Do you regret it?” Josuke asks, though, and his voice isn’t somber so much as just thoughtful, soft -- but not quiet, as it rings out into the living room.

Kakyoin pauses, faces he’ll never have names to flashing in his mind, like some sort of slideshow. It’s interesting, Kakyoin can suppose in a detached way, how people he only knew for minutes will stay in the peripheral of his mind’s eye for the rest of his life. “…No,” Kakyoin answers honestly, gaze dropping to his gloved hands, tracing the simple design on one with a finger. “But if there was a way I could’ve stopped some of them without killing them, I’d go back and do that.”

Josuke hums thoughtfully, flexing his fingers against his palm a couple of times, and it’s only then Kakyoin wonders just how far Josuke was preparing to go during the Angelo fight.

“I can help teach you some things I know,” Kakyoin finds himself blurting, mouth moving without his explicit command for it.

Josuke looks up at him, eyes wide. “Wh- really? You’ll teach me how to fight?”

“Er, self-defense, let’s call it self-defense,” Kakyoin says, before he stands back up, leaning against his crutches. “But...you are right it’s gonna be dangerous for a while. And it’s always good to know anyway.”

Josuke nods, his pompadour bouncing again. “Yeah! Yeah, I’d love that, thank you so much! Mr. Jotaro says he’s too busy to teach me anything, so that’d be great!” Kakyoin scowls at the mention of Jotaro, but Josuke doesn’t take this to heart. “Uh, how did you wanna set it up?”

Kakyoin hums. “I’ll give you the number of the hotel I’m staying at. You can call me and we can figure out a date and time or something.”

Josuke nods, and he looks so much like a puppy Kakyoin has to shake his head to rid himself of the image. Joseph’s son, for sure…

“Ah- right! The house tour!” Josuke jumps up, shutting the television off before he pads back out of the room.

“Uh, so, down the rest of the hallway is just a bathroom, really,” Josuke says, before he turns, the original hallway intersected by a new one. “And down here is the stairs.”

Kakyoin nods, looking around. The walls are painted a nice, subtle purple, with picture frames lining the wall. There’s a photo of Josuke with his grandfather, both holding up fish. Josuke looks a little grossed out, face pinched in a specific way, but he’s still smiling for the camera’s sake. Meanwhile, his grandfather is beaming, a hand on Josuke’s shoulder, another wrapped around the tail of a fish. It’s as long as his forearm.

Kakyoin looks at it for a moment, eyes tracing over the bright smiles in the picture and Josuke’s clear disgust, but his effort to put it aside for his grandfather. They really were a charming family.

Kakyoin drops his gaze.

“Uh, and upstairs is mostly just bedrooms,” Josuke continues, and Kakyoin follows him, eyeing the woodwork on the stair railing with interest.

“This is a really nice house,” Kakyoin admires as they climb the stairs to the second floor. “Your mom must’ve worked really hard to buy this thing, especially at her age-“

Kakyoin trails off when Josuke’s steps slow to a stop. At the end of the hallway is a small shrine, the lingering scent of incense hanging in the air. A picture that Kakyoin can’t make the details out of is stationed in the center – no doubt it was of Josuke’s grandfather. Some small trinkets adorn the table, next to the photograph.

Josuke steps forward silently, footfalls soft against the carpet. Kakyoin hesitates before he follows behind, the quiet creaks of his crutches mingling with Josuke’s footsteps.

Josuke stops at the shrine, brow furrowed, face troubled. It looks like he’s not sure if he’s angry or sad. Kakyoin can’t blame him. Up close, Kakyoin can see the picture is of Josuke’s grandfather, his mother, and himself. A family photo, fitting for a family man’s remembrance.

“This is the house my mom grew up in, actually,” Josuke murmurs, staring at his grandfather’s picture frame. “My grandfather was the one who bought it.”

Kakyoin hums quietly, watching Josuke’s face carefully.

“He…gave it to mom in his will.” Josuke continues, still gazing at the small shrine, but eyes not seeing what’s in front of them, if the glaze over them is any indication. “He was a police officer, so he just always had to have that update to date. Once he paid the house off, he had his will updated so that mom would get it when he passed.”

“…He seemed to love you and your mother a lot,” Kakyoin says quietly. Josuke nods, swallowing thickly, brows pinching inward, mouth twitching before he forces it into a frown.

“…He never judged her,” Josuke says, kneeling down in front of the shrine.

Kakyoin eyes the floor warily, before he eases himself down too, ignoring the wail of his back as he settles in a cross-legged sit, setting his crutches quietly down next to himself.

“Even when she ended up pregnant with me and no father in the picture, he still loved her all the same. I’m not stupid, I know some women get thrown out for that, but-” Josuke swallows thickly. “But grandpa never did. He never asked questions. Just watched me when she had classes and continued to help pay for tuition so she could still graduate from college.”

Kakyoin feels a flash of irritation directed to Joseph, but he pushes it down with mild difficulty. This was not about Joseph’s mistakes, and making it so would be disrespectful to Josuke’s grandpa’s memory.

“He was just…always so kind,” Josuke says, ducking his head. Kakyoin nods despite Josuke not being able to see him before he reaches out a gloved hand and rubs Josuke’s shoulder.

Josuke accepts it for a few silent beats, before he raises his head again and Kakyoin drops his hand.

“He loved this town,” Josuke says, voice regaining stability and strength. “Which is why I’m not going to allow Angelo to keep running amuck. I’ll carry on his dream.”

As he says this, Josuke’s face grows firm, brows furrowed in determination rather than grief, eyes burning with a blue flame. It almost reminds Kakyoin of Jotaro, how he looked when he decided on going on the journey to Egypt to save his mother.

“…It’s the least I can do,” Josuke adds quietly, eyes dropping from the photo despite his head still standing tall.

Kakyoin nods again. “He’d be proud of you, Josuke.”

Josuke’s head does lower the slightest bit at that, making Kakyoin frown. “You didn’t know him; how can you be sure?” He asks.

He sounds so young that Kakyoin’s chest cavity aches, dull pain rippling over the walls of it. “This house is littered with photos, Josuke. I can see the moments you two shared; he clearly cared about you. This house in of itself is proof of the love he has for you and your mom. He’d be honored that you, his grandson, would want to continue his work of keeping the town safe.”

Josuke is quiet then, contemplative.

“I may not have known him,” Kakyoin says softly, “but the evidence I’ve seen all suggests he would be proud.”

Josuke’s head dips a little more. Kakyoin allows him the moment, eyes instead moving up to the shrine. It’s a nice place for a shrine; right in front of a window. It allows a scenic, natural light to creep in, in addition to any candles that could be lit. The table itself is also the perfect size for decorative and memorial items. Kakyoin wonders if the location was Josuke’s mom’s idea or if her father was the one who started it.

“Thank you,” Josuke says after a few minutes, voice reclaiming the strength and volume it had while downstairs.

Kakyoin nods again. “Just calling it how I see it.”

Josuke snorts, and he turns to give Kakyoin a smile.

He sighs, more a rush of an exhale than an expression of emotion, then turns back to the shrine. “I…I’ve been praying to him every day, usually around this time, actually, so do you mind if I-?”

Kakyoin shakes his head, reaching for his crutches. “No, no, not at all. Take all the time you need. I’ll go busy myself downstairs by making some tea or something.”

Josuke shoots him a grateful smile, before turning back to the shrine, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath before hoisting himself back up, his lower back weeping, causing his hips to spasm, forgetting how to hold Kakyoin’s legs for a moment.

Kakyoin grits his teeth, willing his body to just work, and after a moment of their confusion, his hips regain functionality, even if his back continues aching. It’s always aching. Kakyoin rolls his eyes before turning and heading back for the stairs.

As Kakyoin steps off the bottom step, he hears a light tap as his feet connect with the floor – which wouldn’t be odd in of itself, but he’s wearing socks on carpet.

Frowning, Kakyoin takes another step, hearing another tap.

“What the…” Kakyoin taps the flooring with his crutch, but the sound doesn’t repeat when he presses.

When he straightens up though, the tap is heard again. Then another. And another. Two more.

Kakyoin looks up at the nearest window -- one on the other side of the hall -- and sees the small, telltale shines of rain of glass.

Kakyoin can’t help but hum at his foolishness, but he does frown. Rainy days always made his spine act up – some combination of the cold and pressure.

As the rain picks up and the droplets start to trickle down the pane outright, Kakyoin walks toward the window, fingering his scarf gingerly.

He watches as the outside world becomes a flood of colors, blending into one another, distorting into odd shapes and blobs as the rain thoroughly coats the window.

Despite the pitter-pattering rhythm of the rain against the window and roof, not unlike the sound of marbles rolling across the floor of a distant room, it’s so quiet.

Kakyoin’s hair stands on end as his eyes widen.

Rain-

Angelo-

Jotaro-

Fuck.

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Kakyoin immediately spins on his crutches, his spine crying at the twist but Kakyoin having half the mind to verbally snap at it to shut the hell up, because dammit, this is serious.

Cursing his legs over and over in his head as he does, Kakyoin rushes for the front door, only for it to be kicked open and for Jotaro to come barreling inside, breathing harshly.

Their eyes meet, and for once, Kakyoin’s blood is cool with adrenaline rather than hot with anger over the deadlock.

“Angelo-” Jotaro starts before there’s a loud THUD.

Kakyoin whirls back around, pivoting on one crutch to do so, only to see Josuke standing up evidently from jumping down the stairs, wincing at his knees straighten.

“Kitchen-” Josuke gasps out, and it’s only then that Kakyoin hears a faint whistling. It reminds him of steam erupting from a hot tea kettle. Steam…oh, shit-

Josuke barrels past Jotaro and Kakyoin, and the two are left to follow hot on his heels, Kakyoin starting to feel overheated in his cardigan and scarf.

The three jerk just short of the kitchen’s entryway, Jotaro catching his breath audibly and Josuke clenching and unclenching his fists. Kakyoin was correct in identifying a tea kettle, but in addition to the steam coming from that, there’s a pot filled with boiling water and the sink is turned on hot, all contributing to the room effectively becoming a sauna.

“When the hell did he even have time to do this?” Kakyoin curses.

“You seriously think Angelo managed to do this?” Josuke asks, whipping his head back to face Kakyoin, and his face- he’s angry. His face is shadowed with how it’s twisted into a scowl, but his eyes burn past it. But he’s also scared, his shoulders shaking, and Kakyoin is reminded he’s a teenager with a sharp squeeze of his chest.

Why didn’t you go with your mom and let Jotaro handle this alone?

“He wasn’t waiting for us to drink water,” Jotaro muses gravely, stepping back out of the room, “he was waiting for the rain.”

Kakyoin grits his teeth, avoiding the urge to shout at Jotaro for not thinking of this. Hindsight’s 20/20, he reminds himself. If Jotaro cared more about tactics other than the best angle to punch someone then he should’ve been able to foresee this, snaps back another part of himself. Kakyoin shakes his head.

“Josuke- stay away from the kettle! ” Jotaro shouts, lurching forward, and Kakyoin can only stumble after him, eyes widening as he catches sight of the figure forming in the steam behind Josuke.

So this is Angelo’s stand? It’s so ugly...

Josuke jolts, a startled look on his face, but his own stand flickers into view, quickly grabbing and smashing a bottle in the air behind Josuke’s head. The stand is waved away with the steam, but he laughs anyway. It echoes in the room, faintly, like all the water droplets in the air amplified it.

Kakyoin can only stare as the bottle reforms – nothing inside – and is dropped into Josuke’s hand. Josuke frowns at this.

“We need to leave the kitchen,” Jotaro urges, turning and pushing Kakyoin towards the door.

“Wha- hey, I can move by myself, thanks,” Kakyoin hisses, smacking his crutches underneath himself to avoid falling, shooting a death glare at Jotaro. Jotaro, as usual, does not look at him. Kakyoin grits his teeth. “Watch the kid, you asshole,”

Jotaro blinks as if the thought didn’t occur to him, and Kakyoin really is about to hit him until he notices Josuke grimacing from beyond Jotaro’s shoulder.

Kakyoin simply pushes him away, seething. “Give me some damn space.”

“Yeah, so, I don’t think leaving is gonna work,” Josuke interrupts, making Kakyoin and Jotaro turn to him. “Angelo made holes in the roof, which is why I rushed downstairs so fast.”

Kakyoin blinks while Jotaro glares at nothing beside him. “Shit, that’s smart.”

“But outside will be worse,” Josuke continues, his voice edging into desperation, looking into Jotaro’s face for answers. Kakyoin swallows. Why didn’t Jotaro make him go with his mother-? “We’re trapped,” Josuke finishes grimly.

Jotaro swallows, throat clicking quietly next to Kakyoin. “We should still get out of this room,” Jotaro decides. No one objects.

Kakyoin pivots on his crutch, heading towards the door, shooting Jotaro a glare in case he dared to try and direct Kakyoin around again.

Kakyoin cuts the gaze short, though, as he steps out into the hall, and notices even more steam. Steam that definitely did not originate from solely the kitchen.

Kakyoin jerks his head to the side, only to see a facet in a room branching off from the hallway turned on. Heart picking up, Kakyoin hurries down the hall, his crutches creaking noisily as he forces his weight on and off them rapidly.

Kakyoin uses the butt of his crutch to kick open the hallway bathroom’s door, only to find his suspicions confirmed; the tap and bath are both turned on, both on their hottest setting. Angelo, somehow, turned on all the sources of water in the house. Ugh, that was smart.

Sweat slides down Kakyoin’s back and he’s not sure if it’s from the adrenaline or the humidity of the house.

From the steam in the bathroom, Angelo’s stand begins forming again.

“Oh, gross,” Kakyoin snaps when the thing’s ugly face forms, its mouth open in a sharp smile, sticky strings of saliva connecting its upper and lower jaw.

Hierophant’s hands appear beside Kakyoin’s head, the water Hierophant generates when forming emeralds churning in-between his palms.

Just as Aqua Necklace lunges to strike, Hierophant shoots the stream of water, some shards of emerald dropping to the floor along with it.

Aqua Necklace yelps as the steam it’s moving through slams into the cold burst of Hierophant’s water, condensing into a puddle on the floor, all momentum lost.

Kakyoin sneers down at the stand before slamming the door shut.

He hurries down the remainder of the hallway, rejoining Josuke and Jotaro, noting they’re turning off facets. Jotaro eyes him carefully, frowning. Kakyoin flashes him the finger and Jotaro rolls his eyes.

“What a clever power…” Jotaro murmurs instead of addressing Kakyoin’s rudeness, and Kakyoin snorts, but he does have to agree.

“He’s smart, I’ll give him that…” Kakyoin concedes.

Josuke snickers, and at first Kakyoin thinks it’s due to what he said, but when he glances over at him, his brows are furrowed, teeth gritted.

“Josuke?” Kakyoin prompts. Jotaro is silent next to Kakyoin, but he stares at his uncle in concern.

Josuke continues snickering for a second, before shaking his head. “It’s nothing,” He says, voice edged with anger, “just that the man who killed my grandfather is near. And you’re right, he’s smart. So this should be interesting.”

Kakyoin hums, concerned. He guesses responding to fear with anger is a good alternative if you’re forced into a fight, but…

Kakyoin narrows his eyes over at Jotaro, who again ignores him.

…But Josuke shouldn’t be in this fight to begin with.

He’s starting to understand why he couldn’t just tell Josuke no, though, as he turns back to Josuke and is hit with the full flame of determination in his eyes. Blue fire is always hotter than orange or red, and Kakyoin is reminded of that whenever he sees those trademark blue eyes.

Kakyoin just shakes his head though, pushing his glasses back up his nose, which had started to slip due to the humidity. “Well, it certainly won’t be boring.”

As soon as the words leave Kakyoin’s mouth, the steam in the air of the hallway condenses audibly, not unlike the sound of a soda can opening and fizzing.

Kakyoin jerks his head back just in time to see Aqua Necklace lunge towards Jotaro.

Kakyoin twitches, eyes widening, hands clenching the grips of his crutches, but Star Platinum acts before he can consider doing so himself, simply smacking the cloud away from Jotaro’s neck, his speed making it possible.

The rush of air from Star Platinum’s attack condenses Aqua Necklace to water, and Star Platinum moves to strike again, slapping the puddle down to the floor.

Aqua Necklace simply uses the momentum, though, jumping up out of the puddle towards Jotaro’s face.

Kakyoin can hear Josuke inhale harshly next to him, but Star Platinum smacks the stand away again, this time towards the ceiling.

Aqua Necklace snickers down at them, before soaking into the ceiling, dissipating.

Kakyoin blinks; it all happened within the span of a few seconds. He had forgotten how fast Star Platinum was…

He wraps his scarf around the lower half of his face. “Goddamn.”

“Are you okay?” Josuke asks, gaze straying on the ceiling, squinting, as if daring Aqua Necklace to drip back down.

“Josuke,” Jotaro says, ignoring the question, turning nonchalantly to face him. Josuke straightens, but his expression stays the same; determined, angry, scared. “How do you figure we beat this?”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, brows pinching in anger. “Uh, hey, seasoned standuser right here, Kujo.”

Jotaro just ignores him, eyes focused on Josuke, and Kakyoin swears he sees red, but Josuke speaks before he can lunge at Jotaro like a rabid dog lunges at fresh meat.

“I think it’s less a matter of beating,” Josuke says, walking towards one side of the hallway, shooting Kakyoin and Jotaro a determined smile, “but more one of breaking.”

Having said that, Josuke summons his stand, and with a yell and a clench of Josuke’s fist, Crazy Diamond surges forward.

DORA!” Crazy Diamond calls as it punches a sizable hole in the wall, and Kakyoin only has the time to wonder What the hell is he doing? before he realizes it was to access the living room.

Josuke easily hops over the small lip of the wall still jutting up from the floor through the hole, before calling over his shoulder, “Come on! I’ll fix the wall after we’re all in.”

Jotaro huffs, but smiles, before hastily following in Josuke’s footsteps, easily stepping over the rubble.

Kakyoin sticks the end of his crutches through the hole in the wall before vaulting himself through, shaking his head and chuckling as he does. “You’re a crazy kid, Josuke,”

The second Kakyoin makes it through, Josuke starts rebuilding the wall. “I don’t wanna hear that from you of all people.”

Kakyoin laughs out loud at that, but the sound is cut off abruptly as he turns around.

A humidifier was on, steam curling up from the lip of it.

Jotaro immediately kicks the humidifier off the coffee table it was sitting on, Kakyoin silently stabbing it with Hierophant’s tentacle to put an end to the steam supply. If it was needed, Josuke could fix it later...

Kakyoin whips his head back around, only for coldness to immediately flood his veins.

“Too late!” Aqua Necklace cackles as it fights its way inside Josuke’s mouth, despite him choking and sputtering in protest. “I knew you’d try and escape to the living room!”

“Josuke!” Kakyoin and Jotaro both yell at the same time.

Jotaro is frozen, eyes wide, but Kakyoin lurches forward, a tentacle of Hierophant’s reaching out and trying desperately to swat Aqua Necklace out of the way. If Star Platinum could do it, so could he, so could he-

Josuke claws at his own neck and Hierophant only just reaches Josuke’s lip when Aqua Necklace flushes down his throat.

“No-” Kakyoin flips his stupid sunglasses up, resting them against his forehead as he jerks forward one more step as if he could help Josuke now.

Not the kid, not the kid, he’s just a kid -

“Josuke,” Jotaro calls softly, stepping forward, hand reaching out listlessly. Josuke hunches over, still gripping his neck, but he looks more confused than in pain, as if he’s listening to something Kakyoin and Jotaro can’t hear. Maybe Aqua Necklace was saying something?

At some point, Josuke’s face falls flat, unamused, lips pulled in a half grimace, and Kakyoin thinks the worst, until Josuke leans forward a bit more, opens his mouth, and summons his stand.

Crazy Diamond flickers into view beside Josuke, before he too hunches down, bringing a hand to Josuke’s mouth, reaching inside.

“Josuke-” Kakyoin calls, alarmed until the stand pulled out a-

…A glove, from the kid’s throat.

“Huh?” Kakyoin questions, brows furrowing.

Josuke coughs, gagging against air as his throat recoils at having the latex of the glove rubbed against it, but he sits back up, chuckling.

“This is...?” Jotaro murmurs, and Josuke nods.

“I caught him,” He sneers, face lit up in victory, and Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle once, out of relief if anything else.

Josuke grimaces as he kneels down to pick up the glove, pinching it between two fingers. “Ugh, gross…”

Josuke stands back up, wiping his chin. The glove jerks in his grasp, but Josuke is right; Angelo really is caught.

Kakyoin can’t help but snort again. It’s almost comical how easy it was in the end to entrap such a dangerous foe...

“I cut up this glove earlier and swallowed it,” Josuke explains, glancing up at Jotaro. “I didn’t know if I’d have to use it, but…”

Jotaro nods his approval and Josuke heads towards the living room’s main window.

Josuke opens the window and twirls the glove around his pinched fingers, eyes darting about the landscape calculatingly. Beyond the sound of rain hitting plants and concrete, there’s a distant thump with an accompanying yelp and Josuke’s eyes land on some green shrubs surrounding the house.

“What a creep,” he grimaces.

“Let’s go finish this,” Jotaro says, an edge to his voice Kakyoin is intimately familiar with, and despite their current misgivings, he can’t help but smirk the slightest bit. Angelo sure as hell was going to pay.

Josuke shuts the window, and they all head towards the front door, the only sounds being the rain against the roof and Kakyoin’s crutches.

They step outside, and Kakyoin is immediately hit with the sweet smell of wet earth, along with a shiver as the cold immediately sinks into his clothes, cooling the sweat that collected on his forehead within seconds. Kakyoin frowns, tightening the scarf around his neck. They continue towards the bushes.

Angelo is there, sprawled on the ground, seeming a little dazed and very afraid, if his shaking is anything to go by. His head jerks up at the sound of their footsteps squelching against the wet grass, and he looks over his shoulder towards them.

Kakyoin glares down at him, and he’s more than sure Jotaro and Josuke are doing the same.

“So you’re him?” Josuke scoffs, sounding unimpressed.

The man’s eyes widen, and he quickly scrambles to his feet, darting away into the street. “Dammit-!”

Kakyoin trips him with Hierophant, and once again the group stalks towards him as he sprawls against the ground.

Angelo crawls forward a few steps, clinging to a rock, before heaving himself up, using it as support. He turns back around to face his assailants, still shaking, and Kakyoin isn’t sure if it’s because of the weather or because of his cowardice. Kakyoin sneers down at him.

“Are- are you guys going to kill me?” Angelo asks, voice shaky, but his brows still set in determination, even if the rest of his expression conveys helplessness. “Because you can’t. That’s the state’s job, not yours, haha…”

Angelo chuckles then, before pointing a finger at Josuke, making Kakyoin bristle. “Even though I killed your grandpa, you don’t have the authority to kill me! Haha!”

Josuke’s upper lip starts to curl into a snarl, but the rest of his face is unamused, unaffected, the rain slowly wetting his pompadour, but his hair remaining in style nonetheless.

“Besides,” Angelo sneers, “what would your grandpa think if you killed someone, and your soul became just as cursed as mine?”

Josuke twitches and his stand appears, smacking the hand Angelo was pointing with into the rock at his back, using enough force to break it on impact.

Angelo howls in pain. Josuke doesn’t even flinch.

“How dare you point at me and tell me what I can and can’t do?” Josuke asks lowly, venom dripping from his words like the raindrops dripping off the leaves of the trees around them.

Angelo gasps, jerking his hand up, and Kakyoin blinks in surprise; it has been molded with the rock.

Oh, Kakyoin finally clues in on Josuke’s plan, and he can’t help but feel a small burst of pride. Smart.

“No one’s going to kill you,” Josuke sneers, planting his feet. “Not me, not Mr. Jotaro, not Mr. Kakyoin. But you’re not going back to prison, either.”

Jotaro fiddles with the cap of his hat, ducking his head. “I’ll leave him up to you, Josuke.”

Kakyoin nods, leaning back against his crutches. “It’s your call.”

Josuke nods, still staring down at Angelo, who’s looking up at the teenager with an expression more suitable for the damned facing the devil for the first time.

“Wh- what are you going to do to me?!” Angelo demands, scrambling back against the rock, holding his ruined hand out awkwardly.

“Make you suffer for eternity,” Josuke snarls, his stand shimmering into existence behind him. “For my grandfather, and for all the people you killed!”

Crazy Diamond launches forward, fists raised and ready to strike, and Kakyoin averts his gaze as Angelo is punched over and over against the rock, breaking it on impact and becoming fused with Angelo’s body when Crazy Diamond fixes it. Angelo screams, but his cries are warbled, cut off repeatedly as Crazy Diamond does its deed.

Despite the stand looking so much like The World, it really acts more like Star Platinum…

“You can never hurt anyone again like this,” Josuke spits after the deed is done, Angelo’s body mostly merged with the rock, some fingers and his face still visible.

Angelo is gasping silently in pain within the boulder, eyes unfocused, and Kakyoin grimaces. The stand was just as ugly as the man himself. He blinks, eyes slipping into focus again before he spits. “Damn!”

Josuke huffs, crossing his arms, and Angelo narrows his eyes at him.

“Don’t think he won’t kill you for this!” Angelo shrieks, voice laced solely with indignation, making the pitch high and edged like the fine point of a needle.

Josuke rears his head, raising one brow. “Huh? Who?”

Angelo smiles then, the expression crooked and alarmingly wide. It almost reminds Kakyoin of his own mouth, but his jaw could never drop open that far. “That’s right. You don’t know him – the boy who gave me my powers.”

Kakyoin blinks, frowning. …What? Gave him a stand?

“What?” Jotaro echoes, brows furrowing. “Are you saying there’s someone who can give other people stands?”

“Do you think we’re stupid?” Kakyoin snarls, eyes narrowing.

Angelo just laughs again, though, and Kakyoin twitches. “You scared? It’s true, I wasn’t born a stand user.”

Kakyoin blinks. Sure, he knew others developed stands later on in their lives, but…the timing of this was too coincidental. Did he feel threatened enough by the state during his time in prison that his stand developed as a safety mechanism, like how Star Platinum developed for Jotaro?

The still-visible fingers of a hand that’s now buried in rock clench listlessly, and Angelo smiles at them all, wide and unhinged, making Kakyoin shiver. “Wanna know how? I can tell you.”

“Why would you do that?” Kakyoin counters, staring down his nose, unimpressed. “What do you gain from it?”

Angelo simply ignores him, focusing his gaze on Josuke. “It was last year, about two weeks from my execution date. I was just in my cell trying to sleep when a boy in a school uniform somehow appeared inside.”

Angelo cackles, and Kakyoin’s mouth curls sharply downward, unamused.

“He had an arrow with him. Looked like ancient shit. And then he shot me-”

“Do you seriously expect us to believe this?” Kakyoin hisses, but Jotaro throws up an arm across Kakyoin’s chest, a silent command to be quiet.

Kakyoin glares daggers at him. He can’t make out Jotaro’s expression underneath the brim of his cap.

“He shot me,” Angelo continues, smirking at Kakyoin. Kakyoin snarls at him. “And when he pulled the arrow out, my Aqua Necklace appeared for the first time. Told me he had awakened powers in my mind – told me it was called a stand by a man named DIO.”

The cold from the rain sinks completely from Kakyoin’s clothes into his skin, numbing the muscle underneath, almost slowing his heart to a stop with the flood of ice.

“…DIO,” Jotaro says, voice enough degrees softer than his usual tone for it to be noticeable. “Did you just say DIO?”

Josuke looks between Kakyoin and Jotaro, frowning in concern. “Mr. Jotaro? Mr. Kakyoin? What is-?”

He’s interrupted by a yelp behind them, and Kakyoin can only jerk his head back, his spine whimpering at the twist.

There’s a kid about a few meters away, scrambling as the glove that Aqua Necklace was inside of holds his throat in a vice grip.

“For fuck’s sake,” Kakyoin exhales harshly, shooting a glare towards Angelo, who just laughs again.

“You idiots!” He cackles. “You asked why I wanted to tell my story – this is why! To distract you!”

Kakyoin clenches his teeth, fists tightening around the grips of his crutches, his body once more warming up with a fire of anger in his chest.

“Angelo-” Jotaro snarls, but Angelo cuts him off, gesturing towards Josuke with his head the best he can.

“Josuke!” Angelo demands, voice haggard and rough, “Release me from this damned rock right now!”

Josuke is stiff, frozen for a moment, before he spits to the side and turns slowly back around towards Angelo, the blue flame in his eyes visible once again.

“Seems like I didn’t use enough force the first time,” Josuke states lowly, glaring at Angelo with wide eyes underneath his wet, but still standing, pompadour. “So let’s try this again.”

“Heh?” Angelo questions, eyes widening. “What are you doing?! I’ll kill that damn kid if you don’t stop whining underneath that stupid hair of yours and free me from this rock right now!”

Josuke twitches, teeth gritting together. “What did you just say?”

“Josuke, wait-” Jotaro calls, taking a step towards Josuke, but halting when Crazy Diamond emerges from its user.

“The boy in the uniform will come after you!” Angelo declares, voice high in desperation, staring straight at Crazy Diamond and his fists. “He’s in this town, after all! It wouldn’t take long for him to hunt you down!”

Kakyoin blinks, also stepping forward. “Wait, Josuke, calm down-”

“What?” Jotaro barks at Angelo, before turning to Josuke, taking another step. “Josuke, don’t!”

Josuke is impulsive, though, and Kakyoin distantly thinks he must get it from his dad.

Crazy Diamond launches forward even as Kakyoin and Jotaro make it to Josuke in an attempt to hold him back, fists flying, the stand’s cries sprinkled in with Angelo’s screams. Kakyoin and Jotaro can only watch as his face is caved in punch after punch, only to be healed back with the rock.

Jotaro jerks his head over his shoulder, and Kakyoin unthinkingly does the same, only to see the glove trapping Aqua Necklace flop to the wet pavement with a slop, the stand as immobile as its user now was.

The kid is alright, if a little rattled, and stares at the glove in confusion and fear, shaking.

Kakyoin grits his teeth and turns towards Josuke and...well, it’s more rock than Angelo, now.

“I was too easy on you the first time,” Josuke spits, shaking his head, and Jotaro and Kakyoin let him go, frowning.

Jotaro huffs, face pinching in irritation. “Good grief…Josuke, we needed more information from him.”

Josuke simply shrugs, unbothered, and Kakyoin narrows his eyes at him. “This is serious Josuke! If what Angelo said was true and there’s an arrow that can give people stands, then more assholes like Angelo will come out of the woodwork -- especially since Angelo said the man responsible is in Morioh!”

Josuke does pause then, but he doesn’t slump, still holding his convictions. “It’s like you said: if what he said was true.”

“He mentioned DIO,” Jotaro says lowly, “he would have no business knowing that name if at least some part of that story wasn’t true.”

Josuke does slump then, looking alarmed if also confused. “Okay…then who is that, anyway?”

Kakyoin and Jotaro pause.

Jotaro opens his mouth to answer, but Kakyoin interjects. “Remember how I told you Jotaro and I did a mission together once?”

Jotaro jerks his head towards Kakyoin, confused, but Josuke nods, turning his gaze from Jotaro to Kakyoin.

Kakyoin sighs, pulling his sunglasses off his forehead and into one of the pockets of his cardigan. “…That mission was to fight DIO. He’s been a damn nuisance for over 100 years already, and now that he’s finally dead, he’s still causing trouble?”

Jotaro is silent, face stony. Josuke swallows thickly.

“DIO may have been defeated,” Jotaro picks up quietly, making both Josuke and Kakyoin turn to face him, “but the mystery of how he got his stand remained. DIO wasn’t born a standuser either.”

Kakyoin blinks. “What?”

Jotaro ignores him, staring solely at Josuke.

Josuke shakes his head. “…And you think it has something to do with the guy who gave Angelo his stand?”

Jotaro nods, before considering. “Well, less the man himself and more the bow and arrow he wields.”

“What?” Kakyoin repeats, smacking a crutch in front of Jotaro and vaulting himself forward into his personal space. “When the hell did you figure all that out?”

Jotaro tips the brim of his hat down, covering his eyes, and Kakyoin snarls, jerking one of his crutches forward and jabbing the tip of it into Jotaro’s foot. Jotaro twitches but otherwise doesn’t react. Out of his peripheral, Kakyoin can see Josuke jerk forward nervously, but he can’t care right now.

“Answer me!”

Jotaro stays silent, still, and Kakyoin grits his teeth, before reaching up and gripping the fabric of Jotaro’s coat.

Jotaro jolts then, jerking his head up the slightest bit, and Kakyoin catches how his eyes are wide in surprise for only a moment before Jotaro tilts his head down again.

“Kujo Jotaro,” Kakyoin seethes, and Jotaro sighs. Kakyoin twitches, the sound scraping against his ears like flint and rocks, the sparks igniting his blood.

“After…DIO,” Jotaro murmurs, voice jerky and short, like he doesn’t know where to start, “we investigated his mansion. Found his…”

Jotaro takes a deep breath, swallowing, and Kakyoin jerks on his coat sleeves. Jotaro glares at him from under the brim of his hat before dropping his head again. Coward, coward, coward-

“I found his diary. He mentioned some things, things that wouldn’t make sense if he had simply been born with a stand. We figured out he…used something to pull one out of himself. Figured out it was- an arrow, of some kind. We’ve been searching for the arrow – or arrows – since.”

“Who’s ‘we’?” Kakyoin asks lowly, staring daggers into Jotaro.

Jotaro’s mouth shuts then, and he stays quiet.

“Who’s ‘we’, Kujo?!” Kakyoin snaps, and Jotaro twitches in his hold.

“Polnareff and I. You and Avdol were at the hospital.” Jotaro mutters. Kakyoin’s eye twitches. Polnareff knew too, and didn’t tell me?

“Why didn’t you tell me,” Kakyoin seethes, his tone so flat the words come out more like a statement than a question. Jotaro angles his head to the side as if he’s trying to escape the situation in some way. Kakyoin’s eye twitches and he tugs on Jotaro’s coat sleeves again. “WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME?!”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says, voice wavering in a way Kakyoin can’t remember ever hearing it waver before, “you were in a coma, what do you-?”

“Why didn’t you tell me when I woke up, then?” Kakyoin counters, feeling, for all intents and purposes, like he was on fire, like liquid heat was running through his veins, despite the rain still falling on them. “Why didn’t Polnareff? Huh? I DESERVED TO KNOW!”

Jotaro’s hands clench and unclench into fists at his side. “It- I didn’t- I didn’t want you to know.”

Kakyoin blinks, hands almost dropping to his sides in shock before he grips the material of Jotaro’s coat even tighter than before, using the centimeters Jotaro has on him in height to his advantage and ducking closer, trying to stare Jotaro in the face, not allowing him a place to run. Jotaro jerks his head to the side and Kakyoin could almost laugh at how much like a panicked animal he’s behaving.

“Why?” Kakyoin hisses.

Jotaro is quiet for a moment, and Kakyoin clenches his teeth, preparing to shout again, when he says, “It- it was too dangerous. It is too dangerous. The stand arrows- they’re- they’re too important, and you-”

“And I what?!” Kakyoin barks, a fizz of sardonic chuckles rising up in his throat. “I can’t handle ‘dangerous’? Huh? I survived DIO, you stupid fucking-“

“But you almost died,” Jotaro counters quietly, “And I couldn’t- you- I didn’t-“

Jotaro sighs then, long and loud, lowering his hat even further down his face.

“You didn’t think I was strong enough,” Kakyoin finishes for him, snarling. Jotaro tenses underneath Kakyoin’s grip.

“No-”

Kakyoin shoves Jotaro back. Jotaro stumbles but catches himself against the wet pavement, and Kakyoin sneers. “No, I know, don’t worry. You’ve made it clear for ten years now you only see me as useless dead weight. That isn’t news to me, dammit, but-“ But Polnareff agreed? Polnareff kept this from me-? “-but I didn’t expect you to stoop so fucking low you would withold information I have a right to know because of it.”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro drawls, sounding 20 years older than he is and more than a little exasperated, “that’s not- it’s just- you were in a coma! You almost died! And when you woke up we had already been searching and it just- it didn’t- you-”

“I don’t wanna hear it, Kujo!” Kakyoin barks, feeling like stomping his feet like a child, feeling like the rain was acid against his skin, burning, burning, burning . “You had no fucking right to keep this from me. It’s not like just knowing would’ve broken me, you dick! I’m a part of the fight against DIO just as much as you and Polnareff. You know what he did and how badly I want to erase him from this world for good, you know it’s just as personal to me, just as important, you knew that! I deserved to fucking know!”

Jotaro stays quiet. Then,

“This is why I didn’t want you here,” he says quietly, still hiding his face behind his cap. “I had suspicions the stand arrows were involved, and now-” Jotaro clenches his teeth, working his jaw from side to side. “Just go home.”

“No fucking way,” Kakyoin sneers. “If that prick that Angelo was talking about is in town, Josuke’s still in danger. I already told you I’m not going anywhere until he’s safe. You agreed to it! So shut the fuck up. I’m so fucking sick of you thinking I can’t handle shit.”

Kakyoin steps forward again, his crutches clicking against the pavement noisily, and when he gets close enough, he points a finger into Jotaro’s chest.

“Because contrary to your belief, Joseph trusts me, the Speedwagon Foundation trusts me, and I know my own abilities more than you do. I am not here for you, you’re not the say-all, end-all, so stop fucking acting like you are and treat me like a damn adult for once!!”

Thunder booms in the distance, and the rain begins to fall harder. Jotaro is still hiding his face.

“Send me all the information you have on stand arrows as soon as you can,” Kakyoin seethes, “Or I’m taking it from you. Got it?”

Jotaro stays silent. Kakyoin clenches his teeth, the flame in his veins rising in height, and he doesn’t even realize he’s raising his fist to punch Jotaro until the impact jolts up his arm and Jotaro’s face is snapped to the side.

Jotaro silently works his jaw, slowly moving it from side to side, but says nothing. Kakyoin gives him one more second, before he scoffs, and turns around.

“Fuck you, Kujo,” Kakyoin seethes, not bothering to turn back as he says it.

I need to get to the hotel, Kakyoin thinks to himself, fury muddling his thoughts and making everything in his brain as unattainable as smoke.

As he marches away, he can just faintly hear Josuke say, “Mr. Jotaro…what the hell was that about?” over the creaks of his crutches and the rush of rain. A small bead of embarrassment wells in his chest at the reminder that he just freaked out in front of Josuke, but the heat of shame gets lost in the heat of anger.

But as he walks, Kakyoin can’t help but feel wounded too, like a long but shallow cut was sliced into his chest. I deserved to know. Even if he tried to bar me from investigating with them, I deserved to know. Why did Polnareff go along with it? I thought…

Kakyoin sighs, his breath puffing out in a cloud of condensation against the cold rain. He needed to get dry. But once that was done, he’d call the Speedwagon Foundation and get some information on the stand arrows – at least they wouldn’t lie to him, not as a family friend of the Joestars.

His back aches in that awful, puffy way it does when it’s cold, like one wrong move and it would give out like a popped balloon. The ache spreads slowly, burrowing into his tissues and muscle. His legs are numb from the cold, the jostling of them as he pitches forward with his crutches distant, like he was feeling it with someone else’s nerve-endings. Kakyoin sighs, an edge in his voice.

He closes his eyes. The rain continues to fall.

I need a nap.

Chapter 4: Intermission 1: Prelude

Notes:

hey all! fourth chapter (: we finally get sum details on the fallout
also this one has a lot of gore so just a heads up! i fear i mightve gone overboard on descriptions haha
also this chapter (youll see why) feels like a copout of an update so im doing my best to make sure chapter 5 is all ready to go next week >:) but i can't make any promises unfortunately
in case this is the last chapter i post for a bit though, i just want to say: dont worry! i should start posting again by september. i just like writing in bulk and then posting it once ive cleaned things up if that makes sense? so im sorry to ask but just give me some time,,,i promise more is to come

Chapter Text

When Kakyoin makes it back to his hotel room, he trips over his duffle bag.

“Fuck’s sake, ” Kakyoin hisses, kicking the bag further into the room and away from the doorway, before wincing as his back protests the movement, its cries echoing about his chest cavity.

Kakyoin grits his teeth, running a hand through his bangs, ignoring the sweat at the roots but feeling grossed out all the same.

Kakyoin jerkily slips his arms out of the bracers of his crutches, setting them against the wall next to the door, before he shucks off his cardigan and scarf, breathing harshly, ignoring how his back whimpers at the movement, the muscles reluctantly tensing to help him keep his balance, unhappy about their task.

Kakyoin snarls wordlessly as he lets the clothes simply fall to the floor. He kicks off his shoes and rips off his gloves, uncaring of where they land, and his crutches lose their balance, sliding down the wall and onto the floor.

“Come on!” Kakyoin snaps, voice edging into desperation, before he lowers into a crouch, hissing as he does, his anger pushing him to be fast, fast, fast, he needs to get energy out, but his pain urging him to slow down, slow down, slow down, it hurts.

His entire lower back shrieks when Kakyoin leans forward to grab his crutches, and he grits his teeth before jerkily righting himself, only for the snap movement to make his back hurt more, the nerves crying, crying, crying, all they ever did was fucking cry.

Kakyoin stands back up, taking the care to go slowly, but his anger spikes at the gentleness. He squeezes his eyes shut, continually grinding his teeth against each other. Why couldn’t his body figure out what it wanted him to fucking do?

Crutches back in his grasp, though, Kakyoin pitches forward towards his duffle bag, breath haggard in his lungs, coming out in short, hurried puffs. Sweat starts to form on Kakyoin’s brow again and he rolls his eyes at himself.

Kakyoin simply nudges the duffle bag towards the king-sized bed, falling into a pattern of pitch forward, nudge the bag, pitch forward, nudge the bag. Once the bag bumps against the bed frame, Kakyoin lets out a long sigh, before he moves gingerly around it and sits on the side of the bed, his weight sinking into the mattress.

Kakyoin simply sits for a moment, ignoring his back whining and scratching at his nerves as he slumps forward. He stares at his hands. His palms have gotten calluses since he’s had to use the crutches. Kakyoin curls his fingers around them and closes his eyes, breathing out slowly.

He breathes in after a moment of suspension, and his back momentarily flares in protest at the motion. Kakyoin’s upper lip picks up in a snarl and he sets his crutches down against the nightside table, taking more care to balance them this time so they don’t fall again.

Turning back to the duffle bag, Kakyoin huffs, eying the desaturated green material, and considers bending down and scooping it up onto the bed himself.

His back, as if sensing his intentions, begins wailing in agony again, sending the surrounding nerves into panic themselves. It feels like every atom that makes up the base of his spine is spazzing and jerking about, suddenly deciding that the very last thing they wanted was to make up his body any longer, but Kakyoin just scrubs his hands against his face before summoning Hierophant instead.

Hierophant’s lone tentacle easily shimmers into view, before it gracefully leans down and scoops up the duffle bag by one of its handles, then resting it against Kakyoin on the bed.

Kakyoin hums some sort of thanks, and Hierophant simply slips into his fingers, gently squeezing his palm. Some of the fire in Kakyoin’s chest eases, the flames battered down by the single reassurance, and Hierophant dissipates.

Kakyoin sighs again, running a hand through his hair, jerking his fingers through the locks before he makes it to the back of his head. He pulls out the hair tie holding his hair in a low ponytail.

His hair falls in a curtain around his face, and Kakyoin just rubs the bridge of his nose before he turns to the duffle bag.

His painkillers are in the side pocket, that damned orange plastic blinking at him between the netting. Kakyoin stares at it, unmoving for a moment, but his back lets out another cry, the sound echoing up his nervous system to make his useless brain produce pain receptors, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes before squeezing them shut as he reaches for the bottle.

Eyes still closed, Kakyoin unscrews the cap, movements fluid and practiced due to nine years of use. He holds out his other hand and shakes the bottle into it, feeling the small, round pills land in his hand.

After feeling the first few land, Kakyoin tilts the bottle straight again but still keeps his eyes closed. He raises his palm to his mouth and takes the dose, eyes still closed. He thinks he can feel three as he swallows, but he isn’t sure. He doesn’t want to be. He just wants his back to stop hurting.

Kakyoin sighs, shoulders slumping, before opening his eyes again, digging around the folds of the comforter to find where the cap went.

After a few seconds of rummaging, Kakyoin finds it, and caps the pill bottle again, eyes straying away from the labels and instructions on it.

He puts it back in his bag and gently pushes it off the bed before he simply flops down.

His hair is still wet from the rain and his roots are still crusted with dried sweat, but Kakyoin doesn’t care enough to get up and make his way to the shower right then.

He simply closes his eyes for a moment, breathing through the pain his back continuously relays back to him. His hotel room is quiet, the only sounds coming from the weather outside. The rain is slowing down, but it’s still coming nonetheless, tapping against the curtain-drawn window of his room.

Kakyoin opens his eyes again, staring up at the white ceiling. The small bit of grayish-blue lighting in his room is dimming, evident of the day coming to a close.

Kakyoin exhales, before he gingerly scoots up the bed, resting his head against one of the many pillows.

He closes his eyes, allowing his body to sink into the mattress as Hierophant sets up a barrier around the hotel room, stretching around the parameter in a practiced, fluid way.

He can shower after a quick nap…

As Kakyoin drifts off, the only thing that remains in focus is the pain in his back, slowly dying down as the medicine takes effect, but still present. It might always be.


Cairo, Egypt

January 16, 1989

After Joseph is confirmed to be stabilized, Jotaro can’t stop thinking of DIO’s sneering words about his friends dying.

He knows he was wrong about Avdol and Iggy – DIO had mocked him, saying that Avdol and Iggy were dead on the cold floors of his mansion, but Jotaro knew for a fact they had headed for the Speedwagon Foundation’s medical team after defeating Vanilla Ice with Polnareff – but he doesn’t actually know where Kakyoin is and the words DIO said about him can’t stop ringing in his head.

Right, Kakyoin Noriaki’s meddling…it’s a shame he had to die.

“Jiji,” Jotaro calls, and Joseph looks up at Jotaro’s looming form from his stretcher. Jotaro still wants to punch him for the stupid prank he pulled, but he resists, needing the information more than the stress release. “Where’s Kakyoin?”

Joseph hesitates a bit too long and Jotaro’s heart starts pounding.

“Jiji,” Jotaro presses, voice lowering into a growl, and Joseph buries his face in his hands, sighing deeply.

He raises his head, looking like his age for once, the wrinkles near his eyes, mouth, and on his forehead more pronounced under the harsh light of the ambulance than Jotaro had ever seen them before. “It’s-“

Jotaro lashes out, fist banging against one of the metal hand grips in the ambulance. “Where is he?”

Joseph pauses, swallowing thickly. “We were in an industrial part of town. South. He-” Joseph swallows again, sniffing. “…He should be in the remains of a water tower on some roof...shouldn’t be hard to find.” Well, at least he isn’t gonna stop me from trying to find him.

It’s vague directions but it’s enough. Despite the ambulance still moving, despite Joseph’s foreboding tone, despite his smarting ribs and aching shoulder, Jotaro kicks open the back doors. The doctors up front yell in confusion, and then in indignation, shouting at Jotaro to Stop, what are you doing?!

Jotaro turns to Joseph one last time, feeling like he was on fire with the coldest flames in existence. “Make sure someone follows me. A medical team.”

Joseph simply ducks his head in understanding and says nothing.

With that, Jotaro jumps out, leaving the doctors to deal with closing the swinging doors as he rolls the momentum out with his stand and then jumps back up, feet crashing against the pavement of the Cairo streets, eyes flashing wildly as he races through.

It really does feel like a fire in Jotaro’s chest, eating up his flesh and tissues and muscle like they were dry paper, but it hurts in the way ice does, sharp yet numbing, millions of tiny icicles stabbing into his flesh as the force rolls throughout him. Jotaro simply grits his teeth, ignores it, and runs, forcing the cold, Cairo winter air in and out of his lungs.

When the buildings around Jotaro start rising in height, meek appearances being washed away by advertisements and billboards and business signage, Jotaro turns into an alleyway, Star Platinum’s legs overlaying his own.

Jotaro breathes harshly, jerking up his gaze to lock eyes on his prize – the edge of one of the roofs of the buildings he’s sandwiched between. Jotaro sucks in a breath, crouches, and leaps.

Jotaro can distantly hear his stand cry out, a rush of power flooding his veins as Star Platinum’s strength merges with his own, and the lip of the roof rushes towards Jotaro’s face, the wind almost knocking his hat off.

Jotaro jerks an arm up, and his palm slaps against the concrete, his fingers digging in to find purchase, dirt and grit biting into his fingertips.

Jotaro swings his other arm up, raising himself up so his forearms rest on the edge, then kicks up a leg. The muscles in the appendage whine, no doubt past their breaking point, pulled too far, but Jotaro doesn’t care. His foot hooks onto the roof and Jotaro heaves himself up fully.

He stands, breaths coming in ragged huffs, and he remembers that he definitely has some broken ribs. All well. At least he’s not comatose. At least he can still do something.

Sucking in another breath, Jotaro summons Star Platinum once again, overlaying the stand’s legs on his own, and then he races towards the edge of the roof and jumps.

He lands with a smack of his soles against brick as he reaches the neighboring roof, and he only adjusts his hat and grimaces as he eyes the horizon with Star Platinum’s keen gaze overlaying his own, scanning for something amiss.

There, Jotaro spots, heart skipping a beat. Hundreds of meters away, he can see a deformed silhouette of a structure that seemingly used to be oval-shaped, bent and broken now.

Water tower on a roof, Jotaro remembers, and he begins running again.

Jotaro is sticky with sweat and blood, and the cold air whipping around him as he jumps from roof to roof with Star Platinum’s help just makes him shiver, but he keeps pushing, ignoring how the frigid air feels like ice in his lungs.

As Jotaro gets closer, he can see more details – and when he sees Kakyoin’s signature green uniform, lying limply in the midst of all the jagged, broken metal, Jotaro wills Star Platinum’s eyesight to stop merging with his own, if only to give him a few more seconds of blissful ignorance, his heart pounding low like it was stationed in his stomach and not his chest.

The attempt at denial doesn’t last long; even without the assistance of Star Platinum’s falcon-like eyes, Jotaro continues getting closer and thus, gets an increasingly better view of Kakyoin’s mutilated body.

He’s definitely unconscious (or so Jotaro hopes that’s all he is); his head hangs forward, bangs covering his eyes. There is a hole in his torso, jagged and crude, skin ripped and organs that never should’ve seen the light of day peeking out of what remains. Jotaro shudders when he sees it. He thought the worst thing he’d ever be witness to was the old man getting stabbed in the throat, but this was another level of gore and horror entirely.

He’s also drenched. The water tower more or less exploded when Kakyoin smashed into it, it seems. Water is everywhere and is still dripping down the roof to the streets below when Jotaro finally lands on the rooftop.

Jotaro only distantly feels the impact of landing zip up to his knees from his heels, like he’s seeing it happen to someone else rather than feeling it himself. He can’t stop staring at Kakyoin; his arms are hanging limply amid the wrangled metal, pinned in place. Dried blood is crusted against the side of his face and mouth.

For a moment, Jotaro thinks the worst – How long has it even been for the rest of the world? Two minutes? – taking a few steps towards Kakyoin before falling to his knees into the giant puddle the roof has become, feeling the water soak into his pants as he stares at the completely decimated body of his best friend.

He said he’d be okay, he said to trust him, what happened, what happened, what happened-

Kakyoin’s eyelids flutter though, purple peeking out between a white face, and Jotaro is so relieved the emotion floods into his stomach, up to his chest, up to the base of his throat, like he was a broken water tower himself.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro breathes, standing back up, taking another step towards Kakyoin.

Kakyoin lifts his head just a bit, his sweat and blood-crusted bangs shifting stiffly across his forehead. Kakyoin’s chest heaves like he’s trying to take a deep breath, and Jotaro’s stomach lurches when he can see the bottom of Kakyoin’s lungs, purple and shiny and shriveled, as they strain to follow through on the command, pulsing with the need to inflate.

Kakyoin rests his head back against the water tower, coughing lightly before he tries opening his eyes again. This time, he’s more successful.

He lifts his gaze to Jotaro, who’s only an arm’s length away now.

“…J’taro?” Kakyoin mutters, eyes scanning sloppily and slowly over Jotaro’s face before he closes them again, and Jotaro shudders with a silent sob, his throat closing up as the relief and a new brand of fear climb up his airway.

“It’s me,” Jotaro finally manages, his voice lacking the edge he needs to hide behind more than ever right now, gingerly stepping forward one more time and taking Kakyoin’s hand, gently bringing his arm down from where it was pinned against the metal. His fingers are so, so cold, and Jotaro tells himself it’s just because of the water and the freezing air.

“Oh, good,” Kakyoin murmurs, glassy eyes straining to focus on Jotaro’s face, but he ends up going near-cross-eyed at the effort. Jotaro would laugh if it were under any other circumstance. “You’re alive. We won then?”

“Shut the fuck up,” Jotaro snaps as he slowly, with Star Platinum’s help, dismantles Kakyoin from the bent and torn metal of the water tower. It was still soaked. It reeked of iron and something a little meatier, like beef that had been left out to thaw for just a touch too long. Jotaro felt like throwing up, felt like his head was too light and his body too heavy.

Kakyoin grimaces as he’s moved, face scrunching up in pain, and Jotaro has to bite back apology after apology as he and Star Platinum continue to peel him away from the wet, broken tower.

Kakyoin inhales sharply when Jotaro has him slouch his upper body against his shoulder as he works on gently freeing his legs. Jotaro freezes, but Kakyoin continues to squirm, sharp gasps filling the air.

“Jo- Jojo-” Kakyoin wheezes, and Jotaro bites his lip before simply having Star Platinum yank the metal away from Kakyoin’s legs, freeing them but breaking the water tower even more, the metal groaning and screeching away under Star Platinum’s hands. All well, Jotaro thinks desperately as he lays Kakyoin down, kneeling along with him as he sets Kakyoin’s legs flat against the roof, keeping his torso cradled in his arms. It’s already broken anyway.

Kakyoin sighs, closing his eyes, head lolling the slightest bit into the crook of Jotaro’s arm, and Jotaro’s heart squeezes, like the valves connecting it to his veins turned traitor and wrapped around the muscle instead, choking it out.

Jotaro slouches, and, uncaring that more water will soak into his pants, settles into a cross-legged sitting position, gently bringing his free arm up to brush away Kakyoin’s stiff, crusty bangs.

A trickle of warmth seeps into one of the knees of his pants, and Jotaro jerks his gaze, only to see his own leg staring at him through Kakyoin’s wound, blood still splattering from it.

Jotaro swallows back bile and a rush of nausea, and instead rests Kakyoin down in his lap, huddled safely against his stomach, as he takes his jacket off slowly, trying not to jostle the boy in his arms. Kakyoin makes a small noise as his face is settled against Jotaro’s hip.

“You smell like sweat,” Kakyoin protests quietly, wrinkling his nose, and it’s so out of left-field that Jotaro barks out a laugh, slipping his jacket off his shoulders and pulling the redhead closer with an arm that’s now free from his sleeve.

“Shut the hell up,” he says before gingerly draping his jacket over the wound in Kakyoin’s torso, gut lurching at the sight. Blood was still oozing from the hole, though the cold temperature of the water probably helped to staunch the flow. Still…how the hell was Kakyoin still alive?

Kakyoin tries to chuckle, but he ends up with a mouthful of blood for it, and Jotaro has to turn him onto his side so he doesn’t choke to death.

Kakyoin retches, throat trying its damnedest to get the blood out of its airway, and Jotaro feels completely and utterly useless, only able to stare as his best friend wheezes and huffs and coughs, red flaking against and staining his teeth, before he flops down onto his back in Jotaro’s arms.

“Hm…” Kakyoin hums, the sound crackly and broken from the rocks of his throat, “Don’t think…I have much longer now.”

Jotaro grits his teeth, fingers digging into Kakyoin’s shoulder. “No. Shut up. The Speedwagon Foundation is on its way. Just hold on, okay?”

Kakyoin shakes his head, the movements only centimeters. Jotaro can only truly track it because of Kakyoin’s bangs stiffly shifting side to side across his forehead with the motion. “Can’t control that, Jo…Jojo.”

Jotaro grits his teeth, shoulders hunched, as he bows his head closer to Kakyoin’s, bringing his other arm to wrap around Kakyoin’s chest. “I said shut up. Shut up, you asshole, just listen to me for once-”

Kakyoin chuckles again, only to cough and wheeze because of it, and he sounds so weak, so fragile, so completely out of character, and Jotaro doesn’t know what to do, everyone keeps dying and he doesn’t know what to do. Star Platinum shimmers into existence beside Jotaro then, but he only hardly notices.

Star Platinum reaches into Kakyoin’s chest, and, precise as always, finds Kakyoin’s heart, finds where to place his fingers, and pumps the organ for him, giving the straining muscles a break.

Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably, his brows furrowing in confusion, but Jotaro just says, “Shut up. Shut up. Just- be quiet, Kakyoin,” before he can say anything.

Kakyoin sighs, grimacing, cracking open his eyes into slits again. Jotaro almost wishes he wouldn’t, wishes Kakyoin couldn’t see the panic and fear in his face, but the reminder that Kakyoin is still alive is more welcomed than the potential wound to his pride isn’t.

“Thank you...for saving me,” Kakyoin heaves, voice rough and cracked like the flakes of dried blood on the side of his face. “Sss…sorry I couldn’t do- more.”

“Wh- what the fuck are you talking about?” Jotaro croaks, the sound alarmingly close to wet, fear and anger messily sloshing up to his throat from his chest, trying to choke him, maybe even drown him.

Kakyoin’s eyes finally focus on Jotaro’s face, and he smiles -- it’s thin, but because his mouth is so goddamn wide, it’s noticeable. “You gave me...a second chance. Gave me-” Kakyoin grits his teeth, shuddering, and Jotaro’s hands skitter, Star Platinum nervously continuing to pump Kakyoin’s heart.

Kakyoin heaves, eyelids starting to slip closed again, but his pupils fight to remain on Jotaro’s face.

“Gave me…a real life. I’m just…s’rry I couldn’t do more, with it.” Kakyoin finishes, and Jotaro furiously shakes his head because no, no, no-

“No,” Jotaro snarls, his voice wavering too much for it to be threatening, “No, what kind of life is this? What kind of life is dying at 17 for a family you only knew for 50 days?”

Kakyoin coughs, but it sounds like a laugh, and it rings in Jotaro’s head like it broke his eardrums. “Th’ best life. ‘m glad…” Kakyoin’s eyes slip closed again, and Jotaro shudders, accidentally jostling him.

“It wasn’t shit. You deserve more than this. You’re not going to fucking die, not because-”

“Did you get m’ message?” Kakyoin asks abruptly, and though his voice is so, so quiet, it stops Jotaro in his tracks anyway.

“What?” Jotaro asks, the sound coming out wet and broken like Kakyoin’s body.

“M’ message…DIO could stop time…did- did Mr. Joestar-?”

Another full-body shudder takes over Jotaro, and Star Platinum looks at its user in concern, but Jotaro just shakes his head rapidly. “Fuck. Fuck, Kakyoin, did you- yes. I got it. But I’m not letting you die because you were trying to send a message-”

“It’s the least I could do for you,” Kakyoin murmurs.

For me. For me. For me. Jotaro cannot stop staring, eyes wide, cold making his arms and legs go numb.

“I never asked that of you,” Jotaro croaks, voice so wet and so dry at the same time, and it makes him want to claw his own throat. “I never wanted- I didn’t-”

Kakyoin chuckles sleepily, turning his face to rest against Jotaro’s bare arm. He’s so cold, his cheek like ice against his skin. Jotaro blinks, and his vision becomes blurry, distorted, and it’s only then Jotaro realizes he’s on the verge of tears.

“I know you didn’t,” Kakyoin says, mouth only just able to move to form the words, speech slurring as his lips and tongue give up in their effort to speak. “But I wanted to.”

Jotaro bites his lip, tearing at the skin as the fast, swirling emotions in his throat surge even higher, making it to his eyes, blurring his vision. “Why? Why would you want that?”

Kakyoin smiles again, humming, eyelids fluttering but never quite able to open. “Already told you, s...stupid; ‘s least I could do. F…F’r my best friend,”

Kakyoin’s head slumps further against Jotaro’s stomach, and Jotaro can only stare. Kakyoin’s eyes aren’t completely closed, a slip of both his pupils showing off how glazed over they are. There’s red splattered on his hands and it shows off how pale Kakyoin’s skin is in contrast. Another trickle of blood creeps down Kakyoin’s lip, slowly. Jotaro’s knee is still getting soaked with his blood.

Jotaro blinks, and his vision focuses the tiniest bit as a tear falls from his eye, taking most of the blur with it. His hearing has faded only to ringing. He can do nothing but stare at Kakyoin, limp in his arms, as Star Platinum continues to pump his heart for him, tears falling and falling and falling, adding to the bloody puddle on the roof.

Jotaro screams when a hand clasps onto his shoulder, his head whipping up with an animalistic snarl as he lowers down to cover Kakyoin with his body.

The person raises both hands in surrender, and Jotaro blinks, before realizing it’s a doctor, and behind her is a team with a stretcher, and a helicopter.

“Can you hear me, Mr. Kujo?” She asks, and Jotaro can, but only faintly. He nods anyway. “We need to take Mr. Kakyoin to the hospital now. Can you please let go of him?”

Jotaro says nothing. The doctor motions to her team anyway.

Jotaro blinks, not moving, as the medical team steps past the doctor and over to him and Kakyoin, setting the stretcher down in front of them.

Jotaro turns his head to watch them but doesn’t put up a fight when they gently pry Kakyoin from his arms and lay him down on the stretcher. They keep the jacket over him. Jotaro feels like throwing up again.

The team begins to move then, heading back to the helicopter, and Jotaro stares down at the bloody, wet concrete for a moment, as the events after Kakyoin lost consciousness begin catching up to him. His muscles are so tired, the ache slowly grounding him again. Jotaro’s brow furrows slowly, and he blinks, before realizing it’s not just an ache, it feels like his muscles are being pulled-

The doctor’s hand leaves his shoulder as she, presumably, goes to see to Kakyoin, and Jotaro jumps up, twirling around as he does, still feeling the strain on his muscles that let him know Star Platinum is still by Kakyoin’s side, pumping his heart, but the distance had to be closed now if that were to continue.

“Wait- WAIT-!” Jotaro shrieks, rushing forward and grabbing the doctor’s sleeve. She jumps, turning to Jotaro with wide eyes and furrowed brows, but he continues before she can say anything, “He- my stand- I-“ Jotaro viciously scrubs his face with his free hand, biting at his palm as he does before he continues with, “I’m the one who’s keeping his heart beating right now. You have to let me go with him.”

She frowns, the furrow between her brows shifting to something sadder than surprise. “Sir-”

“I’m serious,” Jotaro hisses, glaring at her. “You’re Speedwagon Foundation, you know this situation has centered on weird supernatural shit. This is a part of that. Please,” Jotaro closes his eyes then, biting the inside of his lip so hard he almost thinks he’ll tear a chunk off, every fiber of his being hating the show of pathetics he’s putting on, but if it can get him to Kakyoin ... “I- I can keep him alive while you do surgery. And whatever else you’ll need to do. Please.”

She is still frowning, her dark face looking flushed out in the early dawn light. Jotaro counts the seconds it takes for her to respond, teeth grinding harder and harder against each other the longer it takes.

Finally, she sighs and says, “Okay. But be sure to stay out of our way. This is going to be one hell of an emergency already.”

Jotaro could’ve dropped from the relief that floods his veins, but he knows he’s not out of the woods yet. So instead, he nods, lets go of the doctor, and rushes up the steps of the helicopter, heart pounding a tune of desperation, less of a ba-bump and more of a please-live in his chest.


Multiple surgeries, flatline scares, and almost a full day later, somewhere around eight in the evening, Jotaro stands in Kakyoin’s machine-crowded hospital room alone.

He listens to the clicks and whirs of the machines keeping him stable, staring at, but not registering, how pale his face is. He wonders how many times Kakyoin has been in the hospital since knowing him.

The thought almost makes him wince, but the dull ache echoing from his whole body, particularly his chest, keeps him from finding the anxious energy to do so.

He stares down at his first friend’s -- best friend’s -- body. Kakyoin was not fragile, Jotaro knew this objectively. Fragile people couldn’t have stands -- that was the whole reason Jotaro was here, wasn’t it? His mother didn’t have the strength to handle her stand, so they had to get rid of the source -- fragile people couldn’t have stands, but Kakyoin had had Hierophant Green his whole life.

This objectivity does not stop Jotaro from thinking Kakyoin looked so small on the nth hospital bed he’s been on in only one and a half months. His skin is so pale it blended into the white cot and white hospital gown and white floor and white walls and white ceiling. His hair is the only striking color in the room and it churns Jotaro’s gut because it’s the same color as the red staining the bandages and cotton in the trash can.

So many tubes go into the hole in Kakyoin’s stomach that Jotaro’s brain forgets to make him queasy, because while he is looking at the brutal mutilation of his friend, there are now too many wires and -ilators hooked into it that he can hardly recognize it as human. It’s like Kakyoin cuts off after his neck; the rest is covered with metal and bandages and cloth and Jotaro’s brain can’t bridge that to the fact that it’s still Kakyoin under all of it to make it click.

Jotaro stares at his friend and wonders how many more times Kakyoin will end up here, hurt, unconscious, on death’s door, because of him.

It’s the least I could do. For my best friend.

The last words Kakyoin said to him haven’t stopped ringing in his head since he said them. Jotaro feels nauseous. He might as well have been the one to punch the hole in Kakyoin’s stomach, huh? The only reason Kakyoin was there was because- because of him-

Jotaro closes his eyes and swallows, taking his hat off with one hand and running the other through his hair. He’s exhausted. He hasn’t slept for over 36 hours now. His own injuries were only treated haphazardly, solely because Jotaro was passing out due to his stupid broken ribs robbing him of oxygen, and he didn’t want to leave it up to chance on if Star Platinum would continue pumping Kakyoin’s heart if he went unconscious.

But now that the ordeal was done, he should probably go get a brace for his shoulder as the doctor recommended. He doesn’t think he’ll be able to sleep, though.

The beeps that signify Kakyoin’s heartrate ring in Jotaro’s ears like he’s underwater.

Jotaro opens his eyes again and forces himself to look Kakyoin in the face. He has an oxygen mask on, his lungs not yet healed enough to brave getting air on their own. Jotaro found out during one of the many surgeries he’d had to watch while pumping his heart that both were punctured with broken ribs.

Such intense sudden impact, the doctors had exclaimed as they worked on keeping Kakyoin breathing. How was it possible?

Jotaro knew. He was capable of the same thing.

His stomach is empty -- somewhere around the second lung being inflated and the rib stabbing it being removed and reset, he had finally thrown up -- but it still lurches regardless at the reminder of what he was capable of.

Jotaro’s so tired. But as tired as he is, he knows Kakyoin is worse off.

It’s the least I could do. For my best friend.

Best friend...right.

Jotaro bites his lip, teeth digging into the skin harshly, the muscle trying to push against the pressure, but the skin covering it is not strong enough, splitting under the edge of his teeth. The taste of iron fills his mouth and Jotaro’s stomach surges again, churning against its own walls. Jotaro swallows thickly.

Kakyoin deserves a best friend who wouldn’t get him killed before he was 20 damn years old.

Jotaro exhales shakily, getting one last view of Kakyoin. Despite the mess of tubes and wires and -iltators and mask attached to Kakyoin’s entire body, his expression looks relatively peaceful. He looks how he did when he was asleep, memories of how Kakyoin had looked when they’d shared hotel rooms and slept next to each other when camping outside mirroring the expression Kakyoin has now.

He was beautiful, despite his dirty hair and too-pale face and unnatural stillness and mess of medical equipment in and on him.

Jotaro’s heart aches, like it was scraped against a patch of gravel and left bleeding as the grit dug into the cuts.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

Jotaro turns on his heel and leaves the room.

Chapter 5

Notes:

hey all!! sorry this is a week and a day later than I hoped it would be but here it is >:)

so first things first, potential content warning: this chapter might have minor self-harm? it's not that kak like consciously thinks "I want to hurt myself", but he gets frustrated and has nothing to take it out on so he scratches at his scalp once or twice. if this will be a problem for u but u still wanna read the section, I would suggest only skimming the first phone conversation! (that is, only read dialogue and not the actions happening inbetween)

but second things: after this I'm afraid I won't be posting again until September sometime, but please don't worry! again it's just cause I like writing chapters in bulk before posting them. I'm not giving anything up!! just doing work behind the scenes lol
please just be patient with me, I promise I'll make it worth the wait to the best of my ability
but having said that, onto the second uhh main arc I guess! i hope yall are excited cause I sure am >:)

Chapter Text

Kakyoin wakes up to a ringing in his ears.

His eyes open slowly to face the shadows of night in his room, Hierophant’s tentacles strung about the area, their trademark green glow gently brightening up the place like lines of fairy lights.

Kakyoin blinks blearily before slowly sitting up, leaning against the headboard of his bed, and rubbing his eyes, the ringing in his ears fading as he does. His movements are slow, languid, like his muscles are having trouble tensing up enough from their relaxed state to listen to him.

Kakyoin hums which transitions into a sigh, leaning his head back, thumping it against the cool, polished wood of the headboard. The rain has stopped now, the only evidence of its existence being the occasional drips from the gutter somewhere at the top of the building, falling all the way down to the wet earth and puddles below, which Kakyoin can hear from his ground-level hotel room.

He simply stares at nothing for a moment as Hierophant quietly unravels from around the hotel room, winding back to Kakyoin’s sleepy, almost dazed, form. One of Hierophant’s tentacles brushes at Kakyoin’s arm, and Kakyoin hums, closing his eyes.

“Hey buddy,” Kakyoin mumbles, his lips barely parting for the words to be let out. “Nothing suspicious happen while I was out?”

Hierophant pats his arm as if to say, Nothing to worry about, boss.

Kakyoin hums. “Good...that’s good.”

Hierophant hesitates as if concerned, but Kakyoin recalls him and the stand disappears.

Kakyoin just breathes for a minute, his brain finally producing some endorphins -- or maybe that was just his drugs’ doing, Kakyoin thinks, making him grimace -- as his lungs expand with air and then deflate again, over and over, the muscles and tissues stretching and falling lax with the movement. It was almost ridiculous how good simply breathing could feel.

He almost falls back asleep, but he hears a door down the hall close suddenly, and the echo of the thud and click as the door locks into place makes Kakyoin jump, his eyes jerking open again.

He hums, before stretching his arms, his muscles squeezing in appreciation.

Kakyoin rolls his head to look at the desk in the far corner that his room had been provided with. On top of it is a phone.

“Hierophant,” Kakyoin murmurs, and a tentacle reappears, twisting out towards the phone.

It snakes over to the desk, slipping under to unplug it from the outlet, before rising back up and wrapping around the holder, hoisting it up and carefully carrying it back to Kakyoin’s nightstand.

Kakyoin sits up a little more as Hierophant carries it over, rubbing his eyes and yawning, his eyelids heavy but his brain slowly waking up again. Hopefully, this wouldn’t take long, and Kakyoin could go back to bed soon…

Kakyoin huffs out a small laugh at hismelf. Maybe Josuke was right; I am old.

Hierophant sets the phone down on the nightstand, and loops under with the cord to plug it into the new outlet.

Kakyoin can hear the low-pitched, smooth slide of metal against plastic as it’s slotted into the wall, and he rubs his eyes one more time before he reaches over and flicks on the bedside lamp.

His room is bathed in warm orange, sharpening the shadows of the room, and Kakyoin squints as his eyes protest the sudden flood of light. His back is trying to send his brain...something, some sort of signal, but all Kakyoin really feels from the tangle of nerves his spine is is just static. No doubt it’s the work of his painkillers.

Kakyoin hums and then reaches over to the phone, picking it up with one hand and slowly tapping at the number pad with the other.

He dials the Speedwagon Foundation’s headquarters, the number so ingrained that his fingers automatically dart to the corresponding keys. Kakyoin isn’t sure if he still actually remembers the phone number with his conscious brain, or if it’s through muscle memory only.

Regardless, he finishes dialing, and he brings the receiver to his ear.

There’s only one ring before a secretary picks up. “Good morning! This is the Speedwagon Foundation. How may I help you?”

Kakyoin blinks, his brain starting to chug along faster to catch up with conversation. Right, timezones…

“Er- hi. This is Kakyoin Noriaki.”

The secretary pauses for a moment, probably searching his name in some database, before saying, “Ah, Mr. Kakyoin, a friend of the Joestars I see! What can I do for you?”

Kakyoin squints, smothering a snort that wants to escape his chest. Nepotism...all well. At least I benefit from it in this case.

“Can you forward me to Mohammed Avdol?” Kakyoin asks instead, and the SPW secretary pauses for a moment. Probably checking if Avdol was in a meeting… Kakyoin does finally snort at the mental image of Avdol being stuck in a boardroom with a bunch of businessmen.

“Sure, he should be free right now,” The secretary says after the pause, and Kakyoin nods.

After a few more distant clacks that Kakyoin can only assume come from the secretary’s computer, he’s put on hold as the call transfers.

Kakyoin closes his eyes and leans his head back, holding the phone a distance away from his ear so he doesn’t have to endure the preppy hold music for as long. It’s way too late for that...

He doesn’t have to wait long, though; after only a minute of being on hold, the phone clicks as the call pulls through, and Kakyoin jerks the receiver back to his ear.

“Kakyoin!” Avdol greets, and Kakyoin relaxes against the headboard, something about hearing his old friend’s deep, clear voice ringing out from the phone making him sink more fully into the bed, his muscles going lax.

“Avdol,” Kakyoin breathes out in greeting, closing his eyes.

“It’s been so long!” Avdol says, his smile audible in his voice, as infectious as it would be in person that Kakyoin can’t help but smile as well.

“Yeah,” Kakyoin murmurs, “sorry.”

“Don’t be,” Avdol easily brushes off, “we’ve both been busy I’m sure. You’re still looking for a topic to write your doctorate on after all, yeah?”

Kakyoin hums, flashes zipping through his mind of the last several months he spent in Greece, doing nothing of real value except becoming absolutely certain he could never be interested enough to write a dissertation on the culture there. “...Mm. Sure. It’s kinda on hold right now, though,”

“Oh?” Avdol prompts, and Kakyoin blinks, eyes opening a little bit more from the half-lidded state they had been in.

He sits up a bit, swallowing, suddenly reminded of the reason for his call, something tight taking root where his stomach would be if he still had it. “Yeah, I…” Kakyoin breathes out a quick sigh, steeling himself, before saying, “I’m, uh, back in Japan right now, for a favor for Mr. Joestar.”

Avdol pauses. “Really?” He asks, tone even but voice heightened in curiosity, and Kakyoin has to wonder if Avdol even knows about Josuke. What was with his friend group becoming so secretive lately?

“Er- yeah,” Kakyoin starts, stepping as hesitantly as he would if he was trying to cross an iced pond that he wasn’t sure was completely frozen over. “...Do you know about his son?”

Avdol hums an affirmation and Kakyoin lets out a relieved breath. “I know...some, at least. Mr. Joestar hasn’t told me much himself, but Suzi -- Mrs. Joestar -- has called me to talk a little. I was just as much a friend of hers as I was Mr. Joestar’s,” He explains. “But the calls mostly focus on her feelings and her and Mr. Joestar’s marriage, not his son.”

Kakyoin nods. “He’s a good kid.” He hesitates, squinting. “He’s been through a lot, the past week. But he’s strong. He has a stand, you know?”

“Oh?” Avdol asks, and Kakyoin can hear how he perked up over this tidbit of information, making him smile. “I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised...if Suzi was right and he is 16 now, he would’ve been alive during the...during the journey to Egypt. It’s possible he developed his stand from that.”

Kakyoin nods. “Mhm. Don’t know if that’s for sure the reason, but he’s had his stand since he was a kid.”

“Fascinating…” Avdol murmurs and Kakyoin smiles again -- but the muscles are tight as if the sludge in the center of his chest was winding them back, coercing them into tension-strung wires.

“He’s a good kid,” Kakyoin repeats. “I’m glad Mr. Joestar called me in to watch over him.”

Avdol pauses. “...Oh. Yeah,” He starts, voice jerky with confusion, “but- I just- didn’t Mr. Joestar already send Jotaro to Japan regarding that matter?”

Kakyoin scowls, rolling his head to pin the phone to his shoulder with the weight of it. “Sure. He did. But his job is actually mostly digging around the stand business here, and apparently, he can’t also keep the kid safe while he does that. So Mr. Joestar sent me to watch over Josuke -- the kid.”

Avdol hums again, tone low in minor disapproval, and Kakyoin squints at it, the tight sludge in taking residence in the hole his stomach left spreading out to the rest of his chest cavity.

“I’m actually calling in relation to that -- because he can’t actually do anything on his own despite his arrogance-”

“Kakyoin…” Avdol says, tone chastizing, but Kakyoin’s eyes just narrow.

“Despite his arrogance,” Kakyoin continues, and Avdol sighs, making him twitch, “and so the kid got involved in stand nonsense.”

Avdol does pause then, thoughtful, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath, his lungs’ attempt to get air stunted due to the tightness still spreading around them.

“And since it’s my job to help the kid,” Kakyoin leads, “I need to be able to help fight -- which is fine,” Kakyoin spits when he hears Avdol take a breath to say something, “-- and which is why I am calling you right now.”

Avdol pauses, the silence heavy with disapproval and worry and sadness, tangled together like a rope made of three twined threads, snaking around Kakyoin’s throat, rough fibers biting into the skin. He twitches again, but he doesn’t comment. “...Where are you going with this?” Avdol finally asks, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“I don’t know how confidential this is,” Kakyoin starts dryly, “so I decided I’d just go straight to you.”

Avdol hums, his tone monotonous, an irritated prompt for Kakyoin to continue. Kakyoin swallows back a sudden wave of thick, cold dread that tries to wash up his throat.

“Care to fill me in on what stand arrows are?”

Silence rings out between the phone line, only the soft static of long-distance proving that Avdol hadn’t hung up. Kakyoin is holding his breath despite his heart falling, falling, falling, down the chasm of his chest, down to the depths of his stomach, and getting ensnared by his intestines.

Finally, he can hear Avdol inhale softly. “What happened?”

Kakyoin can feel a match light itself on the tightened muscles of his stomach, and then fall to set his gut ablaze. “So you did know- and you did keep this from me!” He snarls, lip curling in anger.

Avdol sighs, sounding all of his 30-something years, and Kakyoin has half the mind to feel bad for his accusatory stance. Still, if this was proof of anything, it’s that he was purposefully kept out of the loop…

“What happened?” Avdol asks again, his voice soft, only just coming through the receiver.

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. “Does that matter? Just give me the gist and I won’t even badger you about why you decided to leave me in the dark, even though I had a right to kno-”

“Kakyoin,” Avdol interjects, voice still quiet and full of faux gentleness, like he’s trying to calm a spooked animal, making Kakyoin grit his teeth, jaw shaking with the tension, “I can’t…I don’t…”

He sighs again. Kakyoin can feel mean comments building on his tongue, like the venom dripping from a snake’s fangs into its own maw, but he keeps his mouth shut for now.

“I understand how it might look, and how you might feel, but-”

“Oh, okay, so we are gonna get into this,” Kakyoin snarls, and Avdol just sighs. Kakyoin swears he can see red, that painfully familiar fire in his veins flaring and spitting like a hooded snake, flickering past his eyes. “Do not give me that-”

“You have a right to know,” Avdol says, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth, almost biting his tongue. “You’re right that perhaps it was unfair to not tell yo-”

“‘Perhaps?!’” Kakyoin barks, fingers tightening around the phone in his hand, tips digging into the plastic, “just ‘perhaps?’ You literally just admitted I had a right to kn-”

“You have a right to know why we didn’t tell you,” Avdol amends, and Kakyoin’s face pinches into an animalistic snarl, teeth bared at nothing as the words dance around his skull, bouncing off the insides of his head, making him dizzy, making him overwhelmed, he’s out of control, he needs to be in control, dammit.

“You were in your coma when we found out DIO wasn’t a natural standuser,” Avdol’s baritone voice begins to softly explain, not at all the commanding or charming or friendly tone Kakyoin knew as a teenager. “And you were in rehabilitation when we found out he got one through a special type of arrow specifically-”

“So what,” Kakyoin spits, clutching the phone so tightly a part of him worried it would splinter into plastic and wiring right in his hand, “because I- I was an addict, I didn’t get to know? I was too weak to know-?”

“Kakyoin,” Avdol interrupts sternly, voice rolling over Kakyoin and making him feel like he was drowning in boiling water, “that’s not it. I know you know that’s not it.”

“Then what the hell was it?!” Kakyoin snaps, fingers shaking, shoulders wracking with rage. Hierophant slips out and curls around his wrist comfortingly, but Kakyoin doesn’t acknowledge it. “What else could it possibly have been, huh?!”

“You needed to focus on getting better,” Avdol says, voice regaining the level of composure Kakyoin was used to it having, “and we- Polnareff, actually, was the one who decided, if you knew about the stand arrows…it would distract you from that.”

Kakyoin’s heart stops racing, tripping over its own pace, and his vision blacks out for a moment.

Kakyoin blinks, and his vision comes back, his grip on the phone now so light it almost slips out of his hands. “...Polnareff? Polnareff decided-?”

“Jotaro didn’t want you to know about DIO when you woke up,” Avdol starts, voice low with a smooth rumble, just like thunder, “and Polnareff and I agreed to keep it from you so you could focus on school -- and on your life in general.”

Kakyoin twitches.

“Then, we found out it was arrows specifically, and Polnareff didn’t want you to know so you could focus solely on getting better while at rehabilitation.” Avdol finishes. “...And I agreed.”

Kakyoin feels like the room is spinning around him, confusion and rage and hurt sloshing in his gut, oil on water, fire on oil, smoke curling up his throat and watering his eyes.

Kakyoin furiously blinks the moisture away, willing his anger to evaporate it as he digs the nails of his free hand into his palm, small pinpricks of pain biting into his flesh.

“You had no right,” Kakyoin finally says, lowly, tone akin to a snake weaving through tallgrass, “you had no right- who the fuck do you think you are, getting to make that decision? I could’ve helped- I could’ve- I thought-” I thought we were friends. The words stick to Kakyoin’s throat like flies to a honey trap, childish and helpless and pathetic and so, so weak.

“We weren’t going to keep you in the dark forever,” Avdol offers weakly, voice beginning to become edged with desperation, and Kakyoin rolls his again-watering eyes, scoffing.

“Yeah, sure, maybe, but it’s been ten years already. Were you going to keep me in the dark until it was over and dealt with?” He snaps sarcastically.

But Avdol stays quiet at the accusation and Kakyoin can feel himself become engulfed in flame, like something in him exploded and sent the flames flying everywhere, inside and out.

“Were you seriously never planning on letting me help? Not even a fucking little?!”

“We had already come so far-” Avdol starts, sounding more than a little exasperated, and Kakyoin lets out a bubble of laughter, his voice edged with fury.

“It took you years to find out it was even an arrow, don’t fuck with me! There’s no real reason you couldn’t have told me when I woke up from the coma! Just because fucking Kujo doesn’t trust me anymore doesn’t mean you needed to follow in his-”

“It’s not about Jotaro,” Avdol argues quietly, and Kakyoin is about to snark something back when he continues with, “DIO had already taken so much from you.” It’s almost like a whisper, the words only gently brushing against Kakyoin’s eardrums from the speaker of the phone, but they shut Kakyoin up as effectively as if they had been yelled.

There is a pause, but it only lasts for a moment.

“He didn’t -- doesn’t -- need to take more years of your life-”

“That’s bullshit,” Kakyoin snarls, snapping back into reality, his voice alarmingly wet, prompting him to scrub his free hand against his eyes roughly, “he took your arms , but still you-“

“And he took your legs,” Avdol counters, voice deep in desperation and anger, the loudest it’s been since the greeting that started the conversation, “and your spine, and your stomach, and your last year of high school, and your dream of attending school in Cairo, and your freewill, and-”

“SHUT UP!” Kakyoin shrieks, squeezing his eyes shut.

There is a pause where the only sound is Kakyoin shakily breathing, his lungs feeling like they collapsed with how useless they currently are at getting oxygen back to his brain. Kakyoin’s head is spinning, he is going to be sick-

“I- Kakyoin,” Avdol starts, voice immediately dropping the venom it had only a sentence ago, “I’m so sorry, that was too much- I just-”

“Shut up,” Kakyoin shakily snarls, voice lacking the edge he needs to stabilize it but not the venom he needs to lash out, tears welling up in his eyes again before he hastily scrubs his face once more, teeth clenched, eyes beginning to feel sore and raw.

Avdol listens to him then, a guilty silence plaguing his line of the call as Kakyoin breathes haggardly, his throat continuously catching like something was stuck, like something was choking him from the inside out. His spine is starting to ache again through the painkillers. Kakyoin digs the fingers of his free hand into his hair and angrily scratches an arc across his scalp.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, focusing on his lungs more than his throat as he does it in an attempt to stop choking . It kind of works.

Kakyoin takes another breath and runs a hand through his hair before he tightens his grip on the phone again.

“Regardless of what you wanted for me,” Kakyoin spits lowly, “I know now. And I need to protect the kid — protect Josuke. So tell me everything so I can be prepared, dammit!”

Avdol is quiet, still, and Kakyoin needs to remind himself that the presence of static means he’s still on the line; he hasn’t hung up...yet.

Then, Avdol lets out a long, long sigh, once again sounding his age. “...Alright,” he concedes, and Kakyoin can picture the gesture of his head as he says it, “...that’s fair. I’ll fax you the most up-to-date file.”

Kakyoin lets out a breath and closes his eyes, letting his head fall back against the headboard with a dull thud.

“Great,” He says flatly. “I’m at the Morioh Grand Hotel. Ask the SPW for more details if you need and fax it to the front desk for me or something.”

“Kakyoin,” Avdol says softly, his voice deep and sorrowful, like a rocky shore when it’s overcast, waves melancholically lapping over the smooth stones, and Kakyoin just squeezes his eyes shut tighter. “I am sorry. I never wanted you to find out like thi-”

“Goodnight, Avdol,” Kakyoin cuts off, his own voice quiet, more tired than angry now, before he hangs up.

His hand hovers over the receiver after the deed is done. Kakyoin blinks down at his own hand before his actions finally catch up to him, and the tightness in his stomach and chest that never went away even with the fire of anger begins to strangle him, leaving him cold, freezing from the inside out.

I’ll call later, Kakyoin decides, tomorrow, but the cold stays. Kakyoin swallows. His tongue feels heavy and swollen. The fire in his veins is out.

He shivers, before he hunches forward, burying his face in his hands.

There’s a gentle tugging at his wrist, a silent plea for him to remove his hand, and Kakyoin’s brows furrow, but he complies, raising his head.

It’s Hierophant, having taken on his humanoid form, sitting on the bed next to Kakyoin and holding his wrist tersely. Kakyoin swallows before he chokes on his own spit, his airway too tight -- just like his chest… -- and Hierophant wraps his arms around him.

Hierophant’s arms stretch into tentacles, securely binding around Kakyoin and offering a small squeeze, forcing his brain to be reminded what real stimulus is.

Kakyoin sighs, long and heavy, and rests his forehead against his stand’s shoulder, closing his eyes.

Hierophant squeezes him again, gently, and Kakyoin lets out a shuddering exhale. When he breathes in again, the tightness in his chest unravels a small bit, like a clogged gear finally turning the way it’s supposed to again, and his lungs can properly fill again.

Kakyoin doesn’t take a deep breath, however. He just refills and empties his lungs with moderate amounts of oxygen, as if he’s scared to test the tightness’s mercy if he tries to take more.

Scared…

Kakyoin’s eyes open, narrowing, and he pushes back from his stand. Hierophant tilts his head to gaze at him but Kakyoin just avoids his headlight-like eyes. He glances at the clock on his bedside table. 12:02 A.M…

Kakyoin rubs a hand across his face while Hierophant retracts his tentacles.

“Green,” Kakyoin murmurs, and Hierophant taps his knee. Kakyoin glances up to see his stand staring intently at him, focused and concerned, the bridge where his eyebrows would be if he had any furrowed. “Can you grab my immunosuppressants?” Kakyoin hesitates, but the tightness in his throat isn’t as forgiving as the tightness in his chest. “...And some water?”’

He knows he doesn’t technically need to verbally command Hierophant, but some part of his crushed chest cavity feels soothed at the faux communication, like a burn being washed with cool -- but not shockingly cold -- water. Another part of his chest cavity recoils though, like an ocean wave curling against itself as it prepares to slam into shore. Weak.

Kakyoin grimaces and tries to curl his legs up to his chest, only for his lower back to suddenly shriek, as if the movement awakened it from the sleep his painkillers had lulled it into. Kakyoin grits his teeth and digs his fingers into his hair, nails pressing into his scalp.

God damn it-

A shock of cold zips up Kakyoin’s knee to the base of his spine, shutting the broken nerves up, and he jumps, whipping his head up. Hierophant has returned with a small glass of water and two pill bottles, gently pressing the glass against Kakyoin’s knee to get his attention.

Kakyoin stares for a moment, before Hierophant gently bumps the water against his knee again, the cold less startling and more grounding this time.

Kakyoin sighs before taking the glass and tilting it for a small sip. Hierophant places one pill bottle on the nightstand before his headlight eyes narrow at the remaining one in his hands, trying to unscrew the cap.

Kakyoin chuckles, reaching forward, “You need to press down, b-”

With a pop, the cap flicks off, and Hierophant stares down, eyes almost miniature glowing suns with how wide they are. Kakyoin blinks in surprise before smiling, a small but genuine curve of his lips.

“Hey, good job,” Kakyoin says quietly as he takes the bottle from Hierophant, who’s puffing his chest in pride. “I think this is the first time you got the cap off by yourself.”

Hierophant nods and Kakyoin hums, smiling down at his cup of water. He places the water on his nightstand before shaking a couple of immunosuppressants into his hand, the blue pills blinking at him in the orange light. Kakyoin lets out a breath before closing his fingers around them, turning to the other bottle.

They’re his painkillers. Kakyoin just stares down at them, feeling his eyelids getting heavier at just the sight of them. Hierophant must have grabbed them when my spine started hurting again…

Hierophant gently nudges the bottle towards him and Kakyoin just closes his eyes before retrieving the stand into himself, the glow of his green tentacles and yellow eyes dissipating along with him.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath before holding it again. He lets it out slowly before opening his eyes and facing the bottle once more. He can feel Hierophant stirring inside of him, concerned and restless. Kakyoin sighs, swallows, and takes the bottle.

He uncaps it with mild fidgeting, the locks on the cap clicking and stubbornly clinging to the lip of the bottle before it’s finally undone.

Kakyoin squints inside and frowns at the small remainder of pills in the bottle. I’m gonna need a refill on my prescription soon…

He should probably talk to the Speedwagon Foundation and get something figured out for Morioh...especially since he has no idea how long he is going to end up staying here.

Kakyoin shakes two little white pills into his hand before resting the bottle on the nightstand. He’d call tomorrow.

Lots of things you plan on doing tomorrow, snarks a part of him. Kakyoin ignores it. This doesn’t change the fact his shoulders slump at the thought and don’t rise again.

Kakyoin brings the pills to his mouth before taking hold of the glass of water again, quickly washing them down with a sip. They go down smoothly. Kakyoin sets the glass on the now-crowded nightstand.

He flicks the lamp off and slumps onto his side, feeling like dead weight, feeling like he didn’t have any organs anymore, just sand in his body.

He closes his eyes. Hierophant slowly creeps out of the recesses of his mind, back into the physical world, and he’s too tired to stop him.

Hierophant wraps his tentacles around his user in a makeshift hug, squeezing tightly. Kakyoin’s fingers curl and he lowers his head. He tries not to feel like he did as a child -- confused, angry, alone. He doesn’t quite succeed.


The following Tuesday, Kakyoin wakes up to a high-pitched ringing in his ears that immediately ignites his blood in irritation. Do I always need to be so angry all the time? Kakyoin thinks past the fog of tiredness, grimacing as he squeezes his eyes shut tighter.

Kakyoin curls a little more around the pillow his unconscious arms wrapped around, but his back whines in protest at the movement, only making the irritation spike and his head more clear, more awake, sounds and thoughts coming into sharper focus that only makes him even more annoyed.

Gritting his teeth, Kakyoin blinks his eyes open, shoving one hand through his bangs to push them away from his face.

The ringing is real, he is almost surprised to find, and it’s coming from the hotel phone, a red light next to the number pad blinking innocently at Kakyoin.

Kakyoin squints, but the phone doesn’t stop ringing.

Long damn ringer, Kakyoin huffs to himself before he hesitantly sits up and slowly swings his legs over the side of the bed, ever wary of his awful spine, eye twitching as the phone’s ringing continues to whine into his ears, scratching his eardrums like the fine point of a needle.

Kakyoin reaches out a hand and snatches up the phone. “What the hell?”

A shrill laugh erupts from the speaker, and Kakyoin grimaces, bringing it away from his ear. Not a voice he knows, but phone lines can distort those things…maybe it was Josuke since they hadn’t met up the other day-?

“I had heard rumors you were polite, you know!” Kakyoin smooths his expression out. Definitely not a voice he knows; the inflections and stresses are all wrong. The voice is amused at his confusion. The voice will use his confusion against him if given the chance. “It’s not even that early, you know.”

“Who is this?” Kakyoin asks lowly, voice even, if implicitly threatening.

“No fun in just telling you that!” The voice cackles. The corner of Kakyoin’s mouth twitches, eyes darting around his hotel room.

“Right, I’m gonna have to assume this is a wrong number then,” Kakyoin states flatly, Hierophant stretching out to create a barrier along the hotel room floor and walls, searching out any intruders, “because this is obviously a high school student trying to reach their frie-”

“I’m not a high school student!” The voice protests indignantly, voice high in offense. Kakyoin would laugh if only he knew who this was. “And this is not the wrong number! You’re Kakyoin Noriaki...right?”

Kakyoin stays silent, eyes narrowing, before he swallows and says, “Who wants to know?”

“Knew it!” The voice cackles, resorting back to its cocky, relaxed tone, and Kakyoin can feel his mouth beginning to twist into a scowl.

“Is there a point to this, or are you just fucking around?” Kakyoin snaps, and the voice laughs again. Kakyoin’s eye twitches, Hierophant’s tentacles rumbling with the wave of irritation spreading through Kakyoin’s veins.

“No need to worry, Mr. Kakyoin,” The voice teases, the sound of it digging into Kakyoin’s brain and scratching his skull, winding down his neck and tightening his shoulders like he’s a windup toy, “I’m just here to ask a favor!”

“Really?” Kakyoin scoffs, crossing his legs, ignoring the murmur of pain his spine whispers at the motion, “and just what would that be?”

“I’m asking you to leave Morioh.”

Go home, Kakyoin.

Jotaro’s words mesh with the stranger’s, and Kakyoin’s whole body twitches, fury roaring through his veins like all his blood had heated into a gas. “No fucking way.”

“Aw, come on, Mr. Kakyoin,” The voice teases and Kakyoin’s teeth grind against each other, “it’s really for your benefit more than mine!”

It’s too dangerous for you.

The stranger’s words are once again too close to Jotaro’s, and they dance around Kakyoin’s brain tauntingly, bouncing against his skull, rocking his head from side to side, making Kakyoin feel dizzy, making him see red.

“No fucking way. I don’t even know you, why do you assume I’d drop everything I’m doing here just to comply with your wishes?” Kakyoin outright snarls, voice spiked and edged like thistle.

The voice just laughs, and Kakyoin’s grip tightens on the phone, plastic biting into his palm. “Mr. Jotaor said something similar, so to that I have a similar ans-”

“You talked to Kujo?” Kakyoin seethes, some of the gas in the center of his chest condensing back down into something colder, thicker.

“Wh- so you do know each other?” The voice muses, and Kakyoin growls at himself, running his free hand through his hair.

“Not the fucking point. You talked to Kujo? What the hell did he say?” Kakyoin questions, sentences short and barbed like scorpion tails.

“Also not the point!” The voice replies, and liquid fire pulses so suddenly through Kakyoin’s muscles that he’s surprised he doesn’t physically lash out, though the tentacles around the room writhe for a moment, shivering in reflection of his anger. “But, as for what the point is: you should comply with my request because I have the stand arrow.”

The flames of anger are immediately doused, Kakyoin’s blood rapidly cooling back down to liquid form, and he leans back a bit, straightening from the hunched form he had taken. “What?”

“I didn’t always have it,” The voice admits, “which is why you and Mr. Jotaro were able to get into Morioh in the first place. But I finally got it from the man who originally did -- Nijimura Keicho.”

Kakyoin rattles his brain, shaking it up in his skull a little more than the dizziness had already, trying to recall if he knows anything about a Nijimura Keicho, but nothing explicitly comes up -- just a faint feeling he’s heard of the surname “Nijimura” before. Where-?

“You don’t need to worry about him coming back either; I took the liberty of killing him,” The voice explains, drawing Kakyoin out of his thoughts. “So do I need to worry about you coming back, or do I need to kill you, too?”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, teeth still grinding against each other. “And how exactly do you suppose you’d do that? I’ve taken down standusers a lot worse than you, considering they didn’t need to hide behind a phone call when they confronted me.”

“Wouldn’t you like to know?” The voice scoffs, refusing to fall for Kakyoin’s ruse. Dammit- “I know it’s a thousand times easier to take down a stand once you know what it does, so I’m not giving you all the details -- again, no fun in just telling you.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, glowering. Coward, coward, coward... “Right, whatever, asshole. Well, I don’t see how you having the stand arrow should make me fearful of you. If anything, you’re just giving me a target to focus on.”

“Jeez, Mr. Kakyoin, you’re one piece of work,” The voice complains, and Kakyoin snarls, hair raising on the back of his neck. “Listen, I’m not necessarily trying to make an enemy of you! I’m not trying to target you or Mr. Jotaro -- or Josuke Higashikata!”

Despite the assurance they were supposed to be, Kakyoin’s breath hitches inaudibly in his chest at the words, cold splashing between his lungs and spilling down to his stomach, like his heart was a bucket of ice-cold water. He knows Josuke-

“You just have to stay out of my way, and I won’t do anything,” The voice continues.

“And what exactly are we in the way of?” Kakyoin snaps, his free hand curling into a fist, shaking from the tension.

“Don’t be so impatient, I was getting to that,” The voice sighs, as if Kakyoin was the one being an asshole here, and he growls. “Since I have a stand now, I just want to make my life more fun. I don’t need to adhere to the boring rules of tests and work anym-”

“Are you sure you’re not a high school student?” Kakyoin barks sardonically. “Because you’re sounding an awful lot like one-”

“I’m not a damn student!” The voice snaps again, and a part of Kakyoin is satisfied he could get him pissed off even the slightest bit. “But even if I was, that doesn’t matter! Just leave my town or else you will become my enemy! I can kill you and Mr. Jotaro and Josuke anytime I want!”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, any amusement he got from the outburst dissipating like a wisp of smoke. “If you even dare to try, I’ll find you and k-”

The hair on Kakyoin’s arm stands on end, his nerves rolling in discomfort, and Kakyoin only drops the phone out of confusion more than anything else, brows furrowing at his own hand, when the phone explodes in a rush of electricity.

“What the hell?!” Kakyoin shrieks, jolting up from the bed, Hierophant immediately zipping up from the floor and walls to wrap around and support him.

Kakyoin blinks as excess sparks shoot out from the socket of the cord, both the holder and receiver of the phone completely broken, smoke rising from the melted plastic and ashes that remained. The bed was scorched, holes burned into the comforter and sheets.

“What-?” Kakyoin cuts himself off as that damned voice laughs again, still coming from the smoldering remains of the phone. The phone clicks then, and the voice cuts off.

Kakyoin simply stares at the remains for a second, eyes narrowed, but pupils wide. Electricity then, huh? His thoughts trail off, though, when he feels a trickle of warmth trace down the hand he was holding the phone with.

Kakyoin brings up the back of his hand to inspect, only to see a cut slicing along the skin, a piece of plastic sticking from it. It was not deep enough to require a hospital visit, but deep enough for blood to trickle freely, if slowly. Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut and sighs, shaking his head as Hierophant brings him back down to his feet while two lone tentacles silently head to the bathroom to get him a bandage and disinfectant.

Kakyoin glances at the phone remains again, face pinched in irritation, brows drawn and mouth in a tight frown.

...What the hell am I going to tell the hotel staff?

Chapter 6

Notes:

hello everyone!! i have returned once more, as promised >:)
this time I have a batch of five chapters already done, so five weeks of consistent posting!! i hope ur ready >:)
in addition, i hope ill be able to get at least one other chapter done in that time so I can post for a sixth week in a row too but we will have 2 see on that front cause I simply do not trust myself enough to make promises
anyway I hope yall enjoy!! thank you so much for your patience <3

Chapter Text

Later that afternoon, the new phone that the hotel had installed after Kakyoin successfully gave a vague explanation for why the first one blew up, rings.

Kakyoin’s eyes immediately narrow, Hierophant again spreading to scout the room as he snatches up the phone.

“I swear if you end the damn call again by blowing up my phone-”

“Uh, Mr. Kakyoin?” Josuke’s voice questions on the other line. Kakyoin pauses, shifting his jaw, holding his breath for a heartbeat.

“Josuke,” Kakyoin says, tone smoothly transitioning from volatile to polite. “Is something wrong?”

“Ah, no, just-“ Josuke pauses, clearly needing a second due to the whiplash of Kakyoin’s demeanor. “Uh, hi. Can we start setting up dates and times for that self-defense training you were talking about?”

Kakyoin blinks. Right. “Oh, yeah, sure. Did you have anything in mind?”

Josuke pauses. “Um, I hadn’t thought that far ahead yet.” Kakyoin chuckles, shaking his head. “Hey,” Josuke whines, but Kakyoin just smiles.

“Well,” Kakyoin says, “Sundays would probably work best for you as a student, right? Or is your school one of the ones that’s stopped with Saturday class-”

“Yeah, Sundays work,” Josuke rushes out, and Kakyoin pauses at the sudden blurt. Josuke takes a breath, the speakers crackling, when he continues with “Sorry for interrupting, just...um, I was also wondering…”

Josuke trails off and Kakyoin raises a brow incredulously. “...Yeah?”

Josuke sighs, the speakers near blowing out with the sound, crackling. “Um. So, a lot happened, yesterday, uh-”

Concern immediately shoots through his chest, sobering the amusement. “Are you okay?”

“What?” Josuke asks, clearly rattled, before the question computes. “Oh- yeah, no I’m fine, just…”

Josuke sighs and Kakyoin frowns, brows furrowing.

“Uh, okay, so, it’s a long story, and I think I should also talk to Mr. Jotaro about it-” Kakyoin grimaces, eyes narrowing, “-also it’d probably be better to just...go over it in person...I wouldn’t know how to explain it all by myself anyway…” Josuke mutters.

Kakyoin hums, surprise and suspicion performing an intricate dance in his chest. What happened yesterday?

Josuke continues, though. “Um, but I was wondering if I could bring a friend...or two? To the self-defense stuff?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Uh, Josuke, you know when I said self-defense training, I meant specifically with your stand-?”

“Yeah,” Josuke sighs, the sagging of his shoulders audible with the exhale, “but they’re- my friends are also standusers.”

Kakyoin blinks. “You have standuser friends?” A part of him he didn’t even realize was tied up immediately relaxes at this knowledge. He’s not alone. He’s not like me.

Josuke hums, tone wavering. “It- I guess? I didn’t always...it, er, is a recent development.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah, it-” Josuke sighs again. “Koichi...we met...well, as I said, it’s a long story that I’d rather not tell on the phone.”

Kakyoin hums, nodding absent-mindedly before a sobering thought washes over him. “Alright...well, I’m not objecting, but are you sure about bringing them? We might get some unwanted attention if we converge in too big of a group and cause too much of a disturbance, no matter where we are. It might be dangerous to involve them.”

“Yes, I’m sure,” Josuke says firmly, and Kakyoin pauses at the certainty. “It’s already dangerous...again, long story, but we were attacked by a standuser earlier today, so I just think we would all benefit fro-”

“You were what?!” Kakyoin cuts in, jerking toward the door reflexively, as if he could help them now.

“I- we’re all okay!” Josuke rushes to assure, “his stand wasn’t, like, physical-attack based, just- guilt...based.”

Kakyoin works his jaw, focusing on keeping his breathing steady. “Guilt?”

“Yeah. He just tried to guilt-trip us basically. Sucks for him, though, because while he was pitiful, I don’t feel bad beating his ass at all,” Josuke scoffs.

Kakyoin huffs in amusement, forcing his shoulders to relax as he leans his hip on the nightstand the phone was stationed on. “...Well, I’m glad you’re okay.”

“Yeah,” Josuke sighs, “me too.” He hesitates then, before asking in an unsure voice, “So, can my friends come then? Since weird standusers are already after them anyway?”

Kakyoin sighs softly, nodding. “Well, in that case, sure, I don’t mind if they come. It’ll actually make sparring easier for you because then you’ll be partnered with someone that -- I assume -- is closer to your experience level.” Kakyoin pauses, considering. “Most of the time, at least. I’m gonna have to have a go at you every once and a while, though.”

“Ugh,” Josuke groans and Kakyoin smirks, pressing his sunglasses further up his face. “But- right, thank you, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin hums, nodding his head. “Yeah, of course. Know of a fairly private place we can practice?”

Josuke hums, considering. “Something tells me my backyard won’t be big enough for four stand users messing around...” He eventually mutters.

Kakyoin just snorts at the mental image of one of them accidentally knocking Josuke’s entire fence down. “Maybe not. Is there anywhere else around town we could go?”

Josuke hums thoughtfully. “...Well, at the edge of town near the coast, there’s a bunch of barren fields -- undeveloped land or something. No one really goes out there because it’s not really interesting hiking ground, and it should be close to the hotel you’re staying at...”

Kakyoin’s spine murmurs in interest. He ignores it.

“You sure? Sounds like it’s pretty far from you in that case,” Kakyoin asks, fighting to keep the irritation out of his voice. Do not suspect the worst of a kid, Noriaki, a part of him snaps. “Are you sure you don’t want it to be more even travel time on both our ends?”

“I mean…” Josuke pauses, humming. “I guess that’d be nice? But since I know the town and all, it just makes more sense for me to be the one to have to travel farther, is all.”

Oh, one part of Kakyoin says.

See? Says the part from before. Not everyone automatically thinks you’re incompetent and weak, dumbass. You’re not as smart as you thi-

“I see,” Kakyoin ends up saying. “Well...if you’re sure?”

“Yeah!” Josuke chimes into the phone, tone heightening in excitement. “Besides, it’ll be a good warmup, right? Gotta get blood flowing, yeah?” Josuke pauses. “Actually, does my physical form affect my stand’s in any way?”

Kakyoin hums, tilting his head, glancing at Hierophant’s tentacles, then down at his legs. “...I’m not sure,” He admits, “but at the very least, you being physically ready certainly won’t hurt your stand or otherwise affect it negatively.”

“Then yeah,” Josuke says, tone strong with confidence and certainty, “let’s just go to the fields then. It’s fairly private, it’s big, and it’s easy to access.”

Kakyoin’s lips press into a line before his shoulders slump and he shakes his head. “Alright.” He pauses for a moment, before adding, “You stay out of trouble until the weekend then, got it?”

Josuke hums. “Easier said than done…” He murmurs, and Kakyoin laughs, fondness and concern meshing in his stomach.

“Can you try?” Kakyoin asks, trying to remain lighthearted, but worry threatens to darken the lightness his tone has.

“I can try,” Josuke confirms, his own voice gruff with the weight of his day. Kakyoin glances at the clock on his nightside table. 5:32 P.M... Josuke must’ve called him right when he got home from school.

“Alright. See you then, Josuke,” Kakyoin says. He pauses, before adding, “Play some video games for me, yeah? I didn’t bring any consoles with me when I came out here.”

Josuke snorts. “Your first mistake,” He snickers, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes good-naturedly. “But yeah, sure,” Josuke says, voice a little lighter, and Kakyoin lets out a quiet breath. “See you then, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin hesitates, but there’s a click on the other end, so he goes to hang up the phone himself. He leans back on the bed, only to hiss and freeze when pain rockets up his spine like a ball of flame along his spinal column.

Kakyoin sighs and glances at the bathroom, the door creaked open just enough so he can see where his wheelchair is collapsed and waiting against the wall. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow and he drags his gaze away.

He rubs the bridge of his nose, taking his sunglasses off, and sighing. He wipes his lenses on his cardigan before he fits the frames back onto his face.

He scoots back against the bed, leaning against the head of the frame, closing his eyes for a second, and simply breathing. His back, while more accepting of the new position, still grumbles as it is rocked against the mattress every time his diaphragm inflates. Normally Kakyoin could ignore it -- the crying of his nerves had become background noise after ten years of it being constantly there -- but they’re pinching now, sharper than the usual dull ache, like instead of using fists, they were using knives to attack him.

Great… He expected this, especially after the activity of the Angelo fight, but that expectation didn’t make dealing with the flare of pain any easier.

Kakyoin opens his eyes, his brows furrowed, but his mouth not committed enough to twist into a full scowl to complete the look.

The wheelchair is in his peripheral, the gleaming silver of the frame blinking at him from the darkness of the bathroom.

Kakyoin slides his gaze back over to the bedside table and reaches to grab a manilla folder, the Speedwagon Foundation’s logo stamped on the front and the words “Stand Arrows” scrawled on a piece of tape placed near the top.

After his talk with Avdol, the file had been faxed and arrived less than a day later, one of the hotel staff bringing it to his room for him. There was a sticky note on the front that passed on the message, Get anyone new you meet to register with the SPW. It’ll help in the search.

The folder itself wasn’t very thick, signifying the lack of information, and it just makes Kakyoin even more confused and angrier. If the search has only brought forth so much in ten damn years, why was I left out? Why wouldn’t they trust me? Why wouldn’t they just let me help ?

Unease eats at Kakyoin’s stomach and pain eats at his spine like he’s some variation of Prometheus, cursed to be consumed day after day. Kakyoin sighs irritably. I’ve spent too long in fucking Greece…

He flips open the folder then, rummaging through the papers to find where he last left off reading, then flicks his sunglasses up to rest on his forehead. Words enter and leave his field of vision, but never make a lasting impression on his mind.

Kakyoin sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose again before having Hierophant nudge open the curtain to his room’s window, eyes flickering back to the top of the page to try reading again, resolutely ignoring the flash of the new light source against the metal of his wheelchair, still peeking at him from the bathroom.

Whatever happened regarding him staying in the dark -- whether Polnareff and Avdol seriously shared Jotaro’s belief that he was incompetent and untrustworthy, or they pitied him and thought of him as a child instead -- he couldn’t change it now.

Kakyoin swallows and tries his best to ignore the dark ball of malleable sludge in his chest.

All he could do now was prove he could handle it. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow and the words on the page finally begin to make sense to him, while the back of his mind wanders to the basics of defense and how he could teach Josuke what he knows, despite never taking formal defense classes himself to base any teachings off of.

All well, Kakyoin thinks. If there was one thing he was, it was determined.

He had work to do.


Come Sunday morning, Kakyoin is out in a field of undeveloped land, all by himself, as Josuke had assured would be the case.

If he tries, he can hear the distant crash of waves against the shore at his back, but it’s overpowered by the occasional gust of wind rustling through the blades of grass, the strands whipping against each other before falling into place among one another again once the wind passes.

It’s a good morning, he thinks. Kakyoin takes in a deep breath, letting the blanketing scent of pollen, the strong scent of grass, and the sweet smell of dew overflow his senses. Spring really was a beautiful time, he muses, letting his head tilt to rest against the back support of his wheelchair.

He closes his eyes, just breathing, before he lifts his head again, leaning it from side to side to stretch out his neck. He presses his sunglasses further up his nose before rolling his shoulders, sighing.

Hierophant creeps out then, wrapping around his hand and squeezing lightly. Kakyoin’s mouth quirks into a smile and he squeezes back.

“Ready to show off?” Kakyoin murmurs and Hierophant squeezes again, slipping in-between his gloved fingers. Sure am, Boss.

Kakyoin’s smile widens and he lifts his head, only to be greeted with three approaching figures.

They’re in the midst of a conversation, their voices bouncing distantly, but Kakyoin can’t quite make out what they’re saying yet. Josuke is easy to identify, with his ever-immaculate pompadour at the ready, despite knowing he’s headed to what will, for all intents and purposes, be a workout. Kakyoin snorts at this, resting his elbow on one of his armrests and plopping his chin down into his hand.

The others with Josuke seem to be about his age. One matches Josuke’s bulky form, about the same height, his hair shaved on the sides, the top piled into a smaller version of Josuke’s pomp. Interestingly, he has scars running across the sides of his face, and Kakyoin’s heart squeezes at the visual. The scars look so similar to Avdol’s…

The other teenager is smaller and slimmer, coming up to Josuke and the other’s shoulders. This doesn’t deter him from keeping stride with them, though, and doesn’t stop him from contributing to the conversation and being listened to. It reminds Kakyoin of his own woes of being the shortest on the trip to Egypt, and he huffs into his hand, shaking his head at the memories.

As the group gets closer, Kakyoin can more easily make out their appearances and can finally distinguish what they’re saying. The smallest one is asking Josuke if he thinks the man they’re meeting with will know how to deal with Echoes -- his stand, maybe? -- and Josuke opens his mouth to reply when the scarred teenage looks up and catches sight of Kakyoin.

“Oh! He’s in a wheelchair?” The tall one with pins of various currency symbols on his uniform exclaims in shock.

Josuke digs his elbows into his ribs, hissing something Kakyoin can’t hear, while Kakyoin just raises a brow. The smallest one’s head snaps up, also catching sight of Kakyoin, and he waves nervously, the movement jerky.

Kakyoin snorts, a small smile of dry amusement on his face as he waves back with a flutter of his fingers.

“Good morning, Josuke and co,” Kakyoin greets wryly, and Josuke turns to Kakyoin himself, the group finally caught up to him.

“Ah, Mr. Kakyoin, hi,” Josuke stutters, sharing a look with his friends before facing Kakyoin again. “Uh...are you okay?”

Kakyoin snorts, pushing down his kneejerk flare of irritation. “Yes, I’m fine. Just…” He sighs then, tapping his fingers against his armrest. “Spine decided to give the legs a vacation today.”

Josuke frowns at that, but Kakyoin continues.

“I won’t need them to teach you.”

Josuke hums while the taller of his friends nods, despite his brows furrowed in confusion.

“Are you sure?” The smallest of the three asks. “We wouldn’t want to trouble you- if today isn’t a good time-”

“Nonsense,” Kakyoin quickly interjects, fighting to keep down the rush of irritation flooding his veins, attempting to keep it confined, locked and under key. “I’m not being overconfident when I say I won’t need my legs to teach you.”

Kakyoin sighs melodramatically, jerking his long bang back from his face with a toss of his head.

“But, if you’re so worried,”

Hierophant slivers out of Kakyoin then, making both of Josuke’s friends freeze in shock while Josuke just watches in intrigue, eyes scanning over the familiar form of Hierophant Green as the stand securely wraps around Kakyoin’s waist like a harness before twisting down to his legs, tightening around his knees and ankles like bracers.

“I can do this in front of fellow standusers, since you can see my stand.”

Josuke and his friends openly gawk as Kakyoin stands up, then trots around his wheelchair. He tries to keep from looking like as much of a show pony as he feels while Hierophant helps him both to keep his balance and manage his own weight, gently tugging Kakyoin’s legs forward and then helping them lock straight again as needed.

“Wow,” Josuke says, while his scarred friend whistles.

“That’s so cool! Your stand is a bunch of tentacles?” The scarred teenager asks, and Kakyoin sighs, smiling as the conversation veers towards a topic he’s more comfortable with. Great. Proved my worth to a bunch of teenagers. Glad I can still do something right.

“Sometimes,” Kakyoin answers as Hierophant gently sets him back down into his wheelchair before he manifests Hierophant’s humanoid figure.

The smallest gawks, eyes wide, while the scarred teenager cheers. “He looks so cool! Josuke, you didn’t say his stand was awesome!”

“Why would I have needed to?” Josuke mutters, before shaking his head. “Hey, wait, I said I thought his stand was cool!”

“Come on, Josuke,” His friend scoffs, “‘cool’ is for, like, second-best stuff. ‘Awesome’ is for the first-best.”

Josuke rears to snark back a reply, but the smallest of the group grabs Kakyoin’s attention as he says, “It looks so much like Echoes…”

“Hm?” Kakyoin asks, turning to face him.

The kid jumps, looking not unlike a startled rabbit, eyes wide and body tensed, frozen. “Uh-”

“Is ‘Echoes’ your stand?” Kakyoin asks as Hierophant is retrieved back into himself. He vaguely remembers hearing him mention an Echoes earlier when he was walking up with Josuke...

The teenager opens and closes his mouth for a second before nodding. “Yeah- your stand, my stand, it just...they look so similar.”

Kakyoin quirks a smile. “Really?”

“Yeah,” The kid stammers, rubbing the back of his head bashfully. “He’s also green with yellow bug eyes…” He pauses, considering. “Actually, he looks a lot like a bug with a shell in general.”

“Interesting,” Kakyoin says, but before he can say anything else, Josuke cuts his and Okuyasu’s squabble short.

“Anyway,” Josuke loudly announces, turning both his and the smallest teenager’s attention back to him and the other. Josuke marches up to Kakyoin’s side, clearing his throat.

“Okuyasu, Koichi, this is Mr. Kakyoin. Mr. Kakyoin, Okuyasu and Koichi,” Josuke says hastily, jerkily gesturing.

Kakyoin nods as another he feels wry smile comes on. “Nice to meet everyone. I’m not sure what Josuke told you about me already…?”

“Uh, he said you’re a really cool standuser-” Okuyasu starts, before Josuke slaps a hand over his mouth, chuckling forcefully as he wraps an arm tightly around his friend.

“Jeez, Okuyasu, do you gotta say things verbatim?” He asks, face flushed, and Kakyoin only just has time to feel delighted surprise bloom warm and soft in the center of his chest -- I still got it -- before Koichi interjects.

“Er, he said you were an experienced standuser and that you were willing to help us with our own stands,” Koichi finishes for Okuyasu, and Josuke sighs before releasing Okuyasu and dropping his hand from Okuyasu’s face, which earns him a punch in the shoulder.

“Ow!” Josuke cries in indignation more than pain, rubbing his shoulder, but Okuyasu just sticks his tongue out at him. Ah, teenagers...

Kakyoin clears his throat, and Okuyasu and Josuke turn their attention back to him. “Yes, that’s right. I’m here to basically give you all the rundown of self-defense, featuring stands. I’m sure you’ve noticed things are a little…” Kakyoin sighs. “A little dangerous, lately.”

Koichi hums, dropping his gaze, while Josuke’s face darkens and Okuyasu shifts his weight, staring at the ground. Kakyoin frowns at this reaction; What have they already seen beside the guilt stand Josuke mentioned?

“So,” Kakyoin segues, deciding not to push the matter for now, “knowing how to protect yourself is of vital importance right now.”

Koichi and Josuke nod, while Okuyasu hums thoughtfully, giving Kakyoin a once-over before his eyes light up and he points.

“Oh, I get it! So you’re like one of those wise old mentors in manga!” Okuyasu declares, hands balled in excitement, eyes shiny and wide.

Kakyoin snorts. “I wouldn’t really call myself wise…” He frowns. “Or old. I’m still in my 20s, you know.”

“You are?” Okuyasu asks, tilting his head. “Then why are you in a wheelchai-?”

“Okuyasu!” Koichi hisses, elbowing his friend, his height allowing him to nail his friend right underneath the ribs, which Okuyasu lets out an “Oof!” at. “You can’t just ask people why they’re in wheelchairs!”

Kakyoin erupts into laughter, though, his spine grumbling in protest but Kakyoin not caring as his shoulders shake with the sound.

Okuyasu continues looking curious, if a little scolded, while Koichi and Josuke nervously lock eyes.

“No, don’t worry, it’s okay,” Kakyoin snickers as his laughter subsides, taking his sunglasses off and swiping at the lenses with the hem of his cardigan.

After they’ve been sufficiently cleaned, Kakyoin fixes the frames back on his face and looks up at the trio, shrugging.

“To make a long story short,” Kakyoin starts, “I’m in a wheelchair because, when I was around your age, I went on a mission to stop...someone. I wasn’t completely prepared, though,” Kakyoin says, consciously keeping his words even, keeping his voice fluid despite his throat locking up, “and it cost me.”

Josuke, Koichi, and Okuyasu stare intently, Josuke looking concerned, Koichi looking guilty, and Okuyasu thoughtful.

“However,” Kakyoin continues, trying his best to remain nonchalant, bringing his hands from his armrests to his lap, “I survived, obviously, and I learned. Which is why I am going to teach you all, so you can hopefully learn the same lessons I did, only the easy way rather than the hard.”

The trio blinks, almost in unison, and Kakyoin can feel a snicker bubble up in his chest at their unintentional synchronization.

“So!” Kakyoin claps his hands, the boys straightening at the sound, making Kakyoin have to pass off his snort as a cough. “Let’s get to that, shall we?”

Josuke nods, and after a moment of hesitation, Okuyasu does too. Koichi seems the most nervous, but after a second, he nods as well.

“Great,” Kakyoin says before the sticky note on the stand arrow file flashes through his mind. “First things first though, at some point, we’re going to have to get your stands registered with the Speedwagon Foundation.”

Koichi lets out a strangled gasp. “The SPW? That massive private humanities funder from America? They have a stand division?”

Kakyoin chuckles, nodding his head. “Sure. It’s probably not public knowledge though, so don’t go telling anyone.” He teases.

Koichi looks like he isn’t sure if Kakyoin was joking or not, eyes scanning his face. Kakyoin just shakes his head and continues.

“In order to learn more about stands and to give their users a sense of community, the SPW’s started having standusers register with them in their database,” Kakyoin explains. “Shouldn’t take long. We should get to it after this if we can.”

Josuke, Koichi, and Okuyasu nod, faces thoughtful. “Yeah, that sounds fair,” Josuke says.

Kakyoin nods then. “Alright. For now, though, bring out your stands.”

Josuke’s response is immediate, Crazy Diamond’s flashy pink and soft blue fading into view beside him within milliseconds.

Okuyasu follows after, his own gray and blue metallic stand zipping from him, almost like a shadow, before it stands upright, right hand gently clenching around a growth in its palm. Its eyes are shiny, pupilless, and yellow, just like Hierophant’s, Kakyoin notes.

Koichi’s brows are furrowed as he stares at the ground, hands balled into fists and shoulders ramrod straight, tightened to the point Kakyoin almost winces in secondhand pain.

Kakyoin’s own brows furrow in concern. “Koich-?”

A spark of green electricity, and Koichi’s stand emerges. True to the kid’s word from earlier, it’is also green with flecks of luminescence interspace in the coloring, just like Hierophant. As for shape, it looks like a toy bug, like something with wheels a kid could pull. It has a beak, which it uses to chirp in greeting as it swings its tail idly.

Kakyoin hums, resting his cheek against his hand as Hierophant settles next to him, leaning on his head. “We’re gonna have to work on response time.”

“Sorry,” Koichi says, dropping his head, and Kakyoin frowns.

“Not just you,” Kakyoin says, “Okuyasu needs to work on it as well.”

“Yeah,” Okuyasu admits, rubbing the back of his head sheepishly.

Josuke frowns. “It’s not- they’re just not used to it. Neither of them are born standusers, so it’s just not as natural for them-”

“Not born standusers?” Kakyoin interrupts, brows furrowing, before cold realization seeps into his chest, “then...you don’t mean the man with the arrow-”

Josuke drops his gaze and Kakyoin’s eyes widen.

“What-?”

“So, remember when I said I had a long day, last Monday?” Josuke asks, voice edged with desperation, a need for Kakyoin to understand, and Kakyoin’s chest locks down at the tone because it is a reminder Josuke is a kid. “Yeah, so, this is...that was…”

Josuke sighs and Okuyasu frowns, before placing a hand on Josuke’s shoulder and facing Kakyoin, eyes straying to the ground in shame. “My brother...he was the one with the arrow, originally…”

Kakyoin blinks. “...What?”

“My brother was Nijimura Keicho,” Okuyasu explains, eyes downcast and focused on the blades of grass as the wind ripples through them, “the first person with the stand arrow. He shot it at me about two years ago,” Okuyasu grimaces, his free hand unconsciously coming up and pawing at his chest, making Kakyoin frown, his brows furrowing, “and he shot it at Koichi at the beginning of the week.”

Kakyoin blinks, before turning to Koichi, who’s chewing on his thumbnail. “You’ve only had your stand for a couple of days?”

Koichi’s gaze darts about before he nods.

Kakyoin leans back in his wheelchair, staring at the boys in front of him, all of whom seem to be expecting some sort of punishment for the crime of being exposed to danger.

“I’m sorry,” Kakyoin says instead of anything scathing, which causes the boys’ heads to shoot up, “that you had to go through that.”

Kakyoin grimaces, and Hierophant drapes a tentacle into his hand nonchalantly. Kakyoin squeezes it.

“I can’t imagine how painful it could be,” Kakyoin continues, “to forcibly prompt yourself to summon a stand.” Forcing yourself to summon such a flood of willpower...that has to be traumatic. I wonder what Avdol would say about it…?

Koichi winces at the words, hand rising to his throat, pulling up his uniform collar, and Kakyoin notes this with a lurch in his stomach. Was he shot there…?

Kakyoin sighs, turning back to Okuyasu. “I heard about your brother, too. The asshole who killed him paid me a visit-”

“What?” Josuke cries, eyes widening. “What did he do? Are you okay-?”

“Relax, Josuke, I’m fine,” Kakyoin interjects, raising a hand, “he just came to try and threaten me out of town, but obviously that didn’t work and he didn’t do much about it besides throw a hissy fit.”

Josuke hums, frowning, and crosses his arms. “...That’s it?”

Kakyoin pauses, considering. “...Well, when I say ‘threw a hissy fit,’ I mean that he blew up my phone-”

Josuke chokes, eyes widening, while Okuyasu throws his head back in laughter, shoulders shaking with the force of it, the sound ringing clear in the field.

“It’s not that funny!” Kakyoin halfheartedly says, despite his mouth stretching into a smile. “But that’s all he did. Seems to me he’s not confident enough in his abilities to take me on in a real fight right now -- which means he probably won’t try and go for any of you, either.”

Koichi fidgets, his fingers twitching at his sides. “...Even me?”

Kakyoin nods. “Even you. Despite his knowledge on the subject, he’s only had his stand for a little while, is the impression he gave me,” Kakyoin explains. He pauses, before tacking on, “and since you’re a new standuser, he doesn’t know your ability; he’s definitely not going to attack you until he does.”

“Oh, great,” Koichi says faintly, and Okuyasu places a hand between his shoulder blades to help him keep his balance while Echoes floats closer to Koichi’s head defensively.

Kakyoin hums before turning to Josuke. “Anyway…but we shouldn’t stall. We need to use all the time he lies in wait to our advantage.”

Josuke nods, and Koichi takes a deep breath before nodding as well, prompting Okuyasu to drop his hand.

“So!” Kakyoin segues, nodding to the stands that are lined up behind the boys. “Tell me -- or show me -- what you can do. Josuke, I already know some of your stuff, but go ahead and showcase everything you can think of.”

Josuke nods, a grin beginning to stretch across his face as he widens his stance, Crazy Diamond behind him readying his fists. “Sure thing.”

Kakyoin huffs a laugh and rolls back a bit in his wheelchair, gesturing towards Okuyasu and Koichi with his head. “Give him some space.”

The two take a couple of steps back, inching closer to Kakyoin. A lone tentacle of Hierophant’s snakes out to curl around a rock, lifting it off the ground.

At least I’m not going to be the only show pony today, Kakyoin thinks.

“Go wild, Josuke,” Kakyoin calls, before Hierophant chucks the rock at him and Crazy Diamond flies forward. And thus, class begins.

Chapter 7

Summary:

"in this chapter Kakyoin suffers traumatic memories and beats up some kids" - my friend who proofread this

Chapter Text

Crazy Diamond’s fist easily crashes through the rock Kakyoin had thrown, splintering it to sharp pebbles and dust. Okuyasu lets out a low whistle and Josuke flashes him a grin. Before the debris can fall to the ground, though, a pink glow surrounds it, keeping it all suspended in midair.

Kakyoin nods approvingly and Josuke puffs out his chest, shooting a smile to his friends. “You guys already know this, but I can smash things to bits with my stand,”

The pink glow around the rubble shines brighter, before the pieces lift back up, falling in reverse, almost like Josuke was rewinding time. The dust and shards of rock fit back together like puzzle pieces, and as simply as having them touch each other again, the cracks heal, compacting back to one whole rock.

“And you know that I can also fix things,” Josuke continues, eyes gleaming, brows furrowed in confidence. The pink glow around the now-whole-again rock doesn’t dissipate, however. “But,”

The rock starts shifting then, as if it was malleable, as if something inside it was trying to push out, and Kakyoin’s brow raises. I haven’t seen this before…

Okuyasu whistles again, eyes wide, while Koichi watches with rapt attention, fingers twitching at his sides, standing ramrod straight, eyes bright.

The rock eventually is reformed into a rough imitation of Crazy Diamond’s face, like it was simply play-doh rather than the stiff solid it was supposed to be, and Josuke grins at his spectators. “What you might now know is that, in addition to fixing things back to the way they should be, I can also fix them back the way I want them to be.”

Kakyoin hums, nodding, while Okuyasu and Koichi clap politely at Josuke’s show, Okuyasu even offering some cheering. Josuke bows and Kakyoin rolls his eyes at the dramatics despite his smile. “So, short-ranged, power type, with an additional power of healing? You can do a lot with that.”

Josuke nods, beaming proudly, his pompadour bouncing with the movement. Still need to ask what products he uses…

Koichi is mumbling something Kakyoin can’t hear under his breath, but before Kakyoin can question him, he shoots his head up and points at Josuke.

“So-” Koichi stutters, before shaking his head. “Hey, wait, that’s what you did to those upperclassmen on the first day of school, then!”

Josuke blinks, brows furrowed in confusion, before understanding dawns on him and he points at Koichi in return. “Wait, you saw that? Man, that’s embarrassing…I was acting like a total wimp because they caught me in the middle of trying to face that turtle...”

“Of course I saw it!” Koichi replies indignantly, crossing his arms. “I was there the whole time, didn’t you know?”

Josuke rubs the back of his head, gaze darting downwards, pink coloring his cheeks. “I- uh- I’m sorry, dude, but I didn’t...really notice you...until Mr. Jotaro started talking to me and you tagged along with us…”

Koichi lets out a strangled noise, and Kakyoin raises a brow. “Kujo talked to you on your first day of school?

Josuke waves his hand dismissively. “Sure. Just told me about the old man or whatever.”

“‘Or whatever?’” Koichi chokes out. “He’s your dad!”

“And he is also a faceless stranger to me,” Josuke snaps, and Koichi shuts his mouth so quickly Kakyoin can hear the clicking of his teeth from where he’s sitting, brows furrowing in shame.

Kakyoin hums, his own brows furrowing, squinting at Koichi before turning to Josuke. “It’s okay, Josuke. You don’t need to explain. I was just wondering.”

Josuke huffs, shaking his head. “Well, yeah, that’s all Mr. Jotaro mentioned when we first met.” He pauses, considering, before tilting his head. “Actually, he also told me to be careful and not be reckless, because there was a loose standuser -- which turned out to be Angelo.”

Kakyoin’s brows shoot up. “So Kujo originally didn’t involve you in the Angelo chase?”

“What?” Josuke shoots Kakyoin a confused glance, brows furrowed. “No. He didn’t want me involved at all, actually. I just didn’t give him a choice not to when…” Josuke trails off, eyes casting downward, and Kakyoin hums.

“Huh…” Kakyoin shakes his head and Josuke shoots him a questioning glance.

“Why do you ask, anyway?”

Kakyoin hesitates, fingertips grazing his armrests. “I guess I’m just surprised.”

Josuke looks like he wants to ask more, but Kakyoin turns to Okuyasu and Koichi.

“Who’s next?”

Koichi’s face pales the slightest bit, eyes wide, and Okuyasu notices this, frowning down at his friend before he steps forward, waving his arm like he was in a classroom. “I can go next Mr. Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin ducks his head and smiles, Okuyasu’s cheeriness reminding him of an almost more wholesome version of Joseph or Polnareff. He nods over to where Josuke is standing and says, “Go ahead.”

Okuyasu and Josuke trade places, with Okuyasu trotting in front of the group, ready to show off, his stand floating quietly beside him, and Josuke taking a perch next to Koichi and Kakyoin. He can faintly hear Koichi apologize for something -- probably the father comment -- but Josuke just waves it away.

Koichi hums, face screwed in shame, and Josuke pats him on the shoulder. “It’s okay dude, really.”

Koichi sighs before he squints at Josuke’s face, doing a double-take. “Oh, Josuke,” He says, gesturing towards his cheek, “you got scratched by a shard of rock, it looks like.”

“Oh, really?” Josuke touches his cheek, fingertips grazing the shallow cut. Koichi nods and Kakyoin turns more fully to face them, frowning. Josuke drops his hand and shrugs, gaze darting downward. “Ah, well, it doesn’t hurt. I didn’t even notice.”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “Are you not going to heal yourself?”

Josuke chuckles nervously. “Ah, I...can’t.”

“You can’t?”

Josuke’s hands clench listlessly at his sides. “I can’t heal myself with Crazy Diamond. I’ve tried to before when I’d scraped my knees or whatever as a kid, but…” Josuke shrugs, looking at Kakyoin helplessly.

Kakyoin hums, brows still furrowing. “I see…”

Josuke shifts, fingers twitching. “Is that...bad?”

Kakyoin pauses. “I wouldn’t say bad. It just means you need to be more calculating.” Kakyoin looks up at Josuke over his sunglasses. “That means stop being so reckless.”

Koichi chuckles and Okuyasu outright laughs while Josuke scoffs, but says nothing in argument.

“Anyway,” Kakyoin turns back to Okuyasu and nods at the boy. 

Okuyasu clears his throat before tilting his head up. “My stand -- The Hand -- is kinda simple,” He says bashfully, eyes darting downward, before calling his stand forward. “But I don’t think it’s got a bad power.”

Kakyoin nods and Okuyasu’s stand clenches its fingers in its right hand before jerking them outward, the growth in its palm beginning to shine just a bit with a yellow glow.

“To put it simply,” Okuyasu starts, before his stand lunges away from the group and arcs its arm through the air, a sound not unlike that of a jet flying through the air echoing throughout the field.

Dust erupts from the ground a few meters away, and Kakyoin inches forward a bit, squinting. Okuyasu steps out of the way to showcase the damage done, and Kakyoin’s brows shoot up.

As the dust clears, it becomes apparent that a perfectly carved arc in the ground has been formed, cleanly sliced like a knife through jello. It stretches for a meter long, only about 15 centimeters wide, and it’s completely smooth, like even molecules were cut in half to form it. Kakyoin blinks.

“To put it simply,” Okuyasu repeats, turning from his handiwork to Kakyoin, “my stand erases things with its right hand.”

“Wow,” Kakyoin breathes, still focused on just how sharp and smooth the indent in the ground is.

“Um, and in addition to that,” Okuyasu continues, facing flushing the slightest bit pink in pride at the response, “if I want, I can close the gap left by what I’ve erased.”

To demonstrate the fact, The Hand swings its arm down again, next to the previous mark it left in the earth, and the same jet-esque noise fills the air.

Kakyoin only gets to see the indent of this latest erasure for a moment, before the earth suddenly jerks, both sides of the arc rushing to fill the gap like they were magnetically connected, and any trace of the indent disappears.

Okuyasu turns back to Kakyoin, eyes wide and looking like a puppy waiting on its owner for validation. No wonder he and Josuke are friends… Kakyoin thinks distantly before he hums and nods, tapping his chin with a gloved finger.

“Can you erase anything?” Kakyoin asks, and Okuyasu nods, pride shining through his expression.

“Yup!” He says, confidence visibly beginning to flow through his veins, making him puff out his chest and relax his arms. “Solids, liquids, gases, space-”

“Space?” Kakyoin interjects, brows shooting up again.

Okuyasu laughs bashfully, rubbing the back of his head. “Ah- yeah. Space too.”

Kakyoin nods, gaze flitting over to the stand again. Its headlight-like eyes are ever watchful, glowing softly in the morning light. Its cylindrical head is tilted as it gazes at Kakyoin past the shoulder of its user. It almost seems like it’s observing Kakyoin -- like it’s trying to figure out if he’s a good influence or not on its user. A part of Kakyoin pangs with nostalgia and fondness, a warm feeling with a dash of cold settling in the right side of his chest.

“Damn. I know you said it was basic -- and sure, maybe it is on paper,” Kakyoin says, and Okuyasu’s face falls, making Kakyon frown before he continues with, “but that means it’ll be incredibly versatile.”

Okuyasu blinks, before raising his gaze to meet Kakyoin’s again. “Huh?”

“Your stand’s power is not limited by circumstance,” Kakyoin explains, “and with such a broad power as erasure, you can apply it to multiple situations, and even more strategies.”

Okuyasu’s jaw drops for only a moment before he pulls himself together and looks down, rubbing the back of his head bashfully, eyes downcast. “Ah- thank you, Mr. Kakyoin, really, but...I’m probably not smart enough to do all that,”

Kakyoin’s brow furrows and he glances at Okuyasu from above his frames. “...Well, even if that is true, that’s what I’m here to help with, right?”

Okuyasu blinks, letting the words soak in, before he breaks out into a big smile, eyes wide and shining in the morning sun. In the corner of his eye, Kakyoin can see The Hand nod to itself. Kakyoin ducks his head, his own smile creeping onto his face. Ugh, these kids…

Kakyoin shakes his head before turning back to Josuke and Koichi, who are clapping politely at Okuyasu’s admittedly less dramatic, but still intriguing all the same, show. Josuke is grinning, and when Okuyasu heads back to them, he claps a hand on his shoulder.

“What’d I tell you?” Kakyoin can hear Josuke say, nodding to both Koichi and Okuyasu, “Mr. Kakyoin can be really nice!”

Kakyoin chokes on a snort, erupting into a coughing fit. Hierophant discreetly taps between Kakyoin’s shoulder blades as he regains his composure, politely muffling the coughs with his elbow, which just so happens to hide the snicker on his face as well. Me, nice? Please...

When Kakyoin rights himself again, Koichi has stepped forward one step, looking at Josuke and Okuyasu nervously. They both give him thumbs up, but Koichi only grimaces at this, brows furrowing in desperation.

Kakyoin tries to hum, but his throat clicks on it, almost sending him into another coughing fit. Clearing his throat, Kakyoin coughs out, “Ahem, ah, Koichi. Are you ready?”

Koichi turns to face Kakyoin now, looking stiff as a board. Kakyoin raises a brow.

“This isn’t a test, you know, no right or wrong way to do it. No need to be nervous.”

Koichi lets out a breath and deflates a bit. “I know…”

Despite looking like he’s trying to swallow his own tongue, Koichi pads out to the field past Kakyoin, turning to face his audience.

“Um,” Koichi begins, hands twisting the hem of his uniform nervously, “I’m not as experienced as Josuke and Okuy-”

“That’s alright,” Kakyoin interrupts, nodding in what he hopes is an encouraging way, “this is about what you can do, not what Josuke and Okuyasu can do in comparison.”

Koichi pauses, before breathing out. “Right…”

Koichi straightens his shoulder, tilting his chin up high, and swallows before looking at Kakyoin with the most nervous expression of determination he’s ever seen, brows furrowed and lips pressed into a line, eyes wide open and focused.

“Echoes,” Kakyoin can just faintly hear Koichi murmur, and with a flicker, Echoes appears beside Koichi’s head, faster this time than last. It chirps another greeting at Kakyoin, Josuke, and Okuyasu, before drifting in circles just above Koichi’s head, curiously looking around the field.

“My Echoes seems to be a long-ranged stand like yours, Mr. Kakyoin,” Koichi starts off, Echoes drifting like a leaf on the wind to land on the ground. Kakyoin nods.

“How far can he go, do you figure?” Kakyoin asks.

Koichi hums, glancing down at his stand, who tilts its head at him. “Um, probably 50 meters?”

Kakyoin nods, leaning to rest his chin in his hand. “Seems to be a fair rule of thumb for most long-ranged stands,” He murmurs.

“Do long-range stands usually go up to 50 meters?” Josuke pipes up. Kakyoin shrugs.

“From what I’ve seen, yeah,” Kakyoin answers, glancing at Josuke. But “I’m not-” Avdol. Kakyoin bites his tongue, hesitating. “...I’m not the head of the SPW’s stand department though.”

Koichi just stares, the joke flying over his head. Kakyoin just exhales and motions with a gesture of his hand, sitting upright again.

“Anyway, go ahead.”

“Right,” Koichi replies, voice soft and distant like he was distracted, before turning back to his stand.

Echoes jumps up in the air again, the rattle on its tail flicking excitedly, and Koichi takes a deep breath.

“My Echoes can...er, it weaponizes onamonapia and- words in general,” Koichi explains. Kakyoin raises a brow and Koichi sighs, rubbing the back of his head. “It’s easier to just show…”

With that disclaimer, Echoes flies up, headlight-like eyes flashing in the morning sun. With a chirp, it slices its tail through the air, and a burst of Katakana shoots out, moving so fast Kakyoin can’t quite read it -- but it’s in such a bright, neon pink font that he can see it as it arcs through the air before it staples itself to the ground.

Kakyoin blinks, before he rolls forward a few feet in his wheelchair, squinting down at where the word has pressed against the grass like it was a giant sticker that had been placed down.

Boom…? Kakyoin reads before Echoes chirps again and the Katakana glows.

Kakyoin rolls back just as the ground pulsates with the sound effect, as if there was an actual explosion, and Kakyoin reflexively grips his armrests, fingertips digging into the tan padding.

The sound itself isn’t deafening , though Kakyoin has a sneaking suspicion that’s only because the Katakana wasn’t stickered on him directly. Still, the roar of an explosion echoes through Kakyoin’s ears, as if he’d been within 30 meters of a gas pipe blowing up.

When the sound fades, Kakyoin pushes his sunglasses up his nose and grins at Koichi. “Now that can do a lot of damage.”

Koichi flushes, but he tilts his chin a little higher, eyes still wide but less out of nervousness, pupils relaxing from their dilated state. “Is that a good thing?”

Kakyoin chuckles, leaning back in his chair. “Sure it is. Means you’ll be able to protect yourself and your friends.”

Koichi pauses, face going lax in a thoughtful expression before he shakes his head. “Um- there’s one more thing,” He says meekly, nervousness back in full -- but he doesn’t shrink back down, at least, Kakyoin notes. “But- um, I’m going to need a volunteer.”

Kakyoin can hear Josuke and Okuyasu let out confused noises behind him. Koichi shrugs, hands darting to twist the hem of his uniform again.

Kakyoin rolls forward a bit in his wheelchair. “Here. Fire away, kid.”

Koichi squints, brows furrowing. “Uh…I don’t know, Mr. Kakyoin...”

Kakyoin raises a brow, ignoring his flash of irritation at the perceived underestimation. “I’m not fragile, Koichi. Come on, give me your best shot.”

Koichi stiffens, nervousness peaking at the notion of causing offense, before shaking his head. “R-right…” Kakyoin resists the urge to roll his eyes. He’s a kid and he’s new to this, of course he’s nervous, hisses the more rational part of him. The less rational part murmurs something about Koichi being too much like Kakyoin himself was at 16 -- weak, weak, weak. Kakyoin resolutely ignores it.

Widening his stance a bit, Koichi calls Echoes forward again.

“In addition to sound effects,” Koichi begins to explain as Echoes reels its tail back to flick, Kakyoin eying it warily, “Echoes can also, er, influence thoughts.”

Kakyoin blinks, a flush of cold twisting out from the center of his chest. What-

With the forewarning given, however, Koichi does not hesitate, and Echoes flicks its tail at Kakyoin, a burst of yellow erupting from it and heading straight towards Kakyoin, just like the fleshbud, just like DIO-

Hierophant’s tentacles are moving before Kakyoin can consciously command them, forming a wall in front of Kakyoin, shielding him from the words. Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut…

...but there is only a minor press, like gently tapping a sticker against one’s arm. Kakyoin blinks, before Hierophant turns to the side, no longer shielding him from Koichi, but still in a wall formation.

In bright yellow kanji, the phrase “Wave to me!” has been stickered onto Hierophant’s tentacles in a superfluous font. Kakyoin blinks. Right. Right.

“-Mr. Kakyoin!” Koichi is calling, and Kakyoin finally tunes back in. “Are- are you okay?”

Kakyoin swallows before forcing himself to relax in his wheelchair again, waving a hand at Koichi. “Sure am, kid.” Kakyion’s eyes dart to his stand again, still unmoving in his wall formation. “Um- Hierophant doesn’t like me taking impacts straight on, I guess.”

Koichi lets out a breath, running a hand through his hair. “Oh, okay. I guess…” His eyes dart to Kakyoin’s wheelchair. “I guess that makes sense, yeah.”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. Stop it, hisses the rational part of him again.

“Er, should I hit you again?” Koichi asks, making Kakyoin’s veins fill with ice.

“Your stand should work on other stands,” Kakyoin interjects, voice a little sharp, as if it were a knife, slicing the proposition on a cutting board, “so this should be fine. Go ahead and...activate it?”

Koichi hums, but nods, and turns to Echoes. Echoes cocks its head at the wall Hierophant is still making up, before it rattles its tail and the words begin to glow.

Wave to me!

Kakyoin jerks the slightest bit, the call echoing in his head as if it were his own thoughts, but spoken in Koichi’s voice rather than his own. Koichi’s mouth hadn’t moved, though. Obviously, Kakyoin thinks to himself, but the surrealism still makes him shake his head.

Wave to me!

Kakyoin lets out a breath and forces himself to relax into the wheelchair. Unlike...previous experiences, Koichi’s voice in his mind felt more like a suggestion than an order. It wasn’t all-consuming, the only voice in Kakyoin’s head, making him mistake Koichi’s will for his own thoughts. It felt more like a hand on the shoulder -- guiding. Kakyoin could shrug it off if he really wanted to...

Wave to me!

He’s a new standuser, Kakyoin reasons with himself, of course his abilities aren’t to their full potential yet. I shouldn’t embarrass him in front of his friends over it.

Wave to me!

It’s probably better this way, anyway. Better to just influence rather than completely control…

Wave to me!

Kakyoin gives in, lifting his hand and waving, a few half-hearted rocks of his wrist. Koichi lets out a smile and the words on Hierophant glow brighter for a moment before disappearing, as if absorbed by their own light.

Recalling Hierophant’s tentacles to himself, Kakyoin nods to Koichi.

Koichi hesitates, but Kakyoin doesn’t say anything before he gestures back to Josuke and Okuyasu with a tilt of his head, then turning to face them himself. Koichi lets out a small sigh Kakyoin can only faintly hear before he shuffles back to his friends’ sides.

“Well, congrats, boys,” Kakyoin starts, tapping absent-mindedly at his armrest, “you all are looking to be capable young men. Your stands have a lot of potential. Lots to work with here.”

“Really?” Okuyasu asks, eyes shining, and Kakyoin smiles in spite of himself, despite how the mannerism reminds him of Polnareff with a pang. Kakyoin just wordlessly nods.

“I don’t wanna take up the entirety of your only free day of the week,” Kakyoin continues, “so we’ll only do one more thing today.”

“Sure, Mr. Kakyoin, what’s up?” Josuke questions and Kakyoin can feel his smile morph to something a little sharper.

“The purpose of these meetings is to get better at self-defense, so I’m gonna have to see where you all are in terms of fighting prowess before making any, er, ‘lesson plans.’”

Josuke snorts while Okuyasu and Koichi nod thoughtfully. Kakyoin raises a brow and Josuke waves away his silent question. “Nothing, just- the thought of you being a teacher is pretty funny,” He snickers.

Kakyoin scoffs good-naturedly, before leaning forward in his wheelchair.

“Alright. Ready for a quick round, everyone? You three, against me.”

Koichi’s brows shoot up. “Um- are you sure, Mr. Kakyoin? I don’t…” his eyes dart to Kakyoin’s wheelchair, and Kakyoin bites his tongue to avoid saying something smart.

“I’m sure, kiddo,” Kakyoin says in a flat tone instead, brushing him off. “Our difference in experience makes it a fair fight. Now, are you ready?”

No one else objects. Kakyoin clicks his tongue, smiling to himself while shaking his head. Mistake one.

Hierophant’s tentacles shoot out, easily and hastily pushing Kakyoin back a handful of meters in the grass, now out of Josuke and Okuyasu’s range.

Kakyoin can’t help but grin -- using Hierophant for battle, however faux, is akin to stretching a long-unused muscle.

“Hey!” Josuke yelps and Kakyoin stifles a chuckle into his shoulder before reaching out with one of Hierophant’s tentacles, sweeping Josuke’s feet out from under him.

“Wha- hey!” Josuke yelps, falling with a crash, Hierophant jerking to cushion his fall. Before Josuke has time to feel relief, though, Hierophant begins to roll him up, effectively taking out the healer of the party before the fight has even begun.

“Hey!!” Josuke yells, but he’s left immobile in Hierophant’s grasp, made only worse by Hierophant lifting him up some 20 feet off the ground to dissuade him from trying to break free.

“Josuke!!” Koichi and Okuyasu yelp in tandem, their shock giving Kakyoin yet another opening. Too easy...we’re definitely going to have to work on this.

Another tentacle shoots out, this time wrapping around Echoes, who had been left out in the open, wounding around its tail to restrict its movement. Echoes chirps in alarm, and Koichi’s body stiffens, letting Kakyoin know that he’s as immobile as his stand now.

“Jeez!” Okuyasu yelps before calling out The Hand, forcefully jerking his gaze away from his friends, “Mr. Kakyoin, you’re so fast!”

“It’ll be this fast in a real fight!” Kakyoin calls before he sends a tentacle his way.

Josuke writhes in Hierophant’s grip, trying desperately to get away, shouldering and kicking the best he can despite the height he’s at.

“Be careful!” Kakyoin calls up to him, and Josuke just scoffs.

He summons Crazy Diamond, but much like its user, Crazy Diamond can only do so much when restrained -- a lucky perk of the bodily connection between stands and users for Kakyoin, but not so much for Josuke and Koichi, Kakyoin notes with a wide smile.

Meanwhile, Okuyasu yelps before erasing the space to his left, effectively dodging the tentacle headed his way. Kakyoin nods approvingly.

Okuyasu doesn’t glance his way, however ( Mistake two… Kakyoin thinks to himself); he jerks his gaze up toward Josuke, then down towards Koichi, hands clenching listlessly by his side.

Kakyoin quirks a brow before sending another tentacle barreling towards Okuyasu’s direction.

“Ack!” Okuyasu yelps again, before he takes off running away from it, tentacle giving chase. The hand swipes down, erasing space and effectively giving Okuyasu a head start away from the pursuing tendril.

Okuyasu’s eyes are trained on Koichi’s struggling form, echoing the wriggles of his stand as it tries to break free from Hierophant’s grip, tail attempting to flick over and over, kanji reading Let me go! stickering against the ground.

“Okuyasu!” Koichi yells helplessly as his friend barrels closer, “What are you doing?!”

“I’m not smart enough to take down Mr. Kakyoin by myself, so I need to free you two!” Okuyasu replies.

Kakyoin hums, resting his chin on his hand. He understood low self-esteem, but letting it restrict the moves you’re comfortable making while in a battle like this was dangerous…

Kakyoin sighs as he stretches another one of Hierophant’s tentacles low along the ground, the green of it blending naturally with the uncut grass. It’ll be one of the things I’ll have to work on with Okuyasu, then.

“Be careful!” Koichi shrieks as Okuyasu continues racing toward him, body tensing even more than it was already in preparation for impact.

“It’ll be fine!” Okuyasu reassures, gaze darting up toward Josuke still struggling in the air, seemingly unconcerned with the tentacle racing after him from behind, not questioning how it hasn’t caught up to him yet and what that might mean. Kakyoin almost felt bad; this was going to be too easy.

Okuyasu calls, “Josuke!” and Josuke rolls his head to look down, face screwed up in agitation.

“What!?” He yells.

“Brace yourself!” Is all Okuyasu says before he brings The Hand out again, the stand’s palm already arcing downward.

Kakyoin’s eyes widen, but there’s nothing he can have Hierophant’s tentacle fight against; Okuyasu’s stand wasn’t a force in of itself, after all.

The Hand erases the distance between Josuke and the ground, leaving Josuke, still wrapped in Hierophant’s tentacles, to come racing down.

“OKUYASU-!” Josuke shrieks before falling with a thud, Kakyoin wincing as he feels the phantom pain of his stand’s tentacle slamming into the ground arching up the entirety of his arm. Josuke groans loudly, falling limp in Hierophant’s tentacles.

“It’ll be fine- shit!” Okuyasu cusses as he’s chased right into the tripwire Hierophant had made of itself, stumbling but unable to catch himself as he falls.

“OKUYASU!” Koichi yelps, but Okuyasu cannot stop; he slams into his smaller friend, and Hierophant, releasing Echoes right at that moment, waves as the two go tumbling down into a tangle of limbs on the grass, their heads knocking against each other with an audible smack of bone against bone. Kakyoin winces as he rolls forward toward the group; the fight is more or less done.

“Okuyasu,” Koichi whines incoherently from underneath his friend’s bulk, and Okuyasu simply rolls off of him, eyes closed, mouth in a crooked grimace.

Kakyoin rolls up and gently knocks against Josuke’s shoulder with his front wheel. “Do I need to restrain you again, or do you admit defeat?”

Josuke mutters choice words about Kakyoin’s “disgusting and creepy ribbon stand” and Kakyoin can’t help but laugh out loud about it as Koichi wheezes out, “We lost. We lost. Please don’t.”

“Well, let’s see, you clocked about a minute and twenty seconds,” Kakyoin gloats, while Josuke groans as he clambers back to his feet from the ground, Koichi sitting up and reaching for his head, wincing, Okuyasu turning over and wriggling forward to rest on his stomach next to Koichi, “which is admittedly not bad -- for novices.”

“Thanks for going easy on us,” Josuke whines, tucking a stray strand of hair back into his pompadour with one hand and helping Okuyasu to sit up with the other.

“I need to see how prepared you all already are for a fight in order to know where to start in teaching you,” Kakyoin explains, before smirking, leaning back in his chair. “...Which is not very, based on this example.”

Josuke mutters again, voice quiet but high in the way that lets Kakyoin know he’s being insulted again, and Koichi looks stricken at the blatant disrespect.

“Alas, you’re all free to go home at this point, but just a couple things first,” Kakyoin says, and Josuke hums and gestures for him to talk while Koichi clambers to his feet with Okuyasu’s help.

“One: when I gave you the opportunity to ask anything at the start, you should have asked me about Hierophant’s abilities. It’s immeasurably easier to fight a stand once you know what it does,” Kakyoin explains. Josuke grumbles, but his shoulders slump in admittance while Koichi and Okuyasu look thoughtful, Okuyasu tilting his head and Koichi humming.

Kakyoin continues.

“And two: analyze your environment just as much as you’re analyzing the opponent’s stand; it can be a big giveaway to how a stand works, and it’ll also keep you from making simple, but ultimately dangerous, mistakes.” Okuyasu’s gaze droops at that, and Kakyoin frowns.

He waits for a beat, but no one says anything. Kakyoin nods, steepling his fingers and resting his chin on them.

“Alright, homework then: just spend some time with your stand; get used to its presence and its abilities. This goes especially for you, Koichi,” Kakyoin says. Koichi flushes at the particular mention but nods his understanding.

“But I’ve had my stand all my life,” Josuke whines, “I’m already used to that stuff.”

Kakyoin shakes his head, clicking his tongue. “Not enough. Your stand needs to be second nature, faster than bodily instinct. And beyond that,” Kakyoin shrugs as he manifests Hierophant again, smiling to himself when he feels the faint impression of Hierophant resting his chin on the crown of Kakyoin’s head. “To know your stand is to know your potential, boys, and to know your potential is how you win the fight. That’s what your stand is a manifestation of, after all. So use that to your advantage; figure out your capabilities.”

Josuke does pause at that, expression relaxing to a thoughtful one, joining in on Okuyasu and Koichi’s silent consideration of Kakyoin’s words.

“Alright then,” Kakyoin says, clapping his hands together, the sound muffled by his gloves, “in that case, class dismissed.”

Josuke rolls his eyes good-naturedly while Okuyasu smiles and Koichi’s shoulders slump.

Chapter 8

Notes:

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Chapter Text

Wednesday afternoon the following week, Kakyoin gets a call in the middle of his scouring the stand arrow file.

Kakyoin sits up in his wheelchair, wincing when his back snaps at him for it, before he sighs and rubs at the bridge of his nose.

He wheels over to the phone, grumbling. “I should invest in a pager…”

Kakyoin shakes his head as he parks next to his nightstand and then picks up his phone.

“Hel-”

“MR. KAKYOIN!” Josuke shrieks into the phone, making Kakyoin jerk his head away from the speaker, his neck popping from the sudden movement.

“Ow, fuck-!”

“MR. KAKYOIN PLEASE HELP US!!” Josuke shouts into the phone, and Kakyoin winces, squinting, his brows furrowing.

“Josuke, what-”

“Mr. Jotaro is in danger!”

Cold immediately floods Kakyoin’s veins, his eyes widening so fast he can feel the muscles in his pupils moving. Already he’s wheeling to the door of his hotel room, the cord of the hotel phone stretching with him. “What?”

“Koichi and I just- there’s a stand user at our school- we tried confronting him and we ended up pissing him off and now he’s impersonating me and he’s gonna attack Mr. Jotaro and when we tried to call Mr. Jotaro to warn him he didn’t pick up so-”

“Where?” Kakyoin hisses, the question asked so flatly it was more of a demand than an inquiry.

“Morioh Station!” Josuke quickly spits out, and Kakyoin immediately drops the phone and is out the door, a lone tentacle of Hierophant bringing the receiver back to the holder before slamming the door of the room shut behind him.

Kakyoin wheels himself out down the hall and past the lobby, ignoring the people around him who must lunge out of his way to avoid being run over, Hierophant helping him to maintain speed and balance.

“Hey- watch it!” Someone snaps at him as they jump back from his charging, and Kakyoin sneers but otherwise doesn’t respond, barreling out the doors of the hotel.

The thick scent of freshly mowed grass hits Kakyoin full force as he rushes out, and he inhales once before his gaze darts around the scene, ignoring the bursts of purple flowers, people, and multicolored parked cars in the lot.

There!

A car is just leaving the pickup zone right in front of the doors of the hotel. Kakyoin takes a deep breath before he resummons Hierophant.

Hierophant fluidly erupts from him in a mass of tentacles, racing forward to hook onto the back bumper of the car just as it turns out to the main road. Kakyoin grimaces and digs his fingertips into the leather of his armrests as his wheelchair begins to roll forward in tandem with the car. It’s been a while since I’ve done this…

The car picks up speed and Hierophant wraps a tentacle around Kakyoin’s waist, working as a makeshift seatbelt connecting him to his wheelchair. Kakyoin has the mind to think, Hm. Helmet, before he’s jerked forward, and off he goes.

Kakyoin simply grits his teeth and endures the burst of velocity, ducking his head as Hierophant draws him closer to the back of the car so the driver won’t see him tagging along in the rearview mirror. At least the station isn’t far from the hotel…

Kakyoin sighs and tries to get a breath, which is surprisingly hard when the wind is blasting against his face. It’s moving so quickly past him that it won’t stay in one place long enough for him to breathe it in. Still, it wasn’t impossible, so long as Kakyoin sucked in air with his mouth rather than his nose. Kakyoin’s face pinches, grimacing at how idiotic he might look. Ugh, how annoying…

Shaking his head, Kakyoin blows away his long bang from his face and glares down at the license plate.

Alright. Let’s think.

Josuke had said the enemy standuser was “impersonating” him -- Kakyoin almost wanted to chuckle over that. He knew Jotaro had dealt with impersonators before -- the tale of Yellow Temperance he’d been relayed makes him snort, the furrow in his brow relaxing a bit -- but then again, it did take Jotaro a slightly alarming amount of time to figure out it was an imposter.

Kakyoin frowns. And if the standuser doing the impersonating is Josuke’s schoolmate, he’ll know him better than Rubber Soul knew me, and thus be able to mimic him better...

Kakyoin resists the urge to roll his eyes. Great. So Jotaro somehow being up on the uptake and taking care of the threat himself probably wasn’t going to happen.

Not that I believed in his competency anyway, Kakyoin snarks in his own head, but dread sludges in his chest, thicker than the blood in his veins and so, so much cooler, winding his insides tight in an effort to stay warm.

Alright. Attack methods then.

Kakyoin frowns. His knowledge is incredibly limited as of the moment -- too limited. All he knows is that the stand can mimic people.

Kakyoin pauses, tilting his head. But if mimicking is its main power, its defense and attack methods can’t be stellar. That’s just not what specialized stands are suited for…

Kakyoin swallows. At least, from what I know…

The tentacle around his waist shivers, tightening its grip in reflection of how Kakyoin is preparing himself for anything.

Kakyoin can’t help but smile down at his makeshift seatbelt, fondness lurching warm and fast through his gut.

The car is nearing the station, the building looming closer on the horizon, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath, brows furrowing.

“Alright, bud,” Kakyoin murmurs, and Hierophant relaxes its grip on the car’s bumper.

As Hierophant lets go, it sends out two tentacles to wait cautiously by the sides of Kakyoin’s wheelchair, there to help him keep his balance should he skid, and Kakyoin turns his gaze to the station, directing his chair so he smoothly rolls up onto the sidewalk from the road.

Kakyoin darts his gaze around, spinning in a small circle once he comes to a stop from the momentum, trying to find the trademark pompadour indicative of Josuke in the semi-crowded front of the station.

“Mr. Kakyoin!” He hears, and Kakyoin turns his head sharply to where the call came from.

Coming in from the side of the station facing the town square, Josuke and Koichi are sprinting, Josuke’s face panicked and Koichi looking more than startled, both their eyes wide and their stands out by their sides, floating after them at the same pace as their run.

Kakyoin lets out a breath, allowing his shoulders to slump the slightest bit. They’re not even banged up, good…

“What the hell is going on?” Kakyoin barks when the two skid to a stop in front of him, Josuke wildly looking around, Crazy Diamond covering his blindspots while he does. “Where’s Kujo?”

Koichi gasps for breath, crouched over with his hands on his knees. “I think- I don’t think- he’s here yet,” He pants.

Kakyoin blinks. “What the hell is going on?” He repeats, and Josuke’s gaze snaps to him.

Josuke swallows, gasping in air of his own. “Me and Koichi- we just-”

“Breathe and calm down,” Kakyoin sternly orders, and Josuke snaps his jaw shut, sucking in deep breaths and closing his eyes.

Koichi coughs before standing up fully again, brows furrowed as he stares determinedly at Kakyoin. “Me and Josuke were just- there was a standuser at our school, so we tried to investigate them and see if they had anything to do with the man who killed Okuyasu’s brother.”

Kakyoin blinks, before his brows furrow downward. “You two tried to do what? On your own?

Koichi pauses, sensing the irritation coming off of Kakyoin. “We- we just wanted to help,” Koichi said weakly, “We didn’t think it’d- we didn’t think he’d get the jump on us-”

“You idiots,” Kakyoin snarls and Koichi flinches, looking down. Josuke coughs before shooting a glare at Kakyoin. “You’re just kids, what the hell were you think-”

“He’s just a kid too!” Josuke snaps and Kakyoin rolls his eyes before sighing, burying his face in his hands for a moment and breathing out.

“Okay,” Kakyoin says, dropping his hands, “we’re discussing this later. Right now: who, what, where?”

“Hazamada Toshikazu,” Koichi huffs out, “his stand, Surface, is like- one of those wooden art models at its base form, but it can take on any form Hazamada wants it to -- and whatever harm comes to the doll also comes to the person it’s imitating.”

Josuke nods, scowling. “And right now, that stupid damn doll is imitating me!”

Kakyoin scowls along with Josuke, crossing his arms. “Damn, I hate mimic stands…”

Josuke and Koichi both shoot Kakyoin curious glances at this, but Kakyoin waves it away.

“Not important. Where?”

Koichi sighs, eyeing their surroundings nervously, Echoes curling its tail towards its body. “Well...here. He, posing as Josuke, told Mr. Jotaro to meet him here so he talk to him about standusers, but really, it’s so he can attack him with his stand and make it look like Josuke did it.”

Kakyoin scoffs. “Oh, what a bastard. Too cowardly to even show his own face to a man he plans on murdering?”

Koichi blinks before squinting at Kakyoin, not knowing what to make of that comment, but he continues. “Um. He wants Mr. Jotaro out of the way because he is, as a matter of fact, working with the guy who killed Okuyasu’s brother.”

Kakyoin sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “Okay. Great. Is he here yet?”

Josuke shakes his head, heaving out a long exhale. “No, we beat him here -- though just barely. We’ve gotta get a plan!”

Kakyoin bites back any retorts -- You should’ve had a plan when you decided to confront him, dammit… -- and instead grounds his teeth together, looking around, eyes lingering on the station entrance facing the side of town that Josuke and Koichi came from.

“Alright. Here’s the plan. Get him to go through the inside of the station rather than just running right to the main entrance like you two just did. I’ll meet him inside and…talk to him.”

Koichi and Josuke exchange glances, but neither protest.

“Once he’s inside, just watch over Kujo and make sure that idiot doesn’t do something stupid.” Kakyoin continues.

Josuke heaves out a breath, his facial features relaxing in visible relief. “Right. Right. Thanks, Mr. Kakyoin! We won’t let you down!” With that, he and Koichi turn and start running back to the town-side entrance.

Kakyoin waves a hand dismissively before he turns himself to head into the station, Hierophant shivering with excitement underneath his skin. Been a while since I terrorized someone completely... “You better not!”


Lucky for Kakyoin, no one else is in the station -- at least not near the entrance of it. Unlucky for him, it means he has to wait, bored, the few minutes it takes before something happens, absent-mindedly tangling Hierophant along the architecture of the building.

Because of this, Kakyoin can hear the kid before he sees him; there’s a thudding of feet slapping against the floors, echoing against the walls, and haggard breathing.

“Shit!” He can hear a nasally voice cuss. “How unluck- huh?”

Hierophant, from where he had been lurking low to the ground as a thin tentacle, goes taut and trips the kid, leaving him to splay out on the floor. What Kakyoin wasn’t completely prepared for was Josuke to fall with him -- or, well, a Josuke lookalike.

Kakyoin raises a brow and suppresses a snort, instead crossing his arms and tutting. The kid stiffens before he snarls and jumps to his feet, strands of black hair lurking in front of his face.

He glares down at the floor and, when he catches sight of Hierophant, attempts to kick at the tentacle, cussing when it darts away. “What the hell?”

“Do you really want a murder charge on your hands, kid?” Kakyoin asks lowly as he rolls forward.

The teenager jumps, whirling around, stumbling on his balance as he does, eyes wide and expression slack with surprise. His stand -- still looking like Josuke, Kakyoin notes with a grimace -- stumbles up to its own feet. “What? Who- When did you-?”

“Because this is how you ruin your life with a murder charge,” Kakyoin continues, scowling at the kid.

The kid blinks, before he sneers. “As if. With my stand, I’ll never get caugh-”

“Oh really? Then what would you say the predicament I’ve got you in right now is, if not you being caught?” Kakyoin counters, glaring. The kid is so short he doesn’t even have to look up at him in his wheelchair as he stares him down.

The kid pauses then, uneasy flitting across his face, brows furrowing and eyes darting to the side. “...You’re not the police, though…?”

Kakyoin snorts. “No. But I know exactly who to contact that deals with standuser criminals like yourself. So, wanna stop while you’re ahead, or am I going to have to force you?”

The kid hesitates. Hazamada, Kakyoin remembers Koichi saying, his name is Hazamada.

“Don’t you have better things to do than some loser’s dirty work?” Kakyoin asks, and Hazamada freezes completely, face screwing up in rage.

“You-!” Hazamada growls, before lunging toward Kakyoin, his stand blinking in surprise before echoing the motion.

Kakyoin sighs and waves a hand, and Hierophant shoots out from the support pillars and crossbeams of the building, wrapping around Hazamada and his stand, pinning his arms to his chest and his legs together, pulling as tightly as possible without cutting off blood flow.

Kakyoin tilts his head, unimpressed, and the kid screams in rage, flailing and trying to kick, his stand echoing the sentiment, whipping its head back and forth in desperation. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow at the expression of panic the stand is using Josuke’s face to convey -- Creepy… -- before he focuses back on the standuser.

“I’m not someone’s bitch! I’m doing this because I want him gone, not because someone else does!” The kid spits, glaring at Kakyoin between strands of his hair.

Kakyoin coughs to cover up a chuckle. “I never said that.”

The kid scowls and Kakyoin rolls his eyes.

“Look, kid, I’m not an idiot-”

“-Could’ve fooled me,” Hazamada scoffs, and Kakyoin glares, Hierophant’s tentacles tightening in a warning. The kid shuts up.

“Alright, you wanna be an asshole, Hazamada?” The kid pales at the usage of his name and Kakyoin tries not to let his satisfaction show on his face, despite the warmth of the feeling stretching along his chest like a goo. “Then I can be an asshole too. I can hand you over just for trying to get at Kujo, you know.” Kakyoin rolls his eyes before admitting, “He’s a very important man, you see.”

The kid opens his mouth, probably to let out some smart comment, but Hierophant tightens and he closes it.

“Beyond that,” Kakyoin continues, staring up at Hazamada from over his sunglasses, eyes narrowed, “yes, you are being someone’s bitch right now, because you’re the one who's on the front lines in place of a grown-ass adult, and right now -- dunno if you’ve realized it yet -- you’re taking the fall for him.” Kakyoin snaps.

The kid’s glare wavers. “How- how do you know about Red Hot Chili Pepper?”

Red Hot Chili Pepper? Kakyoin files the information away. Finally, a name...

“He called me and tried to intimidate me out of town,” Kakyoin scoffs. “He couldn’t even do that right. No wonder he tried to have someone else take out Kujo.”

Hazamada blinks, before looking down. “...Does that mean I’m probably stronger than him?”

Kakyoin narrows his eyes before he shrugs. “Could be. Mostly it means he doesn’t give a rat’s ass over what happens to you, though. Are you sure you wanna throw away your future for someone like that?”

Hazamada stays quiet, brows furrowing.

It almost reminds Kakyoin of himself, if his situation with DIO was a little different…

Kakyoin sighs, an edge to his voice, and recalls Hierophant. Hazamada and his stand drop to the ground with a thud.

“Ow-!”

“Alright kid,” Kakyoin sighs, rubbing at his temple with his fingers. “I’m not gonna turn you in to anyone, stand-specific authorities or not.” Hazamada’s eyes widen and Kakyoin puts up a hand. “But,” He continues, voice low, keeping his gaze trained on the teenager, “you need to tell me all you know about Red Hot Chili Pepper, and you’re gonna have to come with me to get your stand registered.”

“What?!” Hazamada cries, his stand jumping up to stand protectively in front of its user, glaring at Kakyoin with Josuke’s face. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow at it before he turns his gaze back to Hazamada, peeking from out behind the towering form of his stand.

“We can’t just have standusers running around going unchecked,” Kakyoin reasons, “especially not standusers that try to commit crimes.” He stares flatly at Hazamada from over his sunglasses.

Hazamada’s eyes are still wide, only now in fear, but he tries to hide it by glaring. “I’m not going with some stand cop,” He spits and Kakyoin rolls his eyes.

“I already told you I’m not a cop,” Kakyoin snaps and Hazamada scowls. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. “I’m being serious, you damn brat.”

Hierophant immediately jerks back up and tightens around Hazamada again, and he gasps at the pressure, going still in the stand’s hold.

“Red Hot Chili Pepper wanted me out of town so bad because I’m competent, unlike him, and because I don’t do prisoners,” Kakyoin says lowly, and Hazamada’s gaze snaps to him, eyes wide both from the pressure and from fear. “You know the alternative to that then, yes?”

Hazamada just stares at him, but Kakyoin nods as if he spoke anyway.

“That’s right. That also means that if I wanted you to pay for what you’ve done and what you’ve attempted, you wouldn’t be here arguing with me or going to jail, you’d already be dead,” Kakyoin finishes, and Hazamada shivers.

Hierophant relaxes his grip and Hazamada gasps, sucking in air.

“But I don’t want you dead,” Kakyoin says, voice still low but in a softer tone. “At least, you haven’t given me enough reason to thus far.” Hazamada shivers at the warning and Kakyoin presses on. “What I want is to find the bastard who put you up to this and beat the hell out of him at the least, and it’ll be much harder to do that if you don’t have the incentive to help me get to him, which is why I'm playing nice.”

Kakyoin rolls forward then, offering a hand to the teenager.

“So, are you gonna take advantage of that and wash your hands of this, or are you gonna stay loyal to someone who would spit on that loyalty?”

Hazamada twitches and he snarls, smacking away Kakyion’s hand but dissipating his stand, jumping to his feet.

“I get it,” He seethes and Kakyoin puts his hands up in faux surrender, but he does recall Hierophant, giving Hazamada some space.

“Thanks, kid,” Kakyoin says dryly, and Hazamada rolls his eyes.

“If you know my name, stop calling me kid, old man,” He snaps.

“I’m not an old man!” Kakyoin defends, frowning. “I’m literally only 27!”

Hazamada gives him a deadpan stare and Kakyoin huffs.

“Whatever, kid, have your misconceptions about age.”

Hazamada’s eyes narrow, but he says nothing else. Instead, he crosses his arms, glancing off to the side. “So...fine. I won’t kill Jotaro. What now?”

Kakyoin hums. “Well, now I just need you to tell me what you can about Red Hot Chili Pepper.”

Hazamada nods, before hesitating, eyes narrowing but brows furrowing worriedly. “...And...what about the stand ‘registration’?”

Kakyoin waves a hand dismissively. “Of course that too.” Hazamada’s shoulders slump in defeat before shaking his head.

“Fine,” He mutters, and Kakyoin tuts at him. Not like you had a choice kid, but whatever.

“I’ll just need to call the Speedwagon Foundation and-”

“The Speedwagon Foundation?” Hazamada interrupts, eyes going wide. Kakyoin hums, nodding. Hazamada blinks. “Why didn’t you lead with that? Jeez, I thought you were gonna take me to some shady underground organization- wait, the Speedwagon Foundation has a stand division?”

Kakyoin waves a hand. “It’s not technically called the ‘stand division’ to the public, but that’s what its function is, yes.”

Hazamada sighs, the tension in his shoulders relaxing. “Alright. Fine. Yeah, I can do Speedwagon Foundation,” He murmurs to himself.

Kakyoin shakes his head, snapping his fingers at Hazamada, and Hazamada jumps before looking back at Kakyoin. “Anyway,” Kakyoin continues, voice short with irritation, “before that, though; Red Hot Chili Pepper. What do you know?”

Hazamada pauses, tilting his head, brows furrowing in concentration before his head lowers. “I...not much, actually.”

Why did you try to kill a man for him then? Kakyoin scoffs at himself. “Okay,” He wheedles impatiently, choosing not to comment, “then what ‘little’ do you know?”

Hazamada’s face clouds, his brows staying furrowed, but the rest of his expression going slack. “Well...Red Hot Chili Pepper isn’t his actual name, it’s just his stand’s,”

Kakyoin snorts. “I mean, I’d hope that’s not his actual name.”

The joke flies over Hazamada’s head though. “He -- or, maybe it was the man who had the arrow before him…? I don’t really remember the face -- but, either way, one of them shot me with this arrow that gave me Surface,” He explains. Kakyoin frowns. This damn arrow again...why were the people who got their hands on it so determined to aim it at high schoolers?

“So you haven’t had Surface for long?” Kakyoin asks, and Hazamada shakes his head.

“No. I only really realized what it was capable of recently…” His face flashes with minor guilt, brows furrowing and the corners of his mouth tightening, and Kakyoin hums, prompting him further.

“I- I swear I didn’t realize-” Hazamada cuts himself off and sighs, sending out every last drop of oxygen in his lungs. “All I knew until a couple of days ago was that Surface -- my stand -- could mimic people. I didn’t know...that the harm inflicted on Surface while it was imitating someone, was then echoed onto that person.”

Kakyoin frowns. What a mix of The Lovers and Yellow Temperance...

“Um- a few days ago, I got into a fight with my friend about idols,” Hazamad continues, staring down at the ground. “And I was so angry afterward...I just- I wanted to see him hurt, so I had my stand mimic him and- and stab himself in the eye,” Hazamda swallows thickly. “Because he ‘clearly wasn’t seeing things correctly’. Or something.”

Kakyoin sucks in a breath, already knowing where this story was going. Jeez…this kid has some issues.

“But the next day at school, I found out he had actually stabbed his eye out in person,” Hazamada finishes weakly, “so...that’s how I found out that portion of my abilities.”

“Hell,” Kakyoin says, frowning. “That’s- that really fucking sucks, kid.”

Hazamada nods, staring down at the ground still. Kakyoin hums, staring down at him.

“Kid-”

“That night, when I got home,” Hazamada cuts him off, looking up at Kakyoin from between strands of his hair, “Red Hot Chili Pepper found me and talked to me. Said he- he knew what I did, but he would make sure no one else found out if I just killed one douchebag for him.”

Kakyoin smothers a snort building in his chest at the notion of calling Jotaro a “douchebag”. Now’s not the time. “Did he talk to you in person?” Kakyoin asks instead, but Hazamada shakes his head.

“No. He just called me, like you.”

“Ugh,” Kakyoin rolls his eyes, rubbing the bridge of his nose again. “This fucking guy…such a goddamn coward.”

Hazamada hums, before looking down. “I agreed to his terms. The last thing he said was just...to be careful. That standusers attract other standusers, so I should keep my guard up.” He laughs a little, tone self-deprecating. “Well, even with my guard up, you, Josuke, and that Hirose kid got me.”

Kakyoin shrugs. “We just have more experience.”

Hazamada hums before shaking his head. “I don’t know anything more than that, though, about Red Hot Chili Pepper.”

Kakyoin nods, leaning against one of his armrests. Standusers attract standusers…

Well, that would explain a couple of things.

“Alright, let me just- get to a payphone and call the Speedwagon Foundation,” Kakyoin says, and Hazamada nods before dejectedly following after Kakyoin’s wheelchair as he heads deeper into the station to find one of the many payphones, Hierophant keeping watch to make sure Hazamada doesn’t book it with his back turned.


After calling in an agent, who says they’ll be there in five minutes, as “We already have people there because Mr. Kujo wanted to speak with someone earlier,” Kakyoin just finishes hanging up when he hears the doors to the sparsely-populated station slam open and the scurrying of feet following it.

“Mr. Kakyoin!?” He can hear Josuke’s voice echo throughout the station. Hazamada stiffens beside him. “Mr. Kakyoin, are you okay?! Did you get him?”

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Koichi calls out, and Kakyoin can’t help the small smile that tugs at the corners of his mouth.

“Over here!” He yells as he rolls around the corner the line of payphones were on, Hazamada hesitantly trailing beside him at Hierophant’s silent insistence.

The crashing of feet against linoleum echoes around the long hallway before Josuke and Koichi round the corner, both looking startled. Josuke’s shoulders immediately relax upon seeing Kakyoin.

“Mr. Ka-”

Josuke and Koichi skid to a stop a few meters away from Kakyoin, eyes locked on the figure beside him.

“What the hell is he doing still conscious?!” Josuke barks, glaring at his upperclassman.

Kakyoin raises a brow. “He needs to be conscious to be registered by the Speedwagon Foundation.”

Josuke blinks before he scowls. “It doesn’t even look like you roughed him up though! What gives, Mr. Kakyoin, I thought you were going to help us?!”

Hazamada rolls his eyes while Kakyoin just raises a brow, amused. “Oh, he got roughed up alright. Had a fun time choking while Hierophant strangled him at one point.”

Hazamada’s face turns red and he glares at Kakyoin, while Josuke just blinks. “Oh,” He says. “Okay. I guess that’s fine then.”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “Also, he’s not gonna kill Kujo anymore, so I’d say I was helpful.”

It’s Josuke’s turn to flush, his gaze darting down. “Right- sorry, I wasn’t trying to imply you weren’t, just…”

“No, I get it,” Kakyoin reassures, rolling forward to gently bump his wheel against Josuke’s shoe before rolling back. “If he didn’t have information we needed, I probably would’ve at least knocked him out.”

“Hey!” Hazamada says indignantly, but Josuke just chuckles, and Koichi sighs, relieved.

“Anyway,” Kakyoin says, “How did babysitting Kujo go?”

“Uh,” Josuke and Koichi exchange glances. Kakyoin raises a brow.

“What? Did you get into even more trouble?”

“No!” Josuke cries before he hesitates again. Kakyoin huffs, crossing his arms.

“Then wha-”

“Uh, Mr. Jotaro showed up outside, as expected,” Josuke says carefully and Kakyoin nods.

However, silence is all that ensues and Kakyoin sighs. “So? What happened?”

“Uh, nothing really? Just,” Josuke exchanges a glance with Koichi again, who shrugs helplessly at his friend. Josuke turns back to Kakyoin but doesn’t meet his gaze. “Um, we just talked. I told him about Hazamada and this whole mess and I assured him...you had it.” Kakyoin pauses.

“Did he say anything?” Kakyoin asks icily, and Josuke’s lips go into a thin line, exchanging glances with Koichi again.

“We kinda didn’t give him a chance to speak, so no…?” Josuke says. “...Was that what you wanted?”

Kakyoin blinks at the question, before he remembers that the last time Josuke saw Jotaro and him in the same area, Kakyoin had thrown an outright temper tantrum.

“Oh,” Kakyoin stutters, ducking his head into his scarf. He coughs before shaking his head. “No, yeah I- I don’t care. He can say what he wants, so long as it’s not bringing you into more danger.”

Josuke blinks. “Oh.”

The silence returns. Hazamada coughs.

“Basically, we bombarded him then sent him back to the hotel,” Koichi cuts in to explain, “because Josuke just thought...you wouldn’t want him around, is all.

A part of Kakyoin’s chest gives way into a bundle of warmth at the notion of these kids caring about his comfort, like sinking into a plush blanket. Another part recoils, sinking poisonous claws into Kakyoin’s surrounding insides, hissing, So weak you need high schoolers to console you? Kakyoin coughs. “Um...thanks. I suppose it is easier with him gone, so he doesn’t screw something up.”

Josuke and Koichi exchange glances again before the doors to the station open up once more, only this time, in walks a brunette, gray-uniformed Speedwagon Foundation employee.

Kakyoin nods at him, and he heads on over to their group. “Mr. Kakyoin?”

“I’m he,” Kakyoin replies, and the employee nods. His eyes dart to the boys surrounding them. “Um, and which one am I taking back to be registered?”

Kakyoin nods his head to Hazamada, who stiffens when attention is turned to him.

“Alright. This should only take an hour or so. Are you ready?”

“Uh,” Hazamada’s gaze darts to Kakyoin, who nods. “Uh, yeah, sure.”

“Alright, let’s go,” He calls, turning on his heel and walking away. “Do you have some form of ID on you?”

Hazamada stutters out an answer and begins stepping forward before stopping when he realizes Kakyoin isn’t following. He turns, locking eyes with Kakyoin.

“Wait, are you not coming with me?” Hazamada asks, and Kakyoin blinks.

“I mean, I can, if you need me to, but Josuke mentioned you’re a third year, so I assumed you could handle this on your own,”

Hazamada scowls at the mention of Josuke’s name, before anxiety takes over his expression again, the furrow in his brows turning upward. “...Do you think I can?”

Kkyoin shrugs again before looking Hazamada in the face. “Kid, I can’t tell you that,” Kakyoin says, “...but I can tell you that having a stand is indicative of having a strong spirit. So, I think that would suggest you can handle a little paperwork and talking on your own, yeah?”

Hazamada nods slowly before he blinks and nods again, more enthusiastically -- which admittedly, isn’t saying much, but still. “Yeah...yeah, you’re right.”

Hazamada turns on his heel then to head after the SPW agent, before he pauses, looking over his shoulder one last time. “...Thanks, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin waves a hand, and the kid turns and runs. Kakyoin sighs, burying his face in his hands for a moment. Is all of Morioh full of crazy damn kids? This stupid arrow…

“Mr. Kakyoin?” Josuke asks, and Kakyoin sighs again before he rubs his eyes and straightens, turning his wheelchair to face the two remaining teenagers.

“And you two,” Kakyoin starts, voice lowering with an edge to it, and Koichi and Josuke immediately stiffen over its presence. “What the hell were you thinking?”

“Huh?” Josuke asks, brows furrowing. “What do you mean?”

“Going after Hazamada yourselves is what I mean!” Kakyoin hisses. “I’ve literally only given you one lesson in self-defense, and you thought that was enough to take on another standuser?!”

Josuke frowns, eyes narrowing, while Koichi winces, glancing down at the scolding.

“We were chasing leads on Okuyasu’s brother’s killer! Are you seriously saying you’d rather us to have done nothing?” Josuke seethes, hands clenching into fists.

“Yes!” Kakyoin snaps, glaring. “You could’ve gotten yourselves killed, you could’ve gotten Kujo killed, you could’ve been framed for murder, for heaven’s sa-”

“Yeah well we didn’t and it ended up fine, so stop underestimating us!” Josuke fumes, Koichi desperately yanking on his sleeve and hissing something Kakyoin can’t hear over the rush of blood in his ears. “He was working for the guy that killed Okuyasu’s brother, so what did you want us to do? Just let it slide?”

“Yes!” Kakyoin seethes, glowering, “You’re just kids-”

“I am so sick of you using that line on us,” Josuke spits, taking a step forward, only for Koichi to latch onto his arm and pull him back. “If you didn’t think we were capable, why bother training us?”

“The whole reason I’m training you is because you’re not capable! The whole first lesson went over this!” Kakyoin snarls, and Koichi’s head bows in shame while Josuke’s face scrunches in irritation of its own. “And beyond that, I didn’t teach you how to protect yourselves just for you to then search out danger on purpose!”

“Oh,” Koichi says, whipping his head back up, eyes wide, while Josuke scoffs.

“You-” Josuke is cut off by Koichi, who continues with his own revelation.

“You were worried about us, weren’t you?”

Kakyoin blinks, the rush of blood in his ears stuttering to a halt, before he averts his gaze and jerks a hand through his bangs, his other hand squeezing around the armrest of his wheelchair. “Idiots,” Kakyoin growls, “...why else would I be so mad?”

“Oh,” Josuke echoes dumbly, shock wiping the irritation off his face, smoothing out his features. His brows furrow then, eyes down-turning in guilt. “Mr. Ka-”

“Don’t go searching for danger,” Kakyoin states, voice firm, as he flips his sunglasses up to rest on the crown of his head. “Kujo and I are here to take care of any standusers that are out of line; it’s not your job, no matter if they go to the same school as you.”

Josuke’s head drops then, while Koichi keeps his gaze, brows furrowed.

“You’re kids,” Kakyoin concludes, voice softer as he lets the irritation drop from it, “so enjoy it.” Please.

They’re all quiet for a moment, Koichi’s own gaze dropping at the final sentence. Kakyoin sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose before he flips his sunglasses back down again. Josuke raises his head after a beat, pompadour bouncing with the movement.

“...You sound like you’re 50 again,” He says, and Kakyoin snorts, shaking his head.

“You’re ridiculous,” Kakyoin scoffs, but the furrow between his brow eases, the wrinkle smoothing back, “I’m only like 12 years older than you.”

“Yet you act like you’re 32 years older,” Josuke counters, and Kakyoin bumps his wheel against the toe of his shoe, effectively stubbing it. “Ow!”

“Watch it,” Kakyoin drawls, amused, before shaking his head. “Alright, fun’s over, head home.”

“Wait!” Josuke says, and Kakyoin raises a brow. “Was- did Hazamada have any information about Okuyasu’s brother’s…?”

Kakyoin sighs, shaking his head. “Not much. The killer only talked to Hazamada once on the phone, from what I could tell. His stand’s name is Red Hot Chili Pepper, though.”

Josuke grimaces. “That’s a shitty name.”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh. “Little bit.”

Koichi hums. “Still...that doesn’t bring us closer to finding the killer, huh?”

Kakyoin waves a hand. “You two don’t need to worry about that, remember?” Koichi hums, looking down. “Besides, names are useful; they can give hints to ability or personality.”

Koichi and Josuke pause, considering, and Kakyoin once more waves them off.

“Alright, kids, head home. Do some studying or something.”

Josuke groans, shaking his head, while Koichi pales, before turning to Josuke to ask in a harsh whisper, “Wait, when is that English test again?”

Kakyoin snorts softly, before escorting them out of the station. Josuke and Koichi begin their trek home, both bemoaning how screwed they are, as neither of them remember when their English test is, let alone the material it goes over. Kakyoin, meanwhile, begins to wait to hail a cab.

He surveys the surrounding area as he waits. As promised by the two students, Jotaro isn’t anywhere outside. Kakyoin hates himself for feeling relieved.

Sighing, Kakyoin rolls to the end of the sidewalk, gaze lingering on the sole bench in front of the station.

Two ships passing in the night, huh?

...Huh...

Notes:

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Chapter 9

Notes:

hey all! hope you enjoy this week's chapter (: I'm in uni now so i might update later in the day for the next two chapters i have lined up (after that I'll be taking another "break" where i write the next chunk of chapters) but no worries! should still be updating on thurs :)
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also quick tw, this chapter is big on food, so be careful!

Chapter Text

Lines upon lines of shelves filled with pills and liquid medication and nasal sprays, among other over-the-counter medications, stare at Kakyoin from his place in line at some pharmacy. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow at them and he turns to look at the beige-painted linoleum floors instead as he waits his turn.

When he had gotten to his last two painkillers, he finally caved and called the Speedwagon Foundation about finding a pharmacy he could transfer his prescription to. Unsurprisingly, in the self-sustaining town that Morioh is, there is a local pharmacy uptown -- a bit of a distance from the hotel, but Kakyoin certainly didn’t care. He just needed his medication.

So, there he was, papers in his lap and one hand squeezing the armrest of his wheelchair, resting his chin in the other one as he looks, bored, around the aisles.

Pharmacies only varied so much, even overseas. The man in the chef get-up was interesting, though.

When Kakyoin was fourth in line, the man had wandered in through the doors, blue eyes gleaming in the pasty yellow artificial lighting. He was humming something Kakyoin could only hear occasional notes from when he had to raise his voice to hit them properly.

He started browsing aisles of medications, one after the other, with a pen and notepad in hand, thoroughly investigating the contents on the shelves -- but he never picked anything out, Kakyoin noted.

At this point, he has cleared three aisles and was on the fourth, this one closest to Kakyoin at his spot now second in line.

He started with cold medications and was now near stomachache and other gastrointestinal pain relievers. Kakyoin knows, at this point, this man is not picking out medication for himself or someone he lives with; he’s spent too long looking at too varying of selections. It makes Kakyoin wonder, though; what exactly is he doing, then?

The man is at the end of the aisle right now, humming as he examines the medications on the shelves and seemingly comparing what they claim to help with on their packaging. Kakyoin silently watches on.

“Ah,” The man nods, setting down the two medications he was looking at. Kakyoin shifts in his wheelchair, straining to hear his mutterings. “So the difference that made this one more preferable was it also helps with nausea in addition to pain...interesting…”

The man takes out his pen and notepad and writes something down. Kakyoin raises a brow. So he’s not checking off some shopping list, but instead seems to be...making one? Kakyoin hums. Kinda backward, isn’t it?

Not to the man, it seems. He does a once-over of his list, face pinching in satisfaction before he blinks and looks up, eyes meeting Kakyoin’s head-on.

Shit-

Kakyoin swallows and quickly darts his gaze away, feeling embarrassment stir warm and hot in his chest, creeping up to the back of his neck.

“Excuse me?”

Oh, great. Kakyoin drags his gaze up to the man, who is now standing in front of him. He has a small, pleasant smile on his face though, like he isn’t about to confront Kakyoin for staring. It almost reminds Kakyoin of a cat’s smile.

“Would you perhaps be a local?” He asks, voice thick with an accent Kakyoin can’t place -- but not so thick he can’t understand him. Kakyoin shifts in his chair, gaze darting down again. Weird way to start a “Why were you staring at me?” conversation…

“No, I’m just- here on business,” Kakyoin stutters out, cringing at his own fumbling. I wouldn’t be in this conversation if I just didn’t stare like a creep-

The man laughs. It sounds like bells, Kakyoin notes, the kind he’s heard at churches in Greece. “I see! You could say the same for me.”

“Huh?” Kakyoin asks dumbly.

“I’ve moved here in order to pursue my passion for spreading authentic Italian cuisine all over the world!” The man announces, brows furrowing in determination and pride. Kakyoin blinks.

Oh. A European.

“So, business for me too, yeah?” The man laughs again. Kakyoin isn’t sure if he should laugh with him. The man’s chuckles subside though, and he eyes Kakyoin’s wheelchair for a moment, which Kakyoin almost bristles at, but- it’s not in the way people usually look at it. There’s no furrowed brow indicative of pity on his face; instead, his expression is slack in interest. In any case, it’s only for a second, before he blinks, gasping.

“Oh, speaking of,” The man begins to dig in the pockets of his apron then, before bringing out a folded paper -- a brochure, Kakyoin realizes. “My restaurant is opening this Saturday! It’s a little on the, how do you say, outskirts of town, but I hope my food will make the travel worth it!”

Kakyoin jerks as the man places the brochure on top of his prescription notes. “Um-”

“If it makes the deal sweeter,” The man continues, “I don’t intend on charging anyone who comes in on the first day-”

“Are you not, like, creeped out at me for staring at you?” Kakyoin blurts out, before he shuts his mouth, teeth clicking together. Why the hell did I-

“Huh? Oh! Not really,” The man shrugs, shaking his head. “I’ve gotten lots of stares since moving to Japan. It must be my blond hair, no?”

“Ah-” Kakyoin blinks, thoughts jerking to a stop. Oh. So this really wasn’t a confrontation . “Er. Probably. It is quite...unusual, here, I guess,”

The man smiles, nodding. “I thought so! So I don’t mind. I am here in the first place to introduce new things after all!”

Kakyoin doesn’t quite know what to make of this man. He’s so...preppy, but not in a way that’s, well, annoying -- not yet, at least. He’s definitely odd too, but Kakyoin can’t quite place why; all he’s been so far is incredibly polite. It should be expected of a foreigner that’s new to Japan, but for some reason, Kakyoin feels that this is different...

“So, what do you say?”

Kakyoin jumps, realizing he was staring at the man’s face again with a flash of heat rolling through his face. “Huh?”

“Would you visit my restaurant’s grand opening?” He asks. “Completely free of charge, I promise. I want as many people’s feedback as quickly as possible, you see.”

“Er...” One of Kakyoin’s hands unconsciously paws at the empty spot in his chest where his stomach was supposed to be.

Tonio’s eyes dart to follow the movement before he gives Kakyoin a bright smile. “I adhere to any and all diet restrictions if that’s what you’re worried about! I might challenge one’s taste buds, but never one’s safety.” He winks.

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, but he swallows thickly. “Ah, well,” His voice is dry. I’m acting like a damn teenager… “Why not?”

The man claps excitedly, his grin stretching even further. “Grazie, Signore! You won’t regret this, I promise!”

Kakyoin nods wordlessly when the shrill ring of a service bell echoes between the space, making him jerk his gaze up.

“Next!” The pharmacist calls to him, peering out past her station to glance at the two, and Kakyoin sighs, rolling forward some before he looks back at the strange man.

“You said it’s on the edge of town?”

Sí, the address is on the brochure I gave you,” The man explains, still smiling, eyes crinkling at the edges. Kakyoin nods.

“Well…” Kakyoin shrugs. “Guess I’ll see you then.”

“I cannot wait!” The man says before he turns back to the aisles he has yet to comb through, a new bounce in his step and his humming resuming.

Kakyoin watches him go for a moment before he blinks and turns back to the counter, rolling up.

As he hands in his prescription notes, he glances down at the brochure in his lap. What a strange man...

True to his word, though, the address is on the brochure. Kakyoin hums, staring down at the photograph on the front, featuring a cute, stone-bricked entrance. Well, I might as well get some free lunch this weekend...


Trattoria Trussardi.

Well, it’s surely Italian, Kakyoin supposes.

The city bus’s route was able to get him surprisingly close to the restaurant; Kakyoin only had to trail along for a block or so before he reached a cute, homey-looking building, just as was advertised. With a wooden-walled and probably closed-off second floor and a stone-walled first floor, complete with windows with wooden shudders, the place did scream Italian aesthetic. Kakyoin could appreciate the adherence to the theme if nothing else.

There was a small porch that led inside, Kakyoin notes with narrowed eyes. Stairs…

Oh, how he’s come to hate stairs so.

Still, Kakyoin only sighs before rolling up to them, beginning the give-and-take of slowly getting himself up, one step at a time -- thankfully, the steps were wide enough for him to maneuver. Hierophant’s tentacles emerge from Kakyoin to watch his back in case he began to fall.

Kakyoin makes it up to the top of the porch and just takes a moment, brushing his gloved palms against his pants. As he does, a small sign on the outside of the door catches his eye.

“Menu: Depends on the guest?” Kakyoin murmurs aloud, squinting at the small text. He supposes it was a simple way of stating the chef was open to any and all dietary restrictions, but still…

Kakyoin unconsciously fiddles with his cardigan once again, near where his stomach would be if he still had one, warnings doctors had given him when he woke up from a year-long coma ringing in his head. Your intestines are going to do the digesting now, so you’re not going to be able to eat many carbohydrates or sugars anymore… Kakyoin shakes his head.

This must be what the man was talking about at the pharmacy… He muses instead. At least he should be able to digest what’s given to him this way…?

Unease still hangs off of Kakyoin like an extra scarf as he enters the restaurant, a little bell jingling to signal his entrance. It almost reminds Kakyoin of the man’s laugh from the other day.

The inside is full of desaturated warm colors, such as light red and brown, with windows letting in natural light. Some of the unease lifts a bit, and Kakyoin looks around.

The restaurant is full of small, round tables, all set with floral centerpieces. Kakyoin hums, impressed.

The only other person in the dining room is a woman with blonde hair in a low ponytail, similar to Kakyoin’s own -- Kakyoin wonders if she was invited because the man got excited over seeing another blonde in Japan. Her own dining table is bare, save for an empty glass of water. She must be waiting on her order.

He nods at her, just to be polite, and she returns the gesture, before wiping her eyes with her wrist and going back to picking at her nails, which have been painted a smooth, pinkish purple.

Kakyoin flips up his sunglasses to rest on his head as he rolls to a random table -- there wasn’t really any counter for him to wait at instead, so he assumes seating is up to the individual…

Just as Kakyoin parks at a spot, there is a small bustle from the door that leads further to the back of the restaurant, presumably where the kitchen and stairs to the second floor were, before the same strange man from the pharmacy emerges with a flourish, his mouth stretched into a polite, but giddy, grin, the corners of his eyes crinkled.

“Benvenuto!” He calls, striding over the Kakyoin. “Glad you could make it, Signore!”

Kakyoin just shrugs -- having the man’s attention all on him again was flustering as the first time. “Ah, yeah...thanks for inviting me.”

The man waves the thanks away, still beaming. “But of course! Should I take your coat?”

“Ah- that won’t be necessary,” Kakyoin dismisses, fingering the sleeve of his cardigan in his lap. He doesn’t elaborate -- how would you even explain you need to layer up to stay at a normal temperature, no matter the season, because your body can’t regulate its own temperature anymore?

Thankfully, the man simply nods, still smiling, before moving on.

“Alright then, let’s get started! May I see your hands, Signore?” He asks, tilting his head in a way that should be friendly, should be reminiscent of a dog, but instead just makes the hair on Kakyoin’s neck stand on end. The unease from before comes drifting back to his shoulders.

“...Why?” Kakyoin asks, hunching inward, ignoring the whine of pain his back lets out at the motion. “I thought this was a restaurant, not a fortune reading.”

The man laughs, throwing his head back, and Kakyoin’s brow furrows while his hands curl into fists in his lap.

He claps his hands together when his chuckles subside, beaming at Kakyoin. “Why, Signore, it’s how I figure out what dishes to serve to my patrons!”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. His gaze darts towards the woman, who shrugs, before gesturing with her head as if to say, Just amuse him, it’ll be fine.

Kakyoin hums before giving the man his hand. “Alright, but- Look, you really should know, though, th-”

“Oh my,” The man murmurs, eyes trained on Kakyoin’s palm, tracing a line. Kakyoin stiffens, the urge to jerk his hand away rising with every second, nerves prickling under his touch, his muscles tense.

“What?” He ends up asking.

The man just shakes his head, giving Kakyoin another smile. Kakyoin thinks it was trying to be reassuring, but all it does is make Kakyoin more uneasy. “Oh, nothing, Signore. No sugars or carbohydrates, yes?”

Kakyoin blinks. What?

The man just stares staring at him, inquisitive. His eyes are wide, unhidden despite the tall chef’s hat he is wearing.

“Uh. Yes, that’s right,” Kakyoin responds dumbly. “...How did you-?”

The man simply backs away though, dropping Kakyoin’s hand, and smiles. “This will be a challenge, making authentic Italian food with no carbs -- but I am excited! Thank you for coming in today signore! I promise I’ll make something you’ll enjoy.” He claps excitedly before he goes to grab a chair near the table Kakyoin had chosen, moving it out of the way to make room for his wheelchair.

Kakyoin blinks, stunned, but the man doesn’t wait for a response; he simply turns on his heel and strides back to his kitchen, humming as he does, similar to the way he was acting in the pharmacy.

Kakyoin squints, staring after him, but when he disappears out of view in the backroom, he turns back to the table. Okay...really weird…

Kakyoin flips over his hand, looking at his own palm. ...Does something about my hand make it obvious? He supposes it was possible, but…

Kakyoin sighs. Maybe Avdol would know? A part of him innocently questions, making the rest of him pang in sadness. Avdol…

Kakyoin still needed to call him back.

“Quite odd, isn’t he?”

Kakyoin jerks, whipping his head up from staring down at his hand. The woman is now facing him, eyes sharp but features set in a neutral, polite manner.

“...Yeah,” Kakyoin eventually says, settling more at his place at the table. “Did he do that hand thing to you, too?”

She nods. “Somehow found out about my gluten allergy just from that.” She taps her chin, turning to face Kakyoin more, and he can see she’s wearing stylized pink scrubs. “I never gave much thought to palm reading, but if there’s something behind it…”

Kakyoin shrugs, again thinking of Avdol with a pang. “I’m sure there’s some science behind it.”

She hums, smiling to herself about something Kakyoin can’t quite get, before she glances at her empty water glass. She pauses, staring at it, but doesn’t say anything else.

There’s another shuffling near the backroom entrance, and Kakyoin jerks his head back to it just when the strange man enters through again, humming, carrying another glass of water.

He saunters over to Kakyoin, placing the glass down on the table beside him. “Here you are, Signore,” He says, straightening with a smile. He glances over the to woman, still smiling. “Your food will be done in just a few more minutes Signora,” He turns back to Kakyoin. “Yours as well. I hope you both enjoy it!”

He turns back on his heel and reenters the backroom. When Kakyoin focuses, he can smell spices and oils wafting from the room. Mmm...it does smell good, I’ll give him that.

Kakyoin turns to his water, and out of the corner of his eye, he notices the woman is still watching him. The hair on Kakyon’s neck begins to stand on end.

He shoots her a glance, and she jerks her gaze away. Serves you right… Kakyoin snarks to himself, but when he turns back to his glass of water, so too does her gaze return to him.

Annoyed, Kakyoin glances back and raises a brow at her.

She purses her lips, eyes narrowing, gaze darting to his water.

“Do you want a sip?” Kakyoin asks dryly, and she shakes her head.

“No,” She says, staring suspiciously at the water, “but I think you should take one.”

Kakyoin squints. Her own water is empty… Kakyoin reminds himself, and while this restaurant owner is weird, I don’t think he’s a part of some trafficking ring or murder duo. So we’re probably drinking the same thing, and thus, it should be safe…

Kakyoin hums, glancing back at his water. Well, even if it’s not safe, it wouldn’t be the first time Hierophant’s had to dive into my esophagus to pull back out something I definitely should not have eaten...

Kakyoin grabs a hold of his glass and takes a sip.

...And it’s just water. Good water; It’s cold, but not so much so that it makes Kakyoin’s teeth hurt; there’s a hint of minerals, but they’re just neutral enough Kakyoin can only be aware they’re there, no what they particularly taste like.

Kakyoin takes another sip and his vision blurs.

His heart lurches for a second, and Kakyoin immediately places the glass down, but he blinks, and the moisture is gone. His nose burns the slightest bit, and Kakyoin blinks again. Was he about to cry?

Kakyoin glances at the woman, but she’s doing a better job of hiding her watching of him, only glancing up at him from her nails.

Kakyoin turns back to the water, eyes narrowed. He’s not foolish enough to think this is all coincidence, but that is just water. So why…?

“How is it?” The woman asks, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze to her, squinting.

“...Fine,” He grunts. She hums. Kakyoin twitches. “Why do you care so much? Do you work here or something?”

The woman outright laughs at that, and Kakyoin scowls. “No, no,” She says, chuckling, waving a hand dismissively at the idea. “I’m not a great cook. Definitely couldn’t handle Italian. Just…”

The mirth in her face drips off, leaving her with a slightly furrowed brow and a frown, glancing back at her own empty water.

She hums, darting her gaze back to Kakyoin. “Could you take another sip? A bigger one?”

Kakyoin narrows his eyes at her and she sighs, resting her chin on her palm.

“I know I’m acting suspicious, but-” Her gaze darts to the backroom entrance before she turns back to Kakyoin, blue eyes shining intently in the afternoon light streaming in from the windows. “I think something weird is going on here,” She finishes lowly.

Kakyoin hums, understanding dawning on him. He glances back at his water, before his gaze darts to her empty glass.

She follows his train of thought. “I don’t think it’s poison,” She says, “just...try it. You’ll see what I mean.”

Kakyoin squints at her, but he’s too tired to argue. Besides, it’s clear the woman is anxious to confirm or debase whatever her suspicions are; she’s on the edge of her seat, now unashamedly staring at Kakyoin’s water. Kakyoin can’t deny he’s starting to get a little antsy, too.

Kakyoin picks up the glass and takes a bigger swig, gulping down a couple of mouthfuls.

His vision immediately blurs again, and when Kakyoin instinctively blinks, a tear races so quickly down his face it simply grazes his cheek rather than fully tracing it. He slams the water back down on the table and scrubs at his eyes, confusion and embarrassment twisting in his chest.

“What the hell-”

“So it wasn’t just mine,” The woman wonders, before she stands up from her table, dragging her chair over to Kakyoin’s, and sitting back down.

Kakyoin squints at her, silently demanding an explanation. She meets his gaze unflinchingly.

“My water also made me cry,” She explains. “It was very sudden. I wasn’t -- and still am not -- feeling particularly emotional or in pain, yet...”

She gestures to her face, and Kakyoin can see the faint redness indicative of tears surrounding her eyes and nose.

Kakyoin sits back, staring daggers at his water. “I’m certainly not very emotional either.” Kakyoin sighs, running a hand through his long bang. “I just wanted a hassle-free lunch, dammit…”

The woman chuckles, shrugging. “It still can be. Since we both had the same reaction, this water might just be some special blend or something.”

Kakyoin hums, pausing. “I guess…A warning from the chef that it could cause spontaneous crying would’ve been appreciated, though.”

The woman nods her agreement, but her shoulders sag in relief. “Honestly, I’m just glad it wasn’t only me. I wasn’t sure if he was trying to drug me but slipped the wrong kind or something.”

Kakyoin pauses, understanding dawning in him. “Oh. Yes, I’m sure this is quite a relief, then.”

She chuckles. “I could’ve easily taken care of myself, especially because if it was a drugging scenario, he gave me the wrong kind.” She sighs, tipping a finger to her chin. “Still, though, men who think they can get their way through brute force like that are annoying. They’re like flies; they’re gross and I hate dealing with them.”

Kakyoin laughs, nodding his head. “Well, I’ll consider it lucky for the chef he isn’t up to anything nefarious then.”

The woman smiles sharply, gaze turning down to the table, tracing the pattern on the cloth with her long nail. Kakyoin almost wants to ask her where she got them painted; they really were nicely done...

“Men don’t usually mess with me, but sometimes the stupid ones underestimate me,” The woman briefly elaborates, staring down at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin realizes she’s testing to see if his previous comment was condescending or not.

Kakyoin just chuckles darkly, his own gaze dropping down now, only this time to his wheelchair, tracing over his armrest. “Oh trust me, I understand a few things about underestimation.”

Understanding dawns in the woman’s eyes, and she nods, settling more comfortably into her seat.

Kakyoin drags his gaze away from his wheelchair, back to his water. It was really good, and so long as he monitors his intake, the tears shouldn’t be overwhelming...

“I’m Tsuji Aya,” The woman says abruptly, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze back up to her face.

“Kakyoin Noriaki,” Kakyoin responds, and Aya hums, nodding.

“I don’t think I’ve seen you around Morioh before, Mr. Kakyoin,” Aya teases lightly, and Kakyoin shrugs, taking a small sip of water.

“Just Kakyoin is fine,” He says absent-mindedly before placing the water back down. “And- no, I’ve never been until now. I’m just…” Kakyoin pauses. “I’m just here as a favor for a friend,” Kakyoin says lightly.

“Sweet deal of a favor,” Aya comments. “Morioh’s a nice town. Big enough to be ideal for starting a business, but small enough that it’s not overwhelming -- or too expensive.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh, do you have a business, too?”

Aya nods, smiling, steepling her fingers together. “Sure do. I’ve been running a salon downtown for a few years now.”

“Congrats on the success,” Kakyoin comments, and she smiles, shrugging.

“It was a little hard at first, standing out among the competition, but,” She smiles knowingly, the curve of it almost a little cocky, “I have something they don’t, so it didn’t take long to make a name.”

Kakyoin raises a brow but doesn’t pry. He wouldn’t know what to do with beautician secrets, anyway, even if she did tell him. “Well, good on you. It’s good to know your strengths.”

She nods, still almost smirking to herself. Kakyoin takes a sip of water again and she re-examines her nails.

As if he was waiting for a natural pause in the conversation, the chef returns from the back room the second Kakyoin places his glass down, two plates in his hands.

“Lunch is rea- oh! I see you two have become friends while I was away!” The man says cheerily.

Kakyoin and Aya exchange glances. “Yeah,” Kakyoin agrees lightly, “I suppose.”

The man smiles. “I’m so glad I could bring people together with my restaurant! This is shaping up to be a great grand opening!” He cheers, before placing the plates down on the table. He glances at Kakyoin’s still halfway-full glass of water and frowns, but says nothing. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow at this before he turns to the food.

On the plate that’s placed in front of Kakyoin is what smells like chicken, covered in a white garlic sauce, with bits of garnish sitting atop it, along with some tomatoes and lettuce on the edge of the plate for a sort of side salad, Kakyoin guesses. He can feel his mouth water a little in anticipation; it does certainly smell and look good…

On Aya’s side is a plate of shrimp covered in a more brown-colored sauce, with garlic, peppers, and tomatoes intermixed with the dish, along with its own garnish on top.

“For your dish, Signora, ” The man explains, gesturing to her plate and smiling brightly, “I prepared Shrimp Fra Diavolo. Little-to-no gluten, but big on protein!”

Aya smiles and nods. “Thank you, Mr…” She pauses. “I’m so sorry, I just realized I never got your name, how rude of me...”

The man claps and laughs, shaking his head. “No, no! I should be the one to apologize, I should’ve mentioned it earlier!” The man crosses an arm across his stomach and bows politely. “I am Tonio Trussardi, at your service!”

Aya nods, giving the man a small smile. “Well, thank you, Mr. Trussardi. It looks delicious.”

Tonio chuckles, waving a hand. “Oh, you flatter me, Signora.” He turns to Kakyoin then, looking at the food he prepared with pride. It was hard to remain suspicious of him when he seemed so genuine… “And for you, Signore, I have prepared a simple, low-in-fat chicken breast complete with a creamy garlic sauce, and a small makeshift salad with lettuce and tomato, featuring an apple cider vinegar dressing.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh, wow. That does sound really good,”

The man beams, his smile so wide his eyes are almost closed. “Grazie! I hope it tastes just as good as it sounds.”

Kakyoin huffs a laugh, nodding.

Tonio then pulls out utensils wrapped in napkins for both him and Aya from one of the pockets on his apron, before he gives them some space, backing away a step or two.

Tonio pauses for a moment, fiddling with his apron while Kakyoin and Aya pull out their respective utensils and prepare to eat. Tonio takes a deep breath then and speaks up.

“I hope you don’t mind, but would it be alright if I stuck around while you two eat? I just want to be on hand for any of your feedback or commentary,” He says. Kakyoin and Aya glance at each other.

“...No, that’s fine,” Aya says slowly, and Tonio smiles, bowing his head.

“Grazie! Well, don’t let me intimidate you; enjoy!”

Kakyoin and Aya lock eyes. Aya shrugs, turning down to her plate, and after a moment of hesitation, Kakyoin follows suit.

Turning his gaze back down to the chicken, Kakyoin pins a piece with his fork and cuts it out with his knife. He hesitates for a second, but he sees Aya bringing her own fork to her mouth, so he complies as well and takes the bite.

It’s... really, really, damn good. Even just the sauce, with the tangy and yet somewhat sweetness garlic is known for, makes Kakyoin hum, pleased, but when he chews, the meatiness and juiciness of the chicken joins in, combining with the sauce to overwhelm his tongue with savor.

Kakyoin blinks, chewing faster and going to cut another piece, and distantly he can hear Aya hum as well, her tone high in surprise and delight.

Kakyoin takes his other bite, and it’s just as good as the first time, flavor washing over his tongue like a wave on the shore. The chicken is tender, easily sliceable, but the texture is just the slightest bit resistant, indicative of all meat, and it’s an incredible combination. Kakyoin goes to cut another piece while he sees Aya pin two more shrimp with her fork.

Tonio fiddles with his apron, a nervous smile on his face. “How do you like it?”

Kakyoin swallows but continues cutting a new piece. “It’s- it’s really good- it’s fantastic actually,” He stammers out, giving Tonio a quick smile. “I think this is one of the best things I’ve ever tasted, easily.”

Tonio laughs, cheeks flushing a bit. “Oh, you don’t need to flatter me, Signore, ” But he smiles proudly, brows furrowed humbly.

Aya swallows before seconding Kakyoin. “No, he’s right, this is- I’ve never had food like this before. Beyond just the taste, the- the textures, the combinations of ingredients, it’s incredible!”

Tonio laughs again, cheeks flushing darker before he gives the two a warm smile. “Well, I’m very glad you both think so. I’m trying my best to adhere to the different tastes in Japan while also keeping my food authentic, you see,”

Kakyoin swallows another bite. “I think you’re doing a hell of a job,”

Aya nods, biting into another shrimp, when she pauses.

Kakyoin glances up, pausing in his cutting off another piece. “Ms. Tsuji? Are y…” Kakyoin trails off, something in his chest lurching. “What-”

Aya drops her fork, the clatter of it against her plate making Kakyoin jerk his gaze back to her. She looks paler all of a sudden, hands shaky and fingers limp, as if she’s lost control of her motor functions.

“Ms. Tsu…” Kakyoin loses the breath to finish the sentence when his chest lurches again, whatever it was in there knocking against his lungs, like a drunk stumbling around their own apartment.

What was happening?! Kakyoin’s gaze jerks to Tonio, but he looks oddly relaxed, still smiling. Horror washes cold and thick into Kakyoin’s chest cavity. He hopes it drowns whatever is in there lunging at his organs.

What happened. What happened. Poison? One part of him panics.

It can’t be poison, it’s acting too fast to be tasteless poison, and it’s clearly ingestive poison because Tonio is still fine and standing, another part of him reasons, but the first part just wails in response.

Then what else could it be?!

Small, red flashes dart about in Kakyoin’s peripheral, and he jerks his gaze back to Aya. She’s staring down, mutely horrified, as something bubbles underneath the hands of her skin, rippling like it was boiling. As she’s concentrated on that, though, she’s missing the small specs flying around her head. They don’t stay for long though; they dart away from her, and Kakyoin’s gaze follows them. They return to Tonio.

Oh, shit. Kakyoin’s very suddenly reminded of Hazamada’s warning: Standusers attract standusers.

So much for a hassle-free lunch…!

Chapter 10

Notes:

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Chapter Text

Was this...a stand attack? But why? Kakyoin’s thoughts are muddied in panic, but his eyes narrow and he turns to snarl at Tonio when his chest constricts again, the thing -- what ever it was, stand or poison -- inside him creeping down to his intestines. Red Hot Chili Pepper…

But if Tonio is working with Red Hot Chili Pepper, why drag Aya into this? Kakyoin grits his teeth. Tonio trains his eyes on the woman in question, watching closely as she scoots back from the table, her legs strong enough to push away but not strong enough to stand as her hands continue bubbling in front of her. He’s stopped smiling all innocently at least, gazing with a neutral expression down at whatever was happening with Aya’s hands -- not surprised, only interested...

Who cares why, Kakyoin thinks, shaking his head to refocus before staring daggers at Tonio, this is a hell of a messed up way to take someone out, though -- so maybe Tonio just likes attacking people, regardless of if he has a reason or not.

Kakyoin grits his teeth and manages to push away from the table, rolling back in his wheelchair, glaring at Tonio as he does, snarling like a cornered animal.

Tonio jumps at the sudden movement, jerking his gaze from Aya to face him. “Signore-”

Kakyoin just snarls wordlessly while Hierophant erupts into view around him, tentacles racing toward Tonio. Aya jumps, wide eyes following the appendages while Tonio yelps, his own eyes widening, before dodging at just the right minute, the tentacle only cutting his sleeve rather than wrapping around him to constrict his body. Dammit…!

But this confirms he’s a standuser, one part of him notes gravely.

Tonio’s jaw drops open, one arm coming up to paw at his torn sleeve, and Kakyoin grits his teeth, Hierophant’s tentacles shivering in reflection of his anger.

“Who the hell are you?!” Kakyoin snaps, voice ragged, as Hierophant’s humanoid form manifests beside him, the stand’s headlight-like eyes staring in concern at his user as his intestines begin to twist in discomfort.

Tonio raises his hands in surrender, wide eyes locked onto Hierophant Green. “I’m- I’m a chef, I’m- you have one too?”

Kakyoin snarls and sends another tentacle Tonio’s way, hoping to actually ensnare him this time. Tonio jerks away, but the tentacle wraps around his arm, tugging him forward, digging harshly into the skin.

Tonio yelps as he’s dragged closer to Kakyoin. “Have what, a stand?” Kakyoin growls, wincing as his intestines recoil even more in discomfort as what ever Tonio did to him pokes and prods them. “Of course I have one. You mean you didn’t know I’m a standuser? That isn’t why you attacked me?” So is he not with Red Hot Chili Pepper…? But why else would he pull a stunt like this?!

But Tonio isn’t quite listening; he just pauses, stopping his resistance. “Stands...is that what they’re call-? AH!”

Kakyoin jerks him forward again, yanking his arm down so he stumbles down into a kneeling position, now face-to-face with Kakyoin. Kakyoin sneers at him, teeth bared, and Tonio goes pale, freezing in Hierophant’s grip. I need answers. Now.

“Who put you up to this?” Kakyoin seethes, and Tonio blinks, eyes wide. “Who?! Was it Red Hot Chili Pepper?”

“Who?!” Tonio asks, face openly fearful and shocked. Kakyoin just growls and shakes his head. Does he seriously- what are the odds of being attacked by someone with no connection to the guy who wants me dead or out of this town?

Hierophant whips a tentacle around Tonio’s chest, tightening around it threateningly, akin to an anaconda wrapping around its prey.

Wha-!” Tonio yelps, head jerking down, his chef’s hat falling to the floor. The contact jerks him back into motion, and he begins struggling against Hierophant’s hold, but it’s too late to be effective. Hierophant wraps another tentacle around Tonio’s free hand, before bringing his arms behind his back, restraining him further.

Kakyoin changes his line of questioning, rolling further into Tonio’s space, giving off the impression of No escape .

“What the hell are you doing to u-” Kakyoin’s mouth stays open but no sound comes out. The force -- Tonio’s stand , probably, it can’t be poison, it’s too direct, too intentional -- has reached his spine, particularly the part of it that was held together with metal and a prayer.

Pain rockets all across Kakyoin’s lower back, and it’s so intense his vision swims, Hierophant losing grip on Tonio.

“Ah- us…?” Kakyoin wheezes out the rest of his question, retreating a handful of centimeters, head beginning to spin as his brain is overloaded with pain signals, his stomach lurching against the bites of chicken he just ate, clenching down unhappily against them.

“Mr. Kakyoin?!” He can faintly hear Aya call, but he can’t respond.

Kakyion’s mouth opens and closes once, twice, but the pain just keeps coming, layer after layer of fire reach up and up and up, his lower back completely ash and grit, not strong enough to hold its own, not stable enough, collapsing, collapsing, collapsing-

Kakyoin wheezes and Hierophant has swirl up into his humanoid form to hold out his arms and catch Kakyoin as he slips forward out of the wheelchair, losing his balance to stay upright.

He can’t see, he can’t see, he’s overheating, this is just like N’Doul, no -

Hierophant jerks a tentacle to Kakyoin’s mouth, and he belatedly realizes Hierophant is trying to reach in and pull out whatever the hell Tonio put in him. Kakyoin drops open his jaw a little more and Hierophant slivers inside.

Kakyoin shivers at the feeling of his own stand creeping down his throat, tears welling in his eyes reflexively as he gags against the tentacle, the waxy texture of his stand’s skin not helping in the slightest. His stomach twists tighter around his bits of lunch.

Distantly, he can hear Tonio saying something, voice high and panicked, and Aya responding in turn, voice sharp and nervous, but he can’t make out the words -- and frankly, he doesn’t care right now; what he does care about is making the pain stop, please make it stop, make it stop, make it stop-

His back was screaming . It was so loud that the vocalizations echoed throughout Kakyoin’s blood, reverberated through his muscles and tissues, roaring in his ears. The sweat forming on his brow acts as the tears his spine was trying to shed, actual tears of pain forming in Kakyoin’s eyes, it hurt, it hurt, it hurt, it HURT-

Hierophant latches onto something and immediately ejects out of Kakyoin’s throat, slithering backward and rubbing harshly against the lining of his epiglottis as he does, and Kakyoin gags. Hierophant’s tentacle slides hastily and clumsily against the walls of his throat, and he coughs harshly when the tentacle finally retreats from it as a whole.

His chest is stuttering, heaving in his lungs’ attempts to regain his breath, and Hierophant is still holding him, but the pain has subsided, at least enough so that he could see again. Kakyoin gasps in air, wiping the tears from his eyes with a quick swipe against the back of his glove, before he glares down at Tonio, lips curled into an animalistic snarl. Hierophant throws what it ensnared at Tonio, and unsurprisingly, it’s a clump of those weird red things Kakyoin saw surrounding Aya -- it’s Tonio’s stand, it has to be.

Tonio doesn’t seem to be in pain despite the hold Hierophant had on his stand -- Guess that’s one of us then, Kakyoin thinks sourly -- but he’s simply staring at Kakyoin from his slouched position on his knees, eyes wide and mouth agape.

Suddenly, Aya is behind Tonio, hand reaching down to grip his throat, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze up to see another stand, this one clearly with Aya. It’s pink with hints of gold, and it, frankly, looks like a robot or cyborg of some sort. It almost reminds Kakyoin of Silver Chariot in some way...

Kakyoin clears his throat, swallowing against the soreness that’s already developing, as he keeps up his glare. Meanwhile, Hierophant sets him back into his wheelchair properly before raising its tentacles threateningly around Kakyoin’s figure. “What the hell?”

Tonio blinks, before snapping shut his jaw. “Oh, my God,” He says faintly, and it reminds Kakyoin of Joseph, startlingly.

Explain, ” Aya murmurs dangerously, tightening her grip on the man’s throat, and Kakyoin coughs again before settling in a little more in his wheelchair, deflating against it.

Tonio nods, his shock wearing off, and seriousness seeping into his features, stiffening them. Kakyoin hadn’t thought the expression possible for the man, in all honesty, but today was just full of surprises apparently...

“I am sorry,” Tonio begins, locking eyes with Kakyoin. Kakyoin scowls, but he doesn’t drop his gaze or interrupt. “I truly am sorry. I didn’t realize you two both had- what did you call them? Stands?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “Doesn’t matter what they’re called. Why the hell did you attack us?! Do you mean to say you’re seriously not with Red Hot Chili Pepper?” Kakyoin scoffs. “What, is this how you get your kicks or something? Huh?”

“A-attack? Red Hot…?” Tonio asks faintly, before shaking his head frantically. “No, no- I-” He pauses, collecting himself, before furrowing his brow and squaring his shoulders, meeting Kakyoin’s steely gaze again. “I wasn’t trying to attack you -- or anyone. Quite the opposite, in fact.”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh while Aya’s hand on his throat tightens even more. Tonio’s chest heaves as his airway is constricted. “Really?” She asks lowly, “then what the hell was that just now, if it wasn’t an attack, huh?”

“Please let me explain,” Tonio wheezes and Aya relaxes her grip incrementally, though her stand places a hand against the back of his neck to keep the level of threat consistent. Tonio tenses, but doesn’t object, and instead trains his wide eyes onto Kakyoin, determination seeping to mingle with the panic on his face.

Tonio sucks in a couple of breaths, before stammering, “My- my power -- my stand? -- my power, it’s called Pearl Jam, and it- it- when my stand is ingested, it’s able to go around and fix ailments inside the body. Like an all-purpose herb,” Tonio explains.

Aya and Kakyoin both raise their brows at him and Tonio shrugs helplessly, turning his gaze up to Aya.

“It’s true! S-Signora, your hands, they were awfully cramped when you came in, yes? And your shoulders?” Aya blinks, surprise smoothing out her features. “But now you’re able to grip my throat with such force so easily,” Tonio laughs nervously, gaze darting downward, before flickering up again. “That’s because my Pearl Jam eased the aches away.”

“Oh,” She murmurs, locking eyes with Kakyoin. Kakyoin hums, narrowing his gaze back at Tonio. Aya clicks her tongue, turning her gaze back down to Tonio. “...Let’s say we believe you. So you’re really a healer?”

“Yes,” Tonio sighs, shoulders slumping. “Most people -- in fact, everyone else I’ve used Pearl Jam on -- didn’t notice them at work. Some of the symptoms, yes, like the water that makes you cry,” Tonio gestures with a nod of his head to Kakyoin’s still unfinished glass, “but not the stand itself as they travel through and fix things.” Tonio pauses thoughtfully. “I guess now I know the other customers didn’t notice because they didn’t also have powers…”

Kakyoin’s gaze remains trained on Tonio, and Tonio stares evenly back. He’s shaking a little -- clearly frightened -- but his stand has dissipated, and he stands at attention in Aya’s grasp, accepting her warning squeezes without complaint, keeping his gaze locked onto Kakyoin only.

Kakyoin holds his gaze for a moment longer, before he sighs, leaning back in his chair. Aya’s eyes narrow, but she does let go of the chef, her stand dissipating.

Tonio breathes out a sigh of relief, crumpling in on himself. “Here, let me show you,” He murmurs, waiting for Kakyoin and Aya to give him permission -- he receives it with a grunt of interest from Aya -- before summoning his stand again for them both to examine. “See? They’re harmless. I don’t think they have any offensive maneuvers...”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “They literally go inside people’s bodies. It’d be easy for them to kill.”

Tonio winces, frowning at the thought. “I...I guess,” He says unevenly, “but I’ve never trained them for that. When I realized what I could do -- what they could do -- I focused on using my cooking and my powe- my stand, to heal those around me.” He locks eyes with Kakyoin again, gaze wide -- the picture definition of earnest.

“I truly only want to use them for good. I didn’t realize you both also had powers -- and even if I did, I wouldn’t have realized you’d be able to feel Pearl Jam working its magic until...well, just now. I never meant to startle you.” Tonio pauses, eyes skirting to Kakyoin’s wheelchair, making him bristle, digging his fingertips into the leather of his armrests. “...Or to hurt you.”

Kakyoin just scoffs at him, but he looks up to Aya for her judgment. Her eyes are narrowed, but she just shakes her head and shrugs, the stoniness in her face letting up a bit, relaxing.

He sighs, running a hand through his bang. “...Alright, fine. I guess you’re telling the truth about just wanting to heal. But if you were just trying to heal her hands, what the hell were you doing to me? Are you sure some jackass didn’t call you and tell you to murder the only 20-something-year-old in town that’s in a wheelchair?” Kakyoin snaps, town flat and sardonic, like a tongue-full of salt.

“What?” Tonio asks, brows furrowed in confusion. “No, I- I’m sure...why would someone even want you d…” Tonio stiffens, jerking his gaze up, looking at Kakyoin with wide-eyed horror. “When you said you were here on business, you didn’t mean- ah, mafia business, did you-?”

“What? No!” Kakyoin spits, rolling his eyes. “Who the hell do you think I am?”

“Who do you think I am?” Tonio cried. “You’re accusing me of trying to take you out! I’m not an assassin!”

“I-” Kakyoin pauses. When you put it like that, I sound like the unreasonable one… “Oh. Huh.”

“Boys,” Aya sighs, her voice edged, “let’s figure this out.” She points to Kakyoin. “Mr. Trussardi has already explained a little, so you explain now; what business exactly are you here for? I thought you were here for a friend?” Kakyoin almost winces at the accusatory tone in her voice. “And either way, why would someone be trying to kill you because of it?”

Kakyoin huffs out a sigh, shaking his head. Fair questions… “...The business is personal effects,” He starts dryly, “I am here for a friend -- a stupid, annoying bastard of a friend -- who ‘accidentally’ got a woman pregnant the last time he was here. But unfortunately, he didn’t know about that pregnancy and the resulting child until recently, and now he’s too old to travel himself to visit his son. So I’m here on his behalf to just watch over the kid for a while.” Good enough.

Aya and Tonio blink. “Oh,” Aya says softly.

Kakyoin huffs, shaking his head. “It’s crazy, isn’t it? But it’s not the kid’s fault his dad is a hot mess, so…” Kakyoin shrugs. “...It wouldn’t be fair for no one to visit at all because of that.”

Aya and Tonio hum, Aya nodding as she does.

“That’s very kind of you to do, Signore,” Tonio says. Kakyoin just waves the compliment away, shaking his head. Kind isn’t the word I’d use...

“Okay, but then why would someone want you dead for that?” Aya asks, brows furrowed, her stand mirroring her confusion by tapping a finger to its chin, tilting its head. “Is your friend in the mafia if not you-?”

“No one is in the mafia,” Kakyoin clarifies dryly, stifling the urge to laugh at the idea of Joseph as a New York mobster, complete with a cigar and pistol. Please, he’d end up shooting himself.. . Tonio hums and Kakyoin shakes away his thoughts. “It’s…”

Kakyoin sighs, running a hand through his hair. “It’s...a long story, but I should probably tell it to you two, considering you’re also standusers...” He mutters.

Aya and Tonio blink, before Aya gestures for him to continue.

Kakyoin sighs. “Long story short, but apparently Morioh was home to some crazy prick that had this- this is going to sound crazy, but there was some crazy prick in town that had this arrow that could give people stands.”

Tonio gasps while Aya’s brow furrows. “You mean...not everyone is just born with a-a stand?” Aya asks. “They can be given one?”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “Apparently.” He sighs, running a hand through his long bang, thinking back on the stand arrow file. “Best as I can tell, about ten years ago, this stand arrow got unearthed from Egypt somewhere, and people have been losing their minds over it: giving every damn person they see a stand or killing them trying. One of those crazy assholes brought the arrow here, but got killed, and now a new crazy asshole has the arrow.”

Kakyoin sighs, shaking his head, shoulders slumping. He was exhausted; how was this his life? 

“And now the new crazy asshole knows I’m here. He doesn’t want other standusers to get in his way, so he’s been threatening me, trying to get me out of town. He’s too cowardly to try himself though; he’s already tried to kill before by convincing other standusers to do the job...so,” Kakyoin gestures to Tonio. “You can see why I thought that was the case here too, then, can’t you?”

“Oh,” Tonio says, voice faint. “I- yes, yes I can. I’m so sorry for scaring you.” He repeats, head drooping low in shame, hands fiddling with the strings of his apron.

Aya squints, tilting her head. “...How do you know so much about this?” She asks. “I didn’t even know other people had powers -- stands, as you call them -- until today, but you…” She shakes her head.

“Er- that’s also kind of a long story,” Kakyoin admits, vague recollections of how the Speedwagon Foundation was founded flashing through his mind, “but- do you know the Speedwagon Foundation?”

Aya stares at him blankly while Tonio straightens and answers, “Oh! That American liberal arts funder?”

Kakyoin nods, gesturing to Tonio with his head. “Yes. Turns out they have a stand division where they go around and collect information on stands and their users, so…” Kakyoin shrugs. “That’s why I know so much.”

Aya blinks. “Do you work with the Speedwagon Foundation?”

Kakyoin huffs a laugh, shaking his head. “I wish. But no, I just-” Avdol flashes through his mind and Kakyoin frowns, gaze darting downward, “-I just have friends who do, and they keep me in the loop as a result. Get me access to documents and the like.”

Aya raises a brow and Kakyoin raises his hands defensively. “Just taking advantage of all my options, Ms. Tsuji,” He says dryly, and Aya snorts.

“Fair,” She says. “...Do you think you could get me the contact information of someone who can help me learn more?” She asks. Tonio nods his agreement.

Sí, I would want to learn more myself as well,” He says.

Kakyoin blinks, the edge of interest, desperation, and loneliness in Aya and Tonio’s tones fitting all too similar to how Kakyoin felt growing up…

Are naturally-born standusers just doomed to be outcasts? Kakyoin wonders to himself bitterly as he nods. “Sure. They’d be interested in talking to anyone with a stand anyway, so…”

Aya smiles then, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“Just- be on guard when you talk to them is all. I don’t think Red Hot Chili Pepper knows of you two if you haven’t seen him yet, but he’ll be looking for standusers in the area, so just...be careful.”

Kakyoin just sighs, shaking his head, while Aya hums, brows furrowing. “So you’re saying he’ll go after anyone with a stand?”

“...Eh,” Kakyoin says, squinting, “He’ll want to, but he doesn’t have enough information to, and, as I said, he’s too much of a coward to -- so far, at least.” Kakyoin pauses, gaze tracing over Aya and Tonio, who are both looking at him intently.

“...But I would be careful if I were you -- both of you,” Kakyoin warns, the shrill, annoying laughter he heard on the phone weeks ago echoing in his ears. “I am working on finding that damn worm and putting an end to him so my friend’s son can live in peace, but until I’m successful with that...” Kakyoin shrugs, sighing again. “Just...be on the lookout.”

Aya and Tonio both look troubled by this revelation, and Kakyoin dryly wonders if it would be an inappropriate time to ask them to go register with the Speedwagon Foundation.

“...Anyway,” Kakyoin mutters, gesturing towards Tonio, eyes steely and cold. “So if you weren’t trying to kill me, then what the fuck was that?”

“Ah-” Tonio frowns, brows furrowing in a way that’s a shade too close to pity for Kakyoin’s liking. Tonio clears his throat.

“Well, when I read your palm -- which was really just Pearl Jam giving you a once over so they would know what to fix once inside -- I could tell you were tired. That is what the water was supposed to fix,” He comments idly, glancing at the still not-empty glass disdainfully, before focusing again, turning his gaze back to Kakyoin.

“But more critical than that, I could also tell that you were in a lot of pain, particularly near your lower back. However…” Tonio’s face falls again, and Kakyoin needs to grit his teeth to avoid saying something uncouth. “I couldn’t figure out what exactly was wrong, which was a first…”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. Tonio ignores this and continues.

“So, when Pearl Jam entered, they wanted to start at your back, but…” Tonio looks sadly at Kakyoin, the furrow between his brows turning upward. “But your system had complications that made it difficult for them to get down there.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, scoffing. “Yeah, I wonder why. It never crossed your mind why I physically couldn’t have carbohydrates or dairy?”

“Of course it did,” Tonio defends, “but I- I never expected- there are other conditions that could have had that dietary restriction, many of which are not so-” Tonio hesitates for a moment, and Kakyoin almost dares him to say broken , but the chef continues before he can. “-So- complex, so I was sure I could help fix something.

Tonio lets out a long, shaky sigh, and Kakyoin has the mind to maybe feel a little bad for his aggression thus far. “But- but what I found was...too much for any herb to fix, which means it was all past my stand’s abilities, too-”

“It’s- whatever,” Kakyoin cuts off, tired of making the man justify himself. Tonio shuts his mouth, looking ashamed. Kakyoin feels his own shame grow a little, but his outward expression never changes. “Look, it was kind of you to try, I don’t blame you for that -- but this could’ve been dangerous for you. We could’ve killed you.”

“I didn’t mean to startle you,” Tonio says again, his brow still furrowed in that patronizing way, his face set in pity, and Kakyoin sees red. “But- Signore, you don’t even have a stomach, are you-”

“That was none of your fucking business,” Kakyoin spits, white-knuckling the grips of his wheelchair, while Aya gasps at the revelation.

Tonio frowns, before nodding hesitantly. “No...you’re right. I truly am sorry.” He pauses then, looking up at Kakyoin, still with that forsaken sadness, but a seriousness underlying it that Kakyoin can’t dismiss. “But...your liver…”

Ah. Kakyoin should’ve guessed he’d bring that up as well...

“It’s fine,” Kakyoin says hurriedly, and Tonio frowns.

“Are you sur-?”

“It’s fine.” Kakyoin insists, and Tonio’s expression drops the sadness, now solely serious, and it makes Kakyoin pause.

“I am no stranger to drugs or drug addiction,” Tonio states flatly, face darkening, and Kakyoin stiffens. “Especially not to painkillers. Italy -- my home...it is run by them.”

Tonio sighs then, and Kakyoin finally drops some of his defensive demeanor, staring at Tonio with his eyes still narrowed, but no longer hunched as if he was getting ready to jump and attack.

“I also know it’s hard to stop once you start. It’s...addiction, or at least the physical effects of it, is one of the things I wanted to eventually be able to help with my food -- and my ability -- but…” Tonio sighs again, before looking Kakyoin in the face. “I didn’t expect to be faced with it so soon, is all. I’m sorry I scared you and couldn’t even figure out any benefits to give you in return for it. For you -- and for my future customers -- I will never be so impulsive again.”

Kakyoin scans Tonio’s face -- so sincere, with his blue gaze clear and wide, his blond brows furrowed in determination, shoulders hiking up in resolve -- before he takes a breath and closes his eyes. “...Well, don’t worry about it. It’s…” Kakyoin sighs. “Drugs...are not something I’m abusing anymore.” Been a while since I talked about it so explicitly...

Tonio hums, before nodding. “Well...I’m glad to hear that, Signore. Congratulations.”

Kakyoin says nothing as the compliment sinks into his skin, itching.

Aya flexes her fingers before glancing at both of them, her gaze settling on Tonio. “Well, with that misunderstanding out of the way,” She starts, “I’m glad to know you aren’t going to attack us.”

She helps Tonio to his feet, which he accepts gratefully, and Kakyoin rolls back to his spot near the table, feeling a little numb, a little ill, his stomach still rocking uncomfortably in his chest. Aya returns to her own seat while Tonio stays near the edge of the table, standing.

Tonio sighs, before smiling at them both gratefully. “I know it’s quite odd, but this day still taught me a lot. I am grateful you two came in today.” He bows to them, and when he straightens again, he’s smiling softly, less show-worthy and more genuine. “I’ve never met anyone else with powers -- with stands -- before.” 

He pauses then, gaze turning down, voice softening with shyness. “...I do hope this won’t dissuade you two from visiting me?”

It’s too similar to how Kakyoin felt when he met other standusers for the first time too; clingy, desperate to stay in good grace, desperate for connection...

Aya and Kakyoin exchange glances.

Kakyoin sighs and waves a hand. “Alright, just- don’t try this- don’t use Pearl Jam again on me,” Kakyoin huffs in warning.

Tonio nods vigorously. “Of course, Signore. Never again, unless you ask me,”

Kakyoin hums -- Fat chance of that happening… -- before slumping into his wheelchair, ignoring how his back flares in pain over it.

Aya flexes her fingers again, staring down at the digits, marveling at how the aches in them truly are gone. “...Well, as for me...just let me know when you plan to use Pearl Jam,” She says finally, before meeting Tonio with a small smile, “but I could definitely have use for a stand that can ease aches and pains all with just a meal.”

Tonio nods enthusiastically, a grateful smile stretching across his face. “I’d love to, Signora. Grazie for trusting me to, even after all this.”

Aya offers an assurance and Kakyoin hums, glancing back down to his unfinished chicken. It still smelled good, even if it was cold by now… Ironically, the scent calms his stomach a bit. Hm...

“Is your stand what makes your cooking taste so good?” Kakyoin asks abruptly.

“Oh!” Tonio says, jerking to attention, before shaking his head. “No, no, that’s all me. I went to school for the culinary arts and perfected my own ratios for spices and such from there.”

Kakyoin sighs then, picking up his fork again halfheartedly, tapping it against the plate. His mouth waters the slightest bit again at the scent. “Well, then. Can’t let a perfectly good chicken go to waste, right?”

Tonio smiles, his brows relaxing from their furrowed state. His expression is so openly and genuinely pleased and grateful that it slams into Kakyoin like a truck with how honest it is. “Yes, of course, Signore.”

Kakyoin glances back at Aya, who has picked up her own fork again. She glances at him and smiles, shrugging, before offering her fork. Kakyoin huffs, ducking his head, but he raises his own fork in turn.

They toast their utensils -- to what, exactly, Kakyoin isn’t sure...perhaps not dying? Or not getting into a fight? -- and begin to finish their meals, Tonio watching over them, his stand kept away this time around.

Tonio fidgets, fingers pinching his apron, and Kakyoin raises a brow in his direction as he chews.

Tonio clears his throat, ears turning red. “Um...do you both still mean what you said before? About my cooking?”

Kakyoin exchanges a glance with Aya for a moment before he shrugs and she ducks her head, swallowing.

“I do still mean it,” Aya says, looking up at Tonio with amusement. “You’re a weird guy, Mr. Trussardi, but your cooking is…amazing.”

Kakyoin nods along and Aya turns back to her plate, spearing another piece of shrimp. “It’s true,” Kakyoin adds, “I didn’t know food could be presented so- so nicely, and still taste so good,”

Tonio beams then, nodding his head, his flush spreading to his cheeks. “Thank you, both…it means a lot to hear. Is there any critique you can think of?”

Kakyoin hums half-heartedly, reaching with his fork to finally try some of his salad. “Don’t use your stand.”

Tonio barks out a laugh then, and Kakyion smiles to himself. Maybe I really will come back…

Despite a rocky middle, it was, in fact, a hassle-free lunch.

Notes:

i've finally forced kakyoin to make some friends, nature is healing <3
hope yall enjoyed!! there will be at least one more chapter (hopefully two) until I have to break again for a writing extravaganza, but I will be back, no worries >:)

Chapter 11

Notes:

hello all! i hope u enjoy kakyoin adopts another kid (part 4) <3
no but i hope u all enjoy! i am hoping to GOD i can get the next chapter out next week but it's not done yet and i am in uni now so unfortunately i cannot promise anything ): but i rlly wanna finish up this arc before i go on another update pause, so if not next week, the week after that hopefully...ill b sure to keep yall updated on my tumblr lol
anyway enjoy! and if this is the last chapter for a while, know that i will return soon >:) I've come too far to stop now hehe
hope everyone has a good day/night <3

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Kakyoin hesitates in front of his bathroom mirror, staring at his reflection and the way his clothes hang off his frame, running his hands through his bangs nervously.

This is stupid, one part of him complains.

She’s literally a beautician, do you want to look like a slob compared to her? Snaps another part.

After leaving Tonio’s, Kakyoin finally caved and asked Aya where she had gotten her nails done. Proudly, she smiled and showed off her hand to Kakyoin while saying, “Oh, that was my handiwork.”

Kakyoin had whistled in appreciation and she offered to do his nails as well -- “For a discounted price, as thanks for warning me about that Red Hot Chili Pepper man,” she had said, tone teasing, but eyes earnest, relaxed -- and now here he was, fretting over his appearance like a teenager going on their first date.

Kakyoin rolls his eyes at his own mental comparison. As if this was anything at all resembling a date.

Then why are you acting so prissy about it? Complains the first part of him again, and Kakyoin just rolls his eyes before taking out his hair tie and redoing it to be a half-bun. There. Something new and it doesn’t look awful.

Shaking his head at his own dramatics, Kakyoin rolls out of the bathroom, grabbing the scarf that he had left on the edge of his bed while he was fiddling with his hair.

He wraps it around his neck easily, his star pin gently knocking against his hip as the end of the fabric settles, and he shakes his head. He glances at the clock on his nightstand and breathes out a sigh of relief. Great, I’m not running late.

... Not yet, at least, he thinks, and he turns to the door, Hierophant reaching out to open it for him as he rolls out.

As Kakyoin heads back out to the lobby of the hotel, he goes over the directions Aya gave him again. Downtown, heart of shopping district, on a corner.

Kakyoin shakes his head. Shouldn’t be that hard to find, then. Especially with her name on the building, after all.

Kakyoin huffs as he rolls forward, smiling slightly to himself. Tsuji Aya’s Cinderella… Definitely a salon name if I’ve ever heard of one.

It was charming though, and he’d be the first to admit it.

Something shines in his peripheral, and Kakyoin glances up and around as he heads to the doors of the hotel, only to almost crash into a bystander when he catches sight of the source: the golden pins on a white hat worn by an imposing figure.

Jotaro is sitting in the small cafe area in the lobby, scouring over a notepad that looks small in his huge hands. His coat doesn’t hang off him for once -- he’s only in a black turtleneck with the sleeves rolled up his forearms. He’s taping his pen against his bottom lip, pinching it between his fingers, brows furrowed in concentration.

Jotaro blinks then, as if sensing Kakyoin’s stare, and jerks his gaze up, meeting Kakyoin’s.

Kakyoin feels like a deer in headlights for a moment. He can see Jotaro stiffen as he freezes.

They’re still meters apart, but it feels like it’s not enough of a gap. Kakyoin can see the bags under Jotaro’s eyes even from here -- but then again, that might just be part of the shadow caused by his hat.

...There’s nothing to discuss right now, Kakyoin thinks distantly. Jotaro seems to agree, seeing as he hasn’t moved at all since meeting Kakyoin’s gaze.

So instead of rolling over and starting another fight -- Joseph and Avdol wouldn’t want me to go out of my way to bitch at him anyway… -- Kakyoin just swallows and averts his gaze, rushing the rest of the way to the entrance.

Jotaro doesn’t move, but he watches him go, his stare leaving Kakyoin’s skin itching and heated, until the hotel doors close behind him, cutting off his view.

It’s as if Kakyoin was being suffocated under Jotaro’s gaze, and now that he’s out from under it, he can breathe again, which he takes advantage of, sucking in a few deep breaths.

What asshole rolls up his sleeves like that? Kakyoin thinks to himself sourly, loosening his scarf from where it hangs around his neck to give himsef a little more air. Whatever.

Kakyoin shakes his head and rolls toward the bus stop. I have other things to focus on now.

And it’s true -- he does -- but it doesn’t stop the back of his neck from continuing to itch due to some phantom bug crawling over it and it doesn’t stop his intestines from tying up in knots.

Kakyoin just sighs and considers himself lucky regarding his timing as the bus comes down the street, rolling to a stop in front of him.

As the doors open, the bus driver slides a ramp over the steps that lead into the vehicle, and Kakyoin easily rolls up them even without Hierophant’s help. He stations himself near the handicapped corner in the front of the bus, resting his head against the interior. 

He glances at the hotel entrance again. There’s no Jotaro on the sidewalk looking at or for him. Probably for the best, Kakyoin thinks, but that doesn’t stop his chest from sagging in disappointment -- what on earth it could possibly be disappointed about, Kakyoin doesn’t know. Maybe some part of him likes their spats, especially since he won the last two -- it wouldn’t be the first time Kakyoin thrived off of something so unhealthy...

The bus doors close, fortunately sealing away that train of thought, and off he goes.

After a few pauses at other stops along the route, the bus rolls up to a curb in downtown Morioh. Kakyoin flags the bus driver, who slides the ramp down the steps again, and he rolls off.

Sucking in a lungful of the spring-turning-summer air, Kakyoin takes a look around his surroundings. Businesses, particularly shops, rise all around him, from candy stores to clothing stores to restaurants.

Kakyoin rolls down the street, eyeing the town curiously; he hasn’t really explored this area before... The sidewalks are wide, decorated with planters of trees and bushes in varying degrees of flowering, filling the air with the soft scent of pollen and the sweet scent of fruits.

Kakyoin hums, glancing around as he continues down. Book store, arts and crafts store...maybe I should visit those sometime. Kakyoin’s fingers itch in interest at the idea of painting again, while his heart races at the thought of finding a good book -- it’d been a while since he’d found anything that truly interested him…

At the corner of the street, just like she’d said it would be, sits Tsuji Aya’s Cinderella, a modest store with wide front windows that show off a clean interior, complete with a front desk, chairs for waiting patrons, and a decorative line of handheld mirrors hanging on the wall. In the back, there are hooded dryers, haircut stations, sinks for hair washing, and a shelf that’s host to such a wide array of hair and body products that Kakyoin is almost overwhelmed just looking at it, let alone trying to navigate it.

Outside the store, Aya is leaning against her door frame, absent-mindedly chewing on a strawberry as she’s going over a page from a ringed pad of paper -- a calendar, maybe?

“Ms. Tsuji!” Kakyoin calls as he gets closer, and Aya jolts, blinking, before she raises her head and offers Kakyoin a smile.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” She greets with a nod, standing upright. “It’s good to see you again.”

“You as well,” Kakyoin replies, and she huffs a smile.

“How have you been? Has anyone else tried to kill you since we last talked?” Aya asks, smile sharpening with the tease, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes good-naturedly.

“You wish: now you have to deliver on that discount.” Kakyoin shoots back, and Aya laughs, shaking her head.

“How will my booked-for-months business survive this,” She questions dryly, and Kakyoin raises a brow.

“Nice brag,” He says and she hits his shoulder with her calendar.

“Please,” She chuckles, “if I can’t brag about that, what can I brag about?”

“Never said you couldn’t brag about that,” Kakyoin concedes, and Aya just huffs, shaking her head.

“It is good to see you again, Mr. Kakyoin,” She reiterates, her blue eyes resting on Kakyoin’s face. Kakyoin swallows, biting a smile, averting his gaze.

“You too. I’m glad Red Hot Chili Pepper hasn’t come after you -- I think he still must not know about you and Tonio, and hopefully it stays that way.”

Aya nods before her smile turns teasing again. “Maybe we should stop hanging out with you in that case, then, just to be safe.”

“Hey!” Kakyoin barks, and she laughs, the sound light and fluid, like the audible version of a stream of sunlight.

“Well,” Aya smiles, “come on i-”

“Mr. Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin’s head jerk shoots up at the call, Josuke’s voice calling for help so ingrained in his psyche now that he doesn’t even fully register what he’s doing before he’s doing it, turning and rolling a few feet in the direction the voice came from.

Josuke and Okuyasu are running up the street, Josuke’s pompadour bouncing along with his stride. “Mr. Kakyoin! Hey!”

Aya hums, amused, leaning against her shop’s door. “Friends of yours?”

Kakyoin sighs fondly. “Remember the son of my friend that I mentioned I was watching over?” When Aya hums an affirmation, Kakyoin nods at Josuke. “That’s him.”

Aya raises a brow at his hair but says nothing when the two boys skid to a stop in front of Kakyoin.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Josuke wheezes, eyes wide, and Kakyoin frowns, unease settling in his stomach at how tight Josuke’s expression was. “Have you-”

“Have you seen Koichi?” Okuyasu asks, his own eyes also wide, brows furrowed in concern.

Kakyoin swallows thickly, his mouth suddenly dry. “What did you do now, Josuke?”

“Huh? Are you- no!” Josuke cries, before shaking his head, brows furrowing. “Mr. Kakyoin, this is serious; no one’s seen Koichi in almost 24 hours. His family just called asking if we knew anything!”

Kakyoin’s heart falls to the pit of his stomach. “What?”

“We’re not sure what happened, or where he is now, but-” Okuyasu pauses to pant, catching his breath, before continuing with, “-but we’re sure a standuser has him.”

Kakyoin turns wide eyes to Aya, who immediately meets his gaze, her expression grim.

“...I’m gonna have to ask for a raincheck on that appointment,” Kakyoin says, and Aya nods.

“I’ll ask around with my customers if you think that’d help?” She asks, Josuke and Okuyasu both finally seem to notice her then, both jumping.

“Uh-” Josuke starts, gaze darting to Kakyoin, and Kakyoin just shakes his head.

“This is my friend, Tsuji Aya,” Kakyoin quickly introduces, before he turns back to Aya. “And- could you? Koichi’s a small kid, silver hair, usually in a green uniform, uh-”

“Blue eyes!” Okuyasu adds while Josuke contributes, “Round nose!”

Aya nods. “I’ll be sure to ask my appointees today if they’ve seen anyone matching that description.”

“Thank you,” Kakyoin says, staring intently at her. She just shakes her head, smiling slightly.

“Go, save your kid,” She says, and Kakyoin huffs at the claim of Koichi being his in any way, before he turns to Josuke and Okuyasu, brows furrowed and mouth set in a tight frown.

“Alright, let’s go.”


On the way to Josuke’s house, Josuke and Okuyasu had filled Kakyoin in -- some girl in an adjacent class got a crush on Koichi and didn’t know how to handle his rejection. Unfortunately, she was more than just some girl, she was a standuser, and an emotionally unstable one at that.

“We tried one last time to get her to leave Koichi alone by just talking shit about him in front of her,” Josuke says, face pinched in regret, “but all that did was put him in danger-”

“Hey, no,” Kakyoin cuts off, abruptly ceasing his forward motion, coming to a stop and turning to face Josuke. Josuke’s head is hanging down, shame and fear tensing his body, invisible twines cutting into him. “You didn’t do this. It was her decision to kidnap, not yours. You’re not at fault.”

“But-” Josuke starts but Kakyoin shakes his head.

“No buts,” He says, staring intently at Josuke, bumping his wheel against his shoe, “you can’t help Koichi if you’re acting like you’re his captor and not his rescuer.”

Josuke blinks, pausing at that, and Kakyoin turns back around and continues heading to Josuke’s house.

“Is your mom home?” Kakyoin calls over his shoulder, jerking Josuke out of his thoughts.

“Uh- no, she’s at work right n-”

“Great,” Kakyoin says before he rolls up Josuke’s porch and lets himself in. Okuyasu and Josuke scramble to catch up.

Once they’re all inside, Josuke huffs as he closes the door, shaking his head. “Thanks for just letting yourself in,”

“Door was open,” Kakyoin shoots back, shrugging.

Josuke chuckles before sighing, any mirth fading as fast as it came. Josuke pads to his living room, Okuyasu and Kakyoin exchanging worried glances before following.

Josuke flops onto the sofa, eyes downcast, staring at the coffee table. Okuyasu quietly pads over and sits next to him, their knees touching.

Kakyoin rolls over to the coffee table, flipping his sunglasses to rest on the top of his head.

“Alright, first things first,” He glances at Josuke again, who’s still staring dejectedly at the coffee table, “none of this is your fault.”

Okuyasu hums, his own gaze dropping then, while Josuke grits his teeth. “But it was my idea to try and chase her off by making Koichi seem unreliable, and now-”

“No,” Kakyoin cuts in, rolling up to Josuke and placing his hands on his shoulders. Josuke blinks, looking up to meet Kakyoin’s gaze. “Stop. You were trying to help your friend. She, on the other hand, is trying to control him, it sounds like.” Kakyoin sighs, dropping one hand from Josuke’s shoulders to run a hand through his hair. “Based on what you said about her...infatuation, she probably would’ve done this either way. It’s not on you, okay?”

Josuke swallows before he gives the tiniest of nods. Kakyoin nods himself then, and wheels back.

“Alright, then. Next: do either of you have any ideas on where she could’ve taken him?”

Josuke hums, while Okuyasu fidgets with his hands, tapping his thumbnails against each other nervously.

“Well,” Josuke starts, shifting in his seat so he’s leaning more against Okuyasu, their shoulders brushing, “she has to be somewhere out of the way, or else Koichi could’ve done something with Echoes at this point...right?”

Kakyoin hums, nodding. “Good thinking. Any idea on where that might be? Where does this girl live, anyway? Do you think she could’ve just taken him to her house?”

Josuke sighs, shaking his head. “I don’t know...she’s in the other first-year class.” He frowns. “Also, wouldn’t her family notice if she brought him to her house?”

Kakyoin hums. “Wouldn’t her family notice if she was gone from the property?”

Josuke pauses then. Okuyasu shifts uncomfortably. “...What if her family just doesn’t care?” Okuyasu eventually asks, voice gravelly.

Kakyion tilts his head, considering. “I guess that’s the likely situation, then. Good thinking, Okuyasu.”

Okuyasu blinks, a surprised flush dusting his cheeks, before he ducks his head.

“Anyway,” Kakyoin says, turning to Josuke. “So somewhere out of the way? Is there any building in Morioh that fits that bill?”

“Uh,” Josuke blinks, before he stands up, padding across the room to a desk near the corner -- probably his mother’s -- and rummaging around for a moment, before returning with a large, rolled paper.

Josuke sets it down on the coffee table and unfurls it, revealing it to be a detailed map of Morioh -- last updated in 1997, Kakyoin sees stamped in the corner. Should still be relevant, then. Good.

Josuke taps at the paper with his finger, sitting back down as he does. “If we’re looking for an out-of-the-way, abandoned building…” Josuke murmurs, eyes scanning over the edges of the town. Okuyasu leans his head on Josuke’s shoulder, also scanning the map, brows furrowed as he tries to find something that could fit the description. “It would have to be something near the undeveloped fields, right?”

Kakyoin hums, rolling over to the side of the coffee table so he’s not looking at the map upside down but rather to the side, when the phone suddenly rings.

Josuke’s head jerks up as the shrill ring echoes through the house, making Okuyasu jump.

“Do you want me to get that?” Kakyoin asks. “You know, since I’m already up.” He snickers at his own joke.

“Uh,” Josuke and Okuyasu exchange glances. “Sure...I don’t think it should be my mom.”

Kakyoin rolls over to the phone, which was stationed in the hallway next to the entryway to the kitchen. He picks it up, greeting, “This is the Higashikata household.”

...Nothing. No voice comes through the phone.

Kakyoin’s brow furrows and he presses the speaker closer to his ear. Still, no voice, not even a muffled one; the only thing he heard was what sounded like distant ocean waves…

“Hello?” Kakyoin prompts again. Okuyasu and Josuke join him near the phone then, padding down the hallway to meet him.

Still only waves…

“Who is it?” Josuke asks, face pinched in anxiety. “...Is it Koichi’s parents again?”

Koichi-!

Kakyoin gasps, before slamming the phone back down and rushing down the hallway once more, Okuyasu and Josuke jumping out of his way.

“Mr. Kakyoin-!?”

“I think that was Koichi,” Kakyoin shoots back, and immediately, he can hear the footfalls of Okuyasu and Josuke following after him.

“Wha- really?! What’d he say?!” Okuyasu asks as he and Josuke skid to a stop behind Kakyoin, who has stationed himself at the map again, eyes tracing over the coast of Morioh.

“Nothing,” Kakyoin huffs, “but he let his environment speak for him; I heard waves.”

Josuke blinks, eyes widening, before he lurches across Kakyoin’s shoulder, staring at the map. “So he’s near the ocean?”

“Yeah,” Kakyoin confirms. “I don’t think he’s right on the coast, but he’s very close.”

“Oh, shit,” Okuyasu breathes while Josuke points to a road that edges near a cliff on the coast of Morioh.

“Here, then,” Josuke says, voice solid and steady with certainty, “he has to be here, then. These are vacation homes that aren’t used for most of the year -- it’s the perfect place to be keeping someone hostage!”

Kakyoin breathes out. “Alright. I’ll go get him, then.”

“What?!” Josuke cries, jerking back from Kakyoin as if he was burned.

Kakyoin’s brow furrows. “What?”

“Okuyasu and I are coming with you,” Josuke starts firmly, staring Kakyoin right in the face. Kakyoin frowns.

“Josuke…”

“No! We- I got him into this mess, I’m getting him out of it!” Josuke snaps, glaring at Kakyoin.

Kakyoin blinks. Once again, blue fire burns in the irises of Josuke’s eyes, only brighter when surrounded by the shadow caused by Josuke’s scowl. It reminds Kakyoin of how Jotaro looked before he knocked him unconscious when they first met. It really was a Joestar trademark, huh… Kakyoin shakes his head, snapping himself out of it. “Josuke, you’re- it’s dangerous-”

“He’s my friend!” Josuke snarls. Okuyasu grips his shoulder and Josuke’s eyes close, a shudder running through him. “He’s my friend,” He repeats. “I have a right to save my friend.

Kakyoin is only just able to suppress a wince, glancing down, the words too similar to ones Kakyoin himself had spoken recently. A right to know. A right to help. “...Fine,” He sighs, running a hand through his bangs. “But you have to promise to let me deal with the fighting. You’re a healer, Josuke, so you only need to focus on Koichi and his wellbeing, alright?”

Josuke blinks, as if surprised, before nodding vigorously.

Kakyoin turns his gaze to Okuyasu then, who straightens at the attention. “Okuyasu, make sure Josuke doesn’t forget that. Take care of him for me.”

Okuyasu nods, face serious, while Josuke scoffs, but says nothing. “You got it, Mr. Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin ducks his head, shaking off his smile -- Okuyasu was just so earnest...he really was the best of Polnareff and Joseph. “Alright,” He sighs, looking up once more, “Let’s go.”


Kakyoin grumbles as he hands Josuke his folded wheelchair, staring daggers at the curb as he climbs out of the taxi Josuke had called. This is why I just stick with buses…

Climbing uneasily to his feet, Kakyoin grimaces as his lower back immediately protests at having to balance his weight, pain shooting up the bit of spine he had that still actually worked.

Josuke fumbles with the wheelchair before Okuyasu helps him pull it open, while Kakyoin closes his door and pays the fare, taking shaky steps towards the two boys, his spine’s cries getting louder and louder with every footfall.

“Got it!” Josuke exclaims as the wheelchair folds out, and Okuyasu helps him to fully lock it open. The two present Kakyoin with it, smiling proudly.

Kakyoin slumps into his chair, trying to stamp out the flames of irritation in his chest. “Thanks,” He grunts. Before Josuke or Okuyasu can respond, though, Kakyoin shakes his head, lifting his gaze to the line of houses on top of the hill. “So we think Koichi is somewhere there?”

Josuke’s smile slides off his face, replaced with furrowed brows and a tight frown. “Yeah. This is the only- if the person on the phone really was Koichi giving us a hint to where he is, this is the only place he could be.”

Kakyoin nods, before gesturing to the path up the hill, a packed road of dirt surrounded on all sides with bright green grass dotted with flowers, blowing in the wind. “Alright. Let’s get him out of here.”

Josuke nods his agreement, expression darkening, and he begins marching up the hill, Okuyasu right by his side. Josuke’s hands are balled into fists, but when Okuyasu’s shoulder brushes his, Josuke lets them fall lax, if only a bit. Both their shoulders stay tense, though.

Kakyoin squints, but says nothing, rolling after them, Hierophant poking a wary tentacle out just in case.

Hierophant casually knocks away rocks in the way of Kakyoin’s wheels as they travel up, Kakyoin keeping an eye on Josuke and Okuyasu, and an ear out for any disturbance. It’s been long enough that Koichi probably wasn’t having Echoes call for help listlessly anymore, if he ever had it broadcasting like that in the first place, but that didn’t mean Koichi wouldn’t be making any noise at all…

But no noise came. It was eerily quiet, save for the quiet lapping of the sea against the cliffside — in hindsight, that was definitely what he heard over the phone — and the crunch of dirt underneath Kakyoin’s wheelchair and Okuyasu and Josuke’s footsteps. Kakyoin jerks his eyes to the sides of the path, Hierophant’s tentacles thinning out and spreading forward, acting as a sort of motion detector for ten meters around Kakyoin, encompassing Josuke and Okuyasu as they do.

“Mr. Kakyoin?” Josuke calls back, steps faltering, and Kakyoin waves a hand.

“It’s nothing, don’t mind Hierophant. I’m just setting up a kind of sensor in case she’s planning on ambushing us.”

Josuke and Okuyasu blink. “Oh,” Says Josuke.

“That’s really smart,” Okuyasu comments and Kakyoin bites back a small smile at the compliment, shaking his head. Since when did earning a teenager’s admiration matter to him?

All well, Kakyoin thinks to himself, aggressively choking out the part of him that’s snarking about patheticness or something of the sort.

They reach a plateau near the top of the hill, and Josuke and Okuyasu come to a stop. Kakyoin rolls up beside them and frowns, keeping Hierophant’s barrier up as a precaution.

The jut of even ground seems to be a center or courtyard of some sort for the vacation homes; they stretch out from it like a forest around a clearing.

“Great,” Kakyoin mutters, while Josuke just sets his jaw and marches in one direction.

“Come on,” He calls over his shoulder, shooting a glance at Okuyasu and Kakyoin. “We’re not gonna find him by just standing and staring.”

Kakyoin huffs. “Not standing, Josuke.”

Before Josuke can decide whether to laugh at that or not, though, he continues.

“Searching aimlessly isn’t effective, especially not all together. With Hierophant’s range, I can search through at least three houses at once. You and Okuyasu tag together and search through others.” Kakyoin peers at Josuke over his glasses, tone flat as he says, “if anything -- and I do mean anything -- happens, call for me immediately. Got it?”

Josuke’s eyes narrow before he ducks his head and sighs, nodding. Okuyasu also nods his agreement, fingering one of his pins nervously.

“We don’t have a lot of info,” Okuyasu starts, “but we think Yukako’s stand also has some range. She couldn’t have kidnapped Koichi so easily without it.”

Kakyoin nods. “I’ll keep that in mind. You two do too.”

Josuke nods before he trots down the road, hands in his pockets, but Crazy Diamond fading into view beside him, drifting along at its user’s pace.

Kakyoin hums, before turning to Okuyasu. “Watch over him,” He murmurs. Okuyasu nods, taking a deep breath before following his friend.

Kakyoin turns to the opposite row of houses, taking a deep breath of his own. “Damn, I hope she hasn’t killed him…” Hierophant taps at his arm placatingly. Kakyoin just sets his jaw and gets to work.

Hierophant’s tendrils worm out from him, creeping up to the porches of the three vacation homes closest to Kakyoin. The ones closest to the courtyard are only single-story, making them an easy search, especially considering how they’re all almost carbon copies of the same floor plan.

Kakyoin feels sensation crawl up his arms, from his fingertips to his shoulders, as Hierophant searches, his muscles tensing like he’s stretching out his arms himself. Kakyoin just hums, closing his eyes, and viewing the world with Hierophant’s gaze.

Hierophant does not see like humans do; he seems to have some mix of thermal vision, like a snake’s eyes, with a lack of the ability to see color -- instead, that had seemingly been traded for perfect night vision, making it rather easy to see in the dark, empty houses.

But there’s no point; there’s no Koichi inside the first three houses. Kakyoin frowns and opens his eyes again, blinking as the bright green of grass rushes to shine at him, ready to continue being appreciated by eyes that can see it.

He’s not surprised Koichi isn’t in the first row, but it is worrying. Every second that passes weighs on Kakyoin, like someone pushing down on his shoulders more and more with each tick of the clock. For the longer a kidnapped person is missing, the more likely it is they’re dead, especially if they’ve been taken to a new location from the original…

Kakyoin shakes his head, rolling to the next bout of houses. No. He’s not dead. He’s a standuser and I’ve been teaching him how to best put that to use. He may be nervous, and timid, but he has a stand for a reason, dammit. He’s strong. He has to be...

As Kakyoin rolls past a line of houses, he glances up, and freezes. There, on the furthest spot from the courtyard, nearest to the cliffside, a two-story house is covered in hair — or so it looks — a shimmering blue glow indicative of a stand surrounding the strands, becoming a giant neon sign that gives the standuser’s location.

Well, having hair for a stand would certainly give her range, Kakyoin thinks distantly, connecting what the hell he was seeing to what Okuyasu had warned him about earlier, before he turns -- still keeping one eye on the hair -- and yells, “Josuke! Okuyasu! I think I’ve found him!”

“What?” He can hear Josuke yelp, before the thundering footsteps of him and Okuyasu come barreling out of an adjacent house, Okuyasu slamming the door shut as Josuke leaps off the porch, sprinting up to Kakyoin. “Where? Where?!”

Kakyoin just points, and Josuke freezes, eyes widening, while Okuyasu’s jaw drops just a bit. 

“What the fuck?”

Kakyoin covers his snort with a cough. Josuke jerks forward, but Kakyoin stops him with a hand around his wrist.

“What?” Josuke snaps, turning to glare at Kakyoin. “Koichi’s right-”

“Just remember that I’m the one going after the standuser,” Kakyoin murmurs, “Koichi needs you to focus on him, not her. Got it?”

Josuke blinks, huffs, and scuffs his shoe on the dirt before he jerkily nods his head. “Yes, fine, whatever, let’s just go-”

Kakyoin raises his brow and lets go of Josuke’s wrist, causing him to stumble forward. The teenager shoots Kakyoin a dirty look, eyes narrowed, unamused, but Okuyasu just grabs Josuke’s hand and takes off, saying “Come on Josuke, Koichi needs us!”

Kakyoin only gets to see the beginning of Josuke’s surprised expression before he’s jolted forward, and he shakes his head before following, Hierophant helping him with his pace in order to catch up with the boys.

They’ve almost crested the hill when they hear a scream -- it’s...actually hard to tell whether it came from Koichi or the girl, but it sounds utterly panicked, and it’s coming from over the side of the cliff. Kakyoin’s heart drops to his stomach and Hierophant shoots him forward in his wheelchair.

No- he’s just a kid- no-

But when Kakyoin, Josuke, and Okuyasu reach the top, they only see Koichi, shaking but standing tall, his back turned to them as he faces the cliffside, Echoes in the air beside his head, tail curled defensively.

Shit...did he…? Kakyoin hadn’t pegged Koichi as being resolved enough to kill anyone, but considering the situation…

There’s a sudden rippling of sound, though, a high-pitched broing like one hears in cartoons, and Kakyoin blinks when the figure of a girl comes bouncing back up from over the cliff face, landing in a heap on its edge, her long hair trailing after her like a wisp of smoke. Instead of the black it was earlier, it’s now white -- Kakyoin wonders if maybe her hair changes color depending on whether she’s using its stand capabilities or not…?

“KOICHI!” Okuyasu yells after a few beats of shocked silence, he and Josuke sprinting toward their friend. Koichi jumps, sharply turning to face his friends, features relaxing into pure relief.

“Okuyasu! Josuke!” Koichi responds in turn, leaving behind the girl and running for his friends. Kakyoin eyes them as he creeps closer, gaze darting toward the girl, who’s sitting up, running a hand through her hair slowly as she stares after Koichi.

She’s smiling, oddly enough, but the tip of her nose is slowly turning red, her eyes filling with tears, and Kakyoin just sighs and braces himself for another evening full of unstable teenager. What was in the water in Morioh?

Koichi reaches his friends and they immediately pull him into a hug, Josuke completely engulfing Koichi in his arms, Okuyasu wrapping his own arms around them both, keeping them as close as possible. Kakyoin can hear the echoes of their exclamations, but not the specifics of them, their voices bouncing joyfully like frogs in a pond.

The girl sits up more fully, slowly rising to her knees, causing Josuke to yelp. Okuyasu jerks his gaze towards Kakyoin, who gestures to Get out of here; I’ve got the girl.

Okuyasu seems to get the message; he immediately pulls Josuke and Koichi away, back towards the hill and the courtyard entrance, and they go without much more prompting.

Josuke looks back to lock eyes with Kakyoin, and he just waves a hand again. I’ve got this.

Josuke simply gives him a thumbs-up and bolts, nearly carrying Koichi to make sure he’s not left behind by his friends’ larger strides, and down the hill they disappear. Kakyoin shakes his head, smiling to himself, before turning back to the girl — who’s had to have seen him by now, but she refuses to acknowledge him, instead just staring wistfully after the boys.

Kakyoin rolls forward toward her. She ignores him still; instead, her smile wobbles as the first tear finally overfills and traces down her cheek. She finally ducks her head, wiping the track, but another soon replaces it.

She fingers her hair with the other hand, staring at the white curtain around her face, before burying her face into her hands.

When he’s about four meters away, Kakyoin stops. She’s sniffling and shaking a little, but despite her obvious distress, she doesn’t seem like she will attack.

“Kid-” Kakyoin says, but she interrupts.

“Koichi m-mentioned you,” She says quietly, voice as shaky as her body. “S-said his friends would find him and his mentor would deal with me when they did.”

She looks up, violet eyes still watery, but also steeled. Kakyoin blinks; they almost remind him of...well, his own eyes.

“Am I going to jail or something like that?” She asks, keeping her gaze steady. Kakyoin will give her credit for that.

“That depends,” Kakyoin says honestly. She blinks, then nods, before dropping her gaze, staring down at her hair again. She cups a handful of strands, gingerly running her fingers through them.

Kakyoin hesitates, but he is curious, and she’s certainly not continuing the conversation without a prompt, so he asks, “Wasn’t your hair black before?”

Her nostrils flare as she inhales harshly, gaze darting up to Kakyoin, now looking not unlike a wild animal. Kakyoin almost feels the urge to roll back a bit, but Hierophant creeps out instead, showing off his own silent threat display.

She eyes the tentacles that have manifested -- she doesn’t seem surprised, Kakyoin notes. Koichi must’ve mentioned something about Hierophant then…

“Yes,” She finally says, voice cracked and angry like a pottery project gone wrong, and she looks down to the strands in her hands again. “It was.” She sounds so dejected that it can’t be a common occurrence -- so not a change due to her not using her stand ability, then.

Kakyoin hums. Flashes of Aya’s salon shoot through his mind, particularly the back of her store, where lines of hair products, including dyes, were shelved.

Kakyoin huffs. It’ll be easier to get her to talk if she trusts me a little, Kakyoin reasons with himself, and white hair will be very easy to dye, especially to such a dark color.. .

“Come on, kid,” Kakyoin sighs, and the girl looks up through her hair, eyes narrowed. “Let’s get your hair fixed, then.”

She blinks, surprised, before her eyes narrow in suspicion again, strands beginning to float menacingly around her head. She reminds him of Medusa -- a younger, more volatile version of the gorgon, but Medusa all the same.

“Why would you help me?” She seethes, fingers curling against the dirt she sits upon. “I- I hurt-” Her voice cracks, and she grits her teeth, squeezing her eyes shut, shoulders tensing. “I hurt one of your charges,” She finishes, growling.

Kakyoin sighs, working his jaw for a moment, before he says, “Well...yes, you did.” Her eyes open and she glares at Kakyoin, but before she can say anything, Kakyoin continues with, “But like I said, punishment for that will depend on a few circumstances, so I’ll need you to talk to me.” Kakyoin looks at her over the rim of his sunglasses, brow raised. “Are you saying you’re okay to talk now, or do you want to clean up a little first?”

The girl blinks, glaring lifting, but her shoulders still tensed, fists still curled, hair still wavering around her head -- it’s less threatening now though, no longer like snakes but more like seagrass drifting in the ocean currents.

Kakyoin doesn’t press her. Instead, he just crosses his arms and looks out across the cliff face, curious. He can just barely see jagged rocks at the bottom of the cliff, sticking out of the ocean like fingers, and he frowns.

The girl stays silent as he observes. Kakyoin shoots a glance toward her. How did she bounce back up onto the cliff?

He doesn’t ask -- not yet, anyway. Asking her about a fight that clearly rattled her so soon after it happened isn’t going to win him any favors -- and if she happens to know anything about Red Hot Chili Pepper, Kakyoin is going to have to earn said favor.

Finally, she slowly rises to her feet, her shoes squelching against the grass as she stands. Her hair hangs around her face, obscuring her, but after a moment, she tosses back the shield, a tight grimace on her face.

“Fine,” She says finally. Kakyoin just nods and leads the way.

Chapter 12

Notes:

hey all! i hope u enjoy this week's chapter, it's an extra 1k words than normal to make up for the fact I'm over a month late than i wanted to be on this one hghgngh
alas after this I'm gonna be on another posting pause to write the next bundle of chapters but! i have gotten into a new groove of writing that fits my new uni schedule so things should roughly be the same they were over the summer? except instead of month-long waiting periods, they might be a little longer. but rest assured I'm still working (:
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The girl trails behind him, wringing some strands of her hair, before jerking them away as if she was burned when she catches sight of their color again. Kakyoin frowns.

She keeps doing it; unconsciously her hands reach up, her gaze trained on the ground, gripping onto her hair like a lifeline, before the strand falls into view again as a result of the tugging and she throws it back, as if it was seaweed tangled around her fingers and not her own hair.

By the third time, they’re still not down the hill, and Kakyoin’s had enough. “Do you want to borrow my scarf?”

The girl jerks her gaze up, glaring. “What?” She asks icily.

Kakyoin ignores the urge to roll his eyes. Teenagers… “Do you want to borrow my scarf?” Kakyoin repeats instead. “To cover your hair? Because we’re going to have to go back into town to get the dye.”

Blood drains from the girl’s face, the realization visibly slamming into her as her knees buckle, but stay sturdy underneath her. Strands find their way into her fingers again, being sloppily and quickly combed through.

Kakyoin waits for her. Eventually, she swallows before lowering her head.

“...Alright,” She says hoarsely. Kakyoin gives her his scarf.

She gingerly stares down at the fabric and Kakyoin suppresses a shiver from the new chill that presses itself against his bare neck. The girl glances at him one last time before wrapping it around her head carefully, tucking her hair under the folds of fabric.

When she’s done, she turns to face Kakyoin again. He nods, and they continue on.

She stays silent the whole time. Silent as Kakyoin calls a cab with the payphone Koichi must have used to call Josuke’s house, silent as they wait, silent as they get into the car. Kakyoin gives the address of Aya’s salon, and the girl slumps her head against the window, looking out blankly. The tears on her face have dried, but their tracks are still visible, flaking against her skin. Kakyoin doesn’t mention this.

What he says instead, is, “What’s your name anyway?”

The girl stays silent, still staring out at the scenery of her town that’s passing them by, and Kakyoin almost thinks she must not have heard him when she says, “Didn’t J...Josuke and the other mention it?”

Kakyoin squints at her tone -- he’s not sure if she’s disdained, or jealous, or defeated -- before answering, “Sure...but you have to understand, details like names get lost when they’re followed by ‘kidnapped someone else.’”

The girl’s face sours and Kakyoin almost regrets the comment, but she squeezes her eyes shut and sighs, turning from the window to face him.

“...Yamagishi,” She says softly, tone low, “Yamagishi Yukako.”

Kakyoin hums, nodding. “Well, Miss Yamagishi, I wish we were meeting under different circumstances.”

She frowns, eyes narrowing, but before she can say anything else, Kakyoin continues.

“But I’m happy to meet you all the same.”

She blinks, pausing, brows furrowing half out of confusion rather than solely irritation. “What?”

Kakyoin hums, letting his head thump back against the seat. “I could never begrudge meeting another standuser,” Kakyoin says, shrugging. “Not one that’s a kid, at least.”

Yukako stares at Kakyoin, and her gaze itches under Kakyoin’s skin, but he doesn’t move from under it, letting it sink in.

Finally, Yukako turns her head, exhaling. Kakyoin lets out a breath of his own, glancing out his window himself.

The cab takes a few more turns, rocking its passengers with the stop-and-go among stoplights and crosswalks, before rolling to a true halt, Kakyoin distantly hearing the crunch of asphalt under the roll of the tires.

“Um,” The cab driver turns, glancing at Kakyoin from the window of the divider, “we’re here, sir.”

Kakyoin nods, unbuckling, but Yukako stays still, still leaning against the side of her door. Kakyoin thinks she must’ve dozed off.

“Hey, Yamagishi?”

Yukako jerks, eyes darting to him, before her face smooths out, cold and flat like cement. She ducks her head and opens the door, getting out of the car. Kakyoin hums, eyes narrowing, before he turns to pay the fare.

“Also,” The cab driver pipes up again as Kakyoin sets his folded up wheelchair beside the open car door, starting to unfold it, “Do you need help with that, sir-?”

“No, it’s fine,” Kakyoin says, flashing a smile that’s all teeth toward the driver, before dropping the unfolded wheelchair to the ground and hopping out of the car, easily sliding into it.

The driver blinks at Kakyoin through the passenger-seat window. Kakyoin raises a brow and he shrugs, turning back to the road. Kakyoin shuts his door a little too hard, turning to Yukako.

“Alright kid,” Kakyoin sighs, “let’s get this done.”

Yukako’s nose wrinkles over being called “kid,” but she says nothing.

He says nothing else either; he simply rolls up to the door of Aya’s salon and pulls it open, Hierophant keeping it pinned as he heads inside, Yukako hesitantly following, footsteps slow, bouncing on the balls of her feet like she isn’t sure if she should turn around with every new step forward she takes.

As the door falls shut behind Yukako, Kakyoin can hear Aya call out, “Just a minute!” from further inside the shop. Kakyoin glances around, seeing a patron staring down at a tube of lipstick as she sits under a hairdryer, a small humming indicative of it being on.

She doesn’t bother looking up at Kakyoin or Yukako, too enraptured by the lipstick, but Yukako, upon seeing her, jerks back behind Kakyoin, as if hiding from view. Kakyoin frowns, glancing at her, but Yukako glares at him, huddling underneath his scarf. Kakyoin decides not to ask.

“How can I- Oh! Kakyoin!” Aya pops her head out from the back, features relaxing upon seeing him. Kakyoin smiles back, feeling his shoulders relax a bit.

“Miss Tsuji,” Kakyoin greets as she pads over. Aya chuckles, before her gaze trails to Yukako, and she pauses in her steps, about a meter from the pair.

“Who’s this?” Aya asks, shooting a glance back at Kakyoin. He catches her silent question: Is this Koichi…?

Kakyoin shakes his head and Aya’s brows furrow. “This...this is Yamagishi.”

Aya hums, gaze straying on Yukako. Yukako stares down at the floor, eyes bearing into it like if she stared hard enough, she could tear the linoleum apart with just her gaze. Aya turns back to Kakyoin, raising a brow.

Is she related to the Koichi incident?

Kakyoin bobs his head in a nod once, and Aya hums, eyes narrowing, turning a steely, but thoughtful, gaze to Yukako.

Yukako stiffens under the gaze, but she tilts her chin up to meet it from under Kakyoin’s scarf. Aya hums, scanning Yukako’s face -- for what, Kakyoin can’t tell. He can’t tell if Aya finds it or not, either; after keeping an even gaze with Yukako, brow slightly furrowed, she turns back to Kakyoin.

“So, what happened?”

Kakyoin could almost chuckle; it’s a fair enough question. “We found Koichi. He’s safe.”

Aya hums while Yukako’s head jerks down, arms crossing after she slides the scarf down around her face more. “That’s good, especially because none of my patrons had seen him when I asked.”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “Well, thanks anyway for asking around. Really.” He locks eyes with Aya, and she smiles, standing a little straighter.

“‘Course. What brings you back, though? And with Yamagishi, rather than...er, what was your friend’s son’s name again?” Aya cringes, but Kakyoin just laughs.

“His name’s Josuke. And, er,” Kakyoin turns to Yukako then, who takes a deep breath. “...Miss Yamagishi was wondering if you could dye her hair.”

Aya raises a brow at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin just shrugs at her. She hums, tapping a finger to her chin, before shrugging. “I don’t see why not. I make sure to leave room for walk-ins in-between my scheduled appointments…”

Aya glances at her technically-current patient as the dryer easily whirs to a stop, blanketing the shop in static as the background noise abruptly ceases.

The woman sitting under it jumps as if she wasn’t expecting it to stop so soon, before she glances at Aya.

“Take a seat at one of the stations and I’ll be with you in a minute,” Aya instructs before she turns on her heel to her patient, padding toward her.

Kakyoin turns to Yukako, who hasn’t moved from her spot between him and the door. “Well, let’s find a good seat.”

Yukako purses her lips but says nothing. Kakyoin motions over to the back of the store, where the haircut stations are lined, and Yukako reluctantly steps away from the doors and towards a chair.

Yukako gingerly takes a seat, pressing against the leather of it with her palm as if testing to see if it’ll bite her. After getting enough reassurance that the chair will not attack her, Yukako settles into it, still stiff, but accepting of her position.

Kakyoin stays in his wheelchair by her side, resting his head on his palm. He watches as Aya finishes up with her customer, sliding the dryer off and leading her to the counter to pay, movements refined and graceful, like a cheetah or other lithe, wild cat.

“Is she a friend of yours?” Yukako murmurs, snapping Kakyoin out of his thoughts.

“Hm? Oh, Miss Tsuji? Yeah, we’re friends.” I think. Kakyoin pauses, frowning slightly. I guess I still don’t know when it crosses from friendly strangers to friends, though…

Yukako fidgets, nodding distantly. “Um...so is this going to be discounted, or…?”

Kakyoin blinks, the intention behind her previous question becoming clear to him now. “Oh, no, Miss Tsuji- I don’t know her nearly well enough to just ask for a price reduction like that.”

Yukako blinks, her gaze dropping. “Oh.”

She fidgets again, fingering his scarf. “Um. How much do you think this will be, then?”

“Oh!” Kakyoin realizes, before abruptly shaking his head. “No, no. I’m admittedly not the nicest person in the world, but I’m not gonna make you pay for an entire dye job all by yourself. It’s on me.”

Yukako’s lips press into a line, her face twitching slightly. “Ah. Right. To win my favor or whatever you said.”

Kakyoin nods. Yukako sighs, tension leaving her shoulders with the breath.

“Well, at least you’re honest,” She murmurs. Kakyoin says nothing, but he does feel the corners of his lips perk up slightly in an amused smirk.

The sound of the door opening draws Kakyoin’s attention, and he wheels around to see Aya waving goodbye to her patron.

“Come again soon, tell me how it goes!” He can hear her call, before she turns on her heel, flashing a smile at Kakyoin. She inclines her head slightly, and Kakyoin takes the hint.

“Be back, Yamagishi,” Kakyoin says absent-mindedly as he begins rolling over to Aya. If Yukako says anything in response, Kakyoin doesn’t hear it.

“So,” Aya starts as he approaches, parking his wheelchair a few feet away from her, “what’s exactly going on? Who’s Yamagishi and what does she have to do with Koichi?”

Kakyoin sighs, shooting a glance at Yukako. She’s staring dazedly at the mirror, her reflection showing off a tight expression, her brows furrowed and eyes wide as she pulls a strand of snow-white hair loose from the scarf around her head.

“Koichi’s okay, like I said,” Kakyoin murmurs. “Josuke has him right now. He’s safe and uninjured.”

Kakyoin glances back at Yukako before turning to Aya again, who’s gazing at him with a stern furrow between her brows, blue eyes glinting off the pinkish-yellow lights of her salon.

“Yamagishi...is the one who kidnapped him,” Kakyoin murmurs, and Aya reels back, blinking.

“She what?”

Kakyoin glances at Yukako -- still focused on her hair, thankfully, and not on their conversation -- before nodding. “She’s...got some issues, I think. And also a stand. So...”

“You think? Are you going to get the- the agency you mentioned that has a stand division to deal with her?” Aya asks before she frowns. “Are you staging an arrest at my salon, Kakyoin Noriaki?”

Kakyoin chokes, smothering his laughter. Now’s not the time. “No! That-” Kakyoin snorts then, biting the inside of his cheek to stop more from coming out. “That would be- so awful of me.”

Aya raises a brow and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“No, I’m not staging an arrest. I’m just trying to get more information out of her; the Speedwagon Foundation is kinda...iffy on arrests in general, let alone ones involving minors overseas. They’re not a law enforcement agency and they don’t typically try to be unless the person is blatantly a danger.” The and a standuser goes unsaid, but Aya seems to understand, brows unfurrowing the slightest bit.

Aya hums, frowning. “I see…”

Kakyoin just shakes his head. “So, in light of getting that information, I’m trying to earn her favor with...this.” Aya snorts, and Kakyoin realizes belatedly what she might have assumed. “I mean- not because she’s a teenage girl, but because something happened with her hair -- it’s her stand ability, so when she was using it to try and keep Koichi captive, he must’ve done something to it.”

Aya blinks, curiosity making her face more open, shoulders relaxing. “Hair for a stand, huh?”

Kakyoin nods, and Aya hums, turning to look at Yukako from over her shoulder. Yukako meets her gaze from the mirror, and Aya hums again.

“Alright,” Aya says, turning on her heel. “I’ll see what I can do.”

Kakyoin lets out a breath. “Thank you,” He says quietly.

Aya shoots one of her sharp, clever smiles at him before heading over to Yukako, Kakyoin rolling after her.

“Yamagishi, was it?” Aya asks as she saddles up behind Yukako, straightening her chair in front of the mirror. Yukako stiffens, her hands clenching into fists, before she nods. “Well, Miss Yamagishi, what can I do for you today?”

Yukako darts her gaze to Kakyoin, who nods at her. She hesitates for a beat longer, before she swallows and steels her gaze, face flattening in preparation for any reaction. She unwraps the scarf from around her head and lets her long, curly white hair fall in shreds of ribbon around her frame.

Aya says nothing, simply scanning over the strands -- Kakyoin’s warning that something has happened to her hair seems to have prepared her for something like this, as she doesn’t seem shocked.

Aya picks up a brush from the station, circling Yukako as she does. Yukako takes a deep breath.

“Dye it black. Please.”

Her voice is soft, but it’s even and steady. Aya nods. “Pretty simple. I can definitely do that for you.”

She turns to the back of the salon, heading for the room she was inside of earlier when Kakyoin and Yukako had come in. She’s only gone for a second before she returns, this time with a box of dye in her hand.

Setting it down on the top of the station, Aya digs around in the drawers before pulling out a bowl and a brush with tan bristles. Kakyoin wheels back a bit, if only to give her room to do her craft. Yukako locks eyes with him again through the mirror, and Kakyoin gives her a half-hearted thumbs up. She huffs, settling in her seat.

Aya hums as she pulls open the box of dye, eyeing Yukako’s hair as she does. “Did you want to dye the whole thing?” She asks.

Yukako blinks, before nodding vigorously. “I’m- yes. All of it, black.”

Aya hums, nodding, glancing down at her box of dye. “Probably gonna need a couple more of these in that case,” She murmurs.

“I can go grab some more boxes,” Kakyoin offers, fingers twitching at the chance to do something other than sitting and watching.

Aya tsks. “...Yeah, okay. Second shelf on the left is where the dyes are.”

Kakyoin hums his understanding before wheeling away. Yukako catches his gaze again, and Kakyoin just gives her a nod. Yukako swallows and eyes Aya as she pulls on a pair of gloves -- not rubber, but a stronger material than latex it seems -- and dumps out the dye into the bowl.

Kakyoin rolls into the back room, the smell of shampoos and nail polish colliding and hitting his sinuses full force. Kakyoin coughs, overwhelmed at the strength of the smells, before he shakes his head and swallows, wheeling inside.

As Aya directed, the second shelf on the left wall of the backroom is chock-full of dyes of various colors, ranging from natural shades like brown, blonde, and ginger, to more colorful ones like green, blue, and bright red. Kakyoin almost winces upon seeing the red boxes, flashbacks of his own messily-done dye-jobs he’d attempted as a 15-year-old flashing in his head. Ugh…

Shaking his head, Kakyoin reaches out and grabs a few more black dye boxes, before he turns and wheels away, leaving the memories of his teenage self behind as he does.

When Kakyoin returns, the bowl Aya added the original box’s dye to now has other chemicals -- probably water, and maybe some sort of scalp soother. Yukako is also now wearing a sheet over her uniform, presumably to keep it safe from the dye, and hair clips are lined along Aya’s belt.

“Here,” Kakyoin says as he sets the boxes down on the station. Aya nods, humming her thanks, and Kakyoin rolls out of her way again.

Aya pours the extra dye into the bowl, leaving one box unopened on the workstation in case she needs more, before she mixes the extra dye with the previous contents.

Yukako is grimacing at the bowl, brows furrowing, and Kakyoin chuckles. Yukako narrows her eyes at him. “Have you never dyed your hair before, Yamagishi?” He asks.

Yukako’s expression falls into one of irritation, eyes narrowed and mouth in a small, but sharp, frown. Kakyoin puts up his hands in faux surrender.

Yukako huffs, eyes straying down. “No,” She eventually murmurs, “I haven’t.”

“Well,” Aya says as she finishes mixing the dye, leaving the bowl to pick up a brush and a handful of hair clips, “I’m honored to be your first dyer, then.”

Yukako hums, ducking her head to give Aya the best access to most of her hair. Aya clicks her tongue, staring down at what is, for all intents and purposes, her canvas, eyes darting about, calculating. Kakyoin sets his hand on his chin, watching.

“This might feel weird on your part, Miss Yamagishi, but don’t worry,” Aya warns before she begins brushing Yukako’s hair, flopping a top layer over her part.

Yukako stiffens, brows furrowing, but she doesn’t jerk away, allowing Aya to continue working. Aya sets about sectioning Yukako’s long and thick hair, pinning the strands with hair clips from her belt, humming as she does so. Kakyoin blinks; it sounds almost like the song Tonio kept humming…

Eventually, Yukako’s hair is all sectioned off, and she’s ready for the dye.

“Kakyoin,” Aya prompts. Kakyoin hums, straightening up, much to his lower back’s minor displeasure. “Can you hold the bowl for me? With this much hair, I wanna be able to focus only on the brush strokes.”

“Yeah,” Kakyoin hums, rolling over to grab the bowl of dye. It reeks of chemicals, like a mix between soap and paint, and Kakyoin wrinkles his nose before shaking his head, rolling back from the ledge.

“Thank you,” Aya says absent-mindedly as she dips the brush onto the bowl, moving to paint the dye into Yukako’s hair.

Yukako’s eye twitches, face crumpling in discomfort, but she stays still as Aya paints her hair. Aya goes back to humming, carefully padding the brush along Yukako’s hair, thoroughly coating every strand.

“So,” Kakyoin starts. Yukako locks her gaze unto him from the mirror. “Do you know anyone named Red Hot Chili Pepper?”

Yukako freezes, and Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. Aya pauses for only a moment before she continues painting the dye on, only this time, her humming has cut off. The room is silent except for the clicks of Aya’s heels against the tiled floor and the static of the brush bristles knocking against each other as they’re pressed into strands of hair.

Yukako blinks, before her brows furrow, eyes darting to Aya before returning to Kakyoin’s face. Her unspoken question is obvious: Really? In front of her?

“Miss Tsuji is, ah, ‘in-the-know’ on stands,” Kakyoin answers, “so anything you say can be said in front of her.”

Aya nods, dipping the brush back into the bowl. “It’s okay, Yamagishi. Just pretend I’m not here if you need to.”

Yukako swallows thickly, fingers digging into the armrest of her seat.

“We just want the truth,” Kakyoin tries to encourage. “If it makes you feel better, I doubt you’re going to get arrested regardless of your answer to this one question.”

Yukako breathes out, eyes narrowing, face twitching, before she shakes her head and closes her eyes.

“I don’t- I… I know of him. I don’t know him . Not...directly,” Yukako mutters. Kakyoin raises a brow. Yukako works her jaw from side to side, before saying, “Why does this matter? What does that have to do with K-” she chokes on her own words, gaze darting down, and she shuts her mouth for a moment, reworking her jaw once more. “...What does this have to do with...my situation?”

Kakyoin hums, leaning back in his seat. She had a telling reaction and she knew it. “Well, even if you won’t get arrested either way, if you can give me information on Red Hot Chili Pepper, any punishment would definitely be lightened.”

Yukako pauses, lips parting but no sound coming out. Her brows furrow, her jaw clenching. “Well. Like I said, I don’t know him directly. I only know he got his stand from the same person who gave me one.”

Kakyoin blinks, leaning forward. “ Gave you one? With- with a stand arrow?”

Yukako’s brow furrows, face blanching. She looks vaguely ill, and Kakyoin almost regrets prodding. “...Yes.” Her face darkens then, her nose crinkling in anger. “Nijimura Keicho shot at my whole family with that stupid arrow,” She spits.

Kakyoin blinks. “Your- your whole family?”

Yukako’s face smooths out into a blank slate, her gaze falling to the ground, her eyelids fluttering. The red in her nose starts to come back, and Kakyoin immediately regrets the question. Shit, did I seriously just make a teenager cry-?

Yukako swallows thickly though, jerking her gaze back up. She breathes deeply, staring at her reflection in the mirror with dark, heavy-lidded eyes the color of dusk. Half her head is now sticky and dark with the black dye.

“Yes. My whole family.” She answers. “I wasn’t the second person he shot the arrow at, but...but I was the second standuser he made with it in Morioh -- the first was Red Hot Chili Pepper.”

Kakyoin seizes as the subtext of her words falls into place. Flashbacks of his conversation with Josuke and Okuyasu come back to him, each word twisting his intestines up in his gut like someone was reaching in and wringing them.

“Wouldn’t her family notice if she brought him to her house?”

“Wouldn’t her family notice if she was gone from the property?”

“...What if her family just doesn’t care?”

Kakyoin swallows, adding a fourth line of logic with the graveness only hindsight can give. What if they aren’t alive to care?

Stand arrows only worked on those who had suitable souls, after all…

Kakyoin vigorously shakes his head, squeezing the bowl in his lap if only to reground himself. He clears his throat. “Ah. So- did Nijimura have you guys meet him somewhere, or-?”

“I never met him -- Red Hot Chili Pepper -- in person,” Yukako says, “Nijimura just- he just mentioned him, is all.”

Kakyoin hums. “Did he mention a name?”

Yukako pauses at that, tilting her head thoughtfully. “...Yes. I don’t remember it exactly, but- the last name was O- ‘O’ something…” Yukako grinds her teeth together, brows furrowing. Kakyoin sits on the edge of his wheelchair, staring intently.

Yukako shudders, shaking her head. “I...shouldn’t say it here.”

“What?” Kakyoin cries, “Why? Yamagishi, we need-”

“His stand power deals with electricity,” Yukako hisses, and Kakyon shuts his mouth, teeth clicking together. “He could be listening right now. I don’t know about you or why you’re interested in him, but I’m certainly not invested enough in whatever that creep is doing to die finding out about it.”

Kakyoin blinks. Ah. Good point. “Right,” is all he says. “Well- is there anything you can tell us for now, then?”

Yukako sighs, slumping a little in her seat. “If you’re looking for information on Red Hot Chili Pepper only, then not a whole lot.”

Kakyoin hums, glancing up at the lights of Aya’s salon, the hum of electricity just brushing against Kakyoin’s eardrums if he strains to listen. Yamagishi’s right...we shouldn’t do this in a place so vulnerable.

Kakyoin instead switches gears. “Do you know anything about the stand arrow?”

Yukako blinks, face blanching like she’s dizzy, and a part of Kakyoin wonders where she got shot. A part of him thinks he’s better off not knowing.

After a beat of silence, Yukako takes a breath, swallowing. “Not really. Nijimura only talked to me once, and it was right after he shot me, so I- I wasn’t quite...there.” Yukako pauses, lips pressing into a thin line. Kakyoin allows her the moment, the only sound being the wet static as Aya continues to expertly paint the dye into Yukako’s hair.

“He mentioned his dad, though,” Yukako murmurs, and Kakyoin blinks. Nijimura senior, huh? “I don’t remember exactly how, but I know Nijimura’s father was related to it at some point.”

Kakyoin hums, Okuyasu’s face flashing in his mind’s eye. Maybe he knows something? Kakyoin works his jaw slowly from side to side, staring distantly at the bowl of dye in his lap. Maybe I should ask him about it next Sunday…

Kakyoin hums, leaning his head to the side. Yeah. Next Sunday. They should get this upcoming one off after this whole ordeal…

Kakyoin’s gaze refocuses, and he turns it toward Yukako, whose hair is almost completely wet and black with the dye, Aya working diligently on the last few strands. She glances at Kakyoin, raising a brow, and Kakyoin just sighs, fingers tightening around the bowl.

“Alright,” Kakyoin says, “thanks for the information.”

Yukako’s eyes narrow at Kakyoin’s tone, but before she can say anything, Aya straightens, dumping the brush she was using into the bowl of dye on Kakyoin’s lap.

“Miss Yamagishi,” Aya calls as she takes the bowl from Kakyoin’s arms, settling it against her hip, “I’m all done painting the dye on.”

Yukako blinks, as if she hadn’t noticed, gaze refocusing on her reflection. Her fingers twitch gently at the image -- despite being wet and heavy under the dye, her hair is almost back to the way it was.

Yukako opens and closes her mouth for a second, before she swallows. “...Thank you.”

Aya smiles a little, glancing down at Kakyoin, who gives her a small nod. Turning back to Yukako, Aya says, “Well, Miss Yamagishi, the dye will need to sit for a bit, just to settle in and cling more effectively to your hair. I’ll go wash my supplies while it does, but just call if you need anything, alright?”

Yukako hums an affirmation, still focusing most of her attention on the mirror, and Aya sends one last glance to Kakyoin -- he can hear her implied Be sure to fill me in with it -- as she walks past him to the back room.

Kakyoin hums, settling in his seat, letting Yukako have a few moments with the relief of knowing her hair isn’t going to be pasty white anymore.

After a few more seconds, though, he leans forward, clapping his hands together lightly, drawing Yukako’s attention to him.

“Now, let’s get into the meat of this conversation, yeah?” Kakyoin asks.

Yukako pales despite her gaze hardening, no doubt in preparation for any grilling Kakyoin could have regarding Koichi.

Well, might as well stop beating around the bush, Kakyoin thinks. “Why did you kidnap Koichi?”

Yukako was already stiff, so she can’t freeze anymore, but she does recoil slowly like she’s moving through thick sludge, like instead of a tarp around her shoulders, it’s tar.

“...I don’t know,” She says.

Kakyoin raises a brow. “You don’t know? But it was planned, wasn’t it? Why else would you have taken him to that vacation home?”

“Because that’s where I’m living right now,” Yukako murmurs, and Kakyoin pauses, the revelation of her family in their earlier conversation coinciding with this one, making his stomach heavy.

Shaking his head, Kakyoin clarifies, “So it was spontaneous?”

Yukako nods slowly.

Kakyoin hums. Okay... “Well, once you had him, what did you plan on doing?”

Yukako chews on her tongue for a second, jaw shifting minutely, before she says, “It’s...I don’t know what was wrong with me. I wanted to control him. I wanted him to be perfect.”

Kakyoin nods but Yukako hesitates. Swallowing, Kakyoin prompts, “Was there something you had in mind that you wanted him ‘perfect’ for?”

Yukako’s face flushes and she ducks her head, grimacing. She shifts uncomfortably in her seat. “...It’s pathetic,” she spits. She jerks her gaze up to Kakyoin, glaring. “And I don’t see why that information would be relevant to you.”

Kakyoin sighs, flicking his sunglasses up to rest on his forehead. He leans forward, staring flatly at Yukako, fingers clasped beneath his chin. “Alright, then let me clarify. I need to know if R- someone, put you up to this, and if so, why -- and regardless of the answers to the previous questions, I need to know if you plan on doing it again.”

Yukako blinks, gaze losing its steel as it darts across Kakyoin’s face. After a beat, she lowers her eyes. “I see…”

It’s her turn to sigh then, gaze turning down to the floor. She looks like a dying tree in the rain, with the way her hair is sticking wet and heavy to her scalp.

“Then...no, no one put me up to...it,” Yukako murmurs. “I just wanted him perfect for...me. No one else.” She ducks her head in shame, her hair sliding against the tarp around her shoulders. Kakyoin would feel a little bad, digging at such a fresh wound, but the fact she was the one who chose this path for herself keeps him from diving into full-on pity.

“And do you plan on kidnapping again, Koichi or otherwise?” Kakyoin asks, and Yukako’s lip reflexively curls into a snarl, but the rest of her face falls into sorrow, brows furrowing upward and eyes setting downward.

“No. I don’t.”

Kakyoin nods, leaning on his hand. “And how can I be sure of that?”

Yukako stiffens, brows drawing down, but she doesn’t protest the remark. Instead, she bows her head a little lower, and says, “Nothing but my word.”

She lifts her chin then, violet eyes shimmering like hot springs. “But...but I can say this experience has- affected me, and how I see Koichi.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Yeah?”

Yukako takes a deep breath, gazing down at the floor.

“I first started noticing him when the school year began,” Yukako mutters. Kakyoin hums as a prompt to continue, and Yukako’s brows furrow, but she concedes. “He just seemed...so normal. After how my spring break ended, what with getting a stand, I guess I just wanted the sense of stability that normal could grant. And I found that in Koichi…”

Yukako sighs, eyes glazing over as she falls into memories. “But as I watched him, I saw he was a loyal friend too, checking on Josuke when his grandfather died and always bringing him his work so he wouldn’t fall behind. He’s also kind of funny, though I don’t think he means to be -- unfortunate things just happen to him, and he makes the most of it.” Yukako’s smile turns crooked with bitterness, and Kakyoin can hear the unsaid tag along. Just like he did with me.

“He seemed like my ideal person. So when he stopped living up to that ideal, I...freaked out,” Yukako sighs. Kakyoin almost snorts, but he’s able to bite it back. “ Freak out” is a way to put it...but at least she’s mature enough to acknowledge it.

“...But I think...In hindsight, I think I was more interested in my idea of him, than...him,” Yukako admits quietly, and Kakyoin almost squirms, the words rocking inside of his skull, flashes of Jotaro as he cooly walked out of the room after getting rid of the fleshbud skipping through his mind. Kakyoin blinks and the images disappear. “And I recognize that now...so…”

She shrugs helplessly, and Kakyoin swallows thickly.

“So...I’m not doing it again. It wouldn’t be fair to him.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “And it was fair to him this time?”

Yukako shoots him a dirty glance, brows furrowed in irritation, mouth in a tight frown. Kakyoin just stares at her with his crooked brow.

“No,” Yukako seethes, “it wasn’t. I just meant-” Her breath hitches then, and she ducks her head down and away from Kakyoin. “I just meant...to kidnap him again despite knowing I wouldn’t even want him for him ...despite knowing he has friends who do love him for him...it...I…”

Yukako sighs and trails off, and Kakyoin shifts in his seat, eyes softening.

“Well,” Kakyoin sighs, “good news, then: you’re probably not going to be arrested.”

Yukako jerks her head up, blinking at Kakyoin. “What?”

“No one died,” Kakyoin starts listing off, “nor was anyone even wounded -- except you, maybe, but we’re fixing that right now --” Yukako’s face twitches, glancing at the mirror, “and you’re sincere about not doing it again. Plus, you’re a minor, and the last thing the Foundation wants to deal with is arresting a minor overseas, so…”

Kakyoin waves a hand vaguely. “You’ll probably be watched over for a bit, but not arrested.”

Yukako blinks. “Foundation?” She eventually asks.

“Oh, right,” Kakyoin smacks his forehead, shaking his head. “The organization I’ve been alluding to this whole time is the Speedwagon Foundation. They’re from the United States, but they’re a nonprofit liberal arts funder, essentially…” Kakyoin purses his lips. “And as of late, the study of stands and their uses has fallen under that.”

Yukako blinks again, and Kakyoin just shrugs. “I’ll take you to get you registered with them after this. They’ll also probably be able to get you more stable housing than a vacation home that isn’t yours…”

Yukako’s eyes widen, hope filling her face, before she visibly shuts it out, clenching her jaw.

“...Why would they do that for me?” She mutters.

Kakyoin hums. “Fair question. But they’re really interested in standusers ever since establishing their stand branch, and they are half a charity organization, so they’re not just gonna leave you in a dire situation.”

Yukako grimaces, but says nothing else.

“You’ll see when you meet them,” Kakyoin promises, and Yukako sighs. “I know it may seem too good to be true, but they really do want to help, if only to get information.”

Yukako hunches inward. “...Okay,” She says softly, and Kakyoin feels some of his resolve give way in his chest.

There’s a shuffling then, followed by some clattering and clinking, before the clicking of heels indicative of Aya’s return from the backroom fills the air. Kakyoin looks up to greet her.

She raises a finely groomed brow at him, and Kakyoin simply nods. She nods in return before turning to Yukako.

“I’m sorry to interrupt,” Aya announces, “but it’s time to finish the dye-job.”

Yukako’s gaze darts toward her, staring at her through the mirror.

“Miss Yamagishi,” Aya says, “let’s head over to the rinse stations, yeah?”

Yukako blinks, hesitating. Kakyoin raises a brow as she stands up from her chair.

“But- but won’t showering so soon wash out the dye?” Yukako asks weakly.

Aya laughs, making Yukako stiffen, upper lip twitching as she fights off a snarl.

“No, no. I suppose I can’t blame you for thinking that, but no, it won’t ruin the dye, don’t worry,” Aya chuckles. Yukako’s face is still set in a grimace, and Kakyoin covers a snort with a cough.

“Come on, the water will be warm,” Aya says, and Yukako sighs before following her to the shampooing station, leaving Kakyoin behind.

“Miss Tsuji?” Kakyoin calls, rolling out and away, “Do you have a phone I could borrow?”

“Sure, on the front desk,” Aya calls back.

Kakyoin rolls to it as the sound of spraying water washes over the store, accompanied by the trickling of it falling down the drain. Kakyoin can feel his shoulders relax a bit as he goes to pick up the phone, once again dialing the Speedwagon Foundation.

While he’s on the call, Kakyoin is only vaguely aware of Aya washing through Yukako’s hair, shampooing and conditioning it before shutting the water off, the midnight-black strands wet and silky as Aya combs through them, before she dries it all off with a hairdryer.

Just as Kakyoin hangs up the phone, Aya clicks off the hairdryer.

“And...done,” Aya hums, pleased, as she sets Yukako’s bangs in place. Taking off the tarp around Yukako’s shoulders, Aya asks, “How do you like it?”

Yukako is staring openly at her reflection, eyes soft and brows furrowed upward as she takes herself in. She swallows thickly, ducking her head. “I really like it. Thank you.”

Aya smirks to herself for a job well done, and Kakyoin can’t help but smile himself from having watched the interaction.

“How much do I owe you?” Kakyoin asks, and Aya waves a hand, shaking her head.

“Just buy me dinner from Tonio’s or something. I can’t cook myself, so having a guaranteed, quality meal in my near future would mean more,” She teases. Kakyoin snorts, nodding easily.

“I can definitely do that.”

She hums, glancing at Yukako, who stood up from her chair but is still staring at her reflection.

“Keep an eye on her,” She murmurs, and Kakyoin nods.

“Way ahead of you on that one.”

Nodding, Aya’s mouth curves back up, and she teasingly adds, “You better tell me the whole story of this when we have that dinner.”

Kakyoin laughs, nodding along easily. “It’s a date.”

“Ha!” Aya snorts before she nods, and Kakyoin rolls back to Yukako.

“Hey,” He calls. Yukako jerks, snapping her head toward Kakyoin, relaxing when she sees it’s only him.

“Hey,” Kakyoin repeats, “Let’s go talk to the Speedwagon Foundation now, yeah?”

Yukako blinks, before nodding slowly. “Yeah…”

Kakyoin narrows his eyes but says nothing, turning to wave to Aya one last time before he and Yukako leave the store.

“They said we can meet an agent near the town square,” Kakyoin explains as the door shuts behind him. Yukako hums distantly. She’s keeping pace with Kakyoin, but her eyes are glazed, like she’s not in the moment.

Kakyoin almost holds his tongue, but his curiosity gets the best of him and he asks, “Something on your mind?”

Yukako hums half-heartedly.

Kakyoin raises a brow. “I thought the hair dye would make you more upbeat, not more wistful.”

Yukako scoffs then, blinking as her eyes come back into focus. “It’s not that.”

She hesitates for a moment then, before her shoulders hunch slightly. “It’s…”

She swallows thickly, and Kakyoin waits patiently for her to continue as they move along Morioh’s streets.

“He saved me,” Yukako whispers. “I tried to kill him and he saved me. Why did he save me?”

Kakyoin’s mouth runs dry, echoes of words he’d said himself ten years earlier bouncing in his skull. Why did you risk your life to save mine?

Kakyoin jerkily shakes his head, snapping himself out of it.

Oh, kid…

Kakyoin swallows, his throat clicking noisily, before he says, “You’re not deserving of death just because you scared the hell out of him.”

Yukako says nothing, and Kakyoin swallows again.

“Yamagishi -- Yukako -- I understand a lot has happened to you recently. I know you have weird feelings about Koichi now, too. But-” Kakyoin exhales, the air clunky in his chest, like it was more solid than gaseous, before continuing, “...but, I think the best course of action at this point is to accept you’re alive, and you have a second chance. Figure things out with Koichi if you want, but don’t-” Kakyoin grits his teeth, sea blue haunting the edges of his mind, “-don’t make that your new reason for living.

“You got into this mess because you became so focused on someone else,” Kakyoin says quietly, “so don’t make the same mistake again and just live your life for yourself. Koichi gave you a gift; make the most of it, don’t try to return it to him.”

Yukako stays silent throughout Kakyoin’s spiel, and for every second she says nothing, Kakyoin becomes more and more certain he fucked up, like he blended his experiences too much with Yukako’s and forgot she could have a different perspective than him, that she’s a different person than him-

“Okay,” She says quietly. “I’ll try.”

Kakyoin nods. “That’s enough.” It’ll have to be.

Kakyoin glances at the girl beside him with the same eyes as his and aches, his chest heavy and low and tight. It’ll have to be.

Chapter 13

Notes:

hey everyone i hope u enjoy this week's chapter <3 my first quarter of uni is about to end so I'm hoping I can get some writing in over break >:)
also just to let everyone on ao3 know, i plan on posting the next 3ish chapters as i finish them, but once they're done, we'll be back to the usual "pause, post 5ish chaps in a row, pause, post 5ish chaps in a row" type deal <3
but that's abt all I have for updates! hope u all enjoy <3

Chapter Text

The muffled thud of a body against grass fills Kakyoin’s ears, a satisfying end to a fight. Hierophant slivers away, the grass caressing him as he does, but Kakyoin shakes his head at the feeling, shrugging it off. “Alright, Koichi, let’s try again.”

Koichi groans, brows furrowed intensely enough for a wrinkle to form between them, face dirty and mouth in a tight frown as he stands back up, ripped blades of grass dropping from his uniform. Echoes swings around him, trilling in exasperation as it eyes Hierophant irritably.

Josuke shrieks then, and Kakyoin only has time to whip his head to look before he crashes into the ground himself, skidding before the friction brings him to a stop.

Okuyasu, on the other hand, laughs brightly, skipping over to help his friend up. “Yoo, Josuke! Did you even see that coming? I’m getting pretty good, right?”

“You’re getting pretty annoying,” Josuke snaps, but he easily accepts the hand Okuyasu offers him, springing to his feet before tugging, laughing when Okuyasu stumbles because of it.

“Sore loser,” Okuyasu complains, and Josuke just sticks his tongue out at him.

Kakyoin snorts at the pair, Koichi grumbling beside him.

“You are improving though,” Kakyoin calls to Okuyasu, and the boy beams, his eyes crinkling at the edges.

The smile is infectious, Kakyoin’s own mouth curving upward slightly, when Koichi clears his throat roughly, and he turns back to him.

“How- how many more go’s are we doing?” Koichi asks almost desperately in between pants, voice gravelly and rough.

Kakyoin hums, turning to Josuke. “What time is it?”

Josuke is tucking a few stray hairs back into his pompadour, Okuyasu gently helping him to straighten them, before he glances down at his watch. “Uh- oh, shit, it’s already two.”

Kakyoin blinks, straightening in his wheelchair, much to his spine’s complaint, pain tingling along his nerves as his muscles tighten. “Oh.” He turns to Koichi. “Then I guess we’re done for the day.” Kakyoin almost apologizes for eating up so much of their free time, but he holds his tongue.

Koichi deflates, shoulders slumping as Echoes fades away beside him. “Okay. Okay.”

Kakyoin hums, eyes narrowing, while Josuke walks over to his friend. “Sorry you got stuck with Mr. Kakyoin as a sparring partner today,” He says as he passes Koichi his water bottle, which the boy eagerly takes.

He shakes his head after taking a few gulps, wiping his mouth. “No- don’t worry about it,” Koichi sighs, gaze darting to Kakyoin’s before flashing away when meeting his eyes. “Um. One of us had to do it.” He pauses, before chuckling a little into the rim of the water bottle. “It seems like Okuyasu roughed you up as much as Mr. Kakyoin did me, though.”

“Oi,” Josuke complains, and Kakyoin huffs, shaking his head. Speaking of Okuyasu though…

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin calls, and Okuyasu jerks to attention, straightening his back.

“Yeah, Mr. Kakyoin?” Okuyasu asks.

Kakyoin works his jaw from side to side for a second, whispers of Yukako’s words the previous week echoing in his head. Nijimura’s father…

“I...was wondering if I could ask you something. About the stand arrow.”

Any mirth in Okuyasu’s face drains away at the mention of the arrow, gaze immediately casting downward, and Kakyoin frowns at this, guilt lapping at his gut like his insides were a beach. Josuke and Koichi frown, exchanging a glance.

“Um, sure, Mr. Kakyoin,” Okuyasu says, voice light but his expression betraying it, raising his gaze to meet Kakyoin’s like it was akin to hefting a boulder up a hill. “What’s up?”

Kakyoin’s frown deepens, but he says, “I was wondering...where did your brother even find that thing?”

Okuyasu fidgets, gaze darting downward. Josuke frowns.

“Hey, where’s this suddenly coming from, Mr. Kakyoin?” Josuke asks.

Kakyoin hums low in his throat. “Just trying to trace where the arrow has been the past ten years so the Foundation can find any other standusers the arrow might’ve created. Gotta get them connected with support and resources while studying them.”

Josuke’s brow furrows, but he says nothing more. Koichi shifts a little closer to Okuyasu and Okuyasu takes a breath.

“Um. My brother got the arrow from my dad.”

It’s where Kakyoin wanted the conversation to lead, but he feels no sense of victory over seamlessly getting there -- not while Okuyasu’s voice is so gravelly and so small, sounding like a small child that wandered too far from home.

Kakyoin swallows. “Your dad, huh? Do you know where he got it?” His tone is light, paralleling Okuyasu’s rare softness.

Okuyasu drops his head, shuddering, and Kakyoin regrets the words, shame raging throughout his chest, liquid fire leaking through his veins.

“It- actually, it’s okay, Okuyasu, you don’t need to tell m-”

Okuyasu shudders again before he shakes his head. “N-no, no, it’s okay Mr. Kakyoin.”

His voice is small, and when Okuyasu raises his head again, he looks mildly nauseous, staring dazedly at the ground with furrowed brows. Josuke reaches out an arm, clasping a hand around Okuyasu’s wrist gently, and Okuyasu swallows.

“Um. It- it’s kinda a long story,” Okuyasu murmurs. “But my dad got it from...geez, I guess he counted as his old boss?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Boss?”

Okuyasu’s face crumples and Kakyoin immediately backtracks.

“You know, never mind-”

“-DIO,” Okuyasu says quietly, and Kakyoin shuts his jaw so quickly his teeth click together, pain tingling along his jaw. “His boss’s name was DIO.”

Kakyoin’s heart is racing in his chest, tripping over its own rhythm like a fawn trying to run for the first time, and Kakyoin distantly thinks that can’t be healthy.

“...DIO?” He eventually croaks out, mortification sweeping across his chest as a heatwave at the awkward strain in his voice.

Okuyasu fidgets, and Josuke reaches down to interlock their fingers, Koichi reaching up to grasp onto his other arm.

Kakyoin blinks and shakes his head. They were both clearly uncomfortable, but now he’s more curious than ever…

“You know what, never mind.” He chews on his tongue. “I’m- sorry. Sorry.”

Okuyasu shakes his head but it doesn’t make Kakyoin feel any better.

Kakyoin holds his breath for a second before continuing with, “Do you think you could just let me talk to your dad? I don’t wanna force you to continue this conversation.”

Okuyasu’s nervous fidgeting shuts down, shoulders falling limp, and Kakyoin’s brow furrows as Josuke and Koichi flutter around him.

“Um-” Josuke starts, before Okuyasu cuts him off.

“It’s okay, Josuke,” He murmurs, and Josuke shuts his mouth, grimacing. Okuyasu takes a breath before looking back up at Kakyoin.

“Um. I don’t think that would really work out,” Okuyasu directs to Kakyoin, and Kakyoin blinks. “He’s uh...he’s not really up for any kind of conversation these days.”

Kakyoin blinks, before cold flushes across his system, freezing him from the inside out. “Is- is he dead?”

Okuyasu jerkily shakes his head, though, and Kakyoin lets out a quiet breath, relief swamping him.

“No, not- not dead. Just…” Okuyasu sighs, and Jouske and Koichi frown.

“You don’t have to give me details if you don’t want t-” Kakyoin starts to say, but Okuyasu shakes his head.

“No, it- you can know. It’s probably time for an adult to know…” he mutters, and Kakyoin frowns. Okuyasu sighs, before looking back up. “It...is probably easier to show you than to explain it, though.”

Kakyoin blinks, but nods. Okuyasu takes a deep breath before turning to Koichi and Josuke, murmuring something Kakyoin can’t hear as he slips out of their grips. Josuke’s face falls at the loss of contact while Koichi stays stiff, worried.

“Um. It’s not a long walk, but…” Okuyasu shrugs, swallowing. “I’ll lead the way.”


“You...live here?”

The ramshackle, dark wooden house staring Kakyoin down from across the lawn is the picture definition of a fixer-upper -- and that was being generous. Wood is rotting visibly outside, dust caking the sides of the house and roof tiles. Weeds and dead grass make an unwelcoming first impression on the lawn, overgrown and dry, prickly and bitter with thorns.

“Er, yeah,” Okuyasu says meekly, rubbing the back of his head, and Kakyoin blinks, realizing the callousness of his question.

Kakyoin coughs lightly. “It’s, ah...impressionable.”

Okuyasu just blinks. Koichi coughs and Okuyasu shakes his head.

“It’s okay, Mr. Kakyoin, I know it’s not much…”

Kakyoin grimaces, gaze turning back to the building -- or lack thereof. “Is this even safe?”

Okuyasu waves his hands. “Yeah! It survived a stand fight between my brother and Josuke so-”

Josuke lets out a strangled noise while Kakyoin snaps his gaze to Okuyasu. “What?” He cries, and Josuke laughs, the sound loud and fake and abrupt.

“Nothing! It’s nothing, it’s-” Josuke sighs, shaking his head. “It’s...seen better days, yeah.”

Kakyoin points at Josuke with a gloved finger. “Why the hell were you attacking Okuyasu’s brother?”

Josuke’s face sours, lip curling into a snarl. “He shot that stupid arrow at Koichi and tried to keep me from healing him.”

Kakyoin blinks. Koichi shifts his feet, the dead grass crunching beneath his shoes.

Okuyasu coughs. “I’m sorry,” He says abruptly. Kakyoin blinks, turning to face him.

“Why are you apologizing?”

Okuyasu shrugs, brows furrowed upward. “It- I know it’s not a great house. I’m sorry it’s...not...cleaner?” He winces.

Kakyoin frowns. “Okuyasu, I’m not upset over the house, necessarily; I’m just upset that you’re forced to live in a place like this.”

Okuyasu blinks, features falling open.

Kakyoin squirms under the tense atmosphere. “I mean, I’m getting splinters just looking at it. The Speedwagon Foundation could get you better housing, you know?”

Okuyasu blinks again before his face crumples and he looks down. “I know,” He murmurs. Before Kakyoin can ask any clarifying questions, Okuyasu continues by himself. “But- I just don’t know how they’d react to my dad. I couldn’t abandon him here, and I definitely couldn’t give him to a bunch of scientists to poke and prod.”

Kakyoin blinks at the reminder of what they’re here for. He frowns, brow furrowing. Just what exactly was wrong with Mr. Nijimura?

Kakyoin fingers his scarf, before patting Okuyasu on the back. “I’m sure I can pull some strings so nothing bad would happen to him,” Kakyoin says quietly. Okuyasu hums and Kakyoin’s frown deepens. “I’m serious. I know I don’t technically work for the foundation, but I might as well with the influence I have.”

Okuyasu hums again, tone a little tighter this time.

“Why do you have so much influence, anyway, Mr. Kakyoin?” Koichi asks. Kakyoin snorts, smirking to himself.

“Nepotism.”

“Huh?” Koichi and Josuke echo, but Kakyoin just motions to Okuyasu.

“Lead the way, kid.”

Okuyasu sucks in a breath, hiking up his shoulders like he was marching into battle. That’s not what coming home should feel like... Kakyoin thinks, the smirk melting off his face.

“Okay,” Okuyasu says, stepping up to his porch, “follow me.”

Koichi, Josuke, and Kakyoin all exchange glances, but they follow wordlessly.

Kakyoin’s wheelchair rolls easily over the dead grass, the dried-out and yellowed plants not having enough water to hinder him, nor the flexibility to tangle around his wheels. Kakyoin almost snorts to himself. It’s weird to prefer something dead over alive.

They get to the porch, and Kakyoin eyes the rickety stairs leading up to it suspiciously. Okuyasu yanks open his door, and an awful creak, high in pitch, sounds out as the hinges grind against each other.

“Oh, shit,” Jouske says, “I forgot about the stairs. Mr. Kakyoin, do you need any he-?”

Kakyoin tuts, Hierophant appearing as a mass of tentacles to grab hold of his wheelchair, hoisting him up the steps. Josuke and Koichi blink in surprise, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“I’m fine,” He says dryly, and the two glance at each other before hurrying up themselves.

Kakyoin rolls inside, only to seize as his chest constricts, his lungs fighting against the amount of dust he had inhaled just by moving in the space.

Kakyoin coughs, dust clinging to his airway, and he grimaces at the taste and smell of dirt before he properly looks around.

The house is dark -- there doesn’t seem to be running electricity, which makes Kakyoin wonder how Okuyasu stayed warm during the beginning of spring when the world was still warming up again. The wood inside is just as rotted as the paneling outside, and Kakyoin distantly wonders if he’d fall through the floor should he try to roll over it in his wheelchair.

He shakes his head though, moving further into the entryway, Koichi and Josuke following behind him.

Kakyoin only just bites back a scowl when he turns the corner and Okuyasu is waiting for them on the first step of a flight of stairs.

“Are you really asking me to go up more stairs?” Kakyoin grumbles crossly, and Okuyasu blinks, his face blanching.

“Shit! I’m so sorry Mr. Kakyoin, I just didn’t think about it…”

“No one does,” Kakyoin sighs, an edge to his voice before he shakes his head. “But it’s fine. Hierophant Green has me.”

Okuyasu exhales, shoulders slumping, and Kakyoin hesitates.

“Really, it’s not your fault, Okuyasu. You certainly didn’t build this house.”

Okuyasu hums as if he’s not sure if he should laugh or not, before he turns, taking another hesitant step up. Kakyoin sighs softly before jerking his head, gesturing up the stairs.

“You two go on ahead,” Kakyoin says. Josuke’s face pinches, but he says nothing. Koichi fidgets, before piping up.

“Are you sure, Mr. Kakyoin? What if you fal-?”

“Then Hierophant will just catch me,” Kakyoin says, trying to go for a smile but ending with just a baring of his teeth at Koichi. “He’s malleable, you see. Absorbs shock like a pro.”

Koichi ducks his head. “Ah- right…”

Josuke’s eyes narrow at the interaction, but he says nothing, gaze darting up to where Okuyasu has disappeared on the second floor.

“Come on,” Josuke murmurs, “Okuyasu needs us.”

Koichi blinks, brows furrowing in determination, and the pair heads up the stairs with no further comments, the boards creaking ominously under their weight. Kakyoin frowns, but there is no resounding crunch of wood giving away, just the soft groans of planks far past their prime.

Kakyoin sighs, calling out Hierophant again. Once more appearing as a mass of tentacles, Hierophant gently scoops up Kakyon’s wheelchair, lifting it off the ground, as four tentacles act like makeshift legs to pad up the stairs. The tentacles’ soft green glow lights up the house, and Kakyoin frowns at the faded color and distorted shapes he can see as a result. Okuyasu has to get out of this house, this is outright dangerous...

When Kakyoin makes it up the flight, he can see Koichi rubbing Okuyasu’s arm comfortingly while Josuke holds his hand, his free one on his friend’s shoulder.

They’re murmuring comforts Kakyoin can’t hear as Hierophant dissipates, and when Kakyoin is set down with a light thud against the floor, boards squeaking under the sudden weight, they stop talking altogether.

Okuyasu takes a deep breath, looking up at Kakyoin as he inches toward a door branching off from the hallway that makes up the second floor.

“Um,” He mumbles, “he didn’t...always look this way…”

Kakyoin raises a brow at the vague explanation, but he doesn’t prompt Okuyasu further. Okuyasu takes a deep breath and opens the door.

The first thing Kakyion sees as he rolls in, following after Okuyasu, is scratch marks against the floor. They seem more accidental than purposeful, like an animal became ignorant of their claws and stretched without regard for them, but Kakyoin frowns anyway.

Then Kakyoin lifts his gaze and freezes, fingers flexing as if to pull Okuyasu away from the...thing in the corner of the room.

Green skin covered in boils is all Kakyoin can make out a first. The longer he stares and the more his eyes adjust to the darkness, though, the more he can see. Tufts of dark hair sprout out awkwardly from its head, bangs flopping into two differently-sized eyes. Scraps of clothing cling to its figure, but Kakyoin can’t tell what the articles used to actually be.

Chapped lips open and close a few times before the creature turns to Okuyasu, letting out a groan that almost sounds confused. Kakyoin’s hair stands on end at the vocalization.

“Hey dad,” Okuyasu says quietly, crouching down to be eye level with the...with his father, Kakyoin guesses. The nerves along the back of his neck and arms tingle with the desire to run away. Kakyoin sets his jaw and stays put.

“This is Mr. Kakyoin,” Okuyasu says, gesturing back to him, and Kakyoin freezes as the creature’s eyes land on him; small, pinprick pupils, sizing him up. “He’s my teacher,” Okuyasu continues.

Josuke and Koichi settle behind him, the wood squeaking under their feet, and the reminder of their presence grounds Kakyoin just a bit, if only enough to stop his heart from beating faster as the creature meets his gaze.

The -- man? Beast? -- lets out another rasping sound, more like a croak this time, before turning back to Okuyasu. Okuyasu clears his throat, brows furrowing as his gaze drops.

“I, uh...I thought it was time he knew about you, is all,” Okuyasu finishes, voice croaky and awkward in his throat. Josuke steps past Kakyoin toward his friend, and Kakyoin almost wants to draw him back, but he isn’t sure why. The creature hasn’t done anything, so why is Kakyoin so uneasy…?

Josuke saddles up beside his friend, placing a hand on his shoulder. Okuyasu closes his eyes, taking a deep breath.

The creature looks at Okuyasu for a beat longer, before turning around, waddling on unbalanced feet back to a cot, sitting down on it before gently cradling a polaroid. Kakyoin can’t see what it’s a picture of, exactly, but the white borders around the photo make it unmistakable.

Okuyasu takes a deep breath, turning to Kakyoin. Josuke stays by his side, hand dropping down to tangle their fingers together instead. Okuyasu squeezes his hand, and Kakyoin eyes this before turning to Okuyasu’s face.

“I’m, uh, sure you have questions,” Okuyasu says nervously, voice wavering and jerky, like rusted gears.

Kakyoin holds his tongue for a moment. “Are you sure it’s alright to ask?”

Okuyasu takes a deep breath, nodding. “Yeah. Yeah, I’m sure.”

Kakyoin presses his lips into a line, gaze straying back to the creature. It hasn’t moved; it’s still just sitting and staring at the polaroid.

Kakyoin swallows. “What...what happened to him?”

Okuyasu takes another deep breath. Josuke squeezes his hand. “I don’t know all the details,” Okuyasu’s gravelly voice pipes up after steeling himself. “I was young when it happened. But from what my brother used to say, and from what I remember…”

Okuyasu swallows. Kakyoin jerks his gaze away from the creature and back to him.

“When my dad was working for DIO,” Okuyasu starts, and Kakyoin sucks in a breath, preparing himself for anything Okuyasu could follow that up with, “something- something called a fleshbud was planted into his head.”

Kakyoin was not prepared.

Distantly, he’s grateful for his wheelchair for the first time in his life, because he knows for a fact if he was standing, he’d have dropped like a puppet cut from its strings.

Puppet-

Bad analogy. Bad analogy. Kakyoin can feel his heartbeat in his fingertips, blood roaring in his ears.

That doesn’t stop Okuyasu’s words from continuing to slink in.

“It allowed DIO to control him...like mind control,” Okuyasu explains, and the hole where Kakyoin’s stomach should be clenches, writhing like a dying animal, and he tastes bile in the back of his throat. “Um...it was attached to my dad’s brain and it was made from DIO’s body or something...so when…”

Okuyasu swallows thickly, and Kakyoin has half the mind to be envious because his throat is so swollen he can’t do the same.

“So when DIO died, the fleshbud...freaked out because it was dying too, then. And it jumbled my dad up in the process.”

Kakyoin is shaking. His sunglasses are slipping off his nose but he feels frozen, like he can’t reach up to right them.

“Mr. Kakyoin?” Koichi asks from behind him, and the voice is so sudden Kakyoin is jerked into motion.

He tenses, rolling back away from that- that thing that could’ve been him , his sunglasses clattering to the floor as they fling off his face at the sudden movement.

“Mr. Kakyion?!” Josuke asks, turning his attention to him, and that thing looks up at all the commotion. It lazily locks eyes with Kakyoin, and Kakyoin’s heart seizes, jumping up to the bottom of his throat.

Nijimura-

Flashes of a man with the same dark hair and a mean, scowling face invade Kakyoin’s mind. Always with a suitcase. Always only talked to DIO -- not that Kakyoin was any different in those days, DIO’s sickly gold haze overlaying his entire worldview.

Kakyoin had never bothered to really learn the man’s name, but he remembers now, remembers DIO’s dripping timber murmuring, “Good job, Mr. Nijimura,” as Kakyion stands by like a decorative piece, a pretty prize, as he waits for his next orders-

He knew him. He knew him. What was the difference between them?

The creature that used to be Mr. Nijimura tilts its head at Kakyoin, considering, before it reaches up and taps its forehead questioningly.

Hierophant erupts from Kakyoin’s chest, tentacles using the floor for leverage and propelling him back, away from that creature, away from a future that could have been his own.

When Kakyoin rockets back out into the hallway, Koichi yelping as he’s forced to dive out of the way, Hierophant anchors around Kakyoin, similarly to how he did when Koichi first tried using Echoes’ persuasive abilities on him.

Kakyoin buries his face in his hands and shakes, Hierophant’s tentacles writhing around him like malleable armor.

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Josuke shouts, the thundering of his footsteps letting Kakyoin know he’s following. He needs to get a grip, he needs to breathe, why couldn’t he breathe, why couldn’t he see, why was his heartbeat so loud, is this what Nijimura felt as the fleshbud tore him from the inside out-?

Kakyoin’s hearing is starting to ring and his head spins, bile pressing against the back of his throat threateningly, and Kakyion grits his teeth because, fuck, how embarrassing would it be to fall so apart in front of the kids?

Kakyoin can’t stop digging his fingers into the arms of his wheelchair. He’s hunched over and his back is screeching at him over it, fire combating the ice of panic, but it’s not enough. It’s too much. Kakyoin moves to wrap his arms around his head, forehead pressing against his forearm, and squeezes, begging himself to get a grip, get a grip, get a fucking grip-!

“MR. KAKYOIN!” Josuke shouts, voice panicked, and Kakyoin grits his teeth before rearing himself up, like he was surfacing from particularly thick water.

Hierophant’s tentacles slam down before dissipating, and Kakyion jerks his head around, gaze wild and unfocused, blurry shapes and dark shadows all around him, just like the mansion, Kakyoin never left, he’s going to become just like that creature, he’s doomed, he’s going to die for real this time, alone, alone, alone-

There are hands on his shoulders then and Kakyoin lets out a strangled yell, blinking before Josuke’s face comes into view, his pompadour bouncing slightly as he kneels down to be face-to-face with Kakyoin.

“Mr. Kakyoin, snap the hell out of it!” Josuke cries, words harsh but voice scared, and Kakyoin blinks again, still trembling, the hair on the back of his neck still standing on end, but the blood rushing past his ears dying down.

“Wh-what-” Kakyoin tries to speak from the lump in his throat, only to shiver violently, squeezing his eyes shut and shaking his head. “Where- where-”

“We’re at Okuyasu’s house, remember?” Josuke says, and Kakyoin just shakes, why couldn’t he stop shaking? It was always so cold in the mansion…

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Josuke cries, voice edging panic again, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him. Josuke’s diamond blue eyes gleam in the dim light, face pinched in fear and panic and concern, and Kakyoin just stares. He looks so much like Jotaro.

A small spark of irritation goes off in his gut, and while his insides are too wet, too cold to catch fire because of it, it’s enough to make his lungs remember how to breathe again, rather than clench listlessly in his chest. Kakyoin takes a shuddering inhale, dropping his head again to rest against his arms.

“Mr. Kakyoin, please-” Josuke’s voice sounds so scared, so desperate, and Kakyoin swallows thickly.

“I’m here, kid,” Kakyoin wheezes, eyes darting about as he takes in lungfuls of the dusty air, staring out a window to focus on the unseemly neighborhood outside. Not Cairo. “I’m here.”

Josuke lets out a shuddering breath of his own, leaning his head to rest against Kakyoin’s shoulder, and Kakyoin feels a flare of shame rush through his system, burning layers of muscle and skin from the inside out.

Kakyion swallows again before lifting his head, prompting Josuke to lift his own and drop his hands.

Kakyoin rolls back, feeling the urge to curl into a ball, but his pride and spine furiously spit at him for even having the thought. Josuke stands up shakily, sighing.

Kakyoin coughs weakly, turning his head only to be met with Okuyasu and Koichi’s terrified gazes, and Kakyoin swallows as shame rips through him again, one sweltering wave of fire after another. He’s surprised he’s not a mess of ash and gore boiling on the floor with how hot it burns under his skin.

Kakyoin takes a couple of deep breaths, clearing his throat, before saying, “O...Okuyasu...Koichi,”

The words make both of them jump, spurring them into action. They hastily make their way to Kakyoin, skirting just around his personal space nervously, like moths dancing around a shaded lamp.

Kakyoin bites his tongue and looks down. He can’t blame them after...that, and that just makes the shame worse. Kakyoin feels sick, his gut still clenching down uncomfortably. Kakyoin wonders if Okuyasu would even care if he threw up on his floor. The thought of showing such weakness, however, just makes the shame burn even hotter, and Kakyoin grimaces.

Josuke joins their little huddle, and Kakyoin’s grimace deepens, feeling almost like a cornered animal. They’re kids, snaps a part of him, stop being so fucking dramatic, but that doesn’t stop him from shivering, hunkering down in his wheelchair despite his lower back clawing at his nerve endings for it.

“Mr. Kakyion,” Okuyasu’s gravelly, shaky voice sounds, and Kakyoin tiredly drags his gaze to the scarred boy. “Are...are you okay?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth to answer, but, mortifyingly, his voice breaks on the first syllable he tries to say. He shuts his mouth again, burying his face in his hands.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Josuke asks, tone soft, “what...what was that?”

What the fuck did it look like? Snaps a part of Kakyion miserably, but Kakyoin bites his tongue to avoid saying it out loud. It’s not the kids’ fault I embarrassed myself like this.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, shaking his head.

“It-” Kakyoin’s voice doesn’t break again, thankfully, but it’s dry -- so dry Kakyoin can’t quite vocalize. He coughs lightly, clearing his throat before he lifts his head. “It’s okay. I’m okay.”

Josuke frowns, eyes narrowing. “Do you really expect us to believe that?”

Do you really expect me to tell you? Snarks that same part of him, and Kakyoin digs his nails into his arm to try and shut it up.

“Do not,” Kakyoin ends up saying, “talk to me like that right now.” It’s more vulnerability than he ever wanted to express in front of the kids, but it also flashes his authority, and it makes Josuke shut his mouth, brows furrowing in shame. Kakyoin will take it, despite the flash of guilt adding to his own shame, wreaking havoc in his chest cavity.

“I’m sorry,” Josuke says, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“I’m sorry,” Kakyoin manages to scrape out, his voice like the ashy rock leftover from a volcanic eruption, “that you had to see that.”

“I’m sorry too,” Okuyasu says. Kakyoin raises a tired raised brow his way, but Okuyasu’s too shaken to catch it. “I’m so sorry,” he repeats, shivers of his own wracking his frame, “I’m so sorry. I’m-”

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin cuts in. Okuyasu stops.

Kakyoin pauses, shaking his head. Now that his panic was subsiding, he was just tired…

“You didn’t do anything wrong,” Kakyoin manages to scrape out, his voice like the burnt remnants of food inside of a dirty oven. “None of you did.”

Koichi bites his lip, reaching a hand to steady Okuyasu. Josuke takes his friend’s hand in his again. Okuyasu takes a deep breath.

“Are you okay now, Mr. Kakyoin?” Koichi asks again, and Kakyoin bites back any sharp replies. He lost the right to privacy when he decided to have an episode in front of the kids, after all.

“I’m fine,” Kakyoin sighs, shoulders slumping. He still feels as empty as he did when he woke up to a missing stomach nine years ago, but the kids don’t need to know that.

“What happened?” Josuke asks, and Kakyoin hesitates while Koichi winces, expecting a retort.

Kakyoin shakes his head, gazing past them to the room he had scrambled out of like he was a bat out of hell. The creature hadn’t followed, not even to observe them from the doorway. Kakyoin hates himself for the sweep of relief he feels, cool, gentle water against the flames of shame.

“...Memories…” Kakyoin mutters.

It’s an explanation that’s incredibly lacking, and by the confused glances Koichi and Josuke exchange, Kakyoin will need to elaborate. Kakyoin grits his teeth. Stop, hisses a part of him. They get to know if you get to throw a tantrum in front of them.

Kakyoin swallows. It feels like he’s eating glass, sharp rubble digging into his throat, tearing it from the inside out, pinpricks of pain spreading throughout his esophagus.

Kakyoin’s gaze strays away from the boys, a heavy weight making it hard to look at Okuyasu. “When...when Red Hot Chili Pepper tried to intimidate me out of town, he mentioned your brother by name -- Nijimura,” He murmurs.

Okuyasu stiffens. Kakyoin swallows again. The glass just sinks further down his throat, no less piercing.

“It was familiar to me. I didn’t know why until…” Kakyoin sucks in a breath, his neck straining over bowing his head for so long, but his nerves keeping him firmly in place, away from acknowledging the boys in the hallway with him. “Until...now…”

Silence. Then,

“Wha- what do you mean?” Okuyasu croaks, and Kakyoin winces at his voice.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, but the words can’t form on his tongue, like water slipping past his fingers. So, he swallows, before raising his head slowly, bringing a hand up to pin back his bangs.

Okuyasu’s face blanches while Koichi’s brow furrows at the sight of the scar on Kakyoin’s forehead -- a small, dark pink pinprick right in the center. Kakyoin’s fingers clench around his hair.

“I think I knew your father when we were…we were both…” Kakyoin can’t say it. Ten years, and he still can’t say it, shame burning under his skin, swelling his tongue to the point he can’t talk.

“Oh,” Josuke says, his own face paling, and Kakyoin drops his hand, letting his bangs cover the scar again.

Josuke fidgets, mouthing something that looks suspiciously like DIO...mind control… Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, but before he can say anything, Josuke looks up again, lips parting to vocalize another question.

“What?” Kakyoin asks, voice low and flat, exhaustion weighing it down.

“Is- is that what you meant, when you said- when you mentioned how the DIO fight was personal to you?”

Kakyoin blinks. “When the hell did you h-”

Flashes of the spat he had with Jotaro immediately after the Angelo fight crowd Kakyoin’s head, and he ducks his face, shame using the memory as gasoline to continue burning, burning, burning.

“Oh. Right.” He mutters, before sighing. “Yes. That’s what I meant.”

Okuyasu shakily steps forward, and Kakyoin looks up at him.

“So,” Okuyasu says, voice trembling, “so you- you had a fleshbud, too?”

Kakyoin cringes, shoulders hiking up, Hierophant curling around his arms soothingly. He doesn't deny the accusation.

Okuyasu drops to his knees, looking up at Kakyoin earnestly, like he was praying to a god for answers, and it makes Kakyoin’s chest seize. “How- how did you become normal again? Is it because you had a stand before the fleshbud turned against you? Ho-”

“Oh,” Kakyoin can’t help that his face falls, brows furrowing upward as he stares at the desperate teenager in front of him. “Okuyasu- I-”

Kakyoin swallows, before he slowly slides himself out of his wheelchair, onto the floor with Okuyasu.

“The- mine got removed before it could turn on me,” Kakyoin murmurs. “I don’t...I never...I’m sorry.”

“Oh,” Okuyasu echoes, his own face falling. “Oh.”

Kakyoin frowns, reaching out a hand. “Okuya-”

“It’s fine,” Okuyasu says, ducking his head -- but not fast enough for Kakyoin not to see the shine of tears. “I just- for a second- it’s fine. I’m not very smart, I probably just misunderst-”

Kakyoin surprises them both by pulling him into a hug.

“No, you- I should’ve been- I didn’t-” Kakyoin sighs, just squeezing his arms around Okuyasu. Okuyasu hesitantly reaches up to hug him back, and Kakyoin closes his eyes, breathing heavily.

“No. I didn’t-” Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle bitterly, biting back comments that want to drip from his lips like poisoned spit. “The only reason I’m not- not like-” Kakyoin swallows back a rush of panic, absent-mindedly fisting handfuls of Okuyasu’s uniform, “like- your father is because…” Ghost traces of fingers against his temples, palms cupping his cheeks, haunt Kakyoin’s senses, and he screws up his face in a grimace. “Someone- someone helped me. Someone had to pull it out for me.”

Kakyoin just shakes his head. Okuyasu doesn’t press him.

The floorboards creak then, and Kakyoin opens his eyes. Josuke is kneeling down with them now, Koichi hesitantly following. Kakyoin raises a brow, but Josuke just crawls forward, gently tapping at Okuyasu.

Okuyasu swallows before letting go of Kakyoin, prompting Kakyoin to drop his own arms. Josuke looks at his friend calculatingly, eyes darting across his face, brows furrowed in concern.

Okuyasu just shakes his head, and Josuke takes his hand again.

Kakyoin sighs, scooting back, jumping slightly when his back bumps against the railing of the second floor. He takes it, though, his spine demanding respite for having to keep him balanced, and he leans against it, sighing.

Okuyasu fidgets on his space on the floor, and Koichi crawls to his other side, patting his knee, looking up at his friend in concern. Okuyasu takes a shuddering breath.

“But-” Okuyasu grits his teeth, his voice coming out shaky, and Kakyoin frowns. Okuyasu shakes his head, looking up at Kakyoin, no longer trying to hide the shine of tears in his eyes. “But- my brother, he tried pulling the fleshbud out once, but it- it attacked him for it, so how did- how-”

Kakyoin closes his eyes, letting his head fall back and thunk against the wood. Okuyasu cuts himself off, breathing shallowly.

“It was Kujo,” Kakyoin says quietly. “Star Platinum is a precision stand. Kujo used Star Platinum to pull the fleshbud out of me.”

“Oh,” Okuyasu says, quietly. He hesitates, before uttering, “So...so it- was there nothing we could do? My brother and me?”

Kakyoin opens his eyes again, gazing at Okuyasu. He’s staring intently at Kakyoin, brows furrowed, eyes wide. Kakyoin isn’t sure what he hopes his answer will be. He swallows.

“...Probably not,” The words tumble out of Kakyoin’s mouth without his express permission, and Kakyoin almost winces at his lack of tact when Okuyasu’s shoulders drop, but he follows up with another question before Kakyoin can.

“So it- it wasn’t my- it wasn’t Keicho’s or my fault?”

Kakyoin’s own brows furrow then, something in his chest cementing in place. “No. Of course not.”

Okuyasu takes a deep breath, and Josuke squeezes his hand. Okuyasu turns and rests his head against Josuke’s shoulder. “I just-” Okuyasu elaborates, swallowing thickly, “Keicho always said- if I had just done something besides cry when dad was- was transforming, then-”

“Okuyasu, it was absolutely not your fault. If-” Kakyoin cuts himself off, roughly shaking his head to ease away the flash of anger directed at Okuyasu’s brother. “Your dad was vulnerable,” he murmurs. “It was DIO’s fault, but your dad was vulnerable to his advances. Just like…” Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut again, hands curling into fists. “Just like I was as a kid. DIO took advantage of that...”

Kakyoin smirks bitterly, an unknown pressure pushing against his chest from the inside out. “He made it so easy to mistake his thoughts for your own.”

“Oh,” Koichi vocalizes then, and Kakyoin drags his gaze to the boy. Koichi meets his eyes unflinchingly, staring intently. “Is- is that why your stand was so nervous? When Echoes showed off its suggestion ability?”

Kakyoin’s face screws up in a grimace, and he looks down.”Look, you don’t need to psychoanalyze me, I’m fine-”

“But you’re not fine,” Josuke interjects, lip curling into a snarl. Kakyoin blinks, stunned. “Why do you keep underestimating us? Haven’t we proven ourselves reliable to you by now?”

Kakyoin blinks again, opening and closing his mouth before spitting out, “W-what?”

Josuke’s face pinches, concern and irritation dancing across his face with the tightening of his features. “I know no one likes talking about shit like this, but we can take it, okay? You don’t need to keep trying to- to censor everything from us, to make everything kid-friendly,” Josuke spits.

Kakyoin just stares before his brows furrow. “Josuke, I never-”

“Bullshit!” Josuke snaps. “You don’t want us in on stand fights, you don’t want us searching for information, and now you won’t talk to us-”

“I,” Kakyoin cuts in, voice dangerously low, “simply don’t want you making the same mistakes I did when I was 17.”

Josuke blinks, brows relaxing from their downward furrow just the tiniest bit. “What- what does that have to do with-?”

“Josuke, I wouldn’t train you at all if I thought you were unreliable -- that goes for all of you,” Kakyoin says, staring at each of his charges intently. Okuyasu can’t quite meet his gaze, but Koichi stares wide-eyed. “The reason I don’t want you throwing yourself into danger is because…”

Kakyoin sighs, closing his eyes, gesturing from the scars on his face from the fleshbud and N’Doul, all the way down to his legs. “It’s not because I think you’re incompetent, but because even with competence, there’s danger you can’t imagine out there, and I don’t want it ruining your life so soon.” Kakyoin bites his tongue for a second, before adding on quietly, “Not like it ruined me. Not like it ruined Mr. Nijimura.”

Kakyoin opens his eyes again, eyeing the trio in front of him. “But at least I got to learn. I got a second chance. And so I’m…” Kakyoin takes another breath. “I’m trying to help you three to learn as well, without having to take the same risks I did.” Without making the same mistakes I did.

“Oh,” Josuke breathes, face dropping. “I- I’m sorry.”

Kakyoin shakes his head, sighing. “No, don’t. I would’ve felt the same if I were in your shoes.” Kakyoin huffs, blowing a strand of hair away from his face. “It’s just- there’s no reason a standuser kid should ever be in the same position I was. That’s all.”

Josuke swallows thickly, lips pressed into a line. “That may be true…but you can still trust us, Mr. Kakyoin,” he protests quietly. “Just knowing things won’t put us in danger. We can handle it.”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “Just because you can handle it doesn’t mean you should.”

Josuke frowns deep enough for creases to form on the corners of his mouth, but he says nothing more and instead scoots forward. Kakyoin raises a brow at him, but it doesn’t stop Josuke from settling next to his side, leaning against Kakyoin gingerly.

Kakyoin snorts at him, but he lifts an arm, and Josuke ducks under it easily. Okuyasu follows easily after Josuke, heading to Kakyoin’s other side.

Koichi fidgets on his side of the hallway for a moment before Kakyoin sighs.

“Koichi,” Kakyoin calls, “Come on.”

With permission explicitly granted, Koichi follows suit, settling next to Okuyasu’s side.

Kakyoin sighs, leaning his head against the second-floor railing of the filthy house, squeezing the teenagers wrapped around him. It’s as comforting for me as it is for them. He purses his lips at the thought.

It’s quiet for several moments, the only sound being the occasional creak of the wood. Kakyoin closes his eyes.

“...Sorry,” He eventually murmurs, “for freaking out like that in front of you all.”

Koichi, Okuyasu, and Josuke all hum in varying tones. “You don’t need to apologize Mr. Kakyoin,” Okuyasu replies. “I think…anyone would react the same way, if they were in your shoes.”

Kakyoin huffs out a small, half-hearted laugh. “Maybe.”

“We’ll be okay,” Josuke pipes up, and Kakyoin smiles then, small, but there.

“Of course, kid.” I’ll make sure of it.

Chapter 14

Notes:

hey all i hope u enjoy this chapter
idk when the next one will be out but hopefully...soon! hehe
I meant for this to be out sooner so i could get started on ch 15 sooner but the equivalent of a 8.0 magnitude earthquake happened in my personal life so i ended up spending most of my winter break dealing with that instead of writing
but do not be fooled i will absolutely keep chugging away despite being back in school again...I'm too invested in my own fic to stop
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Kakyoin awakens to a knock at his door.

At first, he isn’t sure if he dreamed it or not, eyes squinting open as warm yellow light streams in through his window. Hierophant slowly unravels from where it was strung about the room, returning to Kakyoin, gently passing him his glasses from the nightstand as he does.

“Thanks,” Kakyoin murmurs, slowly sitting up so as not to anger his spine, his hair falling in rivets around his head.

Another knock comes, and Kakyoin jumps, blinking, before he frowns. Who could that be? I haven’t told Josuke and co what room I’m staying in…

Kakyoin hums, slowly sliding out of bed and into his wheelchair, adjusting his seating. Then again, the desk attendant might be able to just give that information out… Kakyoin hums. Should probably tell them I don’t want them to be so flippant…

Another knock, this one harsher against the wood, sounding out clearer in the room. Kakyoin rolls his eyes before heading to the door.

“Yeah, yeah, what is it-”

Kakyoin opens the door to see Jotaro standing on the other side.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says, voice deep but tone smooth, staring down at him. “C-”

Kakyoin slams the door in his face, wheeling around to head back to his bed.

Jotaro just knocks again, a muffled, exasperated groan of “Kakyoin” echoing from the door, and Kakyoin clenches his teeth, turning back around and whipping the door open again.

“What the hell do you want?” Kakyoin snarls. Jotaro doesn’t even flinch, staring down at Kakyoin with a bored gaze, expression flat and void.

“Kakyoin,” He greets again, and Kakyoin grits his teeth, shoulders tensing as the syllables of his own name rock against his skull. “Can you come with me?”

Kakyoin blinks, the roar of the fire steadily burning in his gut suddenly muted. “What?”

Jotaro remains calm as ever, and it pisses Kakyoin off, fingers twitching, dying to curl around the fabric of his coat as he throttles him. “Can you come wi-”

“Where? Actually, better question, why?”

Jotaro swallows, glancing around Kakyoin’s room before his gaze returns to his face. “I can explain when we get there.”

Kakyoin can’t help but bark out a laugh, the sound coming right from his chest, passionate and mean. “Yeah, that’s not good enough, Kujo. I’m not some dog that comes trotting along at your comma-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro sighs exasperatedly, an edge to his voice, and Kakyoin’s vision fades to red, “This isn’t about you. Can you just c-”

“Who the hell do you think you are, telling me what to do?” Kakyoin snarls, rolling forward suddenly. His front wheel jams into Jotaro’s foot, and while it was accidental, Kakyoin can’t help the cruel satisfaction, hot and tight in his chest, he feels over it.

Jotaro doesn’t vocalize, simply flinches as he jerks his foot away and backs off from the advancing Kakyoin. “I’m jus-”

“You don’t get to order me anywhere,” Kakyoin spits, and Jotaro grits his teeth, glaring at Kakyoin from under his hat.

“Would you just fucking listen to me for once?” Jotaro snaps. “This isn’t about you or me, it’s about-” Jotaro freezes abruptly, eyes darting about, and Kakyoin blinks, hair rising on the back of his neck.

“What? What is it?” Kakyoin asks, rolling forward again, this time to accommodate whispering rather than to roll over Jotaro’s foot.

“We can’t talk here,” Jotaro murmurs, gaze returning to Kakyoin’s face once again. “Will you come with me to where we can?”

Kakyoin swallows, eyes darting across Jotaro’s face, over his thick brows and square jaw and blue – always so blue, even under the shadow of his hat – eyes.

“Okay,” Kakyoin breathes, giving in, and Jotaro’s shoulders slump just the slightest bit.

“Okay,” Jotaro echoes, before blinking when Kakyoin turns around, heading back to his room. “Uh…Kakyoin-”

“You woke me,” Kakyoin explains, glancing at Jotaro flatly. “I need to get dressed. I’ll just be a second.”

Jotaro blinks before ducking his head, a hand coming up to tug the brim of his hat down. “Oh.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, gnawing at the inside of his cheek. Dumbass…

He sighs, shaking his head as Hierophant spreads about the room, grabbing Kakyoin’s shoes, scarf, cardigan, and hair tie. Whatever. Let’s just get this over with.


They eventually come to a stop out in the field near where Kakyoin trains Josuke, Okuyasu, and Koichi, and it makes him distantly wonder if maybe Jotaro is intending to talk to him about that.

But Jotaro says nothing; just leads the way, occasionally glancing back at Kakyoin. It makes Kakyoin scowl each time he catches it.

When Kakyoin had rolled out the door of his room, dressed and ready to go, Jotaro had started reaching for the handlebars of Kakyoin’s wheelchair. Kakyoin had jerked away from the attempt, before hissing to Jotaro in no uncertain terms that if he dared to try and touch Kakyoin’s wheelchair again, he was going to slice his legs off and make him need one himself.

Since then, Jotaro has not gone to touch the chair, much to Kakyoin’s pleasure; but he keeps glancing back at him as if expecting him to have fallen behind, much to Kakyoin’s disdain.

Kakyoin sighs, shaking his head. “You secure enough to tell me why you dragged me out here yet?”

Jotaro glances back at him but says nothing. Kakyoin scowls.

“Would it kill you to be transparent with me-”

“Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin snaps his jaw shut, jerking his head past Jotaro’s imposing figure.

There, at the crest of a small rise in the field, are Josuke, Okuyasu, and Koichi gathered in a small circle. Okuyasu is leaning against a blue motorbike at the base of the mound, hands in his pockets, but he straightens when he catches sight of Kakyoin.

Josuke was the one who has called, looking down at Jotaro and Kakyoin as they approach. Kakyoin blinks before wheeling past Jotaro, heading up the small mound.

“Josuke? What are you all doing here? Kakyoin asks as he makes it to the top.

“We could ask you the same thing,” Josuke says, nodding at Kakyoin in greeting. “Mr. Jotaro called and asked me to bring Okuyasu and Koichi, but I had no idea he was bringing you, too.”

Kakyoin blinks before he turns back to Jotaro with narrowed eyes. Jotaro has also now made it to the top of the small mound, and he meets Kakyoin’s gaze evenly, with a stern, serious expression. Kakyoin avoids the urge to roll his eyes, instead gritting his teeth.

“Why are you dragging the kids into whatever this is?” Kakyoin hisses, and Josuke scowls while Jotaro just shakes his head.

“‘This’ isn’t anything,” Jotaro answers, “I’m just delivering some news.”

“And you had to drag everyone out here for that because?” Kakyoin snarks, rolling his eyes. Jotaro’s face pinches, mouth tightening in a small frown.

“Because it’s about the search for Red Hot Chili Pepper; we needed to get away from electricity.”

Kakyoin blinks, before the heat of embarrassment floods through his chest, racing up his neck to his face. “Oh. Right.”

Okuyasu’s face pinches at the mention of his brother’s killer, hands clenching into fists. Kakyoin eyes this, frowning. Josuke places a hand on his friend’s shoulder before turning back to Jotaro.

“Uh, so…Mr. Jotaro?”

Jotaro sighs, shaking his head and pulling his hat over his eyes. “Good grief…” He mutters, and Kakyoin turns narrowed eyes to him. “Why don’t you start, Josuke?” Jotaro says, louder.

…Huh?

Kakyoin turns to Josuke then, as do Okuyasu and Koichi. Josuke blinks, before nodding.

“Right, um- Red Hot Chili Pepper attacked me last night-”

“What?!” Kakyoin and Okuyasu cry at the same time, Koichi stiffening as he looks Josuke up and down for any previously unnoticed injuries.

“It- it’s fine- he was just…testing me out, I guess.” Josuke’s face curves into a sneer, then. “He was just using me as a measurement for how much he’s grown, to see if he could take on Mr. Jotaro or Mr. Kakyoin yet.”

Kakyoin blinks. “He did what?” He shakes his head, rolling forward. “Are you okay?”

Josuke nods, shoulders slightly dropping from their tensed state. “Yeah, I’m okay.”

“Great,” Kakyoin says, his tone switching to something a little sharper, “I’m glad. Why didn’t you tell me, then?”

Josuke blinks, stiffening again, gaze darting behind Kakyoin – to Jotaro, Kakyoin notes.

Kakyoin’s eye twitches and he wheels right back around to Jotaro, teeth already bared. “Kujo-”

“I told him not to tell anyone,” Jotaro says, voice even despite Kakyoin glaring daggers at him, “for the same reason I had us all meet out here. Red Hot Chili Pepper can’t know what we know. It was already dangerous enough for Josuke to have called me.”

Fury broils in Kakyoin’s chest as he stares up heatedly at Jotaro from beneath his glare. “Are you- you seriously told a teenager to keep quiet about being attacked? Did you forget he can’t heal himself? Huh?”

Jotaro frowns sharps, opening his mouth to respond, when Okuyasu snarls suddenly, kicking the ground at his feet. Grass is ripped up from the earth, floating back down gently, contrasting to how violently they were thrown up.

“Okuyasu?” Koichi questions, turning to his friend in concern. Okuyasu just grits his teeth, shoving his balled hands into his pockets.

“I cannot believe that bastard,” Okuyaus spits. “Attacking Josuke…and I didn’t even know until now.”

Guilt flashes across Josuke’s face, brows furrowing upward. “Okuyasu, I-”

“I understand feeling uneasy over not knowing,” Jotaro cuts in, and Kakyoin just rolls his eyes – Sure you do, you nosy, arrogant- – “but it was my call; I’d prefer anger to Red Hot Chili Pepper doing to any of you what he did to your brother, Okuyasu. Blame me if you need to.”

Kakyoin blinks. …Accountability? From Kujo?

Okuyasu just shakes his head.

“No, Mr. Jotaro. I understand your reasoning.” Okuyasu barks out a laugh, but it's completely humorless. Kakyoin wonders if he’s rubbed off on him. “I just…” Okuyasu clenches his jaw again, shoulders tensing even more, hiking up his neck, “I’m so sick of this bastard. I want him dead.”

Jotaro’s face relaxes just a bit, brows softening. “I know. But that’s why we’re here.”

Kakyoin whips his head back to him. “Wh- do you- did you figure out his identity?”

Jotaro sighs, once more hiding behind the brim of his hat. “No. But…”

Jotaro swallows thickly, glancing up to meet Kakyoin’s gaze, before jerking over to the forms of Josuke, Okuyasu, and Koichi.

“Someone who can figure it out is on his way. He’ll be arriving soon – noon today, actually.”

Okuyasu blinks, eyes widening. “Wh- who? Who is it? Is it a standuser?”

Jotaro sighs, shaking his head, mouthing tightening into a thin line. Kakyoin narrows his eyes at this.

“Yes,” Jotaro confirms, glancing at Kakyoin. “His stand’s name is Hermit Purple.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Joseph?!”

Josuke jerks as if physically struck, pompadour bouncing as his jaw drops open. “My dad?!”

Jotaro just sighs. “I didn’t want him to come…he’s too old-”

“Why didn’t he tell me he was coming?” Kakyoin cuts in, glaring up at Jotaro with wide eyes. “Did you tell him not to talk to me too?”

Jotaro pauses a touch too long. Something explodes in Kakyoin’s chest, a barrel of gasoline shooting outward.

“Are you fucking seri-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro snaps, turning tired eyes his way. Kakyoin snarls, but the shock over Jotaro finally, finally snapping back at him keeps him from saying anything. “Yes, I told him not to tell you, for the same reason I told Josuke not to tell you about the fight – because Red Hot Chili Pepper could be monitoring the call. He can’t know Joseph’s comi-”

“Then how the hell did you know, huh? Are you so sure about this damn rule or is it just because it’s me-”

I know because I talked to Speedwagon Foundation agents out near the beach for weeks to schedule it,” Jotaro barks, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth, teeth grinding together harshly, his jaw aching. “It’s not about you or me, I already told you thi-”

“Oh, please, as if it’s not about you withholding knowledge I have a right to know again! Is this amusing to you, you sic-”

“Um,” Josuke roughly clears his throat, and embarrassment spreads throughout Kakyoin like a soft drink exploding, carbonation rattling at his tissues. “Sorry, but can we get back to the topic at hand? If he’s coming at noon, we should get to the docks soon…”

Jotaro blinks before his shoulders slump a bit in relief. “Yes. Right.” Kakyoin growls at him, something primal and rough ripping from his throat unevenly, making Jotaro dart his gaze his way.

“This conversation is not done,” Kakyoin seethes, before he turns his back to him, rolling to settle near Okuyasu.

Josuke glances at Kakyoin with a furrowed brow, concerned, but Kakyoin just ducks under the gaze.

“...Right,” Jotaro echoes again, voice fainter than the snarl it had been, before he shakes his head and turns to Josuke.

“I’ve gathered everyone because we need to protect the old man while he’s here.” Jotaro hesitates, looking down, face pinching. “He’s…not what he used to be. He wouldn’t be able to hold himself in a fight if Red Hot Chili Pepper got to him.”

Kakyoin can’t help but roll his eyes at Jotaro’s words, even if he did agree. Where does he get off determining who can and can’t fight?

“How old is he?” Koichi questions and Jotaro sighs again.

“79.”

“79?!” Koichi, Josuke, and Okuyasu echo, and part of Kakyoin’s mood does lift at the shock in their voices, snickering lightly into his palm.

“Um- are we sure he can help us?” Josuke asks, and Jotaro shrugs, muttering.

“Good grief… He…insisted, when he found out about the stand arrow. Travel across the ocean is hard for a man his age, but he didn’t care.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes again. “Hard doesn’t mean impossible, Kujo, so maybe stop underestimating him.”

Jotaro frowns, but when he opens his mouth to respond, the motorbike at the base of the hill kicks out smoke from its exhaust pipe, engine whirring to life. It almost sounds like the growl Kakyoin had let out earlier…

Kakyoin’s blood runs cold. “Um- is that thing battery-run or-”

Kakyoin doesn’t need to wait for an answer. Sparks shoot out, lines of electricity arcing and banding together, until a short, yellow, humanoid figure with a beak and tail appears on the bike with a smug smile.

“You idiots,” coos a voice Kakyoin has only heard on the phone thus far, “thanks for giving me a heads up.”

“Red Hot Chili Pepper,” Okuyasu exclaims softly, and Kakyoin shoots a glance at him. He’s shaking, eyes wide in shock but brows starting to furrow in rage, fingers curling, but not balling into outright fists. Kakyoin’s own brow furrows even as panic shoots through his chest. He wheels forward, putting himself between the bike and the boys, shoving Koichi behind him as he does.

“How!?” Koichi yelps as he’s moved, “How did-”

“The battery,” Jotaro thinks aloud, voice heightening in panic, “he must have snuck inside the battery while the bike was charging,”

“How did he know to do that thou-?!” Kakyoin cries frustratedly before Red Hot Chili Pepper interrupts.

“The harbor at noon, right? Man, I got super lucky with how much you flapped your gums about!” Red Hot Chili Pepper cackles as he revs the engine of the bike. “I’ll kill him when he arrives!”

And with that, Red Hot Chili Pepper shoots off like a bullet, the bike’s engine roaring as it speeds away.

“Hurry!” Jotaro barks as he begins taking off after the bike, “he’ll reach the docks before us at this rate!”

“That son of a bitch!” Okuyasu snarls, and Kakyoin just barely bites back a yelp as Okuyasu surges forward, jostling his wheelchair as he does so.

“Okuyasu-!”

Okuyasu doesn’t reply, just widens his stance as he summons his stand. “I’ll kill him before he can kill anyone else, dammit!”

Kakyoin is only just able to graze his fingertips along Okuyasu’s uniform before The Hand arcs its palm downward, erasing a chunk of space between Okuyasu and Red Hot Chili Pepper, shooting him forward across the grassland.

“Shit!” Kakyoin curses, Hierophant erupting as a series of tentacles around him, hefting him up off the ground. “Okuaysu! Stop! You’re going to hurt yourself!”

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Koichi yelps, but Kakyoin just snarls, shaking his head as Hierophant begins marching forward, the long tentacles being able to take long, steady strides.

“Just- just- follow Kujo!” Kakyoin shouts back before chasing after Okuyasu, Hierophant’s tentacles acting like long horse legs to catch up to the pair.

They easily overtake Jotaro’s sprinting, and Kakyoin only meets Jotaro’s wide gaze for a moment. He feels a minor flash of pride over the shock on Jotaro’s face, but it’s a spark buried in the icy water of panic that makes up his chest.

Okuyasu…please don’t hurt yourself over a grudge!

Okuyasu lands on the back of the bike’s seat, Red Hot Chili Pepper whipping his head back to stare at him. Kakyoin grits his teeth and wills Hierophant to move faster, dammit, Okuyasu-!

“Smart!” Kakyoin can hear Red Hot Chili Pepper snark as he gets closer, the stand easing on the accelerator as he turns his attention to Okuyasu. “I’ve got to hand it to you, haha! Maybe your brother was wrong about you being a dunce!”

Okuyasu snarls, the sound animalistic and coming right from his throat, echoing along Kakyoin’s bones. “Shut the hell up!” he seethes, The Hand raising its arm again before arcing sharply downward.

However, Red Hot Chili Pepper easily moves out of the way, cackling as he does. Kakyoin grits his teeth even tighter, his jaw aching, the bones letting out a soft click of protest. “Nice try! But you’re too slow, ‘Yasu,” He chides, like Okuyasu was his own little brother, and Kakyoin can see Okuyasu’s shoulders rear up at the nickname.

Okuyas-!!” Kakyoin cuts himself off, however, when the bike suddenly spins out and crashes, the thick, burning scent of gasoline filling the air.

“I wasn’t aiming for you, asshole!!” Okuyasu growls, rolling out the momentum of the bike with his stand, Kakyoin almost caught up at this point. “I was aiming for the damn bike. Now you have nowhere to run,” Okuyasu spits.

Kakyoin blinks, pride snapping hot and fluid in his chest, releasing his heart from the chains of the intense dread just moments before.

Red Hot Chili Pepper is not as lucky with the landing, forced to go flying with the only source of electricity in the area, skidding along the ground, ripping up grass and dirt. “Shit! Shit!”

“No more running away,” Okuyasu snarls. “How far can you stray from the bike’s battery? It was suicide for you to have come out here with no escape route!”

Hierophant takes one more stride forward before dropping Kakyoin down next to Okuyasu, Kakyoin grimacing down at Red Hot Chili Pepper.

Kakyoin drags his gaze over to Okuyasu, however, eyes relaxing from their narrowed state. “Good job, Okuyasu,” Kakyoin says, and Okuyasu jerks, head whipping up, as if not realizing Kakyoin was chasing after them. Kakyoin smothers a snort with a cough.

“This was smart of you,” Kakyoin clarifies. Okuyasu just shrugs, not otherwise responding to the praise, whichs makes Kakyoin frowns. Before he can address it, Okuyasu turns back to Red Hot Chili Pepper.

Red Hot Chili Pepper glowers up at Okuyasu with narrowed eyes. Kakyoin’s frown sharpens, and he rolls forward a little more, just a touch between Okuyasu and the stand.

“Is this to avenge Keicho?” Red Hot Chili Pepper spits and Kakyoin reflexively puts out an arm to stop Okuyasu from charging – but it’s not needed. Okuyasu stays stony-faced, glaring down at Red Hot Chili Pepper with wide eyes, the sun behind him, masking his face in a shadow. The Hand anchors down next to its user, staring, as cold as the metal of its armor.

“No,” Okuyasu says lowly, voice even, if gruff. Kakyoin glances back at him. “I always knew that the arrow business would get him killed. You don’t play with people’s lives like that without your own joining the game.”

Okuyasu’s fingers curl into fists, shaking with the tension before he lets them drop, too slow to be genuine relaxation. “Karma’s a bitch like that, y’see?”

The threat behind Okuyasu’s words is clear, and Red Hot Chili Pepper hunches a little lower, glare sharpening. If he was a real bird, Kakyoin’s sure he would’ve tried to peck Okuyasu by now.

“Tell me your name,” Okuyasu bargains, “and where you live, and maybe I won’t kill you.”

Red Hot Chili Pepper’s glare shifts to more of a grimace, brows furrowing up the slightest bit, mouth curling down at the edges. “Really, now? You’ll spare me, even when I killed your brother?”

“I said maybe,” Okuyasu snaps, and Kakyoin bites his tongue, Hierophant curling anxiously in his chest. He rolls forward some more, further jutting himself between the two.

Red Hot Chili Pepper waves a hand, shaking his head. “No, I didn’t mean to insult your offer. I just didn’t expect such cool-headedness from you,”

Okuyasu’s eyes narrow at the double-handed compliment, but before he can say anything, Kakyoin snarls, rolling forward even more.

“Oh, shut up,” Kakyoin snarks, “like you get to talk to anyone about cool-headedness. You’re supposedly a grown adult, yet you’re attacking teenagers to ‘test your strength’; are you sure you’re not a middle schooler-”

“Shut the fuck up!” Red Hot Chili Pepper snarls, sparks fizzing off his form, and Kakyoin can’t help but smirk over getting under his skin, satisfaction thrumming high in his chest.

Kakyoin jumps when Okuyasu places a hand on his shoulder. “It’s fine,” He murmurs. Kakyoin sets his jaw stiffly, grinding his teeth together.

Dropping his hand, Okuyasu turns his gaze back to Red Hot Chili Pepper, nose crinkling with fury. “Don’t get me wrong; I want nothing more than to just erase you, here and now,” he snarls lowly, like the growl of a bear. “But-”

“Ha!” Red Hot Chili Pepper scoffs, “I thought so. But you’re too slow to erase me, even like this!” The stand shrugs, shaking his head. “Honestly, this is more boring than nervewracking. At least when I killed Keicho, my heart was pounding!”

“You bitch-!” Okuyasu spits, but Kakyoin dives forward, making Okuyasu stumble right into his wheelchair, Hierophant whipping out and wrapping around Okuyasu’s waist to keep him from moving further.

“Okuyasu, don’t,” Kakyoin hisses, “he’s trying to get under your skin. Don’t let him.”

Okuyasu blinks, slowly relaxing in Hierophant’s hold, while Red Hot Chili Pepper tsks, making Kakyoin drag his narrowed gaze toward him.

“No sense of fun, Mr. Kakyoin,” The stand sighs, “you really are a stick in the mud. But at least you’re close enough if you won’t let Okuyasu be,”

Kakyoin blinks. “Wha-”

Red Hot Chili Pepper launches forward, and Kakyoin only has time to command Hierophant to let go of Okuyasu now now NOW before the stand makes contact, reaching out to grip Kakyoin by the ribs.

Kakyoin’s spine only just begins to complain when his entire nervous system lights up, burning, like he had just caught fire from the inside out, flames billowing and brushing against his skin, his lungs, his spine, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, he has metal in his spine and he is being electrocuted-

The sensation is stopped just as abruptly as it begins, and Kakyoin falls, muscles twitching, unable to control himself as he slips out of his wheelchair, vision blinking in and out like a shitty light as his glasses fall away from his face.

Past the ringing in his ears, Kakyoin can hear a distant, high, panicked shriek of “KAKYOIN!!” and he dazedly wonders, When did the kids forgo the ‘Mister’?

Everything falls to static, then, and Kakyoin can’t hear or see or smell anything, just feel the faint pressure of the ground against his side as he lies, twitching, and the pins and needles going up and down his limbs. He isn’t sure if he passes out completely or not, but he floats in limbo regardless, aftershocks zipping through his system, getting excited where the metal in his spine is, causing pain to burst like multiple, localized explosions from the spot.

When Kakyoin’s hearing fades back in, he can make out repeated stomping, the vibrations echoing throughout the ground. That must be what woke me up…

Kakyoin coughs, something the muscles in his chest greatly disapprove of, pain whipping back along the fibers, and Kakyoin curls inward, clenching a fistful of grass, teeth gritting.

“BASTARD! Not so fast now, are you?” He can hear Okuyaus snarl, and Kakyoin snaps his eyes open, only for the light of the world to rush in, searing his retinas like the electricity seared his spine, and he closes his eyes again, teeth grinding together. Shit. Shit. What is Okuyasu doing?

He snaps his eyes open again, only to see Red Hot Chili Pepper, its color faded to a yellowish, rusty brown, a handful of meters away from Kakyoin. He’s been cornered away from the motorbike while Kakyoin had blacked out, The Hand flexing its right hand menacingly, Okuyasu snarling down at the stand.

Kakyoin blinks, brows furrowing. Oh…is Okuyasu winning?

He slowly shifts to sit up, gritting his teeth as his spine shrieks at him for it. Fuck , that was going to hurt tomorrow. And the day after.

“Okuyasu!” Kakyoin can hear, and he sloppily whips his head over his shoulder to see Jotaro, Josuke, and Koichi only twenty or so meters away, the distance ever decreasing with their sprinting. “Don’t finish him off yet! Wait until we get there!”

Kakyoin blinks, brows furrowing. Why wait? Why…

Kakyoin’s eyes slide down to the ground, only to see the marks in the earth The Hand erased, and he’s reminded of electricity grids. Oh, shit-

“Ok-” Kakyoin’s voice cracks, his throat dry after the electrocution, and he winces, bringing a hand up to his neck. Okuyasu and Red Hot Chili Pepper snap both their gazes to him. Kakyoin swallows, glowering, as he grips fistfuls of grass and pulls himself to his knees. Ow, ow, ow, ow-

Red Hot Chili Pepper laughs then, whipping its head to Okuyasu. “Are you sure you wanna wait? I only need one more hit to finish off Mr. Kakyoin,” He snarks, and Kakyoin tries to laugh, because honestly, how pathetic is it to refuse to admit defeat, but it comes out as more of a wheeze, and Okuyasu’s eyes widen in panic. Oh, shit, shit, shit, I am not going to be used as a bargaining chip, fuck you-

“Okuyasu!!” Josuke yells desperately, “You need to wait! We need to get him to tell us where the stand arrow is-!”

Josuke’s too far, though, his voice only a suggestion against Red Hot Chili Pepper’s threat. Kakyoin snarls, hefting himself up so he’s standing on his knees. “Okuyasu, don’t-”

“Just one more hit and he’s dead like your brother!” Red Hot Chili Pepper snarks, “One more hit and he’s dead for trying to protect you, just like Keicho!”

As he says this, Red Hot Chili Pepper raises his hands as he turns to stare Kakyoin down again, as if aiming, even though Kakyoin knows he’s out of the stand’s reach – but Okuyasu lets out a roar as The Hand arcs down again, and Kakyoin can only gape, heart stuttering low in his chest, as Red Hot Chili Pepper only just dodges the attack, leaving the earth to open up and metal piping to be exposed. No, shit-

“HA!” Red Hot Chili Pepper more shrieks than laughs, pointing at Okuyasu as its yellow color fades back into its body, switching sources from the bike’s battery to the electricity grid that has now been exposed. “I really was weak, you know! The bike only had 12 volts, after all…”

Kakyoin blinks, and suddenly Red Hot Chili Pepper is in front of Okuyasu, smiling widely. “But now, I run on enough to power an entire city! All thanks to you!” Red Hot Chili Pepper rears its hand back then, clearly preparing to strike, and Kakyoin’s eyes widen. “It’s a good thing I spent so long memorizing Morioh’s electricity grid, and it’s a good thing you’re so stupid!”

Kakyoin jerks forward, rushing on his knees toward the pair despite the pain arcing up and down his back, making his shoulders twitch uncontrollably, gasping. “Oku- Okuyasu-!”

Red Hot Chili Pepper moves too fast for Kakyoin to see – all he knows is somehow, Red Hot Chili Pepper is suddenly behind Okuyasu, and Okuyasu is screaming, falling to his knees as blood gushes out of the stump where his hand used to be.

“OKUYASU!!” Kakyoin screams, distantly registering Koichi and Josuke screaming along with him, before Red Hot Chili Pepper grabs Okuyasu by the throat, sneering.

“Keicho said you were such a hindrance – he was right! You can’t do anything!” He says, before laughing as he glows brighter, the sound echoing in Kakyoin’s own skull.

Oh, I fucking hate overconfident yellow pricks-

“OKUYASU!” Kakyoin shrieks again before Hierophant bursts out of his chest, tentacles whipping forward and wrapping tightly around Okuyasu, snatching him away from Red Hot Chili Pepper’s grip and back towards safety, towards Kakyoin.

Red Hot Chili Pepper blinks, surprised, and Kakyoin just snarls, sending more tentacles after him.

“Not dealing with that!” Red Hot Chili Pepper declares, before winking at Kakyoin. “Don’t worry; I’ll just sate my bloodlust by killing Joseph Joestar instead! See ya!”

And with that, he darts down into the electricity grid, Hierophant’s tentacles only just missing him.

Kakyoin growls, muscles shuddering and twitching due to both rage and the still-lingering aftershocks, before he lets out a roar, Hierohpant’s tentacles furiously ripping at the grass in reflection of it.

“Dammit! Dammit!”

“OKUYASU!”

Koichi skids to a stop beside the pair, and Kakyoin considers only for a moment before he retracts the tentacles around Okuyasu, allowing Koichi to see his friend.

“I- I-” Koichi’s hands flutter, wanting to help his friend but not knowing how, when he catches glimpse of Okuyasu’s stump for the first time, blood and muscle and fat and bone exposed. “Shit!” He cries, face paling at the gore.

Josuke finally catches up then, immediately dropping to his knees to stop his momentum, staring with wide eyes at Okuyasu’s lack of a hand, pompadour bouncing.

Okuyasu lets Josuke take hold of his arm and jerk it forward while he stares down at the ground, and Kakyoin distantly thinks he must be in shock, he needs to go to the hospital, holy shit, he lost a hand, he-

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro’s voice abruptly sounds from beside Kakyion, his hands gently coming to rest at his shoulder and back, and Kakyoin twitches so violently away from Jotaro’s grasp his spine cracks.

“SHIT!” Kakyoin howls, pain flaring across his entire spinal column, fire and electricity and lava splashing, burning, spreading, a fever, a virus, his nerves were being eaten alive-

“Ka- Josuke!” Jotaro barks, “Heal him! Heal Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly just so he can properly glower at Jotaro, gripping fistfuls of grass even from his spot against the ground that he can’t get up from, it hurts so fucking bad, fuck-

“Are you SERIOUS, KUJO?!” Kakyoin roars, and Jotaro jerks his gaze to Kakyoin, eyes wide and confused, brows furrowed intensely, mouth in a tight frown.

“What the hell are you-”

“What the hell are you doing?!” Kakyoin seethes, shoulders so tense due to the pain he thinks his head will pop off, “Okuyasu’s the one who got his hand cut off! What the hell are you doing babying me?!”

“You- you-” Jotaro glares, teeth peeking out at Kakyoin from his snarl, and Kakyoin’s heart begins thudding, excitement and fury rushing through his veins, making it easier to ignore the absolute temper tantrum his spine was throwing on his nerves. “You got electrocuted, are you fucking with me? Are you seriously mad at me for- for being worried you got electro-”

“Yes!” Kakyoin snaps, chucking some of his ripped-up grass at Jotaro like a child, “because one of the kids under our watch got hurt! He’s of higher priority!”

Jotaro rolls his eyes viciously, advancing toward Kakyoin angrily, steps too fluid to be anything but calculated, and Kakyoin can’t help but feel like prey, scrambling up despite his spine shooting pain throughout his entire system like fireworks being set off all at once. “So what, am I just supposed to not care at all? Are you sure you wouldn’t get mad about that, either? Because it seems more like you get pissy about anything I do rather than-”

SHUT UP!” Josuke shouts, making Kakyoin and Jotaro freeze, “oh my god, shut up! Are you two serious?!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly, turning to face Josuke. He’s glowering at the pair, Crazy Diamond next to him with Okuyasu’s wrist clasped in its hands, a pink glow surrounding them. Oh, Kakyoin breathes out, his stomach abruptly feeling like soft skin again and not a knot of metal, that’s right. Crazy Diamond. He’ll be okay.

“Okuyasu just got his hand cut off, and you two are bitching at each other?!” Josuke snaps, glowing at Kakyoin and Jotaro from under his pompadour.

Kakyoin scowls, opening his mouth to retort, because it’s not bitching, he’s just as concerned about Okuyasu, obviously, it’s why he’s so angry with Jotaro, but Josuke just shakes his head, growling, before he turns his gaze back to Okuyasu for a moment, lingering, then getting up and heading toward Kakyoin.

Kakyoin blinks. “Uh-”

“Oh, shut up,” Josuke snaps, Crazy Diamond’s hands reaching for Kakyoin, and Kakyoin can’t help that he winces as they draw near, arms darting down toward his stomach.

Jotaro stiffens beside him and Josuke pauses, before dismissing Crazy Diamond, instead overlaying his stand’s hands on top of his own and reaching toward Kakyoin himself. He says nothing as he does this. Kakyoin keeps his mouth shut too, lips pressed into a thin line.

Josuke’s fingertips graze against Kakyoin’s chest, and suddenly warmth fills the cavity like he’d taken a shot of alcohol – but it was less burning, less sharp, more like a space heater had been placed inside of him. It spreads easily from his ribs to his spine, down to comfort the shortcircuited metal, and Kakyoin blinks, shoulders slumping unconsciously. Jotaro lets out a small breath beside him.

Josuke gnaws on his lip, before moving his hands away. Kakyoin lets out a sharp exhale, shaking his head as the warmth fades and the usual dull ache returns.

Josuke turns back to Okuyasu, trotting the few steps to return to his side. Koichi is talking quietly with him, but Kakyoin can’t hear what he’s saying; he just knows Okuyasu is still staring at the ground regardless, like he’s not hearing him, either.

When Josuke returns to his side, Okuyasu blinks, looking up at him. Josuke offers him a hand, but Okuyasu just drops his gaze, eyes straying over to Kakyoin.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” he croaks, “I’m so sorry.”

Kakyoin blinks. “W- for what?”

Okuyasu’s face pinches, gaze dropping from Kakyoin’s. “I- If I had just- used my head- you wouldn’t have- Red Hot Chili Pepper wouldn’t ha-”

“Hey,” Kakyoin cuts off, gingerly sitting up to move forward. When his spine doesn’t scream at the motion, he continues forward until he’s close enough to pat Okuyasu’s shoulder. “Hey,” he repeats, “none of that. It’s not your fault that Red Hot Chili Pepper’s a crazy bastard.”

Okuyasu shakes his head, brows furrowed in desperation. “No- I could’ve- you were telling me exactly what I had to do and I still didn’t liste-”

“Because you’re a good kid,” Kakyoin interjects, “he was using that against you.” Kakyoin pauses, before he sneers, nose crinkling in fury. “He used me against you. He’s not going to live long enough to regret it, I can promise you that.”

Okuyasu blinks before his gaze lowers. Josuke and Koichi exchange glances before Koichi stands back up.

“Come on, Okuyasu,” Koichi murmurs then, offering Okuyasu his hand, “just like I told you: we’ll be able to fight with clearer heads if we focus on protecting Mr. Joestar, rather than things like revenge or winning.”

Okuyasu’s brows furrow as he stares at Koichi’s hand, before his face smooths out, and, eyes lowered, takes it and stands back up. Kakyoin sighs, calling Hierophant to go and grab his wheelchair, wherever it ended up…

“Fight to protect something, huh?” Jotaro mutters then, and Kakyoin's eyes narrow reflexively, turning to snap something, but Josuke glares viciously at him and Kakyoin pauses, tongue stilling.

Jotaro turns to address the group, face grim, shadows around the corners of his mouth. “We need to get to the old man’s boat before Red Hot Chili Pepper does.”

Josuke blinks, before he nods, face hardening. “We’re close enough to the harbor; if Red Hot Chili Pepper is traveling through the electricity grid, he’ll have to take the long way. We can still get there in time.”

Jotaro nods, gesturing towards him. “Lead the way, then.”

Josuke swallows thickly, glancing back at Okuyasu. Okuyasu doesn’t meet his gaze, still staring down at the ground like the blades of grass are the most beautiful things he’s seen – or maybe the worst, considering his tight expression…

Hierophant gently lifts Kakyoin up, then, and Kakyoin lets himself hang like a ragdoll in his stand’s tentacles as they set him back down in his wheelchair. He winces as something pops in his spine, but it doesn’t crack and light up with pain like a glowstick this time, so Kakyoin will take it. Jotaro frowns at him and Kakyoin feels the urge to snap his teeth at him like a shark.

“It’s not enough to just be better than myself,” Okuyasu says suddenly. Kakyoin’s gaze snaps to him while Koichi looks up at his friend, brows furrowed. “I need to be better than Keicho, too.” He raises his gaze then, meeting Koichi’s eyes. “...You’re right, Koichi,” he says, “violence begets violence, right? So, I should make my motivation something that doesn’t focus on violence…right?”

Koichi smiles then, nodding. Kakyoin says nothing. Josuke stares at his friend as Okuyasu takes a deep, shuddering breath.

“Alright,” Okuyasu says before his face pulls back into a sneer. “Let’s go.”

Chapter 15

Notes:

hey all! i know i'm deviating from my usual "post on Thursday" schedule but i felt so bad about not posting all month so I'm just doing it now i hope you all enjoy

I'm officially a double major now, may very possibly be a triple major in the near future, so chapters during school times may be a bit slower, but during school breaks I should be able to chug out a lot (:

thank you all for the support, I'll do my best to make sure it's not in vain
i hope everyone enjoys the chapter!

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Chapter Text

The sun beats down harshly, heated rays cradling Kakyoin’s face like Jotaro did ten years ago, and he grimaces, ripping his scarf off and letting it rest in his lap.

“He’s on time,” Jotaro murmurs, blinking as Star Platinum’s eyes stop overlaying with his own, the narrowed, cat-like pupils of his stand relaxing back into his own, human ones. “He’ll be here in about twenty minutes in that case…”

“Is Mr. Joestar the only passenger?” Koichi pipes up, ripping his gaze from where it had been trained diligently on Okuyasu, who’s quietly helping Josuke search a motorboat to be sure Red Hot Chili Pepper isn’t hiding in its motor. The boy hasn’t said anything else since they headed for the docks, and Kakyoin frowns, something in his chest deflating and scrunching down into his gut uncomfortably.

“Yes,” Jotaro answers, voice faint with distraction as he stares at the sea. “The crew- he’s the only passenger. The only other people are the crew.”

Koichi hums. Kakyoin squints, narrowing his eyes at the salty waves lapping against the pillars of the dock. “...Red Hot Chili Pepper can only travel via electricity…”

Jotaro nods while Koichi blinks. “Yes. But I don’t think he’ll let the sea stop him. He must have some sort of plan to get there before we can.”

Kakyoin scowls, wheeling to face Jotaro, canines peeking out from his lips. “Yes, I know, that’s why I brought it up in the first place, genius. I was just trying to figure out what, exactly, his method of attack must be. Do you have any ideas or are you only capable of stating the obvio-”

Josuke huffs loudly, clearing his throat, before he wipes the side of his face, shaking his head. “Mr. Jotaro!” He calls. “The boat’s deserted”

Koichi darts wide eyes between Kakyoin and Jotaro for a moment before quietly excusing himself and getting out from the middle of them.

Jotaro doesn’t look at Kakyoin; he just drops his eyes to the docks, before turning to Josuke. “Thanks.”

It should be a victory, but it doesn’t feel like it. Kakyoin snarls at the wood under his feet and digs his fingers into his armrests. 

“Alright,” Josuke says, fixing the hood of the motorboat back into place. “Let’s get going, quick.”

Jotaro hums. “...Actually,”

Josuke blinks, looking up, as does Kakyoin, eyes narrowed. Jotaro takes a deep breath, his back still facing Kakyoin.

“Okuyasu and I should be the only ones to go on the boat.”

“What?!” Josuke and Kakyoin ask at the same time, Josuke’s tone high in confusion, Kakyoin’s tone low and seething.

“What?” Jotaro echoes, brows furrowing, and Kakyoin scoffs, clawing at his armrests like a cat.

“Why?” Kakyoin spits, but Jotaro stays looking at Josuke. “C-” 

“The standuser behind Red Hot Chili Pepper will be waiting around here somewhere, watching us,” Jotaro explains. Josuke’s brows furrow while his eyes widen, darting about the landscape, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth. “He doesn’t know which ship will be Joseph’s. He’s waiting for us to make it obvious for him.”

Jotaro shakes his head, turning to glance at Kakyoin from over his shoulder before darting his gaze back down again. “Okuyasu and I will protect Joseph. Koichi, Josuke, Kakyoin…corner the user here.”

Kakyoin blinks, lips parting, but no words come out. Something rushes out from his chest, landing straight in his stomach, reveling in the impact, like a meteorite hitting the earth, a wave of something flying up to his throat, up to his eyes because of it. Kakyoin blinks rapidly, swallowing.

“...Ku-”

“As for what his plan is,” Jotaro segues, and Kakyoin swallows again, brows furrowing. Jotaro’s still turned away from him, so he can’t make out his expression. What are you thinking? Why would you…I thought… “...it’ll probably be something similar to the bike. Fast – probably faster than the boat – and battery-powered.”

Kakyoin shakes his head, shoving the tumbling rocks that are his thoughts to the back of his mind, refocusing on the situation at hand. “Mm…he might be stealing something from a radio shop right now, then.”

Jotaro nods. Koichi tilts his head, brows furrowing. “...Do you think he might be buy- er, stealing, a model airplane? Some of those can fly as fast as 100 miles per hour…”

Kakyoin blinks. “Shit- shit, he probably is, because then he doesn’t have to worry about the water if he’s in the air.”

Jotaro’s fists tighten, squeezing his own palms, before he releases them, taking a deep breath. Kakyoin eyes this, brows furrowing.

“Crafty…” He mutters before turning to Josuke, helping him up out of the motorboat and back onto the docks. “Josuke, keep an eye out for anything flying by. You too, Koichi.” Jotaro glances back at Kakyoin before shaking his head, sighing. Kakyoin narrows his eyes uneasily, shifting in his seat.

“With the stand hopefully chasing after the ship, the user should be easy to deal with,” Jotaro says as he hops into the boat, the vessel rocking with the momentum. Kakyoin blinks, before the meteorite in his stomach burns up, his gut tightening in fury.

“Oh- oh, of course. Right. Cause we can’t handle a stand, is that it?” Kakyoin snaps. Jotaro shoots him a look, and Kakyoin could almost regret speaking; he looks so tired, shadows haunting his eyes, purple smeared under the blue like the sky at dawn. Kakyoin’s tongue loses momentum, falling lax in his mouth.

“That’s not it,” Jotaro says, breaking Kakyoin out of his pause, and he rolls his eyes scoffing. 

Right . Sure. Who do you think I am? How- how incompetent do you think I a-”

“Will nothing make you happy?”

Kakyoin blinks, words dying on his tongue again. Jotaro echoes the blink, as if surprised by the words that fell from his own mouth.

Koichi clears his throat and Josuke steps in front of Kakyoin, concealing Jotaro from view.

“We’ll do our best,” Josuke says, voice tight. “No one will hurt Mr. Joestar as long as I have a say in it.”

Jotaro nods stiffly, though his expression relaxes a bit. “...Good luck,” he says.

Jotaro just nods in return. “You, too.”

Jotaro hesitates, hands clenching into fists, before he steps off the dock and onto the boat. Kakyoin sneers, shaking his head. I’m such a fucking idiot. As if he’d really give me a second chance.

With a practiced air, Jotaro crouches down and begins untying the boat from the dock, the brim of his hat conveniently keeping his face covered. Kakyoin wants to crush his fingers.

Instead, he shakes his head, rolling back. Priorities, he hisses to himself. Joseph comes before your wounded goddamn pride.

“Okuyasu,” Koichi says abruptly, prompting the teenager in question to glance up at him from the boat. “Go get him.”

Okuyasu blinks, before his gaze darts away for a second. Koichi’s brows furrow but then Okuyasu squares his shoulders and looks back up, nodding. “...Thanks, Koichi.”

The rope slips off the deck and into the boat, and Jotaro straightens. He looks up, gaze meeting Kakyoin’s for a moment, lips parting as if he wants to say something, before he presses his mouth into a line, turning and heading to the front seat. Something broils in Kakyoin’s gut. He’s not sure if it’s hot or cold.

After a moment, the boat’s engine begins purring, and Jotaro pulls it away from the deck and out to sea. Kakyoin stares at the back of Jotaro’s head intensely, but he never turns to look back. Shaking his head, Kakyoin sighs.

“Alright,” He says, turning to his two charges, who both straighten at being addressed. “Let’s obliterate that bastard.”

Josuke’s brows furrow, nodding, and Koichi presses his lips together, fists clenching at his sides.

“Koichi,” Kakyoin directs as he rolls forward, away from the docks, away from the fading roar of the motorboat, away from Jotaro, “use Echoes as a sort of scout. I’ll create a barrier with Hierophant’s tentacles, so you won’t be alone. Just keep your eyes open.”

Koichi nods stiffly, before nodding again, more fluidly, as he calls his stand forth, Echoes chirping in greeting before flying up in the air.

“Wha- what about me?” Josuke asks, eyes narrowing slightly. “You’re not thinking you can leave me out of this, right?”

Kakyoin points at him. “No. When Red Hot Chili Pepper shows his ugly face, then you can tear him limb from limb if you want, so long as you heal him again so we can get back the stand arrow.”

Josuke blinks before snickering meanly, nodding. It reminds Kakyoin of how he reacted to Angelo…

Kakyoin sighs, shaking his head, finally turning and glancing back at the sea as Hierophant unfurls from his chest, stretching out along the docks and coastline. “Let’s hope Kujo can do his job for once and actually keep someone safe.”

Koichi’s face twitches, but he says nothing. Josuke turns thoughtful, face dropping from the mean, determined smirk. Kakyoin frowns.

“You okay, Josuke?”

Josuke blinks, before nodding, turning his head away from Kakyoin.

Koichi hums, brows furrowing. “Josuke…”

Josuke sighs, shoulders dropping. “I just…Joestar- my…dad. I’ve never met him before. I don’t know anything about him. But now I’m told he’s my father and I need to protect him and just…” Josuke shakes his head. “It’s…not what I expected a year ago. Or even just three months ago.”

Koichi hums, padding forward and knocking Josuke’s shoulder gently.

Josuke shrugs helplessly, brows pinching inward. “I didn’t- I didn’t want to think about him much growing up, because whenever he came up it always made mom cry, but I thought- I always thought he’d be strong enough to protect mom and me when I did meet him. But…it turns out he can’t even protect himself- I-” Josuke swallows thickly. “I feel like this is backward,” he admits quietly.

“Josuke,” Kakyoin murmurs, lightly bumping his wheel against Josuke’s shoe. Josuke shakes his head, stepping away from Koichi’s touch.

“Sorry,” he mutters, “I shouldn’t be talking about this right now.”

Koichi shakes his head, brows furrowing. “No. There’s no ‘should’, Josuke. I understand why you feel the way you do.”

Kakyoin hums, finally turning his head and looking back at the ocean. The motorboat is nowhere in sight anymore. “...If it makes you feel better,” Kakyoin murmurs, “Kujo exaggerated. Joseph- er, Mr. Joestar isn’t decrepit. He’s seen better days, but he’s still capable.” Kakyoin almost adds Kujo has a bad habit of underestimating people, but he has enough tact to keep his mouth shut. Instead, he tags on, “Meeting him…it still has the chance of being a good thing rather than a bad.”

Josuke doesn’t respond, just continues staring at the azure waves as they lap against the docks they’re standing on, quietly splashing as the water rushes over itself before combining into a whole again.

Eventually, Josuke shakes his head, straightening. “Well…either way, his life’s in danger. So despite whatever he can do, we need to do our best. Um…” Josuke ducks his head. “...I owe it to mom if not him.”

Kakyoin and Koichi exchange glances, but before either of them can say anything, a sudden barrage of cursing kicks up from behind a mess of storage units lining the docks, and Kakyoin twitches, the faint impression of someone tripping over his foot echoing along his body from Hierophant’s.

“Kakyoin Noriaki!” A voice hisses, seething, and the hair stands on the back of Kakyoin’s neck, hands jerking out to roll between where he hears the voice and Josuke and Koichi. “You’ve been more annoying than I thought you would be, you bastard,”

Kakyoin smothers a snort, instead stretching out Hierophant to try and find the user’s legs again.

“My model plane method of attack would’ve been so convenient,” the voice whines and Kakyoin bites back a comment about how it sounds like the cries of a spoiled toddler. “You’re going to have to pay for that!”

With those words, sparks near a grate fly up, and Kakyoin wheels to face it just as Red Hot Chili Pepper jumps out, eyes flashing. Kakyoin blinks, fingers digging into his armrests. So he’s not gonna chance trying to fly out to Joseph’s ship with us here, huh? The user must be too defenseless without his stand, then…

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. Hm…

“What the fuck?” Josuke yelps, drawing Kakyoin out of his thoughts.

Kakyoin follows Josuke’s gaze, only to blink, mouth dropping open at the…appalling fashion of Red Hot Chili Pepper’s user.

Long, bright purple hair, a navy blue vest with orange accents, a dark blue electric guitar, and bright orange pants jump out at Kakyoin’s eyes, and he’s almost glad he has his sunglasses; the contrast would genuinely make his eyes hurt otherwise.

“You’re a smart guy,” The user sneers, “I’ll give you that. But you’ve been doing the exact opposite of what I told you to back when this all started.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, snapping up his jaw from the sore sight. “Did you really think threatening me would make me comply?”

The user does shrug consideringly at that. “It was worth a shot.” Kakyoin scoffs. “Anyway,” he segues.

“The radio plane I stole can get to Joestar’s ship within five minutes, whereas I estimate the motorboat Mr. Jotaro and Okuyasu took will get there in eight,” he croons. “That means, if I finish you in three minutes, I’ll still have time to get there!”

He points at Kakyoin with his guitar pick. “Which is why I revealed myself! Take it as an omen that no one who has seen my face so far has lived to speak of it! I, Otoishi Akira, will kill you all!”

Kakyoin raises a brow, staring up at Red Hot Chili Pepper’s user from over his glasses, saying nothing. The man’s point wavers, before his smug smile turns into a glare, whipping his hand back.

“Do you not take me seriously?!” He spits.

Kakyoin does snort then, allowing chuckles to bubble out of his chest. Josuke and Koichi stare with wide eyes, volleying between Kakyoin and the user. “Of course I don’t,” Kakyoin giggles, “you’ve had to send high schoolers to kill in your stead.”

Akira flushes in anger, brows turning sharply downward. Kakyoin could just imagine the steam coming from his ears.

“You- asshole!!” Akira spits, and Kakyoin laughs again. He can’t help it – it’s too easy to mess with this man.

“Don’t beg me for mercy!” He spits, “Especially not for those brats that follow you like ducklings!”

Kakyoin cuts off his laughter, staring down Akira again, Hierophant’s tentacles rising behind him in a show of intimidation and in preparation for lashing forward. “If you touch them, you’ll be the one begging for mercy.”

Akira sneers. “We’ll see!”

“Mr. Kakyoin-” Koichi murmurs nervously, but Kakyoin just shakes his head, glaring.

“It’s fin-”

“Mr. Kakyoin, just be careful,” Koichi presses, and Kakyoin twitches, just barely biting back a retort and turning to glance at him. “I- I don’t want to see you get hurt again,” Koichi continues, and Kakyoin’s chest swells in shame and fury, a whirlwind of fire, making his chest tense and his arms shake.

“I’ll be fine,” Kakyoin spits, “try and destroy the model plane while I play around with him.”

Josuke frowns, but before he can say anything, Akira laughs, and a flicker of light makes Kakyoin whip his head back to face him. Red Hot Chili Pepper has appeared, beady red eyes bright and smug.

“Maybe you should listen to Koichi, Mr. Kakyoin,” the stand purrs, making Kakyoin’s hair stand on end. “Based on how easy it was earlier, I bet I could kill you with just my pinkie finger!”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow as his vision fades to red.

Instead of responding verbally, Kakyoin just has Hierophant whip out a lone tentacle, rushing towards Akira’s user before he can say anything.

“Wha-!” Red Hot Chili Pepper dives for the tentacle to stop it, but it easily jerks up like the hump of a camel, continuing its race towards Akira himself.

Akira blinks, shocked his stand wasn’t fast enough, and the hesitation costs him: Hierophant wraps around the hand clinging to the neck of the guitar, pulling the four fingers backward off the fretboard, bending, bending, bending, until four sickening cracks sound out across the docks and Akira shrieks, jerking violently away.

Kakyoin lets him go, the red fading the slightest bit from his vision as he grins wickedly at the response, more a bearing of teeth than a bearing of happiness.

“WHAT THE FUCK!!” Akira cries, falling to his knees and holding the wrist of his mutilated hand. Kakyoin snorts, raising a brow.

“That was for Okuyasu,” Kakyoin says lowly. Akira grimaces deeply, glaring up at Kakyoin viciously. “And what was that about killing me with only your pinkie?” Kakyoin teases, and Akira snarls, animalistic, and shrugs his guitar off his shoulder roughly, jumping back to his feet.

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Koichi yelps and Kakyoin just flashes a smile back at the boys, maybe to reassure them, maybe to boast – Kakyoin doesn’t get to say anything before the sound of electricity crackles through the air and Kakyoin's hair stands on end.

Whipping his head back, Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, darting around. Red Hot Chili Pepper has disappeared, the user still glowering at Kakyoin.

“You’re going to regret,” Akira seethes, “not heeding the warning I was kind enough to give you about just getting the hell out of here!”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, but before he can say anything, Josuke shrieks, “Mr. Kakyoin, WATCH OUT!”

Hierophant reflexively digs into the pavement, shooting Kakyoin forward and away, wheeling around to turn behind him, only to yelp as Red Hot Chili Pepper lunges out of one of the drainage grates toward him. 

“Hierophant!” Kakyoin snaps, and Hierophant’s tentacles amass back into his humanoid form, hands slamming together and generating a burst of water. Red Hot Chili Pepper blinks, surprised, but his momentum won’t let him turn away.

“Wait-”

Hierophant shoots out the water and Red Hot Chili Pepper throws up its hands, protecting its face at the expense of its forearms, and the stand and user both shriek in unison when the water hits, scattering the electric charge that makes up Red Hot Chili Pepper’s body, forcing it to disassemble. The stand glitches, shuddering, before it shoots back into the grate.

“What the FUCK!” Akira shouts, and Kakyoin wheels around again, snarling. “When did- where did you-”

“You really are an idiot,” Kakyoin snaps, rolling forward, smugness tightening his chest and warming the cavity of it when Akira takes a step back. “You don’t know shit about my abilities, huh? And you really thought you could kill me, Josuke, and Koichi in only a few minutes?”

Akira snarls, glaring up at Kakyoin from his curtain of purple hair. “You…” he turns and spits, teeth clenched tightly. “...You shouldn’t brag until you’ve won the fight, old man!”

Kakyoin blinks, only for Josuke and Koichi to both begin screaming behind him, and Kakyoin immediately spins his wheelchair around again, only to be face-to-face with Red Hot Chili Pepper.

Kakyoin barely has time for Hierophant to wrap around his chest, protecting him from any electrocution, before Red Hot Chili Pepper throws a punch with a strangled yell, arms still burned from the water blast earlier.

Kakyoin wheezes as the impact jostles his ribs, but thankfully the brunt of it reverberates throughout Hierophant’s tentacles, Kakyoin feeling it echoing in his arms more than his chest.

Red Hot Chili Pepper snarls before ducking back under, giving Kakyoin a front-row seat to how Koichi and Josuke’s eyes both widen, Josuke flying forward with Crazy Diamond in flickering into view behind him, Koichi opening his mouth to shout a warning, before Kakyoin jerks his head around only to see Red Hot Chili Pepper’s clawed talon flying towards his face.

Panic seizes Kakyoin – not again, not again, not again – and Kakyoin ducks, only for fire to fly up his spinal column over him daring to bend his back. Kakyoin grits his teeth, pain fueling a fire of rage, chucking hot coals into his blood.

Red Hot Chili Pepper misses his initial attack, only to swing down and slam Kakyon’s head down, forcing his nose to knock against his own knees, and Kakyoin jerks, flying back away from the stand’s grip, blinking rapidly to clear his vision as a welling in one of his nostrils lets him know blood is about to start dripping down from it. Great, great, great-

“MR. KAKYOIN!” Koichi and Josuke both shout, before Josuke barrels past Kakyoin towards Akira, snarling like a rabid dog, and Kakyoin blinks rapidly before calling “Wait- wait- JOSUKE!”

Hierophant snakes forward and seizes Josuke around the chest, jerking him back just in time as Red Hot Chili Pepper flies up from another grate at Akira’s feet, swinging with a sparking fist to where Josuke was just milliseconds earlier.

Snarling, Kakyoin wheels back towards Koichi, dragging Josuke along with Hierophant, regrouping. Akira smirks despite the tremors traveling down his frame, no doubt due to the adrenaline and pain of his forearms being burned and his fingers being broken.

“Game plan,” Kakyoin seethes quietly, staring down the user as he begins monologuing again, Red Hot Chili Pepper hyping its user on. Seriously, even if he could kill them, why does he think he could get it done so quickly with all his damn yapping?

“Game plan,” Kakyoin repeats, glancing back at Red Hot Chili Pepper and Akira, before shooting a stream of water at him. Akira screeches and dives to the side, his stand mirroring his movement. “I’ll distract that damn stand. Between Hierophant’s flexibility and water, I’ll be fine,” He spits.

He turns to Josuke and Koichi, both of whom are staring at him with wide eyes. “You two: pin down the user. He’s skinny as hell – one good hit to the back of his head should knock him out pretty easily. Between your range-” he points at Koichi with a gloved finger “-and your strength-” he points to Josuke “-you should find it pretty easy. Don’t worry about doing it quickly, just make sure you do it. Got it?”

Koichi and Josuke both jerkily nod, Koichi squaring his shoulders while Josuke opens his mouth, pausing, before he shakes his head vigorously. “I- we won’t let you down, Mr. Kakyoin,” he says, eyes shining.

Kakyoin doesn’t respond; he just turns back around, snarling, pushing off towards Akira again. I know you won’t.

Akira shrieks again before Red Hot Chili Pepper flies forward from a grate, talons reaching forward to grab Kakyoin by the ribs again. Kakyoin just bares his teeth in what was probably supposed to be a smile as Hierophant’s hands materialize near his chest, water churning between his palms.

Red Hot Chili Pepper reels back against its momentum, trying to fly out of the way – and to be fair, he’s fast enough that perhaps he could’ve if he wasn’t moving against his own inertia so suddenly. But because he’s an idiot, Kakyoin thinks to himself, he got too cocky.

Hierophant shoots the water like a broken fire hydrant, forceful and unrestrained, and Red Hot Chili Pepper shrieks as a band of water splays across his torso, sapping the electricity like a paper towel over a spill.

“GAH!” Red Hot Chili Pepper and Akira shriek in unison, Red Hot Chili Pepper glitching before being resummoned closer to Akira’s side. Hierophant just reangles, spraying even more water at the stand, and Akira snarls. “You fucking- I will KILL YOU!!”

Kakyoin can feel Red Hot Chili Pepper pop up from a grate behind him before he can hear him, his hair standing on end due to the electricity. Kakyoin smirks at Akira as Hierophant easily twists his arms to continue spraying the stand, making Akira and Red Hot Chili Pepper balk in surprise before the stand must duck and retreat again to avoid the water.

“You really don’t know anything about my abilities,” Kakyoin snarks, and Akira seethes, a bead of sweat rolling down his face.

“Shut up,” Akira snarls, “you think you’re so smart – SHUT UP!!”

Kakyoin tsks, shaking his head.

“YOU-!!” Akira grits his teeth, his stand reappearing at his side, before he begins lighting up, sparks flying off the stand as it starts shining brightly. Kakyoin squints even past his sunglasses, wheeling back a bit.

You don’t know anything about my abilities!!” Akira shrieks as the light continues to grow brighter. Somewhere, Kakyoin can hear Koichi yelp, and his blood runs cold. “I’ve never lived up to my full potential — till now! I’m using the electricity of the entire city now!”

Kakyoin just manages to bite back a curse, glaring at nothing as the light burns through his retinas. I thought the sun when N’doul blinded me was bad, fuck-

A sound not unlike the roar of a jet’s engine rises in Kakyoin’s ears, his nerves sparking in panic as electricity zaps close to him. Hierophant immediately jerks up around his body, hands slamming together above Kakyoin’s head to rain water down around him as an attempt at some sort of shield, but he’s not fast enough.

Kakyoin’s head snaps roughly to the side before he even feels any pain from the punch, his wheelchair rolling back from the force, the muscles in his cheek twitching as the electricity dances into his skin. Better than my fucking spine at least-

Kakyoin can begin to feel a dull ache echoing from his cheek, sharper pain zipping in and out like a heartbeat. Kakyoin rapidly blinks his eyes open, only to realize one of his lenses is cracked. This motherfucker-

“I’m so SICK OF YOU!!”

Kakyoin blinks before he’s punched again, right under his jaw, with enough power to make him fly up and out of his wheelchair.

Kakyoin’s teeth click together painfully, his tongue caught in the crossfire, and Kakyoin’s blood boils as the pain reaches back up to his brain. Training an eye on Red Hot Chili Pepper past his one good lens, Kakyoin glares, eyes wide in fury.

Red Hot Chili Pepper begins to bring its hands down again, like a reverse volleyball bump, and Kakyoin can only spit at the stand and sneer with bloody teeth as Hierophant’s hands come back together again.

Just as Red Hot Chili Pepper’s hit lands, Hierophant shoots out another stream of water, making them both fly back due to impact, Red Hot Chili Pepper screaming as the water once again doses his form.

“MR. KAKYOIN!!” He can hear one of the kids scream – Koichi? Josuke? – before he slams into something hard and metal heh, just like my stupid damn spine, Kakyoin thinks dumbly – and his hearing fades out, instead replaced with a ringing that may be Kakyoin’s brain shaking in his skull.

A weak moan of pain escapes him and Hierophant is immediately washing cool water against the wound he’s definitely just gotten on the back of his head, trying his best to numb the nerves and make the pain go away, at least for now.

“I’LL K- HUH?!”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow before he chances opening his eyes again. Both his lenses are cracked now, and Kakyoin very, very carefully reaches up and pulls them off his face. The last thing he needs is fucking glass in his eyes…

“A TIRE?!”

Kakyoin blinks before looking around, squinting. Josuke is standing with his shoulders back, looking absolutely murderous, his lip curled in fury, while the pink glow associated with Crazy Diamond surrounds a cut-up tire – a tire that is now being brought back together around Red Hot Chili Pepper’s form.

Kakyoin blinks. Rubber is an insulator. Rubber is an insulator. His shoulders immediately release tension, unable to hold back his laughter. Genius. Genius.

“WHAT THE HELL-”

“You’re so fucking stupid,” Josuke spits, staring down the stand as it tries to claw its way out of the tire before it’s finished repairing around him, a perfect cage. “Did you forget you were fighting three people?”

Just then, there’s a crack, and Kakyoin slides his eyes over to Koichi, only to balk. Koichi has tackled the standuser, Echoes swinging wildly around all the while, to make him drop the model airplane and break it. Holy shit, Kakyoin thinks, his heart beating with excitement and- pride. He’s proud. He’s proud.

“ARGH- you brats!!” Akira spits, chucking Koichi off of him, staring with wild eyes at Josuke. Kakyoin grunts, shifting up. He needs to help- he needs-

“Haven’t you learned by now that my stand can punch shit? I have the physical power to get out of this fucking tire without electricity! You’re the one who’s dumb!!” Akira points with his non-broken hand.

Josuke doesn’t flinch, even as the sound of rubber tearing – not unlike the sound of a zipper, Kakyoin thinks dazedly – echoes throughout the docks.

“Your mistake then,” Josuke snaps, making Akira pause.

“...Wha-?”

Red Hot Chili Pepper finally claws open the tire, only for the tire to shoot forward, racing off the docks.

“WHA-” Akira cries before his face grows pale so quickly Kakyoin could see the color difference. “The air pressure- you restore things, not just fix them-”

“That’s right,” Josuke snarls, and the tire flies off the edge and into the water.

Akira drops to his knees and screams, smoke rising off of his own skin as his shrieks are echoed over the lip of the dock. Kakyoin sucks in a breath before sitting up, Hierophant wrapping around his waist and legs to help him accomplish the feat.

Hierophant gently carries him to his wheelchair, and when he finally slots back down, his cardigan rumpled and his scarf having been lost somewhere between being thrown and getting back onto his feet, the screams fade, and Akira collapses.

Josuke was staring over the edge of the dock the whole time, shoulders so tense Kakyoin’s own muscles hurt just staring at him. He slides his gaze back to Koichi, who is padding up to his friend, brows furrowed in concern and determination. Kakyoin takes a deep breath and heads over to them as well.

“I’m glad the idea worked,” he can hear Koichi saying as he rolls over. Josuke nods stiffly, his brows furrowed, more in dawning horror than in anger, now.

“...What happens when a stand is destroyed, Mr. Kakyoin?” He asks weakly, and Kakyoin’s own eyes widen, gaze darting down to the water, only to see small, dying sparks. The remains of Red Hot Chili Pepper.

Kakyoin glances back at Akira’s stiff body and sucks in a breath. No point in sugarcoating. He already knows.

“...Well, stands and their users have physical connections. What happens to a stand is…echoed to the user…”

Josuke remains still before swallowing thickly. Koichi reaches out to rub his arm, and Josuke shudders, closing his eyes.

“...Don’t look, Josuke,” Kakyoin murmurs. Josuke lifts his head, but Hierophant reaches out and gently turns his head back to face the water.

“Don’t look,” Kakyoin repeats softly, “I’ll go take care of it.”

Josuke nods stiffly, shuddering, before dropping to his knees, shoulders trembling. Koichi follows him down, murmuring words Kakyoin cannot hear. It’s not his business to hear.

Kakyoin frowns stiffly as he wheels over to Akira’s body, his chest tight. I should’ve done more than just get thrown around. I should’ve made sure Josuke didn’t have to make that choice.

His fingers tightening on his armrests, Kakyoin makes it to the body. He sighs and allows Hierophant to slither out, reaching to gently take hold of Akira’s wrist as he considers where to dump the body. Watery grave to join his stand or something more dignifi-?

A pulse.

Kakyoin blinks rapidly before his face curls into a snarl, Hierophant quitting with the gentleness and immediately wrapping tightly around Akira, stringing him up.

“Ah- FUCK!” Akira spits, eyes flying open, glaring up at Kakyoin past strands of that stupid dark purple hair. “Do you have no tact-”

“Oh, don’t you fucking dare talk to me about tact,” Kakyoin spits, hands shaking with fury. Josuke and Koichi both exclaim as they look over due to the commotion. “You were going to let a teenager deal with killing someone, you-”

“He’s alive?!” Josuke cries, Koichi gaping. Kakyoin snarls and Hierophant tightens around Akira, a tentacle wrapping around his throat. Akira goes very still, suddenly aware of the position he’s in.

“Do you understand,” Kakyoin seethes quietly, voice trembling like the rattle of a snake, “how easy it is to break the human neck?”

Akira doesn’t answer. He just stares down Kakyoin with wide eyes, brows furrowed in not quite a glare, but something close to it. Kakyoin can feel the man’s heartbeat through Hierophant’s tentacles, racing, bucking like an angry horse, and Kakyoin grits his teeth so hard his jaw hurts.

“You,” Kakyoin continues with his low, smooth voice, “are so lucky those children you tried to kill are here right now, or I would be making sure you wished you had just died. Do you know how much my Hierophant Green loves tearing people from the inside out?”

Akira still doesn’t answer. He swallows slowly, throat bobbing against the tentacle around it, and Kakyoin tightens it, making him choke slightly.

“Unlike you, though, I have some standards. I’m not going to make the kids watch that,” Kakyoin continues. “However,” His eyes flash, and the dried blood from his nose earlier flakes as his lip curls up into a threatening smile, “if you do anything – and I do mean anything – to make me suspect you are trying to weasel out of this, I will happily snap your neck and be done with it.”

Josuke and Koichi are still near the edge of the dock, seemingly frozen. A small wind blows and while it saps the heat away from where Kakyoin has sweat, he refuses to shiver. Akira tries swallowing again, but the tentacle is too tight around his throat to let him.

Slowly, he nods. Kakyoin smiles, but it’s more a bearing of his teeth. “Fantastic. Lovely, even.”

The silence continues for a few heartbeats, Hierophant occasionally tightening around Akira’s body, a python teasing its prey. Hierophant squeezes the hand full of broken fingers, and Akira inhales sharply, squeezing his eyes shut due to the pain. Kakyoin hums.

“Mr. Kakyoin…”

Kakyoin finally rips his gaze away from the man, turning to look at Koichi, who had piped up. He and Josuke had moved closer, Josuke looking a little pale, but much less scared than he had earlier, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“Don’t worry,” Kakyoin grins – it still comes out as mean more than anything else, and it makes Koichi pause – “we’ve come to an agreement. Akira won’t be causing any more trouble – right?”

Hierophant tightens, popping Akira’s spine, and Akira’s eyes bulge, twitching, glaring at Kakyoin, until the pressure releases and he stiffly nods.

“Such a sweetheart,” Kakyoin spits, and Koichi and Josuke exchange glances but don’t comment.

“...Is it over, then?” Josuke asks, and Kakyoin finally lets go of the anger in his chest, letting the bundle of fury loosen and cool off, like the core of a star unraveling.

“It’s over,” Kakyoin confirms. Akira sags a bit in Hierophant’s hold and Koichi and Josuke lean against each other, letting out breaths.

Koichi hums, turning to look back at the water, before glancing down and checking his watch. “...Mr. Jotaro said the ship was arriving on time, right?”

Kakyoin blinks, straightening. “Oh- right.”

Josuke swallows thickly, gaze darting to the sea, where a white ship can now be seen on the horizon. “...Oh.”

Kakyoin frowns, but doesn’t comment; instead, he turns to Koichi. “Could you relay that we got the standuser once the ship is within range? I would do it myself, but,” Kakyoin snickers, pointing toward Akira with a thumb. “Hierophant’s a little tied up right now.”

He snorts and giggles at his own joke, while Koichi smiles uneasily, before nodding, his face slipping into determined seriousness. “Don’t worry, Mr. Kakyoin, I got it.”

Kakyoin nods, sighing, leaning his head back, and glancing at Akira. “I’m hilarious, aren’t I? You’re lucky to have me as a captor than, say, Kujo. I have a sense of humor.”

Akira glares at him, and it just makes Kakyoin snicker again.

Kakyoin will give it to him though, Akira keeps his word; he stays limp in Hierophant's hold and waits for the Speedwagon Foundation boat to reach the shore. Perhaps, despite the man’s obvious pride, he knows when he’s outmatched. Kakyoin rolls his eyes. Took him long enough.

Also as promised, Koichi sends out Echoes when the ship is within 50 meters of the shore, relaying the news that Akira and Red Hot Chili Pepper had been defeated. Koichi glances at Kakyoin as Echoes comes back, and Kakyoin raises a brow.

“What’d he say?” He asks dryly.

Koichi fidgets before squaring his shoulders, looking up at Kakyoin. “He’s relieved. He says ‘well done.’”

Kakyoin tsks, rolling his eyes, but says nothing. Koichi presses his lips into a line before turning to Josuke, who's gotten progressively paler as the ship draws closer.

“Josuke?” Koichi asks, making Josuke start.

“Ah- uh- oh, Koichi,” Josuke sputters, “what’s up?”

Koichi frowns. “What’s up with you?”

Josuke pauses at the bluntness, before shaking his head. “Um. Geez, I think it’d be kinda obvious,”

Koichi’s frown deepens, as does Kakyoin’s. “Well…yeah, but…are you okay, is more what I was getting at.”

Josuke hums, shoulders slumping. “I…I don’t know. I don’t know if I’m ready to meet my dad. Oh, my god, he’s my dad, and he’s 79-”

“Josuke,” Kakyoin cuts in gently, and Josuke shuts his mouth, sucking in a deep breath. “You don’t need to stay.”

Josuke blinks. “W-what?” His voice cracks and Kakyoin feels the support beams of some structure in him turn soft, leading to a collapse.

“The fight’s over. We’re all okay. You don’t need to handle the bureaucratic parts. You can just go home, get some rest, enjoy the rest of your weekend,” Kakyoin says gently.

Josuke swallows, gaze dragging back to the ship as it looms closer. It’s close enough for Kakyoin to see that Jotaro’s on the deck, facing them. He’s not able to see his expression.

“To be honest,” Josuke says quietly, breaking Kakyoin out of his train of thought, “I wish he’d be the one to leave. I do all this, and I still need to be the one to run away?”

“Josuke,” Koichi says quietly, but Josuke shakes his head.

“I’m glad he wasn’t killed,” Josuke says, “but I- I wish- I can’t-” his face scrunches up, brows furrowing upward, “he’s not my dad. I can’t treat him like my dad. Not after 16- 16 ye-” Josuke cuts himself off then, hunching over himself.

Something in Kakyoin breaks in the rubble of the structural collapse.

“Josuke,” Kakyoin says quietly, placing a hand on his shoulder. Josuke doesn’t respond to it. “Joseph…” he pauses, tasting the words in his mouth, rolling them over his tongue to see which combination would be best. “Joseph won’t expect you to treat him like your dad. He knows he’s a stranger. He knows any grief…any grief because of that is on him, not on you,”

Josuke shudders, raising his head to look at Kakyoin, and for once, Kakyoin thinks distantly, he looks 16.

“It wouldn’t be running away,” Kakyoin finishes, “if you don’t want to see him. Running away implies a responsibility is being avoided. But you don’t owe him anything.”

Josuke swallows and ducks his head, and Kakyoin’s gut churns. His shoulders tremble minutely, but Kakyoin doesn’t hear the telltale sniffling that’s indicative of silent sobs. Koichi pats Josuke’s other shoulder then, and Josuke lets out a shaky gasp.

“Josuke,” Koichi murmurs, and Josuke leans into his touch. Kakyoin draws back his hand, giving Koichi the room to wrap his arms around his friend’s shoulders. 

It’s quiet, save for Josuke’s occasional gasps of breath, like he’s continuously forgetting to breathe, before eventually, Josuke pulls himself out of his friend’s arms, standing up and straightening.

He turns to face Koichi and Kakyoin, and Kakyoin lets out a breath. Josuke’s eyes, while misty, are not red from outright crying. He swallows again before nodding toward Kakyoin.

“...Thank you, Mr. Kakyoin,” he mutters, and Kakyoin deigns to say nothing. Josuke sucks in another breath, shaking his head. “...I’ll at least meet him,” He says quietly. “I want to see who I’ve gone through all this damn trouble for.”

Kakyoin nods.

The ship pulls into port then, and Josuke takes a deep breath, squaring his shoulders. Kakyoin glances up and sees Jotaro watching them all from a perch near the railing of the ship’s deck. Kakyoin gnaws on the inside of his lip. Time to face the music.

The door to the cabin swings open and a ramp is laid out from the ship to the deck. Kakyoin, Koichi, and Josuke, with Hierophant trailing Akira along, creep closer to it.

There’s quiet for a moment before Joseph appears from the cabin, and Kakyoin blinks.

…What a getup. He needs to stifle a laugh at the leopard-print hat. What the hell?

Josuke ducks his head down, and it becomes easier to stifle.

Joseph lets out a breath, the sound crackling like fire from his old lungs, and he begins the descent down the ramp. As he steps from the shade, Kakyoin can see something in Joseph’s hands, and he blinks as he registers it. …When did he get a cane?

…When did it break?

It seems Joseph doesn’t need it for short distances, at least. He continues walking down, slowly but steadily, before suddenly, he trips. Kakyoin blinks, his gut instinct to use Hierophant, only to remember he’s holding a fugitive. Wait-

He doesn’t need to worry. Instead, Josuke darts forward, reaching out to catch Joseph, setting him upright again. The cane clatters to the dock.

“Watch your step,” Josuke chides dazedly, voice not at all the command Kakyoin knew it could be. Joseph blinks before nodding like it was anyway.

“Sorry,” Joseph says, his voice coming out as creaky as his cane was, “my cane’s broken. The waves led to it snapping.”

Josuke tsks, averting his eyes as his face turns red. “Well, that’s a shame.” He kicks the ground before sucking in a breath and offering his hand. “Um. Guess it can’t be helped, then; take my hand.”

Kakyoin blinks. Joseph also blinks in disbelief, before shooting his gaze to Josuke’s face. Josuke’s shoulders hike up and he refuses to meet his eyes, but he keeps his hand offered.

Joseph continues to hesitate. Josuke takes a deep breath and reaches out to take his father’s hand.

“Come on,” Josuke mutters, his face still red, and something in Kakyoin’s chest warms up. Kakyoin almost expects it to be anger, since that’s the only real hot emotion he’s felt in at least three years, but for once, it’s more warm than smoldering, not painful but relaxing. “Were you staying at the hotel with Mr. Jotaro?” Josuke asks as they walk away, and Kakyoin needs to bite back a smile.

Okuyasu trails down the ramp after Joseph, eyeing the two, before his gaze darts to the broken cane, picking up the pieces.

“Why didn’t Josuke just fix the cane…?” He asks, and Koichi knocks his shoulder, brows furrowing.

“Okuyasu, sh!” He chides, gaze darting at the pair before going back to Okuyasu. “They’re- it’s complicated, can’t you see?”

Okuyasu lets out a comprehending sound, but he still looks a little confused, and Kakyoin realizes he wasn’t there for when Jouske confessed his feelings about meeting his father.

He shakes his head, opening his mouth to comment, when the creaking of the ramp draws his attention, and he raises his gaze to meet Jotaro’s.

Jotaro looks vaguely ill, his face pale, and Kakyoin wants to snap some comment about if he got seasick, but he holds his tongue. For now.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says quietly, and Kakyoin wishes he had asked Josuke to heal him if only so he doesn’t have to see the pity flickering in Jotaro’s gaze as it lingers on the dried blood under his nose and near his forehead, the skin sliced by his shattered lenses.

“Kujo,” Kakyoin snarls, and Koichi and Okuyasu both stiffen before looking their way. Kakyoin sucks in a deep breath, biting back insults and remarks despite them building on the back of his tongue like a fire at the back of a dragon’s. “Got the standuser. All that’s left is to find the bow and arrow, right?”

Jotaro blinks, before nodding. “Right.” He pauses, gaze searching Kakyoin’s face. Kakyoin’s hackles rise, Hierophant tightening in reflection of his rising irritation, and Akira lets out a yelp, making Kakyoin close his eyes and refocus.

“And then this town will be safe again,” Jotaro says. Kakyoin opens his eyes again to squint at him.

“Right,” he agrees uneasily.

Josuke will be safe again,” Jotaro presses and Kakyoin blinks, before the memory of their agreement comes rushing back.

“...as long as that kid is threatened, I’m sticking around. Got it?”

“...Fine.”

Kakyoin’s brows raise before he scoffs, glaring up at Jotaro with enough fire in his veins he feels like he could melt him down until he’s nothing but a puddle of condescending white.

“I didn’t remember you being particularly nitpicky like this, Kujo,” Kakyoin spits, and Jotaro just frowns, tired, and Kakyoin wants to laugh, because how dare he feel tired over a mess he made-

“Then you didn’t remember me.”

Kakyoin blinks at the words, not expecting the retort, before he snarls, fingers digging into his armrest.

“I cannot- I caught the standuser while still keeping him alive so we can get the information we need, I kept the kids safe, everything’s fine, the proof I’m capable is literally right in front of you and you still-”

“You’re injured,” Jotaro says quietly, and Kakyoin blinks. “Everything isn’t fine. You…” Jotaro’s hand twitches, jerking up as if he wants to reach out and inspect the damage himself, but Kakyoin winces back and Jotaro recoils as if burned.

“Oh, fucking technicalities,” Kakyoin spits, “so I didn’t do it perfect. It’s still better than if the kids were hurt! You’re really telling me that means I don’t get to stay? I don’t have a right to be wherever the hell I want to be?”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro sighs, and Kakyoin sees red, “why do you even want to stay?”

Kakyoin blinks. “What?”

“Why do you want to stay?” Jotaro presses, brows furrowed. “The danger’s gone. You completed the favor Jiji asked of you. Do you really want to stick around and yell at me so much you’ll put whatever else it is you’re doing on hold-”

“You- you are the most self-absorbed person I ever met- it’s not fucking about you!” Kakyoin shouts, breathing haggardly. Jotaor knows exactly what buttons to push, “Fuck,” Kakyoin spits out hysterically, “I wish I had never met you, I wish I had died rather than meet you!” Kakyoin spits, voice continuing to rise with hysteria with every word until he’s shrieking and Jotaro has retreated under his hat.

Chest heaving, Kakyoin stares, waiting for Jotaro’s reply. He stays hidden under his hat, and Kakyoin wants to hurt him. He wants to rip the hat off his head, throttle him, digs his fingers in so deep that Jotaro’s bruising-

“STOP- CHOKING ME!” comes a gargled, strained cry from his side, and Kakyoin whips his head to see Hierophant writhing around Akira, truly looking like a python with how tentacles are slowly squeezing the body trapped in them.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, giving Akira some air, before snapping his gaze back to Jotaro., only to see Koichi and Okuyasu watching uneasily.

Kakyoin blinks again before shame burns hot and bright, and he snarls, seething, glaring up at Jotaro.

“Do you always need to make a fucking fool of me in front of an audience?” Kakyoin spits. Jotaro doesn’t respond; still acting like a statue, his hand on his brim.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Koichi says quietly, and Kakyoin sucks in a breath, before letting it back out as a growl, animalistic and primal.

“I hate you,” Kakyoin seethes, rolling up to Jotaro. “I hate you, I h-”

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Okuyasu calls, his voice higher with unease and panic, and Kakyoin closes his eyes and takes a deep, deep breath, smoothing out his expression. Jotaro still hasn’t moved.

He turns, then, heading up the ramp and toward the Speedwagon Foundation agents conversing on the ship’s deck.

“Come on, Akira,” Kakyoin says cheerily, the voice as plastic as his old earrings. “Let’s have a talk over tea about that arrow.”

Chapter 16: Intermission 2: Act 1

Notes:

GOD EVERYONE HI
im SO FUCKING SORRY it took so long to get this chapter out
I've been doing a field study program instead of traditional classroom learning these past ten weeks and it has been absolutely fuckin nuts. I've been busy from 7 am to 5 pm most days so between that and then eating, personal hygiene, and sleeping, I've just had no time to write ):
in addition to that the rough draft of this chapter was by far the longest chapter of wwm/ta! it was fucking 44 pages dude! i had to cut it down into two chapters
but that also means update next week too ;)
but anyway I'm just so sorry everyone, i truly hope the wait has been worth it. summer break is right on the horizon for me so hopefully i can make like i did last year and become a writing machine...finger's crossed
until then, have fun reading and i hope you all enjoy! thank you for sticking by me still

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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When Kakyoin first wakes up, he can’t open his eyes. They’re pinned under the weight of their own muscle, taped for good measure with all kinds of gunk like sleep dust and long-dried moisture, and Kakyoin is too tired to try and fight it.

Kakyoin breathes slowly, calmly, his ears picking up sounds but his brain too fogged to make sense of any of them.

Kakyoin goes back to sleep.


The second time Kakyoin wakes up, his brain reboots enough for him to feel pressure in his hand, warmth echoing in his fingertips due to it. It takes him a long moment to realize what the pressure means, feeling lax and pliant and boneless, unable to lift from his spot and unwilling to try, warm and dry. Warm and dry…

Someone’s holding my hand.

A flash of blue floats in his mind, then blue and purple, working to get him down from somewhere, and Kakyoin thinks: Jotaro…?

Kakyoin’s heart picks up its pace for the first time in a year and his brain spins because of it, making him black out again.


When Kakyoin wakes up again, he’s able to crack his eyes open into slits, only to squeeze them shut again, brows furrowing sluggishly as the light attacks his retinas. What time is it? Midmorning? It’s so bright…

Rolling his eyes around in their sockets, Kakyoin tries squinting out again, brows trying to furrow into a shield, but the muscles won’t work. He can furrow them for a second, but then his control slips away and they fall flat again.

“Mm,” Kakyoin grunts, only to seize as his entire throat, from the back of his mouth to his trachea, jerks at the sound. His throat is so dry. What the hell?

Kakyoin erupts into coughs, or almost does, at least – the first cough spills out and his entire lower half lights up in agony , and Kakyoin immediately shuts his mouth against the coughs still wanting the spill out, the tickling in the back of his throat so much more preferable to the pain of his stomach that it was not even a conscious decision he had to make.

“Noriaki?”

Kakyoin squints open again, eyes tearing from holding his breath against the coughs, and he sees silver, not blue. A part of his chest sags in disappointment and the urge to cough relinquishes.

“Noriaki?” A deeper voice this time. His dad? Why were his mom and dad here?

…Where exactly is “here?”

Kakyoin tries to roll his gaze around the room, but he can’t make out any shapes, just colors, blurred and meshed together like an abstract, minimalist painting.

“Goodness,” he can hear his father says breathlessly, “I- I’ll go get a doctor,” and then he’s turning and running out the door, footsteps echoing against linoleum floors.

“Noriaki,” His mother cries, surging forward, and Kakyoin distantly thinks, I’ve never seen her cry before, before she’s clutching his hand in both of hers, her whole body shuddering. “Noriaki, Noriaki, are you okay? Can you hear me? Noriaki-” She cuts herself off with a sob and Kakyoin desperately tries to blink rapidly to clear his damn head, but he can’t, the muscles sluggishly following for only a few blinks before falling lax halfway down his eyes.

“Noriaki, honey, please don’t go back to sleep,” His mother cries, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath – or at least tries to, his lungs stuttering when he stretches them too much, making a full breath impossible – before he forces his eyelids completely open again.

“Mm,” He grunts again, and his mother dissolves into incoherent tears, squeezing his hand as if it’s her only tether to the earth, the only thing keeping her from falling into the vast cold darkness of space. Kakyoin needs to look away. He’s never seen his mother cry. What time is it?

There’s a thundering of footsteps, a weaving of voices, timbers and squeaks and shouts all interwoven together to create a quilt of chaos that Kakyoin simply does not have the brain function to sort through right now.

Kakyoin starts to slip back under, but something in him panics, a string attached to his chest jerking him forward when his eyelids start to feel too heavy, startling his brain back to consciousness.

“Uhh-” He rasps, only to gag, something scraping against the back of his throat. What the hell-

“He’s awake!” He can finally make out. Someone jostles his arm, and Kakyoin winces as a sharp pain echoes through the inside of his elbow. An IV-?

Am I in the hospital?

As if slipping on a pair of glasses, suddenly everything makes perfect sense, crisp images jutting into Kakyoin’s sleep-addled mind. DIO, gold, everything moving through honey, cold, cold, COLD, clock tower, tan, gold, gold, Joseph, Polnareff, Jotaro, I’m going to die here, I’m going to die here, blue,

Kakyoin passes back out.


He wakes back up again in the evening. The hospital room is laid in blanketing purple as the night takes hold of the sky, washing away the blue. His mother is not there this time; it is only his father in the chair beside his bed.

Kakyoin grunts softly, only to wince, the sound scraping his dry throat like carbonation.

His father’s gaze darts toward him, and Kakyoin freezes as if he’s a child that’s been caught doing something wrong.

“Noriaki,” he breathes quietly. Kakyoin stays still; he couldn’t really talk with such a dry throat, but even if he could, he isn’t sure what he would say, anyway. How long has it been? Where’s Jotaro? Where’s Polnareff? What happened ?

His father reaches toward Kakyoin’s bedside, grabbing hold of a glass of water and bringing it to Kakyoin’s lips.

“Here,” He says quietly, “the doctors said you’ll be thirsty.”

Kakyoin tries to grunt, but it comes out more like a wheeze, before taking a small sip. The cool water almost immediately is soaked up into the back of his throat, rejuvenating it, and hardly any goes down to his stomach…

…stomach…

Kakyoin blinks as dread sweeps across his chest cavity.

What the hell happened to him? How is he even alive?

He lets out a questioning keen, but his father just encourages him to continue sipping, pressing the water against his lips again. Kakyoin’s heart begins to beat more steadily as he takes a couple more sips, before letting his head fall lax against the pillow, turning to look at his father. It felt like moving through cement.

“...D,” Kakyoin pauses for a second before continuing, “dad.”

His father squeezes his eyes shut, a tremble tracing his shoulders as he places the water back down on the table, before reaching out to take Kakyoin’s hand. “Noriaki,” He says, voice breaking, and Kakyoin’s chest cavity lights up in purple fire due to guilt and dread and regret, so much regret.

Kakyoin wants to ask about his friends; he wants to know if Avdol is okay, if Iggy is okay, he wants to know if Polnareff and Joseph are alive, he wants to know about Jotaro, where are my friends, is DIO dead, how am I alive, why am I alive?

His father brings his free hand up to wipe his eyes.

Kakyoin swallows before rasping, “Where’s mom?”

His father lets out a breath before looking back up at Kakyoin. Kakyoin gets his eyes from him; purple irises and narrowed structure. Kakyoin’s never seen his father cry before, either.

“She’s home,” His father says. “She’s exhausted herself the past several hours. She needed to go home and rest lest she ends up in a hospital bed herself,”

It’s a joke, Kakyoin thinks, but neither of them laugh.

“...Where ‘m I?” He rasps.

His father takes a deep breath, squeezing Kakyoin’s hand. “You’re at Osaka University Hospital.”

Kakyoin blinks, brain chugging along. I’m…home… “How long?”

His father takes a deep breath, squeezing Kakyoin’s hand again. “It might be hard to hear.”

Kakyoin resists rolling his eyes. “How long?” He presses.

His father takes a deep breath. He has more creases than Kakyoin remembered, between his brows, near his mouth. The small burst of irritation fizzles out as regret swamps his chest again, encompassing, consuming, thick like sludge.

“Well…” His father pauses before he looks up to lock eyes with Kakyoin. “You’ve been in an on and off coma for about a year, but you probably don't remember the other times you were awake. You were moved to Osaka from Cairo around the seventh-month mark.”

The regret lining his insides suddenly gets very, very cold, as if being lit up with the coldest fire known to man, making his insides shrivel up. His lips part, but no sound comes out.

A year ? A YEAR?

Where the hell was Jotaro? Where was Mr. Joestar, Polnareff, Avdol, Iggy? Did they make it-

His father’s gaze is flitting over his face, brows furrowed in concern. Kakyoin takes a breath, only to lose grasp of it, his lungs slipping in their task. He grits his teeth, the muscles of his shoulders slightly tensing as if they’d tremble if they weren’t so weak.

Fuck. Weak. Muscle atrophy-

“W- Where are m’ friends?” Kakyoin heaves out, his tongue feeling big and heavy in his mouth, like wet cement.

His father blinks. “...Friends?”

Something in Kakyoin’s chest crumbles. Did they not…are they…are they…no- they can’t be dead- anything but dead-

Kakyoin can distantly hear his heart monitor picking up, but it’s as if he’s underwater, trapped in his own sluggish body as his mind races and cold fills his veins.

“Noriaki,” his father says, “do you mean- the- the men who dragged you out to the desert to die in the first place are your friends?”

Kakyoin blinks. “What?”

“Aren’t they the ones who kidnapped you?”

“What?!”

His father pauses. Kakyoin stares at him with wide eyes, chest bobbing up and down with shallow, fast breaths. His lungs still refuse to inflate enough to get an actual deep breath. His head is spinning like he’s not breathing at all.

“You disappear after we come back from Cairo,” His father starts, “and then come back to us about five months later in a coma and a band of strange men saying they were with you when it happened. What exactly is this, if not you having been kidnapped?”

Kakyoin swallows, tongue still so uncomfortable in his own mouth. How can he even begin to explain? How could he explain this without stands, without the full truth of DIO-

Sensing his distress, his father drops his accusatory and questioning stare, instead looking down at his hands. He sighs, bringing them up to take his glasses off, rubbing his eyes.

“I’m sorry,” he says, “it’s late. You should continue resting.”

Kakyoin presses his lips into a line. “They didn’t kidnap me.”

He hesitates, before tacking on, “They…helped me get away from the man who really did.” Sure, that wasn’t necessarily a lie… still such a humiliating half-truth, though, his skin prickling, hot.

His father blinks. “...And what, exactly, happened to the man who did?”

If the rest are still alive, then…

“Dead,” Kakyoin spits. His father immediately stops talking.

A few minutes of silence go by before Kakyoin’s father squeezes his hand again. Kakyoin closes his eyes and pretends to fall asleep. After a few minutes, he really does.


Osaka, Japan

February 10, 1990

His mother can’t look at him without crying.

It’s been about three weeks since he woke up for real, and every single time, his mother will burst into tears once during any conversation they have. It’s gotten to the point he begins to dread her visiting the hospital. He wishes he never went into a coma. He wishes he never woke up.

The good news, at least, is yes, yes, his friends are alive, and Kakyoin’s finally managed to get a damn phone to his ear and call them.

Joseph, of course, was the first person he called, considering his was the number the Speedwagon Foundation had on hand to give Kakyion when he asked. Joseph cried when he spoke, and Kakyoin had pressed his lips into a line over it, staying quiet. Just like mom…

Eventually, though, Joseph collected himself and promised he would visit immediately, which made Kakyoin’s heart soar, the muscle feeling the strongest it’s been since he woke up, steady and fluid and powerful, rushing blood through his body.

“I’ll bring Polnareff and Avdol, of course – they’re going to be so excited,” Joseph rambles, and Kakyion hums, a pleased buzz beginning to spread throughout his body, but someone is missing from Joseph’s lineup.

“And Jotaro?” Kakyoin asks, heart pounding less out of excitement and more out of antsiness now.

Joseph pauses, and Kakyoin’s heart really begins beating in earnest. Did- Did- Did Jotaro not survi-

“He’s- he’s at university right now, actually,” Joseph says, and Kakyoin blinks. Right. I was out for a year. Of course Jotaro’s moved on to the next stage of his life.

Desperation surges through his body like it was being fed to him through his IV.

“I’ll ask if he can come on such short notice,” Joseph promises, and Kakyoin turns back into the present, feeling alarmingly cold all of a sudden, “but he might be too busy. He might need to wait until a long weekend or something.”

Kakyoin nods, disappointment and hope fighting for dominance in his chest. “Right. Of course,” he says softly. His voice has slowly lost its crackly tone as his throat adjusted to speaking again, but it’s still quiet. His vocal cords don’t remember how to be loud. Kakyoin wonders if he could even laugh like he used to like this.

“I’ll see you soon,” Joseph promises. “...I’m so, so happy you’re awake, Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin swallows, throat tightening as the backs of his eyes burn. “...Thank you, Mr. Joestar.”

There’s a pause, a hesitation, before Kakyoin takes a breath, willing the emotion back down his throat. “I’ll see you soon.”


Osaka, Japan

Febuary 20, 1990

Kakyoin’s parents asked to supervise, but they allowed his friends to come – so Kakyoin doesn’t say anything, just glowers as he waits for the minutes to tick to 11 in the morning. Impatience twists in his gut and irritation at being babied makes him particularly restless, but he’s still too weak to do anything. He can’t even play with his fingers without his arms giving out after some minutes. It was pathetic. He was pathe-

The door opens then, and Kakyoin shoots his head up, only for a flash of white to flood his vision as he’s gently, but abruptly, hugged.

Kakyoin blinks rapidly before the smell of cologne and hairspray hits his nose, and his eyes burn as he reaches up to grasp onto Polnareff’s shirt.

His parents let out startled noises, but Kakyoin can’t care. He just buries his face in Polnareff’s shoulder and takes another deep breath of that stupid, stupid cologne of his.

“Kakyoin!” Polnareff shouts jovially, before he pulls back, grinning so widely at Kakyoin that his own cheeks hurt secondhandedly, his muscles tiring out at just the thought of smiling as intensely. “I- I-”

Polnareff pauses, patting Kakyoin’s shoulder with one hand as he reaches up with the other to wipe his eyes, and Kakyoin’s gut lurches. “I’m so glad you’re awake. Welcome back to the land of the living, you poor son of a bitch!”

His parents gasp at the language, and Polnareff blinks, as if only then noticing them. His face burns red when he realizes, and Kakyoin can’t help but laugh out loud, head thrown back.

It isn’t the way he used to laugh, but it’s a laugh nonetheless, and he can’t stop it.

“Hey!” Polnareff snarks and Kakyoin just laughs harder. His stomach hurts but Kakyoin can’t care. He’s missed this so much and he wasn’t even awake to feel the ache. He can’t imagine how Polnareff must feel himself.

“I can just leave if you’re going to laugh at me, you know,” Polnareff whines and Kakyoin just grins, shaking his head slightly and patting Polnareff’s shoulder before sagging against his mattress. “Can you introduce me and stop being a maniac?”

Kakyoin pinches Polnareff’s shoulder and he yelps before glaring at him, but Kakyoin just beams. “Polnareff,”

The glare immediately melts off and Polnareff’s gaze drops as he takes a deep breath.

“I missed you, Kakyoin,” Polnareff says quietly, and Kakyoin’s smile drops a bit. He gently pats Polnareff’s knuckles.

I missed you too.

Clearing his throat, which was already growing sore – great… – Kakyoin turns to his parents. “Mom, dad, this is Polnareff,” He greets, “Polnareff, my mom and dad, Saya and Yasuo.”

Polnareff bows his head politely, which Kakyoin blinks in surprise at. I shouldn’t be, Kakyoin recalls, Polnareff being charming is why Avdol even figured out he was fleshbudded… Still, the Polnareff he knows is the butt of all his jokes – he forgets, sometimes, that Polnareff actually is respectable to most people.

“A pleasure to meet you two properly,” Polnareff says. “Your son…he’s very smart. He’s a good friend.”

Kakyoin loses the breath in his lungs. Huh?

His parents blink in surprise at the change of demeanor, before his mother nods, offering a weak a smile. “It- um, it’s nice to know you’re a friend and not…” she trails off. Polnareff nods his understanding, however.

“Yes,” he says, “I’m sorry for the misunderstanding.”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow.

Before he can ask, however, the door opens again, and Kakyoin turns expectantly, grinning once again when he sees Avdol and Jospeh come through the door, Iggy sitting bored in a baby carrier slung on Joseph’s elbow.

“Kakyoin,” Avdol breathes, beaming, and Kakyoin’s own smile brightens even more, teeth gleaming past his lips.

“Avdol, Joseph,” Kakyoin beams. Iggy lets out an irritated snarl, startling his parents, but Kakyoin just rolls his eyes good-naturedly.

“Dog,” He offers. Iggy stands up in his basket and glares at Kakyoin, making Kakyoin laugh again. It’s different, it’s new, but it doesn’t have to be bad.

“Oh, get on over here,” Kakyoin beckons, and three out of his four friends swamp him.

Joseph sets Iggy’s basket down at the foot of his bed before jostling Polnareff and Avdol down, all lightly wrapping their arms around Kakyoin’s frame. Kakyoin is smiling so wide his cheeks hurt, the muscles slipping in their attempt to stay tensed for so long, but Kakyoin doesn’t care.

“You son of a bitch, I really thought you were going to die on us!” Joseph guffaws in loud, rough English, and it hits Kakyoin then that he’s been out for a year, and that Joseph is 70 now. 70.

Shit.

“Oh, fuck off,” Kakyoin snarks in English, “it’ll take more than that to kill me.” Avdol hides a wry smirk behind a prosthetic hand, similar to Joseph’s but gold in color. Kakyion stares openly, enamored with how the color glitters against Avdol’s dark skin, complementing the warm tone of it.

“You’re like a cockroach, huh, Kakyoin?” Avdol teases gently, and Kakyoin barks out a laugh before wincing, pain lacing up his spine over the sharp expansion of his diagram, and the room immediately goes quiet.

Hair prickling, Kakyoin glances up and around the room. Everyone has frozen, staring at him in concern, and Kakyoin’s skin crawls over it, the gazes tearing holes into him.

Shifting his jaw, Kakyoin spits out the first thing that comes to mind to break the silence: “Where’s Jotaro?”

The silence stays, but it shifts, less focused on Kakyoin; his friends’ eyes drop while his parents’ stay focused on them, confusion clear in their expressions.

Kakyoin’s fingers clench weakly against his blankets, the fabric scratchy against the skin, making him twitch.

Joseph clears his throat, patting Iggy absentmindedly, who nips at his metal fingers.

“Ah- he…couldn’t make it,” Joseph says after whipping his hand away from the terrier, who sniffs before sliding out of his baby carrier, making himself at home on the blankets near Kakyoin’s feet.

Kakyoin waits, but he doesn’t elaborate. He shifts his jaw, pushing back the knee-jerk thought of Is it really that hard to just hop a train and come see your friend who’s been in a year-long coma?

Kakyoin takes a deep, subtle breath. Okay. This is fine. It’s fine. It’s just like Joseph said: he’s at school. He can’t put his life on hold just because mine was.

Something still stings and burns underneath his ribs, and it makes him feel particularly pathetic, so he grits his teeth in a way he hopes looks like a smile and shakes his head. “Ah.”

He swallows, trying to compose himself. No one breaks the silence and it makes his skin crawl and his irritation spike white hot in his chest.

“Well.” He switches to Japanese then, inclining his head toward Joseph, Avdol, and Iggy jerkily. “Mom, dad, this is Avdol, Joseph, and Iggy- er, Avdol’s dog.”

His voice comes out flat and his friends don’t miss this, exchanging glances. Kakyoin wants to tear his hair out. Stop pitying me, stop pitying me, stop pitying m-

“Ah,” his mother says, switching to shaky English, glancing at the men and dog in question from head to toe, brows furrowed, calculating. “Nice to meet you. Saya…call me Saya.”

“Yasuo,” pipes up his father.

Avdol bows his head politely, while Joseph waves awkwardly. Iggy, of course, rubs his butt against Kakyoin’s foot. Kakyoin squints down at him.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you as well,” Avdol says in only slightly accented Japanese, and his parents blink in surprise before taking it in stride, their shoulders relaxing the tiniest bit.

“So,” Joseph transitions, drawing Kakyoin’s attention away from Iggy’s eccentricities, “how are you feeling?”

Once again, all eyes return to him. Kakyoin twitches, which makes his spine reverberate, which is a weird sensation because it’s so numb as it does. Kakyoin closes his eyes to avoid the stares, skin prickling. “Fine.”

He opens his eyes then, turning to Avdol. “How are you? Is- are you alright?”

Avdol smiles and a part of Kakyoin relaxes, falling back against the bed. “I’m alright. It was hard, at first, but,” he lifts his prosthetic, gently clenching his fingers before he goes and pats Iggy. Iggy opens an eye to stare but doesn’t attack. Kakyoin is vaguely reminded of the fact that Avdol is the only one who was allowed to pet Iggy on the journey. At least something hasn’t changed.

Soured at the thought, Kakyoin just nods. “I’m happy for you,” he says in a tone that is far more plastically polite than he would have preferred it to be when meeting with his friends at the end of everything, but this wasn’t really the end of the journey, was it? It was after the end. This is the remnant. Something in Kakyoin burns cold, right where his stomach should be. Maybe that’s what happened to it.

“Oh! Oh! Me too!” Polnareff butts in, and Kakyoin exhales before turning to him. Polnareff wiggles his fingers, and only then does Kakyoin realize Polnareff is missing his ring and little fingers on his left hand.

“I’m not wearing my prosthetic today,” Polnareff comments, “but that’s because I don’t need it as much. But it’s healed pretty well! Looks more like I just wasn’t born with them than that they got torn off, haha…”

Kakyoin hums, staring at the smoothed-over nubs, the skin healthy and mostly the same color as the surrounding. Kakyoin is reminded of the mess of scar tissue that now makes up his entire torso, how it’ll never heal right, even the parts that weren’t damaged to begin with, because those were what were used for the skin grafts. Kakyoin sinks down a bit in his bed.

The shift in his mood in palpable, and it just makes Kakyoin feel even weaker as his friends exchange worried glances above his head, as if he can’t see, as if he’s so self-absorbed he wouldn’t notice such an obvious tell, as if he needs to be taken care of-

“Are…how is the healing coming along?” Avdol asks then. Kakyoin twitches and Iggy yelps, the subtle jerk of Kakyoin’s leg knocking against one of his.

No, Kakyoin realizes, the absence of his leg. Iggy twists around, moving the nub away from Kakyoin’s finicky ankle, huffing as he glares at Kakyoin from over his shoulder. He moves so fluidly, despite the awkward terrain of lumpy hospital blankets and not having a leg, and Kakyoin comes to the mortifying realization he’s so out of practice he can’t even move like a dog can right now.

He feels like he’s burning alive. He feels like lava and gore and he wishes, maybe, they shouldn’t have come so soon. I should’ve woken up sooner. I should’ve never woken up at all.

“Kakyoin?” He remembers he was asked a question.

“Fine,” Kakyoin spits out. His voice is rough, but it’s been rough, so it’s easy to hide. Almost a year of not drinking anything directly would make anyone’s voice gravelly, and for once, Kakyoin is grateful. “The skin grafts are-” not good, they’re bumpy and red and so, so, gross compared to Polnareff or Avdol “-in place. Apparently, the first couple failed, but now I don’t have a hole in me anymore.”

Kakyoin’s voice is too flat, and the joke – was it a joke or a barb? He’s not sure – echoes it. His parents’ faces fall while his friends shift uncomfortably.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, closing his eyes. It’s not their fault. It’s not even yours. Chill the fuck out. You chose this. DIO did it, but you chose it.

“...They’re gonna put some rods in my spine next week,” Kakyoin murmurs then, voice softer, “so I can begin trying out physical therapy – or at least sitting up.”

Polnareff beams at the news and Avdol smiles.

“It’ll be a bit of a gamble,” His mother pipes up in English. Kakyoin jerks his gaze to her and she meets it evenly. “But I know if anyone can handle it, it’ll be you, Noriaki.”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. He drops his gaze.

“Be sure to get rest before and after the procedure,” Avdol says. “You’ll want to be unconscious for as much of the process it takes for your body to get used to the new additions as you can.”

Kakyoin bites back a comment Is that what you did, then? , deeming it too rude, just nodding stiffly instead. His head is starting to get fuzzy, and for once, he welcomes it as the painkillers in his IV begin their bihourly run into his system. It’s cold against his anger, washing it out, and Kakyoin closes his eyes as the wildfire of desperation in his chest is soothed.

“He needs some rest now, too,” He can hear his mother comment. “His painkillers are sent out every two hours; they must be going through his system again now.”

Kakyoin could protest – he’s not exactly tired, not yet, he has a few more minutes of coherency – but he does nothing as his parents lead his friends out of the room, promises of “You can continue talking tomorrow when he’s awake,” echoing in his head.

A part of him is relieved, and he hates it. He’s missed so much, and now he’s missing more? He’s choosing to miss more? For what, this- this…

…sleep?

Kakyoin takes a deep breath. Once he’s out of the hospital, he is never sleeping again, not until he’s caught up. His heart beats painfully in his chest despite the painkillers trying to soothe it. I need to catch up. I’ve got to catch up. I’ve got to catch up, I’ve got to catch up -

He falls unconscious.


His friends stick around for a few more days after that, but Kakyoin’s mood doesn’t necessarily get any better, unless the painkillers make his mind too fuzzy to remember what he’s even pissy about.

But he also forgets to be ashamed of his own self when Iggy jumps up on the second day, snatching Kakyoin’s hospital food right out of his mother’s hands, much to her affrontment and Kakyoin’s shrieking laughter. Avdol abashedly scolds him as he chews, but Kakyoin can’t stop laughing, and Polnareff, Joseph, and eventually Avdol join in.

He forgets to be mad when Polnareff teaches him a new card game and Kakyoin wins on his first try, smiling smugly when Polnareff groans and hands him money, not noticing Hierophant slip away after Kakyoin had his stand gently reshuffle the deck, one card at a time, in order to get the better hand.

He forgets to be bitter when Avdol shows up early one morning with chai tea, winking at him and saying, “They say only liquids for now, right?” before pouring them both cups, his own with some lemon, Kakyoin’s pure chai, and Kakyoin can pretend the blur in his vision is because he sipped when it was too hot.

He forgets to feel desperation burning his energy out before he can even get started on anything when Joseph presents a check to his parents, intending for it to cover his trans-continental medical bills and soon-to-begin physical therapy, and his squawking at his parents’ huff that they can take care of their son on their own, thank you, Mr. American Millionaire. Joseph tuts and turns to Kakyoin, shaking his head like Can you believe this? And Kakyoin just laughs out loud before saying, “Mr. Joestar, how expensive do you think medical care is, exactly, in the rest of the world?” and Joseph’s following flush.

But his friends leave, and soon all Kakyoin has is the medicine, but it makes him so damn tired. He can’t keep sleeping; he wakes up even more desperate every time he does, his heart beating faster and faster every time he opens his eyes.

I’ve got to catch up, I’ve got to catch up, I’ve got to catch up.

His chest hurts.

And where is Jotaro?


Osaka, Japan

Febuary 26, 1990

A few days after his friends leave, Holly arrives.

At first, Kakyoin doesn’t even recognize her: with no apron and her hair now cropped short into a pixie cut, Kakyoin’s drug-addled mind almost mistakes her for a new nurse until she takes a seat by his bedside and gently sets a basket of fruit on his bedside table.

Stirring, Kakyoin narrows his eyes, trying to focus, but she speaks and the hair on his neck tingles.

“Sorry for waking you,” she says in Japanese that’s only slightly accented, and Kakyoin jerks, blinking rapidly as his vision refocuses.

“M- Mrs. Holly?” Kakyoin asks dumbly, the dredges of his doze and his painkillers blurring his brain into his skull, making it hard to think.

She smiles, her crow’s feet crinkling a bit, and Kakyoin wakes up a little more at the realization that, Yes, Mrs. Holly is here. What is she doing here?

“What are you doing here?” Kakyoin asks, only to snap his jaw shut at his own impoliteness. Holly just chuckles, however, brows furrowing in a way that doesn’t read quite right, but Kakyoin can’t place why.

“I’m sort of surprised you remember my name!” Holly chuckles, and Kakyoin’s brows crease in confusion.

“Why wouldn’t I remember?”

She shrugs. “We only talked once. I figured you’d only remember me as ‘Mrs. Kujo,’ not ‘Mrs. Holly.”

“Jojo always called you Holly,” Kakyoin blurts out, “so that’s what- that’s what stuck.”

Holly immediately goes quiet, not outright freezing, but pausing, becoming very, very still. Kakyoin blinks as his consciousness sharpens a bit more, the outline of his brain starting to stand out more against his skull.

“He did?” She asks quietly. Kakyoin stays silent, instead trying to read her face. Her gaze is intentionally focused on the basket of fruit she had set down, her face pinched in a way that doesn’t quite match the upward curl of her lip, which is slowly slipping.

Holly blinks after just a second, though, and Kakyoin doesn’t get to see what her facade was slipping off of. “Oh! Sorry. Yes, of course…well, I’m flattered, anyway.”

Kakyoin squints, but Holly moves forward before he can open his mouth.

“Your mother mentioned you like sweet things, so I brought you some fruit, as a sort of…” Holly smooths her skirt, taking a deep breath, before glancing up and meeting Kakyoin’s eye for the first time in the conversation. “Well, to say thank you.”

Kakyoin blinks. “What are you thanking me for?”

Holly blinks in turn. “What do you mean?”

Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably, dropping his gaze. “I…I appreciate the fruit, Mrs. Holly, but- I mean, I only woke up. You don’t need to thank me for that…” A thought occurs to him, and his heart releases a burst of adrenaline, straight from his chest. Unless Jotaro asked-?

“It’s not ‘only,’” Holly comments, lip curling a bit in her firmness. It reminds Kakyoin of a dog a little bit. “You woke up from almost a year-long coma, that’s something to be proud of!”

Kakyoin skims his teeth against the inside of his lip but says nothing. Holly continues without his prompting anyway.

“And…well…” Holly sighs, the folds of her crow’s feet not quite landing right with the weight of the expression on her face. Kakyoin’s brow furrows. “You only got into that coma while on a journey to save my life. I don’t pretend that that was the only reason…but Papa – Joseph – mentioned it was a factor. That you had said it was a factor.”

Kakyoin is quiet, mind slowly sharpening and blurring as the medication runs through his system, like the focus of a microscope. I didn’t do it for you. I didn’t want you to die, but I didn’t do it for you…

Finally, he shakes his head. “It’s true I didn’t want you to die,” Kakyoin says, “but…” he takes a deep breath. This is awkward… “I didn’t…I didn’t do it to be thanked.”

Holly chuckles. “Of course not. I don’t think anyone would go this far for a thanks.” Her face turns serious then, eyes gleaming, and Kakyoin sits up straight. The resemblance between her and Jotaro has never been clearer. “But, if I’m being honest, this is more a thanks for you protecting Papa and Jotaro than for protecting me. I know they can both be stubborn and refuse help…” Holly shakes her head. “So…thank you. For taking care of them, when I couldn’t.”

Kakyoin stays silent then. You don’t know the lengths I'd go for them. You don’t know the lengths I’ve already gone. They’re my family too.

  …At least this reasoning is a thanks I can accept, though.

Kakyoin takes a breath, shaking his head. “I…yes. Of course. They need someone with a brain.”

Holly laughs, but it sounds a little wet, and to his horror, Kakyoin watches as she dabs her eyes with her sleeve. “I- ha! Yes. Yes…”

“Mrs. Holly…?”

Holly waves a hand, smiling at Kakyoin. “I’m sorry. I just…I really am grateful. Papa…he told me, without you, he’d be dead- he and Jotaro both would be dead, so- so-” She takes a deep breath while Kakyoin sits, tense and awkward. “So thank you.”

Kakyoin presses his mouth into a slight line. “It…it was my pleasure.”

Holly beams then and Kakyoin isn’t sure what to do about it.

“Ah, well,” Holly lightly claps her hands together, jerking Kakyoin out of his reprieve. “I shouldn’t eat up all your time – I didn’t even expect to get to talk to you today, so I guess I just got a little ahead of myse-”

“Wait,” Kakyoin interjects, surprising both himself and Holly.

Opening and closing his mouth once, twice, Kakyoin presses his lips into a line as embarrassment burns through him before he spits out, “I- thank you. For the fruit.”

Holly smiles then, nodding. “Of course. It’s…the least I can do-”

“Um. I can’t eat it, though.”

Holly stares for a moment, before she gasps, straightening and covering her mouth. “I- oh my god-” -the phrase reminds Kakyoin so starkly of Joseph that something in his gut burns, and he almost panics, thinking his pain medication had somehow worn off- “I’m so sorry, I completely forgot you aren’t allowed solid food yet! I’m so sorry-”

“It- no- it’s okay,” Kakyoin assures. “I just…um. Stay and eat some, then…since I can’t. Enjoy it for me.”

Holly blinks before she smiles – it’s soft though, her brows furrowing downward and eyes darting down, the wrinkles near her lower lids becoming more obvious with the movement. “Oh. You’re very kind, Kakyoin, but I wouldn’t want to intrude…”

“Please,” Kakyoin can’t help but scoff, “It’s so boring here, so think of it as a favor if you need to.”

Holly hesitates a little longer before nodding, settling back down in the chair beside his cot. “I…well. Thank you, Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin doesn’t say anything, discomfort prickling under his skin. She says thank you so much…

Holly hesitates before reaching over and picking up an orange. She stares at it for a moment before sighing, digging a fingernail into the peel, and beginning to unravel it. “How have you been feeling, Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. Everyone asks him this. “Just…fine. The painkillers are being weaned off, but right now I still can’t really feel anything because of them.”

Holly nods. “That’s good that you’re not in pain. I hope it doesn’t get too bad as the painkillers are taken away.”

Kakyoin hums, glancing down at the sheets. As it stands, he can’t even move his toes. It’s a little surreal, staring at the fold of blanket where he knows his foot is – or so he assumes. He can’t feel it. It’s so… weird.

Holly finishes unpeeling the orange, but she doesn’t take a slice, instead just staring at it. She isn’t smiling, something in her eyes distant and sad. Kakyoin can’t take it, irritation flashing in his chest. Why is this room always such a pity party?

“How’s- how’s Jotaro?” He ends up spitting out.

Holly goes very, very still. Why does everyone react like that when Jotaro comes up? He is alive, so why-

“He’s…” Holly’s voice is soft, eyes glazed, and Kakyoin would feel bad for asking if he didn’t wasn’t so depserate to know what was going on.

“Did something happen?” Kakyoin cuts to the point, voice edged and a pitch higher. “No one will talk to me about him without hesitating. Did- Did DIO-” Did he do something to him the way he did something to me-?

“No, no,” Holly quickly cuts in, taking a deep breath, before smiling warmly. It doesn’t reach her eyes and it makes Kakyoin twitch at the glaze it tries to paint over him, stiff and sticky and uncomfortable. “He’s- he’s okay. DIO didn’t injure… He’s okay.”

Holly takes another pause, but she continues before Kakyoin can grow even more impatient. “He’s, um, in America.”

Kakyoin blinks, the tinder that was starting to light in his chest immediately going out, his lungs like deflated balloons. “He’s…what?”

Holly smiles, but she doesn’t lift her gaze from her lap. “He’s going to university in America. He got accepted to the University of Miami. It’s, um…” Holly’s smile fades. “He’s just started his second semester.”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, staring dumbly at Holly. …America?

…No wonder he couldn’t just hop a train to visit.

I need to catch up.

A part of Kakyoin clings to the reasoning, but another part hesitates, caught up in Holly’s heavy lids and brows, like the weight of the world was pressing in on her.

“Did he, um…visit?” Kakyoin asks weakly. “...During break?” Did I wake up right after his break ended? What exactly is his schedule?

Holly clears her throat. “Um, he…no, he didn’t come home for winter break. Said it, uh…wouldn’t be worth the trouble.”

Kakyoin blinks before his brows furrow. “A- aren’t- don’t American schools have long breaks, though?”

Holly tries to smile – or so Kakyoin thinks; it looks more like she’s trying not to cry. “Yes, but…he’s just…he’s busy. He wants to get in good with the professors so he can get an internship as fast as possible. He has a plan, but he hasn’t told me what, yet. Just that he’d do his best…”

Holly smiles, but it’s still too stiff, and it echoes how confused and rattled Kakyoin feels a little too well. “He is. Doing his best, I mean. I know he is. I’m…so proud of him…”

It almost comes out like a question, like Holly isn’t sure if she should praise this behavior. Kakyoin swallows thickly.

“Well,” he says, voice heavy, “he…Jojo never did things halfheartedly.”

Holly chuckles, but it’s a tad darker than the comment called for. “Yes. That’s true.”

Kakyoin squirms, uncomfortable. He isn’t sure what to make of the new revelations.

He can’t put his life on hold just because mine was.

The thought rings heavy and low in Kakyoin’s head, echoing down to his chest. Don’t be selfish, a part of him whispers. I deserve to be a little selfish, snaps back another part, the same part that’s beginning to claw at Kakyoin’s soft tissues from the inside out.

A nurse pops his head in then, saving Kakyoin and Holly from the conversation. “Um, Mrs. Kujo, Mr. Kakyoin will be getting another dose of medicine soon, so he should rest.”

Holly jumps before nodding, placing her uneaten orange back in the basket. “Oh, of course.”

She turns to Kakyoin then, smiling sheepishly, sadly. “Um, I’m sorry about that. Thank you for humoring me.”

“I should be saying that,” Kakyoin replies dazedly.

Holly shrugs, still with that awful smile. “Well…still. Thank you. Thank you for everything.”

Kakyoin opens his mouth, but he can’t respond. Holly doesn’t really wait for him to, anyway; she gets up, smooths her skirt, then heads to the door with the nurse. Kakyoin hesitates before calling, “Wait!”

Holly turns then.

Flame flickering under his skin, Kakyoin mutters, “Um…I…” I have no way of contacting Jotaro. “Feel free to visit again,” he says instead.

Holly blinks before smiling, and Kakyoin lets out a breath – it’s a real one this time, one that pinches her crow’s feet like a smile on a woman her age is supposed to.

“Thank you, Kakyoin,” she says. Kakyoin just nods, only feeling minorly guilty over his ulterior motive.

Holly leaves.


Osaka, Japan

April 9, 1990

“Nori!” cheers Ryoko from the other side of the walkway, pumping her little fist in the air. “Come on Nori! You can do it!”

Kakyoin grits his teeth and avoids snapping at her. She’s being supportive, seethes the only good part of him. She’s being annoying, snarls the rest. Kakyoin stays quiet.

“One step at a time,” the physical therapist by his side is saying, arms at the ready in case he collapses. He knows that’s just part of her job, that the hands hovering beside him are not there due to doubt but due to safety, but he can feel something in his cheek twitch as his grip tightens around the bars. He shuffles his feet forward.

A couple of months ago, he finally had surgery to place expandable rods in his lower back and metal disks all throughout his spine so he could hopefully learn to walk again. Physical therapy had been fine for the first while – it was mostly about seeing if he could wake up the nerves in his legs again at all with some small flexing.

But now it was time for walking, and Kakyoin is reminded his arms had atrophied too, with how they shake and buckle under his weight. I used to be fine. I used to be able to hold more than my own weight.

Gritting his teeth and hating the bead of sweat rolling down his forehead more than anything in the world, Kakyoin slides his sweaty palms forward, dragging his numb feet along with him. His toes twitch, but his legs don’t move.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” the nurse says pleasantly, “try and move your legs instead of drag-”

“I’m trying,” Kakyoin snaps unthinkingly before he cringes, hanging his head down. “...I- I’m sorry.”

The nurse says nothing, keeping her professionalism. “Just try again,” she says. “I know it’s frustrating. It won’t be quick, but every bit adds to the whole.”

Kakyoin sucks in a deep breath that immediately wooshes back out of his lungs and then, arms shaking, slides forward again with his hands and tries to at least jerk his legs forward.

His thighs twitch, spazzing, one leg sort of swinging before stopping. Kakyoin puts all his might into tensing his leg, but the muscles don’t respond. Kakyoin can’t tell if it’s because of weakness or the disconnect from his brain with his fucked up spine.

His hands curl even tighter around the balance bar, nails reaching his palms and digging into the skin.

It shouldn’t be so hard to walk just TWO METERS-

Kakyoin grunts, chest heaving, nerves jerking, sweat beading on his forehead, slipping down, just like his stupid fucking legs-

“Come on!” Kakyoin snaps haggardly, feeling a strand of his bangs beginning to get weighed down with dampness. It was infuriating.

A dull ache was starting to reach up from his lower back, spreading throughout his hips, tingling down into the bone past the skin and muscle. Kakyoin clenches his teeth and wills and-

His leg shoots forward and he gasps in relief, jerking his palms along to keep his balance, the rush of air as he shoots forward cooling the sweat on his forehead-

His spine then explodes in pain, like an engined switched on, hot and burning and fuck, he was going to die, he was dying, he was dying-

Kakyoin drops, sweat-slicked palms slipping off the balance bar, and down he goes, crumpling. He lands awkwardly, legs unresponsive to his brain’s attempts to get them to cushion his fall, and he sits awkwardly on his tailbone as a result. His nerve do not like this- ohh, they do not like it, he really is dying, everything fucking hurts-

His stomach starts hurting then, a dull ache where his guts should be, and Kakyoin swallows thickly to get the bile to back off-

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Hands on his shoulders, his nerves are too sensitive, everything hurts so much please-

“Ryoko-chan, grab a doctor!” He can faintly hear past the ringing in his ears, and he glances up just in time to see his frightened baby cousin dart out of the room, nodding her head jerkily before she does.

“Wa- wait,” Kakyoin wheezes, if he’s dying he wants someone there, not alone, not again, please he doesn’t want to be ALONE AGAIN-

The physical therapist is talking to him, words he can’t hear, and her grip on his shoulders tightens, his legs are numb his feet are tingling his back hurts, it hurt,s it hurts, it hurts-

Kakyoin throws up and his vision goes black.


Osaka, Japan

August 21, 1990

It’s near the end of summer when Polnareff and Avdol visit again in person for his birthday.

They’re laughing as they come in, Iggy once again in a baby carrier slung on Polnareff’s arm. It jerks Kakyoin out of his painkiller-induced doze; they’re still lowering his dosages, but he’s at a more stable level now, with most of his doses being shot in during the evening so they put him to sleep and in the morning. It’s nice, Kakyoin thinks sleepily as he blinks, tapping at the controls of his hospital cot to sit himself up, to not have to worry about insomnia bouts anymore.

“Kakyoin!” Polnareff calls, reaching over to ruffle Kakyoin’s hair. Kakyoin jerks, face immediately twisting into a scowl, only to furrow his brows and hiss in pain when fire flares up his spine. Polnareff immediately retracts his hand and a part of Kakyoin burns even hotter. I’m not going to break-

“How are you feeling, Kakyoin?” Avdol asks, and Kakyoin needs to bite back any smart comments.

This takes most of his brainpower, however, and he ends up just replying with, “Cold.”

Avdol blinks while Kakyoin scowls at his own ineloquence. “Cold?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “They – the nurses – always say I’m so pale, but then they never open my curtains cause ‘you’ll get sunburned!’ or something. It’s freezing in here, though…I’d love to see the sun.”

Avdol and Polnareff exchange glances before Polnareff shrugs and says, “Well, the sun isn’t angled on you right now anyway, so…”

He gets up then, striding over to Kakyoin’s window, then pulls apart the blue curtains, letting in the midmorning sunlight from outside.

Kakyoin blinks as he stares out; he can see the rise of buildings around the hospital and a pale blue sky with no cloud in sight. It’s a beautiful day, he muses. I want to be out there…

He can’t tell if there’s a small breeze or not. His skin itches to feel one.

“What’s all this?”

Kakyoin’s attention is diverted to Avdol, who’s gesturing with shiny golden fingers to the stack of books near his bedside.

“Oh,” Kakyoin says, eyes trailing down the list of titles. He’s read more than he’s realized. “Those are from Mrs. Holly — Jojo’s mom.”

“Holly?!” Polnareff hollers, making Kakyoin scowl at his volume. “She’s visited?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes lightheartedly. “Obviously. She’s signed the inside covers of the books with little notes if you don’t believe me.”

Polnareff immediately snatches one up while Avdol smiles, settling in a chair beside Kakyoin’s bedside. Iggy yips and Polnareff yelps while Avdol cringes, gaze darting to the door.

“Iggy!” he scoulds, “we promised you could only come up if you kept quiet!”

Kakyoin bites back a bubble of chuckles. “Di- did you sneak Iggy in here?”

“Both times,” Avdol says before turning to Iggy, shushing him and pulling him up out of the carrier and onto Kakyoin’s cot. Iggy huffs, rolling his eyes in a rather human-like way, before he sniffs at Kakyoin and then settles by the foot of his cot again.

Kakyoin laughs out loud, ignoring the small murmurs of pain his stomach sends out over it. “Avdol,” He giggles, “you- you-”

“Shh!” Avdol shushes, glancing at the door. Polnareff begins laughing then, settling in the chair on Kakyoin’s other side.

“Get this; it was his idea both times, too,” Polnareff says conspiratorily.

“Polnareff!” Avdol nearly shrieks, hiding his face in his metal hands. “I- I have a reputation, you can just say I volunteered to bring in an unsanitary dog into a hospi-”

Iggy growls then and Kakyoin throws his head back against his pillows, laughing out right. His stomach hurts, dampening his mood, sharp spears of pain shooting up with every sudden inhale he takes, but Kakyoin doesn’t care. He doesn’t care.

“Wa-wait,” Kakyoin snickers, “what did you say? Did you really just say Iggy was a baby?”

“He said he was my baby!” Polnareff complains. Avdol groans. “Because of the ‘white hair’! Iggy’s fur is black!”

“And white,” Avdol weakly shoots back, squinting up at Polnareff. “He is also white.”

Polnareff rolls his eyes good naturedly. “The black ruins the whole ‘family resemblance’ you try to push though!”

Avdol purses his lips, eyes narrowing. Kakyoin almost opens his mouth, but then Avdol smirks and clicks his tongue. “The family resemblance is more the facial features than the pigmentation…”

Polnareff blinks before turning as red as Kakyoin’s hair was when he first dyed it at 15, and Kakyoin howls, guffawing despite the pain continuously racking up his sides as Polnareff sputters, “I- you- are you saying I look like a dog?!”

Avdol shrugs innocently and Kakyoin shrieks with laughter, but it’s cut short when pain too sharp to ignore shoots through his stomach, and he immediately cuts himself off, hissing abruptly.

With no hesitation, Avdol and Polnareff stop their banter, turning concerned gazes and hovering hands to Kakyoin. “Are you okay?” Polnareff asks, dropping his faux-offended sneer, brows now twisting in such pity.

Kakyoin can feel his lip twitch. “Fine.” He coughs lightly, mortifyingly, before he shakes his head, ignoring the way his muscles ache and spasm against his ribs.

“Kakyoin-” Avdol starts to say, metal hands reaching for him, gears clicking smoothly in his fingers, and Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut.

I’m fine,” He snaps again, “I’m not a baby, can you both calm down?”

The room is blanketed in tense silence, with Avdol’s brows furrowed and Polnareff’s eyes narrowed calculatingly on Kakyoin’s form. The hair rises on the back of Kakyoin’s neck. Stop fucking looking at me like that. I’m not broken, I’m not broken, I’m not fucking broken.

Iggy is the one to break the silence, something outside making him perk his ears and howl outright. Avdol immediately cringes and Polnareff whips his head to face him, shushing him aggressively.

“Iggy!”

Kakyoin snickers before shaking his head, attempting to nudge Iggy with his foot, but the muscles don’t even twitch. Kakyoin’s mirth drips off his face, scowling down at his own legs. Thankfully, Avdol and Polnareff are too preoccupied with shushing Iggy to notice, Kakyoin realizes, before he schools his features. Irritation lurks in his chest. Can’t do shit. Gotta catch up, gotta catch up, gotta

“Anyway,” Avdol sighs after giving Iggy a stick of coffee gum, the dog smugly chewing with his mouth open as his stumpy tail wags slowly. “So, Holly has visited? What about anyone else?”

Kakyoin purses his lips. “Well, my parents, obviously.”

Avdol snorts. “Well, of course. I just meant…” he hesitates, and Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. “...Has Jojo come by, yet?”

Kakyoin blinks before his chest sags down, disappointment and bitterness sloshing like a particularly dense, cold liquid, right around his sternum, where the hole in his body is. “No. He’s at school, isn’t he?”

Avdol and Polnareff exchange glances which make Kakyoin bristle, but Polnareff pipes up before Kakyoin can get really riled up. “Well, sure, but American schools have, like, really long summer vacations.”

Kakyoin pauses. “Do they now,” he asks icily.

Avdol sighs, shaking his head, rubbing his forehead gently with the fingers of his prosthetic. “...I’m worried about him,” Avdol admits. “He hasn’t talked to us much, either.”

At least he’s talked to you at all, Kakyoin thinks unfairly, but he has enough tact not to say it out loud. …At least it’s not personal, then. Right?

Kakyoin stares at the prosthetics of his friends and thinks of the hole in his stomach. He thinks of Holly’s words – DIO didn’t injure…no. He’s okay. Something sharp surges in him.

Polnareff glances between him and Avdol for a moment before he clears his throat, shaking his head. “So, any idea when you’re getting out of this joint?”

“Polnareff,” Avdol scolds, but Kakyoin takes the distraction, shrugging while also scowling.

“No. With this stupid fucking muscle atrophy, they-” Kakyoin cuts himself off, sucking in a deep breath. Why can’t any conversation with my friends these days just be pleasant? He thinks sourly. A coma for one year. His fingers itch, but they don’t have the energy to twitch. I need to fucking catch up.

“Ah, right,” Polnaeff stammers, and Kakyoin just closes his eyes and clenches his jaw tight, stomach rolling, tongue curling with cruel words he wouldn’t mean if he let out. It’s no one’s fault but- it’s not his fault, dammit, why-

“Do…” Avdol clears his throat, clasping his metal hands together. Kakyoin’s eyes shoot open and he squints at them wearily. Gold… “Do you need tips? Physical therapy was hard for me, too, at first, but Mr. Joesta-”

“No,” Kakyoin snarls with a venom that surprises even himself, his throat aching with the sharpness his voice exhibited, something in his chest plunging into cold water immediately after the word leaves his mouth.

Avdol and Polnareff both go silent. Iggy’s ears flop down sharply against his head, down low against his skull. Kakyoin stares at his – useless, useless, USELESS – feet.

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, but he can’t take back the single word. Kakyoin swallows thickly, averting his gaze out the window. He can just imagine the faint scent of pollen and grass. He doesn’t know what floor he’s on, he realizes. He might be too high to smell the earth.

A machine by his side clicks, and Kakyoin can feel coolness stream into his veins as his pain medication is delivered. Immediately, he relaxes, sinking into his pillows, his eyelids growing heavier at just the thought of relief, but he keeps them open.

I’m sorry, he wants to say. Instead, he opens his mouth and says, softly, “Where are you two living now?”

Avdol flushes red at the fact Kakyoin didn’t even question if they were traveling together, stammering, while Polnareff laughs loudly, his own face also tinting pink.

“We’re, ah, kinda just exploring together,” Polnareff admits. “We went back to New York with Mr. Joestar for a while, but,” his nose wrinkles then, sniffing. “That city is disgusting.”

Kakyoin snorts while Avdol chuckles. Avdol turns his gaze from Kakyoin to Polnareff, and Kakyoin gets a front row seat to how Avdol’s face relaxes, brows tilting upward as he stares at the man with a small smile on his face. Kakyoin has half the mind to gag, but Polnareff would notice then, and he’s not that shit of a friend.

Polnareff glances up anyway then, and his face tints a little redder. Kakyoin snorts, teeth showing from his snicker, and Polnareff scoffs at him before standing up, heading to the window.

“Hope you don’t have allergies,” Polnareff snarks, “cause I want some air.”

Kakyoin tries to respond, but his tongue is starting to feel like cotton in his mouth as the pain medication takes effect. Instead, he waves Polnareff off, shooting a raised brow toward Avdol like, Get a load of this guy.

“You better hope he doesn’t, or else his nurses will hunt you down,” Avdol jokes, and Polnareff huffs goodnaturedly.

Avdol smiles at him and Kakyoin can almost forget his outburst. Polnareff slides open the window and the next inhale Kakyoin takes, he can smell grass clippings and the faint remains of the morning’s dew, and he smiles, closing his eyes.

The pain medication makes Kakyion forget the ball of lead in his gut, and he thinks, I like myself better this way before he falls asleep.

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Chapter 17: Intermission 2: Act 2

Notes:

WAH here is the second half as promised <3
my quarter of field studying is finally done so I'm back home for the summer and ready to go! Hopefully this means I will go back to fairly frequent updates, but I'll keep you all updated
in the meantime, enjoy this chapter! we'll go back to present events in the next one >:)

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Chapter Text

Osaka, Japan

October 13, 1990

“Are you mad at me?” Ryoko asks one day as she and Kakyoin play rock paper scissors idly, which more often than not results in Kakyoin using Hierophant to distract her so he can switch his hand to beat her own.

Kakyoin blinks, glancing up at her. Her face is unexpressive for a nine-year-old’s, staring down at Kakyoin’s blanket rather than up at him.

“Why would I be mad at you?” Kakyoin asks.

Ryoko’s cheeks puff up then, her face sliding into a grimace. Kakyoin frowns. “Ryon-Ryon, what’s wrong?”

Ryoko stares down at her hands before looking up finally, brown eyes wide. “The man,” she ends up whispering, “that took you. You were scared he was going to hurt me, right?”

Kakyoin blinks before a surge of protectiveness runs through him, cold, but it makes his muscles burn hot in a way he hasn’t felt since the journey. “He- I would never let him.”

Ryoko shakes her head, face beginning to scrunch up. “I know. But I couldn’t- I couldn’t make sure he wouldn’t hurt you, either.”

Kakyoin bites back any sharp comments – it’s not an insult, stop, he hisses to himself – and instead says, “You don’t- you didn’t need to worry about that-”

“But he took you!” Ryoko spits out then, voice raising, tears beginning to fill her eyes. “He took you when you were trying to protect me and I didn’t- I didn’t-” She sniffles, burying her head into her arms while Kakyoin can only blink at the outburst. “I didn’t save you, like you saved me,” Ryoko whimpers from behind her hands. “Th-that’s why you’d b-be mad at me!”

Understanding dawns in Kakyoin’s mind. He sighs, bringing a hand up to gently pat Ryoko’s head. “Hey,” he murmurs, “Ryon-Ryon. Ryoko.”

She sniffles before looking up. Only a few tears have seemed to escape, most of them still collected on her lower lid, making her eyes shine.

“I’m not mad at you,” Kakyoin says. Ryoko sniffs.

“B-but you’ve been so- so upset lately,” she cries. “You’re s-so unhappy…mama and a-auntie talk about it a lot. Th-they’re worried…and I feel like it’s my fault!”

Ironically, rage floods his system at the revelation – Who are they, to worry so much about me? I’m an adult now dammit, I – but Kakyoin quickly shoves it aside, making room for the just as hot, but more agonizing burn of shame.

“I- Ryoko,” Kakyoin sputters, his insides twisting uncomfortably. “I- no, I’m not- I-”

Ryoko stares up at him, eyes wide, brows scrunched up close together and her mouth set into a tense, wide frown. Kakyoin swallows.

“I know I’ve been…mean, lately,” Kakyoin says quietly, “but I’m not- it’s not because of you. I just don’t like being in the hospital, is all.”

Ryoko sniffs. “But- but you wouldn’t be in the hospital if I had just s-”

“Ryoko,” Kakyoin interrupts and she shuts her mouth. Kakyoin swallows, moving his arms cautiously, making sure his spine doesn’t shift with their movement. He takes her hands – so much smaller than his own, he notes with a flash of ferocity – How dare DIO try to hurt her – and squeezes them. “I’m here because of my choices. I chose this. Okay? Not you. I did this. No one controlled me,” He says, tone perhaps a little too bitter as memories of the fleshbud zip through his mind. Ryoko stares up intently, trembling slightly. “I’m just- I didn’t expect the consequences of my choices to be this…severe,” He admits, “but that’s all. I wouldn’t…take any of it back. I don’t regret it.” Something twists in his stomach.

Ryoko stares up at him for a minute, not responding, before she launches forward, wrapping her arms around his neck. “Nori,” she sobs, “I missed you. I was really scared, and I felt it was my fault, and-”

Kakyoin pats her back, leaning his head back as she cries. “It’s okay,” he attempts, the words feeling stiff and blocky in his mouth. “It’s okay.”

Shame wins the fight against rage in his stomach, and he closes his eyes tightly against it as it burns scorchmarks into his chest.

Right as Kakyoin thinks he can’t bear it anymore, a burst of cool blue sinks into his bloodstream from his IV again, and Kakyoin exhales with an open mouth, relaxing his tensing muscles. The pain medication…

It always stomped the fire of irritation out. Kakyoin presses his lips together tightly as Ryoko heaves the last of her tears into his shoulder.

He’d suffered enough consequences for his choices now, right?

Kakyoin lets Ryoko pull back as the pain medication swims through his body.

Surely he can start making new choices again, now.


Osaka, Japan

January 1, 1991

New years in a hospital is depressing. Kakyoin can feel irritation building. It was past midnight; his parents and Ryoko had stayed up with him (or, in Ryoko’s case, only tried to, before falling asleep in her little plastic chair) and when the clock struck twelve, his mother gave him a small, genuine smile, and said: “Welcome back, Noriaki.”

He did not feel like he was back anywhere. The hospital felt like limbo.

His father had mentioned getting Ryoko to a more comfortable place to sleep, so his parents had taken their leave for the evening. Ryoko had sleepily waved to him as they headed out. Kakyoin didn’t wave back. His fingers itch now; he wishes he did.

Now, he’s just waiting for either sleep or the phone; Avdol had promised, after finding out he and Polnareff would be off somewhere doing something, that he would call to make up for not being there in person. Kakyoin stares venomously at the phone. The seconds wear on.

Distantly, he can hear fireworks pop outside of his window. He stubbornly ignores it, staring only at the phone, eyelids growing heavy with the malice he’s tying to them via his glare.

He shouldn’t be mad. He isn’t even sure who he’s mad at in the first place, actually. Maybe he doesn’t get to be angry.

He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. I need to chill out, fuck, why can’t I just calm down these days?

Well, he supposes that wasn’t true. He glances at his IV, then back at the clock. Only a few more minutes until his next dose…

Hopefully, it would hit before Avdol and Polnareff finally called, and he wouldn’t be pissy toward them again.

The phone finally rings, and he jumps, only to hiss in a breath when his spine complains over the sudden movement. Stupid piece of fucking useless, pathetic shit-

Kakyoin wrenches out a hand and snatches up the phone to keep the infernal ringing from whining in his ears.

“Kakyoin!” Polnareff calls over the phone, voice slurring a bit which makes Kakyoin sneer, but the tone is jovial, and he can’t bring himself to truly begrudge him because of it. It’s New Years, idiot, a part of him hisses, of course he’d drink. Don’t be an asshole-

“I’m sick of this place,” is the first thing he spits. It’s not what he wanted to say.

Polnareff lets out a throaty noise of comprehension – or maybe confusion? Kakyoin hasn’t seen him drunk enough times to actually be able to discern what the hell that noise was – before there’s a rush of static and Avdol’s voice rings through. “Kakyoin! Happy new year! I’m sorry we’re late, Jea- Polnareff, um, he had a little more to drink than he should’ve,” he says breathlessly.

Kakyoin resists the urge to roll his eyes, instead glancing at the clock again. Two minutes until my next dose…

“Avdol,” Kakyoin says, and his voices comes out almost- almost desperate, mortifyingly, and Kakyoin squeezes the phone in his hands. His arms, thankfully, have gotten strength back. At least something isn’t broken-

“Kakyoin? Are you okay?” Avdol asks, voice heightening in concern, and Kakyoin closed his eyes and grits his teeth and glances at the clock. One minute.

“Happy New Year,” Kakyoin clumsily deflects. “Make any wishes?”

Avdol hums. Kakyoin can just hear him deciding if he should press him or not, and Kakyoin finds he’d be annoyed no matter what he chooses. Kakyoin grinds his teeth so hard his jaw hurts, his free hand curling into a fist. He glances at the clock. One minute.

“My only wish right now is getting Polnareff to bed,” Avdol lightly jokes, and Kakyoin can snort at that if nothing else. “...Are you okay, though?”

Kakyoin glances at the clock. Still one minute. Fuck.

“I’m fine,” Kakyoin spits. “I’m just-” I’m sick of it here. Everything always hurts. I’m always so mad. I wish I died-

“It is late there,” Avdol comments when Kakyoin trails off. Kakyoin huffs, rolling his eyes.

“It’s late for you, too. It’s like, what, 6 A.M.?” He isn’t exactly sure where Polnareff and Avdol are now, but that sounded right.

Avdol hums. “About, yeah…but you should get some sleep. It’s important you rest, to continue healing.”

I’ve been healing for almost a year already, Kakyoin thinks desperately, if I have to spend one more goddamn minute healing I’ll think it wouldn’t have been worth it at al-

His IV clicks and a blooming of refreshing cool folds out from his arm, and Kakyoin lets out a shaky breath, jerking his head back against his headboard, focusing on how the soothing chill of the pain medication washes out his irritation and anger and desperation, water cleaning out a wound.

“It’s not that,” Kakyoin finally manages to sigh. “I just…” he hesitates, but Avdol hums over the phone, and with the drowsiness the pain medication is starting to inflict, Kakyoin finds he has a loose tongue. “I just want to get out of here…”

Avdol hums again, more sympathetic. “...I can still give those tips, you know. There’s really no shame, so…please,”

Kakyoin is already grimacing, but he says nothing. His tongue feels too heavy, body too leadened. He could sleep like this, where he’s slumped against his pillows, phone pinned between his shoulder and head.

Avdol hesitates, giving Kakyoin room to respond. When he doesn’t, Avdol sighs, and Kakyoin knew if he were sober, he’d be a bitch about it. He focuses his gaze onto his IV pole.

“Kakyoin…I worry about you,” Avdol murmurs. Kakyoin blinks slowly as his brain pieces the words together.

A part of him is so mortified he can’t keep himself together enough to give a passing facade – if he’s such a mess still, how can he expect to get out of here soon? – but it’s muffled by the medication and Kakyoin’s sleepiness.

“Don’t be,” Kakyoin murmurs, “...I’m fine. I really am.”

Avdol sighs, takes a breath – but before he can say anything more, there’s a crash and a yelp, followed by loud barking and cursing.

Kakyoin raises a brow before snickering audibly.

“Jean?!” Avdol calls loud enough for the phone to pick up. Kakyoin can hear Polnareff groan something back, but he can’t make out the words past the phone’s static.

Avdol curses before turning back to the phone. “Kakyoin,” he says, “I’m sorry, but Jean- he- Poln-”

“Go help him,” Kakyoin chuckles, “sounds like he needs it.”

Avdol lets out a breath. “I’m sorry this call ended up…” he trails off. Kakyoin says nothing. In the end, he isn’t sure if he expected any different when it became apparent he was going to talk before having his dosage.

“Don’t worry about it,” Kakyoin says noncommittedly. His gaze has slowly relaxed from the IV, now staring blankly ahead of him past heavy lids.

Avdol sighs. “Well, I…” Kakyoin could imagine him shaking his head. “I’ll call again tomorrow,” Avdol promises. “Jean should be sober then.”

Kakyoin snickers. “And less of a nuisance,”

Avdol chuckles weakly. Iggy starts barking again in the background and Polnareff shrieks.

“Ah- but I really do have to go,” Avdol says, distracted, and Kakyoin nods slowly.

“Talk later,” Kakyoin promises.

“Talk later,” Avdol confirms before the line clicks and then goes dead.

Kakyoin stays in place in his dark hospital room, staring at nothing, as the phoneline continues droning. Now that the pain medication has taken full effect, Kakyoin forgets why he was even so angry. Maybe there was no real reason.

Kakyoin closes his eyes, only to flinch and jerk them open again when the phone starts beeping at him to be returned to its holder.

“Fuck,” Kakyoin complains, before a flicker of luminescent green flashes in the corner of his eye and the phone is suddenly gone, sloppily being put back onto the holder.

Kakyoin blinks a few more times before he turns his head. The lone tentacle of Hierophant’s flickers in and out like an old lightbulb, but it waves to Kakyoin tiredly. Kakyoin blinks back.

He hasn’t seen much of Hierophant since he woke up; it’s hard to summon him when he’s on his pain medication. But he’s here now, right after Kakyoin had another dosage – maybe he’s getting used to it and can now call Hierophant again while on it…

Kakyoin sighs and glances around, only to grimace at his feet. He tries to curl his toes. They only twitch in response.

“Goddammit,” Kakyoin whispers, his voice alarmingly wet, which comes as a surprise to his fuzzy head. He didn’t feel like he was on the verge of tears… “Goddammit. Work, work, work-”

Hierophant’s tentacle enters his field of vision then, and Kakyoin stares, confused, as the tentacle breaks up into smaller, finer ones, before slipping under his blanket. Nothing happens for a moment, and Kakyoin wonders what exactly his stand is doing, if maybe the pain medication is getting to him, too, when his toes curl.

Kakyoin gasps wetly, staring down. I didn’t- but I didn’t try that time- how-

Hierophant.

Kakyoin stares. His toes curl again, and Kakyoin can just faintly feel sensation in his fingers as it happens, like he was using his hands to move his feet. It is Hierophant.

Kakyoin blinks rapidly, but he still feels a trail of heat as a tear leaks out of his eye. “H-Hierophant,” He rasps.

Hierophant’s humanoid form appears then, his yellow, headlight-like eyes gazing at Kakyoin in concern, his arm raveling back into shape.

“Hierophant,” Kakyoin reaches for his stand like he’s a child all over again, hand resting against its face, voice wet, his throat hurting from the lump he has to speak past. He feels pathetic, but he can’t even pay mind to that thought right now because, for the first time in a year, he feels hope.

“Hierophant,” Kakyoin repeats one more time. His stand gently pats the hand cradling his face. “Help me. With…” he blinks drowsily, his eyelids growing heavier by the minute. Hierophant’s glow flickers, but his body stays solid. Kakyoin’s heart pounds. Good, good, good, good, he can handle being summoned even while I’m high off my ass-

“Help me,” Kakyoin rasps, “walk again.”

Hierophant stares evenly down at his user and nods. Kakyoin lets out a sob and clings to his stand like a lifeline. Hierophant doesn’t bend down, but Kakyoin doesn’t need him to. Just the fact he’s there…

Kakyoin slips unconscious, but his stand stays steady and solid the whole time, and if he wasn’t so tired, the pounding of his heart would keep him wide awake.


Osaka, Japan

January 16, 1991

It takes a couple of physical therapy appointments, and Kakyoin’s tailbone hurts with the amount of times he’d had Hierophant wrap around him wrong which led to an unbalanced act that collapsed, but the sudden surge of progress he’s seemingly made got him exactly what he was hoping for: a discharge.

After two years, only one of which he was conscious for, he’s finally leaving. He won’t be stuck under constant surveillance. He’s gonna be home. I haven’t been home since I was 16.

Something in his chest lurches, his heart aching, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath, but he can’t bite back his wide, smug smile as he rolls himself out the doors, insistent to his parents that he can handle his own wheelchair.

Finally, finally, finally, he can catch up.

“Noriaki, wait!” his mother calls, and Kakyoin halfheartedly turns his head. “Don’t forget we need to pick up your prescription!”

Oh, right.

Kakyoin nods, readjusting his wheelchair to smoothly turn around and rejoin his parents from where he had sped away from them. Learning how to control his wheelchair wasn’t exactly as easy as he’d hoped it’d be, but he’d been stuck with it for a year now, so he knew enough.

“Sorry,” Kakyoin says breezily, but his mother just smiles at him, his eyes crinkling at the corners.

“Don’t be sorry,” she laughs, beaming, and Kakyoin blinks at her good mood.

His father must note it as well, because he fondly watches them both for only a moment before declaring, “I’ll go grab them. You two can wait by the car.”

With that, he turns and heads back inside the hospital, leaving Kakyoin and his mother alone.

Kakyoin’s mother smiles at the ground for a second, taking a breath, before she looks up, silver eyes reflecting the blue of the sky. Kakyoin blinks.

“Noriaki,” she says, tilting her head a bit, “you seem…happier.”

Kakyoin opens his mouth before shutting it. He does? He supposes he’s happy to finally be out of the damn hospital…

He nods and shrugs. “Haven’t, uh…been home in a while. It’ll be nice.”

His mother beams again, brows furrowing, and for a second Kakyoin thinks she will begin to cry.

Her eyes stay dry, however, and she kneels down to be eye level with Kakyoin, taking his hands into hers. 

“Noriaki,” she says, voice a little breathy, and Kakyoin swallows thickly before meeting her gaze, “I’m so proud of you. Do you know that?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth slightly, but nothing comes out. His head is still a little fuzzy from the last IV dosage of his pain medication, and being confronted with such raw intensity has only scattered his thoughts further.

Mama and auntie talk about it a lot…they’re really worried.

Ryoko’s words ring around Kakyoin’s head as he stares at his mother before he eventually, stiffly has the mind to nod. “I know,” he says softly.

His mother squeezes her eyes shut, leaning her head down so that all he can see is her brown hair, piled into a hasty bun like it always is.

Kakyoin squeezes back and swallows thickly. He opens and closes his mouth a few times before weakly offering, “I love you.”

He’s never really said that before. He has ever said that before? The words feel like glue in his mouth.

His mother laughs and looks up at him with a worrying amount of moisture collecting on her lower lids, smiling despite her furrowed brows and reddening nose. “I love you too, Noriaki. I’m…I love you so much.”

Kakyoin eventually closes his eyes so he doesn’t have to keep seeing her. He squeezes her hands again.

He wants to apologize, but he isn’t sure for what, or how to phrase it. He wants to apologize, but he thinks it would give his whole ruse away, and he can’t afford to stay at this damn hospital any longer, he can’t afford to be- be more vulnerable than he is already.

Kakyoin sighs and opens his eyes, catching sight of his father exiting the hospital, a white paper bag in hand.

Relief at being able to exit the conversation floods Kakyoin, and he gently slips a hand out of his mother’s grasp to wave him over.

His father rejoins them, his mother easily wiping away the near-tears like they were never there in the first place, and they head to the car. Kakyoin pushes ahead of them again and tries to tell himself it’s just because he’s excited, still.


Osaka, Japan

April 30, 1991

Kakyoin doesn’t have a graduation ceremony.

He finishes essentially his last year all over again in record time. His mother had negotiated with his school, asking if he could please complete assignments at home while he healed so he wouldn’t have to strain himself as he got his life back on track, promising she’d promptly return completed assignments and pick up new ones every day if she had to.

His school, fortunately, agreed, and said his mother didn’t need to be that frequent: once a week exhcnages would be fine.

But with nothing to do besides his exercises all day, Kakyoin quickly caught up, if only so his only options for daily activities weren’t being bored out of his mind or seeing just how angry he could get with his own legs.

It only takes a few months to finish what should be seven months’ worth of study. He’d always been a star student, he supposes smugly, when his diploma comes in the mail in the middle of April.

His parents had taken him to dinner as celebration, but that was that. It was perfectly fine with Kakyoin: he would loathe to be stuck in a stuffy graduation gown, in his chair for everyone to gawk at for the hours it would take. This was simpler. It was better. It helps that Kakyoin took a dose of his pain medication before the dinner, to ensure his patience wouldn’t wear thin.

He knows his parents are trying. It’s getting old, spitting in their faces over it, so…

He’ll do what he needs to do. He always has.

The next morning, Kakyoin wakes up at a reasonable time, but with his head crashing down to his body. He hisses, flinching, only to gasp when his spine sends out a surprising shockwave of pain. Fuck. What the fuck?

Kakyoin jerks his hand out sloppily, reaching toward his desk, hand coming down once, twice, before his fingers brush against the bottle of his pain pills. Kakyoin lurches then, grabbing them, hissing again when pain rockets up his spine. What the fuck? Why was it so active today?

Kakyoin struggles with the lid for a second, snarling, when Hierophant’s tentacles appear, gently reaching for the bottle cap. Kakyoin bears his teeth but drops his hands, letting Hierophant try and open the bottle.

No such luck. His stand struggles, twisting and twisting and twisting, but not pressing down. Kakyoin would laugh if he wasn’t in so much pain, why was his back hurting so much, what did he do? What did he do?

Some days, the pain will just come. There won’t be a reason for it necessarily. It’s how chronic pain works sometimes…it’s like a series of waves.

Words of his physical therapist ring in his head then and he snarls, snatching the bottle back and ripping the lid off, his nail chipping in the process. Fuck-

Kakyoin shakes the bottle roughly, at least four pills falling into his palm – too many, he notes – but he shoves them all into his mouth anyway, not being able to take one more second, he will not have another episode where he thinks he’s fucking dying, dammit-

Hierophant wraps around Kakyoin then, and Kakyoin would jump if his spine would dare permit an action, but it’s too busy throwing a tantrum against his nerves, kicking and clawing and burning, burning, burning

Kakyoin closes his eyes and Hierophant squeezes helplessly.

The pressure of his stand, at least, keeps him in the present — a physical sensation that wasn’t a part of the pain, that can’t be tied back to that night the same way. Kakyoin focuses on taking shallow breaths so his spine doesn’t seize and his head spins.

He isn’t sure how long he stays that way, but when his spine has calmed down enough that he can notice the difference, his hands are trembling and his shirt is sticky with his own sweat from where Hierophant has bound it to his body.

“Gross,” he spits as Hierophant untangles himself from his body. Kakyoin sighs and runs a hand through his hair, frowning at the sweat he finds at the roots. Gross.

Hierophant heads to his dresser, pulling out another shirt for him, while Kakyoin takes off the dirty one, hesitating for a second before rolling his eyes and using the front of it to wipe off his forehead. Not dealing with my damn shower chair right now. This will just have to do.

Hierophant tosses him his new shirt and a stick of deodorant and Kakyoin just sighs before getting both on.

When he’s more presentable, he narrows his eyes at his wheelchair, grimacing. Hierophant helpfully rolls it forward so it’s next to his bed. Kakyoin sighs.

“...Thank you,” he mutters. Hierophant waves before disappearing.

Kakyoin swallows thickly before slowly lifting himself up. No pain so far…

He maneuvers himself carefully so that he’s hovering over the chair, but he gracelessly slumps into it.

Fire-

Bad idea, bad idea.

Kakyoin digs his nails into the arms of his wheelchair and squeezes his eyes shut, riding out the flare of pain. It dissipates after a few minutes, and Kakyoin grumbles. Awful. At least his head is starting to get a little fuzzy from the pain medication, his brain getting confused and slowing down as the pills ensure it stops receiving so much information.

Kakyoin blinks before moving to the door of his room, opening it, and then rolling out.

His mother is making breakfast. His father doesn’t seem to be up yet.

“Good morning,” his mother calls from her place at the stove. Kakyoin hums something back, jaw suddenly too heavy to be moved to form real words. How many pills had he taken again?

“You have good timing,” his mother says, “I’m just about done with the soup.”

Kakyoin hums, eyes closing, some of his anger diffusing. He’s had to make so many changes because of what happened, but one thing that stayed consistent was the typical breakfast of miso. Even if he can’t really have rice anymore – not the kind he was used to, at least – miso was still there.

His mother serves him a bowl after he gets settled at the table with his wheelchair, and he murmurs a thanks as he lazily lifts his spoon.

They eat in silence for a while, just the symphony of spoons clicking against bowls as Kakyoin stares at nothing, his head growing fuzzier and fuzzier by the minute, and his mother watches the sunrise.

Eventually, she blinks, turning to Kakyoin. “Oh, Noriaki?”

Kakyoin almost jumps, but his instinct has learned that just tensing is enough now, before he slides his gaze over to her. “Yes?”

“Have you sent out your application yet?” his mother asks. Kakyoin blinks. What?

Sensing his hesitation, his mother elaborates. “The application period for Cairo University is going to close soon. Have you submitted yours yet?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth, but nothing comes out. His throat closes up, mind running blank. …oh. That’s right.

Between not being in control of himself, and the journey, and being between life and death, Kakyoin had forgotten he had dreams before it all happened. He forgot why he was even in Cairo for DIO to run into in the first place.

It had been a birthday present: a two-week-long trip during his summer vacation to Egypt, with the last destination being Cairo, the place he had wanted to go to school. “What better place to learn about anthropology,” he can hear his 13-year-old self explaining, “than one of the centers that birthed human civilization as we know it?”

He’d be so excited about it, for years. Now the thought makes him sick.

His mother waits for a few more beats. Eventually, Kakyoin finds it in himself, between the numb cotton swallowing his chest like an infection and the fuzziness growing over his brain and the fear tracing up and down his shoulders, to speak.

“No,” he says softly.

His mother blinks, her face lax in shock, before her brows furrow, eyes soft. “...I’m sorry,” She says.

“Huh?” Kakyoin asks. “...What for?”

“I just…I assumed you’d still want to go,” she elaborates. Kakyoin blinks. I do…don’t I?

“I didn’t think…I didn’t think how…everything might have changed that,” she concludes.

Kakyoin swallows thickly.

His mother looks over him, brow furrowed, face so soft and sad. It feels out of place with the jagged edges that made up Kakyoin now. He was going to cut her if she stayed that way. Kakyoin looks away.

“...I need to- to think about it.”

His mother hums. “...It’s the 15th,” she says softly. “When you would need to submit your application.”

Kakyoin nods stiffly.

He can’t finish his soup, but he stays in the kitchen with his mother as she finishes hers. When she’s done, he excuses himself. He ignores the heavy look of heartbreak she sends him off with.


Tokyo, Japan

May 13, 1991

“Do you want any tea?” Holly asks as she sets down a few snacks. Kakyoin eyes them all warily. He hasn’t been hungry much, as of late. Probably has something to do with the missing stomach. Kakyoin suppresses the urge to snicker.

“Green tea, please,” he can distantly hear his voice answer. Holly chirps an affirmation before returning to the house.

Upon hearing Kakyoin had graduated, Holly had invited Kakyoin and his family over to celebrate. His parents were both hesitant, but Kakyoin wanted an excuse to get out of the house, so he had agreed.

Now he sits in Holly’s massive garden, his parents still exploring in awe despite the tour Holly had given earlier, his mother sitting by the small koi pond and smiling with delight as the fish swim up to her, probably expecting food.

Holly returns with a pot, steam swirling up from the spout, and Kakyoin relaxes a little into his chair as she pours him a cup.

“Thank you,” he murmurs, sliding his eyes shut.

“Of course,” Holly says. It’s quiet for a bit, the chirps of birds ringing in Kakyoin’s ears, becoming soft white noise. He’d taken a dosage of pain medication again before coming – it was becoming more common for him to take a dose before he left the house, in addition to the morning and nightly doses he already took. Kakyoin sighs. He’s aware he probably shouldn’t, but he just hates the prickly, whiny, useless child he becomes without the buffer.

Kakyoin calmly relaxes his fingers from where they dig into his armrests.

“Thanks for inviting us,” Kakyoin finds himself saying, the words dropping from his mouth haphazardly. “You didn’t have to.”

Holly smiles softly, running a hand through the cropped hair on the back of her head. “Ah, well…I wanted to.” Her face softens even more. “I owe you so much for…everything.”

Kakyoin purses his lips, opening his eyes again. “You never owed anything,” Kakyoin says, “but even if you did, you already paid it back.”

Holly hums. “Well…I…I still wanted to.”

Kakyoin hums. “Well, I’m glad to keep you company, then.”

His father swings by to grab a few snacks for both him and his mother, exchanging some pleasantries with Holly while he does, which Kakyoin quickly zones out. He looks around the house and wonders, Did Jojo really grow up with all this? Why would he leave it for America of all places?

Irritation begins singing under his skin, right in his gut again. Kakyoin grits his teeth before grabbing his cup, taking a sip of the tea. It’s hot, but it doesn’t burn his tongue outright. Good, Kakyoin thinks. The last thing I need is more pain…

The thought alone is an embarrassing show of weakness. Kakyoin puts the cup down.

“Kakyoin,” Holly asks, and Kakyoin zones back into the conversation. His father has left, returning to his mother’s side with the snacks and now also koi feed. When did Holly go to grab that? Have I really been so out of it?

Kakyoin makes a note to scale back the number of pills he takes should he go out so soon after his morning dosage. “Yes?”

Holly smiles at him. “Sorry to bother.”

Kakyoin waves a hand, clicking his tongue. “No need for that. What is it?”

Holly takes a sip of her own tea then, glancing at his parents. They’re behaving like children, the way they intently watch the koi pop up to grab their meals. It’s a side of them he’s never seen before.

“I was just curious about your plans from here on,” Holly says. “Do you plan on university?”

“Yes,” Kakyoin says automatically. There’d never been any other option.

Holly smiles, her eyes crinkling. “Oh, that’s wonderful! Which school?”

Kakyoin hesitates. “I…” He looks down, a hand coming up to tug at his bang. His hair had been cropped fairly short while in the hospital, but thankfully, his bang had remained. “I don’t know.” He hesitates a bit longer, but the urge to defend himself is too strong. “I- I had one in mind for years, but now…I don’t think it’ll work.” He says bitterly.

“Oh,” Holly says softly. “I’m sorry.”

Anger shoots so suddenly through Kakyoin at the sentiment that surprise quickly replaces it. Kakyoin blinks at himself before frowning. “Don’t be.”

Holly hums. They both take sips of their tea again.

“Jotaro…” Holly says suddenly. Kakyoin’s gaze snaps to her like a magnet feeling the pull of another. “Jotaro also had difficulty choosing a school,” Holly says. Her gaze is far away, but she turns to Kakyoin and smiles. It doesn’t make her eyes crinkle this time. Kakyoin presses his lips together, but his heart has started beating a little too fast, something surging through his veins.

“Really?”

Holly blinks before nodding, her smile turning sad as she looks down. “Yeah. When he was a kid, he wanted to go to Osaka University. But then, for a while, he wasn't sure he was going to go to school at all.”

Kakyoin hums. He and Jotaro had talked about what they wanted to grow up to be once, while in Varanasi. Jotaro had looked a little troubled as they watched the Ganges River. Who knows, he had said. …Animals, he admitted in a quieter voice. Wanna work with animals. Sea animals.

Kakyoin wonders how that is turning out for him, now.

Holly sighs. “Um…I guess he and Papa grew really close on the trip you all took,” she says, voice full of faux cheeriness, like a candy that tastes like artificial sweetness more than the flavor it’s trying to mimic, “because he…he ended up in the States for school.”

Kakyoin presses his lips together tightly.

“Is something wrong?” Holly asks, and Kakyoin blinks, not realizing she had been looking at him.

“I- no,” Kakyoin reassures before he turns his gaze to the grass, brows furrowing. “...I just-” he takes a deep breath. “I didn’t think Jotaro and Mr. Joestar were close enough to- I don’t think Jotaro went to the States just because of Joseph.”

Holly is quiet. Kakyoin turns his gaze to her.

“...Mrs. Holly?”

Holly takes a breath before swallowing thickly, shaking her head. “I…yeah. I know you’re right,” she says softly. Kakyoin frowns. Had he said something wrong?

“No, I…I tell myself it was about Papa, but…” her voice lowers even more, like she’s telling a secret. “But I…I think it had more to do with…me.”

Kakyoin blinks. “What do you mean?”

Holly swallows. “I-” She chuckles, but it’s humorless. “I don’t know if you remember how- I.” she smooths her skirt down, taking a breath. “I think he wanted…to get away from me,” she admits quietly.

“What?” Kakyoin asks, brows furrowing. “But he- but Jojo…he cares so much about y-”

“I know,” Holly says quietly. “But…at the same time, I…I could never love him the way I think he wanted me to. I tried to be so supportive, but I think he needed some push back. I think he wanted some pushback…”

Holly chuckles that sad, self-depreciating chuckle again, and Kakyoin stares unnerved, swallowing.

“Well, goes to show just how unprepared I was for a stand, I guess, since I couldn’t give that to him,” Holly mutters, and Kakyoin freezes.

“What?”

Holly smiles bitterly, the curves looking more like a grimace, staring down at her cup. “I couldn’t- I couldn’t be what he needed me to be, as a mother. I couldn’t even be what I needed to be to survive. I couldn’t- I couldn’t be strong the way he needed me to be. He was the one who had to save me, after all…” She closes her eyes. “I think he resents me for it.”

Kakyoin swallows. “But- Mrs. Holly, Jotaro loved you- he didn’t think you were-”

“I appreciate your words, Kakyoin, I really do,” Holly sighs, “but…”

It’s silent between them for a tense few moments, the only sounds being his parents’ voices and the chirping of birds. Finally, Holly takes another breath and speaks.

“He always treated me like glass when he got home,” she says, her voice quiet but with cracks in every other word that heightened the pitch. “It was sweet at first. I thought we were turning over a new leaf. But then he leaves again after only five months and has only called me once since to let me know he landed safely from his international flight. I think it must’ve alarmed him, how weak I was…”

The blood in Kakyoin’s veins goes cold.

Lack of contact. Any contact. Staying away from weakness. Staying away from burdens. Staying away from…

Me.

The parallels between his situation and Holly’s makes his chest seize, and Kakyoin digs his fingers into his armrests.

No, one part of him argues, he- he trusts me. He knows I’m strong. He relied on me, he-

That was before you let yourself eat shit the entire time you were in Egypt, another part of him snaps back. N’Doul, D’Arby, DIO…You know Jotaro. He doesn’t have the patience for weakness. If he would leave his own mother over it, why wouldn’t he leave you?

Kakyoin goes to take another sip of his tea, but the water is cold. He puts it back down and stares instead. He can see his reflection in the amber remains, his too-thin, sharp face, his messy hair, the bags under his eyes. Weak.

Kakyoin can’t taste anything. He can’t feel anything, for once, either; it’s just cold. He shivers, lightly shoving the cup away from him.

“I see,” he ends up saying. His voice is flat and soft. Weak.

Kakyoin stares a hole in the wooden flooring of the engawa. He doesn’t know what to do. He needs to talk to Jotaro- he hasn’t really tried, since waking up. Maybe that’s the problem? Maybe Jotaro would answer if he called?

He feels pathetic. Fire and ice tangle in his stomach, his chest, his arms, and he doesn’t know what to feel.

“I’m sorry,” he says. If Holly says something in return, he can’t hear it.


Osaka, Japan

May 14, 1991

It’s the night of the 14th, and Kakyoin has to make a decision.

He stares down at the brochure he’s had since he was 12-years-old, feeling almost sick past the overall numbness that makes him shiver. Cairo University.

The creases of the folds are worn white from use, notes and exclamation marks in Kakyoin’s script marking up the pages. Kakyoin feels like another person entirely wrote them.

He swallows thickly, but it does nothing to relieve the tightness in his throat, the cold stone sitting deep in his belly. This was what he wanted for so long, but now that he’s finally here…

A knock on his door pulls Kakyoin out of his reprieve, and he looks up as his mother walks in, the house phone in hand.

“Noriaki?” His mother calls. “It’s your friend Avdol. He wanted to check in?”

“Sure,” Kakyoin calls just barely loud enough for his mother to hear, turning to continue staring down at the brochure in front of him.

He can hear the shuffle of fabric and the soft padding of his mother’s feet as she steps toward him. Her hand rests gently on his shoulder for a moment, and Kakyoin closes his eyes as she sets the phone down next to him.

“Here, Noriaki,” she says quietly. Kakyoin swallows before picking up the phone as his mother leaves.

“Hello?” He speaks with a numb tongue.

“Kakyoin!” Avdol cheers from behind the phone, and a part of Kakyoin both turns into slop but also siezes – Avdol always sounds so happy to talk to Kakyoin, even after all his snippiness as of late… “I just wanted to say congratulations for graduating so ea-”

“I wanted to go to Cairo University as a kid,” Kakyoin spits out.

Avdol goes silent. Kakyoin isn’t even sure why he said it.

“Oh?” Avdol prompts, and Kakyoin sucks in a shakey breath.

“Yeah. I- I knew when I was ten that I wanted to do something- something like anthropology- I- so I-” He isn’t sure why he’s stuttering so bad. His heart is pounding so, so lowly, pulsing in his intestines. He should be excited. He wants to be excited. Why isn’t he excited? “Um. Sorry to interrupt. What were you saying?”

Avdol just laughs easily, his voice so warm but it can’t reach Kakyoin’s freezing veins. “I just wanted to check in. I knew you had graduated and were now looking at schools, and I…I just wanted to let you know, if you decide on a school outside of Japan, you could always live with Polnareff and I.”

Kakyoin blinks, mouth falling open. “ Live with you?”

“Of course,” Avdol says easily, his timber smooth and gentle like the purr of a well-crafted engine, “it’s not like Polnareff and I are tethered in one spot, really. If you really do go to Cairo University, we could easily-”

“You’re too kind,” Kakyoin says softly, and maybe it’s the way he says it, his voice tired and strained, but it stops Avdol in his tracks.

“Is…something wrong?” he asks. Kakyoin takes a deep breath, but words don’t come out. He isn’t sure what is wrong, exactly; he just knows something is, and every time he looks down at the brochure it feels like the printed text and the old notes he wrote alongside it are burning his fingertips.

“I’m sure you’d easily be able to get in,” Avdol says, and Kakyoin blinks. “You’re smart. And- I know some professors there, in the anthropology department. I can put in a good word for you, if you wan-” Kakyoin cuts him off.

“That’s not- it’s-” Kakyoin shuts his mouth. Avdol stays silent, patient, and it makes Kakyoin feel like bugs are under his skin.

“I wanted to. As a kid.” The words come out stiff, but at least they’re coming out now at all. “I…I don’t know if…”

It’s so, so weak of him, and it makes his own blood curdle, but the thought of Polnareff and Avdol seeing his every day, seeing how he is now, with no room to put up a front, makes his breath come out in wheezes and his head spin. I need- I need some medicine. I need-

“I’m...sorry, Avdol,” he says, “but I can’t...go back there right now.”

Avdol is quiet for a few heartbeats and Kakyoin thinks of tearing his hair out, hyperaware of every strand jutting from his scalp and how they prickle the skin. “I see,” Avdol eventually says, voice dropped from the height of excitement, “I understand. Just take care of yourself wherever you do go, yeah?”

Kakyoin glances at the pills on his bedside table.

“...Yeah.”

They do technically speak for longer, but Kakyoin can’t hear it. Something in his stomach has deflated, leaving only cold air and a feeling that something is gone. Something is missing. Eventually, they say their goodbyes, and Kakyoin hangs up, glancing at his pills again.

He turns back to the brochure in his hand. …Guess my decision’s been made, then.

He throws away the brochure slowly, the laminated paper slipping from his fingers into the trashcan. Kakyoin can’t look at it. He rolls towards his bottle of pills and prepares for bed.

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Chapter 18

Notes:

heyy everyone (:
today is the one year anniversary of this fic! which is why i chose to post today even tho I've had this chapter done for about five days now. absolutely crazy to me that an actual year has flown by. what da hell
anyway i just wanted to say thank you everyone for sticking around! i'm sorry it's taken me this long, I've never done a writing project on this scale before so i wasn't sure what to expect of myself in terms of how long it would take me -- and there's def been some bumps in the road too that has affected that beyond just the scope of this project. for that im sorry but i hope it's at least been enjoyable for everyone like it's been enjoyable for me, and hopefully I'll finish this thing before the two year mark rolls around heehee
for now though, i just wanted to say im really glad i shared this fic. writing is something that's very personal to me so i hadn't actually shared any of it before until now, and i wasn't quite sure how it was going to go down, esp considering my part 4 kakyoin is, well, yknow...a mess lmao. but everyone has only ever been so kind and supportive and it's made me very excited about sharing in a way i don't think has happened in a long time if ever. so thank you all so much, and i hope to deliver a satisfying story in return for your support
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Chapter Text

Kakyoin throws Akira down onto the couch of the ship’s cabin, a frazzled Speedwagon Foundation employee balking from the entrance, and Kakyoin sits down opposite of him, folding his hands and resting his chin on them.

Akira gasps as Heirophant’s tentacles retreat away from him, and he grasps at his own neck, coughing slightly, before glaring at Kakyoin.

“You’re insa-”

“Where are the bow and arrow? Or just the arrow, please,” Kakyoin says, tilting his head pleasantly. Akira’s lip curls in fury.

“You- why would I ever tell you th-”

“Well, you lost, didn’t you?” Kakyoin asks point-blank, and while Akira’s face scrunches in fury, he says nothing. “You lost,” Kakyoin repeats, “so be a good sport and t-”

“You don’t get to talk to me about being a good sport after- after THAT,” Akira snarls, gesturing to his neck, where a thin line of red is starting to color the skin, and Kakyoin blinks. Had Hierophant really been that tight?

Kakyoin drops his hands, sitting back up, ignoring the small shriek his spine lets out at the motion.

“You’re fucking insane,” Akira spits again, whipping some of his purple locks out of his face, only to wince as the movement strains his already tired neck muscles. Kakyoin does not feel guilt, but any smugness that he felt over holding the other standuser the way he did drains away from his chest like water down a sink. “Can I just go home?”

Kakyoin blurts out a laugh, rapidly shaking his head. “Um, no. Absolutely you cannot. How do we know you won’t kill someone again?”

Akira blinks before frowning, opening his mouth to retort, but nothing comes out. Kakyoin raises a brow and he closes his mouth, seething.

“Who the hell is ‘we’ anyway?” Akira snarls, “I thought standusers were- no one can hold me. No police force can p-”

“Do you not think,” Kakyoin says quietly, staring intently at the man across from him like a lion might eye up a weaker-yet-cockier juvenile, “that standusers don’t keep each other in check?”

Akira blinks, his irritation draining away to make room for thoughtfulness to grace his features. He’s not as ugly when he stops curling his lip like a child, Kakyoin thinks.

“Forget cops,” Kakyoin snaps, “they’re not who will hold you. Other standusers will be. You see?”

Akira blinks owlishly. Kakyoin snorts.

“Contrary to whatever you’ve been thinking for the past few months, most standusers do not care to have their daily lives disrupted by some maniac,” Kakyoin snaps, “so they keep the ones like you in line – if not just killing them outright. Because again, cops can’t handle you, right?” Kakyoin shoots a sardonic, sharky smile. “So it’s up to their discretion.”

Akira blinks rapidly, before his brows furrow again. “W…what?”

Kakyoin laughs. “You’ve known the whole time you weren’t the only one with a stand in the world – hell, not even in this town – yet you really thought no one would care if you just ran amuck? Most people want to live normally, you know. That normality being interrupted because of losers like you is simply not an option.”

Akira blinks before snarling, but he says nothing, staring down at the table, shoulders tense.

“So,” Kakyoin says, “are you going to tell us where the damn arrow is or are you going to have to be dealt with?”

“Are you going to kill me if I don’t say?” Akira asks lowly, staring up at Kakyoin with furious, bright eyes.

“Maybe,” Kakyoin shrugs. “It’s something that’d be more up to the standusers actually living in Morioh. But you’d never leave Speedwagon custody if you don’t,” Kakyoin snaps.

Akira rolls his eyes. “Didn’t you say no cops?”

“When did I ever say the Speedwagon Foundation was a law enforcement agency?” Kakyoin snorts, biting back snickers at the thought. “They work with standusers. One of them would constantly be keeping an eye on you.” Avdol flashes through Kakyoin’s mind, and he digs his fingertips into his armrests. I hope he doesn’t have to deal with this guy for long, but since he’s the head of the stand department...

…I should probably call him.

Akira is silent for a moment, eyes flitting over Kakyoin’s form, before he bangs a fist on the table, cursing harshly. “Fuck. Fuck!”

Kakyoin raises a brow. Akira hisses like a cat.

“I just wanted- I just wanted to make things easy,” he seethes, “I just wanted it all – normal life – to be easy. I have a stand! I deserved to have it easy! Was that really such a crime?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “...No. Your way of going about that was, though.”

Akira growls incoherently and Kakyoin raises his hands in faux-surrender.

“You can still have that, y’know,” Kakyoin says, “if you just tell us where the damn arrow is.” Kakyoin pauses. “And also the locations of people you hit with the arrow.”

Akira’s still coiled like a snake, glaring – before he deflates, head bowing down, shoulders slumping.

“...The arrow’s just back at…” Akira grimaces, shuddering, but he continues before Kakyoin can say anything, “...it’s in an alleyway. In a dumpster.”

Kakyoin blinks. “What? Did you throw it away?”

“No,” Akira snaps, “but I don’t really have any better place to stash it in, so a giant heavy metal box was the next best place.”

Kakyoin blinks. “You don’t- are you homeless?”

Akira rolls his eyes. “No, but that’s not relevant.”

Kakyoin purses his lips. “Sure it is. The Speedwagon Foundation can get you a place if your current one is shit.”

Akira laughs, but there’s no humor in the sound. “And why exactly would the people who would imprison me, help me?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “Well, treating prisoners unfairly is a war crime, if we’re getting down to it.” Akira blinks in surprise at the bluntness. Kakyoin smothers a snort. “But beyond that, the Speedwagon Foundation also, as I mentioned, works with standusers in an effort to understand stands more. You’re never gonna not be tangled with these guys from now on, but if you continue helping them, they’ll get you some nice benefits out of it.”

Akira blinks. “...Right,” He says uneasily. “...Is that a job offer?”

Kakyoin snorts. “It’s whatever you need it to be. You said you deserved to have it easy just because you have a stand; this is the closest you’ll get to that, but you’re still gonna have to work with them to get it.”

Akira stays silent, and Kakyoin sighs, running a hand through his hair, tugging it out of his ponytail. The complete dejection and overestimation of how important a stand made you in the grand scheme of things remind him of someone…

“Listen,” Kakyoin says, tone flattening from the amused snarl it had been, and Akira’s eyes narrow at him, “I understand feeling like you’re some untouchable-” Kakyoin gestures wordlessly for a second before shaking his head, “-for lack of better word, god, because you have a stand.

“But just because you have an advantage doesn’t mean you’re above the rules. The only thing that changes is that others with stands will just be the ones to keep you in check rather than non-standusers.” Kakyoin continues. “You get to be more flexible about them because of that, sure, but you still need to play by the rules if you wanna keep playing this game.”

“And what game,” Akira asks lowly, “would that be?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Free will. Agency.” Kakyoin’s face darkens and he drops his head. “Believe it or not, these are privileges. And they will be taken away if you get too cocky.”

“Is that a threat?”

Kakyoin looks up, eyes narrowed, unamused, mouth set in a thin line.

Akira withers under the stare the slightest bit, dropping his gaze.

“It’s advice.”

Kakyoin lets the words settle for a moment, before continuing.

“So, where’s this dumpster?”

Akira fidgets, twisting his fingers before he sighs. “Downtown. Next to some salon. Some cheesy name, like Cinderella or something.”

Kakyoin chokes. Just wait until Aya finds out about that, holy shit-

“What’s so funny?” Akira snaps, and Kakyoin just laughs out loud, refusing to say anything.

“Keke, why there?” Kakyoin snorts when he gets himself under control, and Akira shrugs.

“It’s a salon,” he says, sniffing. “Even when they threw out the trash, I wouldn’t be digging through rotting food whenever I had to grab the arrow again. It was the perfect spot.”

Kakyoin purses his lips, still amused, but he will admit that was a fairly decent idea. He can just imagine Avdol’s face when he finds out his new case is a dumpster diver by choice and he sniffles another snicker.

“Alright, well, I know where that is, so don’t worry about having to show me.” Kakyoin backs up then from the table and Akira’s face pales a bit, brows furrowing.

“W-wait,” He stammers, and Kakyoin raises a brow, gesturing for him to continue. “I…What’s exactly going to happen to me?”

Kakyoin sighs, pushing his annoyance at how painfully obvious it is that Akira cares only for his wellbeing aside. It’s not like he can blame him, but honestly, this was pathetic. He should face the consequences of his actions bravely…

Still, Kakyoin understood the fear of the unknown.

“Well, immediately, you’ll be registered into the Speedwagon Foundation’s stand database. Every standuser they come across is, so don’t feel special about it,” Kakyoin snorts. Akira rolls his eyes at him but Kakyoin continues before he can retort.

“As for the long term, like I said, the Speedwagon Foundation works with standusers. They have a whole division specifically for stands, which is headed by a man named Mohammed Avdol. You’ll probably work with him for a bit so he can observe you and your stand, and then he’ll decide if you’re to be trusted or not.”

Akira’s lips purse and Kakyoin snorts at him.

“Avdol is an excellent judge of character, and he’ll also have your file on hand, so it’s not really any use trying to trick him, especially with a poker face like that. Just being honest with him will get you points,” Kakyoin advises, “so don’t act like a goody two shoes. We all know you’re not, and you don’t want to look like a bigger fool than you have already.”

Akira narrows his eyes, his lip twitching, but his shoulders fall limp. Kakyoin rolls his eyes at him.

“But, considering I’ve never been in your position, that’s all I know.”

Akira blinks. “Wh- really?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Yes?”

Akira snorts. “You act like a loose cannon. Could’ve fooled me into believing you used to be just like me.”

Offense flares in Kakyoin’s gut, skin recoiling at the very idea of ever being as pathetic and shortsighted as the man in front of him, but a wider, colder gap opens in his chest as realizes, well, he’s not wrong, flashes of his 15-year-old self zipping through his mind.

Kakyoin has a better poker face than Akira, though; he just sneers, giving nothing away, and then turns to the cabin, rolling out onto the deck.

…I need to call Avdol.


Hours later, Kakyoin stares at his hotel phone and wrings his hands. His gloves are off, and he sorta regrets it because now his fingers are cold, but his palms are so clammy that he knows he’d feel disgusting if he had still been wearing them.

He should really give Avdol a heads up about Akira. At the very least, he should hear about the situation from him, and not from some case file he’ll get only a couple of days before the standuser he’s gonna have to babysit for the next couple of months shows up. But all he can do is stare at the phone, an ice-cold worm jerking about his belly. Kakyoin has the brief thought if this is how the people he possessed with Hierophant felt, and he jerks his hand forward in an attempt to clear his mind of the concept.

His fingers trace over the phone and Kakyoin takes a deep breath before he lifts it off the holder and dials the Speedwagon Foundation. He realizes he doesn’t actually know Avdol’s personal number and his shoulders slump, the polite greeting from the agent that picked up falling on deaf ears.

“Um,” he mumbles, staring down at his shoes. “I, uh, need to talk to Mohammed Avdol.”

“Mr. Avdol isn’t really accepting calls right now,” the agent says, tone dripping with faux sympathy, and Kakyoin blinks at the break of routine, tuning back in.

“I- what?” Kakyoin says, the words clicking. “Did something happen?”

The agent goes silent. “I…I don’t know if it’s my jurisdiction to just give that information out to non-employees-” she starts and Kakyoin just shakes his head, gnawing on his lip.

“No- fine- can you tell him it’s Kakyoin? Kakyoin Noriaki?” Kakyoin asks, blood pulsing, heart beginning to buck at the reveal that even if he doesn’t know what yet, yes, something had happened.

She hums as he blabbers, but she lets out an acknowledging sound when he says his name. “Kakyoin? Mr. Avdol did say he was accepting calls from only a few people and that name rings a bell…can you confirm you’re him?”

Kakyoin bunches up the fabric of his pants in his free hand while the one holding the phone digs into the plastic. “I- how? How can I prove it?”

“Um-”

“Mr. Joestar’s favorite musician is Weird Al Yankovic,” Kakyoin spits out, thoughts racing over the random trivia of his friends he could pop out to prove his legitimacy, “he says it’s the Beatles but it’s Weird Al- um, Avdol’s favorite color is orang-”

“Slow down!” The secretary exclaims, voice shocked, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth, grinding his teeth together. “...That was pretty specific,” she jokes, but Kakyoin does not respond. “That is true though,” she continues when Kakyoin says nothing. “Um…but I meant, more like if you had a code Mr. Avdol gave you.”

Kakyoin’s face burns and he bares his teeth soundlessly, fingers tightening their respective holds. “0-5-7-9-17.” Avdol had told him, once, about how the Speedwagon Foundation urged him to come up with a security code due to the numerous mimic stands that seemed to exist. I was thinking about the numbers associated with the tarot cards our stands take after, Avdol had said.

Kakyoin just hopes he remembered them right.

The secretary pauses as she processes the numbers Kakyoin had spit out before he can hear her hum. “Yup. Alright, I’ll transfer you, but…” her voice softens then, and Kakyoin’s heart squeezes, wringing out adrenaline to rush into his veins. “Be kind. He…he needs support right now.”

Kakyoin has half the mind to ask her to stop being so damn cryptic, but the hold music blares from his phone before he can.

Sucking in a breath, Kakyoin jerks his ear away from the phone as the music blares, grappling with his insides to find the devil he knows in the fire of irritation rather the devil he doesn’t in the ice of dread. What happened?

The seconds tick by and the music doesn’t shut up. Kakyoin’s skin itches, the hairs on his arms beginning to stand on end. When the preppy music finishes its first loop and starts up again, Kakyoin begins holding his breath. It never takes Avdol this long to answer-

A click and the hold music stops. Kakyoin lets out his breath in a stream of words.

“Avdol-” and he realizes he doesn’t know where to start, how to address what may or may not be wrong, so he decides on the information he knows for sure. “Hey, um- so, some purple-haired standuser with an awful – and I do mean awful – taste in fashion might be coming your way soon, and I just wanted to let you kn-”

“Kakyoin,” Avdol says softly, and Kakyoin stops in his tracks. Avdol’s voice sounded wet. It only adds to the chill of dread in his chest, and Kakyoin has half the mind to stomp his feet and complain over it, it’s not fair, I can’t even regulate my body temperature, don’t-

Avdol takes a shaky breath and Kakyoin swallows thickly. “I’m sorry. Could you repeat that?”

Kakyoin’s mouth feels dry, all the moisture gone to line his freezing intestines instead, making the guts even colder. “I…I caught the standuser that was causing trouble with the stand arrow,” he says numbly, squeezing the phone. “He’ll probably be sent your way soon to get an assessment on if you think he can be left relatively on his own after some, er, community service. I just…wanted to warn you…he’s…insufferable…” Kakyoin mumbles the last part out, the original reason for his phone call feeling so stupid now, what was wrong, how long has it been wrong, what’s going on, was Avdol going to tell me if I hadn’t called-?

“Ah,” Avdol’s voice, normally so smooth and deep, cracks, and Kakyoin flinches as if it was a gunshot. “Thank you, Kakyoin.”

It’s silent for a second and Kakyoin can hear his heartbeat in his ears, feel his pulse in his fingertips.

“Um, also,” Kakyoin sputters, “I- I don’t know if you knew that Mr. Joestar was coming to Japan, but- he was, and he’s here now, and he’s safe, cause I…caught that standuser…so…”

Avdol hums out acknowledgment and Kakyoin falls silent again, his skin itching, his head swaying like he was under thick water, currents rushing around him.

Kakyoin has just opened his mouth to try and address the elephant in the room when Avdol sighs, slight static bursting over the phone, and the faint scratch of what must be Avdol rubbing his palm against his face.

“Kakyoin…Noriaki,” Avdol says quietly, and Kakyoin’s breath hitches at the switch to his first name. “You…you should know. I got the news myself a few hours ago. I…”

Avdol takes a breath, the air sounding wet in his lungs even through the phone, and Kakyoin’s vision spins, not able to register anything, the only thing he can feel being the phone in his hands and the aching cold stretching out from his chest.

“Jea…” Kakyoin’s blood officially joins his chest in the plunging cold, like he was just dunked under Antarctic ice. “Jean is- P-Polnareff is-”

Avdol cuts himself off. Kakyoin starts hearing a distant ringing from his chest, the back of his head feeling faintly like it’s being squeezed. He’s starting to get dizzy. He wants to ask Avdol to spit it out, but his voice has escaped him, his throat closed up tight, adding pressure inside of his freezing chest.

“They think he’s dead,” Avdol whispers, and Kakyoin almost drops the phone with how everything is suddenly blurred and tilted, falling down, everything is melting but it’s so cold, how is that possible?

“What?” Kakyoin can hear himself whisper. He’s not sure if the phone even picked it up, but Avdol elaborates either way.

“He- he went to Italy,” Avdol sputters, voice rising in hysteria, and Kakyoin stares at nothing as he hangs onto every word, jumping from syllable to syllable lest they fall out from under his feet and he stops being able to hear entirely. “He was looking for those- those damned stand arrows, and-”

A worst fear realized, Kakyoin can muse, is what makes people go insane. Something opens up in his stomach, something wet and cold but also so hot and his nerves don’t really know what to do with it – he’s not sure if it hurts or if it’s just uncomfortable or if it’s another hole in him in of itself or if it’s just creating one slowly or what, but it’s there, and it takes all of Kakyoin’s effort to keep the damn phone next to his ear, he needs to know, he needs-

“He was closing in on something big,” Avdol whispers, voice so high relative to the dark timber Kakyoin knew it as. “His…his last check-in was three weeks ago,”

Kakyoin’s breath hitches. “Well- well if it was something big like he said, that isn’t necessarily unusual, ri-?”

“They found so much blood,” Avdol’s voice cracks and Kakyoin feels like he’s been shot, sweat lining his brow, making him shiver almost violently. “Too much of it. They-” Avdol laughs darkly, edging almost into a sob, and Kakyoin can feel his own throat close up at the sound. “They found a leg. But not a whole body. They don’t-” Avdol does sob then, and Kakyoin’s own vision blurs. He blinks rapidly, mouth falling open slightly.

“They don’t think they’ll ever find a whole body,” Avdol cries, and Kakyoin thinks distantly, I’ve never heard Avdol cry before.

I never got to talk to Polnareff about the stand arrows.

Kakyoin’s vision blurs again and he doesn’t have the energy to blink the moisture away.

Avdol sobs once more, twice, for a few heartwrenching beats, and Kakyoin says nothing, staying very, very still as he does, feeling like an ice statue. I never got to tell him about Josuke. Or Okuyasu.

“Ka-Kakyoin,” Avdol weeps, and Kakyoin’s vision restabilizes as a tear falls, thin and warm, rapidly down his cheek. “Noriaki…I’m so sorry. I- I’m so sorry I’m falling apart on you like thi-”

“Don’t,” Kakyoin chokes out past a thick throat, his voice having to fight through his own sobs that he didn’t even notice were building like a crowded train station in his windpipe. “Don’t apologize. Not for this.”

“Kakyoin,” Avdol chokes out breathily, and Kakyoin closes his eyes as another tear falls. The tracks are warm, but do little to heat up his frozen body. “I’m so sorry. You were right, you were right- we should’ve told you. We shouldn’t have done this alone like fools,” he spits, and Kakyoin swallows thickly but the venture is fruitless, as his throat stays closed up. “We should’ve worked together- I knew Jean was a trouble magnet, we knew this was dangerous, why did I ever let him go al-”

“Avdol,” Kakyoin interrupts, his own voice higher with emotion, and Kakyoin balls his free hand into a fist, scrunching up the fabric of his khakis. “Please, please stop.”

Avdol takes a shuddering breath. “I’m sorry,” he weakly whimpers out, and Kakyoin almost lets out a sound at that, but he fortunately is able to bite back anything audible, even though a shudder runs through his frame and his chest suddenly hurts so bad he cannot breathe, mouth open in a silent scream.

“Avdol,” it’s Kakyoin’s turn to sound as wet and pathetic as an unwanted newspaper in left in the morning rain, “I- I’m sorry too. I’m-” Kakyoin shudders again, something sharp running along his skin, and he inhales shakily, wetly.

I never got to see him again after rehab. I never got to show him my progress-

Kakyoin does sob then, slapping a hand over his mouth, the smack of skin probably louder than the cry itself, but Kakyoin doesn’t care, more tears slipping out.

“Kakyion,” Avdol says, “take care of yourself.”

Kakyoin grits his teeth tightly. You’re the one who’s in the thick of something so dangerous Polnareff doesn’t even have a body to bury-

“You should look at yourself,” He spits before the fury crashes down and he’s biting back another series of sobs. He suddenly feels so hot, so coiled and messy and wet and sad and he isn’t sure what exactly is whole of him anymore, feeling nebulous, feeling like a sloppily put-together ideation of misery.

“A-Avdol,” Kakyoin says, voice shaky but not an outright cry. He’ll take it. “I’m…I’m so sorry. I didn’t…” I didn’t know. I didn’t know. I didn’t know. I never fucking know.

I never got to make him proud of me again.

“No, no,” Avdol sniffles, voice sounding a little steadier now he’s given something else to focus on, and Kakyoin feels an incredible flash of envy over it, so intense Hierophant is summoned unconsciously. “I’m…I’m glad you called. Like I said, you…you deserve to know…”

Things fall quiet then. Kakyoin’s vision is swimming, his perception of where exactly he stands in the room being tilted on its axis.

When was the last time I talked to him?

Avdol lets out a sigh then, his breath hitching audibly, and Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut. “I…thank you for the warning about the stand user. And I’m glad to hear Mr. Joestar is safe. I…”

He never knew I was in Japan. Did he ever even know when I was in Greece?

Kakyoin stares at nothing. He knows his eyes have opened again, but he can’t consciously make sense of anything he’s seeing. It’s all colors that have no names and light bouncing off his tears right into his retinas.

“I’m sorry,” Avdol whispers. “I wanted to discuss with you more- more concretely, and apologize for the last call more appropriately, but I-”

“Don’t worry about that right now,” Kakyoin says quietly, strained. “I…I’m not mad about it anymore.” He isn’t sure if that’s true per se, but it doesn’t feel like a lie – not right now, at least.

Avdol breathes out. “I’m sorry,” he says again. Kakyoin doesn’t have the energy to correct him once more.

It’s quiet for a bit longer, and Kakyoin uses the time to try and figure out his body again in the midst of the new sensations. He can hardly breathe. He can't see anything. He isn’t sure if he’s cold or hot at this point.

“I’ll call again soon,” Avdol speaks up again suddenly, and Kakyoin’s vision snaps to the side where the phone is at his ear as if he could see the man. “But I…I need…” Avdol’s voice strains again and cracks fully as he says, “I need some time.”

“Of course,” Kakyoin replies hoarsely. He bites back an apology. He isn’t sure if he’d really mean for it to be heard by Avdol if he did let it out.

I never got to actually celebrate a birthday with him.

I never…thanked him…for being my friend…

The phone clicks and the line goes dead. Kakyoin stares at nothing as the drone echoes through his ears.

One of Hierophant’s tentacles gently loops around the device, bringing it back to its holder, but it’s like Kakyoin’s arm is stuck in rigor mortis, elbow still bent and fingers still closed around a phone that’s no longer there.

Kakyoin is jolted back to reality when Hierophant gently traces his fingers. Kakyoin jerks his gaze to his stand.

Hierophant is in his humanoid form, looking at him inquisitively, head tilted. It was weird how something without a human face could convey such human emotion, Kakyoin thinks.

He gently maneuvers Kakyoin’s hand down away from his ear, and Kakyoin lets him as feeling sort of comes back to him beyond the blanketing despair, so heavy and thick that Kakyoin couldn’t drown himself in it properly. He is almost mournful of the fact.

Hierophant sets Kakyoin’s hand in his lap before placing something he had in his other hand in Kakyon’s palm. There’s a rattle associated with the movement and Kakyoin recognizes the feeling of cool plastic in his hands.

He jerks his head down from Hierophant’s gaze, staring down at the pill bottle in his hand. Hierophant nudges his knuckles almost desperately, almost as if saying, This is usually the solution, right?

Kakyoin’s blood has been cold for the past several minutes anyway, but its renewed in its vigor as he stares down, his heart rate picking up.

It’d be so, so easy to get some sleep even after the news if he took them. He probably wouldn’t even dream; they always drag him so far down under. He’d be safe…

Safe…

Safe-

Kakyoin doesn’t remember moving, but he blinks and suddenly five pills are staring up at him, having been shaken out of the bottle. He’d already had some earlier; after his fight with Akira and worming out of Josuke healing him, he couldn’t wait for his usual routine of taking his nightly dosage before bed.

How many would that make if he took these, then?

Two pills twice a day, the thin instructions taped onto the orange bottle say.

…Seven? In the span of six hours…

I’d be safe, a part of him cries, forcing his brain to acknowledge the dull ache spreading from his lower back to around his waist that’s rising in its sharpness. I’d b-

How many times am I going to have to see you in a hospital bed?

Kakyoin’s already frozen, but if he was gearing up to move to bring the pills to his mouth, he is not anymore.

How many times are you going to make me sit here and wonder if this is the time you’ll really die?

Right. Right.

Kakyoin shakes his head jerkily. What would Polnareff think if he saw me like this? He thinks. It was his idea I went to rehab in the first place.

If he’s really dead…what would this be saying about his memory?

Kakyoin bawls his fist and, despite the pain that arcs up his spine as he rears his hand back, chucks the pills against the wall with as much force as he can muster.

The rhythmic beating against the drywall and then subsequent silent drops to the carpeted floor ring in Kakyoin’s ears like another shot from the gun that was Avdol’s voice cracks. He stares, breathing heavily, at where he can see the white pinpricks laying on the floor.

Hierophant is staring, silent, and very, very still, and Kakyoin just rips his scarf off his neck, brings it to his face, and screams.

He can feel his stand reach around and hug him, but he does nothing to acknowledge it or reciprocate; he just screams until the breath is drained from his lungs like water down a sink and then sobs, haggardly, while his throat aches in a way that compliments the ache in his back, scratched up and ripped like shredded paper.

That fucking idiot, Kakyoin thinks as he cries, his scarf becoming damp against his face between his tears and open-mouthed breathing and sobbing. Why was he alone- what happened- how dare someone take him- I NEVER GOT TO SEE HIM AGAIN-

Kakyoin thinks he screams again, but he can’t be entirely sure, the ringing in his ears too intense, his chest being ripped open, ribs splintered and shattered as his entrails are harked out with every shuddering inhale he takes that he then lets out as a sob.

He’s shaking so bad his spine is officially on fire, but he can’t fucking care, Polnareff is dead and he never saw him again and he never got to ask-

Did going to rehab really change your opinion of me after all? You promised it wouldn’t but you didn’t tell me about the stand arrows and now you never will-

Hierophant gently pries the scarf away from Kakyoin’s face, and Kakyoin gasps, sucking in a deep breath.

It’s too late for anymore questions or answers.

He can’t see his stand very well past the blurred mess his vision has become, but his stand doesn’t mind, instead reaching and gently, methodically shrugging off Kakyoin’s cardigan for him while Kakyoin, pathetically, just shudders and whimpers. His chest, now that it’s been opened, is unable to close, his innards still sloshing out of him, his body unable to keep itself contained lest he kills himself trying.

Hierophant gently takes him by the shoulders then, silently begging him to lay down and rest his back with small tugs, and Kakyoin swallows, gritting his teeth as mucus slides down his throat. He complies, however, flopping unceremoniously on his side, uncaring about how his back shrieks at the carelessness, scrubbing his face.

Hierophant stares at him for a second before turning and flicking off the lamp, bathing the room only in his green glow.

Kakyoin curls up as much as he can bear with his spine acting out like a child against his nerves, and Hierophant dissolves into an array of tentacles, some reaching to wrap around him, providing pressure near his spine so it stops hurting at least a little, the rest taking up stations around the room like they usually do.

Kakyoin feels a small flash of appreciation for his stand taking this all in stride, because honestly, but it’s only a drop in the tumultuous ocean his mental state has become, and all it takes is a quick recall of why he’s so torn up to forget his stand’s attempts entirely.

Polnareff is dead. We don’t even have a body.

This’ll be my first funeral.

Kakyoin buries his head in his hands and cries, apologies he can’t assign meaning to tying his tongue down, regret a stringy, tensile anchor around his heart.

Chapter 19

Notes:

helloo everyone
i know this is quite late considering i wanted to get this out in. july, and not late august
but well. augh. i thought this summer was going to be really fun and productive but i ended up in an unsafe living situation with people who .well. i don't like, to put simply, and i won't be able to escape it until september 1 which is when i move out, but at least that's like barely a week away now
if you're worried, please don't be! I've been taking care of myself. it's just, because of that, i haven't had much time to write, especially with the headspace wwm/ta kakyoin is in during this arc. but because im safe again really soon my mood has been a lot better which means i managed to finish this chapter (:
I'll try and make up for the months i've missed with the free time i have in September but until then, i really hope you guys enjoy this chapter, and thank you for all the support you've given me. it means everything

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

It’s ten in the morning the following Tuesday when Kakyoin wakes up to the phone drilling into his ears. He’s too exhausted to be angry, some practiced part of him reflexively trying to get a spark going against his bones, but they’re too wet to ignite.

Kakyoin stays still for a second, a heavy sludge in his chest keeping his muscles lax, but the ringing pierces his eardrums like a thin needle, precise and stabbing, and Kakyoin closes his sore eyes again and lets out a soft sigh as Hierophant gently reaches down from where he was strung up, picking up the phone and bringing it to his ear.

“Hello?” Kakyoin asks, wincing at his voice. It’s husky from sleep and nasally from the crying fit he’d had, a strange mix of deep and high and completely unsmooth, like a topographical map.

“Mr. Kakyoin…?”

A similar rough, deep voice rings from the phone, and Kakyoin wakes up a little more.

“Okuyasu?” He coughs slightly and one of Hierophant’s tentacles snakes into the bathroom to get him a glass of water. “Is everything alright?”

Okuyasu hesitates. Kakyoin wakes up even more, something cold sort of washing away the dark, heavy sludge, but it doesn’t feel any better in how it sits under his ribs. Hierophant returns the glass of water and Kakyoin gingerly sits up, the phone still held to his ear as he takes it.

“Okuya-?”

“Umm- I- I don’t know,” Okuyasu says, before something Kakyoin can’t make out sounds in the background. Kakyoin raises the glass to his lips. Faintly, as if turned away from the microphone of the phone, Kakyoin can hear Okuyasu call out, “Josuke- Josuke, he’s already unconscious, it’s fine-!”

Kakyoin spits out his water. “ Huh?! Who’s unconscious?!”

“Can you come to- um- can you come by this address?” Okuyasu asks meekly, his voice uncharacteristically creaky, and Kakyoin is jumping up out of bed and into his wheelchair, rolling to the bathroom to do quick work of his teeth and hair.

“Absolutely,” he declares immediately. “Where?”

Okuyasu rattles an address that Kakyoin knows is nowhere near the school, and he frowns, suddenly remembering the kids should be in class right now. What is going on?

Hierophant takes the phone to hang it up as Kakyoin glances in the mirror, only to freeze at what he sees. His eyes are bloodshot and red colors the skin surrounding them, standing out harshly against his violet irises.

Kakyoin swallows slowly, staring. He doesn’t think he’s ever seen himself look like this. He blinks, but the image doesn’t disappear. His eyes sting.

Hierophant gently places something on the bathroom counter, just in his peripheral, and Kakyoin jerks his head, only to see his spare pair of sunglasses staring up at him. The lenses on this one were pink, a perfect cover for his current state, surrounded by star-shaped frames.

Kakyoin chews on the inside of his lip, narrowing his gaze, before he sighs, picking them up and slotting them on. He reminds himself that he should ask Josuke to fix his heart-shaped frames once the situation – whatever it is – has been dealt with.

Kakyoin sighs again and ties his hair back quickly into the simple low ponytail that’s become the trademark of his 20s. After chancing one last glance at himself in the mirror – the shades do hide his eyes, thankfully – he turns and rolls towards the door of his room.

The sludge in his chest he woke up to tags along, but it’s easier to forget now.

After using Hierophant to hook him onto a car leaving the hotel, it doesn’t take Kakyoin long to reach the town’s heart, and it only takes a few minutes of wheeling himself swiftly down the sidewalk with Hierophant kicking him forward with one tentacle after the other before he’s staring down the huge house.

Kakyoin squints up at the thing; two stories at least – there’s maybe a small third floor? Or an attic? – with a wide wraparound porch. It almost reminds Kakyoin of a western version of Holly’s house, and he shakes his head roughly of the thought before rolling up to the door.

The door opens just as he reaches the top of the porch, Hierophant setting him down gently but swiftly, and Kakyoin blinks as Okuyasu rushes out, tugging on the collar of his uniform anxiously as his gaze lingers on something inside the house.

“Okuyas-?”

“Mr. Kakyoin,” he wheezes, as if winded, “good, you’re finally here-”

There’s a thud that echoes from the inside of the house and Okuyasu brings a hand to his face and just holds it there, covering his eyes, as he takes a deep breath. Kakyoin blinks, brows furrowing. “Okuya-”

“Um, it’s a lot to explain,” he mutters before stepping to the side, pinning the door open for Kakyoin to roll inside. Kakyoin does after staring at Okuyasu for a second, his brows knit together tightly as he does, the corners of his mouth weighed down sharply, but Okuyasu doesn’t look up to see it. He looks exhausted, Kakyoin thinks, and he averts his gaze. He can only hope he doesn’t look the same.

The entryway opens up to a large living room and a flight of stairs, which Kakyoin grimaces at – but thankfully, Koichi and Josuke are in the living room on a large couch. Josuke is breathing raggedly, and Kakyoin’s frown deepens when he notices his knuckles split and bleeding, raw and red. He winces just looking at them. Koichi, on the other hand, looks to be almost in shock, hands limply gripping his knees, staring down in the general vicinity of his shoes, but his eyes are unfocused, like he’s not really seeing anything.

Kakyoin chances a glance around, but nothing in this room seems out of place. What on earth happened? Why are they in this strange house? He recalls what he ovehreard on the phone before he came over and narrows his eyes. …And where is the guy Josuke presumably cut his knuckles on?

Koichi and Josuke both don’t react as Kakyoin wheels in front of the couch, and Kakyoin rhythmically squeezes his armrests.

Okuyasu moves to sit next to his friends, in the middle, and Koichi’s shoulders droop a bit while Josuke tenses even further. Kakyoin squints. That’s weird.

“Alright, what happened?” Kakyoin sighs, rubbing his temple as he keeps the kids in his peripheral. “Aren’t you supposed to be at school right now-?”

Josuke lets out a noise then, something throaty and incredibly primal, the soundwaves rocketing off somewhere in his chest to ricochet in Kakyoin’s ears, and he blinks, surprised. Josuke cuts himself off abruptly, however, and stiffens even further, lips curling back as he grits his teeth at the floor.

Seemingly just as startled, Okuyasu stares at Josuke for a second before patting his knee gently. Koichi hasn’t responded, which actually very worrying now that Kakyoin thinks about it, glancing at the kid. He’s still looking nowhere in particular, blue eyes glazed over like waxy pearls.

Kakyoin shifts uneasily in his wheelchair, fingers digging into his armrests, nails picking at the leather. “Touchy subject?”

Josuke twitches sort of like how a zombie would in an old horror film, before he jumps to his feet, sneakers pounding into the carpet, making Kakyoin wheel back in surprise.

He was going to kill them,” Josuke seethes, spittle flying from his lips, and Kakyoin winces, suddenly glad for his decision to back up. “He was going to make me watch and he was going to kill them-”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly as the words find meaning in his head, something sparking to life in his chest. “He was going to what?!”

Okuyasu grips his hand and tugs Josuke back down onto the couch, jostling Koichi, who still doesn’t respond. Josuke snarls like an animal at the movement, and Okuyasu reaches up and cups his face, turning his head to make him face him.

“And you also stopped him. You stopped him. No one is dead. It’s okay,” Okuyasu says in his gravelly voice, staring Josuke down. Kakyoin glances away, suddenly unsure if this is something he should really watch.

He can hear Josuk breathing shakily for a moment before there’s a shuffling and someone clears their throat. Kakyoin turns back, Josuke and Okuyasu back in their respective places.

“I- I don’t know where to start,” Okuyasu says and Kakyoin almost snorts due to just how different his and Josuke’s reactions to this have been.

“Let’s start with who ‘he’ is?”

Okuyasu opens his mouth, but jumps and shuts his jaw with an audible click of his teeth when Koichi finally speaks.

“Kishibe Rohan,” he says, voice stronger and steadier than Kakyoin thought he was capable of in this state. Kakyoin turns to look at him, but he’s still staring off at something that doesn’t exist, though his hands are kneading the material of his pants now. It sort of reminds Kakyoin of a cat.

“He’s a mangaka,” Koichi elaborates. “He…” He trails off.

“And he attacked you?”

Josuke growls, making Kakyoin whip his head back to him, but Okuyasu shushes him, hand on his knee, squeezing tightly.

“...Yes,” Koichi says, voice quieter, but still steady.

Kakyoin purses his lips – he wants to ask why exactly some stressed out artist picked a fight with three teenagers, but he gets the idea that question should be saved for later, when emotions aren’t running as high.

“He used his stand,” spits Josuke, and now Kakyoin is really concerned, gaze darting to Josuke’s form. Okuyasu’s gripping one hand tightly, but Josuke squeezes his knee with the one that’s free, glowering at the floor. Kakyoin isn’t sure he’s ever seen him look so furious, tied with the look Josuke had when Angelo spoke of his grandfather.

“He has a stand?!” Kakyoin asks, eyes darting about the room. “Where is he?!”

“Upstairs,” Okuyasu quickly explains, “in his room. Josuke, uh…roughed him up. A lot.” Okuyasu winces and Kakyoin slides his gaze to Josuke.

Josuke immediately bristles, defensive, and before Kakyoin can say anything, he yanks his wrist free from Okuyasu’s grip and stares Kakyoin right in the face.

“Don’t say anything- he was going to KILL THEM,” Josuke spits, surging forward even with Okuyasu and now Koichi holding him back. “He insulted me- he- he was going to KILL THEM- HE WAS GOING TO KILL OKUYASU AND KOICHI-!”

“But he didn’t, ” Kakyoin attempts to soothe, clapping his hands down onto Josuke’s shoulders roughly, squeezing to bring Josuke’s attention away from the anger and fear and toward him. “He didn’t. You saved them. They’re right here.”

“He used it against me,” Josuke seethes, trembling so badly Kakyoin is almost concerned he’ll fall to the floor. “He- He used them as bargaining chips, said if I tried to help he would kill them, he tried to pin me down, he-”

Josuke.”

Josuke sucks in a breath like he’s breaking the surface for the first time after several minutes under water.

Kakyoin scans his face, eyeing the pinch between his brows, the shaking shoulders that Koichi, Okuyasu, and he himself are still holding, the tremble in his half standing, half sitting position. Kakyoin gently pushes and Josuke limply falls to the couch again.

“I’m not mad at you,” Kakyoin says, voice low as if something too loud will spook Josuke. “I’m not saying you didn’t have your reasons- like damn, Josuke, you didn’t want to kill Akira even after everything he’d done- I know you wouldn’t be this angry for no reason.”

Josuke takes a deep breath, and finally, his shoulders slump, and he looks very, very tired, eyes heavy lidded as he sinks into the cushions and his friends’ holds.

Kakyoin gives them all a moment before he takes a deep breath. “So…what do you need me to do? Is he still wounded or…”

Okuyasu shakes his head. “No. When Josuke, um…calmed down enough, he fixed him with Crazy Diamond, and also his office. I called you cause…” he hesitates then, as if something is holding back his tongue, and Kakyoin frowns, but Okuyasu continues before Kakyoin can call him on it. “Um… Well…you register standusers with the Speedwagon Foundation, right? So, I figured…especially since he might be troublesome…”

Kakyoin nods, giving Okuyasu a smile. “You’re right about that. Good job, Okuyasu.”

He smiles weakly, and Kakyoin knows that wasn’t the exact reason he was called as a result, but whatever the real reason is, it’s not like he doesn’t need to get this Kishibe to the SPW.

“Is there anything I should know when I grab him? About his stand ability? He might still be on guard,” Kakyoin asks.

The three all exchange glances and Koichi swallows thickly. Okuyasu sees this and frowns before speaking up.

“He might not be awake yet, but his stand- er, it… he called it Heaven’s Door. Either my- my brother or Red Hot Chili Pepper got him with the arrow,” Okuyasu explains. Kakyoin nods. “His stand, uh…”

“He already knows who you are,” Josuke spits, “because his stand lets him read people, literally. All your secrets, your history, any knowledge you have, what you know of your friends, he’s privy to all of it if he uses his fucking stand.”

Kakyoin’s blood goes cold, and he shifts slightly, tying his scarf tighter as if that could keep him from being exposed, the hair on the back of his neck prickling. Past his own discomfort, he can see Koichi begin to shake in the corner of his vision. Okuyasu wraps his arm around him, but Koichi doesn’t seem to notice.

“He- read a lot about me,” Koichi pipes up. His voice is still steady, but it’s quiet. Okuyasu’s arm tightens, and Koichi takes a deep breath. “I was the first…um.” He awkwardly clears this throat and decides not to pursue that train of thought. Kakyoin doesn’t push him.

“So he definitely knows you. He told Josuke…he told Josuke it wouldn’t be worth contacting you because he’d…kill…me and Okuyasu,” his voice gets quieter and quieter, and Kakyoin begins to feel some of the familiar sparks in his gut, smoke beginning to fill his chest cavity as flint chips against his ribs.

“But,” Koichi says, voice steadying again as he raises his head, despite his trembling. “That means he probably isn’t confident enough in his abilities to take you on. Otherwise, I think-” his trembling inceases, his entire body quivering for a few heartbeats as his face scrunches up, and Kakyoin thinks, Oh, he’s only a kid. “I think he would’ve wanted Josuke to get you otherwise,” he says.

Kakyoin nods while Josuke snarls wordlessly and Okuyasu finds himself comforting both of his friends at once. Kakyoin offers Okuyasu a sympathetic look before he focuses on Koichi again. “Getting into the head of the enemy – that’s smart.”

Koichi’s lips twitch into what was probably supposed to be a smile, but it comes off as more of a grimace. Kakyoin swallows.

“Well,” he says, tone light and cheery despite the scared boys in front of him, “I can take it from here. You three are already late enough as is, so you should get to school now, especially before they decide to call your parents.” He almost bites his tongue when Okuyasu looks down, but it seems to ground Josuke a little more. As for Koichi…

Koichi can’t stop trembling. Kakyoin frowns at him, brows pinching. He rolls forward slightly. “Koi-”

“I get it,” He says abruptly, jerking his gaze up to Kakyoin.

Kakyoin blinks. “Get what?”

“Being a puppet,” Koichi mutters. “Not being in control. Not of your memories. Not of your body…”

Kakyoin twitches violently. “ Excuse me-”

“It was the freak,” Josuke interrupts, seething. “He could write his own will onto Koichi’s mind, could block out his own memories, could prevent him from attacking him, c-”

Okuyasu squeezes both of them and they both quiet down as a result. Kakyoin feels worms under his skin, nuzzling him from the inside, nudging his muscle fibers away, snaking against his nerves, making him twitch.

“I know it’s my fault,” Koichi speaks again, voice still steady, but edging toward hysterical in pitch, getting higher and higher, “I know I should’ve been on my guard- that just because we beat Red Hot Chili Pepper doesn’t mean there’s no more danger- but-”

“Stop,” Kakyoin strangles out, and Koichi shuts up immediately. Kakyoin feels spiders all over his skin, climbing his back, up his neck, kissing his ears, digging into his forehead, let’s be friends-

Kakyoin abruptly wheels toward the staircase.

“You said he’s upstairs?” He asks with faux politeness, a chill racing through his limbs but his chest and gut curdling like lava, hot and uncomfortable and furious.

“Um- yeah-” Okuyasu starts but Kakyoin hardly needed the confirmation anyway. Hierophant slips out and lifts Kakyoin’s wheelchair, and he heads up.

“Wait- Mr. Kakyoin!” Okuyasu calls, voice high and scared, and Kakyoin knows, knows, knows he should turn and make sure the kids are okay before he indulges in revenge on their behalf, but, well. He never said he was a good mentor.

Finding the bedroom is easy – besides it, the top floor only has an office and a guest bathroom, both of which have their doors open, which makes it easy for Kakyoin to zero in on the closed door at the end of the hall, wheels silently rolling along the purple carpet.

Hierophant knocks once, but he doesn’t wait for a response before he slams the door open, Hierophant quickly swinging it shut again behind him, just in case the kids tried to follow him.

The figure on the bed groans, rolling over with a hand on their head, fingers intertwined with the green strands. Kakyoin raises his brow – green has never looked so ugly before.

The man squints his eyes open only to scoff, closing them again. “You must be ‘Mister Kakyoin,’” he says, voice a little breathy, husky from a sore throat. Kakyoin hopes it’s sore from screaming during Josuke’s rampage.

“And you must be Kishibe Rohan,” Kakyoin mocks in return.

Rohan just smirks, however. “Oh, are you a fan?”

“What?”

Rohan sits up a bit, raising a brow. “Even if you’re out of the age range, how do you not know who I am? My manga, Pink Dark Boy, is the most popular-” His hair flops into his face then and he scoffs, hand shooting out to his nightstand, flopping about. “Where did that brat put my headband-”

“Shut the hell up,” Kakyoin snaps, and Rohan tosses his hair back with a jerk of his head and stares at Kakyoin with an unamused face, brows high, eyes heavy-lidded with doubt. “Stand up.”

Rohan stares. “Why?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “You don’t get to be the one asking questions here. Now stand the hell up before I make you.”

Rohan tsks, but he does stand on shakey legs, leaning against his nightstand for support. “Yes, yes, you’ll tote me around with your stand like you did that other standuser – Red Hot Chili Pepper, was it? What a mouthful.”

Kakyoin bristles. “So you did mess around with their minds,” he outlines lowly, fingernails digging into his armrests, and Rohan seems to fully wake up, shivering at his tone before glaring outright.

“I only did what I had to in order to get some real, raw emotion. It’s pointless to write a manga if you’re not going to open a window to the real world with it, and I need real material to do so.”

Kakyoin stares, almost able to ignore his building fury due to the overwhelming confusion of Rohan’s blatant display of unhinged behavior, but it’s only a fire blanket against a forest fire.

“You only- you- what?” Kakyoin growls, the sound coming out cracked and rough, and Rohan swallows thickly, which almost makes Kakyoin feel vindication, but then the man speaks again.

“I just wanted to make it more realistic. What’s wrong with wanting my stories to have worth-”

“YOU ALMOST KILLED TWO HIGH SCHOOLERS FOR THE SAKE OF REALISM?!” Kakyoin roars and Rohan at least has the mind to shut his mouth.

He stares as Kakyoin breathes audibly for a second before he combs his hair back with his fingers and says, “Well, I wasn’t going to actually kill them, but they didn’t need to know tha-”

Hierophant wraps around Kakyoin’s legs and torso like a medical bracer and lifts him, and Rohan only has the time to widen his eyes before Kakyoin grabs him by the collar and hoists him up to the height Hierophant has him at, slamming him into the wall, pinning him with his arm against the top of his chest.

“What the hell is wrong with you?” Kakyoin snarls, his voice gravelly and primal, akin to the roar of a wave as it pounds the shore. Rohan claws at his arm, snarling right back, glaring at Kakyoin with bright green eyes under the strands of his hair.

“Koichi’s memories weren’t kidding – you’re fucking crazy,” Rohan spits, and Kakyoin is shocked enough to blink. “No wonder he doesn’t trust you – it’s a wonder why Okuyasu does! Though, he is stupider…”

Rage overcomes his shock again and something completely primal escapes his throat, loud and throaty and angry, and Rohan winces if only because Kakyoin quite nearly spits on his face because of it. “DO NOT speak of those kids like you know them, DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!”

Rohan attempts to punch him, but Hierophant easily catches it, dissolving into tendrils, wrenching Rohan’s arm back and pinning it against the wall. Rohan gasps, eyes widening, but he continues glaring and kicking, and Kakyoin bares his teeth like a dog. Does he not know when to fucking quit-?

“But I do know them,” Rohan spits, “Koichi and Okuyasu, anyway. I didn’t get to read Josuke, but that’s fine, he wasn’t really main character material,” Rohan pauses then, tilting his head thoughtfully, and Kakyoin pulls back just to throw him into the wall again, the drywall giving behind Rohan’s shoulders as he does, for daring to speak so nonchalantly about digging in his kids’ minds-

“You unoriginal bastard,” Kakyoin snarls, digging his elbow into Rohan’s collarbone, earning a hiss from the man, “you’re so bereft of ideas and so shameless about it that you steal from people to turn into plotlines?”

Rohan is focusing more on squirming against Kakyoin’s hold than his words, but his eyes dart up to Kakyoin’s face at the insult, face twisting into a scowl. “Excuse me-”

“You know you can just be an artist if you can’t come up with a story?” Kakyoin continues, grinding his elbow against Rohan’s collarbone, some part of him satisfied with the wince Rohan lets out at the action. “No one ever said you had to be a mangaka, you sick-”

“Oh, you don’t fucking get it,” Rohan snarls, nails digging into Kakyoin’s arm but muffled by his cardigan, “no one ever fucking gets it-”

“Enlighten me,” Kakyoin growls, his tone akin to a cat’s yowl, and Rohan’s kicks finally manage to nail him right in the stomach.

Panic immediately floods the anger, making his limbs cold, and Hierophant gives up on being leg bracers, immediately bringing Kakyoin back to his wheelchair as he gags, nerves both real and phantom screaming, oh, it burns, I’m dying, I’m dying, I’m dy-

Past the blood rushing in his ears, he can hear Rohan call out, can hear “Heaven’s Door!” being shouted past the cottony static in his ears, and Kakyoin shoots open his eyes again and screams and Hierophant dives forward and into Rohan, not again, not again, NO ONE IS EVER GOING TO MESS WITH MY HEAD AGAIN-

Kakyoin can feel the second Hierophant blankets around Rohan’s mind, blocking it from the rest of the his body, can feel the weight suddenly sagging on his shoulders as Rohan’s movements become his own.

Kakyoin gasps weakly, wetly, cold flushing throughout his entire system as Rohan stands and stares at nothing. Completely still. Completely in his control.

Kakyoin- Kakyoin can’t breathe-

He gasps again, wheezing, his lungs spasming in his chest, only adding to the aches his stomach and spine are wracking against his nerves, and Rohan jerks as Hierophant has him walk toward him.

“No- NO!” Kakyoin howls, and Rohan- Hierophant, it’s Hierophant, that isn’t Rohan – comes to a sudden stop.

Kakyoin stares, his vision starting to go blurry, the edges becoming fuzzy and gray.

“Hierophant,” Kakyoin croaks, and Hierophant has Rohan step back to the bed, sitting on it gently, before relaxing.

Rohan goes limp, head hanging forward, like a broken puppet, not even twitching, and Kakyoin only has time to wipe cold sweat from his brow before he turns, wheels to the corner of the room, and throws up in the trash can he finds there. It’s more spitting bile than actually vomiting, but Kakyoin’s stomach churns anyway, due to the fear or the kick, and Kakyoin chokes before wiping his mouth.

He’s glad he can’t look at Rohan’s eyes from his angle, the only reprieve from this fucking nightmare, as he instead ties him up with Hierophant, arms pinned to his sides, legs tied together, a tentacle around his neck as a warning, before he hastily throws control back into Rohan’s hands.

Rohan gasps, blinking rapidly, wide gaze darting to Kakyoin, but he’s not able to say anything before the door shoots open and Josuke, Okuyasu, and Koichi dart inside, Koichi in between Okuyasu and Josuke, all three’s stands at the ready.

“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO MR. KAKYOIN?!” Josuke roars, only to blink when he sees Rohan tied up, Kakyoin wheezing quietly in the corner of the room.

“Mr. Kakyoin?!” Okuyasu asks, concerned, as he rushes to his side, while Josuke turns with a snarl toward Rohan, keeping himself pointedly between the man and Koichi.

“What the hell did you do?!” Josuke barks and Rohan rolls his eyes before dragging his gaze to Kakyoin. To Kakyoin’s surprise, he’s not glaring anymore, and it almost makes Kakyoin want to throw up again. Why isn’t he angry he should be angry why isn’t he attacking me he should kill me I said I would never do it again I said I would never be like him I-

“I pressed buttons,” Rohan says, searching Kakyoin’s face. Kakyoin glares at him, but he knows it’s considerably weaker than the expressions he was wearing earlier, and it makes him feel raw and fragile, like an exposed nerve. He keeps his gaze on Rohan though; looking away would be worse.

“What does that mean?!” Josuke questions sharply before he turns to Okuyasu. “Okuyasu, is he oka-?”

“I’m-” Kakyoin heaves again, his abdominals spasming still from the kick, and Okuyasu shouts in concern while Crazy Diamond and Josuke both raise their fists as they turn back to Rohan.

“BASTAR-”

“Thank you,” Rohan says suddenly, and everyone goes silent.

Kakyoin glares at him as his glasses slip down his sweat-soaked nose. His hands are shaking, but he’s been worse, so he ignores it. “What?”

Rohan finally drops their gaze, and Kakyoin closes his eyes, letting out a breath.

“...Thank you,” Rohan mutters to the floor, “for showing me what it’s like to be- absorbed by someone else’s will.”

Kakyoin tastes bile at the back of his throat at the wording, and Koichi, Okuyasu, and Josuke both whip their heads to Kakyoin questioningly.

Rohan sighs, throwing his head back, leaning against the tentacle around his throat like it was a collar pillow. “Brainwashing is a very common trope. I’d been considering bringing it into my manga, but was hesitant because I hadn’t had much first-hand experience.” He smiles sardonically, a twist at the ends giving away that he’s not quite amused. “But now I do.” He looks up again, meeting Kakyoin’s gaze. “And now I understand why you were so upset – you and Koichi both.”

Kakyoin raises his brows, but he says nothing. Okuyasu and Koichi exchange glances while Josuke growls.

“What the hell does that mean?” He snaps, rearing his arm back for a punch.

“It means that Kakyoin used his stand on me, but it was enlightening, so I’m not gonna write instructions in anyone again that impedes with their own free will- so do not punch me!” Rohan snaps.

Josuke blinks. Kakyoin lets out a weak exhale. His stomach aches, his spine rattling alongside it, sweat beading on his forehead, his knees weak, and he longs for the painkillers he’d thrown just a few nights ago-

No, Kakyoin thinks harshly, no, no, no, don’t do that to Polnareff, you already used mind control again, you can’t keep doing this-

“Can you please,” Rohan says, interrupting Kakyoin from his thoughts, “let me go?”

Kakyoin stares at him. He gazes evenly back.

Hierophant slowly unravels and slinks away, Josuke still on guard, glancing back between Kakyoin and Rohan again rapidly.

Koichi glances between them all before settling on Kakyoin. Kakyoin flits his gaze away; he can’t…

No wonder Koichi doesn’t trust you.

Well, he certainly had no reason to now, huh? Not after being mind controlled and then seeing proof that Kakyoin can do so himself if he’s- if he’s angry enough-

Kakyoin heaves again and Okuyasu lets out a startled sound, gripping the trash can and bringing it to his chest. Kakyoin pats his arm as the shudders even out without him truly throwing up again.

It’s quiet, then, almost awkward, before Koichi spits out, “So- so that’s it?”

Rohan raises a brow. Josuke keeps his gaze on him, unwilling to let him out of sight.

Koichi grits his teeth before standing straight, brows pinched together. “That’s it? You’re done with this?”

Rohan blinks. “With the instructions part, I- yes. But I’ll still read people, if that’s what yo-”

“I’ll kill you,” Koichi spits, and everyone turns to face him then, “if you dare.”

Koichi breathes raggedly and Josuke frowns, finally turning bodily away from Rohan and reaching out for his friend. “Koich-”

“One of the biggest rules of writing,” Koichi interrupts, glaring daggers at Rohan, and Kakyoin can only stare, his eyes wide, expression slack otherwise, “is writing what you know, yes. But no one is going to know everything,” he spits, “which is why you take your experiences and expand them.”

He points at Rohan then, finger shaking only in fury, and something kinder than anger, less sharp and poisonous, but still just as hot, rises in Kakyoin at the sight. “You do not have the right to use other people’s experience,” he snarls, “you do not have the right to take their stories from them. Use your own fucking life and live it instead of using it to peruse through others’! That’s what the challenge of writing is! Are you telling me Kishibe Rohan, the most famous mangaka in Japan, can’t handle the basic, fundamental challenge of writing?!”

Koichi’s chest is heaving, the only sounds in the room being his breathing, before he finally drops his finger and says, “Because if you can’t, you’re better off dead than daring to charade as a writer.”

Everything is quiet. Okuyasu silently stands up after glancing at Kakyoin a couple of more times, then paces to Koichi. He gently clasps a hand on his shoulder, and Koichi shudders wordlessly, sinking into the contact.

Finally, the silence is broken: Rohan chuckles.

Koichi flushes red, fury making his blue eyes all the more noticable, before Rohan raises his hands and simply says, “You’re a very, very interesting person, Koichi.” He nods then, smiling up at him. “Alright. I’m done reading people for material.”

Koichi swallows thickly before collapsing into Okuyasu’s hold. Josuke shouts in alarm, rushing to his friend’s side, and the three converse in quiet tones and gentle touches. Koichi closes his eyes and he settles in his friends’ holds.

Kakyoin eyes them, his chest aching alongside his stomach now, before he turns to Rohan. Wheeling forward, he deigns to refuse to offer a hand to help him up. Rohan stands up by himself anyway.

“Good for your turn of heart,” Kakyoin says, voice crackly and much, much weaker than the spitting fire it was earlier, and it only makes Kakyoin’s stomach ache more, pain pulsing right from his core, “but I’m still gonna need you to come with me to get registered with the Speedwagon Foundation.”

Rohan blinks before nodding. “Oh- yes. I remember reading about that in Koichi’s file.” Kakyoin narrows his eyes and Rohan sighs. “What, do you want me to pretend I didn’t do it at all?” Kakyoin presses his lips tightly together, eyes narrowing. He simply rolls forward and jabs Rohan’s toe with his wheel. Rohan jumps, cursing under his breath, glaring at Kakyoin.

“Change of heart or not,” Kakyoin growls, “you still hurt those kids that I am responsible for. If I was a little younger, I’d kill you for that. Be grateful.”

Rohan just stares at him, eyes lidded, unamused. “How many times today am I going to get my life threatened?”

“As many times as it takes to get your stupid ass to the Speedwagon Foundation,” Kakyoin snaps, before rolling back, giving Rohan some space. “Again, good for you for finding a moral compass somewhere in that skinny, fragile chest of yours-” Rohan gasps but Kakyoin only internally revels at the sound, keeping his external features stiff “-but I don’t like you. I will never like you. Now let’s go.”

Rohan snarls, baring his teeth, before jerking his head in Koichi’s direction. “I could tell you about moral compasses – so clearly playing favorites with the kids you claim to care about just because you hate yourself and any reminders as such-”

“And we’re going,” Kakyoin snaps, Hierophant’s tentacles lunging menacingly, but Rohan bats them away harshly, Kakyoin hissing as he feels the sting echoed in his hands. Rohan glares in return, but follows.

“Ah- Mr. Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin and Rohan pause, turning to face Okuyasu.

He wrings his hands, facing the ground, before he takes a breath and says, “Um- I just-”

He sighs, then, shaking his head, before he looks up at Kakyoin right in the eyes. “Thank you for coming,” he says softly, and a lump forms in Kakyoin’s throat. “I was- it was- we couldn’t have handled it on our own.”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth for a couple of beats, before he softly settles on, “I- it’s what I’m here for.” Clearing his throat, he adds on, “Take care of them.” Then, turning a bit, he raises his voice, “um- and Koichi?”

Koichi is startled out of Josuke’s hold then, turning to catch Kakyoin’s eye. “Um- Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin swallows. No wonder he doesn’t trust you. His chest burns in shame with something colder around the edges, saturated red and dark blue. “I- You did good today.”

Koichi blinks at the praise before his face flushes just the tiniest bit, and he mumbles a response that Kakyoin can’t hear. He wants to feel warm, but he can’t; his guts just screw up, tight, cold.

He clears his throat one last time before he says, “Last thing: don’t bother going to school. One day won’t hurt you three…just, decompress a bit.”

Josuke lets out a startled noise, but Kakyoin doesn’t stay to hear the celebration the boys might have over being given permission to skip. Instead, he takes Rohan’s hand in his, tightly, more to hurt than to guide, and says, “Now then, let’s go,” past gritted teeth.

Rohan clamps his hand down on Kakyoin’s fingers just as hard in return and Kakyoin sucks in a breath at the ache in the small joints of his fingers before taking it in stride.

“Bastard,” Kakyoin mutters.

“Egomaniac,” Rohan snaps back.

They leave.

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Chapter 20

Notes:

whew okay so: hi everyone!
like i mentioned in my last chapter's note, it's past sept 1 which means i've moved now, and so I'm much safer and in a much better mental space as a result. thank you for being patient with me <3
this chapter is still coming out later than i wanted it to but it did end up longer than intended so i guess that's to blame for it smh. as for future chapters, school starts for me in like three days and i will be quite busy this quarter (taking 18 credits when the recommended max amount is 15) but! i will also be much happier and i have my own space so i don't think chapters should be too affected? but i will for sure keep everyone updated when i can
anyway. enjoy this chapter! thank you all again for your continued support <3

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Chapter Text

Once they meet the agents at the beach, handing off Rohan to the Speedwagon Foundation is a simple affair, even if Kakyoin’s spine and stomach still smart and he has no painkillers. He grumbles, fisting the material of his pants as aches spread and tingle from both sides of his fucked up torso.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” one of the two agents pipes up then, and Kakyoin glances up at him – it’s the same agent that arrived to collect Hazamada. “Do you want me to drive you back to the hotel?”

“I’m fine,” Kakyoin rushes out quickly, his organs trembling in his body in a way he doesn’t think they should be, the pain picking up a few octaves, and Rohan snorts at him.

Kakyoin glares at him, teeth bared, before the agent continues with, “Well, I need to talk to Mr. Kujo anyway, so it would really be no-”

Kakyoin outright snarls at the mention of Jotaro, and the agent jumps at the sound, staring at him with wide brown eyes.

Rohan makes an audible noise of interest and Kakyoin seethes, turning to the agent sharply. “Fine,” he spits, and he hastily jumps in the car. He has half the mind to feel bad for startling him, but Rohan’s mere presence demands more attention with how it’s making the hair on the back of his neck stand and his skin prickle uncomfortably, sweat forming along his hairline.

With Hierophant’s help, he throws himself into the backseat, Hierophant folding his wheelchair expertly in the meanwhile, before sliding it in next to his legs.

They take off, and Kakyoin waves at Rohan from the window. Rohan scowls, and it makes Kakyoin feel a tiny bit better.

When they pull up to the hotel, Kakyoin is taking slow, shallow breaths in order to not irritate his spine or stomach, any amusement by getting the last “word” in re Rohan bleeding out with the constant aches. That motherfucker…

“Thank you,” Kakyoin says instead, tone polite, before it lowers down. “Um…I’m sorry about- earlier.”

The agent waves a hand. “Rogue standusers can be pretty frustrating, don’t worry about it,” he says with a small smile.

Kakyoin hesitates, gnawing on his tongue, before asking, “Er- What does Kujo need you for, anyway?”

“Oh!” The agent blinks before chuckling a little. “Well, I’m really just delivering his latest round of critiques and proofreading from his aid. Anyone could’ve done it, it’s not that he needs me, per se.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Critiques?”

The agent tilts his head. “You don’t know? Mr. Kujo is working on his doctorate thesis right now. Said he found something here that’s finally caught his interest.”

Kakyoin’s jaw almost drops, but he manages to keep it in check. Unfortunately, this means his mouth is free to run off the stupidest “Huh?” he’s ever said.

The agent pauses before smiling. “Yeah. Marine biology. You’ll have to talk about him about it if you wanna know more, though; this stuff kinda goes over my head, haha.”

Kakyoin nods dumbly before slipping out of the car. As he settles in his wheelchair, flames engulf him, and he could almost gasp, could almost believe he’s really been caught on fire. His organs melt down to gasoline to fuel it, and Kakyoin digs his nails roughly into his armrests, the leather crunching under his grip, but he doesn’t care. He rolls forward into the hotel and tries and fails to ignore the lava eating him from the inside out.

Why does- why does he get to- why does he get to just- LIVE NORMALLY?

Kakyoin, continuously grateful for his room on the first floor, rolls easily past the lobby and down the hallways, letting his muscle memory guide him.

Why, when I didn’t get to, when Polnareff didn’t get to-

He slams open his door, rolls in, and immediately shuts it, before yanking his scarf up around his mouth and snarling.

Hierophant reaches out to search for the painkillers his dumbass forgot to take before running for the kids after Okuyasu’s phone call. As he does, Kakyoin takes a deep breath, throwing his scarf down before he hears that the phone is ringing the second time that day.

“What the- again?” Kakyoin mutters, but it distracts him from both the pain and the fury that he knows, for once, is undue, so he rolls over to the phone anyway. I really do need that pager…

He isn’t sure how long it was ringing before he came into the room, but there’s an audible sigh of relief when he picks it up and asks “Hello?”

“Kakyoin!” An accented voice comes through, and Kakyoin blinks. “I was worried you weren’t home. Is now a good time?” Tonio asks, sounding a little breathless.

Hierophant bumps Kakyoin’s arm gently to grab his attention before depositing his pill bottle into his hand, and Kakyoin quickly flicks the cap open and shakes out two pills – only two, one part of him thinks sternly, while another part thinks forlornly – and swallows them dry. He can hear Hierophant snaking out to grab him a glass of water, based on the clattering in the bathroom.

“Sure,” Kakyoin says, swallowing again to try and push the pills further down.

Tonio hesitates, but he takes Kakyoin’s assurance at face value, and says, “I…I know we haven’t- I know if anything, I already owe you, but-”

“Don’t worry about things like that,” Kakyoin says, pausing to take a sip from the glass of water Hierophant had gotten for him. The pills wash down fully, and Kakyoin’s throat feels less sticky. “Did you need something?”

Tonio sighs. “I… yes.” He pauses. Kakyoin waits for him to elaborate, taking another sip as he does.

Eventually, Tonio clears his throat audibly, then: “It’s silly…but my stand isn’t offensive, not like yours, and there’s…my cuts of meat have been stolen.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Huh?”

“From my freezer,” Tonio sighs. “Routinely, for a couple of weeks now, about five cuts of my meat have gone missing from where they’re hung. I wasn’t sure if…I had just miscounted, but yesterday, I saw the culprit as it escaped – not in time to catch it, though.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “It?”

Tonio sighs again. “It’s a dog.”

Amusement bleeds into Kakyoin’s chest then, and he clings onto it with both hands. “A dog?”

“Not just any dog,” Tonio defends, voice high in embarrassment, “it- it has a stand.”

Oh, now we’re talking.

Flashes of Iggy slide through Kakyoin’s mind, and he can’t help his giggles.

“I- Mr. Kakyoin? Are you laughing?” Tonio asks, tone a little edged with hurt – it kinda reminds Kakyoin of the tone Polnareff had when he went a little far in teasing him, and the ache of the reminder allows Kakyoin to suppress the sound – but while it’s softer now, he can’t stop smiling.

“I- sorry, I’m sorry,” Kakyoin assures, snickering into his hand. “I wasn’t laughing at you – just, a dog with a stand-”

“I know it sounds odd,” Tonio says, voice still high in self-consciousness, “but I swear, I saw it. It looked like a shadow, but it was a giant paw, and it whapped the back door to my kitchen shut after the dog trotted out with an entire line of ribs.” He sounds a little miserable, and Kakyoin really, honestly does feel bad, but he can’t bite back his grin.

“No, I have no doubt,” Kakyoin assures. “The reason I’m laughing, actually, is because I know a dog with a stand – and he’s…” Kakyoin can’t help snorting, imagining Iggy’s small jaws hoisting a chunk of meat bigger than his body. “Well, I can certainly see him doing what you’re describing is all.”

“Oh,” Tonio says, the defensiveness in his tone dropping an octave to interest, voice smooth at the edges again. “So you- you’ve dealt with this before?”

Kakyoin snorts again. “Yeah. Yeah, and the good thing about standuser animals is that they have human intelligence. So I’m sure we just need to find a compromise.”

“Oh!” Tonio says, voice high now in delight, and it makes Kakyoin smile, the image of Tonio’s thin lips pulling into a smile, his eyes squinted, coming to mind easily. 

“I can come over now?” Kakyoin asks, ignoring the only-now dulling throb in his stomach, and Tonio hums.

“Actually, do you mind waiting until Sunday? The dog doesn’t come by every day; by Sunday though, he should be itching for another bite of my products,” he says, voice a little irritated, and Kakyoin snorts, resting his elbow on his armrest, leaning his head against the phone.

“Sounds like a plan,” Kakyoin says, a small part of him sagging in disappointment over the wait, another part cool with relief over not having to go back out while his stomach is still teaming up with his spine to make his brain drown in the constant signaling of pain. “I’ll come by when the restaurant opens at eleven in the morning?”

Tonio lets out an assenting chirp. “That’d be great. Oh, Mr. Kakyoin, I don’t know how to thank you for this,”

“You can drop the ‘mister,’” Kakyoin says, and without thinking, he adds on, “or just call me Noriaki – it’s my first name.”

“Oh!” Tonio gasps, and Kakyoin’s brain catches up with his mouth, heat immediately spreading over his face and down his neck, his chest hot under his cardigan. “I- are you sure? I know first names are more, er, how do you say, a bigger deal here-?”

“I- I’m sure,” Kakyoin stammers, jerkily moving to set the glass of water he’s still holding down onto the bedside table. Hierophant is staring at him, his arms crossed, and Kakyoin glares at him. “Friends- friends call each other by their first names.” It’s then that he realizes he’s only seen Tonio a handful of times, and one of those times he attacked him like an animal. The heat in his face goes up another degree. “Um-”

“Oh, Ka- Noriaki,” Tonio says, the smile audible in his voice, and Kakyoin flushes even harder, flames gently billowing past his ribs. “I’m glad to be your friend.”

“Yeah,” Kakyoin agrees weakly, his voice cracking. “Me, too.”

It’s quiet for a beat, and then: “So, Sunday at eleven?”

Kakyoin nods. “Sunday at eleven.”


True to his word, Kakyoin rolls inside the doors of Trattoria Trussardi in the late morning the following Sunday. The sun is shining, but thin clouds threaten to cover it and gift the world with shade. The strong but sweet scent of freshly cut grass hangs heavy in the air and Kakyoin can’t help but smile, even if a part of him wonders when the last time Polnareff saw a similar day was.

He doesn’t let himself entertain that train of thought further – but even if he wanted to, Tonio pops his head out of the kitchen the second the bell of the door chimes his arrival, and Kakyoin finds himself unable to focus on anything else but sitting up straighter as Tonio walks out fully, cheering, “Noriaki! Welcome!”

Kakyoin smiles and opens his mouth to greet him in return, when startled, high pitch noises draw his attention to the tables.

Koichi and Okuyasu blink at Kakyoin from their seats at a table nearby, plates of food in front of them both, and Kakyoin blinks right back at them.

“Mr. Kakyoin? We weren’t expecting to see you today after you told us you were busy…” Koichi asks as Okuyasu swallows what he was chewing. Tonio brightens, turning to his guests.

“Oh! Do you two know Noriaki?” Kakyoin’s face burns at how nonchalantly he uses his name, but a part of him thrums with the heat, pleased. Okuyasu and Koichi exchange quick glances, brows raised, before turning back to them.

“Know him? He’s our teacher!” Okuyasu explains, scooting back in his chair as if to get up, but he pauses, gaze flitting back to his food.

“How do you know him, Mr. Trussardi?” Koichi asks, squinting at Tonio.

Tonio laughs and Kakyoin ducks his head, fingering the hand pin on his scarf. “Well, we got into a tussle a few weeks ago, but we’re friends now!”

Kakyoin’s chest burns and he shoots his head up to glare at Tonio, but it’s weak against the chef’s snickering, his lips pulled back to show off white teeth.

“H-Huh?!” Koichi asks, gaze darting to Kakyoin then. Kakyoin grinds his tongue against his teeth as his blood’s temperature goes up another degree.

“It- he used his stand- I was just surprised,” Kakyoin mutters, and Tonio laughs again before setting his hand down on Kakyoin’s shoulder. His palm is warm and Kakyoin tries not to rise up into it.

“We met perchance at the drug store right before my restaurant opened, so I invited him to the grand opening,” Tonio explains, still smiling. “Like Josuke, he wasn’t very happy with me using my stand with no warning, though!” Kakyoin raises a brow at the mention of Josuke, but before he can ask, Tonio frowns thoughtfully then, tilting his head, and Kakyoin’s chest heats up again. “I should probably find a way to communicate to stand users subtly about that.”

Kakyoin swallows his suddenly-dry throat. “We…can brainstorm together if you’d like,”

Tonio beams. “That’d be great! But we should get to our first order of business before then, no?”

Kakyoin smiles then, nodding, while Koichi and Okuyasu exchange confused glances.

“Wait, Mr. Kakyoin, what’s going on?” Okuyasu asks while Koichi just flits his gaze between Tonio and Kakyoin.

Kakyoin blinks. “Well- I gave you the day off for a reason. Tonio here needs my help with something.”

“Oh!” Okuyasu says, nodding before turning back to his food. Koichi’s brows furrow in confusion, but before he can ask, Kakyoin asks his own question.

“Where’s Josuke?”

Koichi sighs and internally, Kakyoin winces at functionally interrupting him. Okuyasu’s face falls then at the question, not quite sad, but his shoulders slump glumly. It reminds Kakyoin of a puppy waiting for its person to return from work.

“Mr. Jotaro-” Kakyoin scowls “-called him like, a day after you gave us Sunday off. Said he had to go ‘hunting’ or something.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. Okuyasu shrugs.

“Okuyasu and I didn’t know what else to do – originally we planned to play video games at Josuke’s house – so we ended up here,” Koichi fills in. Kakyoin nods.

The conversation pauses, and Kakyoin’s about to turn to Tonio and ask him to lead the way when he hesitates. He looks back to Koichi, whose returned to his food, and Okuyasu, whose face still hasn’t returned to its previous smile. Kakyoin holds his tongue for only a second before he asks, “You guys wanna see something cool?”

Both Koichi and Okuyasu perk up at that. Tonio tilts his head questioningly, but he says nothing when Okuyasu pipes up, “Like what?”

Kakyoin grins. “Like a dog with a stand.”

Koichi and Okuyasu’s eyes go wide then, and Kakyoin laughs as they both shoot up from their seats.

“Yes!” Okuyasu shouts, sounding like a kid set loose in a candy store.

“Can we- oh, I didn’t know dogs could have stands!” Koichi gushes, before snorting to himself. “Oku- Okuyasu, can you imagine Police with a stand-”

Okuyasu snickers at that, and Tonio gently lays a hand on Kakyoin’s shoulder to garner his attention. Heat floods his chest at the contact, but Kakyoin looks up.

“Are you sure it’ll be okay if they tag along?” Tonio asks. Kakyoin tsks, nodding.

“They’re smart kids. And besides, with their luck, they’ll probably run into an animal with a stand sooner or later…” Kakyoin murmurs. He shakes his head. “Beyond that, they’re standusers. It’s best they’re prepared for this world, don’t you think?”

Tonio smiles brightly and Kakyoin’s insides feel gooey, crawling around the inside of his skin. It’s not un pleasant, but it’s startling all the same, and Kakyoin drops his gaze.

After explaining the situation briefly to Koichi and Okuyasu, they head to the back of the restaurant toward the kitchen, Kakyoin explaining his plan along the way.

“So, we’ll wait behind the counters for the dog to come trotting in. We’ll corner him in the freezer where he’s been getting his meat and try talking-”

“CAN ANIMAL STANDUSERS TALK?” Okuyasu gasps, eyes so wide Kakyoin could almost see his reflection in them if it weren’t for the stars, and Kakyoin can’t help smiling even as he shakes his head.

“No, unfortunately,” Kakyoin clarifies, and Okuyasu sighs, but his excitement hasn’t been completely doused, eyes still darting around rapidly for any sign of the dog. “But he can understand us. Being a standuser makes animals intelligent.”

“That’s so cool,” Koichi whispers and Kakyoin glances at him. He’s staring at the backdoor intently as Tonio ushers him into place, his silver hair bouncing from where it’s been lightly gelled up. It reminds him of Polnareff-

Quickly shaking the notion from his head, Kakyoin jumps to a new train of thought and wonders if Josuke is the one who got Koichi invested in the gel – he recalls Koichi’s hair being flatter when they first met, but he frowns at the fact he can’t quite remember.

“Do you know why?” Koichi asks, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him again.

“Huh?”

“Why being a standuser makes an animal smarter,” Koichi elaborates.

Tonio nods, keeping his gaze on Kakyoin. “I was wondering myself, actually…”

Kakyoin hesitates, glancing back at Koichi – the blue eyes are not helping the Polnareff similarity – before shrugging. “I’m not sure. Maybe the SPW has an idea? They’ve had Iggy around for over ten years now…”

“Is Iggy the dog you knew, Noriaki?” Tonio asks, and Kakyoin smiles up until his memories take the chance to dive into Polnareff and his antics with the terrier.

Kakyoin tugs his cardigan tighter around himself, looking down, a slight shiver running through his arms as his chest deflates. “Yeah,” is all he says.

Tonio frowns at him, brows pinched together. Kakyoin ignores it.

Kakyoin swallows instead and says, “He’s a Boston Terrier.”

Koichi sighs wistfully. “I’ve always wanted a terrier,”

Okuyasu hums. “Maybe, when you, me, and Josuke move in together for college, we can get one!”

Koichi lets out a sound that’s a mix between a squawk and a gasp, and Kakyoin feels something lurch in his chest. When. There’s no doubt in his mind that they’ll stay together.

Kakyoin thinks of the single photo he and the group took, Polnareff right at his feet , Jotaro right next to him, and takes a shaky breath.

I really hope he’s right.

“Wait- quiet!” Tonio shushes everyone, and they all turn to the backdoor, Koichi and Okuyasu falling silent. Tonio grips Kakyoin’s forearm for balance where he’s crouched next to his counter, his ridiculous chef’s hat still on, and Kakyoin’s guts dance around the fire that forms in his stomach.

He doesn’t have time to focus on it then, because there’s a pawing at the door, nails scraping against the outside. Everyone holds their breaths: it’s undoubtably a dog.

There’s the audible exhale of a dog finishing a sniff, another low-pitched scratching at the door, and then the handle is jostled quite loudly, knocking into the metal of its socket.

Kakyoin and Tonio exchange glances, Kakyoin digging his hands into his armrests.

The door handle is jostled again, before there’s a click, and the door swings open. Everyone is very, very quiet, but Kakyoin can feel Koichi vibrating beside him. He glances at the kid and sees his eyes shining, cheeks flushed with adoration as the dog pads into view. A dog person? I wouldn’t have guessed…

He doesn’t have much time to muse about it until the dog is up against the door of the freezer. The dog tilts its head, its fuzzy ears flopping to the side with the motoin, and Koichi lets out a small, high-pitched coo. Kakyoin slaps a gloved hand over his mouth and Koichi freezes.

The dog – it looks like a mutt, with mostly brown fuzzy fur with patches of black and white; truly a representative of an average dog – doesn’t seem to notice, however. It’s just staring up patiently at the freezer door, tail wagging.

After a few seconds when nothing happens – which makes Kakyoin narrow his eyes – the dog scratches at the freezer door, and something melts out of the shadow of its paw, raising up to nudge at the freezer door’s handle.

It’s easier than the handle to get into the building, ironically, because the shadow, still in the shape of a paw but larger now, just has to swipe forward against the handle that’s hinged horizontally rather than vertically. The freezer door swings open and the dog happily trots in, cold air flowing out.

Kakyoin waits for a beat before he lets go of Koichi’s mouth and hisses, “Now!”

Hierophant shoots him forward, the others scrambling to their feet after him, and Kakyoin easily slips into the freezer, the dog’s stand having left it wide open. The dog, on its hind legs with its teeth in a hunk of what Kakyoin thinks is a pig’s leg, yips in surprise, dropping back down onto four legs with the meat still in its mouth, as Kakyoin rushes in.

It wags its tail nervously, ears flat against its head. Kakyoin raises a brow and brings out Hierophant if only to ensure he keeps the upper hand. The dog keeps its gaze on Kakyoin, not sparing the stand a glance. Kakyoin frowns.

“Hi, doggy!” Okuyasu chirps as he, Koichi, and Tonio join him, and the dog zips its gaze across all of them, tail tucking behind its legs, backing away slowly. “Oh, no, it’s okay buddy! We just wanna talk!”

Okuyasu crouches then, Koichi joining him, and Kakyoin bites back clicking his tongue in disapproval; he can’t blame them. It is a cute dog, and it is scared, which is… wait. Where is its stand?

Kakyoin’s hair stands on end and he turns around just in time to see the paw rising from where his wheelchair has cast a shadow on the wall, swatting down, and Kakyoin is pushed out of his wheelchair.

“What the hell-!”

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Okuyasu calls while Tonio echoes, “Noriaki!” and Koichi yelps wordlessly as the dog, taking the chance it saw, jumps up onto Kakyoin’s wheelchair, rolling forward with the momentum, yipping all the while.

DAMN me for thinking this wouldn’t be like Iggy, FUCK- Kakyoin curses himself as Hierophant whirls around him, lifting him up so at least he wasn’t freezing on the cold ground. He bats away the concerned hands of Okuyasu and Tonio hovering over him and points aggressively as the dog jumps out of his chair and bolts for the still-open backdoor. “Get- we need to go after him!”

Was Iggy even this rude? Kakyoin thinks to himself frantically and sourly, lips pulled up into a snarl as Koichi darts to grab his wheelchair for him, meeting him halfway across the room and shoving it under his silhouette for Hierophant to lay in. I don’t remember him being nearly as reckless-

Then again, a part of him pipes up, Iggy was always focusing his antagonism on Polnareff, so you wouldn’t have faced it-

The reminder of Polnareff stings more than the push, and Kakyoin shudders before Hierophant kicks him forward and out the backdoor.

“Noriaki!” Tonio gasps, Okuyasu and Koichi scrambling past him and after Kakyoin.

“Tonio: stay!” Kakyoin barks back, his scarf fluttering behind him, “You have a restaurant to look after!”

Tonio looks upset at this notion, lips pressed into a line to hide the big frown pulling at the corner of his mouth, and something in Kakyoin’s chest kicks like a horse over the thought of Tonio wanting to be by his side while he goes after this crazy dog-

Kakyoin shakes his head vigorously. “Your stand isn’t suited for this! Don’t worry about it!”

Tonio’s face goes unamused then, something flitting across his face that Kakyoin can’t make out from the distance, before he chucks off his chef’s hat, throws the freezer door shut, and then races out the backdoor after them.

“Ah- Tonio!” Kakyoin bellows and Koichi and Okuyasu whip their heads back to see what the commotion is, but Tonio easily catches up to them with his long legs.

“You’re right that I need to look after my restaurant,” Tonio pants as he shoots a look Kakyoin’s way, “but is this not me doing that? I need to show the dog I’m worth his respect! Especially if I can’t strongarm him because, as you said, my stand isn’t suited to altercations!”

Kakyoin blinks before he chuckles, his fingers twitching. “I- you’re right,” he gives in.

Tonio smiles blindingly at him, his teeth so straight and white, and Kakyoin almost wheels off the sidewalk, saved only by Koichi yelling, “Uh, Mr. Kakyoin, watch where you’re going!”

Face heating up and scowling, Kakyoin rips his gaze away from the heave of Tonio’s chest as he runs and instead focuses back on the dog.

It’s slowing down, tail untucked, and Kakyoin kinda wants to scoff at its cockiness, but a part of him really doesn’t want the others to know just how pissed he is at a dog of all things, so he bites it back, eyes simply narrowing.

The dog looks back over its shoulder only to yip, like it wasn’t expecting them, and continues on at a faster speed again. Kakyoin grits his teeth. Damn mutt-

“Wait!” Okuyasu calls, bringing one hand up to cup around his mouth, “we just want to talk!”

The dog doesn’t even spare them a glance. Kakyoin growls out a sigh, his voice textured with irritation, and shouts, “Dog! No one is going to hurt you!” Not automatically, at least.

The dog doesn’t even flick its ears: it just keeps running, and Kakyoin furrows his brows. The hell? Iggy never came when called either, but you could tell he hear the meaning of your words, ears pointedly facing away to muffle your voice. But this dog…

Kakyoin’s tugged out of his musings by a jingle. He blinks, gaze darting to his wheelchair first – Did something break when that fucking dog jumped on it? – before he realizes it’s coming from somewhere low to the ground. He glances halfheartedly to his sides at his companions’ shoes, to see if maybe a buckle has come loose during the chase when he freezes upon seeing a tiny black cat with a stumpy tail scampering past Koichi’s legs.

“Huh?”

The cat’s ears are flat against its head, tiny lips pulled back in a permanent baring of teeth, eyes squinting up at them. It locks its gaze with Kakyoin and the hair on Kakyoin’s back rises again.

Kakyoin’s own eyes widen and he sucks in a breath. “Wait- GUYS-”

The cat hisses and Kakyoin’s once more pushed out of his wheelchair, that damn shadowy paw rising from the shadow his chair had left on the ground and bumping into the wheels, making Kakyoin go flying.

“ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!” Kakyoin shrieks, Hierophant bursting out of his chest, spooling around him with two tentacles shooting out to stop him from faceplanting and to help him keep balance.

Tonio, Koichi, and Okuyasu skid to their own halts, staring with jaws dropped at Kakyoin.

“What- what happened?!” Tonio cries and the cat hisses again.

The paw rises again from Koichi’s shadow, swiping his legs out from under him, and he is flung off the sidewalk and onto the road with a shriek, a truck oncoming.

“Koichi!” Kakyoin and Okuyasu both yell, past the blaring horn, Tonio whirling around to face the cat.

The Hand glitches out of Okuyasu, palm already arcing down and erasing the distance between Koichi and them, leaving Koichi to fly into Okuyasu’s arms.

Koichi looks a little dizzy and more than a little green, eyes practically rolling in his head over all the motion. “Koichi! Are you okay?” Okuyasu asks, staring intently while Koichi groans, shaking his head to rid himself of vertigo.

Kakyoin deems Koichi in safe hands and Hierophant places him back down into his wheelchair before he goes to join Tonio in his staredown with the cat, glowering angrily.

The cat growls low in its chest, the stump of its tail lashing, and Kakyoin scoffs.

“What the hell is your problem? Mad the dog got your catch?” Kakyoin snaps and the cat hisses, the shadowy paw rising again before Hierophant zips forward, wrapping around it, immobilizing it.

The cat blinks in surprise before it twists, trying to move, only to find it can’t. Kakyoin can’t help but smile sharply, even if it is petty.

The cat sucks in a breath before yowling, almost outright screeching, and Tonio slaps his hands over his ears while Okuyasu and Koichi whip their heads to face the animal, Okuyasu holding tighter to Koichi, who’s still hoisted in his arms.

“Damn, calm down!” Kakyoin shouts, and the cat just continues wailing, tail stumpy whipping around so fast, it reminds Kakyoin of a snake’s head when its been caught by the neck.

“S-Signore, please,” Tonio cuts in, and the cat finally tapers off, growling with Tonio with a rrrw noise. Tonio takes a deep breath before he straightens his back, hands folded in front of him. Kakyoin isn’t sure if he should gawk or laugh over the fact he’s acting so polite in front of a shitlord cat.

“Signore,” Tonio starts, “I understand you’re upset and probably confused. I would just like to speak, if that’s okay?”

Kakyoin clicks his tongue. “He can’t talk, remember, Tonio? He can understand, but he can’t talk.”

Tonio waves a hand. “I know, Noriaki.” Kakyoin shivers. “But still, should I not treat him with the respect his intelligence owes?”

Kakyoin blinks while the cat relaxes a little in Hierophant’s hold. It gives out a mrw, and Tonio smiles, taking it as a cue to continue.

“I am the owner of the restaurant you and your partner have been… well, there’s not really a polite way of putting it: that you two have been stealing from,” Tonio says, his voice still soft and gentle despite his words. The cat’s ears flick, whiskers twitching, and Kakyoin can hear Okuyasu let out a quiet Aww even while he prepares himself for the cat to take offense to the claim.

The animal doesn’t move, though, and Tonio continues.

“However, I hold no grievances for those actions,” Tonio says, and the cat tilts its head. “I understand you two need to eat as well. It’s hard, on the streets, no?”

Hmm. Kakyoin narrows his eyes at the cat as it stays staring at Tonio. Hierophant adjusts its hold and Kakyoin can feel the phantom brush of metal, cool and smooth, against his fingers, and he frowns.

Metal? Why…

“I do not begrudge you for struggling,” Tonio repeats, “but you can’t keep taking whole cuts of my meat. Meat is expensive, you see, and my restaurant has only been open for about a month now; I don’t have the stability to turn a blind eye to such heavy losses.”

Kakyoin squints. Hierophant shifts and he hears a faint jingle. A jingle…wait. I heard this earlier, too, right before I first saw the cat…

Kakyoin cuts Tonio off mid-sentence. “You have a collar? You have an owner?”

The cat whips its head to Kakyoin, eyes wide, and Kakyoin knows he’s got him. “Why the hell are you stealing then-?”

The cat’s stand rises from its own shadow, wedging between its body and Hierophant, able to do so because of the loosening Hierophant did to jingle its collar, and whips out shadowy claws. Kakyoin jerks Hierophant back, but not before the razor-sharp edges tear open a few tentacles, and Kakyoin seethes as he can feel his own forearms sting, blood running down in warm trails.

“Basta-”

The cat turns tail and bounds toward Okuyasu and Koichi, and Kakyoin snarls, giving chase.

“Wait- Noriaki, I- are you sure?!” Tonio calls, but the jingling of the cat’s collar as it dashes gives it away. A part of Kakyoin feels bad for the way Tonio’s face falls as he hears it himself, but he doesn’t have time to comfort him: cats are slippery-

“Gotcha!” Koichi dives forward, wrapping his arms around the cat, holding it tightly by the chest while it yowls and squirms.

“Koichi- be careful, its stand rises from shadows!” Kakyoin snaps just as the paw rises again. Koichi just grits his teeth, ducks his head into his chest, and keeps holding even while the stand claws at his arms. Kakyoin balks. “Koichi!”

Okuyasu is staring with wide eyes, panicking, The Hand flashing in and out of view, and Kakyoin shoots out Hierophant, restraining the cat’s stand again. The cat yowls and spits in fury while Koichi lets out a shaky breath, glancing at his bloody arms with a frown.

“Koichi! Are you-”

There’s a howl then, and they all look up just in time to see the dog, meat abandoned a few meters away, jumping up onto Koichi, toppling him. The cat lets out another yowl, more startled than angry this time, and Hierophant only moves just enough to make sure Koichi’s head doesn’t bounce against the sidewalk as hard as it could – but the resounding thunk still makes everyone wince as he groans.

“When did the dog come back?!” Tonio sputters.

Kakyoin dives forward, intending to push the dog off Koichi before it can bite him – the last thing he needs to deal with is getting the kid a bunch of rabies shots – but the dog retreats before he can, pulling the cat by the scruff out of Koichi’s arms as it does so.

Kakyoin blinks in surprise as the dog continues retreating, setting the cat down gently in the grass next to the sidewalk before turning and growling, hackles raised as it stands bodily between the group and the cat.

Okuyasu scoots over to Koichi and Kakyoin, gently helping Koichi sit up. Koichi moans softly, a hand coming up to the back of his head, wincing, and Okuyasu rips his gaze away from the animals to frown at his friend. Hierophant retreats, Kakyoin knowing Koichi’s safer with Okuyasu than with him.

Kakyoin swallows before straightening again, freezing when the dog lets out a high-pitched bark at the action. He puts up his hands in faux-surrender, narrowing his gaze at the dog. The dog growls again, but just once.

Kakyoin narrows his eyes at it; it doesn’t have a collar. Why would the dog not have a collar?

“You two are working together, right?” Kakyoin clarifies as he can feel Tonio inch up beside him, joining him in standing between the two and the kids.

The cat rolls its eyes as it sits back up, prompting the dog to turn its head and let out a small boof. The cat licks its nose and Kakyoin has to bite back the warm pink cotton that infests his chest at the sight. Tonio says what he’s thinking: “Oh…how cute.”

The cat stretches, lightly batting the dog’s nose away when it sniffs, as if to communicate, I’m fine. Kakyoin can’t stop his mouth from quirking up in a smile then. He wishes he could bat at people when they ask if he’s alright…

The dog turns back to the people, not growling, not even baring its teeth, but it stares intensely. The cat meows, but the dog doesn’t move. The cat’s tail twitches and it turns and stalks off towards the meat the dog left.

Kakyoin narrows his eyes. “If you’re working together, why doesn’t the dog have a collar? Aren’t you two from the same family?”

The cat’s tail twitches again and it looks over its shoulder at Kakyoin. Kakyoin’s brows furrow. It was big blue eyes. The cat slides its gaze back to the dog then bends down and picks up the meat, before turning back and rejoining them.

The dog blinks in surprise when the cat drops the meat at its paws, letting out a rrrw noise as it does before it stands next to its side. The dog turns its head to the cat, tilting it slightly, and Kakyoin can’t help that he finally lets out an “Aw…” under his breath.

Tonio kneels then, demanding the attention of both the dog and the cat.

“I think I understand now,” Tonio says softly, and the cat nervously sheaths and unsheaths its claws.

It leans up and gently bites the dog on the ear, trying to tug him away, but the dog doesn’t move, still keeping its station of protecting it.

“You may have a home,” Tonio continues, “but Signore Doggy doesn’t, huh?”

Kakyoin blinks, lips parting. Oh.

“Do you really think so?” Okuyasu calls from behind them, and Kakyoin turns to see him wrapping Koichi’s arm around his shoulder, letting the kid lean on him. Koichi looks a little frazzled, but alright, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“I think so,” Tonio says, and Okuyasu and Koichi join Kakyoin.

The cat stares at him, gaze scanning over his face, before its ears flop to the sides, head tilting down as it looks off to the side. It seems almost bashful about this.

“You just wanted to help your friend, right?”

The cat closes its eyes, whiskers twitching. After a few beats, it nods its head. Okuyasu and Koichi gasp at the show of intelligence while Kakyoin just blinks. That’s… that is really sweet, actually.

Tonio smiles then and Kakyoin can’t push away the thought that that was sweet, too.

“Signore…” Tonio gestures to his neck. The cat huffs before tilting its head back, letting Tonio read its collar. It has a star-shaped nametag and bell attached to it. So that’s the jingling I heard.. . “Signore Taro,” Tonio smiles, and Kakyoin chokes. Wait- Taro?

It’s way too close to- to- Jotaro-

The mental image of the cat with Jotaro’s hat is too much, and Kakyoin erupts into a series of coughs, his throat not sure if he wanted to laugh or scream.

Okuyasu pats Kakyoin’s back as he coughs, brows furrowed. “Are you okay, Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “Fine,” he wheezes.

Tonio continues, taking Kakyoin’s word for it. “Signore Taro,” he starts, “I think it is quite commendable of you, that you would try to help your friend out of his circumstances.” The cat rubs its paws together, whiskers twitching, still staring bashfully at the ground. “...You can’t keep taking my meat, though.”

Taro’s eyes narrow as it shoots its gaze up to Tonio, fur puffing up, but Tonio just stays calm, smiling still. A part of Kakyoin envies how collected he is.

“I don’t just want to spit in the face of your efforts though,” Tonio continues. “It would be easy for me to buy a lock, now that I know how you’re getting through my door, and just be done with it. But you and Signore Doggy don’t deserve that.”

The cat’s eyes are still narrow, but the fur along the back of its neck falls flat again, shifting its weight on its front paws like it’s kneading bread.

Okuyasu taps his chin, then. “The pound probably isn’t a good idea, right? Cause then they won’t be able to hang out anymore…”

The cat huffs, nodding its head. The dog sits down, staring intently at the cat, clearly confused but trusting its friend regardless. Something in Kakyoin’s chest squeezes. Oh, to be trusted…

Koichi hums. “I already have one dog, so I probably can’t take him…”

Okuyasu gasps, then. “Wait- can I take him in?”

Tonio, Kakyoin, Koichi, and the cat whip their heads to him. Okuyasu nods to himself, a smile stretching across his face. “Can I? I have a bunch of dog food anyway because it’s all Keicho wanted to feed da-” his gaze darts to Tonio and he swallows, abruptly changing the track of his sentence. “... Well, the reason doesn’t matter. The thing is, I have a bunch of dog food, so I’d already be set in that regard for a while.”

Kakyoin blinks while Tonio scratches the back of his head, humming thoughtfully. The cat is looking Okuyasu up and down, whiskers twitching. Okuyasu smiles at it hopefully, and it makes Kakyoin think the boy is a dog himself with the puppy-dog eyes he’s sprouting. The cat huffs, ducking its head, licking a paw halfheartedly.

“Well, taking care of a dog is more than feeding it,” Tonio starts gently, and Okuyasu grinds his palms into his thighs, nodding his head.

“I know! It’s also about, like, baths and vet and…” Okuyasu’s sails visibly deflate then, and Kakyoin opens his mouth to immediately offer the Speedwagon Foundation’s services for them when Tonio beats him to speaking.

“Oh, Signore Nijimura, do not even worry about that,” Tonio says, waving a hand. “My cooking works on animals too. I’d be able to help him in place of the veterinarian visits; I can’t handle entire cuts of meat going missing, but an occasional meal that counts as a check-up is something I can write off, easily.”

Okuyasu and Koichi gasp, hope puffing up Okuyasu’s chest again like an inflated bike tire. “I- wait, I can help! I would feel bad about just taking you for granted like that… I could…help clean? Like Josuke did that one time?”

Tonio snorts at the mention, and Kakyoin raises a brow – I’m gonna have to hear that story – before he pats Okuyasu’s shoulder. “You’re a good kid, Mr. Nijimura. I’d be glad to have your help, but don’t think they’re necessary in order for Signore Doggy to get his needed care.”

Okuyasu smiles brightly, and the cat’s ears are so perked up – Kakyoin’s never seen a cat look so excited before, eyes wide open, pupils big and round – before it turns to the dog, licking its muzzle. The dog rears back, surprised, but the cat just rubs its face on its chest.

“As for baths,” Koichi pipes up, “you can come over to my house and just give him a bath at the same time I give Police a bath!”

Okuyasu nods enthusiastically and Koichi grins.

“I can give you tips too! I have an old leash and harness that Police got too fat for, but you can have it!” Koichi says enthusiastically.

“Really? Thank you so much, Koichi!” Okuyasu grins, and Kakyoin can’t stop himself from smiling, either.

What a happy ending… definitely better than Iggy then after all. A part of his smile slips. Does Iggy know about Polnareff?

His heart stills so suddenly from the tune of excitement that continues to fester around the group that Kakyoin could almost believe the organ stopped altogether. He shakes his head and looks up, almost startling when he meets Tonio’s gaze.

Tonio’s brow is furrowed even as he smiles, which Kakyoin hesitantly returns, his chest warring with whether to continue marinating in the newfound chill of dampened excitement or to rush into the warmth of Tonio’s gaze. His eyes are blue like Polnareff’s were.

Kakyoin swallows before turning to the boys. “Well…I’m sure we’ll have to work out some kinks with this plan, but we have the basics covered and, perhaps more importantly, it seems T-T-” I can’t say it, Kakyoin thinks with a flare of embarrassment “-er, the cat agrees with it.”

Taro nods his head, whiskers whisking past his face, and Kakyoin can’t help but smile softly even if he’s still put off by the cat tossing him around all morning.

Tonio claps his hands then, garnering everyone’s attention. “Great! Well, in that case, let’s head back to the restaurant.” He glances at the meat still near the dog’s feet and clicks his tongue. “Since that’s been on the ground and in mouths already, you two can finish it…”

The cat seemingly delivers all the recent news to the dog, for it’s staring at Okuyasu and wagging its tail furiously, which makes Okuyasu and Koichi coo and gush about how adorable it is. Despite the permission given to finish the meat, the dog doesn’t even glance at it: it just offers a doggy smile to Okuyasu, tongue lolling out of its mouth, which sends him and Koichi into near hysterical cries of adoration, and Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle softly.

“I think…” Okuyasu says as he reaches out a hand toward the dog, the cat watching patiently from the dog’s side, “I’ll call you Pochi.”

The dog’s tail doesn’t stop wagging at the new name and it licks Okuyasu’s hand.

“Come,” Tonio says again, “let’s head back.”

The cat grabs the meat to take with them, using its stand to do so, as the dog – Pochi now, Kakyoin guesses – is too enthralled by nosing and smelling Okuyasu and Koichi’s hands and shoes. The boys laugh delightedly at this, which only spurs Pochi on, dancing around the two as he takes in their smells. “Man, Josuke is gonna love you!” Okuyasu coos. Pochi lets out a small yip which once more makes Okuyasu and Koichi dissolve into gushing, making kissy noises at the dog.

Well, Kakyoin is glad he brought them along after all.

Tonio saddles up next to him then, hands behind his back as they walk, and Kakyoin glances at him, raising a brow.

“Thank you,” he says, smiling down at him, and Kakyoin clears his throat, burrowing the lower half of his face into his scarf.

“You did most of the work in the end,” he grumbles. “You did the negotiations.” I just got thrown around.

Tonio chuckles, shaking his head. “I wouldn’t have known what to do without your help, though.”

Kakyoin hums then. “...‘S what friends are for,” he says softly after a moment.

Tonio hums. “...Speaking of,”

He trails off for a second. Kakyoin retreats from his scarf, looking up at him curiously.

“You seem tired,” Tonio comments abruptly. Kakyoin bristles.

“Excuse me?” He asks icily. Tonio either doesn’t notice the tone or doesn’t care to heed it.

“You have circles under your eyes, and whenever you smiled today, it faded fairly fast,” Tonio elaborates as if Kakyoin’s mental state was as obvious as the warm weather they were in. Kakyoin’s fingers twitch, his chest feeling scraped raw, exposed, hot and uncomfortable and prickling.

“I think you don’t know what you’re talking about,” Kakyoin snaps. Tonio shoots Kakyoin a glance, but it’s not the irritation Kakyoin was expecting; it’s sadder, more-

Pitying.

Kakyoin grits his teeth. “What, are you a psychologist now?” He barks.

Tonio doesn’t take the bait, making Kakyoin feel like a child, like he’s powerless, like he can’t control himself or anyone else and he is open-

“My restaurant closes at eight in the evening,” Tonio says. “Please come by after then. It looks like you could really use-”

“I’m not some little charity case,” Kakyoin seethes, and Tonio’s eyes finally narrow, his lips pursing. “I don’t need your hel-“

“Then think of it as you helping me,” Tonio snaps, finally rising to the bait, but not in the Kakyoin was anticipating, his words making Kakyoin shut his mouth in surprise. It makes him realize he was expecting a Polnareff response, a sharp and defensive barb rather than the exasperated frustration he’s seeing now, and it shuts him up more efficiently than if he lost his voice altogether. “Treat it like an exercise in training my stand so I know how to make the effects less terrifying for standusers. I owe you one for your help today anyway, so it’s not like it’s free , if you must think of me and my actions as a commodity.”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly at the insistence. Tonio continues.

“Miss Aya will be there, too, for her weekly hand massage, so it’s not like it’s just you that I’m treating special.” Tonio sniffs before sighing, shoulders relaxing from their squared state. “So please…don’t insult me by denying me this?”

Kakyoin swallows. “I- I’m sorry,” he mutters weakly. “I didn’t mean to imply your- your food was an unwanted gift, or-”

Tonio waves a hand. “I know you didn’t,” he sighs. “I’m sorry too: I didn’t mean to imply I’m doing this out of any reason other than that I just want to. But…please. I worry about you, Noriaki.”

Kakyoin’s face feels hot. Kakyoin wants to ask why Tonio even cares so much. Kakyoin wants to ask what he did that made his state so obvious. Kakyoin wants to ask if Tonio would’ve still offered even if Kakyoin hadn’t helped – wants to know if it’s all conditional, if-

Instead, he just says, “…Okay.”

Tonio’s shoulders slump in what Kakyoin realizes is relief with a wet and hot splash of water against the insides of his ribs, melting down the structure and turning him soft. He gives Kakyoin a small smile.

Kakyoin can’t return it, but for once, that doesn’t feel like damnation, considering what Tonio’s already picked up on anyway. Something in him slumps in relief, like it had been strung up tightly for days and finally was set free to collapse.

They return to the restaurant, Tonio reheating Okuyasu and Koichi’s forgotten food with his stand while Pochi and Taro work on the pig’s leg out back. Kakyoin hesitates before he goes to the kitchen to find Tonio doing some dishes, humming all the while.

He clears his throat, and Tonio turns at looks at him, light blue eyes earnest and open. Something in Kakyoin’s chest aches.

“I need to go um…clean up a bit,” Kakyoin says. “Being thrown around by a cat’s stand wasn’t that fun even if I didn’t have to eat the pavement while it happened.”

Tonio laughs, nodding his head. “Of course, Noriaki,” he says. He hesitates then. “...You’ll still come tonight?”

Kakyoin takes a deep breath and closes his eyes. The blue of Tonio’s gaze haunts him behind his eyelids, merging with the sea blue and ice blue already there, and Kakyoin realizes he really, really hasn’t been fair to the man in front of him.

He opens his eyes again. “Yeah.”

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Chapter 21

Notes:

hi everyone!
i'm sorry this chapter is a couple of days late, I did technically finish it in October but i just didn't have the time to edit it until now. i hope the extra length makes up for it!
other than that, i don't think i really have any announcements...i hope you enjoy the chapter!

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Kakyoin knocks against the door to Trattoria Trussardi, purposefully scraping his hand on the door as he does in order to force his brain to focus on the itchiness of the wood rather than his thoughts.

True to his word from earlier, he has been cleaned up, hair falling free around his shoulders, voluminous from a shower and the humid air as summer continues to take the reigns from spring. He’s forgone his sunglasses, instead wearing his ill-used, normal pair of glasses.

He’s a little late, by ten or so minutes. It does little to ease the anxiety he still can’t quite figure out the source for.

Kakyoin feels like he’s going to throw up, which is ridiculous, because for all intents and purposes, this is just a meeting between friends, and yet-

And yet-

There’s a scraping before the bolt of the door’s lock audibly slides out of the door frame, halting his train of thought in its tracks, and Kakyoin is greeted by Tonio, still in his smock apron and chef’s hat. Kakyoin’s skin itches. He feels a little undressed, a little bare, but he holds his head high.

“Noriaki,” Tonio smiles, “I’m glad you could make it. Come on in! Miss Aya is already seated.”

“Noria-? Oh, Mr. Kakyoin?” Kakyoin can hear Aya call, and he sucks in a breath before rolling in at Tonio’s insistence, giving her a smile when he sees her.

“You can just call me Kakyoin, y’know,” Kakyoin says wryly, “no need for formalities.”

Aya raises a brow. “‘No formalities’ he says – is that why Mr. Tonio is calling you Noriaki?”

Kakyoin flushes a bit, but he doesn’t flinch, just snorts. “Well that’s gold, coming from ‘Miss Aya.’”

Aya laughs, smiling brightly at Kakyoin. “It’s been a while; I haven’t seen you since you told us that Red Hot Chili Pepper was dealt with. How are you?”

Kakyoin…isn’t sure how to answer that question, not without being more open than he’s willing to be, so he doesn’t; instead, he just rolls to a spot next to the table, Tonio trotting next to him, taking his hand when he settles.

Immediately Tonio frowns, brows furrowing. “Oh.”

Kakyoin blinks, followed by Aya, the smile slipping off her face as she glances at Kakyoin.

Kakyoin takes a shaky breath and lets his head flop against the back of his wheelchair. “It’s been a- a week.”

“Oh, Noriaki,” Tonio murmurs, tracing the lines in his hand, “I had no idea you were in so much pain recently. You’re very good at hiding it.” Kakyoin purses his lips at the comment, ignoring the tingling going up and down his arms. “What happened?”

Kakyoin scoffs then, crossing his arms, Tonio hesitantly letting his hand go to do so. “This goddamn bastard kicked me in the stomach.” Among other things, like taking my actual recommended dose of pain meds rather than overdoing it.

Aya chokes. “Wh- huh?”

Kakyoin sighs before he offers her a crooked smile. “My- the kids got into some trouble, and I had to break them out per usual.”

Aya chuckles a bit, but her gaze traces over Kakyoin’s form, brows furrowed.

Tonio clicks his tongue. “Was this before or after the Pochi incident?”

Kakyoin’s tongue stills for a second. His hesitance gives him away: Tonio’s eyes narrow and he turns on his heel, sweeping toward the kitchen.

“I ought to make you down cough syrup instead of enjoying my cooking,” he sniffs, and Kakyoin laughs up until Tonio adds, “you’re friends with two standusers who could easily heal you, but you still decided to keep this quiet?”

Kakyoin stills then. Tonio’s tone wasn’t scathing, he wasn’t properly mad, he probably has no idea the buttons he’s just pressed, but…

“Oh,” Kakyoin says dumbly, and Aya offers him a reassuring smile, her thin blue eyes soothing, like cool water against a burn. Does everyone I know have blue eyes? Kakyoin thinks offhandedly.

“Sounds like you’ve been busy, huh?” She comments, drawing Kakyoin out of his thoughts. “Tonio’s caught me up to date on what he knows when he mentioned he invited you tonight, but…clearly he doesn’t know everything. It’s been…hard, huh?”

He breathes out, shaking his head. “You could say that,” he mutters. He clears his throat. “What about you, though? Miss Business Owner,”

Aya thankfully doesn’t comment on the change of subject. Instead, she chuckles, waving a hand. “Please,” she says, “the most interesting thing that’s happened in my store was the guy who showed up asking me to dye his hair seaweed green.”

Kakyoin chokes. There’s only one person he’s seen in this town who fits that description. “Wait- what did he look like?”

Aya raises a brow. “Let me think… lean? Kind of a pretty boy, but most of the men who willingly walk into my store are.”

Kakyoin twitches. “Was he insufferable?”

Aya blinks at the nonsequitur. “Um, not really? He was indifferent but polite. Said he drew manga-”

“That’s the brat that kicked me!” Kakyoin shouts and Aya startles at the sudden explosion before she snorts, bringing a hand up to cover her mouth.

“Really?” She snickers, tone high in amusement, and Kakyoin lets out a strangled noise.

“Why was he so polite to you?! He was such a complete bastard to me!” Kakyoin seethes and Aya laughs out loud. Kakyoin feels warm and he can’t quite bite back his smile.

“Well, you said he was messing with your kids, right? Something tells me you didn’t exactly go into whatever conversation you two had with patience,” she teases. Kakyoin scoffs.

“He was in the wrong! If he’s so polite, he should’ve apologized, but he didn’t! Prideful little…”

Aya snorts again and Kakyoin raises a brow. “He kinda reminds me of you.”

Kakyoin gawks. “Take it back. Take it back right now or so help me-”

Aya laughs and before Kakyoin can needle her any further, Tonio comes back from the kitchen, a cup on a saucer in each hand.

“Sorry for the wait! I needed to let these steep for a bit,” he says, placing a saucer and accompanying cup in front of each of them. “Some lavender tea.” He points to Aya. “Yours doesn’t have any of my stand in it, but I remembered last time you mentioned you liked lavender, so I figured, why not?” He points to Kakyoin then, wagging his finger like an impatient parent. “Yours, however, Noriaki, does have my stand in it. This should help with all the tension-” he gestures toward Kakyoin’s entire torso, and he realizes his jaw is clenched, “-but it might feel a bit like you’re getting pelted by pebbles while it happens.” He turns back to Aya. “The visual might look like his skin is stretching, so be wary of that.”

Kakyoin blinks. Tonio continues before he can comment, whipping out a container of honey and some wrapped sugar cubes from his apron as he does so, setting them on the table.

“Dinner will be ready soon – classic spaghetti tonight, but with my own spin on it!” He winks and Kakyoin and Aya both snort at the reference to his stand. “It will of course be gluten-free, Signora,” he adds, and Aya smiles, patting his arm. With that, Tonio turns back on his heel and heads back to the kitchen.

Aya smiles as she reaches for the honey, pulling her cup of tea closer to her as she does.

Kakyoin scoffs, grabbing his own tea and grumbling as he stares it down.

“What?” Aya asks, an amused quirk to her mouth giving off the impression of almost a smile.

Kakyoin clicks his tongue. “You’re diluting it.”

Aya raises a brow. “With honey? It’s flavored, Kakyoin, it can’t dilute: it can only combine.”

Kakyoin tsks again, shaking his head. “You wouldn’t get it. Pure tea is how it's meant to be enjoyed.” He takes a sip.

Aya snorts. “Okay. I shouldn’t be surprised you’re an elitist about tea of all things.”

Kakyoin chokes, dropping his cup back down on his saucer. “I’m just saying! I’m not- I’m not being an elitist, I’m just saying, tea is meant to be enjoyed simply!”

Aya raises a brow before smirking. “Well, I’m an extravagant woman, Kakyoin, and I like my tea to follow that. You can drink your peasant tea how you want, and I’ll drink mine.”

Kakyoin sputters, but he finds himself able to swallow any retort due to the loud laugh Aya lets out at the sound, throwing her head back as her smile takes up her whole face. It sounds the same as it has since their first meeting, like bells, and Kakyoin thinks it would be a shame to cut into it just for his pride over a drink.

When she calms down, Kakyoin puts up a show of grumbling, ignoring the way he, true to Tonio’s word, feels like pebbles are raining down his shoulders and upper back as he sips his tea. He can only imagine how it looks. When he swallows, he says, “You know, you can call me Noriaki too. It’s not just a Tonio privilege.”

Aya blinks, and Kakyoin grinds his teeth into his tongue. “Or-”

“You can call me Aya then,” she says, reaching out across the table to tap at Kakyoin’s hand. He stares down at her fingers – thin but short, her hands wider than they are long, nails dull, today painted a calming sea blue. He swallows thickly before taking her hand, nonchalantly lacing their fingers together and placing the back of his hand down on the table so he doesn’t have to see the color any longer.

They’re quiet for a moment, Kakyoin staring at their hands before he looks up. She smiles at him, brows furrowed a bit, and Kakyoin feels the backs of his eyes burn, and he’s not sure why.

He swallows thickly and she breaks the eye contact to continue sipping her tea.

“You should finish that,” she says, gesturing to his cup, “Tonio will get mad if you don’t finish one of his drinks again.”

Kakyoin chuckles, the sound coming out punched and wheezy, but he adheres to the advice. The warmth of the liquid as it traces his throat on the way down just makes the burn behind his eyes even worse, and he blinks back the misting trying to overtake his gaze. The tea is sweet, tickling his tongue with its flavor, glazing over it before it’s soaked in and fades, and Kakyoin finds he doesn’t really want to let it go to waste even if it wasn’t medicine.

She squeezes his hand and he swallows and pretends it’s just for the tea and not the lump in his throat.

The silence stretches on, Kakyoin’s core warming with the tea, stretching out to wrap around his waist, up to his chest, and he thinks maybe this was a good idea after all. The patter of Tonio’s stand doesn’t even bother Kakyoin, feeling sort of like a hard – but warm – rain.

Eventually, they hear the bustle of Tonio in the kitchen, and they both withdraw their hands. Kakyoin’s palm feels cold, but he doesn’t have time to think much about it before Tonio slips out of the kitchen, two plates of spaghetti in hand, marinara sauce piled on top of the steaming noodles.

“Hey, Tonio,” Kakyoin asks as he sets the plates down, “I’ve been meaning to ask, but do you make your food from scratch?”

Tonio nods, lips giving way to teeth as he smiles widely. “Yes! I have a small garden out back for tomatoes and peppers and such. I also buy raw ingredients from the farmers just outside of Morioh.”

Kakyoin nods, unable to stop his lips from turning upward in response to Tonio’s own. “Does your stand only work if you make things from scratch?”

Tonio hums, tapping his chin with a finger, and Kakyoin’s heart experiences a plume of bright light at the motion, and his smile widens at the gesture. Aya’s shoe knocks against his under the table, but Kakyoin pays it no mind.

“They can work,” Tonio says, nodding, “but they work best when they can combine with the health benefits already present in food. For example, they’d work better with whole wheat bread rather than white bread.” Kakyoin nods. “So, in order to preserve the health benefits of all my food, I just prefer to make it from scratch.”

He winks, then, and Kakyoin flushes. “Besides, it makes it all the more authentic that way!”

Aya’s foot knocks against his again and Kakyoin’s gaze finally rips away from Tonio’s bright, white-toothed smile to glance at her. She’s staring at him with raised eyebrows, eyes looking pointedly up at him from past her nose, and Kakyoin flushes even harder for some reason, as if he’s been caught doing something he’d rather keep private. But he hasn’t! Has he?

Kakyoin swallows thickly and narrows his eyes at Aya. She just raises her brows even higher. Kakyoin wishes he could kick her, but between his wheelchair and the legs of the table, he can’t risk it.

“Anyway,” Tonio says, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze back to him. “Let me just get my own plate and I’ll join you,”

Kakyoin blinks. “You’re eating with us?”

Tonio laughs and Kakyoin feels like he’s glitching in and out of reality with how his stomach jumps at the sound. “If you don’t mind! Miss Aya doesn’t, and I have to eat too, you know,” he adds cheekily. Kakyoin feels like someone is playing a cruel prank on him. He ducks into his scarf.

Tonio turns and heads back to the kitchen and Aya taps his foot again with her own. Kakyoin looks up and glares at her.

“What was that?” He asks and she snorts.

“I could ask you that, but I’m sure you know.”

Kakyoin twitches, but before he can respond, Tonio returns, his own steaming plate in one hand, a glass of water in the other.

“Alright!” He cheers, placing both down on the table, raising his head to look at Aya. “I was thinking, when we’re done with our meals, we can have some wine-” then, he turns to Kakyoin, “but for you, a decaffeinated cappuccino! I’ve recently made my own blend, so I hope you don’t mind me asking you to be my guinea pig on the matter.”

Something warm swamps Kakyoin’s chest and he needs to take off his scarf before he starts sweating. “I- I- of course, I don’t mind,” he mutters eloquently. Aya’s foot taps his again and Kakyoin smacks her ankle with Hierophant. She snorts. Tonio takes his seat.

“Grazie, Kakyoin! You’ve done so much for me today. Has anyone ever told you how helpful you are?” Tonio asks, eyes sparkling in the low lighting, and Kakyoin could practically melt, feeling like an arrow with a molten head has just struck him right between the ribs, the metal dripping down his chest cavity, white-hot.

“Huh?” He says, like a fucking idiot- “I- I’m glad. I’m really glad… that I could… yeah.” IDIOT-

Tonio and Aya both laugh at that then, and Kakyoin should be angry, he should be furious that they’re making fun of him, not taking him seriously- but Tonio slides Kakyoin’s plate a little closer to him and Aya’s fingertips graze his own again and Kakyoin can’t help but stay molded to his seat, staring at his two friends as they smile, and he has to wonder, When’s the last time I felt something like this?

The depressing answer of 10 years ago wafts through his head and Kakyoin shoves it aside forcefully. He doesn’t want to think of then, not now; he wants to be here, with Tonio and Aya. He’s had enough of reliving scenes with Polnareff, with Avdol, with Joseph, with-

Kakyoin picks up his fork and twirls some noodles around, mixing the sauce thoroughly throughout.

Tonio points with his fork, making Kakyoin stop abruptly, blinking. “Oh! Your sauce is made with many kinds of peppers to help with the inflammation of your spine, by the way.”

Aya smiles. “Tonio, remember what I mentioned about gesturing with utensils in Japan?”

Tonio gasps, his face flushing, and sparks go down Kakyoin’s spine at the sight – Oh, what I wouldn’t give… – before he roughly shakes his head as Tonio begins apologizing.

“I’m sorry, Noriaki! I hope I didn’t offend you. I’m just used to speaking with my hands, you see, so I often forget to hold back when holding something…”

Kakyoin waves him off, chuckling lightly. “No, no, you’re fine. It-” and of course, Polnareff again bleeds into his thoughts, and he clams up.

Tonio frowns lightly, dropping his hands to instead reach for Kakyoin’s, overlaying where Aya’s fingers are still touching his free hand. Kakyoin takes a deep breath. 

“Um. I had a friend, who used to gesture with utensils, too. Even chopsticks,” He tries to laugh, but his chest feels too deep, too far down for the sound to bounce up to his throat properly. Aya and Tonio exchange glances. “So… I get it. It’s just a thing for Europeans.”

“He was European?” Tonio asks lightly, and Kakyoin exhales in what could have been a laugh, poking at his food.

“Yeah. French.”

Tonio scoffs lightheartedly. “They think they like coffee better than us.”

Kakyoin tries to chuckle but instead, mortifyingly, it comes out choked, almost like a bitten-off sob, and Kakyoin ducks his head, jerking his hand away from the two and shoving his wrist into his mouth so he doesn’t make any more stupid fucking sounds, they’re gonna pity him, they look down on him, even fellow standusers will never truly see him-

“Say, Tonio,” Aya cuts in then, and Kakyoin swallows around his wrist, refusing to look up, “have you told Kakyoin about meeting Josuke?”

Something wriggles in Kakyon’s memory about comments made earlier in the day, and he glances up past his bangs.

Tonio nods vigorously, his chef’s hat flopping with the motion. “Oh yes!” He starts lifting his fork again but stops, instead moving to twirl his noodles around the utensil instead. “So, I know you told us about Josuke, but I hadn’t seen him before, sí? Well, he and Mr. Nijimura paid me a visit a couple of weeks ago and he invaded my kitchen! Without washing his hands! He was pointing and spitting everywhere and walking around with his dirty shoes and just-” Tonio sniffs, shaking his head, and Aya laughs out loud. Kakyoin tentatively raises his head, unsure what to make of the conversation change.

“I was just trying to tend to a dog – not Pochi, mind you – that had an upset tummy. Then Josuke barges in accusing me of trying to kill Mr. Nijimura!”

Kakyoin squints. “Huh?”

Tonio clicks his tongue, tilting his head consideringly, pulling the brim of his chef’s hat down a little lower. “Well…of course, I suppose a part of me doesn’t blame him, because Okuyasu had a lot of issues I was fixing that day, and, uh…”

Tonio’s face flushes again and Kakyoin is very interested in how the color spreads along his cheekbones and over his nose.

“Well, I… I had recently formed a new dish for upset stomachs, so I was testing it out on the dog, but apparently, the visual for it is, um…intestines exploding out of the body.”

Kakyoin chokes. “What!?”

Tonio waves his hands rapidly while Aya laughs out loud, leaning back in her seat as she does. “I- I- It was a new dish! I didn’t know they were standusers! Nonstandusers don’t see the visuals! It’s not like it was going to hurt him! I just-”

Kakyoin erupts into uproarious laughter then, leaning over the table with how hard it wracks his frame, his face split into a grin that hurts his muscles almost like the muscles in his stomach complain over being bent, but Kakyoin doesn’t care.

“It’s not funny!” Tonio insists, exasperated, which sends Aya off again. “He walked into my kitchen unclean! He was wearing his outside shoes! He had been wearing those clothes all day! I was stressed!”

Kakyoin shakes his head, smiling widely. “You- you-” The image of Josuke, furious and righteously barging into Tonio’s kitchen, tracking soil and dirt as he does, causing a general ruckus as he is prone to do, just makes Kakyoin howl, and Tonio bats his arm.

“It’s not that funny!” He whines, but he’s smiling despite the blush still across his face, and oh, Kakyoin really likes that. “All’s well that ends well! They told me they were standusers and I explained my stand and then I had Josuke clean the mess he made in my kitchen while I made Okuyasu’s dessert. And now they come back with Mr. Hirose every Friday. So it’s fine!”

Kakyoin heaves a couple more chuckles, locking eyes with Aya as she does the same.

“What I would’ve given to have been a fly on that wall,” Kakyoin snickers, “Josuke can be intense. And you weren’t scared?”

Tonio sniffs. “Of course not! I was angrier he tracked dirt into my kitchen than anything else.”

Kakyoin snickers, shaking his head before he pats Tonio’s arm, staring up at his long face, his blond brows and eyelashes, mixing with the blue of his eyes to give off the impression of a sandy shore. “Never change, Tonio.”

Aya clears her throat and Kakyoin cringes away, but Tonio smiles brightly at him, patting his hand even as Kakyoin weakly retreats it.

Aya hums, staring at Kakyoin again with a knowing gaze, and Kakyoin could squirm. Instead, he squints at her and she snorts, which just makes heat creep into his chest.

“Anyway,” Tonio segues, cutting off their silent conversation, “you two should eat! Before the food gets cold.” He points then at Kakyoin’s cup, wagging his finger scoldingly. “And finish your tea! The food won’t help the pain as efficiently if your muscles aren’t relaxed first!”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, but Tonio just pushes his saucer toward him, and he raises his hands in surrender, grabbing the cup and downing the rest of the contents, going lax under the rhythmic beating against his muscles, arching his back with a small gasp when it trails down to his lower spine and stomach, gently easing the muscles into relaxation.

They all turn to their meals then, the silence broken only by the scraping of silverware against plates.

True to Tonio’s word, Kakyoin’s sauce adds a particular kick to his noodles, and he closes his eyes as the taste sinks into his tongue, warming him up.

“Y’know,” Aya says after swallowing a meatball, staring down at her bubbling hands before politely wiping at her mouth with her napkin, “I was kinda worried when we first met that I wouldn’t like your food.”

Tonio lets out a sound like a cross between a parrot and a wounded puppy, and Kakyoin chokes on his spaghetti.

“Signora, why?” Tonio cries, abashed, and Aya just smiles and shrugs lightly.

“I haven’t had much European food, and the kind I did was usually pretty bland. Plus, a lot of Italian food has gluten. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to really have anything fun, maybe just a salad.”

Tonio huffs indignantly, pointing at Aya with his fork. She stares down amused, eyes crinkling in at the corners. “Please! I’m Mediterrarian Aya, not British! I know how to use spices!”

Kakyoin spits again, laughing out loud, and Aya snickers while Tonio stares down his nose at Kakyoin, disdained. “Do you not believe me?”

Kakyoin waves his waves wildly before grabbing his napkin and wiping his face. “No, no! I believe you- I went to university in England, actually, so trust me, trust me, I know what you mean. Your food is so much better.”

Tonio sniffs. “ Thank you, Noriaki. I’m glad someone has always been on my side.”

Aya laughs, pushing against Tonio’s arm lightly. “Hey, shouldn’t you be proud you changed a nay-sayer’s mind? You can use it as advertising: certifiably will change your mind about western food!”

Tonio pauses then, head tilting consideringly, and his hat flops a little to the side, riding up so his blond sideburns come into view, and Kakyoin’s heart squeezes at how mussed it looks, his fingers twitching longingly.

“I see,” Tonio says, “I should change my marketing then! Thank you for the tip, Aya. It’s really nice to have a friend that’s a fellow business owner.”

Aya smiles then, seemingly unashamed about the sincerity behind her teasing being revealed, and a part of Kakyoin is sort of awed by how unbothered she is by it.

“Of course, Tonio,” she says, turning back to her food, “it’s what friends are for.”

She shoots a glance up at Kakyoin then and Kakyoin stiffens, swallowing thickly. Her stare softens, but she doesn’t look away. Kakyoin shovels some food into his mouth, swallowing roughly around the lump in his throat.

He can’t beat down the lump by the time they’re about finished eating, Tonio clearing away plates and inviting them into his kitchen.

“I normally don’t let other people in, but I could use some help washing the dishes,” he says with a smile, “and once that’s done, we can head upstairs for the wine and cappuccino.”

Kakyoin stares like he’s ten feet underwater over how casual the request for help was, even if it meant inviting others into such a tender spot. He swallows and nods and takes the dishes, rolling in after Aya.

“Be sure to leave your shoes by the door, Ms. Aya,” Tonio calls teasingly. Aya scoffs.

“I’m not British,” she mimics from earlier, “I take my shoes off when entering private places.” Tonio laughs and Kakyoin feels lightheaded, brain spinning in his skull.

He mechanically wipes down excess sauce and bits of tomato with a dry towel, passing the dishes off to Aya to wash with soap and water, who passes them to Tonio to dry off. With the three of them, it’s done in less than ten minutes, but Kakyoin feels a bit like he’s moving in honey. He’s so warm, the food and lasting effect of Tonio’s stand buzzing in his veins and chest, but as he fights against the lump in his throat, something cold and seizing mushes in his gut, twisting his intestines.

He’s startled out of his thoughts when Tonio sets down two glasses and a fresh, clean cup and saucer on the counter with a clink. Kakyoin blinks before looking up. Aya and Tonio both smile at him, their brows furrowed a bit, but they don’t prod him, and Kakyoin’s chest aches, so, so bad. A part of him recoils, chanting pity, pity, pity, while another just sinks into the sap surrounding his head.

Kakyoin opens his mouth.

“You look like him when you wear that hat.”

Tonio and Aya both blink a bit, clearly not expecting the nonsequitur, before Tonio chuckles, reaching up to push at the hat. “Yeah? Was he a chef too?”

Kakyoin swallows, the lump trying to make a comeback. “No. But he- he had white hair, and he wore it completely gelled up. Sort of like Koichi, but- he had pretty long hair, so it ended up being just a pillar of white…”

Aya laughs out loud at the description while Tonio tuts, shaking his head. “Frenchmen,” he says vaguely, and Kakyoin chuckles even if the backs of his eyes burn. Managing the feeling and the lump in his throat makes his tongue loose, and he ends up spitting out,

“Admittedly though, you’re a lot more attractive with the look than he was.”

Tonio goes completely scarlet at the comment and Aya’s brows shoot up to her hairline and Kayoin hikes his shoulders up to his ears and clutches his scarf around his face. WHY THE FUCK DID I SAY THAT-

“D-do you mean it?” Tonio stutters and Kakyoin digs his nails into his scalp. Oh, he’s a fucking idiot, here these two were trying to make him feel better and he had to ruin it with his inappropriate, perverted thoughts-

“It’s not a bad thing to be honest,” Aya crows, her voice high in amusement but even with sincerity, and Kakyoin just groans, wrapping his arms around his head, running his fingers through his hair.

“It isn’t!” Tonio jumps on, waving his hands erratically in front of him when Kakyoin squints up at him between his arms and scarf. “I’m honored, really, Noriaki.” Kakyoin shivers. “I just, um…”

Tonio tugs on the collar of his shirt, the blush on his face still not completely gone, and Kakyoin hates how the sight makes his gut burn. “I’m honored,” he repeats, “I really am. It means a lot to hear that coming from a friend. It’s just, I ah, am already dedicated to someone else,”

Kakyoin dives headfirst into his scarf again, shame twisting around his shoulders. “Are you trying to let me down?” He croaks.

“Mm… Softly,” Tonio admits, and Kakyoin just tightens his hold around himself.

“I- I wasn’t even trying to make a move,” Kakyoin defends weakly, and Tonio laughs, but before Kakyoin can bristle at the sound, Tonio pats his shoulder, smiling down at him.

“I know,” he says, “but I figured I should let you know the second I realized, right? It wouldn’t be fair to lead a friend on. It’s easier to move past these things once they have a solid conclusion, no?”

Kakyoin lets out a keening noise. Aya pats his other shoulder.

“If- if it makes you feel better-” Aya cuts herself off then, and it’s the first time Kakyoin has ever heard her voice waver. He looks up then, swallowing down his embarrassed misery, and she’s staring at the floor, biting her lip, hand still unconsciously on his shoulder.

Kakyoin and Tonio both wait for her, not pressing. Eventually, she takes a deep breath, squaring her shoulders. “Um, I’ve done similar. I told a friend in high school once I was probably a better kisser than…than any boy she’d ever kissed,”

Kakyoin and Tonio both blink, Kakyoin’s jaw dropping a little. Aya squirms, face pinching in discomfort as her hand slides away from Kakyoin’s shoulder and she folds her arms in front of her chest. “Like…I didn’t even- I wasn’t even trying to make a come-on, I just wanted a chance to express- express my feelings discretely but honestly, but I didn’t even realize how unsubtle it was until it came out of my mouth.”

Had he ever been that unsmooth? Fuck, had he ever said something as blatant to J-

Kakyoin quickly shakes his head to whip the thought from his head, snorting as he does. “Aya,” he says, but she refuses to look up at him, picking at her sleeve with her nails instead. “Aya,” he calls again. She twitches but looks up.

Kakyoin clears his throat, the vulnerability behind his teeth making him almost nauseous. Aya stares at him with wide pupils and furrowed brows.

“I get it. I-” Kakyoin takes a deep breath before patting her arm, just above her elbow. “Thank you.”

Aya peaks a smile at him, shoulders dropping, Kakyoin returns it, nodding.

“Anyway,” Kakyoin turns and points to Tonio, who stands at attention. “‘Dedicated to someone,’ huh?”

It’s an attempt to embarrass the man like he and Aya already have been, but Tonio just beams, eyes crinkling at the edges. “Sí! Her name is Virginia. Isn’t it such a lovely name?” He outright swoons then, sighing as he props one arm up, holding his cheek with it. “She’s still back in Italy. I wanted to make sure everything was set up and stable before bringing her over, especially since travel is hard for her.”

Tonio’s features fall then, eyes downturned at the corners, his arms dropping to his sides. Aya and Kakyoin exchange glances. “She…is not doing so well, lately. Pearl Jam was able to figure out it’s a tumor, but that’s all it could do…my stand hasn’t ever worked on a tumor before.” Tonio’s head lowers a bit. “I don’t want to use her as a guinea pig for such a serious treatment, either…”

Tonio sighs, gently pulling off his chef’s hat completely and setting it down on the counter. “It’s part of why I traveled while I learned to cook. I was hoping to find someone… But in the end, it didn’t feel right to be so selfish; if something went wrong, how could I force someone else to lose their loved one in the failed attempt to save my own?”

“Tonio,” Aya murmurs, reaching for his arm. Tonio’s shoulders just slump and he shakes his head.

“While she waits for me to set up here, she’s been seeing doctors to see if the tumor is operable. If it is, she’ll probably stay there and get the procedure done back home, then come here, to Japan, with me. If not, she’ll fly here immediately, and I can at least use Pearl Jam to monitor it while we figure out what to do.”

Kakyoin hesitates, tongue still behind his teeth, before he says, “I’m glad she has you.”

Tonio smiles then, small but real, brows furrowing. “I’m glad to have her.” He looks at Kakyoin then, his gaze steady. “You remind me of her, a little. It’s why I went up to talk to you when we first met in the pharmacy.”

Kakyoin blinks, hesitates, then asks, “How so?”

Tonio’s smile widens, shoulders slumping as he leans back a bit, turning to face the counter as he regathers the two wine glasses and the cup and saucer. “You both have reddish hair, for example – though her’s is a bit darker. You also both have wheelchairs.”

In hindsight, it makes Tonio’s overfamiliarity, even back then, make much more sense, and Kakyon’s lips part a bit. “Oh. That- explains some stuff, I think.”

Tonio chuckles. Aya hums.

“Is that why you asked Noriaki to go to your grand opening?” She asks, tapping a chin to her finger, only pausing when Tonio hands her a glass of white wine.

“Not particularly,” Tonio admits as he pours his own wine, “it’s just why he caught my eye. But anyone who caught my eye was invited to the grand opening – you two were just the first to show up, is all.”

Tonio laughs then, voice echoing in the kitchen, as he moves to start putting together Kakyoin’s cappuccino. “I’m sort of glad it ended up working like that. Can you imagine the showdown we had with an audience?”

Aya chokes on the small sip of wine she took, sputtering before she laughs out loud, while Kakyoin smirks, fingering his scarf as he watches Tonio go about.

“Public executions aren’t very polite,” Kakyoin comments, and both Tonio and Aya snort.

“I’d wager that free entertainment to go with a free meal would’ve been a great advertising point,” Aya counters, and Kakyoin sputters and laughs out loud.

Tonio purses his lips just as he finishes the cup, placing it on its saucer with a clink as he hands it to Kakyoin. “I don’t think staging my own death would do my future business endeavors much good.”

Aya snorts. “Maybe you could turn it into a ghost chef thing, then. People do love themed restaurants here.”

Tonio tsks. “I would need to ensure I come back as a ghost, though.”

Aya waves a hand. “You’d find a way; you’re hard to get rid of.”

Tonio blinks. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Kakyoin, meanwhile, nods his head. “No, I agree. You stick in people’s minds, evidently. I’m sure you’d stick around this world in the same way.”

Tonio stares at them both before chuckling, shaking his head. “Sometimes I can’t tell when you’re complimenting me or insulting me.”

“It’s a compliment!” Aya assures, before following after Tonio as he leads the way to a door off the side of the kitchen, up to the apartment above his restaurant. To Kakyon’s surprised delight, beside the steps is a ramp that goes all the way to the top.

“This is the first time I’ve found a ramp in Morioh,” Kakyoin comments, a pleased thrum going through his chest as he rolls up alongside his friends.

Tonio balks. “Really? I had this installed for Virginia once she arrives.”

Kakyoin nods, clicking his tongue. “It’s just not something others think about,” he spits, and Aya and Tonio both hum.

They make it to the top of the steps, and Tonio leads the way down a short hallway that opens up to a wide living room, a long couch curling around the wall. Throw blankets and pillows litter the space, and Tonio easily hands both Aya and Kakyoin a pillow and blanket each, before curling up at the edge with his own pillow and blanket.

Aya sits further from him, stretching her legs out on the curve of the sofa, while Kakyoin rolls to a spot between the two of them, Hierophant easily slipping out and picking him up, depositing him on the couch without disturbing his cappuccino.

“So,” Aya says conversationally as Kakyoin takes a sip, “no other ramps? Really?”

Kakyoin scoffs, shaking his head. “No. It’s annoying as hell. Sure, I can get around fine because of Hierophant,” - at the mention, Hierophant pops up a tentacle, and Aya coos at it, which makes it curl in flattered glee before it disappears - “but even other wheelchair-bound standusers would have issues moving up them. They’re everywhere.”

Tonio hums. “I’ve been meaning to smooth over the steps on the porch outside…”

Kakyoin nods, gesturing toward Tonio. “That’d be a good idea. Motorized wheelchairs wouldn’t be able to make it up the way it is now, even if manual ones could…”

Aya clicks her tongue, taking a sip of wine. “It really is a problem. A lot of infrastructure depends on stairs.”

Tonio nods. “Especially here. Other places I’ve traveled to have been more accessible, but I haven’t seen much of it here – it kinda surprises me that a city like Morioh doesn’t have more options.”

Kakyoin huffs. “Tell me about it. England was more accessible. England!”

Aya purses her lips, shaking her head. “I think it all goes back into tourism politics. Some people think slopes are ugly compared to stairs.”

Tonio tsks. “Please. You know, I…”

As Aya and Tonio take off in the conversation, Kakyoin takes the opportunity to finally sip his cappuccino.

It’s earthy in a way that reminds Kakyoin of green tea, which surprises him, and as the drink slinks down his throat and fills his sinuses, he can smell and taste the spices, the sweetness of cinnamon, the thick tang of cream, and a small richness of chocolate tangling in Kakyoin’s sinuses. It reminds him of Avdol, and he blinks, eyes moistening.

He sniffs quietly before taking another sip, but whatever Tonio’s stand is doing with the cappuccino inside of him punches against his chest, and Kakyoin lets out a sob, squeezing his eyes shut.

“Noriaki?” He can hear Aya call, voice lilted in concern, and Kakyoin tries to grit his teeth, but Pearl Jam twists lower down, warming him up like his stomach was still there, like he still had everything he started that fateful day ten years ago with, and he lets out a whimper, dropping his cup in his lap and covering his hands with his face.

“Oh, Noriaki,” Tonio murmurs, voice too similar to one Kakyoin will never hear again, and the floodgates open, and Kakyoin cries .

At first, he can’t get out any words, his throat filled with the warm, thick taste of tears and leftover impression of cinnamon, his sinuses so wet, and he just sobs, sobs, sobs. He feels arms wrap around him then, then another pair, and he sobs harder.

“H-H-”

“Sh,” Aya murmurs from where she’s resting her head against his shoulder, and Kakyoin chokes , gripping onto his own knees to ensure his guts won’t spill out, not again.

“I’m sorry, Noriaki,” Tonio says quietly when Kakyoin’s lungs give out, his shoulders wracking with deep, shuddering breaths, the air unable to stay long before he’s exhaling harshly, “if- if I had known this would be your reaction to- I-”

“It’s fine,” Kakyoin says earnest, honestly, his voice nasally and hitched, but he can’t care, he feels so warm and the taste of chocolate and cinnamon won’t leave his mouth, and he remembers drinking chai tea with Avdol in India Polnareff coming over to try a sip, and mocking him for the face he’d made, and he cries harder. “I-i-’s f-fine,”

“Is it?” Aya counters quietly, and Kakyoin sucks in a breath.

Pearl Jam is near the base of his spine now, spreading warmth along the nerves, and it reminds Kakyoin of the fires Avdol made on the nights they spent in the desert, warm at his back as he listens to Joseph’s stories complete with gesture and voices; it reminds him of him waking up when Polnareff was tucking him into his sleeping bag after he fell asleep on Jotaro’s shoulder; and he keens, high and loud in his throat. “N-no. No, no, it’s- it’s not- he-”

He cries, gasping, aching, the disgusting sensation of tears and mucus and spit and warm breath all over his face, making him both sticky and wet, but he can’t care, he can’t care, he can’t care.

“He was my b-br- he called me his brother,” Kakyoin whimpers, “he’s dead and he was my brother and- and-”

“Oh, Noriaki,” he isn’t sure who says it, but both pairs of arms around him squeeze, and Kakyoin feels relief, like he doesn’t have to be the only one to hold his entrails in should they come sloshing out, followed by visceral disgust at such weakness-

“I’m sorry,” He spits, curling inward, “I’m s-s- I don’t know what’s g-going o-on-”

“Don’t be sorry,” Tonio says, and Kakyoin picks up that he’s carding his hands through his hair, and he clenches his teeth. “You’ve been under so much stress, Noriaki. It makes sense that the rush of endorphins that Pearl Jam gives people could lead to a break like this.”

Kakyoin grits his teeth even tighter. “But- but I’m s-s-supposed to be better than this-”

“Better than being human?” Aya snaps. “Come on, Noriaki, I didn't take you as the honcho type. Aren’t you an anthropologist? Surely you know that being human is to need to connect during stressful times?”

Kakyoin sucks in a breath and holds it, feeling it swirl like a ball in his lungs before he exhales and sobs, sinking into the arms around him, arms going limp, accepting that if he’s falling apart, if his organs are sloshing out of him, he doesn’t have to be the one to pull them back in this time.

He isn’t sure how long he cries for, the warmth of Pearl Jam overran by the warmth of his friends’ arms around him, time becoming as blurred as his vision as he heaves out confessions and regrets, as he grieves.

“I don’t even remember the last time we talked,” Kakyoin spits, “I didn’t- we just- we were both so busy and I was so- so a-ashamed, c-cause- cause-” the admission is right on the tip of his tongue, practically dropping past his lip like spit, but he can’t, he’s-

The arms tighten around him again and Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“He…he was the one to get me to rehab,” Kakyoin whimpers, shame and regret tangling into a nauseating mess in his gut, rearranging his intestines for fun. If Kakyoin didn’t know any better, he’d almost think it was Pearl Jam playing with his guts, bored of their task – whatever it was – regarding his spine. “I was- I was so resistant at first but he- he convinced me, probably s-saved my life with it, and I-” Kakyoin sucks in a breath and wraps his hands around his head, fingers tracing the base of his skull.

One of the hands around him moves to hold one of his own, and Kakyoin whimpers.

“I just- I just wanted to make him proud of me again,” Kakyoin cries, hot breath fanning across his face. “I thought- I thought we’d have m-more time.”

Tonio sucks in a shaky breath and Kakyoin swallows thickly. His tears are slowing as Pearl Jam finishes up whatever it is they’re doing, and he swallows back the mucus that’s slid down his throat in the past several minutes, grimacing.

Slowly, he relaxes from the curled position he undertook, and the arms around him move but don’t stop touching him, and Kakyoin feels another wave of tears blur his vision over it.

“Noriaki,” Tonio says softly, voice low, and Kakyoin sniffs, taking his glasses off before mopping at his face half-heartedly with his sleeve. He hums to let Tonio know he has his attention. Aya gently pulls his arm away from his face, instead offering him a handkerchief, and Kakyoin swallows back another sound before he accepts it with shaking fingers.

“If it’s- any consolation,” Tonio continues, and Kakyoin glances at him from over the handkerchief before remembering how red-rimmed his eyes must be, and he goes back to wiping them, “I- …um.”

Tonio sighs, one hand absent-mindedly rubbing Kakyoin’s back, and for once, Kakyoin feels like he can truly enjoy it, feels like he isn’t using Tonio for a stand-in for someone else. For Polnareff. For Jo-

“I have a brother too,” Tonio divulges quietly, “a younger brother. Just like you were to…”

Kakyoin realizes he’s prompting for a name, and he realizes he never even mentioned it until now. He swallows thickly and says, “P… Polnareff,” in a hoarse tone.

Tonio nods. “Just like you were to Polnareff. He…” Tonio’s hand stills on Kakyoin’s back and Kakyoin glances at him again.

His eyes are heavy-lidded, brows furrowed together, blue eyes murky for the first time Kakyoin has met him.

“I mentioned how drugs run my hometown, sí?” Tonio asks, and Kakyoin realizes where he’s going with this, throat closing up.

“Oh-” Aya gasps, evidently also clued in, “Tonio-”

“He’s- not dead,” Tonio cuts in shaking his head. “Not…as far as I know at least,” he admits quietly, and Kakyoin grinds his teeth together, reaching out to pat Tonio’s knee. Tonio takes a deep breath.

“He was involved in drugs – both the distribution and taking of them,” Tonio admits. “I tried…but, he’s more stubborn than me. I couldn’t get him to rehab, as Polnareff could you,”

Kakyoin swallows thickly, staring at his hand on Tonio’s knee rather than Tonio’s eyes.

“But I never stopped being proud of him,” Tonio says softly, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze up. “Sure, I don’t…I don’t want this path for him. But he’s not only his mistakes. He is my brother even when he’s not my friend.”

Kakyoin chokes on his breath and Tonio catches his gaze, pressing further. “So, speaking as an older brother in a similar situation,” Tonio says, “I think Polnareff was proud of you, never stopped being so in fact. I think he’d just be happy you’re alive, even if he can’t…be there with you.”

Kakyoin’s reminded of the first time he saw Polnareff again after he woke up from his coma, how Polnareff immediately swept him into a hug and shuddered with unshed tears, and Kakyoin can’t help but break down again, even though Pearl Jam is evidently done with whatever it was doing to his spine, even though he’s already made such a mess of himself, and his friends hold him through it.

“Tonio’s right,” Aya says quietly, and Kakyoin just sobs, clinging onto both of them in return. “Getting into a bad situation and needing help isn’t shameful . It’s just how life goes.” She takes a breath of her own and Kakyoin squeezes her hand. She squeezes back. “I’m glad you’re here,”

Kakyoin sniffs while Tonio hums his assent.

“Does Polnareff…have a grave?” Aya asks, and Kakyoin shrugs. She hums. “You should find out when you’re ready. I’d love to thank the man that saved your life.”

Kakyoin cries out again, and as his friends hold him through it, he realizes it’s not his organs that are sloping out of him as he cries, but grief.


Kakyoin returns to the hotel late into the night. He’s not sure of the time exactly, but it’s late enough that the lobby is dark and stationless as he rolls in, shadows and the blue hue of night his only company as his wheelchair lightly creaks.

Tonio and Aya had insisted he stay the night at Tonio’s place after he got some water and cleaned up a bit, but he had declined, not wanting to be even more of a bother. While they had assured him he wouldn’t be, they also said they respected his choice, and that. Well. Hm. It countered the part of him that snarled about pity, pity, pity.

Still, he needed to regather his bearings before he does something like a slumber party. Aya drove him home – he didn’t even know she had a car: it’s a tiny, pale red thing – but it smelled like her perfume and the cabin was warm, and Aya didn’t even treat him like a glass figure, going right back to snarking with him like they had while waiting for Tonio to finish making dinner. It makes him feel a little more put-together.

He turns to the hallway where his room is down, only to freeze.

Loitering completely still outside his door is Jotaro. Dressed in white like he is, it’s easy to spot him even in the shadow, and Kakyoin’s heart does something funny, something he can’t describe, is too worn out to describe.

Kakyoin clears his throat, and Jotaro jumps, whipping his head back to meet Kakyoin. His blue eyes almost glow with the way they catch the light. Kakyoin sighs.

“Kujo…what are you doing here?”

Jotaro’s gaze drops and he reaches up to tug the brim of his hat down, and Kakyoin just rolls his eyes.

“What…were you doing out?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin blinks at the hoarse tone of voice he has before scoffing as the meaning of his words sinks in.

“None of your business. I’m tired now, though, so if you could either get to the point or let me go inside-”

“I-” Jotaro snaps his mouth shut, swallowing thickly as his gaze darts to Kakyoin, and Kakyoin frowns at what he sees. Shadows under his eyes, making the blue of his irises more pronounced, his lips weighed down with a heavy, tight frown at the edges, his brows pinched together, his own eyes heavy-lidded with exhaustion…

“There’s…something you need to know.” Jotaro completes, and Kakyoin startles, jerking his gaze away from Jotaro’s lips and jaw to his eyes.

“What?”

Jotaro swallows thickly, gaze darting down, and Kakyoin rolls forward. “What? Kujo-”

“P…” Jotaro swallows, Kakyoin eyeing the way the knot in his throat bobs with the motion, “Pol…Polanreff-”

Something blooms in Kakyoin’s chest, a hope that maybe something new occurred, his body was never found so maybe- maybe-

“He’s…dead.”

Kakyoin blinks. Oh. Right. Jotaro didn’t know that he knew.

Kakyoin stamps down the weak urge to spit and snarl, crumpling it between the falling sheets of failed hope that maybe something had updated. “Oh.”

Jotaro stares at him, clearly waiting for something else. Kakyoin clears his throat, one hand coming up to rub at an eye under his glasses.

“I, um, already knew that.”

Jotaro blinks. “What.”

Kakyoin shrugs, dropping his hand, squinting at Jotaro. He can’t read his expression. “...After w- I – defeated Akira, I gave Avdol a call to give him a heads up about how insufferable he is. Avdol had… just gotten the news himself about…” he shudders, moving past his unsaid words, “and he told me then.”

Jotaro stares at him and Kakyoin can feel his hair stand on end, but he doesn’t squirm.

“...Why didn’t you tell me?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin stares at him before snorting.

“I- are you serious, Kujo?”

Jotaro’s fists clench as he raises his head, staring down at Kakyoin. “Yes! Why didn’t you t-”

“Oh, that’s fucking gold, coming from you,” Kakyoin spits, glaring up at Jotaro. Jotaro shuts his mouth. “After everything, EVERYTHING you’ve kept from me?!” Kakyoin shakes his head, unable to stop the chuckles that bubble out of his chest, like carbonation flowing up to the top of a soda.

Jotaro growls, the corner of his lip picking up to bare his teeth, and Kakyoin just rolls his eyes.

“For your information,” Kakyoin snaps, and Jotaro snarls at his tone, “I wasn’t keeping it form you maliciously. Not fucking everything is about you, Kujo; I was in shock. I needed to grieve. Why would you be the first thing that came to mind?”

Jotaro opens and closes his mouth for a second, the anger slipping from his face, and Kakyoin swallows, dragging his gaze down to Jotaro’s shoes.

“...If,” Kakyoin murmurs, “I had thought about you, I would have told you.”

Jotaro’s throat clicks noisily in the otherwise empty hall as he swallows thickly.

“Becuase I’m not like you,” Kakyoin spits, “I would never stoop as low as you do. Not about this.”

Jotaro stays very still. “Doesn’t the fact I was going to tell you this, though, mean anything?” He asks quietly.

Kakyoin pauses then, takes a deep breath. He’s so tired.

“Did Avdol call you, or something?” Kakyoin asks instead of answering.

Jotaro is quiet. Kakyoin counts his breaths, keeping his gaze on Jotaro’s shoes. They’re a little muddy, and he can’t help but wrinkle his nose over how he’s wearing them through the hotel’s carpeted hallways.

Finally, Jotaro says, “I…a SPW agent told me for Avdol. I called Avdol afterward and he confirmed.”

Kakyoin swallows, memories of the Speedwagon Foundation agent that drove him back to the hotel the other day flashing through his mind. “I see.”

They both go quiet then, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath. Maybe it’s the leftovers from his bought of crying earlier, maybe it’s exhaustion, maybe it’s the good will Tonio and Aya instilled in him, maybe it’s because of Polnareff, but-

“You should…get some sleep,” he mutters. Jotaro stares at him. Kakyoin sighs, rubbing at his eye again. He knows he certainly needs some… “You remember Polnareff,” he elaborates, smiling a bit, strained as it is. “He was a big brother to the end. He wouldn’t-” he voice cracks, and both he and Jotaro flinch at the sound. Kakyoin goes quiet for the moments it takes to swallow and soothe his throat. Finally, he croaks out, “He wouldn’t want either of us to- to take it too hard.”

Jotaro is quiet and Kakyoin feels a flash of indignation, fingers tightening on the armrests of his wheelchair, before Jotaro finally says, “...You too, Kakyoin.”

He steps back then, once, but he hesitates. Kakyoin raises a tired brow.

“I’m…you were right.”

Kakyoin blinks, the cold water of shock bursting from the center of his chest, raining down and flooding his guts. “What?”

But Jotaro’s already turned on his heel to leave, leaving Kakyoin alone in front of his hotel door as he heads down the hallway.

“K- Kujo, what?” Kakyoin calls after him. Jotaro stumbles to a stop, shoulders hiked up around his ears.

Finally, he turns his head just a bit, and Kakyoin can just barely hear, “You were right that I keep getting innocent men killed.”

Then he turns and walks off, and Kakyoin stares after him, something lighter than liquid but cold, so, so cold, swirling in his gut like a hurricane, as Jotaro disappears behind a corner and between shadows.

Chapter 22: Intermission 3: Act 1

Notes:

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER: DISCUSSION OF DRUGS (ALCOHOL, PAINKILLERS, WEED, ETC), DRUG ADDICTION, AND CAR CRASH MENTION. PLEASE PROCEED SAFELY.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

September 13, 1992

London, England

England, Kakyoin quickly finds, is an ugly place.

Well, that wasn’t necessarily fair; he did like the countryside, full of bright green pastures he’d expect to see more in a child’s coloring book than in real life. But the cities, in his opinion, were disgusting.

Kakyoin peers out past his green umbrella, squinting up past tall gray buildings to the rain that pelts it, hardly able to hear it past the wet clicks and thumps of heels and soles smacking against wet concrete as the general populace rushes past him.

Kakyoin sits back in his wheelchair, crossing his arms, drawing his cardigan tighter around him. It was hand-knit by Holly as a parting gift, something Kakyoin was not expecting in the least, but she looked so upset when Kakyoin tried to refuse it that he accepted it in the end.

He’s grateful for it now, the soft fabric wrapping around him like a blanket. If it weren’t for his cold fingers, he could probably fall asleep.

“Excuse me,” a thickly Scottish-accented voice calls.

Kakyoin drags his gaze up to meet the gaze of a brown-haired, pale woman, in a dark trenchcoat. She has an umbrella of her own in one hand, a similar color to her coat, and a piece of paper in the other.

“Are you…” she squints at the paper in hand. “Kauh-ko-een?”

Kakyoin twitches. “It’s Kakyoin.”

The woman nods. “K-Kak-yooin?”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “So, you’re showing me to my dorm?”

She narrows her eyes at the paper again before stuffing it into her pocket, trading it for a pair of keys. “Yes. Well, hi. I’m your RA. Come on, I’m sure you’re cold.”

Kakyoin says nothing and instead rolls after her, grimacing sharply at his wet wheels as they roll along the pavement. Oh, gross…

If I’m gonna be here for the next three years, I’m gonna have to get used to it I guess…

Kakyoin sighs before rolling after her as she opens the door, pinning it open for him with her hip. Warm air immediately curls around him once he’s inside, and Kakyoin sighs, his shoulders dropping. The girl dusts off her umbrella as she glances around the lobby – well, “lobby” was putting it generously: it was more just an open space near the entrance before hallways led to dorms.

“So,” she starts, walking along toward one hallway, leaving Kakyoin to trail after her, “your roommate is already here, he moved in a few days ago. I’m not sure if he’s here right now still, but…” she shakes her head. “Anyway, if you need him to swap places with you – like if he took the bottom bunk – just ask. If he’s a prick about it, just let me know.”

Kakyoin chokes at the wording and she smiles.

“Classes start tomorrow, as I’m sure you know. Do you have a campus map?”

Kakyoin clears his throat from his startled laugh, nodding his head. “Yes. I’ll be fine.”

She nods, before tagging, “Y’know, your English is pretty good. Did you grow up speaking it?”

Kakyoin blinks at the sudden change in subject. “Um- sorta? I’ve been learning it for as long as I’ve gone to school.”

“Huh.” She shakes her head before stopping short at a door, leaving Kakyoin to almost run her over. She turns to him, offering him the pair of keys she had been using. “Here. These are yours for the year.”

Kakyoin stares at them before hesitantly grabbing them, and she flinches when his freezing fingers flit past her own. “Jesus, how long were you waiting outside for?”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow, lip curling to snap back an answer, when she follows up with, “I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner. I probably could’ve, but…well, anyway. I’ll make it up to you.”

Kakyoin hesitates, raising a brow at the wording. She’s looking at him steadily, between his slowly but surely growing hair, and his round, red-lensed glasses, and suddenly Kakyoin feels a little self-conscious.

“Well,” he says, crossing his arms, “thanks I guess. I’ll see you around, uh…?”

“Rachel.” She says, nodding.

Kakyoin purses his lips. “Rachel. Right.”

She adjusts her jaw before saying, “K-Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin blinks in surprise. “I- yes. That’s right.”

She smiles then, eyes squinting in a way that reminds Kakyoin of a fox. “Alright. Again, let me know if your roommate is…difficult.” She frowns then, sniffing. “My dorm is just down the hall, so.”

Kakyoin nods dumbly, and she turns and takes off. Kakyoin squints at her retreating form before turning to the door.

He takes a deep breath, schooling his expression, before plugging the key he had been given into the lock and twisting, then opening the door.

Kakyoin immediately is hit with the stench of tobacco and he’s transported half a world away, to a hotel room in Pakistan, to a hotel room in Singapore, to the Saudi Arabian desert, and he needs to blink harshly, reaching up to rub at his nose with his damp jacket, before he remembers he’s not in dry, skin-cracking cold, but in wet, moist cold.

“Huh?” A head with messy black hair pops over the lip of the bunk bed, and Kakyoin lets out a breath. “Oh! Shit, sorry, you must be my roommate, right?”

“Yes,” Kakyoin grumbles, rolling inside before shutting the door behind him with a yank from Hierophant. His roommate doesn’t react to the flash of green. Figures, Kakyoin thinks.

“Sorry,” he says again as he jumps down, Kakyoin wincing as his feet hit the floor, before he rushes over to the desk at the far corner of the room, putting his cigarette out on the ashtray there. “I forgot you were arriving today.”

He straightens, turning to face Kakyoin, and something in Kakyoin twists when he sees black hair framing dark eyes. He isn’t sure what he expected and what didn’t meet that expectation, but whatever it was, it makes his chest sag, forgetting its structure. Why was everything in England so gray? He missed the blue…

“I’m Howard. Uh, you are…?” He extends a hand.

Kakyoin squints at it, remembering Rachel’s reaction to his fingers, as he replies, “I’m Kakyoin. Noriaki.”

Howard blinks, mouthing Kakyoin’s name to himself. “Um…can I call you Noriaki?”

Kakyoin bristles, the overt familiarity needling into his skin like salt being crammed into the edges of a scrape, and he snaps, “Absolutely not.”

“Aw, come on,” Howard whines, dropping his hand as Kakyoin rolls past him, shoving his dufflebag onto his bed. He squints at the thin mattress, his back already tingling at the sight of it. Great… “I know it’s your last name but-”

“It’s my first, actually,” Kakyoin interrupts, the need to correct the Englishman singing in his chest like a sparkler, “not every naming convention matches the English one.”

“Well, even better! We use first names in English, so the professors will probably call you that anyway – might as well get used to it now then, right?” Howard says, and Kakyoin jerks his head to look at him. Howard keeps his eyes trained on Kakyoin, the cold light reflecting off his dark eyes, and Kakyoin is again reminded that something he was looking for isn’t there, and he deflates.

“Fine. Whatever,” Kakyoin grumbles and Howard smiles. Kakyoin jerks his gaze away. “I’m calling you Howie then.”

“Wha- hey!” Howard whines and Kakyoin smirks as he unlatches the umbrella from his wheelchair and folds it up. “Oh whatever…jeez, lighten up, will you? It’s not even ten minutes into knowing each other…”

Kakyoin pauses, pursing his lips. He supposes making an enemy out of his roommate probably isn’t the best idea…

He clears his throat. “I don’t mind smoking, by the way. Feel free to keep doing it. It’s not like I care to tell the RA either.”

Howard blinks. “I…are you sure?”

Kakyoin scoffs. “I’m sure.”

Howard squints before gesturing to Kakyoin’s chair. “I mean…are you sure-”

“My legs don’t quite work but my lungs do,” Kakyoin snaps, and Howard just puts his hands up in surrender.

“Jesus, okay man, I was just making sure you would actually be fine with it,” Howard snaps, and Kakyoin hesitates.

He tilts his head, missing his long bang more then ever right now as his fingers itch to comb through something. I need to grow out my hair again…

“I’m…sorry,” Kakyoin says, measured, and Howard looks at him from where he’s started to climb back up his bunk. “It’s just- I’m sorry. For being rude.”

Howard’s gaze scans over him, and Kakyoin swallows back the venom collecting in the back of his throat.

Finally, Howard rubs the back of his head, before he disappears over the lip of the bunk. When he pops his head back out, he has a cigarette hanging from his lip.

“It’s…okay, man. I’m sure you had a longass flight.” Kakyoin bites back the part of him that desires to be right, because somehow he thinks clarifying that he flew to London two days ago wouldn’t help his case.

Kakyoin instead hums noncommittally, before zipping open his dufflebag and grabbing the first pile of clothes he sees, rolling toward the wardrobes with a kick of Hierophant’s tentacles. Howard doesn’t say anything and while Kakyoin wasn’t expecting him to, he can’t help the small frown that tightens on his face over it.

“Oh, the one closest to the door is free by the way,” Howard calls as the familiar click of a lighter fills the room, and Kakyoin squirms as something heavy settles in his stomach while he heads toward it and opens it, Hierophant using the door as a shield to bring Kakyoin’s jackets up to the hangers as he settles his pants in the drawers.

“By the way,” Howard starts, and Kakyoin grunts. “Your English is really good. Are you half-British?”

Kakyoin sighs.


September 14, 1992

London, England

“Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin jerks his head, turning to face the voice that called him. Rachel stands a few paces away, in a scarf and long cardigan that goes to her knees, a cup of coffee in one hand, a notebook in the other. Kakyoin blinks. “You pronounced it right,” is the first thing he says, and he cringes internally.

She chuckles as students stream into the lecture hall behind her, all migrating up the stairs toward the back. It’s a luxury Kakyoin doesn’t get, his wheelchair parked on the ground floor, right in front of the chalkboard. He purses his lips at the thought.

“I didn’t know you were an anthropology major,” she says instead, and Kakyoin blinks again.

“I could say the same,” he replies, and she huffs out a laugh, taking the seat next to him. Kakyoin shifts a little, not expecting her to stay.

“I wasted my first year trying to be a biochemistry major,” she explains, “so now I’m here with all the first years.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “What year are you?”

She flushes a small bit, the color easily noticeable in her pale cheeks. “Second.”

Kakyoin waves a hand, turning to his own notebook. “Oh, that’s not bad. Lots of people change their paths after messing around their first year.”

“Yeah, but-” She stops, shaking her head. Kakyoin purses his lips, but he doesn’t press her.

She segues, “I’m just lucky it wasn’t hard to switch majors, with them both being in science. So, what got you interested in anthropology?”

It doesn’t mean to be, but it’s a loaded question, and Kakyoin can’t help but snort. He’s saved from coming up with a response that isn’t either dismissive or lengthy when the door opens again and in walks a tiny little man with a bushy mustache and a binder in hind, clearing his throat loudly.

“Attention, attention!” He calls, voice booming, especially from such a little man, and it makes both Rachel and Kakyoin jump as he rushes to the podium up front, the chatter around the room dying down.

When he has the desired level of quiet, he claps his hands together, smiling at everyone in the back. “Welcome to Anthropology 101! I’m Professor Burks.”

He opens the binder and unclips it, pulling out a stack of papers. “This is your syllabus for the semester – take good care of it, because I only have so many extras if you lose it!”

He quickly thumbs through the pages, eyes finally glancing up near where Kakyoin and Rachel are. His gaze immediately trains on Kakyoin’s wheelchair and Kakyoin stiffens.

He says nothing though, just starts walking over. “Please take one and pass it down your aisle,” he explains and he hands out the papers.

Kakyoin grabs the stack from him. Professor Burks squints at the chair before continuing on, going up the stairs to hand some to students in the back. Kakyoin narrows his eyes before he takes one syllabus and passes it down as told.

When Professor Burks has handed out syllabi to every row, he returns to the front of the room and turns towards the chalkboard, picking up a stick of chalk, and Rachel flips open her notebook before shuffling in her pockets for a pen. Kakyoin flicks his own notebook open, Hierophant slipping a pen from his bag into his hand. He thumbs along the lone tentacle in thanks, and it flicks lightly at his finger in response before dissipating.

“Shit,” Rachel curses quietly, and Kakyoin swivels his gaze toward her. “Um- I’m sorry, do you have an extra pen?”

Kakyoin grunts quietly, Hierophant again slinking out to grab one from his bag. Kakyoin purses his lips over her not noticing Hierophant. I wish Polnareff was here…or Avdol…or Joseph…or-

“It’s okay if you don’t-” Rachel starts when Kakyoin doesn’t move, only to jump when the pen is suddenly in her hands. “Oh!”

The teacher glances at them mid-spiel due to their shuffling and Kakyoin keeps his face passive, relaxed in interested focus, while Rachel ducks her head, grip tightening on the pen. Kakyoin feels a dart of cold regret seep through his chest over surprising her.

“Thanks,” Rachel says after the teacher moves his gaze back to the board.

Kakyoin clears his throat. “‘S nothing.”

They don’t speak for the rest of the time, instead focusing on Professor Burks introducing the syllabus and the general requirements for the course. His voice is relatively high, but it sort of reminds Kakyoin of Polnareff, which makes him snort when he makes the connection. Rachel glances at him when he does, but Kakyoin pretends he didn’t see it.

“Now, since it’s our first day, I decided it’ll be our first and last easy day,” the professor explains after going through the syllabus. “That is to say, we’re done for the day. However,” he calls, raising his head sharply. His gaze sweeps over everyone in the room, but his green eyes linger on Kakyoin, and it makes Kakyoin grit his teeth: What do you want, old man- “we are jumping into the material pronto on Wednesday. Be sure to do the first homework and readings before then in order to keep up. It’s not good form to lose traction so early in the game.”

He smiles again, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes. No shit. “With that being said, enjoy this semester! I’ll see you next class.”

Kakyoin turns his head to see Rachel opening her mouth to say something amongst the din of students shuffling out of their seats and the steady roar of talk increasing in volume, when the professor’s voice cuts like a knife through butter through the cacophony: “Ah, Mr. Kak-yo-inn?”

Kakyoin twitches and turns to the man. He gestures towards his podium and Kakyoin frowns.

“Ah, see you later,” Rachel calls, and Kakyoin hums noncommittally as she gathers her things. She takes his pen, he distantly notes, but he says nothing, instead slowly rolling over to the podium, the professor eyeing him all the while.

When he reaches the podium, the professor nods at him. “How are you finding England, son?” He asks.

Something in Kakyoin rejects the term as fiercely as he rejected the first liver they gave him, his body near convulsing with disagreement. “Just Kakyoin is fine, sir,” he blurts out, and the professor blinks. Kakyoin clears his throat. “England is nice.” It’s a lukewarm lie, slipping past his teeth like mineral water.

Professor Burks smiles at the comment. “The rain treating you nice? I’m not sure how wet it is where you’re from, but I’m sure it’s still more than you’re used to.”

Kakyoin snorts, deigning not to respond verbally.

“Anyway,” the professor says after waiting a beat for Kakyoin to continue the conversation and being disappointed, “I just wanted to check up: are you doing alright?”

Kakyoin blinks, his irritation stomping out in confusion. “Huh?”

Professor Burks’ brows pinch, smiling at him. “I’m sure flying all the way to a new country and starting school has been very tiring. This course is only going to get harder from here, so I just wanted to make sure you were alright.”

Kakyoin blinks. “We just went over the syllabus?”

The professor blinks. “Yes?”

Both stare at each other for a second, before the professor waves a hand, shaking his head. “I just- I just want you to know what you’re getting into, Kak- Kakyoin. This class’s vocabulary alone might be more than you can handle-” Kakyoin’s eye twitches, heat billowing in his belly “-not to mention the workload may overwhelm you,” and his eyes slide to his wheelchair again.

Kakyoin digs his fingers into his armrests so tightly they shake. He bares his teeth at Professor Burks, trying with all his might to curl it up into a smile, but he doesn’t know if he’s successful or not.

“I appreciate the concern,” Kakyoin says levelly, his tone even, so even that it’s flat, “but I assure you, I can handle myself. I wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t proven I could handle it.” He ends his sentence with a sharp tut as he runs out of breath, and he snaps his gaze to the floor, grinding his teeth together as flames billow against his lungs.

He can hear the professor purse his lips, the wet, smacking sound making Kakyon’s shoulders shudder, glaring a hole in the smooth floor. “If you’re sure…I just don’t want you to overwhelm yourself, young man. It’s okay to spit back out if you’ve bitten more than you can chew.”

Kakyon jerks his hands to his wheels and maneuvers toward the door, looking back at the professor with a vicious glare, his brows aching with the force of it, even while his mouth tries to smile again, his canines chilling with the exposure to the air. “Of course. I’ll keep it in mind. Thank you so much. I’ll see you Wednesday!”

He kicks open the door with Hierophant and slams it shut again, only vaguely hearing the professor yelp at the sound from behind the wall.


October 31st, 1992

London, England

“You look annoyed.”

“Do I?” Kakyoin snaps amid his notes, slamming his book shut to turn and glare at his roommate.

Howard, unbothered, huffs out a breath of smoke, shrugging, his shaggy black hair falling into his eyes. Kakyoin hates it, his gut churning hot and angry, the mantle of the earth and its flowing currents inside his belly, twisting his stomach inside out. He bares his teeth, rearing back to spit another remark, when Howard says,

“I’m just saying. I don’t think I’ve seen you not study, like, once. Like…any day.” he pauses, frowning at his word choice, and Kakyoin scoffs. “Every day you study,” he rephrases, and Kakyoin huffs, turning back to his side of the long desk.

“Yeah, well, I come from a culture that values education, so-”

“Oh my god, dude,” Howard groans, and Kakyoin whips his head back around, seething, “you need to calm down. Get that damn stick out of your ass.”

“Excuse m-”

“Look,” Howard says, sitting up, holding up a hand as he does, and Kakyoin flips his wheelchair around, snarling, gripping his wheels, “it’s Halloween, right-?”

“I don’t even know what the fuck that is,” Kakyoin spits, and Howard blinks, jaw dropping. “I-”

“You don- you’ve never celebrated Halloween?” Howard sputters, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes viciously.

“No. It’s not even an official holiday, so I don’t know why everyone is so crazy about i-”

“Alright, that’s it,” Howard says, hopping off his bunk and landing with a thump against the floor. Kakyoin twitches. “We’re go-”

“Would you stop interrupting me?!” Kakyoin shrieks and Howard blinks rapidly, lips parted in surprise. Kakyoin breathes raggedly, his throat aching, before he turns back to his desk. After a beat, he can hear Howard move again, his footsteps padding close to him as he slips past Kakyoin to put his cigarette out.

Kakyoin yelps when suddenly his wheelchair is moved, turning him to the doorway. His hands jerk toward his armrests, Hierophant shooting out and digging into the carpet to stop his motion.

“Whoa-!”

Howard flips over him due to the momentum, Kakyoin ducking to avoid his mass, and he lands in a heap at Kakyoin’s feet.

Kakyoin stares at him, nostrils flaring, while Howard stumbles to a sitting position, blinking rapidly.

“Ow,” He says, “Sorry, I didn’t realize wheelchairs were that heav-”

Kakyoin smacks him and Howard flinches, retreating away from Kakyoin’s reach. “What the fuck is wrong with you?!”

“Hey, hey, hey, hey!” Howard yelps putting his hands up in surrender. Kakyoin glares at him, his brows heavy with the force of it, his head tipped forward with the weight of it. “Jesus, I’m sorry man, I didn’t think it would be an iss-”

“Exactly, you don’t think, no one ever fucking thinks about me unless it’s to pity me-” Kakyoin shuts his own mouth tightly, his teeth clicking together, his jaw aching, the roots of his gums reverberating with the force, grimacing as they do.

Howard stares at him from his spot on the floor, eyes wide, his upper lids hidden. Kakyoin takes a deep breath and turns back around, wheeling toward his desk.

“Hey,” Howard pipes up, voice the quietest Kakyoin’s ever heard it, which makes it easier for Kakyoin to ignore it. He returns to his textbook, shoving it into his backpack before pulling out the workbook. He’s had enough of that chapter for now.

“Kak,” Howard repeats, voice louder and firmer, and Kakyoin whips his head back around, ignoring the tingling in his spine the action causes, his teeth bared.

“What did you just call me?”

Howard shakes his head, pointing at Kakyoin as he rises to his feet. “No, stop! You say people only look at you to pity you, I say you do the same thing! Look at this man, it’s pathetic! You never do anything but run yourself into the ground!”

Kakyoin blinks, rearing his head back, but before he can refute, Howard continues.

“Look, it’s Halloween! Parties are happening! You’ve never had a Halloween before! You’re going to experience one tonight or so god help me Kak, I’m going to-”

“What the hell is ‘Kak’?” Kakyoin snaps, and Howard lets out a throaty noise, frustrated, almost like a growl or a grunt.

“It’s you! It’s a nickname! Cause we’re roommates! And we’re going to a party and you’re going to get high so you can calm the fuck down and-”

“I’m going to what?”

SHUT UP!” Howard yells, before jerking his arms to his side. Kakyoin blinks, staring at him. “Do you ever think about anyone besides yourself? It’s stressful as fuck living with you because you’re so fucking high-strung all the time! So can you just calm down for once?!”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, seemingly unable to get breath into his throat to speak.

Howard takes a breath himself, something Kakyoin narrows his eyes in jealousy over, before he looks at Kakyoin again, his shoulders dropping. “I’m sorry. But it just- it’s so frustrating, you know?”

Kakyoin wants to bite back that No, he doesn’t see how being responsible is stressful to watch – but another part of him knows he’d be lying, and he just doesn’t have to mental real estate to do so. “Sure,” he says instead, voice quiet.

Howard takes another breath, rolling his shoulders back. “So…can you show me you can loosen up? Because our RA doesn’t like me so I don’t think I can ask for a new roommate if not-”

“Fine,” Kakyoin groans, rolling his eyes and he wheels forward, bumping into Howard’s foot. Howard yips, jerking his foot away, and Kakyoin needs to bite back a snort. “Sorry.”

“Great! Because I need a plus-one or else she wouldn’t let me in.”

Kakyoin blinks before he scoffs. “So I’m just, what, your ticket?”

Howard waves a hand. “Hey, I was serious about the other stuff too. Besides, aren’t you studying like, culture and stuff? This will be a great look into culture.”

Kakyoin huffs. “Not English culture, no.”

Howard chuckles, shaking his head as he goes to grab a jacket. “Then why’d you even come here?”

It’s a lighthearted retort, but it makes Kakyoin pause. “I…”

He’s saved from answering by Howard chucking a jacket at him, and Kakyoin rips it off his head, glowering. Howard just smiles. “Come on dude, you need some weed badly.”

Kakyoin raises a brow as he shifts and pulls the soft jacket on one sleeve at a time. “Weed?”

Howard chokes. “Don’t tell me you’ve never heard of weed-?”

“I know what weed is,” Kakyoin snaps defensively. “I just…didn’t realize it was easy enough for college students to get.”

Howard snorts as he goes to open the door of their dorm, pinning it open for Kakyoin to follow through. Kakyoin purses his lips but does. “I’d be concerned if it wasn’t! Do people not smoke much weed in Asia?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “I guess some people do it, it’s just- more synonymous with, like, hard drugs, I guess, in Japan.”

Howard gawks, and Kakyoin flicks him with Hierophant, making him jump, whipping his head back and forth. “What?! But weed can’t kill you? Why-”

“Like I know,” Kakyoin sighs, bordering on a groan, “I just know that’s how it is. Forgive me for being culture shocked at its popularity here.”

Howard huffs. “My man, you are gonna be in for a fun time.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. Howard couldn’t have seen it, as he was leading the way out of the dormitory into the chilly streets illuminated by various lights of the city (Kakyoin notes that ironically, the yellow beams give the city more color than it has during the daytime), but he elaborates as if he could’ve.

“Weed, like, relaxes the hell out of you. It’s like a massage but without, the, like…yeah.”

Kakyoin snorts. “Have you considering be a salesman?”

Howard glances back at him. “Huh? Why?”

Kakyoin clicks his tongue, rolling his eyes. “You’re just so descriptive.”

Howard blinks before rolling his eyes. “God, you kinda suck, dude.”

Kakyoin snorts. “Whatever. Not trying weed.”

Howard raises his hands in surrender and Kakyoin exhales, his chest only rising halfheartedly in amusement, the rest falling down, thinking back to his books…

It’s not that he’s struggling in class; he’s just determined to make the professor eat his words by being number one – that is more of a struggle than passing ever could be. Kakyoin sighs and rolls along.

They twist down the streets before they make it to a pub with its door wide open, a fog machine sitting outside to give off a faux sense of ominosity. Kakyoin rolls his eyes but Howard nods his head approvingly, pushing inside.

“Come on, Kak!” He calls behind him, and Kakyoin scowls, rolling after him.

“That’s not my name! You asshole!”

Howard just pats his shoulder once Kakyoin catches up, and Kakyoin wrenches away from him, snarling. “My name is Kakyoin. Got it? Kaky-”

“Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin jerks his head only to see a flash of brown amongst black.

“Rachel?”

Rachel smiles, snaking her way past a few groups of people, a drink in hand. Kakyoin can’t tell what it is, just that it’s blue. His heart pangs.

“I didn’t know you were the type for this,” she comments before her gaze slides over to Howard and she frowns.

“He’s not,” Howard comments, patting Kakyoin’s shoulder again, and Kakyoin snaps his teeth at his wrist, making him yelp and flinch away, finally.

“You don’t know shit about me,” Kakyoin snaps, “I can drink. I have drunk.”

Rachel giggles and Kakyoin blinks at the sound. It’s deeper than he would have expected based on the pitch of her speaking voice.

“I believe it, don’t get me wrong,” Rachel says, and Kakyoin huffs. “I guess I was just surprised to see you at a party. Japan doesn’t really celebrate Halloween, does it?”

“Is this common knowledge or something?” Howard complains, and Kakyoin rolls his eyes, sharing a look with Rachel.

“Not every place is like Britain,” Rachel says, and Howard huffs.

“I know that, I’m not stupid. I made it into this school the same as you, you know,” he snaps. The air between the two becomes charged, and Kakyoin blinks, jolted by the stray sparks.

After a brief, tense pause, Rachel turns toward Kakyoin. “So you’re here because you want to be, right?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Yes…?”

Rachel sighs, turning narrowed eyes toward Howard. “Then…fine, I guess you can stay. But do anything, and I swear to God-”

“Yeah yeah, you’ll cut off my balls or something,” Howard says nonchalantly, and Rachel’s face flushes red, glowering at him.

“You are so insufferable-!”

“Anyway! Drinks! Let’s go Kak- Kakyoin,” Howard says, grabbing the back of Kakyoin’s wheelchair again, and Kakyoin snarls, Hierophant jerking out to stop his momentum just like last time. Howard runs into the handlebars, his stomach jamming into them, and he lets out an oof. Kakyoin wrenches his wheelchair away.

“Stop fucking doing that-”

“Hey,” Rachel frowns, stepping between them, and Kakyoin jerks, sniffing, while Howard blinks. “Don’t touch people’s wheelchairs without their permission. It’s weird.”

Howard blinks. “It is?”

“I’m right here if you’d like to ask,” Kakyoin spits and Howard has the decency to look chewed out, gaze dropping and shoulders hunching inward. Kakyoin rolls his eyes and turns toward the bar.

“Hey- wait! Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin grits his teeth and continues wheeling, ignoring Howard’s call.

He can hear the padding of feet catching up to him over the din of the bar, and Kakyoin lets his teeth peak from his lip as he turns with a snarl, “Fuck off-”

Rachel puts up her hands in a placating gesture and Kakyoin immediately shuts his mouth, freezing in his movement forward.

Rachel smiles sheepishly, and it’s only then Kakyoin realizes she’s in some sort of masquerade-type costume, a long black dress that sticks to her shoulders and chest before fanning out into something looser at the skirt, her mask in her hand. “I told him he’s buying all your drinks tonight if he wants to stay. He has to make up for his rudeness.”

Kakyoin lets out a furious exhale, turning his gaze to the side. In the light, Rachel’s eyes almost look purple like his own.

“I could’ve handled it,” he says, voice slightly uneven. Rachel nods her head, her hands still up.

“Of course,” Rachel says, “but I was going to ask Howard to buy things anyway. He’s still making up for some things he’s broken.”

Kakyoin blinks. “He what?”

Rachel sighs, her hands finally dropping. “We… Howard and I have known each other for a long time. When we were kids he would break a lot of shit…” Rachel grimaces then, hands clenching into fists. “He still owes for that.”

Kakyoin’s gaze lingers on her before he drags it away, the purple of the pub making her look almost otherworldly. “Sounds like a grudge,” he says, voice light.

Rachel snorts, shrugging. “It is. But I think it’s well deserved.”

Kakyoin purses his lips but says nothing more on the topic. “So…what’s that?” He gestures to the mask.

“Oh!” Rachel glances down at it, before looking back at Kakyoin. “It’s just a costume. I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to be, just something dramatic. It’s Halloween, so…”

She hesitates, and Kakyoin clicks his tongue before answering the question she didn’t verbally ask. “Cool. I’ve never celebrated Halloween before.”

Rachel nods. “I’d heard about that… don’t you guys have something more significant? Like Mexico’s Day of the Dead?”

It’s then Kakyoin remembers she is an anthropology student too, and he smiles at her. “Oh, yeah. It’s called Obon, but it’s in the summer, not autumn.”

Rachel nods, her own smile reaching across her face. “That’s cool! You guys wear special things then, right?”

Kakyoin snorts at the unspecific language. “I wouldn’t call it similar to a costume, but we wear yukatas, yeah.”

Rachel flushes but she’s still smiling as she nods. “That’s so cool. I always thought the traditions that stayed closer to their origins about honoring the dead were cool. Halloween’s gotten pretty far removed from that…”

Kakyoin blinks before tilting his head. “Oh? Enlighten me.”

Rachel smiles and opens her mouth, but Howard’s voice cuts in.

“Hey, Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin scowls and Rachel’s face noticeably falls, but her expression clears when Howard thrusts a drink into her hand, before turning to Kakyoin. “Oh, you didn’t have to get me on-”

“Oh, whatever,” Howard waves a hand. “It’s Halloween! Trick or treat or whatever, right? Here, Kak, I got you a cocktail thing. I think that’s up your alley.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh, that’s…fancy.”

Howard huffs, bringing his own drink to his lips. “It’s Halloween. We’re not drinking beer tonight, it’s gotta be fun!”

Rachel purses her lips before nodding. “Yeah, I guess you have a point…”

Kakyoin glances at the drink. It’s green and reflects the light of the pub so that it seems almost luminescent in the glass. It reminds Kakyoin of Hierophant. He takes a sip and is pleasantly surprised to find the taste of alcohol lacking. Instead, it’s nectary like fruit, a bit sour like a green apple, and Kakyoin goes for another sip.

Howard swallows his mouthful before wiping his lips with his hand and turning to Rachel. “So! What are you supposed to be?”

Rachel’s eyes narrow but she smiles politely, and Kakyoin is captivated by the contradiction of the look. “What are you?”

Howard blinks before taking a look down at his plain t-shirt and jeans. Kakyoin snorts into his drink. “Oh. I didn’t think about it before coming.”

Rachel sighs, but she doesn’t drop her smile. “Well, it is a Halloween party…”

Howard looks stricken suddenly, eyes going wide. “Wait! Don’t kick me out! I-I’ll find something, I- Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin jumps, gulping down his drink weirdly and coughing, his stomach lighting up in fire.

Howard jerks his hands out to grab Kakyoin’s wheelchair again, but Hierophant appears to smack them away. He flinches, dropping them, but continues, “It’s your first Halloween, right? Let’s go costume shopping! It’ll be fun!”

Rachel rolls her eyes then, but her smile widens so it crinkles the corners of her eyes. “I wasn’t going to kick you out, you dolt. But getting a costume would be good for a first experience…”

She eyes Kakyoin then, and for some reason, he feels vulnerable because of it, the way her eyes trace over his form disconcerting. He shifts in his chair, bringing his drink up again and taking another sip.

“I might have some things we can use in the back,” Rachel suggests, and Kakyoin blinks while Howard lets out a curious noise high in his throat.

“Like what?”

Rachel smiles. “Like some zombie makeup.”

Kakyoin blinks. Cannibalistic monsters?

Rachel darts her gaze at him. Kakyoin smirks, finishing the last of his drink, soothing his throat from the coughing fit.

“Count me in.”


Kakyoin’s another drink in by the time he’s been zombied up, which consisted mostly of Rachel smearing red lipstick over his cheeks and mouth to give the appearance of blood, as well as some white foundation to give him a dead pallor. He’s decided he likes the sugar of the drink, even though his stomach has begun twisting over it. He ignores it and takes another sip of his third.

“You should slow down,” Howard complains from his spot in the chair where Rachel leans over him, smearing more of her lipstick on him for his own bloody look.

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, gesturing clumsily. “Not my fault you gotta pay for it. I’m just making the most of it.”

“You’re such an asshole man,” Howard complains, but there’s no bite behind his voice, and Kakyoin snorts.

“Was that a laugh? Do you like being an asshole? Is that it?” Howard questions aloud, and Kakyoin giggles again.

“Quiet,” Rachel chides, smacking Howard’s shoulder, “if you keep moving it’s going to look like you got into a fight with this lipstick rather than fake blood.”

“What’s the difference?” Howard questions genuinely while Kakyoin sends Hierophant out to grab a hold of Howard’s drink, left forgotten on the breakroom table.

Rachel scoffs. “Do you want to find out?”

Howard shuts his mouth and Kakyoin takes a sip of his drink. It’s noticeably stronger, which makes him narrow his eyes as the alcohol slips down his throat, warm and unpleasant, leaving him tingling.

“Why’d you give me a weaker drink?” Kakyoin complains before he takes another sip. Rachel and Howard both whip their heads to him before Howard jerks his head to the table, sees his drink gone, and gawks at Kakyoin.

“When the fuck did you grab it? Ah- hey, stop drinking it!”

Kakyoin flips him off and Rachel shoves him back into the chair from where he lunges, shaking her head. “Come on man, just a few more minutes, okay?”

“He stole my drink!” Howard cries, looking like a kicked puppy, and Rachel sniffs, unsympathetic.

“It’s what you get for touching my wheelchair like it’s a damn toy,” Kakyoin scoffs, and Rachel snorts while Howard purses his lips, sitting back in the chair, deflating.

“I’m sorry about that,” he says, and Kakyoin blinks. “I didn’t realize…sorry. I’ll stop.”

Rachel and Kakyoin both exchange glances before Kakyoin shrugs. He sets down Howard’s drink, focusing back on his own again. The suddenness of the sugar assaults him again, and he frowns as a glaze of sweet film runs itself over his teeth.

“Can you-” he hiccups then, before he coughs, pushing past it, “-can I get the same kinda drinks you’ve been getting? This sweet shit is gonna give me a stomachache.”

Howard blinks before smiling. “Oh, you want something harder, huh? Wouldn’t have expected you to be able to handle the raw taste.”

“Please,” Kakyoin scoffs into the rim of his glass, holding his nose and downing the rest of it in one go. “You don’t know me.”

Howard scrunches up his face then and Rachel needs to tap him to stop so she can finish the makeup. “I don’t think anyone knows you dude, you’re so- you don’t talk to anyone.”

Kakyoin opens his mouth to respond, but the retort dies in his throat when he realizes, no, Howard is right. He does have friends now, but… Polnareff, Avdol, and Joseph aren’t here. Jotaro isn’t here.

Really, how different is he from when he entered high school?

Kakyoin stares down at his drink. He can see his reflection in the glass. He really does look dead, bags under his eyes, his cheeks so gaunt and thin.

Kakyoin grabs Howard’s drink and down the rest of it in one gulp.

The burn of it doesn’t really make him feel better, but it’s a sensation that is easier to focus on, so Kakyoin does.

“Alright, done,” Rachel moves back away and Kakyoin drags his gaze away from the glass and up to Howard.

Rachel hands Howard a handheld mirror and Howard examines himself in it, smiling as he angles his face this way and that.

“Wow, Rachel, you’re really good at this,” Howard says. Rachels snorts, but she smiles, clearly pleased. “Have you considered being a makeup artist?”

The smile slides off Rachel’s face and she kicks at his shin, making him help. “I’ve wanted to be an anthropologist since we were fucking 12!” She yells.

“I know! I know! What does that have to- stop kicking me!” Howard cries, jerking his legs up so he’s in a ball on the chair, and Kakyoin snorts before laughing out loud, right from his belly.

Howard and Rachel both whip their heads to face him, expressions slack in shock, but Kakyoin can’t get in control of himself, leaning onto his side with giggles, holding a hand up to his mouth even as he keeps laughing, warm breath running against his knuckles.

“S-s-s-orry,” He snickers, before gasping, then wincing as his diaphragm knocks into the mess that makes up the guts of his upper abdomen. “You’re just- kkh-” Kakyoin dissolves into giggles again, and Rachel and Howard exchange glances.

“Dude,” Howard says, “how many drinks have you had?”

Kakyoin shrugs. “Fffff…four?”

Rachel gawks while Howard throws his head back, laughing himself. “Dude, you’re drunk!”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “No, no I’m not.”

“You totally are! Holy shit! Dude, you need some greasy food stat or you’re gonna have a fuck of a hangover tomorrow.”

“Are you even allowed to have this many drinks?” Rachel asks as she snatches the glass from Kakyoin’s hands. Kakyoin grabs after it, but his butter fingers prevent him from getting it.

“I can drink,” Kakyoin spits defensively, feeling his face flush with righteousness. “I’m disabled not- fucking- boring.”

“No one said you were boring,” Rachel snaps, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth. “I’m serious, though, are you fine? Do we need to call the hospital?”

Kakyoin’s stomach is churning against the burn of the alcohol, rejecting it thoroughly, and a part of him almost wants to say yes. Instead, he swallows back his bile, taking deep breaths. His stomach settles tentatively.

“No, it’s alright,” Kakyoin says. “Just…let’s get some food.”

Rachel purses her lips before nodding. “Yeah. Okay.”

Howard claps then, making Kakyoin jump. “Alright! Let’s get some chips then.”

Kakyoin’s gut hums and haws over the idea, his nausea not liking the idea of eating but hating the idea of being on an empty stomach more.

“Fine,” Kakyoin says, “but you pay.”

Rachel smirks and Howard rolls his eyes.


“Wish these had more flavor…” Kakyoin grumbles around a small mouthful of chips. Howard laughs while Rachel pushes his shoulder. They’re back in the main portion of the pub, Howard and Kakyoin having snagged a booth while Rachel ducked into the kitchen to gather some chips, bringing back a plate for the three of them to share.

“Sorry,” Rachel crows, “but chips aren’t exactly supposed to have a lot of flavor. If you wanna pay for something else, though…”

Kakyoin barks a laugh and she smiles, the corners of her eyes crinkled. “Cruel business model, but not bad.”

Rachel shrugs. “Everyone else likes the chips the way they are. Maybe you’re just the problem.”

Something pangs in Kakyoni’s chest but he ignores it. He mimes grabbing a chip, summoning a tentacle of Hierophant’s to actually do so, bringing it to his mouth. He doesn’t really want to get his fingers greasy, and with the darkened light of the pub, he can get away with it so long as his hand is somewhat in the same vicinity…

“Seriously though dude,” Howard pipes up, his mouth full. “What do you like to eat? I don’t see you eat much in hindsight…”

Rachel frowns at this but Kakyoin shrugs, leaning back in his wheelchair. “I don’t know…I used to like really, um, experimental food, but…”

He trails off, looking down at himself, the absence of his stomach feeling like a chasm in his chest.

"...I lost my stomach." He finishes bluntly.

Rachel and Howard stare at him for a beat, and then,

“That fucking sucks,” Howard says tactfully, and Kakyoin snorts, startled out of his reverie.

Rachel catches his eye then, and Kakyoin pauses, keeping their gazes locked. “We should figure out what food you can eat that you do like now, in that case. We can like, meet up or something…on the weekends…” Rachel’s face flushes as she continues, and Kakyoin blinks in surprise, a small part of his chest warming up.

“Great idea!” Howard butts in, making Rachel and Kakyoin jump, gazes jerking toward him. “We can use your mom's pub as home base, right, Rachel?”

“I wasn’t- I- ugh,” Rachel’s face stays flushed brows furrowing in irritation, and Kakyoin can’t help that his gaze strays on her. “Whatever. Sure. Fine. We can use the pub as home base.”

Howard cheers and Rachel rolls her eyes. She catches Kakyoin’s gaze again, and Kakyoin shrugs, offering her silent solidarity. She smiles and Kakyoin counts it as a win.

“Man, Kakyon, I’m so glad you came. This is gonna rock!” Howard comments, making Kakyoin jerk his gaze to him. He’s smiling widely, a chip in hand, and Kakyoin blinks. He isn’t quite sure what it is he’s feeling, but it’s slow and moves through his chest like a thick soup.

“Yeah,” he says, dropping his gaze and snagging another chip. “I’m glad I came, too.”


When Howard and Kakyoin stumble home later, Howard mutters about getting some Advil for the next day, and it makes Kakyoin pause. He takes his painkillers, shaking out four pills, and takes them  – only two more than he should, he tells himself, so it should be fine…it’s only two…

He wakes up the next day with perpetual cotton mouth and a fuzzy head and a complete inability to think, but the pain of a hangover can’t make it past the haze he’s in, especially when he takes his proper morning dose to only boost the effects. He smiles.

Good to know…


November 21st, 1992

London, England

“Kak! It’s for you!”

Kakyoin pops his head up from his books where he lies on his bunk, scowling over his shoulder at Howard, who has his headphones half slipped off from his CD player to hold the phone to his ear.

“I told you to stop calling me that,” Kakyoin snaps while Hierophant’s tentacle loops down, snagging the phone from Howard. Howard blinks, glancing at his hand, before back up at Kakyoin, who now has it.

“I- uh- huh?”

Kakyoin smirks and turns away, bringing to phone to his ear while Howard unsubtly puts out his latest cigarette and rubs his eyes. “Hello?”

“‘Kak’?” Avdol’s amused voice crackles from the speakers, and Kakyoin lights up, shoving his books aside.

“Avdol!”

“Hello Kakyoin,” Avdol laughs, and Kakyoin smiles wide, feeling his eyes crinkle at the edges. “How are you doing?”

“Fine!” Kakyoin says easily, ignoring the spark of pain in his spine sitting up so suddenly gave him, “Just busy. Studying. How are you?”

“So eager…” Kakyoin can hear Howard mutter. “How come you’re never that excited to talk to me, huh?”

Kakyoin sends Hierophant to smack him while Avdol laughs into the phone again. “I’m alright! Also busy. Joseph- Mr. Joestar, ah, wants me to…”

Avdol pauses, taking a breath, and Kakyoin tilts his head curiously.

“The Speedwagon Foundation wants to set up a stand division.”

Kakyoin’s eyes go wide, his grip slacking on the phone. “Wait, really?”

“Yes!” Avdol confirms, voice high in excitement, and it’s so different from how he usually sounds that Kakyoin can’t help but jump on board with him, his stomach swooping, a yellow fizz of happiness running through his veins. “And- and Mr. Joestar, he- well, he vouched for me to be the director of it…!”

Kakyoin’s jaw drops, his chest almost bursting with excitement, his stomach for once pain-free as glee runs through him, both warm and cool at the same time. “ARE YOU SERIOUS?”

Avdol laughs then, his voice like milk chocolate, and Kakyoin can’t help but laugh a little too, his chest so ballooned up in excitement he thinks he could explode. “Yes! I’m serious!”

“Avdol- Avdol, that’s- that’s incredible!!” Kakyoin cheers into the phone, all but bouncing in his seat, his hands squeezing rhythmically, fingers tapping restlessly against the plastic of the receiver.

“I had no idea you could be that happy,” Howard comments, and Kakyoin smacks him with Hierophant again, not looking back. Howard yelps this time.

“I’m so happy for you!” Kakyoin continues, his own voice pitched in excitement, and Avdol lets out a pleased, flustered noise. “You’re going to accept, right?”

Avdol takes a deep breath. “Yes. I am. I have. I’ve been dealing with the bureaucracy of it all, which is,” Avdol pauses, and Kakyoin’s smile twitches, dry amusement bleeding into the joy in his chest, “... its own trial,” Avdol puts lightly. Kakyoin snorts.

“Well I hope it wraps up soon,” Kakyoin says wryly. Avdol lets out a sigh bordering on a groan, and Kakyoin smiles widely.

“I hope so too, but creating a whole new branch and justifying any adequate amount of funding for it to the executives, even with Joseph’s backing, has been…exhausting,” Avdol says. Kakyoin hums.

“I believe it.”

“But,” Avdol says, voice heightening again, and Kakyoin perks up, “it’s coming along. Joseph thinks by the end of the year we’ll be all set up and I can start actual research by January.”

Kakyoin inhales. “That soon?!”

“Yes!” Avdol confirms enthusiastically, and Kakyoin laughs from his belly again.

“That’s awesome! You have to let me know how it goes,” Kakyoin says eagerly.

“Of course,” Avdol says, the smile audible in his voice, tone still pitched in a way Kakyoin has never heard before. It’s nice. “Maybe one day we’ll even work together.”

Kakyoin laughs, his stomach lurching in longing, his belly full of flames. “That’d be great! Maybe if I can’t find a job right after graduation or something – not sure how much anthropology would be involved, though.”

“It could give us clues about the origins of stands,” Avdol insists, “and if they’ve always been as secretive as they are now.” Kakyoin pauses then, considering.

“Hmm…”

Avdol laughs, shocking Kakyoin out of his thoughts. “It’s just a suggestion, though. You have time to think it over; the SPW definitely won’t let me hire someone outside the company so soon…” he grumbles.

Kakyoin snorts, nodding. “Well, good luck,” he says, and Avdol sighs, but that smile is still evident.

“So, have you made any friends?” Avdol asks. Kakyoin pauses, the rustling of Howard existing and doing whatever it is he’s doing scratching against his ears. He thinks of the brown of Rachel, of her earnest and flustered offer to go food exploring with him. He thinks of the fact neither of them saw Hierophant. Something in his heart lurches, and he wishes Avdol was here, not on the phone.

“Not sure,” Kakyoin says. “Friendly acquaintances at least.” He can hear Howard snort.

Avdol chuckles, not sensing the dilemma. “Well, that’s a start!”

Kakyoin hums noncommittally. “When do you think you’ll be able to visit?” He asks, fighting to keep the ache in his chest away from his voice.

Avdol clicks his tongue, letting out a sigh. “Well, with all this SPW business, I won’t be able to get away for a while. I’m sorry, our phone calls will have to do…”

Kakyoin nods, fighting back a desperate keen. “That’s fine. I kinda figured. Just um. When do you think you’ll have time, is all?”

Avdol hums. “Well…I really have no idea on my end. It depends on when I can get results and how good they are. Mr. Joestar has been helping me with all of this so he’s probably in the same boat… Polnareff might be a bit freer, though. Jotaro said his schedule is tighter than e-”

Kakyoin chokes, his heart bucking into his throat. “Jotaro’s called you?”

It’s silent for several heartbeats. Kakyoin feels ice in his veins, his guts tight and dense in his belly. He can’t help but remember Holly’s words again. I think it must’ve alarmed him, how weak I was…

Finally, Avdol says cautiously, “He hasn’t called you?”

“No,” Kakyoin spits, voice wavering and indignant and upset like a child’s, but he can’t be embarrassed about it because he’s starting to get angry, fire stroking along his guts. It doesn’t make the dense rock any looser. “Has he- you- has he called you?”

“A couple of times…” Avdol says hesitantly, and Kakyoin feels like he’s been dunked into an ice bath, his arms numb, his chest bucking and trying to warm him up, his core so, so cold. He could almost believe he was on fire, the chill was so intense. “I thought…hm…”

“Well, you thought wrong,” Kakyoin spits, and he immediately regrets the words. Avdol is quiet on the other end and Kakyoin takes a deep breath, clenching his teeth. Howard has stopped whatever it is he was doing, going very quiet. Kakyoin’s teeth grit tighter. “I’m sorry,” he says stiffly.

“I’m sorry too,” Avdol murmurs, voice deep in concern and confusion. Kakyoin rubs against his nose in irritation. “I- here, let me give you his number. You’ve moved around a lot recently, so maybe he just doesn’t know your current number…?”

It’s a weak theory, but Kakyoin will take it, anything so he doesn’t just have to sit there. Yes,” he lets out in a strangled tone, Hierophant grabbing his notepad from his backpack and a pen for him to write it down.

Once Avdol relays the number, the call doesn’t last for much longer. After a few awkward attempts to reignite the conversation, they say their goodbyes, and Kakyoin sets the phone down, staring at his comforter. Kakyoin’s skin is too pricky, like he’s aware of every single hair on his body, like he’s too hot but too cold, and his spine won’t stop aching – not even hurting, just aching –

Before he even realizes it, Kakyoin is jerking his hand out to his backpack and pulling it up onto his bunk with him, rummaging in the small pocket near the front and pulling out his pills. He blinks at his own actions, at how unconscious they were, but his spine won’t stop fucking aching and he has a frog in his throat and the backs of his eyes are burning-

Kakyoin untwists the cap and shuffles pills out into his palm. He only glances down briefly to make sure there are only two – a normal dose – before he shoves them into his mouth and swallows.

“What happened there?” 

Kakyoin jumps, his spine shrieking and thrashing over the action, and Kakyoin just grits his teeth and spits out, “Nothing. It’s nothing.”

Howard mutters something but doesn’t comment more, just tugs the phone cord to bring it back to its holder.

Hierophant gently nudges Kakyoin’s knee and when Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him, he offers Kakyoin’s water bottle. Kakyoin purses his lips, and Hierophant taps his knee again, more insistent.

“Fine,” Kakyoin mutters, and he grabs it and sips, washing the pills in his throat down properly. Hierophant crosses his arms, nodding smugly, and Kakyoin dismisses him with a roll of his eyes.

He immediately feels bad about it though, and it makes him angrier, and he’s so sick of this, he wishes he still had his IV-

Kakyoin’s twisting open his pills again before he knows it, shoving another dose into his mouth and trying not to explode.

His back is buzzing faintly, signals trying to send but failing.

He slips the pills into his pants pocket and shoves his backpack off the bed. No need to put the pills back in there.


December 23th, 1992

London, England

“Kakyoin, come ooooon,” Howard whines from the doorway. Kakyoin flips him off, rolling to the desk with his letter in hand, his heart pounding.

“Don’t fucking flip me off! Come on, Rachel is already at the pub,”

“It’ll take me like two seconds, fuck off,” Kakyoin bites back, and Howard scoffs but goes to Kakyoin’s bed, slumping down onto it to wait. Kakyoin glares at him as he opens his letter, but the contents inside are too pressing, and he returns to it rather than dealing with Howard.

With bated breath, Kakyoin slides out and unfolds the slips of paper inside.

Congratulations student,

This letter has been sent to inform you of your placement in the 1992 Autumn Semester’s Dean’s List-

“YES!!!” Kakyoin whoops, the cheer coming straight from his chest, and he can hear Howard startle behind him, a yelp escaping him and the bed creaking as he jumps, but Kakyoin pays it no mind, instead flipping the page to see the other piece of paper.

His final grades. Grinning, Kakyoin scans the sheet, seeing all As. It’s what he had expected, but there’s a smugness over seeing it confirmed, sitting high and tight and warm in his chest, especially when he spots the A in his Intro to Anthropology class. Mr. Burks’ words at the beginning of the semester ring in Kakyoin’s head again and he scoffs, but smirks, clutching his papers so tightly they crinkle, the excitement in his chest tightening further, making him think he’s gonna blow up.

“Jesus, what the fuck man? What’d you get?” Howard asks, poking his head over Kakyoin’s shoulder, and Kakyoin just laughs and sets the papers down, spinning around rapidly, making Howard yelp, stepping back.

“I’m on the Dean’s List!” Kakyoin shouts excitedly, volume control lost in his elation, and Howard breaks out into his own grin, snorting.

“Duh, even I could tell you that,” Howard crows even as he offers a hand for a high-five. Kakyoin smacks it roughly and Howard yelps.

“Shut up,” Kakyoin says with none of the bite, still smiling. “Let’s go. I wanna celebrate.”

Howard snorts. “Sure thing, Kak.”

Kakyoin elbows him and Howard lets out an oof. “I told you not to call me that.”

“You tell me lots of things,” Howard crows back, and Kakyoin chuckles. “Now come on; let’s get high!”

Kakyoin raises a brow and Howard cringes.

“Wait- I- slip of the tongue. Let’s get dru-”

“I’ll think about it,” Kakyoin sighs, and Howard looks like he’s the one who got onto the Dean’s List, eyes wide and shiny.

“Really?!”

Kakyoin tuts, rolling his eyes. “Why are you so excited if I get high?”

Howard waves a hand, shaking his head. “It’s always more fun to get high with a buddy.” Something underneath Kakyoin’s skin jerks at being called Howard’s buddy.

“I said I’d think about it,” Kakyoin reminds him sternly. Howard puts up his hands in surrender and jumps up from Kakyoin’s bed, moving toward the door.

“Sure, sure. Now, let’s get drunk!”


As promised, Rachel is waiting at the pub when they come in. She smiles, waving them over to a table, and Kakyoin blinks in delighted surprise when he finds she’s already moved a chair out of the way for his wheelchair.

Before either of them can say anything, Rachel plops a gift down on the table and slides it toward Kakyoin.

“Here,” she says, smiling, “Happy Christmas. I hope you’ve enjoyed your first semester here.”

Kakyoin blinks again, opening and closing his mouth, something warm seeping into his chest. Howard clicks his tongue, crossing his arms.

“Do I not get a gift?” He crows.

Rachel scoffs, raising a brow at his empty hands. “Did you get something for me?”

Howard stammers. “I- I mean, our families are getting together for Christmas, right? So-”

“Exactly-”

“I didn’t get you anything,” Kakyoin blurts, and both turn their attention toward him again. “I-” he goes quiet, staring at the gift again in disbelief.

Rachel smiles then, shrugging. “I didn’t figure you would. Christmas isn’t as big of a thing in Japan, right?”

“You’re Japanese?” Howard asks, and Kakyoin narrows his eyes at him. “I didn’t know that! Why didn’t you say anything? Have you seen Dragon B-”

“Anyway,” Rachel cuts in, “I didn’t figure you would get gifts, so don’t worry about it. I just wanted to…make sure you felt welcomed, you know?”

Kakyoin feels hot behind the ears and he swallows awkwardly. “Um. Christmas is kinda- kinda like, a…couple’s thing…in Japan…”

Rachel’s face turns an immediate shade of scarlet. “What?”

Howard immediately guffaws, throwing his head back and laughing so loud other patrons are staring, and Kakyoin flushes himself then, smacking Howard’s shoulder.

Rachel turns wide brown eyes to Kakyoin, cheeks still bright red, and Kakyoin’s neck prickles. “I- I’m so sorry, I hope I didn’t make you uncomfortable-”

“N-no,” Kakyoin stammers, and Howard laughs again, which makes Kakyoin smack him again, harder this time. Howard yelps and Kakyoin turns back to Rachel. “I- no, you’re fine. It was very sweet of you. I appreciate it. I just…” he gestures vaguely and Rachel nods her head quickly. Howard chokes on laughter but he keeps it to himself this time. Kakyoin narrows his eyes at him just in case.

“I- of course, I understand, I’m so sorry-”

“No, really, it’s okay,” Kakyoin assures, gripping the present, and Rachel falls silent. “I just…are you sure you want to give me something?”

Rachel takes a deep breath, gazing darting to the table, running her hands through her hair. She swallows before looking back up, having collected herself, the red in her cheeks dying down. “I- yeah. You’re my friend, and my classmate, so…yeah.”

Kakyoin blinks. Oh. We’re friends?

Something in him squirms a bit again, a piece of him shaped like Hierophant, ribbony and long and entwined around his guts. Kakyoin drops his gaze from Rachel, turning back to the present.

Well, it’d be rude…

Clearing his throat, Kakyoin looks back up, saying, “Then…of course, I’ll accept it. Thank you,” he says. His voice isn’t as composed as he wants it to be, but what emotion it’s giving away, he isn’t sure. Rachel’s shoulders just slump as she smiles, evidently glad to have not caused offense.

Howard clicks his tongue and Rachel and Kakyoin both jump.

“A-anyway,” Rachel says, turning to the seat next to her, her face mostly at its usual pallor, but her ears still red, “here’s what we’re eating tonight.”

She pulls out three bottles then, and Kakyoin blinks at the bright orange color.

Howard whistles. “Looks interesting.”

Rachel nods. “It’s sort of a chai latte thing that the Indian place downtown sells. They use oat milk rather than whole milk, so it should be digestible for you, Kakyoin,” she says when Kakyoin opens his mouth. He closes it, looking at the bottles. She slides one to him and one to Howard, keeping the last for herself. Kakyoin gently wraps his fingers around it and slides it closer. It’s cool to the touch.

“Anyway, I just- I remember you mentioning you liked chai, so…” Rachel shrugs, tapping her fingers against her own bottle. Kakyoin smiles at her, shoulders relaxing.

“You’re right, I do. Thank you, Rachel,” Kakyoin says earnestly, and she ducks her head, but it doesn’t hide the pleased smile stretching across her face.

“I thought this venture was focused on food,” Howard complains, but he pops open his bottle and sips it anyway. He pauses after one sip before immediately ducking back in for another. "It's good, but...Bit spicy, innit?"

Kakyoin snorts roughly.

“If you want to buy something else, you can,” Rachel says sweetly, and Howard scoffs. Kakyoin snorts, gulping down a sip.

It’s cool and Kakyoin can definitely taste the ginger. Best of all, it’s not overly sugary, meaning Kakyoin gets to focus solely on the cinnamon and ginger, how the spices dance along his tongue and spin down his throat. He takes another sip.

“So, how do you like it?” Rachel asks after taking a sip of her own bottle. Kakyoin swallows and smiles.

“It’s good! Reminds me of when I went to India.”

“You went to India?!”

“You’ve been to India?”

Howard and Rachel speak simultaneously, and both squint at each other afterward. It makes Kakyoin laugh, throwing his head back, ignoring how the chill of the iced chai makes him want to huddle around himself.

“Your laugh is so fucking ugly, dude,” Howard complains when his giggles taper off. Rachel smacks his arm a couple of times in a row.

“Howard, you’re so fucking rude!”

Kakyoin just bursts into laughter again, getting a smack of his own in, and Howard scoots to the edge of the table, out of reach of both Kakyoin and Rachel.

“I was just expressing an opinion! I was just expressing an opinion! Don’t fucking hit me!” Howard whines and Kakyoin laughs harder, only to gasp, breath catching in his throat as something tight pinches where his stomach used to be, right between his ribs, the activity of his laughter evidently having stressed something out.

“Kakyoin, are you okay?” Rachel is there suddenly, and Kakyoin grits his teeth. Her hand gently comes down against his shoulder and he jumps, sucking in a breath when this only makes the pinch of tight pain worse.

“Just- stop,” Kakyoin spits and Rachel immediately does, dropping her hand. He takes a few deep breaths, but the pain isn’t lessening. Grimacing tightly, he slips his hand into his pocket, fiddling before bringing out his bottle of pills.

“Uh-” Howard calls but Kakyoin just smacks his ankle with Hierophant.

“It’s fine,” Kakyoin grunts as he shakes a couple of pills into his hand and shoves them to his mouth, taking a sip of the chai to wash them down, “these are my painkillers. They’re supposed to be used like this.”

Howard says nothing. Rachel fidgets next to him. Kakyoin takes another sip before sighing, tipping his head back.

“Are you okay?” Rachel asks quietly, and Kakyoin sighs again, rubbing a hand across his face.

“Yes. Just- you know.” He gestures vaguely. Rachel nods hesitantly. Kakyoin hesitates before glancing at the present. “...I’m sorry for snapping.”

Rachel hums, but her shoulders slump, tension leaking out of her. “...I can’t imagine it’s fun to just be trying to enjoy your night and suddenly chronic pain flares up.”

Kakyoin groans, rubbing his face again. Oh, you have no idea.

“Anyway,” Howard segues, dipping back into the conversation. “So, India?”

Kakyoin snorts, rubbing his eyes one last time before sitting forward again, taking another small sip of chai. “Yep. It’s a great country. Lots of culture. I got to spend a day in Varanasi-”

Memories of the time he spent with Jotaro there flood him, the warm weight of Jotaro’s arm pressing against his, the mumbled scoffs and good griefs, the bitten-off snorts and giggles, the intense look of his eye trained on Kakyoin whenever he spoke. It was so much, having that amount of attention on him. Kakyoin could get drunk off of it.

Kakyoin shakes his head. “It was fun,” he finishes.

Howard makes a comment then, which launches Rachel into her own takeaway, and the conversation moves on. The pain in Kakyoin’s chest lessens, but the tightness of it doesn’t.

Oh, I need a drink.

When Kakyoin finishes his chai, he sets the bottle down, wipes the back of his hand, and then turns to Howard. “I think I’ll take you up on that offer after all.”

Howard’s face lights up while Rachel blinks in confusion. “What offer?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth to answer but Howard slaps a hand onto Kakyoin’s shoulder, slinging his arm around him and leaning into his space, making Kakyoin lose his train of thought as he turns to glare at him. “It’s nothing! I just- Kakyoin here got on the Dean’s List, so we were gonna uh- celebrate.”

“Dean’s Li- You guys are leaving?” Rachel asks, voice pitched in an artificial way, and it makes Kakyoin frown, breaking away from his glare to glance at her.

“I’ve gotta show Kakyoin how we celebrate in the UK, y’know? Some hands-on- hands-on- uh-”

“Field experience,” Kakyoin pipes up, and Howard laughs out loud.

Rachel’s eyes narrow. “Like what?”

Howard goes still then, and it makes Kakyoin blink; he doesn’t think Howard has ever been still in the time he’s known him. He narrows his eyes. I’m missing something.

“Christmas trees and stuff,” Kakyoin pipes up, and Howard shoots him a grateful look. Kakyoin doesn’t smile, however; he keeps his narrowed gaze. Howard swallows, licking his lips nervously, clearly getting the message.

Rachel purses her lips. “I…okay… I still need to work though-”

“That’s fine!” Howard says much too quickly, and Kakyoin again shoots him a look. Why won’t he just tell her it’s weed? It’s not like she’s a prude… “We’ll tell you about it later. Kakyoin’s special assignment, Christmas addition, from me.”

Kakyoin snorts. Rachel stares at Howard with a similar narrow-eyed expression – he can’t lie very well… – before turning to Kakyoin. “Kakyoin…if he’s making you do something-”

“I’m not making him do anything!” Howard shouts, and Rachel and him both stiffen and go quiet. Kakyoin darts his gaze between them; they’ve both ducked their heads, looking at the table and floor respectively.

Kakyoin clears his throat. “No one’s making me do anything,” he says decisively, and Rachel looks up. “I’m not some ignorant kid. It’ll be okay.”

Rachel looks stricken before her brows furrow harshly. “I- I never implied you were, I just-”

“Rach,” Howard calls, and Rachel closes her eyes for a moment, breathing deeply. Kakyoin almost regrets his comment. “Hey. I promise it’s fine. Okay?”

Rachel presses her lips together into a line and turns to Kakyoin instead. Kakyoin hesitates before confirming, “I can look out for myself. Really.”

She lets out a long sigh then, her shoulder slumping, and Howard shoots Kakyoin a triumphant grin.

“Just,” Rachel pipes up, and Kakyoin looks back at her. “I…can you at least open your present while you’re here? I wanna…” She flushes a bit then. “I wanna see your reaction.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh! Uh, sure, I…”

Kakyoin takes the package, squinting at the plain red wrapping paper and back up at Rachel’s expectant face, before digging his fingers in and ripping it.

The package is soft, so Kakyoin is not surprised when, as the paper comes away, a scarf peeks out at him. What surprises him is the color; it’s a deep scarlet. He tilts his head as he fully unwraps it before he picks it up and stares. The design is simple, and the fabric is soft against his fingers.

“Red, huh?” is the first thing that comes from his lips. Rachel chuckles, rubbing the back of her head.

“Yeah…I just- it, uh, reminds me of you. The color.”

Kakyoin blinks, Hierophant Green jolting inside of him in confusion before he remembers that Rachel can’t see him. It’s been so long since he’s been around someone who really had no idea...even his parents knew he was more green than red. He tightens his fingers around the gift and places it on his lap.

“A-anyway,” Rachel says, “since it’s cold and stuff in general and your- condition doesn’t really help with that, I decided…you know, something warm. Would be nice.”

Kakyoin closes his eyes and shakes his head before smiling at Rachel despite the heaviness in his chest. It’s not like she’s wrong there… “Yeah. Thank you, Rachel.”

She smiles, pleased, and Kakyoin wraps the scarf around himself if just to have a reason to drop his gaze.

Howard slaps a hand to his back and Kakyoin snaps his teeth in his direction, making Howard jump. Kakyoin feels a flash of smugness.

“Jesus, dude,” Howard complains.

“Don’t touch me without warning,” Kakyoin snaps back. Howard puts his hands up in surrender before standing up.

“We should get going,” he says, “night’s still young!” Kakyoin huffs and Rachel sighs, gathering the wrapping paper.

“Be safe,” she says sternly, staring at Howard, but Howard doesn’t meet her gaze. Instead, he’s trotting over to the door, calling for Kakyoin all the while.

Kakyoin glances at her again. “Thank you again. For the scarf,” he says. Rachel smiles, nodding.

“Sure,” she says. “I’m sorry again for just springing it on you.”

Kakyoin waves his hands, shaking his head. “No, no! I appreciate it. It was sweet of you.” Rachel ducks into her turtleneck a bit, but she’s still smiling, and it makes Kakyoin’s inside tumultuous, unsure if he’s pleased or annoyed or sad or-

I need a drink.

Kakyoin swallows, wishing he took more painkillers from a moment ago before he bids, “I’ll see you after break.” Rachel nods, gives him a thumbs-up, then turns to place the wrapping in the trash. Kakyoin hesitates before turning and following Howard to the door, where he’s hanging onto the handle and bemoaning Kak, come oooooooon.

Once they’re out onto the street, Kakyoin snaps, “I told you to stop fucking calling me that.”

“Jesus,” Howard complains in a flat voice, “red really is your color.” Kakyoin blinks.

“Why do you both say that?” Kakyoin snaps. Howard shrugs, throwing his hands in the air.

“Dude, you’re so fucking pissy, why wouldn’t we associate you with red? I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s the only thing you see.” He snickers then. “Get it? ‘Cause seeing red? When you’re angry?”

Kakyoin is quiet though. He’s- aware, obviously, that he’s had a shorter fuse recently, but… so much so that it erases who he was? People still don’t know to associate him with green, even without being able to see his soul?

Kakyoin tightens the scarf around himself. “I’m not always angry.”

Howard scoffs. “Yes, you are. Being self-aware is good, y’know?”

Kakyoin swipes at him, but Howard dodges the punch, meaning he knows how infuriating he’s being-

“See! See!” Howard calls, pointing, and Kakyoin freezes. “So angry! Come on Kak, I know you’re not stu-”

“Stop fucking calling me ‘Kak!’” Kakyoin snaps, but his voice, mortifyingly, breaks, and Howard goes silent. Kakyoin snaps his jaw shut, teeth grinding together, his roots aching deep in his gums, and he squeezes his eyes shut.

It’s quiet for several beats and neither of them moves. Kakyoin isn’t sure if he’s hot or cold, his insides throbbing like an animal underneath his skin, like a gigantic parasite, and he thinks he might throw up his chai.

Finally, Howard clears his throat. “Come on,” he says, voice smooth but not gentle, and Kakyoin lets out a shuddering breath. “The dope will help. I promise.”

Kakyoin says nothing; he just follows, promising himself that even if weed doesn’t work, he’d use his pills instead. He didn’t want to think anymore tonight.


“This is shady as hell,” Kakyoin complains from his spot on a beanbag in the basement of a house belonging to a person he doesn’t know while Howard takes his first hit of the night.

Howard clicks his tongue, waving a hand at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin smacks his ankle with Hierophant. Howard jumps, whipping his head around, but obviously doesn’t see the glimmering green tentacle that returns to Kakyoin. Kakyoin bites back the disappointment sagging in his gut. I miss Polanreff. I miss Avdol. I miss J-

“Give me that,” Kakyoin complains, “aren’t I supposed to be celebrating? Come on.”

Howard breathes out his lungful of smoke, and Kakyoin wrinkles his nose at the smell – it’s certainly better than the nicotine cigarettes he smokes in their dorm, but Kakyoin had adjusted to the smell of nicotine. This was new.

Kakyoin coughs and Howard snickers. “Are you sure you can handle it?”

“You act like I haven’t smoked before,” Kakyoin snaps before Hierophant snatches the blunt away from Howard, and Howard jerks, gaping at his empty fingers before looking up at Kakyoin, who now pinches it between his own. Kakyoin narrows his eyes at the thing, the smell even worse up close.

“Just inhale,” Howard instructs and Kakyoin smacks him with Hierophant again.

“What the fuck-” Howard questions and Kakyoin pinches his nose and brings the blunt to his lips. He inhales, and it…goes down smoothly. Kakyoin blinks, memories flooded with the flashes of Jotaro’s light coughing every time he started a round of smokes. He smirks, exhaling, watching the smoke leave his lungs in twirling ribbons of gray. Was Jotaro just that pathetic?

He almost empties his lungs before something in his chest twinges, and Kakyoin lurches forward as coughs rack his entire chest, eyes tearing up as he hacks out the smoke that is stubbornly clinging to his tissue.

Distantly, he can hear Howard laugh and feel the blunt get taken from him and replaced with water. Kakyoin tries to scoff but he just coughs harder, and Howard pats his back. Kakyoin shrugs him off roughly, clearing his throat with a couple more coughs.

“Seriously, drink dude,” Howard laughs, and Kakyoin flips him off but listens, bringing the water bottle to his lips and taking a sip. It does help a little. Kakyoin swallows down more and sags against the bean bag. His spine is murmuring over the lurch he did while coughing, and he frowns, taking his pills out and shaking a few more into his hand.

“Again? Shit, you sure you’re okay, dude?” Howard asks, smoke creeping from his mouth, and Kakyoin scoffs, only to fall into another coughing fit.

“I’ll-” Kakyoin coughs and Howard frowns. Kakyoin grits his teeth and he forces out, “I’ll be fucking fine,” before he coughs again.

“Seriously dude, lay back and drink some water. Uh- take your pills, uh-”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “Already fucking on it.”

“Stop swearing at me!” Howard snaps, and Kakyoin chuckles past his remaining coughs, popping another two pills and bringing the water to his mouth.

After a few more gulps, he brings the water away, wiping his mouth, and he realizes how heavy his eyelids are. He blinks, brows furrowing – it was too soon for the pills to take effect…

“Holy shit,” Howard snickers, and Kakyoin drags his gaze over, mildly annoyed over the noise. “Did you get high from one hit?”

Oh, huh. “Fuck off,” Kakyoin mutters, and Howard explodes into hysterics, giggling his full head off, and Kakyoin finds he’s too tired to be truly annoyed. He shifts in the beanbag, closing his eyes and leaning his head back, a rush of vertigo swimming past his head.

Oh. So this was weed.

…He thinks he gets it, now.

Kakyoin chuckles softly. Howard’s giggles eventually wind down, and for a few moments, there is blissful silence, only the occasional sighs from Howard as he takes more hits. Kakyoin furrows his brows. How many hits has it been? How many times has Howard done this?

Kakyoin squints his eyes open, but before he can ask, Howard speaks up.

“Hey, do you believe in ghosts?”

Kakyoin blinks before rolling his head over to look at Howard. Howard is staring at him very earnestly with his dark eyes, and Kakyoin snorts, shaking his head.

“No. Ghosts don’t exist.”

“But-” Howard lets out an irritated noise from his throat, throwing his hands up in the air. “Haven’t you- haven’t you noticed the weird shit that goes on in our dorm?”

Kakyoin snorts. “What weird shit?”

“Like- like! It happens right in fucking front of you sometimes!” Howard exclaims. “Drawers open on their own or objects literally float through the air- your backpack floated through the air once while you were at the desk! It was on your bed then floated to be beside your chair! How did you not even notice that?!”

It’s then Kakyoin realizes he’s talking about Hierophant, and Kakyoin tries to hold it back, he really does, but after a few bitten-off starts, his laughter wins the battle, and he throws his head back, letting loose.

“Don’t laugh at me! I’m serious!” Howard whines and Kakyoin just laughs harder, hands gripping his gut as his torso begins to go static-y in the way it does when it’s trying to relay pain signals but he’s just taken a dose of painkillers. He’s aware this level of amusement is the cocktail of drugs in his system, but he can’t stop grinning, and it’s so funny, and-

“At least you’re not angry,” Howard sighs dramatically, and Kakyoin chuckles but his laughter dies down. “I’m serious about the ghost though. I’ll prove it to you. I swear.”

Kakyoin snorts and replies something to the effect of “Alright. You do that,” but he can’t really remember. His head is so fuzzy and his eyelids are so heavy and moving his lips feels like it takes so much energy. He sinks further into the bean bag as the world spins around him and closes his eyes.

Howard was right – he’s not angry when he’s like this.


March 23rd, 1993

London, England

“We should-” Kakyoin hiccups. “We should do- karaoke.”

Howard snorts. “Singing? You can sing?”

Kakyoin jerks a tentacle of Hierophant’s down onto Howard’s shin, making the man yip in pain. “I w’s in- in a class for it like, all of primary school.”

Howard laughs, slapping Kakyoin across the shoulders, and Kakyoin doesn’t have the coordination to shrug him off. “I shouldn’t be surprised. You’re such a fucking nerd, dude.”

“Oh, fuck off,” Kakyoin scoffs. “Karaoke is popular in Japan so I just- yeah.”

“Aw,” Howard coos, but Rachel comes back before he can say anything else.

“Sorry about that,” she says, hopping back onto her stool, “my mum needed some help in the back. She’s too short to efficiently do storage management herself and our usual guy is out for the ni… Are you drunk?”

Kakyoin hiccups and Howard laughs.

Rachel shoots a glare to Howard, gritting her teeth. “I told you not to give him too much!”

“He’s fine! Watch this!” Howard laughs, a flush on his own cheeks showcasing his own impairment as he turns to Kakyoin with some fingers held up. “Kakyoin, how many fingers am I holding up?”

“Three,” Kakyoin mutters into his glass, and Howard laughs.

“See?”

“You always hold up three!” Rachel yells, and Howard blinks. Kakyoin snorts.

“Yeah, you do,” he snickers. Rachel turns to him then, brown eyes almost black in the pub's lighting, and Kakyoin sits up straighter, his spine murmuring at the motion.

“And you,” she snarls, “I thought you knew your limits better than this! You don’t even have a stomach! Too much alcohol- I- you fucking idiot! Are you trying to get sick?!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly at the outburst. Rachel buries her face in her hands, shoulders stiff with emotion. He shifts, looking down. He slides his bottle away from himself.

Rachel twitches at the low rumble of glass against wood and drops her hands. “You-”

“I’m not an idiot,” Kakyoin slurs lowly, and Rachel exhales sharply, eyes narrowing at him. Howard shifts uneasily next to Kakyoin’s side.

“You’re sure acting like it,” Rachel snaps. “Top of the class but can’t manage your liquor intake? You’re so naive, Kakyo-”

“Oh, fuck off,” Kakyoin snaps, and Rachel shuts her mouth, lips pressed tightly together. “I’m not a baby, I’m just as full-grown and capable as you despite the fact I’m in a wheelchai-”

“This isn’t about you being paralyzed! This is about you drinking to the point of full-on drunkenness when you don’t have a stomach and can’t eat food that would soak all that alcohol up-”

“I think karaoke’s a great idea!” Howard butts in, his voice high and shrill, and Kakyoin and Rachel whip their heads to him. Howard grins, but the edges are a bit too broad to be genuine, looking almost more like a grimace than a smile. “Kakyoin was talking about karaoke. Fun, right? We should do it sometime! We should do it now! I’m sure people on our floor won’t mind, right, Rach?”

Rachel blinks, looking not unlike she’s been hit in the back of the head with how stunned she looks, and Kakyoin exhales, on the verge of a snort. Her gaze darts to him before it drops harshly, and Kakyoin doesn’t know how to feel about that. His own eyes drop to the table, only for the glinting of the light off the green bottle to catch his attention.

“Does London even have a karaoke bar?” Rachel asks.

“Huh?” Howard asks.

Rachel blinks. “A karaoke bar. Does London even have one?”

“I…I don’t know…I thought Kakyoin was talking about just singing into a karaoke machine.”

Kakyoin throws back his head then, laughter erupting from his belly, and the tension mostly diffuses, even if a string of it remains, tight around Kakyoin’s throat, tugging him down whenever he looks at Rachel.

“What?” Howard whines, and Rachel just sighs.

“You’re so stupid,” Kakyoin giggles, and Howard scoffs.

“Says the guy who drank too mu-”

“Okay!” Rachel cuts off. “Well, anyway, any ideas on what we eat next week? Kakyoin?”

“I need a stand-in for chips,” he mutters, and Rachel finally chuckles then, which makes something in his chest loosen.

“I guess I can try my best to find something like that…” Rachel pauses. “Hey, Howard, when are you going to try and find something?”

Howard jumps. “Huh?”

Rachel gestures. “You know. I’m the one who’s done most of the searching. Kakyoin can’t do it because it’s supposed to be a surprise for him every week. Why haven’t you found any food?”

Howard opens and closes his mouth. “Uh…” He turns to Kakyoin with wide eyes. “Shit, sorry dude?”

Kakyoin clicks his tongue. “Pay Rachel back if you're sorry. Or me. Give me money.”

They all laugh then, and the buzz in Kakyoin’s veins feels warm, and he closes his eyes, leaning against his arms. Even the small twinges of pain in his stomach over lifting his arms to set them on the table don’t bother him. When was the last time he was this relaxed?

Kakyoin hiccups and his stomach twinges again.

He can’t remember, his brain fuzzy, blurring into the edges of his skull. Kakyoin hums, leaning further into his arms.

…He can remember.

Kakyoin slowly slides his eyes open, his good mood dampened by the flash of sea blue behind his eyelids.

He can’t put his life on pause just because yours was.

Kakyoin grabs the bottle again and takes a sip.

“Enough of that,” Rachel says firmly, reaching out and snatching the bottle from his fingers. Kakyoin fights her on it for a moment, but she’s soberer than he is, so it’s no big deal for her to take it from his hands and put it away. Kakyoin sighs wistfully, closing his eyes. “Aren’t you drunk enough? Seriously, Kakyoin, this isn’t funny.”

Kakyoin sniffs, opening his eyes again to narrow them at Rachel. “Wasn’t tryin’ to be.”

Rachel’s teeth grit but Howard speaks up again.

“Nah, she’s right, dude, you’re gonna have a hell of a hangover tomorrow. The last thing you wanna do is make it worse…”

Kakyoin groans but says nothing more despite his fingers twitching. He stares at the bottle in Rachel’s hands. I could use Hierophant to get it back…

“So, school year’s almost over,” Howard comments, and Rachel sighs, nodding.

“I don’t know if I can handle being an RA again,” she admits. Howard snorts. “So many petty arguments…god,”

Kakyoin shakes his head and his stomach jumps to his throat when his brain fizzes because of it, dizziness swirling around him. “That-” he hiccups. “Sucks.”

Rachel stares at him a bit, brows pinched together, before she ducks her head. Kakyoin swallows thickly and pushes his glasses up his nose.

“I was kinda expecting you and Howard to also be one of those incompatible roommates,” Rachel admits, and Howard lets out a noise that can only be accurately described as a honk while Kakyoin snorts.

“WHAT? WHY?!”

“I wonder the same thing myself.”

Howard whips his head to face Kakyoin, jaw dropped, and Kakyoin snickers from where his head sits on his arms. Howard huffs, crossing his own arms, and Rachel laughs quietly.

“Jeez, dude, fine, guess I won’t ask for us to be roommates again next year,” he sniffs.

Kakyoin blinks before raising his head. “You- you wanted to be roommates again?”

Howard’s face flushes a bit then and he rubs his cheek, gaze darting about. “I mean…I just…I thought we- we worked well, y’know?”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth for a second. “I- I-” He slams his hand on the table, making both Rachel and Howard jump. “I want to be roommates again! Next year! I do!”

Howard blinks before smiling widely, teeth glinting in the pub light, and Rachel chuckles. “I’m down, don’t get me wrong, but jeez, that desperation… Don’t you have any other friends?” Howard jokes and Kakyoin scoffs, but something in his chest stings, a hook arcing across his tissues.

“I can tell Rachel all the shit you smoked if you want to be an asshole,” Kakyoin bites back, but instead of being light like Kakyoin was intending, it makes both of them freeze. Kakyoin stills his tongue, the jolt of cold seeping into his chest sobering him up a bit.

“You…” Rachel starts before going quiet. Howard locks wide eyes with Kakyoin before arching his hand across his throat – quiet – brows furrowed in panic.

“Rach,” Howard says quietly, “I just- cigarettes, y’know? Tobacco-”

“I think we’re about done for tonight,” Rachel says quietly. Howard goes silent like he’d been sentenced to death. Kakyoin jumps his gaze between both of them, but they each stay staring at the floor.

“Rach-”

“I’m not- I’m not mad,” Rachel says, voice edged and grainy like sand between Kakyoin's teeth, “I’m not mad-” her voice breaks then, and Kakyoin realizes he has no fucking idea what’s going on, no idea of the weight that his implication had. Rachel takes a few deep breaths and Howard has never been more still.

“Let’s just talk later, okay?” Rachel asks. Howard nods. “Have a good night,” Rachel says. Howard nods again.

She stands up then, signaling the end of the conversation, and gathers the bottles and glasses. Howard stands slowly as if moving through honey, and Kakyoin has the mind to whisper, “Sorry.”

Howard waves him off before slinking out the door. Kakyoin hesitates on following him. He hears the clink of glass and takes a deep breath before turning to Rachel.

“Can I help?”

Rachel jumps, jerking her gaze to him. Kakyoin holds up his hands soothingly. Rachel exhales quietly, turning back to the glasses. “I don’t know if you’d be much help while drunk,” she tries jokingly.

“Well, what just happened was pretty sobering,” Kakyoin shoots back, and Rachel sighs. He feels bad though, so he tags on in a kinder tone, “Besides, I’m sitting, cause wheelchair…so I can at least carry all the glasses in my lap.”

Rachel takes a deep breath before giving Kakyoin a small smile. “Alright. Sure.”

Pleased that she took him seriously, Kakyoin accepts the glasses she hands him but notes that she keeps the bottles to herself. He says nothing about this, but it does make his eyes narrow.

She leads him past the bar counter to the back, pinning the door open so Kakyoin can go through first.

The back is relatively quiet, full of kegs and bottles of wine, but most of it is overtaken by a kitchen, the stainless steel thankfully not glintingly bright in the dull lighting.

Rachel leads him to the sink before pouring out the alcohol that’s left in the unopened bottles. Kakyoin twitches, the sour smell of it hitting his nose, and he jerks his gaze away from it and looks at Rachel. Her face is tight, her frown small but deep.

“Are you okay?” He asks.

Rachel blinks, setting the now empty bottles down on the counter before turning to Kakyoin. He hands her the glasses, which she takes mechanically, placing them in the sink. She turns on the facet, settling a plug in place and pouring liquid dish soup into the basin as it fills. She turns back to Kakyoin once it’s done, letting the dishes soak.

“I’m sorry for being a bit of a cunt,” she says, avoiding the question. Kakyoin lets out a strangled chuckle despite his best efforts to smother it, and Rachel smiles a bit then, rolling her shoulders.

“I- if that was a problem, I’d be a hypocrite,” Kakyoin snickers. Rachel snorts and it lapses into silence then. Kakyoin can hear the small static of soap suds settling. A faint floral scent drifts from the basin.

“I am sorry though,” Rachel murmurs. “Things like that just…” she lets out an exhale that was probably supposed to be a laugh, but it sounds more like a sigh. “I don’t mind smoking. Or drinking. Obviously, my mum runs a pub, I don’t…I just…” Rachel sighs for real. Kakyoin waits for her, staring at her. Her brown hair looks dull, darker in this lighting, but it falls in soft waves around her face, and Kakyon’s fingers twitch. She looks back up and Kakyoin finds himself disappointed when he sees her dark eyes and not a flash of blue.

“Do you want me to be honest?” She asks. Kakyoin blinks, startling himself out of his reverie.

“I do,” he says.

Rachel takes a deep breath before turning to the sink, picking up a sponge. She digs around in the water for a second, the soft sloshing of it against the sides of the sink akin to waves against a shore.

Kakyoin is about to ask her again to elaborate when she takes another breath.

“My dad was in a car crash and died when I was 14. Howard was in the passenger seat when it happened.”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly at the bluntness, mouth open and closing.

Rachel swallows before continuing. “We were childhood friends. His mum and mine were close. My dad was a football coach. Howard played. So my dad would drive Howard to and from practice all the time. We’d usually eat dinner all as one family.”

Rachel’s hand still in the sink. Eventually, she sets the glass she was cleaning onto the counter. Kakyoin hesitates before reaching out with Hierophant to grab a rag, rolling forward and picking up the glass. Rachel glances at him, but Kakyoin just begins drying it by hand, and she smiles at him.

Turning back with a downward gaze to the sink, Rachel continues.

“My dad died on impact. Howard survived, but he was… he was hurt really badly. He was in the hospital for a long time,” she says quietly. Something emerges, dense and uncomfortable, in Kakyoin’s gut. How familiar…

When Rachel sets another glass down, he immediately snatches it to dry, to give his hands something to do.

“He couldn’t play football anymore,” Rachel says. “He was devastated. He couldn’t even walk for a long time. He had to relearn. Brain injury.” She ducks her head.

“...To get to the point, he was put on really powerful pain medication during that time. And- and- and I guess it seemed like, to him, he could use it to soothe the disappointment of not being able to play football. And the guilt of my dad…”

Rachel sets down another glass and Kakyoin snatches it. The density in his stomach grows and he grits his teeth.

“He lost the prescription when he left the hospital though, so…he turned to…other kinds of drugs to get the same high. To cope the same way.”

Rachel’s hands still again, and Kakyoin feels like he’s been damned, the weight in him beginning to swirl like a black hole. That’s not me, that’s not me, that’s not me, I’m different-

“He started getting distant from me. Was always looking for money so he could get drugs or needles. Led to a couple of arguments. He broke some of our chairs once because the fight got bad enough…” Kakyoin has flashes of his first Halloween when Rachel mentioned Howard was still in debt over breaking some things, and he swallows thickly.

Rachel takes a deep, shuddering breath. “In our last year of high school, he almost overdosed,” she says quietly, “and I told him in the hospital- I told him that, that it feels like, sometimes, the boy I knew died in that same car crash and someone else walked out wearing his skin.” Kakyoin feels like he’s burning, the weight beginning to catch against his ribs, tugging them, twisting them painfully. “I told him that, if he ever does something like that again, I would cut him out. I can’t do that again. It would kill me even if it spared him again.”

Kakyoin thinks of Jotaro and his suspicious absence, the way he had quietly asked Avdol and Kakyoin to Please, don’t die when he visited them in the hospital after N’Doul, his eyes bright and intense past the brim of his hat, and he stops breathing.

Was Jotaro warning me that was my final chance?

Kakyoin grits his teeth. Well, then what the hell did he want me to do?! Just let him and Joseph and Polnareff die?! I couldn’t-

It wasn’t FAIR-

I wasn't trying to die- I DIDN’T DIE.

JOTARO-

“Ah,” Kakyoin says. Rachel hums.

“When Howard left the hospital after that, he said he’d go clean. A part of me never really believed him, but as long as he wasn’t overdoing it, I told myself I wouldn’t care.” She takes a deep breath. “I guess- I guess I’m still telling myself that.”

Kakyoin lets out another soft noise of comprehension.

“So that’s why when…when you mentioned him smoking, it just…scared me. I didn’t know he still did that. Even if it really is just tobacco, I…” Kakyoin holds his tongue from giving anything away.

Rachel sets the last glass down and drains the sink. Kakyoin dries it mechanically.

“It’s also why I get kinda skittish about you getting drunk, sometimes,” Rachel admits. Kakyoin blinks, jolted away from his thoughts. He turns to Rachel. She’s drying her hands, hair hiding her face, her white sweater rolled up to her elbows. A part of Kakyoin aches. “I’m sorry. I know you hate being babied. It’s less to do with you and more to do with…me.”

“It…” Kakyoin huffs. "It makes sense." Rachel’s shoulders slump a little and she nods.

“Well, it’s getting late,” she says, turning to face him, her dark eyes glinting off the small light there is, brown encircling him. Kakyoin shifts against it, swallowing. “You should get some rest, even if you have sobered up a bit.”

Kakyoin doesn’t argue, for once. He nods, says his goodnights, and shakes Rachel’s hand.

“Thanks again for another night out,” he says automatically, ever polite, and Rachel just smiles at him.

“You don’t need to thank me for that, Kakyoin,” she says, before shyly dropping her gaze. “We’re friends, right?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth but says nothing. He just squeezes her hand and leaves.

Kakyoin hardly remembers the time it took to get back to the dorm. He opens the door and finds Howard already asleep, softly snoring from his top bunk.

Kakyoin moves to the desk instead of his own bunk, however. He reaches out for the phone and dials the number Avdol gave him for the nth time.

Jotaro doesn’t pick up.

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aheh. god. hi everyone. it's been. uhmmm. five months holy fucking shit. i am so fucking sorry. i have no idea how that even happened. i suppose this intermission is long as hell (this first half alone is as long as both halves of the second intermission) but jesus. im so sorry it's been so long. the good news is this is the second-to-last intermission and the last one itself is only two scenes instead of arching over many years so it SHOULD. be much quicker to write.

thank you so much for being patient with me. nothing bad has happened i've just been super busy. about a year ago I mentioned getting three majors and yeah I basically have em now so my courseload has been craaaazy. but I think about wwm/ta every single day i am not even kidding. this story means so much to me. i know, i know, i know for a fact im gonna finish it. so thank you all for sticking around as i find the time to do that exactly.

next chapter Should be out soon but i can't give an exact date unfortunately...but it definitely won't take as long as this half of the intermission did cause im already like halfway done with it LOL. but yeah just. thank you everyone. your support genuinely means so much to me. thank you for giving me the opportunity to tell my story. i won't let you guys down

Chapter 23: Intermission 3: Act 2

Notes:

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING: THIS CHAPTER FEATURES EXPLICIT DRUG USE (WEED, HEROIN/PAINKILLERS/OPIOIDS IN GENERAL, ALCOHOL, ETC), NEEDLES, AND GENERAL SELF-DESTRUCTION. if these topics are sensitive to you, please be careful when reading and take care of yourself!

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Chapter Text

September 16th, 1993

London, England

“Oh, shit,” Howard says from wherever he is. He’s been rustling around for a while, Kakyoin half asleep at their new dorm’s desk, the phone he tried over and over again last night next to him. Kakyoin grunts questioningly.

“You have opioids dude?”

Kakyoin’s eyes snap open.

“Give me that,” Kakyoin seethes, twisting around and lunging toward Howard, Hierophant surging from him like a wave, and Howard yelps when the pill bottle is snatched from his grip, gaping as it’s chucked to Kakyoin, who clutches it into his hands tightly, snarling at Howard with wide eyes, his heart pulsing in his ears. It’s then he realizes he’s shaking.

“Wah- Did you see that, dude?! The ghost fucking followed us, I swear to god it’s haunting you-”

“Don’t you dare touch these ever again,” Kakyoin spits, and Howard blinks, gaze refocusing on Kakyoin.

Kakyoin snarls, animalistic, and Howard jolts, raising his hands placatingly. “Wait- I- Kak, I wasn’t-”

“Do you promise not to touch these again?!” Kakyoin seethes, and Howard nods his head rapidly, which makes Kakyoin blink at the lack of resistance.

“No, I know dude, don’t worry,” Howard says. “You need them more than I do.”

Kakyoin bears his teeth in disbelief and Howard clicks his tongue, rolling his eyes. “Besides,” he adds, “I know where to get, mm…” Howard huffs. “Do you promise not to tell Rachel?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Tell her what?”

“I…” Howard drops his hands then, gaze darting to the floor. “I know where to get brown and shit, so like…I don’t need pills. Besides, those are expensive as fuck. If I really wanted an opioid I’d just shoot up. But you can’t tell Rachel, okay? She doesn’t know I… it would freak her out.”

Kakyoin stares at him. “If I promise not to tell her, do you promise to never, ever, ever touch these again?”

“Dude, I already promised that regardless of if you tell Rachel,” Howard snaps before sighing. “Look, I’m…I’m sorry for even bringing it up. I just didn’t realize your pain meds were such high grade. What the hell even happened to you?”

“That’s none of your fucking business,” Kakyoin snaps, placing the bottle on the table. He sighs then, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “Don’t touch them.”

“Oh my god, dude , I’m not gonna touch them,” Howard snaps, before shaking his head. “Like I said, if I really wanted to get all fuzzy-brained, I’d just shoot up.”

“Isn’t that dangerous?” Kakyoin snaps.

Howard rolls his eyes. “No more dangerous than mixing drugs, and I know you’ve had alcohol while those things are in your system.”

Kakyoin purses his lips but says nothing. “...You promise not to touch them again?”

Howard again rolls his eyes but says, “Yes, dude, I promise. For real, though, don’t tell Rachel,”

Kakyoin pauses, echoes of the conversation he had with her months previously bouncing off his skull. I can’t do that again. He sighs. “Okay. I won’t tell Rachel.”

“Thank you,” Howard sighs. After a beat, he says, “For real, though, that’s a lot. You have those every day?”

“Two pills in the morning and evening, yeah,” Kakyoin mutters. Howard whistles.

“Jesus, dude, you got really fucked up.”

“Yeah, so fuck off and stop talking to me about it.”

“Sorry! Sorry. Just…will you ever be able to walk again?” Howard asks.

Kakyoin pauses, glancing down. Hierophant curls around his legs over his pants and he runs his fingers along the armor on the tentacles.

“...Yeah. If I… I need to keep with physical therapy for a bit longer, though.”

“Oh? Shit, dude, that’s awesome!” Howard cheers, and Kakyoin blinks turning back to look at him. “Y’know, I was in a bad car crash as a kid,” Kakyoin freezes, “and I had to relearn to walk again myself. So if you need any tips…”

It’s too reminiscent of Avdol’s offers, and Kakyoin’s chest pangs when he realizes the last time he called him had been in August, during his birthday. “Brain injury is different from a spine injury,” he quips back, shaking his head.

“It- how do you know it was a brain injury and not also a spine injury?” Howard whines.

Kakyoin raises a brow at him. “...Do you really want me to answer that-”

“Oh, shut up, you asshole.”


October 13th, 1993

London, England

“So, how’s the second school year going so far?”

Kakyoin hums noncommittally as he shuts his book, handing it off to Hierophant to slip into his backpack, glancing at the clock on the wall as he does. 7:31… good. I still have a little bit until I meet up with Rachel and Howard.

Avdol laughs at the nonanswer. “Coursework getting to you?”

“Tch,” Kakyoin clicks his tongue dismissively. “Yeah, right. It’s fine. I was an honors student after all, this is nothing.”

Avdol snorts. “Well, I’m glad it’s not overwhelming.” He pauses. “Make any friends yet?”

Kakyoin wrinkles his nose at the yet, before shifting his shoulders uncomfortably, Howard’s monochrome and Rachel’s brown flashing in the back of his mind. “...I guess so,” he says uneasily.

Avdol lets out a noise and Kakyoin runs his tongue along the back of his teeth.

“...They’re not standusers,” Kakyoin admits, “so I don’t know if they…really…count.”

Avdol hums. “Why wouldn’t they?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth but doesn’t respond. Why would they? Don’t you get it? “Weren’t you a born-stand user too?” Kakyoin asks.

“Yes?” Avdol responds, voice high in confusion. Kakyoin squirms minutely, Hierophant manifesting to trace a tentacle along his wrist. “I might be missing something. Are you saying they can’t be your friends because they’re not standusers, or is it because of something else?”

“Yes! I am saying that!” Kakyoin snaps before flinching at his tone, swallowing. “I just- don’t you get it? How could- how could they count if they can’t see me? Didn’t you- didn’t you feel the same?”

Avdol is quiet for a few moments, and Kakyoin can hear his heart thump like it was beating next to his ears instead of between his ribs, mildly wet and low and rhythmic. Lub-dub. Lub-dub. “Many people in our lives never see our full selves,” Avdol says slowly. “Most don’t, in fact. That doesn’t discount the acceptance they give the sides of us they do see.”

Kakyoin twitches. “But- but- but our stands- they’re- they’re not just a side, they’re- Hierophant is- they can’t see me if they can’t see h-”

“You are Kakyoin Noriaki, not Hierophant Green, right?” Avdol asks, and Kakyoin feels something explode in his chest in slow motion, the temperature in his chest ticking up and up, expanding out and out, as he starts to hunch over. “Of course Hierophant Green is important, but that doesn’t mean you should cut yourself from those who still like you based on what they can see. They may not ever be close friends…I know I never had a close friend growing up,” Avdol murmurs, “but I connected with people. My classmates, my sister-”

“You don’t get it,” Kakyoin says, strangling his voice to be flat like trying to fit a net over a kicking and writhing animal. He feels like icy water is washing over the inside of his ribs, so cold it burns, and yet his stomach is so tense and hot and his-

His back lets out a shriek of pain over how hunched-over he’s gotten, and Kakyoin sharply inhales before spitting, “Oh, you don’t get it,” he voice breaking free from the cage he tried to put it in.

“Kakyoin-”

“I can’t- I can’t believe it,” Kakyoin says, before chuckling in disbelief, sitting back in his chair, staring vacantly at the wall. “I thought of all people, you would understand, but you don’t.”

“Kakyoin-”

“How did it not eat you up? Knowing they could never- that they weren’t on the same level as you. Didn’t it feel like they were overenthusiastic dogs?”

“Kakyoin!” Avdol barks, “that’s enough! Don’t tell me you really feel that way about non-standusers?”

Kakyoin lets out a strangled noise in his throat, his free hand reaching up to tug at his bang, which has finally regrown enough for him to do so. “It’s not- I just- They can’t- they can’t see! How could they possibly understand me if they can’t see me?!”

“Did you even give them the chance?” Avdol snaps.

“I did! I really did! I bring out- I’ve brought out Hierophant so much that my roommate thinks we’re haunted, but he can’t see him! No one ever sees him, no one ever sees me! Why should I give them the time of d-”

“You talk like this is a flaw of theirs,” Avdol cuts in, voice deep with disapproval, and Kakyoin twitches. “It’s not the fault of non-standusers for not being able to see stands. You need to learn to work with that. It’s like…living in a world full of colorblind people. It doesn’t mean they’re not still people, they just can’t share in that experience with you. You learn to connect with them about other things, because you are more than your ability to see color – do you understand?”

Flashes of ignoring the children around him flood Kakyoin’s head, memories of flat “No, thank you”s in response to inquires about playing together, about studying together, about joining in a class outing to the new udon place, returning home alone with his only friend and retreating to his room, every single day, and Kakyoin finds with abrupt fury that he’s on the verge of tears.

“Are you saying,” Kakyoin says lowly, “it’s my fault?”

“No!” Avdol cuts in sharply, “No, of course not! I’m just saying it’s no one’s fau-”

“It doesn’t feel that way!” Kakyoin shouts, his voice cracking, and Avdol goes quiet. Kakyoin takes a few shuddering breaths, but this only makes his spine irritated. Gritting his teeth, Kakyoin digs his hand into his pocket, ripping out his painkillers. The bottle is quiet, which makes Kakyoin narrow his eyes – this one must be running out – before he snaps open the cap with practiced movement, bringing the edge of the bottle straight to his mouth and shaking some pills right into his throat. He swallows, wincing as they trace down dryly, and he closes his eyes.

“...Kakyoin,” Avdol finally says, and Kakyoin shakes his head abruptly.

“Do not,” He spits, and Avdol clicks his tongue, clearly annoyed, but he concedes. Kakyoin listens to the other man’s breathing for a while and tries not to focus on his own, the small-but-sharp twinges of his back fading as the pills take effect, his eyelids growing heavier.

“...The stand division of the SPW has been set up,” Avdol says, and Kakyoin blinks at the non-sequitur.

“...Oh, yeah?”

“Yeah,” Avdol confirms. “We’ve mostly just been logging stand users into a database currently – you’re there, of course,”

Kakyoin huffs softly in amusement, closing his eyes. “That’s nice.”

Avdol pauses. “...We plan to use it so that standusers in various locations will know of others nearby who are- in the same boat. So they know they have people to talk to.”

Kakyoin slowly opens his eyes. So you do or don’t get it? a part of him snaps, but the medicine keeps his tongue still. “I see.”

Avdol hums. “...Anyway. While I have you here, I was told to come up with a security code due to how many mimic stands there seem to be. I was…I was thinking of the numbers our tarot cards are associated with. You, me, Polnareff, Mr. Joestar, Iggy…” Avdol pauses. “...Jotaro?”

Kakyoin lets out a sharp exhale, voice grinding into it like paper in a shredder. “Jotaro, huh? Haha.”

“Has he still not called you?” Avdol asks, voice high in concern, and Kakyoin grits his teeth, the backs of his eyes burning.

“No. No. He hasn’t. Doesn’t answer my calls either, he just- he-” Kakyoin’s voice breaks, and he takes a second, hands shaking with how tightly he’s clenching them, the plastic of the phone creaking under his fingers. “We haven’t talked,” he croaks. "Not him, not Polnareff, not Mr. Joestar-" he cuts himself off.

“Oh…” Avdol murmurs, voice sad, and it scratches at Kakyoin, like bugs in his chest cavity, and he shakes minutely. “...I’m sorry, Kakyoin.”

“You don’t be sorry,” Kakyoin snaps while his gut churns over the blatant pity. “Has- Jo- Jojo, has he called you?”

Avdol pauses then. “...Not very often. I worry about him…”

Kakyoin snarls. “Worry. Yeah. That’s a way to put it. I’m furious with h-”

“I’m worried about you too,” Avdol admits quietly, and Kakyoin freezes.

After several beats with Kakyoin saying nothing, the anger begins to filter in, and it surprises Kakyoin himself, and he can’t help but remember what Howard said – Dude, you’re so fucking pissy, why wouldn’t we associate you with red? – and-

“...Is it okay if Polnareff and I visit soon?” and something in Kakyoin kicks reflexively, a self-defense that will result in the muscles tearing but Kakyoin can’t care-

“Don’t bother,” Kakyoin snaps, teeth bared at nothing as his fingertips dig into the cheap plastic of the phone, “I wouldn’t want you to put such important work on pause just to check on some charity case -”

“Kakyoin- what?!” Avdol cries, “Where is this coming from?”

“Why are you worried about me?” Kakyoin counters, teeth gritted, and Avdol scoffs on the other line, the sound like flint to Kakyoin’s blood, flaring him to life.

“I- this?! What is this behavior? Kakyoin, are you okay?” Avdol snaps, and Kakyoin twitches and the burning behind his eyes increases.

I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know. I just want things to be like they were. I wish I was never in a coma. I wished I died sometimes-

Kakyoin hangs up in lieu of answering.


“Man,” Howard giggles later that night when Kakyoin flops on his side of the booth they have taken, hanging his head upside down off the seat, “you’re a lot more fun drunk than sober.”

The two had moved to a new bar after meeting with Rachel, Kakyoin feeling too antsy to go home yet and Howard more than happy to get a little more buzzed himself, so they ended up at a pub that didn’t care what you smoked so long as it didn’t “smell funny” as Howard said, and Kakyoin’s head can’t quite stop spinning from all the mixed drinks he’s had.

Kakyoin smiles, showing all his teeth, thinking back to his conversation with Avdol. His stomach churns and blood rushes to his face and the ever-dim light of the bar makes Kakyoin feel like everything isn’t quite real, like this is more of a dream with no real stakes for real life. “Oh trust me, I know.”

He sits up and takes another swig of his drink, much to Howard’s cheering. He doesn’t feel much of anything when he’s like this, but at least he’s not so angry.

He closes his eyes and finishes his bottle. “We should go back to your friend’s place. Get high,” he grunts. Howard laughs and Kakyoin hears it as if he’s underwater.

“Yeah, okay,” he says. And so they do, and when the final piece of the haze is added to Kakyoin’s mind, he can finally forget the scolding tone of the man he looks up to and the blue he misses like air.


January 23rd, 1994

London, England

Kakyoin has never been more scared in his life, which is saying something, he can muse in a  detached way, as his pill bottle rolls empty across the desk.

As if sensing his new vulnerability, his stomach lurches, and his spine begins to murmur in pain. 

How did I not notice this morning?! Kakyoin thinks past the blood beginning to rush in his ears, but he knows. Drinking from the night before made him wake up late, and he hastily shoved pills into his mouth before rushing out the door to make it to class on time, stumbling all the while.

Pharmacy’s closed, something whispers, and Kakyoin shudders, which only makes the pain in his spine sharpen.

Kakyoin gasps, stumbling back and collapsing onto his bed, and Howard makes a noise as he pokes his head past the top bunk, looking down at him.

I can use Hierophant- I can break into the pharmacy-

Hierophant manifests, but another wave of pain rolls over Kakyoin, and the stand fizzes like pixels on a broken screen, in and out of existence, more liquid than solid, and Kakyoin gasps again, locking eyes with Hierophant, who has never looked so terrified. Hierophant reaches his tentacles out toward Kakyoin, wrapping around him, melting before reverting back to solid state over and over. Kakyoin can’t breathe.

The blur and accompanying thud of Howard jumping off his bunk jerk Kakyoin out of his thoughts, and he locks wide eyes with Howard, his vision beginning to swim. His spine is starting to sing like a tea kettle. He’s beginning to sweat. I haven’t had any in hours, I’ve never gone this long before, I-

“Hey, Kakyoin, are you okay?” Howard asks, and Kakyoin chokes on air, breaking into a coughing fit. “Hey- Kakyoin?!”

“My pills,” Kakyoin wheezes, and Howard shoots his gaze to the desk, only for his own eyes to widen.

“Shit- shit, you’re out?!”

“My pills,” Kakyoin repeats. His is breathing getting faster. His heartbeat is echoing. It thuds against his bones, forcing them to creak and contort in ways a solid shouldn’t. His spine hurts .

“How did you- how did you even run out? Shit, dude!”

Kakyoin isn’t sure himself. He knows he’s relied on them more lately, to mix with the alcohol and occasional cigarette smoke to fall dead asleep with no nightmares, no dreams of Avdol, Polnareff, Mr. Joestar, or Jotaro, and to ward off hangovers, but- but he’s always done the math, he’s always stayed on top of it, what happened-

Did I get too drunk some time and not count right?

Kakyoin can't breathe. He’s dying again. There are so few lights and he is under a dark enclave, DIO always had him in shadows so the fleshbud wouldn’t die, he is stuck, he is pinned, and he is dying-

“I’m- I’m- I think I’m dying,” Kakyoin gasps and Howard’s face goes pale.

“What- what can I do?” Howard asks, ducking into the shadow of the bunk bed with Kakyoin, and it makes Kakyoin shudder, vision swimming as he strains to focus on him, his hips beginning to ache too now, his legs going numb, his intestines churning.

“I don’t- I don’t know-” Kakyoin rasps, voice shaky and quiet and everything Kakyoin hates, but he can barely register it past the blood in his ears. “I- I need- I need it to s-stop-” I have no pills. I have no pills. I have no pills. How did I run out of pills-

The pain that’s beating like a heart at the center of his spine is spreading its influence, achiness creeping along his ribs, and Kakyoin loses balance even while sitting and falls into his side. He lands in an awkward position, his shoulder hunched right into the side of his jaw, but he can’t care, couldn’t even adjust if he did, his shaking too severe.

I can’t control anything. I can’t control anything. I can’t control-

“Kakyoin!” Howard snaps, grabbing Kakyoin’s face, and Kakyoin’s eyes roll up into his head and he whimpers, his neck aching, everything aches.

“Oh, my god,” Howard says distantly, and Kakyoin sniffles, a whine building in the back of his throat when Howard drops his face. “Oh, my god. Kakyoin-”

“Howard,” Kakyoin says softly, sliding open his eyes again to stare at the distant wall. His vision is blurry with tears and it makes him grit his teeth, but the tension sparks like a live wire through his tissues. Everything feels so sensitive, “I can’t- I can’t-”

He shudders, his spine shrieks, and Kakyoin gasps, his tears falling.

“Oh my jesus christ,” he can faintly hear, “I- fuck, fuck, the pharmacy is closed, right? Shit, I- Kakyoin!” his voice is rising with panic, and Kakyoin can’t really blame him because he’s panicking too, the icy chill of it spreading along his shaking form, tangoing with his spine in an effort to numb the sparks.

“I’m dying,” Kakyoin echoes again, and the twisting his intestines have been doing suddenly tighten, and Kakyoin gags.

“I- fuck, I- opioids, opioids, I-” Howard pauses then, and Kakyoin has the distinct impression he’s figured something out past the pain.

Howard turns back to Kakyoin then, reinvading his personal space, and Kakyoin grimaces sharply, sweat dripping down his forehead.

“Kakyoin,” Howard says, and Kakyoin doesn’t think he’s ever heard him be so serious in his life. Kakyoin tries and fails to lock gazes once, twice, before on the third time he finally hones in on Howard’s black eyes. He wishes they were blue more than anything, and the burning behind his eyes gets worse.

“What?”

Howard takes a deep breath, and Kakyoin wrinkles his nose. He smells like nicotine. His heart pounds low in his chest. “Do you know what brown- what heroin is?”

“Do I- are you an idiot?” Kakyoin snaps, and Howard throws his hands in the air, scooting back a bit.

“I’m just- it would just be for tonight! Just so you can make it to when the pharmacy opens tomorrow and get your pills again. They’re both opioids, so they should- it should work enough.”

“How would you know,” Kakyoin slurs sourly, and Howard scoffs, shaking his head.

“I cannot believe you’re fucking arguing with me in this state! Look, I’m not going to force you to do shit but I- I’m- I’m worried!”

Kakyoin bares his teeth at the comment, but his spine rumbles again and he gasps, more tears leaking out of his eyes, and he grips his blanket between his fingers tightly, pressing his face against the fabric.

“I…” …Do I even have an option? Just so I can make it to tomorrow… it’s basically the same compound anyway, right?

Flashes of Howard’s words months ago — that it’s probably just as dangerous, if not more so to have combined his pills with alcohol — blink into his mind, and Kakyoin just wants the pain to stop, his skin so clammy and cold -

“If- It’s stuff I’ve shot up myself, I know for a fact it’s safe. I even have like, clean needles and shit. Again, I’m not gonna force you but-”

“Do it,” Kakyoin spits out, and Howard lets out a garbled mess of confusion.

“Wha- huh?”

“Were you fucking joking?” Kakyoin snaps and Howard immediately jumps into action.

He scrambles to his wardrobe, pulling out one of the drawers all of the way and placing it onto the floor, reaching into the cavern left and fishing out a few supplies. Kakyoin tries to laugh, but he chokes on it, and for a second he thinks he tastes blood, before his brain realizes there isn’t any this time.

Howard fishes out a bag, a needle, and a spoon, and then he jumps up and scrambles to his bunk, grabbing his lighter and then jumping back down. Kakyoin blinks slowly, his eyes still leaking, his shoulders still shuddering, he feels so cold and yet his shirt is sticking to his back from sweat.

He has the distinct impression of something burning, but he refuses to open his eyes to check. He hears Howard slide open their window, and the patter of the rain outside is what his senses latch onto to try and escape whatever meltdown his spine is having. He sniffles and chokes on phlegm and his heartbeat kicks cause he think it’s blood for a moment again, before his brain catches up and realizes nothing is there, he’s fine, he’s fine he’s fine he HURTS-

Howard is back, and he’s bringing out Kakyoin’s arm, slipping it from the cardigan Holly had knitted for him over a year ago now. Kakyoin moans a small protest, shoulder jerking, but Howard holds strong.

“I know, I know,” he’s saying soothingly, like Kakyoin is an animal, and he grits his teeth, half tempted to bite him like an animal would, but the pain flashes hot and heavy against him again, now reaching up to the back of his skull, and Kakyoin just muffles a cry, digging his face back into his sheets.

Howard ties something around his upper arm, and when Kakyoin squints open, he can see it’s a shoelace. Howard ties it quickly, and Kakyoin grunts softly over the slight constriction. Howard drops his arm and Kakyoin closes his eyes again.

He can hear Howard fumbling around a little bit more before Howard pipes up again, a cold cottonball swabbing against his inner elbow. Kakyoin jerks, blinking his eyes open, but Howard says, “Unless you’re good with needles, don’t look.”

Kakyoin is not actually sure if he’s good with needles, but based on the twisting of his stomach – or lack thereof, a panicking part of him reminds, his hips aching, his intestines tied tightly around the base of his spine, squeezing and squeezing and squeezing – he closes his eyes again, whimpering.

Howard echoes the noise, which makes Kakyoin’s brows furrow in confusion, but he doesn’t get the time to ask before there’s a pinch and Kakyoin inhales sharply, going tense.

“Relax, man,” Howard murmurs. Kakyoin doesn’t listen but Howard doesn’t repeat himself.

After a few deafening heartbeats, Howard removes the needle and unties the shoelace, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“How long?” he croaks as he hears Howard putter about.

“I don’t know,” comes the reply. "It's usually fast." He can hear the dresser moving – Howard probably putting it back in its place – and Kakyoin squints open. He stares out the window to the dark sky, the rain falling in visible sheets illuminated by the streetlamp. Despite it, there isn’t a breeze. Kakyoin stares, and keeps staring, not noticing he’s gone cross-eyed until Howard sits on the bed with him and he blinks, refocusing his gaze. He swallows thickly and hisses when his spine still claws at him.

“How are you doing? You need to stay on your side, by the way," Howard says, and Kakyoin just hides his wet face into his blankets, shuddering.

“Get m’ a tiss- tissue,” Kakyoin mutters into the blankets. Howard gets up again and Kakyoin sighs, relaxing his grip on the blankets. It’s not quick, but the fire in his spine is dying down, and a fuzziness is accompanying his brain, making it easier to at least exist despite the pain still there.

Howard comes back and hesitates with the tissues he has in his hand. “...Do you need me to wipe for you or-”

“Give me the fucking tissues,” Kakyoin snaps, his voice brittle and cracking, and Howard hands them over without another comment. Kakyoin mops at his face, drying his eyes and blowing his nose, shuddering and curling up on his side. Hierophant clumsily manifests as a tentacle, jerkily dragging his pillow from the top of his bed to him now.

“Wha-” Howard jerks, and Kakyoin just closes his eyes and spits out the first thing that comes to mind, attempting to avoid another confrontation about a stupid fucking ghost that isn’t there, it’s him , the ghost is him, it’s just no one here can see it, sometimes Kakyoin wonders if he really did die that night-

Jotaro certainly acts like he did.

“Distract me,” Kakyoin gasps, and Howard verbally flounders for a second.

“I- uh- I- er- I think Rachel has a crush on you,” he says, and it’s so startling that Kakyoin laughs out loud, right from his belly. His spine murmurs, but the pain isn’t as sharp or as hot as it was minutes ago, and Kakyoin closes his eyes.

“Really?” He crows, and Howard scoffs, knocking Kakyoin’s shoulder.

“Don’t be mean about it, I’m serious. I think she likes you,” Howard says, voice getting wistful.

Kakyoin purses his lips. “What, you jealous?”

“I literally just said don’t be an asshole!” Howard snaps and Kakyoin flutters open his eyes again, locking gazes with Howard. Howard is stern, brows knitted together, a tight frown on his face that pinches out his bottom lip a bit. Kakyoin hesitates.

“I’m sorry,” he says, “I didn’t…I’m not really…”

Howard sighs, relaxing back, shuffling so he’s sitting near Kakyoin’s head, resting against the wall their bunk is pushed against. “I know. You’re high and kinda…yeah. I know.” It’s quiet for a moment and Kakyoin hears the rain, soft pattering against the window, like fingers dancing against plastic blinds, and something twists in his throat.

“...Are you serious about that?” Kakyoin mumbles. Howard grunts and sighs.

“...It’s been a while since I’ve seen her so- relaxed around another person. Even if she doesn’t like-you like-you, you make her laugh…” Howard trails off. “She also blushes like, a lot around you. I don’t know if you’ve noticed.”

Kakyoin squints, trying to recall, but only fuzzy memories of Rachel’s brown hair and her pale skin in the dim lighting of the bar, almost like a dream, come to him. “...I guess I just thought she was like that.”

Howard laughs, the sound short. “Please. She’s not mean by any stretch but she’s not normally so…” Howard gestures. “...She’d never have started the food thing for me, for example.”

Kakyoin purses his lips. “She started the food thing after only knowing me for a month.”

Howard chuckles. “What do you think the timeline for liking someone is? A month is long enough to start to get feelings. Sometimes it just kinda clicks.”

Kakyoin hesitates, blue fading into his vision again. His stomach twists uncomfortably and Kakyoin swallows thickly and tries to swerve away from those thoughts, like running from a riptide before the water reaches your waist.

“So, what, should I ask her out?” Kakyoin asks. Howard hums.

“I don’t know. Don’t do it if you don’t like her, especially because…well, like I said, I don’t actually know if she likes you like that.” Howard pauses. “Do you like her? You’re less of an asshole with her than you are with me.”

Kakyoin stares at the window, to the dreamy sequence of raindrops slashing across the light of the streetlamp. The dim yellow lighting reminds him of the pub Rachel’s mom owns, and reminds him of Rachel’s eyes, the dark color reflecting the murky yellow easily. The patter of rain reminds him of her hands, her slim fingers, the sound of her hair whipping the back of a chair when she moves her head suddenly, and he thinks, I could live like that.

He could continue living in that dream-like place with Rachel, black and brown and dim lighting, far away from cold hues like blue. He could hold those slim fingers and not feel gross, he could laugh with her and help her clean dishes like he did once before, could study with her and continue trying food together, and he thinks he could bear it, maybe even like it.

Hierophant shifts inside him and Kakyoin’s heart aches, aches, aches, just like his spine was moments ago. He had accepted it’d be like this since he was a kid, and yet, the journey made him think that maybe, maybe he wouldn’t have to…

Kakyoin exhales softly and closes his eyes again.

“I’m not too sure myself.”

He pauses.

“Do you have any more? I don’t think that- that one shot was enough…”


February 19th, 1994

London, England

“Good work today, Mr. Kakyoin,” his physical therapist says, handing him a water bottle. Kakyoin scowls at the floor, his expression covered by his still growing hair – it’s longer than it was on the journey now. He takes a deep breath, schools his expressions, and raises his head and takes a sip.

He’s exhausted, his eyes burning with it, his legs shaky and his spine aching and sweat slicking his hair to his face, his shirt to his skin. Even with Hierophant’s help, physical therapy is never easy, and he’s never felt it so blatantly until now. He feels disgusting. He’s so tired. He has class after this.

He bares his teeth at his shoes.

How am I going to pay attention like this?

“If this progress keeps up,” the physical therapist, “you might be able to walk at your graduation ceremony. Wouldn’t that be wonderful?”

Kakyoin grunts some appropriate reply and takes another sip of water. Fuck, he wanted a nap.

“Anyway, I know your schedule is pretty packed, so I won’t talk your ear off. See you next week?”

Kakyoin gives another assent and with that, the doctor walks him to the door, pushing his wheelchair for him. Kakyoin bids the doctor goodbye, exists the building, rolls down the street, and then ducks into the first alley he sees.

He riffles through his pockets, Hierophant holding his water bottle for him, as he rips out his pill bottle. He snaps the cap open, holds out his free hand, and-

Only six pills shake into his hand and his heart sinks.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. This bottle is supposed to last me three more days, no, why- WHY DOES IT KEEP RUNNING OUT?!

Kakyoin snarls viciously, the backs of his eyes burning, before he shoves the remaining pills inside, hands shaking.

I can’t go without them again, but I already have the maximum legal dose, I can’t get any more, I can’t-

He pauses, Howard’s fix last time coming to mind. It was fucking weird, and it was- he’s aware doing hard drugs is a problem, but is heroin really…? It wasn’t like methamphetamine…

Kakyoin sucks in a shaky breath. Howard’s words from that time echo in his head. They’re both opioids…

Kakyoin purses his lips, running a hand through his hair, grimacing at the sweat collected at the roots, slicking his fingers and making them sticky.

That’s right. He literally has a prescription for opioids already… so, would it really be like- acting like a junkie if he…?

Kakyoin takes another deep breath, the air rattling in his lungs, and for a moment Kakyoin could believe his lungs are deflated just like they were at 17, and he shudders and shakes his head.

It's not like he has his own supply. He couldn't be a junkie. He needs to go back to the dorm to shower anyway, and as per Howard’s own admittance, he doesn’t use the heroin much himself…so maybe just this one time, or every so often…

He just can't risk draining his pills again.

Kakyoin hums as he turns and rolls back out of the alley, staring down at the ground as he makes his way to the bus stop. Frankly, if he remembers right, heroin might be better for day-use anyway, because he doesn’t get as tired so much as just…mellow….

By the time the bus arrives, Kakyoin’s decided: If Howard isn’t home, I’ll just- take a quick dose. Since you inject it straight into your veins, Kakyoin reasons, it's not like he'd need a lot. Howard won't even notice.

He holds his breath as the bus reaches his stop and he gets off, rolling through the doors of the dorm, his heart pounding low in his stomach, heavy and cold. He gently creaks open the door, and-

No one.

He isn’t quite sure what he’s feeling, shoulder slumping with relief, but something else twisting inside him. He doesn’t care – he doesn’t have much time to deal with this.

He pulls out Howard’s drawer like he remembers from a month ago and riffles inside with Hierophant’s tentacle, and finds the bag. He swallows thickly, pulls it out, and gets to work.


March 24th, 1994

London, England

Howard’s been silent for a while in his respective beanbag, and when Kakyoin blinks, looking up from the magazine he had been reading, he sees he has fallen asleep.

Kakyoin snickers, before stretching and grabbing the rest of the weed Howard didn’t get to, Hierophant gently picking him up and placing him in his wheelchair, then picking them up as a unit and carrying him up the stairs of the house. While weed was fun enough, it wasn’t Kakyoin’s favorite – a mouthful of smoke and a bad taste to boot just put him off, so he certainly wasn’t going to finish the stash.

Once making it to the top landing, he gently opens the basement door and rolls out into the hallway, looking for Howard’s friend. He doesn’t really know him other than he’s a year or two older than him and Howard, but the weed is his, so…

Kakyoin rolls into the living room and sees the man's head past the back of the couch. “Hey, Howard fell asleep, so here’s the rest of the…”

He rolls past to face him, only to blink. The man is frozen, a needle in his arm, looking up at Kakyoin with wide eyes.

“...Um,”

The man pulls the needle swiftly out of his arm, coughing as he unties the ribbon around his bicep. Clearing his throat, he says, “You didn’t see shit, got it?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes, scoffing as he places the weed on the coffee table. “Please. I know what heroin is and I don’t care.”

The man huffs but nods, relaxing a little. “Good.” He blinks. “Sorry, what were you saying?”

Kakyoin clears his throat, gesturing to the coffee table. “Howard fell asleep and I’m not all that into smoking by myself, so, here’s what he didn’t finish.”

The man snorts, nodding, and he gets up to pack it away. “Figures. He always gets tired when he gets high.” Kakyoin hums. He pauses for a second before commenting, “Didn’t realize you could get up the stairs without help.”

Kakyoin smirks. “I’m pretty crafty.”

The man huffs a laugh. “Yeah, no kidding.” He sighs, finishing packing the weed, and leans back into the sofa. “You sure you don’t care about…that? I know Howard still shoots up a little but he gets jumpy about it. It’s best if he doesn’t know.”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “He’s not a baby, he’s fine. And yes, I’m serious, I’m not some kid either. I’ve tried it too, you know.”

The man raises a brow. “Oh?”

Kakyoin narrows his eyes. “Yeah. It’s fine.”

The man laughs, waving a hand. “No, I know. ‘S a great way to fight off insomnia. Speaking of, you guys should probably get on out of here, it’s getting late.”

Kakyoin nods, before hesitating. “...Do you sell that stuff?”

The man blinks. “What, brown?”

Kakyoin takes a breath. “...Yeah.”

The man stares at Kakyoin for a moment, saying nothing before he shrugs. “Kinda. I’m not really a dealer but hey, if friends want some they can pay a little and I’ll give it.”

Kakyoin purses his lips. “What about friends of a friend?”

The man stares for a second longer. “If the friend of a friend doesn't tell, sure,” he finally says.

Kakyoin nods, pauses. Howard’s stash is running out, and Kakyoin can’t keep using it the way he has been without Howard noticing…

It’s not my fault my pills aren’t a high enough dose. It’s the same chemical just different administrations. It’s fine. It’s fine. It’s fine.

He digs in his pocket and pulls out a 20 pound note. “Could this get me anything?”

The man blinks before laughing, and Kakyoin scowls.

“You don’t have to be an assho-”

“No, no,” the man chuckles, “i’m just- you don’t like dope, but brown’s good?”

Kakyoin rolls his eyes. “Brown doesn’t stink to high heaven.”

The man laughs. “I guess. Sure, I can get you a little doggy bag before you guys leave. Go ahead and wake Howard while I get it – and don’t let him know I gave some to you.”

Kakyoin hates the relief that floods his chest. He nods, sets the note on the coffee table, and turns to go back down to the basement to wake up Howard.

Still, at least he has his damn medicine now…

Kakyoin ignores the dread twisting in him, dark and ghostly, as if his stomach came back just to let him know whenever he makes a stupid decision.

Oh well. It’s not his fault the legal limits don’t account for people like him.


July 24th, 1994

London, England

“Let’s go Kakyoin!”

“Come on Kak!”

“I’m not ‘Kak’!” Kakyoin calls across the way as he slowly walks along the pad, his physical therapist keeping pace with him as he does. Kakyoin has one hand holding onto the support bars flanking him on both sides, but the other is simply hovering near his side, more a balance support than a weight support. Hierophant twists around his spine and legs, an unseen assistance. Kakyoin walks forward, and he shouldn’t be so smug over his feet actually lifting off the ground and not just dragging forward, but he is, and he doesn’t have the energy to care.

It’s fine.

“You’re doing great is what you are,” his physical therapist says, nodding his head in approval, and Kakyoin snorts, but his chest still sings high in praise. He’s not even sweating. He takes another step forward.

His physical therapist had promised him, if all goes well, this would probably be the last appointment he needed at the clinic. You should continue to do exercises every day, especially if you feel pain or stiff, he had warned, but this should be the last time you need to see me. Happy graduation!

Kakyoin smiles and his smile widens as he makes it past halfway along the walkway. Rachel is grinning at him brightly next to Howard, her brown eyes reflecting the natural light the facility lets in, and Kakyoin is reminded of Howard’s words months ago. He still hasn’t done anything about it, but as he moves along, Hierophant working with him like a well-oiled machine, his legs moving slowly but normally for the first time since he woke up, Kakyoin thinks he could stand to be a little curious, even if he knows it won’t work out. The way Rachel and Howard both stay focused on his face and not his legs where Hierophant is wrapped is cotton inside his skull, crowded around his brain– not in a way that hurts, but the pressure of the observation is too much to ignore it. He remembers Avdol’s words and takes a deep breath and takes another step towards his…friends.

…I still haven’t called Avdol back… Kakyoin muses, and he almost stumbles.

“Careful!” His PT calls, and Kakyoin grits his teeth. “Are you alright?”

“Fine,” Kakyoin assures smoothly, and he sighs, “just tilted forward a bit more than needed.”

Avdol’s been trying to call him, he knows; Howard has answered and offered the phone at least five times in the months it’s been, but Kakyoin just…

He was so angry, and now he’s so high, and he still doesn’t know what to say to Avdol, shame twisting his tongue. He doesn’t want to know what Avdol would say to him.

Kakyoin sucks in a breath and continues on.

“Come on, Kakyoin!” Rachel calls, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze up to her again. She’s smiling widely, stance open and confident, like she has no doubt Kakyoin will make it to her. “We’re getting lunch after this and I’m hungry! Hustle!”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh and matches her grin, and again he has that hesitant warmth in his chest, the realization that he could be okay enough like this, with Rachel, and he resolutely ignores the blue that shows up behind his eyelids.

“You’re paying,” Kakyoin retorts, and Rachel laughs.

“I was thinking Howard should pay, actually,” Rachel crows, and Howard squawks.

“What?! Why?!”

“To make up for all the times I paid when we were trying new food!” Rachel responds, knocking Howard’s shoulder, and Howard stammers, throwing his hands up before giving up, sighing dramatically.

“She’s right,” Kakyoin snorts, “it’s your turn,” and Howard huffs, pointing at Kakyoin as he walks ever closer.

“Why don’t you pay, huh?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Why, isn’t it a gift to me for finishing PT?”

Howard blinks before scowling dramatically. “You guys always gang up on me!”

Rachel snorts. “You make it so easy.”

Howard squawks again and Kakyoin finally makes it to the end of the walkway and Rachel’s smile is so wide he can see her teeth. They shine like her eyes.

“Mr. Kakyoin, congratulations!” His physical therapist cheers, and Kakyoin just grins and keeps walking, letting go of the bar and heading toward Rachel and Howard.

“Congrats, Kakyoin!” Rachel compliments, voice high in joy, and Kakyoin keeps walking, walking, until he’s within arm’s reach and he takes Rachel’s hand.

“Go out with me,” Kakyoin blurts, and Rachel’s face burns bright red, mouth dropping open. Howard’s gaze jerks between the two, eyes wide, and the back of Kakyoin’s neck prickles.

“I- what?” Rachel stammers, gaze darting down to their entwined hands, and the back of Kakyoin’s neck feels hot, slowly creeping up to his face, but he keeps his gaze steady as he repeats himself.

“Will you go out with me? It doesn’t have to mean anything, I just-” I just want to move on , he doesn’t say. Kakyoin closes his mouth, his eyes sliding down to their hands, and Rachel squeezes his palm.

Rachel’s mouth opens and closes a few times before she says, “Howard is right here?” in a high voice.

“Yeah. So’s my physical therapist. I…know it’s sudden, I just-” Kakyoin swallows, his spine beginning to ache over holding his weight, but he ignores it. “You’re my friend.” the words taste bad in Kakyoin’s mouth, and he tries again. “I think it could be fun.” They’re bittersweet, a sour tart, but they taste better than the others.

Rachel hesitates before swallowing, standing straight, and gripping his hand with both of hers. “I- yeah, I can go on a date with you. I-” She flushes then, but she smiles widely, her teeth showing, and something in Kakyoin pangs low, between his ribs, like a knife cutting into him. “I would like that.”

Howard whistles then and both of them flinch.

“Damn! I’m right here still you know,” He crows and Rachel flushes even darker, swatting at him, which he dodges.

“Shut up!” Rachel sputters, and Howard laughs.

“We’re still getting lunch as a group though, right? Or are you guys kicking me out?”

Kakyoin snorts. “You can’t pay if we kick you out.”

Howard groans and Rachel laughs and his physical therapist walks up to him then, and Kakyoin’s reminded of just how exhausted he is, his legs shaking under his weight even with Hierophant’s assistance.

“Before any of that,” his physical therapist chuckles, “Let’s see if we have any crutches in the back that can suit you until you can order your own, hm?”


After lunch, Kakyoin retreats to the first floor dorm bathroom, keeping the door pinned shut with a few tentacles and ripping open a bag while he tightens his belt around his upper arm with his teeth. Additional tentacles of Hierophant’s slink under the door to him with Howard’s lighter that he’s borrowing for just a minute. He turns on the sink, slightly fills a spoon, then pours some powder into it, grunting as he flicks the lighter and puts it underneath.

He blinks, or at least he thinks he does, but it must be longer than that, because when he opens his eyes again, the needle is going into his arm and he slumps, closing them again. The pain in his back abides to the medicine – Kakyoin twitches. When did I start calling this medicine? – and his brain gets flooded with static.

It’s never overwhelming, but it’s always just- enough. Similar to Rachel in a way… Kakyoin shakes his head roughly and breathes. It’s okay. It is medicine to me. I just get prescribed an oral form of it but it’s the same chemical…chemical composition. I get to…I get to…do this…

He lazily pulls the needle out.

Anything to not run out of pills again.


“So, what did you wanna do?” Rachel asks later that evening, when it’s just him and her as they go out through the streets. Kakyoin grunts as he pitches forward with his crutches, his head spinning a bit with the drugs in his system. The crutches the PT office gave him would do for now, but he’s excited for when the ones he ordered will come in… “Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin blinks, and remembers he was asked a question. “Oh. I…” He chuckles, shaking his head. “Not sure. I didn’t think this far ahead.”

Rachel snorts. “Didn’t take you for impulsive,” she says cheekily. Kakyoin laughs, swaying where he stands. It was intentional – it felt soothing – but Rachel glances at him and he feels inclined to stop.

Clearing his throat, he says, “Le’s just…walk around a bit. Window shop?” He gestures vaguely. Rachel chuckles.

“Sure, sure.”

They walk down the streets together, Kakyoin focusing on his crutches, making sure he doesn’t lose his grip on them. He wishes he didn’t shoot so much before coming back out; his fingers are feeling sort of numb…

“Y’know,” Rachel says, cutting into Kakyoin’s half baked thoughts, a plane through clouds, “I don’t think I realized just how tall you were until now.”

Kakyoin blinks, the words computing slowly, but once they do, he laughs. “Yeah? Chair’s deceiving, huh?”

Rachel snorts. Kakyoin leans into her space a bit to emphasize their height difference, his cheek brushing the top of her hair, and she laughs outright, coincidentally distracting her from the smack forward he has to do with his crutch to keep from falling.

Clearing his throat, Kakyoin pushes on, squinting at the sidewalk. The light is kinda irritating, even if it is turning dark… “So, any idea what shops you want to go to?”

Rachel shrugs. “I think first we should get to an actual shopping area,” she teases lightly. Kakyoin snorts and nods, and follows her lead.

They hop a bus to head further downtown, Rachel standing with him near the disabled section at the front of it, one hand messing with the hem of her burnt orange sweater, the other holding onto a hand grip.

She hesitates before leaning her head against his arm, and Kakyoin’s heart jumps into his throat, something squeezing uncomfortably in his chest.

“This jacket’s nice,” she comments, and Kakyoin glances down at her. “This fabric, I mean. It’s soft.”

Kakyoin nods. “Yeah. My…” he pauses, unsure what to call Holly. “...um, my...friend’s mom made it for me before going to college.”

“...Yeah?”

Kakyoin shifts. The bus comes to a stop, and more people come on. She lifts her head, shuffling back to her own space next to him. Kakyoin clears his throat.

“Did your friend ask her to make it?”

Kakyoin blinks before scowling, something rising to the backs of his eyes. “No,” his voice comes out warbled, and Rachel looks up at him. Kakyoin blinks before taking a breath. Composure, composure. The irritation fades into the haze of his brain. “I don’t know,” he admits. “But I don’t think so.”

Rachel hums. “...She must be a very giving person then.”

Kakyoin chuckles a little, his heart squeezing. “Yeah. She is.”

They reach their stop and hop off of the bus, Kakyoin’s crutches clicking as he moves.

“She kinda reminds me of you,” Kakyoin says. Rachel lets out a noise, prompting him to elaborate. Kakyoin shrugs, squinting in the light. “Just…nice.”

Rachel blinks before flushing a small bit, hiding a smile as she turns her head. “I see.”

Kakyoin tries to feel something, but all he can really focus on is the light searing into his eyes, and he rubs them. “A-anyway, did you have a place in mind?”

Rachel hums. “Not really. Let’s just walk around?”

Kakyoin hums, distracted, and drops his hand back into his crutch. They walk along. Kakyoin loses himself in the motions of hefting himself forward, one crutch at a time, when Rachel pipes up, “You’re breathing really fast. Do you need to slow down?”

Kakyoin blinks and swivels his head. “Huh?”

Rachel gestures, and it’s then that Kakyoin realizes his mouth is open, he’s sweating, and his tongue feels dry. He closes his jaw, swallowing. “Oh. Uh. I didn’t- didn’t notice.”

Rachel chuckles softly. “Let’s get drinks then?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Alcohol?”

“Wha- no!” Rachel sputters, eyes rolling over Kakyoin’s form as she gently knocks his arm, “I mean, let’s stop into a store and get something to drink. Maybe browse around while we’re in there.”

Kakyoin ignores the odd flash of disappointment and hums his assent. She ducks in between two doors and Kakyoin blinks before scrambling after her, shoving open the door with his shoulder.

They get inside, and Kakyoin rubs his eyes. The lights still feel too bright…

“You okay?” Rachel asks, and Kakyoin blinks a couple of times in a row.

“Yeah, just- bright,” he mutters. Rachel hums before pointing toward the fridge section.

“Here, let’s get you hydrated, then we can really explore.”

She grabs a bottle of iced tea – Kakyoin wrinkles his nose – but he sees it’s unsweetened, which soothes the distaste. They pay quickly and Rachel watches him as he takes a sip.

“Better?” She asks. Kakyoin grunts.

“Tastes terrible,” he complains, and she laughs a little.

“Well, come on, let’s take a look around.”

They had walked into a clothing store, Kakyoin discovers, but not an overly fancy one; Kakyoin doesn’t notice any brand names and the employees aren’t wearing over-the-top uniforms. His gaze lingers on a sunglasses rack. He can feel Hierophant twisting inside him. It’d be so easy to steal-

“Your pupils are really small,” Rachel comments, and Kakyoin’s stomach drops, his attention snapping back to her.

“Oh yeah?” He shoots back, gaze darting around. “Not- not my fault, that the store is so bright.”

Rachel hums. Kakyoin’s gaze jerks back to the sunglasses and he hikes forward, his crutches clicking against the tiled floor. Rachel lets out a small exclamation before hurrying after him.

He grabs the first two he sees, jerks his normal glasses up to rest on his head, and shoves the pair on, before turning and handing the extra to Rachel.

“Huh-?”

“I didn’t know British people knew what sunglasses were,” Kakyoin jokes. “Cause…cause it’s so rainy.”

Rachel sputters before chuckling, gently taking the pair Kakyoin had given her – the frames are red with blue lenses.

“How do I look?”

Kakyoin looks up and he can smile. They’re triangle shaped and combine with the geometry of her face in a silly way, but her smile shows her teeth and Kakyoin can’t help but find things easier to look at with the sunglasses. Hm…

“Good,” Kakyoin answers before adding, “How do I look? I kinda like the uh…color.” He isn’t sure how to communicate that the orange-colored lenses seem to relax his eyes. He isn’t sure he really wants Rachel to know that, given her earlier comment…

Rachel chuckles, flipping her sunglasses up. “You’re cute.” Kakyoin blinks – he wasn’t expecting that , and it’s only then he remembers this is sort of like a date, and his stomach churns a bit. She continues, “heart-shaped, really? Kinda sappy, don’t you think?”

Kakyoin blinks again. Heart-shaped? He pulls them off, sliding his normal glasses back down to his nose, and, sure enough, the pair he grabbed has magenta-colored, heart-shaped frames. “Huh,” he says thoughtfully. “...Didn’t notice.”

Rachel hums. Kakyoin shakes his head.

“I wanna buy ‘em,” he slurs, and Rachel blinks.

“Wha- really?”

“Yeah!” Kakyoin says, shoving them back on over his normal glasses, shoulders slumping as his eyes are shielded from the light again. He shifts his stance with his crutch and ignores the sweat sticking his shirt to his back under his cardigan. “Do you like those? Should we buy them too?”

“I…” Rachel pauses before she offers a small smirk. “Well, Britain doesn’t get a lot of sunlight, right?”

“Hah!” Kakyoin barks. “I guess. I’m still buying, though.”

Rachel nods before putting the sunglasses back on the rack. Kakyoin retreats back to the registers and tries to ignore the ache spreading along his spine. It can’t be running out yet, I did a full dose, come on.

He buys the sunglasses and walks out of the store only to realize Rachel isn’t with him. He blinks before turning back around to head in, but she walks through the door then, eyes scanning before she spots him and her shoulders slump.

“Jeez, I turned around and you were gone!” Rachel calls and Kakyoin blinks.

“Oh,” he says dumbly. Rachel sighs, shaking her head.

“Well, do you want to keep looking around?” She asks, handing him his tea. Kakyoin blinks at the bottle, slowly taking it and sipping a small bit. His back surges. He closes his eyes behind the sunglasses.

“Sure.”


“So,” Rachel starts once they get off the bus and arrive back in front of their dorm building, “you’ve been high all night.”

Kakyoin freezes, blood turning to ice, so encompassing he can’t even shiver. “What?”

Rachel sighs. “Don’t you remember what I told you last year? About-” she grits her teeth “-about Howard? I know what being high looks like and Kakyoin- you're like the poster child!"

His brain races forward and his excuse comes tumbling out, “I- my painkillers-”

“Do you think I’m an idiot?” She snaps, turning to glare at him. Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, but no sound comes out.

“My painkillers-” he tries again, because it’s the same damn chemical, yes it’s administered in a different way, but-

“Painkillers my ass!” Rachel shouts, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth. “If you were taking your prescribed dose you wouldn’t be acting like this! You wouldn’t be so dazed you forget I was still inside a store!”

Kakyoin just stares, lips slightly parted. He’s never been so sloppy when he’s needed to hide things…just how much did he shoot up after lunch? He’s suddenly not sure. He had his eyes closed during most of the process, Hierophant doing most of the work…

“I don’t even want to know,” Rachel’s voice begins wavering, but she’s glaring, and Kakyoin is pinned under her gaze, a part of him buried after rock but wishing he were buried under the sea instead. “I don’t want to know what you’re doing or your excuse for it. I just want to know why, when you know my history with this- this shit, you still ask me out! You still-” Her voice cracks and Kakyoin can’t move.

“I didn’t- I wasn’t-” Kakyoin pauses. He takes a deep breath and Rachel drops her head. Kakyoin reaches up and takes his new sunglasses off, gripping his crutches to move forward a step before deciding against it. “I wasn’t thinking of it like that,” he says instead, softly.

Rachel sniffs, shaking her head. “Well that’s how I think of it. That’s cruel, Kakyoin!”

Kakyoin winces as if he’s been smacked. “I didn’t realize I was so- inebriated-”

“Isn’t that how it always goes?” Rachel cuts in, voice rising a bit, and she looks back up, eyes wide in fury. “Your tolerance rises and rises and rises until you have to kill yourself to experience one more fucking high-”

“I’m not gonna kill myself,” Kakyoin snaps, “I’m fine-”

“YOU’RE NOT FINE!” Rachel yells, and Kakyoin grinds his teeth, before she continues, “Do you think, despite our history, Howard and I don’t talk? You spend nights by the phone trying over and over to reach someone who never picks up, you have huge bags under your eyes that only get worse every single time I see you, I don’t see you eat at all unless I prompt you to, I- do you think- do you not realize-” Rachel’s voice keeps shaking and it’s like an earthquake and Kakyoin were a building, the rolling waves making him tremble in his own foundations.

Rachel pauses, taking a deep breath. Kakyoin swallows thickly before commenting icily, softly, “If you knew all this, if you were- put off, by all this, why did you even go out with me today then?”

“Because I wanted- I thought-” Rachel lets out a sob then and Kakyoin blinks, roused from his anger, the smokey tendrils letting him go to dump him in the coals of shame instead. “I wanted to believe you were- were moving on from whatever obviously happened to you. Because you do things sometimes that make me think- make me think you are, like- like getting your crutches, and trying new food with me, and-” Rachel sniffles, “a…asking me out.”

Kakyoin hesitates before finally giving into impulse and stepping forward. Rachel lets him into her space, even reaching for his hand when he’s close enough, and Kakyoin lets her have it. She holds it with both hands, his palm facing up, and decidedly stares down at it instead of up at Kakyoin.

“But that was just a thought,” Rachel whimpers, voice high and shaky and quiet, and Kakyoin opens his mouth but something like saltwater holds his tongue.

“I think it’s clear you’re still mourning something,” Rachel continues. “Still mourning someone.

Kakyoin’s breath hitches, blue haunting the backs of his eyes. It never really stops, does it? Something starts boiling in Kakyoin then.

Rachel takes a deep, shuddering breath, closing her eyes as she squeezes his palm for a second, before gently letting it slip from her grip, falling back down to Kakyoin’s side. He lets her, his fingers feeling numb.

“I could wait, you know,” Rachel says, her voice so quiet, and Kakyoin can’t breathe. “I could wait for you. But only if you were actively- only if…you were getting better.” Her face drops. “And…you’re not.”

Kakyoin wants to open his mouth and deny it, wants to remind her I have crutches now instead of just the wheelchair, wants to say but isn’t the fact I’m reaching for you indicative of trying? But the words won’t come. He thinks of the stash of needles in his room and blood roars in his ears.

“You can reach out,” Rachel says, still not looking up. “You’re my friend. I don’t hate you. But…” She takes a breath. “But I can’t watch this happen again. Even if it doesn’t end the same way, I can’t- so I- I-”

“I understand,” Kakyoin croaks, and Rachel clenches her teeth, and to Kakyoin’s horror, a tear falls down her face. Her shoulders quake, a wet exhale sounding out between them, and Kakyoin can only stare, his hands limp.

“I hope you get better,” she sobs to the ground, “I hope you get better. But I- I have to get better, too. And that- that means I can’t- I can’t-” she sniffles, and Kakyoin finally reaches out again, tapping her shoe lightly with his crutch. She cuts herself off, whimpering, and it’s a sound Kakyoin never wanted to hear from her. “I can’t be in this situation anymore,” she finishes.

“I understand,” Kakyoin echoes again. “I understand.”

Rachel takes a deep breath before looking up. Her eyes are still not the blue Kakyoin keeps expecting, and this time he can’t even push the thought aside. It’s not fair to keep ignoring a bad pattern, he supposes. She hesitates before she leans in, kissing Kakyoin’s cheek, and Kakyoin can’t breathe. He pinpoints a smell, likely her shampoo: it is vanilla, and it is so separate from the nicotine he’s used to, the nicotine he was bracing himself for. He jerks his gaze down to the floor.

Rachel steps away shakily, her footsteps the opposite of rhythmic as she stumbles away. Kakyoin still thinks she has her dignity despite it. At least to him, she does.

“Goodbye,” she says quietly, and Kakyoin says nothing back. He stays staring at the floor long after she’s gone. He stays until his back and arms ache so much he’s shaking before he finally moves, heading to his own dorm.

As he takes his nightly round of pills – his actual pills – Kakyoin can’t stop thinking of her words. He closes his eyes, washes them down with a warm bottle of beer he had stashed in his wardrobe, and goes to sleep.


May 21st, 1995

London, England

“God damn, how’d you even get this dude?” One of Kakyoin’s classmates asks as he scans the document, jotting some notes on a small pad of paper he had.

Kakyoin smirks as Hierophant twirls up and around his arms like a snake, clearly pleased. “I have my ways.”

“Well, as long as you’re sure we won’t get caught,” another classmate says. “You sure you just want 40 pounds for this?”

Kakyoin nods. “Yep. It’s not like it’s a big deal for me to get my hands on.”

The first classmate laughs. “Y’know, I never would’ve taken you for the cheating type. You’re such a goody-two-shoes in class.”

“I haven’t looked at it,” Kakyoin snaps, “I don’t need to cheat to do well.”

The first classmate snickers and Kakyoin jabs his crutch at him, making him yelp and jump back.

“Hey, hey!” the second classmate intervenes, hip-checking his friend. “Sorry about him, he’s an idiot. That's why he’s here.”

“Hey!”

Kakyoin huffs.

After finishing rewriting the exam question on a separate piece of paper, Kakyoin takes back the official document and turns to the boys with a raised brow. With a bit of shuffling, both produce 20 pound notes, which Kakyoin takes graciously.

“Pleasure doing business,” Kakyoin says, pocketing the money, and the other two snort.

“Yeah, yeah. Have fun ‘studying,’” the first guy mutters. The second classmate elbows him harshly before nodding at Kakyoin and walking away.

Kakyoin rolls his eyes with a smirk, turning to Hierophant as he hikes down the hall to the library entrance, Hierophant already slinking away to return the copy of the final he’d snagged. As he walks around campus to get within range for Hierophant to do so, he keeps the lookout for a payphone.

Once spotted – right outside the anthropology building, no less – Kakyoin shoves some change into it and dials the number of Howard’s friend. Kakyoin still isn’t quite sure what his name is, but…

“Mm, hello?” A groggy voice asks. Kakyoin politely deigns to ignore the fact he just woke up even though it’s one in the afternoon.

“Hey, it’s Howard’s roommate,” Kakyoin replies. Hierophant returns to him from putting back the test, and Kakyoin dismisses him.

“Ohhh, hey dude,” the friend greets, “is Howard w’you?”

“No, just me,” Kakyoin says.

“Ah,” he says, sounding more awake. “So that means-?”

“Yeah. Can I come over now to get it? 40 pounds?”

“Sure, mate,” he yawns. “Tell Howard we should smoke again soon. You can come too, if you want…he’s been avoiding me lately, I think.”

Kakyoin purses his lips but confirms he’ll talk to him, after which Kakyoin hangs up. The friend isn’t wrong – Howard hasn’t gone out as much lately, opting instead of just hanging at Rachel’s bar. Kakyoin doesn’t go with him and Howard very graciously elected not to comment on their evident falling out.

He hops a bus to the neighborhood and before he knows it, he’s knocking on the door.

Howard’s friend opens it up, invites Kakyoin in without a word, and once the door is closed, lights a joint and takes a hit, before offering it to Kakyoin. Kakyoin pauses before shrugging, taking the blunt and inhaling. He doesn’t cough anymore.

“I think Howard’s just kinda getting over this stuff,” his friend says when Kakyoin hands the joint back, before he pads to the kitchen, Kakyoin following behind. “Don’t blame ‘im. Heh. Still, I guess I’ll miss him. He was funny, the punk.”

Kakyoin just lets him ramble without a word, humming when appropriate, shifting his weight from one crutch to the next. Finally, after fiddling in some cabinets, the friend turns around with a baggy of brown powder. Kakyoin immediately shoves the two notes his way and grabs for the heroin, making the friend chuckle.

“You be careful, dude. This isn’t dope, you can actually overdose on this shit,” he says lightly.

Kakyoin scoffs as he “pockets” the bag, Hierophant actually winding around it and taking it outside. It’s best not to be seen with that on his person. “Please. I’ve been dealing with shit like it since I was 18. I know how I react to it.”

The man raises an eyebrow. “Mhmm?”

Kakyoin says nothing but scowls. The man sighs and shakes his head.

“Just be careful. You got needles?” Kakyoin nods and the man clicks his tongue, echoing the nod.

“Alright. If that’s all,” he muses as he pockets the money, taking another hit from the blunt, “you might as well head out before the weed gets into your clothes.”

Kakyoin snorts and nods, turning to leave.

“Be careful though, I’m serious!” The man calls. Kakyoin waves him off and heads out the door.

He hums as he makes his way back to the bus stop, not inclined to stay any longer in the neighborhood, but musing over if he should return home yet. It’s a rare sunny day, and he’d like to enjoy it, but there’s a murmuring beginning in his spine and he’s forced to remember that it’s been six-to-seven hours since his last dose of opioids. A part of him reminds the rest that he used to be able to go the full 12 hours that he’s technically supposed to have as a buffer between doses just fine, but he pushes the thought away.

He sighs, rubbing a hand across his face. “Fine,” he mutters. I’ll stop by just enough to get a small dose. Just enough to stop this fucking spine.

Shaking his head, Kakyoin continues to the bus stop.


When Kakyoin makes it back to the dorms, Howard is waiting outside, fidgeting. Kakyoin raises a brow.

“Howard?”

Howard jumps, turning to face Kakyoin. “Oh, hey, Kakyoin! I was wondering where you were this morning.”

“Studying,” Kakyoin lies easily. “Was there a fire alarm or something? Why are you so shaken?”

“I’m not shaken!” He denies. Kakyoin raises a brow. Howard sighs.

“Look, just…” Howard runs a hand through his hair. “Don’t be mad,” he starts. Kakyoin squints.

“What?”

“Just…” Howard shakes his head. “Just come on.”

Kakyoin would press, but his spine is slowly amping up for a full on tantrum, so he follows wordlessly when Howard turns and walks inside, his crutches clicking as he does so. Let's just get this over with. They head to their dorm room and Kakyoin is starting to wonder if maybe Howard broke something, when the door opens and his mind goes blank.

“Hey, Kakyoin,” Polnareff says from where he’s sitting on Kakyoin’s bunk, Rachel seated near the desk, “it’s been a while.”

Kakyoin opens his mouth but nothing comes out.

“Don’t get mad,” he can hear Howard warn behind him. Kakyoin grits his teeth and turns, his spine cracking as he does, a flood of pain, liquid fire, dripping down to his waist, glaring.

“What the fuck is this?” He hisses.

“Whoa, language,” Polnareff calls and Kakyoin rounds on him, seething, and his spine’s fury only gets hotter.

“What the hell are you doing here?!” Kakyoin yells. Polnareff just stares with an unamused gaze, crossing his arms.

“It’s been months since you last called us, asshole,” Polnareff snaps, and Kakyoin shuts up. “I wanted to check in and make sure you were, you know, alive.”

“Can you just hear us out?” Rachel asks, voice quiet and tired, and Kakyoin shudders. He refuses to look at her.

“Get the hell off my bunk,” he snaps, which Polnareff thankfully does without question. Kakyoin slumps down, his spine quieting as he takes the strain off of it, and crosses his arms, glaring at Polnareff, who stares with an unamused gaze back.

Kakyoin breaks the stare to shake his head, scoffing. “Alright, what is this?”

Howard sighs, joining Rachel near the desk, while Polnareff stands near the door. “Well, I think it’s obvious this is an intervention of sorts,” Howard says.

“Uh-huh,” Kakyoin says flatly before pointing with a thumb at Polnareff, “how the hell did you drag this guy over here?”

“I’m here because your friends have been worried about you,” Polnareff spits, and Kakyoin turns on him with a snarl.

“Yeah? Yeah? You’re worried about me? You all worried about poor little Kakyoin, can’t even walk…” his voice dies in his throat as he turns to look at Rachel and Howard, remembering they’re there.

“You’re such an asshole, you know that?” Polnareff snaps, and Kakyoin just drops his gaze to the floor. “ Yes, worried, even with your damn pride. The last time you called Avdol, you had an argument. I wasn’t there for it but-”

“You’re never there for any of it,” Kakyoin says darkly, tone gravely. “When’s the last time we talked? You’re all so busy with the Speedwagon Foundation and- and America - that the only one who ever even tried to keep in touch was Avd-” his voice breaks and Kakyoin lashes out, fist slamming into his bed frame, and everyone goes silent.

Polnareff’s stance softens, his arms dropping from his chest. “...Kakyoin-”

“I don’t want to hear it,” Kakyoin seethes, “it’s fine, it’s-”

“It’s not fine!” Rachel shouts, voice smacking into Kakyoin like a whip, and he flinches, going silent. “This is so not fucking fine! Look- we’re getting off track. Let me take the lead,” she scowls.

Polnareff ducks his head and Kakyoin refuses to say anything. Rachel clears her throat.

“After- After last year,” she starts, “I know I said I was just going to leave you be but I- I started to talk with Howard. He admitted to me-” she wrinkles her nose and it’s Howard’s turn to look down in shame, “he told me he gave you heroin once, when your pills had run out. And that you've tried pot and routinely mix alcohol and your pills and-” Rachel sucks in a breath while Kakyoin has frozen over completely. “And just that, it had all gotten out of hand,” she murmurs.

It’s quiet for a beat, Kakyoin’s skin prickling where he can feel Polnareff’s gaze on him. Really just putting it all in the open, huh? Howard speaks up then,

“I…I had gotten a little worried, y’know? And…I knew it wasn’t good that I was still doing all that shit too. So I talked to Rachel about…figuring out how to stop. For good. And I figured…we could…” he sighs. “Go to rehab together? Over the summer? So you don’t even have to miss school-”

“No,” Kakyoin says, and Rachel sneers while Howard and Polnareff both begin to vocalize, but Kakyoin speaks over them, “no!”

“Kakyoin, Mr. Joestar said he'd pay for-” Polnareff starts but Kakyoin shakes his head vigorously, embarrassment flaring up around his neck and to his face over the notion that- that Mr. Joestar might know-

“Look,” Kakyoin snarls, “I think it’s a good idea for you to go, Howard, but I’m fine-” Rachel barks out a laugh and Kakyoin bears his teeth at the floor, still not quite able to look at her, but fury warming up his veins either way, “but I- I literally have a prescription for this shit! Yes, okay, stop the dope, stop the- the alcohol, but I-”

“But the heroin can stay?!” Polnareff questions and Kakyoin whips his head up, snarling.

“Shut up! I literally have a prescription for opioids okay, I need this stuff, it’s differen-”

“That’s literally addiction!” Rachel shouts, and Kakyoin finally looks up at her face to snap back, but his tongue dies in his throat. He hasn’t seen her since their last exchange, and things have changed; she’s skinnier now, underweight, bags hanging from her eyes. Her hair is messy and her mouth is in a tight frown and Kakyoin can’t help but think, oh, I’m treating her like Jotaro does me-

“That’s exactly it, isn’t it?” Polnareff says softly when the quiet stretches on. “You don’t need anything other than what you’ve been prescribed. I know there’s legal limits to this stuff but the SPW is who writes your notes, they wouldn’t object to giving you more if you needed it, and yet-”

“You think I haven’t tried that?!” Kakyoin strangles out, and Polnareff stops.

It’s quiet for several beats, before Kakyoin stands. HIs back immediately catches fire again, like he poured gasoline into it, and he grits his teeth.

“Where do you think you’re going?” Polnareff asks, and Kakyoin sighs, edging on something sharp.

“I need- I need some-”

“You need to talk about this. Seriously, Kakyoin, I’ve been there, and Rachel’s told me she told you about it. You know how this ends if-” Howard starts, and Kakyoin turns, snapping,

“I’m not gonna kill myself like you tried to,” and Rachel stands up then, marching on over, and Kakyoin is too focused on how once again, once again, her eyes are not the blue he’s looking for, only to be shocked out of it when she slaps him.

It doesn’t really hurt, but the shock of it is what stuns Kakyoin into silence, the room quiet.

“I wish we never met,” she hisses, and oh, Kakyoin really has been treating her like Jotaro’s been treating him.

He takes a deep breath.

“I…I’m sorry,” he says quietly. Rachel scoffs quietly before retreating back to Howard. Kakyoin turns only to be met with Polnareff. “Move,” he asks. Polnareff shakes his head.

“Never took you for a coward, Kakyoin,” Polnareff says, and Kakyoin sighs, and while anger flashes in his stomach, his back forces him to ignore the bait, to run exactly like Polnareff is accusing him of doing and lick his wounds, tend to them, tend to his spine-

Kakyoin jerks with Hierophant, attempting to restrain Polnareff so he can walk past. However, it seems Polnareff was expecting something like this, for Silver Chariot shines into existence, fending Hierophant off its user.

Kakyoin hisses, flinching back, sparks of pain rolling down his back at the motion, and glowers. “Let me pass.” I need to shoot up, I need my pills, I need something, anything to make my back fucking stop- "I'll be back, just- give me a damn second-"

Polnareff’s face scrunches up then and it occurs to Kakyoin that he’s hurting him too in some way. “Kakyoin-”

“Polnareff, please-” Kakyoin tries surging past again, Hierophant diving to make a way for him, but Silver Chariot once again seizes the tentacles and something drops to the floor.

Everyone’s eyes snap to it and Kakyoin goes frozen when he sees it’s the heroin he just bought.

It’s quiet, and then,

“Kakyoin,” Polnareff’s voice is soft and creaky, and Kakyoin grits his teeth and tries running again, but Polnareff catches him this time, pinning him to his chest.

“Let me go,” Kakyoin warns, voice edged and warped with upset, “let me go, Polnareff, let me GO!” He thrashes as Polnareff continues to hold strong, trying to jab at Polnaref’s shins and ankles with his crutches, but they quickly slip from his grasp when the flailing causes his back to shriek in pain, a gasp of pain echoing up around his ribs to his brain. “Polnareff-”

“No,” Polnareff sounds out, voice hard, “no. you need help Kakyoin. Come on, we’re going back to my hotel and we’re calling Mr. Joestar and Avdol.”

Fear over even more people, people that matter the most, seeing him like this floods his veins, icy where his spine is molten, and he struggles more valiantly despite the pain. “No, no, no, POLNAREFF!!!” Kakyoin shrieks, whipping his head back and forth, but still he holds strong. Polnareff kicks the bag to Howard and Rachel, who both flinch violently when it lands at their feet.

“Throw that away or something,” Polnareff says, “make sure no residential advisor can find it.”

“NO!!” Kakyoin howls, squirming with all his might, please, please, he needs something, he doesn’t have enough pills and his back hurts and he needs it, he needs it, he needs it-

“I’ll flush it,” Howard says, grabbing the back and padding to the bathroom, and Kakyoin cries, howling, please, please,

“NO!!!”

“Kakyoin, please,” Rachel calls, and Kakyoin does stop speaking then but he refuses to stop fighting, even if it makes him feel like he’s on fire, even if he breaks his own back over it, because he’s going to die if he doesn’t get it-

Howard returns, the bag gone, and Kakyoin goes limp. His spine is a roaring fire of agony, and yet paradoxically, the consistent burn makes it easy to ignore, his nerves adjusting.

“I’ll keep you both updated,” he thinks he can hear Polnareff say, his chest rumbling behind him. He twitches, the feeling of it against his spine uncomfortable. “We’ll talk again. I…I didn’t realize…”

“We- we should have contacted you sooner,” Rachel says, “but I just- Kakyoin’s so cagey, he never told us much about his life…”

Polnareff laughs softly. “Yeah…he’s- distant like that”

“I’m so sorry,” Howard says softly, “I’m sorry for getting him into this in the first place.”

Kakyoin bares his teeth while Polnareff scoffs. “Please,” Polnareff says, “Kakyoin’s prideful and certainly not a follower. He was…” Polnareff sighs. “He should’ve been checked on sooner. He’s been on opioids since he was 18. I…I should have known this was a risk. I should have…I should have been there.”

Kakyoin grits his teeth and lets out a strangled noise and kicks at Polnareff for daring to pity him, and it twists his spine in a way that makes him gag.

“Jesus, you’re worse than a feral cat,” Polnareff mutters, and Kakyoin tries to bite him then, show him what a real feral cat is like-

“We’re going,” Polnareff announces, more to Kakyoin then Howard and Rachel, before turning and carrying Kakyoin out the door, like he’s a child having a tantrum, and Kakyoin squirms, Hierophant writhing and trying to rip Polnareff’s arms away-

He sees Howard and Rachel staring at him with terrified expressions before Silver Chariot shuts the door. He goes limp again then.

Polnareff carries him out.

Notes:

oh my god okay. so. fucking hi

first of all. happy 2 year anniversary <333333 this fic Should be finished before the third but goddamn i didn't expect it to take this long so who knows. but regardless of that i'm really happy to have had another year with you all. thank you so much for ur support

second of all. finally this intermission is done. it took so fucking long i literally feel like i died. while writing this i realized that i really fucking hate intermissions cause i find them SO boring but i think theyre important for understanding why my kakyoin is the way he is so i had to do it. but god DAMN. god damn.

this chapter is honestly really sloppy and i only just managed to fix the pacing from being complete dogshit but im gonna be honest i Do Not Like this chapter. i really hope you guys can appreciate what it's tyring to say but i'm sorry for such a disappointing update after two months

the good news is though is that this is the last two-part intermission. there is technically one more intermission but it's really just the phone call that is mentioned back in chapter 1 so it's going to be much easier to write

third thing: you may have noticed i tentatively have set there to be 50 chapters total of this fic! this could change but i'm pretty sure that's a good estimate. i will keep you guys updated though

idk when exactly the next chapter will come but i know it will be july some time. now that we're essentially done with the hardest part of the intermissions i hesitantly say monthly updates will be back but we'll have to see...cause my course load is so insane. why did i decide three majors was a good idea...what being an overly ambitious neurodivergent idiot will do to you. anyway

anyway. i just wanted to say thank you all for being so patient. i'm sorry this has taken so long and i'm sorry that such patience was needed in the first place but i truly do think the hardest part of it all is done. im really excited for the next chapter so i hope you all stay tuned. thank you for everything

Chapter 24

Notes:

ARHG ANOTHER CHAPTER MUCH LATER THAN I WANTED IT TO BE GODDD

i'm so sorry everyone. i was taking a very intense summer class (organic chemistry at three times the speed)(the normal course takes 30 weeks and i took a course that covers the same amount of material in nine) and then i moved and just GOD. crazy stuff. BUT! my academic schedule is going back to normal! like not even for me normal but average student-at-my-school-normal! basically even with my triple majors i won't need to overload on classes anymore and also! all that's left is electives. so! it shouldn't be too bad

which means ^ i should be able to get back to the monthly updates plan as i was saying last update. I can't promise the next chapter will come out in october just cause...i couldn't keep my promise last time...but i can promise that once i Do start posting again, it should be back on a monthly basis. thank you all for being so patient with me and i'm so so sorry

i hope you enjoy this chapter! i'm very excited for it

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

“So your legs feel better because of cooking?” Joseph asks.

Kakyoin chuckles, tapping the floor with one of his crutches. “Stand cooking but- yeah.”

Joseph hums. “Maybe I should check it out…”

The image of Tonio’s stand acting on Joseph makes Kakyoin choke, coughing lightly as visions of Joseph’s spine making all kinds of cracks echo through his mind. “Er- maybe- maybe I should go with you. Because of the stand thing, it can be a little…shocking…”

Joseph snorts but says nothing more, and Kakyoin turns and talks to the pharmacist when she returns with Joseph’s medication, thanking her and taking the bag before turning to Joseph, leading the way back to the entrance.

“Thank you for helping me find the drugstore,” Joseph’s creaky voice says – a bit wheezy, gravely when it isn’t, but still strong all the same. Much stronger than it was on the phone about two months ago now. “Thank you for…everything, Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin waves a gloved hand, shaking his head. “Don’t worry about it.” He pauses. “...Josuke is a really good kid. It was honestly my pleasure.”

Joseph hums, nodding. “Yes… he was very kind with the baby the other day.”

Kakyoin blinks as he opens the door for them to leave. “Baby?”

Joseph echoes him, blinking as well. “Oh, have I not mentioned? I-”

A flash of green in Kakyoin’s peripheral makes him jerk his head, and he immediately sneers when he sees Rohan Kishibe prancing about, a camera slung around his neck, a sketch pad tucked under his arm.

The flash of green wasn’t him, however; there’s a movement to the left of Rohan, and when Kakyoin scans his gaze over to it, he seizes. Koichi stands there, looking contemplative and sweaty as Rohan gestures to something on the map he’s holding. Kakyoin’s eyes narrow.

“So we had to figure out how to find her-”

“I’m sorry, Mr. Joestar,” Kakyoin cuts in, starting across the street, his crutches clicking underneath him, “I need- I need to go for a second. I’ll be back soon, I promise.”

Joseph blinks. “Alright?” But Kakyoin is already moving. The hell is he doing to Koichi?

When he gets within range, Rohan is gesticulating, his back facing him, and when Koichi locks gazes with Kakyoin, he somehow tenses up even more. Kakyoin frowns.

Rohan pauses, following Koichi’s gaze, only to scowl when he sees it leads to Kakyoin. “Oh. You.”

Kakyoin sniffs. “What are you doing to Koichi?” He asks flatly.

Rohan huffs. “I’m not doing anything. I’m just asking him about this map discrepancy since his pages mentioned he has specific knowledge about Morioh’s formation and history-”

Kakyoin bristles at the reminder of how Rohan first met Koichi. “Oh, you -”

“It’s fine!” Koichi shouts, and both men shut up and turn to face him. Koichi swallows thickly, shoots a narrow-eyed look at Rohan, then turns to Kakyoin. “Really, Mr. Kakyoin, I’m not- I’m not in need of saving. He really is just asking about a map and-” Koichi turns to Rohan then, teeth gritted, “-now that I know his stand abilities, I can handle him myself.”

Rohan sniffs but says nothing. Kakyoin shifts, arms itching to cross. He tightens his grip on his crutches.

“Er, hello,” Joseph’s creaky voice comes from Kakyoin’s side, and Kakyoin jumps, having forgotten he was with him. Rohan and Koichi do as well, turning to face him.

“Ah-” Kakyoin steps back, allowing Koichi to get a better view of Joseph, who blinks and waves with the hand not holding his cane when he spots the student. “Koichi, this is-” he pauses. How do you introduce the deadbeat dad of a friend?

“It- it’s okay, I remember,” Koichi stutters in accented English, as if hearing Kakyoin’s internal dilemma. “Um- Mr. Joestar, I’m Koichi. I’m…I’m friends with Josuke.”

Joseph’s eyes light up at the mention of his son and Kakyoin looks away. “Oh! Yes, Koichi,” the name rolls off his tongue a little funny, but considering his…everything, he pronounces it well. “He mentioned you. Said you were a good young man.”

Koichi flushes. “He- he did?”

Joseph smiles and opens his mouth, but Rohan clears his throat then and says in perfect English, which makes Kakyoin blink in surprise, “Sir, I’m Rohan Kishibe. It’s nice to meet you.”

Joseph blinks, looking Rohan up and down. “Oh, hello. I’m Joseph Joestar. Are you a friend of Koichi’s?”

“No,” Koichi says at the same time Rohan says, “Yes.” Both squint at each other.

Joseph chuckles a little while Kakyoin clears his throat. “You were asking about a map?”

Rohan blinks. “Ah. Yes. On the map, these stores right here are supposed to be lined up,” -he shows the map in his hands then, pointing at the drugstore that Kakyoin and Joseph just walked out of and a grocery store across the street- “but in real life, there’s an entire street over here!”

Rohan gestures behind him, and sure enough, an alleyway opens up between the drug store and its neighbor on the map, making Kakyoin frown. It’d be one thing if it was just space between the two stores, but Kakyoin can see it stretch back and open on the other side – indeed, a full, entirely unmarked street.

“I was just asking Koichi if he knew why the map was so erroneous” Rohan finishes. Joseph hums contemplatively while Koichi shakes his head.

“I’m not sure, Mr. Rohan,” Kakyoin clicks his tongue at the title, but Koichi ignores him, “but it is weird, now that you mention it. If you bring it to the map maker’s attention, you could probably win a bookstore voucher or something…”

Rohan hums and clicks his tongue. “Hm… Do you know what might be back there?”

Koichi shrugs. “I don’t know.”

Rohan clicks his tongue again. “Can you come with me to find out?”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “What, scared of getting lost in an alley?”

Rohan shoots a glare at him and Koichi coughs, but when Kakyoin glances at him, he’s biting back a smile behind his fist, and he smirks.

“It’d just be five minutes,” Rohan sniffs, “besides, I want Koichi’s take on the matter. He is a decent historian of the town.”

Koichi looks both flattered and ill at the same time, which is rather impressive, and Kakyoin scoffs. “Yeah, okay, as if I’m gonna leave him alone with you again.”

Rohan rears up to snarl but Koichi just pushes forward, sighing roughly. Joseph lets out a noise before following, his cane clicking. Both Rohan and Kakyoin exchange glances before following themselves.

The first thing they see is an old mailbox, and Kakyoin scrunches his nose at the smell of rusting metal, iron and copper mingling along his throat. A reddish brown stain lines the side of the mailbox, and Kakyoin squints. Isn't the government supposed to keep these in shape?

Koichi is examining the mailbox as well, frowning, while Rohan re-examines his map, walking along the few houses that line the street. Joseph stands near Koichi, tilting his head at him.

Kakyoin pitches forward and shudders when he leaves the alley and he’s officially on the street. He glances behind him, but nothing is there. He squints. Hierophant stirs in his stomach but he keeps him at bay. For now…

He turns to Koichi then, who’s regrouped with Rohan, Joseph following like a senior hunting dog: ambling, unconcerned, but keeping pace. Rohan is pointing at the map and then the surrounding houses, frowning deeply. “See! Yonemori, Honma, Onodera – all these houses, and none of them are on the map.”

Koichi is raising his hands placatingly and shrugging while Joseph hums, chin in hand, squinting at the characters on the map versus the mailboxes in person. Kakyoin frowns. “Why do you even care so much if a small side street isn’t on the map?”

Rohan freezes then and Kakyoin blinks. Rohan works his jaw from side to side before he marches forward, still comparing the houses to the map. He says nothing. Kakyoin narrows his gaze. What the hell…

“I think,” Koichi pipes up, “he must have used to live here…” Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him.

“What?”

Koichi shuffles, takes a deep breath, before looking Kakyoin in the eye. “Earlier, before you and Mr. Joestar came over, Mr. Rohan came up to me explaining how he used to live in Morioh, but it was a long time ago…he wanted to find places that would spark memories. I think…I think this must have been his neighborhood.”

Kakyoin looks around the rusted mailbox and gates, the dead grass and abandoned bicycles, dusty lawn decorations, tattered board games, and broken furniture on the lawns, and a part of him gives away, crumbling to sand grains. “...I see,” he says.

Koichi hums. “...We should follow,” he says, “I’m meeting up with Okuyasu and Josuke later, and I don’t wanna be late…” Joseph makes a noise at the mention of his son, but says nothing.

Kakyoin exhales in what could be a laugh. “Yeah, okay.”

They pad after Rohan in silence, taking a right, but nothing lines the walkway of this small turn, so they continue and take a left, and then-

The mailbox.

Kakyoin blinks and looks around – a new mailbox shouldn’t be present after such a short distance from a previous one, but…

But it’s the same, Kakyoin realizes, the rust stain on the side the same as before. Something settles in the pit of Kakyoin’s stomach. As he realizes, it seems the rest do too – Rohan stiffens, freezing, and Koichi stops abruptly, his shoes scraping against the gravel. Joseph readjusts his grip on his cane and slowly reaches up to pull off his hat, looking around carefully past his spectacles. Kakyoin swallows.

“Are we,” Rohan says in a conversational tone, “back where we started?”

Koichi pales noticeably, gaze darting around, while Joseph hums, heavy brows lifting a bit as he rescans the street slowly. Kakyoin drums his fingers against his crutches, clearing his throat as he answers, “I think so.”

“Is it a stand?” Koichi asks, Echoes dusting into existence beside his head, tail curled protectively around his shoulders. Joseph lets out an intrigued noise.

Kakyoin sends out Hierophant, reaching to set up a barrier and hopefully find the standuser who’s undoubtedly watching them when-

Bonk.

Kakyoin flinches, having gotten the impression he’s bumped his head on something, and Joseph is frowning, by his side. “Kakyo-?”

“Something’s wrong,” Kakyoin snarls, and Echoes curls tighter around Koichi in concern, Rohan slipping his camera from his neck into his bag, casually rolling up his sleeves to prepare for a fight.

“What happened?” Joseph asks in a creaky tone.

Kakyoin opens his mouth to respond. “I-”

“Are you lost?”

The group whirls around, Kakyoin twisting on his crutch, Hierophant already surging toward the source of the voice, Rohan and Heaven’s Door not far behind him, only to screech to a halt when they see a high school girl at the end of the alley.

Brushing her pink hair behind her ear, the girl blinks at them. “I can show you the way-”

Her face opens with a flutter of pages, suddenly book-like in appearance, and she falls to the ground. Kakyoin whips his head back to Rohan, who is already sprinting to her side, eyes narrowed.

“Rohan, what the hell-!?”

“I’m checking if she’s a standuser!” Rohan snaps, and Kakyoin growls, a noise that is echoed by Koichi next to him, which makes him pause, glancing at him.

“You said you wouldn’t! You said you wouldn’t do this anymore!!” Koichi snarls, bolting across the stretch of pavement after Rohan, which makes Kakyoin blink in surprise.

Rohan scoffs as he thumbs through her pages, scanning the contents. “I’m making sure she’s not our enemy, you should be thankin-”

Koichi reaches them and proceeds to slap Rohan’s hands away, which makes him yelp in more surprise than pain. He blinks, staring at Koichi in shock.

“You said you wouldn’t,” Koichi hisses, and Rohan opens his mouth but Koichi goes on, “Does your word mean nothing?!”

Rohan’s lips pull back into a sneer then, and Kakyoin hikes forward, his crutches squeaking underneath him.

“I said I wouldn’t read people for inspiration for my manga,” Rohan replies lowly, “I said nothing about not protecting myself how I see fit.”

Koichi stares at him, visibly shaking, and Kakyoin clasps a hand onto his shoulder. Koichi lets out a high, animalistic sound, jerking his face up to Kakyoin, before his face tints red and he looks down. He shrugs off Kakyoin’s hand and he frowns, but doesn’t replace it.

No wonder he doesn’t trust you.

Kakyoin ignores the echo of Rohan’s words and instead shakes his head, turning to face the man in question. “We’re watching you,” Kakyoin glowers. “Just check if she’s a standuser. Only a standuser. You don’t get to be privy to her secrets and thoughts even if she’s an enemy.”

Rohan sniffs. “Fine! Fine! Do what you want,” he sneers, before turning back to the pages. Koichi swallows, keeping his head ducked from Kakyoin, but when Kakyoin offers him a hand to stand back up, Koichi takes it.

Rohan mutters to himself as he flips through the pages, brows furrowing. True to his word, he is only scanning for anything that would indicate stand powers, but his face gets whiter and whiter with every line he reads. Kakyoin frowns.

“Is she?”

Rohan jumps, which Kakyoin was not expecting, and it only makes him frown deeper. Rohan regains his composure quickly, however, and simply shakes his head, clearing his throat before standing back, brushing himself off.

“N…no, she’s not a standuser,” he murmurs, and Kakyoin frowns, not convinced.

“What is she, then? Because you’re clearly concer-”

Rohan ignores him and simply replaces the girl’s face, suddenly solid again, and Kakyoin wrinkles his nose.

“Stand back, give her space,” Rohan calls mechanically. “She’ll likely think she just fainted.”

Kakyoin purses his lips, but Koichi backs up near Joseph, and he does the same. I’ll talk to him later…

True to Rohan’s word, after a few heartbeats, the girl’s eyes flutter open, and she lurches up, gasping, arms clutching at her ribs before she remembers herself. She blinks up at everyone, seemingly dazed, but when Koichi offers her a hand, she takes it and stands back up.

“You okay?” Rohan lies easily, making Kakyoin shudder. “You passed out for just a minute.”

The girl blinks. “Ah, really? Well, thank you for asking… sorry, that’s so weird…” she murmurs, and Koichi shoots a glare at Rohan who looks nonplussed. She shakes her head before laughing a little, dusting herself off. “Guess I need a little more sleep, huh!”

She points at Koichi then, who jumps at the pink-painted finger. “Same goes for you. Us students need our sleep, you know?”

“Oh! You’re a student? Do you live around here, miss?” Joseph asks, and the girl just hums in a not-quite-confirmation, something shifting across her expression even as she stays smiling, before turning to Rohan and Kakyoin.

“So, are you guys lost? I can show you the way out. This alley seems simple, but it’s really not,” she says. Kakyoin narrows his eyes at her, but before he can speak, Rohan pipes up.

“If you could. I thought… well, nevermind that. We have no business down here, so if you could please…”

“Yup!” The girl smiles, nodding, before walking past them toward Koichi and Joseph, and then over taking them, leading down the alley, back down the houses they’ve gone past once before already. They all exchange glances before following.

“I’m Reimi, by the way,” the girl introduces herself, “who are you?”

Koichi hums. “I’m Koichi Hirose. That’s Mr. Rohan, Mr. Kakyoin, and Mr. Joestar.”

Reimi purses her lips, head tilting a small bit. “Mr. Rohan, huh…”

Kakyon’s eyes narrow and he glances back at Rohan, who’s stiffened but continues moving forward. He’s staring at the girl’s sandals rather than her. Hm…

“Hey, want some?” Reimi asks, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze back to her. She’s offering Koichi some pocky from her bag, the same color of pink as her hair.

“Oh- ah, I’m okay,” Koichi stammers.

Reimi shrugs and turns, walking backwards to face Kakyoin, Rohan, and Joseph while still leading them down the alley. “What about you guys? It’s good!”

“No,” Rohan says flatly, while Joseph and Kakyoin both reply with a variation of I can’t have chocolate. They squint at each other.

“Aw, please? At least just take one half? You don’t have to eat it, but the break of the pocky will tell your fortune!” She says. Joseph lets out a hearty chuckle.

“I think I already know any fortune I could get at this age,” he jokes. Kakyoin shoots him a look for saying something so dark, but Reimi just laughs.

“You never know! What about you? Mr. Rohan?” She offers the pocky to him.

Rohan looks vaguely ill. “No,” he repeats, gaze darting down from Reimi’s face. Kakyoin raises a brow, but before he can ask, Reimi has turned to him.

“Mr. Kakyoin then? Pleaseee? It’s been a while and I really want to…”

Kakyoin sighs, hikes forward a bit, and breaks off the edge of the pocky. Reimi lets out a delighted chirp and when Kakyoin hands the half back to her, she studies the breakage intently, pausing in her step, making the group pause with her.

Reimi hums, brows creasing for a minute, before she pops one half into her mouth and gestures with the other. “It says…” she points then, making Kakyoin jump. “You’re going to fall in love soon! You might already even be in love and just not know it yet!”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh, unable to hold it back. Reimi’s eyes narrow at him, but she doesn’t stop smiling. “Me? In love?”

“It’s true!” Reimi insists. “The sticks never lie. Other forms of fortune telling are wrong, but the sticks haven’t lied to me yet!”

“That’s circumstantial evidence,” Rohan cuts in, and Kakyoin coughs to cover up a snort. Reimi raises a brow before pulling out another pocky stick, offering it to him.

“Do you want to try then? See for yourself?”

Rohan scoffs. “More circumstantial evidence, even if I come to agree with you, wouldn’t prove it any more.”

“Y’know, sometimes quantity does overcome quality,” Kakyoin quips back, and Rohan glares at him before stomping forward and snapping the pocky.

Reimi lets out an Ohhh and Rohan cringes, which makes Kakyoin frown. “You’re stubborn! You’re gonna get dumped by any girl you try to pursue,” she teases.

Rohan barks out a laugh, meanwhile Koichi and Kakyoin exchange glances.

“Yeah right,” Rohan says, “The pocky breakage doesn’t say anything about me more than the pocky itself. If you want to tell someone’s fortune, you use something about their person, like…” he scans over Reimi, still avoiding her face, before pointing at her nail polish. “Girls who wear light pink nail polish are scared of falling in love!”

Reimi raises a brow but Rohan keeps going. “Right? That’s why you’re so obsessed with it and talking to me and Kakyoin about it. You’re projecting! Cause you’re scared you’re gonna mess up when it comes your way!”

Reimi lets out a noise, her face falling to a frown, and Kakyoin stomps his crutch near Rohan’s toe, which he unfortunately dodges out of the way in time.

“Relax about lashing out due to your ego being bruised,” Kakyoin hisses, and Rohan sneers.

“I’m just saying.” He shrugs, then amends, “even if it’s not love, you’re scared about something, which is why you’re focusing on such a happy color.” He gestures to her all pink outfit, her pink nail polish, and her dyed pink hair.

Reimi’s frown deepens and she turns away, leading back down the alley in silence.

“Mr. Rohan,” Koichi admonishes, shooting a glare his way before catching up to Reimi.

“What?!” Rohan calls after him. Kakyoin rolls his eyes before walking back himself, Joseph following him with a mumble of Let a girl have her fun…

Reimi pauses in front of a tall, faded blue house, long abandoned at this point. The paint is chipped, sandblasted to near-white in some places, and the grass is long dead, the dirt underneath visible. The window facing the lawn on the first floor is broken, and Reimi stares at it intensely. Kakyoin frowns, exchanging glances with Koichi.

“Reimi… are you o-?”

“You said I was scared?” Reimi calls, turning back to face Rohan. Rohan crosses his arms. “Well, sure. I am. This house…”

She turns back, frowning deeply, crossing her arms over her chest. Koichi hums and walks to her side. “Reimi…?”

Reimi swallows before turning to the group. “There was a murder at this house 15 years ago.”

Rohan stiffens beside him. Kakyoin raises a brow toward him while Joseph lets out a soft noise. “Oh, how terrible,” he says.

Reimi sighs, crossing her arms, glancing back at the house. “It's why this place is abandoned. I used to live here when it happened.”

Reimi turns back to them. “She says that the girl who used to live here 15 years ago had a dog. She awoke one night to a dripping sound, like something from a facet. She was nervous because it was dark, but reached her hand out under her bed, where her dog slept. Her trusty dog licked her fingers like he always did, and it soothed her. She assumed her parents were washing up for bed – they got home late that night, after all.

But the dripping persisted. Finally, the girl gave up on trying to go back to sleep. She got up and called for her parents, but no reply. She called for her dog, and heard shuffling from under her bed. Comforted by the sound of him following her, she left her room and went to her parents’ room, when…”

Reimi jumps suddenly then and the group all flinch back, Koichi and Kakyoin both letting out yelps.

“She finds her dog’s dead body pinned to the wall! The drip wasn’t from a sink, but the steady drip of his blood against the tile! And then the voice of what moved behind her came… it said, ‘Your hands are so smooth, miss. Do you mind if I take them after I kill you, like I did your parents?!’”

Reimi surges forward on her tiptoes, and Koichi clings to Kakyoin, who clings to Joseph, who yelps at the sudden surge of weight, while Rohan stares at Reimi with wide eyes. “Wh-wha- are you kidding?!”

Reimi leans back then, laughs, and says, “Did it sound real?”

Kakyoin’s heart begins to slow down, and it’s only then he realizes it began racing it all – it started picking up speed so gradually.

Koichi lets out a noise before blinking, looking at Kakyoin, then retracting himself as if burned, brushing off his uniform and clearing his throat, features stiff. Kakyoin’s brow furrows, but before he can ask, Joseph lets out a laugh, and he feels heat crawl up his neck from his chest and lets go of the old man jerkily, standing still himself.

“Young lady! You must be careful who you tell ghost stories to, that could kill a man my age,” he jokes, and Reimi laughs. Kakyoin cringes – he knows Joseph’s old, and a bastard, but he’s his friend, and he doesn’t like the reminder of how old he’s gotten… – but says nothing.

Rohan clears his throat, running a hand over his hair. “What the hell was that about?” He snaps.

Reimi hums, smiling. “Why, payback for your nail polish comments. I just like pink, ya know?”

Koichi lets out a sigh, giggling nervously. “Jeez, you really had me there…”

Joseph hums. “You’re a great storyteller. Have you considered writing?”

Reimi’s face turns sad then, but before she can respond, Rohan latches onto Kakyoin’s arm. Kakyoin jumps, whipping his head to the man, but he points behind them, back at the house.

Kakyoin follows his gaze only to freeze.

Its yellow-brown coat blending in with the yellow-brown dead grass, there stands a dog in the yard.

A dog with a slit throat.

Despite this, it’s still standing, tail wagging, and it tilts its head in what would have been a cute gesture, but now is grotesque as it bears the cut wide. Blood trickles out and Kakyoin lets out a sound, bile rushing up his throat.

“What-”

“You said it was just a story!” Koichi yelps, leaping back near Kakyoin, and Kakyoin swallows thickly, stepping beside him, shaking Rohan’s hand off of him to do so. Joseph stares at the dog, his expressions unreadable behind his spectacles.

“I never said that,” Reimi says softly before turning to the dog, “I just said I told it as payback. Arnold, what are you doing here?”

As she turns, Kakyoin blinks, and suddenly the entire back of her dress is bloody, with a thick wound right underneath her left shoulder blade dripping blood, showing off muscle and bone, and his stomach lurches while Koichi lets out a startled cry and Rohan grips for him again, breathing heavily.

Arnold – the dog, Kakyoin assumes – whimpers and snuffles against Reimi’s hand when she offers it, and she frowns. “I told you I had to make sure the nice people got back home safely. You know how this alley is…”

“Wh-what’s going on?” Koichi demands. Reimi sighs and stands up, turning back to them. Arnold stays near her, and she scratches his big head unconsciously.

“The story I told…it’s my story. I’m the girl. Arnold and I are ghosts.”

“G-ghost…” Rohan murmurs, voice nearing a keen in tone, and Kakyoin swivels his gaze to him. “But- Heaven’s Door- can it only read memories you make while alive?”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. Hmm…

“Ghost?!” Koichi shouts, and Reimi shrugs helplessly, looking viscerally uncomfortable, shoulders hunched and arms crossed.

“This is a border between worlds, I think,” Reimi murmurs. “That's why it loops. It’s not…a normal street.”

Rohan sucks in a breath, lets go of Kakyoin’s arm, and promptly turns and runs. Koichi lets out a shout and turns to run after him, and Kakyoin pivots on his crutch to chase after them when Joseph’s voice stops him:

“Are you okay?”

Kakyoin pauses, looking over his shoulder. Joseph is staring at Reimi with a tight frown on his face, brows pinched in concern. Reimi lets out a shaky laugh. “What do you mean? I’m dead. I can’t really be anything.”

Something lances through Kakyoin’s chest at the comment, and Joseph must feel the same, for his frown gets even tighter. “You said the incident happened 15 years ago. Was that true? Have you been here the whole time? It must have been lonely,” he says steadily, his textured voice soothing.

Reimi laughs shakily, her hand falling still on Arnold’s head. “No, I- I had Arnold with me…” A frown crosses her own features and Joseph hums.

There’s a clattering to his side, and Kakyoin whips his head to see Rohan back at the end of the street again, Koichi behind him, chest heaving. He’s staring at Reimi like he’s seeing a ghost – which, he is, Kakyoin supposes – and he shudders, squeezes his eyes shut, and ducks his head. Koichi shouts something Kakyoin can’t make out, and he finally hikes his way over to them like he was intending to.

“What the hell is going on?” He asks Rohan, who’s still breathing shakily. Koichi stares intently up at him, but he doesn’t say anything.

After a moment, Rohan swallows, and, still with his eyes closed, says plainly, “I want to get out of here. Now.”

“I really wouldn’t have expected phasmophobia of you,” Kakyoin comments dryly, and Rohan turns to him with eyes so wild he steps back, blinking.

“You don’t know anything,” Rohan growls, “I was looking for my childhood home and this is what I get- ghosts and- and-”

“Please don’t run around,” Reimi says, and Rohan stiffens and closes his eyes again. Koichi and Kakyoin both exchange glances. “There’s only one way out of here. I was serious when I said I would show you the way out. I haven’t lied about anything, have I?”

Koichi bites at his thumb and Kakyoin turns back to see Joseph and the dog with her, the wound on its throat hidden just like the wound on her shoulder. Kakyoin tilts his head.

“Why do your wounds appear and disappear?” He asks, and only belatedly realizes it’s probably a rude question when Koichi shoots him a glare.

Reimi opens her mouth to reply, but Rohan interjects. “I don’t care. It doesn’t matter. Get us out of here. Now.”

Koichi stomps on his foot and Rohan hisses, shooting a glare at Koichi, who turns to Reimi and tags on a polite, “Please show us the way out,” and Kakyoin snorts.

Reimi’s gaze switches over them all before she sighs, her shoulders slumping. Rohan’s glare falters, and Kakyoin squints at him. What is his deal today?

I was looking for my childhood home and this is what I get.

Kakyoin’s lips purse. Hmm…

“There’s only one way out,” Reimi says, and Kakyoin’s attention is drawn back to her. “It’s…hard to explain.” She pauses then, gaze darting down, before taking a breath and looking back up, locking gazes with them all. Rohan scoffs and looks to the side. Kakyoin notices her eyes are black, reflecting the pink around her like a mirror.

“This place is…odd. It’s a border between the living and the dead – a limbo space, if you will,” she says softly. “I don’t normally get visitors. It makes me wonder…what makes you all so special?”

Rohan scoffs, but doesn’t look up. “Does that matter? Just show us the way o-”

“It does matter!” Reimi snaps, and Rohan looks up. “I’ve been stuck here for 15 years trying to figure out why! So why do you four of all people get to slink in and talk to me?!”

Everyone is quiet. Then,

“Stands,” Kakyoin murmurs. The group lets out confused noises, and Kakyoin clears his throat. “The common denominator…it’s stands. We’re all too different otherwise.”

Reimi tilts her head. “Stand?”

“Ah,” Kakyoin manifests a tentacle of Hierophant's, half expecting Reimi to not see it, but-

Her gaze tracks the wave of it, and Kakyoin’s heart pounds.

“You can see him?”

Reimi points, lips parting, before nodding wordlessly. “Him?” She asks softly.

“Yes, him," Kakyoin says breathlessly. "My Hierophant Green. This has to be it-” Kakyoin manifests Hierophant fully, spooling him into his humanoid form, and Reimi lets out an intrigued noise, staring it up and down. Kakyoin ignores the usual thrill he feels whenever someone new sees Hierophant, instead turning and glancing at Rohan, Koichi, and Joseph. “Manifest your stands.”

Joseph complies easily, Hermit Purple flickering into existence along his arms, and after a slight hesitation, Koichi follows suit, Echoes appearing with a flash and curling around its user, making Reimi coo and Koichi blush. Rohan frowns tightly, but brings out Heaven’s Door. The stand sticks close to Rohan, its wide, doll-like eyes staring at Reimi from past Rohan’s leg, like a shy child hiding behind a parent.

Reimi tilts her head at them all, eyes scanning them in awe, and something in Kakyoin’s heart aches; it reminds him of himself, when he saw other stands for the first time…

Other stands…

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. Hmm…

“Stands…you said stands?” Reimi asks, turning to Kakyoin. Kakyoin nods, drawn from his thoughts. Reimi hums. “That must be why you were able to slip in here…”

Kakyoin almost holds his tongue, but he does allow himself to ask, “And you? Why do you think you’re here?”

Reimi’s gaze hardens and she straightens, holding her head up high. “I’m not sure for certain,” she admits, “I just know I’m a ghost. Lots of ghosts get trapped on the Earth. I don’t think I’m a vengeful spirit, but…” her hands clench into fists, her eyes burning, and Kakyoin almost expects to feel the flash of heat that sitting in front of a fire gives him. “I need to let people know- I need to.

"I was the girl in the story I told, yes?” She elaborates, widening her stance, Arnold looking up at her from her side. “That means I was murdered. You get that, yes?” At those words, Kakyoin and Koichi exchange glances. He can figure where this is going…

“My murderer was never caught,” Reimi confirms his suspicions, “my murderer is still here – in Morioh.”

Koichi lets out a stifled noise and Rohan’s teeth clench. Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “How do you know for sure?”

Reimi’s own teeth grit then, and she answers hotly, “because he’s still killing people. Every time he kills someone, I see the victim’s soul fly overhead here, every single time, with the same wound as me, and I can’t do anything about it because I’m stuck here, and-”

“What, are you asking us to find him for you?” Rohan cuts in, and Kakyoin shoots a glare at him for his callous wording. Reimi glares at the ground before shaking her head.

“Not necessarily,” she answers. “But I want- I need him to be stopped. I’m asking you to tell the police, or someone who can catch him, just- anyone-” her voice catches and she stops speaking, bringing a hand up to her mouth. Arnold whines and nudges her free hand with his snout, and Reimi swallows, regathers her composure, and looks back up. Her black eyes are like steel.

“The missing person rate for Morioh…” Koichi mutters. Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him.

“What?”

Koichi jumps, but locks gazes with Kakyoin, expression holding steady, as he says, “The missing person’s rate in Morioh – it’s eight times the national average. If what Reimi says is true, and a part of it is because a murderer is on the loose…”

Kakyoin cusses. “A murderer so good they don’t even realize it was murder, but just a missing person?”

Joseph hums. “Maybe this is why only us standusers could slip into this limbo space…could only a standuser bring him down? Is he a standuser?”

The alley goes deathly quiet. Kakyoin slowly drags his gaze up to Joseph, who locks eyes with him solemnly, but clearly. Kakyoin feels something twist in his stomach, sees a flash of Josuke in his mind, hears Jotaro’s words, hears his own-

But as long as that kid is threatened, I’m sticking around. Got it?

Kakyoin swallows stiffly. Rohan shifts uneasily next to him.

“I don’t know if Morioh being safe again will let me leave this place,” Reimi says, her voice warbled in misery, dipping up and down in pitch, “but I don’t care. I love this town – I grew up in it – I don’t want it to be his playground any longer!”

“Reimi,” Koichi says softly. Kakyoin swallows.

“I understand,” he says quietly. Reimi snaps her gaze to him. Kakyoin leans heavily onto one crutch, reaching up with his free hand to take his sunglasses off. “You have my word that we’ll try our best.”

Koichi stares at him right in his peripheral, and Kakyoin’s skin itches at it. He glances down at him but Koichi has already turned to Reimi, his own brows furrowed in determination. His voice is steady as he says, “Yes. I’ll do my best. You have my word!”

Rohan tuts then, and Kakyoin squints and turns to him. “This is ridiculous,” he says, keeping his head ducked. “But…I suppose it would be good material to draw from for my manga.”

Kakyoin’s eye twitches. “Are you-”

“Where’s the exit, then?” Rohan interrupts, dragging his gaze up to meet Reimi’s and Kakyoin holds his tongue at the expression on his face. “We can’t go telling people if we can’t get out.”

Reimi smiles then, her eyes wide, and Kakyoin purses his lips but lets it go. For now.

“The exit is…tricky,” Reimi says once she regains some composure, and Rohan gestures for her to continue. “I need you all to promise me that you will listen to me exactly.”

Only after she gets all the group's explicitly consent – nods from Joseph, Koichi, and Kakyoin, and eventually, a stiff grunt from Rohan – does she turn and lead the way again. Her skin is whole once more, no blood staining her dress, but Kakyoin shivers regardless, one hand clenching near his sternum. Mm.

“We’re going to turn left here,” Reimi directs, “rather than right. The exit will be right in front.” Koichi lets out a pleased hum, but Reimi cuts into it. “ However,” she stresses, brows creasing, “you absolutely cannot turn around for any reason while you walk down that path back to the main street.”

The group murmurs uneasily. Kakyoin swallows. “What do you mean?”

Reimi hums, face drawn up in concern. “There’s a…presence, that keeps people from leaving. I can just…tell. It’s there.”

Kakyoin hums. He did feel something like that when they first stepped into this alleyway…

Something that made Hierophant stir in response…

He narrows his eyes at Reimi but still says nothing.

They reach the turn, and then-

Chills run up and down Kakyoin’s spine, and he tightens his grip on his crutches, clenching his jaw.

Koichi shudders beside him, shoulders hiking up to his ears before he swallows and continues forward. Joseph grunts, movements becoming jerky, before he continues on. Rohan squeezes his eyes shut and keeps walking.

It’s like walking in chilly water, Kakyoin finds – the air density feels thick here, constantly pushing back at every movement he makes, and the cold creeps up his legs, tickling his lower back. He frowns tightly.

“Keep going!” Reimi’s voice echoes down from the alley, “stay straight ahead! Don’t panic! Just walk calmly!”

Kakyoin grits his teeth. Despite the chill, sweat is starting to bead on his forehead, and the hair on the back of his neck is beginning to rise. He simply has Hierophant tighten his scarf and moves forward, swallowing thickly.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Koichi hisses, and Kakyoin’s gaze darts toward him before he squeezes his eyes shut, shaking his head. “Something’s- it really feels like something’s behind us. Can’t you feel it?”

Kakyoin grits his teeth. “Yeah.”

Something touches his back then, right where the- the exit wound is- and Kakyoin stutters, tripping over his crutches.

“Mr. Kakyoin?!”

“Kakyoin?!”

“Don’t look back!” Reimi shouts, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“I’m fine! Something just- touched me,” he snarls.

“Keep going forward!” Reimi calls. “They don’t have any real power so long as you keep moving forward!”

Heart pounding, Kakyoin follows her advice, even as his crutches begin to slip in his sweating palms.

“Almost there! Just a few more meters!”

Koichi jolts beside him, steps stretching out into a jog as he shoots forward, and Kakyoin frowns, trying to hurry after him. “Koichi-”

“Wait!” Reimi calls, voice high in alarm, but growing ever more fainter as they walk away from her, “don’t run! They’ll-”

There’s an echo of Reimi’s voice then, bouncing off the walls of the alley that says, “You did it! You can turn around now, Koichi!”

Kakyoin’s eyes widen and he rushes forward. “KOICH-”

Koichi turns around and suddenly a black mass manifests right in front of him, swooping to engulf him.

“NO!” Kakyoin howls, diving forward, No, no, not one of his kids-!

“Heaven’s Door!” Rohan shouts, and his stand rushes towards Koichi. “Koichi! I’m making it so you can’t see – it should circumvent them!”

Koichi squirms and howls, panic flooding his voice, and Kakyoin-

Heaven’s Door writes in Koichi’s pages, reseals him, and Rohan grabs him when he drops, and-

The mass dissipates.

The mass responded to a stand.

Only stands can hurt other stands.

“I knew it,” Kakyoin announces, and turns around.

“YOU IDIOT-!” Rohan shouts while Koichi yells incoherently and Joseph and Reimi let out cries, but as the dark mass – hands, Kakyoin can see now, reaching out from a mobile shadow – race toward him, Hierophant manifests and strings around it, wrapping over and over like a cacoon-

And it works, and Reimi yelps, and freezes where she’s standing in the alleyway, eyes wide as she stares at Kakyoin.

“Th-theres more!” She shouts, squirming in an attempt to point, but Hierophant’s binds have her tied down, because of the connection between stand and user.

Kakyoin simply closes his eyes, and sets up Hierophant’s barrier around him, entangling everything. It’s in the very air – the stand, Reimi’s stand – shapeless like a gas, only becoming visible when you look to see it. Not unlike Reimi herself, Kakyoin muses, and a quieter part of him says, Not unlike Hierophant, when he was younger.

When he’s sure he’s protected on all sides and angles, Kakyoin reopens his eyes, and stares at Reimi, who’s shaking in Hierophant’s hold, her breaths coming out in stuttered gasps.

“Kakyoin?!” Joseph calls, and Kakyoin turns to see Rohan, Koichi, and Joseph have made it to the street. He nods, swallowing, then turns back to Reimi. Good.

“Wh-what’s going on?” Reimi asks, and Kakyoin sighs.

“Miss Reimi,” he says, “you said us being standusers must have been why we came here. Have you considered that that might have meant you, too?”

Reimi opens and closes her mouth, her eyes widening. “Oh.”

“But- but I didn’t read that she was a standuser-?” Rohan questions.

“No, but you said yourself that Heaven’s Door seems to only be able to read memories made when someone was alive,” Kakyoin says. "If Miss Reimi's stand only activated after she died..." Rohan goes quiet. He refocuses on Reimi.

“I don’t think we properly explained it earlier,” he says as he hikes forward with his crutches. She’s still shaking a little, staring at Kakyoin intently, and Arnold is sniffling anxiously, circling her. “A stand is a manifestation of someone’s soul, of their strong willpower.” He smiles then, trying to make it as comforting as he can stand to be on command. “I think someone who’s stubborn enough to stick around as a ghost must have a lot of willpower, don’t you agree?”

Reimi stares at him with wide eyes. “I guess…but…does that mean…” Her voice begins to warble. “Does that mean- I almost killed Koichi-?”

Kakyoin clicks his tongue. “I don’t think so. Stands come in many shapes and forms, as you saw earlier. Some stands are automatic; they act independently of their user based on a set of rules.” He sits back, chuckling. “For example,” his throat swells then, the backs of his eyes burning at the memory of Polnareff, but he pushes on, “my friend once encountered a stand that was activated when its user was attacked, and it worked as a sort of vengeance enactor. The user couldn’t actually control the stand’s actions once it was active; he could just turn it on and off, so to speak.”

Reimi swallows thickly. “Then…do you think…I can turn my stand off?”

Kakyoin smiles. “Of course.”

Reimi lets out a breath. “How?”

Kakyoin hums. “It can be complicated if you haven’t grown up with it. I don’t know if you’ll get it on your first tr-”

“You just need to relax a little,” Koichi’s voice suddenly pipes up, and Kakyoin and Reimi both whip their heads toward him. He’d walked back down the alley, head held high, and Reimi keeps her gaze trained on him. “You’ve been high strung for a long time…I can’t really blame you, considering your circumstances,” Koichi says, before his voice trails off. He shakes his head. “I don’t pretend to know how an- an ‘automatic’ stand works, but as someone who had to learn about stands myself, recently…” his voice shrinks down then, gaze skirting from Kakyoin. Kakyoin frowns. “But I like to think I’ve learned something, that I’m not completely useless, and I like to think the same would go for you, too, even if we haven’t had stands since childhood.”

Kakyoin’s lips part. Did he really feel that way? “Koichi-”

“Here, just…talk to me a little. Your dog’s name is Arnold?” Koichi says, and Reimi shakily nods. Kakyoin hums and backs off, and lets Koichi take the lead.

…Has he ever let Koichi do that before?

Kakyoin purses his lips, cross his arms. I’ve really been unfair to a lot of people recently, Kakyoin thinks, and he glances down.

After Koichi talks with Reimi a little longer, she takes a deep breath and closes her eyes. “Okay,” she says, “I think I’m ready to try.”

Kakyoin nods. “I’ll keep Hierophant out until you can.” Reimi hums in acknowledgement.

After a few moments, Hierophant’s tentacles slump as the form they were holding fades, and Reimi lets out a deep breath, her own shoulders slumping. Koichi grins at her, which she returns, and Kakyoin impulsively blurts, “Do you want to train your stand?”

Koichi and Reimi both shoot their gazes at him. “Huh?”

Kakyoin shifts, scraping one crutch against the ground. “I train Koichi and a couple of his friends on how to use their stands,” Kakyoin explains, and Koichi lets out a comprehending noise. “Would you…like to join?”

“Oh!” Reimi says, exchanging glances with Koichi. “I…” her smile fades. “But…I can’t leave the alley. My- my stand isn’t what was keeping me here,”

Kakyoin shakes his head, smiling as he leans against a crutch. “That’s not an issue. You said only standusers notice this place, right? That would make it a better training ground than what we’re currently using.”

“Oh!” Koichi says, before nodding his head, a smile stretching across his face. “Yeah! It would actually be a much more convenient spot than our current place, which is out of the city. Would you mind?”

Reimi opens and closes her mouth before she grins. “Well…if you insist!”

Koichi echoes her grin, his own teeth flashing, and something in Kakyoin aches, aches, aches.

He turns to Reimi. “Well…be ready for Sunday, then. We’ll meet you then.”

Reimi nods her head vigorously. “Yes! Please! I’ll be waiting.”

Kakyoin smiles at her determination. He takes a deep breath. “Don’t expect me to go easy on you just because you’re new to it all,”

Koichi’s face shifts a bit, but Reimi’s gleams ambition, staring at Kakyoin confidently. “I would hope not,” she says, and Kakyoin smiles.

“Then, see you there,” Koichi says, and Reimi smiles.

“Thank you, Koichi,” she says softly, and Koichi laughs, face flushing a bit.

“Of course…standusers have to help each other out.”

Kakyoin winces.

After bidding goodbye, they leave, Reimi waving them off as they walk back down the alley. This time, there is no ominous presence trailing them, confirmation that indeed, the strange spector of the alley was her stand. Kakyoin wonders if he could’ve gotten Reimi to calm down without Koichi there, or if he would have suffocated her, too.

He purses his lips and comes to a stop once they’re out on the street. Koichi notices, and turns to face him, a frown on his face.

“Mr. Ka-?”

“Kochi,” Kakyoin says seriously, placing his hands on the teenager’s shoulders, “I’m- did you mean what you said?”

Koichi stares at him, brows furrowing. "Did I mean- what?"

"Do you think you're useless?" Kakyoin elaborates, and Koichi blinks, before squirming, gaze shooting to the side. Kakyoin keeps his hands on his shoulders.

After a moment of fidgeting, Koichi blurts out, "Don't you?"

Kakyoin reels his head back as if he was slapped, stepping back from the boy. "Wha-?"

"I'm- look, I know Okuyasu and Josuke are better at using their stands than me," Koichi spits out, pulling at the hem of his uniform, his gaze darting everywhere but Kakyoin's. "I know- I know you like them more than me, but I-"

"I- Koichi- I-" Kakyoin stumbles over his words, and then the comments Rohan made baout him playing favorites make a lot more sense now, and Kakyoin closes his mouth, staring at Koichi with wide, horrified eyes. "Koichi, I don't- I don't feel that way at all."

Koichi tugs harder at his uniform before jerking his head up, meeting Kakyoin's gaze straight up, brows furrowed depserately. "Well- well it feels like it. It feels like it. It feels like you're- always annoyed with me."

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, but he doesn't know what to say. He supposes he has been short with Koichi, but he's been short with almost...everyone...for a long time.

"Koichi," he says quietly. Koichi just squeezes his eyes shut and swallows.

Kakyoin's head swimming, he can only stare for a few heartbeats, chills dancing in his chest, his limbs feeling leaden and heavy.

"Koichi," he says again, "I'm sorry."

Koichi winces before opening his eyes again. Kakyoin keeps his gaze, lips parting, but he isn't sure what else to say.

"I'm sorry," he repeats lamely. "I..."

Koichi just shakes his head. "I don't-" he sighs. "I appreciate your apology, Mr. Kakyoin, but it's not- it's not what I want," he admits quietly. Before Kakyoin can respond to that, Koichi checks his watch, and then says, “Ah, I- I’m meeting up with Josuke and Okuyasu, I’ve gotta get going. I’ll see you Sunday! I’ll let them know about the change in meeting spot, along with…” Koichi grimaces. “Everything else.”

He turns and begins swiftly walking away then, and Kakyoin blurts out, "Koichi!"

Koichi flinches and halts, and Kakyoin closes his eyes for a moment, sucking in a breath.

"You...you did good today. You were able to calm Reimi down quickly. You’ve applied what you’ve learned and were able to reteach it even. I…” it’s a near thing, a part of Kakyoin wanting to dodge Koichi’s gaze, but he knows he shouldn’t. He stares at him head on. “I’m proud of you.”

Koichi returns the stare. Kakyoin itches underneath his cardigan, sweat sliding down his back. Rohan and Joseph are off to the side politely ignoring their conversation, Rohan with his arms crossed, staring vacantly at the road while Joseph looks at his map, humming.

Finally, Koichi clears his throat, and Kakyoin skirts his gaze back to him. Koichi smiles a little, shoulders a little less stiff, as he says, “I’m…glad to hear it, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin swallows. “Koichi,” he says again, voice strained. Koichi shakes his head.

"I really do have to go, Mr. Kakyoin, but," he smiles then, and it's a little more natural, crinkles the corner of his eyes a little more, "thank you."

Kakyoin swallows. He wants to say more – knows that he should – but Koichi turns and walks, and before long, is out of sight. He sighs and shakes his head, even if he’s grateful for the extra time to figure out…whatever he wants to say. A proper apology, perhaps, once he figures out his own behavior. A promise to try and see things from his perspective.

Kakyoin winces at the thought. That's right...

He shakes his head and turns to Rohan and Joseph. Rohan is still staring absently while Joseph hums, studying his map.

“I think the bus stop back to the hotel is just down the street,” Joseph says thoughtfully. Kakyoin glances at the map where he’s pointing and nods.

“Yeah, that sounds right.”

Joseph hums, refolding his map and he makes for the stop, leaving just Kakyoin and Rohan at the mouth of the alley. Kakyoin moves to follow before glancing back at Rohan. He hesitates before sighing, staying put.

“So, Reimi,” he says, and Rohan’s gaze snaps to him. “What was all…” Kakyoin gestures vaguely, “that about?”

Rohan narrows his eyes. “What was what about?”

Kakyoin sighs. “I’m not- I’m not trying to start a fight. But you’ve been acting super weird this whole time – I guess that’s par for the course for you-” Rohan glares “-but still.”

Rohan rolls his eyes. “I don’t even know what you’re talking about, but even if I did, It’s none of your business. Now if you’ll excuse me-”

“You mentioned your childhood home used to be here,” Kakyoin says, and Rohan freezes, “that’s why you came here in the first place. If…if what happened occurred 15 years ago, then-”

“Shut up,” Rohan hisses, and Kakyoin does for once. Rohan takes a deep breath, shaking his head.

Kakyoin shifts his jaw before saying, “I offered to teach Reimi how to use her stand.”

Rohan stares back into the street wistfully, eyes glazed over. He says nothing for a long while, and Kakyoin glances at the man’s watch. He should really get to the bus stop with Joseph so he doesn’t risk the bus arriving and leaving without him…

“I was four,” Rohan says suddenly, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him. “When I last lived in Morioh,” he elaborates. “As such, I don’t…remember much…but…”

His face gets pinched then, frowning tightly. “...But my parents kept a shrine for a girl. A small one, but still. They said she was my babysitter when I was young. They said-'' Rohan's breath hitches just barely, and Kakyoin ducks his head to give Rohan some facsimile of privacy. After a beat, Rohan whispers, “They said she saved my life once. And considering it was a shrine, it didn’t take much deduction to realize- maybe that’s a choice that killed her.”

Kakyoin blinks, lips parting. “Oh… Ro-”

But Rohan has turned, walking down the opposite end of the street. Kakyoin watches him go, frowning but not moving to chase after him. It certainly explains a few things about Rohan in general, let alone his behavior this afternoon…

Kakyoin sighs, shakes his head, and then turns to join Joseph at the bus stop. He needs to cross the street to get there, pausing at the crosswalk to wait for the signal for pedestrains.

As he waits, a small white car driving down the side of the road slows to a stop at the light. As they both sit, the passenger window rolls down. Kakyoin glances over.

“Excuse me, sir?” the man inside asks. Kakyoin hums in acknlowedgement. The man is blonde, his hair mostly slicked back save for some loose curls, his gaze focused on Kakyoin’s gloves from there they’re shown off against his crutches. “Excuse me, where did you get those gloves? They look wonderful.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh, these?” He glances at them, picking at the worn fabric. He’s had them for a few years now, but they’ve still served him well despite the daily usage. The man must have a good eye for spotting such quality… “I- don’t remember, exactly. A local shop in Athens, Greece, maybe?”

The man hums, still staring, before he shifts his gaze up to Kakyoin’s face. “Do you think they’d do a phone order overseas? My girlfriend, she loves hand accessories, you see, and I think she’d love those for the winter months.”

Kakyoin hums. “I think it’s worth a try? I don’t- I don’t remember the shop name, though.”

The man hums, but before he can say anything else, the light switches to green. Stealing one last long glance at his gloves, the man slowly drives forward and off. Kakyoin shivers at the lingering gaze, tightening his scarf around his neck, and joins Joseph at the bus stop.

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Chapter 25

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There’s more shuffling, and Kakyoin frowns tightly over the blown out noises of the speaker, before Okuyasu slurs, “M-Mr. Kakyoin, we- we’re-”

“We’re fine!” Josuke hollers in the background, and Okuyasu whines and audibly drops the phone and Kakyoin squints. What are they doing?

“Okuyasu, I told you not to call him,” he can hear Josuke’s distant voice whine.

“Dude, get out my face,” he can hear Okuyasu reply. “Do you really wanna sleep in a park like this?”

There’s the shuffle of clothing, the phone staticky as it relays it, and Okuyasu lets out a hum. Kakyoin squints.

“Please,” he can hear Josuke say breathlessly, and Kakyoin clicks his tongue.

“Are you two drunk?” He asks, and he can hear both teenagers yelp. He bites back a snicker.

Notes:

cw for this chapter: drunkenness and emetophobia

hi everyone!

I know it hasn't even been two weeks since the last update, but I'm trying my damnest to make up for all the months I missed while working on that monster of an intermission, so I'm posting now! I guess it's safe to say I'm back in business in this case <3 also i finally figured out chapter summaries yay

i hope you all enjoy this chapter, and thank you again for being so patient. I promise i'll do my best to make a final product that's satisfying and worth your time

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Chapter Text

The following Saturday night, Kakyoin is in his hotel, squinting at his phone.

Anxiety swirls as a chilly sludge in his stomach, and he’s frankly annoyed with it, sick of the sweat that’s forming under his arms and along his hairline.

He sighs, rubbing his face, before pulling off his gloves. He hesitates, before glancing at the clock.

11:50 P.M.

He quickly does the math in his head: it would be about six in the evening in Cairo – not exactly office hours anymore, but…

Kakyoin rubs his face, sighing until all the air has been emptied from his lungs. But when did I worry about calling him only during office hours, anyway? He’s not my coworker, he’s my…

Kakyoin swallows thickly.

He’s my friend.

Kakyoin hopes he was safe. He should call to make sure. And yet,

Kakyoin’s stomach twists violently when he remembers hearing Avdol sob when he admitted what happened to Polnareff, and he can’t… He can’t listen to that again. But Avdol…

Hierophant appears as a tentacle to wrap around his wrist reassuringly. Kakyoin twists his hand around so he can stroke his fingers along it. This would be easier if Avdol were just here. I’m so sick of phones.

He sighs again before dropping his hand, turning to look back at the phone on his nightstand.

The echoes of Avdol’s voice bounce in his head, and he sucks in a breath. I need to. I will-

The phone rings and Kakyoin jumps, Hierophant lashing out, stopping just centimeters from impaling the phone.

His heartbeat thundering, Kakyoin lets out an exhale and shakes his head. Jeez, I’ve been so jumpy.

Shaking his head again, Kakyoin reaches out and picks up the phone, rubbing his face with his hand again as Hierophant strokes a calming tentacle down his back.

“Hello?” He asks.

“Helloooo?” A voice hiccups into the phone, and Kakyoin squints, frowning. “Iss’is Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “Who-?”

There’s a shuffle then, air rushing by the microphone, before Kakyoin can pick up a distant voice on the other end of the line saying Okuyasu, don’t- I said not to call M-Mis- Miss’ Kakyoin-

Miss Kakyoin? Kakyoin isn’t even sure how to respond to that slip of the tongue, confusion and intrigue and excitement and wariness swirling around the notion, but he’s saved from analyzing that when the other words in the sentence make sense.

“Okuyasu?” He calls into the phone. “Are you okay?”

There’s more shuffling, and Kakyoin frowns tightly over the blown out noises of the speaker, before Okuyasu slurs, “M-Mr. Kakyoin, we- we’re-”

“We’re fine!” Josuke hollers in the background, and Okuyasu whines and audibly drops the phone and Kakyoin squints. What are they doing?

“Okuyasu, I told you not to call him,” he can hear Josuke’s distant voice whine.

“Dude, get out my face,” he can hear Okuyasu reply. “Do you really wanna sleep in a park like this?”

There’s the shuffle of clothing, the phone staticky as it relays it, and Okuyasu lets out a hum. Kakyoin squints.

“Please,” he can hear Josuke say breathlessly, and Kakyoin clicks his tongue.

“Are you two drunk?” He asks, and he can hear both teenagers yelp. He bites back a snicker.

There’s another shuffle before Okuyasu’s voice comes through again.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” he says, and Kakyoin blinks at the warble in his voice, as if he’s on the brink of tears, “are we bad kids if we say yes?”

“Okuyasu!” He can hear Josuke snap while Kakyoin sputters.

“What? No! I’m surprised this didn’t happen earlier, to be honest. I must have been 14 when I stole my first sake bottle with Hierophant.”

“WHAT?!” He can hear both teenagers exclaim, and Kakyoin can’t help but smirk, shaking his head.

“Don’t be so surprised, it sounds like you two took way more than one bottle,” Kakyoin teases. Okuyasu sniffles.

“We didn’t mean to!” he cries, and Kakyoin startles at the abrupt increase in volume, Josuke audibly fretting over his friend while stumbling over his own words. “We- we didn’t steal, we got attack-”

“What?!” Kakyoin cries, already jumping to his feet, Hierophant snapping his crutches underneath him. “Where are y-”

Josuke groans then and takes the phone, cursing as he does, before he says, “God dammit Okuyasu, I told you not to call him-”

Kakyoin lets out a throaty noise. “You what?! Where are you two? Are you safe?!”

“We’re safe!” Josuke snaps, and Kakyoin scoffs.

“Don’t take that tone with me!” He sharply retorts, and Josuke just cusses. “And watch your damn mouth!”

“Josuke,” Kakyoin can faintly hear Okuyasu cry, “I’m sorry. I just really want water.”

Kakyoin sighs roughly and shakes his head, tearing off the anger away from his chest like a sticky, second layer of flesh, and shoving it aside. He can’t argue with Josuke right now; of course he’s not thinking straight. He’s drunk and he’s only 16. “Josuke,” he says softly then, and Josuke grunts. “I’m not mad. I just need to make sure you’re s-”

“We’re fine,” Josuke stresses, “we handled the standuser ourselves completely f-”

“I’m not talking about that,” Kakyoin presses, “I know you can handle some random standuser – which, you are giving me the story when you’re sober, by the way – but you’re drunk and it sounds like not at home, so can you please tell me where you are so I can come pick you up?”

Josuke is quiet then, stunned into silence. Kakyoin thinks he must have dropped the phone for a second before he finally murmurs a park’s name near the shopping district of Morioh.

Kakyoin sighs, nodding, rubbing his hand along his face. “Okay. I’ll be there soon. Please just- stay in one piece, both of you, until I get there.”

He hangs up before he can hear their answers.

There’s not likely to be a car leaving the hotel so late, Kakyoin muses, sighing. Oh well. He picks up the phone again and calls the hotel’s cab service.

“Hi, good evening. I need a cab to go and pick up my- my students and bring them back to the Morioh Grand Hotel. They got into a little trouble. Yes, I know there’s a late night fee…”


Several minutes later, with Kakyoin outside the hotel in his wheelchair (he was not dealing with his crutches then), arms crossed and scarf covering the lower half of his face, the cab he called rolls into the parking lot and comes to a stop right in front of him.

The backdoor opens and Kakyoin sees the flicker of Crazy Diamond and The Hand both appear to help the boys stumble out – curiously, Crazy Diamond handles Okuyasu, and The Hand handles Josuke.

Kakyoin decides not to comment on this however, instead rolling to the driver window and smiling at the driver sheepishly. “Thank you so much for getting them back safe.”

The driver winces. “They almost threw up.”

Kakyoin sucks in air through his teeth, cringing. “Ah. I- they didn’t, right?”

The driver shakes his head no, and Kakyoin sighs in relief. He pays and bids the driver goodbye before turning to his boys, eyes narrowed.

He can’t stay disapproving though, because both look absolutely miserable: Okuyasu’s cheeks are flushed and his hair messy, falling out of his pompadour as he sways where he stands, while Josuke scowls at the sidewalk, his own hair falling down to his shoulders, his uniform rumpled. Kakyoin sighs.

“Come on, you two,” he calls and he leads the way to his hotel room. After some shuffling, he can hear them follow.

When they make it and Kakyoin unlocks the door and holds it open for them, he can see Crazy Diamond and The Hand have appeared again, and again, they are attending to the boy that isn’t their respective user. Kakyoin says nothing, but a part of him does pang; it reminds him a little of Star Platinum on the journey, how it frequently fretted over everyone in their party in its own way…

Okuyasu and Josuke unceremoniously flop over each other on top of Kakyoin’s couch, Josuke falling on his back and letting out a soft grunt as Okuyasu face plants on top of him, and Kakyoin bites back a chuckle, unsure of how it’d be taken in their inebriated states.

“Alright you two,” Kakyoin sighs, having Hierophant tug off their shoes and place them by the door, “do you want some tea?”

Josuke pops his head up then, brows furrowed as he squints, and Kakyoin presses his lips into a line so he doesn’t laugh at the expression. After a beat, Josuke slurs out, “Weren’t you g’nna yell at us?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Why would I yell at you?”

Josuke huffs, arms rising up to wrap around Okuyasu, keeping him pinned to his chest. He does it so naturally, even in his drunken state, that Kakyoin isn’t sure that the motion was entirely conscious. “Got plenty into it on the phone…” he slurs.

Kakyoin purses his lips. “Well if you remember, I was upset that you had argued for not telling me. That point is quite moot now. So.”

Josuke hums, eyes sliding closed. The silence is stiff for a moment before Okuyasu pops his head up, resting his chin on Josuke’s chest.

“Mr. Kakyoin,” he croaks, voice warbling, “I don’t feel so good.”

Kakyoin cusses and hoists him up with Hierophant’s tentacles, which make Josuke shout and Okuyasu all the more greener. Kakyoin has Hierophant grab his trash can to put underneath Okuyasu’s chin just in time for the boy to start dry heaving. Kakyoin winces while Josuke sits up, hands uncoordinated as he pats Okuyasu's back.

“Ough,” Okuyasu moans softly when he’s done. Kakyoin silently hands him a handkerchief and has Hierophant take the trashcan away. Josuke looks a little green around the gills himself over the display, but not so much so that Kakyoin is worried he’ll throw up. Yet.

“You’re both getting ginger tea and that’s final,” Kakyoin says. Neither complains about this.

Kakyoin had received some from Tonio at Aya’s suggestion not too long ago, and he rummages through the small kitchenette his hotel suite was stocked with, setting a kettle on the small heating plate and getting three cups ready. As he does, he can hear Okuyasu begin sniffling.

He turns, ready to grab the trash can again, when Okuyasu begins weeping, not vomiting. Kakyoin blinks while Josuke startles, hands flying up near Okuyasu.

“O-Oi, Okuyasu, what’s wrong?!” Josuke asks, his floppy pompadour and wild blues eyes flitting over his friend. Okuyasu leans on his shoulder, face in his hands, and the weight seems to let Josuke know what to do – he wraps his arms around him, squeezing him, but he looks back at Kakyoin like a startled deer. Kakyoin rubs a hand over his face and heads over.

“Okuyasu, are you okay?” He asks quietly. Okuyasu just cries – at least it’s not full sobs, Kakyoin muses – and shakes his head.

“S-sorry, I don’t know what’s wrong,” Okuyasu’s voice leaks from his palms. Kakyoin sighs and pats his shoulder. Josuke slumps against him, head smushing Okuyasu’s pompadour. Kakyoin considers if they’re both sober enough to shower or if they should wait until morning, but he quickly shakes the thought away. Too drunk for sure.

“Alcohol will do that to you,” he murmurs instead, withdrawing his hand. “How much did you two drink?”

“We didn’t drink,” Josuke slurs, scowling. “I told you, we were attacked.”

Kakyoin bites back the urge to roll his eyes. “Okay…then what happened?”

Okuyasu’s sobs wrack louder and Kakyoin jumps. “I punched a middle schooler in the face!” He wails.

Kakyoin startles. “You wha-”

“The kid started it!” Josuke defends crossly, glowering sloppily at Kakyoin. Kakyoin raises his hands and Josuke closes his eyes, expression slacking.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, biting back any urge to laugh or scold. “Can you please tell me what happened?”

Okuyasu sniffs before trying to raise his head, only for Josuke’s weight on him to keep him pinned to his hands. Okuyasu whines and Josuke sighs, sliding down until his head is resting in Okuyasu’s lap rather than on his hair, and Okuyasu sits up. Kakyoin politely says nothing about the position.

Okuyasu sniffles again, wiping his face with the handkerchief Kakyoin had given him. “We- we met a middle schooler with a stand,” he warbles out, “and he was such an asshole. But he was smart. And so-” his voice breaks again and he hides his eyes. Josuke frowns up at him, a hand reaching to cup his cheek, and Kakyoin looks away, clearing his throat.

Josuke sighs, sitting up, the couch shifting audibly with his weight. Kakyoin looks back. “The kid- Sh…” Josuke’s face screws up. “Shigechi, was using his stand to get a bunch of coins and shit. Okuyasu and I pitched the idea for him to use his stand to find lottery tickets and we ending up winning-”

“You won?!” Kakyoin cried, but Josuke and Okuyasu both cringe at his volume and he bites back his words, wincing himself. “Sorry. Continue.”

Josuke grumbles, hunching over himself. “We won, but that damn brat got greedy and tried to take the check for himself. So we-”

“So we got into a fight and I punched him!” Okuyasu sobs, and Kakyoin frowns. “It just pissed me off, but I- I-” He sniffles. “I feel bad. I told myself I would be better than Keich-”

“Okay,” Kakyoin cuts in before Okuyasu can dive into whatever episode is lurking behind that corner while drunk to the point of throwing up and sobbing, “well, what happened? Is he okay?”

Okuyasu sniffles. “Yeah. We talked some sense into him.”

“Not before we got into a stand fight,” Josuke mutters. “Which is why- why we’re like this. We didn’t drink but- his stupid stand injected us with some alcohol to try and get us to- t’back off…”

Kakyoin bites back a snort, but he can’t bite back the amused quirk of his mouth. “He does sound smart. He really held his own against you two?”

“Hey!” Josuke glowers, and Kakyoin holds up his hands in surrender again. “He just surprised us, he’s not-”

“He kinda reminds me of myself at that age,” Kakyoin muses, and Josuke and Okuyasu snort at him. Kakyoin raises a brow, but before he can ask, the kettle starts to sing, and he rolls to shush it before it can reach a crescendo that will overwhelm Josuke and Okuyasu. He pours the water into the cups and heads back out, Hierophant carrying Josuke and Okuyasu’s.

“Thanks…” Josuke mumbles when he gets his cup, and Kakyoin hums, taking a sip from his own as Hierophant hands Okuaysu his.

Okuyasu sniffles. “Thanks, dad.”

Kakyoin chokes on his tea.

Josuke whips his head up to stare at him, jaw dropped open. Okuyasu takes a sip of his tea before bursting into tears again. “I’m sorry, that was so stupid of m-”

“It- I- No, that’s-” Kakyoin stammers, feeling heat flood his face, “I just-”

“I’m so stupid,” Okuyasu whimpers, and Kakyoin shakes his head to rid himself of But-I’m-not-even-30-yet thoughts, puts his tea down, and claps his hands down onto Okuyasu’s shoulders, making him jump.

“You’re not stupid,” Kakyoin says sternly, before swallowing and dropping his gaze, heat riding along the back of his neck. “I’m. Um. I take it as- as an honor,” his voice lowering into a mumble.

Okuyasu sniffles, tears still streaking down his face. Kakyoin hands him another handkerchief and gives him some space. Josuke looks viscerally uncomfortable, which Kakyoin can’t particularly blame, but still…

“I hate being drunk,” Okuyasu announces suddenly, and Kakyoin lets out a small laugh.

“Yeah, it-” he has flashes of his college days, then, and he presses his lips into a thin line. “...It’s definitely overrated,” he mutters.

“How long will it last?” Josuke asks, voice edged in desperation. Kakyoin sighs, leaning back in his wheelchair.

“You said he injected it right into your bloodstream? Do you know how much?” Josuke and Okuyasu both squint at each other. After a beat and neither has said anything, Kakyoin shakes his head. “You’re young and big, you really just need to sleep it off.” He pauses. “Erm… Josuke, what’s your mom’s number?”

Josuke’s head shoots up, eyes wide. “Wh- why the fuck do you want to know that?!”

Kakyoin clicks his tongue. “Language. I need to call and-” he purses his lips. “I’ll…pretend to be Okuyasu’s dad." Okuyasu lets out a high pitched noise that Kakyoin does not comment on. "I’ll tell her you two were studying or something and you’re spending the night, so that she doesn’t worry. Okay?”

Josuke blinks. Okuyasu sniffles. “Ah, yeah, good point,” Josuke murmurs dazedly. He gives Kakyoin the number, and Kakyoin turns to his mattress, pausing. He glances back at the sofa, his spine already aching, before he shakes his head and sighs roughly.

“Also- get over here, you two are not sleeping on a cramped couch,” Kakyoin sighs, his spine spitting at him. Josuke and Okuyasu let out confused noises. 

“Wha- are you sure, Mr. Kakyoin?” Okuyasu asks, voice edged with hesitation. Unfortunately, Kakyoin doesn’t say, his spine raking claws along his ribs in protest of the couch he’s going to subject it to.

“Yes,” he says instead, “get over here. You’re gonna hurt enough in the morning as is with your hangovers.”

Both frown tightly at that then, and clamber up to sway over to the bed. Okuyasu immediately leans onto Josuke and Josuke stumbles, but they both hobble over to the large mattress together. When they get there, Josuke flops on first, letting out a sigh as he sinks into it. Okuyasu squirms in next to him, letting out a pleased hum. Josuke turns to face him, inching closer into his space, and instead of being annoyed, Okuyasu lets out a delighted chirp. Something in Kakyoin squirms – it’s too reminiscent to how he and Jotaro acted when they shared hotel rooms ten years ago-

“Wow, this bed is much bigger than the one I have at home,” Okuyasu mumbles. Kakyoin purses his lips but deigns not to comment, figuring he can talk to a sober Okuyasu about it.

He rolls to the phone, picks it up, and moves it to the kitchenette, trying to ensure he won’t bother the boys as they hopefully drift to sleep. As he dials the number Josuke gave him, he has Hierophant fill up two glasses of water and place them on the bedside table for Josuke and Okuyasu.

He’s just dismissed Hierophant when the phone picks up.

“I swear, this better be Josuke so you can get home now and I can kick your a-” Kakyoin blinks at the words, just biting back a gasp. Well, Josuke had to get it from somewhere, he thinks briefly.

“Ms. Higashikata?” Kakyoin cuts in, and Tomoko pauses, breathing heavily on the phone. After a beat, she replies, her voice heavy,

“Is this a cop? Are you calling from the jail?”

Kakyoin blinks. “What? No. I-” he glances over at the boys. They’ve adjusted their position, both curled toward each other on their sides, and Kakyoin’s heart squeezes and he darts his gaze away. “I’m, um, Mr. Nijimura. Okuyasu’s father? Josuke’s friend?”

There’s a pause. Then,

“Oh,” Tomoko says, letting out a sigh, and Kakyoin can’t decipher if it’s in relief or embarrassment. “I- is he with Okuyasu?”

Kakyoin clears his throat, glancing back at the boys, only to avert his gaze as if burned when he sees Josuke lift his arm to sling it over Okuyasu’s shoulders sloppily. “Ah, yes. They were horsing around all day I assume” -Kakyoin bites back a fond eyeroll- “and got back a little bit ago and passed out. I didn’t realize Josuke was still here until now, but I figured it would be a shame to wake him up and make him go home when we’re just down the street…”

Tomoko sighs again, and Kakyoin can imagine her shaking her head. “Tch. Yeah, that’s Josuke for you… I guess you’re right. He needs to sleep. That kid is still growing like a tree, I don’t think he’s slowed down since he started puberty…”

Kakyoin bites back a comment about Joestar genes and instead gives an acknowledging hum.

There’s a small rustle as Tomoko shakes her head, her hair shifting against the microphone of the phone. “Well, thank you for checking in when he didn’t. I’m gonna have to have a talk with him about that,” her voice is stern, and Kakyoin smiles.

“That’d be good. Thank you for being understanding,” he says, voice edging into a tinge of doubt, and Tomoko sighs, but this one is lighter, more exasperated than upset.

“Oh, it’s- he’s a kid. I was a kid once too. I definitely have done this same thing, I know a hardass parent isn’t going to make it stop, but jeez,” she huffs, before continuing softly, “I wish he would just talk to me sometimes.”

There’s a pregnant pause as Kakyoin squirms, unsure of how to really respond to that. He thinks of Koichi and lets out a breath. “Yeah. I get it. It’s hard to figure out how kids are taking things and it’s even harder to find the words to talk to them.”

“Yeah,” Tomoko says softly, before her voice returns to normal, a playful if stern edge in her words. “Well, just- have him call me in the morning, he cannot do this crap again.”

Kakyoin laughs a little then, quietly. “Of course.”

Tomoko hums. “Goodnight. And thank you again, I was seriously about to report him missing.”

Abruptly, Kakyoin is reminded of Morioh’s missing person rate, and the murderer on the loose Reimi warned him of, and how Josuke didn’t want him to know he and Okuyasu were both piss drunk and confused in public, and he purses his lips, his face souring. “Of course,” he says instead of voicing that. “Parenting is a group effort. Goodnight, Ms. Higashikata,”

Tomoko barks out a laugh. “Goodnight, Mr. Nijimura.” He cringes, but says nothing, and hangs up.

He turns from the phone, rubbing at his eye as he rolls back to the side of the room with the couch and bed. Hierophant flicks lights off as he goes, leaving only the entryway light on so hopefully, should the boys wake up feeling sick, they could find the bathroom no problem.

He rolls to the couch, Hierophant wrapping around him to pick him up and deposit him onto it while folding his wheelchair, and he nearly jumps when he hears Josuke say quietly, “Is she mad at me?”

Kakyoin darts his gaze up. Okuyasu and Josuke are tangled together, Josuke’s arm hanging over him, Okuyasu’s legs pinning one of Josuke’s own. Okuyasu is definitely asleep already, softly snoring from his place near Josuke’s chest. Kakyoin wrenches his gaze away, the phantom sensation of Jotaro’s breath against his chest when they laid in similar positions on the journey tickling his nerves. I wish I was the one with a drink, a part of him sighs mournfully, and the rest of him harshly shoves it aside, hissing, We don’t do that anymore.

Kakyoin swallows and shakes his head, more to get rid of his thoughts than to answer Josuke. “Not really. But you need to call her when you wake up.”

Josuke groans softly and Kakyoin clicks his tongue.

“It could be worse.”

Josuke snorts softly, closing his eyes. “Yeah, I know.”

Kakyoin sighs, but doesn’t press. Instead, he says, “Would you have told her if you didn’t tell me?”

Josuke hums noncommittally and Kakyoin lets out a harsher sigh, rubbing his temples. “Josuke, I know Koichi told you about the situation at hand – there’s a standuser murderer out th-”

“Didn’t you just say you trusted us to take care of a random standuser?” Josuke snaps, and Kakyoin rubs his temples harder.

“Why can’t you trust me in return?” Kakyoin asks, and Josuke goes quiet. “I know you’re capable- Josuke, your stand is one of the most powerful I’ve ever seen and I’ve been helping you train it, I know you’re strong, you don’t need to prove that to me!” He takes a deep breath, dropping his hand and catching Josuke’s gaze. “It’s not that I think I need to be there, but I want to be there. You’re my student. And I’m your teacher.”

Josuke is quiet for a long time, just staring at Kakyoin. Kakyoin’s skin itches, his eyes catching the night light in such a way that it looks like they’re glowing. Distantly, Kakyoin wonders if he’s ever felt calm under the gaze of a Joestar.

Finally, Josuke lets out a soft sigh, face scrunching up as he retorts, “Then why don’t you let others be there when you’re in my shoes? The way you talk to Mr. Jotaro-”

Kakyoin startles, his heart beating in his throat, his fingertips pulsing, a bleeding sensation manifesting between the muscle and bone of his ribs. “That’s- that’s different,” he cuts in harshly, and Josuke growls.

Josuke scoffs. “No, it’s not, but fine. If not Mr. Jotaro, then-”

Kakyoin’s vision fades to red. “-Then you have no point, because Kujo is different-”

No, how about Koichi,” Josuke interrupts harshly, and Kakyoin snaps his mouth shut, “or me,” Josuke’s voice cracks then. “I just want to help,” he whispers, “but you act like such a- such a kid sometimes! You say I- I don't have anything to prove, well you don't either! The only thing you're doing is making me respect you less!”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth. “I-” Oh.

Inhaling, Kakyoin flips his glasses up to rest on his head, rubbing his eyes. When he drops his hands, he inclines his head, staring at Josuke head-on.

“Do you have a specific example?” He asks, voice quiet. Josuke scoffs, closing his eyes.

“The time at Okuyasu’s house?” Kakyoin shrinks into his scarf, crossing his arms at the reminder. “Or when Mr. Jotaro tried to help you after you got electrocuted and you screamed at him? Or how you snap at Koichi when he shows concern, like with Hot Chili Pepper? You always snap at him,” Josuke chuckles darkly, and Kakyoin squirms, shame burning tightly in his gut. Well. That would explain why he thinks I don’t like him.

“Okay, I get it,” Kakyoin cuts in, voice gravelly, and Josuke stops. He takes a deep breath, and Hierophant shimmers into view, curling around his hand. Kakyoin sighs and squeezes it. “Looks like we have the same problem.”

Josuke barks out a small laugh. “Yeah. Sure.” He sniffs, rubbing his face into his shoulder, and when he speaks again his voice is wavering with emotion. “How am I supposed to believe it’s not belittling if you clearly don’t believe the same? Don’t try to damn baby me and lie to me that it’s okay!”

Kakyoin’s lips part, but he can’t say anything. “Ah.” He leans back into the sofa, and when the thought of I wish I had a drink is echoed in his head, he is a little more sympathetic for it, even if he does push it down again.

Kakyoin purses his lips, closes his eyes, and lets his head slip back, hitting the back of the couch. “I know- I know I’m-” Kakyoin sighs. “I know I’m not the perfect mentor,” he says softly, voice coming out like a whisper. “I’m still learning, too.” He thinks of Polnareff again and aches. I need to call Avdol.

Josuke is quiet for a long time, before murmuring, “...Sorry.”

Kakyoin smiles smarmily, shaking his head. “I asked." He lifts his head then, frowning at Josuke intently. “But Josuke, please. It's- it's not a bad thing. Please don't ever think it's a bad thing."

It's quiet for several moments. Then, Josuke takes a breath, but before he can respond, he shoots up, suddenly looking decidedly green, and Hierophant is already manifested and rushing to the bathroom to bring back the trash just as Josuke starts gagging.

Kakyoin yanks open and jumps into his wheelchair and heads over as Josuke retches into the trash can in front of him, shoulders shaking, small whimpers of discomfort escaping his throat as his stomach rebels against the alcohol in his system. Kakyoin takes it from Hierophant’s tentacles, silently nodding in thanks, before rubbing Josuke’s back with his free hand. Josuke huffs, but he can’t say anything before another round kicks up and he shoves his head into the trashcan again.

After a few minutes, Josuke pulls back, face scrunched in misery, and Kakyoin silently hands the trashcan back to Hierophant to hold for a moment as he wheels to the nightstand, grabs Josuke’s water glass, and pulls another handkerchief out.

He hands both to Josuke. “Wipe your mouth,” he instructs softly. Josuke does. “Good man.” Josuke’s face screws up at the comment.

“Get some water, swish it around your mouth, and spit it back into the trash can, it’ll get rid of the taste,” Kakyoin instructs, and Josuke whines, gaze locking onto Kakyoin.

“I don’t feel like a man sometimes,” he says abruptly, and Kakyoin blinks at the comment. Josuke’s brain must catch up with him, for he flushes dark enough it’s noticeable in the night, and he grabs the water and does as Kakyoin instructed.

It’s quiet save for the swish of the water in Josuke’s mouth. Kakyoin is uncomfortable himself; he can’t imagine how Josuke must be feeling.

After a moment, Josuke spits the water out and wipes his mouth again, and Kakyoin has Hierophant deal with the trash can. “Jos-”

“I’m drunk,” he says flatly, “ignore what I sai-”

“I don’t want to,” Kakyoin presses, and Josuke lets out a sound that almost sounds like a sob.

“Mr. Kakyoin, please,” Josuke asks, and Kakyoin halts, refocusing on Josuke. The kid is miserable, his hair completely out of its pompadour now, spilling in sweat-stiff curtains around his face and shoulders, his eyes becoming red-rimmed the longer Kakyoin stays silent.

Kakyoin shifts his jaw. “I’ve,” he pauses. “I might…get it.”

Josuke blinks, Kakyoin avoids the urge to squirm.

“You- you do,” Josuke repeats cautiously, and Kakyoin lets out a sigh.

“‘S not like there’s any way I can show it when it’s just my feelings. But…” It’s hard to verbalize, Kakyoin realizes quickly. He shifts uncomfortably. "You don't feel like a man sometimes?"

Josuke echoes the fidgeting, blurting, “It’s not that I. Like.” He lets out a sigh. “I look at myself and… I’m okay with it. I don’t- mind what I see. But looking at myself and calling what I see a- a man, sometimes it’s…” Josuke lets out a frustrated sound and Kakyoin feels a part of his chest give way.

“I understand,” Kakyoin assures. Josuke grumbles.

“Do you?” He asks, voice like a chuckle and yet tone edged with harshness and fear.

Kakyoin lets out a frustrated noise. “It’s hard- it’s hard to explain.” He pauses, and Josuke doesn’t say anything. “It’s…it just feels like there’s more there,” Kakyoin murmurs. “More than one word can describe.”

Josuke lets out a soft noise. “I’ve never met anyone else who- gets it.”

Kakyoin laughs quietly. “You know more people than you realize.”

“Huh?”

Kakyoin hums, tilting his head. “Well, not the exact same way, but…well,” Kakyoin shakes his head before smiling sleepily at Josuke. “Point is…you don’t need to manage it alone.” He holds his tongue for a second, before tagging on, “So…trust one of us with it?”

Josuke doesn’t respond, features furrowing. Kakyoin almost regrets asking – he’s drunk and it’s late, they should be having this conversation when Josuke was in control of all of his faculties-

“It’s hard,” Josuke admits quietly, Kakyoin sighs and nods.

“I know,” he admits in turn, “I know.” They’re both quiet for a while, watching idly as Hierophant strings himself up around the ceiling like he always does before Kakyoin goes to sleep, a green overlay lighting up the room softly.

Finally, Kakyoin says, “Okay. Compromise,” he starts. Josuke hums, blinking his heavy eyelids up at Kakyoin. Kakyoin swallows. “You need to trust me more.” Josuke’s face screws up, but Kakyoin presses on, “And I…I need to trust you more, too. You have got to listen to me more, but in turn,” Kakyoin lets out a long sigh. “In turn, I need to listen to you, too. And that’s not just you and me – that goes for Okuyasu and Koichi, too. I… I do admit I’ve been- cruel. And callous. Because of…assuming I'm so smart, and everyone else must be so dumb and they mistake me for one of them." He pauses and shakes his head. "And I’ll work on it. But I need you to work with me, okay? No more secrets.”

He holds out his hand then. Josuke stares at him for a long time, lids hanging over his eyes sleepily, but his eyes themselves are decently alert, no fog or glaze swirling around them, scanning over Kakyoin’s hand. It takes a while for any response to come, but Kakyoin is nothing if not patient.

Josuke sighs, inclines his head bashfully, and takes his hand.

“Fine. Deal, old man,” Josuke smirks tiredly. Kakyoin rolls his eyes lightheartedly.

“Get some sleep, brat,” Kakyoin says, rolling back to the couch.

Josuke barks out a laugh, and Kakyoin can hear the bed shift as he settles down again. "Don't have to tell me twice."

Kakyoin smiles.

Chapter 26

Summary:

Aya raises a brow, shooting a look up at Kakyoin. “You’re a man.”

Am I? Kakyoin thinks, recalling his conversation with Josuke, shaking his head. “Doesn’t make it any less confus-”

Before Kakyoin can respond to that properly, the door of Aya’s salon opens, and the words immediately die on Kakyoin’s tongue as they both turn their heads.

There in the doorway, hesitant as she holds her schoolbag in front of her, eyes scanning the salon, is Yukako Yamagishi.

Notes:

hi everyone i hope u enjoy this chap <3 it's def not the most interesting one but i hope u have fun nonetheless! school starts for me on wednesday so unfortunately i wont be able to keep updating within ~2 weeks like i have been, but im Certain i will resume my monthly update schedule during the school year so. stay tuned <3

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Chapter Text

“I would not have guessed you liked green!”

Kakyoin huffs. “Is it that surprising? My literal stand is green.”

Aya clicks her tongue as she files at Kakyoin’s cuticles, having insisted on a whole manicure treatment to make up for the time she never got to paint his nails. “Well, my stand is pink, but it’s not my favorite color.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Really? You could have fooled me.”

Aya snorts. “Is it the scrubs? I got these to match my stand. My favorite color is actually black.”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Black? I really never would have guessed that.”

Aya rolls her eyes, pinching the finger she’s working on, and Kakyoin yelps. She smirks. “It’s underrated. All other colors shine best in the dark. It reminds me a bit of…” she tilts her head. “Well, me, and my work.”

Kakyoin hums. “Because you make people shine?”

Aya smiles then. “Why, how sweet of you to say. I like to think so, yes. It's my goal, at least,”

Kakyoin snorts at her theatrics. She finishes filing his cuticles down, then begins the first coat or nail polish. Kakyoin jerks at the cold – it’s been a long time since he’s painted his nails, his gloves having ensured he wouldn’t get much enjoyment out of it. But since his current gloves are fingerless, and Aya had insisted…

She clears her throat then, and Kakyoin flits his gaze to her face.

“So…men?”

“Aya!” Kakyoin seethes, gaze darting about the salon despite knowing it was empty, and Aya throws up her hands in surrender.

“Sorry! Sorry! It’s just- I’ve never…I’ve only met so many other people who feel the same as me- or- well, not the same, but-” Aya groans, her brows pinched together, her lips pressed into a thin line, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“No, I know. I just-” He glances around again, clearing his throat. “A little heads up next time before diving right into it would be appreciated.”

Aya nods and focuses back on his nails, and Kakyoin chews on his tongue as she paints.

“...it’s not just men,” Kakyoin murmurs after a beat. Aya pauses. “I- It’s- both.”

Aya hums and resumes painting. “Both?”

Kakyoin squirms, feeling heat creep up the back of his neck. “And what about you? Are you just women?”

Aya smirks even while her cheeks color slightly. “Yeah, only women. I’ll never understand men and I don’t want to, really.”

Kakyoin snorts. “Yeah, I- yeah. I don't really get men either.”

Aya raises a brow, shooting a look up at Kakyoin. “You’re a man.”

Am I? Kakyoin thinks, recalling his conversation with Josuke, shaking his head. “Doesn’t make it any less confus-”

Before Kakyoin can respond to that properly, the door of Aya’s salon opens, and the words immediately die on Kakyoin’s tongue as they both turn their heads.

There in the doorway, hesitant as she holds her schoolbag in front of her, eyes scanning the salon, is Yukako Yamagishi.

She blinks at the sight of Kakyoin, as if surprised, before sighing, stepping fully into the store, and closing the door behind her. “Am I interrupting something?”

Kakyoin and Aya exchange glances and he drops his hands from her table, turning with only one hand of nail polish to Yukako. “Not really.”

Aya hums, standing up from her seat. “To what do we owe the pleasure?”

Yukako scowls despite the words. “Don’t give me that.” Her face falls then, still bitter, but more inwardly directed. “You don’t need to pretend to be happy to see me.”

Before either of them can comment on that, she turns to Kakyoin then, scowl dripping off, a desperate pinch overcoming her features, and she looks exactly like the teenager she is, and Kakyoin can’t help but recall when he looked in the mirror when he was her age and saw the same thing. “Um. I wasn’t sure how else to contact you, so I was going to ask Ms. Tsuji, but…” she smirks then, but it’s sour. “Guess it’s in my fortune that you’re here.”

Aya hums. Kakyoin blinks. “What did you need?”

Yukako sighs and sets her schoolbag down. Aya wordlessly leads her to a spare seat, pushing it over to the nail station Kakyoin is still at. Aya sits back down after she does, and Yukako hesitates a little longer before doing the same.

She tugs at her hair and takes a breath. It’s still black, Kakyoin notices, even her roots. Has she gone back to Aya or dyed it herself? Or does the new hair that's grown and not been damaged not need to be dyed? He shakes his head.

“I-” Yukako scoffs then, and Kakyoin and Aya exchange glances. “I-” She drops her hands and looks Kakyoin straight in the face. “Remember when you asked me if- if you thought I would try and kidnap Koichi again?”

Kakyoin straightens, startled. “Is- do you plan on-?!”

“No!” Yukako hisses, her hair writhing with the force of the emotion, before she slumps, the fury dropping from her face. “It’s just…part of why I was so sure before was because I was convinced it was enough to know him. That I wouldn’t want anything else but my memories and the distant association. But now…” Her face slackens, her brows furrowing just slightly, and Kakyoin and Aya exchange glances again. “I don’t want to kidnap him. I don’t want to make him do anything. But I wish I could see him without either of us acting like scared animals.”

“Ah,” Aya says, tilting her head. She leans an elbow on the table, holding her chin as she stares Yukako down. Yukako doesn’t seem to notice the sizing up, or if she does, she doesn't visibly care, still lost in her own thoughts. Aya taps her chin. “If you don’t want to force him to do anything, how do you think you will achieve this?”

Yukako’s face flushes in indignation, her hands tightening in the fabric of her skirt. “...I don’t know,” she says in a small, but edged voice, and Kakyoin and Aya exchange glances again. “That’s why I wanted to talk to Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin rubs at the bridge of his nose. “Hmm…” He glances at Aya, and she keeps her gaze pinned on Yukako for a moment, eyes narrow, before sliding over to Kakyoin, brows furrowed. She inclines her head and Kakyoin takes a breath. “Well, it sounds like you need to talk to him.”

The color drains from Yukako’s face despite her expression lightening up. “Do you think he would?”

“I- um, I don’t know,” Kakyoin admits, and Yukako’s face shutters again. Aya kicks at him, glaring, and Kakyoin winces.

“He’s saying he’s willing to supervise,” Aya soothes, and Yukako sniffs, shifting in her seat. Aya jerks her gaze back to Kakyoin, a brow raised. “Right, Noriaki?”

“Yes, yes,” Kakyoin reassures, and Yukako raises her head, squinting.

“...’Noriaki’?” She asks, and Kakyoin shrugs.

“We’re friends. I told you that, right?”

Yukako hums, face pinching as she looks down again.

Oh, Kakyoin realizes suddenly, his heart crashing against his ribs and dropping down to his stomach. She’s lonely.

And with that realization, his decision has already been made.

“Miss Yukako,” he says, and Yukako’s head shoots up at the use of her first name. “Let’s call Koichi right now. Aya and I can supervise and you two can…discuss,” he says lightly. Yukako stares at him, purple eyes intense and cloudy, like a lightning storm at dusk, and Kakyoin has to jerk his gaze away. It’s a look he’s seen before, when he was 15 himself…

“Okay,” Yukako says after a long pause. Kakyoin nods and, after getting a nod from Aya, stands, crutches hefted to him with Hierophant’s help, and walks to Aya’s phone to call Koichi’s landline.

When Kakyoin dials the phone number Koichi had given him near the start of their training, he gets Koichi’s mother, who is delighted to finally meet the “teacher who has been taking the time to tutor her boy and his friends” – Kakyoin can’t deny that’s a pretty good excuse for why he disappears every Sunday – but is told that Koichi isn't home yet, likely hanging out with friends. Kakyoin purses his lips before nodding stiffly. “I see,” he says, “Well, thank you Mrs. Hirose,” and hangs up after exchanging polite goodbyes.

Yukako looks tense, squeezing her knees. “So?” She asks.

Kakyoin sighs as he walks back to his own seat, his crutches clicking quietly as he does. “He’s not home yet. This is probably a good thing, though; he must be out and about still. I can go grab him,” he says, determined.

Aya blinks at Kakyoin while Yukako asks, “You’d really do that just so I can talk to him?”

Kakyoin pauses at the sentence, something in him squirming. He knows he’s overly invested, but he doesn’t want to think about why, not right now. He turns his head to Yukako, staring steadily. “It’s important to talk these things out. It’s not like he got closure for what happened, so I’m sure he wants to talk to you, too.” Joseph’s voice rings in his head then, the echo of You two should really talk bouncing around his skull, and Kakyoin’s guts writhe.

He turns to Aya then. She studies him for a moment, gaze calculating, before she nods. “Yeah, go ahead. I can entertain Miss Yukako in the meantime.”

Kakyoin breathes a sigh of relief. “Thank you,” he says, before turning to the door. “I’ll be back,” he calls, and shuts the door behind him.

Finding Koichi doesn’t take too long, fortunately for Kakyoin’s back: he has only walked a few blocks circling out from the salon when he finds Koichi grimacing as Rohan speaks to him, hands gesticulating as he relays some idea. When Koichi turns his gaze and notices Kakyoin, he straightens, nearly jolting with the sudden movement.

“Um, Mr. Rohan, I’m sorry, but I can’t go to the mall with you,” Koichi says, and Rohan frowns, interrupting.

“But-”

“Ah, Koichi,” Kakyoin cuts in, and Rohan turns to face him. From behind Rohan’s back, Koichi stares at Kakyoin pleadingly, and Kakyoin swallows and bites back a smirk, keeping his face neutral. “Mr. Rohan. I hope you’ve been well. Koichi and I needed to meet to discuss some properties of Echoes, so if you don’t mind…”

Rohan blinks, gaze darting back to Koichi – who nods fervently – before he sighs, shrugs, and says, “Well…alright. Next time then, Koichi! You need to help me people watch. I need to know what kind of people draw teenage boys' attention so I can keep my designs fresh for my manga.” And with that, he turns and walks away.

Koichi lets out a breath, shoulders slumping, and Kakyoin smothers a chuckle.

“Thanks for that…” he sighs bashfully, and Kakyoin waves a hand, brushing it off. Koichi shakes his head before looking up at Kakyoin. “Anyway, what are you doing here, Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin hums, pursing his lips. “Actually…I was looking for you.”

Koichi blinks before pointing to himself. “Eh? Me? Why?”

Kakyoin shuffles, unsure of how to start the conversation. He glances down at his crutches before taking a breath. “Are you free right now?”

“I-I guess,” Koichi confirms, brow pinched together. “I just got done hanging out with Josuke and Okuyasu at Cafe Rengatei… Why?”

Kakyoin looks back up then, gripping his crutches a little tighter. “...Yukako Yamagishi has talked to me recently,” he starts.

Koichi visibly stiffens, but he doesn’t grow pale or shake, which Kakyoin supposes is a good sign, considering all that has happened. It’s quiet for several heartbeats. When it’s clear Koichi isn’t going to say anything, Kakyoin continues.

“She…wants to talk,” Kakyoin suggests, and Koichi’s brows pinch, but he doesn’t recoil or immediately say no, which again, Kakyoin will suppose is a good sign.

“Why?” Koichi asks, his voice gravelly but not cracked. Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“I think she’s lonely,” he says bluntly, “and I think she wants to apologize properly. She never got the chance earlier. Aya – Miss Tsuj – and I will be there to monitor, so you’ll be safe,” Kakyoin stresses, and Koichi huffs quietly.

“It’s not that I’m worried she’s going to hurt me again…” Koichi mutters. Kakyoin lets out an encouraging noise. “Just…I could protect myself now anyway, but I don’t think she even wants to. I agree with you; I think she’s…lonely,” Koichi’s eyes soften despite the storminess in his expression. “I’ve caught her looking at me sometimes when we pass by in the hallways at school. She keeps her distance but she looks…sad. Every time.”

Kakyoin’s heart squeezes — I hope I don’t look like that to Jotaro — but he says nothing; Yukako’s situation won’t improve if Koichi only goes on Kakyoin’s behalf and not his own.

Koichi sighs and looks up to Kakyoin. “She said she wanted to talk?”

Kakyoin nods. “That’s what she said. Again, Miss Tsuji and I will be there to mediate if tempers flare.”

Koichi chuckles darkly. “I can handle myself, Mr. Kakyoin,” he says, voice tired, expression haggard, his features drooping down a bit. Kakyoin is reminded of the last time they talked.

I’m not completely useless.

Kakyoin closes his eyes and bites back any undeserved retorts, before looking Koichi in the face. “I know. But for my own peace of mind, I’d want to be there. It’d be more for me than for you.” He pauses. “...And Miss Yukako. I don’t think she quite trusts herself…”

Koichi hums, eyes narrowing at Kakyoin. Kakyoin keeps his gaze even as the hair on his neck prickles.

Finally, Koichi sighs, and, after glancing at his watch, straightens, rolling his shoulders. He looks up at Kakyoin with a bright, determined gaze. “Okay. Then let’s do it.” He has shadows wisping under his eyes. Kakyoin wonders how he never noticed before.

Kakyoin nods, turns, and leads the way back to the salon. The walk back is silent, and the hair on Kakyoin’s neck prickles. He tightens his scarf, huffs out a breath, and keeps the door pinned open for Koichi with a crutch when they make it back.

Aya and Yukako look up from their conversation and Yukako immediately freezes and drops her gaze when she catches sight of Koichi. Kakyoin frowns, but isn’t surprised. Aya stands and grabs another chair for Koichi from a nearby table.

“Ah, thank you,” Koichi mutters, ever polite, and Aya smiles before looking over at Kakyoin. Kakyoin swallows, nodding, and takes his own seat, Aya following.

With Yukako and Koichi separated by the table, Kakyoin near Koichi and Aya near Yukako should emotions flare, they’re set up physically. Yukako still can’t look up, squeezing her hands, and Koichi looks viscerally uncomfortable, brows pinched and gaze focused solely on the table in front of him. Kakyoin clears his throat.

“Does- um, Aya, do you have any water?” He asks. Aya jolts.

“Oh! Yes. Let me- get everyone some water,” she says hastily, getting up and heading to the back.

Koichi and Yukako still haven’t moved, and it’s so quiet Kakyoin can hear Aya rummaging through her small breakroom’s cupboard. He sighs and they both jump, whipping their heads to him.

Kakyoin holds up his hands in a placating gesture. “Sorry, sorry,” he says, “I didn’t mean to startle anyone.” Both turn back to the table and Kakyoin shakes his head. “So, summer break should be coming up, yeah?”

Koichi blinks. “Ah, yeah.”

Yukako nods stiffly.

“Any plans?” He asks.

Koichi tugs at the collar of his uniform. “Not really… I just want to hang out with Josuke and Okuyasu,” he says.

Yukako says nothing for several moments. Finally, she says, “...I’m thinking of getting a summer job.”

Kakyoin and Koichi both blink in surprise. She narrows her eyes at the scrutiny.

“That’s- that’s great, Miss Yukako,” Kakyoin says. “Do you know where?”

Yukako hums, playing with her hair absentmindedly and Kakyoin is just glad she’s relaxing a little. “Wherever. I’ve, ah, been thinking about a cafe job…”

Kakyoin nods and Koichi hums thoughtfully. It is then that Aya arrives back with the water bottles, placing one in front of each of them before settling back in her seat with her own bottle.

Finally, Yukako takes a deep breath, straightens in her chair, and looks up toward Koichi head-on. “Koichi…” she starts, her voice wavering a small bit before centering itself. “I… I’m sorry.”

Kakyoin sits back, a little surprised, but approving of her bluntness. Koichi stares at her, his mouth opening once before he shuts it, and Yukako takes another breath.

“I… What I did… It’s…” she shakes her head. “Nothing can excuse that. I know that. So I won’t even try to explai-”

“Can you?” Koichi cuts in, voice quiet, and Yukako’s face wavers, longing and mortification and fear and shame racing along her brows, the corners of her lips, her eyes. She shudders and swallows, nodding.

“I know I told you that I, um,” her cheeks flush, but her expression looks like she’s in physical pain, her eyes squinted and her lips in a tight frown, “that I wanted to force you to live up to your potential…so you could be perfect for me.” She takes a deep breath and shakes her head, regaining her determination now that the admittance is in the air. “But to be honest, I don’t think that’s right. I don’t think I knew why I did it at the time, even…”

She sighs, looks over at Kakyoin then, and Kakyoin nods gently, encouraging her. Yukako sucks in a breath and continues.

“It’s a bit convoluted, but…” Yukako shakes her head. “During spring break, right before high school, I was shot with the stand arrow by Nijimura Keicho.” Koichi blinks, lips parting, but no sound comes out. Yukako continues, glaring daggers at the table, fists clenching and relaxing rhythmically against her knees. “My family — my mom and dad — were, too, but I was the only one who got a stand.” Yukako takes a deep breath. “The rest died.” Aya locks a startled gaze with Kakyoin, and Kakyoin gestures that It’s okay.

“Oh,” Koichi breathes out. “Yukako, I’m so-”

“Don’t,” Yukako cuts in. “It’s- it’s done. Mr. Kakyoin- er, the Speedwagon Foundation has me in stable housing now, thanks to Mr. Kakyoin’s involvement…” Koichi locks eyes with Kakyoin and Kakyoin drops his gaze, burned by the surprise there. Yukako swallows and presses on.

“Basically, when high school started, I was…alone. And I…needed…anything, to cling onto the keep afloat, because I didn’t trust myself to be enough.” Yukako picks at the hem of her skirt. Koichi stares intently at her, his brows pinched, his eyes wide and focused, but he is patient, waiting. After a few heartbeats, Yukako sighs.

“That’s where you come in,” she says. “You were, um…” she flushes, shifting in her seat. “Don’t take this the wrong way, but…you were so… normal,” she says. Koichi blinks, as if not expecting that specific adjective, but he isn’t visibly offended and he doesn’t say anything. Yukako flushes further but continues. “And…beyond that, you were so nice. When Josuke’s grandfather died, you got his work for him to make sure he stayed on top of class…you just…seemed…so dependable.” She sighs. “It’s what I thought I needed.”

Yukako hums, crossing her arms over her chest, and leaning forward to rest them against the table, her head on top, her eyes peeking past her long hair. “And you know the rest.”

Koichi lets out a noise. “I…” he shakes his head. “You’re right that that’s no excuse for what you did to me.” Yukako shudders and Kakyoin drops his gaze. “You scared me. You could have killed me.”

Yukako’s eyes close, wincing slightly, and Kakyoin frowns.

“But,” Koichi continues, and Yukako’s eyes open again. Koichi hesitates before reaching forward, keeping his movement slow and predictable. Yukako eyes him like a wild animal, but allows him to rest his hand against her arm, squeezing in support. “I..can’t relate to all of it, but I can understand. And I don’t loathe you for it.” He smiles then, small and not reaching his eyes, but there all the same. “I’m sorry that happened to you.”

Yukako stares at him for several heartbeats before looking back down at the table, sliding back so that Koichi’s hand slips off her arm. He lets her go, but his frown deepens, and he leans back in his own chair, clearing his throat.

“Um. Similar stuff happened to me,” Koichi says. Yukako’s brows raise while Aya locks gazes with Kakyoin, Kakyoin meeting it with a grim set to his jaw. “I was also shot by the arrow a little into the school year. I would be dead without Josuke…” Koichi laughs, his own face flushing, and he rubs the back of his head. “I think, in my story, Josuke was my raft, the guy I wanted to cling onto. He just, um… he just seemed so cool.”

He shakes his head harshly then, clearing his throat. “Anyway…” he sighs, hands straying near his throat, his gaze locked onto Yukako. “I say this to let you know…I get it. I feel better knowing your reasons. And…even if it’s not excusable, I forgive you.”

Yukako’s eyes go wide, her lips parting. “You- you forgive me?”

Koichi smiles a little, and even if it’s small and a bit crooked and a bit uncomfortable, it reaches his eyes this time. “I think it’s clear you feel bad. And…” Koichi sighs, crossing his arms and inclining his head. “Frankly, you wouldn’t be the first friend I have who’s tried to kill me.”

“What?” Kakyoin yelps while Yukako stares at him. Aya shushes him and Kakyoin swallows. Koichi winces, but says nothing, completely focused on Yukako.

“I don’t know if it’s a good idea,” Koichi admits, and Yukako ducks her head while Kakyoin shifts in his seat, looking down, “but my forgiveness is mine to give. And I want to give it to you, Yukako.”

Yukako shudders, slowly raising her head again. “Do you- do you really?”

Koichi smiles wider even as he shifts, still a little uncomfortable with the intensity of her gaze. “I do,” he confirms, voice quiet but strong. "You have to...give me my space, of course, but...but I want to try."

Yukako stares at him, her lavender gaze flitting over his face, before her own face screws up and she just ducks her head as the first sobs spill out of her chest.

Aya and Kakyoin both get up from their seats, but Yukako’s hair raises as a signal for space. They both glance at each other before sitting back down, and Yukako hiccups sob after sob, leaning down to wrap her arms around her legs.

Koichi looks alarmed, but says nothing, exchanging glances with Kakyoin before he swallows and straightens his shoulders. Aya, instead of moving to Yukako’s side, gets up to grab a tissue box from the back, moving quickly. She places it on the table and Yukako sniffles, takes a couple to dab her eyes and wipe her nose.

“Yukako…” Koichi murmurs when her face is drier, her sniffles edging away. “Are you okay?”

A sound that was supposed to be a chuckle but comes out like a series of small cries bubble out of Yukako’s throat, and she wipes her face on her arm, shoulders shuddering. “I didn’t- I wasn’t expecting this.” She sniffles and looks up at Koichi then, her eyes red but her shoulders relaxed, a weight visibly dropped off of her. She takes a deep, shuddering breath, and Koichi leans back in his chair. “There is…one more thing,” she begins hesitantly.

Koichi’s brows pinch, hands clenching in his lap, but he nods to her to continue.

Yukako takes a deep breath. “I know they’re not the same. And I know you don’t owe me anything. But…if you’re willing to forgive me, would you also,” she swallows, “be willing…to…be my friend?”

Kakyoin closes his eyes to avoid shuddering physically, his heart panging longingly in his chest. Friends…

Koichi blinks. “Is that it?”

Kakyoin frowns and opens his eyes again. Yukako fidgets before nodding her head.

Koichi laughs a little, brows furrowed in endearment. “Yukako, remember what I said? You wouldn’t be the first friend I have that’s tried to kill me. Asking me to be your friend is easier than asking me to forgive you.”

Yukako stares at him, eyes wide. “Are…are you sure?” she whispers.

Koichi smiles, scrubs at his face with his sleeve, and nods. “Yeah,” he says hoarsely, “you’re the first one that’s apologized on your own. So. Yes.”

Kakyoin and Aya squint at that comment, and Kakyoin figures he’s going to have to have a talk with Koichi about the company he keeps, but he keeps those words to himself for now as Yukako smiles, nods, and dissolves into more tears in her hands.

“Eh- Yukako?” Koichi asks, voice high in concern, and Yukako shakes her head.

“I’m just glad,” she cries, “I didn’t- I had hoped, but I didn’t expect-”

She sniffles, and Koichi stands up then, walking around the table to her side.

“Koichi-” Kakyoin starts, but Koichi shakes his head.

“It’s okay, Mr. Kakyoin,” he murmurs, reaching to hug Yukako. Yukako hesitates before hugging him back, burying her face in his shoulder. Aya and Kakyoin turn to give them some semblance of privacy as Yukako lets it out, Koichi murmuring softly enough that Kakyoin can’t make out his words, just that he’s speaking something.

When the comforting lasts longer than a minute, Aya stands quietly, and Kakyoin follows her out to the front of the store, giving Yukako and Koichi some real privacy as Yukako collects herself.

“Augh,” Aya sighs roughly when they step outside and the door closes behind them, running a hand through her bangs. Kakyoin quirks an eyebrow her way. “That was exhausting. Your kids are crazy,”

Kakyoin scoffs and shakes his head, hoisting his crutches so he leans against the building. “They’re…” he sighs, leaning his head back against the brick of her salon. “Yeah. It’s a lot. But I’m glad they talked it out.”

Aya hums. “No protest this time?”

Kakyoin blinks, raising his head, before he jolts and realizes she called them his kids again, and his face flushes slightly. “Aya-!”

She smirks, pointing a finger at him. “Nope, Freudian slip, you didn’t even notice,” She snickers, giggling, and Kakyoin stammers, face getting hotter.

“That’s- Freud isn’t even-”

Aya shakes her head and laughs, patting Kakyoin’s shoulder. “Don’t be so offended, it’s not a bad thing. I think it’s cute that you mother hen them so much.”

Kakyoin stutters, his brain feeling fuzzy as if it’s been knocked around his skull. “I’m- I-” he huffs, shaking his head. “...They’re good kids. I’m glad to be their…mentor, in a sense.”

Aya smiles at him then, her eyes growing soft, but before she can say anything more, the door creaks open, and both Aya and Kakyoin turn their attention.

It’s Koichi, peeking out, with Yukako behind him, her eyes and nose tinged red, but otherwise cleaned up well enough one would never guess she was crying earlier.

“Er, sorry,” Yukako mutters, and Aya tsks, shaking her head.

“Please,” she says, heading back inside, “plenty of people cry in my salon. It’s not a trouble.”

Yukako hums, and something in Aya’s expression must reassure her, for after a moment of scanning her face, she nods, shoulders dropping from their tense posture. “Well…we’re done.” She bows then, Koichi following suit. “...Thank you, for giving us this space to talk,”

Aya blinks in surprise of the manners, and Yukako and Koichi turn and walk out onto the sidewalk. Kakyoin purses his lips and hums. “Can I have a word with you two really quick?” He asks. He turns to Aya. “I’ll be back inside in a second.”

Aya snorts, nods, mouths something that looks suspiciously like Your kids, and then turns and heads back into the salon. Kakyoin takes a breath and turns back to Koichi and Yukako.

“What is it, Mr. Kakyoin?” Koichi asks.

Kakyoin rubs at the bridge of his nose. “Miss Yukako,” he says, and she jumps at the acknowledgement, her lavender eyes snapping to him. He swallows against a lump in his throat, blinking to get rid of the illusion he was looking in a mirror. “Have you been informed about the recent happenings of this town?”

Yukako exchanges glances with Koichi uneasily. “...Do you mean about the murderer?” She asks lowly, and Kakyoin nods. “Yes. Okuyasu warned me when we were in class.”

“So you do. Well,” Kakyoin shifts his jaw, pulling his shoulders back to stretch them out for a moment, “I train the boys – er, Koichi, Josuke, and Okuyasu – on how to use their stands,” he says, “and we’ve recently added the ghost, Reimi Sugimoto, to the group.”

Koichi realizes what he’s asking, and his eyes widen a bit, straightening. “Oh-”

“I was wondering…since it’s getting more dangerous, and since you’re on good terms with Koichi now,” Kakyoin says, “would you like to train with us?”

Yukako’s lips part, her own eyes widening, and she turns to Koichi, who meets her gaze. “I-” She turns back to Kakyoin, who nods, and she turns back to Koichi. “I- is that okay? Are you-” she swallows, “okay with that?”

Koichi blinks rapidly. “Huh?”

“I’m not- I’m not gonna go where I’m not wanted. Not in relation to you,” she says firmly, and Kakyoin aches, unable to separate this girl from his own past. He wants to speak up, wants to beg Koichi to say yes, but he keeps his mouth shut, understanding this isn’t his decision to make, even if his heart pounds low in his chest.

Koichi stares up at her with wide eyes. “You-” he shakes his head, stands up straighter, and looks at Yukako intently. “Yukako, I appreciate it. But like I said, I forgive you,” he ducks his head, his face flushing slightly as he says, “and…I meant it was I said I wanted to be friends. Wouldn’t this be a good way to…do that?”

Yukako’s hair drifts a bit, floating like she's underwater. “Do you mean it?”

Koichi nods. “I don’t say things I don’t mean.” Kakyoin blinks at the firmness in his voice.

Yukako smiles then, so widely it crinkles the edges of her eyes, and Kakyoin’s chest aches, like the bones making it up were about to collapse. She turns to Kakyoin then, nodding her head. “Then- yes. I want to learn more about my stand,” she says, voice steady even with bubbling excitement in her tone, and Kakyoin smiles at them both, relief flooding his chest.

“Okay,” he says, voice a little thin, “Um. We meet on Sundays. Koichi?”

Koichi jumps, nodding. “Ah- yeah, I can tell you about it, Yukako,” he says, before pausing, ducking his head for a moment as his face slightly flushes. “Ah…did you want to- talk right now? We can go to a cafe,” he asks cautiously.

Yukako blinks. “You don’t mind?”

Koichi shakes his head, and Yukako shoots a look to Kakyoin. Kakyoin nods, giving her a subtle thumbs up, and she turns back to Koichi, her own cheeks lightly colored.

“I…okay. I think that’d be good,” she says, and after biding Kakyoin goodbye, they both stumble down the street together, both jumping whenever the other so much as moves, and yet glancing at each other constantly all the same. Kakyoin watches them go, his heart tearing in two over its conflicting reaction – a part of him pleased with this outcome, soaring up to the top of his ribcage, and another sinking down low, whimpering about Kakyoin’s own circumstances to his entrails, tangling up in them. His spine aches and Kakyoin looks away, pressing one hand against his stomach unconsciously.

He glances at his reflection in the glass of the window, straying his gaze on his purple eyes past his sunglasses. I won’t let you be alone again.

He opens the door and heads back inside to finish his manicure with Aya.

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Chapter 27

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“Why do you think I think that?” Jotaro asks, voice raised in desperation, and Kakyoin just shakes, staring at him with wide, furious eyes.

“Why wouldn’t I think that? You told me-!” Kakyoin’s voice, mortifyingly, breaks, and he slaps a hand over his own mouth, squeezing his eyes shut, lowering his head. After a few shuddering breaths, Kakyoin looks up again, glaring at Jotaro with misting eyes. “You told me yourself. On that phone call.”

Jotaro’s face is white, his shoulders minutely trembling, like he’s dead or dying and his body is enduring its final death throes. The thought makes Kakyoin’s stomach turn and he jerks his gaze away from his face.

“I know you think I’m dead weight,” he continues lowly, “but everyone else disagrees. I disagree. I know it’s such a hard concept for you, but your opinion doesn’t matter here, so no, I will not listen to it right now.”

Jotaro closes his eyes and Kakyoin can’t tell if his trembling or his breathing has stopped. “Then you leave me no choice,” he says.

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Chapter Text

The following Friday, Kakyoin gets a call in the afternoon, which is a little startling because he almost wasn’t there to receive it, but as he re-enters his hotel room from getting another month’s prescription refill, he hears the ring and immediately hikes to the phone, dropping his medication on his hotel bed.

“Hello-?”

“Kakyoin,” Rohan’s unmistakable cadence bursts through the phone and Kakyoin jumps.

“How the hell-?”

“Koichi,” Rohan says in lieu of explanation. “Reimi needs to meet. She…” he clears his throat. “She’s calling every standuser in the town. Something happened.”

It’s all Kakyoin needs to hear, but then Rohan tags on, “You’re staying at Morioh Grand Hotel, right? Get Mr. Joestar and Mr. Jotaro, it’d be easier than calling.”

And then he hangs up.

Kakyoin shifts his jaw, grinding his teeth, before he hangs up as well, ignoring the conflicting tightening and tumbling in his stomach, like he’s about to be sick.

He leaves his room, and makes his way across the lobby to the elevator of the hotel for the first time. Technically, he could have gone up to meet with Joseph on the third floor any time since he arrived, but Kakyoin just…hasn’t gotten around to it. Now, though, he stares the sleek doors down with narrowed eyes as they open, and steps inside.

Joseph can handle Jotaro, Kakyoin thinks to himself, fingering his scarf as the elevator doors close and he presses the button for the third floor. He’s been avoiding him a bit since the…Polnareff incident. Jotaro’s parting words still ring in his head and they do nothing to ease the twisting in his guts.

You were right that I keep getting innocent men killed.

Is that what he thought this was?

A part of Kakyoin is angry, spiteful of the arrogance – what control over other people does Jotaro think he has, that he could lead a man like Polnareff to his death?

Another part is scared of the admission – if Jotaro is guilty, isn’t Kakyoin as well? What does that mean? At least Jotaro helped him on the search for the stand arrows, but Kakyoin being- being weak is why Polnareff had to shoulder more of the burden than he should have-

A third part of him is just deeply unsettled – the soft, unflinching way Jotaro said it, like it was obvious, like his coat was crimson instead of white… The shadows under his eyes, the frown creases forming near his mouth, the fact Kakyoin has never seen him with his brows not pinched since meeting him again-

The doors ding and open and Kakyoin jumps. He quickly hikes forward with his crutches, leaving the thoughts behind like the elevator doors sliding closed again can shut them out.

He finds Room 325 quickly, and knocks twice. After a rasping call of “Coming!” that makes Kakyoin smile despite the anxiety in his chest, the bolt slides away and Joseph opens the door. “Oh, Kakyoin-”

There’s a crash inside then and Kakyoin blinks, brows furrowing as he peeks inside, only for his blood to run cold when he sees Jotaro.

He’s without his white coat – Kakyoin sees now it’s hanging by the door – and his hat is lopsided on his head as he leaps to his feet, a-

A baby in a pink onesie in his arms-?

“Oh, have you come to meet the baby?” Joseph asks, and Kakyoin swivels his gaze to him, heart pounding.

“What?!” He manages, voice high, and Joseph laughs.

“The baby! The one I told you Josuke and I found, remember?” He frowns, his spectacles slipping down his nose. “I did tell you we found her abandoned, right? We still haven’t found her parents, so-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro’s finally at the door, handing the child off to Joseph, who lets out an Oh! In surprise of the sudden weight in his arms and the light push to the side. “What are you doing here?”

Kakyoin stares at him, a retort building on the back of this throat-

His eye bags look like they’ve gotten worse.

Kakyoin stares a little longer, gaze slipping down from Jotaro’s blue eyes, before he turns to Joseph, ignoring Jotaro entirely.

“Miss Reimi’s called us. Something’s happened,” he says grimly. “We all need to go,” he adds, glancing in Jotaro’s direction. Jotaro is so still in his peripheral Kakyoin isn’t sure if he’s even breathing, but he doesn’t glance to check.

Joseph’s face tightens, brows furrowing, before he adjusts his grip on the baby. “I see. Come, let’s go…I’ll call a taxi to get us there,”

Kakyoin nods, turns, and leads the way through the hall. He can hear the footfalls of the other two behind him, and he sucks in a breath and calls the elevator.

The way down is silent save for the hum of machinery and Joseph murmuring into his flip-phone for their taxi, not even the baby making a sound – she is sleepily playing with the flap of Joseph’s hat, lids heavy with drowsiness. Kakyoin hopes she falls asleep; he doesn’t want to deal with a fussy, tired baby in a car…

She lifts her eyes to him then, their big shape and brown color reminding Kakyoin of Ryoko a little, and his heart squeezes and he looks away.

His gaze slides to the side and stiffens when he sees Jotaro watching him, his expression unreadable – or has it always been that way, and Kakyoin just used to know how to interpret the furrow of his brows, the tightness of his lips?

He still looks so tired, but he keeps his blue gaze trained onto him. Kakyoin could drown if he stays too long in those depths.

It’s never truly felt like it’s been ten years since he saw him in person until now.

The doors ding and Kakyoin jumps and lets out a snippy, “What?”

Jotaro doesn’t even flinch, but when he opens his mouth to respond, Joseph tuts, moving to block Jotaro from Kakyoin’s vision. “Now, Kakyoin,” he says in his raspy voice, looking up at Kakyoin over his spectacles. “Let’s not start an argument.”

Kakyoin bares his teeth. “Don’t treat me like a damn child-”

“Then don’t act like one,” Joseph snaps, and Kakyoin blinks. “Come on. The taxi will be here in a few minutes.”

Kakyoin glares at him, but the child sleepily raises her head to look at him again, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth, lip still curled in fury but no longer showing his teeth like a dog. He doesn’t need to scare her and make her cry…

They make it outside and true to Joseph’s word, the taxi arrives swiftly. Joseph hops into the passenger seat, leaving Jotaro and Kakyoin to stiffen as they are left the back seats to themselves.

Neither move for several heartbeats, and eventually Joseph calls out to them, “Get in! Reimi called us!”

Kakyoin grits his teeth and moves for the door closest to him, jerking it open and slipping in easily, Hierophant gently depositing his crutches in after him on the floor of the car. Jotaro jerks and moves to the other side, sliding in slowly, nearly pinning himself to his door as he closes it. He hunches over his cramped legs, looking viscerally uncomfortable and glaring daggers at Joseph who sits innocently in the front, and for once, Kakyoin agrees with him, shooting Joseph a nasty glare.

“Where to, sirs?” The driver asks, and Joseph gives the address of the pharmacy, considering Reimi’s alley is right next to it. Kakyoin stiffly crosses his arms and turns to look out the window, ignoring the man next to him entirely.

The drive is awkward but short, thankfully, with Morioh not being the biggest town in the world, and when they pull up to the curb, Kakyoin and Jotaro both jump out of the taxi, Kakyoin’s crutches slamming into the concrete of the sidewalk, making him grunt.

Jotaro’s face pinches and he turns away, shoving his hands into his coat pockets. Kakyoin narrows his eyes at him but says nothing.

Joseph pays and gets out of the taxi at a more relaxed pace, grunting as he lifts the baby. “Up we go,” he coos, and she giggles, wrapping her tiny arms around his neck, as he adjusts to holding her with one hand so he can get his cane underneath him.

He glances up then, frowning at the space between Kakyoin and Jotaro. Kakyoin sniffs and turns, heading into the alleyway before he can say anything about the matter. After a few steps, he can hear the click of Joseph’s cane and the ruffle of Jotaro’s coat as they follow.

Kakyoin is biting the urge to twitch at the sounds, but he quickly forgets them when he turns the corner and sees Reimi, wiping her eyes furiously, shoulders shaking, while Josuke stares with hollow eyes in front of her, gaze focused on something in his hand. A little further away, Okuyasu is crouched down, shoulders trembling, and Koichi is at his side, a hand on his back, speaking to him quietly. Yukako looks viscerally uncomfortable, her arms crossed, but she stands by Josuke and Reimi, withstanding whatever is going on with them.

Around the children already stand Tonio, Aya, Rohan, and Hazamada, all with their faces pinched as the younger standusers process whatever is going on, and they look up when he, Jotaro, and Joseph arrive.

Kakyoin is moving before he even registers it, Hierophant wrapping around him to help him lean down next to Koichi, in front of Okuyasu.

Okuyasu is not crying, Kakyoin sees now, but seems to be on the verge of it, his nose and eyes red but no tears lining his eyelids. Kakyoin places a hand on his shoulder, and Okuyasu closes his eyes and shudders, teeth gritting as he digs his knuckles into the concrete.

“I’ve got him, Mr. Kakyoin,” Koichi murmurs, and Kakyoin wants to argue, wants to ask Okuyasu what’s wrong, what happened, wasn’t this about Reimi-

Reimi!

Kakyoin swallows stiffly, glancing over at Koichi, who’s looking at him sternly with his brows furrowed. He nods, squeezes Okuyasu’s shoulder, and then gets back up, turning to Josuke, Reimi, and Yukako.

Yukako locks gazes with him and Kakyoin nods, hiking over to them. Her shoulders slump and she looks quite relieved about not being the sole source of comfort anymore.

“Reimi,” Kakyoin begins, and the girl shakes her head roughly, gritting her teeth as she continuously wipes at her eyes. Arnold whimpers beside her, his big, boxy head tilted to the side as he stares up at his owner in concern, snuffling at her hip gently.

“I’m sorry,” Reimi grounds out, voice warbled with emotion, “I’m just- I-”

She sniffles, drops her arms, and looks around at everyone, shoulders shuddering even as she stands tall, tears still streaking down her face. After a moment of tallying who all is there, she takes a deep breath, then says, “The- my murderer struck again.”

Ice runs in Kakyoin’s veins and he jerks his gaze to Aya and Tonio impulsively, who stare at him with wide eyes back.

Reimi’s face crumples and she ducks her head, but says loudly for everyone to hear, “He was just a kid- he was just a kid-!”

Josuke curls his hand into a fist and bares his teeth at the ground while Okuyasu collapses into Koichi’s side, and Kakyoin whips his head between the two rapidly, confused and alarmed. “Wha- wh-”

“We were just with him,” Josuke grounds out, and his voice sounds wet and rough, like a stone caught in a river’s current. “We-”

Kakyoin claps a hand onto his shoulder and Josuke shudders, looking back up at Kakyoin with wide eyes, breathing haggardly.

“Who?” Kakyoin presses, and the group holds their breath.

Josuke takes a few deep breaths, keeping his gaze even with Kakyoin’s, before he drops it and spits, “My- Okuyasu and my’s…friend. Shigekiyo Yangu.” His face crumples. “He still went by his childhood nickname – Shigechi.”

The name rings familiar, but Kakyoin isn’t sure where for a second until-

I punched a middle schooler in the face!

Okuyasu and I pitched the idea for him to use his stand to find lottery tickets and we ended up winning…

Kakyion’s eyes widen and he drops his hand, stepping back numbly.

He kinda reminds me of myself at that age.

His own words echo in his head tauntingly. He hadn’t gotten to meet him- Josuke and Okuyasu had agreed that some time during summer they would bring him to one of their training sessions, but now-

Oh, he was only a middle schooler-

Kakyoin steps back again and finds himself in the circle of adults with Tonio and Aya, his head feeling a little fuzzy, his fingers feeling a little cold even in his gloves.

“We were just with him, I can’t-” Josuke shakes his head roughly, bearing his teeth. “It couldn’t have been more than five damn minutes.” He glowers at everyone around him, eyes shining like a star does – using everything it has to burn, burn, burn, until it has nothing left. “Shigechi was young, but he wasn’t a chump. He was smart. For him to get… For him to have lost so quickly…”

“It means his stand must be very powerful,” Reimi finished hoarsely.

It’s dead quiet around the circle, and Josuke squeezes his eyes shut and spits to the side. Yukako’s eyes narrow and Kakyoin sucks in a breath and steps forward again, feeling the ghost of Tonio and Aya’s hands at his shoulders supportingly as he stands beside Josuke, offering silent solidarity.

He glances down then, and sees what Josuke was looking at in his hand earlier – a button with a strange stripe pattern. Kakyoin squints at it; the brown and yellow colors remind him of his cardigan…

“What’s that?” Kakyoin asks, and Josuke shudders but raises his hand for everyone else to see better.

“It’s… it’s Shigechi’s last message,” Josuke says, voice wavering and crackling like flames, and Okuyasu stands up then, making Koichi yelp quietly at the sudden movement. He does nothing else, however, and Josuke continues. “His… His stand made sure to give this to us before…disappearing,” he says quietly.

Kakyoin stiffens, and he can’t help but look over at Joseph who-

Jotaro is the one staring at him, Joseph’s gaze blocked to Kakyoin because of how the sun glints off his spectacles. Kakyoin can’t breathe, and despite the sweat lining his back, his arms feel so, so cold where they’re wrapped around his crutches.

Jotaro takes a deep breath and Kakyoin wrenches his gaze away.

“Mm,” Joseph hums, his voice soothing over everyone. “It seems we need to make our move then… If the killer is getting antsy for more victims…”

Josuke’s face tightens and Kakyoin swallows thickly.

“So, you think the button must have something to do with the killer?”

Kakyoin shivers as Jotaro speaks, his timber rolling down the back of his neck like it was a caress.

Josuke grunts an affirmation, and Jotaro steps closer, Kakyoin twitching with every step he takes. “...Can I see it?”

Out of the corner of his eye, Kakyoin can see Josuke hesitate before handing the button to Jotaro, who inspects it steadily before pocketing it.

Josuke swallows, fidgeting. “Do you really think we can find clues with just a button?” His voice comes out small, and he’s clearly irritated by it, based on the way his face pinches afterward. Kakyoin clears his throat and steps forward, patting his shoulder.

“Sure,” Kakyoin says, and Josuke turns to him, frowning so tightly his bottom lip juts out a little. “It’s a unique button. It should get us a brand… From there it’s just finding the people in Morioh who bought that brand. With the Speedwagon Foundation’s influence, it shouldn’t be hard.”

Josuke’s face finally relaxes a bit, while Jotaro’s tightens. No one says anything beyond murmurs of agreement, and Kakyoin starts to relax a little himself, turning to manage Reimi, when someone grabs his arm.

Kakyoin whips his head around to see Jotaro, his eyes wide, brows pinched sternly, blue eyes nearly glowing from where they’re shaded under his hat. Kakyoin feels a little dizzy from the intense energy rolling off of him.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro rumbles, “we need to talk.”

Kakyoin sneers reflexively. “About what?”

“Please-” Kakyoin freezes and Jotaro’s voice pinches off and he takes a deep breath, shoulders shuddering with the force of it. Kakyoin pauses, and, turning back, he sees Rohan is with Reimi, quietly talking with her as she dabs her eyes and Arnold twists around her, his big head tilted in concern. Tonio has moved to support Okuyasu, giving Koichi the opportunity to discuss with Josuke, and Aya is with Yukako. Kakyoin purses his lips. …Well…they’re being taken care of.

Kakyoin sighs roughly and turns back to Jotaro. His grip has stayed constant this whole time.

“Fine,” he says.

Jotaro nods, the edges of his lips twitching like he’s suppressing a tremble, but he turns before Kakyoin can ask. He leads Kakyoin away from the group, to the alleyway that leads to Reimi’s street – not exactly outside of the limbo space, so that onlookers could see or hear them, but with some privacy from the others, being hidden from view by the bend of it, their voices muffled.

When they’re satisfactorily alone, Jotaro pauses, his shoes scraping against the gravel, and Kakyoin comes to his own stop. Jotaro takes a deep breath, his shoulders pulling back to the wide stance Kakyoin knows them to be, and yet… he has to wonder how tightly wound he is – and why.

Jotaro turns then, his coat brushing against the backs of his knees, and Kakyoin refocuses on his face.

“I’m going to be investigating the button,” Jotaro announces, and Kakyoin squints, adjusting his grip on his crutches.

“...Yes,” Kakyoin says slowly when Jotaro doesn’t elaborate, “I know. I was there and aware. We’re going to see if we can narrow down the brand and who bought from whe-”

“You don’t understand,” Jotaro cuts in, and Kakyoin bristles at the words. Jotaro’s foot slides forward like he’s about to take a step, but he stays in place. Kakyoin stares at him. “I’m going to be investigating the button.”

Kakyoin curls his fists around his crutches, a flash of indignation flaring in his stomach, but it’s muted, which mildly surprises him. “This again?” He hisses. “How many times do we have to go through this, you stubborn-”

“As many times as it takes for you to leave,” Jotaro presses, and Kakyoin flinches as if he’s been slapped, ice sweeping over his guts. Why can he still do this to me? a part of him whimpers, and sparks immediately ignite and Kakyoin growls as the ice melts down to sharp little knives, heating up to white-hot as the flames grow in his belly.

“How dare you,” Kakyoin snarls, and Jotaro just takes a deep breath, gritting his teeth, and anger flares in Kakyoin, making him hike forward with his crutches, jutting himself into Jotaro’s personal space. “How dare you think you can tell me what to fucking do and I’ll just give in after you feed me enough bullshit, you arrogant-”

“I know you being here is not about me,” Jotaro snaps, and Kakyoin sneers, baring his teeth, “you've made that plenty clear, but this -- this investigation? It's not about you, either. I know you’re worried about Josuke, but- but you just saw how many standusers are here. I’m here, and I’m going to do this alon-”

“You aren’t going to do shit,” Kakyoin snarls and Jotaro clenches his teeth, a tendon jumping noticeably in his jaw. “You haven’t done anything while I’ve been here. What makes you think you can just jump in now and do this alone at tha-”

“WOULD YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE?!” Jotaro shrieks and Kakyoin jerks back, nearly stumbling in his surprise, staring at him with wide eyes.

His shoulders are trembling minutely, his breathing haggard, and Kakyoin feels a twisted rock, like a corkscrew, entangle itself in his guts.

When Jotaro doesn’t say anything else, Kakyoin takes a deep breath, squaring his shoulders.

“I know you’re convinced I can’t do anything-”

“Why do you think I think that?” Jotaro asks, voice raised in desperation, and Kakyoin just shakes, staring at him with wide, furious eyes.

“Why wouldn’t I think that? You told me-!” Kakyoin’s voice, mortifyingly, breaks, and he slaps a hand over his own mouth, squeezing his eyes shut, lowering his head. After a few shuddering breaths, Kakyoin looks up again, glaring at Jotaro with misting eyes. “You told me yourself. On that phone call.”

Jotaro’s face is white, his shoulders minutely trembling, like he’s dead or dying and his body is enduring its final death throes. The thought makes Kakyoin’s stomach turn and he jerks his gaze away from his face.

“I know you think I’m dead weight,” he continues lowly, “but everyone else disagrees. I disagree. I know it’s such a hard concept for you, but your opinion doesn’t matter here, so no, I will not listen to it right now. So can we stop having this argument over and over?"

Jotaro closes his eyes and Kakyoin can’t tell if his trembling or his breathing has stopped. “Then you leave me no choice,” he says.

Kakyoin blinks. “Wha-”

His hair stands on end then, a force creeping up the back of his neck like it’s suddenly about to rain, like he’s within range of an oncoming lightning strike, and Hierophant Green reflexively shoots out of him-

And Jotaro is gone from where he’s standing.

“Wha-?”

“Kakyoin-”

There’s a hand around his arm, whirling him around, and Kakyoin shrieks and Hierophant shoots forward to strike-

Again, something rolls up the back of Kakyoin’s neck, a ball falling upward instead of down, breaking the laws of physics, of entropy, of-

Time.

Kakyoin can’t breathe.

“Kakyoin,” He hears again, and Kakyoin whips his head to his side where the voice is coming from.

Jotaro is cupping his arm, his sleeve slightly ripped, punctured from where Hierophant was just able to stab before-

Before he moved-

Kakyoin doesn’t realize he’s teetering, close to losing his balance and falling, until Hierophant lashes around his legs, helping to stabilize him, and he distantly realizes he’s shaking. Jotaro is too – his eyes are wide, hands trembling. Star Platinum is beside him, his face pinched, big lips drawn into a tight frown, powerful hands swinging from Jotaro to Kakyoin, as if unsure who to go to.

Powerful hands like-

“The World,” Kakyoin rasps, and Jotaro lets out a quiet gasp like a man coming up for air after nearly drowning – or maybe more like a man sucking in water before he reaches the surface, unable to hold his breath any longer…

“Star Platinum can stop time,” Jotaro confirms quietly, and Kakyoin is moving before he can even compute it.

Hierophant lashes forward, twisting around Jotaro’s arms and legs, slamming Jotaro against the brick wall of the alleyway. Jotaro stumbles back, blinking in shock, his hat knocking off with the force Kakyoin is using, and Kakyoin advances, stepping forward until he’s just out of range of Star Platinum. Jotaro winces, as if noting this, but Kakyoin’s heart is hammering in his chest, his palms sweaty against his crutches.

“When the fuck,” Kakyoin strangles out, his voice embarrassingly high pitched, “did that happen?”

Jotaro winces, ducking his head to avoid Kakyoin’s gaze, and Kakyoin lets out a startling, throaty sound, right from his chest, and Jotaro whips his head back up. Kakyoin can feel his pulse from Hierophant’s binds against his wrists, the rapid flutter just brushing his fingertips, and it’s so different from DIO, and yet-

And yet-

“WHY CAN YOU STOP TIME?!” Kakyoin shrieks again and Jotaro lets out a wet, wheezing sound. Kakyoin jerks back, nearly slipping as his sweat-slick hands fumble on the grip of his crutches.

“Star Platinum and The World are the same kind of stand,” Jotaro rasps, and Kakyoin shudders. 

“That doesn’t make sense. That doesn’t make any fucking sense. You’re not like him. You’re not-”

Jotaro’s eyes nearly bulge out of his head. “You don’t think I’m-”

“SHUT UP!” Kakyoin shrieks, and Jotaro snaps his jaw shut. “I know you’re an arrogant and proud prick, but- but DIO- the same-” Kakyoin’s head is spinning so rapidly he really feels like he’s going to lose his footing, really feels like the Earth has accelerated its rotation exponentially, his brain sliding around his skull, making him unbalanced. Jotaro could not have the same soul as DIO.

“They’re both close-ranged power types,” Jotaro speaks, his words flat tonally despite the waver in his voice, as if he’s reciting them but barely comprehending their meaning, his eyes glazing over, his chin trembling, “they’re both…so dangerous.” Star Platinum’s face falls and Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut.

“When?” He asks, voice trembling, and he grits his teeth against it, lips curling to show off his canines, fury and fear creating a freezing flame in him. So tense, wound up like a spring, his tissues burning with the potential energy, and yet so cold he can’t stop shaking. “When did this happen?”

“...During my fight with DIO,” Jotaro rasps, his voice gravelly, “he wouldn’t stop fucking talking, and I-” he swallows. “Star Platinum has always been so fast and so precise. You know this. Maybe it was never speed. Maybe it was just because- because-”

Kakyoin loses grip of one of his crutches, the aid cluttering to the ground like a gunshot, and Jotaro flinches and goes quiet. Kakyoin stares wide-eyed but unseeing, his chest heaving, and yet no oxygen makes it to his brain. “All this time,” Kakyoin says faintly, his head reeling, dizziness spreading from the back of his cranium to the front, making him feel like he’s spinning, “you had the World all this time,”

Kakyoin stills. Jotaro doesn’t seem to be breathing, but still Kakyoin can hear, “I knew it would scare you. So go, Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin twitches, his gaze refocusing, zoning in on Jotaro’s face, and he glares despite his shaking, despite his wide eyes, a lone tentacle of Hierophant's snapping his crutch back into his hand as he hikes forward, growling like an animal, uncaring that he’s moving into Star Platinum’s range. “YOU HAD THE WORLD THIS ENTIRE TIME AND YOU ONLY USE IT NOW TO TRY AND SCARE ME?” Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle frantically, fists tightening. “You’re insane. You’re INSANE!

Jotaro shudders, his shoulders trembling. “...Maybe so,” He croaks out. “...But does that mean you’ll leave-?”

“You- no,” Kakyoin seethes, Hierophant twisting inside of him in anger. Everything was uncomfortably hot, burning to the touch, making him shift uncomfortable in his cardigan, Kakyoin saw red, red, red, he was sweating down his back, on his forehead, on his palms, and yet he couldn’t stop shaking, he was so cold. “I am sure as hell not leaving. Why the hell would I leave now?! Why on Earth would this make me leave now?!”

Jotaro’s trembling increases and Kakyoin feels a sick sense of satisfaction until he speaks again. “Don’t you get it?!” Jotaro snarls, “I’m- I’m more than capable of finding the killer and ending him myself. No one else needs to even bother with this. I can stop time and kill him before he even realizes he’s dead,” Jotaro growls , and Kakyoin shudders, cold sweat sliding down the sides of his face. “So leave. Leave. Leave, dammit, KAKYOIN!” Jotaro shrieks before he shudders then, squeezing his eyes shut, brows pinching inward. Kakyoin doesn’t dare to breathe, his heart beating uproariously in his ears.

“That doesn’t answer my question: would I leave now?!” Kakyoin demands and Jotaro bares his teeth, thrashing his head like a cornered animal. “So you can stop time. Fine. Great. Fuck you for keeping it from me but it’s not going to change things! It doesn’t mean you can find him on your own, it doesn’t mean you can figure out his stand power on your own, it means nothing except for a final confrontation! It’s not going to save you from all that hard work! It didn’t save DIO-“

“It didn’t save DIO because I can do timestop-” And Kakyoin slams his fist against the wall beside them, and Jotaro stiffens and goes quiet, chest heaving so, so close to Kakyoin’s.

“Was it not a group effort?!” Kakyoin counters venomously, staring Jotaro dead in the eyes, pining blue right onto violet, blending them together. “It was all of us! Polnareff, Avdol, and Iggy took care of his minions! Joseph and the SPW are why DIO’s body was able to burn in the sunlight properly! I FIGURED OUT DIO’S STAND!! It was not only you who finished it!”

Joraro falters then, running through more expressions in a second than Kakyoin has seen on his face in the years he’s known him. Finally he settles on fury, and while the hair on the back of Kakyoin’s neck rises, he doesn’t back away, gritting his teeth right back at him.

“AREN'T YOU SCARED?!” Jotaro shouts, before his voice cracks and the edge of his glare drops, shoulders shaking. “Don’t you fucking get it? I’m just like DIO,” He whispers hoarsely, and clarity shoots through Kakyoin’s panic, reaching his heart.

Oh.

Kakyoin can't help but be reminded of his own abilities, of his own mind control power, how DIO did the same to him, and he can't manage it, his guts roiling so violently he is certain he is going to throw up-

His haunches lower, lips sliding down to cover his teeth again. “Jotaro…”

“Jo- You called me-” Jotaro shudders, but before Kakyoin can say anything, his stomach flips violently, and he feels like how he did as he flew through the air toward that water tower, light and confused and cold and his stomach is gone-

He blinks, and Jotaro is gone. Kakyoin sharply takes a deep breath when hands clamp down on his shoulders, pushing him toward the mouth of the alley, and Kakyoin can’t-

DON’T TOUCH ME-

NOT AGAIN!

Kakyoin has wheeled around and shot Hierophant forward before he even realizes it, his crutches clattering to the ground, but it doesn’t matter, because Hierophant is wrapping around Jotaro’s wrists and chest and legs and shoving him to the ground, pinning him securely,  the breath audibly getting knocked out of him. Kakyoin collapses on top of him, legs on either side of Jotaro’s stomach, his fists curling into his coat and clenched tightly, yanking him up to stare at him right in the face. Jotaro does, his chest heaving underneath Kakyoin’s thighs, eyes wide, and Kakyoin twitches – he isn’t sure what he wants for a few milliseconds, his heart pounding, his sweat soaking into Jotaro’s coat, and Jotaro is so warm, but he is so, so cold, his eyes completely iced over – when did he get pushed out?

“Why?” Jotaro croaks and Kakyoin twitches again, lips pulling back to bare his teeth.

“Why- what did I do?! YOU, WHY?!” Kakyoin howls, and Jotaro squeezes his eyes shut, his throat bobbing as he swallows, and Kakyoin’s heart can’t stop pounding. “WHY DID YOU KEEP THIS FROM ME?! WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO USE IT TO CHASE ME OUT, AGAIN?!”

“I TOLD YOU!” Jotaro shrieks back, wrists jerking in Hierophant’s hold, and Kakyoin sneers, gripping his coat tighter. “I told you, I told you- I knew you’d be scared. I knew you’d be so scared- WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?!”

“There are things more important to me than avoiding what I’m scared of,” Kakyon snarls. “Maybe you could stand to learn that.”

Jotaro twitches. “No. No. Not when what I’m scared of is another innocent man on my conscience!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly, heart stuttering at his own words being echoed back at him.

If anyone needs to go home, it would be the person who already messed up to the point of an innocent man dying.

Kakyoin’s grip loosens. Voice coming out shaky, he rasps, “Jotar-”

“DON’T CALL ME THAT!!” Jotaro howls, and Kakyoin full-body flinches, and Jotaro stares at him, his eyes so wide Kakyoin can see the white around his whole irises. “Don’t call me that,” his voice comes out quivering, and abruptly Kakyoin realizes Jotaro's eyes are filling with tears.

“J-”

“WHY AREN’T YOU SCARED?!” Jotaro shrieks, reflexively kicking, and-

“SHIT!” Kakyoin shrieks, Jotaro’s writhing knee nailing him right in the back, and he slips off of Jotaro like he was just a heavy blanket, crumpling to the ground as his back lights up in pain, his breath coming out in stuttered gasps and hiccups, curling up as best he can on his side. He’s convinced for a moment he’s slammed into the water tower again rather than the ground, convinced he’s soaked with water and not sweat, convinced he has a physical hole in him again instead of an emotional one, and Hierophant lets go of Jotaro to reach for him, curling around him, but Kakyoin stares at him still, trying to urge his stand to keep Jotaro in place-

Jotaro is staring at him from where he’s still lying on the ground next to him, looking more terrified than Kakyoin has ever seen him – not when facing DIO’s mansion, not when facing Steely Dan, not when facing him, not when facing the entire journey has he ever looked so scared as he does now – and Kakyoin realizes that he himself is crying, breath hitching hysterically, and he’s not even sure if it’s because of the pain in his spine or because of his own fear or Jotaro-

The sensation of time stopping rolls over Kakyoin again, and he shrieks as it does, curling up more even as he stares at the same spot. Jotaro is gone, and he can hear the clatter of his shoes as he runs away, out of the alley.

“Coward,” Kakyoin gasps, shivering, writhing with pain and fear, his sweat making even his cardigan, past his soaked-through shirt, stick to his skin. “COWARD! DO YOU HEAR ME KUJO JOTARO?! YOU’RE A FUCKING COWARD!!!”

There’s a clamor from further down the alleyway, their shouting no doubt having drawn attention from the others, but Kakyoin isn’t really breathing well, and he can’t stop thinking-

Jotaro, Jotaro, Jotaro-

Not for the first time he finds himself on the brink of unconscious despite the desperation churning icily in his guts, Hierophant churning around his body, as his back wails in pain and Jotaro is so, so far from him.

He only has the peace of mind to think, Ah, I’m hyperventilating, before passing out to his own name ringing in his ears.

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Chapter 28: Intermission 4: Finale

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MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING: THIS CHAPTER DEALS WITH OPIOID DRUG USAGE, DRUG ADDICTION, OVERDOSE, SICKNESS (IE VOMITING), HOSPITALS INCLUDING RESTRAINTS, MENTIONED SUICIDE/SUICIDAL IDEATION, AND GENERAL SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR. PLEASE PROCEED CAREFULLY, FEEL FREE TO BACK OUT, AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!

 

hi everyone. major fucking technical difficulties on getting this chapter out i have a fucking headache. major major major MAJOR thanks to my friend jadespadegames (on here and on tumblr so please check her out) i honest to god don't know when i would've gotten this chapter out without her help. jade if you read this you're a fucking angel and i love you beyond words. i'll respond to comments soon i'm so sorry it's taken a while jsut whooooooof i need. a bit to myself after this 😭

but finally, with this, the intermissions are fucking done. thank you all so much for putting up with me while we had these bouts of stop-and-go because of them good god. we should be 100 percent back to the once-a-month schedule while im in school, and likely more than that when im on breaks. we're in the msot interesting part of the fic for me to write personally so this second half should go by MUCH faster than the first. i dont think i'll be able to finish the fic overall before the anniversary in june but i'm gonna try my damn best and if nothing else, we will absolutely be done by the end of 2024. thank u all for sharing in this with me

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Chapter Text

May 22nd, 1995

London, England

Kakyoin wakes up to a stab of pain causing his whole body to tremble, a weak, wet gasp on his lips.

He’s blinking rapidly, trying to remember where he is, while Hierophant manifests messily, creeping about the dark room clumsily, and Kakyoin shoots up to a sitting position using his arms, his spine still hissing at him for daring to move.

Distantly, he notes a blanket falling from his shoulders and a soft snoring, and memories slam into him.

He’s in Polnareff’s hotel room. After arriving, Kakyoin had settled on the couch, back to the world, and refused to respond to anything Polnareff had said. After an hour, Polnareff had stopped trying. 

Howard had come by later with a bag of Kakyoin’s things, and Kakyoin had turned just to glare at him as he handed it off to Polnareff, but Howard paid him no mind. Kakyoin hated it.

He guesses he had fallen asleep after that, his body exhausted with the fight he’d put up earlier.

And now…

Kakyoin rubs his face, hissing in pain when it jostles his spine again, and he glances at the clock as Hierophant unspools from himself, reaching for the duffle Polnareff had placed next to the couch for him. 3:23 A.M. Kakyoin scowls.

He shifts and notices the blanket as it crumples, fully slipping away from his shoulders to pool in his lap. He blinks at it, his mind blanking, before he realizes Polnareff must have draped it over him.

His lips press into a thin line, something in his chest squeezing. He pulls the blanket off and chucks it at the other end of the couch.

Hierophant arrives again, this time with a water bottle from the hotel fridge and his pill bottle. Kakyoin takes both, uncapping them with some difficulty – his hands couldn’t stop fucking shaking – and then shoves a handful of pills into his mouth, chasing it down with over half of the bottle. He’s so thirsty.

He sighs, recapping it when he’s had his fill, depositing the water bottle but keeping his pills in his grasp. Since he went so long without a dose, and with his stupid thrashing from earlier, he wouldn’t be surprised if he finished the entire bottle tonight.

Kakyoin smirks, snorting and shaking his head. Yeah right. Then he’d be left without his medicine for days. Still, it fucking hurt.

Mm…

Kakyoin silently sends Hierophant out the door of the room, sneaking down the hallways. He closes his eyes, focuses his senses on Hierophant’s, seeing through his eyes.

He snakes across the lobby where the front desk attendant is reading a magazine, looking bored and sleepy given the time of night and lack of customers. Hierophant moves past and-

Kakyoin grins. Jackpot.

There is a cocktail lounge just as he was hoping. Hierophant slips past the gate, wraps around the first wine bottle it finds that it can juggle out of the gaps, and then silently slinks back to the hotel room.

Kakyoin has another tentacle manifest to let the first one and its loot in, then closes the door once more. Hierophant hands him the bottle and Kakyoin grins, uncorking it carefully before he shakes out a couple more pills and swallows them with a swig of the spirit. He frowns tightly. White wine… And not only that, but dry. Well, beggars couldn’t be choosers – red or white, it’ll help stamp down the pain at least…

He leans back against the couch then, closing his eyes as his pills take effect, the alcohol warming his intestines where it slinks through. He shudders a little in the cold – early summer Britain is still fairly chilly, especially at night, he thinks with a grimace – and eyes the blanket down at the end of the couch.

Hierophant manifests to pull it closer without him having to lean to grab it, when the phone suddenly rings.

Kakyoin just barely bites back of shriek, Hierophant’s tentacles immediately swiveling to the phone to silence it, so fucking loud.

Hierophant knocks the phone off the ringer with a clatter rather than impaling it, pressing some sort of button as he does, but Kakyoin doesn’t care, so long at it shuts up-

Polnareff’s snores halt in a way that suggests he’s teetering on the precipice of waking up, and Kakyoin holds his breath – he does not want to talk to Polnareff right now.

Polnareff shifts, the silence stretching, before his snores pick back up and Kakyoin lets out a breath of relief.

Kakyoin has Hierophant re-hang up the phone, stretching his arms as he grabs the neck of his bottle and takes another swig. He grimaces at the taste again – really, while wine was good, he misses soju most during times like these – only to jump when the phone rings again.

Who the hell is calling?! Kakyoin thinks frantically as Hierophant again reaches for the phone and pulls it off the hook, bringing it to Kakyoin so he can glance at the caller ID. Thankfully it’s wireless, Kakyoin thinks absentmindedly as he presses a button to answer the phone and get it to shut up, holding his breath while Polnareff’s snores pause.

Polnareff grumbles, rolling over, but he does fall back asleep, his breathing evening out again. Kakyoin breathes and then glances at the caller ID, before his blood runs cold.

I recognize this number.

His fingers grow cold and Kakyoin goes so still he isn’t even breathing for a second, eyes wide. He can feel his pulse in his fingertips.

There’s a murmur from the phone again, the person on the other side surely asking who is on the line, and Kakyoin jumps into action. Grabbing his wine, his pills shaking in his pocket, he jumps up and limps his way to the bathroom so that he hopefully won’t wake up Polnareff and ruin this one chance.

He slams the door shut and locks it, flicks on the lights, and collapses in front of the tub, leaning against the porcelain, uncaring about the chill of the tile as he brings the phone to his ear, taking one last sip of his bottle for liquid courage.

“Polnareff, goddammit, are you actually awake? Avdol told me this is the number you’re currently using but didn’t mention where you are. Is it nighttime-?”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin cuts in, and immediately the other end goes silent.

Kakyoin doesn’t dare to breathe, his pulse fluttering so noticeably in his throat that Kakyoin slaps his free hand over his neck, swallowing thickly.

Despite the chill and tremors tracing his shoulders (Kakyoin belatedly wishes he brought the blanket with him), sweat begins forming under his arms and along his back, soaking into his shirt, and Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably.

The silence stretches on, only the hum of the bathroom light making it to Kakyoin’s ears. He can’t even hear Jotaro breathe – or himself, for that matter.

Finally, he hears an intake of breath on the other end of the line.

“...Kakyoin?” Jotaro rasps. Kakyoin shudders.

“It’s me,” Kakyoin confirms, words spoken softly. Jotaro takes a deep breath and Kakyoin swallows. “It’s me,” he repeats.

“Kakyoin…” Jotaro says so quietly it’s almost a whisper, and Kakyoin feels chills run up and down his spine. It’s been so fucking long since he last heard his name from the other’s lips. He didn’t realize just how much he missed it.

“Where have you been?” Kakyoin demands then, voice embarrassingly warbly, but the alcohol keeps Kakyoin from being too embarrassed about it. “It’s been goddamn years! Years! I’ve tried calling you but-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says, voice low and dangerous. It reminds Kakyoin of when they first met, how Jotaro’s eyes glowed like a cat stalking its prey. There’s a shaky breath, but Kakyoin isn’t sure if it came from him or the phone. “I need you to hang up and never call this number again.”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, a strained wisp of air escaping his throat, but not much else.

Jotaro doesn’t say anything more and Kakyoin twitches, free hand clenching around his wine bottle’s neck.

“Are you- are you fucking with me?” Kakyoin sputters, voice edged in hysteria. “That’s it? That’s it? Five years-”

“Six,” Jotaro counters quietly, and Kakyoin lets out an angry, primal sound, a shriek but softer, a growl but higher, and Jotaro shuts up.

“THAT MAKES IT WORSE, JOTARO!” Kakyoin snaps, breathing haggardly. He brings the bottle to his lips and takes another few gulps, the burn of the alcohol going down doing nothing to ease the heat of anger in his belly. “ SIX years and all you can- all you can say to me is-”

“Are you drunk?” Jotaro cuts in, and Kakyoin twitches, gripping the phone tight enough the plastic creaks under his knuckles.

“NO!” Kakyoin snaps, ignoring the way the wine sits uncomfortably in his guts. He swallows and tries his best to speak clearly as he says, “Don’t you dare try to write me off right now.”

It’s quiet for a few beats, but at least this time, Kakyoin can hear Jotaro breathing on the other end. Kakyoin can’t stand it.

“Why did you never answer my calls?” He demands then, and Jotaro sucks in a breath.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says, voice tired and exasperated, like he’s scolding to a particularly troublesome child, and Kakyoin grits his teeth, “we are not having this conversation right n-“

“Then when will we have it?” Kakyoin snaps, fury sharp and quick inside of him like a whip, lashing out in his voice. “If you can give me a solid answer to that, I’ll hang up right now.”

Jotaro says nothing. Kakyoin almost chuckles, Jotaro’s lack of defense unbelievable.

“I knew it,” Kakyoin snarls after a few more beats of silence, “why are you trying so hard to avoid me?”

“I-” Jotaro’s voice takes on a texture Kakyoin has never heard before, and a part of him is enraptured with it, while the rest of him rejects it, roiling in fury. “Kakyoin…”

What? ” Kakyoin snaps. “Just answer me! For once!

“I’m not-”

“Don’t you dare lie to me-”

“I was!” Jotaro snaps, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth. “I was. I am. Trying to avoid you.”

Kakyoin goes so still he’s not even sure if he’s breathing for a moment. He can’t hear anything outside of himself for several moments, his heartbeat echoing in his ears, his blood audibly swirling through his veins, and yet he still feels so cold.

Finally, he croaks out, “Why?”

It’s quiet again, and Kakyoin is about to repeat his question when Jotaro asks, “Does it matter?”

“Does it- YES IT MATTERS!” Kakyoin yells, and Jotaro sucks in a breath on the other side of the line. “IT FUCKING MATTERS!”

“The end is the same regardless of my reasons,” Jotaro snaps, and Kakyoin hisses through his teeth. “I’ve made my decision. I don’t understand why you’d want to-”

“You think I understood why I woke up in a hospital room alone after being in a coma for a year?! You think I understood why you wouldn’t answer my calls or you never visited me or- or- '' Kakyoin's voice, mortifyingly, breaks, and he shuts up, breathing heavily. He can hear Jotaro breathe shakily through the phone.

“Kakyoin…”

“I’m asking for anything, Jotaro,” he growls, and Jotaro shuts up. “Anything. Because anything would be better than the nothing you’ve given me for SIX YEARS!”

It’s quiet for several moments, Jotaro and Kakyoin both breathing audibly, and a part of Kakyoin aches because it reminds him of when they’d share hotel rooms, quiet except for their breaths and the rustle of sheets and the squeaks of mattresses as they shuffled closer, hands brushing, shoulders bumping, Kakyoin misses him.

“Was it DIO?” Kakyoin asks quietly, and Jotaro chokes.

“What-”

“Or was it D’Arby?” Kakyoin continues. “Or N’Doul?”

“What are you talking about?!” Jotaro cuts in, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“I’m not an idiot, Jotaro! You start avoiding me the second I eat shit in Egypt, what else could it be?! I know you trusted me before, you told me you-” his voice cracks again but Kakyoin pushes on even as tears prick his eyes over the strain in his throat, “but now you clearly don’t,” he finishes lamely.

“Kakyoin, it’s not-” Jotaro’s voice is a little high in panic, and it reminds Kakyoin of the tone he had before the split for the pincer attack, which is a startling realization. “It’s- I’m the one that’s-”

It reminds him of Rachel, and he’s sick of it. “Oh, the whole ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ spiel – really?”

Jotaro lets out a sound between a groan and a growl, throaty and almost wet and very, very irritated, and Kakyoin has to wonder what time it is wherever he is. “What do you want me to say?!”

“THE TRUTH!” Kakyoin barks.

“The truth,” Jotaro repeats lowly. “The truth? The truth is I don’t want to have this conversation. I want you to hang up and never speak to me again.”

Kakyoin flinches as if he’s been slapped, something sharp raking across his ribs from the inside, and he’s unscrewing his pill bottle’s cap before he even registers it, reflexively trying to dumb down the pain. He thinks his spine must be flaring up, because it’s always his spine’s fault when he aches, but why is it hurting his chest instead of his back?

He shoves two pills into his mouth and takes a sip of his wine, his gut churning in discomfort as it burns on the way down.

“You already told me that,” Kakyoin’s voice breaks, but he keeps pushing on, too desperate to be embarrassed. “I just want to know why.” He despises how weak he sounds, face curling down into a sharp frown, but his head is spinning and his ribs feel like they’re snapping under their own weight and he isn’t sure if he can even breathe. He takes another sip. The fire of the alcohol pushes his chest back out like a hot air balloon, forcing his ribs to expand like they should, so he takes another, treating it as an oxygen mask of sorts. “You used to trust me.”

Jotaro is completely quiet, and Kakyoin isn’t sure if it’s because he can’t hear him breathing or if it’s because Jotaro isn’t breathing at all.

“If I tell you,” Jotaro’s voice comes out low, rumbly like rounded boulders, “will you just hang up?”

Kakyoin doesn’t answer, his head spinning. He takes another sip to force himself to breathe. He feels like he’s falling, his brain convinced of it, but the linoleum against his legs is a disconcerting reminder that he isn’t moving at all. He isn’t sure he cares.

“I don't- ...this wasn't working anymore,” Jotaro says quietly, and Kakyoin wants to ask what he means, what is this, but he can’t move his lips. “I don’t want you to think about me. Just move on.”

I DON’T WANT TO, a part of Kakyoin shrieks, but he’s too dazed to say anything. He blinks, and suddenly his vision is clear, and he realizes that at some point in the conversation his eyes filled with tears and he just cleared them away. He grits his teeth, sniffing, as he reaches one hand up to rub his misting eyes.

Finally, Kakyoin croaks, “Have you moved on?”

Jotaro is silent. Kakyoin tries to ignore how numb his tongue is. He takes another sip to force his lungs to breathe.

“I need closure, Jotaro,” Kakyoin says quietly. “I need closure if that’s what you really want. But I don’t think it is.” It can’t be. “So just tell me why? Why are you doing this to me?” He utters, immediately hating himself for how pathetic he is, but he can’t take it back, and he’s too desperate to care. He clings to the phone, Jotaro’s voice his whole world.

“Goodnight, Kakyoin,” Jotaro says instead of answering, and a pit forms so suddenly in Kakyoin’s stomach, tight and sucking in all his guts-

“Jojo- Jotaro,” Kakyoin interjects, voice almost desperate, and Jotaro pauses. Kakyoin can hear him breathing on the other side of the line.

“Do...do you think less of me?”

Jotaro stays quiet. Kakyoin can feel his heart in his throat, the blood rushing so quickly from the organ he can hear the roar of it.

Then Jotaro swallows audibly, his throat clicking slightly.

“Think what you need to. Just don’t call me ever again.”

Kakyoin blinks at the nonanswer, a small circle of mass right in the center of his chest collapsing into a black hole, the gravity of it making the rest of his chest feel tight, suffocating him.

He can register distantly that he’s staring at the bathroom tile and his eyes are stinging due to his lack of blinking, but he couldn’t identify the colors he’s seeing, or the shape of the tile – seeing, but not looking. He isn’t sure if he’s breathing and he isn’t sure if it even matters. The black hole in his chest sucks everything inside of him up slowly.

He jumps when the phone begins droning, requesting to be placed back in its holder, but instead Kakyoin just lets it slip from his fingers and leans back against the bathtub. He isn’t sure when Jotaro hung up.

His back hurts. He was hunching over.

Mechanically, still gazing somewhere into the distance, Kakyoin uncaps his pill bottle again and shakes some into his hand, bringing them to his mouth, and assisting their slide down his throat with his wine. The bottle is heavy, the dark glass dense, and Kakyoin’s fingers are getting sloppy. He frowns. Don’t want this to break, he thinks monotonously, and decides to chug the rest of it.

One mouthful, two, three – the wine is starting to taste like gasoline but Kakyoin keeps drinking. His guts roil violently and he wonders, When was the last time I ate?

He finishes the bottle and lets it slip from his grasp like the phone. His stomach hurts. I don’t have a stomach, he remembers. It still hurts. Alcohol snakes along the length of his entrails. Without his stomach, he can’t hold it; it sinks into his bloodstream right away.

Kakyoin opens his pill bottle again, shoving another few inside, swallowing them dry. His spit is thickening, which makes it easier. He frowns. Why is my spit so thick?

He gets his answer when he abruptly gags, just having the mind to twist around and puke into the bathtub rather than his lap, and he gasps as the twist sends sharp sparks of pain up and down his spine, his legs twitching.

“Shit-”

He throws up violently then, wet, throaty retches echoing in the bathroom, and Kakyoin has half the mind to think he’s suddenly been attacked by a stand user, the smell and noise and pain in his guts and agony in his spine all so overwhelming.

His puke is watery and fizzy like the wine and it smells like rubbing alcohol. He can see a handful of pills. Kakyoin turns on the bath to wash it away, turning over fully and curling up over the lip. He grabs his pill bottle again and brings it straight to his lips, swallowing down what he can, anything to just make it stop hurting.

His stomach won’t stop hurting. I don’t have a stomach.

I don’t have Jotaro.

Kakyoin gasps welty and gags, but his guts have gotten rid of the worst of what was bothering them for now, it seems. They still curl uncomfortably around each other, twisting and writhing, but Kakyoin doesn’t care. He sniffles, sloppily wiping his eyes, before he turns, sliding back against the tub, leaving the faucet on. He’s exhausted.

His eyelids are getting droopy, and he has the mind to think, I really should not fall asleep here, but his limbs feel like lead and his chest won’t stop aching like he’s been scraped raw, free of tissue and skin, and now just cold bone.

Hierophant appears to nudge his pills, but Kakyoin tightens his grip. “N-no,” Kakyoin moans softly, and Hierophant’s tentacle curls in displeasure. Kakyoin doesn’t care. He opens his bottle and pops the last few in. Might as well, a part of him spits, almost out anyway.

They’re gonna make him stop anyway.

Kakyoin’s head slips forward and he finds he doesn’t have the strength to lift it back up. A lance of panic shoots through him then, mildly numbing the pain of his spine and chest – or was that the painkillers or the wine finally working? Or both?

Kakyoin’s guts toil again, but Kakyoin physically cannot move to throw up, drool slipping from his lips, but his throat unable to push anything out, unable to flex to do it. A part of Kakyoin is grateful – he doesn’t want to throw up in his lap – but a part is deeply uncomfortable, his guts rebelling against him furiously.

He hears knocking then. “Kakyoin?” he can hear Polnareff call.

Shit, a part of him thinks. He can’t move. He can’t move. Why can’t he move? It’s only then he realizes his eyes are closed. Why is he so tired? Why does Jotaro…

Well. He knew, now, for sure, didn’t he?

Think what you need to.

You used to trust me, Kakyoin thinks with a twist, so sharp it hurt, only adding to his nausea. You used to trust me. You used to love m-

“Kakyoin,” he can hear Polnareff sigh, a thunk against the door as he presumably leans his head against the wood, “I know you’re mad. I think you do have a right to be – we never should’ve let it get this bad…”

Fury laces through Kakyoin then – You didn’t let me do fucking anything – but he can only moan, unable to speak. His tongue feels swollen. He can’t open his eyes. He can’t lift his head. He can’t stop drooling. His guts hurt, his spine hurts, why weren’t the pills working?

Polnareff pauses. “...Kakyoin?” He calls.

Kakyoin tries to respond, but instead the prompting of his throat makes it relearn how to retch, and he throws up again.

“Kakyoin?!” He can hear Polnareff ask, panic raising his voice, and Kakyoin just whimpers, teetering to his side with a wet thump, and Hierophant’s tentacle appears then, racing for the door, but Kakyoin’s foggy lack of focus makes it hard for it to stay physical, and it fizzles out halfway there.

Polnareff bangs on the door, juggling the doorknob, and Kakyoin just squeezes his eyes tighter over the noise, coughing up more bile. He tastes blood this time, and his guts squeeze in fear.

“Kakyoin! I’m going to break this door down if you don’t answer me now!” Polnareff shouts, and Kakyoin groans, fingers twitching, please don’t see me like this-

There’s a crash and Kakyoin shudders, the splintering of wood unmistakeable. “Kaky- KAKYOIN!!” He hears Polnareff shriek.

There are warm hands on him then, and it jolts Kakyoin – he hadn’t realized how cold he’d gotten before now – and it’s enough that he can finally open his eyes for the first time in several minutes. His vision is spotty and blurry, but he can make out Polnareff’s blue eyes – it’s not the blue he wants to see right now.

Kakyoin chokes on a sob and throws up again. “‘Nareff-”

“Oh my god,” Polnareff says shakily, uncaring of the vomit Kakyoin just spat onto his knees where he kneels in front of him, and Kakyoin cries harder, the acknowledgement that something is wrong opening his floodgates, and his head can’t stop spinning, and he can’t breathe, he can’t breathe, he can’t-

“What the hell is this? When the hell did you get a fucking wine bottle?” He can hear Polnareff shout. “When did-”

Kakyoin cries harder than he thinks he’s ever cried in his entire life, his fingers shaking so badly he can’t even grip Polnareff. “‘Nar- ‘nar- Pol’-”

“Kakyoin, what the fuck did you do?!” Polnareff shouts, voice high in panic, and Kakyoin just cries.

“It hurt,” Kakyoin weeps hysterically, “it hurt, and I just wanted it to stop, and he- he- he looks down on me,”

“Who- what-” Polnareff shakes his head, grabs the phone, and pulls Kakyoin to his chest. It cannot be comfortable, with Kakyoin being bony and shivering and wet with sick and sweat and drool, but Polnareff holds him securely, and Kakyoin can’t help but think about how warm he is. This isn’t a bad place to die, he thinks.

“Don’t you fucking dare say that!” Polnareff snaps, and Kakyoin blinks. Did I say that out loud?

His eyes slide shut but Polnareff jostles him sharply.

“Stay awake. Stay awake you fucking bastard, you owe me, keep your fucking eyes open!”

Kakyoin just hiccups, cries rattling his chest but unable to escape anymore, too exhausted to let it out. He can’t really tell what his body is doing anymore, his brain too fried to make sense of the signals his nerves are sending it. Maybe the painkillers are finally working, he thinks hopefully.

“999, what’s your emergency?” Kakyoin can hear a faint voice call, and he feels dizzy as he feels Polnareff’s chest rumble against his back as he responds.

“My- my- my brother,” his voice cracks, and Kakyoin goes very still, “my brother, I think he overdosed, I think- I think he’s dying, please-”

Brother. 

Kakyoin can’t make sense of it.

Brother? He’s Polnareff’s brother?

He brings shaking hands to clasp onto the arm Polnareff has around his chest, pinning him, and he squeezes. Brother. Brother. Brother.

He can hear Polnareff rattling the address of the hotel and make noises as he’s informed something, but he can’t hear the operator anymore.

“Hey, Kakyoin,” he hears against his ear suddenly, and Kakyoin grunts, pulled from the lull of his thoughts. He didn’t realize he was falling asleep. He didn’t realize he’d even closed his eyes again. “Hey, you fucking asshole, keep your eyes open,” Polnareff says, voice thick with emotion. It’s not the first time he’s heard Polnareff cry, but it’s the first time he knows it’s for him. Kakyoin managed to raise his lids up to halfway over his eyes.

“Good,” Polnareff cries, a hand coming up to wipe Kakyoin’s mouth and brush the hair from his face. Kakyoin’s throat is so constricted it hurts. “Look at me. Can you talk?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth but just gags, drool slipping out, and Polnareff grimaces, closes his jaw for him, and wipes his mouth again.

“Okay,” he breathes shakily, “okay, don’t worry about it. Just. Just-” his voice gives out and Kakyoin’s vision blurs. “You’re such an asshole. You-”

“Yea," Kakyoin slurs, and Polnareff shakes against him. He leans down, burying his face against Kakyoin’s hair, and Kakyoin knows it’s slick with sweat, it can’t be comfortable, but Polnareff holds him regardless.

“Yeah. Yeah. I- I can’t-” his voice breaks. “Kakyoin, don’t die on me,” he cries, and Kakyoin feels his own tears slide down his cheeks, his heart tripping over itself in its desperation to beat fast, but he’s too sedated for it to work, resulting in skipped beats. His vision is growing spottier by the minute and Kakyoin feels dizzier than he’s ever been.

“‘M s’rry,” Kakyoin croaks, and Polnareff cries harder.

“Apologize by action! Stay alive you fucking- Kakyoin, don’t do this to me. Don’t-”

“N’riaki,” Kakyoin slurs, going cross-eyed in his desperation to keep his eyes open.

“What?” Polnareff croaks, lifting his head to stare down at Kakyoin. His eyes are not the blue he’s looking for and Kakyoin coughs, his chest constricting. His mouth tastes like blood and wine and vomit and he can’t stop crying, tears leaking out of his eyes and falling like raindrops on a window.

“C’ll me,” Kakyoin wheezes, “N’riaki.” Brother.

He goes limp then, eyes sliding closed, Polnareff’s hysterical shrieks ringing in his ears.


???

???

Kakyoin wakes up to a sharp pain in his back.

He seizes as he’s dropped into consciousness, breathing halting, but the pain doesn’t go away. He twists, and fire burns through his veins. His head feels leaden, his skull full of wet concrete, and he can’t think.

“Please,” he can hear, and he isn’t sure if he’s the one who said it or not until he grunts and realizes his throat is much too tight for speech right now. Who is it then? He squints his eyes open, sweat slicking his hair to his forehead, grimacing tightly.

He’s…

His stomach drops.

He’s back in a hospital, the white walls and blanketing antiseptic smell bringing back memories of boredom and physical therapy and desperation, I’m being left behind-

I was.

Kakyoin closes his eyes again.

“Please,” he hears the voice call. “Please, the Speedwagon Foundation will explain, I know he’s messed up, just- please just try and keep him alive until a team gets here.”

Kakyoin slips back under gladly.


???

???

When Kakyoin wakes up again, his wrists are tied down to his hospital bed, and the ever present ache in his spine is a full-on flare. He grits his teeth, breath hitching, hands curling into fists. His eyes roll around the room and he scoffs when he registers the hospital room again. Right…

He’s about to call Hierophant out to rip his bindings when a voice next to him says “Good morning.”

Kakyoin flinches harshly, gaze jerking to the voice before straying away as if burned. Next to his bedside, sitting in a chair as he folds a piece of paper, is Joseph Joestar. His voice is creaky, much softer than on the journey. His hands tremble minutely and he has spectacles now, but Kakyoin couldn’t mistake him.

Joseph glances up and Kakyoin avoids his gaze, staring down at his restraints.

“Mm,” Joseph hums. “You were giving the doctors a lot of trouble whenever you got half conscious. Or…conscious enough to look for opioids, at least.”

Kakyoin flinches, baring his teeth at his sheets. “Why are you here?” He grounds out.

Joseph hums, leaning back in his chair with a slight creak as his weight redistributes. “Come on, Kakyoin. We’re friends, aren’t we?”

Kakyoin’s nose flares but he says nothing, breathing shakily. His back pulses with pain and he twitches.

Joseph sighs. “I know…I told you I’ve done- a journey, like ours, once before, right?”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow a bit. “...What does that have to do with anything?”

Joseph hums. “When I got done with that, I used to drink myself to sleep every night.”

Kakyoin blinks, lips parting, raising his head to look at Joseph properly. He can see now Joseph is folding the paper into a figure of some sort, but he can’t tell what from his leaned back angle. Kakyoin swallows thickly.

Joseph sighs, his hands falling still. “Eventually I drank in the afternoons too. And then mornings. And then, every hour, every day, I had something. It was easy to get drunk at first, especially with a lost arm, but it took more to get the same thing the longer I did it.”

Kakyoin shifts, so uncomfortable he feels a little nauseous, his heart beating in his ears. His stomach rolls and his spine won’t stop throbbing. He feels like he can’t move.

“Eventually, because that’s how it always ends,” Joseph sighs, “I drank myself into the hospital. And my wife – Suzi – told me she was pregnant when I woke up.” Kakyoin’s breath catches. “And that she would divorce me if I didn’t stop. For our child if not for her.”

Joseph inclines his head, closing his eyes as he sighs. Kakyoin says nothing.

“...I bring this up,” Joseph concludes quietly, “to let you know that…I understand.”

Kakyoin swallows thickly, letting out a sharp hiss when his pain flares before settling down. “...Ask them to untie me,” he says, unsure of how to address Joseph’s confession.

Joseph frowns before shaking his head. He sighs, nods, and stands. He sets down what he was folding onto Kakyoin’s bedside table.

It’s a paper crane.

Kakyoin’s mouth runs dry. Joseph pauses in the doorway. “I’m glad you’re alive, Kakyoin.”

He walks out. Kakyoin stares at the crane.


May 23rd, 1995

London, England

“How are you feeling, young man?” A doctor asks him after uniting him from his restraints.

“Fine,” Kakyoin responds dazedly. His hearing is a little staticy and he can’t stop shaking and his spine won’t stop hurting, but, well. Kakyoin’s spent enough time in hospitals for a lifetime. The doctor doesn’t need more reasons to keep him here.

The doctor eyes him over his spectacles, and Kakyoin bites back the urge to sneer.

“Considering the circumstances,” he amends, voice plastic, bright with resin. The doctor doesn’t notice or doesn’t care. Kakyoin twitches.

“That’s good. It’ll make these next steps easier,” he says.

Kakyoin blinks. “Wh- what?”

The doctor, seemingly expecting the confusion, pats Kakyoin’s knee reassuringly. Kakyoin can’t even feel it, his spine just twitching. His fingers clench underneath his blanket. “Well, you need to detox, for one. We’re going to have to monitor you as your body adjusts to no longer having opioids in its system,” he starts gently. Kakyoin flares red hot at the pity, but at the same time flinches back icy cold at the acknowledgement of why he’s here, a shame so chilly it feels like it’s burning as it floods his stomach.

“Mm,” Kakyoin hums weakly.

“And,” the doctor says, “we’re going to have to do some tests on your liver. You already have had a few organ transplants now, and we don’t want to add another one if we can help it, but alcohol poisoning is not easy on the liver, so we need to check that it is functional.”

Kakyoin goes pale, his shoulders unable to stop shaking, but his hands falling limp. “Ah.”

The doctor hums. “And then after that…well, it’s up to you,” he starts gently, “but I would recommend rehabili-”

“Stop,” Kakyoin strangles out, and the doctor has the tact to listen. He waits a beat, but Kakyoin says nothing more. He stands, placing Kakyoin’s chart back in its slot, and claps Kakyoin’s knee again in assurance. Kakyoin can’t flinch, even if his brain floods him with a shot of adrenaline like it wanted him to. It does numb the pain slightly. Kakyoin closes his eyes.

“Please, think about it,” the doctor says. “You have people who really care about you.”

He takes his leave then. Kakyoin’s heart aches. His back hurts. Distantly, he has the notion he’s been stuck like this for a long time now.


May 24th, 1995

London, England

The next morning, when Kakyoin wakes up, it’s to his stomach rolling uncomfortable, his head dizzy and full of cotton, and someone holding his hand.

Kakyoin flinches, yanking his hand back. “What-”

“Kakyoin,” a voice breathes, Kakyoin goes still.

Straying near the chair beside his bed stands Avdol, dark circles under his eyes. His hair is undone. It occurs to Kakyoin this is the first time he’s seen Avdol with his hair loose – even when going to sleep in Egypt, Avdol would wrap his hair before sleeping rather than leave it out. It feels vulnerable.

Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably, drifting his gaze downward, only to flinch when he catches sight of himself in the reflection of his water. If Avdol’s circles were bad, his were horrific.

“Good morning,” Avdol says softly, moving to sit in the chair on the other side of Kakyoin’s bed. Kakyoin says nothing, unable to meet his gaze.

Avdol waits, but when Kakyoin doesn't reply, he frowns, and he looks so tired. Kakyoin's stomach twists, and he winces. Avdol takes a deep breath.

"How are you?"

Kakyoin reflexively sneers -- he's heard enough nurses and doctors and teachers and parents and friends ask him that for a lifetime -- but he bites it back when Avdol winces at the expression, a stone in his guts.

Kakyoin's voice cracks like a whip when he first tries to speak, and both wince. Kakyoin swallows and Avdol gives him the styrofoam cup of water. 

Kakyoin takes it. His hands can't stop shaking however, fingers unable to grip, and he nearly spills-

But Avdol catches it, cupping his hands around Kakyoin's to keep the cup steady, and he’s so warm, and Kakyoin’s vision blurs with tears that he rapidly blinks away, gritting his teeth. He yanks his hands away and sips. His fingers tremble. He’s looking down, refusing to meet Avdol’s gaze, but the way he can see Avdol’s hands hesitate, moving toward him before flinching back, makes him feel like his guts have turned inside out, writhing as nerves that shouldn’t touch anything are suddenly surrounded.

“...Ka-”

“Why are you here?” Kakyoin asks. He wants to be angry, wants the defense of a wall of fire, but his voice comes out breathy, only wind and ash. He’s been burned to his embers already.

He can hear the chair creak as Avdol leans back in it, his hands leaving his view, and Kakyoin closes his eyes, swallows, and takes another sip. When the cup starts to slip from his trembling fingers, Avdol snatches it from him, and he flinches but lets him take it and place it on the table.

Avdol sighs, and Kakyoin swallows thickly and looks up.

“What kind of question is that, Kakyoin?” Avdol asks, voice soft, and Kakyoin doesn’t know how to answer. He wants a beat, but when Kakyoin has nothing to say, Avdol continues, “You’re my friend. Why wouldn’t I be here?”

“Because you weren’t,” Kakyoin whispers. “Because- because Jot-” his voice gives out and Kakyoin drops his gaze again. “Because- because Kujo wasn’t,” he spits, flames flickering again when he directs his anger toward Jotaro and not Avdol.

Avdol is quiet for several beats. Then, “I can’t…talk for Jotaro,” he says quietly, and Kakyoin scoffs. “But,” Avdol continues, voice stern, and Kakyoin trembles, shifting underneath his blanket. “I was there. It was you who iced me out.”

“I-” Kakyoin’s voice dies in his throat. Shame burns hot and heavy in his stomach, slowly eating away at him, thick smoke condensing and curling up to his chest, poisoning his lungs, up to his eyes, watering them. He blinks the tears away and immediately wishes he hadn’t, as he gets to clearly see Avdol’s eyes fill with his own tears.

Avdol looks tired, his face not scrunching up with the emotion, and his tears don’t fall, but they sit on his lower lids, glinting at Kakyoin like emeralds.

“You iced me out,” Avdol repeats, voice a little hoarse, and Kakyoin drops his gaze, trying to swallow, but the lump in the back of his throat is too overwhelming. “You- you don’t exist in a vacuum, you know, Kakyoin? You’re not alone.”

Kakyoin flinches as if Avdol slashed at him with a knife.

“I know I said the wrong thing on that phone call two years ago but-”

“Stop,” Kakyoin cuts in, voice strangled, and Avdol does, sitting back, his chair creaking quietly.

Kakyoin’s IV drips. His headache won’t stop blaring against his temples and his back won’t stop hurting and these are my only friends.

Kakyoin bursts into tears.

“Kakyoin-?!”

“I’m sorry,” Kakyoin sobs, ignoring the shriek of pain in his spine – it was hurting anyway – and burying his face into his arms. “I don’t- I don’t know-” he grits his teeth, lashing out violently at the rails of his hospital bed, the metal ringing with the hit, and pain throbs through his knuckles but he doesn’t care, everything else fucking hurts anyway-

“Kakyoin,” Avdol says, voice low and soft, and Kakyoin cries out, his chest feeling like it’s being ripped apart, like something is chewing him from the inside out.

“I’m sorry for not answering your calls,” Kakyoin rasps, “it wasn’t you, it wasn’t you, it-” Kakyoin grits his teeth. “I’m just- I’m so angry,” he admits, and it feels like getting disemboweled all over again, his stomach hurting, his spine aching, his head throbbing, and he lets out an exhale that’s too close to a sob. “I’m just so angry all the t-time and I don’t know why, I don’t-”

There are arms around him then, a gentle murmur of a voice he can’t hear over the blood rushing in his ears, and he’s pulled up from his hunched position and into Avdol’s chest, Avdol’s warm chest, sturdy arms wrapping around him, and it hurts, his spine feels like it’s going to break despite his feather-light touch, but he leans into it and cries and ignores the way his IV jostles when he hugs back, ignores the ache in his throat, ignores the pulsing in his head, in his spine, in his chest.

Avdol smells like chai and firewood and sand, and Kakyoin almost feels like he’s back on the journey for a moment, everything around him damn-near pausing at the notion, the world going still.

But the world moves on, Kakyoin’s heartbeat sending new waves of pain with every flush of blood, and Kakyoin cries.

Avdol holds him the whole time, warm and steady. It’s a nice change from Hierophant's cool tentacles he had relied on for years, he thinks, Avdol’s orange robes a nice change from the blue that’s haunted him.

He isn’t sure when he stops and falls asleep, or if he stops before going unconscious at all, but he sobs in Avdol’s arms until he passes out, from exhaustion or dehydration or pain or heartbreak or all of the above.

Kakyoin doesn’t know.


May 27th, 1995

London, England

Kakyoin understands why people kill themselves because of withdrawal symptoms now, he thinks as he lays flat on his back, not having moved for hours and yet his spine still crying like he was bending and twisting it all the while. His head spins and he can barely stay awake and he’s constantly sweaty, his forehead and palms and underarms never fucking dry.

He’s gone through three bed sheets in two days, his IV ensuring he’s hydrated, and his body ensuring he uses that hydration to sweat his ass off. Kakyoin is mortified.

He sits up gingerly, teeth gritting as his shirt clings to his back, the feel of the sweat-soaked fabric against his numb lower spine so fucking gross-

There’s a banging and stomps outside his door, and Kakyoin blinks and turns his head, eyes narrowing. Hierophant Green lashes out, ready to attack whoever comes through-

Rachel bangs open his door, breathing heavily, her nostrils flared, and Kakyoin and Hierophant both flinch back sharply.

They lock eyes, and Kakyoin can’t breathe, adrenaline coursing through his veins.

It’s quiet for a moment, only the lingering scent of sweat in the air and the beeps of some machine doing the work for Kakyoin’s pancreas.

There’s another clambering from outside, and Kakyoin can hear Howard’s voice squawk, “Rach, jesus, I told you not to r-”

Rachel steps in and slams the door shut behind her, making Howard yelp audibly through the wall and Kakyoin flinch. She marches over and Kakyoin swallows thickly, his throat dry despite the IV in his arm keeping him hydrated.

“Rac-”

Smack.

Kakyoin’s face is snapped to the side before he realizes what just happened, and before he can say anything, Rachel moves to slap him again.

Kakyoin flinches, but doesn’t raise his arms to stop her – but she backs off anyway, hand dropping, teeth flashing from where her lips are pulled back into a snarl.

“Rach-”

“How fucking dare you,” she seethes, so tense her shoulders are shaking, hands curled into fists.

“It- I didn’t mean to do it,” Kakyoin says weakly, “it was an accid-”

“THAT’S HOW IT ALWAYS GOES!” Rachel shrieks and Kakyoin shuts his mouth, gritting his teeth.

“That’s how it always goes,” Rachel growls, quieter but no less hostile, and Kakyoin bites back a scoff when he catches sight of the paper crane again in his peripheral vision.

“It really was,” he stresses instead, “do you really think I would be so stu-”

“You were, clearly!” Rachel snaps, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth again, frowning tightly, unhappy. “You were stupid enough.”

It’s quiet for several beats, sweat sliding down Kakyoin’s back all the while. Rachel sits down. His adrenaline is fading which just brings back the ache, and he’s about to say something, anything to get his mind away from it when-

“I know it was an accident,” Rachel gives, voice quiet, and Kakyoin glances up. She’s staring at her knees, hunched over and gripping them with her hands, and he sees a slight tremor run through her frame. She’s wearing orange today, a deviation from her usual muted browns, Kakyoin thinks. “But don’t you see how that makes it worse?” She asks, voice giving way to a whisper, and Kakyoin blinks, lips parting but no sound escaping him.

Rachel glances up at him, and Kakyoin still can’t speak. She’s not crying, not now, but Kakyoin can see she has been, her eyes and nose tinged red. Guilt gnaws at what’s left of his entrails and Kakyoin has the fleeting thought, How is this fair?

“...Are you okay?” She asks when he doesn’t speak, and Kakyoin drops her gaze.

“...Don’t need a new kidney or liver,” he tries to joke, but his tone is flat and edged, and Rachel doesn’t smile, but she does let out a breath.

“That’s…good,” she says plainly. Kakyoin doesn’t say anything else, and she doesn’t ask, not about his current shaking and sweating that he still can’t get a hold of, the mortification making the sweating worse which only adds to the feeling, feeding into itself endlessly, a snake eating its own tail, an ouroboros.

Rachel clears her throat and Kakyoin looks up then, thankful to turn away from his thoughts. “How long?”

Kakyoin doesn’t need clarification. He clears his throat. “I’ll be out to take finals.”

“I asked, how long?”

Kakyoin falls silent. Rachel is staring at him intently, brows furrowed, and it’s only now Kakyoin can really appreciate the brown in her eyes, water in their own right, wet soil, muddy earth, where green life springs forth.

It’s a shame she doesn’t see me as green, Kakyoin thinks. He shakes his head.

“...About two weeks,” he mutters, “they want to make sure I don’t- die, or something. Even though it’s all out of my system now.”

Rachel twitches. “People die during detox. And that’s without your complicated history.”

Kakyoin reflexively snarls. “I’ve lived this long-”

“You’re a goddamn human though, and humans have our limits,” Rachel seethes, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth again, shoulders wracking. Sweat climbs down his brow, soaking into his shirt. He feels fucking disgusting.

“...So, rehab will be done before finals?” she continues, voice softer, and Kakyoin does scoff then.

“I’m not going to rehab,” he says, and her face shutters.

“Are you- are you fucking serious?” She snarls, and Kakyoin rubs his temples, whipping his head back to face her.

“Why do you even care?! We’re not even friends anymore, remember?” Kakyoin blinks at his own words. We- we were friends at all? I thought of us as friends?

Rachel’s whole body twitches for a moment, her eyes wild and furious, and Kakyoin is expecting her to slap him again when she bursts into tears instead, even as her lips are still curled in a snarl.

Kakyoin startles, the ice of shock soothing the pain in his spine for a moment, and he feels like his head has left some dark brown clouds, finally getting some air again.

“So what, I can’t care for people?!” She sobs, still glaring even as tears streak down her face, and Kakyoin just gawks at her, unsure of what to do. “Do you think this is just going to stop? Do you think that’s it? HOW DO YOU NOT SEE THE PATTERN?! Have you learned nothing?!” Her voice breaks and she turns away, wiping her eyes frantically. “I thought you were smart.”

Kakyoin swallows slowly, both grateful for the pause in his goddamn spine and sweat taking up all this thoughts, but hating the pit in his stomach, hating the way Rachel is glaring and sniffling and-

“Does my opinion really mean so little to you?” She rasps, and Kakyoin’s lips part but the only sound that comes out is a wheezed breath.

Do you think less of me?

Oh, Kakyoin is such an asshole.

“Rach-”

“I can’t,” Rachel cries, standing up abruptly, “I’m not fucking wasting anymore time on this. Sorry I even showed up.”

“Rach-”

“But let me tell you this,” she says, pointing at Kakyoin harshly, her red-rimmed eyes making him go quiet, “you owe me. So if not for yourself,” she sneers then, “if not for your real friends, if not for whoever you’re so hung up on,” Kakyoin feels like he’s going to throw up, the bottom of his tongue tense, spit thickening, “then you owe me! You owe going to rehab for me, for making me go through this again!”

She turns and heads for the door, moving so quick her hair whips around after her, and Kakyoin nearly lets her go, nearly lays down and just lets it happen, but-

But he’s better than that-

“Rachel,” he says, and even though his voice is quiet and creaky, she stops abruptly, her sneakers squeaking against the floor. Her shoulders are trembling. She doesn’t look back at him. Kakyoin swallows thickly. “I…” I’m sorry. I’m wrong. It hurts. I treated you like he treated me. I led you on. I think it’s better if you hate me. I hope you don’t hate me. “You’re right.”

She scoffs lightly and leaves, slamming the door shut behind her.


May 27th, 1995

London, England

Kakyoin’s soaked through another shirt when his door opens again. He expects it to be a nurse, and he already has a thin smile that’s more teeth than lip as he tries to be polite despite his fucking spine and the warm, salty smell of sweat-

But it’s not a nurse; Howard creeps into the room hesitantly, closing the door behind him. His hair is messy, small bruises forming under his eyes, and Kakyoin realizes he’s never seen Howard like this – somber, and quiet.

Howard looks up and smiles shakily. “You’re really such an asshole, you know that, man?”

Kakyoin can only bark out a startled sound, both a laugh and a squawk and a cry, and Howard smiles a little more sincerely for a moment before the curtain of mirth is dropped from his face. He gets a sense of deja vu then, and stays quiet. After a beat, Howard raises his head, rubbing one side of his face with his hand.

“But I’m sure you already know that,” he continues, and Kakyoin swallows. “Rachel never forgave me, after all. She’s not gonna forgive you, either.”

A hole opens up in the bottom of Kakyoin’s jaw, drying him out, but he doesn’t speak or flinch, in part because he’s just too sore to, in part because as cruel as it is, he knows it’s true. “...How is she?” He asks.

Howard sighs. “Do you actually care?”

The room stretches in silence for several moments, so quiet Kakyoin can hear the drips of his IV that keeps him hydrated despite sweating out of a whole wardrobe’s worth of gowns by now. He shifts a little, the hospital cot squeaking under his weight. Howard never meets his eyes. He’s never met his eyes once this whole conversation.

Kakyoin closes his eyes, leaning back against his uncomfortable pillows that are going to have to be changed again soon. He feels dizzy. He feels weak, his arms detached from him, his legs unresponsive.

“Yes,” he says quietly.

Howard hums. “She’ll be fine,” Kakyoin lets out a breath, “but she’ll be changed, and she’s never going to go back to normal again.” Kakyoin almost flinches at that. I really have been treating her like Jotaro does- …did to me.

Kakyoin lets out a wispy hum of acknowledgement.

“...And you?” Kakyoin asks, and Howard finally looks up at him, eyes a little wide, brows a little furrowed.

“...What?” He asks, and Kakyoin just raises his brows before shaking his head.

“I mean… Are you okay?” He mutters, voice creaky.

Howard is quiet, simply staring at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin fights the urge to squirm under his gaze. Sweat slides down his back. What he wouldn’t give for a shower, if only he felt like he could stand -

“I don’t think you’ve ever asked me about myself before,” Howard chuckles, and Kakyoin blinks, frowning. Was that true? No way…

Was he really so awful?

Howard laughs again, but his voice is a little clipped, a little shaky, like a child trying to ride a bicycle for the first time, and Kakyoin does squirm then, shifting uncomfortably on his cot. Howard runs a hand over his face, leaning back in the plastic seat. “I’m going to be honest dude, I’m pretty miserable right now.” Kakyoin frowns tightly, having the sense to feel shame flicker in his belly. “The last time I saw Rachel this upset, I was going through the same brain fog you’re in right now. But now I’m sober and get to see it up close, from the other side, and it’s…” Howard’s voice cracks a little and he quiets, his head dropping. “I can’t believe I did this to her. Or myself.”

Me neither.

Howard swallows, rubbing his face again, as he sits up straighter. “It’s, um…” He sighs. “Made me think.”

Kakyoin swallows, but he can’t muster up the voice to prompt Howard to continue. Howard does anyway.

“I’m gonna go to rehab. I technically did before after…my own stunt, but,” Howard sighs, shaking his head. “I want to take it more seriously. I don’t want to see Rachel like this ever again. She’s my friend and I…” Howard sighs.

Kakyoin isn’t sure how to respond, staring Howard down. Is he trying to play me? Get me to go with some psychology trick? Is it his own idea or-

But Howard isn’t looking at him – instead he’s looking outside Kakyoin’s window, gaze a little glazed, and Kakyoin realizes abruptly-

It’s not about me. Nothing about this is about me.

Kakyoin closes his eyes as a wave of vertigo washes over him, tendrils digging into his brain and spinning it around his brainstem.

“Rachel told me you don’t plan to go,” Howard says softly, and Kakyoin opens his eyes again, surprised to see them slightly misty with moisture, which he blinks away. “I-”

“Please-” Kakyoin cuts in, surprised with himself for his plea, but he lets the rest of the words trickle out of his mouth, “please don’t ask me to go.”

Howard shakes his head, which makes Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “I’m not going to. I…” Howard sighs, rubbing his temples with his fingers. “I went to rehab right after- um, my own…overdose…” both of them shudder. “...But not because I wanted to get better, per se. Like- obviously I did, but I wasn’t convinced rehab was what would help me. I just went because everyone else told me to. Because…Rachel told me to…” He sighs. “And that’s…the thing, Kakyoin; you can’t do it for anyone but yourself. Otherwise it won’t work.” he chuckles, gesturing to himself, his mouth curling in a self-depreciating, halfhearted smirk, “as you can see.”

Kakyoin is quiet, staring at Howard. He feels like it’s his first time seeing him. For once, he’s not aching for a flash of blue between his black bangs, but instead accepting of his coal black eyes, reminiscent of the blankets of night they’d always hit the town together in, and he jolts.

“Howard,” his voice cracks, and Howard looks up at him, dropping his gesture. Kakyoin reaches for his hand, which makes Howard jump, gaze darting down towards their fingers before looking back up at Kakyoin, but he doesn’t draw away. “Howard- everyone keeps telling me- do you think it’s because- because they don’t trust me?”

Howard’s brows pinch then, eyes softening, and Kakyoin squirms. He hates it- but Howard is the only one who’s talked to him and he just-

Howard squeezes his hand and Kakyoin flinches harshly, but Howard doesn’t say anything about it, nor the sweat that must be soaking Kakyoin’s hands.

“I don’t think it’s because they don’t trust you,” Howard murmurs, and Kakyoin stares at him desperately, his pulse racing. “I think they just want you to get better, and rehab is the thing most people first think of for that. It’s a- a promise of sorts, or at least in theory it is. I think it’s less you and more them.” Howard leans a little forward, staring at Kakyoin intently, and Kakyoin gulps. “But it’s not because they don’t trust you. You’re- you’re a smart guy, Kakyoin, and determined. They just-” Howard lets out a breath. “Well, I can’t…speak for them.” He looks up at Kakyoin then, refocusing his gaze, and Kakyoin feels a little dizzy. “I just- and Rachel just- want you to get past this. It doesn’t actually matter which route you go about it.”

Howard drops their gaze, and Kakyoin closes his own eyes, slumping against his hospital cot, as if holding Howard’s gaze was a physical weight he was carrying with every muscle in his body.

“And- and I want, and Rachel wants, the same for me,” Howard continues softly. “For me, that means rehab. Doesn’t have to mean the same for you. Just-” Howard’s voice catches then, and Kakyoin opens his eyes again. Howard looks at him, but his gaze is glazed, like he’s looking at someone else. Kakyoin wonders what he’s seeing, or who. “Make that promise. Just make that promise. And keep it.”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. He squeezes Howard’s hand, echoing his motion from earlier, and Howard’s gaze refocuses onto him. Kakyoin tries to smile, but the shift in his face makes him notice his vision is blurring again from tears, and he hastily blinks them away, bringing his free hand up to wipe his eyes. Howard politely says nothing.

After a moment, Kakyoin lets out a shaky breath, dropping his hand.

“Howard,” his voice is croaky like a frog, and he winces, but Howard doesn’t say anything. Kakyoin swallows, sniffs, and says, “Howard. I’m- I’m glad we’re friends.”

Howard lets out a small laugh then, patting Kakyoin’s hand. “Yeah, whatever bastard.”

He leans back in his seat, letting out a long sigh.

“I’m glad, too.”


June 1st, 1995

London, England

Since his conversation with Howard, Kakyoin’s had a decision to make.

It’s a shame he can’t fucking focus past the dizziness and pain and goddamn sweat.

Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably, eyeing his call button in the dying late of the day. He raises his gaze when Hierophant flickers in his peripheral, only to grimace when the stand gently holds out a spare hospital gown and a bag of morphine – both stolen from somewhere in the hospital.

“Hierophant,” Kakyoin hisses, smacking away the morphine, but gently taking the gown from the stand, already sick of the sweat sticking the one he’s currently wearing to his back, even though he switched gowns again only a few hours ago.

The tentacle droops sadly, and Kakyoin flinches as pain rockets across his chest over daring to raise his voice, the weak muscles panicking over the harsh movement.

Kakyoin, arms like lead, rubs his heavy eyelids and then reaches out to stroke his stand like a cat. Hierophant doesn’t really respond, but it doesn’t shy away from the touch, and Kakyoin supposes that’s what he deserves, really.

He clears his throat. “...Help me get this on?”

The tentacle perks up then, and Kakyoin lets out a breath and lets Hierophant gently undress and redress him, wrinkling his nose as the salty, dank scent of sweat remains. Was it his pillow again or sheets? Actually, Kakyoin was pretty sure it was hell.

There’s a knock on the door then, and Kakyoin jerks his gaze toward it, Hierophant rearing up to attack, visiting hours were over and the nurses shouldn’t come by again for another hour, so who-

Polnareff opens the door with a soft creak and Kakyoin nearly chokes, Hierophant immediately dissipating.

Polnareff blinks at the dirty gown on the floor beside Kakyoin’s cot, before looking up at him. “Oh.” He lifts his hand, which has a fresh gown. “I was going to get you a new one for the night, but I see you’ve got that figured out.”

Kakyoin isn’t sure how to respond to that for a long beat, but as the silence stretches on, Kakyoin can feel the salt from his sweat digging into his skin like grit and rocks, leaving him soaked and dirty just like on that water tower, and he hurts the same too-

“Leave it,” Kakyoin gasps, voice crackly like foil. “I’ll need it eventually. Just better to have it ready.”

Polnareff hesitates, but he steps in, placing the spare gown on one chair, taking the other closest to Kakyoin for himself.

Kakyoin resolutely stares at the floor.

“Visit-”

“How-”

Both abruptly stop, staring at one another. Polnareff gestures for Kakyoin to speak and Kakyoin shivers, hunching his shoulders underneath his blanket. “Visiting hours are over?” he croaks.

Polnareff swallows, shifting in his seat. “I know. But- Mr. Joestar pulled some strings. I just-” he clears his throat. “I heard about your gowns'' -Kakyoin flushes, thinks, Who is talking about me sweating out the hospital’s damn supply of clothes- “and I- I just wanted…to see you.”

Kakyoin feels his mouth go dry. Phantom warmth engulfs him, his skin tingling where Polnareff held him up as his system shut down from his overdose. He nods, not even having the moisture in his mouth to hum a response. It’s quiet for several beats.

“...So, how are you doing?” Polnareff asks quietly. Kakyoin closes his eyes, face lightly scrunching. He’s so tired of people asking him this. He’s so tired of answering when he’s miserable.

“Sweaty,” he deadpans instead of giving a real answer, and Polnareff has the grace to laugh lightly at the deflection. Kakyoin sighs, sinking into his cot. “...Tired,” he answers a little more honestly, voice quiet. Polnareff sighs, nodding.

“Makes sense,” he says, and Kakyoin doesn’t respond. Polnareff waits a beat, but when he still doesn’t say anything, he says, “So…Howard and Rachel? You make any other friends?”

Kakyoin sucks in a breath harshly, his chest squeezing at the mention of them and friends, and opens his eyes. Despite his casual question, Polnareff’s eyes are sharp, focused, and Kakyoin itches under their blade. “...I’m a private person,” he says instead of answering directly, flashes of his conversation with Avdol blinking in his head.

Polnareff gets his underlying meaning, nodding his head. “Well,” Polnareff says, leaning back in his chair. “Better to have few friends that care, than many that don’t.” Kakyoin squirms, scowling at Polnareff, trying to understand if he’s coming at this from some sort of angle-

But Polnareff isn’t looking at Kakyoin, instead looking at himself, fiddling with his hands in his lap. Kakyoin squints. “...Right.”

Polnareff sighs, shaking his head and smiling up at Kakyoin. “Anyway, you’re still young. You still have the rest of undergrad to make more friends, if you want.”

Kakyoin wrinkles his nose. “No. It’s my last year anyway, so even if I wanted to, it wouldn’t be worth it.”

Polnareff blinks, lips parting a bit. “I- Last year?” he chuckles then, shaking his head. “I- yeah. Fair enough,” he says, and Kakyoin huffs, crossing his arms.

It’s quiet for a few beats, Polnareff struggling with his words, Kakyoin unsure of where Polnareff wants to take this conversation and too tired to really try, his back beginning to act up from his movement of pulling the gown on.

Finally, after a moment, Polnareff leans back in his chair, shaking his head. “God, final year in school. Fuck, you’re so grown up.”

It falls silent again and Kakyoin squirms. He wants to ask why Polnareff never visited until now, even if he’s sure he already knows, and he certainly doesn’t deserve an answer either way. He wants to ask, But even before now, why did Polnareff never visit, never call, why did he never reach out, even if Kakyoin made the same mistake-?

“I…I owe you an apology,” Polnareff says quietly, and Kakyoin jumps, jerking his gaze toward him. “I- shit.”

Polnareff covers his face with a hand, shoulders tense, and Kakyoin swallows. “Pol-”

“I’m sorry I never- I’m sorry I wasn’t there,” Polnareff says, dropping his hand and staring at Kakyoin intensely. Kakyoin seizes like he’s being held by the throat, trying to swallow but unable to. “I- shit. Muha- Avdol-”

“You’re not fooling anyone,” Kakyoin croaks, and Polnareff flushes starkly. He pauses a beat, regathering himself, and Kakyoin can finally swallow.

“Muhammad had a whole new stand agency to deal with and he still made the time to call. There’s no excuse,” Polnareff says softly, and Kakyoin squirms. The coat of pity being brushed on his skin is uncomfortable, sticky.

“I didn’t call either,” Kakyoin mutters darkly. Polnareff shakes his head.

“You were busy, you were in school, you-”

“Well you were clearly busy too,” Kakyoin spits, choking on his own surge of bitterness, and Polnareff grits his teeth.

“Okay, then we’re both assholes!” He says, and Kakyoin blinks, drawn back out from himself, staring at Polnareff. Despite the harsh words, they somehow lift a weight off his chest, and Kakyoin can swallow a little easier. “But that means I’m still an asshole too,” Polnareff finishes, “and- and I’m sorry. I just-” Polnareff sighs, shaking his head. Kakyoin shifts only to wince when his back twinges, vertigo clinging to the front of his brain. He looks up at Kakyoin, locking gazes. “I’m- I’m really sorry, Noriaki.”

The use of his given name wisps the breath out of Kakyoin’s lungs, his throat hiccupping in the sudden absence of air, and he feels the need to cough as a result but he fights it down, staring at Polnareff with wide eyes. “Pol-”

“I meant it,” Polnareff continues quietly, “when I called you my brother. Do you remember that?”

Kakyoin does. The spit in his mouth drains away, leaving his tongue chalky and dusty, and Kakyoin feels vaguely ill, like he’s about to throw up. “From the- the 999 call?”

Polnareff nods. “I meant it. I know I haven’t been acting like it, I just…” he sighs. “I don’t even remember the last time I had a job before all this, so I had a lot to learn about having one again, plus American customs because the Speedwagon Foundation is based there, and traveling and researching- ugh.” he pauses for a beat. “Field reports are hell,” he jokes softly, and Kakyoin does chuckle genuinely, if breathlessly.

“Don’t I know it,” Kakyoin murmurs, “All of anthropology is just record after record.”

Polnareff smirks. “You like it, though. You nerd.”

Kakyoin scoffs. “I can just do it better is all.”

Polnareff smiles, but the edge to it reminds Kakyoin of where they are. “Yeah. Yeah, you can. You’re a smart kid.”

It falls silent then, the continually darkening sky lavishing the room in navy blue. Polnareff’s blue eyes catch the light and shine back out like water, reflective and bright, and it hurts Kakyoin to look at, the backs of his own eyes burning.

I missed you.

He opens his mouth to speak, but his spine surges and he gasps, lurching forward, and Polnareff scrambles to his feet, alarmed.

“Kakyoin-?!”

“It’s- fine,” Kakyoin pants, fighting back the urge to whimper. “It’s-

“It’s not fine! Do I need to call a nurse-?”

“No!” Kakyoin shouts only to wince and whine when the expansion of his diaphragm sparks his spine, spiders of sensation crawling up and down his nervous system, sweat clinging to his skin- “It’s just the- withdrawal,” Kakyoin whimpers, wrapping his blanket tighter around him as his trembling increases.

Polnareff stares down at him, brows pinched. “But- the doctors-”

“There’s nothing they can do,” Kakyoin says, voice wavering with misery, “my body just needs to- to make its own shit instead of relying on medicine. It’s part of the- the detox.” Kakyoin’s teeth are chattering and he’s honestly not sure if he’s cold or not.

“But- there’s nothing?” Polnareff asks, frowning tightly.

“Nothing,” Kakyoin spits, “I just have to adjus- Polnareff?!”

Polnareff throws off his jacket, slips off his shoes, and then promptly slides into the cot next to Kakyoin. Kakyoin is certain they won’t fit, but he’s gotten so skinny – how did that even happen? – that it isn’t as tight of a squeeze as he was expecting. When Polnareff pulls him flush against his side, he can’t help but shudder, the warmth appreciated even if he can’t stop sweating, even if he must be highly uncomfortable to lie against with his bony limbs.

“What the hell are you doing?!”

“You’re gonna get a muscle cramp if you keep tensing like that,” Polnareff snaps, “warming you up will help you relax. Just deal with it. For me, okay? I’m sick of not doing anything.”

How do you think I feel? Kakyoin retorts but doesn’t say, because Polnareff wraps an arm around him and he catches a whiff of his deodorant or cologne – Kakyoin never actually learned what it was – and it’s the same kind he used on the Egypt trip, and his vision blurs. He slumps into Polnareff’s hold, and Polnareff lets out a sigh. Despite him inevitably smelling like sweat, Polnareff still nudges a little closer, and Kakyoin closes his eyes, curling into Polnareff’s side the best his throbbing spine will let him.

“Thank you,” Polnareff sighs, and Kakyoin opens his eyes again, narrowed. Polnareff isn’t looking at him though, instead gazing at the darkening twilight outside.

Kakyoin shifts slightly and says nothing.

Neither of them speak for a while, the room slowly growing darker as Kakyoin relaxes more and more into Polnareff’s side. He’s starting to feel a little like soup, and despite his body constantly sweating, he feels comfortably warm. If only he could stop sweating…

Still, Kakyoin finds he was dozing, only to startle out of it as Polnareff speaks again.

“Have you…thought about what’s coming after?”

Kakyoin blinks his heavy eyelids, intending to raise his head to look Polnareff in the face, but his neck refuses to work, and he finds he doesn’t care. “...Wha’ d’you mean?” Kakyoin mumbles.

Polnareff sighs. “I know you’re getting out soon. And I also know others have talked to you about…rehab-”

The flush of ice that floods his system jerks him awake again, Kakyoin snapping up only to hiss as his spine shrieks at him for the movement, leaving him to fall limply back against Polnareff’s side. His heart beats in his chest like a hummingbird’s wings, frantic and fluttery.

“Sorry, sorry,” Polnareff murmurs, and Kakyoin can’t help but feel like he’s being treated like a wild animal. “I didn’t mean to freak you out.”

“Shut up,” Kakyoin snaps, before his mind catches up to his tongue and he flinches, falling lax again. “I’m sorry. I don’t-” Kakyoin pauses, heaving out a shuddery breath, his ribs falling flat as he empties his lungs. He remembers he doesn’t have his stomach in there anymore, that it’s not just his lungs that are empty, and he licks his dry lips, shifting uncomfortably. “I don’t know what to do,” Kakyoin admits quietly.

Polnareff hums encouragingly and Kakyoin grits his teeth, squeezes his eyes shut, but Polnareff squeezes him, and Kakyoin remembers he’s not supposed to tense up, and he deflates.

“I don’t know what to do,” Kakyoin says again, voice strained, “people keep telling me to go to r-” he grimaces, “rehab, but I-”

“What about it scares y-”

“I’m not scared!” Kakyoin snaps, and Polnareff pauses. Kakyoin swallows thickly. “I’m not scared.”

“What about it is turning you off, then?” Polnareff amends.

Kakyoin squirms. “I don’t know,” his voice breaks, and it’s mortifying, but Polnareff has already seen him covered in vomit and sweat and tears and snot and-

…blood.

“Polnareff,” Kakyoin says quietly, “who took my body down?”

Polnareff jerks then, rearing his head back to look at Kakyoin with furrowed brows. “What?”

“From- '' he swallows thickly, “the water tower. In Egypt. Who- who took-”

“Jesus, Kakyoin, where the hell is this coming from?” Polnareff asks, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“Just answer! I want to know. I don’t- I don’t remember.”

Polnareff shuffles backward just enough to look Kakyoin in the eye. Kakyoin stares him down, brows pinched, breathing shallowly but softly.

Polnareff’s gaze rolls over his face, making Kakyoin’s hair prickle on end, but he finally looks down and says softly, “Jotaro.”

Kakyoin twitches, his stomach dropping, solid and cold right against his gut. “Right. Right. Right. Of course it was.”

“Kakyoin, what does this have to do wi-?”

“I don’t want anyone else to look down on me,” Kakyoin admits in a hushed whisper. “Rehab feels like- like admitting-” his voice gives out.

Polnareff’s gaze scans his face again. “Kakyoin, who told you they look down on you?”

Kakyoin furiously raises a hand, swiping at his face as the backs of his eyes burn. “Jo-” his voice cracks. “Kujo-” his voice breaks, and Kakyoin stops talking.

Polnareff blinks. “Wh-”

“When- at the- hotel,” the words are spilling out and Kakyoin has no idea why, some desperate surge right in the center of his chest barreling forward, forcing him to trail along like a sad white flag, “I woke up because the phone rang and it was- it was- him,” he strangles out, and Polnareff’s eyes widen.

“And he-”

“He refused to talk to me,” Kakyoin continues miserably, and Polnareff relaxes incrementally. “And I- I am so sick of him avoiding me so I asked why, and he said- he said-”

Think what you need to. Just don’t call me ever again.

What else could that mean?

"So that's why the phone was in the bathroom," Polnareff murmurs, and Kakyoin grunts an affirmation.

“I asked him if he looks down on me,” Kakyoin blinks, and suddenly wetness traces down his cheek, and he realizes with a mortifying flash of embarrassment he’s crying, “and he-”

And is he wrong? Look at the show I’m putting on, acting like some sort of heartbroken, lovesick teenager-

Kakyoin lets out a sob. Polnareff quickly pulls him into his arms and Kakyoin hates himself for yearning for the touch, anything to make it stop, to force him to think of anything other than the black damn hole in his chest, hadn’t he already lost enough organs?

“Kakyoin,” Polnareff says, but Kakyoin just shakes his head, fingers digging into Polnareff’s shirt. “Kakyon,” Polnareff repeats, “Did you- was the overdose because of J-”

“No,” Kakyoin strangles out, and he can feel Polnareff relax a little. “It wasn’t because of him, I just- I just-” Kakyoin lets out a soft keen. “It didn’t help. It didn’t help at all.”

“Kakyoin…”

“And now it- it feels like anything I do will just- just admit he’s right,” Kakyoin cries, shaking, Polnareff’s attempted soothes going unheard. “So I don’t know what to do, because I don’t- I don’t-” Is he wrong? Is he wrong? Is he wrong?

“I-” Kakyoin hiccups, “I wish- I wish I had just died. Back in E-Egypt. At least then he would have to- to admit I did everything I could-”

“DON’T FUCKING SAY THAT!” Polnareff roars, making Kakyoin flinch and go quiet, staring up at him with wide eyes. “Don’t you fucking dare say that, Noriaki.”

Kakyoin full-body flinches. “But-”

“No ‘but’s!” Polnareff snaps harshly, gripping Kakyoin’s shoulders tightly. “Christ, is that how you really feel? How many times am I going to have to see you in a hospital bed over this? How many times are you going to make me sit here and wonder if this is the time you'll really die? Is it only Jotaro’s feelings that matter? Huh?”

Kakyoin feels like he can't speak, can't even breathe, staring at Polnareff with his jaw hanging open. “N-”

“What about mine? Huh? Avdol’s? Joseph’s? What about your friends’? Huh? Your parents’?” Kakyoin gaps like a fish, feeling like he’s been punched in the chest, gasping for breath, his ribs aching. “What about your own?”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth. “Huh?” he croaks, twitching when he feels another tear slip down the side of his cheek.

“Do you think less of yourself, Noriaki?” Polnareff demands, and Kakyoin twitches, the use of his name tightening the back of his neck. He opens his lips to respond, pauses, and closes his mouth again, his head swimming. He’s sweating again, badly, so badly he’ll need that new gown once this is all over, whatever this is. He’s shaking and he can’t really grab onto anything between the quaking and his sweat. He drags his gaze up to meet Polnareff’s, lips trembling.

“I don’t- I don’t know,” he admits quietly. “I don’t know.”

Polnareff’s face falls then, but Kakyoin continues.

“Not- not because of Jot- of Kujo, or DIO,” he rasps, and both of them shudder, “but because- because- look at me,” he spits, his voice strangled, “I’m- I’m- I’m such a fucking mess, I’m- I’m-”

“But you’re alive,” Polnareff breathes, “you won. You won and DIO lost.”

Kakyoin blinks, the blood rushing past his ears slowing.

Polnareff chuckles breathlessly. “I mean, Noriaki, we’re all messes. I was a mess when you met me. Something tells me you were, too.” Kakyoin’s gaze flickers down, and he’s again reminded of his conversation with Avdol, about childhood and stands and how he dealt with it. “So what’s really changed? You used to be proud of yourself before. Why should that change now?”

Kakyoin sniffles, cries bubbling back up in his chest. “I- I just-” Kakyoin goes quiet. “I wanted Jo- I-” he grits his teeth, clawing at his blanket, and Polnareff lets him for a few breaths before covering his hands and pulling them away before he tears the threads. “I wanted- I wanted you all to be proud of me too,” Kakyoin admits in a whisper.

Polnareff is quiet for a few moments, moving his hands from Kakyoin’s to cup his back, pulling him close to him. Kakyoin lets him, feeling limp and wet and pathetic, tears still occasionally seeping out of his eyes and down his cheeks. He’s sick of this bed.

Polnareff inhales then, and Kakyoin raises his eyes up to him.

“But we are proud of you,” Polnareff says softly. Kakyoin’s lips curl, ready to bite back a retort about pity when Polnareff continues with, “So Jotaro isn’t. Fuck him.” Kakyoin blinks, the breath whooshing out of his lungs. “But I am. And I know Avdol and Joseph are. I know- hell, I know your parents are. I don’t know your friends well, but I can’t see why they wouldn’t be either. You’re on the Dean’s List, you survived intense surgeries and physical therapy, I- shit, Kakyoin, you saved our lives,” Polnareff says, and Kakyoin’s throat swells. “You figured out DIO’s stand. You’ve saved my life more than once. You-” Polnareff’s voice breaks then, but he pushes on. “You helped me avenge my sister. You think I can just forget that just because, what, you’re struggling? You’re in your 20s, you idiot, you’re supposed to struggle right now.”

Kakyoin blinks, lips parting, but he doesn’t have the breath to comment.

Polnareff shakes his head. “We are proud of you. And you’re proud of yourself, aren’t you? When did it begin to matter what other people thou-”

“When I met you, and Avdol, and Joseph, and J-” Kakyoin’s voice breaks, “and Kujo, and suddenly other people understood, and I- I-” Kakyoin swallows thickly. “You all- knowing you all- you made me want to be better. Not just soothe my pride but- but get better. So when at the end I lost- I lost-” Kakyoin’s lip curls then, fury whipping up a wildfire in his guts. “So when at the end, after fucking everything I did to try and- and do that, he- he shuts me down, it- it hurts, ” Kakyoin spits, face screwed up in anger, unshed tears lining his lower eyelid, “it hurts. Was the sight of me in that water tower that pitiful? Was it because I couldn’t stand up to DIO beyond understanding his stand?”

“Kakyoin…”

“It hurts,” Kakyoin repeats, eyes narrowed, “it hurts and I feel like a child and it’s all his fault.” He goes quiet then, taking a shuddering breath. “You’re the first people that mattered. So I- I don’t know what to do, now that I know I- now that I’ve lost one of you.”

Polnareff is quiet for several moments, simply holding Kakyoin. Even if he doesn’t speak again, Kakyoin figures he’d be okay like this, sharing body heat and space like siblings, like brothers, the most comfortable he’s felt in days – which isn’t saying a lot, but it’s still something.

But Polnareff does speak, then.

“You said,” Polnareff says softly, “on the journey, that you- that you didn’t want any regrets. You said you wanted to be- brave. Is that still true?”

Kakyoin blinks. He absently notes his tears have finally dried. He raises his head to look up at Polnareff, brows furrowed.

“It’s a goal that’s always worthwhile,” Polnareff says softly. “If you don’t know what to do…maybe that can help guide you.”

Kakyoin blinks his sore eyes before reaching up and rubbing them, wiping away the remaining wet. “...What if it doesn’t guide me to rehab?” he croaks.

Polnareff chuckles sadly. “I don’t care if you go to rehab, Kakyoin. I just want” – his breath catches – “I just want you to get better.”

Kakyoin stares hard and long at Polnareff’s chin – it’s sharp and pointed, similar to his own, but it leads to a shorter neck from a wider face than his own. Kakyoin swallows and looks up. Polnareff’s eyes are icy in the darkness, but he smiles softly at Kakyoin, the edges of his eyes crinkling just a little, and Kakyoin closes his eyes and slumps into his arms.

“Okay,” he croaks, “okay.”

Polnareff laughs, and Kakyoin politely ignores how wet it is. “Okay.”

They remain there for several heartbeats, Kakyoin’s eyelids growing heavier. Polnareff doesn’t make a move to leave, but Kakyoin feels the need to ask anyway, “Can you…” Can you stay?

“Hm?”

Kakyoin lets out a sigh. “Can you…help me get that gown you brought on? This one’s soaked…and my- damned spine…”

Polnareff nods easily. “‘Course. Of course.”

He gets up then, Kakyoin’s skin freezing in his absence, but it isn’t for long. Polnareff grabs the gown from where he left it on the chair, brings it over, and places it at the foot of Kakyoin’s cot. He helps Kakyoin raise his arms shakily, slipping the gown up and over his head, letting the new one pool down to rest against his shoulders easily. Kakyoin blinks. Right. He’s an older brother. I wonder if he’s done this before? Was Sherry ever sick like this?

Polnareff chucks the old gown in the bin by the door before crawling back onto the cot with him. He pats Kakyoin on the back and Kakyoin lets out a breath, his lips just gracing into a smile.

“Get some sleep, Kakyoin,” Polnareff says quietly, “I’ll be here. Rest up so you can stand on your own two feet again soon, okay?”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “Okay.”

Okay.


June 5th, 1995

London, England

“Are you sure about this?” Joseph asks.

Kakyoin sighs, biting back a snarky retort, even if this is the nth time he’s been asked this. “I chose it myself, didn’t I?”

Joseph hums, brows creased. “Yes… But, it starts so soon, you’ll deal with finals just to miss your graduation. Are you really sure you’re okay with that?”

Kakyoin sighs, ignoring the twist in his guts. “Of course I’m not- happy about it. But it wouldn’t be the first graduation I miss” –Joseph flinches then and Kakyoin deigns not to comment– “and I would’ve left early anyway because of…” Kakyoin lets out a long sigh then, and gestures to his legs. Joseph hums again, nodding, face still creased but seeming more confident. Not to mention I was reliant on those painkillers for so long…

“I suppose…”

Kakyoin sighs, unable to bite back the irritated edge in his voice. “I thought everyone wanted me to go to rehab?”

Joseph shifts, his chair creaking. “Your doctors do, but- I just want you to get…better” he says, “but…it’s over two months. I guess I’m just…worried about it, since you were so against it at first.”

It’s Kakyoin’s turn to flinch then, but Joseph repays the favor and doesn’t mention it. “I just needed to think about it. I was going through detox, give me a break…”

Joseph puts up his hands in surrender, but the tension in his shoulders eases, and Kakyoin lets out a breath. “Alright, alright.” He’s quiet then, before he asks quietly, “Have you told your parents?”

Kakyoin lets out a long sigh, slumping against his cot. “...Yeah…” he says noncommittally. He did tell his parents he was going to rehab to work on needing his painkillers less, but not that the reason for it was he had overdosed and otherwise abused them. He’d spun it to be more like an extension of his physical therapy, and while they sounded sad, they accepted it without question and said they’d meet him when he was done for a late graduation celebration.

Good enough for Kakyoin. What they don’t know won’t hurt them. He thinks of his mothers cries and his father’s shaking when he first woke up after Egypt, and grimaces.

Joseph hums, nodding and not pressing him. Kakyoin purses his lips. “Anyway…”

Joseph stands slowly then, his knees cracking. He grunts while Kakyoin winces in secondhand pain. “Anyway,” Joseph echoes when he stands upright fully, “I’ll go talk to the doctors about your discharge papers, you should be out by the end of the day. Check-in at your facility isn’t until tomorrow, so I was…I was thinking, you, Polnareff, Avdol, and I can hunker down in Polnareff’s hotel room together, just like old times?”

Kakyoin’s chest hiccups like he’s forgotten how to breathe, his ribs tight across his lungs like they were more constraints than protection, and Kakyoin blinks rapidly as the backs of his eyes burn. “Really?” his voice cracks, and he quickly clears his throat, coughing lightly. “I- okay. Alright.”

Joseph pats his shoulder, which makes Kakyoin grit his teeth, but he says nothing. He turns then and heads out his hospital door to talk with his doctors.

Kakyoin sighs, slumping back against his pillow. He runs a hand through his hair, letting out a soft sigh when for the first time in weeks, it’s not accompanied with a twinge of pain or the stickiness of sweat. After letting his system empty itself all out and recuperate, he was finally let back on a low dose of his painkillers, and the difference was night and day. Kakyoin almost couldn’t believe he used to take three times this much daily, when just this much felt…divine.

He shakes his head, grimacing at the thoughts. He opens his eyes and glances at the clock on the wall.

10:30 A.M.

Kakyoin swallows thickly, dragging his gaze down. They should be here soon, then…

Or at least, he’ll be here soon.

Howard had promised he’d come, when Kakyoin called him and asked to talk, and that he’d ask Rachel to as well, but he made it clear it was ultimately up to her if she came or not, which is really what Kakyoin wanted, anyway. He knows he probably doesn’t deserve to see her one more time, to bid a proper goodbye, but, well… He wanted to try.

You said, on the journey, that you didn’t want any regrets. Is that still true?

Kakyoin swallows as Polnareff’s voice rings in his head. That’s right. No regrets. That’s what he wanted when he was 17 – a life with no regrets. How did he forget that?

He sighs, scrubbing a hand across his face, shaking his head.

All he could do at this point was push forward. The same was true for Rachel. If that meant never seeing him again, well…

How can I move on with no regrets if my starting point has a regret?

Kakyoin licks his lips and sighs. Probably start on the regrets I can actually do something about then.

Like the heroin.

Kakyoin buries his face in his hands again, only to jump and drop them when the door opens with a soft squeak.

He looks over to see Howard – just Howard. His heart drops to his stomach, cementing into stone, but he smiles anyway, and finds it’s not a complete lie. “Hey.”

Howard nods at him, stepping inside and closing the door behind him. He looks like he’s been eating more – his shoulders are filling out his shirt in a way Kakyoin has never seen, his belt a couple notches down, his jawline less sharp, and Kakyoin comes to the realization he looks…good. Healthier than he’s ever been since he met him. “So, you’re getting released soon?”

Howard’s voice makes Kakyoin jump, refocusing. “Ah- yeah. Today, actually.”

Howard smiles then, and Kakyoin lets out a breath. “Congrats, dude. I’m sure you’re sick of this place.”

Kakyoin scoffs then, expression darkening. “You have no fucking idea.”

Howard barks out a laugh at his use of language, which Kakyoin echoes with a chuckle. When they both die down, Howard clears his throat, expression slipping into something a little more serious. “Um…I did, ask her, but…” he winces. “Well, she didn’t respond technically, but she did pour herself a shot and didn’t meet me for the bus here, so, um. I think that speaks for itself.”

Kakyoin winces before he shakes his head even as the breath slips from his lungs. “No, I-” he sighs, falling still. “...I kinda figured she wouldn’t want to,” he murmurs. He remembers Howard’s words, then: Rachel never forgave me, after all. She’s not gonna forgive you, either. “But I figured I- had to try.”

Howard hums. “...Yeah. Yeah.”

They sit in silence for a moment, both absorbed in their thoughts, before Kakyoin clears his throat and Howard looks up.

“Um. I just- wanted to say, and maybe you can tell Rachel if you want later, but-”

There’s a sudden pounding of footsteps then, and Kakyoin and Howard both jerk their gazes to the door as they get closer. It’s becoming apparent that the person is definitely headed to this room, their footsteps increasing in volume quickly, and Hierophant is summoned, reaching to push Howard out of the way, enemy, when the door opens-

“WHOA-” Howard yelps as he’s pushed aside, but Kakyoin just gapes.

Standing in the doorway, catching her breath raggedly, is Rachel, strands of her brown hair clinging to the sides of her face with sweat. Her hair is cut now, Kakyoin notices blearily, into a bob.

Rachel clears her throat loudly, still breathing heavily as she does, before she straightens a little, pulling her hair back from her face. “Um. Hi.”

“Rachel?” Howard gapes, and Rachel flushes a little then, gaze skirting to the floor. Kakyoin’s chest squeezes.

“I- god.” She steps in enough to let the door behind her close before she leans her shoulder against it, looking fairly out of her depth. Hierophant manifests and slinks to the sink in his room, sneakily filling up a cup of water. “I, uh. Sorry for being late.”

It strikes Kakyoin with a sharp reminder of how they first met, and pressure builds behind his eyes, but he ignores it, takes the cup from Hierophant, and offers it to her. “Ah, here,”

Rachel blinks before awkwardly taking the cup. “...Thanks,” she says as an afterthought, cringing, and everyone falls silent. She takes a sip of the water, gaze focused on the floor.

The quiet stretches on for a moment, Kakyoin feeling it mount on top of his shoulders, and he’s about to open his mouth to say something when Howard pipes up.

“Um, I didn’t realize you were coming?”

Rachel sighs then, raising her head, and Kakyoin gestures to the other chair near his cot. She hesitates for a long moment, staring at the chair warily, before she steps closer and sits down. 

After she’s settled, she looks at Howard, shrugging awkwardly. “I, uh. Yeah. My bad.” She shakes her head, swallowing another gulp of water, before elaborating, “I had to- I wasn’t…going to.” She glances at Kakyoin, but she moves her gaze back to Howard before Kakyoin can say anything. “But, um, I woke up, and I just… Well, it seemed important. But I missed the bus to the hospital, so I had to run.”

Howard and Kakyoin both gape. “You- you ran all the way to the hospital?” Howard asks dumbly, and Rachel chuckles a little.

“Next bus wasn’t gonna come for 40 minutes, so I just- I-” she sighs, glancing at Kakyoin again. “...It sounded important.”

Kakyoin’s throat dries and he swallows, gaze dropping from her’s.

After a beat, it’s apparent Rachel is done, and Howard speaks up again.

“Well, um, you’re just in time,” he says lighthearted, “Kakyoin hadn’t really got to talking yet.”

Rachel relaxes a little then, looking back at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin’s lips part but no words fall out of his mouth for a second. His heart isn’t racing, but his blood is rushing like it is, and he feels altogether too warm and too cold at the same time.

“I- I’m sorry,” tumbles out of his mouth, and both Howard and Rachel focus on him. Kakyoin blinks, trying to regain control of himself and get his words in order before they leave his mouth. “I’m-”

Kakyoin sighs, takes a deep breath, before straightening his shoulders and raising his chin. With Rachel and Howard both sitting near his feet, he can keep both of them in sight. He swallows thickly and starts again.

“I owe both of you an apology,” he says, and Rachel and Howard exchange glances. Howard opens his mouth to speak but Kakyoin puts up a hand, prompting his silence. “Just- let me get this out first,” he asks, and Howard presses his lips together before nodding.

Kakyoin sighs, leaning back a bit. “I…” the admission brings about a shameful eruption in his chest, thick lava swallowing his inside whole in a manner that is almost painful, and Kakyoin winces but forces himself through it. “I’ve treated you both so- disingenuously. Like you don’t really count. Despite everything” -he glances at Howard- “you’ve done for me” -he glances at Rachel- “with the food, and just- being-” his voice cracks then but he simply clears it and moves on, even when Rachel drops her gaze and Howard’s brows pinch, “my friends.”

He swallows and angles his head toward Rachel, but isn’t quite able to meet her gaze from shame. “You were…right, that I’m…” Kakyoin sighs. “That I was- mourning, something.” He hesitates, before admitting quietly, “Someone.” He clears his throat before continuing. “And I was- stuck on it to the point I couldn’t recognize the things – and people – in my life that were actually there.” His lips curl into a tight frown. How fucking embarrassing. He really let himself get into such a state?

Never again. Never again. Not for fucking Jotaro.

“And I…I discarded you two because of it. So I’m sorry. I’m-” his voice doesn’t quite break, but it wavers, and Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut. “I’m sorry.”

“Kakyoin…” Howard starts, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“I- I’m not done,” he says, and Howard quiets again. Kakyoin takes a deep breath, glancing up at Rachel, who’s staring very, very intensely at his hand, but not his face. He continues. “I…but, I’m- better. I’m gonna keep getting better. And I just wanted you two to know that, I did- I do see what you did for me,” he says quietly.

Rachel finally looks up at him, but now Kakyoin is the one who can’t meet her gaze, staring down at his blanket instead. “The food, the- conversation, the companionship” -the caring about him, Kakyoin realizes now- “I see it all. And I just…thank you,” Kakyoin says quietly. “Thank you for” –he grits his teeth then, shame riding up the back of his spine, clutching the back of his neck, but he pushes on– “being my…friends.”

“Kakyoin…”

Kakyoin shakes his head roughly. “And-” he looks up again, and they all meet each other’s eyes then, for the first time since this conversation started, and Kakyoin feels his heart in his throat. It feels like the first time he’s really seeing either of them as who they are, really understanding Howard’s monochrome, Rachel’s earth, and really understanding there is no water here.

He will not drown here.

“And I- I- I want you two to know…I’ve heard you,” he says, voice creaking and withering like an old wooden house, like a house that was never made to last anyway, facing its last storm. “I’m, uh. I’m gonna go to rehab…” he mumbles.

“Kakyoin-!”

Rachel shuts herself, but her gasp makes Kakyoin shudder.

He’s quiet for a beat, and it prompts Howard. “I- are you sure, man?”

He doesn’t mean to, of course, but he sounds like Joseph, and the flash of irritation relaxes Kakyoin enough to make him straight again, rubbing a hand across his face as he stares at them both. “Of course I’m sure,” he says, pausing to correct his tone that’s nearing too close to edged. “Of course I’m sure,” he repeats, a little softer. “I- damn, I don’t want this hanging over me, and-” he shudders, the shame pressing down on him again, but he looks up at Howard despite it. “And…I thought a lot about what you said. How you just- just wanted some sort of insurance that I’d get better,”

Rachel and Howard exchange glances, but Kakyoin doesn’t try to dissect what they might be communicating. It’s undoubtedly related to their past, and therefore undoubtedly unrelated to him.

He continues. “I…I want to get better.” He takes a deep breath and looks up. “I- I want you two to get better, too.”

Both stare at him for a few heartbeats, and Kakyoin croaks out, “Done.”

“Kakyoin,” Howard breathes, “I- shit, dude, I’m glad. Do you know what program?”

Kakyoin shrugs. “It’s- a long one. It’s gonna be 12 weeks. But…it’s for people- in similar situations.” Opioid abuse when you’ve been prescribed them. Hell of a fine line you gotta walk to not fall into addiction.

In a weird way, Kakyoin was just glad he wasn’t the only one who fucked up like this.

Howard nods. “My program isn’t as long as that, but it’s still pretty long too. Nine weeks.”

Kakyoin smiles then. “Well, we’re both missing graduation either way.”

Howard laughs softly. “I did all my graduation celebration already, that’s how I’m…kinda looking at it.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Huh. Yeah, that’s a good way to look at it…”

Howard claps him on the knee then and Kakyoin jumps.

“Ah- sorry! Did that hur-?”

“No,” Kakyoin dismisses, “Just- uh, wasn’t expecting it.”

Howard pats him again, lighter this time. “Sorry. Just,” he smiles then, “happy for you man. ‘M happy for me too.” He leans back in his seat, and it’s the first time Kakyoin thinks he’s seen him relaxed without a cigarette in hand.

Kakyoin smiles softly at him, a small swell of fondness unfolding in his chest and soaking into his tissues. He turns to Rachel then and swallows thickly.

She’s staring intensely at him like he’s some sort of test. Her eyebags are doing a little better, Kakyoin thinks, and she’s regained some weight, same as Howard.

“Kakyoin,” she breathes, and Kakyoin has the urge to flinch, but doesn’t actually. “I’m- I’m sorry if I- if I pressur-”

“You didn’t,” Kakyoin says with finality, and it makes her go quiet. Howard’s chair creaks as he straightens. “It’s…” Kakyoin sighs. “You didn’t,” he repeats. “I wouldn’t have chosen to go to a 12 week program if, well, it wasn’t my choice, right?”

Rachel hums, nodding hesitantly.

“Besides,” Kakyoin says, “you, um. You have nothing you need to apologize for, to me…”

Rachel shifts uncomfortably, lips pursing. “...I’m sorry for slapping you,” she says then, and it’s half out of contrary to his statement, half genuine, and Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle softly.

“I- okay. I forgive you,” he says easily, and Rachel shudders.

“Kakyoin,” she says, locking their gazes, brows pinched, and Kakyoin swallows. “I- I-” her voice gives out, and Kakyoin frowns, but she finally whispers, “I can’t forgive you,”

Kakyoin’s hand drops, but he has the grace not to flinch. In his periphery, he can see Howard wince. “Rach-”

“But I want to, but I can’t, and I-” Rachel whimpers and hides her face in her hands. Howard stands up then, dragging his chair to Rachel’s side of the cot, bumping their shoulders, and Rachel lets out a soft cry. Kakyoin’s mouth feels dry.

“Rache-”

“I really appreciate it,” she says, dropping her hands, looking up at Kakyoin with red-rimmed eyes, “but I can’t accept it, but- I’m so glad you’re- you’re- serious about getting help, but I-”

“Rachel,” Kakyoin stresses, and Rachel whimpers. He grabs her hands then, keeping her from hiding her face, and she stares at him with wide eyes, breathing shakily. “I-” he pauses before taking a breath. “I’m, honestly, just glad you heard me out. I wasn’t- wasn’t expecting you to even show, for a while,”

Rachel winces, and he squeezes her hands, forcing her to focus on him. She does, swallowing thickly.

“Rachel,” Kakyoin breathes, fighting past the pressure building in the backs of his own eyes, “Do you remember what you said to me?”

Rachel’s lower lip trembles. “Wh-what?”

Kakyoin swallows thickly and presses on. “You said, you hoped I got better. And I am.”

Rachel nods minutely, and Kakyoin squeezes her hands again.

“And you said, you had to get better, too. So that’s what happens next,” he says softly.

Rachel’s face scrunches up then, tears lining her lower lids. “Kakyoin-”

“And you said, to get better, you couldn’t-” Kakyoin’s voice nearly breaks, but he catches it. “You couldn’t be in this situation anymore.”

Rachel lets out a hiccupy sort of cry then, and Kakyoin has to squeeze her hands once more to keep her focused on him. Howard is rubbing her shoulders, letting Kakyoin do his thing, and when Kakyoin glances at him, he’s focused with grim determination on his childhood friend, and Kakyoin has a sudden thought that they remind him of himself and Hierophant.

“I want-” Kakyoin swallows thickly. “I want to get better,” he echoes her words now, and Rachel stares at him as her tears finally leak and slip down her cheeks. “And I want you to get better, too. And to do that, you-” Kakyoin swallows, his heart tangled up in twine, biting into the muscle, cutting off circulation, “-you have to free yourself from this situation.

“Rachel,” Kakyoin continues softly, and Rachel weeps, her breath hiccuping, “I don’t- I don’t want you to forgive me,” he says, and it’s only slightly a lie, “I just want you to- be happy. I want you to do, or not do, whatever you need to get there.”

He squeezes her hands one last time. Rachel stares at him, trembling in Howard’s arms as tears continuously ride over the edge of her lower eyelid and fall down her cheeks, before she lets out a loud exhale and lunges forward, wrapping her arms around Kakyoin, forcing all three of them into a sort of group hug.

“Kakyoin Noriaki, you’re such a fucking asshole,” Rachel cries into his hospital gown – Kakyoin has the vague thought that he’s a little glad he hadn’t changed into his street clothes yet. “You don’t get to- you don’t get to- say all that-”

Kakyoin exchanges glances with Howard then, before Howard adjusts his grip to wrap his arms around both Rachel and Kakyoin, and Kakyoin hides his burning eyes into Rachel’s hair and wraps his arms around them both, too.

“We’ll get better,” Rachel cries, her voice breathy and high pitched, and Kakyoin isn’t sure if she’s promising or begging or praying, but he figures it doesn’t really matter. “We’ll- we’ll-”

Howard and Kakyoin both squeeze at the same time and Rachel just whimpers, echoing it, shifting to wrap her arms around them both, too. “We’ll get better,” Kakyoin confirms with a raspy voice.

Rachel cries, tightens her grip on them both, and Kakyoin closes his eyes and feels his stomach settle for the first time in a long time.


“You all set to go, Kakyoin?” Joseph asks.

Hours later, his eyes dry but sore, Kakyoin adjusts the flap of his cardigan so that it’s no longer pinned against his wheel and nods. “Have been,” he jokes wryly.

Joseph laughs a little, and doesn’t even slow down as Kakyoin rolls after him to the elevator, which Kakyoin notes with a small blooming of warmth in his chest.

“Avdol and Polnareff are already at the hotel,” Joseph says as he thumbs for the first floor and the elevator moves down. Kakyoin grunts, nodding. “Did you, er, have any place you wanted to eat at for dinner in particular?”

Kakyoin thinks of all the food he tried with Rachel and Howard and his chest aches. After crying everything out, the three of them had simply sat with each other for a while before Kakyoin asked Rachel what she was going to do herself, considering she had already graduated.

She had said she was going to go to grad school in the fall, a program in Mexico for an anthropology project of the Nahuas peoples and their current cultural predicaments in a post-colonial country. She was excited as she had explained, and if Kakyoin was still a little stiff then, then that finally eased him fully.

Howard mentions, after rehab, looking to work for Rachel’s mom at the pub, since she won’t have Rachel anymore, and Rachel stares at him with wide eyes before hugging him again, tightly.

When they asked Kakyoin, he had a grim realization that he hadn’t thought that far yet; he knew he wanted grad school eventually, but he had gotten focused on other things instead of filling out applications or studying programs. If he was the same person he was when he was 16, he’d know where he’d want to go, at least, but his stomach still turns at the thought of Cairo, so…

He had been honest and said he didn’t know; he’d explore some more, with his head clear this time. And Kakyoin supposes that was true, but he needed to get a more solid plan together.

Afterward, Howard and Rachel had hesitated but said goodbye. Kakyoin returned it. They all hugged one more time.

Kakyoin doesn’t think he’ll ever see them again.

Something bittersweet twists in his chest, squirming up to his throat. Kakyoin ignores it.

“Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin blinks, turning back to the conversation he was having. He glances at Joseph, who’s leaning against the railing of the elevator, staring at Kakyoin calmly. Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“Um. There’s this local Indian place…”

Joseph smiles. “Oh, Avdol will love that,” and Kakyoin returns it, something in his chest settling back down.

The elevator doors open, and they step outside. It’s a rare sunny day, which Kakyoin supposes makes sense, considering the summer has begun.

Joseph takes the lead then, walking out into the sunlight, murmuring that he’ll call a taxi.

Kakyoin hesitates, glancing back. The smell of the hospital’s antiseptic and bland air fresheners had become so commonplace, he’d gone noseblind to it. He’s almost a little nervous to leave it.

He shakes his head. He turns back to the glass sliding doors.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, and rolls out into the sun.

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Chapter 29

Summary:

Kakyoin’s breath hitches. “Jo- Sta- time,” he croaks, and Joseph’s eyes widen while everyone around them lets out confused noises.

“Oh, my god,” Joseph croaks, leaning back a bit, and it’s so- so him that Kakyoin can’t help but giggle a bit, a little hysterical, and he feels his guts churn a little.

“Mr. Joestar-?”

“Jotaro can stop time,” Joseph announces, and everyone exchanges glances, but Kakyoin doesn’t care; he stares at Joseph, and Joseph stares right back, his brows pinching.

“...Yeah,” Josuke says unsteadily, and then Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him.

“You knew?” Kakyoin strangles out.

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Chapter Text

Being conscious but unaware is a strange thing, like numb skin overlying sensitive muscle.

In the back of his mind, Kakyoin knows Hierophant is writhing around him in a squirming mess, trying to do something. He knows someone eventually touches him, he can feel the warmth he’s come to associate with Crazy Diamond, he can feel someone heft him up into their arms and carry him somewhere else. He knows this, but only on the basic, short-term memory level.

The problem is, he isn’t quite sure what his long term memory is even focused on. It’s just cold, and wet, and if Kakyoin sees a clock face he’s going to throw up-

Kakyoin gags, blinks, and suddenly everything slams into him.

He lurches up only to let out a small shriek over the flare of pain that sears from his spine, but he refuses to back down, he needs- he needs-

“Jota- Jotaro-” Kakyoin gasps, nearly stumbling off of where he was laying down, before arms are around him and a cacophony of voices floods his hearing past his own panicking.

“Kakyoin-”

“Mr. Kakyoin!”

“Noriaki, lay back down!”

Kakyoin feels incredibly dizzy, his stomach turning, but he allows – Tonio? Aya? – to lay him back down, his heart pounding so hard he can feel it in his fingertips, but if they’re here that’s okay, because he can send his message without having to get up then-

It’s then Kakyoin realizes he’s not in the water tower, but instead in Tonio’s living room, on the same couch he had a breakdown on not too long ago, his glasses sitting on the coffee table. All around him are Josuke, Koichi, Okuyasu, Yukako, Tonio, Aya, and Joseph, the baby in his arms, asleep.

Kakyoin blinks before mortification rides up his face with startling quickness, infrared waves billowing across his chest and cheeks. “W-wha-”

“Give him some space,” Tonio calls lightly, and the group hesitates, but listens, stepping back. Kakyoin’s breathing haggardly, and he’s not sure why, and now that he’s aware, he can feel the sticky tac of sweaty skin, his hair glued to him, and Kakyoin shudders.

“Where’s- where’s Jotaro-” Kakyoin gasps and Joseph steps forward then, patting Kakyoin’s knee with the hand not clutching his cane.

“Jotaro’s…at the hotel,” Joseph’s creaky but steady voice comes, and Kakyoin has to bite some sort of primal sound – a scream? A wail?

What the hell happened?

“What happened?” Kakyoin croaks, and Josuke huffs in a way that reminds Kakyoin of an anxious husky.

“That’s what we want to know,” Josuke says, arms crossing his chest uncomfortably. “We were talking about just- you know- everything, and suddenly we hear screaming and when we check it out, you were- you were-”

“Josuke-” Kakyoin’s voice cracks and he realizes the screaming must have been from him, based on his sore throat now. He falls silent, mortified.

“It was like at Okuyasu’s house,” Koichi says quietly, and Kakyoin freezes, squeezes his eyes shut.

“Oh,” Kakyoin wheezes, and Joseph pats his knee again while Aya moves to sit next to him on the couch, not wrapping her arms around him, but the warmth of her side presses into him where their shoulders brush all the same. Unfiltered, he lets slip from his thoughts, “I can’t believe I let you see me like this again.”

Josuke’s face tightens and Kakyoin bites his tongue. Josuke’s words flash in his mind: How am I supposed to believe it’s not belittling if you clearly don’t believe the same? Don’t try to damn baby me and lie to me that it’s okay!

Ah, shit. “I- uhm,” Kakyoin stumbles, “th-thanks for…getting me…here…” he mutters.

Josuke huffs again, less husky-like this time, but everyone else murmurs various acknowledgements.

Kakyoin jumps when suddenly Tonio wriggles through the little crowd around the couch, crouching in front of him and shoving a thermos under his nose that smells strongly of herb-filled broth.

“Drink this,” Tonio insists, and Kakyoin squints. “Josuke healed you already, but the fact there was something to heal bothers me, so drink this to help with soreness.”

Kakyoin blinks. He was hurt?

“Noriaki,” Tonio presses, and Kakyoin is too tired to argue. He takes a sip of the broth and nearly deflates as the warm soup rushes over his tongue. Umami flavoring, mostly, but with some salt in there as well… Kakyoin takes another sip and Tonio nods and sits next to Kakyoin’s free side.

“How did you get hurt, anyway?” Aya murmurs in a low voice, and Kakyoin nearly drops his thermos as he remembers Jotaro’s knee with a sear of pain from his lower back and he shudders.

Jotaro.

“How long was I out?” Kakyoin demands, scanning over everyone’s faces. “Where is Jotaro?”

“When’d you start calling him ‘Jotaro’,” Josuke mumbles and Kakyoin chokes, mouth opening and closing rapidly as heat rides along his collar. When did I-? Wait, when did I-?

Joseph pats his knee again and Kakyoin jerks his gaze to him. “He’s at the hotel. He’s at the hotel,” Joseph reaffirms, and Kakyoin buries his face in his hands, something building in the back of his throat, but he refuses to vocalize it, something slinking between his vertebrae and biting down on his nerve cord, but he refuses to acknowledge it. “It’s been about an hour,” Joseph adds, and Kakyoin swallows.

“I didn’t even know you knew Mr. Kujo,” Aya comments icily, and Kakyoin cracks his fingers apart to glance at her. “What did he do?” She asks again, and Kakyoin blinks.

Josuke’s face tightens again and he drops his arms. “I want to know that too. Even at…Okuyasu’s house, you weren’t…like that,”

Kakyoin shudders, drops his hands and raises his head. He meets Joseph’s sky blue eyes, and it makes him feel a bit like he has no tether, like he’s floating, and it scares him, reminds him of how he flew through the sky when DIO-

Kakyoin’s breath hitches. “Jo- Sta- time,” he croaks, and Joseph’s eyes widen while everyone around them lets out confused noises.

“Oh, my god,” Joseph croaks, leaning back a bit, and it’s so- so him that Kakyoin can’t help but giggle a bit, a little hysterical, and he feels his guts churn a little.

“Mr. Joestar-?”

“Jotaro can stop time,” Joseph announces, and everyone exchanges glances, but Kakyoin doesn’t care; he stares at Joseph, and Joseph stares right back, his brows pinching.

“...Yeah,” Josuke says unsteadily, and then Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him.

“You knew?” Kakyoin strangles out, unable to get a breath, and Tonio prompts Kakyoin into another sip of his nearly-forgotten broth.

Josuke squirms, then, face screwing up in defensiveness. “I- I didn’t know you didn’t!”

“Me either,” Koichi murmurs, and Okuyasu nods.

Yukako shifts uncomfortably, crossing her arms, frowning tightly. “Mr. Jotaro is your nephew, right, Josuke?” She asks, and Josuke nods distantly, still staring at Kakyoin with pinched brows.

Kakyoin wheezes, stares at them, and can’t seem to catch his breath. He feels faintly like he’s on a ship, rocking back and forth, despite the solid weight of the couch underneath him.

Tonio makes him sip the broth again and Kakyoin lets him. He feels like he’s losing feeling in his fingertips.

“I didn’t- Kakyoin,” Joseph says softly, and Kakyoin drags his gaze to him. “I- I didn’t know he…still used it,” Joseph says, glancing at Josuke, Okuyasu, and Koichi, before turning back to him. “I would have told you, I promise, I didn’t-”

“What are you two talking about?!” Josuke snaps then, face pinched, and Kakyoin snaps his focus to him again. He’s fidgeting with his sleeves, shifting his weight, face in a scowl that barely covers the confusion and unease underneath, like a blanket over a tiger. “You talk as if Mr. Jotaro- Was Star Platinum’s power not always timestop?”

For some reason, Kakyoin nearly bursts into tears at that, his breath hitching fiercely as his vision blurs, and he ducks his head so he can rub his forehead, fingertips pressing into the small bump of his fleshbud scar harshly.

Did he always have it? Were DIO and Jotaro always-

They could not be the same. One put it in and the other took it out. They’re not- they’re not- THEY’RE NOT-

“Jotaro…” Joseph’s voice sounds then, turning to face his son and his friends as Aya and Tonio try to get Kakyoin to drop his hands and sip his broth again, Don’t hunch, Noriaki, it’s not good for you- “Star Platinum, when it first manifested, was unique in its precision and speed. But timestop developed…later.”

Kakyoin whimpers, the sound leaking from his throat like water from cupped hands, and it’s so mortifying he sits back up, breathing haggardly, trying to get a grip on himself, fuck. Josuke glances at him with wide eyes before turning back to Joseph. “Why…why is that a bad thing?”

“Because DIO-” Kakyoin cuts in, gasping, and all eyes snap to him, “DIO could also stop time.”

It falls very quiet then.

“...Who’s DIO?” Aya asks and Kakyoin lets out a noise high in his throat, digging his hands into his hair. His ponytail is on its last legs, more hair united than not, and Kakyoin is thankful for it now, using it like a shield against the rest of the world.

“DIO…” Joseph begins then, voice wispy, before trailing off. Silence blankets the room for a second before Josuke speaks up on their behalf.

“Mr. Jotaro said…DIO was- some creep who was really obsessed with his family.” Josuke pauses, before saying softly, as if only just realizing his place in it all, “ My family…”

“Was?” Tonio asks, and Kakyoin lets out a sound that could have been a gag or a sob before he sits up, brushing his hair away from his sweaty forehead.

“DIO had a personal grudge and beyond that he wanted to take over the world ten years ago,” Kakyoin explains flatly, staring harshly at the floor. “He was going to kill Joseph and J-J-” – Kakyoin nearly bites his tongue – “Jotaro, and then continue from there. Joseph, Jotaro, me, and some other friends stopped him.” Kakyoin swallows. “We killed him.”

“Oh,” Tonio says softly, and Kakyoin cringes, but Tonio just has him sip his broth again.

“And… DIO had timestop?” Aya clarifies, and Kakyoin grunts an affirmation. “And now Mr. Jotaro…also has timestop?”

“It developed during the fight with DIO,” Joseph confirms quietly. Josuke, Okuyasu, Koichi and Yukako all exchange glances.

Aya hums. “You said he had a vendetta against- er, the Joestar family?” She turns to Kakyoin. “Noriaki, why were you involved?”

Kakyoin feels a ringing in his ears then. He opens his mouth but no sound comes out.

“...It was personal to him, too,” Josuke mutters, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze to him, the echo of his own words startling him out of his reverie.

Aya lets out a questioning noise. Kakyoin swallows and turns to face her. “...It was,” Kakyoin confirms in a croak, and she sighs.

“So, is that what happened, then? Mr. Jotaro showed you timestop, and you didn’t know? How did you get hurt then?”

Kakyoin gets a rush of vertigo so quickly he feels the urge to throw up as he recalls Jotaro’s panicked face, kneeing his spine before running, eyes so wide, Kakyoin had seriously never seen him so-

“Sip the broth, Noriaki,” Tonio suggests from his other side, pressing the thermos close to Kakyoin’s chin, and Kakyoin has to bite back the urge to hurl inside of it, his breathing quickening.

Jotaro, Jotaro, Jota-

“Noriaki?”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin echoes his thoughts, and his stomach churns.

“Everyone?” Joseph calls then, voice loud and steady. “Can I talk with Kakyoin privately for a second?”

Josuke scowls while Tonio’s brows pinch and Aya’s eyes narrow, leaning against Kakyoin’s side.

“It’s okay,” Kakyoin croaks, surprising himself just as much as Tonio and Aya beside him. He swallows, taking another breath, regaining control of his head and the spinning his brain was doing in it. “It’s okay. Just a moment,” he reassures, and Aya crosses her arms, unhappy, while Tonio’s lip juts out.

“Keep the soup,” Tonio insists, “please, Noriaki, keep sipping. Finish it.”

Kakyoin swallows and nods. “I promise.”

Tonio sighs then, long and loud. Aya stares at Kakyoin searchingly, and Kakyoin meets her gaze, even if he’s exhausted. He can’t wait to get back to the hotel and just sleep.

“It’s okay,” he repeats, voice a little stronger, and Aya echoes Tonio’s sigh before standing up, heading to the stairs while muttering.

Kakyoin’s kids all exchange glances again before Okuyasu and Koichi lead a surly-looking Josuke downstairs, Yukako keeping her head down. Kakyoin thinks he can hear Okuyasu murmur to her that they’ll catch her up on everything, but it’s hard to really hear past the baseline static in his ears.

After glancing at Kakyoin one last time, and Kakyoin taking a sip of his broth to assuage him, Tonio purses his lips but nods. He gently scoops the baby from Joseph, and, with one final glance back, heads down the stairs, the young girl nestled against his chest.

When the shuffle of footsteps fades with distance, Kakyoin and Joseph both sigh in tandem, Joseph pulling himself onto the sofa next to Kakyoin. It’s quiet for a few heartbeats.

“How do you know he’s at the hotel?” Kakyoin asks quietly, his throat catching on the words like scabs against cloth.

Joseph hums, the sound staticy from his aged throat. “Called him while we brought you here. You were…” Kakyoin squirms with embarrassment at the reminder of the state they must have found him in, heat creeping along his chest, up to his neck, but Joseph pushes on. “When we found you, you were on the ground, and you couldn’t move. You were just…” Joseph shudders then, and Kakyoin realizes this is bigger than him.

“You were- hysterical, but quiet about it,” Joseph murmurs. “You weren’t seeing any of us. Hierophant was just winding around you over and over. It was…startling.”

Yeah, Kakyoin could fucking bet.

“We honestly thought it was a stand attack for a moment,” Joseph says, and there’s a dark sort of humor in his tone then, “but when Josuke went to heal you, you screamed, and I could see why.” Joseph leans back in his seat. “I’ve never seen Crazy Diamond before now. Did you know that?”

Kakyoin did not. The heat of embarrassment is put out with the chill of the water tower he can still vividly feel against his back.

“Still, he managed to heal you and we got you here after Tonio suggested it, since it was nearby. I called Jotaro because I wasn’t sure if he was- hurt. Or if there really was a stand user to chase after.” Kakyoin swallows thickly, trying to shift through the fuzz of his memories. Had he hurt Jotaro during all that gripping with Hierophant? He finds with an upsetting clench in his gut that he doesn’t remember. “He had just gotten to the hotel. He confirmed no standuser and then hung up on me.”

Joseph sighs then, and he sounds every bit of his 79 years. Kakyoin hesitates, but he leans against him, their sides meshed together, and Joseph snorts softly but says nothing.

“...Did he say anything else? When you called?” Kakyoin murmurs. Joseph hums thoughtfully.

“No,” he answers. Kakyoin frowns, clenching his hands into fists. “...He sounded scared,” Joseph said quietly, and Kakyoin whips his head up to face him. Joseph’s brows are pinched as he stares at Kakyoin. “What on earth were you two talking about? How did timestop come up?”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth for a few seconds. What had started this all again?

His lips pick up into a snarl then, that fire he was familiar with beginning to churn in his gut, and his organs had been scorched black because of it, but it still felt better to be warm than the icy cold of whatever the hell was going on with him earlier. “Because that damn bastard tried to chase me out of town again-”

“What?” Joseph cries and Kakyoin flinches, because the incredulous inflection is so similar, too similar to Jotaro’s, and the fire flickers out, Kakyoin straining to hold onto it, but it going quiet all the same.

“Ever since I got here he’s been trying to make me go home,” Kakyoin finishes his thought a little numbly, but not without its spit of venom. Joseph frowns, leaning back. “I know he-”

“He tried to keep me from coming, too,” Joseph murmurs, and Kakyoin blinks, because oh, that’s…that’s right.

Abruptly, Kakyoin is reminded of Holly and Jotaro’s drawback from her, too, and something turns in his stomach. He remembers an exchange with Avdol long, long ago:

Has- Jo- Jojo, has he called you? 

...Not very often. I worry about him…

Kakyoin feels a bit like laughing or pulling his hair out, hysteria curling up his chest. What the hell is going on?

“I didn’t know he tried blocking you too…” Joseph continues and Kakyoin blinks back, tuning back into the conversation. “Ah, Jotaro…”

Kakyoin bites back a snort. Yeah, Jotaro…

…Jotaro…

“...He thought-” Kakyoin’s voice cracks and he seethes, breathing harshly through gritted teeth, before pushing on, “he thought showing me timestop would- scare me. Make me just- run away-”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. Joseph’s brows are pinched as he gazes evenly at him.

“It didn’t. I guess that freaked him out instead.” Kakyoin snorts humorlessly. “Ironic.”

He cannot have the same soul as DIO, a part of him cries as it tangos with the ice of panic still slithering through his veins.

Kakyoin swallows thickly. Shame he didn’t scare me in the way he was hoping.

Joseph’s frown tightens. “Kakyoin…”

Kakyoin twitches reflexively at his tone, brought out from his thoughts. “There is no way you’re going to fucking defend him after-”

“Kakyoin,” Joseph repeats, and Kakyoin bares his teeth, “I-”

“No, I’m so sick of you saying it's my fault he-”

“I’m not defending him for that,” Joseph snaps, and Kakyoin goes quiet. “He was wrong. He shouldn’t try to push you out. He shouldn’t try to push me out, either. But, Kakyoin, listen, I don’t…” Joseph sighs. “I’m…worried about him,” he murmurs.

The exact same wording as Avdol makes him pause. Kakyoin narrows his eyes. “...What do you mean?”

Joseph sits back, the couch creaking under his weight, and Kakyoin goes with him, not quite ready to leave the warmth of his side yet. “Jotaro…” Joseph sighs. “I mentioned I didn’t even know he still used timestop, right? He was so disgusted with it that night, after DIO…”

Joseph clears his throat. The reminder of DIO sends a flare of panic lancing through his gut. Kakyoin ignores the rapid pace of his heart and the shit circulation of his blood despite it, his hands cold even in his gloves, but he spends so much energy focusing on that that his lips part and he strangles out, “Jose- Joseph, he can’t- he can’t- he can’t be like DIO-” his voice cracks and Joseph stiffens.

“Kakyoin,” Joseph says then, turning to face him, and Kakyoin shakes. “He’s not. I know he’s not.”

“How?” Kakyoin’s voice cracks, his heart thrumming in his chest, “How can you be sure? How-”

“Noriaki,” Joseph presses, and the switch to his given name makes Kakyoin’s thoughts halt enough to listen when Joseph says, “He’s not like DIO. He saved you,”

Kakyoin’s lips part, but nothing leaves him. It has been a long time since he thought of it – any of it – like that. But that’s what it was, right? As embarrassing as it is, Jotaro saved him. It was how he came to the first conclusion he made about Jotaro: that he was kind despite his aloofness.

…How did he forget it?

Kakyoin swallows thickly.

Did I ever know him?

“He saved me,” Joseph murmurs, and Kakyoin blinks.

“What?” he croaks, and Joseph jumps, as if not realizing he spoke out loud.

Joseph shifts, unsure, brows pinching, before he shakes his head and stares at Kakyoin steadily, brows still knitted together, but lower, more certain. “During the… When we all faced DIO, I…” Joseph sighs and leans back. Kakyoin goes with him again, resettling against the couch. After a few beats, Joseph continues.

“I forwarded your realization about The World” – Kakyoin’s breath hitches – “to Jotaro, and then…DIO caught up to me. He, uh, stabbed me and then later, sucked out my blood.” Kakyoin jolts violently, jerking to face Joseph, eyes wide.

“Wha-”

“Jotaro killed him,” Joseph continues, “and then demanded the Speedwagon Foundation transfer my blood back to me from DIO’s corpse.”

Kakyoin gawks, the absurdity of the notion pausing the anxiety squirming in his entrails. Joseph chuckles a little.

“He figured, with my hamon breathing and the…” Joseph’s smile slips off his face, “...the timestop, that my brain hadn’t been without oxygen for so long that I was braindead. So they hooked me up, and, well,” Joseph chuckles, “here I am. He saved me.” Joseph looks over at him, then. “And then he saved you. Jumped right out of the moving ambulance to do it.”

Kakyoin’s breath hiccups in his chest and he’s not sure if the mist in his eyes is due to the pain in his chest from it or because of Joseph’s words. He hadn’t known that part. “I-”

“So he can’t be DIO,” Joseph concludes, and Kakyoin blinks. “You saw- you saw how DIO treated his teammates. You felt how he treated his teammates.” Kakyoin shudders violently then, and Joseph squeezes him, and Kakyoin has to bite back a sound that feels almost like a sob. “You know Jotaro is different. He’s not…he’s not like that.”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “Then why does he have timestop?” he asks, voice edged in desperation, unable to get a breath to support the words, making them breathy.

Joseph pauses. “...I don’t know,” he admits quietly. “I didn’t…I’m more worried about why he started using it again, to be honest. But I don’t know why it happened in the first place.”

Kakyoin grinds his teeth against the hysteria building in his chest. Why? How? Why?

Well, why do you have a mind control ability?  A part of him questions quietly, and Kakyoin lets out a small wail, making Joseph jump beside him.

It’s not the same, DIO’s wasn’t a stand, so it has nothing to do with souls-

But it’s still an innate ability. Why do you share it? The answer could help you figure out why Jotaro and timesto-

“I think it’s best we stop talking about this for now,” Joseph says softly. Kakyoin wants to snap at him, wants to cry, wants to- to-

I want to talk to Jotaro.

He swallows back the fear that rides up in him at the notion. Oh, I need to talk to Jotaro. I need to talk to Jotaro.

“Come on,” Joseph says then, lightly jostling Kakyoin’s hands which are still wrapped around Tonio’s thermos.

“I-” Kakyoin’s throat is dry and he needs to take a sip of the broth before continuing. Joseph frowns at him, the creases in his face folded with the expression, and Kakyoin swallows and tries again. “I have — Hierophant has — an ability to mind control people.”

Joseph blinks. “...What?”

“It-” Kakyoin cannot breathe, but he cannot stop, his vision fading to gray, his hands shaking terribly, “DIO made me use it. DIO found it useful and so when I- when he mind controlled me he had me use it and-”

“Oh, Kakyoin-”

“I used it during my fight with Jotaro,” Kakyoin gasps, “when I- when I was un- under-” the words make Kakyoin gag, “under DIO’s control. I-”

“Kakyoin!” Joseph calls, clapping his hands onto Kakyoin’s shoulders, and Kakyoin flinches violently, and he realizes the thermos is no longer in his numb hands. He blinks, confused, only to see Hermit Purple curled around it in the air next to Joseph’s head, the man himself staring at him firmly past his spectacles. Kakyoin opens his mouth again only to sob.

“Mr. Joestar- what does it mean that we shared an ability?” Kakyoin asks, voice edged in desperation, unable to get breath for the life of him, and his body is starting to suffer for it, the edges of his vision moving past gray and bubbling into blackness.

“Kakyoin-” Joseph shakes his head. “Noriaki, look at me.” The use of his given name again shocks Kakyoin into snapping his gaze to his face. “You’ve been through a lot this afternoon. I need you to take a break-”

“I need to talk to Jotaro,” Kakyoin says flatly, before he bursts into outright sobs, the hysteria reaching a breaking point in his chest. “Am I- are we- Mr. Joestar, what does it mean that we- are we-”

He’s just able to see the way Joseph’s face crumples past his tears before he pulls him into a hug, and Kakyoin goes willingly, ignoring the flare of pain in his back as he curls into Joseph’s arms, digging his face into his shoulder. “It doesn’t mean anything,” Joseph says softly, and Kakyoin just cries, shaking his head.

“But- but- stands are representations of the soul-”

Joseph sighs then and squeezes him and Kakyoin goes quiet, trembling. “I know,” he says quietly, “I know.” Kakyoin shakes.

Joseph is quiet for a few moments, Kakyoin weeping silently into his shoulder all the while. He’s soaking the fabric, and Kakyoin knows his eyes are going to be sore later, but he can’t stop. He feels like he’s been put on death row, judged for his sins, publicly shamed, feels like he’s only realized the severity, the finality of his sentence now that not even a man like Jotaro could escape the same fate-

“I don’t pretend to be a stand expert,” Joseph says softly, and Kakyoin swallows back the mucus and snot in his throat to save himself from responding. “I’m not Avdol,” he chuckles, and Kakyoin blinks at the idea. I should call Avdol. I need to call Avdol. “But,” Joseph continues, and Kakyoin tunes back in. “I can tell you that you’re not- neither of you are like DIO,” and he says it so fiercely that it leaves Kakyoin speechless for a moment, able to feel the vibration of Joseph’s voice in his chest as he stresses the words.

He swallows thickly. “But then- why-?”

“I don’t know,” Joseph admits, “but remember what I told you? According to my grandmother, DIO killed his own father. He didn’t value his allies; he lost all of them. That’s different from both you and Jotaro. You both helped us.”

Kakyoin goes still then, so still he thinks his heart might have stopped, too. There’s not even a ringing in his ears. Everything is quiet – quiet enough he can hear the small murmur of voices downstairs, the clutter of dishes muffled by distance and a soapy sink. Joseph’s arms around him are warm, and he smells like gasoline and mint, and his wool coat scratches against his face — certainly not the best fabric to rub his wet eyes against, but he’s here all the same.

Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut and falls limp against Joseph, letting out a small wail before falling silent.

The clatter of dishes downstairs alerts Kakyoin to the fact his cry was heard, but he can’t care. He feels like he’s been ripped open, his ribs snapped back and his lungs scooped out, his intestines slinking out after them, his liver dropping to his waist, his heart beating where it sits beside the missing space of his stomach. Joseph hushes him quietly, rocking them slightly, and Kakyoin clings to him like a child despite the ache in his spine echoing between his shoulder blades, ricocheting up to his neck and down to his hips.

After a few more minutes, Kakyoin’s grip relaxes from Joseph’s coat, his arms shaking and too weak to maintain their hold, and Joseph slowly sets him back against the couch before leaning back himself, frowning.

Kakyoin hides from his gaze by fishing out a handkerchief, working on mopping up his face in silence. Joseph politely doesn’t comment, and allows Kakyoin to collect himself.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath once his face is dry, shoving his handkerchief into his pants pocket again. He swallows and frowns when this just smears mucus in the back of his throat instead of clearing it. Hierophant scoops up his glasses from Tonio’s coffee table, and he fits them back on, thankful for the shield of his sensitive retinas from the light and for hiding his swollen eyes.

“I’ll go tell them you’re okay,” Joseph murmurs, and Kakyoin nods.

Joseph stands then, collecting his cane, while Hermit Purple deposits the thermos back in Kakyoin’s hands, the tip of the vine lightly patting Kakyoin’s hand, as if in reassurance. Kakyoin manages a weak smile even as part of him shifts in discomfort at the pity. He’s still too wet to be angry — or maybe just too burned. Ash can’t light up like wood can, and heaven knows Kakyoin’s used all the kindling his bones could give.

Joseph heads downstairs and Kakyoin sighs, recentering himself.

He takes a deep breath, and his body remembers he has not actually been disemboweled, and his muscles stretch in glee with the motion. Kakyoin swallows.

I need to talk to Avdol.

I need to talk to Jotaro.

Kakyoin swallows thickly again, ignoring the tightening in his chest. The mucus slides down a little better this time.

His own words echo in his head – There are things more important to me than avoiding what I’m scared of – and Kakyoin lets out a shaky sigh.

I need to talk to Jotaro, he reiterates to himself. His chest doesn’t get tighter, but it doesn’t ease up.

Whatever, Kakyoin thinks. It won’t be the first time I’ve done something I’m scared of.

A flash of shame and an accompanying spark of fury ride along the lining of his entrails, but still, it can’t fan into a full flame.

He’s drawn out of his thoughts by the small clutter of footsteps up Tonio’s steps, the wood creaking as multiple bodies navigate them at once.

He looks up to see Josuke, Okuyasu, Koichi, and Yukako’s heads pop up, gazing at him with mirrored furrowed brows and tight, forcibly neutral expressions, Tonio, the baby, and Aya following behind them, their faces more plainly concerned, finished off by Joseph. Yukako’s hair is swirling around her head as if she’s underwater, clearly agitated, but Kakyoin doesn’t comment.

Aya glances at his thermos and clicks her tongue weakly. “You’d better finish that before Tonio makes you a whole meal,” she jokes. Tonio blinks before scoffing theatrically, shifting the baby in his arms so he can point at Kakyoin threateningly, and the antics make the kids relax a little more, the tightness in their shoulders loosening a little.

Kakyoin sighs softly and ducks his head into his broth. “Yeah…” He obediently takes a sip.

“Mr. Kakyoin…” Okuyasu says softly, and Kakyoin swallows and looks up, trusting his eyes are adequately shielded by his sunglasses. “Are you…are you okay?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth, an assurance riding along the tip of his tongue, before he closes his mouth, the taste of the lie bitter against the umami of the broth. He sits for a second, glancing at his soup before looking at all the people in the room, all staring at him steadily, save for where the baby still sleeps against Tonio’s shoulder. When did he stop being so lonely? He locks gazes with Josuke for a beat, and his resolve crumbles.

“There are some things I need to do,” Kakyoin explains vaguely, just barely able to avoid wincing at how hoarse his voice is, “but I will be.”

It’s maybe less the truth than a hope, but it’s honest all the same and makes Okuyasu smile weakly and Josuke’s shoulders drop, makes Koichi relax his posture and Yukako’s hair fall back from its upset writhing.

Kakyoin looks over at Tonio, Aya, and Joseph, and smiles softly, halfheartedly raising his thermos to them. “Well, come on. Adults get the couch.”

Josuke and Okuyasu reflexively complain Hey! like Kakyoin knew they would, and he chuckles while Aya and Tonio hurry over, Joseph hesitating before shrugging and following after, Koichi smiling a little while Yukako huffs good naturedly.

Pressed between Aya and Tonio on the couch, sipping on his broth, the sound of the kids’ protests in the air, Kakyoin feels warm in a way the sun could never manage. Still, he glances at his reflection in the soup, brows furrowing slightly over the dried tear tracks on his face. He subtly rubs at them before sighing, closing his eyes.

I need to talk to Avdol.

I need to talk to Jotaro.

He takes another sip, letting the heat of the soup and the bodies of Tonio and Aya warm him up from the inside out, the small chatter of his kids washing over him like a soft breeze, and takes a deep breath. He can hear Joseph murmur about a plan of action about the killer, and everyone refocuses, some agreement being had about always traveling in at least pairs.

He pushes down the trepidation and opens his eyes again, diving back in.

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Chapter 30

Summary:

“Where- where did this come from?” Avdol asks then, and Kakyoin blinks.

“I-” it’s his turn for his voice to buckle then, the reminder of what exactly he called for slamming back into him, making him shudder, his grip tensing on the phone.

 

Oh, Jotaro-

 

“Kakyoin,”Avdol says, frown evident in his voice, “What’s wrong?”

Notes:

HIII EVERYONE i'm so sorry this wasn't posted in march ): life and all that. i've gone from three degrees to four cause there's something wrong with me (at least it's not a major this time, it's just a minor 😭). but i hope you all enjoy this chapter!! even if it's not very action-packed :/ but don't worry next chapter will be...a lot more lively! in th meantime you should all know i plan to finish wwm/ta and start its sequel (p6 au) before 2024 and have done a lot more reorganizing of my notes/the math of how often i'll need to post to do it, which u can see with the new total chapter count. i'll keep everyone updated!

but for now enjoy <3

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Chapter Text

They all walk the children home, once their discussion has finished and Kakyoin feels okay enough to stand.

Josuke scowls when he realizes what they’re doing, but Koichi’s lax shoulders and Okuyasu’s smile as he tells Tonio how Pochi has been doing seem to convince him to stay quiet about the matter. Yukako floats along, a blooming curiosity on her face as Okuyasu talks about his dog.

“Does Pochi drool?” She asks, and Okuyasu laughs, shaking his head.

“No way! His dog lips don’t droop enough for drool. He’s a messy eater, though,” he smiles. Josuke huffs.

“Gross,” he mutters, and Okuyasu clicks his tongue, knocking their shoulders, and Josuke smirks, as if the contact was his goal the whole time.

“Police drools,” Koichi comments, nose wrinkling despite the smile on his face, and Okuyasu laughs while Yukako grimaces, “but he doesn’t shed much, so, win some, lose some.”

A part of him is aware of the background conversation Aya, Tonio, and Joseph are having about the baby he’s watching over, but Kakyoin just can’t focus on it right now, watching over his kids intently in the setting sun, dark pinks and purples coloring their faces. The heat of the arriving summer is comforting despite the humidity that sticks to Kakyoin’s face and fogs up his sunglasses, and he takes a deep breath, the warm, sappy air tinted with the smell of cut grass brushing against his lungs.

“Hey,” he says suddenly, “Let’s have an impromptu training session tomorrow. After school.”

Yukako, Okuyasu, Josuke, and Koichi all turn their heads to him then, confused noises escaping Koichi and Okuyasu. All their eyes shine in the setting sun, all of them so bright.

“I just…” he takes a deep breath. “With the killer acting out, I just-” I need to make sure you can protect yourselves. “I just think it best.”

“You don’t have to explain, Mr. Kakyoin,” Yukako cuts in, and Kakyoin sucks in another breath like he’s surfaced from a dive. She turns to Okuyasu and Josuke then, a small, mischievous quirk to her lip. “I know you two don’t go to clubs, so you can do it right after class, yeah?”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Okuyasu whines while Josuke shrugs nonchalantly.

Koichi hums. “I don’t have cleaning duty tomorrow… What about you, Yukako?”

Yukako flushes then and Kakyoin politely averts his gaze to give her some privacy. “Ah, I- I’m free after class, yeah.”

Koichi smiles, Yukako does an interesting combination of both a bloom and wilting of her posture, and Josuke clears his throat.

“Yeah, we’ll be there,” he says, and Kakyoin lets out his breath, nodding. Josuke pauses, gaze flitting over Kakyoin’s form, before he shakes his head slightly, letting out a soft sigh of his own. “Be gentle though,” he warns halfheartedly, “I’m not healing anyone if you make them sore this time.”

Kakyoin laughs lightly at that, the sound quiet but genuine. “‘Course. We’ll meet at your house and then head over to Reimi’s alley?”

Everyone hums their agreement, and something in Kakyoin finally calms down, his heart rate slowing to a proper pace.

After herding the children home, Aya and Tonio bid Joseph and Kakyoin goodbye at a bus stop, before walking each other to their respective residents. Joseph hums and haws over if he should just call a taxi, but Kakyoin waves the suggestion away.

“Buses are better here than in New York,” Kakyoin snarks, and Joseph laughs at that, but it falls quiet soon after.

Kakyoin fidgets, the chill of night setting in now that the sun is almost gone, and he rubs his arms lightly, shifting his weight from one crutch to the other.

“I’m…gonna talk with him,” Joseph says quietly, and Kakyoin doesn’t freeze per se, but he stills. “When we get back to the hotel.”

Kakyoin lets out a soft sound as acknowledgement, but his voice cracks on it, and he ducks his head.

“But I’ll need to put the little one to rest before then,” Joseph continues, and Kakyoin sucks in a breath. “So if you…want to get there first-”

“Joseph,” Kakyoin says, voice crackly like tissue paper, and Joseph goes quiet. Kakyoin isn’t sure how else to follow up, so he says nothing.

The bus arrives and they board in silence. The girl wakes up at some point, blinking sleepily at Joseph and Kakyoin in the fluorescent light of the bus, before reaching for Kakyoin’s long bang.

He jumps as her small fingers tangle with it, making both her and Joseph chuckle.

“What’s her name, anyway?” Kakyoin asks, replacing the hair in her fingers with his pinkie, which she explores with rapt attention, gurgling as she plays with the bumps of his joints over his glove.

Joseph hums. “I’ve been trying not to call her anything, actually, because I don’t want her to be confused when we meet her mom and I inevitably didn’t give her the same name.”

“Hm.” Kakyoin’s brows pinch.

“But,” Joseph says, “Josuke called her Shizuka when he was helping me get baby supplies and the store manager asked. So I’ve been calling her that in my head.”

Kakyoin tilts his head thoughtfully, which draws her attention back to his bang, and she struggles to reach it. “Shizuka’s a nice name,” he murmurs.

Joseph hums, gently disentangles her tiny hands from Kakyoin, and pulls out from his coat pocket a toy – a crinkly, felt stuffed bumblebee – and hands it to her to play with instead. She does, happily, the silence between them broken with the soft crunch of the toy’s wings and her happy gurgles.

The bus arrives at the hotel.

As they enter, Joseph glances at Kakyoin again, shifting Shizuka’s weight in his arms. “Well, I need to feed her and get her to bed,” he reiterates, and Kakyoin swallows. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Kakyoin.”

He hesitates, before adding, “and…there’s no pressure. Not tonight.”

Kakyoin nearly scoffs reflexively, but he manages to bite it back, glaring at the floor instead.

“But if you want to,” Joseph continues softly, “he’s in room 324. Right next to mine.”

Kakyoin stills again.

Joseph waits one more beat before going to the elevator at the other end of the lobby, moving up.

Kakyoin hesitates, eyeing the elevator even long after Joseph has gone.

Kakyoin’s sure Jotaro’s still in there; where else would he be, at this time of night? He wasn’t the type to go out on the town. Especially not after something like that…

But then, Kakyon’s been wrong about Jotaro a lot lately.

He stares at the elevator, the gleam of the doors shining back at him. He swallows thickly, realizes he’s a little thirsty, blinks, and is swamped with the weight of his eyelids.

He purses his lips, then. If I’m training with the kids tomorrow, I’ll need to be well rested. And who knows how long the talk with…Jotaro will take. It might be interrupted anyway by Joseph when he comes in.

It’s a flimsy excuse even in Kakyoin’s head, but it holds enough ground that, with one final glance at the elevator, he swallows his pride, turns, and heads to his own room, ignoring the small echo in his skull of Polnareff murmuring, You said that you didn’t want any regrets. Is that still true?

I need time to think of what to say, he argues weakly, and it is, honestly, true enough that Polnareff’s voice goes quiet.

His skull still reverberates with the vibrations. His fists clench. I can’t keep doing this. I won’t.

He enters his own room, letting out a sigh as he drops his crutches, allowing Hierophant to snap into existence and catch both of them and him before they all tumble to the ground. Hierophant gently deposits his crutches beside the bed as he carries him on top of the mattress itself, Kakyoin letting out a sigh as he sinks into the cushioning.

He sits up, grabs the phone, and before he can psych himself out, dials the familiar number for Avdol’s extension of the Speedwagon Foundation.

A trail of icy dread does slide along some of his veins as the call rings, but Kakyoin just sets his jaw and takes his sunglasses off, depositing them on his bedside table.

An assistant picks up again, requesting a name, then a code once he answers, and Kakyoin frowns, but understands. The reminder of Polnareff, and that others beyond Kakyoin are grieving the man as well, makes his chest tighten. He still pushes on.

“0-5-7-9-17,” he says.

The secretary pauses, noting his words. “Alright, let me forward you to him,” he says, and Kakyoin settles in a little more, leaning with his back to the headboard, his spine murmuring in relief over not having to hold his weight up anymore.

The rational part of Kakyoin’s mind knows it’s not a long wait – maybe a few seconds – but with the holding of his breath, his guts not actively churning nor relaxing but tensing as if on the precipice of a drop, he could be convinced time slowed.

At least it’s not stopped, a still mildly hysterical part of him says, and Kakyoin twitches.

The phone picks up.

“Hello?” A voice calls, and Kakyoin stiffens. Not Avdol. “Who is this-?”

“Where the hell is Avdol?!” Kakyoin snarls, Hierophant lashing out of him, writhing in the air around his head, and the voice just tuts.

“Oh, you,” the voice says, before the sound is muffled, as if they turned away, “Mr. Avdol, it’s for you!”

Kakyoin twitches, confusion melding with his fury. “Who the hell even-”

“What, forget me already, Mr. Kakyoin? And I thought I gave you a run for your money,” the voice sighs, and Kakyoin shudders as he suddenly places the childish, petulant tone-

“Akira, you fucking bastard-”

There’s a fumbling then, and Kakyoin can faintly hear a chipper Bye! and some scolding from the phone between the rush of air and fabric, before-

“Kakyoin?” Avdol calls over the speaker. His voice is soft, crackly, but he’s not sobbing like last time Kakyoin talked with him, so…better, he supposes.

Kakyoin swallows, head mildly spinning from the sharp turns between confusion, then fury, then relief that had taken place seconds apart from each other. “Avdol, why the hell was Akira answering your damn phone?”

Avdol is quiet for a beat, as if shocked, before saying, “… He’s working under me for a bit, remember? Until we’re on the field, that mostly means secretary work.”

Kakyoin can faintly hear a light scoff, but no rebuttal. He blinks and rubs his eyes. “Right. Great.”

Avdol lets out a small hum then, and his voice picks up again fainter, as if turned away from the phone, saying, “Akira, can you give us some privacy? Take a break.”

Kakyoin hears a response too muffled to make out. When he hears a door open and shut faintly on the other line, he can’t help but breathe out a soft sigh of relief, slumping only to hiss as his back shrieks over the sag of his weight.

Avdol hums as he turns back to the phone, a small creak coming from his end of the line, as if he were leaning back in his chair. “Sorry about that…”

Kakyoin huffs. “It’s…not your fault. He’s not- bothering you, is he?” He sneers.

Avdol just chuckles. “No, no, he’s actually been fine. A little lazy, yes, but, well…it reminds me a little of Mr. Joestar when he was younger, so I know how to deal with it.”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh then, and Avdol hums, pleased, into the phone, a small smile evident in his voice. “That’s- good?” Kakyoin snickers, before it fades, and he shifts a little, swallowing. “I hope… it hasn’t been too much too soon, though.”

Avdol inhales slowly but deeply on the other end, the allusion to Polnareff evidently received. Kakyoin bites his tongue. He didn’t really mean to bring it up, but he meant to talk with Avdol about this sooner anyway, and-

Why do I only call him when I need something?

Kakyoin presses his lips together.

“I’m sorry-”

“No, no,” Avdol interrupts, voice soft but clear, “it’s-” he sighs then, and Kakyoin swallows thickly, a little desperate for the conversation to end, already exhausted with the day he’s had, but more concerned with Avdol. “It’s…been a welcome distraction,” Avdol says hesitantly before he sighs again. “It’s…nice to have some work to focus on instead of everything else.” Kakyoin hums.

“But…you’ve been taking care of yourself, right?” Kakyoin asks.

Avdol is quiet for several beats. Kakyoin feels the urge to flinch mounting for every moment that passes.

Finally, Advol says, “I’m…trying.”

It’s not the answer Kakyoin might have hoped for, but it’s honest, and better than the worst case scenario, so all he says is, “...Yeah. Yeah. I’m- glad.” Kakyoin hesitates, before tacking on, “he…I know you two were…close,”

Avdol laughs humorlessly. “Yes. You could say we were close.”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “You know what I mean; he loved you, Avdol.”

At that, Avdol goes silent, only the slightest hiccuping on the other end, as if he choked.

Kakyoin hesitates, but presses on. “He loved you,” he repeats, a little hoarser, his voice on the edge of breaking, remembering Polnareff’s flush when Kakyoin snarked that they weren’t fooling anyone all those years ago. He shakes his head. “Trying is- trying is enough,” Kakyoin says, “just- just don’t forget to keep trying, okay?” Don’t forget he’d want you to live. Kakyoin tries to ignore the feeling he’s half talking to himself.

Avdol swallows thickly, the sound audible over the crackle of the phone line. “Okay,” he says quietly, voice strained. Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“Okay,” he echoes.

“Where- where did this come from?” Avdol asks then, and Kakyoin blinks.

“I-” it’s his turn for his voice to buckle then, the reminder of what exactly he called for slamming back into him, making him shudder, his grip tensing on the phone.

Oh, Jotaro-

“Kakyoin,”Avdol says, frown evident in his voice, “What’s wrong?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth to refute the idea that anything's wrong, but the words die in his throat. “I… I…” Avdol is patient, and says nothing, waiting for Kakyoin to collect his thoughts. The soft static of the phone reminds Kakyoin faintly of the chirps of cicadas in the night, and if he closes his eyes, he could imagine Avdol was right there beside him, the both of them speaking while sitting outside in the warm summer evening.

“Ka-”

“I need you to promise,” Kakyoin starts, voice straining to be low and calm, but ultimately it just comes off as tired, “that you’re done lying to me, even by omission.”

Avdol pauses. Kakyoin can hear him inhale a few times to begin speaking, but then cutting himself off before he begins. Finally, he slowly says, “Okay. I promise.”

Kakyoin lets out a breath, a pressure he didn’t realize was building in his chest easing away at the lack of fight, the ease of agreement. He inhales to speak, but it’s like the words are hidden in the back of his throat, a small membrane keeping them confined, unable to spill into his mouth and out past his lips.

“Kakyoin?” Avdol asks. A beat, and Kakyoin still can’t speak. “...Is this about… the stand arrows?” Avdol asks softly. “I know we were wrong. Trust me, it’s all I can think about. But all I know was included in that file I faxed to you-”

“It’s not- it’s not,” Kakyoin cuts in, his voice wheezy, and Avdol goes quiet. “It’s about…Jotaro,” Kakyoin admits in a whisper.

It’s quiet for a beat. Then, “Oh,” Avdol’s voice also lowered to a whisper. “Oh.” It’s quiet a moment longer. “What- what happened? Are you- is everyone alright?”

Kakyoin sucks in a breath, fighting past a brief, inexplicable flash of panic. “Everyone’s- everyone’s fine.” It doesn’t feel like the truth, but it doesn’t feel like a lie either. Kakyoin can’t dissect it for now. “I- what do you know about the current situation in Morioh?”

Avdol hums, leaning back in his chair. “Well,” he starts, tone shifting to a more professional air, “Joseph has informed me that there've been some complications, the last time he checked in – a couple of days ago now. He said-” Avdol pauses then, as if remembering himself past his memory, “Are you three really chasing after a serial killer right now?”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “We have reason to suspect he’s a standuser.”

Avdol sucks in a breath through his teeth. “Mm. And Jotaro-?”

“I-” Kakyoin’s voice catches then, and he takes a second before pushing on. Avdol patiently waits. “It’s not- not him, but” -Kakyoin shudders- “another victim…cropped up.” Avdol sucks in a second breath and Kakyoin really doesn’t want to dive into details – a 12 year old…right from under my nose – so he quickly rushes forward with, “So Jo- So Kujo tried chasing me out of Morioh again and he- he tried scaring me to do it.”

“...Oh?”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “Avdol,” his voice breaks, “Avdol, did- did you know Jotaro had timestop?”

There’s a small hiccup on the other side of the line, like Avdol’s breath caught in a weird way, but Kakyoin doesn’t hear anything else. As the silence stretches on, Kakyoin’s heart begins pounding faster, and he thinks, Finally, I’m caught up.

After several beats, Avdol lets out a long sigh. “I… Oh, Jotaro…”

“Avdol,” Kakyoin presses, leaning into the phone desperately, trying to hear what the man is thinking continents away.

“I didn’t know,” Avdol says softly, and there’s a creak, as if he’s slumping in his chair. Childishly, a part of Kakyoin thinks, Finally something I knew that you didn’t. The rest of him twists and twists and twists, wringing Kakyoin out. “...But that,” Avdol sighs, “makes a lot of sense.”

Kakyoin lets out a high pitched, questioning noise.

Avdol is quiet for a moment, thoughtful, before saying, “Back at the end of the journey, when I woke up after…it all, it was obvious something was bothering Jotaro. But given everything that was going on at the time – his mom, defeating DIO” - Kakyoin shudders - “me, you” - Kakyoin shudders again, worse this time, having to grip the phone with both hands to keep it to his ear - “I figured…it was just all that. But then it didn’t stop. And he was never- he didn’t…rely on me, like he did on the journey.”

Kakyoin feels stricken. You too?

He remembers Holly’s words, then, from so long ago: I thought we were turning over a new leaf. But then he leaves again after only five months and has only called me once since to let me know he landed safely from his international flight.

Oh, Jotaro -

Kakyoin lets out a strangled noise.

“Avdol-”

“Do you remember, how I’d mention I was worried about him? Back when you were in university?”

Kakyoin’s jaw snaps shut and his lips press together tightly. “Y…yeah.”

Avdol sighs. “That’s why. I knew something was bothering him – for all he tries, his heart is on his sleeve,” Avdol chuckles, and Kakyoin feels a bit like he’s been slapped. “At a certain point, I could narrow down that whatever it was, something happened in his showdown with- at the end of the journey. But he’d never give me the opportunity to ask…”

“Avdol,” his voice gives out then, and he isn’t even sure what he wants to say. He feels like a child again, or like how he felt right after being freed from the fleshbud – aimless, confused, scared, I need to know about Jotaro- “So you- you didn’t know? You said you didn’t know.”

Avdol hums. “No…I’m not sure anyone did.”

“The kids did. Mr. Joestar did,” Kakyoin says breathlessly, “but he- he said he didn’t realize Jo- Jotaro still used it.”

“I- ah…that makes sense, too.” Avdol sighs, the speakers mildly blowing out with the force of it, and Kakyoin shudders. “And… now us, it seems.”

Kakyoin lets out a whimper, which is followed by a harsh breath on the edge of a snarl. Hierophant manifests, gently wrapping around him, and Kakyoin has to bite back the urge to cry again, his temples pounding with an awful headache, needling right into his brain. It almost reminds Kakyoin of the fleshbud, and he shakes his head like a dog, gritting his teeth.

“I- Avdol, I need- I need-” Kakyoin aches. “You promised. Remember you promised you’d be honest.”

“I know,” Avdol says, voice edged, before he repeats softer, “I know.” Kakyoin takes a second to restabilize his breathing. “I remember. No more secrets.”

“Sorry,” Kakyoin says hoarsely.

Avdol hums dismissively. “I forgive you. Go on.”

“... What does it mean?” Kakyoin whispers. “That he has t-timestop. What does- because stands and souls and- what does it mean-” Is he doomed? Am I doomed?

“Kakyoin,” Avdol interjects softly, and Kakyoin shuts up. After a few heartbeats with neither speaking, Avdol takes a breath. “I…” he sighs, long and low, and somehow, it helps Kakyoin reground, reminding him to breathe himself.

“I can’t…say for sure,” Avdol says quietly, like he’s speaking to a scared animal, and Kakyoin twitches. Maybe I am one. “I didn’t- I only ever faced DIO directly once, and that was hardly enough to understand how The World was responding to aspects of its relationship with DIO, and DIO’s soul.”

Kakyoin twitches again, fear flooding his veins, pushing all his blood out of the way, just leaving him cold. “But- but-”

“But,” Avdol agrees quietly, “I can tell you that Jotaro and DIO don’t…they’re not-” he sighs. “Admittedly it means something is- something in them manifests the same way,” Kakyoin’s vision swims, his pulse beating in his fingertips, and Hierophant wrapping around him is the only reason he’s keeping his balance, DIO and I- “but they’re not the same overall. I know you and Jotaro haven’t been on the best terms, but you know they’re not the s-”

“I don’t think I know him at all,” Kakyoin admits in a whisper, and his voice cracks. “Maybe I used to. I forgot how-” Kakyoin’s breath hitches and he just can’t continue speaking past the lump in his throat.

Avdol lets out a soft noise. “Kakyoin…”

It’s quiet for several moments, Kakyoin trying and failing to just breathe, when Avdol speaks again.

“In my research, I’ve found that stand power is projected from different parts of the soul,” he says, and Kakyoin gaze snaps to the phone, as if he could see Avdol that way. “Different people…different things fuel different stands in different ways. But there are some generalizations.”

Kakyoin nods numbly, forgetting Avdol can’t see him. He lets out a hoarse, comprehending noise.

“It’s important to remember it’s just a part of a soul,” Avdol continues, and something in Kakyoin squirms, “and beyond that, things that seem similar aren’t always as alike as they appear.”

Kakyoin scrubs his eyes. “What do you mean?” He asks hoarsely.

Avdol hums. “Do you- do you remember Rubber Soul?” It’s such a nonsequitur that Kakyoin can’t help but laugh a little, hysterically.

“What?” His voice cracks. “Yes, why?”

“He and-” Avdol laughs softly then, “I’ve talked with him again since becoming the head of the stand department at the SPW. He and another standuser, Oingo, have very similar stand powers. They can both transform to look like others.”

Kakyoin lets out another sound to signal he’s following, starting to understand why Avdol brought this up.

“There’s differences in how it functions, but the power is the same,” Avdol continues. “There’s no way to know for sure about these things, but…I think it stems from them both being naturally distrusting. To them, even showing your real face can be vulnerable…” Kakyoin feels the back of his neck prickle. Avdol clears his throat. “But… That said, they’re very different people. Rubber Soul is cowardly, but confident, especially in his real looks. Oingo is shyer, his own pride less focused on himself and more on his little brother.

“So… I can’t say what exactly their stand powers are inspired by in their hearts,” Avdol murmurs, “but whatever it is, whatever they share, it clearly isn’t anything definitive of their whole person. Not really. The same goes for DIO and Jotaro.”

And finally, Kakyoin feels like he can breathe a little, something in him settling so abruptly after years of rattling around his chest. He gasps for air, his lungs gratefully taking it all in, and he moves one hand from the phone to rub his eyes aggressively, his body protesting the urge to cry greatly with a sharp throb of his headache, but his eyes straining for tears anyway.

“Kakyoin?” Avdol asks, voice laced with concern, and Kakyoin lets out a wet gasp.

“It’s not- it’s not just Jotaro, for why I called,” he admits hoarsely. “I- I know it’s not a stand, but DIO’s- DIO’s f-fleshbuds-” Kakyoin sucks in a breath. “Hierophant can enter people and control their minds t-too.”

“Oh,” Avdol says, understanding dawning in his tone. “Ka-”

“And I- I just- if not even Jotaro could escape- if Jotaro was like DIO and not even he could escape that association, then- then-”

“Noriaki,” Avdol breaks in, and Kakyoin shudders, Hierophant echoing it before squeezing him gently.

“I- I was scared,” Kakyoin admits in a whisper.

“Noriaki,” Avdol repeats, tone so soft and sympathetic and it itches Kakyoin’s skin and it makes him feel warm and he feels entirely overwhelmed.

It’s quiet for a moment, and then,

“I don’t know DIO on a personal level, like I said,” Avdol murmurs, “and I can’t pretend to. But I do know you.” Kakyoin shudders, his skin feeling tender and raw and overstimulated and warm. “If I had to guess, I would assume that power stems from your charm.”

Kakyoin blinks. “H-huh?”

Avdol laughs lightly. “Pardon me for how I phrase this, but you’re good with different personas, Kakyoin. Seeing you flit between polite and rude on a whim on the journey was- pretty funny.”

Kakyoin twitches, feeling a small flush curl over his cheeks. “I- I was a teenager! Mood swings are normal!”

“Sure,” Avdol agrees, his small smile evident in his voice, “but at least half of that was intentional switching, not just hormone-driven.”

“I- ugh,” Kakyoin shakes his head.

“My point is,” Avdol says, the teasing lilt to his voice dropping, “is that you’re good at making people think what you want them to think. I assume Hierophant’s power is an extension of that.”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. He supposes DIO was good at that too – making people believe him, or at least only seeing the pieces he wanted them to. Those there for money, or love, or friendship like him… We all believed what front DIO put up and it made becoming ensnared by him so easy.

Kakyoin feels a little ill.

“Regardless of if that’s where it stemmed from for DIO too or not,” Avdol continues softly, “what matters is how you use it. You don’t hurt people like DIO did; I didn’t even know you had this power after all. You don’t want to hurt people like DIO did. So you won’t, and so you’re not the same – not in any damning way.”

Kakyoin lets out a shaky breath. Avdol says it with such finality…

“Okay,” he says hoarsely. He isn’t sure if he believes it, but if nothing else, he doesn’t have it in him to argue right now.

It’s quiet for several moments after that, and Kakyoin’s eyes slide close, blocking out the light. His headache eases as blissful darkness floods his vision, and Kakyoin lets out a small breath, slumping a bit.

“Can you tell Jotaro what I said?”

Kakyoin jumps from where he began to doze, reopening his eyes. “Huh?”

“I- Jotaro’s relationship with Star Platinum has always been a little rocky,” Avdol elaborates, “and this- well, it clearly doesn’t help matters. So…could you let him know what I’ve said? He never answers calls from me…we only talk when he’s the one initiating.”

Kakyoin aches. Didn’t Polnareff say something like that once too? The thought of Jotaro doing this- this avoidance for ten years makes Kakyoin’s stomach turn. A part of him snarls, How dare he do this when people are reaching out to him?! Doesn’t he know how fortunate he is?! Another part just weeps. Did I really do anything different this past decade?

Not for the first time in his life, Kakyoin thinks, Oh, I’ve been such an asshole.

“Yes,” he finally says, softly. “I will. I promise.” He takes a breath. “Avdol, I- I was wrong. I was wrong.”

I was wrong.

Avdol clicks his tongue a little, and Kakyoin refocuses.

“I think…I think we were all wrong,” Avdol says quietly. “P-” his voice breaks but he recovers quickly, “Polnareff and I were wrong to leave you out. Jotaro was wrong to never talk to you. It’s a shared burden…” Avdol goes quiet then.

“But-” Kakyoin’s voice cracks. “But-” No regrets. I want to be brave. I want to be brave. “We’ll fix it. We’ll fix it.”

Avdol is quiet for a long time after that, Kakyoin gripping his phone desperately, suspended in limbo. Finally, Avdol says, “Yes…we’ll fix it.” Then, gaining strength, he echoes it, same as Kakyoin, “We’ll fix it.”

Kakyoin feels release.

The call doesn’t last much longer after that, what with Kakyoin’s exhaustion and headache pressing down in an unignorable fashion, and Akira nearing the edge of being unsupervised for too long. Avdol bids him goodnight. Hierophant stays wrapped around him the whole time.

After hanging up, he takes his proper dosage of painkillers, with a grimace and a sense of relief. Kakyoin lays back, staring up at the ceiling as Hierophant circles around him and his pain is slowly muffled. Some tentacles move to string up around the room as they always do, but the rest remain with him.

He closes his burning eyes and sighs.

I want to be brave.

His hands curl into fists and for the first time since he was 17, a fire unrelated to anger takes hold of his chest, a press that tugs him forward, forward, forward, like he is more the fire itself than what it is burning, pulled along a gasoline trail, and he takes a deep breath.

I want to be brave. I want to be brave.

Whatever the similarity between DIO and Jotaro is, or was, Kakyoin will find it. And whatever the difference of that similarity is, he will find it. He has to. For himself if nothing else, to show Polnareff he’s trying . To…

I was wrong.

I want to be brave.

Kakyoin falls into a dreamless sleep.

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Chapter 31

Summary:

“I said” - Koichi’s voice bursts from the speakers, and Kakyoin’s blood runs cold at his high, panicked tone, Okuyasu and Yukako both stiffening beside him- “that- I-” Koichi lets out an enraged snarl, something Kakyoin has never heard from the boy, and it spurs him into action.

Marching up, he barks into the speaker, “Koichi?! What’s wrong?!”

“Fuck,” Koichi curses, and Kakyoin blinks rapidly at the language. “It’s bad! I was- I ran into the killer! Mr. Jotaro’s hurt!”

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Kakyoin gets to Josuke’s house the following day later than he’d like. He curses as he hikes up the sidewalk to the porch, lip curled surly. It’s not even rush hour yet, he thinks. He shakes his head then, letting out a long sigh. It’s not like traffic near a hotel follows normal timing, he supposes…

He knocks then, the impact reverberating dully through his knuckles from inside his glove, and seconds later Josuke opens the door, offering a smile up at Kakyoin. “Yo, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin lets out a sigh and echoes the smile. “Josuke. Is everyone here?”

Josuke’s lips purse then. “Okuyasu and Yukako, yeah. Koichi’s running a little late…”

Kakyoin frowns. That’s out of character. “Huh. Well, glad I’m not last, at least.”

Josuke chuckles a little then and invites Kakyoin inside.

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Okuyasu calls from his spot on the couch once he and Josuke enter the living room, Yukako curled up in a chair examining a magazine, which makes Josuke curl his lip. “Are you feeling b-?”

“Hey!” Josuke barks, marching up to Yukako. “That’s my spot! And my magazine!”

Yukako hums noncommittally.

Josuke twitches. “I’m serious! This is my house!”

“And I’m your guest,” Yukako says plainly and turns a page. Josuke jerks before grabbing the chair and bodily angling it so that Yukako tumbles out of the seat with a shriek. “HEY!!”

Josuke plops down while Yukako shoots to her feet, glaring, her hair rising menacingly around her like an aura.

“You-”

“Stop!” Okuyasu snaps before Kakyoin can speak, and he swivels his head to face him, blinking in surprise. Okuyasu crosses his arms, huffing. “You two are acting like Pochi with the rats in the walls. Relax!”

Kakyoin blinks again before frowning. “There are rats in your walls?”

Okuyasu winces then, and before Kakyoin can apologize but also ask Okuyasu to elaborate, because he cannot be living in such an unstable space, Yukako speaks up.

“I’m not like a dog,” she says petulantly, and Josuke huffs.

“Could’ve fooled me,” he mutters, and she bares her teeth at him.

“Hey! Seriously,” Kakyoin calls, and the two just sigh. He glances back at Okuyasu. “We’re discussing this later,” he says, which makes Okuyasu grimace, before he turns back to Yukako and Josuke. “You two are acting like children. I didn’t even know you didn’t like each other, you’ve been civil until now.”

Josuke snorts. “Kinda hard to like someone who kidnapped your friend.”

“I said I was sorry,” Yukako hisses, and Josuke scoffs.

“Y-“

“Enough! I’m serious! Okuyasu was right, you two are like cats and dogs!” Kakyoin scolds. Josuke and Yukako both flinch, turning away from each other. Kakyoin frowns at this.

“Like rats and dogs,” Okuyasu corrects quietly before he can say anything, and Kakyoin chuckles, the mood of the room lightening a little.

“Right, yeah,” Kakyoin acquiesces, letting out an exaggerated sigh as he sits gingerly on the couch, sinking into the cushions and setting his crutches down on his lap, not intending to stay for long. “Rats and dogs.”

Josuke and Yukako glance at each other before echoing the sigh, looking cowed. Yukako hands Josuke back the magazine, which he takes stiffly before going and moving to sit between Okuyasu and Kakyoin.

“Are you feeling any better from yesterday, Mr. Kakyoin?” Okuyasu asks, and Kakyoin has to bite back another, more genuine, sigh. Yukako and Josuke both perk up, gazes more alert as they look at him.

He’s hardly been able to sleep, head too full of thoughts that couldn’t even form a coherent string, brain spinning and spinning and spinning like a top as he tried to figure out what to even say to Jotaro. Regardless of if he gets a clue, he is going to talk to him after training with the kids. He can’t lose his nerve, not anymore.

But that level of detail is not the kids’ concern, and Kakyoin half wonders if any of it is.

But glancing at Josuke, who is watching him carefully, Kakyoin swallows a sigh again and just leans back against the couch. “Better,” he confirms, his voice coming out…not soft, but not as firm as he was hoping. He doesn’t have the energy to begrudge it. “And you kids?”

Josuke eyes him, considering, while Yukako picks at her skirt. “Kind of wishing I brought my gym clothes for this.”

Okuyasu laughs a little. “Not a brush?”

Yukako’s lips purse. “Hm… Well, I’m not borrowing Josuke’s brush.”

“Wha-” Josuke lets out a choked sound. “I wouldn’t have- my brushes are fine! You should want- but I wouldn’t give one to you anyway!” He snarls. Yukako just shrugs and Okuyasu giggles, which makes Josuke’s head snap toward him, blinking as if he forgot he was in the room past his irritation.

“Relax, Josuke,” Okuyasu snickers, lighting brushing Josuke’s shoulder in such a sad excuse for a punch Kakyoin has to wonder if Okuyasu truly intended to stroke along his arm instead, and Josuke’s jaw shuts as he stares at him. “She’s just trying to piss you off.”

Kakyoin shifts a little, eyes re-sweeping the room instead of focusing on the two, and realizes Koichi hasn’t somehow manifested in the few minutes they’ve been there. He frowns.

There’s a murderer on the loose, his mind helpfully reminds him, as another part picks that exact moment to recall Hazamada’s words, Standusers attract standusers. His belly swoops, a chill settling in his guts.

“Do any of you three know when Koichi is getting here?” He asks, tone light. Josuke snaps out of whatever reverie he was in, as does Okuyasu, both of them looking away from each other and around the room suddenly. Yukako shifts, brows creasing as she glances outside of the window.

“No…” Okuyasu murmurs, and Josuke crosses his arms.

“He’s- probably got held up by some teacher. His English grade keeps going up and down, right?”

Yukako hums noncommittally. “I- yeah, he’s…it’s one of his more difficult subjects.”

Josuke squints at that but doesn’t comment. Okuyasu shifts.

Kakyoin ignores the lump growing in his throat and casually leans forward, pulling his crutches off his lap and lifting himself up with them. “W-”

The phone rings, and they all jump. Everyone stares at each other for a second, but then it rings again, and Josuke springs up, rushing to the phone. Kakyoin can’t help but follow a few paces behind, Okuyasu and Yukako beside him.

Josuke pulls the phone off the ringer just as the third tone begins. “Er, hello?”

Kakyoin cannot make out what the voice on the other line says explicitly, but he can hear a panicked shout from where he’s standing, making him, Yukako, and Okuyasu all tense. Josuke goes pale and immediately slams the speaker button as he shouts, “What?!” into the phone.

“I said” - Koichi’s voice bursts from the speakers, and Kakyoin’s blood runs cold at his high, panicked tone, Okuyasu and Yukako both stiffening beside him- “that- I-” Koichi lets out an enraged snarl, something Kakyoin has never heard from the boy, and it spurs him into action.

Marching up, he barks into the speaker, “Koichi?! What’s wrong?!”

“Fuck,” Koichi curses, and Kakyoin blinks rapidly at the language. “It’s bad! I was- I ran into the killer! Mr. Jotaro’s hurt!”

If Kakyoin thought it was ice in his veins before, now his blood must be liquid nitrogen, the way he shudders, the way his heart strains against a sudden, heartstopping cold.

“It’s-it’s all my fault, it’s all my fau-” Koichi’s voice is gaining pitch with his rising hysteria, and Josuke bares his teeth.

“Koichi, where are you?!”

They can both hear Koichi’s rapid intake of breath to reply, but it hiccups in his chest, the soft sound echoing over the phone, and Kakyoin goes so still it aches, his muscle strangling his bones. “Wha- why is it- when did the stove turn on? I thought it was broken!”

“Koichi!” Kakyoin yells, and he bites his tongue when everyone in the room flinches at his tone, but he can’t apologize. Not now. “Location, now!”

“The Hundred Feet shoe shop!” Koichi gasps into the phone, before he turns, voice muffled but his snarl clear as he spits, “You look over here you stupid damn tank-!”

There’s a crash, muffled yelling, and then a BOOM! and the call cuts out.

Kakyoin doesn’t have time for the fear to fully settle in his gut before he’s out the door, Josuke, Okuyasu, and Yukako flying behind him.

“What the hell’s going on?!” Okuyasu yells as they race forward. “What’s- is he okay?!”

“I- We just need to get to the Hundred Feet shop!” Kakyoin replies hastily. He rears back a bit with a small flash of panic, the words reminding him he has no idea where that is, so he has to follow Josuke’s lead. He twitches violently. 

I ran into the killer!

Mr. Jotaro’s hurt!

No, Kakyoin thinks nearly hysterically, not now, please not now, not anyone else, not after Polnareff, not before I get some damn answers-!

Somehow, the cold in his bones doesn’t sap his energy, but instead spurs him on, as if he can outrun a chill that exists in his marrow if he just moves fast enough. He keeps good pace with the kids even with his crutches catching on the asphalt, his panic making him sloppy, but he doesn’t care-

“How far is it?!” Kakyoin barks.

“Two minutes by foot!” Josuke snaps back.

Yukako growls beside Kakyoin. “Not fast enough,” she seethes, and Kakyoin is inclined to agree. All they can do is pump their legs.

Fuck. Kakyoin swallows back the lump forming in his throat that’s quickly making it hard to breathe. He cannot deal with this right now, he needs to keep up his speed.

Mr. Jotaro’s hurt! It’s all my fault!

Kakyoin grits his teeth and swings his arms forward, his crutches clicking noisily underneath him as he keeps up with the kids.

Last time he was in danger it went fine, Kakyoin attempts to rationalize. Hazamada never even saw him in the end, it- it’s going to be fine-

“What was that at the end of the call?!” Okuyasu calls then, “Is- is Koichi okay?!”

“I don’t know!” Josuke snaps, voice rising in hysteria, and Kakyoin grinds his teeth together tightly enough that his jaw aches. If he weren’t already running, his heart rate would have picked up noticeably with the flush of ice that refreezes his system once again. He’s gotten well acquainted with the feeling in the past two days, Kakyoin thinks distantly.

“Koichi’s gonna be fine,” he cuts in breathlessly then, “everyone’s going to be fine. It’s going to be fine.”

Josuke clenches his jaw and nods. They keep running. Kakyoin can feel sweat beading on his back and he just snarls wordlessly, ripping his scarf away from his face to give himself a little air, but he can’t stop running-

At a corner, Josuke suddenly skids, twisting to dive into the mouth of an alley, only to scramble to a stop, his chest heaving, hands twitching. Kakyoin already feels nausea building in his throat – there’s no way freezing like that can mean anything good – the ice in his stomach malleable despite its chill, twisting to form a knot out of his entrails-

Kakyoin turns the corner and the air whooshes out from his lungs as if they were being squeezed, his crutches nearly slipping out from underneath him.

Debris and blood smear the entire alley, glass and wood and plaster all speckled and shining with it, and in the center lie Koichi and Jotaro. Off to the side, a blond bystander in a purple suit lays in his own puddle of blood, but Kakyoin’s vision is rapidly tunneling. Kakyoin can feel his eyes doing- something, the muscles twitching as he inevitably zeroes in on the details, unable to escape from looking, like light falling into a black hole.

Koichi has a hole in his chest, much too similar to the one Kakyoin sees in the mirror every day. Jotaro is limp in a puddle of his own blood, dozens of smaller holes riddling his back.

Kakyoin has never felt colder in his entire life.

“K-KOICHI!” Okuyasu yells, and it startles everyone into movement. Josuke launches forward, Crazy Diamond already manifesting beside him as he rushes into the alley, grabbing the first body he sees.

B-

Body-

Kakyoin has to fight a wave of nausea, his head spinning, as if the center of the Earth’s rotation became where Jotaro and Koichi lie instead of the sun, and he’s left to reel around it.

That’s- that’s not fair, Kakyoin thinks absent-mindedly. We were just talking to Koichi. He was fine just two minutes ago-

Kakyoin recalls the boom and yell over the phone and wonders if that was them listening to Koichi die, and his face blanches.

No wonder he doesn’t trust you, Kakyoin faintly hears, and guilt and shame make him halt.

I’m not completely useless, he recalls, and Kakyoin swears he can see water around Koichi’s still body, could swear it’s night and not day, could swear Koichi has red hair, but when he blinks, the water is gone, the sun glares down on them, making Kakyoin sweat in a decidedly-not-winter heat, and Koichi’s hair glints silver in it.

It’s all my fault! Koichi had said.

It’s all my fault, Kakyoin’s thoughts echo distantly. It’s all my-

Yukako and Okuyasu barrel past him, dropping to their knees at Koichi’s side as Josuke begins healing, leaving Kakyoin to slowly step forward after them, his heart beating in his ears, his throat, his fingertips, his stomach-

He can see the concrete through the hole in Koichi. Kakyoin stumbles, but his gaze doesn’t retract. That’s his stomach, Kakyoin thinks, the small flash of fleshy pink winking wetly up at Kakyoin past shreds of uniform and ribs and sinew. That’s good, I think, Kakyoin thinks numbly. That’s…better than it being pulverized to dust. Right?

Josuke’s hands cover the wound then, overlain with the warm pink glow indicative of his stand, and suddenly it’s gone from view. But Kakyoin can still hear the creak of bone as Crazy Diamond begins stitching it all back together and he shudders violently.

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth. His stomach roils.

I don’t have a stomach, he thinks faintly, and he has to turn before he throws u-

Jotaro.

If Koichi’s state made him nauseous, Jotaro’s makes him dizzy – so dizzy, in fact, that he finally loses grip of his crutches, the sweat lining his palms making them slip out from underneath him. He collapses to his knees, the blow softened by Hierophant suspending him at the last minute, gently lowering him down near Jotaro.

He’s still, his face in the dirt. His hat has slipped off, and Kakyoin abruptly is reminded of yesterday, when he shook Jotaro hard enough that his hat fell. That’s not fair either, Kakyoin thinks numbly. He was fine just yesterday. He- he was supposed to- I was supposed to talk to him. I was supposed to have more time to talk to him.

He’s pale, and it makes the blood on his face, leaking from his nose and down past his lip, look more damning as a result. Another memory bubbles to the forefront of Kakyoin’s mind, this time of when he first arrived in Morioh, and how Jotaro looked like a frozen lake. Now he looks like frozen meat, covered in frost but still bleeding, and still dead.

Kakyoin twitches, moving before he realizes it. He scoots forward, pulling Jotaro onto his side, inclined to face him, resting against his knees.

Jotaro goes limply, his head rolling, arms remaining lifeless, and Kakyoin’s heart squeezes.

I’ll talk to him after training with the kids.

I want to be brave.

Kakyoin wants to eat his heart out. I was supposed to have more time, this wasn’t supposed to be like it was with Polnareff-

“H-” Kakyoin’s voice sticks to his throat, and he needs to swallow thickly past a lump to speak again. “Hey. Hey. J-” -Don’t call me that echoes in Kakyoin’s head- “-Kujo.” He gives him a faint shake, only for his stomach to turn when Jotaro’s head rocks back and forth due to it, no fight or resistance.

I don’t have a stomach, Kakyoin remembers.

I don’t have Jotaro, echoes a faint memory.

Kakyoin twitches, his grip on Jotaro’s coat tightening. I need to talk to you. I didn’t get to talk to Polnareff. Don’t do this to me too. Don’t go, not again, not without me getting to say something-

“J-Jotaro,” Kakyoin croaks, “Jotaro, you’re-” You’re scaring me “you’re scaring the kids. Kujo- Jo-Jotaro, h-hey-”

He pulls Jotaro back a little more, further into his lap, only to go still when warmth bleeds onto his knees. He glances down reflexively only to go pale. He can see his own leg staring at him past Jotaro’s ripped skin and missing muscle and bone, blood still seeping from the wounds, and Kakyoin has to turn his head as he gags, his shoulders shuddering, his eyes burning. Don’t do this to me again-

Josuke is there, suddenly, and it feels like Kakyoin can breathe a little.

“Josuke,” he croaks, “don’t- don’t look, it’s-”

“Mr. Kakyoin, I need to heal him now,” Josuke says sternly, his voice wavering, his hands shaking, and Kakyoin blinks, remembering Crazy Diamond. The hope suddenly blooming in his chest is searingly warm, a thorned rose, digging into the backs of his tender ribs.

Kakyoin silently tilts Jotaro in Josuke’s direction, but he refuses to drop him completely. Josuke doesn’t seem to notice or mind; he scans Jotaro’s body, face paling at the number of holes, before he shoots his hands forward, Crazy Diamond’s hands overlaying his own.

Kakyoin turns his head then, glancing back. Koichi-

Koichi’s wound is gone. Kakyoin lets out a choked breath, feeling his head spin, his stomach – I don’t have a stomach – pressing up against the back of his throat, his brain pitching precariously around in his skull. Even his uniform is righted, Crazy Diamond having the kindness to rework the fibers to how they should have been, and Kakyoin swallows thickly.

Still has his stomach, then. I was right. It’s good.

His own guts roil, nauseous, again.

Okuyasu and Yukako both are cradling Koichi, Okuyasu brushing sweaty strands of hair from his face, Yukako keeping him upright. His head is lolled into the crook of Okuyasu’s neck, but the color is returning to his cheeks, and he looks, truly, alive, if just asleep.

Kakyoin lets out a small whimper, suddenly blinking back tears.

“Koi-”

Josuke stands back then, gravel crunching under his feet, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze back to him. “I- I need to make sure Koichi-” His gaze darts between Jotaro and Koichi, and Kakyoin swallows thickly. He’s still holding Jotaro, he notes dimly. He’s not warm. Kakyoin’s nerves prickle.

“Josuke,” he says hoarsely, and he blinks rapidly, shocked at his own tone. Josuke’s gaze snaps to him. Kakyoin swallows and tries again. “You’re- it’s okay. You’ve done your part. I-”his voice catches. “I’ve got- Kujo,”

Josuke blinks before his face scrunches up for a moment – a mix of a sneer, a question, and a cry, before he ducks his head and returns to Okuyasu and Yukako’s circle around Koichi, saying nothing. 

Kakyoin turns his head to follow his departure, intending to say I mean it, but a flash of white draws his attention back to Jotaro.

The blood is gone, his wounds closed, like they were never there in the first place. Kakyoin can no longer see his knee through him. His pants still cling to his skin, though, wet where Jotaro’s blood seeped onto him. Kakyoin swallows thickly, bringing a shaky hand absently to where one of the tears in Jotaro’s chest was.

Jotaro doesn’t react at all to the touch.

“Jotaro?” Kakyoin murmurs, angling Jotaro to incline toward him again. Jotaro’s eyes remain closed. “...Kujo?” He tries again.

Jotaro doesn’t respond.

Kakyoin can feel his ears ring. “Jotaro,” his voice breaks. Don’t do this to me too, don’t do this to me, don’t do this to me, I already lost Polnareff, you can’t do this to me, I wanted to be brave, I wanted to talk to you, I wanted, I wanted, I wanted-

The rose of hope in his chest is turning back on him, thorns growing like claws and tearing into his tissues, bringing everything in his chest cavity down into the shade of a thicket of brambles. Regret makes quick work of his entrails, sinking them down like quicksand, cold and heavy, wet and inescapable, sticky and consuming, and Kakyoin is going to die here. “You- you- you can’t,” Kakyoin whispers, “You owe me, you owe me, you- you-” I need to talk to you-

I wish I had never met you.

Kakyoin gasps at the memory from when they first beat Red Hot Chili Pepper. He blinks, his vision suddenly clearing of tears he didn’t realize had built, his face feeling hot. “Jotaro-”

I wanted to talk to you one last time. I didn’t mean- I didn’t- I didn’t- Not now, I need- I need-

Kakyoin can barely breathe, memories washing over him, tears reclouding his vision, and Kakyoin can’t be bothered by it because at least then he won’t need to look at Jotaro’s too-pale face with the bruising eyebags and furrowed brows even in death and it’s so different than the young man he knew and befriended and nearly got himself killed for and Kakyoin aches, aches, aches-

Then you didn’t remember me, and Kakyoin can’t breathe.

We’ll fix this, and Kakyoin squeezes Jotaro’s body tighter, pulling him closer, searching his face for something, anything, but not even a twitch-

Do you think less of me? Jotaro still just limply goes along with Kakyoin’s ministrations and it makes Kakyoin fucking sick.

I feel like a kid and it’s all his fault, and Kakyoin just holds him, staring at him, his hearing gone, his breathing stopped, everything- everything stopped.

You need to leave before you get another person killed, and Jotaro’s cold hands in Kakyoin’s.

I hate you, I hate you, I hate y-

It’s the least I could do. For my best friend.

Jotaro’s eyes open and Kakyoin gasps raggedly, immediately ducking down and pulling Jotaro flush to his chest. He smells like sweat and blood and dust and Kakyoin doesn’t care, not at all. Something between his ribs is writhing and strangling his lungs, and he is shaking, his hands trembling so hard he’s almost dropping Jotaro, a tidal wave washing out the sand from his guts, leaving him empty and even colder and wet-

“Fuck,” Kakyoin’s voice cracks, and he has to swallow harshly, over and over, to bite back the tears. “Fuck. Fuck- Jotaro?”

He can feel Jotaro moving, and the brambly roses in his chest slowly retract their thorns as Jotaro dazedly paws at Kakyoin’s shoulders, his chest rumbling against his arms as he hums inaudibly.

“Ka-” Kakyoin shudders as Jotaro’s voice rasps out, “Kaky’n?”

“Fuck,” Kakyoin nearly sobs, drawing back to look down at the man in his arms, not even caring that his spine lashes at his nerves angrily over the position. “You goddamn idiot, what the hell did you do?”

Jotaro’s eyes are sea green, and Kakyoin has the impending sensation that he's lost at sea, water lapping at his throat from both the inside and out. He can drown here, the hair on the back of his neck prickling. Jotaro’s eyes are fuzzy and confused and he stares at Kakyoin like he’s the only thing he can make out.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro sighs softly, lids drooping, and Kakyoin feels a flash of panic, but before he can jerk him back awake, Jotaro seems to remember who and where he is, and he flails, violently ripping himself out of Kakyoin’s arms, leaving him with only blood covering his sleeves and pants. Kakyoin stares at the stains dazedly. “Where are- where’s Koichi!? Where’s the killer?!”

Kakyoin remembers himself too, then. His hearing beyond the two of them fades back in just in time to hear Josuke shriek, “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!”

Kakyoin and Jotaro both whip their heads to face the commotion; Koichi is waking up himself, Yukako giving him a respectful amount of space as she jerks her own head to stare at the scene. Josuke and Okuyasu crowd around the bystander, who is up and smiling despite how harshly he shakes on his two legs, his cut-off hand on the ground as he holds onto his bloody stump of an arm.

“Sheer Heart Attack,” he grins, and Kakyoin shivers at the hysteria in his tone, “you’re free.”

From his severed hand, a small, dark blue stand begins manifesting, and all at once Kakyoin remembers what Koichi said on the phone. I ran into the killer!

Jotaro charges forward as Kakyoin shoots up, Hierophant slapping his crutches back into his hands. “Josuke!” Jotaro calls, before breaking into a cough. Josuke and Okuyasu snap their gazes back toward them. “It’s- it’s a remote controlled stand! It goes after high temperatures spontaneously and explodes!”

Kakyoin pales. “What?!”

“And it’s invincible,” the stranger- the killer, Kakyoin shudders – crows, before tilting his head one last time, having the audacity to wave before he turns and runs.

Kakyoin shudders, a vicious, viscous disgust quaking down his back like rocky lava. The pressure of it against the knobs of his spine sparks and ignites the anger Kakyoin has become so used to, and he clings to it with both hands.

“You- YOU!” Kakyoin yells, the images of Koichi laying limply with the same wound Kakyoin has looked at every day for ten years , of Jotaro’s head lulling lifelessly as Kakyoin shook his limp body, of Reimi’s red-rimmed eyes as she sobbed flashing in his mind.

Jotaro is focused on Josuke and Okuyasu, shouting instructions as Yukako helps Koichi to his feet swiftly, Koichi looking a little ill but quickly refocusing on the situation. It gives Kakyoin the opportunity he needs. Hierophant appears, hoisting Kakyoin up, and, similar to when he chased down Red Hot Chili Pepper, he rushes after the killer, Hierophant’s long tentacles carrying him forward like long legs, letting him catch up even with the head start the killer had.

“KAKYOIN!” He can hear Jotaro bellow, but it just reminds him of how cold Jotaro was in his arms, how Koichi’s stomach was seeping out of his own wound, how even little Arnold had a slit throat, and Kakyoin snarls and flies forward, leaving Jotaro, Koichi, Josuke, Okuyasu, and Yukako behind.

He’s not focusing on where they’re going, or who can even see him – he’s just focused on the blonde man in the purple suit, fire white hot in his veins, making his sweating even worse under the harsh afternoon sun, HOW DARE YOU TOUCH THEM-

He blinks, and the man skids to a stop, jerks his head around, before he turns and darts into a building.

Kakyoin grits his teeth, eyes glancing at the sign outside reflexively before he does a double take as Hierophant puts him down, his tunnel vision fading back out, and he realizes I know this street.

Tsuji Aya’s Cinderella.

Kakyoin’s blood runs cold for the second time today, and he distantly wonders if he’ll ever feel warm ever again.

He hears a crash inside and he jerks and spurs back into motion, racing forward and through the doors. A trail of blood and shed clothes – that damn purple suit – line the entryway, alongside an ID. Kakyoin blinks at it before swallowing thickly. Kira Yoshikage. His name is Kira Yoshikage-

“WAIT-!”

BOOM!

“AYA?!” Kakyoin shrieks as he makes it past the entryway, only to skid to a stop, his heart pounding.

Aya is backing away from the man in horror, her stand standing protectively in front of her as she does, while her client, whoever he was, slumps down in his seat facedown over the desk of the station he was sat at, a smoking hole in his torso where evidently the explosion came from. Kakyoin faintly hears Jotaro’s voice over the blood in his ears say It explodes!

He needs to get Aya out of there, now-

The man – Kira, Kakyoin’s mind supplies – growls, ducking his head as his shoulders, covered in a new, plain white shirt, hike up to his ears, hiding his face. “You are such a troublesome lot,” he snarls, not turning to say it, and Kakyoin spits, rushing toward him.

“NORIAKI, WATCH OUT!” Aya shrieks, Cinderella reaching for him, and Hierophant goes to reach for her too to brush her hands out of the way, keeping her clear from the line of fire.

It leaves him vulnerable, though, as a pink figure appears in front of Kira and Kakyoin suddenly realizes the blue thing from earlier must not be the only manifestation of Kira’s stand.

“Fuck,” he whispers as the cat-like being fully manifests and reaches out with a hiss similar to the sound of a match being lit, snagging onto Kakyoin’s scarf, dragging him forward more into its space-

“NO!” Aya yells as she dives forward, batting away Hierophant’s tentacles and crashing against Kakyoin, sending them sprawling. His scarf, already loose from earlier, tumbles away from them, and not a moment later, the fabric explodes, causing the building to shudder as another BOOM echoes through the walls. Sparks from the explosion shower down to the carpet as smoke rises, and Kakyoin can tell a fire is about to start, the air turning sour with the smell of burnt polyester.

Kakyoin gapes underneath Aya’s weight, staring at the remains of his scarf with wide eyes, before darting his gaze back up as Kira takes advantage of the smoke now concealing his face and runs forward again, right towards them.

“I just,” Kira snarls breathlessly, “want to live,” his stand manifests again, reaching a clawed hand toward Aya and Kakyoin both, “MY LIFE!”

He grabs her ponytail, and Kakyoin shrieks, Hierophant manifesting, already firing off an Emerald Splash, the sharp gems cutting away Aya’s hair just as the strands Kira was gripping explode. Aya cries out as the heat sears into the flesh at the back of her neck, and Kakyoin’s heart twinges, but he rather her hurt and burnt than dead.

Kira snarls animalistically, shaking his hand of the ash that remains of Aya’s hair as he backs away back into the further-gathering smoke and away from Hierophant’s rapid fire, and Kakyoin glowers at his shadow even past his watering eyes and burning lungs, the inevitable fire now showing flames, licking along the carpet.

“Fine,” Kira seethes, “I guess we’ll make a spectacle. The smoke should make my escape easier, anyway.” His silhouette gestures a bit then, “Thank you for your business, Miss Tsuji!”

Kakyoin can’t care to dissect that line right then. He just grabs Aya and runs, we have to get out of here, not another, I can’t lose anyone else, no, no, no-

Polnareff-

Koichi-

Jotaro-

There’s a faint click that seems to echo from all the walls and Kakyoin recalls what Kira just said – we’ll make a spectacle – before giving one last-ditch sprint toward the entryway, then leaping, his spine howling at him as he wraps himself and Aya head to toe, tightly, in Hierophant’s tentacles.

There’s a smaller explosion first, and then, the salon itself explodes.

The roar of fire echoes in Kakyoin’s ears and he honestly is worried he’ll go deaf, but then the heat rushes over him and Kakyoin can’t help but shriek, clutching Aya tighter as multiple tentacles of Hierophant are burned as they fly through the air, his spine sobbing and wailing over all the activity, Aya screaming alongside it. Kakyoin thinks he might be screaming too, or sobbing, or praying.

For a moment, it’s just Aya’s perfume, Aya’s voice, Hierophant’s tentacles all around them as Kakyoin burns alive aimlessly, the blast and his last leap leaving them airborne, and all Kakyoin can think about is Jotaro’s sea green eyes, how he’d rather be drowning than burning.

Then they land, their fall cushioned by Hierophant still, and Kakyoin lets out a snarly sob as he feels the secondhand grit and roadburn dig into his already singed flesh, before Hierophant dissipates and he’s left clinging onto Aya in the street as the fire eats up what remains of her salon after the explosion, crackling noisily behind them.

He can slowly feel Aya’s arms circle him, and he accepts it even as he hisses, his raw skin underneath his tattered shirt and cardigan prickling with white-hot pain. It’s not really anything new.

“You’re safe,” Kakyoin finds himself hoarsely whispering, and Aya just grips him tighter.

Distantly, he can hear voices, shouts and the general panicked din of a crowd witnessing a fire, and after letting the hug last a little longer, Aya pulls him back, sitting them both up as she stares at him intently, Kakyoin sucking in a harsh breath as every single nerve shrieks, his ears ringing, his head heavy, every sound driving a nail past the wet sand in his skull and straight behind his eyes.

“Noriaki,” Aya says. Kakyoin can only just hear her over the crowd. “Noriaki, are- are you okay?!”

“Someone call the fire department!”

“Was anyone inside?”

“KAKYOIN!”

“MR. KAKYOIN!”

Kakyoin whips his head up then, catches sight of a flash of white, and his breath hiccups- before Josuke is suddenly in his field of vision, wild blue eyes glaring at him, just barely concealing a panicked pinch to his face.

Kakyoin blinks rapidly. “Jos-”

“What the hell happened?!” Josuke cries, staring at whatever mess must have been made of Kakyoin’s back. “Wha-”

“Kakyoin!” Jotaro is there, and Kakyoin shudders and goes limp. He’s safe-

“He got- he got away,” Kakyoin’s voice warbles miserably, “he-”

“He made- he made me use my stand,” Aya cuts in then, eyes wide, “he made me use my stand- he- he has a new face, he-”

Josuke’s face pinches while Jotaro’s darkens, eyes turning to dart about the undeniably forming crowd.

“Who is it?” Jotaro demands, just as Koichi, Okuyasu, and Yukako catch up, Koichi trembling even with his face set in determination, his body clearly not replenished with enough blood after losing so much to support running like he has been. It’s okay, Kakyoin still thinks dazedly, he can walk. He has his stomach and he can walk and he isn’t wet and he isn’t in a coma and he isn’t me-

“I- I don’t know!” Aya cries, and Kakyoin turns to her. “He- he was a damn walk-in, he- I didn’t even get to ask him his name before-”

“God dammit,” Jotaro cusses harshly, and Kakyoin shudders. “Kakyoin,” he snaps then, voice ragged and wet, “What the hell were you think- thi-” he must see whatever mess there is on Kakyoin’s back, because his face pales and he backs away, and it reminds Kakyoin of how he looked yesterday when Kakyoin had him pinned to the ground, of when he was lying basically-dead in his arms just a few minutes ago-

There’s the warmth of Crazy Diamond then, accompanying the light pressure of Josuke’s hands against his back, and Kakyoin faints.

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Chapter 32

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“Are you all okay?” Kakyoin cuts in, raising his head to scan their faces.

“We’re…” Josuke sighs heavily.

“We’re alright,” Okuyasu pipes up then, taking up for Josuke. Josuke glances at him and he smiles, shakily. Josuke leans into him, nodding a bit.

“We’re okay,” Yukako confirms. “We’re just- well, you were the one that went into a burning building,” she adds a little softly.

“It wasn’t burning when I went in…” Kakyoin chuckles quietly before his gaze slides back to Koichi. He hesitates. “...And you, Koichi?”

Koichi snaps to attention, jolting violently, which makes his friends around him hunch toward him. “Huh?”

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hi everyone!! i really hope you enjoy this chapter <3 i'm gonna try my damnedest to make the fastest turn around of my life and get another chapter out by sunday BUUUUT i admit that's a bit of a task and cannot promise it 😔 i am like, technically on summer break now but i have a short summer class that goes until july so i wont be able to focus on this fic until then...which is why i wanna get that extra chapter out LOL but we'll see 🙏

in the meantime i hope you guys enjoy this! koichi lovers rise up

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Chapter Text

When Kakyoin wakes up, he doesn’t really come-to until later, just sitting dazed and limp near an ambulance. He thinks he hears the EMT checking over him mention shock, faint lights flashing in his periphery, but he feels as if he’s underwater.

The fire has been put out, leaving only rubble where Aya’s salon had once stood. Kakyoin stares at it and thinks of ashes, and fire, and sparks, and his chest feels oddly cold.

I wonder if I’ll ever feel warm again.

He closes his eyes.

After being okayed by the EMT, Kakyoin grabs his crutches and heads out of the small encampment of emergency vehicles and personnel with a small nod. Waiting for him outside of the ring are Josuke, Koichi, Okuyasu, and Yukako.

Kakyoin’s stomach drops. Where’s-

The kids notice him then, and quickly move to crowd around him as Kakyoin hikes to meet them halfway there.

“Mr. Kakyoin-!”

“Where’s-” his voice cracks and he cringes, swallowing harshly, before repeating, “Where’s-”

“Miss Tsuji is being examined by some doctors right now,” Okuyasu fills in. “She’s okay, I think, just- you know…”

Kakyoin did know. “And…” Jotaro-

Josuke’s stares at Kakyoin solidly for a second. “...Mr. Jotaro left after talking with us a bit,” Josuke finally says, and Kakyoin feels a flare of panic. 

“What?!” No, no, no, I need to talk to him, I can’t keep letting him slip through my fingers-

Josuke’s eyes narrow at his reaction, crossing his arms. “He said he had to call the Speedwagon Foundation, so he went back to the hotel.”

Kakyoin blinks, the panic halting in his chest. “Ah…right… Yes, that…that makes sense.” Kakyoin slumps, shaking his head, and Josuke’s face softens.

“Mr. Ka-”

“Are you all okay?” Kakyoin cuts in, raising his head to scan their faces. The smoke in the air has cleared since Kakyoin was last conscious, leaving the kids to stand unobstructed in the dusk of the day. Josuke has bags hanging down from his eyes, a crease forming between his brows, his arm brushing Koichi’s shoulder. Okuyasu drops the thumb he was chewing on absently, his face sagging with the weight of the day, his own arm bumping against Koichi’s. Yukako’s hair wavers nervously, as if unsure what direction to go, standing behind Koichi at a polite but still close distance. Koichi himself looks pale and dazed, eyes bruised purple with exhaustion, dirt smudging his cheeks and hair, and he’s surrounded, he’s not alone, he’s not Kakyoin.

“We’re…” Josuke sighs heavily.

“We’re alright,” Okuyasu pipes up then, taking up for Josuke. Josuke glances at him and he smiles, shakily. Josuke leans into him, nodding a bit.

“We’re okay,” Yukako confirms. “We’re just- well, you were the one that went into a burning building,” she adds a little softly.

“It wasn’t burning when I went in…” Kakyoin chuckles quietly before his gaze slides back to Koichi. He hesitates. “...And you, Koichi?”

Koichi snaps to attention, jolting violently, which makes his friends around him hunch toward him. “Huh?”

Kakyoin’s tongue feels oddly weighty, but he presses on. “Are you alright?”

Koichi blinks before he silently, seemingly unconsciously, brushes his friends off, rubbing at his eyes before he looks up at Kakyoin, gaze lidded in some type of resignation. “I’m- I’m fine, Mr. Kakyoin, it’s- it’s fine,” he utters, and Kakyoin frowns tightly. He opens his mouth, intending to press, but Koichi continues before he can.

“He’s- the killer, I- I got information out of him before…” Koichi shudders while Josuke’s fists begin shaking, Yukako glowers as her hair whips through an invisible sharp breeze, and Okuyasu sneers soundlessly, moving to stand even closer to Koichi.

Kakyoin swallows thickly, needing to blink and glance away from the scene for a moment, before he can turn back and ask, “Yeah?”

Koichi smiles sardonically then, dark and exhausted but also victorious, and Kakyoin’s heart clenches at the familiarity of an expression he’s seen on his own face many times. “Yeah. Despite everything, when he got cocky, he got really stupid,” he spits. He sighs then, pawing at his eyes again, and Kakyoin must imagine he could really use a shower. “He said his name was Kira Yoshikage. He even gave me his address!”

Kakyoin blinks while Josuke, Okuyasu, and Yukako let out startled noises in various tones. “He- he what?”

“Well, he didn’t give it I guess, but I got his driver’s license easy enough when he was beating the hell out of me,” Koichi chuckles again, but it’s nearly soundless, and his smile is more a show of teeth than joy, and it makes Kakyoin shudder. “So- I was thinking we should visit soon and check it all out? As a start for finding where he is now,” Koichi snaps the last part, his teeth glinting in the light.

Kakyoin nods emphatically, deciding not to comment on Koichi’s tone. “Yes, that’s- yes. That’s a great idea, Koichi,” he says earnestly, and Koichi blinks at the praise, snapped out of his bitter reverie, lips lightly parting. Kakyoin doesn’t comment, instead musing aloud, “We’ll want to do it soon, before he can risk going back and destroying some evidence, so…” he shakes his head. “I’ll need to talk with the others, get- get on the same page…”

The kids all shift uneasily even if accepting. Koichi looks down, and the light glints in his eyes icily. It reminds Kakyoin of Jotaro when he first arrived in Morioh and he grits his teeth.

“Um,” he spits out. “Today was…a lot,” he finishes gently. The kids all stiffen, not quite meeting Kakyoin’s gaze. Kakyoin swallows. “So, we won’t…train tomorrow. I want you all to rest.”

Josuke and Koichi both scowl at this, Josuke opening his mouth to likely protest, but Kakyoin cuts back in before he can.

“I need you all to be ready when we raid Kira’s house. So don’t overwork yourselves and just…rest,” he says softly. Josuke blinks while Koichi’s brows furrow, his scowl dropping to a softer, but no less upset, expression. Kakyoin purses his lips. He waits a beat, but none of the kids say anything, Yukako and Okuyasu only quietly nodding to his logic. Kakyoin takes a breath, straining for lightheartedness, “...So much for doubling our training for this week; we’re not gonna train at all, now,”

It’s a weak comment, but it makes Okuyasu crack a small smile, Yukako’s hair relax against her scalp again, Josuke’s fists unclench, and some of that new edge in Koichi recede, no longer an exposed blade but a sheathed one. Kakyoin swallows thickly, running a hand through his hair, grimacing at the sweat that’s crusted over the roots.

“You all should get home,” he says softly. “It’s getting late.”

Josuke exhales roughly then. “I-” he seizes, as if not intending to speak, but the word fell out of his mouth anyway. Yukako, Okuyasu, and Koichi turn to look at him. Josuke looks a little nauseous, lips pressing together tightly and brows furrowing, before he ducks his head and spits out, “I- you- do you guys want to- to spend the night…or something?”

It’s quiet for a beat, Josuke’s face getting progressively red to a degree that concerns Kakyoin, given the heat of the summer evening, but the moment is broken when Okuyasu swings his arm around Josuke’s shoulders, leaning into his side.

“You know I’d never say no to hanging out at your mom’s house dude,” Okuyasu says with a smile, and while Josuke scoffs and shoves him, his shoulders unwind, not quite slumping so much as just dropping from covering his ears.

Koichi swallows nervously, glancing around the street, and it’s the most normal he’s acted all day, Kakyoin thinks. “I… I’ll have to call my mom, but…” Koichi blinks, shoulders dropping, his exhaustion coming back to the surface, all the tension draining from him, dripping down from his eyes as dark shadows. “I… I’d like to be around other standusers right now, yeah.”

Kakyoin’s heart pangs. Josuke smiles at Koichi despite his brows creasing.

Okuyasu turns to Yukako. “What about you, Yamagishi?”

Yukako blinks before laughing a little nervously. “Am I invited? I’m a girl, afterall…”

Okuyasu shrugs. “I mean, Josuke has a guest bedroom.”

“Okuyasu,” Josuke snaps, “don’t invite people on my behalf.”

Okuyasu blinks before frowning. “I thought you were asking all of us?”

Josuke squirms then, crossing his arms roughly, and Yukako smiles a little slyly. “Yeah Josuke, are you leaving me out?”

Josuke scoffs, but before he can speak, Yukako continues.

“I don’t know if I’ll actually sleep over, but…” Yukako shrugs, glancing at the setting sun with heavy eyes. Her violet irises are washed out in the orange light, looking almost gray. Kakyoin shivers, rubbing the back of his bare neck with a gloved hand. “Maybe for dinner.”

“Thanks for inviting yourself…” Josuke mutters, but Okuyasu laughs at him and Koichi smiles, and Kakyoin aches. “Alright, let’s get going then… Don’t want to be traveling when it’s dark.”

Kakyoin’s gut lurches, the desire to walk them back to ensure himself they’re safe flaring like a fire in his gut – but higher up, a hook around his ribs tugs him back to Aya, encouraging him to stay and watch over her instead, once she leaves the fluttering of medical and fire personnel.

He takes a shaky breath and turns to Josuke. “Hey.”

Josuke glances at him, and he looks much too old for 16, and Kakyoin is abruptly reminded of his stand power, how he can’t heal himself.

And I…I need to trust you more.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, swallowing thickly. “...Be careful, okay?” He says softly, trying not to feel like it’s a condemnation, his heart pounding over giving up his control. “I need you kids to be ready when we head to Kira’s house. So you all get home in one piece, okay?”

Josuke’s brows pinch further, his face on the verge of a scowl, eyes scanning his face, but when Kakyoin doesn’t add anything more, something dawns in Josuke’s eyes and the scowl melts back, somber understanding slacking his features. He nods.

“We’ll be okay, Mr. Kakyoin,” Josuke says. “We learned from the best, right?”

You need to trust me more, too.

Kakyoin smiles even while the backs of his eyes burn. “Right.” He takes a deep breath. “Have a good night, everyone,” he says, looking all his kids in the eyes. A part of him is still frantic, chasing itself around and around in his stomach, ripping through his entrails and entangling them into a knot as it tries to find an exit in a circle, but he grits his teeth against it.

“You too, Mr. Kakyoin,” Okuyasu says, and he offers a small smile.

With that, the kids all turn to the street back to Josuke’s house, gravel crunching under their shoes. Koichi lags a bit – he always has, his height ensuring it, and now especially, with the way exhausting is clinging to his legs and slowing his steps – but even as the others move seemingly unconsciously to surround him, Kakyoin can’t-

“I- wait,” Kakyoin calls, “before- before you go, Koichi, can you…tell me Kira’s address?”

Koichi pauses, before gently slipping from the group – not easily, as they all stiffen and reflexively jerk after him as he does, before halting themselves, letting him go. “Sure, Mr. Kakyoin,” Koichi says, eyes lidded, voice dull and tired, gravel rolling around a river floor. He turns to his friends. “Um…you can start heading back, I can catch up.”

The three bristle, but Kakyoin catches Josuke’s eye and nods slightly. Josuke’s lip stiffens between the beginning of a snarl and a frown, but he ducks his head and says, “I- fine. Fine, just- we’re not gonna go far. Only the end of the street.”

Koichi sighs and nods, and Josuke’s face shuffles through a myriad of expression – frustration as his face pinches, sadness as his eyes drop, concern or hurt in the winding of his shoulders – and Kakyoin abruptly realizes he’s scanning Josuke for tells Jotaro would cycle through as a teenager, too.

Kakyoin shakes his head as Josuke sighs and turns, and begins walking down the street, hands shoved into his pockets, with Yukako and Okuyasu glancing back at Koichi with tight frowns of their own before following.

Koichi and Kakyoin both let out long sighs before Koichi turns to him. “Do you want me to write it down, or…?”

Kakyoin shakes his head, laughing a little. “No, I- I can remember.”

Koichi doesn’t laugh, just nods, and Kakyoin’s chest squeezes. Koichi rattles off the address, eyes glazing over as he does, and Kakyoin can’t-

“Are you-” he cuts himself off, hesitating. Koichi blinks, that horrible glaze fading away from his eyes, but the bags hanging from them are still there, the dirt soaked into his hairline where he’s sweat is still there, Rohan’s words – No wonder he doesn’t trust you – are still there. Kakyoin closes his mouth, swallowing. “What…happened?”

Koichi stares at him for a second, his eyes looking almost purple in the fading light, almost like the violet Kakyoin sees in the mirror every morning, and just when Kakyoin feels the urge to close his eyes, Koichi looks down.

“Do we have to do this now?” Koichi asks sullenly, voice low and edged, and Kakyoin blinks, lips parting.

“...Wha-”

“I-” Koichi grits his teeth, hands clenching into fists. “I failed. You were right. I was useless-”

“Koic-”

“I know you were right now, so-”

“I WASN’T RIGHT!” Kakyoin barks, and both jump at his volume, bringing them both to a pause. Kakyoin takes a few deep breaths while Koichi shifts, his brows pinching tightly, his eyes squinting down at the concrete.

After a moment, Kakyoin repeats, in a hoarse voice, “I wasn’t right.” About any of it.

Koichi winces as if struck and Kakyoin swallows back water and bile and blood.

“I know I haven’t been the fairest to you,” Kakyoin continues, gaze dropping, “but that-” Kakyoin sighs heavily, letting every last drop of oxygen out. Reimi clinging to Koichi’s words – I like to think I’ve learned something, that I’m not completely useless – flashes in his mind’s eye, and he shakes it off. “...But that wasn’t- you didn’t do anything for that…treatment.”

Koichi swallows, but still doesn’t look up. Kakyoin sighs, shifting a bit, his crutches scraping against the ground.

“The truth is… you remind me of...me. At your age.” Kakyoin smiles bitterly, ducking his head again. “And even myself now, a little.”

Kakyoin opens his eyes and Koichi is looking up at him, face pinches, eyes narrowed. “...What?” He asks, and Kakyoin sucks in a breath.

“I don’t really-” Kakyoin breaks off with a soft, sardonic snort. “It’s…immature. I couldn’t- it’s…hard to remember you’re Hirose Koichi, and not- not me.” Kakyoin looks down, breaking their gaze. “It’s hard to remember that for…all of you students, to be honest,” he says softly, thinking of Yukako’s eyes, of Josuke’s pride, of Okuyasu’s father. He shakes his head, reraising it, facing Koichi once more, whose expression has opened up a small bit, but his eyes are still narrow, still sagging, and Kakyoin wonders if they ever won’t be that way when Koichi looks at him, if he’ll ever deserve anything else anyway. “...but you are Koichi Hirose. And you aren’t me. And I…I forgot that- I forget your expectations, then, are different from mine. That you shouldn’t do what I would do in the same situation.”

Koichi’s face crumples then, making Kakyoin blink in surprise, his hands balling into fists so tight his shoulders shake with the force. “I already said I get it,” Koichi says roughly, voice warbling, and Kakyoin frowns, quickly running the conversation back over his head. “I get it, okay? I can’t live up. I’m-” Koichi’s voice cracks and he angrily reaches up and swipes at his eyes. “I’m prideful, and impulsive, and stupid, and I nearly got Mr. Jotaro ki-”

“Stop,” Kakyoin’s own voice cracks, and Koichi shakes his head, glaring up at Kakyoin.

“No! Don’t try to tell me different, you just admitted it-”

“Koichi,” Kakyoin presses, but Koichi just shakes his head roughly again.

“You’ve wasted all this t-time-”

“Koichi-”

“-and energy, and I still almost got him killed-”

“Koichi-”

“I still almost got myself killed and all I could do was try and send a message about his identity with my last-”

“KOICHI!!” Kakyoin roars, and Koichi finally quiets down, hiccuping softly as sobs wrack his shoulders and tears race down his cheeks. Kakyoin flinches at his tone, swallowing thickly. “I’m sorry,” he says, much softer, voice hoarse, “for yelling.”

Koichi sniffles, scrubbing at his face. He says nothing.

“And I’m sorry,” Kakyoin continues, stepping forward a bit, his crutches clicking softly against the ground, “for ever implying you weren’t- enough.”

Koichi bares his teeth, shaking his head. “Mr. Kaky-”

Kakyoin places his hands on his shoulders then, Hierophant gently spooling out to keep Kakyoin’s crutches from falling, and Koichi stiffens before looking up at Kakyoin. “What I said before, about expectations – that wasn’t about you being- being-” Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut- “it’s not about you being weaker, or more useless than me, or Josuke, or Okuyasu; I just meant that you- you remind me of me, of who- who I maybe should have been. Of who I should be.”

Koichi stares at him for a long time, opening and closing his mouth, tears still slipping down his face, and Kakyoin squeezes his shoulders.

“But you’re not me,” Kakyoin continues softly. “I should have never pretended you were me. That any of you were. That’s what I meant. Do you understand?”

Koichi stares at him with wide eyes. Slowly, he nods, and Kakyoin has to squeeze his eyes against a building pressure, swallowing the lump in his throat.

“I told Josuke this,” Kakyoin continues softly, “but I’m still learning, too, just like the rest of you.” He lets out a long, long sigh, then. “Including…about…this.” He opens his eyes again. “So, I’m sorry, Koichi. I’m so sorry. I’m, ah-” his voice catches, and Kakyoin has to duck his head. “I’m so glad that- you’re alive.”

Koichi lets out a soft sound, shaking his head. “Mr. Ka-”

Kakyoin gently tugs him in before he can think about it, hugging Koichi to his sternum, his head just a little higher than where Kakyoin’s own wound is, and he shudders harshly, remembering blood against a green uniform and silver hair and half-lidded eyes.

You’re not me. Koichi lets out another soft sound before returning the hug, sagging in Kakyoin’s hold, and Kakyoin grits his teeth against the burn pressing behind his eyes.

You’re not me. “I’m so glad you’re alive,” Kakyoin repeats, and Koichi lets out a soft cry, his grip tightening, fingers digging into Kakyoin’s cardigan.

You’re not me. After a few moments, Koichi’s grip falls lax, and Kakyoin steps away, Hierophant handing him his crutches again, something his spine is grateful for, an ache already building that he’s going to have to deal with later, but Kakyoin finds for once, he doesn’t care.

I’m not you. Koichi wipes his eyes, taking a deep breath, before he squares his shoulders and looks at Kakyoin head on, and a part of Kakyoin unrelated to his spine begins to ache, too.

“There’s…something you should know,” Koichi says, his voice a little nasally from the crying, but steady, reliable. Kakyoin nods his head. Koichi takes a deep breath before summoning Echoes, the stand chirping as it moves to reside in the air near Koichi’s head. Kakyoin tilts his head, but before he can ask, there’s a pulse of green, and when Kakyoin blinks it away, beside Koichi’s head is…still Echoes, but different, more humanoid this time, even with a long tail still attached.

Kakyoin’s jaw drops, but before he can say anything, Echoes flashes again, and Hierophant creeps out, curious at what’s going on with the stand in front of him. Echoes is now fully humanoid, with the only resemblance of the bug-like creature it used to be being the same yellow, headlight-like eyes. In a weird way, it reminds Kakyoin of Koichi himself. Shiny green plates line along its white skin, and when the flash fully fades, it straightens from next to Koichi, shifts its jaw, before saying in English, “Master’s…master, right?”

Kakyoin just stares, jaw open, uncaring of how dumb he may look. Koichi shuffles a bit, clearly embarrassed. “Um. I didn’t…I didn’t know how to tell you about this earlier but…Echoes kinda…evolves?”

Kakyoin continues gaping. Hierophant, as a few curious tentacles, reaches out tentatively. Echoes tilts its head at them, lightly bringing up a hand to tap at the tip of one once it comes close, making both Koichi and Kakyoin jump at the phantom feeling.

Koichi clears his throat, rubbing his arm. “It, uh…it started during the, er-” -he grimaces- “-incident with Yukako, and then, during the fight just now, he evolved again-”

“Incredible,” Kakyoin breathes, and Koichi quiets, face flushing a bit.

“Heh,” Echoes says, straightening, smiling, and Kakyoin can’t help but grin a bit in turn, adjusting his stance so he can be a little more eye-level with the stand. “You think so?”

“You- you can talk?” Kakyoin asks, and Echoes’ chest puffs up.

“Yes. I-”

Kakyoin claps then, laughing a little, and Koichi and Echoes both jump at the sound. He waves his hand, apologizing, “Sorry, just- I’ve- I’ve-” Kakyoin can’t stop grinning, his cheeks hurting from the split, as he stares at Echoes. “I’ve never met a stand that could talk in full sentences. Si-” Silver Chariot and Star Platinum can only say a few words, and Kakyoin stumbles, foliage in the center of his chest wilting and turning slightly rotten, but he pushes on, “I- ahem, I’ve only…met stands that could say a few words. At most.”

Koichi blinks. “R-really?”

Kakyoin nods. “Yes… It’s, um-” he thrusts a hand out then, jerkily, “it’s nice to meet you, Echoes. Directly, I mean.”

Echoes hums, tilting its head at Kakyoin, glancing back at Koichi for a beat, before hesitantly taking his hand and shaking it. “You…too?” Echoes says questioningly, and Kakyoin shakes his head, trying to bite back his grin.

“Sorry, I just- ah- this is- you’re so unique, Koichi,” Kakyoin turns to him then, making Koichi jump. “I’ve never met a stand like this. Have you told the Speedwagon Foundation? Oh, Avdol’s going to have a kick with this- I wonder if he’ll be able to come by and meet you? I-”

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Koichi lightly strangles out, and Kakyoin blinks, brought back from his rambling to see Koichi flushed, ducking into his uniform collar.

Kakyoin shakes his head. “I- I’m sorry, Koichi, I just- this is…amazing,” he breathes.

Koichi swallows. “So you’re not…mad at me?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Huh?”

“For- for keeping it from you,” Koichi elaborates in a mumble, and Kakyoin straightens, shifting his jaw.

“I mean,” Kakyoin sighs, “I wish you had told me earlier, but no, I’m not mad.” Koichi lets out a breath.

“I- I’m glad, Mr. Kakyoin. I’m… I just…was worried, I guess…I didn’t think you’d, er, like it,” Koichi mumbles.

Kakyoin presses his lips into a thin line, remembering all the times Koichi’s seen him blow up or snap – when they first met and Kakyoin avoided his influence attack, at Okuyasu’s house, during the Hazamada incident, against Jotaro – heat crawling up his spine and burrowing into his skin, overheating him. “I’m sorry for making you two worry about that,” he says softly, and Koichi squirms before dismissing Echoes, shaking his head and looking up at Kakyoin steadily.

“It’s…done, now. I told you. And you listened. And…” Koichi smiles a little then, and Kakyoin’s chest aches. “And now we can figure out all of Echoes’ act abilities during training, right?”

Kakyoin laughs, nodding his head. “Yes… yes, we absolutely can.”

Koichi smiles, still exhausted, dirt still on his face, bags still under his eyes, but he’s alive, his cheeks flushed with general pleasure, his eyes catching the light and sinking into his irises as if magnetically inclined to.

Kakyoin clears his throat, sighing. “I really am glad you’re alive, Koichi,” he murmurs, and Koichi swallows, ducking his head.

“...Yeah,” he says after a beat, “I…I am, too.”

Kakyoin aches. “Alright,” he sighs. “You’re exhausted. Thank you for telling me, about the address, and about Echoes,” Kakyoin says softly, and Koichi shifts, sighing himself. “Your friends are waiting for you,” Kakyoin concludes.

Koichi smiles softly at the ground then, nodding his head slightly. “Mm. Yeah.” He looks up again one last time, eyes still wide even after everything that has happened today. “I’ll- I’ll see you later, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin nods. “I’ll see you, Koichi.”

Koichi turns then, heading down the street. Kakyoin grits his teeth against the pull of Hierophant from inside him, the tentacles wanting to slip along and make sure Koichi makes it to the intersection where Josuke and the others are waiting. Trust him. Trust him. Trust him.

Kakyoin watches until Koichi catches up and the group of friends turns to move as a whole, and he lets out a soft breath. His lungs ache like his ribs are digging into them, his skin itchy underneath the scar tissue on his sternum. Kakyoin turns and heads to where the first responders are slowly dispersing.

Kakyoin scans the crowd as it thins, before spotting a flash of blond and pink and immediately gunning for it, hiking forward with his crutches clicking underneath him. “Aya!”

Aya turns, her hair down from her trademark ponytail, and with her turns Tonio, his own trademark — his hat — also gone. Kakyoin remembers his scarf’s absence, too, and a part of him can’t help but ruminate over it.

“Oh, Noriaki, thank god!” Tonio cries, pulling Kakyoin into a surprise hug once he is within reach, making Kakyoin let out a startled grunt.

“Tonio,” Kakyoin greets breathlessly when he’s let go, turning to Aya, “Aya- are- are you alright?”

Aya sighs, rubbing her eyes, and Kakyoin’s gaze trains onto the gauze around her forearm. “I’m fine, I- I’m just-” Aya grits her teeth then, her shoulders shuddering minutely, and Kakyoin and Tonio exchange glances. “My- my salon, it’s-” her voice warbles, and she cuts herself off, pressing her hands into her eyes before slumping, her arms dropping. “I’m fine. It just took so long with the police and fire department because I’m the business owner.” She frowns tightly at her lap. “Was. The business owner. They wanted to know what happened.”

Kakyoin breathes out, glancing at the remains of her salon. Some walls still stand, but they’re charred black from the fire. Beyond them, the bulk of the salon is gone, now only ash and the choking scent of burnt plastic and the singed chemical smell of aerosols like hairspray and cleaning product, and Kakyoin winces and looks away.

“I’m sorry, Aya,” Kakyoin says earnestly, grip tightening on his crutches. “If I just- if I was a little faster he would have never even gotten into the salon anyw-”

“Stop that,” Aya snaps, and Kakyoin does, blinking in shock. “Just…stop. You didn’t make him decide to try killing me.”

Kakyoin’s mouth goes dry and he nods stiffly. Aya’s gaze softens and she sighs, rubbing at her face.

“You saved me, Noriaki,” Aya says softly, “don’t try and act like that was a bad thing.”

Kakyoin swallows and nods, lightly brushing her shoulder with his own, which she returns with a gentle nudge.

“Anyway,” Aya sighs, before turning to Tonio with a soft smile. “After they questioned me, I called Tonio. They won’t let me drive – they’re worried about me being in shock or something – and I just…don’t want to walk right now,” she mumbles. Kakyoin nods his head, some of the muscles squeezing his ribs and lungs tight finally easing back at the realization neither Aya nor Tonio will be left alone, and will in fact have each other.

Tonio smiles before turning to Kakyoin. “Did you want a ride, too, Noriaki?”

Kakyoin sags then, nodding his head before he can overthink it. “Yeah… Yeah, that’d be nice.”

Tonio is parked just down the street, so it doesn’t take them long. Kakyoin claims the whole of the back for himself and his crutches while Tonio slides into the driver’s seat and Aya into the passenger side.

As Kakyoin settles the crutches in his lap, his hands still as he sees the blood still on his sleeves and pants. His hands grow chilly as he stares, the memory of Jotaro’s cold, heavy weight in his arms tingling against his nerves like it was still real, and his heart jerks up into his throat.

The blood is dry now, burrowed into the fibers of his clothes like worms in soil, and Kakyoin scratches at it distantly, only to cringe with a thin layer crusts up, embedding itself underneath his fingernails. He wipes his hand near-frantically, trying to get the blood off.

You have to leave before you get another person killed rings in Kakyoin’s head and he squeezes his hands into fists.

I didn’t mean- not leave like that, he thinks frantically, I didn’t think- I didn’t-

I wish we had never met.

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you-

I didn’t mean it, Kakyoin thinks frantically, staring at the blood. It’s brown now, and if his khakis weren’t so light, the stain could almost blend in, like it does with his cardigan sleeves. Almost like it was never there in the first place. I didn’t mean it, I didn’t mean it, I didn’t mean it, I needed to talk to you one last time-

You said you wanted to be brave-

“Noriaki?”

Kakyoin jolts, whipping his head up, only to see Aya and Tonio frowning at him from the front seats. Kakyoin looks around wildly and sees that they’re at the hotel. He blinks. Already?

“Are you okay, Noriaki?” Tonio asks, frowning, and Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, but he isn’t sure how to respond.

“...I,” he says softly, “really need my medicine.”

Both Aya and Tonio hum, exchanging glances, and Kakyoin swallows thickly. It’s not a lie, certainly, the dull drumming ache in his spine quickly ricocheting up to a squeal of nails on chalkboard, but…

-Is that still true?

Kakyoin jolts.

“I- I’m glad you’re both okay,” Kakyoin admits, and it’s more of the truth than the previous statement. “I- we’ll- touch base tomorrow. Yeah?”

Tonio and Aya both nod, faces cementing in finality over the plan, brows set, and Kakyoin swallows.

“Good night,” he says softly, and they echo him. Kakyoin has the urge to take their hands, squeeze them just for a second, but he bats it away, instead taking a deep breath, gazing them both in the eye, before nodding, opening the door, and stepping out.

Now that he’s aware of it again, the way the bracer of his crutch sits around his arm presses the stains on his sleeves right up against his skin, and he shudders, his nerves prickling uncomfortably at the sticky scratch of the dry blood, pulling on the hair on his arms.

He hikes forward into the hotel, his heart pounding low in his stomach. It’s dark now, only faint blue lighting up the sky from the moon, and the inside of Morioh Grand Hotel is aglow with orange light.

Kakyoin swallows, gripping his crutches tightly. You said, on the journey, that you didn’t want any regrets. He steps inside.

He moves quickly past the front desk, his pulse echoed in his palms just as much as his throat. The back of his neck prickles like someone is watching him, and Kakyoin takes a shuddering breath.

He needs to shower. He needs to get out of these clothes, he needs his medicine, he needs to eat something,

We’ll fix this, Avdol’s voice echoes in his head again, and Kakyoin falters, blinking rapidly, before resuming his pace, grip tightening on his crutches.

He needs to call to make sure the kids made it home in one piece even if Josuke will resent him for the mother henning. 

I wanted to talk to you one last time, he had all but begged this afternoon. The knowledge Jotaro is just a few floors away now…

He’s in room 324. Right next to mine.

He needs to call Avdol and update him on the situation, he needs to talk to Joseph, he needs to stop shaking.

Kakyoin’s ears ring a bit, static shuffling from his ears down into his skin, against his jaw, curling down to his neck, itching, making his muscles twitch.

He needs-

Kakyoin steps into the elevator and presses the button for the third floor.

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Chapter 33

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“...Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin jerks his head. In the doorway of the room next to 324 — Joseph’s room, Kakyoin remembers dazedly — stands Jotaro, his hat off, but his coat still on, and Kakyoin’s throat clicks.

“Jotaro,” he breathes, turning fully, and Jotaro stiffens before he shakes his head.

“What are you doing here?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin swallows.

“I-” his throat ties itself up, his windpipe becoming a knot, and Kakyoin just wheezes the slightest bit, strained. Jotaro frowns, eyes skirting over his frame, going still as he sees the blood on Kakyoin’s clothes.

“Did- did something happen?” Jotaro’s eyes widen, his stance following suit as he looks around. “Is- are- is Josuke okay?”

“That’s not-” Kakyoin rasps past his entangled throat, “they’re- yes, Josuke- everyone is okay. I-”

“Then whose blood is that?” Jotaro demands, pointing, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“Yours!” He says emphatically, a little hysterically, and Jotaro freezes.

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What am I doing? Kakyoin thinks as the elevator moves up. What am I going to say?

A ding as the elevator reaches and moves past the second floor. Kakyoin adjusts his grip on his crutches, suddenly aware that his palms are sweating. He grimaces, wiping them against his pants, only to cringe when he sees Jotaro’s blood again. A headache begins to dully throb at the inside of his temples, straining against the bone, his spine echoing it, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

I really should have grabbed my pills before doing this-

Another ding as he reaches the third floor, and the doors slide open. Kakyoin sucks in a breath and walks out, following the signs to rooms 320 through to 330.

No, he thinks, I can’t keep running. I need this. I need this more than anything right now.

He reaches the hallway, and Kakyoin swallows, slowing his pace, but still moving forward. I need this. I need this. I need-

Kakyoin’s stopping and knocking on room 324 before he even realizes it, the numbers on the door gleaming at him in the dark. Kakyoin blinks.

A moment passes in silence. Another. 

It takes Kakyoin a few seconds to realize no one has answered the door, and his heartrate kicks up. He knocks again, a little harder and a little longer.

It’s fine, he tries to reason with himself, despite his palms growing slicker, his stomach colder, his mouth drier, he- he had to call the Speedwagon Foundation, maybe he’s meeting with some agents, hell maybe he’s still on the phone, he-

No one answers. Kakyoin knocks again, almost outright banging on the door, shoving his ear against the wood and straining to listen to anything beyond the increasing beat of his heart.

He- he didn’t just go off and die-

That’s what he did this afternoon though, a part of himself pipes up, and Kakyoin lets out a snarly whine not unlike a scared dog and backs up, leaning on his crutches and raising his feet to kick down the door, Hierophant rising out of him to help-

“...Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin jerks his head, dropping his two feet back to the ground with a dull thud. In the doorway of the room next to 324 — Joseph’s room, Kakyoin remembers dazedly — stands Jotaro, his hat off, but his coat still on, and Kakyoin’s throat clicks.

“Jotaro,” he breathes, turning fully, and Jotaro stiffens before he shakes his head.

“What are you doing here?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin swallows.

“I-” his throat ties itself up, his windpipe becoming a knot, and Kakyoin just wheezes the slightest bit, strained. Jotaro frowns, eyes skirting over his frame, going still as he sees the blood on Kakyoin’s clothes.

“Did- did something happen?” Jotaro’s eyes widen, his stance following suit as he looks around. “Is- are- is Josuke okay?”

“That’s not-” Kakyoin rasps past his entangled throat, “they’re- yes, Josuke- everyone is okay. I-”

“Then whose blood is that?” Jotaro demands, pointing, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“Yours!” He says emphatically, a little hysterically, and Jotaro freezes. “Did- did you forget you almost died this afternoon?!”

Jotaro’s mouth opens and closes a few times before he shifts his jaw, blinking. “I-”

“You’re unbelievable,” Kakyoin chuckles darkly, and Jotaro frowns then, and Kakyoin can’t help but notice his eye bags become so stark, even in the dark of the hallway, when his entire face sags like that.

“I’m not doing this right now Kakyoin,” Jotaro mutters, marching past Kakyoin, jerking away at the last moment before he can knock their shoulders together. For some reason, Kakyoin is disappointed by this.

Kakyoin scrambles, turning to follow him back to the door of 324. “Wait- do what?!”

“Fight?” Jotaro snaps, not facing Kakyoin as he takes out his key and slots it into the lock. “Argue? I don’t-“

“That’s not- that’s not what I want-“ Kakyoin gasps out. Jotaro lets out a huff that might have been a snort once, shaking his head.

“Then what do you want?” Jotaro asks as he opens the door wide enough for only him to step through, still not looking at him.

“I- I don't know, I just-“

Jotaro sighs roughly. “Then just go, Kakyoi-“

“No- no- Jotaro-!” Kakyoin presses, his edged voice rising, and Jotaro whips around, mouth already opening with a response, before he pauses stiffly, staring.

Kakyoin swallows thickly, opening and closing his mouth, but not knowing what to say to convince him. He blinks, and his vision clears a bit from the blurry tunneling it had become. He grits his teeth, but he refuses to turn away from Jotaro.

“Jotaro,” he repeats quieter, wincing as his blood-crusted sleeves scratch against his crutches. Jotaro stares at him. “I- I just need to talk to you.”

Silence rings out. Jotaro continues to stare right into his face, and Kakyoin finds he can’t breathe, as if Jotaro’s choking him, pressing against his windpipe like the pressure of the deep sea, flooding in and out and drowning him-

Jotaro’s gaze slowly lowers, honing in on the bloodstains on his clothes, and Kakyoin can breathe again, but he also feels so cold. He lets Jotaro stare, his arms shaking the slightest bit.

Jotaro closes his eyes and sighs deeply, the exhale stretching out for multiple seconds, before he opens the door wider and stands aside, head angled down.

Kakyoin jerks forward without hesitation.

Jotaro’s room is a full suite, more akin to a one bedroom apartment than a hotel room. The main room is a living area that features a two-person dining table, a desk with a lamp on top (the only current light source active in the room), and a full couch, all of which have varying amounts of paper spread across. His hat rests on the couch as if tossed there earlier. Kakyoin squints at the papers, staring at the star-shaped diagrams he can see on some of them before jolting.

You don’t know? Mr. Kujo is working on his doctorate thesis right now. Marine biology.

“...Sorry about the mess-”

“Starfish-?”

Both jump, Kakyoin whipping his head up to face Jotaro from where he hovers near the door, having taken his coat off and hanging it up, locking eyes with him before both skirt their gazes away. Kakyoin clears his throat.

“...I, uh, don’t mind,” he mutters, and Jotaro nods stiffly. It’s quiet for another moment and Kakyoin squirms. “Um. S-starfish?”

Jotaro jolts before nodding, crossing his arms as he looks to the side. “...Starfish,” he confirms softly, voice gentle, and Kakyoin shivers. “Er…PhD work. You know.” Jotaro presses his lips into a line.

Kakyoin swallows, jerking his gaze down from the view. “Yeah, uh- yeah. The… An SPW agent mentioned you were working on that.”

Jotaro snorts, nodding. “Yeah. It’s all too much to fax so they’ve had to play message man between me and my advisor since…” Jotaro sighs. “Since…coming here.”

Kakyoin hums, realization dawning upon him. “I guess Morioh wasn’t really planned for, huh?”

Jotaro sighs, dropping his arms and instead scrubbing his face with his hands. “No.” Kakyoin blinks at the blunt response, but before he can say anything, Jotaro straightens and looks at Kakyoin head-on, making him freeze. “What do you want?”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly. “H-huh?”

Jotaro sighs, gesturing. “You wanted to talk. I doubt it was about starfish…” Jotaro’s face pinches then, brows furrowing and frown tightening and eyes glossy before he ducks his head, running a hand through his hair. Kakyoin can only stare, not quite sure what the reaction means. 

I used to be able to read him so well, a part of Kakyoin that he thought had died sighs, and he shudders.

“Just…what?” Jotaro finishes. Kakyoin squints, irritation rising in his chest, but he shifts and his blood-crusted sleeves scratch against him again, and the irritation is blown out by an icy breeze of panic.

“Are…” Kakyoin pauses, swallowing, when his voice comes out as a rasp, making both him and Jotaro wince. He sighs, clenching his fists against his crutches. “Are you…okay?”

Jotaro stares at him blankly. “...Am I okay,” he repeats, voice flat and unamused.

Kakyoin scowls at his tone. “Don’t be an asshole.”

Jotaro snorts, but like last time, it’s not quite right, and it makes the hair on the back of Kakyoin’s neck rise. “Me, the asshole? After this whole summer?”

Kakyoin snarls. “Dare I remind you that you started it-”

“That’s childish, Kakyoin,” Jotaro brushes off, and Kakyoin twitches before lunging, Jotaro’s eyes widening as Kakyoin grabs him by the collar and slams him against the wall, Hierophant writhing around him, holding onto his crutches and onto him, so that neither fall.

“You’re so goddamn-”

“You- you’re really not scared of me at all,” Jotaro blurts, staring at Kakyoin with wide eyes, and Kakyoin freezes, remembering just the day before: Jotaro screaming, demanding to know why Kakyoin wasn’t running, I knew you’d be so scared-

Kakyoin scoffs and lets go of Jotaro’s collar, dropping his hands, before his eyes widen as his knuckles brush against a bump right in the center of Jotaro’s chest.

Kakyoin shoots his hands back to it, fingers tracing over the bump frantically, and his heart starts hammering. Right over his heart, Kakyoin observes, and his guts churn. He thinks he’s going to throw up.

“Wh- What-”

“Kakyoin-” Jotaro twitches, bringing his hands up to stop Kakyoin’s from fluttering, holding them still, and Kakyoin jolts.

“Jotaro-”

“Kakyoin-”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin presses harshly, staring at Jotaro’s sweater, as if making sense of the black fibers long enough could grant him the ability to see past it and at what is in his chest, “Jotaro- you- you almost died in my arms this afternoon.”

Jotaro goes still. Kakyoin clears his throat, but something is pressing down the back of it, tight like Jotaro’s grip on his hands, and Kakyoin isn’t sure if it’s trying to crawl up or down.

“You almost died,” his voice breaks, “you almost died and I- I didn’t get to- to- talk to you.”

“...What?” Jotaro rasps, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“What’s in your chest?!” he demands, jerking his gaze up to meet Jotaro’s, only for his breath to hiccup, squashed out between his ribs. Jotaro’s face is full of creases and furrows, his eyes heavy-lidded and bruised with purple that Kakyoin is too familiar with in his own reflection. He’s so much older than the 17 Kakyoin remembered him as for ten years, worry lines and creases that signify consistent frowning having fully formed on his tan skin. His bangs, usually tucked under his hat, are free to flop into his face now, almost making his sea-green eyes even brighter in the silver light of night.

“...What’s in your chest?” Kakyoin finds himself numbly, slowly repeating.

Jotaro shifts, and Kakyoin realizes he’s still pinning him against the wall. He quickly backs off, hands slipping away from Jotaro’s, face flushing hot, and he finds he’s grateful for the fact Jotaro hadn’t bothered to turn on any light the last time he was room aside from the desk lamp, hoping the darkness covers his embarrassment.

Jotaro moves away from the wall, scrubbing a hand over his face. “It’s not imp-”

“It’s not- Jotaro, you almost died this afternoon right in front of me, WHAT IS IN YOUR CHEST?!” Kakyoin cries, voice rising in hysteria, and Jotaro winces.

“It’s- it’s just my pacemaker,” Jotaro says softly.

Kakyoin exhales. “...Your what?” Abruptly, he remembers Holly’s words: He’s- he’s okay. DIO didn’t injure… He’s okay.

He only realizes now that she never finished her thought completely.

Jotaro closes his eyes,“My pacemaker,” he repeats, and Kakyoin feels dizzy, like his head was heavy lead, stuck in a soupy, thick atmosphere, too dense to stay afloat. “It...after DIO…” Jotaro trails off.

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin croaks, and he can see Jotaro shudder at the use of his first name rather than his last, “what happened to you?”

Jotaro squirms then, crossing his arms. “It’s noth-”

“Like hell it’s nothing!” Kakyoin interrupts, voice edged with desperation, the cover of anger he flails to find not arriving. “What happened?”

Jotaro’s brows inch even closer together, his eyes ducking down to avoid Kakyoin’s gaze, and Kakyoin jerks in again, hands coming up to clasp over Jotaro’s shoulders. Jotaro shudders, jerking under Kakyoin’s touch as if he’s burning him, but Kakyoin doesn’t let go and Jotaro doesn’t shrug him off.

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin presses, and Jotaro inhales like he’s saying a prayer.

“During-” Jotaro cuts himself off, swallowing, his voice no higher than a murmur, “during my...fight with DIO, I needed him to think I was dead at one point.”

Dead. Kakyoin’s fingers dig into the material of Jotaro’s sweater, swaying a bit as his head reels.

“So, I- I stopped my heart for a bit. So he wouldn’t hear it.”

Jotaro says it like it’s the logical conclusion. Kakyoin can hear ringing in his ears, staring right at Jotaro’s chest, his mouth too dry to even try swallowing back the lump in his throat.

“...And, well, that. Left an impact,” Jotaro finishes lamely, and Kakyoin’s grip tightens as his knees buckle under his weight. “Kaky-?!”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin rasps, staring as Jotaro’s lips are pressed into a thin line. Jotaro reciprocates Kakyoin’s pose, gripping his shoulders, and slowly leads him to the couch. Kakyoin can’t find it in him to fight, letting him continue. Jotaro kicks off the papers that take over half the cushion space with a quick sweep of his leg, before sitting Kakyoin down. He steps back, crossing his arms, but Kakyoin lurches forward, only to hiss sharply as his spine shrieks at the motion, and Jotaro darts forward, jerking to his knees, still so goddamn tall that he can easily grab Kakyoin by the shoulders, only slightly below his eye level as he gently pushes Kakyoin back against the cushions, again. Kakyoin lets him, again.

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin repeats, and Jotaro shivers. Kakyoin absentmindedly brings his hands up to Jotaro’s chest, hovering but not pressing forward against the bump- the pacemaker. “How did you even- how did you even finish the fight if-?”

“It wasn’t- it-” Jotaro pauses, wetting his lips with his tongue, and Kakyoin stares. “It wasn’t a- problem-” -Jotaro spits the words harshly, and Kakyoin doesn’t have it in him to flinch, even as his heart bucks, adrenaline shooting through his system- “-until- later. After- after I…came home.”

“What happened?” Kakyoin rasps, and Jotaro grimaces, hands sliding off of Kakyoin’s shoulders as if he’s preparing to move away, so Kakyoin rapidly snaps his hands to Jotaro’s shoulders instead, digging his fingers into his warm sweater, please don’t go again-

Despite the fact Kakyoin knows Jotaro could shrug him off, he slumps under his touch, gaze moving down somewhere around Kakyoin’s chin or jaw instead of his eyes. “...Not long after I turned 18, I…had a heart attack,” he murmurs. “So, the SPW gave me a pacemaker.”

Kakyoin’s gut lurches. “Wha- Did- I- Jotaro-”

“I know,” Jotaro cuts in, voice a little edged, “I know, it’s stup-”

“What the fuck,” Kakyoin cuts in, “are you talking about?!”

Jotaro pauses, blinking, jerking his gaze back to Kakyoin’s eyes. “Huh?”

“Stupid? The only thing that’s stupid is that you squeezed your own heart in the first plac- fuck, I’m- I-” Kakyoin slumps, his grip on Jotaro making him lean in further due to the motion, and Kakyoin can smell salt and the spice of deodorant and aftershave and he tenses back up again, straightening, shaking his head. “Jotaro, I- I’m so glad you’re alive.” The words slip past his teeth without Kakyoin expressly allowing it, and both stiffen. 

Jotaro does wrangle out of Kakyoin’s grip then, retreating back away from the couch, still on his knees, and Kakyoin’s guts twist into the knot of a noose in his stomach, waiting for him to say another stupid thing to hang himself with.

“Why the change?” Jotaro blurts, voice gravelly, dragging Kakyoin from his thoughts.

“H-huh?” Kakyoin croaks.

Jotaro grits his teeth, hands curling into fists, and it’s a sight that’s familiar enough to the boy Kakyoin knew that he just feels, frankly, relieved to see it. “A few weeks ago you said you wished you never met me. Why does seeing me almost d-” he pauses, and Kakyoin can’t breathe, his pulse in his skull, beating against his eardrums uproariously from the inside. “...Isn’t it what you wanted?” Jotaro finishes in a mutter and Kakyoin jerks forward, uncaring of the flare in his spine that makes him shake and shiver, his bones themselves quivering against each other, because he can’t-

He grabs Jotaro by the shoulders again, ignoring the way he jolts under his touch as he lands with a sharp thud on his own knees that just makes his spine even more upset, pain sparking up and down his nervous system like fire across a dry field, sharp like needles, but he ignores it, instead pulling Jotaro down just a bit so that they’re eye to eye.

“Jotaro-” Kakyoin grits his own teeth then, shaking his head frantically, and Jotaro stares at him with wide eyes. “I-” his voice breaks, and both flinch, but Kakyoin presses on. “I was wrong- I was- I was wrong.”

“Kaky-”

“I was wrong!” Kakyoin echoes, slumping, his forehead landing against that damn bump in Jotaro’s chest, and both go still. He feels Jotaro’s heartbeat echo through the hollow of his chest, the thumps moving past the barriers of skin and muscle and bone and cloth to make it to Kakyoin’s own skin, and he shudders, grip tightening.

“I didn’t mean it,” Kakyoin rasps, and Jotaro just stays still. “I- fuck, Jotaro, you almost died. Right in front of the kids.” Right in front of me. “I-” He takes a shuddering breath. “I never- I never wanted you to die.”

Jotaro just remains still. Kakyoin breathes shakily, trying to regain his composure, a small hotspot of embarrassment blooming across the back of his neck, sloping down his shoulders to his chest, but he stays where he is, focusing on Jotaro’s heartbeat, willing it to match his own that’s still rushing right behind his ear drums, hot and heavy.

Kakyoin just breathes, and Jotaro lets him. His spine aches, pain interweaving into the fibers of his muscles all along his back, up to his neck, into the back of his skull, throbbing in time with his heartbeat, but Kakyoin barely notices because he’s focused on Jotaro’s heartbeat instead, the way his forehead is growing uncomfortably warm the longer he presses it against Jotaro’s sturdy, alive, chest.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, closes his eyes, and leans back mournfully, dropping his hands and looking up at Jotaro. His spine sparks with pain as he moves, making Kakyoin grimace sharply, but he doesn’t pay it might, just continuing to look at Jotaro. He looks back.

It’s a little absurd, both of them on their knees right in front of each other, paper scattered around them in a dimly light hotel room, so when Jotaro purses his lips before letting out a choked snort, Kakyoin can’t help but crack a smile in return, a small hysterical chuckle slipping from his own lips.

“You-” Jotaro reaches up then, right toward Kakyoin’s face, and both freeze. Kakyoin can feel the heat from Jotaro’s palm, and he can imagine Jotaro’s heartbeat again, the pulse of blood around his body, and he aches. Jotaro drops his hand, clearing his throat, and Kakyoin has to stiffly swallow back against a cave collapse in his chest. Jotaro gestures vaguely instead. “You, um. You have a little mark on your forehead,” he finishes dumbly.

Kakyoin blinks before chuckling again, the sound quickly rising into a full on laugh. Jotaro stares at him, and for once, Kakyoin’s nerves aren’t prickled over it. “Kekeke- yeah, I, uh, guess I was pressing pretty hard there…”

Jotaro shifts uncomfortably, and Kakyoin sighs, reaching up to rub his eyes.

“Does… Who knows? The pacemaker, I mean, that-” Kakyoin shakes his head.

Jotaro’s lips press into a thin line and he shakes his head stiffly. “No one,” he says quickly. Kakyoin blinks. “It’s fine – it obviously is sorted out now – so no one needs to know.”

Kakyoin frowns. “Not even- Mister Joestar? Miss Holly-?”

“No,” Jotaro says so sharply it’s almost a growl, gaze jerking to Kakyoin’s, “and they don’t need to know, because they weren’t there when it happened and now it’s fixed and I can handle it myself.”

Kakyoin twitches, remembering Holly’s face, I thought we were turning over a new leaf, I think he resents me for being so weak, and he grits his teeth. “Not even Miss Holly?! Jotaro, you had a heart attack at 18 and you didn’t tell anyone-?!”

“Don’t lecture me Kakyoin,” Jotaro warns lowly, and Kakyoin seethes, glaring at him, but he can’t escape how Jotaro’s blood against his pants and sleeves haunts his peripheral, and he jolts when he realizes he was in this exact same position when he held Jotaro’s body earlier in the day, and once again, the icy rain of panic snuffs out most of the sparks of anger in his gut.

“Okay, well, I just-” Kakyoin roughly rubs at the bridge of his nose, biting back a snarl and just shaking his head. “Fine. Whatever. You’re a grown man supposedly, make your fucking decisions.”

Jotaro sneers, opening his mouth, but Kakyoin shakes his head again roughly, refusing to get stuck on this again.

“Look, we just- look.” Kakyoin drops his hand, looking at Jotaro, exhaustion pulling his lids down just a bit. Jotaro crosses his arms, still frowning, but he closes his mouth. Something in Kakyoin’s chest squeezes. “Like you said: no fights. Right?”

Jotaro sneers, but he nods, stiffly. Kakyoin avoids the urge to snap and just echoes the nod himself.

“Okay. Okay, so let’s just- agree to disagree for now, then.”

“You’re the one who brought it up,” Jotaro hisses, and Kakyoin’s eyes narrow.

Didn’t you call me childish for saying that same thing? is on the tip of his tongue, but Kakyoin closes his eyes, takes a deep breath, and says, “Yes, I did. I was concerned and I-”

“Why are you even concerned, Kakyoin?” And Jotaro’s voice is so tired, and yet edged with a near hysteria, that the irritation drops from Kakyoin’s guts all together. He opens his eyes, and Jotaro has his head inclined a bit, as if trying to duck away from the conversation, the column of this throat prominently bathed in the warm, faint light of the lamp — but he still is looking at Kakyoin evenly from the corner of his eye, and Kakyoin’s throat swells up.

“I-”

“So you don’t want me dead. That’s…” Jotaro runs a hand through his hair and sighs and Kakyoin can’t breathe at the notion, nor when some of Jotaro’s bangs flop stubbornly back across his forehead, ghosting over his eyelashes. “That’s not the same as caring about about my damn pacemaker. I-”

“I’ve-” Kakyoin grinds his teeth together, almost chewing his tongue in the process. “I’ve always cared, when you get hurt.”

Jotaro shudders. “Not lately,” he says darkly, before blinking, as if not intending to speak the words aloud.

“That- that’s not true,” Kakyoin snaps, and Jotaro’s eyes narrow, but he continues before he can say anything, “I- I came running when Angelo’s attack started and you were still outside, when- when Hazamada tried to attack you, I-”

“You- you what?” Jotaro cuts in and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“I- I don’t want you to die! I have never wanted you to die, not without me getting to say something, not like Polna-”

Both freeze and then slump, as if struck by lightning, all nerves tensing as they light up with electricity before being spit back out, burned and used and dead. It’s quiet, so quiet Kakyoin can hear a small clock ticking from what sounds like the bedroom, even past the closed door, and he shudders.

“So I- I don’t want you dead,” Kakyoin finishes in a rasp. “That’s never changed.”

Jotaro just stays quiet for a long time, staring at the carpet, careening slightly to the side. After a long moment, he nods, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

It’s quiet again, and Kakyoin’s knees are beginning to ache in addition to his spine, which is, frankly, the last thing he wants to deal with – definitely going to have to use the wheelchair tomorrow… – but he can’t find it in himself to get up. Instead, he stays on the ground, staring at Jotaro as he moves his hands – So big, Kakyoin thinks distantly, at least that’s one thing that hasn’t changed – to pick at the carpet, then his pants, then one of his two belts, digging his fingertips against the fine leather, the soft scratch barely making it to Kakyoin’s ears past the static of silence. Jotaro’s chest moves up and down, rhythmically, and when Kakyoin really focuses, he thinks he can see a small, small rise in the fabric where Jotaro’s pacemaker sits, ensuring his heart stays on rhythm, keeping him warm and big and strong-

Jotaro takes a breath and Kakyoin jolts, jerking his gaze away from his chest and back to his face.

“So…is that…what you wanted to say?” He croaks, and Kakyoin blinks, lips parting. “Like…what you came here in the first place to say?”

Kakyoin blinks again before shifting uncomfortably. Polnareff, time stop, stands, Egypt, you, me, you, you, “It’s…a start,” Kakyoin murmurs.

Jotaro hums, exhausted, staring at Kakyoin expectantly. Kakyoin shakes his head.

“Not…not tonight,” he murmurs, and Jotaro hesitates, staring at him, eyeing him up and down.

“Kakyoin…” he starts, and Kakyoin shivers. “I’d-” he sighs. “If you’re sure we’ll continue it, then fine, I’ll put it down for now. But I don’t want this hanging over me.”

Kakyoin twitches, any irritation over the blunt phrasing being washed out as he’s abruptly reminded of his own words four years ago. If you can give me a solid answer to when we’ll have this conversation, I’ll hang up right now. He shudders, his hands curling into fists against the carpet. “My-” he clears his throat. “The kids and I- Koichi-” -Jotaro shudders then, and Kakyoin is reminded of how Koichi cried that Jotaro getting hurt was all his fault, and he swallows thickly and moves on- “-Koichi found the killer’s address during the fight. We’re planning to head over there soon, to try and find some clues about where that bastard might be now. We can…continue this after that?”

Jotaro blinks rapidly, opening and closing his mouth. “Koichi- I- how did he manage that?”

Kakyoin smiles then, leaning back a bit, flinching when this sparks pain up his knees. “Apparently Kira got so cocky at one point that Koichi was able to get his wallet and check his license.” Kakyoin chuckles, shaking his head. “What a crazy kid.”

Jotaro shifts, crossing his arms. “...You said the kids were all okay?” He asks quietly. Kakyoin swallows, his smile slipping off. He nods.

“Made sure of it,” he says just as quietly, before realizing what he said, and he tenses, ready to bite back his irritation again when Jotaro objects-

But when Jotaro speaks, he just says, “I’m coming with you.”

Kakyoin blinks, brain jerking and trying to make sense of Jotaro’s train of thought. “Huh?” He says dumbly.

Jotaro gestures. “To- when you got to that bastard Kira’s house. I’m coming with you.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh- that’s it?”

Jotaro blinks back. “Huh?”

“You’re not- I-?” Kakyoin shakes his head, grunting. Not worth bringing it up right now. “I- okay. Yeah. You can come with us.”

Jotaro nods, sighing softly, tension leaking from his shoulders. Kakyoin eyes the line of his silhouette as they relax, and his eyelids have never felt heavier.

“It’s, uh, getting late…” Kakyoin mutters.

Jotaro hums, nodding, reaching up to rub his eyes, and Kakyoin’s stomach lurches again, so violently that he feels a little ill and certainly dizzy.

“I should, uh, get goi-”

“Wait-” Jotaro blurts before shutting his mouth so quickly his teeth click, making Kakyoin wince. 

They both stare at one another, violet against blue, and Kakyoin desperately wishes he still had his scarf, feeling overly exposed under his gaze that, just like the ocean, is all consuming as far as Kakyoin can see.

Jotaro ducks his head. “...Nevermind-”

“No, what?” Kakyoin presses, leaning forward, and Jotaro closes his eyes. His bangs caress his eyelashes as he does.

“You- I-” Jotaro chews on his tongue, staring firmly at the floor and not at Kakyoin. “It’s…late…” he mutters. “Did you…” Kakyoin frowns at the way Jotaro looks genuinely ill, as he’s moved from chewing his tongue to trying to swallow it, but before he can voice concern, Jotaro spits out, “Did you- want me to walk you back to your room?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Do I- what?”

Jotaro shakes his head. “It’s- Nevermind, I know you’re not far-”

“Wait-”

Both freeze again, staring at one another. Kakyoin’s stomach turns, a strange mix of dread and anger warring over the right to take over, cold or hot, pressing forward heavily in Kakyoin’s body but not tying in knots at least, and Kakyoin can’t-

His spine angrily protests his continued slouching on the floor with a harsh lashing against his nerves, pain sparking up and down his entire body, making his fingers and toes twitch, and Kakyoin sucks in a sharp breath while Jotaro frowns.

“I-” Kakyoin winces as the throbs don’t dull, gritting his teeth. “I-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro whispers in a tone almost like a plea, high and earnest, and both jerk to stare at one another with wide eyes.

It’s quiet again, that damn clock ticking distantly, but Kakyoin can ignore it because he sees his reflection in Jotaro’s dark pupils, a canyon under the sea of his irises. Kayoin can see pale skin and red and water and he shudders, swallowing.

“...Okay,” Kakyoin rasps, and Jotaro’s face quickly shifts – but whatever his expression was shifting to, Kakyoin can’t see it, as he ducks his head quickly, nods, and stands up.

He hesitates, but then offers Kakyoin a hand. Kakyoin stares at his palm, tracing the line of his arm back to his shoulders, up his neck to his face, catching Jotaro’s gaze. The ocean in his irises looks like it could drip out and flood the room if Jotaro continues looking down like that.

Kakyoin reaches up and takes his hand before he can much think about it, only fully realizing he’s done so when he registers how warm Jotaro’s hand is against his own. Jotaro pulls him up, and Hierophant hands him his crutches.

Jotaro drops his hand, and Kakyoin grinds his teeth against the small pinch in his chest. Jotaro turns without a word or ceremony, walking to the room door. He awkwardly holds it open as Kakyoin hikes on through before following behind him in silence, not bothering to lock it.

The ride down the elevator is awkward, Jotaro reaching to press the button for the first floor only to jump back as if he’d be zapped when Hierophant presses it instead.

“Sorry,” Kakyoin mutters, “reflex,” but Jotaro just shakes his head.

They make it down without further discussion, Kakyoin ignoring the prickling hair on his arms and neck as he turns further into the hallway away from the lobby, Jotaro following behind him by a step. Kakyoin can’t help but continuously look to the side, trying to catch him in his peripheral – he just needs…he needs…

They make it to Kakyoin’s room, and as Kakyoin pulls out his key, Jotaro rasps, “Are… Are you okay?”

Kakyoin blinks, pausing from where he’s slid his key into his lock, before he turns and looks up at Jotaro. “Huh?”

Jotaro looks troubled, lips firmly together, brows knitted, arms crossing against his chest, which Kakyoin eyes, trying to catch sight of the pacemaker that he isn’t even sure is actually visible beyond wishful thinking. “Just… You asked me, earlier…” Jotaro mutters in elaboration.

Kakyoin blinks before remembering how this conversation started, and he sighs, turning to fully face Jotaro, leaning against his door. “As I recall, you didn’t answer me,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro’s frown tightens, lips parting, but Kakyoin speaks again before he can say anything. “I’m just…tired, Jotaro.”

Jotaro shifts, his arms cross tighter, as he stiffly nods. Kakyoin presses his lips together into a line.

“...I’m alright,” he whispers, and Jotaro’s tightness drops, as if a guitar string were pulled too taut and it snapped.

“...I’m alright,” Jotaro echoes, and Kakyoin smiles just a little, then, exhausted, but still there.

Jotaro stares at it for a long moment, long enough for Kakyoin to shift a little, awkwardly turning to face his key again as he unlocks his door fully and clears his throat. Jotaro jumps before ducking his head, uncrossing his arms but shoving his hands into his pockets, and it’s so reminiscent of how he was as a teenager that Kakyoin almost jumps.

“Um. I’ll be…in my room,” he mutters, and something in Kakyoin’s chest squeezes.

“...Alright,” Kakyoin acknowledges, and Jotaro nods. Kakyoin eyes his sweater again in absence of his gaze, his fingers twitching to feel along the small bump he now knows is there, to feel Jotaro’s heart beating-

Kakyoin shakes his head, ridding himself of the thoughts. His spine throbs, the pain ricocheting down to his fingertips. I need to go to bed.

“...Goodnight, Jotaro,” Kakyoin says quietly.

Jotaro breathes out for several seconds. “Goodnight, Kakyoin.”

He hesitates for a second longer, finally moving to lock gazes with Kakyoin, before he nods, turns, and walks back down the hall, his footsteps silent against the carpet.

Kakyoin stares after him for several moments, even after he turns the corner out of his sight, his fingertips tingling, his spine aching, his legs full of pins and needles from being on his knees for so long. Finally, he takes a breath, opens the door, and steps inside.

Immediately he undresses, slipping on his pajamas instead, sighing in relief as the crustiness of dried blood is removed from his skin. He sends Hierophant out to slip through the door to his bathroom, quickly grabbing his painkillers, and he lets out a breath when Hierophant slinks back up with his prize.

“Thanks, Hierophant,” he says softly. Hierophant just strokes his fingers before moving to his dirty clothes, scooping them up and managing them. Kakyoin has half the mind to burn them instead of washing them, but… He sighs. I don’t want to lose Miss Holly’s cardigan that she gave me.

Kakyoin shakes his head before he takes his dose, glancing back one last time at his door. When Hierophant returns, stringing around the ceiling for his nightly watch, Kakyoin lets out a breath, his fingertips still tingling, the ghost of Jotaro’s chest against his forehead making Kakyoin twitch as he lies down.

He closes his eyes, shifting a bit. He focuses on his own heartbeat, his chest heavy as he tries to remember the rhythm of Jotaro’s, how it differs from his, how it keeps Jotaro warm all the same.

Kakyoin falls asleep thinking of aftershave and deodorant, the salt in both sweat and seawater, and of the ocean itself.

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Chapter 34

Summary:

Kakyoin blinks. “‘They?’”

Reimi’s hands re-clench into fists, dropping from their folded position, and Kakyoin rolls back just a bit to give her a little more space, brows furrowed in concern. “Koichi! Okuyasu and Yukako! Josuke! We’ve already done that- that tactic!”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow further. “Wh- why does tha-”

“Because if they know and see through the trick, it’s not worth it — because they’re the only people I’ll ever get to fight! Because I’ll never get to leave this alley! Because I’m DEAD!” Reimi slaps a hand over her mouth then, but it doesn’t stop her voice from cracking, nor her shoulders from shaking.

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no but hi guys oh my god. i'm so sorry this wasn't posted in july it . it ended up being such a fucking crazy month for me. my field work was very very intense, like in four days alone my group and I found over two thousand fossils (not physically big ones but still) and then I had to write a report and present on those findings, then I was out of town AGAIN for about another week visiting friends and going to my first concert, then i got COVID (FIRST TIME EVER it sucked so bad i was solidly unconscious for a day and then in and out for the next two), then I had to file some stuff for my financial aid at my university which involved a lot of running around my advisors and then the financial aid office itself, then I'm getting ready for grad school apps and emailing professors and researching different degrees and universities, then art fight, then I'm running kakyoin month on tumblr, later i had my first ever hangover, AND JUST. it's jsut been CRAZY on my end as such 😭😭😭😭😭😭 but! I'm here now. i just for real wanted to apologize that i didn't get a chapter out in july. ch 35 should not take nearly as long as this one did and i'm so very excited to be back. in the meantime I just wanted to thank everyone for sticking with me and dealing with my awful updating schedule. thank you all so much it means the world to me. i promise to make it worth it i promise. im still determined to finish this fic before the fourth anniversary so stick with me

also! you may have noticed that wwm/ta is now officially part of a series on ao3. this is because i plan to write AT LEAST a part 6 au sequel and then a long oneshot epilogue. i may write more stuff for this continuity/au, but for now those two are absolutely going to be done. and im so so excited i hope u guys are too!! ahh but that is further ahead. in the meantime though, enjoy this chapter (": wah

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There’s blood, and flashes of gold, flashes of blue, sharp nails and then big hands, a voice behind his ear but then a chest in front of him, green in his periphery, a clock ticking, a heart beating, holes in bodies, so much red, and Kakyoin wakes up to the phone ringing.

His eyes shoot open, a faint impression of warmth and wetness and the scent of sweat and aftershave lingering on his senses before he blinks rapidly and sits up, only to hiss as his spine cracks, drops of liquid pain feeding out from it to the rest of his nervous system like an IV.

Shaking his head, Kakyoin more gently continues to sit up and settle against his headboard as Hierophant unspools from around the hotel room and picks up his phone, handing it to him. He rubs his eyes with his free hand as he glances around, the blue hue of early morning spilling in from his window to light it up. What time is it?

He glances at the digital clock on his nightstand as he grunts out, “Hello?” only to do a double-take as he sees the time flash 5:43 A.M.

“Mr. Kakyoin?” Josuke’s voice rings out, and Kakyoin grunts again.

“Josuke? It’s so early, what-” he blinks, before sitting up more, ice water dousing his sleepy brain into alertness. “Is- is everything alright?”

“What?” Josuke questions before letting out a comprehending noise. “What? No, no, everything’s fine, just-” he sighs then, cutting himself off, and Kakyoin blinks, his heart rate slowing, but his apprehension growing.

After a beat, Josuke breathing softly into the receiver, he tries again.

“You’re right, it is early. Er. Sorry.” He clears his throat, the soft sound just brushing against the microphone. “I just- it’s our day off, and we didn’t train yesterday when we were supposed to, and I really, really-” Josuke cuts himself off with a small gasp, evidently having run out of air due to his rambling, and Kakyoin’s brows furrow.

“Josuk-”

“I- I need to train,” Josuke spits into the phone, voice wavering, “I- I need to train, I- I need to- I need to keep them s-”

“Josuke,” Kakyoin cuts in, and Josuke shuts his mouth, instead taking in a wet, sharp breath.

“I need to train,” Josuke repeats in a whisper, and Kakyoin’s chest constricts, his ribs pressing against his still-grumbling spine.

“We can do that,” Kakyoin confirms just as quietly, and Josuke lets out a rush of air that comes through Kakyoin’s speaker as static, a small thump on the other end of the line giving the impression that Josuke has slumped down. “Not right now, but- yes, we can train.” if Koichi’s up for it, Kakyoin thinks, but he remembers Echoes and his Acts and Koichi’s almost-pride for it, and he can’t help his own surge of excitement, his fingertips tingling. Shaking his head, Kakyoin swallows and continues, “But- why are you up right now?”

Josuke halts, going still, and if it weren’t for the fact his phone isn’t letting out that damned dial tone, Kakyoin would think he had hung up, unable to even hear him breathing.

“Josuk-?”

“It’s nothing,” Josuke spits then, “just woke up early. I tend to wake up early because of my hair, you know?”

Kakyoin just barely manages to bite back a scoff and an impending sense of deja vu, flashes of his conversation last night zipping through his mind. He says nothing.

“Cause- cause my pompadour,” Josuke elaborates, voice edged, “it- it’s not as easy as just gelling back, I have to-”

“Josuke,” Kakyoin cuts in with a low, soft voice, “do you remember the deal we made?”

“H…huh?” Josuke asks dumbly.

“No more secrets,” Kakyoin says, voice still soft. “We have to trust each other more. Remember?”

Yes I rememb- don’t treat me like a damn k-”

“I’m treating you like an adult by holding you to your word,” Kakyoin refutes easily, and Josuke lets out an angry, pinched noise on the other side of the line. He sighs, shaking his head, ridding himself of the impression of blue. They really are related. “We don’t need to talk about it. I for one don’t really want to discuss anything important over the phone,” Kakyoin tries, but Josuke doesn’t laugh. Kakyoin just presses on. “Just…come on. We’ve talked about this, yeah? It’s not a bad thing to- to be honest. It’s never a bad thing.”

Josuke is silent, but he lets out a long, long breath, and Kakyoin can feel himself deflate with it, closing his eyes and letting out his own silent sigh. Josuke stays quiet, but he stays on the line. Kakyoin purses his lips and gives him time.

“Sorry,” Josuke eventually whispers. Kakyoin just sighs again, audibly this time, and shakes his head.

“Where are Okuyasu and Koichi right now?” He asks instead.

“H-huh?” Josuke questions.

“Just- you said they were sleeping over yesterday, right?” Kakyoin asks. “Are they still there?”

“Wha- yeah?” Josuke says. “They’re…they’re still in my room. Yukako also ended up staying over, she’s in the guest room…”

Kakyoin nods. “Good. I’m glad.”

Josuke lets out a breath. “Yeah. Yeah…”

Kakyoin rubs at the bridge of his nose. “Go and rejoin them and get some more rest, Josuke,” he murmurs. “We’ll meet in the afternoon like usual. Try and calm down until then, okay?”

Josuke inhales like he wants to say something, but he pauses, before sighing, letting the air back out and the words back in. “I’ll… Okay… I’ll see you later, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin nods, closing his eyes, slumping against his headboard. “I’ll see you later, Josuke.”

They hang up. Kakyoin stays sitting up, staring at his wall for a long, long time, the impression of a heartbeat tickling his fingertips, the chill of water continuously sliding behind the back of his neck.

By the time the sun has risen enough to spill warm yellow light in through his window, Kakyoin blinks his sore and stinging eyes before he sits up and has Hierophant grab his wheelchair.

Time to get to work.


“Alright,” Kakyoin says, clapping his hands together after a lecture on the importance of utilizing the environment to best suit the children’s stand abilities (save for an extra one-on-one conversation with Koichi about seeing if he can shift Echoes’ Acts mid-battle, while the others filled Reimi in about the events of the other day), “get some water and we’ll start sparing. This will be a group fight between you all, so I’ll sit out this time.”

“Lazy!” Josuke calls, and Kakyoin scoffs good-naturedly, whipping a tentacle of Hierophant’s in his general direction, which makes Yukako laugh.

“Water, I said!” Kakyoin repeats, “it’s the middle of the day in summer! You can’t fight if you get heat stroke.” Josuke waves a hand as he, Yukako, and Koichi pad off to Reimi’s lawn, where Kakyoin dropped the water bottles he’d gotten for them all.

Okuyasu lags behind them, instead turning to Reimi, who remains waiting in the road. “Wait, can you drink water?”

“Oh, um…” Reimi shrugs, ducking her head a little. Okuyasu blinks before frowning, but Reimi continues before he can speak. “I don’t know,” she admits, “I haven’t exactly had anything to try drinking since I’ve been here…I can eat my pocky, but it also regenerates whenever I take a bite, so I don’t know if it’s really normal food anymore.”

Kakyoin blinks, rolling up to the kids. “Why didn’t you say so sooner? You could’ve tried a water bottle before,”

Reimi shrugs again, reraising her head. “Well, even if I can drink, it’s not like I feel thirst. I figured it’d be better to leave the water for those who need it.” She turns with a smirk then and pokes Okuyasu in the ribs, who jolts and lets out a yelp. “Like you!”

“Okuyasu!” Josuke calls then, voice sharp, making Kakyoin, Okuyasu, and Reimi all jump, “Mr. Kakyoin said drink! Come on.”

Okuyasu jerks into action, nodding as he pads over to Josuke and the others, leaving Kakyoin to frown at Josuke’s tone while Reimi hums, taking a step after Okuyasu before pausing.

Kakyoin shakes his head before rolling on ahead, giving Reimi a smile. “Come on. Want to see if you can try water?”

Reimi hums. “...Are you sure?”

Kakyoin chuckles, nodding. “Of course. We have plenty. And besides, your alley’s right next to a corner store; I can step out while you all are training and grab some more bottles if need be.”

Reimi bites her lip, but a smile is spreading across her face. “Ah…well, it would be rude to deny it if you insist!”

She bounds after Okuyasu then, calling for them to save her a bottle, Arnold jolting up and barking at her shout, and Kakyoin smiles, following after them, curious himself over if she can drink or not.

“Here,” Yukako hands her an unopened bottle, and Reimi flashes a smile at her, brushing her hair back from her face as she does.

“Ah, thanks!” Reimi chirps, before unscrewing the cap, then pausing, staring down at the water peaking up at her from the hole.

“You said you don’t get thirsty here, right?” Koichi asks, and Reimi chuckles, lifting her gaze from the water to nod at him.

“No, not really. But it’d be nice if I can drink! I…kinda miss routine, y’know?” Reimi admits, turning back to the water.

Yukako hums, frowning. “Yeah… I get that,” she says, before Okuyasu slaps Reimi’s shoulder good-naturedly, making both jump.

“Well, let’s try it then!” Okuyasu cheers. Josuke twitches, and Kakyoin assumes it’s because of Okuyasu’s volume at first, but he catches how Josuke’s gaze is zeroed in on where Okuyasu’s hand still rests on Reimi’s shoulder, and he purses his lips. Hmm.

Before Kakyoin can say anything, though, Reimi takes the water and brings it to her lips-

Only for the water to phase through her, splashing onto the ground, making Josuke and Koichi jerk back from the spray.

“Oh, shit,” Okuyasu says while Reimi frantically recaps the water and passes it to Yukako’s stunned hands.

“Sorry, I’m so sorry,” Reimi blurts, stepping near Josuke and Koichi. “It didn’t splash on you, did it?”

“Huh? No, not at all, just- are you okay? What happened?” Koichi reassures while Josuke’s brows just furrow and he crosses his arms.

Reimi shrugs a little helplessly, crossing her own arms then, and Arnold pushes his way past Okuyasu and Yukako to nudge her leg with his big boxy head, looking up at her. “I don’t know, I-” she grits her teeth then, shaking her head. “I guess I can’t drink anything you guys bring,” she says, ducking her head.

Kakyoin frowns. “Reimi…”

Reimi just shakes her head. Koichi and Yukako exchange glances before Yukako hums aloud. “I wonder why you could eat your pocky, then? Are you sure you don’t want to try again?”

Reimi shakes her head once more, making Kakyoin’s frown deeper. “I’m pretty sure the pocky thing is-” Reimi sighs, her voice edged, blowing strands of her hair away from her face again. She absent-mindedly brings a hand up to right her headband. “I used pocky to do fortune telling and- and stuff like that when I was…” Reimi shakes her head. “I used it for fortune telling, right? So, I think that kinda mixed it up with the spirit world a bit. So it’s different from-” her voice gives just the slightest bit “-from normal water.”

The kids hum their understanding while Kakyoin muses quietly, staring at the water bottles in his kids’ hands. If it’s as simple as associating it with the occult like that… There’s gotta be some way to tell a fortune with a soda…

Reimi inclines her head, her teeth gritting, before she nods, straightens, and plasters a smile on her face again. “Anyway. Okay.” She claps her hands then, making everyone, even Arnold, jump a bit, Kakyoin jerking out of his thoughts. “Well, let’s get training!” She points at her friends, who all jump at the sudden motion. “Get ready to be grabbed, because I’m not holding back my hands!”

Her voice is steadier now, which seems to relax everyone, Koichi chuckling at her enthusiasm while Okuyasu hums thoughtfully, piping up, “How many hands does your stand have, anyway?”

Reimi blinks before she tilts her head, tapping a finger to her chin. “I’m not sure… I haven’t found a limit. I don’t really know where they come from…”

Okuyasu laughs, slapping her shoulder again, making her jump. “I don’t know where the stuff my stand erases goes! I wonder if it’s the same place?”

Kakyoin pauses, tilting his head thoughtfully. “There’s an idea…”

Okuyasu and Reimi exchange glances before Okuyasu grins, and slowly, Reimi returns the smile, nodding her head.

“Okay!” Josuke butts in suddenly, clapping, making all three of them jump. “Let’s get started, yeah? Mr. Kakyoin?” Kakyoin raises a brow at his intensity, but Josuke’s already moving, bumping hips with Okuyasu, who laughs and turns from Reimi to him, telling him to, Calm down dude, we all already know Crazy Diamond’s cool too.

Kakyoin politely decides not to probe the issue for now. Clearing his throat, he turns to Yukako and Koichi, who move to join Josuke, Okuyasu, and Reimi. Kakyoin points, gesturing between Okuyasu and Josuke.

“A reminder that we’re not really doing sparring partners today,” Kakyoin says. “Instead, you’re all going into the ring against each other. Do you all understand?” A chorus of hums and yeahs answer him. Kakyoin smiles. “Alright. I’ll be off to the side. We’ll try and do three rounds, with me giving you feedback after each one. Remember the goal is to use your environment.” Josuke’s eyes flash as he nods his head, followed by everyone else. Kakyoin nods. “Alright, everyone get into place. I’ll count down.”

The kids shoot off and scatter, and Kakyoin shakes his head, chuckling, as he moves to the porch of what was Reimi’s old house, Arnold padding along after him after staring at Reimi for a long moment. 

Once the kids have placed themselves, Kakyoin needs to shout at Josuke that No cheating, dismiss Crazy Diamond until I count down, and Josuke sticks his tongue out at him but nonetheless Crazy Diamond fades from his side. Kakyoin holds up his hand, counting down from five, dropping each finger as he does.

“... Two… One… Go!” Kakyoin calls, and a burst of light overwhelms the street as his kids all summon their stands at once, leaping into action.

As always, their training goes by with Kakyoin losing track of time. The first round ends rather abruptly with Echoes attempting to incapacitate everyone in its Act 2 form by sticking the word “anti-gravity” on the street – but Okuyasu counters it by erasing the space between him and everyone else, and the ground, leading to the students all collapsing into a heap, and Okuyasu winning. Kakyoin laughs while Arnold barks, taking the opportunity to race over and lick faces and hands.

The second round is longer, and in it, it is discovered that Echoes cannot switch Acts mid-battle – he must first be dismissed, and then resummoned as the new Act – which costs Koichi his victory when, as Yukako’s hair races toward him, he yells at an Act 3 Echoes to “SHIFT TO ACT 2 AND MAKE ME SLIPPERY!” which just earns him a panicked look from his stand before they’re both tied up. It’s a close fight between her and Josuke afterward, but Yukako ultimately claims victory, grinning at Kakyoin as her peers hang suspended in her curls.

The third round is definitely the most destructive.The girls both move to the offensive immediately, forcing the boys back into defense. Between The Hand’s erasure as Okuyasu attempts to subdue Reimi’s hands, and Echoes Act 3’s Three Freeze as Koichi attempts to halt Yukako’s hair, the street gets torn up. Seizing the opportunity – which makes Kakyoin smile widely, seeing him work it out – Josuke adds to the destruction of the road with Crazy Diamond, before raising all the chipped chunks of asphalt up and into a dome, encapsulating Koichi, Yukako, Okuyasu, and Reimi quickly.

Arnold jumps up, barking for Reimi, while Kakyoin claps, nodding his head at Josuke in approval. Josuke grins at him before dropping the dome, letting Okuyasu’s groan over losing sound out over Arnold’s barking as the dog leaps up and into Reimi’s arms.

“Now that’s what I like to see!” Kakyoin calls, and Josuke’s grin widens, while the others grumble goodnaturedly. “Great job using the street like that, Josuke!”

Josuke rubs the back of his head bashfully, while Arnold drops from Reimi and then barks at Josuke, running around the group, halting when Koichi runs up to him for pets.

“Man, that’s crazy,” Okuyasu whines as he saddles up beside Josuke, slinging his arm around him, making Josuke laugh in delight. “I forgot you could mold things when fixing them, not just putting them back how they were.”

“I don’t use it a lot, so that makes sense,” Josuke says as he throws his arm around Okuyasu in turn, turning his face into Okuyasu’s, and it’s only then Kakyoin realizes how close they are, and he jerks his head, suddenly very sure he should not keep watching.

Koichi is on his knees with Reimi giving Arnold belly rubs, Yukako watching over them all the while. Kakyoin pointedly focuses on them, rolling away from Josuke and Okuyasu to give them some privacy.

“Yamagishi, I’ve been meaning to ask: does your stand have a human form, or is it just the hair?” Reimi is asking, looking up at Yukako with a smile.

Yukako shuffles her feet, rubbing her arm a little awkwardly. “It’s, uh, just the hair… I know it’s not that cool…”

“No!” Reimi cuts in, making Yukako jump, “I think it is cool! I mean, my stand’s just hands, afterall. I’m glad I’m not the only one, you know?” Reimi sighs, hands pausing in Arnold’s fur. “And your hair is so pretty even when you use it to fight. I was definitely no match for you in that second round; you had me mesmerized!”

Yukako’s face flushes then and she ducks her head, mumbling a response, while Arnold whines for Reimi’s attention, pushing Koichi away to stand up, shake, and nose into Reimi’s shoulder, much to her delight and Koichi’s offense, the boy sputtering in mock outrage.

Kakyoin smiles, shaking his head, and steps in then. “Great work, everyone. Reimi’s right, Yukako, you did an excellent job today in the second round.”

Yukako smiles then, pleased, and Kakyoin turns to Koichi and Reimi.

“And Koichi, great job working on what I asked you to and figuring out Echoes’ limits.” Koichi blinks at that before his brows furrow.

“But… I couldn’t make him switch Acts mid-fight,” he counters, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“No,” he admits, “but that wasn’t your assignment; it was just seeing if that was possible. You did, even with all the chaos of a fight going on around you, and you accounted for it in the third round, even if you didn’t win.” Kakyoin pauses, remembers Koichi’s crying face the day before, and tags on cautiously, “I’m- I’m pleased with your work today,” unsure of how the comment will be taken, but not wanting to leave it unsaid.

Koichi blinks, before ducking his head. Kakyoin frowns, but before he can say anything, Koichi pipes up, “Thank you, Mr. Kakyoin…” and lifts his head again, blue eyes burning with determination in a way that reminds him of Josuke. No wonder they’re friends.

Kakyoin clears his throat, nods, and turns to Reimi before he can say something stupid. “And, Miss Reimi, you’re getting better and better! Despite your stand being automatic, your control on it and keeping it from going too far during training has been increasing exponentially.” Kakyoin pauses, tapping his chin. “I wonder… Have you considered using Arnold as a distraction to get people to turn around for your hands?”

Reimi blinks before a grin stretches across her face. “I have, actually! Do you think it’s okay if Arnold jumps into the fray, though? I don’t want him to get hurt,”

Kakyoin smiles, nodding. “Of course. All you kids have great control of your stands at this point, I can’t see him being hurt.”

“Can he even get hurt?” Josuke calls, making Kakyoin, Reimi, Koichi, and Yukako turn to where he and Okuyasu, now untangled from each other, walk up. “Y’know, cause he’s a ghost…”

“I-” Reimi pauses. She looks down at Arnold, who returns her stare, panting and wagging his tail. Reimi’s lips press into a line. Kakyoin frowns.

“Jo-”

“I mean, I don’t know that because I haven’t tried to hurt him while we’ve been here,” Reimi retorts. “And even if he can’t be hurt for real, he’s still just a dog.”

Josuke holds up his hands, but Reimi’s expression doesn’t change. “I was just saying…” He mutters.

Kakyoin clears his throat past the tension now in the air. “Okay, kids, water break. Go ahead and cool off, it’s summer after all.”

Josuke hesitates before listening, kicking lightly at the ground as he moves, Okuyasu shooting a concerned look at Reimi before following. Yukako and Koichi exchange glances, but Kakyoin waves them off, and after their own hesitation, they go too.

Kakyoin turns to Reimi then, who now has her hands curled into fists, staring down at Arnold intensely.

Kakyoin presses his tongue against his teeth, considering, before he rolls forward a little more. “Are you alright, Miss Reimi?”

Reimi whips her head up, as if not realizing Kakyoin was still there, dropping her fists and instead jerking her hands to fold across her stomach, a stiff, faux image of politeness. “Mr. Kakyoin! Yes. Why wouldn’t I be?”

Kakyoin fights the urge to raise a brow. “You just seemed a little upset is all.”

Reimi reflexively sneers before she jumps, as if startled at her own emotions, her expression smoothing out. “Yeah, well.” She’s quiet for a moment. “I’m not.”

Kakyoin purses his lips. “Miss Reim-”

“It’s fine, Mr. Kakyoin, really,” Reimi presses, and Kakyoin has to bite back a comment that she is horrible at lying, really.

Instead, he just sighs. If she doesn’t want to talk about it… “Well… You don’t have to use Arnold as a distractor; the sentiment is basically, use what’s around you for help to get people to turn. You don’t have to risk endangering him.” Kakyoin pauses, tapping a finger to his chin. “Maybe in a team exercise, Koichi could have Echoes Act 1 or 2 use sounds to get people to turn around for your hands.”

Despite his attempt to move the conversation, however, Reimi’s face just sours again, and she hangs her head. Kakyoin blinks. Does she not want to work with him? “Er-”

“That won’t work,” Reimi says, unable to hide the miserable edge in her voice that makes it come out a little warbly, “we already did that once before, they won’t fall for it again.”

Kakyoin blinks. “‘They?’”

Reimi’s hands re-clench into fists, dropping from their folded position, and Kakyoin rolls back just a bit to give her a little more space, brows furrowed in concern. “Koichi! Okuyasu and Yukako! Josuke! We’ve already done that- that tactic!”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow further. “Wh- why does tha-”

“Because if they know and see through the trick, it’s not worth it — because they’re the only people I’ll ever get to fight! Because I’ll never get to leave this alley! Because I’m DEAD!” Reimi slaps a hand over her mouth then, but it doesn’t stop her voice from cracking, nor her shoulders from shaking, her and Arnold’s wounds suddenly manifesting as Kakyoin blinks, blood seeping down the wound in her back, tracing along her shoulder blade before staining the back collar of her dress. Kakyoin can hear the other children go quiet from their spots on Reimi’s old lawn.

Arnold whines softly, nosing up into Reimi’s fist, but it seems that makes it worse, as Reimi crumples to her knees then, arms wrapping around Arnold’s neck as she lets out a choked sob.

“Miss Rei-”

“I’ll never get to fight anyone else,” she repeats bitterly, voice wavering, yet sharp, like a dead rose’s stem. “I’ll never get to use what you teach me in an actual battle. Dammit, I can’t even help solve my own murder!” She spits, making Kakyoin wince.

Reimi continues, eyes dark and cold and trained intensely on the ground. “I’ll never get to go to school with- with them or my old friends, never get to take Arnold for walks again or get to join them in sleepovers like they all had just the other day. I’ll never even get to- to just drink water with you guys, or anyone else, again, I’ll never-” her voice breaks again, and she shudders.

Past the lump in his throat, Kakyoin moves gingerly out of his wheelchair with Hierophant’s minor assistance, joining Reimi on the ground. “Miss Reimi,” Kakyoin says softly, and Reimi just shudders, arms tightening around Arnold, who looks over at Kakyoin with sad brown eyes before nuzzling into Reimi’s hair, whimpering.

“I never got to see Rohan grow up,” she whispers, and Kakyoin blinks. Oh, right- “I never got to even graduate,” she spits bitterly. “I don’t even know what I wanted to be. But I wanted to live, to at least get the chance-” and the words remind Kakyoin of exactly how he felt at his own high school graduation, missing his friends growing up for a year, lost and confused on what to do, and yet for once, Kakyoin can’t regret living in that time more than regret how he squandered that life-

Reimi’s teeth grit, her hands tightening into fists, before she pushes back from Arnold and slams her knuckles into the road, pulling back and punching again, over, and over. Kakyoin jumps in then, reaching for her hands as they rapidly get torn up by the asphalt, but Reimi-

phases through him.

Kakyoin shudders violently at the sensation, watching in fascinated horror as Reimi repeatedly dives through him to crush her hand against the road, over and over, the sound of bone cracking echoing between them, and Kakyoin has to wonder how exactly these wounds work, when you’re a ghost.

“I was only 16,” she growls, as if Kakyoin isn’t there. “I was only 16, I was only 16, I WAS JUST A KID!”

She screams, slams her fist against the asphalt again, and Kakyoin cannot stand the wet crunch of bone against concrete, the sound reverberating in his chest, in his spine- “REIMI!” he shouts, and Reimi lets out a wet, hiccuping gasp, and her and Arnold’s wounds fade, and Kakyoin can finally grab her hand.

She’s trembling, but she doesn’t jerk away, and Kakyoin gently relaxes her fist so he can get a look at the damage. She’s bleeding heavily from her knuckles, the skin red and scraped raw, with spare bits of asphalt dug into the exposed, thin muscle. There’s an occasional flash of bone, and Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut.

“It’ll heal,” Reimi says, voice hoarse, Kakyoin only just able to hear her over the soft padding of the others’ footfalls as they run up to them. “It always does. Nothing sticks except the one on my back.” She laughs then, humorlessly. “I don’t even get to feel it hurt.”

Kakyoin doesn’t care. He pulls out the ribbon holding his hair back, letting the strands fall around his face as he gently wipes at her scrapes, cleaning out the grit of the road, before he ties it around her still-trembling knuckles. “Let me clean it up for my sake then. I’m not good with gore,” he lies.

Reimi goes quiet then.

The kids catch up, Okuyasu calling out, “What the hell just happened?!”

Reimi flushes then, face pinching, ducking her head, yanking her out of Kakyoin’s grip, and Kakyoin frowns — but he did get to tie the ribbon around her hand (even if not as securely as he’d want to), so he lets her go.

He instead holds up his own hand, forcing the kids to halt. “Give her some space,” he calls, and Reimi lets out a shuddering sigh, raising her head again.

Yukako lets out a noise at the red around her eyes. “Reimi… Are you okay?”

Reimi presses her lips into a line, looks up at her friends, before her face falls and a small sob comes from her. 

At that point, despite Kakyoin’s warning, Okuyasu, Yukako, and Koichi dive forward, surrounding Reimi securely, and Kakyoin blinks in surprise-

But Reimi sinks into their arms, letting out a soft cry, reaching to grab fistfuls of Yukako’s uniform.

“I- I’m s-s-sorry you guys had to see tha-” Reimi starts, but Koichi shakes his head, backing up just enough so that Arnold can weasel past him to sit next to Reimi again.

“Don’t apologize,” Koichi says firmly, “we understand.”

“Yeah,” Okuyasu pipes up, as Yukako brings her arms fully around Reimi, letting the girl lean completely on her. “I mean, who hasn’t punched the ground like that before? It’s a normal teenager thing.”

Reimi just cries harder at that, though, and Okuyasu shoots Koichi a startled look, before Reimi pipes up,

“I shouldn’t be a teenager; I wanted to grow up.”

Okuyasu sucks in a breath, wincing. “Er… Yeah…”

Reimi lets out a watery whimper before she pulls back from Yukako, wiping her eyes.

“I’m really sorry,” she says, voice breaking, but Yukako holds her by the shoulders, shaking her head.

“Koichi’s right, you don’t have anything to apologize for,” she says, and Reimi sniffles.

Josuke shuffles awkwardly next to Kakyoin, jerkily moving down to his knees to join the rest of the group. “What… happened?” He asks.

Reimi sniffles, shaking her head. “I just-” she laughs, flatly. “It’s so damn stupid. It started because I couldn’t drink that dumb water with you guys. And then just, training, and how I could make you guys phase through me, and- and how I – and probably Arnold – can’t get hurt like you guys-” Reimi pauses, swallowing thickly, the click of her throat audible in the otherwise silent street.

Josuke winces. “Ahh, I’m sorry if my… comment about the dog…” He says awkwardly.

Reimi shakes her head. “It just all reminded me- I can't- be here, with you, I can’t-“ she sucks in a sharp breath. “I just wish-“ and she lets out a long sigh, going limp in Yukako’s hold. “Not getting to actually be with you guys- it’s- it reminds me that I died alone.”

Kakyoin’s mouth runs dry. Josuke’s eyes soften, a small Oh dropping from his lips.

“I don’t regret saving Rohan,” Reimi says softly, “but it meant that- it meant being alone. When-” her teeth clench “-when he caught up to me.”

Kakyoin’s glad he’s already kneeling, because if he wasn’t, he would have lost his footing. What Reimi is saying, it’s too close- too close to Egypt-

“I could’ve been with my parents,” Reimi whispers, “or at least with Arnold, but I couldn’t just let him die, but…” She goes quiet, Yukako hugging her tighter.

“Oh,” Kakyoin says softly, and Reimi just sniffles. “Miss Reimi, I-”

“Did you know I’m supposed to be older than you, Mr. Kakyoin?” Reimi asks, and Kakyoin can feel his jaw lock, barely able to breath past the pressure of his own ribs. “I’d be 31 right now. If I- I-”

Reimi sniffles again, and Koichi and Yukako both murmur soft words, while Okuyasu awkwardly pats her back, brows furrowed in concern. Kakyoin is, truly, grateful for them, because he’s not sure how he’d handle this alone, not sure how he could stomach staring at a ghost that could be — that is — a reflection of who he could be.

He has the vague thought that all the children in Morioh seem too similar to him in various ways for his liking.

“I’m…so sorry,” Kakyoin utters, and Reimi just shudders. Kakyoin clears his throat. “But… I disagree.” Everyone goes still. “You are here with us, even if it’s not as- solidly as you wish.” The words come out slowly, carefully chewed out of him. They drop like stones into a pool. Kakyoin’s heart is pounding.

Reimi does pause then. She raises her head from Yukako’s shoulder. “H-huh?”

Kakyoin clears his throat, avoiding the tantalizing urge to jerk his gaze to the ground. Reimi is staring at him with large, wet eyes, and the black color of them reminds Kakyoin of the light-polluted sky of Cairo, how no stars shone, just the lights of the city. Kakyoin closes his eyes. “You never should have- have been forced to make a choice that would cost you your life, especially not so young.” Kakyoin shudders and opens his eyes again. “But… even with that, you’re still- here. Despite everything. I understand it’s not how you wanted to go on, I understand things you wanted have been closed off from you now,” -Kakyoin chuckles a little then, Oh I understand - “but we got to meet you, and train with you, and you got to see that- what you did mattered. You saved Rohan’s life. And what you’re doing matters – we’re only able to go after-” Kakyoin hesitates, before he shakes himself and barrels ahead, “-after Kira because of you.”

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, closing his eyes again. “So… can’t you see? If you weren’t really here with us, you wouldn’t get the chance to see the results.” Kakyoin sighs. “You are here. It’s not ideal, but you are here. And we’ll be with you as long as we can, while we can. And we’ll make sure- this…chance,” he puts delicately, “gets used to the fullest.”

Reimi is still staring at him. She pulls back from Yukako’s arms, wiping her eyes again. “H…how do you mean?”

Kakyoin smiles, leaning back on his knees. They’re beginning to spark with pain, pins and needles riding up and down his calves, but he ignores it. “Well,” he starts, “for one, there’s gotta be some way to tell a fortune with some soda. We can do that with you, and then you’ll have soda again.”

Reimi blinks, lips parting.

“Or- whatever you want to drink,” Kakyoin amends. “And…food. We could-” We should figure out what food you can eat that you do like now. Kakyoin shudders and pushes the memory away. “We could let you try new things that way. And just…”

He thinks back to what he wanted more than anything as a kid, as a teenager that just woke up from a coma, when he was as lonely as Reimi is now, and sighs again, shoulders slumping. “And just…be here, for you.” Acknowledge you. Kakyoin purses his lips, eyeing the kids. “...If you all wanted to, I could supervise a sleepover here… It wouldn’t be hard for Hierophant to snag some sleeping bags and stuff.” I haven’t been camping since Egypt. Kakyoin pushes the thought away.

Reimi stares at him, eyes widening before she turns to her friends. “You- you- is it- is that really okay with you-?”

“Yeah!” Okuyasu cheers, jostling Reimi’s shoulder playfully. “That actually sounds pretty fun. I’ve never slept outside in a sleeping bag before!”

“It would be fun,” Koichi agrees, smiling at Reimi, while Yukako nods, gently dropping her hands from Reimi’s shoulders.

Josuke clears his throat awkwardly. “You guys… I don’t know if I wanna sleep outside…”

“Josuke!!” Koichi hisses, whipping his head to glare at Josuke, while Yukako lets out a disapproving tsk.

“Oh, come on, Josuke!” Okuyasu clicks his tongue, moving from Reimi’s side to Josuke’s to elbow him playfully in the ribs, making Josuke let out an oof. “If it’s such a big deal to you, we can share a tent or something.”

Josuke’s face goes through at least eight different expressions at that comment, none of which Kakyoin deigns to analyze, before he sputters, “I- I guess- I-”

“Don’t worry about him,” Koichi cuts in, refocusing on Reimi with Yukako and Kakyoin , “he’ll go wherever his friends go, even if he complains about it.”

Reimi hums, her lips pressed into a thin line. “Mm…”

Kakyoin laughs softly, shaking his head. “Koichi’s right. And besides that, I think you’ve earned the right to be a little selfish, no? He can deal with sleeping outside for a night.”

He tries not to think about his words too much, ignoring the creeping thoughts of What about me, do I still have that right too, what would I even want to be selfish about?

Reimi hums, ducking her head, before she re-raises it. “...Can I invite Rohan, in that case? He visits me on Fridays, so I can ask him then.”

Kakyoin bites back a groan. “O-of course,” he sputters instead, and Reimi smiles, really smiles, her eyes crinkling, even if it’s a little cheeky, and Kakyoin suppresses a sigh. If it’s for my student, I suppose it can’t be helped…

He shakes the thoughts out of his head, looking at Reimi earnestly. “I know it won’t…make up for losing your youth,” he murmurs, and Reimi swallows thickly, “but I hope…it can help ease the ache.”

Reimi’s lips part, but she pauses before she says anything, looking down. Yukako softly clasps her shoulder.

“I can, um, do shadow puppets with my hair, when we do the sleepover thing?” She tries out, her voice a little awkward. “I’ve never had a sleepover with another girl but…would you want that?” Arnold noses against Reimi, and Koichi quietly shushes him, telling him to be a good boy and give Reimi some time to think before asking for pets.

Reimi smiles at Yukako, ducking her head again, before nodding.

“Okay,” she says, “okay…” She lifts her head, eyes shining once more. “...Thank you, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin blinks past the burning behind his own eyes. “Ah, Miss Reimi, of course.”

…It’s the least I can do for you.

Kakyoin sucks in a breath. Reimi’s voice – I wanted to live – echoes in his head.

He leans back a little further and looks to the sky, and feels the summer sun soak into him, warming up his chest and arms, his hair heating his scalp to a noticeable degree. His knees hurt, dull throbs of pain slowly sharpening, burrowing deeper into his bones as his calves go completely numb, and his spine is quickly working up a fuss over the angle he’s leaning at, sharp fiery lashes landing against his central nervous system. He’s sweating a little, and he can smell the strong tang of cut grass, can hear the hum of insects, can even hear the soft rumbles of traffic echoing softly from the mouth of Reimi’s alley. He can feel all 27 years of his, the short but impactful life he’s had. That he’s still having.

For once, he doesn’t loathe it.

“Of course.”

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Chapter 35

Summary:

Josuke snarls then, Crazy Diamond shimmering into the air beside him, his grip tightening on the photo. “You damn bastard- you just revealed your weakness, then! I can just rip up the photo-”

Yukako sucks in a breath. “Wait, Josuke-!”

Josuke rips the photo in half, then in quarters, and-

Suddenly a bright line cuts through Jotaro’s face, cuts through Koichi’s middle, cuts through Josuke’s chest, and Kakyoin and Jotaro lock eyes just in time for Kakyoin to see them widen before they all start falling to pieces right in front of him.

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The drive to Kira’s house is quiet.

It’s on the far edge of town, a fact that made Kakyoin snort when he realized, so they all called a cab – or rather, Jotaro called a cab after having everyone meet at the hotel, looking at them all expectantly as two cars drove up.

The boys all pile into the back seat of one cab, clearly uneasy about being separated. Yukako hesitates, glancing back at Kakyoin, before she goes and takes the passenger seat of the same cab as the boys. Kakyoin stiffens when he realizes that he and Jotaro will be in the same cab, then. Alone.

Jotaro seems to come to the same realization at the same time, because he halts in his steps toward the remaining cab, waiting a beat, before he tugs his hat down over his eyes and shoves his free hand into his pocket. It’s a movement that’s entirely familiar to Kakyoin from Jotaro’s teenage years that he can’t help but feel a bit dizzy.

“I’ll… sit in the fron-”

“No!” Kakyoin calls, before jerking his mouth shut. Jotaro whips his head back to stare at him. Kakyoin twitches, and damn, does he miss his scarf. “I- um.” He shakes his head rapidly. “It’s fine, you can…sit where you want…” he mutters.

Resolutely looking at the ground, Kakyoin rolls past Jotaro and slips into the cab’s back, folding his wheelchair and setting it in the middle seat. He closes the door and then firmly smacks his own forehead once he’s sat down and in the privacy of the seat right behind the driver’s.

After a moment, the other back door opens, and Kakyoin jumps, whipping his head up from his palm to see Jotaro climbing in, shutting the door behind him. His knees are absolutely cramped, pressing up toward his chest, and Kakyoin tries to chuckle but he can’t muster up the energy to stop staring at Jotaro with his jaw slightly dropped.

Jotaro glances at him before jerking his eyes away when he sees Kakyoin staring, as if he were scared of making direct eye contact. Instead, he clears his throat, and tells the driver Kira’s address.

And from there, they don’t talk. Kakyoin keeps glancing at him though, and sometimes, Jotaro glances back, and every time, both jump and dart their gazes away.

By the time they arrive at Kira’s villa, they’re both pressing into their respective doors, and Kakyoin has been unable to stop staring at Jotaro and how his silhouette stands boldly against the light of the window for about two minutes.

When they stop, Kakyoin blinks, jerking himself out of his reverie, before he hastily scrambles out of the cab, Hierophant swiftly grabbing his wheelchair and unfolding it for him. Belatedly he realizes he just left Jotaro with the bill, before he shakes his head.

The cab with the kids pulls up then, parking behind the first one, and the children spill out just as Jotaro comes out himself, his long legs unfolding more gracefully than any of the times he would stumble his way out of a car after a long day of driving in Egypt. Kakyoin swallows thickly and turns to the kids.

Yukako steps out easily, but Koichi, Josuke, and Okuyasu all but fall out of the car, evidently uncomfortable with how they all crammed in the back, and Kakyoin can’t help but bite back a snicker. “Have a good ride?” He asks.

Yukako clicks her tongue then, glancing back at the boys, who all mutter vague assents to his question. Josuke stretches, shrugging his shoulders.

“Maybe next time, Okuyasu or Josuke should take the front, and I can be in the back,” Yukako comments. “I’m thinner like Koichi, so it should work better.”

Josuke scowls at this, but offers no complaint. Koichi lets out a sigh before saying, “Yeah…” sheepishly. Kakyoin snorts.

“Alright,” Jotaro’s voice calls out then, and Kakyoin damn-near jumps, whipping around to see Jotaro behind him. When had he walked up?

Jotaro jumps at Kakyon’s sudden movement, jerking his gaze toward him, and they stare at each other for a second, before Kakyoin shakes his head and rolls back, beside Jotaro instead of in front of him.

Jotaro clears his throat, inclining his head away from Kakyoin and focusing on the kids. “...Alright,” he repeats, and the kids all exchange glances, which makes Kakyoin wince. What an awkward thing for them to have seen.

Jotaro doesn’t acknowledge it, however. “He won’t be in the house. This means we have full run of the place. We’re looking for his eccentricities – what makes him stand out – so that we can find him again.” Kakyoin grits his teeth, memories of Aya and how Kira threatened her flashing in his mind. That was too close.

“We’ll split up to search in order to cover more ground faster,” Jotaro continues, dragging Kakyoin out of his thoughts. “Each team will have three people.” He hesitates, glancing at Kakyoin then. Kakyoin resolutely keeps his gaze away, feeling not unlike he’s trying to outrun a riptide.

“We should split up based on stand ability,” Kakyoin pipes up, making Jotaro blink. The kids nod, however, and it gives Kakyoin the assurance to keep going. “Since Koichi, Yukako, and I are the only long distance stand users, we should be split among the teams.” Koichi and Yukako nod at this.

Jotaro hums. “I…” He sighs. “Yeah, that’s a good idea.” Kakyoin twitches, a flash of irritation riding in his chest – Why’s it so hard to admit, huh? – but when Jotaro follows up with, “We should also split up based on experience, so Koichi, Josuke, you come with me. Yukako and Okuyasu, stick with Kakyoin,” Kakyoin whips his head to face him, eyes wide.

“Huh?”

It’s Jotaro’s turn to keep his gaze from meeting Kakyoin’s, and Kakyoin just stares at him. Is that- my experience?

Is he- is he trusting my experience? For once?

Kakyoin opens his mouth, but no words come out. The kids murmur their agreement and Jotaro turns, gaze darting at Kakyoin before jerking away when he sees him staring.

Kakyoin shuts his mouth then, his chest doing a strange mix of both tightening and loosening, reminding him a bit of the undulations of a snake as it slithers by. He shakes his head.

“...Let’s go,” he says, and Jotaro nods.

They go up to the house, and unceremoniously, Jotaro summons Star Platinum and has him break the lock of the front door with a swift punch.

“EH?!” Koichi cries, and Kakyoin has to bite back a chuckle.

Jotaro shrugs, opening the door for everyone.

Kakyoin lets the kids shuffle in before him, watching over them carefully, biting back a smile when Josuke flings his arm around Okuyasu, who easily and unconsciously wraps his arm around Josuke’s back, pulling their sides flush together.

Kakyoin refocuses his gaze to head inside himself, then, only to jump when he notices Jotaro’s gaze on him. “What?” He reflexively questions.

Jotaro jerks his gaze away. “I…” he hesitates, eyes dropping from Kakyoin, and for a moment, Kakyoin thinks he is just going to let it go.

For some reason, the thought upsets him, twisting his innards into a dense ball.

“Jotaro,” he prompts quietly, and Jotaro sucks in a sharp breath, closing his eyes.

“You- you said we could talk after this,” Jotaro states. Kakyoin blinks before nodding. It’s quiet for a few heartbeats – heartbeats that, Kakyoin’s brain suddenly deigns to remind him, are controlled by a device in Jotaro’s chest – before he figures he should speak.

“We can,” Kakyoin confirms. “We- we are.” He pauses. “We…are?”

Jotaro jerkily nods and Kakyoin lets out a breath, his chest opening up a little bit, allowing him to breathe a little easier. “We are,” Jotaro echoes.

They both nod at each other then, before pausing. Kakyoin stares up at him. Jotaro’s refocused his gaze on him, and Kakyoin isn’t sure if he’s thankful for that or not. Something in his skin itches. His throat aches with the sting of saltwater.

Kakyoin jerkily turns away and rolls inside, the itchiness in his skin shifting to the back of his neck and he shudders. I miss my scarf…

He shakes his head, letting out a sigh. He rolls inside. “Okay, everyone,” he calls, drawing his kids’ attention and stopping their conversation. He’s acutely aware of Jotaro coming to stand beside him, just in his periphery. “Let’s split up like Jotaro said and get searching.”

Koichi, Josuke, and Jotaro pad further into the house, leaving the front room to Kakyoin, Okuyasu, and Yukako. Kakyoin leads the charge, but they all begin methodically moving through drawers and examining pictures (what little there are, at least – there are not a lot of photographs on the walls). Kakyoin absentmindedly sends Hierophant out throughout the house as winding tentacles. Yukako and Okuyasu jump when he does so without a warning, and Kakyoin can’t help but snicker softly to himself.

When they find nothing in the first room, they move to the next – the dining room and kitchen. There, they find the rotting remains of eggs shells in the trash – probably the breakfast of the day he attacked Jotaro and Koichi. Kakyoin shivers.

“Ew,” Yukako shudders, pinching her nose. “Can we tie this up so we don’t have to smell that the whole time we search?”

Kakyoin hums, nodding. “Yeah…” Did he cook it himself? How many people did he cook for? I should check his fridge and see what his proportions look like…

Okuyasu hums, glancing inside as he goes to tie up the bag. “Hm… Looks like he lived alone.”

Kakyoin blinks, pausing from where he’s turned to the cabinets. “How can you tell?”

Okuyasu gestures. “I’ve seen Mr. Tonio cook, and there’s only enough shell in here to come from one egg. Why would you make just one egg if he didn’t live alone?”

Yukako hums. “But this house is so big… Do you think it must have been a family home he inherited in that case?”

Kakyoin nods thoughtfully, tapping a finger to his chin. “Yes… That’s a good point. Great deductions, you two.”

Okuyasu and Yukako exchange glances before smiling bashfully, ducking their heads. Kakyoin turns back to the fridge, still curious about what might be in there, only to huff when nothing particularly unique lies in wait for him. He had no special diet as far as he can tell – dairy and meat still sit in the shelves, but thankfully they’re not smelling yet – and there are no substitutes that would indicate an allergy, nothing. Kakyoin closes the fridge.

They examine what dishes Kira had in the cupboards, the number of which confirms that this was a family home – dusty, child-proof dishes sit in the back, while porcelain plates, cups, and a tea kettle all sit at the front. Kakyoin sighs again, rubbing a hand across his face.

“This guy is so- so boring for a serial killer!” He growls, and Yukako and Okuyasu both let out startled snorts at his phrasing. “I don’t-”

Kakyoin opens another cupboard then, only to freeze. Inside, a ring on one of its well-manicured, painted fingers, is a disembodied hand. It smells strongly of formaldehyde despite appearing dry, and it’s so strong that Kakyoin feels his nose burn. It’s been positioned loosely around a frying pan, as if to say, “I’m trying to help!”

Kakyoin gags and immediately turns away, his stomach lurching up to his throat, as if to try crawling out of his mouth.

“Mr. Kakyoin-?”

“Don’t,” Kakyoin gasps, slamming the cupboard shut. “Don’t look.”

Yukako and Okuyasu exchange stiff glances. Kakyoin swallows.

“It’s…” Kakyoin’s hands clench into fists then, and he’s reminded of his gloves. Snarling wordlessly, he rips them off, shoving them into his pants pocket, shuddering. “Found out what he does- why he-” Kakyoin shudders, fury tracing up and down his shoulders along his veins. “To his victims,” he says.

Okuyasu blanches. “Does he eat them?!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly. “What? No, he-” Kakyoin shakes his head, some of the tension winding up his spine diffusing, but only some. “He…” Kakyoin grimaces.

“You don’t have to show us,” Yukako says quietly, “but tell us. We need to know what we’re up against, Mr. Kakyoin…”

Kakyoin sucks in a breath before letting out slowly. I need to trust you more. He rubs at the bridge of his nose, letting out a soft grunt. Damn keeping my promises. “There’s a disembodied hand in there.”

Yukako’s face goes white and her eyes dart consideringly toward the trash can Okuyasu is still near even after tying up the bag, while Okuyasu’s brows just furrow, hands tightening into fists.

Kakyoin clears his throat. “It’s not…rotting,” he says. At least not yet. “It actually seems… sort of well taken care of?” Kakyoin frowns, crossing his arms stiffly.

Yukako scoffs. “That- that makes it creepier.”

Kakyoin can’t help but agree, nodding his head.

Okuyasu’s nose scrunches up then into a scowl. “So, what, he keeps trophies?”

Kakyoin shrugs. “I don’t know. If it’s a trophy thing, there should be more, but I only saw the one in there.” Kakyoin grimaces then. “Unless, they’re scattered all around the house.”

Okuyasu shivers while Yukako looks decidedly green, and Kakyoin is glad Okuyasu tied up the trash bag, because if the smell combined with the feeling, he’s certain she would actually throw up.

“Well, I guess that stands out,” Yukako finally strangles out, and Kakyoin smiles weakly at her while Okuyasu snorts, but drops his fists. “But it’s not like we can search every house in Morioh for disembodied hands.” She pauses, staring at Hierophant’s tentacles winding along the floor. “...Right?”

“No,” Kakyoin agrees, “but it does mean we know he’s fixated on hands, for whatever reason.”

Okuyasu gasps, head shooting up. “And- and that means, if we can see what he-” he grimaces then, tightly, “-what he… likes in a hand, we can identify potential victims and watch over them! Like a superhero!”

Yukako blinks while Kakyoin smiles, nodding. “Exactly.” He sighs then, slumping. “But… I guess we should check the rest of the cabinets in that case. To see if there are… any more-”

“JOSUKE!” Koichi’s voice shouts, echoing off of the walls.

Kakyoin’s turned and is already moving before he realizes, ice flooding his veins, his heart low in his stomach, as he races to where the voice came from, Okuyasu and Yukako frantically stumbling behind him.

Josuke, Jotaro, and Koichi are in an office space a few rooms away from where the kitchen was, a broken phone lying on the ground, a polaroid camera sitting on the desk in the room. Josuke is cradling his jaw as he glares at the phone, while Koichi hovers near him, concerned. Jotaro’s expression is stormy, staring down at the phone with not exactly an alarmed expression, but with suspicion, calculation. For some reason, he has a photo in his hands. Kakyoin’s heart stumbles as he realizes they’re all okay, and he takes a deep breath, his head spinning as his heart rate abruptly slows.

“What-?!” Okuyasu’s cut off when the broken phone begins to speak, and Kakyoin’s hackles rise once more.

“How dare you – I’m not letting you leave!” An older voice spits out from the phone, and it reminds Kakyoin of Red Hot Chili Pepper, yet the voice is less whiny and more… angry. “Those who dare to try investigating my son will die!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly, lips parting, as Josuke snarls, dropping his hand from his mouth, pointing at the phone. “You- you bastard! Are you saying you know about your son’s murders?!”

Okuyasu lets out a noise then, but Kakyoin can’t dissect it because Koichi turns to them then and calls out, “It- it’s a ghost! Kira’s dad is a ghost and haunting this house!”

Kakyoin’s head spins. “Like- like Reimi?!” What’s with Kira and ghosts, anyway?!

Jotaro lets out a comprehending noise, a sort of Oh, huh, thing, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze back to him, as do Koichi and Josuke. “He’s in the photo. Here, look,” and he flashes a photograph for the rest to see.

Kakyoin squints, and makes out a polaroid shot of Josuke, Koichi, and Josuke as they investigated the room – and in the corner, next to a set of drawers, curls an old man, a phone to his ear as he glares out of the frame at everyone. Kakyoin shudders.

“He’s- he’s manipulating the world through the photo?!” Yukako cries. “Then- then how can you beat him?!”

“You’re not!” The man snaps, and he rises from his sitting position, revealing a knife that glints in his hands, and it’s all Kakyoin gets to see before Jotaro jerks the photo back to watch for himself. “I’ll admit you catch on fast, but I’m going to kill you for trying to hunt down my son like a dog – all of you!”

“But- I don’t understand!” Okuyasu cries. “If- if you know he’s a murderer, then why are yo-”

“Because I love my son!” The man howls, voice sharp and loud and it makes Kakyoin flinch violently. “He’s my only son! I will protect him no matter what!”

Okuyasu stares with wide eyes before his shoulders hunch and he growls, the Hand manifesting beside him. “That- that doesn’t make any damn sense!”

Josuke snatches the photo from Jotaro then, making him blink in surprise, as he turns it toward Okuyasu. “Okuyasu! Erase him from the photo!”

Okuyasu smiles meanly then, all teeth as he sucks in a breath before racing forward. “You bet! You damn bastard, you’ll regret not making any sen-”

And suddenly Okuyasu is outside of the room, in the hallway on the other side, and he slams into the window there before he can stop his momentum.

“WHAT THE HELL?!”

“OKUYASU!!”

“Okuyasu, are you okay?!”

Josuke, Koichi, and Yukako’s voices all ring out, and Jotaro and Kakyoin lock gazes then.

Kakyoin surges forward, Hierophant racing into the room-

-and his tentacles just follow Okuyasu, suddenly jutting out into the hallway on the other side, as if the room between them doesn't exist at all. Kakyoin and Jotaro lock gazes again.

Koichi runs his hands through his hair, his chest heaving as he stares helplessly after Okuyasu. “We’re- we’re in a separate dimension- like Reimi’s alley-”

“Jo-Jotaro-” Kakyoin croaks, but the old man begins speaking again.

“You idiot!” he cackles, and Kakyoin snarls. Yukako rushes forward then, diving through the doorway and past the other side to the hall with Okuyasu, bending down and helping him sit up, gently brushing glass away from him with her hair. “You, girl!” The old man in the photo points at Yukako, but she doesn’t pay him mind. He continues anyway. “Earlier, you said that I was controlling things through the photo. But that’s not quite true! I’m a ghost that haunts photos, yes, but when I take a photo, everything in it exists in there with me! The room is in my world now, not yours! These three can no longer leave!”

Josuke snarls then, Crazy Diamond shimmering into the air beside him, his grip tightening on the photo. “You damn bastard- you just revealed your weakness, then! I can just rip up the photo-”

Yukako sucks in a breath. “Wait, Josuke-!”

Josuke rips the photo in half, then in quarters, and-

Suddenly a bright line cuts through Jotaro’s face, cuts through Koichi’s middle, cuts through Josuke’s chest, and Kakyoin and Jotaro lock eyes just in time for Kakyoin to see them widen before they all start falling to pieces right in front of him.

Kakyoin’s screaming before he realizes it, only at first feeling it as a constant scrape against his throat before he hears it, a guttural, throaty sound that is loud, louder than the blood rushing in his ears, louder than Josuke’s screaming, louder than-

Jotaro reaches a hand toward him and all Kakyoin can do is fucking watch as he falls apart no matter how many tentacles of Hierophant’s he tries to send into the room, as Josuke and Koichi fall apart, and it’s just like that damn alleyway behind the shoe shop but worse because even though he’s here this time, all Kakyoin can do it watch-

Crazy Diamond lunges for the scraps of photograph still in Josuke’s hand, and immediately fixes them back together, like nothing even happened.

The pieces of Jotaro, Koichi, and Josuke jerk back together, Koichi falling over as he dry heaves, Josuke shaking, and Jotaro won’t stop staring at him-

Kakyoin’s gut lurches violently and he feels bile rush up the back of his throat but he would rather die than look away now – it’s the only thing he can do, Hierophant’s tentacles still stuck on the outside of the room no matter how many he still throws through the doorway in an attempt to get in-

“Ka-” Jotaro starts to say, but Kira’s father begins speaking again.

“Are you all idiots here?!” He complains loudly from the photograph in Crazy Diamond’s hands, and Josuke growls from where he’s gone to help Koichi up, showing off his teeth as he whips his head up to glare at him. “I just said everything in my pictures join me in the realm of the photograph – if the photo is damaged, you will be, too!”

Josuke’s face blanches, his gaze snapping to Koichi and Jotaro. “I-”

“It’s no difference to me, of course,” the old man says, knife flashing again as he moves in the photograph toward Josuke, and Kakyoin’s stomach plunges. “I’m going to kill you either way!”

“No- no, no, leave him alone!” Kakyoin roars, but again, his attempt to send tentacles into the room is useless. He jerks his gaze back to Jotaro, but Jotaro is on his feet, brows furrowed, eyes wide as he scans the room frantically, searching for something.

Okuyasu dives back onto Kakyoin’s side from the hallway then, Yukako following him, both of them having to dodge the multitude of Hierophant’s tentacles Kakyoin’s sent out, and Kakyoin and Jotaro both snap their gazes to him.

“Wait- wait-” Okuyasu gasps, chest heaving, “he said he- he controls things through photos, right?”

Kakyoin lets out a comprehending noise high in his throat while Jotaro turns to face him more fully.

“Then- we were thinking-” Yukako cuts in, swallowing thickly, “if you take the picture Josuke has and take a photo of it so that only he’s in frame, then-”

“-Then can you trap him?” Okuyasu finishes, and Jotaro and Kakyoin glance at each other.

“Do it,” Kakyoin gasps, and Jotaro is already moving, snatching the photo from where Josuke and Koichi are crowding around it helplessly, moving toward the polaroid camera on the desk in the room.

“Mr. Jotaro-?!”

“Josuke, Koichi,” Jotaro says as he shoves the side of the photograph the old man is in in front of the lens, before clicking the shutter, “can you do me a favor?”

“E-eh?!” Koichi gasps while Josuke just stares, eyes wide.

“What the hell are you doing?!” Kira’s father shrieks, before the polaroid spits out a new photo, the film developing. After a few seconds, the flash fades, and into view comes Kira’s father, looking utterly dumbfounded, eyes wide, knife still in hand.

“Say something cool,” Jotaro continues, and Kakyoin twitches at his nonchalance, “because we won.”

Josuke and Koichi exchange startled glances just before Kira’s father begins shrieking, banging against the photograph, the photo jerking up but Jotaro snapping his hand toward it, pinning it down. “HOW THE HELL DID YOU ESCAPE MY TRAP?!” He howls.

“Uh-” Koichi stutters. Josuke clears his throat before straightening his shoulders, shooting a shaky snarl toward the photograph.

“You- you didn’t scare us at all, idiot!!” He shouts, before Koichi jumps in, holding his fists in front of his chest.

“Did you really think a photo trick would be enough to- to outsmart people who already outfoxed your son once?!” Koichi crows, and Jotaro smiles and Kakyoin feels so dizzy he closes his eyes, dropping his forehead into his hand.

Suddenly, Hierophant’s tentacles are finally in the office alongside Jotaro, Koichi, and Josuke, and Yukako and Okuyasu surge toward them while Kakyoin snarls, dismissing Hierophant and rolling forward and snatching the new photo from Jotaro’s grasp, glaring daggers at Kira’s father, who squirms, the photo shaking in Kakyoin’s hands, but Kakyoin keeps his grip steady.

“Give me one damn reason,” Kakyoin seethes, “not to rip this photo to shreds and kill you right here-”

“Kakyoin.” 

Kakyoin whips his head to face Jotaro, a snarl still on his face. “And you!”

Jotaro blinks before he frowns. “Kakyoin-”

The photograph squirms in Kakyoin’s hands again and Kakyoin growls, turning and slapping the photograph closed, folding it harshly. There’s minute resistance, but Kakyoin’s so upset he barely cares, hands shaky.

Jotaro’s hands overlay his own then and Kakyoin jerks, shooting his gaze up to Jotaro’s, glaring.

“You,” Kakyoin snarls, his voice shaky with the force he puts into it, and Jotaro frowns tightly before he slips the folded photo from Kakyoin’s hands and turns to the desk, opening a drawer and pulling out tape and a pack of thumbtacks.

Kakyoin twitches, but lets him. Jotaro tapes the photograph shut, and then, for good measure, wraps layers of tape all around it, before taking a thumbtack and pinning the photograph to the wall.

It flutters, but stays put, and Kira’s father screams in rage, the sound slightly muffled. Kakyoin twitches, turning to Jotaro. “Why aren’t we killing him?!”

“Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin whips his head to face the kids, his chest heaving. Jotaro clears his throat quietly and Kakyoin shoots a glare as ferocious as he can muster, his brows drawn so tight his forehead honestly hurts a little.

“Good work, Okuyasu, Yukako,” Kakyoin says, voice still steaming with rage, and Yukako and Okuyasu exchange unsure glances. Kakyoin sucks in a breath, closing his eyes, and then letting it out slowly. He reopens his eyes and lets his expression soften, brows relaxing. “You’ve been taking our training seriously, and look how it’s paid off; you understood his stand and were able to counteract it quickly.”

They both relax a little then, smiling still a little nervously, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“Kira’s father wouldn’t have attacked us unless there was something damning in this house,” Jotaro announces then, and Kakyoin twitches, but says nothing. “That means we have to keep searching.” he pauses, glancing at Kakyoin, before swallowing.

“Yukako, Josuke, continue searching the house,” Jotaro continues. “Koichi, Okuyasu, stand guard and make sure he doesn’t get away. He might know where Kira would lie low at, so we need to question him.” He glances at Kakyoin again and Kakyoin twitches, glaring at him.

“Kujo,” He snarls, and Jotaro shudders violently, jerking his hat down over his eyes, and it’s such an intense reaction that Kakyoin blinks, shocked, but he continues his sentence, “we need to talk.”

Jotaro just sighs. “I figured.” Kakyoin twitches, snarling, and he jerks a hand and grabs Jotaro by the sleeve and tugs him along, uncaring that Jotaro stumbles, only that he follows.

He does, even as he yanks his sleeve back from Kakyoin’s grip.

They go through the hallway on the other side of the office, and Kakyoin slams open the door to the garden that lays beyond it, before slamming it shut behind Jotaro when he steps through with a tentacle of Hierophant’s.

Kakyoin takes a few ragged breaths, but the heat of the summer is not helping his anger, and he turns toward Jotaro, glowering.

“What the hell was that?” Kakyoin seethes, and Jotaro sighs.

“Look- I’m upset the kids were caught up in it too, but I really had no idea that would-”

“I’m not-” Kakyoin strangles out, twitching, “I’m not talking about the kids! I mean- I-” Kakyoin giggles a little hysterically then, running a hand through his hair, and Jotaro stares at him from under his hat, his eyes almost glowing amidst the shadow around them. Kakyoin feels water in the back of his throat, crawling down his nose, stinging, burning, and he jerks his gaze away.

“Kakyoin…” Jotaro says, tone cautious and deep, and Kakyoin shudders. “...What’s going on?”

“I- I don’t know,” Kakyoin’s voice cracks then, and he shudders again and crosses his arms. Jotaro blinks, alarm pinching his face, and Kakyoin lets out a wet-sounding exhale. “You- you-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says, and Kakyoin shivers-

“You- you all almost died, again, and I couldn’t do anything, again, and it- it was worse this time because I had to watch it happen and I- I-” Kakyoin grits his teeth. “I’m already going to die early enough! So the stress- I don’t need to- to-”

Jotaro’s face immediately falls flat. “What.”

Kakyoin chuckles hysterically again, shrugging his shoulders as he looks up into Jotaro’s face. “I can’t- I can’t- I cannot lose anyone else, I cannot just do nothing again, not like with Polnareff-” and Kakyoin immediately knows he’s revealed too much, but he can’t suck the words back up, and so he just freezes, staring helplessly up at Jotaro.

Jotaro opens and closes his mouth for a few moments, before he clunkily drops to his knees, making Kakyoin jump.

They’re eyelevel now, and Kakyoin can see his eyes so, so clearly, the teal so reminiscent of the harbor Kakyoin arrived at Morioh in, the harbor Kakyoin met Jotaro again in, and his heart jumps to his throat.

“Kakyoin…” Jotaro says, his voice still deep and rumbly and quiet, like he’s scared to raise it, and it makes his words a little hard to make out but Kakyoin can’t find it in him to care. “I’m not- I’m not going to die.” His hands clench into fists then, and he stares Kakyoin right in the eyes. “The kids aren’t going to die. I won’t let them.”

Kakyoin laughs right in his face and Jotaro’s brows crease in confusion. “You can’t- it’s not about letting, Jotaro,” and Jotaro’s brows furrow together even closer.

“You-” Jotaro pauses, exhaling, and Kakyoin needs to swallow back a lump in his throat. “You keep- switching.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Sw-switching?”

Jotaro ducks his head then, but Kakyoin reaches out his hands, placing them on his shoulders. Jotaro jerks, shooting his head back up, but Kakyoin doesn’t remove his hands and Jotaro doesn’t shrug them off. They stare at each other for a moment.

“Switching?” Kakyoin prompts again, and Jotaro takes a deep breath.

“You called me ‘Kujo’ again, earlier,” he says, voice even quieter than it was before, “and… now it’s ‘Jotaro’ again.”

Kakyoin pauses. He opens his mouth to respond, but nothing comes out.

Jotaro ducks his head. “It…” he sighs. “That’s… beside the point. Of the conversation.”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “No, it-” he can’t find the words. “... Do you… I mean…” Jotaro looks up and Kakyoin needs to avoid the urge to squeeze his eyes shut. “Do you… have a preference?”

Jotaro blinks, lips parting. They stare at one another for several moments. Kakyoin’s eyes sting like he’s opened them underwater. Then, abruptly, Jotaro blurts out, “I can’t tell if you’re mad at me or not.”

Kakyoin blinks, and Jotaro jumps, as if he didn’t realize he was even thinking the words, let alone letting them spill out of his mouth. They continue staring at each other. Kakyoin opens his mouth, then pauses, brows furrowing. He looks down, sighs, and takes off his sunglasses, looking back up at Jotaro without them.

His eyes are so, so, so blue, and Kakyoin has to hold his breath to avoid drowning.

“I’m- I’m-” I’m scared. Kakyoin swallows. I want to be brave. “I’m just glad you’re alive.” Kakyoin starts to duck his head, but Jotaro reaches forward then, placing his hands on Kakyoin’s shoulders, a mirror of his own pose, and Kakyoin jerks his chin back up.

This close, Kakyoin can see the shadows under Jotaro’s eyes clearly. They look like hurricanes forming off the coast of his irises. Kakyoin’s head spins, just slightly, at a new angle.

“I was frustrated, I am frustrated, but-” Kakyoin attempts to explain a little further, “the kids-” and you “-and I just-” Kakyoin sighs. “I don’t- I don’t know if I’m mad at you, not about this, I just-”

Jotaro’s eyes are blue and Kakyoin wonders how long it’s been since he last swam.

I’m just sick of feeling so useless. I’m sick of just watching. I just want to help. I just want to help. I just want to help you-

“I’m just glad you’re alive,” Kakyoin echoes, voice a little breathy, his head a little dazed. “I’m just- I’m just glad you’re alive.”

Jotaro hesitates, but finally he nods, and Kakyoin thinks he can breathe a little easier, even with his clunky wording.

Jotaro hesitates, gaze darting down, before he pulls his hands back from Kakyoin’s shoulders. Kakyoin didn’t realize how warm he was until he’s gone, shuddering in his cardigan even in the summer heat. Reluctantly, he slides his own hands away from Jotaro’s shoulders. He avoids the urge to run his hands over his chest instead, to feel for his pacemaker again.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says then, “what… what did you mean about…” he swallows thickly. Kakyoin waits, breath held. “...About- dying early?” Jotaro speaks so quietly it could be a whisper.

Kakyoin sighs, shaking his head. “It’s not actually- it’s just a medical probability. It’s not like anything’s actually- set in stone, or anything’s happening.” He sighs. “I just- I was- upset. When I said that.”

Jotaro looks vaguely ill, and Kakyoin crosses his arms, his hair prickling as Jotaro continues to stare.

“Kakyoin…” Jotaro says softly, “what happened to you-?”

There’s the pounding of feet then, and Jotaro and Kakyoin spring away from each other just as Koichi slams open the back door, his breath coming in quick gasps.

“Koichi-?”

“Koichi, are you okay-?”

Jotaro and Kakyoin are both interrupted and Koichi points inside, eyes wild, brows pinched upward. “He- he escaped!! Kira’s father escaped!!”

Kakyoin and Jotaro fly forward with no hesitation, Koichi scrambling right after them.

Josuke-

Okuyasu-

Yukako-

Fuck.

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Chapter 36

Summary:

Kakyoin, Jotaro, and Koichi stumble back into the office, only to see Okuyasu staring blankly. The wall in front of him, where Jotaro pinned the photograph of Kira’s father to, is now blank.

“Okuyasu?!” Kakyoin calls, and he snaps his head up at the sound. “Are you okay?!”

“He tricked me,” Okuyasu says dumbly, focusing wide eyes on Kakyoin, Jotaro, and Koichi. “He tricked me, again, he was fine- he was still trapped, he lied to us Koichi, but then I- I- I just let him go-”

“Okuyasu!” Jotaro barks, and he jolts, gaze darting to Jotaro. “Where did he go?! We can still catch him!”

Notes:

HI EVERYONE RAUGH

i am SO fucking sorry it took so long to get this chapter out. i have no idea why it was so hard for me to work on but im jsut glad it's finally here. i hope you guys enjoy it 😭

i'm back in school again (last year of undergrad!!!) and while i am in one lab (maybe two? we're tbd on that) i'm still rearing and ready to go re writing, so we should still be on track to post once a month. but i'll keep you guys updated on tumblr!

for now, i hope you enjoy and sorry again for the wait <3

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Chapter Text

Kakyoin, Jotaro, and Koichi stumble back into the office, only to see Okuyasu staring blankly. The wall in front of him, where Jotaro pinned the photograph of Kira’s father to, is now blank.

“Okuyasu?!” Kakyoin calls, and he snaps his head up at the sound. “Are you okay?!”

“He tricked me,” Okuyasu says dumbly, focusing wide eyes on Kakyoin, Jotaro, and Koichi. “He tricked me, again, he was fine- he was still trapped, he lied to us Koichi, but then I- I- I just let him go-”

“Okuyasu!” Jotaro barks, and he jolts, gaze darting to Jotaro. “Where did he go?! We can still catch him!”

Okuyasu opens his mouth to speak, but Josuke and Yukako’s shrieks interrupt him.

Once again, Kakyoin is moving before he even realizes, frantically rolling forward to where he heard the sound, Hierophant erupting out of him and shooting across the floor toward the room-

Yukako and Josuke are in a bedroom, looking up in confused horror at the damn photograph containing Kira’s father, a thread from what used to be his sleeve hanging out of frame and wrapped around-

“A stand arrow?!” Kakyoin shouts, and Kira’s father just laughs.

“Is that what you call it? Well, no matter. This arrow is what gifted my Yoshikage his powers in the first place; I know I can use this to protect him from the likes of you!” He declares.

Kakyoin twitches, Hierophant’s tentacles surging forward, and Kira’s father growls as he jerks on his thread, pulling the stand arrow up and into the photograph with him, using the momentum to then slip up and into the panels of the ceiling. Kakyoin snarls, dividing Hierophant up into smaller strands to follow him. He closes his eyes, trying to remember the layout of the building as Hierophant chases after him, before he calls, “Everyone, to the office! I’m going to try and force him back down from the ceiling!”

They all rush back, stands blinking into view beside them all as Kakyoin focuses on keeping Hierophant thin enough while still racing after the photograph, so close he can almost taste it-

Hierophant’s tendrils snag onto the photo’s edge and he yanks down, splintering the panels of ceiling with a loud crash as he forces Kira’s father back into the room with them by tearing the ceiling down.

“NO!” Kira’s father howls from the debris, the photograph jerking in Hierophant’s and the wooden beam’s holds. Kakyoin just sneers at him.

I knew I should have killed you,” Kakyoin seethes as he snatches the photo from Hierophant, bringing it closer. Kira’s father twitches, and Kakyoin sees what he thinks is fear crossing his face, his eyes going wide, before he grits his teeth.

“WAIT!” He calls, and Kakyoin snarls viciously, rolling his eyes as he brings the photograph between his hands to rip- “I RIGGED THE BOY! WHEN HE WAS FREEING ME!”

Kakyoin freezes, heart dropping as he snaps his gaze to Okuyasu. “What?!”

Kira’s father breathes shakily, but he smiles meanly, his teeth showing. “You think my Yoshikage got his Killer Queen from nowhere? I have an explosive stand too!”

Kakyoin swivels his head to Okuyasu, Hierophant reaching out blindly to do something-

-only to let out a strangled choke when, suddenly, the photograph flies out of his hands and he can’t breathe.

Past his quickening heartbeat rushing in his ears, he can hear Kira’s father cursing at him, telling him, “You’re such a sentimental sap! You let your concern over a stupid, stupid boy blind you that badly?!” And he figures out, then, that Kira’s father has used the thread of his shirt to tie around his throat, like sharp, thin wire. “You think I actually have anything like my Yoshikage? He’s special! Fate has chosen him! I’m nothing like him, because he’s one of a kind!”

“What-” Kakyoin coughs before Kira’s father tightens the string and he chokes. Jotaro, Okuyasu, Koichi, Josuke, and Yukako all stare at him with wide eyes, frozen and unsure of what to do when Kakyoin is in the fray of it, and dammit, how dare you make me a fucking human shield-

“Let me go! Or I’ll choke him to death!” Kira’s father shrieks hysterically. “Or maybe we’ll see what happens if I use this arrow on someone who already has an ability, hm?”

Kakyoin lets out a strangled snarl, starting to bring Hierophant back from Okuyasu to do something, only for the pressure in his head to become noticeable, feeling blood pool, throbbing, around his temples and cheeks and scalp, choking on his own tongue as the tension around his neck tightens and Hierophant fizzles away like his own breath.

Kakyoin’s vision begins blurring and he slumps in his wheelchair, and he can hear a cacophony of shrieks and yelling that seem to last anywhere from seconds to minutes, the vocalizations sounding in tandem with his racing heart throbbing in his skull, and fuck, it would be so embarrassing if I actually pass out like this-

and then he can feel Kira’s father slip away, the pressure on his throat relenting.

He blinks, gasping in a breath before he realizes, his vision fading back in from the spottiness it had become, to see Okuyasu and Josuke and Jotaro in front of him, and he only now realizes just how different the shades of blue in the Joestars’ eyes are, but he shakes his head rapidly before he points outside and rasps desperately, “He’s- After him!!”

They all turn and hurry, stepping outside into the garden Jotaro and Kakyoin were in minutes ago, only to see the photograph on top of a panicking bird, Kira’s father’s thread wrapped around its body as it flies off.

Kakyoin tries to summon Hierophant, tentacles barreling up into the sky, straining after the bird-

But evidently, Kira’s father is already outside even his long-ranged limit, because there’s a snap in the back of Kakyoin’s head and suddenly his arms and legs and spine ache like he’s just pulled all his muscles, and he coughs, his spine sparking. He’s petrified for a moment, suddenly certain he’s back in the water tower, he’s already sitting after all, where’s the blood, where’s the smell of salt and iron, where-

“Kakyoin!” Jotaro barks, hands coming down on his shoulders, and Hierophant is dismissed and Kakyoin snarls, glaring helplessly at the sky.

“Goddammit,” Okuyasu spits, “Goddammit, I- I’m so sorry, this is all my fault!” It snaps Kakyoin out of his thoughts, but he’s still dizzy, his head wavering on his neck.

Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “Okuyasu, what-?”

“He- he tricked me!” Okuyasu seethes, hands clenching into fists, “he wouldn’t shut the fuck up about how he just wants to protect his son and it was pissing me off, so I stuck a bunch more pins against the photo to try and shut him up, but he made this- he made it seem like he wanted that, he-”

“He made it seem like he used them to escape somehow,” Koichi chimes in, voice wavering, “so we unwrapped the photo to- and then-” Koichi hands his head.

“It’s all my damn fault!” Okuyasu growls.

“No, Okuyasu,” Jotaro pipes up then, voice grave, eyeing the bird as it finally fades into the distance, “he was smart. Very smart.”

“Besides,” Koichi says quietly, “he tricked me too. If it’s your fault, it’s my fault too.”

Okuyasu’s face wavers, then.

Jotaro glares at the last spot the bird could be seen, stuffing his hands into his coat pockets. “Kira and his father both don’t seem to register quitting as an option. It makes them dangerous when they’re desperate.” He sighs, shaking his head. “You know what they say. Like father, like son.”

And then Okuyasu’s face twitches violently, twisting into a mean snarl. “I don’t- I don’t understand!!” Okuyasu yells, stomping his foot in frustration. “Why would- he knows his son is a killer!! I don’t-” Okuyasu turns then, landing a solid punch against the side of the house. “WHY WOULD HE PROTECT HIM?!”

Jotaro glances at Kakyoin then, a little alarmed, and Kakyoin rubs at his throat, swallowing before he says in a raspy voice, “Okuyasu…”

“I just-” Okuyasu grits his teeth, hands clenched so tightly that they’re shaking. “I’m such an idiot. I have to be, right?”

“Okuyasu,” Koichi says, gently taking hold of Okuyasu’s arm, making him snap his head down toward him. Yukako joins his other side, and his shoulders deflate. Josuke spits into the grass of the garden before he turns to Okuyasu, in front of him.

“Okuyasu,” he says, “come on. You know that’s not true.”

“Then-” Okuasyu bites back as if the words in his throat are slicing into his skin the harder he tries to bring them up, as if he’s choking on his own blood. Kakyoin rolls forward then, next to Josuke.

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin says, and Okuyasu snarls, yanking his hand away from Koichi and folding his arms tightly across his chest. Kakyoin frowns at this, but he continues, “What’s wrong?”

Okuyasu twitches then. “What’s- he got away! And it’s my fault! Again!”

Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “What are you talking-”

“Red Hot Chili Pepper escaped twice because I couldn’t- because I’m so fucking stupid, and now Kira’s dad- and I almost got you killed, Mr. Kakyoin, both times!!” Kakyoin blinks, lips parting, while Okuyasu’s teeth grit again, a tendon in his jaw jumping with the force he’s using, before he turns, making Koichi and Yukako jump back, and punches at the wall of the house once again.

“... Okuyasu,” Jotaro chimes in then, voice grave, “I was serious; it’s not your fault. Kira’s father is a smart man-”

“And I’m a dumb one!” He snaps.

“OKUYASU!” Josuke shouts then, and everyone turns to face him. Josuke flinches a bit as they do, as if the weight of their combined gazes was physical, but he focuses his own gaze on Okuyasu and glares, eyes burning brightly underneath his pompadour in the setting sunlight. “Stop- stop saying things like that about yourself, man.”

Okuyasu blinks before he kicks at the ground, hands clenched in fists again. “Why? It’s true. It’s-”

“It’s not true,” Kakyoin cuts in, voice low, “remember what I said earlier? You and Yukako have been taking your training seriously. You saw the fruits of it just now. Why does one mistake matter so much, but not one success?”

Okuyasu opens his mouth, but Koichi speaks before he can say anything.

“They’re right…” Koichi chimes in, “I know you struggle with a lot of things, but struggling doesn’t mean dumb.”

Yukako nods, before adding cheekily, “I mean… You call Koichi smart, but he struggles with school like you do,”

“Hey!” Koichi retorts, face flushing, and Kakyoin shakes his head at their squabbling, smiling.

Okuyasu still can’t voice a retort. Eventually he closes his mouth, but to Kakyoin’s surprise, he doesn’t smile, laugh at his friends’ theatrics, or slump or relax his shoulders – instead, he tenses even more, his arms as wholes shaking from how tightly he’s balling his fists, and he’s glaring at the ground harshly. It’s such a degree of venom that Kakyoin has never seen on Okuyasu’s face, not even when he went toe to toe with his brother’s killer.

“Then why-” Okuyasu’s voice cracks then, just a bit, “-why does a person like Kira get a father who loves him and not- not me?”

The air falls quiet, save for the chorus of the cicadas that are surmounting as night continues to take hold of the world while the sun fades away.

Kakyoin parts his lips, but he can’t say anything. Okuyasu’s arms cross tighter.

“Okuyasu…” Jotaro pipes up then, “... What on earth are you talking about?”

Okuyasu’s face darkens and he ducks his head, shoulders trembling, before he turns and stalks inside the house, slamming the door shut behind him so harshly it rattles in its frame. Everyone breaks free from the freeze that had overtaken them, then; Josuke immediately sprints after Okuyasu, slamming the door back open and bursting inside, Koichi hot on his heels. Yukako glances back at Jotaro and Kakyoin, startled, and Kakyoin just frowns tightly.

“Come on,” he says, fighting the urge to wince as he speaks past his sore throat, “we can’t leave him alone right now.”

No one counters him, and they rush inside.

There’s a commotion occurring in the front room, and Kakyoin, Yukako, and Jotaro easily rush through the hallways toward it, until they burst into the room and see Josuke and Koichi with their arms around Okuyasu’s torso, clinging even as he tries to throw them off and head for the front door, over and over. The Hand stands to the side, watching the debacle and whipping its head back and forth along the fray as if unsure of what to do, its palms slightly raised almost in a surrendering gesture.

“Just let me GO!” Okuyasu roars, and Koichi just lets out an angrily yell while Josuke shouts back,

“No! What the fuck was that, man? You’re not oka-”

“What I am,” Okuyasu snarls viciously, “is STUPID!” before he turns on his heel and dives toward the ground, making Josuke and Koichi loosen their grips in surprise and in an attempt to protect themselves from the fall, which allows the Hand to finally swipe down and erase the space between Koichi and Josuke and the far wall next to Jotaro, Kakyoin, and Yukako, sending them flying toward it and completely through the plaster. Kakyoin winces, sucking in a breath, before he turns to Okuyasu.

“Okuyasu! Stop!” Kakyoin shouts, and Okuyasu winces but he doesn’t dismiss the Hand. He turns toward them, shoulders shaking, and Kakyoin can see tears lining his lower eyelids.

“But I’m not so stupid that I can’t understand that there has to be a reason!” He cries, continuing his train of thought, chest shuddering heavily under sobs he won’t vocalize, “There has to be a reason people like me never get what- what people like Kira do, so I- I-” Okuyasu scrubs at his eyes then with his knuckles, wiping away the tears harshly, while Josuke and Koichi erupt from the debris, Josuke growling as he fixes it with Crazy Diamond, Koichi staring at Okuyasu. “It has to be me. I’m not stupid enough to not make sense!” His face crumples then, and the tears he wiped away come back with a vengeance, tracing his cheeks as they fall. “Just stupid enough to not have the same things anyway.”

“Okuyasu…” Koichi whispers, and Okuyasu just shakes his head, flecks of tears arcing away from him at the motion.

“That’s not true at all,” Josuke seethes, and everyone turns to face him then. Hands shaking with how hard he’s balling them into fists, Josuke draws his shoulders back, staring intensely at Okuyasu. “Kira was stupid enough to get caught, remember?”

Okuyasu pauses then, lips parting, but no sound comes out.

“Jo- Josuke’s right,” Koichi tags in then, and Okuyasu swallows thickly, looking down. “Dumb enough for us to get his address, even. So it’s not something you brought on yourself – certainly not because of- of any smarts, or anything.”

Yukako slips forward then, past Kakyoin and Jotaro, joining Koichi and Josuke’s position in front of Okuyasu. “Sometimes, these things are just bad luck, not consequences,” she murmurs, and Okuyasu’s face screws up then, making her jump.

“Then- that- that makes it worse!” Okuyasu cries, dropping to his knees to smash a fist into the floor. Yukako lets out a strangled yelp, Kakyoin winces, and Jotaro sucks in a breath. His knuckles, already irritated from the punching of the wall outside, finally split on the flooring, and blood begins to dot the matt. It reminds Kakyoin of Reimi, during her own breakdown, and he wonders, again, if something was in the water in Morioh to make all the kids here so sad. “Because- because if there’s not a reason, I can’t- I can’t fix-”

“Okuyasu, STOP!” Koichi roars then, and Okuyasu does, head whipping up in surprise. Koichi nails down onto the ground beside him, Josuke and Yukako clumsily following him. He grabs Okuyasu’s hand, which makes Josuke let out a choked noise, but Koichi just pulls out a handkerchief from his pocket and begins lightly dabbing at the split skin of Okuyasu’s knuckles.

Okuyasu lets out a sharp hiss, and Koichi sighs.

Kakyoin swallows and rolls forward then, Koichi’s action bringing him out of his own frozen state.

“Here,” he says, handing Josuke his own handkerchief for Okuyasu’s other hand, and Josuke lurches forward, grabbing Okuyasu’s hand almost desperately. Okuyasu grimaces tightly, arms tense in his friends’ grips, but he doesn’t pull back. 

“I’m- I’m sorry,” Yukako pipes up then, and Okuyasu jerks his focus towards her. “I didn’t mean to…make it worse,” she mutters, “with what I said.”

Okuyasu’s face pinches, and he ducks his head again. “That’s not-” he sighs, going limp in his friends’ holds.

“Okuyasu…” Kakyoin begins, and Okuyasu flinches but slowly raises his gaze up to Kakyoin. “You know- you know no matter the case, there’d be nothing to fix, right?”

Okuyasu laughs humorlessly. “How could there not be? My- my-” he grits his teeth. “... Unless I’ve been too stupid to understand my own family.” He shudders, trying to jerk his arms back from Josuke and Koichi’s grips, but they hold firm. “Maybe that is that ca-”

“That’s not- that’s not what- that’s not what I was saying,” Kakyoin stresses, and Okuyasu growls. “Okuyasu, what- what is this even-”

“I just don’t understand,” Okuyasu spits, “why Kira gets a dad who- who would do all this- stupid fucking bullshit for him even after everything, but my brother and I got a dad who- who hated us!”

Kakyoin’s lips part, but no words come out. Again, just like that time back at Okuyasu’s house, Kakyoin has flashes of memories of who he now knows was Okuyasu’s father, of the cruel line of his face, his hands always clenched in fists unless he was shaking DIO’s hand, and a sickening writhing of his guts up his esophagus plagues him when Kakyoin considers maybe Okuyasu’s father never unclenched them even when he returned home. A part of Kakyoin had just assumed- if Okuyasu’s father had to be fleshbudded, he must not have been that bad, but-

But the evidence to the contrary is fighting against his friends’ holds, shaking like his bones are attempting to crumble into a pile, anything to be something other than the boy they make up.

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin breathes, and Okuyasu shakes his head.

“It’s stupid, right? Why am I even thinking of that right now? It almost got you killed-!”

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin repeats, and Okuyasu shuts his mouth with an audible click and a whimper, falling limp in Josuke and Koichi’s holds again. Josuke takes his hand with both of his, scooting closer, and Okuyasu slumps into his side, his head falling onto his shoulder.

“I just want- I just want to be reliable,” Okuyasu finally admits into Josuke’s shoulder, and Kakyoin’s ribs snap, causing his chest to collapse. “It’s okay if it’s because I’m too stupid, because at least I know why I can’t be, but- but if- if-”

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin says again, voice hoarse, and Okuyasu falls silent, shuddering against Josuke’s hold. Josuke moves his arms then, wrapping around Okuyasu. “You- you already are reliable-”

Okuyasu lets out a mean, low chuckle then. “Don’t lie to me, Mr. Kakyoin,” he says lowly, “I got my dad turned into that- that thing, I got my brother killed, I just almost got you killed again!”

Kakyoin swallows thickly against an edge in his throat he’s always had, sucking down spit saturated with pride to keep his tongue from weighing too much to speak, and counters, “And you also saved me again,” and Okuyasu falls silent. Kakyoin continues, pushing past the sore scrape in his throat from Kira’s father’s choking, “Okuyasu… Even if your father and your brother’s fates were due to your mistakes, you’ve more than made up for them.”

Koichi pipes up then, making Kakyoin startle. “Do you remember what you told us after your brother died?”

Okuyasu pauses, before shaking his head against Josuke’s shoulder.

“You said, you always knew the arrow business was going to get Keicho killed,” Koichi continues, and something in Kakyoin’s memory sparks, Okuyasu saying roughly the same thing in front of him once, too. Okuyasu lets out a soft grunt in acknowledgement, but it comes out almost more like a wheeze. “How could it be your fault if it was the arrow’s?”

Okuyasu pauses, his chest stilling from the deep-if-quiet breaths he’s been heaving into Josuke’s shoulder.

“I think some part of you must know it’s not your fault,” Koichi continues, “why don’t you let the rest of you?”

Okuyasu hunches further into Josuke’s shoulder, letting out a shaky breath.

“Because- because how can I just shrug off blame like that? I’m stupid but not cruel. They told me- Keicho, and dad when he could talk, they told me- they told me I’m stupid, said I was always causing messes, they-”

“Then what about us?” Josuke cuts in, voice tight, and Okuyasu lifts his head, staring at him head on. “If it’s about what people are saying, why doesn’t the fact all of us agree you’re not , not count?”

Okuyasu’s face wavers, expression shifting with doubt like a shadow underneath a boat in the water, before he says, “Because- because you weren’t there, when it all hap-”

“Bullshit!” Josuke shouts, making Yukako and Okuyasu jump. “I was there when your brother died. I saw every second of it! You didn’t- that was- you didn’t do anything!” Josuke seethes.

Okuyasu snarls back then, hands clenching into fists. “That’s the problem! I didn’t do anything when dad hit Keicho, or when he became that- that freak, or when Keicho tried to find ways to kill him, or when Keicho died-”

Kakyoin’s head is spinning at the admissions falling from the teenager’s mouth. “Okuy-”

Josuke snarls, “Okuyasu, will you just listen to me for onc-”

“Okuyasu,” Jotaro cuts in, and even though his voice is quiet, deep enough to almost be inaudible, the room falls quiet, Kakyoin jolting, I forgot he was here- “What, exactly, would be the point of this, even if it was your fault?”

Everyone pauses, Kakyoin unable to even hear anyone breathe. Finally, Okuyasu rubs his eyes before he swivels his head away from Josuke, looking up at Jotaro. “...What?”

Jotaro’s voice is even, and Kakyoin jolts when he realizes it’s the same tone he used when he said I’m not quite sure myself ten years ago. “Let’s say you’re right. Let’s say it was your fault, what happened to your brother and fathe-”

“Mr. Jotaro-” Josuke seethes, baring his teeth at his nephew as his grip on Okuyasu tightens, but Jotaro pushes on.

“What would be the point of demonizing yourself?”

Josuke falls quiet. Okuyasu’s mouth opens and closes for a few seconds, brows furrowing at Jotaro. “It- but they said-”

“Okay,” Jotaro agrees, and Kakyoin turns and faces him. Jotaro’s meeting Okuyasu’s gaze- except, no, not quite, Kakyoin realizes now, he’s staring just to the left of Okuyasu’s head. It’s a tactic Kakyoin remembers from the journey, when Jotaro was talking with someone and didn’t have a cigarette to fiddle with. “Let’s say that’s right, too. What if you’re stupid?” Kakyoin winces, abruptly remembering tact has never been Jotaro’s strong suit.

“MR. JOTARO!” Josuke roars, Crazy Diamond flickering beside him, but Koichi and Yukako both hold him back, shushing him, while Okuyasu just stares at Jotaro, brows still creased in confusion.

“I… What do you mean?”

“I mean,” Jotaro says, voice quiet, and his gaze lowers a bit, now looking to the side of Okuyasu’s shoulder a bit, rather than the side of his face. “What’s the point in agonizing like this? Even if it’s all true, what’s the point? Feeling sorry for yourself won’t make you improve.”

Okuyasu stays quiet, staring intently at Jotaro. Josuke sags in Koichi and Yukako’s holds, still glowering but letting the events unfold. Finally, Okuyasu takes a shaky breath and speaks in the softest tone Kakyoin’s ever heard from him.

“Because- because it was them who told me, they-” Okuyasu swallows thickly. “Isn’t it the least I can do, to carry their feelings for me with me, since they died? Or at least basically died,” Okuyasu says bitterly. “Don’t I owe that to them? I may be stupid but I need to be responsible.

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin says softly. Okuyasu shudders.

“I just- Again, I just want to be- reliable, for you guys,” Okuyasu whispers. “Like I wasn’t for-” his voice cracks “-for my family. But I don’t know how to do that, I don’t know how to do anything without my brother, so all I can do is look at what they said, hold it close, and- and it-” Okuyasu falls quiet.

It’s quiet for a moment, the weight of Okuyasu’s words pressing in on everyone. Jotaro ducks his head. Kakyoin eyes him, before he takes a deep breath and turns to Okuyasu again.

“Okuyasu,” Kakyoin says softly, and the boy in question takes his own deep breath before looking up. “They were wrong. They were wrong.”

Okuyasu’s face pinches then, already opening his mouth to retort, but Kakyoin continues,

“But I know you don’t believe that. And that’s…” Kakyoin holds his breath for a beat. “We’re not saying you have to let go of their words, per se.” Though I wish you would. “But- Jotaro’s right. You need to keep going forward.”

Okuyasu blinks. “...What?”

Kakyoin rubs at his temple with one hand. “I understand… wanting a direction, on how to get- better.” Kakyoin gets brief flashes of the promise he made to himself to regain his pride after DIO, of all the conversations he had in the hospital after his overdose, and shakes his head. “It’s good to have a direction. But you need to be able to move to do anything with it.” Kakyoin sighs. “If… If you really believe in your brother and father’s words, then you need to let them go enough to not be so paralyzed about- moving on. Staying in the same place would be the same as forgetting them entirely.”

Okuyasu stares intensely at Kakyoin. The gaze itches at his skin, but Kakyoin avoids the urge to twitch, even as the base of his spine begins aching like his throat does.

“...How?” Okuyasu finally says, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“Stop calling yourself stupid,” Josuke cuts in then, voice quiet, and Okuyasu looks down. Kakyoin swallows.

“Suffering isn’t a virtue,” Kakyoin agrees softly. “To be reliable for us, you have to rely on us, too.” Okuyasu pauses. Jotaro shifts next to Kakyoin, and he almost drags his gaze toward him until Okuyasu speaks up again.

“How… How does that work?” Okuyasu asks. Kakyoin smiles a little then, scooting forward a bit to join Yukako, Koichi, and Josuke’s circle around him.

Kakyoin hums, before a lecture from rehab flashes through his mind. “Think of it… Like a support beam in a building,” Kakyoin relays softly. “It can’t support anything if the wood gets rotten, right? It needs to be taken care of, in order to continue holding up the ceiling.” 

Something in Okuyasu’s eyes flickers then, a key visibly sliding into and twisting in a lock inside his head, and Okuyasu nods stiffly, pressing his lips tight against a wave of emotion that makes his shoulders shake and eyes water as whatever was behind that lock is let out. Yukako, Koichi, and Josuke all press closer.

Kakyoin looks away then to give them privacy, rolling away again, only to see Jotaro staring at him. His heart jumps to his throat for reasons he doesn’t understand, and he pauses, going still under his gaze. Water tickles his nose the longer he swims in Jotaro’s gaze, but he can’t look away.

Jotaro is the one who finally does, ducking beneath the brim of his hat, and Kakyoin feels a little dizzy, unsure of what that was about, but he doesn’t get time to ask before Okuyasu pipes up, “Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin turns his attention back to his kids, who still crowd around Okuyasu. “Yes?”

Okuyasu pauses, and Koichi and Josuke take his hands then, Yukako placing her own on his shoulder for support. He takes a deep breath. “... Thank you…” He murmurs.

Kakyoin smiles at him, something in his chest softening. “You don’t need to thank me for that, Okuyasu. It’s just…” he sighs. “It’s just the truth.” He pauses then, nearly hesitating, before he shakes his head and barrels forward. “I know it can be… hard, to figure out how to start, so… May I suggest something?”

Okuyasu lets out a grunt, nodding his head. Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“Accept housing from the Speedwagon Foundation? So you have an actual roof over your head?” Kakyoin asks. Okuyasu stiffens, and he rushes to tack on, “I know… you’re worried about your dad, but I promise nothing bad would happen to him. I won’t let it. At most they would want to catalog him, like they did you. But you also have yourself and Pochi to worry about, it’s not just him, so… Please?”

Okuyasu swallows stiffly. Yukako squeezes his shoulder in support while Josuke and Koichi squeeze his hands, and he takes a shuddering breath. “If… I…” he clenches his teeth then, and squares his shoulders, lifting his chin to look Kakyoin steadily in the eye. “I want to be reliable for everyone. And if that means- that means I have to be reliable for myself, too… Then I will.”

Kakyoin smiles, something tight in his chest finally relaxing, falling to rest behind his ribs, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“I- they gave me housing, too,” Yukako pipes up then, making Okuyasu turn toward her. She bristles at the direct attention, hair wavering, but she grits her jaw against the discomfort, continuing. “I can go with you. Since I know the process, and all, and since…” she pauses. “I’m your… friend?”

Kakyoin smiles, nodding. “I think that’s a good idea. We can all call the SPW and go together right now, get you a real place to sleep come tonight.”

Okuyasu shifts, starting to draw his hands back from Koichi and Josuke’s, but Josuke squeezes his palm and Okuyasu pauses. After a beat, he nods. The kids slump in an odd show of relief then, even Okuyasu himself. Kakyoin’s heart squeezes at the implications of that.

Kakyoin rubs a hand over his face, glancing back over at Jotaro – but he’s looking down still, and Kakyoin can’t see his face from under his hat. Kakyoin takes a deep breath and backs away a bit more, clearing his throat. The kids look up at him – and so does Jotaro, which makes something in Kakyoin’s chest click, but he continues on.

“Well… Let’s not waste time,” Kakyoin says, “Let’s get out of here and help you get settled, right, Okuyasu?”

Okuyasu hesitates, but as his friends rise around him, Josuke tugs him up gently with him, and Okuyasu stumbles but follows, Koichi and Yukako helping to keep him steady so he doesn’t have to let go of Josuke’s hand. Okuyasu takes a deep breath. “... Okay,” he says, and Kakyoin smiles weakly.

When the kids start filtering out of the front door, Kakyoin turns to Jotaro.

“Er…” Kakyoin clears his throat, trying to remember how to work his tongue when he suddenly feels like it’s submerged under seawater when Jotaro turns his gaze onto him. Kakyoin swallows. “You have a cellphone, right? Can you call the Speedwagon Foundation?”

Jotaro blinks before nodding, head lowering as he reaches into his pocket, and Kakyoin lets out a breath, only to freeze when Jotaro pauses, then looks back up.

“... Do you remember what you said earlier?” He asks, voice low, and Kakyoin’s brows pinch. Jotaro’s shoulders tense, but he elaborates, “About… We can talk, still? After… Okuyasu?”

“Oh,” Kakyoin says, before jerkily nodding. “Oh. Yes, yeah, that- yes.”

Jotaro’s shoulders relax, his gaze lingering on Kakyoin, and Kakyoin wonders if the burn in the back of his throat from the choking is also how it’d feel to swallow saltwater. “Okay,” Jotaro says simply, before pulling his phone out.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, turns to the door, and rolls out. He waits until Jotaro follows, phone to his ear, before shutting it for good, leaving the mess and debris behind.

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Chapter 37

Summary:

Jotaro is stiffly facing him when Kakyoin turns back. Jotaro sighs. “I guess, in hindsight, Josuke’s alluded to it, but… They all get kind of stiff when you come up around me.”

Kakyoin feels mortification replace the mild irritation in his chest then, and its burn is much sharper than the annoyance, searing hot needles stabbing into his tissues, slicing outward from the center of his chest, leaving him scalding and tingling. He ducks his head. “That- ah. Mm.”

Jotaro raises a brow and Kakyoin shifts, feeling the fire from his chest start to crackle up towards his cheeks.

“That’s… probably my fault…” Kakyoin mutters.

Notes:

HI EVERYONE!! im so sorry this chapter is coming out so much later than i was expecting, i had grad school applications all of november on top of lab work and normal school so it's been a lot!! but things are finally dying down again so >:) here is the new chapter <3

also, if you read and become confused, i want to say: jotaro kujo is a trans man in this fic! kakyoin already knew cause like, u cant really hide that when u spend 50 days in a row together buuut. yeah. i didnt want him to have to break the scene by turning to the camera and saying "im trans" esp cause kakyoin already knows, but i get it may be a little confusing then, so hope this clarifies some stuff that might come up while you read this chapter <3

anyway enjoy everyone and i will respond to messages SOON!!! thank you all so much for your support for this fic whimper

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Chapter Text

The SPW wasn’t good enough to have a house all ready by the night’s beginning, but they did offer board for Pochi and Mr. Nijimura, and granted Okuyasu a hotel suite, complete with two bedrooms, until they could secure something. It was just down the hall from Jotaro’s own suite, so when everyone – Okuyasu, Josuke, Koichi, Yukako, Kakyoin, and Jotaro – all piled into the room, it was natural.

The others staunchly refused to let Okuyasu go alone, so the whole quartet of kids are still there now, Jotaro and Kakyoin watching over them until they all passed out. It didn’t take long, considering the ordeal of the day’s events, barely a string of conversation being had — but it’s still past dark once they’re asleep, and Kakyoin is still exhausted.

Kakyoin closes the door to the room Yukako chose, Jotaro doing the same for the room all the boys are piled inside of. They glance at each other, and Kakyoin bites back the odd parental air that sits uncomfortably on his shoulders, lets out a long sigh, then moves over to the couch and slowly eases himself out of his wheelchair and onto the cushions. Jotaro watches him carefully all the while. Kakyoin ignores it.

“Still want to talk?” He asks, and Jotaro nods, finally moving to sit down next to him. The bend of the cushions as Jotaro sits next to him could almost distract Kakyoin from how close Jotaro chose to settle – if he just reached out a little bit, he could touch him. Kakyoin folds his arms into his lap.

It’s quiet, especially without the consistent hum of noise the kids always are, and Kakyoin feels a bit like his ears are ringing as they strain in the silence for something to hear. Instead he just gets the scratch of Jotaro breathing out, and the hair on the back of his neck stands on end, his fingertips twitching.

Kakyoin lets out a little Ahem and Jotaro draws his gaze upwards. Kakyoin avoids the urge to duck, and gets the sensation of water crawling down the back of his throat for his trouble. He swallows against it, but before he can speak, Jotaro does instead.

“Did you mean it?” He asks, and Kakyoin blinks abruptly.

“Mean what?” He asks.

Jotaro grimaces and he ducks his head, and Kakyoin shivers, as if bursting out into cold air after being submerged underwater. He glances at his sleeves, considering pulling his cardigan tighter across his body, before Jotaro speaks.

“Just- when Okuyasu-” Jotaro sighs then, shoulders slumping. Kakyoin fidgets, staring at him, but he won’t meet his gaze. Finally, Jotaro raises his head, staring just to the left of Kakyoin, just like with Okuyasu earlier, just like he was wont to do on the journey. Kakyoin’s throat feels swollen over the familiarity. “... I didn’t know that you knew Okuyasu that well,” Jotaro says finally. “Let alone well enough to… console him.”

Kakyoin lets out a breath. “‘Course I do. I know all of them pretty well. I train them all every Sunday.”

Jotaro blinks. “Huh?”

Kakyoin blinks in return. “You didn’t know?”

Jotaro crosses his arms again, and Kakyoin just manages to keep from staring. “We haven’t exactly been on speaking terms until now.”

Kakyoin scoffs, a flare of irritation searing the inside of his chest, jerking his gaze away from Jotaro. “I’m aware. I meant more that I’m surprised none of the kids have brought it up.”

Jotaro is stiffly facing him when Kakyoin turns back. Jotaro sighs. “I guess, in hindsight, Josuke’s alluded to it, but… They all get kind of stiff when you come up around me.”

Kakyoin feels mortification replace the mild irritation in his chest then, and its burn is much sharper than the annoyance, searing hot needles stabbing into his tissues, slicing outward from the center of his chest, leaving him scalding and tingling. He ducks his head. “That- ah. Mm.”

Jotaro raises a brow and Kakyoin shifts, feeling the fire from his chest start to crackle up towards his cheeks.

“That’s… probably my fault…” Kakyoin mutters. Both of Jotaro’s brows raise then and Kakyoin grimaces sharply at him, just barely able to bite back a snarl. “Come on, with how- with all the times they’ve seen me… upset with you? It’s not like they mention you around me, either. It’s gotta be…” Kakyoin rubs his face, trying to will away the shame from his cheeks.

Jotaro blinks. “Oh. Right.” He clears his throat. “I… guess that makes sense then.”

Kakyoin scoffs. “Right?”

It’s quiet for a second, and Kakyoin feels like he’s going to perhaps explode, each second spent in silence another inch lost on his fuse.

“I-”

“You-”

Both jump, gazes darting toward each other, and Kakyoin shivers as it feels like he’s diving into the sea, and again, he wonders when the last time he’s gone swimming was. Kakyoin tried to recall if he and Jotaro ever swam together, but all that comes to mind are awkward shared showers on the journey when there was only enough hot water for one run, and neither wanted a cold shower in the winter more than they didn’t want to share with each other.

Kakyoin shakes his head and gestures. “Go- go ahead.”

Jotaro stiffly nods before sighing again. Kakyoin twitches a little at the sound.

“So… Just… Did you mean… what you said to Okuyasu?”

Kakyoin’s brows pinch. “What part of it? I mean-” he shakes his head, chuckling a little. “Regardless, I meant all of it. I wouldn’t lie to him, not then.”

Jotaro pauses for a second. “...Not even to make him feel better?”

Kakyoin frowns. “Lying to him wouldn’t help. Not really.” He chuckles again, before it ends in a sigh. “I promised the kids I would be honest with them. I will not betray their trust by lying anyway.”

Jotaro doesn’t say anything, and Kakyoin looks up. He’s moved his gaze from Kakyoin’s ear down to his knees, and Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably, glancing down to see if he has blood smeared on his clothes again, rubbing at the fabric of his khakis absentmindedly.

“I see,” Jotaro says simply after another beat, his voice flat but soft, and Kakyoin’s frown deepens.

“Okuyasu’s a good kid,” Kakyoin says, voice a little edged, “of course I meant it. I meant it all.”

Jotaro’s eyes flicker as something clicks visibly in his head, and he turns away, and it’s almost enough to hide the slump of his shoulders. “Right… Okuyasu is. A good kid, I mean. A good person…” Kakyoin’s brows pinch again, but Jotaro clears his throat and presses on, “You train them? Where?”

Kakyoin’s lips part, ready to curve the conversation back to whatever that series of questions just now was about, but Jotaro turns back and catches Kakyoin’s gaze, and, as if he can read Kakyoin’s mind, his brows pinch, eyes drooping, and-

Jotaro’s pleading has never been verbal, Kakyoin suddenly remembers, flashes of Jotaro’s shoulders tensing when he was begging for space, or the tendon in his jaw jumping with his clenching teeth when he was begging someone to stop talking, or his fingers twitching as he stared at Kakyoin right in the eyes when he was begging to hold his hand in the safety of a hotel room in the dark-

Kakyoin closes his eyes, sighs, and scrubs his face, willing the memories away. He holds his face for a moment, debating, but-

Well, they’ve already had to postpone this conversation because of getting sidetracked once.

“...We used to train in the grassy area by the cliffs, near the harbor,” Kakyoin says softly, dropping his hands. Jotaro relaxes with it, his face softening, and he stares at Kakyoin as a silent prompt to continue. “But then we met Reimi, and figured out she was a standuser, so we moved to her alley. She trains with us, too.”

Jotaro hums. “Must be lonely, being the only girl.”

“Oh,” Kakyoin sighs, “she’s not. Yamagishi Yukako is also-” Kakyoin frowns. “Do you know much about Yamagishi?”

Jotaro grunts and nods. “I know enough. Didn’t she hunt down Koichi?”

Kakyoin pauses at that, lips parting for a moment, before he shuts his mouth. “She said sorry,” he says, and Jotaro laughs, and sparks go up and down Kakyoin’s arms like his hands fell numb and the feeling in them had to wake up again, nerves tingling with newfound blood flow. He shakes his head.

“Come on, she- she really did,” Kakyoin tries, and Jotaro just snorts, teeth glinting in the silvery light of night, and for some reason Kakyoin’s heart trips over its rhythm at the sight. “I was there, and- so was Aya, and- Come on, you remember how we met. It was messy too!”

Jotaro stops laughing then, the breath hiccuping in his chest, and Kakyoin’s fingers twitch violently with the sudden impulse to rush to him and feel for his pacemaker again, over his sweater, or even underneath-

“I do,” Jotaro says softly, and it’s Kakyoin’s turn for his breath to hitch in his throat, unable to breathe as he stares at Jotaro and remembers staring at him the day they met, too, the phantom pressure of his hands cupping his face making Kakyoin’s cheeks twitch-

Kakyoin roughly clears his throat. “Ah- erm, so… What did you have in mind?”

Jotaro raises a brow.

Kakyoin avoids the urge to fidget by turning away and rolling up the sleeves of his cardigan, picking at some stray fuzz. It was probably due for a wash, Kakyoin thinks to himself, before he shakes his head. “About… What did you want to talk about, I mean. I doubt it was just about what I said to Okuyasu earlier.”

Jotaro lets out a noise then. “Yeah. Um…” He rubs his face with his hand before he looks back up at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin feels the back of his neck prickle. Jotaro chuckles a little, his voice husky with exhaustion, and Kakyoin feels some warm mass in his gut twitch, making his hair stand on end. “I guess I should be asking you,” Jotaro says once his chuckles subside.

“Huh?” Kakyoin croaks, before he shakes his head rapidly, clearing his throat. “What do you mean?”

Jotaro hums, gesturing vaguely. “Just…” Jotaro sighs. “You didn’t really get to say what you wanted to, the first time we… talked, like this.”

Kakyoin lets out a long breath, nodding his head. Polnareff, time stop, stands, Egypt, you, me, you, you… “… Right. Yeah. Um.” Where do I even begin with all this? Kakyoin’s head is weighed down with his exhaustion, even the small sparks of pain in his back whenever he does anything hard to focus on. After Okuyasu, I do not have the emotional bandwidth to talk about Polnareff. So… “It’s a couple of different things. I guess…” He takes a deep breath. I want to be brave. “… So your heart. And your stand. Anything else change in Egypt?”

Jotaro seizes right beside him, and Kakyoin flinches in turn, suddenly overly aware of how tactless his words were.

“Sorry, I-” Kakyoin goes quiet. What could he say, really? They needed to talk about it. “Sorry,” Kakyoin says again, anyway.

Jotaro just closes his eyes before ducking underneath the safety of his hat. It’s quiet for several beats, and Kakyoin is very aware of every second, his heartbeat keeping time with every ticked-by second, and it itches, but he lets it happen.

Finally, Jotaro says lowly, “Like what?” and Kakyoin sighs.

“Just- anything-” Kakyoin cuts himself off, suddenly remembering-

Polnareff, who took my body down? From the water tower. In Egypt.

…Jotaro.

Kakyoin remembers Joseph’s voice too, He saved me. And then he saved you. Jumped right out of the moving ambulance to do it, and suddenly something clicks.

Kakyoin swallows as he tries to find a way to vocalize his thoughts. “Another change… like your… respect for me?”

Jotaro’s head raises from beneath his hat, brows pinched as he turns and faces Kakyoin. It takes everything he has not to turn and hide from his gaze.

“Jotaro,” he says softly, voice a little hoarse, head spinning and yet so, so heavy with the thoughts arching across his brain like lightning, “I- I know you were the one who- took me down. From- from that water tower.”

Jotaro goes very still then, and for a second Kakyoin’s heart jumps to his throat when he wonders if perhaps time has stopped, but his hands curling into fists to avoid shaking prove to him it has not.

“Jotaro… do you-” Kakyoin needs to stop talking in order to keep his voice from cracking. He swallows one more time then says, voice only a whisper, “do you look down on me?”

The question hangs heavy in the air. Jotaro doesn’t move an inch still, and neither does Kakyoin this time, his breath loose and unsatisfying in his chest, oxygen not making it to his brain. He can’t breathe faster to make up for it, all his muscles tensing as if warding off a frost that might eat all of them up. Kakyoin’s been fiery for so long, after all; what would a frost mean for him?

Finally, Jotaro takes a breath, even if he’s still not looking at him. “... Didn’t I- didn’t you already ask me this?” He rasps.

Kakyoin, despite the urge to throw himself into it to avoid the frost, bats down the sparks of irritation the question prompts in his chest. He clenches his jaw. I’m better than that. It would be so, so easy though… Kakyoin shakes his head. “Yes, but I want you to explain your answer more. What does, ‘Think what you need to’ mean?”

Jotaro looks a little startled then, a little scared, eyes wide, lips pressed thin together, and it reminds Kakyoin of the alleyway that started all of this, and he feels a little sick, but he doesn’t take back his question. He can smell the slightest hint of salt, and he’s pretty sure it’s just his sweat, but it reminds him of briny water, soaking into his clothes, the salt scratching his skin.

“Joseph told me, about how you saved him,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro’s gaze widens just a little more. “So it seems I wasn’t the only one back then.”

Jotaro still doesn’t move.

Kakyoin shifts his jaw, finally, for the first time, seeing something different, like the smallest hint of dawn changing how the shadows in Kakyoin’s childhood bedroom looked. “I used to think,” he says, voice forcibly flattened to keep it from cracking, and Jotaro looks like he’s being squeezed out from underneath it, “it must mean that you did. Look down on me, I mean.” Kakyoin chuckles darkly. “It doesn’t help that you followed it up with a demand to never talk to you again.” Jotaro says nothing. He looks small like this, too caught up to even hide behind his hat, just staring at Kakyoin like he has his life in his hands and there’s a very real possibility he’ll end it.

It reminds Kakyoin of how he thought it’d go when they first met. He was wrong then. He’s always been wrong about first impressions when it came to Jotaro, he thinks.

Jotaro still doesn’t say anything, so Kakyoin continues. “But now, I wonder…” Kakyoin locks onto Jotaro’s gaze, and Jotaro stares back despite how pale he looks. “If it did mean you looked down on me, why would you have taken me down from the water tower?”

The brine washes out to the sea, and while it’s still salty, it’s less… sticky, cooler, the water softer against his skin, and Kakyoin allows himself to float and drift along rather than fight the current.

He waits, but Jotaro doesn’t respond, still just staring at him. Kakyoin wonders if he’s heard him at all.

After a few beats, Jotaro finally opens his mouth – but no words come out, only a wisp of air. For some reason, it makes Kakyoin smile a small bit, and he’s too tired to fight the strange impulse.

“You don’t need to answer me right now,” Kakyoin says softly, and finally, Jotaro moves, slumping so suddenly as the tension diffusing from his shoulders that Kakyoin almost jumps, but instead he winces in secondhand muscle pain, seeing just how tense he got. “But I know it’s not so simple, now.”

Jotaro’s face doesn’t so much as twitch. He still looks – for lack of better word – scared, but his poker face is good, and Kakyoin can’t tell what he’s thinking. He’s beginning to wonder if he ever did. He’s beginning to wonder if one day he could.

Kakyoin sighs and reaches up then, scrubbing his hands down his face. His glasses get jostled as he does and Kakyoin sighs before just taking them off. He didn’t realize it, but he’s close enough that he can hear Jotaro’s breath hiccup in his chest when he does, and Kakyoin’s brows furrow as he turns and looks at Jotaro inquisitively. “What?”

Jotaro lets out a wheezy sort of noise, leaning forward, and while Kakyoin seizes, suddenly aware of every inch of his skin, he doesn’t move, allowing Jotaro to lean into his space. Jotaro’s so close that Kakyoin catches a whiff of his aftershave again, and he feels a little dizzy, planting his palms against the couch so he doesn’t fall over.

After a beat, Jotaro says quietly, “You still have your scars,” and Kakyoin blinks, looking up from where he absentmindedly dragged his gaze to stare at Jotaro’s chest, unconsciously searching for his pacemaker again.

Jotaro is staring at his eyes but not his gaze, and it’s a little strange. Kakyoin feels his skin buzzing like he’s submerged in warm, warm water. “Yeah,” he says, and his voice is soft, wheezy, and he needs to swallow to clear his throat when Jotaro finally looks him in the eyes. “Yeah, they- yeah.” Kakyoin clears his throat. “I don’t know if you remember what the doctors said back then, bu-”

“I remember,” Jotaro says, gaze dragging back to the scars and not Kakyoin’s eyes themselves. “Your vision is fine, but-” he trails off.

“But,” Kakyoin agrees, “my eyelids were another story.” Jotaro hesitates, before he lifts a hand, and Kakyoin’s fingers clench and dig roughly into the couch cushion, but he doesn’t move. Jotaro still pauses anyway, as if he didn’t realize he was raising his arm or why.

Kakyoin licks his lips, mouth suddenly dry, before he murmurs, “You’re allowed to touch me.”

Jotaro goes stiff, but his hand remains raised.

Kakyoin swallows, before elaborating, “It would- it would only be fair. Since you let me… Touch your pacemaker last time…”

Jotaro exhales softly. Kakyoin closes his eyes.

After a beat, he can feel Jotaro’s hand cup his cheek, and despite everything, the new calluses and new smells, it’s still so similar to how it was all the way back to when they first met, and Kakyoin has the vague, hysterical fear of if Jotaro could feel his pulse through his cheek and how it’s quickening.

Jotaro’s thumb gently rubs over the raised skin of the slash on Kakyoin’s eyelid, and Kakyoin’s hand snaps up and holds onto Jotaro’s wrist. Jotaro halts immediately, but Kakyoin doesn’t push him away.

After a beat, Kakyoin runs his own thumb along the knob on Jotaro’s wrist, and Jotaro exhales, Kakyoin able to feel the breath, warm, against his face, and his skin is positively buzzing, his heart in his throat. Jotaro runs his thumb along the line of the scar again and Kakyoin has to bite back- something, some sort of sound that wants to be punched out, pathetic, from his chest.

After a moment, Jotaro draws his hand away, and Kakyoin lets out a rough exhale of his own, letting go of Jotaro’s wrist and blinking his eyes rapidly, his head spinning. Jotaro clears his throat. “I just… haven’t seen you without your glasses this whole time,” he explains in a mumble.

Kakyoin lets out a wheezy hum of acknowledgement. After a few beats, he remembers he has a tongue. “It’s okay.” He needs to swallow a few times before he feels he has enough of an airway to speak again. “Um- um-” His brain spins, trying to recall where in their conversation they were before that… interruption.

“Let’s…” Jotaro swallows stiffly then, still eyeing Kakyoin’s scars, before he says, “Let’s… postpone this conversation again. We keep getting distracted, and I just…”

Kakyoin sags against the couch in both relief and minor disappointment, even as he nods his agreement. “Yeah. Yeah, okay…”

Jotaro lets out a noise, considering. “I don’t really… know your schedu-”

“I have few things set in stone right now,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro quiets. “Just… not Sundays. That’s when I train the kids.”

Jotaro lets out a comprehending grunt. “Er… is Saturday okay?”

Kakyoin chuckles. “Sure. Saturday. We can talk on Saturday.” He sighs, rolling his head back against the couch. “As for now, yeah, I guess you’re right we should stop. It’s… it’s late.”

Jotaro hums, glancing down at his watch, only to do a double take.

Kakyoin raises a brow from where he has half his face smushed into the couch. “What?”

Jotaro shakes his head, angling the face of his watch for Kakyoin to see even as he says, “It’s only 11. I could have sworn it was later.”

Kakyoin chuckles, slowly raising himself up against the couch again and rubbing his eyes, his skin still buzzing a little from where Jotaro was holding him, Kakyoin attempting to soothe the nerves back down. “Jeez. Jeez. They’re good kids, but damn if they aren’t a handful.”

Jotaro grunts, nodding. “And I thought Jolyne was bad. Makes me scared for her teenage years...”

Kakyoin pauses. “Huh?”

Jotaro glances back at him, brow raised.

Kakyoin blinks then frowns. “I thought- Joseph named her Shizuka?”

Jotaro’s brows pinch. “Yes? He did. I wasn’t talking about-” and then his breath hiccups and his eyes widen a little, just the tiniest bit. Kakyoin isn’t sure he would have noticed if his irises weren’t so blue and absorptive compared to his dark, reflective pupils-

Kakyoin blinks the thought away, feeling the world shift slightly to the side around him, the floor tilting at an angle. “Huh?”

“Oh good grief…” Jotaro shifts uncomfortably, dropping his gaze. Kakyoin smells salt. “I was… I was talking about Jolyne. My daughter.”

The world completely flips. “Your- what?!”

Jotaro shifts, crossing his arms, squinting at the carpet. “What?”

Kakyoin gapes at him. “I- you- you have- you have a kid?!” Kakyoin waits a beat, but the world doesn’t get any straighter, and in fact, he’s starting to have the feeling it’s all begun to spin around him. “You have a daughter?!”

“What about it?” Jotaro repeats defensively, his squint shifting to a glare, gaze dragging up to Kakyoin. Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, his tongue lolling about uselessly behind his teeth.

“I- I- I’m just surprised,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro sighs, dropping his arms to tug his hat down over his eyes.

“Yeah, I was too,” he mutters, and Kakyoin’s head spins.

“I- who- so- a, a daughter? A-any others?”

Jotaro barks out a laugh, shaking his head, saying “No, it’s just Jolyne. Shit, I couldn’t do another birth,” and Kakyoin feels like he’s going to pass out, a ringing in his ears, because he’s still so confused that the world is spinning around him but he hasn’t heard Jotaro laugh like that in ten years and it’s making his heart jump all the way up to his skull, and he could start floating, or maybe even falling. Definitely falling. If Kakyoin wasn’t on this couch, he would have collapsed, just like he did last time they talked-

Kakyoin shakes his head roughly. “Who- uh-” And suddenly he’s a bit more back in his body. He tugs at his collar, the words feeling like wet cement in the bottom of his mouth, but he spits out, “Who, um- who’s the lucky- uh…” Who would Jotaro even- How did he even have the kid-

Jotaro’s amused smirk slips off his face then, and he ducks his head, and Kakyoin flails wildly. How did this conversation go so bad so fast?

“Er-”

“No- no one,” Jotaro mutters, before wincing. Despite this, he doesn’t continue.

Kakyoin hesitates, but- a daughter- “Did- did you have…” Kakyoin frowns, remembering Jotaro’s earlier statement about being surprised, too. “Jotaro, did you – it was you, right? – did you get- from a one night sta-?”

Jotaro shudders and crosses his arms. “No! No, I- Enrica- she-” Jotaro sighs, taking off his hat and running his hand through his hair, then rubbing his face. Kakyoin stands stiffly in silence. Enrica? Is that Italian? “We were… together. Ish. It wasn’t- it was just us. I mean, no one night stands or anything. She-” Jotaro shifts then, arms fidgeting against his chest, and Kakyoin very, very firmly keeps his gaze away from it, swallowing thickly. “Yes, it was me that… had Jolyne. It’s- Enrica is- like me. But in the other direction. If you… get it-”

“Yeah,” Kakyoin’s voice cracks, and he’s not sure why, but he nods still. “Um. Um, I’m… happy for you?” Kakyoin frowns. “Wait, but… So why did you say ‘no one’ then, if… Enrica, was it…?”

It’s quiet for a beat before Jotaro speaks, and Kakyoin realizes he’s been sweating a bit, his hair prickling slightly as sweat starts to bead between the strands.

“We, uh. Our divorce was finalized back in February.”

Kakyoin blinks, his chest both tightening and releasing at the idea, some parts of his stomach cold, and some hot, and he feels a bit like he’s a lump of meat that was attempted to be cooked in the microwave. “Oh.” He pauses. He almost says, I didn’t know you were married, but manages to stop himself. He’s not sure which – Jotaro having a kid, or being married – is more surprising, and it makes his tongue much too large in his mouth, unable to get words out. “Um. Oh! I- I’m sorry…?”

Jotaro sighs, shoulders slumping. “Don’t be,” Jotaro murmurs, “it was…amicable. It is amicable. The problem isn’t with her. Enrica’s- she’s- it’s fine with her, just…”

Kakyoin winces. “...Kid not taking it well?”

Jotaro laughs humorlessly. “I don’t think she really realizes what’s happened. She just knows mommy and daddy don’t live in the same house anymore and…” Jotaro seems to get smaller then, shoulders slumped and hunched over a bit, and Kakyoin only vaguely remembers hazy late nights where Jotaro looked the same on the journey, staring at their dying campfire but not seeing it, or taking a late night smoke in a hotel just to stare at the stick burning down to his filter, barely taking a drag. “She doesn’t like it, no,” Jotaro finishes, and Kakyoin is jerked back from his memories.

Kakyoin winces again. “...Sorry.” He hesitates, but the silence afterward is damn-near unbearable, Kakyoin squirming before he spits out, “How, uh, old is she?”

Jotaro sighs, leaning back against the couch. Despite this, his brows unfurrow the slightest bit, face relaxing, and Kakyoin finds he can’t look away. “She turns six this summer. In September.” He smiles a little then, just a small bit, and if Kakyoin wasn’t so well acquainted with Jotaro’s face, he wouldn’t have been able to tell. He blinks.

“Wow,” Kakyoin says softly, “already started school, then?”

Jotaro nods, face turning a little wistful. “Yeah. She’s starting first grade in August.”

Kakyoin’s stomach does something a little weird, and he isn’t sure what to make of it. “Oh, wow… Already?”

Jotaro chuckles, and it does nothing to make up for whatever is happening in Kakyoin’s stomach. “Right? She’s young for her grade but… jeez, she’s growing up so fast.” His face falls, then. “I had hoped to make it back before her first day, but with Kira…”

Kakyoin winces, gaze turning down. “Right… Yeah.” Questions are still bubbling up within him, but he isn’t sure how to bring them up, especially not after such a show of sorrow. When’s the last time he had a conversation like this with Jotaro? “We’ll get him in time,” Kakyoin says firmly. “You’ll get back to her in time.”

Jotaro chuckles softly, but the sound is near silent. Kakyoin’s brows furrow, and Jotaro catches his gaze and answers his unasked question. “Just- you said stuff like that on the journey, too.”

Kakyoin blinks, lips parting. That’s right. The few times he could get Jotaro to talk about Holly without ripping his head off for bringing her up, he’d said about the same thing. It only brings up more questions that Kakyoin wants to ask, though, such as if Jotaro has talked to Holly, how Holly feels about Jolyne, was Holly there-?

Has Jotaro let her out of the limbo he forced her into?

Kakyoin rubs his eyes.

Is this me being let out of the limbo he forced me into?

“I still mean it,” is all he says, feeling like he’ll never have the time to say what he wants to say to Jotaro. Maybe we need to be more proactive about when we have these conversations. These can’t keep starting once we’re already exhausted. Kakyoin makes a note to not do anything else on Saturday.

Jotaro just sighs and Kakyoin doesn’t know what to make of it.

It’s quiet for a moment, before Jotaro finally says, “I… didn’t mean to bring this up suddenly. Or at all. I just- I didn’t know you- didn’t know. I’m never sure what Jiji tells people-”

“No!” Kakyoin nearly shouts, making both himself and Jotaro jump, Jotaro whipping his head up to stare at him. Kakyoin flushes then, the sweat that’s begun to line his hairline getting worse, and he hastily wipes at his forehead with the gloved part of his hands. “No, I just-” Kakyoin swallows, something in his chest becoming heavy. “It’s really… been ten years, huh?”

Jotaro’s face doesn’t change, but his grip on his hat loosens, so much so that it slips from his fingers. He jolts, eyes snapping down and hunching down to catch it-

But Hierophant has already appeared, zipping forward to wrap around and keep it from hitting the floor. Jotaro pauses.

Kakyoin hesitates, but he eventually has Hierophant bring the hat up, and deposit it in Jotaro’s hands, before dismissing him. Jotaro numbly allows this, staring at the slight glow of Hierophant’s tendrils all the while.

Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “I am sorry, about… the divorce,” he says.

Jotaro jolts, as if coming back to himself from somewhere else, before he puts his hat back on. “It’s…fine,” he mutters, before shaking his head roughly. “I, uh- I’m sorry, I don’t know why… I brought up my… ex,” he says, the word seeming foreign on his tongue, his face pinched in a way that suggests he feels a little ill. “It’s… immature. We can mo-”

“No!” Kakyoin shouts. “I mean… It’s… normal to have at least one ex at our age,” he stutters, and Jotaro’s brows pinch. “I- I also have an ex!” The words come out of Kakyoin’s mouth without his explicit say-so, and he nearly collapses when it registers that he’s said them aloud. He winces harshly, ducking his head, as he mutters, “If that… makes you feel better…”

Jotaro just looks a little ill, and Kakyoin winces.

“We can move on-”

“What, uh-”

Both pause. Despite the normality of the topic, Kakyoin has never felt so out of his depth in a conversation. He rapidly motions for Jotaro to speak, begging for him to keep him from stuffing his foot into his mouth.

“Um…” Jotaro winces. “You… have an ex?”

Kakyoin lets out a breath, slumping against the couch. Fine, okay, we’re doing this. “What, is that so hard to believe?”

Jotaro lets out a strangled noise, but Kakyoin just chuckles, shaking his head.

“I don’t- I don’t know if it even counts really, because we only really dated for an afternoon before I blew it, but…” Kakyoin immediately wishes he hadn’t said that outloud. How pathetic-

“What?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin shrugs.

“I just-” he remembers the pills, and the sunglasses, and Rachel’s hands in his as she tells him she couldn’t, and he shakes his head. “I was… difficult, back then.”

Jotaro lets out a soft sound, nodding his head. “... Yeah,” he sighs, “yeah, me too.” He frowns. “Wait, when did… er, you two…”

Kakyoin rolls his head to smirk at Jotaro tiredly, who, strangely, ducks his head behind his hat in response. Kakyoin rubs his eyes, exhausted. “Jeez, like five years ago.” He pauses. What would Rachel think of all this? Jotaro was that someone Kakyoin couldn’t stop mourning, and it wouldn’t be hard for her to figure that out. Would she think it wise to talk with him like this?

Kakyoin shakes his head and sighs.

Jotaro pipes up then, “No one since?”

Kakyoin scoffs, glancing back at Jotaro, but he’s still behind his hat. “No. I’ve been kind of busy, you know, after undergrad. Between work and trying to find a grad program…” Kakyoin sighs. “Just didn’t have time.” Don’t have time, really.

Jotaro lets out a noise, then. “That reminds me… What did you end up studying, anyway?”

Kakyoin chuckles. “Anthropology. Just like I told you I would.” He smiles, leaning over to lightly push Jotaro before freezing, the familiarity of the motion more akin to their time in Egypt than any other since. Could it really be so easy to fall back into old patterns?

Kakyoin drops his hand. Jotaro raises his head, finally, at the muffled flop of it against the couch. Kakyoin clears his throat.

“And you’re working with animals, just like you told me you would,” Kakyoin finishes softly.

Jotaro stares at him for a moment. “... You remembered that?”

Kakyoin feels the words “ Of course I did. You were my best friend” form on his tongue, but he pauses. “Yeah,” is what he ends up saying.

Jotaro hums, closing his eyes then, head throwing back against the couch, and there’s a sudden rush of emotion swelling up Kakyoin’s chest, an ache in his marrow, a desperation in his tissues, making them curl harshly over his bones. Kakyoin feels taut, like his own longing could rip him apart at any second. I wanted this. Just to talk with you.I wanted this more than anything.

Kakyoin realizes he never really could have hated Jotaro, and he clears his throat loudly. 

“Well!” He announces, making Jotaro jump at his sudden volume increase. “It’s- it’s late,” Kakyoin says, “and- and it’s late,” he repeats dumbly.

Jotaro snorts at this, shaking his head, before he pulls his hat off and runs his hand through his hair. Kakyoin’s heart hiccups in its rhythm. “It has been a long day,” Jotaro agrees, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“I don’t… want to leave the kids alone,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro nods.

“Of course not,” he agrees, and Kakyoin feels something warm surge in him. It’s been so long since they agreed on something. “How did you… want to set up the sleeping situation?”

Kakyoin nods. Right. With a suite as big as this, there were two couches, but they might not be big enough for Kakyoin’s bulk, let alone Jotaro’s.

Still, the thought of sleeping on the floor makes his nerves shriek, lashing back at his brain for daring to even think it. Kakyoin hisses, shaking his head. “I… I’m going to need to take a couch,” he says apologetically, but Jotaro nods easily.

“No, of course. I meant, more… did you want both of them? We could push them together.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Where would you sleep, then?”

Jotaro just points to the remaining loveseat and Kakyoin gapes at him.

“What? No! You’re not sleeping there,” Kakyoin scolds.

Jotaro shakes his head. “I’ve slept in similar spots before. You should have seen the cot they made me have Jolyne on. It’s not that big of a deal.”

“Not that- Jotaro, are you kidding me?! You’re almost two meters tall, you’re not folding yourself up on a chair when there’s a couch right there!”

Jotaro blinks, lips parting. “You said my name again,” he blurts, and Kakyoin shudders.

He shakes his head. “That’s- you’re taking a couch and that’s final,” he says, before he adds, quieter, “I… I meant it, when I asked if you had a preference about your name. I… I can stop calling you Jotaro if you w-”

“No!” Jotaro blurts, only to seize, blinking rapidly at the exclamation that jumped out from his chest. Kakyoin stares at him. Jotaro clears his throat, hand reaching up for a hat that isn’t there, before he jerks both hands back into his lap and Kakyoin feels entirely too warm. “I… I don’t mind,” he murmurs, and Kakyoin lets it go.

He takes a deep breath. “Okay.” Shaking his head, he sends Hierophant out to gather an extra blanket from the linen closet, turning toward Jotaro. “Do you… want a blanket?”

Jotaro hums, glancing at the couch before nodding his head. Kakyoin echoes it and has Hierophant grab two, bringing them back to him.

Kakyoin places one folded-up blanket next to his legs before he turns to Jotaro. He silently hands him his own, and their fingers brush as Jotaro takes his bundle.

Jotaro stands once he has it, walking over to the other couch, and Kakyoin gets a front-row seat to Jotaro placing his hat on the arm of the couch, slipping his coat off his shoulders to join it. Jotaro then moves to slip his belts off so he can sleep comfortably in his slacks and Kakyoin rapidly wrenches his gaze away, moving to set up his own sleeping quarters, setting his glasses down on the floor beside the couch and shrugging off and folding his cardigan to join them. Glancing at Jotaro, Kakyoin silently resummons Hierophant, having him string up underneath the couch instead of around the room, unsure if his light would disturb Jotaro’s sleep.

They both settle down at around the same time, their rustling falling silent in tandem. Outside, Kakyoin only faintly hears the cicadas. It reminds him of the journey a small bit.

Kakyoin’s lips part, before he shuts his mouth, swallowing. He opens his mouth again, pauses, licks his lips, then finally says, “... Goodnight, Jotaro.”

Kakyoin can hear Jotaro breathe out, softly. “Goodnight, Kakyoin,” he says.

Despite his exhaustion, Kakyoin has a hard time falling asleep. He eyes the fabric of the couch, memorizing the sewing pattern, before he finally gives up and turns onto his side, facing Jotaro once again.

Jotaro’s been looking at him, but he doesn’t startle when Kakyoin turns to face him. For some reason, Kakyoin doesn’t, either.

Neither of them say anything. They stare at one another and as the world around Kakyoin darkens, his vision tunneling as his heavy eyelids finally begin to slip closed, he could mistake the calls of the cicadas for the crunch of sand under his feet as he walked on a beach, Jotaro’s eyes spilling out to fill the room with an ocean.

Kakyoin falls asleep thinking of sand and water, and for the first time he doesn’t dream about Egypt despite it.

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Chapter 38

Summary:

“My Cinderella remembers every face she works on,” Aya says, “and this is the man that- that Kira forced me to switch him with.”

Kakyoin and Tonio nod.

“The problem,” Aya continues, turning from the ghost of the man, Cinderella dismissing the image, “is that his face doesn’t tell us his age, his name, where he is now, or if he was even a Morioh resident. He could have been a commuter from out of town.”

“Not even age?” Tonio asks. Aya shakes her head.

“Faces can be quite deceiving,” she clarifies, smiling a little bitterly.

Notes:

PLEASE NOTE: tw for internalized homophobia!

 

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!! i wanted to end the year with a bang so here is another chapter <3 aya fans rise up i hope u enjoy this one. her comments about being a fairy godmother were so interesting to me so i rubbed my stupid little hands together and ran with it LOL

anyway i've mentioned before i think but i am DETERMINED to finish wwm/ta before its four year anniversary this june so take the fact i was able to get this chapter ready for posting despite being busy all day every day for most of the weeks leading up to it as a proof of concept >:)

anyway i hope everyone has a good year and thank you for all the support for this fic <3

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When Kakyoin wakes up the next morning, Jotaro is already gone.

Slightly uneven-footed, Kakyoin makes himself appropriately presentable, all while ignoring the voice in his head that tells him the kids have already seen him in various states of disarray at this point, so what was the facade still for?

They need some stability after yesterday, he tells the voice sternly, an adult that they can rely on, and it does quiet down after that.

By the time he’s ready, he can hear shuffling from the rooms, and he moves to tell the kids to get up and that they need to get ready for school, once he recalls it’s a Monday. It’s all so overly domestic and suddenly, Kakyoin is glad Jotaro isn’t here. He couldn’t imagine doing this song and dance while having a daughter an ocean away…

Kakyoin shakes his head. A daughter. I still can’t believe it.

Jolyne…

Kakyoin wonders if she has her father’s eyes, and he immediately pushes the thought away and goes to busy himself with something else for safe measure.

Kakyoin tells Josuke and Koichi that if they need an excuse for their parents on their disappearance the night before, they could tell them to call him, and he would play the role of “Mr. Nijimura” again to inform them that “he and Okuasyu were moving, and Josuke and Koichi were just so kind as to help their friend with the process, and ended up passing out at their place.” Both look faintly relieved, nod their heads at the suggestion, and they all head out the door not long after.

As Kakyoin guides the teenagers from the third floor to the hotel entrance, he can’t help keeping his eyes peeled, straining to see if he can catch sight of Jotaro, perhaps in the lobby like he was that one time…

But Jotaro is nowhere to be seen. Kakyoin bites down a dark sludge between his lungs and instead turns to the kids and asks if they want a taxi. They all glance at each other before Josuke steps forward, shaking his head.

“No, it’s okay. You got us up early enough…” Josuke mumbles, and Kakyoin smirks a little at that, pushing the thought of Jotaro aside.

“Well, if you insist. Waking up early has a lot of benefits, you know,” he crows back, and Josuke scoffs.

“You act so old,” He groans, and Kakyoin mocks outrage, shooing the children out of the hotel and onto school.

He watches them go, a part of him ever paranoid, but none of them blow up suddenly as they pace the sidewalk. Kakyoin sighs, then grimaces when he realizes how much of a mother-hen he’s acting like.

He swiftly rolls back into the hotel, and into his room, a treacherous part of his brain noting that Jotaro has not materialized in the lobby since the last time he checked with a sad deflation. Kakyoin ignores it and closes the door to his room once he’s inside.

It’s quiet. The early morning sun streams in through the gap in his window curtains, soft yellow bleeding into the otherwise rather gray room. Small particles of dust drift in the light, floating like the shattered, fuzzy remains of some phantom. What would it take, to vaporize a ghost like that? Kakyoin thinks of Reimi and his stomach churns. He hopes he never finds out.

He rubs his eyes for a moment, sighing, before he decides he really needs to do something before his mind starts spinning.

He pauses. He glances to the wall where he left his crutches. They reflect back the sun from the window, glinting at him as if to entice him.

Kakyoin rolls to his phone and dials Tonio.

He answers after a few rings. “Hello?”

“Tonio?” Kakyoin calls, wincing at how raspy his voice sounds. 

“Noriaki?” Tonio asks. “Is everything alright?”

“Everything’s-” Kakyoin clears his throat. “It’s… We investigated Kira’s house. It… We didn’t find a ton of information. Just that he-” Kakyoin shudders. “There was an arrow involved. A stand arrow. Different from the one we already dealt with.”

Tonio lets out a hum. “So two in total? Those arrows… they seem to cause trouble wherever they show up…”

Kakyoin sighs, rubbing at his face. “Tell me about it…” He shakes his head. “Um- do you know Aya’s home phone number? I have an idea I need to run by her.”

Tonio lets out a soft sound. “Actually…” He sighs. “She was… a lot like me. The upstairs of her business was her living space. With the salon being… gone,” Tonio says delicately, “she… Her home is, too.”

Kakyoin’s stomach is weighed far, far too much, pushing his hips down toward the floor, threatening to break bone in order to sink lower and lower. It’s dense, and cold, and he swallows thickly. “I… I didn’t… Is she okay?”

Tonio sighs. “I think… she will be. It is just hard, right now, of course…” Of course, Kakyoin thinks. His free hand clenches into a fist. Why did Kira loop her into this? How did he know about her? “She’s staying with me while she gets back on her feet,” Tonio finishes, drawing Kakyoin from his thoughts. “It wasn’t hard to take the room that will become my girlfriend, Virginia’s, office and make it serve as a makeshift bedroom.”

Kakyoin hums. “Oh? Oh, Tonio, that’s really kind of you.”

Tonio clicks his tongue. “No, no, it’s what friends do. Besides, with… Kira on the loose…” Tonio sighs. “It just… It made me feel better to know that she wasn’t going to be alone.”

Kakyoin hums. “Yeah… yeah. Yeah, I… I’m glad too,” he admits.

“Yes… It’s important to stick together in times like these,” Tonio says, and Kakyoin sighs, thinking yet again of Jotaro and his disappearance this morning. He wonders where he is. He wonders why he cares.

“Yeah…”

It’s quiet for a beat, but then Tonio says, “Ah, so, you called to speak with Aya?”

“Er… well, both of you,” Kakyoin says. “I have an idea… As long as Aya is okay with it.”

Tonio lets out a comprehending noise. “I’ll go grab her. What were you thinking?”


“Are you sure you’re up for this?” Kakyoin asks as Tonio drives up to the blocked off street where Aya’s salon used to stand.

“Wasn’t this your idea?” Aya retorts. “You shouldn’t have suggested it if you weren’t committed.”

Kakyoin shuts his mouth, engaging a glance with Tonio in his rearview mirror, while Aya sighs, rubbing at her forehead with her fingers.

“Of course I’m not happy about it,” Aya elaborates after a pause, “but anything we can do to get back at that asshole, I’m happy to do. Even if it means digging through the ruins of my life’s work.”

Kakyoin frowns, but Aya opens her door and steps out before he can say anything. He and Tonio exchange one more glance before following her, Kakyoin vaulting himself out of the car with his crutches.

Aya walks past the police tape easily, her stand flickering into view beside her. She’s gotten her abrupt haircut from the fight with Kira cleaned up into a short bob, and while it looks good, she keeps running her hands through it, lips pressed tightly together.

Tonio and Kakyoin quietly follow.

Once they’re all past the tape, Aya halts, turning to face Kakyoin and Tonio. “So. You asked me about my stand, Noriaki,” she starts, and Kakyoin nods. Aya sighs, as if she can’t quite catch her breath past the empowering scent of ash and burnt chemicals. Cinderella opens its palms then, gesturing, before a face comes into view before them.

A black haired man with thick brows and dark eyes, a long nose, and hanging eyebags, flickers into view.

“My Cinderella remembers every face she works on,” Aya says, “and this is the man that- that Kira forced me to switch him with.”

Kakyoin and Tonio nod.

“The problem,” Aya continues, turning from the ghost of the man, Cinderella dismissing the image, “is that his face doesn’t tell us his age, his name, where he is now, or if he was even a Morioh resident. He could have been a commuter from out of town.”

“Not even age?” Tonio asks. Aya shakes her head.

“Faces can be quite deceiving,” she clarifies, smiling a little bitterly. “Smoking, for instance, can make you look decades older than you are.” Kakyoin thinks of the creases forming on Jotaro’s face and shakes his head. “Meanwhile, moisturizing and other facial creams can make you look decades younger.” Aya shrugs. “Who knows what his habits were?”

Kakyoin hums. Well that’s not good. “You said he was a walk-in… Right?”

Aya sighs, nodding. “Just strolled right in. Said he wanted a change. Something to make his wife love him again. It’s something a lot of my customers ask of me…” Aya’s face falls. “... Asked of me.” She pauses, before shaking her head roughly, shooting her hands up to brush her hair from the sides of her face when she’s done. “Anyway, I didn’t even get to say a word to him before Kira showed up. Must have seen him and followed him in. He blew up his tie to show us his stand powers, and threatened he’d do the same to me if I didn’t swap their faces. After that, well… you know the rest.” Aya sighs roughly. “How did he even know my stand power?”

It’s a question Kakyoin had been wondering, too. He’s reminded of Hazamada’s words: Standusers attract standusers…

Kakyoin sighs. “I don’t know. That’s what concerns me most about this Kira guy.”

Tonio shuffles, crossing his arms uncomfortably. Aya lets out a soft tut before turning to the rubble of her salon.

It’s no longer an active crime scene, Aya having told him and Tonio that the authorities easily ruled it an electrical error. It does leave her alone with the ashes, though.

“Come on,” she says suddenly, snapping Kakyoin out of his thoughts. “We’re going to search for my listings book. Hopefully he wrote his name down when he came in.”

Kakyoin nods, and they set about searching.

While the majority of the ashes have been windswept away at this point, as Kakyoin begins in his corner, poking through burnt rubble, some still stick to the end of his crutches. He sighs, considering, before going down to his knees with a small wince of pain, and beginning to search in seriousness.

The work isn’t mind numbing, but it is frustrating. Aya had let them know the general size and shape – a black three ring binder with an inch of paper inside, bigger than the average book in length and width – so Kakyoin knows what he’s looking for, but trying to find it in soot covered concrete and half burnt wooden beams that all stink of smoke is beginning to make Kakyoin’s stomach turn in discomfort.

I wish I still had my scarf to wrap around my nose, he thinks longingly. It’d at least muffle the smell…

Somewhere off to his side, he can hear Tonio sneeze, and Kakyoin chuckles under his breath. At least I’m not the only one struggling with it.

The search continues, ash crunching like grit beneath Kakyoin’s pants, Hierophant gently weaving between and under chunks of rubble and rebar to search for anything that isn’t just more burnt concrete.

By the time Kakyoin’s back is beginning to hurt in earnest, a muted gasp sounds out across the rubble. Kakyoin whips his head up to see Aya, on her knees, bent over something in her hands.

Tonio raises his head as well. “Did you find something, Aya?”

Aya pauses. “I…”

… Probably not the listings book, then, Kakyoin thinks, based on her disquieted reaction, but he still gets up, Hierophant twirling around his crutches and handing them to him, and he goes to her, Tonio following in his footsteps.

As suspected, what’s in Aya’s hands is not the remains of her listings book, but instead a small tube of… lipstick?

The glass cap has broken, the matte of the actual makeup itself half melted to the plastic container. Kakyoin isn’t sure what color it was supposed to be – perhaps a purple? – or if it was always black.

“Aya…?” Tonio asks, and Aya hunches over the tube before suddenly rearing back and chucking it, smashing the remains against a chunk of concrete. Tonio jumps at the loud crack of the plastic. Kakyoin eyes the remains of the makeup smeared on the rubble. It was black. He’s reminded of what Aya said, not too long ago: My favorite color is actually black. All other colors can shine in it. It reminds me of… me, and my work.

“Aya,” Kakyoin says softly and she turns then, her shoes scraping against the concrete with a low scuff, and faces them. Her nose is red, cheeks beginning to flush with it. Her shoulders are shaking, her lip trembling. Her eyes are blue fire, stinging like a nettle, and Kakyoin shifts, pulling at his cardigan, his nerves tingling. She falls back against the rubble with a slump, and Kakyoin and Tonio both jerk down after her.

“Is this really how it had to end for me?” Aya asks lowly, and Kakyoin knows she’s being rhetorical, but he still opens his mouth to say- something, anything, when she continues, voice shaky with fury, “All my life, all my life, all my work and dreams, and- just- it’s all gone, because some man couldn’t stand to face consequences for murdering a little girl 15 years ago? For murdering more since?” Aya curls her fingertips into the rubble, digging skin and nail into the dirty concrete, and Kakyoin winces at the secondhand feeling, but Aya doesn’t seem to care.

“Aya…” Tonio says softly. “It’s not the end-”

“I’m never going to be able to afford this again,” Aya says darkly, “if anyone would even rent a commercial space to me again. All the stupid firefighters kept asking me if I left a hair iron or something on, as if it was my fault that he ran into my building and blew it up!!!!”

Kakyoin and Tonio exchange alarmed looks. “They asked what?” Kakyoin asks, but Aya continues as if she can’t hear.

“But oh, no, I don’t get to tell them that because then I’ll have to explain stands, and then I’d just look goddamn hysterical in addition to stupid,” she spits harshly, breathing harshly, her arms beginning to shake with how hard she’s gripping at the stone.

“Aya,” Kakyoin says softly, and she halts, but her breathing stays shaky. Kakyoin and Tonio exchange glances before Kakyoin swallows. “We can… Josuke can fix the building, I’m sure. It’s oka-”

Aya laughs, but it comes out jagged and wet, and Kakyoin gets the urge to wince even if he doesn’t act on it. “That’s-” Aya falls back on her haunches, lifting her hands from the concrete, but wiping her eyes. “That would be- it would be good, don’t get me wrong, but it- it would only benefit the landlord. It wouldn’t change that it did blow up on my watch and-” Aya sniffles, and Kakyoin realizes with a jolt she’s on the brink of tears, adrenaline shooting through his system.

“I just-” Aya’s voice gives out and she has to take a few deep breaths, her shoulders shaking. Her new bangs hide her gaze from Tonio and Kakyoin. He’s not sure if her eyes are opened or closed, not sure if soot is smeared on her cheeks from wiping her eyes earlier. “I just- wanted to help people fall in love,” she says softly.

Kakyoin and Tonio both let out noises at this, and Aya grits her teeth, Kakyoin only just able to see the glint of the sunlight off her incisors from how her head is tilted down.

“As a kid,” she spits out, “my mom told me about the Cinderella story, and-” Aya swallows wetly, pausing to collect herself. She takes a few deep breaths, and continues, “She focused on the princess, and- and yes, she was beautiful, and lovely, but she wasn’t-” Aya sniffs. “I didn’t want to be her. Not like the other girls my age did. I wanted to just be- with her. So I wanted to be the fairy godmother, instead.”

Aya lets out a shuddering breath. “I’ve- talked about this before. I know you two know what I mean when I say I figured out why my interest in Cinderella was different from the other girls. I didn’t want to be the prince… so the best I could do was be the fairy godmother. So even when I understood my feelings better, the outcome of what I did about them didn’t.”

“Aya,” Kakyoin says, but Aya shakes her head, her cropped hair fluttering around her skull, and Kakyoin realizes that his own hair is longer than hers now, and he quiets.

“I just-” Aya sniffs. “Despite everything, I’m a hopeless romantic. Since I don’t get to fall in love and get married like all the other girls do, I just- I just wanted to help them with it instead. It’d be the closest I’d get to a fairy tale ending like that.”

Aya scrubs her eyes again, and Tonio reaches out, gently handing her a handkerchief. Aya hesitates, head still bowed so they can’t see her facial expression, before she takes it, reaching to dab her eyes with it. After a beat, she swallows again and drops it in her lap.

“I just wanted to help people fall in love,” Aya says hoarsely, softly. “So I went to beauty school against my parents’ wishes, I moved all on my own out here, I built up my business, and now it’s- it’s gone. Because-” Aya sniffles before snarling softly. “It feels like everything I can’t have, when it comes to this stuff, is because men think they get to have it first. Even when I try to be- be polite and good about my- my preferences, even when I’m not even standing in their way, in fact- in fact helping them and women have their happy endings, they still ruin it.” Aya takes in a shuddering breath. “He ruined it. Because he couldn’t control his own goddamn perversions like me!”

Kakyoin and Tonio don’t say anything. After a beat, Aya dabs at her eyes again with the handkerchief, letting out another sigh, but it’s looser, less sharp and wheezy this time. Kakyoin scoots forward then, the ash and grit crunching underneath his knees, small rocks stabbing into him through his pants, but he pays it no mind. Aya raises her head, but he still can’t see her eyes.

“It’s not a perversion, you know,” Kakyoin murmurs, and Aya’s face twists, but he continues before she can refute him. “I mean it. Homosexuality-” Aya takes a sharp breath, wincing, and Kakyoin politely pays it no mind “-is seen everywhere, in every culture. Even in other animals.” Kakyoin laughs quietly. “You wouldn’t call a penguin perverted, would you?”

Aya giggles a little then, a little maniacal, but she finally raises her head. Her eyes are red-rimmed, her lower lashes wet, all the more noticeable by the bags under her eyes, but no tears have fallen down her face. Kakyoin, despite everything, relaxes a little, and he settles a little more against the rocks trying to carve into his knees.

“But even if it were a perversion, I’m there with you, right?” Kakyoin continues, and Aya winces, a hand coming up over her mouth.

“That’s… I didn’t mean… it’s not the same with you,” she mutters, and Kakyoin clicks his tongue.

“How so?”

“You- you still like women too, just…” Aya trails off.

Kakyoin laughs. “Wouldn’t that make the fact I’m still open to men despite that make it a worse perversion, then?”

Aya blinks, dropping her hand. “I…”

“People who would call it perverted don’t care that I like women, too,” Kakyoin says quietly, “they care that I like men, just the same that they care that you like women. They’ll never be happy with anything.”

Aya swallows thickly.

“Those people are wrong,” Kakyoin stresses again, quietly, and Aya looks up at him, locking eyes with him for the first time during this conversation. “But even if we play pretend by their rules about it being unnatural, we would still be in arms together.” Kakyoin chuckles under his breath. “Besides… There are worse things than being a little perverted. Like being a damn murderer. It’s not comparable.”

Aya swallows thickly. After a second, she nods, and Kakyoin smiles at her, brows pinching upward.

Tonio scoots forward then too, just a little, and Kakyoin shifts to make room for him while Anya moves her gaze toward him. He smiles at her kindly, even with the small shadows under his eyes.

“Noriaki’s right,” Tonio says, and Aya blinks. “I admit I don’t know all the nuances… but I do know that it’s not a bad thing. Not at all.” Tonio smiles. “You said you’re a hopeless romantic… I am, too. As a fellow romantic, don’t you find it lovely that people can fall in love in all kinds of ways?”

Aya hums, ducking her head. “I… I guess… I hadn’t really considered what I feel as falling in love. It felt… like I didn’t get to use that term.”

Oh, Aya…

Aya sighs. “I guess… the legal definitions about such things haven’t helped that.” Aya hums. “My parents wanted me to be a lawyer, so I got into a bunch of legalese stuff just to make them happy as a kid. Maybe that rubbed off on me…”

“It’s not all laws, anymore,” Tonio muses, and Aya blinks, raising her head. “When I was traveling for my culinary studies, I learned that some parts of Spain recently amended things to recognize unions. Similar in Denmark and some other places… I know Japan is pretty traditional, but change will come here, too.”

Aya’s lips part, but she doesn’t say anything. She looks down. “You guys…” she shakes her head. “Look at me… this is so embarrassing,” she laughs a little, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“I felt… similar, for a long time,” Kakyoin confesses, and Aya looks back up. “If I wasn’t interested in anthropology and archaeology, I might not have gotten the perspective that made me more confident in it.” Kakyoin lets out a breath. “Besides… Remember what you told me?”

Aya blinks.

Kakyoin smiles at her. “You said… ‘Surely you know that being human means you need connection during stressful times?’ That includes you, too, you know.”

Aya lets out a small, choked sound. After a beat, she nods stiffly, lowering her head to dab at her eyes again with Tonio’s handkerchief. “Okay,” she says softly, her voice breaking on the second syllable, and Kakyon’s heart squeezes.

“Aya…” Tonio says softly, and Aya sniffs and looks up. “Could we… Would you like me to be a guarantor for you?”

Aya blinks. “Wh-what?”

Tonio hums. “If you’re worried about not being rented to again… what if I sign a future lease with you as the guarantor? Since nothing dramatic has happened to my own establishment, it should count for something, right?”

Kakyoin hums. “You’re not related by blood, either, so a future landlord wouldn’t assume it’s a family matter clouding your bias, Tonio…” He thinks of the Speedwagon Foundation’s blatant nepotism, and has to bite back a snort. 

Aya blinks. “You would- you would really do that for me?”

Tonio smiles at her then. “Of course, my friend. Small business owners have to stick together, right?”

Aya lets out a soft, wounded sound. “I- I don’t know what to say… I don’t know how I’ll ever thank you.”

Tonio smiles then, patting her hand, which makes her jump, but she accepts the touch after registering it. “Sorry… But, you don’t need to pay me back. This isn’t a purchase,” He teases lightly.

Aya shakes her head furiously. “No, but- But you’re already- already giving me a place to stay, and you’ve fed me so many times before, and now- now this?”

Tonio laughs. “We’re a community, it’s what we do.”

“But it’s so much!” Aya stresses. “Please, I- I want to do something. Make it a little more even.”

Tonio smiles at her. “Well…” He pats her hand again. “When you start again… make sure you’re being a fairy godmother for yourself too, not just other women,” he says. “You deserve happiness too, Aya. You shouldn’t give up on it just because your own happily ever after looks a little different from a storybook’s.” Kakyoin pauses at that, his thoughts drifting to the strange peace he felt the night before, before shaking his head.

Aya’s lips part, but she doesn’t say anything. Her lower lids become lined with tears again, but she seems almost in a trance, unable to lift the handkerchief to her eyes.

“And, ah,” Tonio adds bashfully, retracting his hand to rub the back of his neck sheepishly. “If… ahem, if you’re okay with it… When my Virginia comes to Japan, I want to ask her to marry me-” he smiles then, widely, his teeth gleaming, and he’s so evidently in love that it almost feels intrusive to watch him talk about her, Kakyoin thinks “-and I was hoping… perhaps, if she says yes, you could do the makeup for her on the big day?”

“Could I-” Aya grins almost just as widely, her eyes crinkling in the corners as she smiles at Tonio. “I would be honored to! I would- oh, do you know what her colors are? Actually, no, it’s best if I work without a bias… I’ll see when she gets here. Oh, Tonio, that’s-!” The tears on Aya’s lower lid finally spill, and she jumps, as if having forgotten they were there. She rubs at her cheek absentmindedly, soot smearing lightly. Her eyes are still blue flames, but more like a bonfire than a forest fire this time, warm and sure and belonging entirely to the woman Kakyoin became friends with in the first place.

Tonio laughs brightly, patting her hand again, and as if she remembers the handkerchief then, she reaches up and dabs at her eyes.

Kakyoin smiles at his two friends, his heart the most relaxed it’s been since he turned that alleyway to see Jotaro and Koichi in pools of their own blood. Tonio pulls them both into a hug then, and despite his back’s protests, Kakyoin falls into it easily, moving his arms to wrap around them both in return.

When they break, Aya takes a deep breath, handing Tonio back his handkerchief, which he shoves into a pocket. She smiles at them then, reaching up and gently pulling her hair from her face.

“Well,” she says, “before I can think about getting a new place, we need to find this goddamn asshole first to make sure he doesn’t blow up my next salon.”

Kakyoin laughs at the language, nods, and back to the grit and rubble they all go.

They search until the heat gets too unbearable, the Morioh summer unrelenting in its humidity and cloudless sky, allowing the sun to cook them further one degree at a time. Even Kakyoin, with how hard it is for his body to stay warm, has begun to sweat enough that he’s taken his cardigan off, by the time they call it.

“Let’s head to that one cafe,” Tonio says, fanning his face. “Okuyasu mentioned it the last time he was giving Pochi a bath. Cafe Rengatei, I think?”

Kakyoin nods, wiping at his hairline with his gloves. “Yeah, that sounds-”

“Wait!” Aya calls, diving into a far corner of rubble, making Tonio yelp as a block of concrete almost falls on her with how fast she’s moving, Hierophant lashing out to knock it away before Kakyoin can think. “Wait, wait, I thought I saw- yes!”

She pulls out of the pile, turning with dusty arms and knees and a triumphant grin, holding a tattered binder high above her head. “I thought I saw the gleam of one of the rings – now that it’s midday, it was pretty obvious!”

Kakyoin and Tonio both cheer, and she hurries to them, dusting it off a bit before opening it.

The front and back pages are heavily burnt and unreadable because of it, smelling of smoke and appearing pitch black, but further in, the pages, though still damaged, become more comprehensible. Kakyoin strains his eyes as Aya follows the dates of each listing, spanning closer and closer to the end of June, and-

Nothing.

Aya falters. She skips a couple of pages ahead, murmuring Maybe he wrote it on a weird page under her breath, but-

All the remaining pages — that they can read, anyway — are blank.

Aya’s shoulders droop, and she lets the damaged binder fall to join the rest of the rubble with a muffled thump. She stands still for a few seconds before sighing, wiping the soot on her hands against the skirt of her dress.

“I… I guess he didn’t write his name,” she murmurs. “He did just kinda rush in and plop himself down on a chair super fast. I suppose it didn’t cross his mind to see a black binder and write his name down in it…”

Tonio hums. “I don’t blame him for not thinking of it, especially if he wasn’t used to how salons run…”

Aya sighs. “Yeah…” she looks up, brows pinched. “I’m… I’m sorry for sending you two on a wild goose chase with me and getting you all dirty in the process…”

“Hey, none of that,” Kakyoin cuts in, shaking his head. “It was my idea, remember? It was worth a try. Now we know for sure.” He pauses. “And hey… even if it’s not a name, we did learn something: we can assume he wasn’t the type to go to a salon regularly if he didn’t know to write his name. It helps us narrow down the search a little, if nothing else.”

Aya hums, inclining her head. “I suppose…”

“Besides all that,” Tonio adds, “I think the conversation we had was more than enough to have made it worth it.” He laughs lightly, then. “I don’t mind digging through dusty rubble if it’s with you two.”

Kakyoin and Aya both smile at that, and Aya sighs, shaking her head. She stares down at the black binder for a little longer before she shakes her head, dusts her dress off, and clears her throat.

“Well… What were you saying, Tonio? Rengatei? I could go for some tea,” she nods. Kakyoin smirks then, recalling the conversation they had while eating dinner at Tonio’s.

“Is it really tea if you’re going to drown it with honey?” He teases, and Aya scoffs goodnaturedly.

“Tea or not, it tastes good either way,” Tonio pipes up, and Aya goes Aha! and points at Kakyoin triumphantly, and Kakyoin grins, shakes his head, and gestures for them to lead the way.

Chapter 39

Summary:

Rohan grunts. “Of course Josuke would need help for this…”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. “What’s that supposed to mean? He’s out there working to save your life right now.”

Rohan scoffs, shaking his head. “He’s prideful and an idiot. I warned him the same as you that if he stepped into this room, he'd be a goner, but he didn’t listen to me." Rohan sighs roughly.

Kakyoin twitches, irritation flaring over Rohan’s disregard of his kid’s good intentions. “He’s… He just wanted to save you.”

“Yeah, well, I’m sick of good kids dying trying to save me,” Rohan spits, and Kakyoin remembers Reimi, and he shuts his mouth.

Notes:

hey everyone!! i know this was a REALLY fast turn around for me but this chapter just came so easily to me, so here it is <3 im really glad tho cause it means I got to post twice this winter break >:) i'm back in school tomorrow unfortunately but hey... almost done. and in the meantime i will continue working on this fic full steam ahead! it Will be done by june i promise this

anyway, i hope you all enjoy this chapter!! <3

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Chapter Text

When his hotel room’s phone rings on Thursday evening, Kakyoin has to bite back a groan. Nothing good ever happens to me when I pick up a damn phone.

Still, he moves to answer, pushing away the newspapers he had been studying in hopes of finding anything about where Kira might have gone as he picks up the receiver. “Hello?”

“Mr. Kakyoin,” Josuke greets, voice edged, and Kakyoin needs to repress a sigh. Nothing good ever happens to me when I pick up a damn phone.

“Josuke? What’s wrong?” Kakyoin asks, and Josuke exhales, the phone bursting into static.

“Nothing,” he says, and Kakyoin clicks his tongue, but Josuke continues. “Just…” He pauses for a second, and Kakyoin can imagine his face scrunching up, irritation making his nose crinkle. “I talked with Rohan today. It, uh… It just didn’t go well. Was just trying to play a game…” he mutters.

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Uh-huh…?”

Josuke sighs. “Just- near the end of our… talk, when we were on the bus, he started acting really weird. He got super upset about this tunnel – Futatsumori Tunnel – and was saying he saw a secret room or something.”

Kayoin’s brows draw together. “A secret room…?”

There’s a muffled shift of fabric, as if Josuke shrugged on the other end of the line. “I don’t know. But he’s convinced whatever he saw has something to do with Kira.”

Kakyoin’s eyes widen. “Oh?”

Josuke sighs. “I really, really don’t know. I didn’t see what he saw. But…” Josuke scoffs then, chuckling a little indignantly to himself. “Rohan said he was going to check it out again, alone, tomorrow. And… even if he’s an asshole and half crazy, I don’t know… I don’t think any of us should be alone right now, right?” Kakyoin remembers Aya, how they still don’t know how Kira knew her stand powers. He grunts an agreement. Josuke continues. “So… I’m gonna go, too, even if all I do is just keep him from getting run over in there.”

Kakyoin hums. “That’s… really noble of you, Josuke.”

Josuke tuts. “It just means I’m not a complete careless bastard, unlike what he thinks.” He sighs. “But… the point is, I don’t know what, if anything, is in that tunnel tomorrow. If I’m busy wrangling Rohan, especially if he gets hurt…” Josuke sighs. “Just… Can you… be ready? If I call you?” Josuke’s voice is strained, half irritated and half vulnerable, and it reminds Kakyoin of Jotaro as a teenager, making him jolt in his seat.

Kakyoin’s lips part, but he doesn’t speak for a moment. He remembers their promise, then: You need to trust me more. And I need to trust you more, too.

Have I finally put in enough effort that Josuke’s willing to begin reciprocating? Kakyoin thinks, before shaking his head roughly. Don’t make a big deal out of this, Noriaki, he furiously tells himself, Do not make Josuke regret coming to you!

“Of course,” he says instead, voice even.

Josuke lets out a breath. “Yeah. Okay. Thank you, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Thank you, Josuke, Kakyoin doesn’t say. “Good luck with Rohan.”

Josuke scoffs, and Kakyoin smirks, and bids him good night.


Kakyoin hates waiting.

As he sits in his hotel room, hovering near the phone, he feels sort of how he did after N’doul blinded him: stuck in the hospital, unable to do anything but just wait. Wait for his eyes, wait for a phone call from Joseph or Avdol, stuck in a passive prison.

The hospital after the journey felt similar to that, too. In a way it was worse because Kakyoin didn’t know what he was even waiting for, in his opium-fueled haze. His friends? His life? The year he lost to just come back?

Did he ever stop waiting?

Kakyoin shakes his head.

This feels like a sort of amalgamation of both those periods of his life, he muses, waiting for an update he doesn’t know any of the context for.

Kakyoin hates waiting.

After his third time rereading the same paragraph in the newspaper for July 1st, Kakyoin shoves it away, pushing his glasses up onto his forehead and holding his face in his hands, his fingers pressing against his eyelids. He takes a few deep breaths, slowly, before he sits for a moment, just focusing on his weight against the desk chair, the warm rays of sun peeking in through his window, a clear sky visible from outside as the sun sets.

Josuke, of course, couldn’t even go to the tunnel until after the school day ended, but Kakyoin’s been too anxious to leave, stuck in his hotel room all day as he just waits for his kid to call him.

Kakyoin abruptly wonders if this is how Holly felt when Jotaro went to university. I need to call her-

The phone rings, and Kakyoin flies forward, picking up before the first round of beeping could even finish. “Hello? Josuke?”

“Mr. Kakyoin!” Not Josuke. Koichi’s voice shouts through the speakers, making Kakyoin jolt, his blood going cold. Did something happen-

“Koichi? What’s going on?” Kakyoin barks.

“I don’t have a lot of time,” Koichi explains, voice high in tension, reminding Kakyoin a bit of a metal cable holding a bridge up, “I know you already know some, so I’m just going to hope you can fill in the blanks.”

“That’s fine,” Kakyoin assures, “What’s happening? Where’s Josuke?”

“He’s being chased by the stand,” Koichi growls, and it makes Kakyoin jump in surprise. “We think it’s a long distance stand being used by this guy who got into a really bad accident in Futatsumori Tunnel.” Kakyoin does remember seeing the newspaper article about that then, and he jolts, diving to his desk to search for it. “It’s trying to drain people of nutrients, probably to help its user heal. It does this by luring people into the tunnel, which it did with Rohan!”

“Like an anglerfish,” Kakyoin muses under his breath when he finally finds the newspaper. “So, what, you’re heading to the… Budogaoka General Hospital to find the user? I’ll be rig-”

“Actually,” Koichi cuts in, and Kakyoin halts, blinking at the force in his voice. Koichi also seems in shock of his tone, because he audibly swallows and clears his throat, before saying, “I- I’m sorry, just- Mr. Kakyoin, I think you should go to the tunnel.”

Kakyoin blinks again. “Huh?”

Koichi exhales, the sound sharp like he’s breathing past gritted teeth. “Josuke and I are heading to the hospital. With my range and Josuke’s power, we’ll be fine. But Mr. Rohan is in danger! He might die if the stand keeps draining him!”

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth for a second. But- but- I’m so sick of waiting-

You need to trust me more. And I need to trust you more, too.

Kakyoin pauses. He remembers his conversation with Koichi, after Kira’s attack in the alleyway, then. I’m sorry for ever implying you weren’t… enough.

Kakyoin swallows thickly. I know you can handle some random standuser flashes through his mind, and while sure, he wasn’t necessarily talking to Koichi when he told Josuke that…

I promised the kids I would be honest with them. I will not betray their trust by lying anyway.

“Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “... The tunnel – it’s Futatsumori, you said?”

“Yes!” Koichi says, the relief prevalent in the breathy way he says it. “Please help him. We’ll put a stop to this while you do!”

Kakyoin chuckles a little. “I know you will. Get going!”

“Right!”

Kakyoin hangs up and moves to his door, only to pause, considering. Nutrients, huh… He glances back into the bathroom, his lines of pill bottles sitting quietly on the counter.

Hierophant reaches out, grabs some supplies, and Kakyoin rushes out the door.


Futatsumori Tunnel is dark, Kakyoin finds.

It’s not an issue, Kakyoin summoning Hierophant, its soft green glow enough to at least let him see where his wheelchair is rolling, but it still makes Kakyoin shift uncomfortably, eyes narrowed past his glasses as he looks up at the arched, brick ceiling.

It’s quiet, too. The only sound is Kakyoin’s soft breaths and the creaks of his wheelchair as he moves onward, and it makes the hair on the back of his neck stand on end, his eyes straining to hear anything other than an echo.

He’s not even sure what he’s looking for, he thinks, antsy. Where the hell is-?

At a sign that marks 200 meters to the exit of the tunnel, Kakyoin halts. Just past a bend in the tunnel is a small, orange light, like a campfire in the midst of a dark wood.

Kakyoin shudders and rolls toward it at full speed.

“Rohan?!” He calls as he comes closer. It’s strange: the light seems to be spilling from an open door, a small window next to it. It’s like the entrance of a house had merged with the tunnel wall. What the hell? “Roha-”

Kakyoin gets in front of the door and stops in his tracks.

Indeed, the door and window seemingly lead into the first room of a house, a candelabra lighting it in a warm orange. No doors lead to other parts of the suggested home — it is secluded.

Inside, his back propped against a set of wooden drawers, is Rohan. He’s breathing shallowly in soft wheezes, his green hair slicked down against his face with sweat. Kakyoin blinks.

“...Rohan?” He calls.

Rohan doesn’t move for a second, and Kakyoin rolls forward, his wheels bumping against the doorstep-

Rohan spasms then, jerking his head up, strands of hair falling into his eyes, and he stares wildly at Kakyoin, pointing shakily. “Stop- stop!”

Kakyoin freezes, raising his hands in a placating gesture, Hierophant mimicking him. “Hey, hey. It’s just- it’s just me. Kakyoin Noriaki?”

Rohan’s eyes squint as he struggles to focus his gaze onto him, and Kakyoin frowns. He knows Koichi said it was a stand that steals nutrients, but… how awful to see it in action. He has the distant thought of if this is how he looked at the worst of his addiction, and he pushes the thought away. 

“What- what’re you doing here,” Rohan slurs, before shaking his head. “Don’t- don’t come in here. It- it’ll-”

Kakyoin’s frown deepens. “I’m here to hel-”

“No,” Rohan mutters, and Kakyoin scoffs, moving to roll in, and Rohan jerks. “NO! I’m serious, you can’t come in here, the stand- that’s how it gets you!!”

Kakyoin pauses again. Rohan stares at him, breathing haggardly, and Kakyoin swallows. He backs up, and Rohan lets out a breath, letting his head hang.

Kakyoin gives him a second. “... What’s going on?” He asks after a beat.

Rohan sighs roughly, throwing his head back against the drawers with a soft thunk. There are circles under his eyes, his face gaunt. He’s always been thin, but this… Kakyoin frowns, but Rohan begins to speak. “On the bus the other day, I saw this strange room. I went to check it out. I thought…” Rohan chuckles. “I thought there was someone here, but it was an illusion to trick me inside. The stand can hunt whoever steps into this room and steal their nutrients.” Rohan presses his lips together – so dry and cracked that Kakyoin can see it even from the three or so meters away he is – before he sighs. “I assume Josuke called you?”

Kakyoin shifts his jaw. “Well… He and Koichi, yeah.”

Rohan grunts. “Of course Josuke would need help for this…”

Kakyoin’s eyes narrow. “What’s that supposed to mean? He’s out there working to save your life right now.”

Rohan scoffs, shaking his head. “He’s prideful and an idiot. I warned him the same as you that if he stepped into this room, he'd be a goner, but he didn’t listen to me. He just stepped in while telling me he’s not going to let the standuser avoid his fists.” Rohan sighs roughly. “I had to write in his pages to get his body to fly out of here before that damn stand could cling to him and start leeching. At least he finally listened to me at that point and ran.”

Kakyoin hums, shifting a bit. “That… does sound like him,” he admits, and Rohan scoffs. Kakyoin twitches, irritation flaring over Rohan’s disregard of his kid’s good intentions. “He’s… He just wanted to save you.”

“Yeah, well, I’m sick of good kids dying trying to save me,” Rohan spits, and Kakyoin remembers Reimi, and he shuts his mouth.

It’s quiet for several moments aside from Rohan’s shaky breathing. In the harsh candle lighting, Kakyoin can watch as sweat beads on Rohan’s face before gaining enough weight for gravity to take hold, slipping down his cheeks, dripping off his chin and sinking into the cloth of his clothes.

Kakyoin sighs. “Go, Hierophant,” he murmurs, and Hierophant’s tentacles extend into the room.

Rohan jumps when they come upon him, whipping his head back up. “What are you do-”

“You said I can’t come in,” Kakyoin says, shrugging. “So, I won’t. Hierophant, though…” He smiles a little smarmily.

Rohan breaths shakily, his face contorting. “You can’t- even if he can’t sense Hierophant Green, he’d still notice if I left this room. He’s not actively killing me right now only because he thinks I’m stuck. We can’t lose our element of surprise if he doesn’t know you or Koichi are involved!”

Kakyoin leans back in his wheelchair, considering. It’s a good point, unfortunately…

Well, it’s a good thing Kakyoin doesn’t need to drag him out yet, then.

“Here,” Kakyoin calls, and Rohan’s face scrunches in confusion before more of Hierophant’s tendrils slip into the room, this time carrying the water bottle Kakyoin grabbed with him on the way out of his hotel room. With it comes his bottle of multivitamins and a small pack of dehydrated, salty crackers – sometimes the only things Kakyoin’s body can digest in a day without causing a fuss. They certainly have their use beyond him now, though, Kakyoin thinks, eyeing how much Rohan has sweat. He needs to get some salt back in him.

Rohan blinks as the tendrils hand the snacks and vitamins to him, gently depositing them in his lap.

“No need to be miserable while you have to stay in there,” Kakyoin shrugs. Rohan’s lips part but no sound comes out. After he remains staring at him for a second, Kakyoin shifts uncomfortably. “Come on, seriously. You’ve gotta be dehydrated. At least drink.”

Rohan shuts his mouth, ducks his head, and shakily uncaps the water and brings it to his mouth. He takes small sips and Kakyoin leans back, nodding approvingly.

It falls quiet, and Kakyoin dismisses Hierophant, no longer needing him. He can hear the distant engine of a bus as it nears the mouth of one of the ends of the tunnel, and he moves closer to the wall to give it some space when it inevitably passes.

It comes not long after, Kakyoin seeing its headlights before he properly hears it, grimacing as it speeds by with a roar, the tunnel exacerbating every sound the vehicle makes. It drives by quickly though, only the ever softening drone of its motor audible after only a few seconds.

“... How many of these do I take?” Rohan croaks, and Kakyoin turns back to the door. He’s holding up the multivitamin bottle, squinting at it, and Kakyoin wonders if he’s unable to focus his gaze enough to read the label. The print is pretty small…

Kakyoin considers that Rohan’s a manga artist on top of this stand’s effects. “... Three,” he says, and Rohan obeys without comment, popping open the lid after only a little fumbling and fingering three out, shoving them into his mouth, and washing them down with water. He turns to the crackers then, considering.

“Go on,” Kakyoin says, and Rohan drags his gaze back up to him. “You’re soaked in sweat. You need some sodium going back in your body, not out.”

Rohan scoffs, but he finally opens the package, gingerly taking a few out. “I wouldn’t mind if only they didn’t taste so bland,” he grumbles, and Kakyoin laughs.

“I’m not enthusiastic about them either,” he admits, and Rohan looks up at him curiously. “But it’s a small price to pay to stay alive when I can’t stomach anything else.”

Rohan pauses before swallowing. “I’ve been curious about that…”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “My stomach?”

Rohan scoffs. “No, I mean-” he gestures then, toward Kakyoin’s wheelchair, and Kakyoin pauses.

“Ah,” Kakyoin says awkwardly. “What… did you want to know?”

Rohan shrugs. “Whatever you want to tell me. It’s always good to learn about new things.”

Kakyoin is quiet at that. “I don’t really know what’s worth being said,” he says after a moment. Rohan opens his mouth, but Kakyoin continues. “I was a kid. There was something I needed to do. I got it done. It should have killed me.” Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “But I got to live.”

Rohan goes quiet himself then, and Kakyoin glances at him. He’s staring hard at the floor of the room, the candle light exaggerating the shadows on his face. He looks older than he is, and Kakyoin abruptly remembers he’s only 20. What was I doing at 20? Kakyoin thinks to himself. Certainly nothing like this, hunting down a standuser to avenge my friend…

For the first time, Kakyoin feels a small prickling of fondness for Rohan. Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “There’s… something I’ve been wondering, too.”

Rohan looks up questioningly.

Kakyoin swallows. “You’ve… been visiting Reimi, right?”

Rohan seizes, freezing completely against the wooden drawers. Kakyoin almost feels bad, but he doesn’t take it back, gazing evenly back at him.

“I just ask,” Kakyoin says gently, “because I’ve- also been. I guess. I’ve been training her how to use her stand with Josuke, Koichi, Okuyasu, and Yukako.”

Rohan lets out a long, long exhale, shifting his jaw. “Yes, you told me you intended to do that. And she has… mentioned it too, yes.”

Kakyoin nods.

Rohan sighs. “Yes, I… yes. I visit her. On Fridays.” He chuckles a little self-deprecatingly. “I’m gonna be late, at this rate.” He lets out a sigh, and Kakyoin gives him a moment. After a beat, Rohan asks, “Why do you ask?”

Kakyoin shrugs. “Just…” He thinks back to the other week, to Reimi’s grief over her own death, how she doesn’t get to feel as present as she wants to be. “I think it’s good for her. To have those visits. So…” Kakyoin sighs. “I know we got off on the wrong foot-” To put it mildly “-but… Thank you.”

Rohan scoffs. “Shouldn’t that be my line? She was my friend first.” He looks down then, seemingly unaware of how kind that line was. “It’s… the least I could do, after she saved my life,” he adds on quietly. Kakyoin hums.

After a beat, Rohan’s head hanging, minorly fidgeting as his body regains some function, Kakyoin takes pity on him. “She’s mentioned you, too. Ah… So I assume she’s already asked you if you can go to the sleepover?”

Rohan chuckles, before sighing, leaning his head back against the drawers again. “Yes. She’s asked me.” He takes another sip of water before he places the water bottle down next to him and rubs his eyes. “I really…” Rohan groans, thumping his head against the drawers. “Of course I’m gonna go. I’m just not excited about spending my evening with Josuke’s lot beyond Koichi.”

Despite the jab, Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle. “Don’t worry, I’m gonna be there too. You won’t be the only adult.”

Rohan sighs. “I suppose not. And anyway, it’ll be good for my manga, at least.”

Kakyoin bites back a scoff, maintaining his smile. “I, uh…” he sighs, his smile dropping. “I also wanted to ask your opinion on something, speaking of the sleepover.”

Rohan gestures to go ahead as he reaches for another cracker, chewing on it softly.

“She’s… missed a lot of birthdays, you know?” Kakyoin starts gently. Rohan halts his chewing. Kakyoin politely ignores it and pushes on. “And other celebrations. She told me… she’s supposed to be older than me, in fact.”

Rohan swallows stiffly, lowering his head just enough so that Kakyoin can’t look him in the eye. “Yeah. She’s supposed to be 31.”

Kakyoin nods. “Yeah. So… I was thinking…” Rohan’s brows crease before he looks back up. “I was thinking,” Kakyoin repeats, “we figured that Reimi can eat or drink something if it gets associated with the occult in some way, like her fortune-telling pocky.”

Rohan’s brows raise. “I see…”

Kakyoin nods. “And so… I was thinking… There’s a lot of firsts she missed. So I was wondering if you could ask her if she’d want to try alcohol? Because I was looking it up, and there’s a lot of different rituals you can use alcohol for. It’d be easy to get it to her. I’m willing to buy it, as long as it’s not too expensive.”

Rohan blinks, lips parting. “I- really?”

Kakyoin nods. “I figured… I don’t know. She never got to grow up,” Kakyoin says quietly, and Rohan’s lips close. “But since growing up is just a bunch of experiences, I figured we could bring some to her.”

Rohan hums. “Like alcohol.”

Kakyoin snorts and nods. “Like alcohol. I would ask her myself, but it’d be in front of all the others, and I’m not going to facilitate all the kids trying a drink.” Rohan snickers and Kakyoin smirks himself. “Besides… I want it to be special for her. No one else’s treat.”

Rohan hums at that before pursing his lips. “When would we do it, then?”

Kakyoin gestures vaguely. “Since Reimi can’t sleep, really, I thought… if she does want to try it, we could just wait until the rest fall asleep and let her have some then.”

Rohan hums, squeezing the water bottle gently, just enough to make the plastic crackle before letting it go again, only to repeat the action. “I can ask her,” he says finally, and Kakyoin lets out a breath.

“Thank you,” he says, and Rohan looks up and smiles at him, and for once, it’s not a knife in disguise, instead all gradual curves and crinkled eyes.

Hesitantly, Kakyoin finds he’s able to return the smile, just as genuinely, fairly easily.

They fall into a peaceful silence then, but they don’t have to wait much longer after that. A while later, Rohan suddenly gasps, and he sits straight up, coughing before shaking his head, as if clearing out some gunk.

Kakyoin rolls forward then. “It stopped?”

Rohan groans, nodding, as he shakily, using the drawers for help, rises to his feet. “It stopped,” he confirms, and Kakyoin can’t help but grin, something in his chest finally sagging in relief. Koichi and Josuke… They did it.

Kakyoin rolls into the room then, making Rohan blink, and Kakyoin brushes it off as Hierophant appears to collect his vitamins and hand the rest of the water bottle back to Rohan. “Come on, let’s get out of here before we become road kill.”

Rohan snorts and stumbles forward a step, only to nearly crumple to his knees, had it not been for Kakyoin diving forward, letting Rohan lean on the back of his chair to stay standing.

“Easy,” Kakyoin says, and Rohan seethes quietly. “You just had your life drained away for about an hour, even if it wasn’t active for most of that time. Unless you like the look of my wheelchair so much that you want one for yourself, you should let me help.”

Rohan huffs furiously before swallowing. He slowly, with sweat soaked hands that Kakyoin kindly ignores, grips onto one of the bars that makes up the back of his chair, shakily leaning against it. Kakyoin nods approvingly.

“Come on,” He says, “let’s get out of here.”

Rohan grunts his agreement, and out they go.

It takes longer to roll out than it did going in, what with the short and slow steps Rohan needs to take and the lack of urgency Kakyoin feels now that the standuser has evidently been dealt with, but he doesn’t mind. He’s just thinking about what to say to Josuke and Koichi when they get back — how to let them know he’s proud of them without setting Josuke off — when they near the end of the tunnel and see a figure on the other side.

Kakyoin frowns, squinting, trying to make out who it is beyond the blinding light of day, before he seizes so suddenly, hitting his breaks as he does, that Rohan slams into the back of his wheelchair with an Oof before crumpling to his knees.

Jotaro’s brows pinch at the sound, and he turns and looks up from a notebook he was studying before freezing himself.

Kakyoin’s lips part, but he can’t think of anything to say. Thankfully, he doesn’t have to.

“Mr. Kakyoin? What gives?!” Rohan grunts as he pulls himself back up to his feet. “Why- Oh. Mr. Jotaro.”

Jotaro nods the slightest bit, still staring at Kakyoin. Kakyoin feels his arms tingle. Rohan tugs a bit on the bar of his wheelchair, and it snaps him out of his reverie. Jerking his gaze down, Kakyoin rolls the rest of the way out of the tunnel, leading Rohan out. Jotaro steps out of their way, and Kakyoin’s fingers twitch.

A few meters from the mouth of the tunnel, Rohan stumbles toward the grass beside the road, sitting down with a soft groan. His duty finished, Kakyoin looks back at Jotaro, jolting when he sees him still looking at him.

“Mr. Jotaro,” Rohan calls, and both jump, jerking their heads back to Rohan. “Why are you here?”

Jotaro blinks, as if only just registering Rohan’s presence, before he clears his throat, shoving his small notebook into one of the large pockets of his coat. “... Josuke called me,” he says, voice as gravelly as it usually is. Kakyoin feels his hair stand on end over it anyway, and he’s immediately sick of it, crossing his arms. “He said he wanted to do recon about a… situation.”

Rohan scoffs. “Did he run to all the adults he knew?”

“Hey,” Kakyoin snaps, and Rohan blinks, looking back at him. “It’s a good thing he came to us. Look what trying to do this alone got you, after all.”

Rohan glares at him, and Kakyoin only half regrets the words. He’s come too far with Josuke learning to rely on others – he can’t let Rohan sully that, even if he ruins their budding companionship over it.

Jotaro clears his throat, and they both turn back to him. “He didn’t tell me much on the phone… he sounded tired. Can either of you tell me what’s going on?”

Rohan and Kakyoin exchange glances. Rohan glances down then, crossing his arms, and Kakyoin swallows. He knows what shame looks like.

“Rohan was looking into a lead about Kira Yoshikage,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro locks his gaze onto him. It’s so intense, all the power and all-consuming nature of the ocean flooding out of his teal eyes, that Kakyoin almost misses how Rohan jerks his head to look at him. Kakyoin ignores them both and continues. “And he did find something suspicious, just not Kira.” Kakyoin looks down then.

Rohan sucks in a breath. “... Just some nutrient sucking stand,” Rohan murmurs. “It lured me in and tried to drain my life away. Same with Josuke.”

Jotaro hums, moving his gaze to the dark tunnel. “Like an anglerfish,” he muses, and Kakyoin bristles. H-hey-

Rohan glances at Kakyoin before nodding his head. “Kinda.”

Kakyoin lets out a breath.

Rohan clears his throat. “So you two know each other already, then?”

Both Kakyoin and Jotaro jolt, locking their eyes before breaking the contact. 

“We…” Jotaro starts, before trailing off. Kakyoin clears his throat.

“We were… high school friends,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro jerks his head back to Kakyoin, but Kakyoin resolutely doesn’t look back.

Rohan’s eyebrows raise. “I see.”

“Hey!”

They all whip their heads down the road. Making their way over to them are Josuke and Koichi, the latter of which is waving his hand in greeting.

Kakyoin lets out a breath before he cups his hands into a cone around his mouth and shouts, “Are you two alright?”

Kakyoin can only hear the faint edges of Josuke’s scoff, before he calls back, “Ask Rohan that!” which makes Rohan glare from his place on the grass. Kakyoin politely hides his grin. They’re both okay, then.

Josuke and Koichi meet up with them, and Josuke indeed looks tired, but both their eyes are bright.

“Standuser’s been dealt with, then?” Kakyoin asks, and Josuke smiles darkly while Koichi lets out a woozy sigh of relief, nodding his head.

“Yeah. It belonged to this senior, Yuya Fungami. We were right that he got into a really bad motorcycle accident here, so his stand was trying to help him heal,” Koichi says. Kakyoin hums, tapping his chin.

“Interesting…”

Josuke makes a face. “Not interesting enough to make up for the mess he caused. Speaking of which…” Josuke’s gaze skirts to Rohan then, who squints at the attention.

Josuke hesitantly steps forward, summoning Crazy Diamond behind him. “Rohan… are you okay?”

Rohan remains squinting at him for a long while, before he tuts, turning his head. “Just fine.”

Josuke twitches, but he shakes his head. “Can I heal you with Crazy Diamond anyway, then?”

Rohan blinks. “Oh. Sure.”

Josuke lets out a breath and lets his stand move forth, gently lying its hands down on Rohan’s shoulders before being enveloped in a transparent yellow glow.

The bags are cleared from Rohan’s eyes, the sweat disappearing off his skin, his cheeks filling back out again, and Kakyoin lets out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding.

Crazy Diamond backs up after a couple of seconds, dissipating, and Rohan sniffs, rolling his shoulders before he stands back up.

Jotaro clears his throat, and all turn their gazes to him. He focuses on Josuke. “So, Yuya, was it? Did you need me to send the Speedwagon Foundation to register him?”

Josuke blinks. “Oh, yeah, if you don’t mind… He’s at Budogaoka Hospital.” He smirks at that, and Kakyoin has the distinct feeling he’s missing a joke.

Jotaro nods. “And… did he say how he got his stand?”

Josuke exhales, nodding. “That’s… what I thought you should know,” he mutters, and Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “He said he got it from ‘some arrow.’”

They all freeze then.

“You don’t think…?” Kakyoin murmurs, and Josuke nods.

Jotaro’s face darkens. “The only other arrow is already in the Speedwagon Foundation’s custody. So, Kira’s father… Why would he make standusers?”

“That’s what we were wondering…” Koichi murmurs. “Do you think he’s trying to distract us? So we can’t close in on him?”

Kakyoin growls wordlessly while Rohan hums.

“I’ve seen a strange increase in new standusers, too… I dealt with one not too long ago who had a stand relating to rock, paper, scissors.”

Josuke whips his head toward him. “What?! Why didn’t you say so sooner?!”

Rohan scoffs. “Why would I have? We’re not friends.”

Josuke twitches, but Jotaro speaks before he can fire back a retort. “If Kira’s father is trying to distract us,” he says, “then that must mean Kira, wherever he is exactly, is still in Morioh.”

They all pause at that. Kakyoin sucks in a breath. “Well… that is good news, at least.”

Jotaro grunts.

It’s quiet for a beat, before Kakyoin takes a breath. “Good news aside, though, I don’t think any of us should travel alone for the time being. More standusers will likely be coming.”

His pronouncement is met with silence, but no one argues.

Jotaro hums, turning back to Josuke. “Then, is that it?”

Josuke sighs. “I guess…” Koichi lets out a small sound of agreement.

Jotaro nods. “Then… I’m gonna head to the hosp-”

“Wait!” Kakyoin is saying before he can stop himself, only to seize as everyone’s eyes snap toward him. Kakyoin jerks back slightly in his chair, skin crawling under so many eyes, but he can’t turn his gaze from Jotaro’s. He feels a bit like he’s been dragged into a riptide, whenever he stares into Jotaro’s face, he thinks distantly.

Kakyoin clears his throat, ducking his head. He turns to Koichi and Josuke. “Sorry, just-” his eyes soften. “You two did really well today.”

Josuke scoffs, visibly squirming under the praise. “You didn’t even see us, how would you know?”

Kakyoin raises a brow at him. “Well, I know you two planned this out more than, say, with Hazamada,” and Josuke flushes, gaze darting to the ground. “You both called me when you individually needed to, to make sure you wouldn’t get too in over your heads,” Kakyoin continues softly, “and you both worked together to beat the standuser. You did that part all on your own. You strategized, you coordinated, you both used your stands to the fullest.” Kakyoin looks up at Koichi then, locking eyes with him. “You should be proud of yourselves.”

Koichi blinks, lips parting. Josuke toes at the ground with his shoe, hands in his pockets, his ears red.

Kakyoin smiles at them, shaking his head lightly. Jeez, I really am proud of them…

Rohan clears his throat and Kakyoin jumps, having forgotten he was there.

“If that’s all,” he says, “I’m going to head home. I have some renovations I need to do.”

Josuke flinches at that, but before Kakyoin can ask, Rohan turns to Jotaro. “Thank you for the heads up about future standusers.” He glances at Kakyoin. “And…” His face softens. “I”ll ask Reimi about it.”

Kakyoin feels something go lax in his chest and he nods. Rohan takes his leave, then.

Josuke purses his lips. “I kinda hate that guy.”

Koichi scoffs, and Kakyoin tunes out from their conversation, looking back at Jotaro. Jotaro, as if sensing his gaze, looks up to meet it. Kakyoin swallows slowly.

“I’ll make sure they get home safe,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro nods, some of the creases on his face relaxing. It’s such a minute change, Kakyoin thinks he’s only able to see it due to the sun’s position overhead, making the small change in shadows more noticeable than normal. Kakyoin forgets he wants to say anything else for a second, content to just keep staring at Jotaro, but Jotaro turns and steps toward the road and Kakyoin says, “I-”

Jotaro halts. He glances back at Kakyoin. Kakyoin takes a breath. It’s not enough to fill his lungs. He pushes on anyway.

“We’re… still meeting tomorrow, right?”

Jotaro stares at him for a second. Kakyoin can smell saltwater. Sweat beads against his back. He really could go for a swim. Heat moves throughout his blood. Jotaro scans his face, before his shoulders gently fall lax and he turns back around.

“Yeah,” he says, “meet me in the hotel lobby at six A.M.”

Kakyoin blinks. “P-pardon?”

Jotaro raises a brow. “What?”

“Six A.M.?”

Jotaro’s brows pinch. “Yeah. It's low tide.”

“It’s-” Kakyoin shakes his head. You know what, fine. Whatever it takes to just talk to him. “Okay,” he says, and Jotaro nods, and takes his own leave.

Kakyoin sighs, turning back to the kids, only to jump to see them staring at him. “What?”

Josuke squints. “What was that about?”

“What?” Kakyoin asks. “Nothing.” I wouldn’t lie to them, he remembers, and Kakyoin swallows. “We’re just… going to talk.”

Koichi hums incredulously. “You and Mr. Jotaro? Talking? About what?”

“Nothing important,” Kakyoin’s voice comes out high. “Just- boring things. Adult things.” He can feel sweat lining his collar. He wishes he made Rohan give him back his crackers… 

Koichi and Josuke just stare at him and, flustered, Kakyoin gestures toward the road. “Look- come on, let’s- let’s get out of the sun.”

Josuke and Koichi exchange glances, and Kakyoin hates it, but thankfully, they humor him, and let it go.

“I can’t believe I still need to walk Police after this…” Koichi grumbles, and Josuke snickers.

“This is why I don’t do pets,” he says.

Koichi scoffs at him, pushing him good naturedly, which makes Josuke laugh. “Maybe I’ll call Okuyasu, see if he wants to come with and bring Pochi…” Koichi wonders.

“Wh- Hey if you do that, can I come?” Josuke asks, and Koichi raises his brows at him, which makes Josuke flush and shove him. Koichi cackles, and Kakyoin hides his own smile into his shoulder, shaking his head gently.

Yeah, he was really, really proud of them.

Chapter 40

Summary:

Kakyoin shakes away the strange tingling in his arms and clears his throat. “That’s actually really cool, Jojo.”

Jotaro halts and Kakyoin nearly slams into his back.

“Jotaro?” Kakyoin asks, whipping his head around. “What is it? Do-”

“What did you say?” Jotaro rasps, turning around to face him, and Kakyoin blinks.

“I- I said that’s-” realization makes Kakyoin’s eyes widen so fast he can feel the muscles of his pupil as they expand, and he opens and closes his mouth, his tongue suddenly dry. “I…”

Notes:

I AM ON A ROLL!!! here is chapter 40! oh my god only ten chapters left. we're in the endgame now folks. i don't know if i'll be able to keep up this crazy pace for updating tbh but i'll do my best!

i hope you enjoy this chapter everyone <3

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Kakyoin hasn’t wished his body could still handle coffee in a long time, but as he gets himself up at 5:50 A.M. the next morning, he severely misses it.

Instead he sighs, rubbing at his eyes in a bid to make his lids stop feeling so heavy, before he gets up and makes himself somewhat presentable. It’s a beach, he muses, and so early that dawn is still just breaking, so it’s not like many people will see him, just…

… Just Jotaro.

Kakyoin squints at himself in the mirror and ties his hair back into his usual ponytail. His reflection confronts him with his steep eyebags, making all the angles on his face sharp and jagged. Kakyoin pulls out the tie, redoes it as a half bun, and fans the hair that remains down out against his shoulders. He locks gazes with his reflection. He looks a bit like fire. Good enough.

Kakyoin flicks off his bathroom light and heads out the door.

Jotaro is already waiting in the lobby when he hikes out, his crutches clicking quietly, looking down at that notebook again. Kakyoin wonders what’s inside it. He hadn’t considered Jotaro the type to journal, but, well…

Did I ever even know him? his thoughts echo from his talk with Joseph after he learned about timestop, and Kakyoin swallows.

Right. Time to further that discussion here.

Fuck, Kakyoin wishes he could still have coffee, or maybe even a shot of liquid courage.

Instead, he just moves forward, clearing his throat and nodding at Jotaro in greeting when he looks up from his notebook, avoiding his blue eyes. He’s going to see a lot of ocean today; he doesn’t need to get a fix just yet.

Jotaro nods back, sliding his notebook into his pocket, and Kakyoin can’t help it, his curiosity getting the better of him.

“What’s that about, anyway?”

Jotaro blinks. “What’s… what?”

Kakyoin gestures at his pocket. “That notebook. I’ve seen you with it a couple of times now.”

“Oh,” Jotaro shrugs, pulling it back out. “Thesis notes.”

Oh, Kakyoin thinks. Right. He’s reminded of the SPW agent that drove him back to the hotel after the first time he met Rohan, mentioning handing off notes from Jotaro’s adviser. He remembers the diagrams scattered all throughout Jotaro’s room, research paper after research paper making the couch unusable, until Jotaro knocked them all off for him.

Kakyoin swallows. “It’s… your PhD, right? And you’re doing it on starfish?”

Jotaro nods, and gestures toward the doors of the front entrance. They begin to walk, leaving behind the hotel and entering the blue of dawn, the air cool, crickets still chirping this early.

“Yeah,” Jotaro confirms verbally. “I knew I was going to focus on starfish, but I was studying a species in America originally. But since coming here…” Jotaro shrugs. “If I wanted to graduate on time, I couldn’t just not work. And…” He smiles then, a small, private thing, and Kakyoin nearly trips over his own crutches. “The starfish here have really interesting tube feet. They can move a lot faster than typical.”

Kakyoin shakes away the strange tingling in his arms and clears his throat. “That’s actually really cool, Jojo.”

Jotaro halts and Kakyoin nearly slams into his back.

“Jotaro?” Kakyoin asks, whipping his head around. “What is it? Do-”

“What did you say?” Jotaro rasps, turning around to face him, and Kakyoin blinks.

“I- I said that’s-” realization makes Kakyoin’s eyes widen so fast he can feel the muscles of his pupil as they expand, and he opens and closes his mouth, his tongue suddenly dry. “I…”

Jotaro’s staring at him, and Kakyoin can’t make out his expression between the dawn and the way his eyes look like they could just spill out of his head. They catch the small rays of sun that are breaking over the horizon, and Kakyoin wonders why he would ever want to watch a sunrise on a beach if he could just look into Jotaro’s eyes, and he shakes his head roughly.

“I… I’m sorry,” Kakyoin says, voice a little crackly, and he swallows. “I- I didn’t mean to overstep-”

“Kakyoin-” Jotaro says, voice cracking, before he cuts himself off. If Kakyoin were stupider, or more optimistic, it would sound a bit like a plea. Jotaro closes his eyes, and Kakyoin’s head swims, like even if his irises are gone from his view now, the color has still flooded out and drowned his brain. His temples throb.

Abruptly, Kakyoin yawns, loudly, his jaw cracking, and he blinks at himself while Jotaro snaps his eyes open.

Heat prickling along the back of his neck, Kakyoin clears his throat. “Sorry, just… Just tired. I’m just really tired.”

Jotaro lets out a soft noise. “Did you want to get a coffee before we head to the beach?”

Kakyoin sighs, reaching up to rub at his eyes again. “No,” he sighs. “I can’t have coffee. It really fucks up my intestines.”

Jotaro lets out another noise and Kakyoin drops his head to look at him. He looks a little ill. Kakyoin frowns. “You don’t have to look so sad for me, you know,” he says, voice a little edged, and Jotaro ducks his head. “If you want coffee, I don’t mind sidetracking to get some, I just-”

“I- I can’t have coffee either,” Jotaro says, and Kakyoin halts. Jotaro, as if belatedly realizing the words he’s said, blinks before tugging his hat down, letting out a long sigh.

Kakyoin stares at his chest, suddenly reminded of the pacemaker. “... I guess caffeine would be bad for your heart, huh?”

Jotaro grunts. “Yeah...” He clears his throat then, raising his brim again, and Kakyoin lets out a breath. “Come on, we’re gonna miss the tide.”

Kakyoin gestures, and Jotaro leads the way.

The hotel is not far from the beach, which Kakyoin supposes doesn’t surprise him. He grimaces a little as the sturdy, paved path transitions to soft, crunchy sand, but he says nothing, just tightens his grip. As they get closer to the shore itself, Jotaro picks up his pace, eyes locked on where waves are cresting and smoothing out against the land, and Kakyoin almost trips in his attempt to keep up while also soaking in the details of his expression. He’s not smiling this time, but he’s clearly excited, something boyish lighting up his features, his brows falling slack, the creases on his face relaxed. Kakyoin’s chest feels tight.

They make it to the waterline, and Kakyoin halts near the edge of where the dry sand meets wet, while Jotaro pads out a little further, just enough for the water to creep past the soles of his boots as the waves smush themselves against the shore.

The line of Jotaro’s shoulders droop then, the breeze blowing in off the coast tussling his hair, and he adjusts his grip on his backpack, his free hand slipping into his pocket. Kakyoin wonders what he’s seeing, smelling, thinking.

The scent of salty seaweed is thick, the summer having brought in a bloom, and it’s almost overpowering, Kakyon’s nose burning, but he doesn’t move to rub it. He can hear gulls cawing to one another and if he focuses, he can catch the soft clicks of crabs and other such shelled creatures making their way around the shore for breakfast or shelter.

Jotaro fits into the scenery perfectly, a realization that makes Kakyoin pause. His coat, white and encompassing like the wingspan of a gull, blows gently. His hair is sleek in the early morning sun as it finally breaks the horizon, yellow and pink hues beginning to wash away the blue. Jotaro looks warm in the new lighting.

Kakyoin swallows.

He’s not sure how long Jotaro stares at the sea, but it can’t have been long, because his legs don’t hurt from standing still when Jotaro finally turns, nodding at Kakyoin as he begins moving along the shoreline. Kakyoin shakes his head and moves to follow him, stabbing at the coarse sand with chk s of his crutches as he hikes forward.

“So,” Jotaro says when Kakyoin catches up, both of them walking side by side. He has his gaze locked on an outcrop of rock not too far away, and Kakyoin remembers tidepools. No wonder he wanted to go out at low tide.

Kakyoin clears his throat to respond. “So.”

Jotaro tightens and relaxes his grip on his backpack gently, over and over. “You… ready? To talk?”

Kakyoin glances over at him. Jotaro’s teeth are clenched — lightly, but the flex of his jaw gives him away anyway. He has some stubble on his face this early in the morning, clearly having forgotten to shave or not being bothered to do it yet. The one curl that can never stay tucked back bounces along with his steps, and Kakyoin jolts as he remembers being mesmerized by that same strand of hair when he was 17, too.

Kakyoin swallows, looking back down to the sand to avoid tripping again. “As I’ll ever be. You?”

Jotaro grunts. “As I’ll ever be,” he repeats. “It’s…  why I asked we do this here. So I can be. Ready, I mean.”

The stilted sentence structure is so- so Jotaro, the words once smelling of nicotine and feeling like powerful arms and warm hands, now smelling salty and feeling like cautious fingers and a pacemaker beating away at Kakyon’s fingertips. Kakyoin laughs a little, shoulders hunching.

“What,” Jotaro snaps, tugging his hat down with his free hand, and Kakyoin can’t stop smiling.

“You did that when you were 17, too,” Kakyoin teases, and Jotaro sucks in a breath, the hiccup of it in his lungs audible. 

Kakyoin waits, and eventually, Jotaro just mutters, “Good grief…” He chuckles again before he takes a deep breath.

“Okay,” Kakyoin says, voice quiet, and Jotaro seems to understand, his chin raising and hand dropping from his hat. He glances at Kakyoin, and it feels no different from the waves licking at his heels, the tide trying to reach him even as it recedes. Maybe he wants it to reach.

Polnareff, time stop, stands, Egypt, you…

Right.

Kakyoin clears his throat. “Can you tell me anything about the Stand Arrow hunt?”

Jotaro halts in his steps, and Kakyoin stops with him, but he doesn’t say anything. After a few beats, Jotaro lets out a small, barely audible exhale, and begins walking again. Kakyoin, again, follows. “Like what?” Jotaro asks lowly.

Kakyoin swallows, thinking back to the file he read months ago at this point. “It was such a big undertaking. Why was it just you, Avdol, and… Polnareff?”

Jotaro sucks in a breath, but he doesn’t stumble this time. “It’s not like the SPW could do more than fund it. Only a standuser could go after-”

“I know,” Kakyoin says simply, “but why not Joseph? Or any of the other standusers Avdol inevitably ran into once he became head of the stand division?”

Jotaro is quiet for a second. Kakyoin can feel his heartbeat in his fingertips as they clench around the grip of his crutches. “Because it was… it is delicate. We can’t risk bringing on someone who would mess it up.”

“So, not me?” Kakyoin asks.

Jotaro pauses again, face screwing up. “Ka-”

Kakyoin shakes his head. “It’s… Look, that’s not actually what I want this to be about, even if I’m still… upset by that decision. I just want to know your thought process behind this.”

Jotaro shuts his mouth. Kakyoin gives him time, keeping his gaze resolutely on the sand in front of him. Maybe they’d see a sand dollar…

“... I didn’t want anyone else working on it, to be honest,” Jotaro utters, and Kakyoin looks up. He’s also staring at the ground, eyes like boiling water, unable to be hidden by his hat even with his head at an angle. “Not even Avdol and… Polnareff,” his voice cracks, just a bit. “If I had it my way, no one would have even known about it. But the SPW flapped their gums to Jiji and everyone once I told them about the- the diary, and so…”

Kakyoin shifts his jaw. It’s quiet, just the gulls and the waves, and it reminds Kakyoin of when he first came to Morioh. He has the phantom sensation of clipping Jotaro’s shoulder with his own, and his arm twitches.

“So you wanted to do it alone?” Kakyoin asks.

Jotaro looks up, meeting his gaze, and Kakyoin’s eyes sting like he’s opened them in saltwater, but he stays staring, and so does Jotaro.

“Yes,” Jotaro says softly.

“Even though you can’t afford it being messed up?”

Jotaro’s face darkens, a storm on a coast. “It’s precisely because I can’t afford it being messed up.”

Kakyoin blinks, something suddenly slotting into place, the back of his head clicking. Something in his chest twists, not entirely comfortable, as he responds. “You- so, what, only you can search for the Stand Arrows correctly? Even if that were true, why would Polnareff and Avdol helping make it worse?”

“Because that’s how it was the entire journey,” Jotaro spits emphatically, his voice rattling, and he makes a sharp intake of breath after he says it, as if he’d run out of air and needed more now lest he pass out. “Strength, Justice, Osiris, Anubis, The-” Jotaro’s breath hitches “-The World… Everyone got hurt trying to defeat them except me. We- we wouldn’t have made it if I hadn’t- hadn’t been there.”

Kakyoin is quiet for a beat. “Do you really believe that?” He asks quietly.

Jotaro lets out a noise that Kakyoin can’t decipher. “Do you not?”

“No,” Kakyoin says simply, and Jotaro whips his head up to stare at him. “Because I could just as easily say the same thing. Gray Fly, The Sun, The Lovers-” Jotaro’s breath hitches and Kakyoin politely ignores it “-Death 13-” Jotaro’s brows pinch “-and yes, even The World, but I admit not in the same way . Would you have made it out as unscathed if I hadn’t been there?”

Jotaro blinks, lips parting. Kakyoin collects his thoughts, thinking back to the called-in updates he got from Joseph and Avdol, to the sand and cars and hotels they saw on the journey.

“I would have-”

“Avdol with Polnareff himself and Cream, Mr. Joestar with the Empress and Bastet, Polnareff with Judgement and The Hanged Man, Iggy with Horus… We all had fights we were integral in winning,” Kakyoin counters softly.

Jotaro is quiet for a long time then, lips opening but no words coming out, before he ducks his head, and Kakyoin feels like a piece of driftwood washed on the shore, no longer rocked by the waves. “Not as much as me,” he says hoarsely.

Kakyoin winces, taking a deep breath. “I… I’m sorry for that, Jotaro.”

Jotaro freezes before he looks up, eyes wide. “... What?”

Kakyoin swallows. “It was… You know it was all of our responsibility, right? It shouldn’t have been just you. It was never just you. It doesn’t have to keep being just you.”

Jotaro’s breathing is audible, his breaths coming out in soft puffs. “But it was- it was my-”

“It was our journey,” Kakyoin murmurs. “It was ours. You don’t get to take it from me, or the others.” Kakyoin ducks his head. “You don’t get to take it from Polnareff.”

Jotaro’s voice fails, the breath in his lungs coming out as a wisp. “But,” he finally croaks, “But you- you said I keep getting good men killed.”

Kakyoin takes a deep breath, shuddering. “I know I said…” Kakyoin chuckles self-deprecatingly, reaching a hand up to rub at the bridge of his nose. “Fuck, I know I said that. But I was-” his voice cracks, but he pushes on, furiously ignoring it even as it makes Jotaro’s head snap back up “-I was wrong. Jotaro, I was wrong. I’m wrong about so many things when it comes to you.”

“No,” Jotaro denies, as if in reflex, but he doesn’t say anything more. Kakyoin shakes his head, taking a moment to compose himself, his lungs rattling with the wet, shaky breath he takes.

“But speaking of that, I bring this all up to clarify something that’s been bothering me for a while,” Kakyoin says quietly. “When you found out Polnareff-” Kakyoin’s voice cracks again, and he’s not able to just barrel past it this time, needing a few deep breaths “-Polnareff… died, you- you t-told me you keep getting good men killed. But that’s- that’s not what happened.”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro’s voice is gravelly, damp like the sand, and, if Kakyoin were crazy, just a bit pleading.

Kakyoin continues. “There’s so much to be angry with you about – you should have let people help like on the journey, you should have let me help-” Kakyoin takes a shuddering breath, fury fizzling and burning out painfully in his chest, his arms arching, before he continues. “But- but there’s not much to blame you for. Not about this. Polnareff-” Kakyoin feels a burning at the backs of his eyes, the salt in the air stinging him “-Polnareff died on his terms, not yours.” Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “... And so did Josuke’s grandfather. I was wrong. I was just so angry and I-” Kakyoin halts. He isn’t sure how to go on.

Jotaro is quiet, simply staring, and it makes Kakyoin itch, like salt is digging into his tender skin, but he doesn’t move.

“I don’t understand you,” Jotaro eventually says quietly, and Kakyoin has to bite back a mildly hysterical laugh. Glad the feeling’s reciprocal.

Instead, Kakyoin shakes his head. “I just- it’s- I needed. To clarify. And-” Kakyoin sucks in a deep breath, swallowing his pride “-apologize.”

Jotaro doesn’t respond to that. 

“I’m sorry, Jotaro,” Kakyoin says hoarsely. 

Jotaro stays quiet.

They stare at one another, the breeze still ever present. Kakyoin faintly wonders if it’s ever not windy at sea, as the scents blow past him, his cardigan drifting at his waist, his hair tickling his neck. Jotaro’s curl bounces with the gust. Kakyoin’s fingers twitch.

Finally, Jotaro looks down. “Is… that all?”

Kakyoin swallows, a weight lifting from his chest as he can finally cross one item off his list. Now it’s just… timestop, stands, Egypt, you, you, you, you- “No. But… Let’s… take a break.”

Jotaro doesn’t verbally respond, but after a beat, he adjusts the bag on his shoulder and turns, and begins the walk to the rock outcrop once more. Kakyoin follows him.

They make it there without much fanfare. Jotaro sets his bag down, riffling through it for a pen, while Kakyoin pokes at the damp rocks with a crutch, lips pressed together. How slippery are these things…?

“Hierophant,” he murmurs, and Hierophant Green appears, bracing around his crutches to serve as a stabilizer, before he makes his way up onto the rocks. Jotaro glances up at him, gaze locking on where Hierophant’s wrapped around his aides, but before Kakyoin can bristle, Jotaro’s already speaking.

“If we’re… bringing up things that have been on our minds…” he begins, and Kakyoin squints at the phrasing, but doesn’t interrupt, “I…” Jotaro takes a deep breath. “You… you mentioned medical probabilities and… dying…”

Kakyoin sucks in a breath through his teeth, nodding. “Ah, I- Mm.” He’s reminded of Rohan’s question the other day, roughly the same, and he sighs, rubbing a hand over his face, knowing he can’t answer the same way here that he did then. Hierophant gingerly helps lower him down to sit on the rocks, his crutches next to him, as he looks into a tide pool across from Jotaro.

He can see Jotaro staring at him in the reflection of the water and he closes his eyes.

“I’m not- I’m not actively dying, or anything,” Kakyoin clarifies, and Jotaro’s posture loosens enough that Kakyoin can see it in the ripples of the tide pool. “I shouldn’t have said that. I’m… fine, all things considered.” He chuckles darkly.

Jotaro hesitates. “... All things considered?”

Kakyoin sighs. “Look, it’s not pretty. And it’s not easy. Hence the probability I will die before I’m like, 70 like everyone else.” Jotaro sucks in a breath, but Kakyoin keeps going. “But I have medication and brains-” Or, at least now I do, even if I didn’t in my early 20s… “-and all the medical technology of the Speedwagon Foundation. It’s just…”

Jotaro waits for a beat. “It’s just…” he prompts when Kakyoin doesn’t elaborate.

Kakyoin sighs. “Look I- look. Do you want my whole medical history-?”

“Yes,” Jotaro says simply, and Kakyoin halts, snapping his gaze toward him. As if realizing what he’s said, Jotaro shrinks back from his eyes, before he stands up, pulling his notebook out of his pocket with the pen he dug out of his bag in hand, then shrugging his white coat off, rolling up the sleeves of his remaining turtleneck.

The moisture in Kakyoin’s mouth dries as he watches the cords in Jotaro’s arms flexing underneath his tan skin as he gently dips his boots into the tidepool, crouching down so he can look directly into the water. His dark curl gently sways over the bridge of his brows, and Kakyoin swallows thickly, fingers digging into his cardigan.

“I’m. Um.” Kakyoin’s brain feels foggy. Is he really that tired?

Jotaro glances up at him from his notebook and Kakyoin feels like he’s full of static. “Just, um… whatever you’re comfortable telling me,” Jotaro clarifies in a mumble, and Kakyoin swallows.

“I, uh, don’t have a stomach anymore,” he says dumbly, and Jotaro fully raises his head, eyes widening. Heat riding along his collar fiercely, Kakyoin drops his gaze, but his mouth is unable to stop. “Or a pancreas, I have to take insulin. Uh, but the intestines do most of the digesting anyway so it’s okay, about the stomach. I just can’t eat things with a lot of dairy or carbohydrates. I had a liver transplant though. So I get to take immunosuppressants for that. Um.” Kakyoin ducks his head. “Then there’s my legs, which you know.” Kakyoin chuckles dryly. “I have a limp, remember?”

Jotaro winces and Kakyoin flails. “I just- it’s just. It’s fine. Is what I’m trying to say. Obviously that all… sucks… but it’s manageable. Nothing is killing me. And… And I’m alive.”

Kakyoin stares down at his legs. He thinks of Reimi. He thinks of himself at 17, at 18, at 19. He thinks of the man in front of him, going out of his way to save his life ten years ago, multiple times. “And I’m. Glad. That I’m alive.” I wish- I wish I had just died. Back in E-Egypt. Kakyoin shudders at the memory, only to stop short as he realizes this the first time he’s ever said such a thing to the contrary of what he told Polnareff back then.

Kakyoin frowns before looking up, only for the breath to hiccup in his chest. Jotaro’s staring at him, that damned curl still framing his face, those damned eyes still no different from the ocean all around them. Kakyoin hysterically thinks they might be bluer than the sea itself is.

He again wonders when the last time he went swimming was.

Faintly, he remembers something his physical therapist told him a long time ago.

Kakyoin stands suddenly then, Hierophant assisting him and pulling his crutches up with him, and Jotaro blinks in surprise, rearing back.

“And speaking of managing it…” Kakyoin mutters as he slips his cardigan off and then moves to his pants, unbuckling his belt, which makes Jotaro outright leap out of the water, the roar of the splash the harshest sound Kakyoin’s heard all morning.

“Kakyoin?!” Jotaro calls, alarmed, and Kakyoin laughs as he shucks his pants and shoes off before grabbing onto his crutches and vaulting off the rocks in only his shirt and boxers, landing softly down into the sand with Hierophant’s help. He can hear the scramble against the rocks as Jotaro, in his wet boots, follows him, but he pays it no mind.

The sand is cool if a little rough against the soles of his feet, the grit between his toes grounding and scratching at an itch Kakyoin didn’t realize he had. He rubs his hands together as he approaches the waterline, breathing into them to warm up his fingers, before he hands his crutches and glasses to Hierophant and dives in.

It smells like salt and

Aftershave and deodorant and

Kakyoin shakes his head, sucks in a breath, and chuckles as he paddles out just enough so that the water comes up to his waist, before he relaxes onto his back, floating in the ocean’s hold. It’s only about three meters from the shore, the bank is so steep, but Kakyoin doesn’t mind.

Jotaro saddles up at the waterline then, brows creased, eyes wide underneath his hat, and Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle even as saltwater soaks into his shirt and he shivers due to the temperature.

Jotaro’s gaze darts across him then, Kakyoin able to see the bob of his throat as he swallows, before he turns to his face, brows furrowed. “Is- isn’t it cold?” Jotaro asks incredulously.

Kakyoin shrugs, finding the water lapping against his body comforting despite the chill. “Everything is cold to me.”

Jotaro’s face twitches then, his jaw clamping shut so tightly he can see a tending jumping out, and Kakyoin blinks before hastily adding, “It’s- I don’t mind, I can’t really feel anything like temperature anyway after all the skin grafts I’ve had.”

Jotaro’s face falls more and Kakyoin panics, the ice he was supposed to feel on his skin diving instead to his muscles, around his heart like a poison.

“It’s- the- my physical therapist once said that some of the best exercise I can get is by swimming,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro whips his head toward him. Kakyoin swallows. “It doesn’t… strain my back the way exercise on land would. So I figured… while you’re researching… I could just stay here.”

Jotaro blinks. “While I’m…” He looks back over his shoulder to the rock outcrop, biting his lip, and Kakyoin does a very good job of not watching the line of his chest even as the sun continues to rise and make the silhouette of Jotaro so sharp and apparent.

Jotaro shakes his head before he rolls up his turtleneck over his head, making Kakyoin choke, jerking upward. Now in only an underlying tank top, Jotaro undoes his belts swiftly, kicks his boots and pants off, and dives into the water after Kakyoin.

Kakyoin blinks rapidly, even as Jotaro surfaces a few feet from him, his brain stuttering in its attempts to understand the situation. “Eh- Jotaro?”

Jotaro shakes his hair out of his face and Kakyoin’s heart squeezes as the morning sun bounces off the black strands brilliantly even as he jerks back from the spray of saltwater. 

“What are you doing?” Kakyoin asks, and Jotaro shrugs.

“I do research on my thesis every morning,” he explains, “I can spare one to go for a swim with a fr…” he trails off, gaze snapping to Kakyoin’s frantically.

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth, his heart pounding low in his stomach. Despite his body’s limits, despite the cool water, despite him only wearing a t-shirt and boxers, Kakyoin feels warm.

“Are we-” Kakyoin sucks in a breath, the water rippling in response to the heaves of his chest. “Are we… friends?”

Jotaro’s lips part but he doesn’t say anything. He ducks his head down to the water, but Kakyoin can’t help himself, surging forward, gently grabbing Jotaro’s shoulders, making him jerk his head back up to stare at Kakyoin. He freezes in his hold, but he doesn’t shrug him off. Kakyoin can feel his heartbeat in his tongue. He smells salt and deodorant and aftershave and Jotaro’s shoulders are so warm where he’s holding him, his tan skin slick and shiny with the water. Jotaro dazedly, as if he doesn’t realize he’s doing it, brings his hands up to rest against Kakyoin’s. His fingertips brush against the pulsepoint in Kakyoin’s wrists, and Kakyoin jerks, his skin buzzing.

The movement startles Jotaro and he jolts in turn, moving to let go, but Kakyoin tightens his grip and blurts out, “Jo- Jotaro.”

Jotaro goes still. His hands are warm. Kakyoin can’t hear the gulls, or the waves, can barely feel the cold. He feels a bit like he’s in a dream, the ocean gently rocking them back and forth from where they stand on the bottom.

Jotaro’s breath hitches as he opens his mouth. “I don’t know,” he answers hoarsely, and Kakyoin’s very bones bend and creak. His heart, although its rate is normal, is beating so hard Kakyoin can feel every flush of blood sent outward through his arteries like lightning bolts, hot and electric.

“Why’d you join me, then?” Why did you save me? Why do you keep trying to push me away? Why are you so scared?

“I don’t know,” Jotaro croaks again, and Kakyoin swallows, letting out a desperate, frustrated noise. This used to be so easy-

“Jo- Jotaro,” Kakyoin says, his lungs have difficulty pushing the words out, and Jotaro shudders underneath his hands, and it’s addicting. “Can we- can we be friends?”

It’s so juvenile, and pathetic, and embarrassing, and weak, and vulnerable, and everything Kakyoin hates and-

Jotaro lets out a sound that could have been a whimper from someone else. “O-okay,” he says, and Kakyoin swallows against a lump in his throat.

“Okay,” he says softly, nearly a whimper in his own right, and Jotaro nods. They stare at each other a little longer, and there’s so many things Kakyoin needs to say, still so many things he needs to bring up – timestop, stands, Egypt, you – but all he does is gently tug on Jotaro’s shoulders, and he finds with a jolt of delight that Jotaro lets him guide him onto his back, floating in the water. Kakyoin joins him, laying back himself, but he can’t stop staring at Jotaro.

The sun is fully over the horizon now, the sky pink and warm, and it lights up Jotaro’s tan skin beautifully. All traces of blue are gone except for the blue in Jotaro’s eyes, which are still trained on him.

He can’t stop staring at him, either, it seems.

“Okay,” Kakyoin repeats. Jotaro hesitates, before he reaches an arm out, the water gently parting around its path, and takes Kakyoin’s hand into his, squeezing it once before letting go. Kakyoin’s heart jumps to his throat, making it impossible to breathe, strangling his windpipe from the inside out.

They float there for an amount of time Kakyoin can’t determine, the waves rocking him almost to the brink of sleep, certainly to a state of half consciousness. Time moves like warm water against his skin, brushing over him, caressing him even, and Kakyoin’s never felt more drowsy in his life.

At some point, there’s a small splash, and Kakyoin opens his eyes – when did he close them? – to see Jotaro has moved a little closer. Kakyoin stares at him, blinking slowly, and something in Jotaro’s face tightens.

“You really aren’t scared of me, are you?” he asks, voice so quiet Kakyoin isn’t sure if he even heard it or if he thought it up.

“Why would I be scared of you?” Kakyoin mumbles, and Jotaro goes quiet.

They stare at each other, gently bobbing up and down in accordance with the waves, before eventually, Jotaro rises and stands. He slicks his hair back before turning to Kakyoin, clearing his throat. “We should… we should get back. With it being summer, the beach is going to get more populated soon.”

Kakyoin hums his understanding, pulling himself to his feet, wobbling only a little as his brain fizzes out over the sudden ceasing of the ocean’s rocking.

They swim back to shore, Hierophant Green manifesting to get Kakyoin his crutches the second the water stops supporting his weight. As an afterthought, some go and gather Jotaro’s things from the rock outcrop.

“I have towels in my bag,” Jotaro says, and Kakyoin lets out a breath, nodding his head.

“Thanks,” he says, and Jotaro ducks his head, a hand coming up to tug down a hat that isn’t there, which makes Kakyoin laugh, much to Jotaro’s visible chagrin, crossing his arms in a move that almost looks like a pout.

“Come on,” he grumbles, and it’s the easiest it’s been in ten years for Kakyoin to take a step when he moves to follow him.

Chapter 41

Summary:

The toy lets out another squeak as the woman begins reaching for it, and Kakyoin jumps. “Is this thing motion activated or something?” He blurts out.

The woman blinks. “Huh? Oh, yeah! Sure.” Kakyoin raises his brows and she shakes her head. “It’s, uh, an old toy. The squeaker is weird because of that.”

“Hm,” Kakyoin says, looking back down. The eyes, still so much like Jotaro's, seem like they’re looking right at him, his heart beating just a little faster over the uncanniness, and he shivers, only half in part because of the wind blowing in from off the coast.

“So…” The woman says, “Can I have him back?”

Notes:

OKAY! here we go <3 AGAIN IN ONLY A WEEK! i've been killing it. however.... i don't think i can continue this pace after this chapter 😔 but it should def still be frequent updating from here until the end... maybe like once every two weeks now? we'll see what I can handle as my school term goes on...

in the mean time i hope you guys enjoy this chapter! major major shoutout to my friend Jade for a) coming up with the idea of august and b) allowing me to use her in this story. she's never even seen jojo but she's heard me yap about it so much that she could come up with a standuser oc and kindly let me borrow her for this story <3 WE LOVE AUGUST IN THIS HOUSE i hope u all enjoy!!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

After drying off, Jotaro gives into the siren call of his study, and Kakyoin watches as he looks into the tidepools in the few minutes before the tide returns to chase them out. Kakyoin’s cardigan is wrapped around his shoulders, helping him to warm back up, while Jotaro continues noting which pools have the species he’s looking at, and which don’t.

True to Jotaro’s word, now that the sun was fully visible, people were beginning to stream onto the beach. Kakyoin glances at some of the early families setting up towels and coolers, kids running toward the water. The sun continues to beat down, the humidity beginning to rise, and Kakyoin blinks his eyes sleepily. There are clouds on the horizon — it’ll probably rain tonight, Kakyoin thinks.

The snap of Jotaro’s notebook being closed shut startles him from the edge of sleep, and he looks up to see Jotaro looking wistfully at the ocean as he steps out of the last tidepool, joining Kakyoin where he’s retreated up further along the sand.

“You alright?” Kakyoin asks, and Jotaro sighs, nodding.

“Just reminds me of Jolyne a little…” he mutters.

Kakyoin hesitates, before he asks, “Does she like the ocean too?”

Jotaro smirks a bit as he adjusts how his hat sits on his head, and Kakyoin’s chest tightens. “She likes the beach, yeah. She thinks I look at the most boring parts of it, though.”

Kakyoin can’t cover a snort, and when Jotaro lets out a small huff himself, he takes it as permission and laughs out loud, snickering. “Doesn’t hide her opinion, huh?”

“No,” Jotaro agrees, tone perked up in amusement, voice soft with fondness, and Kakyoin feels warm. “She likes checking in on Enrica’s work more. She thinks lizards are funny.”

Kakyoin hesitates then, before chancing, “Enrica… if she’s looking at lizards, is she a herpetologist?”

Jotaro nods, sighing. “Yeah. We were both biology majors in our undergrad, and only specialized our subjects in our graduate studies.” Jotaro’s face gets wistful again then, and Kakyoin tears his gaze away, entirely far too aware of how that grief is not his to share in. After a beat, Jotaro sighs again. “Fuck, it’s been months.”

Kakyoin winces, turning his gaze back to Jotaro. “... It won’t be much longer,” he says softly, and Jotaro huffs humorlessly.

“I don’t know…”

“Well I do,” Kakyoin bites, and Jotaro turns to look at him then, locking their eyes. Kakyoin ignores the brine of saltwater that washes over the back of his tongue and says, “With Aya knowing what his face looks like, even if not his name, and his father inadvertently letting us know he’s still in Morioh, we’ll find him soon.”

Jotaro stares at him intently, brows pinched, but Kakyoin holds steady, staring right back, tightening his grip on his crutches. The din of people talking grows louder as more beachgoers arrive for the day, but Kakyoin stays focused.

Finally, Jotaro drops their gaze, clearing his throat. “I’m gonna go get my bag,” he says softly, “Then after… Do you…” He halts.

Kakyoin waits, but Jotaro doesn’t elaborate. “Do I…?”

Jotaro’s face pinches before he tugs the brim of his hat down. “Nevermind.”

Kakyoin’s brows pinch. “Huh-?”

“Just- Give me a second. I’ll be right back,” Jotaro says and he turns on his heel and heads back to the rocks before Kakyoin can say another word.

Kakyoin scowls after him, stabbing his crutches into the sand. Damn, he hates waiting.

He lets out a puff of air, blowing a strand of hair away from his face, before he looks back at the beach. More and more families are arriving, kids playing in the shallows, adults sunbathing on the sand, various people swimming, reading, or building sand castles, and it’s starting to get loud, a constant din of noise. Kakyoin picks at his damp shirt underneath his cardigan. He’s easily the most overdressed person here – even Jotaro never put his white overcoat back on, instead stuffing it into his backpack with the towels.

Kakyoin sighs, leans on his crutches, and rests his eyes, bringing his hands up to press lightly against his eyelids. At least if I have to wait, I can try and get my eyes to stop burning.  

Then after… Do you…

Kakyoin avoids the urge to growl. Do I what? Jotaro hates beating around the bush, right? I can’t believe he’d run away-

Kakyoin’s eyes snap open, his fingers slipping down to his cheeks.

Run… away…

Kakyoin thinks of waking up alone, of not getting to talk to Jotaro until he thought he was speaking to someone else first, not seeing him until a decade had passed, and still not interacting with him even then until now.

He thinks of Jotaro running onto the boat when facing Akira, running after speaking about Polnareff’s death, running after he revealed time stop, running.

He’s been running for a long time, he realizes. But from what?

I knew you’d be so scared- WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?! Jotaro had said.

There are things more important to me than avoiding what I’m scared of, Kakyoin had replied. Maybe you could stand to learn that.

No. No. Not when what I’m scared of is another innocent man on my conscience!

Another-

If it did mean you looked down on me, why would you have taken me down from the water tower?

Oh, Kakyoin thinks, lips parting. I was right. It wasn’t about looking down on me. It wasn’t about me. Jotaro running away wasn’t about him-

You really aren’t scared of me, are you? Jotaro keeps asking him. When he revealed timestop, when Kakyoin confronted him at the hotel, when they were in the water just a few hours ago now… It’s as if he can’t imagine a different reaction. As if he doesn’t have a different opinion of his ability.

As if he’s scared of himself.

“Oh,” Kakyoin breathes, hands dropping from his face.

I’ve been such an asshole.

Kakyoin grabs his crutches and hikes toward the rocks, his skin buzzing.

“Jotaro!” He calls, voice straining to rise above the buzz of the continuously populated beach. “Jotaro! We need to talk!”

Kakyoin can’t stop replaying Jotaro’s words — What I’m scared of — in his mind, his heart pounding in tune to them, his guts – what remains of them – writhing and vibrating to the sound. His fingers are tingling, his blood moving swiftly throughout his body.

“Jotaro?” Kakyoin calls as he arrives at the rocks, gently sidestepping two kids that are clambering to crowd around one of the remaining tidepools. He vaults himself up onto the outcrop, squinting. There’s a couple giggling on a nearby boulder, shyly holding hands then dropping them in embarrassment, only to move to hold them again. Beyond that, there is a group of friends jumping off some of the higher rocks into the water with a splash that can barely be heard over the growing cacophony of voices, waves, and gulls. Jotaro is nowhere to be seen.

“Jotaro…?” Kakyoin mumbles, brows pinching. Where is he?

Kakyoin moves further along the outcrop, peering into every remaining tidepool he comes across. Maybe Jotaro found something interesting about his starfish…?

What if he ran away again? a part of him asks, and Kakyoin halts, needing to stab his crutch particularly hard against the rock beneath him to avoid slipping. The rising ocean is making all of the stone wet. Kakyoin swallows, his stomach being pulled back in the direction of the hotel. I can’t let him just squirm away-

There, on a small patch of boulder that is quickly being consumed by water with the growing tide, is Jotaro’s backpack – but no Jotaro.

Kakyoin’s brows pinch tightly. “What…?”

If he was running away, why did he leave his backpack?

Kakyoin frowns tightly, moving to the bag, his guts beginning to spin uneasily inside of him. What’s…going on…?

Hierophant helpfully assists Kakyoin in vaulting over to the rock, keeping him steady as he moves to grab his bag-

Only for a sunfish plush toy to flop onto its side sadly, evidently having been relying on the backpack to stay upright.

Kakyoin’s brows pinch, gaze darting around to the kids playing on the rocks. It could belong to any one of them… But why would a kid bring a stuffed toy so close to the water?

“Is this thing waterproof?” Kakyoin murmurs as he shoulders Jotaro’s backpack and leans down to pick up the sunfish.

He jumps when it lets out a small squeak as he lifts it up, blinking down at it. He squeezes the sunfish, and it lets out another small squeak, more wheezy than the last one. Kakyoin’s brows furrow. “Is this a chew toy…?”

He looks up and around to see if he can spot any pets milling about, only to jump when the toy lets out another squeak, higher this time. Kakyoin whips his head back down, brows pinching. Did I squeeze it again by accident? How sensitive is this squeaker? “What the hell-?”

It squeaks again, louder, and Kakyoin turns it around to check its other side. Is it a button? Still, nothing is on the other side.

The hair prickling on Kakyoin’s neck, he studies the toy further. Its fabric is fuzzy, colored mostly white with spots of darker pigment around the top of its head. It’s soft to the touch — certainly isn’t waterproof, Kakyoin thinks. It has blue eyes, big and bright, and Kakyoin shudders and looks away. They look like human eyes…

He shakes it a little then, and it lets out another squeak. “Huh,” Kakyoin says, tilting his head. It must be motion activated, I guess…?

There’s a small spice in the air then, and Kakyoin’s stomach is swooping before he consciously recognizes it as Jotaro’s aftershave.

Kakyoin whips his head around, lips parting, but Jotaro has not magically shown up while he’s investigated this toy.

Eyes narrowing, Kakyoin takes another breath, and his pulse quickens when it’s not just Jotaro’s aftershave, but his deodorant too, the salt of the sea tangible enough for him to taste it on his tongue. Kakyoin jerks his head to the side to sniff at the strap of Jotaro’s backpack, but all he gets is a flood of leather.

Kakyoin jerks his head back, puzzled, circling around himself then. Hierophant unspools from within him, trailing around the rocks. Where is that smell coming from…?

“Jotaro?” Kakyoin calls as he tucks the plush under his arm and half vaults, half is lifted by Hierophant along the rocks to make it back to the sand to avoid the incoming tide. “Jotaro-?”

The toy lets out another squeak, high and trilling, and Kakyoin jerks his head down, frowning. “You are so loud,” he mutters, landing on the soft sand just as Hierophant’s tentacles flare over a hand attempting to reach Kakyoin’s shoulder.

Kakyoin whips his head around to see a woman with her hand outstretched, her eyes wide.

Kakyoin jumps back, and she jerks her hand to her side, clearing her throat. Her hair glints white in the sun, her eyes a startling icy blue, and it reminds Kakyoin of Polnareff a bit, his grip tightening on his crutches. She’s wearing a sky blue dress, patterned with clouds not dissimilar to the ones incoming on the horizon, with a belt around the waist, on which dangles a whole host of plush animals, all either blue or white. She’s smiling a little.

“Um- hello?” Kakyoin sputters. “Can I help you?”

“Hi,” the woman says, gaze darting down to the stuffed sunfish under Kakyoin’s arm, and he jerks his head down to it too, dots connecting. “I think you have something of mine?” She speaks in accented Japanese, but Kakyoin can still follow what she’s saying. She smiles politely.

“Oh,” Kakyoin says, lifting the sunfish toy again. “Is this yours? I was wondering who it belonged to. Sorry, I was just moving it to be out of reach of the tide…” Kakyoin eyes her belt again, gaze darting back up to her face. She's still smiling, having caught his gaze and looking down at her collection smugly. She’s a little older than the person Kakyoin would expect to be carrying so many plush toys everywhere, but he supposes there are weirder hobbies.

The woman looks back up and her smile transitions to something more polite again, but for some reason it makes the back of Kakyoin’s neck tingle. “Mm. Can I have him back?”

Kakyoin blinks, looking back down at the sunfish, only to flinch when he catches those human-like eyes again. They’re sea green, like Jotaro’s are, and Kakyoin’s chest pangs. Where is he…?

The toy lets out another squeak as the woman begins reaching for it, and Kakyoin jumps. “Is this thing motion activated or something?” He blurts out.

The woman blinks. “Huh? Oh, yeah! Sure.” Kakyoin raises his brows and she shakes her head. “It’s, uh, an old toy. The squeaker is weird because of that.”

“Hm,” Kakyoin says, looking back down. The eyes, still so much like Jotaro's, seem like they’re looking right at him, his heart beating just a little faster over the uncanniness, and he shivers, only half in part because of the wind blowing in from off the coast.

“So…” The woman says, “Can I have him back?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth to respond, only for the wind to blow a faceful of-

Salt and aftershave and deodorant and Jotaro-

Those sea green eyes won’t stop staring at him, and another small wispy squeak is let out despite him not moving a single inch, and Kakyoin thinks, Oh, for fuck’s sake.

Kakyoin steps back, jolting as the woman grabs at the space he was just in. Kakyoin tucks the sunfish underneath his arm again, clearing his throat.

“I don’t think that’s a good idea,” he says lowly, and the woman’s smile twitches.

“What do you mean?” She asks, stepping forward again, and Kakyoin’s hair prickles as he steps back in turn once more. “That’s my friend – my toy. I know I’m a little old for these things, but I still earned it fair and square…”

The sunfish lets out a little indignant squeak. Kakyoin presses his lips into a line. “I don’t know… Why should I return him to someone who would leave him on a rock to be washed out when the tide came in?”

The woman’s smile twitches again. “That wasn’t on purpose…” She stares at Kakyoin, then glances briefly down at the sand between them, as if considering how far apart they are, and Kakyoin’s grip tenses on his crutches. The sunfish is warm where he has it pinned against his side.

She sighs then, her smile drooping, but still the curve of her lips never quite ceasing. “I didn’t want it to go this way…”

And then she darts forward, a glint of silver flashing as it suddenly manifests, and Kakyoin recoils harshly, Hierophant springing out from him and bouncing him away from the woman, giving him a few meters of a head start.

“Hey!!” The woman shouts, giving chase, and Kakyoin turns and runs.

I wish I was using my wheelchair today…! Kakyoin thinks darkly as he vaults forward with his crutches, scrambling to get them underneath him before he takes another step, the sand spraying around him, constantly throwing him off kilter as it shifts under his weight.

A lone beach chair is thrown into his path suddenly, and Kakyoin yelps, Hierophant manifesting at last minute to help him vault over it, glancing over his shoulder to glare at the woman, who has the audacity to laugh. She’s gaining on him. This isn’t working with my damn crutches…!

He grits his teeth, gaze darting around, until he sees a beach wagon near a family’s set up, and he takes a deep breath.

Shooting some tentacles of Hierophant forward, he quickly empties what remained inside of the wagon – their lunch mostly, it seems, which Kakyoin does feel bad about, But I have no time-! – before he barrels forward and hops in, the thick wheels crunching along the sand easily with his momentum, furthered along with Hierophant’s kicking against the sand to gain him some speed.

“Sorry!” He throws back over his shoulder, only to snarl, unamused, as he can see the woman still chasing after him, her long dress billowing around her legs, her stand raised menacingly over her shoulder. It looks like a large crane from a UFO game, and Kakyoin’s gaze darts to the sunfish – Jotaro – before shooting back to her belt where multiple plush toys jingle helplessly as she runs – if it can be called running. It looks a bit more like she’s skipping.

What the fuck-

How many people has she done this to?!

“You better have a damn good explanation for how she got the jump on you like this!” Kakyoin shouts down at the sunfish in his lap. Jotaro lets out a miserable squeak and Kakyoin has to bite back a hysterical chuckle.

Kakyoin finally breaches the sand and ends up back on the paved path up to the road, and he presses on, his wagon gaining speed easily now that it doesn’t have to fight the shift of sand to move. He glances back over his shoulder, only to see the clawed hand of the crane reach up, cling to a chunk of sidewalk, and shoot the woman forward like a grappling hook, her icy eyes wide, her lips still curved in a smile, and Kakyoin jerks back to the road, shuddering.

When’s the last time I fought against a standuser with a long range like me?! Kakyoin thinks desperately, trying to recall. The lovers…? That was so long ago.

Kakyoin glances down at the plush in his lap, and he swallows. … Jotaro relied on me then, too.

Gritting his teeth, Kakyoin turns as the wagon continues down the path, facing the woman. She’s gotten a little closer since he last looked back, but not substantially, and she’s breathing roughly, her skipping turning more into proper running.

Kakyoin sneers before he summons some extra tentacles. “Hierophant,” he calls, “Emerald Splash!”

Hierophant chucks some emerald then, aimed low at her legs to make her stop, and she shrieks in surprise, but-

Her stand catches the emeralds in its claw, shaking them viciously like a dog with a toy, before spitting them back out on the path beside the woman’s feet. Despite some small cuts that manifest on her hands, no damage has been done. Kakyoin grits his teeth. Dammit…! A single direction attack won’t work, then…

“What do you even want?!” Kakyoin calls at her, and her smile just turns into something smarmy, like a sneer.

“I want you two to stop getting kids killed!!” She yells, and Kakyoin blinks.

“Huh-?”

“A-ha!” She commands, and her stand shoots forward, and Kakyoin starts when he realizes she’s gotten just close enough that her stand can grab the wagon-

“Hierophant Green!!” Kakyoin shouts, locking his arms around the sunfish toy, and Hierophant drapes around him just in time before the stand – A-ha, Kakyoin guesses – hooks onto their wagon and yanks it back.

The wagon shrieks to a stop  and Kakyoin is flung into the air, and he has a distinct feeling of deja vu. He grits his teeth, holds onto Jotaro tighter and ignores the small squeak the toy lets out, and has Hierophant vault them as far as they can go with the momentum before they skid to a stop at the edge of the beach’s parking lot. He hisses as he feels the secondhand scrapes from Hierophant as they roll out the last of their momentum and then some to get Kakyoin a little more space from this lady. When they roll to a stop, Hierophant unravels and Kakyoin scoots back just a little more-

From where she just arrives at the other edge of the parking lot, Kakyoin can see the woman stiffen. “Wait-!”

Kakyoin has no idea what could be changing her tune until there’s suddenly a glow in his arms, and then a weight. 82 kilograms’ worth of weight, to be exact.

Kakyoin lets out an oof as Jotaro suddenly turns back to a human in his lap, causing both of them to flop onto the paved gravel, Jotaro letting out a groan from where he lies on top of him, and the reverberations of it echo through Kakyoin’s own chest, leaving him dizzy.

Kakyoin wheezes and Jotaro rolls off him quickly, only for Kakyoin to dive after him, hands clasping down on his warm shoulders, head ducking down into not-exactly-a-hug, but… something.

Salt, aftershave, deodorant-

“Jeez,” Kakyoin seethes emphatically, and he can feel more than hear Jotaro gulp before he separates. “How the hell did-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro interrupts, jerking himself from his arms and clambering to his feet, eyes locking on the undoubtedly approaching woman, and Kakyoin grits his teeth and turns, jumping to his own feet, Hierophant unspooling thinly from him.

They’re surrounded on all sides by cars, no more beach wagons for either of them to take advantage of. They’re cornered, and the woman seems to have realized it, as she halts with her skip-running, her face painted back with a pleasant smile, her stand curling around her arm in glee before turning back to face them. It could easily extend and grab at least one of them at the range she’s reentered into, but she waits. Kakyoin snarls at the arrogance.

“What were you talking about earlier – killing kids? What on earth are you talking about?!” Kakyoin demands, and the woman’s eyebrows raise, her smile twitching again.

“Are you telling me you don’t even remember his name? You’re both sick bastards,” she spits, and Kakyoin’s brows furrow.

“No, I mean I don’t know what on earth you’re talking about!” Kakyoin growls, and Jotaro grips his arm, which does nothing short of making Kakyoin’s pulse become all too noticeable in his throat. “Who the hell even are you?! What do you want with us?!”

The woman snarls then, her smile dropping for only the second time, and Kakyoin blinks at the unbridled fury creasing her brows. “What do I want with you? Frankly, nothing. Adults like you make me sick,” she spits.

“What do you mean?” Jotaro calls, voice edged, and Kakyoin shivers, feeling like the blunt edge of a knife scraped down his back.

The woman scoffs, continuing to step closer. “Since you seem so careless as to not even remember, let me tell you then.” She points at them. “My name is August Manson. I’m 19 years old and an American tourist. I’m here in Japan on summer break to enjoy the great UFO games you guys have.” She smiles at that then, fondly, before she narrows her eyes at them. “While I’ve been here, I became sort of aware of a middle schooler that would frequent the arcade almost as much as me. We didn’t talk much, especially not when he had two of his older friends with him, but still, he was just a kid trying to enjoy summer like me.”

August’s hand moves to her belt of plush toys then, gently stroking a blue dolphin at her side. “But then one day, he stopped coming to the arcade. I never knew what happened until a man in a photograph came to talk to me.”

Jotaro and Kakyoin snap their gazes to each other, eyes widening. Man in a photograph-

Kira’s father-?

“He let me know what happened to the boy. His name was Shigekiyo Yangu, and he was killed. He said you killed him.” August glowers then, clenching her fist around her dolphin plush before she rips her hand away and points at them again. “I don’t like troubling myself or making my life complicated, but I checked myself later, and saw in the papers that Shigekiyo had gone missing. You didn’t even give his parents a body to bury… But I know you two killed him! And I saw you with the two friends that Shigekiyo had – I won’t let you take their childhoods and kill them, either!”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly. Shigekiyo? Two friends-?

We met a middle schooler with a stand.

My- Okuyasu and my’s…friend. Shigekiyo Yangu. He still went by his childhood nickname – Shigechi.

Kakyoin jolts. Right-  “You mean Shigechi? And Josuke and Okuyasu?!” Abruptly, Kakyoin is reminded of the theory that standusers attract standusers. Did Shigechi know he wasn’t alone, even if he never talked to August personally? Did August even know he had a stand, too? Or is she just compelled to protect this lonely kid she knew in retrospect?

Kakyoin thinks of two ships passing in the night, never aware of each other despite the proximity, and he can’t stop thinking about how similar he and Shigechi – what he knew of him, anyway – were. If Shigechi was watched over without knowing it, maybe without the watcher even knowing that’s what they were doing… could the same have been true of his childhood? Kakyoin’s stomach turns, but he’s forced out of his thoughts before he can consider it further.

“Oh, so you do know their names?” August scoffs. “Well, it’d be better for them if you forgot them! But this is the better option.” She points again, and Kakyoin is getting kinda sick of it. “Noriaki Kakyoin, Jotaro Kujo,” she seethes, “prepare to die for the crime of ending a childhood and a life too soon!”

“We didn’t kill Shigechi-” Jotaro starts but August just growls.

“‘Shigechi’? How dare you use a nickname after getting him killed!” August yells, and Jotaro flinches nearly imperceptibly, lips pressed into a line, and Kakyoin remembers Not when what I’m scared of is another innocent man on my conscience.

Jotaro starts forward but Kakyoin swings an arm out, blocking him, and Jotaro snarls. “Kakyoin-”

“You need to get well within her range to even hope to use Star Platinum,” Kakyoin seethes at him, “she’ll have plenty of time to grab you and turn you back into a sunfish!” Jotaro growls in turn.

“Not if I use timestop,” Jotaro nearly wheezes, like the very words hurt, and Kakyoin grits his teeth against a shudder, swallowing back a notion of illness.

“And how long can you even stop time?” Kakyoin snaps, and Jotaro blinks before snapping his gaze toward him. “She’s 40 meters away. Unless you can stop time for ten seconds, you aren’t going to make it to her in time!”

Jotaro pauses at that, staring at him, and Kakyoin’s never wanted to know what he’s thinking so badly in his life.

Kakyoin turns back to August and glowers. “Just follow my lead,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro glances at him, brows pinched.

“Ka-”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin breathes, and Jotaro goes stiff and quiet. It’ll have to be enough. Kakyoin turns back to August. He can catch the faint second hand impression of car oil and exhaust from where Hierophant, as thin strands, is creeping, and Kakyoin needs to avoid the urge to wrinkle his nose. “So what, you think you’re some agent of justice? That’s funny, considering that” -Kakyoin gestures to August’s belt full of plush toys, and she bristles, A-ha’s claws snapping together like its version of a grimace- “how many childhoods have you stolen by collecting that? I saw what you did to Jojo” -Jotaro chokes beside him, but Kakyoin can’t spare the focus to glance at him, though his fingers twitch- “it doesn’t take a genius to figure out where you got the rest of your stash!”

“No!” August snaps, glaring at him. “For your information, only three of these are people. The rest are toys I won fair and square from claw games!”

Kakyoin raises his brows. “Oh, only three. My mistake. How noble.”

August snarls. “It’s not like I’m killing anyone. And they’re my family, I can just keep us together better this way! It’s not like you, who rips childhoods apart including the child themselves!”

Kakyoin raises his brows. “Oh, it doesn’t count if it’s family? Then you’ll be happy to know that one of Shigechi’s friends is Jojo here’s uncle. There. All soothed, right?”

“You-” August seethes, “This attitude is what I hate most about adults like you!” And with that, A-ha starts barreling forward, making Jotaro stiffen beside him.

“And that naivete is what I hate most about adults like you!” Kakyoin counters, before he widens his stance. “Hierophant Green! Emerald Splash!!”

August’s eyes widen, both her head and the claw of A-ha whipping around, but it’s too late. Strung up from underneath the various cars of the now-crowded beach, Hierophant’s thin tendrils gleam before a gust of water and emerald bursts out from them, all pinpointed on August omnidirectionally. Even if A-ha tries to stop some, it can’t stop all of them, Kakyoin thinks smugly. August jerks her gaze back to Kakyoin for one last split second before she grabs her belt, hurls it away from her, and promptly is barrelled by the water and gems alike with a shriek.

After the attack abates, the water and chunks of emerald fall to the ground around a sopping wet and bleeding August, who has collapsed onto the ground, breathing heavily. Kakyoin is frankly surprised she’s still conscious, but given that A-ha had wrapped around her head, protecting her, he supposes he isn’t too surprised.

After registering the onslaught has finished, A-ha sloppily unfurls from around August’s head, gently draping around her shoulders. It reminds Kakyoin a bit of a snake.

He shakes his head before he gestures, and Hierophant shoots forward out from the cars. August jerks as the tentacles come near, but with her discombobulation, she’s not fast enough, and Hierophant restrains her and A-ha both.

Kakyoin marches forward then, ignoring the way Jotaro startles before scrambling after him.

August glares at him past her wet hair. “You’re not going to get away with this,” she seethes as A-ha struggles in Hierophant’s hold.

“We’re not trying to get away with anything,” Kakyoin says lowly, “It’s true Shigechi was killed. But it was the son of the man you spoke to that killed him, not us.”

August pauses in Hierophant’s hold, then. “... What?”

Kakyoin leans on one crutch, rubbing a hand over his face. “The man you spoke to – he was old, bald on the top of his head with gray hair on the sides, right?”

August narrows her eyes before nodding stiffly.

“His son – Kira Yoshikage – is a serial murderer. We’ve been trying to stop him,” Kakyoin stresses.

August scoffs. “Okay. Even if that’s true, why were you around Shigechi’s friends, then?”

“I already told you,” Kakyoin sighs. “Josuke – one of them – is Jotar-”

“I was talking about you,” August cuts in. “What business do you have being here?”

Kakyoin twitches. “What business I have,” he says lowly, “is that I was asked to by Josuke’s father. I’m here to help protect them while we deal with the murderer on the loose. The murderer you just tried to indirectly help!”

August flinches then, and Kakyoin shifts his jaw.

“... He lied to you,” Kakyoin says, and August turns back to him. Kakyoin tries very hard not to think about the small scar in his forehead. “He used whatever… camaraderie you had with Shigechi against you to do his dirty work for him.”

August scowls, but Kakyoin presses on.

“You’re not the first,” he says softly, thinking back to what Rohan had said about noticing an uptick in standusers since Kira’s father got away, and August’s expression clears a little. “The murderer – and the kids – all have powers like us. The killer knows we’re the only ones that can stop him in that case, so he wants us gone.” The crinkle between August’s brows fades as realization dawns on her face. “ That’s why I’m around the kids. To protect them from the people that he keeps sending after them, so they can continue to enjoy those childhoods,” Kakyoin says lowly. August goes quiet then, in a thoughtful sort of way. After a beat, A-ha is dismissed, and, warily, Kakyoin has Hierophant let go of August too, setting her gently down onto her feet, though he remains summoned, a silent threat for August to stay in check.

They both jump when suddenly, August’s belt is tossed onto the ground at her feet, and they whip their heads up to see Jotaro. Jotaro sighs, before turning to Kakyoin. “I’ve called the Speedwagon Foundation,” he says. “They’ll be here in a couple of minutes.”

August’s brows crease. “Speedwagon Foundation… Like, from America?”

Jotaro smiles a bit sardonically then. “The very one. They have a secret division that looks into stand related crimes – such as yours.”

August blinks before looking down. “Stand… Is that what they’re called?”

Jotaro and Kakyoin exchange glances, both pausing.

August leans down then, picking up her belt and dusting off her plush toys before wrapping it back around her. “A-ha’s been with me for a long time… at least in my mind. She didn’t show up as she is now until I was almost 18, but she’s been there. But I never knew what she was until now…”

Kakyoin can already feel himself softening, and he rolls his eyes at himself even as it happens. I’m so predictable. And still, he says, “I know what that’s like. I’ve had my Hierophant Green my whole life, but I didn’t know there were others like me until I was 17.” He glances at Jotaro then.

August looks up then, truly studying him. It makes Kakyoin prickle, the hair standing on the back of his neck, but he doesn’t move. She moves her gaze to Jotaro, studying him the same way, before sighing. She pats at her belt, then.

“You alright, everyone?” She mumbles, and Kakyoin realizes that she threw it in the first place in order to avoid it getting shredded or drenched while Hierophant attacked.

“You said three of those are people…?” Kakyoin can’t help but asking.

August smiles. “Yes.” She points to the blue dolphin she was petting earlier. “This is my sister, Bianca.” August pauses. “Step-sister, but, sister.” She then points to a white dove. “This is – or was? I guess I’m not sure where we left off after he cheated on me, but he was my boyfriend, Kevin.” Lastly, she points to a white teddy bear. “And this is my step-dad.”

Kakyoin can’t help but shudder. “Why would you… do that to them?”

August’s smile turns blasé. “I like them better this way.”

Jotaro and Kakyoin exchange glances and Kakyoin sighs.

“Come on,” he mutters, “let’s get you to the SPW.” Good luck with this one, Avdol… He glances back at Jotaro, who meets his gaze. Kakyoin can taste saltwater. The air is growing thicker, and as Kakyoin glances up, he can see the clouds from earlier rolling in properly.

Jotaro presses his lips into a line before he says, “Kakyoin… I-”

“We’ll talk more once this is dealt with,” Kakyoin promises, and Jotaro goes quiet. Kakyoin hesitates, but he reaches out and takes Jotaro’s hand, and while Jotaro’s gaze darts to him, wide-eyed, he doesn’t pull away. Kakyoin squeezes his hand once before dropping it, even if his cold fingers from inside his gloves bemoan the loss of the warmth.

“What are you two doing?” August asks, and they both jump.

“Just talking,” Jotaro says flatly, “Let’s go, Miss Matson.”

August scoffs softly. “I liked you better as a sunfish. Not even my professors back home call me ‘Miss Matson.’”

Jotaro and Kakyoin both stiffen and she holds up her hands. “Joking, joking! God…”

Kakyoin sighs, glancing up as the clouds begin to shade them all from the sun. Let’s get this sorted out.

He glances back at Jotaro again. All of this.

Chapter 42

Summary:

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin murmurs, leaning a little closer, “I’m not scared of you. I’m not scared of you, okay?” His heart is beating so fast.

Jotaro twitches violently, jerking his knee from Kakyoin’s, turning away from him, and Kakyoin aches. “Well you should be. I-” his voice cracks “-I’m just like DIO-”

“Don’t say that,” Kakyoin says quietly, but Jotaro snaps his jaw shut like he had shouted it. “Don’t compare yourself to him.”

“But- why not?!” Jotaro seethes, his fists so tightly curled his hands are shaking. He hunches over his legs, staring down at his hands, and his eyes are so wide, capturing so much light underneath his hat, that they seem to be glowing. “Why don’t you agree? Why don’t you agree?!”

Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “Do you remember how we met?”

Notes:

hellooo everyone

so like i said last time i dont think i can keep up a once a week update schedule... but once every two weeks.... 👀 i think i can do that. also im so sorry i havent been responding to comments im kinda wiped but i will get to it today...<3

for now it's finally the moment we've all been waiting for.... enjoy everyone i really hope i did this chapter justice so the catharsis hits

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Neither Kakyoin nor Jotaro feel particularly comfortable letting the Speedwagon Foundation agents deal with a standuser like August on their own, so they both tag along when they take her to their makeshift office on the outskirts of the city — an accommodation they’ve had to made since the start of the summer and all of Morioh’s excitement.

August rolls her eyes at their shepherding as they drive to the building. “I’m not going to do anything. I already told you two I don’t care to make my life complicated or hard,” she mutters, and Kakyoin snorts.

“Forgive us for not exactly trusting your idea of what makes a life complicated or hard,” Jotaro retorts, and August sneers at him while Kakyoin feels uncomfortable about sitting between the two of them in the car.

Once they make it to the office, the Speedwagon Foundation agents take August inside for an interview and to log her stand, and August waves her fingers at Jotaro and Kakyoin goodbye, her plush toys dangling at her waist. Jotaro scoffs under his breath while Kakyoin needs to avoid a snort again.

“If you don’t mind waiting, sirs,” an agent pipes up then, and Jotaro and Kakyoin turn their heads, “we can drive you back to the hotel after Miss Matson’s interview.”

Kakyoin and Jotaro exchange glances, and it’s only then Kakyoin feels the burning in his arms from his scramble with his crutches earlier, the ache in his back and shoulders from where he landed after August flung him out of the wagon, and the tender tingling of the scrapes that he’s evidently been left with. He really doesn't want to walk all the way back…

“If you don’t mind,” Kakyoin says, and the agent nods his head easily.

“Not at all.”

He turns then to enter the interview room himself, and Kakyoin lets out a sigh, before turning to Jotaro. He’s glaring at the interview room door, crossing his arms and shaking his head as he mutters, “Good grief…” and Kakyoin’s chest constricts.

I’ve been such an asshole.

Kakyoin can’t wait.

“… Jotaro,” he starts.

Jotaro looks up at him past his lowered hat brim, and this time, Kakyoin is expecting the flash of saltwater that sticks to the back of his throat when they lock eyes. It feels kind of good, now that he’s properly braced for it.

Kakyoin swallows against the brine and continues. “Can we… Can we sit?”

Jotaro scans over him, brows pinched. His gaze burns a bit, making his scrapes itch underneath his cardigan, but Kakyoin doesn’t wilt. Finally, Jotaro nods, glancing one last time at the interview room door before walking back to the front doors, holding it open for Kakyoin.

Kakyoin steps through, and Jotaro moves to a bench off to the side of the doorway, sitting down slowly. His knees creak, and for some reason Kakyoin feels a flash of fondness. He ignores it and instead slowly sits down next to him, his spine letting out its own small cracks, and he softly groans as he leans against the back of the bench, letting his head loll around his shoulders.

“... Are you alright?” Jotaro asks, voice gruff and hesitant, and it’s such a unique meshing, and yet so Jotaro, that Kakyoin opens his eyes and rolls his head to look at Jotaro, unable to bite back the small smile he can feel at the corners of his lips.

“‘M fine,” he says softly, before he stretches and sits up, clearing his throat. “Are you okay? I can’t imagine being turned into a stuffed animal felt completely normal.”

Jotaro scowls then, and Kakyoin needs to bite back a snort. “Not particularly, no…” He grumbles, before he shakes his head. “I’m fine. It was weird, but I’ve gone through worse.”

The humor Kakyoin found drains swiftly. He shifts a little in his seat. “Yeah,” he says softly, “you have.”

Jotaro’s brows pinch before he looks up, locking gazes with him. Despite moving inland, Kakyoin can still smell the sea, like it’s seeped into him the way it’s seeped into the man beside him.

Kakyoin swallows. “Jo…” he hesitates, unsure of where to go. “... Jotaro,” he says again, softly, and Jotaro shudders, dropping their gazes but not turning away. Kakyoin will take it. “I know… today’s been exhausting enough. And we already talked earlier. But…”

Jotaro exhales slowly but loudly, the line of his shoulders sloping down, and Kakyoin’s fingers itch. He smells salt. His skin, even beyond his scrapes, feels tender and sensitive, like the air is charging with static electricity. He glances to the clouds – the forecast said it would rain, but not that it would be a thunderstorm…

He slides his gaze back to Jotaro when he responds to his unanswered question. “Go ahead,” he says softly, almost in a wheeze. It reminds Kakyoin a bit of the squeaks he made as a sunfish toy, and his fingers twitch again. He ignores it, and turns his body a little more instead, his spine seething at the twist, but his knee knocks against Jotaro’s, so Kakyoin doesn’t care. He can feel the heat of Jotaro’s body even over their clothes, even at the small point of contact of their knees. Kakyoin needs to lift a hand to his head to try and reorganize his dazed thoughts before he steadies himself.

“Why didn’t you use timestop when she first appeared?” Kakyoin asks. Jotaro lets out a stuttered breath.

There’s a beat. Then, Jotaro mutters, “She got the jump on me.”

“How is that even possible, though?” Kakyoin asks. Jotaro stiffens. “I thought timestop meant you could stop Kira alone.”

Jotaro’s face twists into a scowl and he looks up at Kakyoin. “What is this about, exactly?”

I’m confirming something, Kakyoin thinks, but doesn’t say. “Did you not want to use it against her?”

Jotaro twitches, scoffing, but he doesn’t say anything. “She just got the jump on me,” he insists, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“No one’s faster than Star Platinum,” he says, and Jotaro grits his teeth, hands balling into fists.

“Star Platinum is only fast when it knows it’s reacting to something,” Jotaro seeths, “If I didn’t even know something was happening until… Until…”

Kakyoin purses his lips. “Then why would you be able to face Kira on your own?”

Jotaro goes quiet then, turning only to glare at Kakyoin. It’s been a long time since Jotaro’s properly glared at him, all the ocean in his eyes frozen over, all that power contained behind a thin, searing sheet of ice. Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“I’m not trying to antagonize you,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro barks a laugh at that, and Kakyoin needs to bite harshly against a reflexive sneer. “I’m just pointing out a discrepancy in what you’ve told me.”

Jotaro growls, and it comes from so deep in his chest that Kakyoin can feel his knee slightly reverberate from where it’s still touching Jotaro’s as the vibration runs through his whole body. Kakyoin’s hair stands on end, but he doesn’t look away. “What are you talking about? Why do you care-”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin cuts in softly, “remember what I said last time, how I know you- you-” he grits his teeth, tongue pressing harshly against them, before he spits out, “Do you remember how I said I knew you ab-abandoning me, wasn’t about me?”

The use of such a word like abandon, and all the weight it carries, splits Kakyoin open down the middle, like a surgical incision, or perhaps like the hands of a stand too powerful for its own good, but he doesn’t hunch, doesn’t cross his arms. He lets Jotaro see his organs, stays facing him. The anger in Jotaro’s face is gone, but not the tension, and he stares at Kakyoin intensely as he clenches his teeth so hard Kakyoin can see the tendons of his jaw.

“I think I figured out what it actually is,” he says softly, fingers twitching. Jotaro’s still warm where his knee is touching his. He’s never wanted to hold someone so bad in his life.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says, voice hushed, and if Kakyoin were a more wishful man, it would sound pleading.

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin murmurs, leaning a little closer, “I’m not scared of you. I’m not scared of you, okay?” His heart is beating so fast.

Jotaro twitches violently, jerking his knee from Kakyoin’s, turning away from him, and Kakyoin aches. “Well you should be. I-” his voice cracks “-I’m just like DIO-”

“Don’t say that,” Kakyoin says quietly, but Jotaro snaps his jaw shut like he had shouted it. “Don’t compare yourself to him.”

“But- why not?!” Jotaro seethes, his fists so tightly curled his hands are shaking. He hunches over his legs, staring down at his hands, and his eyes are so wide, capturing so much light underneath his hat, that they seem to be glowing. “Why don’t you agree? Why don’t you agree?!

There’s a soft patter. Kakyoin darts his gaze to the side, just for a moment, and sees that the rain has begun. It starts soft, but in seconds, the rhythm picks up, drops falling harder and harder until it’s an all encompassing white noise. They’re safe under the overhang of the office, but only just. The smell of wet earth floods Kakyoin’s nose, and it’s different from the ocean, the lack of salt and seaweed leaving it… bare.

Kakyoin turns back to Jotaro and takes a deep breath. “Do you remember how we met?”

Jotaro stumbles then, his brows furrowing in confusion at the seeming nonsequitur as he glances at Kakyoin again. Kakyoin continues to stare at him, and Jotaro ducks his head to the side once more. Kakyoin has faint echoes about his earlier thoughts on the beach. What would it take for a man like Jotaro to run away?

After a beat, Jotaro says, “... What part?”

Kakyoin licks his suddenly dry lips, fingers curling into the hem of his cardigan. “The… nurse…” He remembers that he still doesn’t even know her name.

Jotaro is silent beside him, his fists still balled but no longer shaking. Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“You were the only one of the group that knew for a long time,” Kakyoin says, voice a little warbly due to him having to speak past a lump in his throat, “that Hierophant Green can possess people.”

Jotaro swallows audibly beside him. “Ka-”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin continues, his tone taking a conversational intonation despite his pitch raising a bit, “do you know how I’d describe the fleshbud?”

“Kaky-”

“I’d say it was like possession,” Kakyoin admits, and something in his chest- changes. He doesn’t know what. He doesn’t know if it’s good or bad. He just knows his ribs sit differently against each other now, weighted a little differently. “You saw both in action. Both my possession… and the fleshbud. You saw how both twist motivations and perception until they serve a goal the- the puppeteer has.” His stomach feels sick, organs inching up his chest to sit against his esophagus, uncomfortably pressing. He thinks of Rohan. Ten years, and he only used the ability that once.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro rasps, and Kakyoin swallows and turns to look at him.

“Were you scared of me, back then?” Kakyoin asks. Jotaro just stares at him. It occurs to Kakyoin that he doesn’t actually know the answer – Jotaro never verbally said anything about the matter during that time or after – but he does know that Jotaro would sleep in the same hotel room as him, would talk to him even when he didn’t need to to joke about Joseph or student life, would stand next to him, would let him touch him, would trust him with his body and with his family’s-

Kakyoin has to believe Jotaro, at least the Jotaro he knew back then. He has to believe he hadn’t forgotten everything about the man that was his best friend.

“I wasn’t,” Jotaro finally says gravelly, softly, and Kakyoin breathes in Jotaro’s scent mixed with the rain. It feels a bit like salvation. It smells like the ocean. “I wasn’t scared.”

“Then why would I be?” Kakyoin finishes, somehow finding his voice past the tumbling of sediment that makes up his chest as it shifts even more. Something’s changing. Kakyoin’s never felt so scared of being sick, not even when he was dying of an overdose in the bathroom of a hotel in a country halfway around the world of his home.

“But,” Jotaro presses, “that’s- that’s different.”

It reminds him, startlingly, of his conversation with Aya, and Kakyoin chuckles just a bit, breathlessly. “Is it?”

Jotaro stares at him, again with an edge that could almost be pleading, like he needs Kakyoin to understand. “The fleshbud- it wasn’t a part of The World’s abilities.” he shudders as he says the words, before he elaborates, “It says nothing about- about your- your… similarities…”

Kakyoin hums. “Maybe not our similarities,” he agrees, “but what would it mean that controlling others in the way he did, even if it was only a pastime for him, is so integral to my soul?”

Jotaro goes quiet then. There’s a monsoon forming in his eyes, his pupils the dark eye of a storm. Kakyoin’s always liked watching storms.

Kakyoin takes a breath. “Jotaro, I’m going to outline this for you.”

Jotaro stares at him for a long, long time. The rain patters against the overhang above them, the roads growing wet and slick. Lights flicker on from inside, the additional lumination necessary to see through the gaze of mist and fog and wet. Jotaro looks like he could fade away into it, in his white hat and coat, but his tan skin and dark hair keep him in focus. Jotaro’s brows are furrowed inward, eyes drooping down, mouth in a tight, sharp frown. Kakyoin’s gaze curves along the lines forming in his face, lines that will soon become wrinkles, and he thinks, I want to be there when they do. Kakyoin’s fingers twitch again. He’s never wanted to hold someone so badly in his life.

“Okay,” Jotaro finally says, barely audible over the rain, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath.

“If- if you’re insistent on timestop being indicative of something, of a tie to DIO, then you need to damn me to the same fate, because I face the same question with my possession.” Jotaro twitches violently. Kakyoin politely ignores it. “Whatever you believe has implications for me, too.”

Jotaro stares at him. Kakyoin opens his mouth to finish, then hesitates, shifting back a little. Jotaro’s fingers twitch in Kakyoin’s periphery. Kakyoin sucks in a breath.

“Whatever it is,” Kakyoin murmurs, “whatever you choose to believe, we’ll be there together.”

Kakyoin is expecting Jotaro to jerk. What he does instead is slump, violently, shivering even in his coat and his shoulders and head hang. He’s so close to Kakyoin like this. He’s still so warm. Kakyoin’s fingers twitch. His eyes burn.

“What do you choose?” He asks.

“I thought you wished you had never met me,” Jotaro says abruptly, voice gravelly, and Kakyoin winces, shame flickering to life near his bared organs, roasting him from the inside out.

“Jota-”

“I just don’t understand,” Jotaro emphasizes as his head continues to hang. The rain begins to pound harder, and Kakyoin has to strain to hear Jotaro over it. “So you don’t want me dead. We squared that away. So you want-” his voice catches then, but he presses on “-so you want to be friends again. Okay. How does that- how did you change your feelings so fast? You said you hated me. How did I- what did I do-”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin cuts in, and he surprises them both with how choked his voice is. His chest hurts, like someone is pressing down onto his ribs to keep him from breathing. His hands are cold, but his neck is so warm he’s beginning to sweat. Jotaro’s head snaps up, and Kakyoin can smell the sea, and he clings to it. His throat scratches. His eyes burn. “Jotaro. Jotaro. I don’t hate you.”

“That’s the problem-” and Jotaro shuts his mouth so fast, Kakyoin can hear the click of his teeth.

Kakyoin feels like he’s swaying. The rain sounds like a roar. “Jotaro, I don’t hate you,” he repeats, and Jotaro’s hands curl into fists again.

“Why?” He spits. “I just don’t understand what I did to make you stop hating me. It seems like it happened around when I showed you I could st-” his voice catches “-stop time, which-” Jotaro lets out a minorly hysterical chuckle. Kakyoin has never heard him make such a sound. He feels a little sick. “That can’t be right. That-”

“But it is,” Kakyoin presses, “that was when-”

“How?!” Jotaro shouts, “how, after that, could you possibly-”

“Jotaro- Jotaro, it made me realize- it made me remember-”

“That’s exactly why I don’t understand – how- how did it made you like me aga-”

“Jotaro, it made me remember you were my best friend-!” He remembers a 17 year old Jotaro, staring back at him over his shoulder, letting Kakyoin know he had no real reason for saving him, accidentally letting him know he only did it because it was the right thing to do. He remembers learning how to deal with the stink of nicotine, how to enjoy it even, sharing a cigarette or two, and the smile Jotaro would wear when they could see their exhaled smoke tangle together. He remembers learning his dreams (I want to work with animals. Sea animals said to him on the bank of the Ganges River ) , his fears (Please, don’t die, said to him in an Aswan hospital). He remembers how the grit in Jotaro’s palms felt when he held his hand in dark hotel rooms, when Jotaro held his face when his eyes were cut or when he was pulling out the fleshbud. He remembers Jotaro hiding behind his hat, a fabric shield Kakyoin wanted to be on the other side of. He remembers Jotaro letting him take it off, once, in their hotel in Saudi Arabia, and how they stared at one another afterward. He remembers realizing Jotaro’s eyes weren’t just blue, but seagreen, then. He remembers how warm Jotaro was, how reliable. He remembers how warm he felt when Jotaro, strong, cagey, beautiful Jotaro, trusted him with Joseph, with his mother, with himself-

and Kakyoin’s vision suddenly unblurs as tears break past his lower lids, skimming past his cheeks. He jumps – he didn’t even realize he was getting misty eyed – but he doesn’t do anything about it, even as Jotaro stares at him with wide eyes. He takes a few shuddering, hysterical breaths, as he leans forward and takes Jotaro’s hands. Dazedly, Jotaro lets him, just like he would when they were teenagers, and Kakyoin feels sick. He repeats, “It made me remember that you were my best friend. Once.” His voice cracks. Jotaro flinches like it’s thunder. They can’t seem to stop staring at one another. Kakyoin can’t stop crying.

“Kakyoin-” Jotaro starts to croak, but Kakyoin shakes his head.

“It made me remember,” Kakyoin spits out, his voice hitching, sobs building in his chest. Maybe that’s what the change in his ribs earlier was; a sudden release of pressure that is now manifesting as sobs. “It made me remember why we became friends in the first place. We had middle ground. We had an understanding.” Kakyoin’s breath hitches. “I trusted you- I trusted you so much then. Why did I stop trusting you?”

“Kakyoin-”

“Even after everything we- we went through, even after everything, I assumed the worst in you. I threw away everything I knew about you just because- because what? I- I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry-” Kakyoin can’t stop the words from spilling out, his breath coming in and out as puffs that do nothing to get oxygen to his brain, his tears falling just as hard as the rain but he can’t stop. His hands are shaking so bad in Jotaro’s grip. When did Jotaro grip him back? When did it become more Jotaro holding his hands?

They used to give and take like this all the time. Kakyoin spent so long missing Jotaro he forgot that this is exactly why he missed him.

“Jotaro, I’m so sorry-” Kakyoin sobs, and Jotaro moves then, pulling him in for an awkward hug, resting Kakyoin’s head against his shoulder. Kakyoin folds, much like Jotaro did earlier, ignoring the shriek of his spine that fades into the roar of the rain, and reaches up and grips onto Jotaro’s coat, tightly, his breath coming out in stuttered gasps.

“I said so many- so many cruel things to you,” Kakyoin cries, and Jotaro shakes his head but Kakyoin presses on anyway. “I was- I just kept trying to hurt you, over and over and- Jotaro I- I- I’m so sorry. I was wrong. I was wrong, I’m so sorry, Jotaro-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro’s voice chokes out, and he really does sound pleading this time. Kakyoin lets out a hiccuping gasp, digging his forehead further into Jotaro’s shoulder, shaking so badly he’s surprised that Jotaro still has a grip on him.

“I’m sorry,” he whimpers wetly, and Jotaro just brings him closer.

The roar of the rain becomes the only other sound beside Kakyoin’s sobs then, the harsh pattern of raindrops against the earth and roof of the overhang a neverending trickle that reminds Kakyoin more of a river than of rain. He can’t stop shaking. It’s cold, crisp air biting at Kakyoin’s vulnerable neck, seeping into his clothes to make the fabric itself chilly against his skin, stiff and scratching against his tender scrapes. It makes Jotaro all the more inviting – warm, steady, and everything Kakyoin is not. Jotaro’s hand cups the back of his head, fingers gentle and wary around the half bun Kakyoin tied it up in this morning. His other hand balls up in his cardigan, and Kakyoin wonders if he knows it was made by Holly.

Kakyoin can’t stop crying. Jotaro just keeps holding him.

“I’m sorry,” he repeats one more time in a gasping breath.

Jotaro inhales deeply. “... I forgive you,” he murmurs into his hair, and Kakyoin loses all coherency and sobs as hard as he can into Jotaro’s shoulder.

“How can you not hate me?” Kakyoin echoes Jotaro’s words, voice wet and pathetic. He angrily presses his nose against Jotaro. “You keep asking me that, but- After all I said, all I did, I- I punched you in the face!”

It reminds him of Okuyasu’s admittance to punching Shigechi, and Kakyoin feels another set of hot tears streak down his cheeks, soaking into Jotaro’s coat. Kakyoin wonders if Jotaro can feel the burn of them past the fabric.

“How could you forgive me? How-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro cuts in, and Kakyoin’s head spins.

“I’m sorry,” Kakyoin rasps.

“I forgive you,” Jotaro repeats simply, and Kakyoin shakes his head.

“Jo- Jotaro, I’m sorry,” Kakyoin cries, and Jotaro takes a breath but Kakyoin keeps talking before he can. “I know how it feels to- to be like him,” he says venomously, and Jotaro shuts his mouth so harshly Kakyoin can hear the click of his teeth, “I know how it feels, and I- I made it so much worse, on purpose, I was so angry with you and I- I-”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro cuts in again, “Kakyoin, stop.”

“I said I wished we never met,” Kakyoin continues, voice rising in hysteria, “but that’s not true- that’s not true at all- Jotaro you were- you were just a kid-”

“Kakyoin, please,” Jotaro says, and Kakyoin falls quiet, stunned. He’s not sure he’s ever heard Jotaro beg out loud. “Please just- stop.”

Kakyoin shifts his jaw. Jotaro’s arms are warm around him, and Kakyoin wonders when the last time he hugged someone properly was. He thinks it was Polnareff.

Kakyoin squeezes his eyes shut and digs his face into Jotaro’s shoulder, bringing his arms up to claw onto Jotaro’s coat, tightly, broken sobs spilling past his chest.

Kakyoin isn’t sure how long they’re there, how long Jotaro holds him while he cries the hardest he has since his overdose. He just knows his back is sore, pain spreading from it like a tsunami wave from the middle of the ocean, and he’s still unable to stop crying, when the door to the office opens up.

“Alright, we can drive you home now- Mr. Kakyoin?!” A Speedwagon Foundation agent cries, and Jotaro whips his head around and must give him a look, because the agent cuts himself off. Kakyoin doesn’t remove himself from Jotaro’s shoulder. He can’t seem to do anything but cling to Jotaro and weep, but at least he can quiet himself down to silent tears with only the occasional sniffle, even if it’s still obvious he’s crying from the way his shoulders quake.

Kakyoin grits his teeth under the strain of keeping quiet, and Jotaro’s grip on him tightens. “Miss Matson?” Jotaro asks, voice steady and pointed.

The agent shuffles. “Ah, yes! She’s finishing up in there. Um, they’re taking her back to the stand division headquarters in Egypt as soon as they can secure a plane. Something about her belt being a mess to fix? Mr. Avdol wants to be there for it.”

Kakyoin, despite himself, snorts, only to cringe. It’s such a wet noise, with the way his nose has become stuffed due to his crying.

“She’s spending the night here,” the agent finishes, and Jotaro hums. Kakyoin feels it more than hears it, his skin buzzing with the echoes of Jotaro’s voice. He feels a little dizzy.

“Alright,” Jotaro sighs, and Kakyoin jerks when the gust of breath blows against his hair. “We’ll head back to the hotel, then.”

“V-very good, sir…” the agent says, before speeding away to get the car, Kakyoin is able to hear the wet squeak of his sneakers even over the rain.

“Kakyoin?” Jotaro murmurs then, and Kakyoin takes a breath. He slowly loosens his grip, then slides his hands away from Jotaro. He shudders under his touch, and Kakyoin has to focus very hard to be polite and ignore it. Belatedly, Jotaro moves his hands too, his own palms ghosting over Kakyoin’s back and head, and Kakyoin’s just glad he was already shaking.

They lean back from each other, but Kakyoin keeps his head down, slipping a hand into his cardigan pocket and pulling out his handkerchief, wiping at his face and blowing his nose.

Kakyoin keeps his head down even as the car rolls up, and he and Jotaro both move to the back doors. He slides his crutches onto the floor of the car and they’re off.

The drive is quick, and quiet aside from the hum of the engine and harsh splatters of the rain against the roof. Kakyoin eventually stops crying, wiping his face one last time with his handkerchief. Jotaro’s knee gently knocks against his own and Kakyoin needs to clamp his entire throat, not just his jaw, around a sound that he thinks would splinter his ribs apart if he let it out.

They make it back to the hotel quickly due to the combination of few pedestrians and few cars wanting to be out in such weather. The agent nervously asks if they need help, Kakyoin only just able to hear it past the throbbing in his temples, and Jotaro assures him they are fine, opens his door, and gets out, Kakyoin shakily following.

Kakyoin isn’t quite sure where they’re going, after that. He’s just leaning against Jotaro, taking in his scent, comparing it to how it used to be at 17. He no longer smells of cigarettes, a fact Kakyoin only just now realizes. When had he stopped smoking? Was it because of Jolyne? It’s another reminder that it’s been 10 years, and Kakyoin grits his teeth as he stumbles in his steps, a new wave of tears coming to his eyes.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says after they stumble around a little. Kakyoin wonders what a sight they must look like. He can’t feel embarrassed, his guilt taking too much room in his chest. It feels like it took the empty space of his stomach and then some. It feels like he could cough it all up.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro repeats, and Kakyoin blinks his swollen eyes. Right, Jotaro called him. “Do you have your key?”

Kakyoin blinks before finally dropping his handkerchief from his face. They’re in front of his hotel room’s door, Jotaro looking at him steadily from under his hat.

Kakyoin averts his gaze, shoving his handkerchief into his pocket as he fishes his key out with his other hand.

“You don’t have to keep… being here,” he murmurs hoarsely as he slides it into the lock, and Jotaro shakes his head.

“I know,” is all he says. Kakyoin isn’t sure what to make of that response.

He opens the door and they both go inside, sighing in tandem. Kakyoin leans his crutches against the wall and wipes at his eyes before pulling his hair tie out, his shoulders slumping as his hair falls around his face. 

He looks up to see Jotaro looking at him. Embarrassment prickles along his skin, but he doesn’t turn away.

After a beat, Jotaro turns and heads to the bathroom. Kakyoin blinks at the sudden movement before he turns to toe off his shoes, something funny twisting in his chest when he places them next to Jotaro’s purple boots.

He can hear the shower turn on, and he assumes Jotaro is rinsing himself off after the beach. His own skin itches then, and he hisses, his body quickly remembering the scrapes he got from August, his arms and legs sore.

Kakyoin sighs, pulling his cardigan off, and he’s just slipping his shirt over his head when the door to the bathroom opens and Jotaro’s voice is calling, “I set up the shower, it should be warm-”

Kakyoin immediately shoves his shirt back down, heart pounding, wide gaze jerking to Jotaro. Jotaro’s lips are parted, brows pinched, as he stares right at Kakyoin’s lower chest – right where his scar from DIO is. Kakyoin’s skin prickles.

The silence stretches on, the sound of the shower blending into the sound of the rain, and Kakyoin crosses his arms tightly. Jotaro jolts, gaze snapping up to Kakyoin’s eyes, before he clears his throat and tugs the brim of his hat down.

“The… shower’s ready,” Jotaro stutters, “for… you…”

Kakyoin raises a brow. “Not you? I thought that’s what you were doing in there.”

Jotaro shrugs stiffly. “My coat’s waterproof. I can stand to stay in these clothes a little longer than you can in yours.”

Kakyoin sighs, conceding to the logic and pushing down the flare of indignation in his chest that wants to argue, if just because it’s familiar, that I can turn on a shower myself. “Okay,” he says. He pauses. He grinds his tongue against the back of his teeth. “... Thank you.” 

Jotaro blinks, as if surprised. Then he nods. “We’re… friends,” he says awkwardly, and any remaining irritation falls completely out of Kakyoin’s chest.

“We’re friends,” Kakyoin confirms softly before shaking his head. “Um. I’ll be quick.”

Jotaro shakes his head, gaze darting down to Kakyoin’s chest again, and Kakyoin hates the look on his face-

“It doesn’t hurt,” he says, and Jotaro looks back up at him. Kakyoin swallows thickly.

“It doesn’t?” Jotaro asks quietly, his voice raspy, and for some reason, the backs of Kakyoin’s eyes burn again. He wipes at them absently.

“It doesn’t,” he confirms, just as quietly. “Just my spine. But not the-” hole in my body. He pauses. “... Not the scar itself,” he says delicately.

Jotaro slides his gaze back down to his chest. It reminds Kakyoin of himself, when he found out about Jotaro’s pacemaker.

“Jotaro,” he says, but he’s not sure how to follow it up. Jotaro looks up at him anyway. “Jotaro,” Kakyoin repeats, just because he can, and Jotaro shivers, ducking his head and moving out of the bathroom doorway, a small step toward him.

“Kaky-”

“Noriaki,” Kakyoin breathes, not even thinking, “you can call me Noriaki,” and both stiffen.

Jotaro stares at him, mouth slightly opened, and Kakyoin fidgets.

“Because, I mean… We’re friends, right?” Kakyoin stammers out, the heat creeping across his cheeks nearly unbearable. Jotaro shuts his mouth, blinking, even as he continues staring intently at him.

“Yes… Um…” Jotaro ducks his head then. “Just… I- it’s- I’m not sure when I’ll get used to that,” he says awkwardly, and Kakyoin feels… warm.

“It doesn’t have to be immediately,” he says, and Jotaro looks up at him again. “Just… know you can.”

Jotaro’s gaze is intense, the ocean crashing onto sand like it's trying to carve it away, and Kakyoin feels caught up in it, sandwiched between grit and sea, and he shivers.

Jotaro seems to snap out of it then. He clears his throat, stepping aside, inclining his head toward the bathroom door. Kakyoin takes a breath and nods before he brushes past him and into the bathroom.

Jotaro’s warm, and even as Kakyoin finishes undressing and steps under the hot spray, his skin still tingles where his bare arm brushed Jotaro’s coat.

He showers quickly as he promised, gently rubbing soap into his scrapes and into his hair before rinsing it all summarily. He pats himself dry, only to realize he didn’t bring in his pajamas.

His face heats up but he rolls his eyes at himself. Jotaro’s seen him in just a towel before, on their journey. But still… His reaction to his scar…

Kakyoin brings his towel up over his chest and steps out. Jotaro glances up from where he’s sitting at Kakyoin’s desk, only to immediately duck his head, and Kakyoin twitches.

“All yours,” he says before hesitating, eyeing Jotaro’s bulk. “I… don’t know if I have anything for you to fit into-”

“It’s- it’s fine,” Jotaro strangles out, gaze still pointedly not looking his way, and Kakyoin purses his lips. “I have a change of clothes in my bag. You never know what can happen while on the field.”

Kakyoin snorts. “You mean the beach?”

Jotaro squints and finally turns to look back at Kakyoin. “The field.”

Kakyoin smiles. Jotaro clears his throat and stands up from Kakyoin’s desk chair, grabbing his backpack and heading into the bathroom, closing the door behind him.

Kakyoin lets out a breath and lets his towel fall, pulling on his pajamas.

He doesn’t need to wait long; Jotaro also showers quickly, it seems. Less than ten minutes in, after Kakyoin’s taken his evening doses of his medications, Jotaro comes out with damp hair in sweatpants and a t-shirt that Kakyoin thinks is emblemed with the name of his university, but he can’t drag his gaze away from the clear view of Jotaro’s eyes with his hat off to check.

Jotaro clears his throat as he hoists his bag onto his shoulder, glancing at Kakyoin up and down. “... Are you… feeling better…?” he asks stiltedly.

Kakyoin shakes his head, fondness easing the tension in his chest. “I’m fine,” he says softly, and Jotaro hums.

“Ah… I’m glad,” he says, before his gaze darts towards Kakyoin’s door, and Kakyoin frowns. “In that case, I can get out of your-”

“Wait-” Kakyoin’s saying before he can think, the word bursting out loudly, making both him and Jotaro jump. Kakyoin stumbles on his footing and Jotaro frowns, lurching toward him, but Kakyoin shakes his head, Hierophant appearing to wrap around his legs to help them keep his weight underneath him.

“Wait,” Kakyoin repeats, and Jotaro stares at him. The rain outside continues to patter, the world fully dark outside of Kakyoin’s window. Besides the bathroom light, his hotel room is dark along with it. Kakyoin can smell soap seeping from the shower, but if he focuses, if he keeps looking into Jotaro’s eyes, he can smell the ocean, too, the salt and seaweed from just this morning impressed upon his brain.

Kakyoin shifts his weight, teeth gnawing against the inside of his lip. He can’t tear his gaze away from Jotaro’s. “It’s… it’s late,” he says lamely, and Jotaro’s brows pinch, puzzled.

“Yes…?” He says. Kakyoin bites back an exasperated growl.

“Just- it’s-” Kakyoin sucks in a deep breath. “Do you- remember, on the journey, how we’d-” his voice catches “-how we’d share rooms?”

Jotaro’s brows lift. “Oh.”

Kakyoin tugs at his shirt, grinding his teeth against each other. “It’s- I mean- I just-” He sighs, emptying his lungs of all his breath. “I don’t want to- say goodbye yet.” He shudders harshly then, the vulnerability tasting like vomit against his tongue, but Jotaro drops the bag with a soft thud against the carpet, so Kakyoin swallows it back and keeps their gazes locked.

“Okay,” Jotaro says softly, and Kakyoin nods.

And despite everything, finding spots on the bed they’re comfortable with is easy. Kakyoin slips under the covers from one end of the bed, Jotaro on the other, and both settle easily. Kakyoin’s underneath both the comforter and sheet, Jotaro only underneath the comforter, and Kakyoin, after realizing this, tugs the sheet out from under Jotaro so he can maneuver it easier for himself. Jotaro huffs but moves willingly to let Kakyoin pull it away, and something in Kakyoin’s chest aches, as if something in his ribs has finally been satisfied.

Once they settle down, they find themselves staring at each other. Kakyoin’s too tired to feel properly embarrassed, but he can feel his body trying to be anyway, a small searing heat riding up along his spinal column before smothering out when it tries to branch further than the back of his skull. Jotaro’s eyes are heavy-lidded, but his gaze is focused, and Kakyoin wonders what time it is exactly, but he doesn’t feel the urge to check.

“Jotaro,” he mumbles, and Jotaro grunts in reply. “I… Are you alright?”

Jotaro sighs softly, turning over onto his side to fully face Kakyoin. He slowly brings his hand out toward Kakyoin’s, giving Kakyoin plenty of time to move. Kakyoin stays still, watching. Jotaro’s fingers wrap around Kakyoin’s hand and gently bring it over to him, pressing against his chest, and Kakyoin’s breath hitches in his throat. Past the bump of the pacemaker, he can feel Jotaro’s heartbeat, slow and steady and warm against his palm.

“I told you already,” Jotaro murmurs back, his voice husky with exhaustion, and Kakyoin shudders. “I forgive you.”

Kakyoin wants to ask why. He wants to ask how. He wants to ask about what else Jotaro’s been up to in the past ten years. He wants to ask about Jolyne, and even Enrica, despite knowing how that ended. He wants to ask about his studies and why he chose America for them. He wants to ask if he’s talked to Holly. He wants to ask if he’s scared. He wants to ask if he can help.

Instead, he asks, “Can I…?” and he leans up, slowly scooting over. Jotaro’s breath hitches, but he doesn’t move away. He’s still holding Kakyoin’s hand. Kakyoin’s skin buzzes.

Finally, he’s close enough that he can lean his forehead against Jotaro’s chest. He closes his eyes as his skull is gently rocked with the rhythm of Jotaro’s heart. It feels a lot like how drifting in the ocean did.

“Thank you,” Kakyoin says softly, his breath caught by Jotaro’s shirt and fanned back against his face.

Jotaro swallows, and Kakyoin feels it more than hears it.

“There’s nothing you need to thank me for,” he says hoarsely.

Kakyoin hums. “Thank you,” he repeats stubbornly.

Jotaro huffs out all the breath in his lungs. Then, slowly, he brings his hands up, resting them against Kakyoin’s back, and Kakyoin sighs, digging his head further against Jotaro’s chest as he wraps his own arms around Jotaro. It’s so much like the trip to Egypt, and yet, there’s no lurking dread – at least not the same kind there used to be. There’s no feverish uncertainty causing both of them to be constantly sweaty. There’s no heavy scent of smoke, just soap and Jotaro’s salty smell that Kakyoin thinks is just him. The room is no longer chilly with the middle of winter, but instead heated with the summer. But it’s still him, and it’s still Jotaro.

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin murmurs, and Jotaro grunts softly. “I’m… I’m so glad you’re alive.”

Jotaro goes still in Kakyoin’s arms, not necessarily tensing so much as just falling completely limp. Kakyoin would startle, but he can still feel Jotaro’s heartbeat against his forehead, pumping steadily against him, and Kakyoin feels a bit like he’s being hypnotized. For once, the thought of losing control doesn’t scare him.

He’s almost asleep by the time Jotaro finally responds by tightening his arms around him, curling up more into Kakyoin’s grip, and burying his nose into his hair, his exhale warming Kakyoin’s scalp. It reminds him of how Jotaro curled into his arms after Steely Dan, and his head swims.

Kakyoin opens his mouth, but he’s asleep before he can think of something to say.

Chapter 43

Summary:

Joseph glances at Jotaro again, who has gone very stiff beside Kakyoin. “...So I did have the right room?” He asks, and Kakyoin twitches.

“Did- did you need something, Mr. Joestar?” He sputters.

Joseph snorts a little then, waving a gloved hand. “Don’t worry, I won’t be in your hair long-” Kakyoin twitches “-I just wanted to let you know Avdol called. He wants your account of a standuser you fought yesterday.” Joseph frowns a little then, the amusement in his eyes fading. “... Are you two okay?”

“We’re- we’re fine,” Kakyoin stutters, face still red, “I’ll- I’ll call Avdol. Um. S-sorry to have made you, uh… Come down here…” Kakyoin winces.

Notes:

hiii everyone oh my god hi. god. "once every two weeks.... 👀 i think i can do" me when i lie

okay so actually i do think i can manage that and i will do my best to, it's jsut like. jesus man. february-march was one of the hardest months of my life it was really kind of insane so i jsut couldnt focus on writing. but! i'm back and at it <3 and i'm still determined to finish this fic before the anniversary at the end of june >:)

in the meantime im so sorry for leaving everyone hanging, i hope to make it up to you. thank you for reading and your patience, it means the world to me

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Chapter Text

Kakyoin wakes up to a knock at the door and arms still around him.

He lets out an irritated, wordless mumble, digging under the blankets a little more, keeping his eyes shut. The door’s locked… housekeeping will move along…

He takes a deep breath then, and gets a noseful of salt and soap, and his heart lurches so violently that he can’t help but squint his eyes open despite the fuzz of sleep still clinging to his brain.

He blinks sleepily, raising his head, trying a few times to focus his gaze before he can lock his eyes onto Jotaro. Jotaro is already awake, and is staring down at Kakyoin, lips parted, breathing softly.

Kakyoin blinks again, reaching up to rub at one of his eyes, letting his head fall back against the pillow. He combs his messy hair out of his face, letting out a soft hum.

“Morning,” he says softly, and Jotaro sucks in a breath to respond, still staring at him, when the knock comes again.

Kakyoin’s brows furrow and he glances over his shoulder at the door, which his spine does not appreciate, a small spark of pain striking him like lightning, making him hiss.

“It’s okay,” Jotaro says quietly, slowly sliding his arms away from Kakyoin, making him hum again. “I’ll see who’s at the door.”

Kakyoin mumbles an acknowledgement, nuzzling back into the pillows as Jotaro slides away, the mattress puffing up with a small creak as Jotaro sits up and stands. Kakyoin finds with a thrill that tingles along the shells of his ears down to his neck that his pillows smell like Jotaro. He digs his face a little further into the fabric as he hears the small creak of Jotaro opening the door.

Kakyoin closes his eyes again, even as the soft voices he can hear from the door scratch at his brain, plucking at his nervous system like a harp and strumming him awake.

He furrows his brows, digging his face even further into the pillows, but his free ear still picks up sound.

“What are you doing here?” Jotaro is asking, voice sort of high pitched. Huh, that’s weird.

“Hm…” A croaky, crinkled voice responds. “Did I mix up rooms? I could have sworn Kakyoin was on the first floor…”

Kakyoin snaps his eyes open. That’s-

“Jiji, why are you here?” Jotaro presses just before Kakyoin all but rolls out of bed, only saving himself from falling on his face with the help of Hierophant Green suddenly manifesting, keeping his faceplant limited to a sharp thud against the floor, before he rushes to the door, gently but firmly pushing Jotaro aside, staring at Joseph with his jaw mildly dropped. This is so fucking mortifying-

Joseph’s brows pinch, eyes squinting behind his spectacles, before he turns back to Jotaro questioningly, then back to Kakyoin. He looks him up and down, and Kakyoin can feel himself flush over his state of relative undress, sweat lining his brow.

Joseph glances at Jotaro again, who has gone very stiff beside Kakyoin. “...So I did have the right room?” He asks, and Kakyoin twitches.

“Did- did you need something, Mr. Joestar?” He sputters.

Joseph snorts a little then, waving a gloved hand. “Don’t worry, I won’t be in your hair long-” Kakyoin twitches “-I just wanted to let you know Avdol called. He wants your account of a standuser you fought yesterday.” Joseph frowns a little then, the amusement in his eyes fading. “... Are you two okay?”

“We’re- we’re fine,” Kakyoin stutters, face still red, “I’ll- I’ll call Avdol. Um. S-sorry to have made you, uh… Come down here…” Kakyoin winces.

Joseph smirks a little then, eyes crinkled behind his spectacles, and Jotaro moves to shut the door, but not before Joseph crows out, “No, no, I’m sorry to have interrupted!”

Kakyoin’s face feels like it’s on fire. “You- it- nothing- I-”

Jotaro slams the door shut and Joseph cackles behind it.

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth before turning to Jotaro, eyes wide. “I- we need to correct him-”

“He knows,” Jotaro, exasperated, sighs so gruffly it comes out as a growl, “He’s just being an asshole.”

Kakyoin twitches again. Jotaro sighs again, softer, moving just a little closer, and Kakyoin’s heart jumps, but he doesn’t move.

“Are you… feeling better? From last night?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin lets out his own sigh then, and looks up. Jotaro’s eyes look almost clear in the warm light of the morning that spills in from the window, like water in a glass or the foam of a wave, rather than the ocean itself. Contained, and warm, and tangible. His hair is tosselled from sleep, made worse with the fact he didn’t properly dry it the night before before going to bed, and Kakyoin swallows.

“Yeah,” he says softly. He fidgets then. “... I really didn’t mean to- have that happen. To fall apart on you like that.”

Jotaro stiffly shakes his head. “It’s fine.”

Kakyoin swallows again and continues, “But I meant everything I said.”

Jotaro goes still. Kakyoin echoes it, but instead of stiffening to maintain stillness, he goes lax, staring up at Jotaro. Jotaro meets his gaze, but his brows are pinched. Kakyoin wishes he knew what he was thinking. I’ve been wishing that a lot, lately.

Kakyoin clears his throat then, and Jotaro looks away. “I… I need to call Avdol,” he says apologetically, and Jotaro just jerks a nod. “And then – it’s Sunday, so I’m meeting up with Josuke and them all to train.” It’s also Reimi’s sleepover tonight…

Jotaro nods, glancing at the door, and Kakyoin’s chest constricts. I don’t want this to be over.

I don’t want to say goodbye yet.

His words from last night blink in and out of his skull like a firefly dancing in his brain, and Kakyoin can’t stop himself from reaching out and taking Jotaro’s hand.

Jotaro’s gaze snaps to his, and Kakyoin swallows.

His tongue is heavy with the weight of what it wants to say, pressing it down to the floor of his mouth, but his mind is completely blank, only thinking vaguely of salt and sea and how Jotaro’s curls rest against his forehead.

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro says softly, and Kakyoin regretfully lets himself slip out of his thoughts.

“Let’s talk again soon, okay, Jotaro?” Kakyoin says. Jotaro’s face pinches, and Kakyoin tightens his grip. “Jotaro?”

“Kakyoin,” Jotaro repeats, and Kakyoin twitches.

“Call me Noriaki,” he breathes, and it feels like a plea, making him shudder.

Jotaro swallows thickly. Kakyoin eyes the bob of his throat before snapping his gaze back to his eyes.

“Tomorrow some time. Noon, after your work at the beach. Is that okay?”

Jotaro stares at him a little longer before nodding his head.

Kakyoin lets out a breath, echoing the nod, and letting Jotaro’s hand slip from his fingers.

Jotaro stares at him for just a bit longer before moving and grabbing his things, and as he retreats back to the door with his bag over his shoulder, Kakyoin twitches before saying, “Jotaro.”

Jotaro halts, like Kakyoin demanded him to stop.

Kakyoin swallows. “Thank you. For staying with me.”

Jotaro is quiet, not looking back at him. Kakyoin feels like his heart is in his throat. The sun, where it streams in from the window and soaks into Kakyoin’s t-shirt at his back, is making him feel so warm.

“It’s… not a problem,” Jotaro says awkwardly, “... Kakyoin,” he addresses, as if unsure which name to use for him, before opening the door and stepping out, slipping away like a ghost.

It’s a good thing Kakyoin has a knack for holding onto ghosts, he thinks absently.

Kakyoin stares at the empty space, watching the door slowly light up as the sun continues to filter in, the dull ache in his back and legs getting louder and louder the more he stands, and yet he doesn’t move.

Finally, he takes a breath, runs a hand through his hair, and moves to his desk, sitting down gingerly. Hierophant hands him a hair tie and he smiles, patting his stand’s arm, before taking it and tying his hair back and away from his face.

He picks up his phone and dials Avdol’s number.

He moves through the security code easily, drumming his fingers against the table as the line is transferred.

Finally, Avdol’s voice picks up, “Hello?” and Kakyoin lets out a breath. Thankfully it wasn’t Akira, I don’t want to hear his voice so early in the morning…

“Avdol,” Kakyoin breathes, and Avdol hums.

“Kakyoin! How are you?”

Kakyoin can’t help but smile a little. “I’m alright. Joseph said you wanted to talk about the standuser?”

“Oh- that was fast. I only talked to Joseph just last night in your timezone,” Avdol chuckles, and despite the fact he can’t know how the ensuing conversation with Joseph occurred, Kakyoin still flushes again anyway.

“Guess he didn’t have anything else to do…” Kakyoin mumbles grudgingly before shaking his head. “How are you?”

Avdol hums softly. “Well… Akira is on his first assignment on his own, so I’m a little stressed out.”

Kakyoin bites back a snort, ignoring the deflection. “You know that’s not what I meant,” he chides lightly, and Avdol sighs.

“I’m… managing,” Avdol replies after a beat. “I’m- I’m sorry if I’ve made you worry about me-”

“None of that,” Kakyoin chides again. “You’re my friend. You’re my friend and I want to know these things.”

Avdol pauses before he says softly, “You’ve grown a lot, Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin’s lips part, but he can’t think of anything to say. He can still taste the mucus of his tears last night, the flavor of I’m sorry still on his tongue.

Avdol continues without him needing to.

“It’s… hard. I’m getting ready to follow up whatever’s going on in Italy – not any time soon,” Avdol hurries to assure when Kakyoin sucks in a breath, “just… getting ready to, in about a year or two.” Avdol sighs then. “But it means reading his field notes, and…”

Kakyoin winces. “Avdol…”

Avdol laughs softly. “He was so bad at it. The writing, I mean. In the handwritten versions, he has complaints about how boring it is.” His voice is so fond, but there’s an iron undercurrent of sadness, and Kakyoin’s chest aches. “He very clearly preferred creative writing to report writing.” Avdol pauses. “Did you know he wanted to be a comic artist?”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “I think he mentioned it once or twice,” he rasps.

Avdol lets out a breath. “Yeah.” There’s a beat wherein they both audibly collect themselves, taking deep breaths. Avdol clears his throat and speaks again, “But he got the reports in. So I’ve been studying them, and it just… it’s just a lot. But I want to make sure I do proper recon so it’s not… so I’m as prepared as possible.”

Kakyoin hums. “No, it- it makes sense.” He hesitates, then says, “I’m glad, even if- even if it hurts to read them.”

Avdol lets out a breath. “I’m just glad to have something of his.”

Kakyoin lets out a hum of agreement. It’s quiet for another beat, before Kakyoin pipes up, “Are you… You’re not going alone, right?”

“Not alone,” Avdol assured, and Kakyoin lets out a breath, the muscles in his shoulders relaxing. “Akira will likely still be under supervision when the time comes, so he’ll be with me. As well as the new standuser you’re handing over.” Avdol pauses. “Speaking of which…”

Kakyoin hums. “Right… Miss Matson. What did you want to know?”

Avdol sighs then, a bit exasperated, and Kakyoin’s mouth quirks up the smallest bit into a smile. “I want to know a little more about this belt mess. I know her stand power is to turn people into stuffed animals, so her having a whole belt of them is concerning. I need to know how I’m going to do rehabilitation for them…”

Kakyoin snorts, leaning back in his seat. “Well, in her words, ‘only three’ of them are people.”

“Really?” Avdol sighs with relief into the microphone, and Kakyoin can’t help but laugh a little, nodding despite their conversation being on the phone. “That is… that is a lot better than I was expecting. Based on what the agents told me yesterday, I thought- jeez,” he chuckles a little.

Kakyoin snickers, shaking his head. “I don’t blame you… I had the same thought when I first saw it.” He sighs then, wracking his memory. “I think she said she knew them, too. Family members.”

Avdol echoes his sigh, but it seems mildly relieved. “That’s… well, not good, but- much better than I was fearing.” He clicks his tongue then. “I was scared this would be similar to dealing with the D’Arbys’ collections.”

Kakyoin cringes as he groans, tingles going up and down his spine at the memory of being a doll. It’s fuzzy memories, not in the same way the fleshbud’s are, but strange, distorted, and smelling an awful lot like mothballs. Is that how it felt for Jotaro to be turned into a plush animal? “Jeez, no. I would have called you myself if it was that bad.”

Avdol snorts. “Well, thank you for clarifying.”

It’s quiet for a few beats then, only the crackle of long distance breaking the silence, and Kakyoin realizes he’s still sleepy, his lids heavy. He looks back at his bed, considering, then back outside. What time is it, even? Probably too late to go back to bed, but…

“Is there…” Avdol pipes up then, before trailing off, and Kakyoin refocuses.

“Hm?”

Avdol halts, audibly chewing on his words, before he speaks, “So… How are you? Since we last talked?”

Kakyoin’s brows pinch, lips parting, before a stone rolls its way into his chest, making his ribs creak.

I think we were all wrong. But we’ll fix it.

That’s right, Kakyoin recalls. The last time Avdol and I talked was… was when Jotaro showed me…

Why aren’t you scared of me? You should be.

Kakyoin lets out a shallow exhale. When Jotaro showed me time stop. “... A lot has happened,” he admits quietly, and Avdol lets out a soft noise of acknowledgement.

“... You asked me how I was doing, so it’s only fair I return the favor,” Avdol precedes, and Kakyoin snorts weakly. “So… How are you?” Avdol pauses for a beat. “How is Jotaro?”

Kakyoin sucks in a small breath. “That’s… yeah.” Kakyoin rubs at the bridge of his nose before bringing his fingers up to press against his eyelids, lightly. They’re still a little swollen from the other day’s crying. “I think- Uh, we’re friends again,” Kakyoin says.

Avdol lets out a choked noise and Kakyoin drops his hand, brows furrowing.

“What?”

“I- No, it’s just-” Avdol coughs a little. “I wasn’t- expecting that.”

Kakyoin squirms. The urge to be defensive rises up in his chest, but it doesn’t have enough fire to back it up – and beyond that, Kakyoin is tired, and he doesn’t- he doesn’t want to snap at Avdol. Not again. Not after everything. Not over something like this. “... I wasn’t really either,” Kakyoin finally admits in a murmur, and Avdol hums.

“What… happened?” He asks.

Kakyoin lets out a breath. “I don’t- we just-” flashes of Jotaro lying limp and still in a puddle of his own blood flicker in his mind, and Kakyoin shudders. “... With everything going on, with our- our stands, with the killer, with P-” Kakyoin’s voice breaks, but he continues, “- Polnareff-” Avdol takes a sharp breath “- I just- I just-” Kakyoin sighs. “... It put a lot of things into perspective. And I realized…” I don’t want to lose him.

Kakyoin doesn’t speak, but Avdol hums in understanding as if he did, and despite the vulnerability of being known like that, all Kakyoin can feel is warm.

“I see…” Avdol says. “... In a weird way, I’m… glad.”

Kakyoin thinks back to last night, and his eyes burn just a little, stinging due to their already-sore state. “Me too,” he says, his voice barely above a rasp. He’s scared it’ll break if he tries to speak louder. “I think- I think it’s what Polnareff would have wanted.”

Avdol takes a shaky breath. “Ah, Kakyoin…”

Kakyoin twitches. “You know you can call me Noriaki, right? We’ve been friends for ten years.”

Avdol gives a small laugh, and it’s mostly for show rather than out of any real emotion, but Kakyoin will take it. “And you know you can call me Mohammed, right?”

Kakyoin pauses. “Touché.”

Avdol chuckles again, a little more genuine, and Kakyoin relaxes back in his seat. “Well… I think that’s all on my end. It’s getting late for me,” he says apologetically, and Kakyoin nods his head despite them talking on the phone, glancing at the clock on his nightstand. Jeez, yeah, it’s coming up on midnight in Cairo… “Unless you had something you wanted to discuss?”

Kakyoin opens his mouth to assure him before his gaze lands on his cardigan from where he left it last night. It’s still in a pile near his duffle bag, where he had taken it off before his shower. Kakyoin purses his lips.

“Yeah, actually,” Kakyoin says slowly, “but it’s more of a question.”

“Yes?” Avdol asks, voice tilted with curiosity, and Kakyoin smiles a little, endeared.

“Do you know Miss Holly’s phone number?”

Avdol pauses, but after the muffled sound of him rummaging through some documents, he relays the number back to Kakyoin. They say their farewells, Kakyoin wishing Avdol a good night, and that they’ll talk again soon. Avdol responds in kind, and tells Kakyoin, “I’m really proud of you, Noriaki.”

It makes the breath hiccup in Kakyoin’s throat. Avdol hangs up before he can respond.

Kakyoin takes a moment to stare at his desk as the morning sun continues to rise, shining in through his window to warm his back up, his spine relaxing for once, and he blinks, shakes his head to try and rid it of the sleepy fog that’s trying to creep back in, and picks up the phone once more.

He dials Holly’s number and brings the receiver to his ear before he can psych himself out, but as it rings, he holds his breath, legs twitching a bit.

The phone clicks, and Kakyoin gets a wave of vertigo.

“Hello?”

Despite everything, she sounds the same. Her voice is slightly distorted due to the static of the call, but her intonation is the same, the strength in her voice the same. Kakyoin swallows.

“Mrs. Holly?”

Holly pauses for a beat, and Kakyoin can hear the gears turning in her head even over the phone. “... Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin lets out a shaky breath. “Yes, it’s me. I… I know it’s been a while.” He flinches; it’s an almost dismissive way to put it. Kakyoin called her probably three times since he left for college, and none of them in the last three years.

As forgiving to a fault as she always is, though, Holly just agrees easily. “It has! Are you well? You’ve graduated college, right? How exciting!”

Kakyoin swallows thickly. “Mrs. Holly…”

Holly pauses then. She takes a deep breath, and Kakyoin see any cheery smile she may have had dropping from her face. “Kakyoin… I appreciate you calling, but if this is about Pa- Joseph-”

Kakyoin seizes before shaking his head frantically. “I- No, no it-” He coughs, choking on his tongue, but over his ruckus he can hear Holly breathe out a sigh of relief.

“... Really?” She asks, that same relief palpable in her tone too, and Kakyoin nods despite himself.

“Really. I, uh…” Kakyoin sighs. “Mr. Joestar’s been relying on me a lot throughout this whole… issue,” he puts politely, and Holly snorts, and it makes him stop dead in his tracks because it sounds exactly like the sort of sardonic noise Jotaro would make as a teenager. He had always assumed he got it from the ever-absent Sadao Kujo, but the proof to the contrary just showed…

It reminds him of what he’s calling about, and he swallows thickly. “So I know everything, and, well, I don’t really want to talk more about it, either.”

Holly lets out another sigh, and there’s a slight rustle, like she’s nodding her head against the phone. “Okay. Good. I know people mean well, but…” Holly lets out a noise Kakyoin can’t really identify. “I just can’t stand to even think about him right now.”

Kakyoin winces just slightly. He hadn’t thought about how Joseph’s affair would affect Holly in all honesty – but now, well… “I think that’s pretty understandable.”

“You think so?” Holly sighs, before there’s that rustle again, like she’s shaking her head. “I’m sorry. Um, what did you call about? P- Joseph hasn’t been bothering you too much, has he?”

Kakyoin lets out a breath. “No, uh, I- It’s- It’s about Jotaro.”

Holly pauses. “You’re speaking with Jotaro again?”

Something in Kakyoin’s gut sinks at the question. Jotaro I swear , if you still haven’t talked to your mother-

“I’m so happy!” Holly cheers, and Kakyoin is wrenched from his thoughts. “He really must be doing better, then.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Have- has he talked to you?”

Holly hums. “Well… I’m not sure how much he’d want me to say. But yes, we’ve talked. It was… He was going through a pretty unique experience about six years ago, and-”

Kakyoin does the math and he jumps. “I- I know about Jolyne,” he blurts, heat immediately bristling up his spine over his awkward phrasing. I sound like I’m gossiping-

“You- Jotaro's talked about Jolyne?” Holly asks, before she cheers, making Kakyoin jerk away from the phone in surprise. “Oh, I’m so glad I don’t have to keep my cute granddaughter a secret then! Yes, he asked for my help when Jolyne was on the way, and then for a little bit after she was born. After that we’ve been talking like normal.” Holly pauses. “Well… I guess… not normal. I’m not sure what normal even is for us. But it’s… better.”

Kakyoin slumps in his chair, a knot between his ribs unraveling, allowing them to fully expand again as he takes a deep breath. “That’s- that’s so good to hear. I’m so happy for you, Miss Holly. I know you were-” Kakyoin bites his tongue, flashes blinking in his memory of Holly staring down at her tea as she admitted, I think he resents me. “... I know he was being difficult,” he says softly.

Holly hums, like the small buzz of a lightbulb as its glow shrinks down a bit. “Yes… I’m…” She takes a deep breath. “I’m sorry I put that on your shoulders, Kakyoin. It was unfair of m-”

“No!” Kakyoin cuts in, before flinching at his volume. “No, it-” he sighs, then. “It was… useful for me, to know he wasn’t just doing it to me,” Kakyoin murmurs.

Holly lets out a noise then, sympathy interlaced in the tone like the instrumental backing to a song. “Mm… Well, I’m still sorry. It was inappropriate. But I’m glad it didn’t hurt you.”

Kakyoin purses his lips before shaking his head. “Well, if you insist, I accept your apology.” Kakyoin takes a deep breath, then. “Um. But. Speaking of Jotaro and everything…”

Holly hums encouragingly. “Yes?”

Kakyoin holds his tongue between his teeth for a few moments before he swallows and speaks. “You’ve mentioned- so-” He sighs, and tries again. “So, Jotaro’s talking to us again. You mention him getting better. I think- I agree, but-” Kakyoin sighs. “Better from what?”  

Holly is quiet, and Kakyoin rubs at his eyes with his free hand.

“I mean- I just- I want to- I want to help him,” Kakyoin says, and it’s only as he says the words that realizes just how much he does, the restlessness and drive dawning in his chest with a small, not unpleasant squeeze. “But for a long time I thought he was avoiding me because he thought I was weak-” Kakyoin thinks of young, desperate, wounded 17 year old Jotaro saving Joseph and jumping out of an ambulance and bringing him down from the water tower, of Jotaro asking Kakyoin how he couldn’t be scared of The World, as if he couldn’t imagine not feeling that way, and he feels desperation slip into his throat, tight and locked around his vocal chords, “-but now I don’t think that’s the case.” If it did mean you looked down on me, why would you have taken me down from the water tower? “I know he’s scared- I know he overextends himself- But I don’t- I don’t know how to help him- M-Miss Holly, I want to help him-”

“Kakyoin,” Holly says softly, and Kakyoin shuts his mouth. He’s breathing heavily, he realizes, and he swallows, taking a deep breath and letting it out, resetting his lungs. Holly says nothing, letting him collect himself, and it makes Kakyoin swallow thickly when he realizes.

After a beat, Holly takes a breath of her own. “I agree. I used to think it – his… absence – was because he thought I was weak, too…” Kakyoin winces, again reminded of her words from those years ago. I couldn’t be enough for him. He shakes his head. “But I know that’s not the case now. I think…” Holly sighs and trails off.

Kakyoin waits patiently, his heart in his throat but not beating hard against his tonsils. The sun is high enough that it floods all into his hotel room, and he’s starting to get uncomfortably warm. Kakyoin remains where he is.

“When Jotaro called me about Jolyne – the pregnancy, I mean,” Holly says suddenly, and Kakyoin jumps, snapping back to the conversation, “he was- unsettled. I don’t really blame him; he was younger than I was when I had him, and I certainly was told by Pa- by Joseph how even that was too young.” Holly clears her throat. Kakyoin hangs onto every word, ignoring the small tingling of sweat beginning to form on his neck from the sun.

“So he was unsettled, and- looser, with his words,” Holly continues. “Do you know what he said to me, then?”

Kakyoin needs to swallow a few times to speak. “What?”

“He told me that he didn’t know how to protect her,” Holly says softly. “I told him he knew money wouldn’t be an issue, that she’d always be provided for, but he said that wasn’t what he meant.”

Kakyoin squints. “Did he say anything else?”

Holly hums. “Not much directly, but… I’m his mom. I know him.” She lets out a soft, dark chuckle then. “Despite his best intentions to throw me off.”

Kakyoin gives her some space, saying nothing. After a beat, Holly continues.

“I told him then that whatever he was thinking, we’d all be there for Jolyne, and he asked if that would be enough. He asked if he would be enough.” Holly lets out a sigh. “He moved on from there, but… Your question reminded me…”

Kakyoin can feel his thoughts racing, but he can’t make them out, the conscious part of his mind stuck on the image of Jotaro, 20 years old, calling his mother from the other side of the world about a pregnancy, a baby, scared and young. His heart aches.

“So yes,” Holly continues, voice hardly more than a murmur, clearly stuck in her own thoughts of the memory, “I think you’re right that it’s not about him seeing others as weak. I think… I think it’s more that he’s scared he’s weak. That he isn’t enough by himself.”

Kakyoin twitches, memories slamming into him.

You need to leave before you get hurt.

It- it was too dangerous. It is too dangerous.

I’ve gathered everyone because we need to protect the old man while he’s here.

You’re injured. Everything isn’t fine.

You were right that I keep getting innocent men killed.

If I had it my way, no one would have even known about it. But the SPW flapped their gums to Jiji and everyone once I told them about the- the diary, and so…

No wonder he tried so hard to get me to leave, Kakyoin realizes. This isn’t news to him, he’d figured out this much, but the confirmation, the final piece of the puzzle slotting into place, is-

“Right,” Kakyoin says softly, and Holly lets out a small noise.

“To help him with that, it’s hard because… I don’t know how to tell him that it’s true he’s not enough.” The bluntness of the statement wrenches Kakyoin out of his thoughts and back into the conversation, blinking rapidly. “But it’s fine he’s not enough, because he has others there to pick up his slack.” Holly sighs. “You know even sheepdogs need friends to protect their flocks? They can’t do it alone, even though it’s what they’re bred for.”

Kakyoin lets out a shaky breath. He can’t do it alone. That’s true. Kakyoin swallows. I just… need to get him to accept that.

He recalls their conversation the other day, on the beach. It was never just you. It doesn’t have to keep being just you.

Well, at least I’ve gotten a headstart on that… Despite it being a phone conversation, Kakyoin nods his head. He shifts his jaw, then nods his head again, more confident this time.

Jotaro… I’m not letting you stay alone ever again.

“Kakyoin?” Holly asks, and Kakyoin tunes back into the conversation.

“Sorry,” Kakyoin acknowledges, before clearing his throat. “Sorry, just thinking. I… I think you’re right.”

Holly lets out a sad noise then, a soft hum. “Oh, Jojo…” Kakyoin twitches at the nickname, remembering Jotaro’s reaction to him saying it just the other day. It’s been so long. “Well… if you agree too, I really think that’s the problem. I don’t talk with Mr. Avdol as much as I’d like to, or…” Holly sighs, then. “Or Polnareff-” Kakyoin flinches harshly “-as much as I would have liked, but they mentioned similar conclusions.”

Kakyoin takes a deep breath. “I’m… I’m sorry, I didn’t know you knew about Polnareff.”

Holly sighs. “Pa- Jos- … Papa told me,” she says softly. “Or well, made sure the SPW told me, since I can’t really… talk with him right now. But he said I deserved to know.” Kakyoin nods, swallowing thickly, before remembering it was a phone call.

“I see.” Kakyoin clears his throat again before chancing, “And… ah, I know you said you’re sort of sick of this, but for what it’s worth, I am sorry for Mr. Joestar’s- for what he’s done. To your family.”

Holly lets out a long sigh then, the seconds stretching on, and Kakyoin can imagine her shoulders slumping. He wonders if she’s grown her hair back out, or if it’s still in that pixie cut she had when he woke up from his coma. “Thank you, Kakyoin,” she says, “it means a lot coming from you.” There’s a small muffle from the speaker, and Kakyoin can imagine her shaking her head. “Mama and I have been there for each other. And Mr. Avdol’s been supportive, too.”

Something in Kakyoin’s chest loosens a little. “I’m glad to hear that.” He hesitates, before tacking on, “You deserved better. From him.”

Holly lets out a sigh again, shorter but tireder, and Kakyoin’s ribs creak. “Thank you, Kakyoin. But… I’m sorry, I’m not really- I can’t talk about it all right now.”

Kakyoin hums his acknowledgement. “Of course. Just… know you have people who care about you.”

Holly pauses. “Thank you, Kakyoin,” she says again, voice soft, and Kakyoin swallows thickly.

“Really, thank you,” Kakyoin says, and Holly laughs lightly. “I’m serious! Thank you,” he repeats, his ribs still creaking, this time from the vibration of his voice rattling between them. “For taking the time, for… everything.”

Holly pauses her laughter then, and Kakyoin swallows.

“I still have that cardigan, you know?” He tries to say conversationally, but his tone comes out a little strained. “And now, with Jotaro…” He swallows. “Thank you.”

Holly lets out a breath. “Kakyoin…” She pauses for a beat, as if finding her words. “I’m glad you called. And consider it me repaying my debt from when you went on the journey to save me.”

Kakyoin nods, a soft smile playing on his lips. “Alright.” He glances outside. The sun is inching ever further toward midday, the green grass of the hotel lawn bright to the point it almost hurts his eyes. It’s a beautiful day, not a cloud in sight after the storm from last night. He’s got some pocky he needs to pick up for Reimi’s sleepover – she decided against alcohol, but wanted to try as many new flavors of pocky as Kakyoin could get – and he finds he isn’t dreading the errand, with weather like this. He feels something settle inside of him, like a bird finally finding shelter from a storm and being able to rest its aching wings.

“And, Kakyoin?” Holly calls.

Kakyoin pauses. “Yes?”

“Stay in touch,” she requests, “don’t close me off like Jotaro did.”

Kakyoin exhales harshly. He remembers the realization he had with Rachel once – I’m treating her like Jotaro treats me – and he sees now that he did the same thing again, this time to Holly.

He swallows. “Of course,” he promises.

“And, Kakyoin?” Holly questions once more, her voice a little softer. Kakyoin hums. “Watch over Jotaro for me.”

Kakyoin exhales sharply, nodding his head before he even realizes he’s doing it, that restlessness pulling his ribs tight together again. “I will.”

Holly lets out a breath of her own. “Thank you.”

“Thank you.”

They hang up then, and Kakyoin glances outside once more. His bones feel solid, his ribs no longer aching under their own weight. He stretches his shoulders, then, with the help of Hierophant, stands, moving to the window.

It’s my turn to save you, Jotaro.

Chapter 44

Summary:

“Fine,” Reimi sighs dramatically, before turning to Kakyoin. “Mr. Kakyoin, I can help you if you tell me about Pink Dark Boy.”

Rohan jerks. “Wh- why does Kakyoin get a ‘mister’ but not- hey!”

Kakyoin chuckles, shaking his head. “Sorry, Reimi, but I’m not a big manga reader, and even if I was, it’s out of my age range, so I’m not sure about any details.”

Reimi sighs forlornly, plopping her chin down in one hand. “Ah, man. That’s too bad!”

Notes:

"okay so actually i do think i can manage [posting once every two weeks] and i will do my best to-" me when i fuckign lie AGAIN

hello everyone i hope you enjoy this chapter <3 i honestly. dont think i'll be back on track re posting until i graduate in TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD i spent my entire undergrad working on this fic. but anyway i probs won't get back on track re posting until i graduate BUT!!! once i do i will do my best to finish this fic before the anniversary. give me strength yall

in the mean time enjoy this <3 and i will answer comments and such soon! thank u all for being so patient with me sobs

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Chapter Text

Kakyoin gets to Reimi’s alleyway in the early evening, carrying shopping bags of various snacks in his lap as he rolls through in his wheelchair, a slight tingle going down his spine as he evidently passes past some threshold into the limbo space.

Rohan is already there, scowling over his shoulder at Reimi as he sets up a tent in one of the lawns, while she watches from the porch, her legs swinging back and forth, Arnold resting his head on her thigh, seemingly undisturbed from the movement of her kicking.

As Kakyoin approaches, Rohan turns his head, glancing at him. He lets out a grunt. “Oh, good, you’re finally here. Now someone can help me set up the rest of these tents,” he says pointedly, shooting a look toward Reimi.

Reimi just snickers, seemingly unbothered. “It’s not my fault you didn’t want my help! I said I would if you just told me about Pink Dark Boy.”

Rohan’s face flushes then, which makes Kakyoin blink – it’s an entirely foreign look on him – before he snaps back, “And I told you that it’s private.”

Reimi raises her brows, a smirk on her face. “It’s a published manga, Rohan, it’s not like it’s a diary!”

Rohan just flushes more. Kakyoin raises a brow at him, but he simply scowls and hands him a tent bag and two rolled up sleeping bags, taking the snacks from Kakyoin’s lap.

“Fine,” Reimi sighs dramatically, before turning to Kakyoin. “Mr. Kakyoin, I can help you if you tell me about Pink Dark Boy.”

Rohan jerks. “Wh- why does Kakyoin get a ‘mister’ but not- hey!”

Kakyoin chuckles, shaking his head. “Sorry, Reimi, but I’m not a big manga reader, and even if I was, it’s out of my age range, so I’m not sure about any details.”

Reimi sighs forlornly, plopping her chin down in one hand. “Ah, man. That’s too bad!”

Rohan scoffs. “I don’t get why you’re so interested.”

Reimi tilts her head. “What do you mean? Of course I’m interested. It’s yours.”

Rohan twitches and then turns, saying nothing. Reimi and Kakyoin exchange glances before Kakyoin clears his throat.

“Um… Where should I set this up?”

Reimi blinks before jumping up, Arnold startling at the sudden movement, letting out a small woof. “Oh, just on any of the lawns. Rohan got three tents.”

Rohan nods his agreement. “I figured we’d share a tent. Koichi, Okuyasu, and-” he wrinkles his nose “-Josuke will share too, and Yukako by herself.” He pauses. “Ah, Reimi, if you wanted to hang out in a tent, I assumed you could sit with Yukako.”

Reimi grins. “That’s fine! Maybe she’ll let me brush her hair, I’ve been drying to get my fingers in it. It looks so soft.”

Kakyoin purses his lips – going from resting with Jotaro on a proper bed to resting in a tent on the ground with Rohan isn’t exactly his idea of an upgrade, but…

He glances at Reimi, who hasn’t been able to stop smiling the entire time he’s been here, even with Rohan’s sourpuss behavior. It’s for her.

Kakyoin nods his head. “Sounds good.”

Rohan nods and moves to pitch the third tent, grumbling under his breath. Kakyoin snorts and moves to a free lawn – one of the few that doesn’t have a ton of clutter on it – and summons Hierophant. Hierophant unspools into numerous tendrils, taking the tent bag and swiftly unzipping it, bringing out the canvas, poles, and stakes.

With Hierophant, it takes all but a couple of minutes for the tent to be cleanly set up, his tentacles easily slithering in and out, guiding the support poles and smoothing the fabric. Kakyoin sets the now-empty tent bag and sleeping bags inside, before rolling back to where Reimi has moved to continue watching Rohan.

“Need any help?” Kakyoin asks, and Rohan scoffs, but he straightens from setting out the canvas.

“Be my guest,” he sighs, and Kakyoin chuckles.

“Don’t help him unless he tells me about Pink Dark Boy!” Reimi calls, and Rohan groans, whipping his head around to face her.

“There’s no way you can find this so interesting that you keep bringing it up!” He snaps, and Kakyoin has to smother a snort over how petulant he sounds.

Reimi raises her brows. “How would you know that if you won’t tell me enough to know if it is or isn’t interesting?”

“It is the most popular manga on the market right now, so it can’t not be interesting,” Kakyoin comments, and Rohan jerks his gaze to him, looking thoroughly betrayed, while Reimi chirps, pointing at Rohan.

“See? Mr. Kakyoin’s right! It’s worth badgering you about-”

“For goodness’ sakes-” Rohan groans before he jerks around to face Reimi. “It’s about a boy who gets caught in a strange mystery after his friend saves his life at the cost of her own!”

Reimi blinks, lips parting, while Rohan huffs, crossing his arms. “Are you happy now?” He grouches.

Reimi gapes at him for a moment. “Rohan… is-”

As if knowing what she was about to say, Rohan jerks before interrupting, “No, it’s not about you! The friend character wasn’t even supposed to be a woman at first, but my editor wouldn’t stop bothering me about-” Rohan shakes his head. “It’s not about you,” he snaps, his voice almost desperate, and Reimi and Kakyoin exchange glances. Kakyoin’s reminded of Rohan when they first met, his insistence to keep things realistic, to draw from the well of real experiences to do so. He purses his lips, but says nothing.

Reimi blinks at his outburst, glancing at Kakyoin again, visibly thinking, before she shrugs, turning to Arnold, giving him a scratch as his tail thumps behind him over the attention. “That’s all you had to say!” She says, before following up with, “It sounds interesting. I was right.”

Rohan groans before shoving the tent poles toward Kakyoin. “Will you let him help, now?”

Reimi raises her brows again before she chuckles. “You’re acting like you did as a kid.” Rohan bristles, but Reimi continues, “Yeah, you can help if you want to now Mr. Kakyoin,” and Kakyoin snorts and summons Hierophant.

In only a minute, the third tent is also set up, and Rohan sets back with a groan on the grass, rubbing at his eyes. Reimi gets up to join him, and Arnold lumbers after her, resting his big head on her leg when she settles down. He sniffs at Hierophant’s tentacles as they retreat, which makes Kakyoin twitch, but he does nothing more.

“Thanks for setting up the tents, Rohan,” Reimi says, and Rohan just waves a hand, grumbling incoherently. “You too, Mr. Kakyoin,” She adds, and Kakyoin just nods his head at her, unable to bite back a small smile.

Reimi’s in an exceptionally good mood today, practically glowing even as she just sits on the grass, the grocery bag still in her hands.

“When did the others say they were gonna get here?” Reimi asks, and Kakyoin hums, glancing at his watch.

“Should be soon,” he says, “it’s already almost four.”

Reimi nods, her smile growing, and Kakyoin can’t help but echo it.

Arnold thumps his tail, and even Rohan seems to pick up on the good mood, as he wordlessly moves and scratches behind the dog’s ears, which makes his tail wag harder.

Not much longer later, there’s the small crunch of gravel from the mouth of the alley, and Kakyoin turns his head just in time to see Koichi, Josuke, Okuyasu, and Yukako all march out, various grocery bags of their own in their hands, save for Okuyasu, who is holding a leash instead, Pochi trotting along happily.

Arnold jumps up at the sight of the other dog, and Reimi laughs, delighted, as he bounds away and straight toward him, tail wagging so hard it’s a blur.

Pochi jumps when he sees Arnold approach, shrinking back against Okuyasu’s leg, and Okuyasu and Koichi coo at him to support him as Arnold finally arrives, jumping down into a play position that quickly becomes sniffing at Pochi’s paws. Pochi bounces from paw to paw, seemingly startled over the other dog’s choice, but Arnold keeps at it before he sneezes and backs away. Pochi blinks at him, and Kakyoin has never seen a dog with an expression so blatantly confused since Iggy.

A chord strums in his chest, not unpleasant, but an ache all the same.

Reimi gets up then, running over to help with the grocery bags, and Kakyoin and Rohan exchange glances, Rohan huffing as he sits up from his lounging position.

“You guys made it!” Reimi cheers as she offloads some bags from Koichi, gently tugging Arnold away to give Pochi some space, who begrudgingly listens.

“Of course!” Koichi replies, smiling, while Yukako nods at her, a soft smile on her own face.

“We wouldn’t miss it for the world,” Yukako says, and Reimi beams so brightly that Kakyoin needs to squint.

Reimi grabs Yukako’s hands and jumps, before tugging her along, calling over her shoulder, “Come on, let’s drop the bags off! I wanna see what you guys got.”

Josuke snorts, eyeing Arnold as he stares intensely at Pochi from a distance of a meter. “Are they… going to fight?”

“Hm?” Reimi hums, looking back. “Oh, no, Arnold is just excited. He hasn’t seen another dog longer than I’ve seen another person, after all.”

Kakyoin winces. Okuyasu just laughs, patting Pochi’s head, which makes the dog visibly relax.

“I think Pochi is too scared to start a fight anyway. Remember what I told you when Koichi and I first met him? He just ran, at least up until his friend got in the mix,” Okuyasu explains.

Josuke hums, staring down at the dogs, eyeing the way Pochi inclines his head so Okuyasu can knead the back of his floppy ears better. Arnold is still staring intensely, and lets out a small whine. Pochi opens his eyes back up and, as if given courage by the scratches, slinks out past Okuyasu’s side and gives him a small sniff in greeting, which makes Arnold so happy his body vibrates with the force of his tail wags.

Josuke shakes his head, then. “If you’re sure.”

“Guys!” Reimi calls from the lawn where she had pulled a dining table out of one of the abandoned houses, setting the grocery bags on top. “Come on, put your bags down!”

Okuyasu chuckles, nudges Josuke, and unhooks Pochi’s leash. “Have fun, Pochi,” he says, but Pochi is too busy sniffing intensely at Arnold’s neck, and Kakyoin wonders, suddenly, what a ghost must smell like, let alone a ghost dog. He wrinkles his nose at the thought before moving and joining the rest at the table.

Reimi is bouncing on the balls of her feet, her grin stretching to the point Kakyoin’s cheeks ache in secondhand exhaustion as everyone sets their bounties down. Reimi has retrieved the pocky sticks he brought, Kakyoin sees.

“Mr. Kakyoin was nice enough to get a bunch of pocky for us to play that fortune game with,” Reimi starts, dumping out the stash. Lots of strawberry flavor, both the thinner kind Reimi already had and the newer one with strawberry chunks in the coating, with some chocolate and almond flavors to boot. Okuyasu’s face lights up when he sees the almond kind, and Kakyoin smiles to himself, pleased. “What about you guys?” Reimi asks.

Yukako goes first, pulling out her cache. “I got a bunch of sodas. You can do some fortune game with the tabs that supposedly tells you what your future husband’s name is going to be.”

Reimi chuckles. “Do you know who you want as a husband, Yukako?”

Yukako and Koichi both jerk their gazes away from each other unsubtly. “Um- not really,” Yukako says, bringing her hand up to comb through her hair. “I used to think about it more, but…”

Reimi snickers, lightly pushing her shoulder. “I’m just teasing, it’s okay.”

Josuke clears his throat, pushing his own bag forward then. “Okuyasu and I asked Tonio to make something for dinner… He said you can do some sort of divination with the spices, so you should be able to eat if we do that.”

Reimi chirps happily. “I’ve never had real Italian food before… that’ll be fun! Thank you, Josuke, Okuyasu.”

Josuke blinks at the gratitude, before he smiles a little, nodding his head.

“No worries!” Okuyasu chimes in then, lugging his arm around Josuke’s shoulders. “It’s what friends are for!” Josuke’s smile transforms into a full-on grin as he reciprocates the movement, wrapping his own arm around Okuyasu.

Reimi’s smile somehow gets wider and she nods her agreement. They turn to Koichi then, who smiles a little bashfully, dumping the contents of his own bag.

“It’s not food, but… I figured it must get a little boring here when you’re not training or when Mr. Rohan isn’t visiting,” Koichi begins, “so I brought my mom’s old CD player and some cards and stuff… Since you seem into fortune, I got you tarot cards?”

Kakyoin jolts, which earns him a look from Rohan, but everyone else is preoccupied by Reimi’s delighted clapping as she says, “I’ve always wanted tarot cards!! Thank you, Koichi!”

Yukako and Okuyasu crowd around Reimi to awe at the art on the tarot cards while Josuke peers over Koichi’s shoulder. “What CDs did you bring?”

Koichi shrugs. “Whatever my sister had. She’s into a lot of western bands, she’s kind of an otaku. Pink Floyd, Prince-”

Josuke’s eyes light up. “I love Prince!”

Kakyoin can’t help but smile as the excited teenagers continue talking, even as two conversations begin to develop at once.

“Noisy…” Rohan sighs beside him, tone light despite his words, and Kakyoin laughs lightly.

“Just means they’ll tire themselves out by a reasonable time for bed,” Kakyoin comments, and Rohan snorts.

“With all that soda and candy? Please. They’ll go on into the night.”

It’s Kakyoin’s turn to sigh now, almost bordering on a groan. “Shit. You’re right.”

Rohan sends a sharp, amused smile his way then, and Kakyoin wonders when the last time he’s felt so at peace was.

Koichi sets up the CD player at a respectable volume, starting with Prince at Josuke’s request and Reimi’s approval, before the kids scramble to do some fortune telling with the pocky, Reimi eager to try the new strawberry flavor, among the others.

“Okay, who wants to go first?” Reimi asks, before turning to Yukako anyway. “Yukako?”

Yukako hums, glancing at the boys, who all shrug, before nodding her head. “Sure. How does it work?”

“Just break off the tip. The way it cracks can tell me something,” Reimi says.

As they settle around the dining table in the grass, Arnold wanders over, Pochi at his side. They glance at Reimi, sniffing at the pocky while she laughs and bats them away, before they go back to sniffing each other and exploring other yards together. 

Reimi pulls out a pocky and offers it to Yukako. Yukako pauses for just a moment before she reaches out and snaps it off.

Reimi turns to the remaining half in her hand, scrutinizing it. “Hmm…” She snaps with her free hand. “You’ll get a good job offer after high school!”

Yukako blinks. “Eh- really?”

Reimi nods. “Yeah! Or, it might be university. See, these lines here…”

And so it goes. Koichi gets a fortune about puppies, which makes him blanch at the idea of Police, in his old age, fathering a litter, before Okuyasu pipes up with, “What if it’s Pochi’s puppies?” before he frowns. “Wait, is Pochi neutered? I can’t believe I haven’t checked.” Thus spawns a race to pin down the dogs, which Arnold and Pochi take as an invitation to play, barking and running and jumping out of everyone’s arms as they happily get chased around, before finally they confirm Pochi has, indeed, been fixed, likely as part of a street dog program – no puppies for him, Kakyoin thinks with a soft chuckle.

After the debacle and they all resettle, Okuyasu goes next. Reimi frowns at the half that remains in her hand for a moment. “Um… cat.” She glances at Pochi, who is laying down, panting, next to Arnold. “Is he good with cats? Because you’ll get a cat soon.”

Okuyasu laughs. “ Is he? His best friend is a cat!”

At Reimi’s questioning hum, Okuyasu launches into the tale of Pochi, Taro, and Tonio, with Koichi and Kakyoin both piping in every once in a while. Even Rohan looks interested, humming thoughtfully when the story finishes. “Interesting… so animals can have stands.”

“I still can’t believe I got such a short end of the stick on that day,” Josuke grumbles. “Those goddamn rats Mr. Jotaro and I dealt with were such assholes!”

Kakyoin blinks, his memory needled. Mr. Jotaro called him like, a day after you gave us Sunday off. Said he had to go ‘hunting’ or something.

“Oh?” Kakyoin asks, and Josuke groans.

“It was really gross… and Mr. Jotaro kept stressing me out.” Josuke sighs. “He’s too comfortable with the fact Crazy Diamond can heal him…”

Kakyoin sits up a little straighter. “Pardon?”

Josuke blinks at the sudden change, and the air in the group shifts a bit. “Ah… I just mean… He was being pretty reckless. I’m glad he was treating me like an adult, but jeez.” Josuke shakes his head. “It’s not as funny as the Pochi story. But I guess I did learn how to fire bullets with Crazy Diamond.”

Kakyoin blinks. “Huh?” echoes around the circle, and Josuke smirks a little at the reaction before shaking his head. Where on earth did Josuke get a bullet?

Josuke sighs before he rubs his eyes. “Mr. Jotaro had them. Guess he brought them from home for some reason.”

Kakyoin blinks – he never would have imagined Jotaro having bullets. He makes a mental note to ask him about this next time they talk.

The conservation moves on, and Reimi turns to Josuke then. “Well, Josuke, it’s your turn,” she smiles, and Josuke hums, glancing at Okuyasu before reaching out and snapping the pocky in half.

“Hmm…” Reimi draws back to study it while Josuke hands her back the piece he broke off.

“I like just the normal chocolate ones,” he murmurs in explanation to Okuyasu, who clicks his tongue.

“Boring!” Okuyasu ribs, lightly elbowing Josuke, which makes him grin, reaching out and pulling Okuyasu half into his lap with a sudden headlock. “Hey!”

“Boys,” Reimi chides lightheartedly, before she clears her throat and Josuke lets go of Okuyasu, who pushes him, which only causes him to snicker. Okuyasu pointedly does not separate from his position half in Josuke’s lap. Kakyoin raises his brows, but says nothing.

Reimi turns to Josuke then, addressing him directly. “Be brave, Josuke,” she says, “the sticks say you’re going to face your biggest fear soon.”

Josuke blinks at that, expression blank. “Eh?”

“What even is your biggest fear?” Okuyasu asks, and Josuke looks down at where he sits, before seemingly realizing how intimate the position is and he shoves Okuyasu off, coughing slightly, not looking around to the others in the circle even as Okuyasu squawks. Kakyoin purses his lips. They really aren’t subtle.

“When we first met,” Koichi recalls, tapping a finger to his chin, “you were trying to get over your fear of turtles or something, right?”

Yukako chokes on her soda. “Turtles?”

“That’s not-” Josuke scowls at Yukako. “What’s that supposed to mean? And, anyway, it’s not- it’s not turtles specifically, just…”

Rohan leans forward slightly, attention evidently piqued, and Kakyoin smothers a snort in his chest.

Josuke squirms, his scowl darkening. “I don’t like reptiles in general, okay? Their skin-” Josuke cuts himself off with what seems like an involuntary gag, based on how wide his eyes are. He covers his mouth and shudders. Okuyasu laughs out loud, lugging an arm around Josuke’s shoulders. Kakyoin is reminded of Jotaro’s ex – Enrica – and how one of the only things he knows about her is that she’s a herpetologist. Kakyoin shakes his head. No time to think of that now.

“I don’t like their eyes, or their mouths, and their skin is so-” Josuke shudders. Okuyasu is still laughing, but he doesn’t seem to care, as he glowers at everyone else in the circle instead. “They’re just gross.”

Yukako raises her eyebrows high while Reimi snickers. “I never would have guessed,” she says, blasé, and Josuke sneers.

“As if you all don’t have weird shit you’re afraid of,” Josuke spits, crossing his arms, the picture definition of an embarrassed teenager.

Rohan pipes up then. “Can you give more specifics? What about them do you not like?”

Josuke squints at him. “Why the hell do you care, Mr. Rohan?”

Rohan shrugs. “My manga is in the horror genre. I’m always looking for monster design ideas.”

Josuke scoffs. “Look at a lizard yourself and try to figure it out.” Rohan scowls, but Reimi lets out a noise before he can say anything more.

Evidently she’s tried the thicker strawberry pocky, now that it’s been associated with the occult, and she lets out a happy chirp as she pops another into her mouth. “These are really good!”

The tension diffuses as fast as it arrived, and they all try some pocky then, even Kakyoin – but he only takes a nibble, squinting at the nutrition stats on the box as he calculates how much he could handle of something with so much sugar before his stomach – or lack thereof – tried to kill him from the inside out, and comes to the conclusion “Not much.”

As Reimi chows down, she waves a hand at Josuke in reassurance. “Don’t worry, Josuke,” she says, voice a little muffled with her cheeks full of sweets, “whatever the fear you’re about to face is, we’ll all be there with you.”

Josuke blinks at the promise, lips parting, before he jerks his gaze around. Okuyasu squeezes his arm around Josuke’s shoulders, Koichi smiles at him, and Yukako shrugs nonchalantly, as if to say, Why wouldn’t we be?

Josuke blinks again, and glances at Kakyoin. Kakyoin remembers their promise, again – You need to trust me more. And I…I need to trust you more, too – and all that’s happened since then. Asking for help… It's not a bad thing. Please don't ever think it's a bad thing.

Kakyoin gives Josuke a small, encouraging nod.

Something shifts behind Josuke’s eyes, gears slotting into place, rocks crunching together to form a new, stronger whole, and all he does is nod in return, to everyone. “Y… Yeah.”

Unaware of the shift, Reimi just nods in satisfaction, and swallows her mouthful.

Kakyoin clears his throat then, moving to the food Okuyasu and Josuke brought. “Alright, you guys should have a real dinner before you ruin your appetite with all that candy.”

Reimi scowls. “Pocky isn’t c-” she pauses. “Wait, is it?” She turns to face Yukako. “Is pocky candy?”

Yukako blinks at her. “I mean.. Isn’t it in the candy aisle at the convenience store?”

Reimi gapes. “Wait- I think you’re right. I don’t remember if it was in a different place in my time, but-” Reimi sighs loudly. “Ugh, dammit, I think you’re right.”

Kakyoin just snorts, and hands the food over to Josuke and Okuyasu. “Here, I assume Tonio taught you how to do the fortune thing?”

They nod, pulling out the food and squinting at the pattern of spices on the chicken and noodles, whispering to each other about meanings. Kakyoin shakes his head, suddenly reminded of the interpretation games his professor in archaeology would have him and his peers do.

“Wait, before we eat,” Reimi says, turning to Rohan and Kakyoin, “or- we don’t have to eat these, but I want you guys to have your fortunes read too. That way we’ll all have gotten them.”

Rohan raises a brow. “Didn’t we already get our fortunes read back when we first found the alley?”

Reimi stares at him, hard, as she offers him the box.

Rohan sighs before snapping the piece off, and Reimi studies it before turning to him and saying, “Fire?” which makes Josuke flinch and Rohan squint at him, for reasons Kakyoin can’t decipher, but is no less amused by. Reimi frowns, squinting at the pocky. “Or, not fire… just that you’ll get burned.” Josuke lets out an unsubtle sigh of relief, but before Kakyoin can ask, Reimi raises an eyebrow at Rohan as she asks in a slightly chiding voice, “Rohan, are you not careful around stoves?”

“Of course I’m careful around stoves,” Rohan snaps, and Kakyoin has to bite back a chuckle over how childish he sounds.

“Well, you better be more careful!” Reimi chides, and Rohan scoffs.

“Fine, fine, if it’ll get you off my back,” he says dismissively, but Reimi smirks, knowing a win when she gets one.

She turns to Kakyoin then. “Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin lets out a good-natured sigh before he snaps the pocky and hands it back to Reimi. She studies the pieces, brows pinching, before she scowls. “It’s the same as last time!” She complains.

Kakyoin wracks his brain, but he can’t remember. “What was that, again?”

Reimi huffs. “That you’re in love! Or are going to be very soon.”

Kakyoin jolts. Right, I completely wrote that off last time, but-

He can’t help that he thinks of Jotaro, and how Joseph found them just that morning and his stupid idea of a joke about it, and Avdol saying he’s glad they made up, and sea salt and deodorant and aftershave-

Reimi’s brows raise at the difference in reaction. “Mr. Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin jolts again. “I-”

Reimi smiles then, widely, looking like a cat that caught the canary. “Is it right? My fortune?”

Kakyoin jerks his gaze away, only to see Rohan also raising his brow at him.

“I just-”

“Food’s ready!” Josuke calls, still squinting at the spices, brows pinched and a small frown on his face. Kakyoin takes the opportunity and turns from Reimi and Rohan and their questions.

“What- uh-” he coughs. “What did the spices say?”

Josuke’s lips purse while Okuyasu answers, “Uh, something about me making a choice?” Okuyasu shrugs.

Josuke shakes his head. “It’s vague on purpose. That’s how all fortune telling is,” he sighs.

“Hey!” Reimi chides, “Not mine.”

Josuke purses his lips. “You told me I was facing a fear, it couldn’t even name a specific one.”

Reimi scowls. “There’s only so much to tell with pocky. Something more comprehensive would tell you more, like, I don’t know, palm reading, or tarot cards.” Kakyoin jolts again, thinking back to Avdol and his cards, thinking back to Enyaba and hers-

He shudders, the echoes of her voice as she read his fortune for him back when he was under DIO ringing around his skull. You haven’t named your stand, have you? She had asked, before having him draw a card. The Hierophant… That’s good. A god needs a priest.

She had only ever called him Hierophant then, but Kakyoin had tacked on the addition – Hierophant Green one of the only forms of rebellion the fleshbud let him have. My stand. Mine. Not yours, and not DIO’s.

Kakyoin shakes his head, shuddering again, before he turns back into the conversation. Reimi and Josuke have moved on to bickering about crystals, Okuyasu and Yukako watching like it’s a sport, while Koichi is handing out portions of the food Tonio made.

“I’m just saying crystal balls are-”

“And I’m saying crystallomancy is more than just crystal balls!” Reimi scowls. Rohan silently takes out a notepad and makes a note, and Kakyoin can’t help but snort.

“Okay, enough,” Kakyoin steps in then, Reimi and Josuke snapping their heads toward him, but Okuyasu, as if finally seeing the plate in front of him past his staring at Josuke, immediately grabs his utensils and begins to dig in. “Let’s eat.”

Koichi and Yukako follow in Okuyasu’s footsteps, and Reimi and Josuke, tuning back to the world around them beyond their argument, glance at each other before seeming to come to an agreement about postponing the fight, and begin picking at their food too.

Reimi hesitates once she has a piece of chicken close to her mouth, looking nervously up. Okuyasu and Yukako nods at her encouragingly, and Reimi adjusts her jaw before leaning forward and taking a bite-

And it goes in instead of phasing through her, and Reimi blinks in surprise, before her face lights up and she begins chewing. “Mm!”

Kakyoin can’t help but chuckle, but his smile is wide, genuinely, as Reimi swallows and follows up with, “This is so good!”

“Right?” Okuyasu laughs. “Tonio’s the best!”

Yukako hums as she swallows her own mouthful. “I always forget how good the food is. My memory always dulls it.”

Koichi laughs, lightly nudging her, and Yukako jolts before smiling at the show of comradery. “Must be your brain’s way of trying to save your wallet.” Yukako barks out a laugh.

Kakyoin snorts, the comment making him realize he’s never actually paid Tonio, all the times he’s eaten with him being… extraordinary circumstances – so he doesn’t actually know what his pricing is like. He hums as he swallows his own bite of chicken. Can’t be that expensive if students can go to his place somewhat regularly. I should try and actually buy from him for once…

Reimi scarfs down her portion in a way that is decidedly dog-like, and Kakyoin almost opens his mouth to tell her to slow down or she’ll give herself a stomachache, but then he remembers, like himself, she doesn’t have one – not anymore.

It’s at the sobering realization that Reimi finishes, wipes her mouth, and promptly bursts into tears.

The table erupts, Yukako, Rohan, and Okuyasu immediately standing and moving to her sides, while Koichi, Kakyoin, and Josuke watch in stunned silence.

“Reimi, are you okay?” Yukako asks as she gently puts her hands down on Reimi’s shoulders, and Reimi dives into her arms then, still crying.

“I’m- I’m s-sorry, I’m fine, I j-just,” Reimi gasps, sobs breaking up her words, before she shakes her head. “This is so embarrassing!” She wails. Kakyoin and Rohan exchange alarmed looks.

“Reimi-” Rohan starts to say, but Reimi shakes her head.

“I’m just- I haven’t-” she lets out a small, keening whimper, and Kakyoin feels his ribs snap. “It’s been so long since I had anything to eat but just candy, and now I get real food again, and it’s new food, and I have friends again, and-”

Kakyoin’s gut lurches once again at the reminder of how young she is, and how unlucky she is despite it.

“Reimi…” Okuyasu says softly, his low voice rumbly, but Reimi shakes her head.

“It’s not a bad thing- I pr-promise, I just-” she hiccups, and it halts her cries long enough for her to get out, “I’m just s-so happy.”

Yukako tightens her arms around her then, her expression hardening into something like determination, but Kakyoin can’t dissect it further before she buries her face in Reimi’s shoulder. Okuyasu hugs both of them then, making it a group hug, and Rohan awkwardly remains close, not joining but not leaving.

Kakyoin gets up then, rolling over to join them, ignoring the tangle of grass around his wheelchair with some help from Hierophant, and Koichi and Josuke follow, moving to join Okuyasu in making it a group hug, the girls in the middle. The dogs, as if sensing the mood change, amble over from where they were resting, Arnold whining softly. Reimi’s hand flops out from the arms around her, and Arnold nuzzles it. Reimi, her voice muffled, laughs wetly, and everyone echoes it, the tension diffusing even if the mood is still somber.

For a few minutes, there’s nothing but the radio Koichi set up earlier, Reimi’s dwindling cries, and the chorus of crickets and cicadas filling the summer night as dusk approached, overlaying everything in a thick purple blanket of fading heat.

Kakyoin rubs his eyes, before scanning the table. He catches sight of a box of pocky, and he reaches for it.

The rattle of the box draws attention, and finally, after some shuffling back from the hug, Reimi appears again, her eyes red and wet, but no longer actively crying.

“You still have more food to try,” Kakyoin says softly, holding up the box – the almond kind that Reimi hasn’t gotten to yet – “It’s not over.”

Reimi smiles a little then, nodding her head.

Rohan hesitates, before he takes the pocky from Kakyoin’s hands, pulls out a stick, and offers it to Reimi. “Ah… First, though, break this.”

Reimi blinks, looking up at Rohan. “Rohan?”

Rohan squirms, just slightly, before he says, “You said earlier everyone should get their fortunes read. So…”

Reimi stares at him. “But… Would it even work? I’m-” she sucks in a harsh breath “-dead.”

They all wince at that, but Rohan presses onward. “You won’t know until you try, you know. Come on. You didn’t make me learn how to do it as a kid to not practice it.”

Reimi blinks again. “You… you remember that?”

Rohan shrugs, trying and failing to look nonchalant. “I didn’t. But… seeing you do it so many times reminded me.”

Reimi stares at him a little long before turning to the stick and breaking it. Rohan takes both halves from her for a moment, staring long and hard. It’s not quite quiet, due to the chorus of insects and the dogs panting in the heat, but Kakyoin can’t focus on them like he focuses on the same piece of candy.

Finally Rohan squints before he says, “Victory.”

Reimi blinks before Rohan hands the sticks to her to double check. She eyes it, brows pinching, before she looks back up to Rohan. “Huh…” she says thoughtfully.

She looks around then, at all her friends, and when she catches Kakyoin’s eye, he smiles at her.

Reimi looks back down at the pocky, before popping one half into her mouth, chewing with a crunch. “So I win something, huh,” she says, her eyes gleaming, and the air charges once more with an upbeat air.

A new song begins playing on the CD player, and Reimi turns back to her friends, the wetness drying from her eyes. “Hey… I’ve been thinking,” she starts as she rubs at her eyes. “You guys know how your stands have names?”

The children all perk up at this, and Kakyoin can’t deny that his interest is piqued too. Funny how I was remembering how Hierophant Green got named, and now this…

“I know you’ve been thinking about it,” Yukako says, “did you find one?”

Reimi smiles then, summoning her stand just enough for a black smoke to wisp around her back without fully activating it. Kakyoin can’t help but beam – she’s come so far in her training.

“Yeah,” Reimi answers, her smile stretching. “I was thinking… ‘The Show Must Go On?’”

The children all erupt into cheers and compliments over the name, and Reimi’s grin stretches wider. She glances back at him and Rohan, and Kakyoin gives her an approving nod, while Rohan gives her a rare smile.

“It’s pretty apt,” Kakyoin says, and Reimi smirks, and turns back to her friends.

“Ah… I’m sorry about earlier,” she says, her bravado deflating a little.

Yukako shakes her head while Okuyasu says, “It’s okay!”

Reimi smiles weakly, and Kakyoin clears his throat.

“Come on, the rest of you need to finish eating.” He tilts his head toward Reimi. “As for you, let’s try out some soda, yeah?”

Reimi’s smile widens, and with the music accompanied with the nightlife, a chorus of the children’s laughter and talk fills the air. Between this night and the one he had just the other day, Kakyoin can’t remember the last time he felt so content, even during the journey to Egypt.

As he watches Josuke and Okuyasu cheer on Koichi chugging a soda can like it’s a beer, Yukako and Reimi whispering and giggling and sitting way too close considering the heat, Rohan squinting harshly as he tries to sketch in the fading light, Kakyoin finds he wouldn’t have changed anything.

He pats his wheelchair absentmindedly, something in his chest settling. No, he wouldn’t have changed a single thing.

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Chapter 45

Summary:

When Kakyoin turns around, it’s to Rohan with his arms crossed, a brow raised.

Kakyoin wipes a hand down his face. “It’s nothing.”

Rohan’s brow raises even higher, even as they turn and resume walking. “I didn’t say anything.” It’s quiet for a beat. Then, “Is- were you- do you have something important to say? Why do you want Mr. Jotaro to be there?”

Kakyoin’s face does that odd full-twitch again, and he shudders. “No, I just-” Kakyoin sighs. “It’s complicated.”

Rohan snorts, and Kakyoin sneers reflexively. “I’ll say. You two are really weird.”

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HI EVERYONE HAPPY FOURTH ANNIVERSARY!!! holy shit four years

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Chapter Text

Kakyoin wakes up expecting to smell the sea. When he gets a noseful of morning dew and the rustling of the sleeping bag next to him instead, he bolts up, only to hiss sharply, stopping just before his spine can crack.

Rohan whips his head to stare at him and Kakyoin hides a scowl by lowering his head so his hair covers his face, rubbing at his spine. Ow…

“...You alright?” Rohan asks after a second, and Kakyoin rubs his eyes.

“Fine,” he grumbles, “It’s just been a long time since I slept outside.”

Rohan hums at that, agreeing. “Well, the good news is it’s done.” Kakyoin purses his lips, his spine letting out a spark of protest. Not for me, it’s not yet…

Kakyoin sighs, considering his options. Maybe I can actually buy something from Tonio for once. It’d be nice to pay him back and not have to deal with my damn back for the next two weeks.

Kakyoin nods to himself over the decision. And then… And then I can meet up with Jotaro again.

Kakyoin’s face feels a little funny at the thought, and he rubs at his cheeks.

“You think your Hierophant Green will be as useful taking down the tents as it was putting them up?” Rohan asks as he yawns before moving to open their tent. His sleeping bag, now rolled up, is under his arm, and Kakyoin figures the sound of that must be what he heard when he woke up.

“Yeah,” Kakyoin yawns, rubbing his eyes, before he slots his sunglasses on his head and slides out after him, his legs dragging behind him, small sparks of pain lighting up in his back every time they’re jostled. Hierophant is summoned, and the stand gently picks Kakyoin up and settles him in his wheelchair once he’s out. Kakyoin lets out a small breath of relief while Hierophant dissolves into a series of tentacles and sets about packing the tent he and Rohan were using.

It’s still fairly early, the sun only just finishing the crest up from the skyline, but it’s best they get moving before they get cooked in their tents, Kakyoin thinks.

It’s not much longer before the kids stumble out. First Yukako, her hair tied back in a messy braid, stumbles sleepily out, Reimi following along with a wide smile as she admires what was evidently her handiwork. The boys come out not much longer later, Koichi looking half asleep still, Josuke shyly messing with his hair, and Okuyasu smiling tiredly at his friend, until Pochi trots up to him, yawning a big doggy yawn.

They all clean up the table together while Hierophant deals with the tents, and in no time at all, only the boxes of pocky and Reimi’s new CD player and tarot cards remain. Rohan sets the packed sleeping bags and tents down on a nearby porch.

“I can return the serving tray,” Kakyoin says when Josuke stuffs the plate into the bag Okuyasu holds open for him. “I’m visiting Tonio today anyway.”

Josuke blinks. “Oh, are you sure? Thanks, Mr. Kakyoin.”

Kakyoin waves a hand. “It’s no problem.”

Rohan hums. “Mind if I walk with you there? I’ve been investigating where Kira might be and I think I have a lead near the train station.”

The mood sobers quickly at the mention of Kira. Kakyoin nods his head.

They bid Reimi goodbye, Yukako hugging her while Okuyasu and Koichi shake her hand, which makes Reimi chuckle. Josuke nods at her and Reimi returns it.

“Well, see you next week,” Rohan says nonchalantly toward Reimi, which makes her grin.

“Sure thing, Rohan. Try to remember to bring a volume of Pink Dark Boy for once now that I know what it’s about, will you?” She needles.

Rohan groans. “Oh for goodness’s sake- fine! I will bring a volume,” he grumbles, and Kakyoin chuckles.

“We’ll see you and the Show Must Go On next week,” Kakyoin says, and Reimi’s smile widens at the mention of her stand’s new name.

With that, they head out. The children and Pochi move as a group one way, Rohan and Kakyoin heading another to reach downtown. Kakyoin glances at the bag containing the plate in his lap, before stopping as they pass a payphone.

“Er, can you give me a second?” Kakyoin asks, halting. Rohan pauses, turning back toward Kakyoin curiously.

Kakyoin wordlessly turns to the phone and slots some change in, lifting it to his ear as he dials Jotaro’s room extension. I hope I’m not too early… He might not be back from the low tide yet…

He waits, breath held, but the phone drones on. When it transitions to a robot letting him know The number you’re trying to call is unavailable , Kakyoin sighs, hanging up, before considering. I want to see him.

“Ka-” Rohan starts, but Kakyoin picks up the phone again, redialing as he slots more change in.

This time, after a few rings, the phone clicks, and Kakyoin’s breath hitches. “Hello?” Joseph’s sleepy, creaky voice sounds out.

“Mr. Joestar,” Kakyoin greets. “Uh, good morning. I know it’s early-”

“Mm, no, I was up,” Joseph yawns. “Little Shizuka needed her bottle.” Joseph yawns again, and Kakyoin has to fight back the urge to do the same. “What did you need?”

Kakyoin winces then, suddenly remembering how Joseph acted the last time he saw him and Jotaro together, and he shudders. He knows, he’s just being an asshole, Jotaro had groaned, and Kakyoin clings to those words now. He clears his throat. “Um… I need you to pass on a message.”

Joseph hums encouragingly, and Kakyoin can just imagine the quirk of his eyebrow.

“Er… When he gets back from the shore, can you-” Kakyoin sighs, before biting out, “can you tell Jotaro to meet me at Tonio’s place?”

Joseph is quiet for a second. “Oh?”

Kakyoin feels his entire face twitch at his tone. “Just- I just-” I just want to see him. Kakyoin pauses. “Do you think you can do that for me?”

Joseph is silent for a moment, and Kakyoin bristles, bracing himself for ridicule, but all he does is just let out a soft, fond chuckle, and say, “Sure, Kakyoin.” There’s a beat, and then, quieter, he says, “I’m really glad you two seem to be on the same foot again.”

Kakyoin swallows slowly, edging back a sudden lump in his throat. Rohan scuffs his shoe on the sidewalk behind him, and Kakyoin lets out a breath, shaking his head. “Thank you, Mr. Joestar,” he says, and he hopes he understands all the ways he means it.

“Aw, Kakyoin,” Joseph sighs, voice gentle. “Of course.”

Kakyoin swallows. They say their goodbyes and hang up. When Kakyoin turns around, it’s to Rohan with his arms crossed, a brow raised.

Kakyoin wipes a hand down his face. “It’s nothing.”

Rohan’s brow raises even higher, even as they turn and resume walking. “I didn’t say anything.” It’s quiet for a beat, only the soft scuff of Rohan’s shoes and the quiet creaks of Kakyoin’s wheelchair joining the morning calls of the birds. Then, “Is- were you- do you have something important to say? Why do you want Mr. Jotaro to be there?”

Kakyoin’s face does that odd full-twitch again, and he shudders. “No, I just-” Kakyoin sighs. “It’s complicated.”

Rohan snorts, and Kakyoin sneers reflexively. “I’ll say. You two are really weird.”

Kakyoin barks out a laugh. “This is coming from you of all people?”

Rohan shrugs, and Kakyoin scowls at how unaffected he is. “If I’m weird, it’s only because I’m an artist. It’s part of my job.”

Kakyoin doesn’t dignify that with a response, but when he glances over, he sees Rohan is smirking, and he narrows his eyes. “Are you pulling my leg?”

“Why, whatever gave you that impression?” Rohan crows, and Kakyoin lets out a scoff that half turns into a chuckle on the way out, and he bumps his wheel next to Rohan’s ankle. “Ow!”

“I didn’t even roll over you, relax,” Kakyoin brushes off, and Rohan scowls, but they continue their walk in amicable silence.

They reach Trattoria Trussardi not much longer later, and Kakyoin is feeling humorous enough to let Rohan push his wheelchair up the porch steps for him rather than doing it himself with Hierophant.

They make it to the door, and Kakyoin knocks while Rohan rummages in his bag, muttering to himself about a camera. After a few seconds, Kakyoin can see from the window on the door as Tonio pops his head out of the kitchen. He smiles brightly when he sees Kakyoin.

He hurries over and unlocks the door for them, and Kakyoin smiles at him in turn as they are ushered in. “I’m sorry for intruding, I know it’s still a little before you open, but I just wanted to check in.”

“No, no, I’m glad to see you!” Tonio insists. “I’m just doing some prep work for the day. Aya has-”

“Noriaki?” Aya’s head pops out of the kitchen too, her hair pulled into a hairnet, and she waves with a gloved hand before slipping off the apron she was wearing and heading over to the table Tonio has ushered them to.

“Aya!” Kakyoin greets, and she smiles and sits down. “I see you’re helping out.”

Tonio laughs and Aya waves a hand. “I felt bad about bumming off of Tonio, so I figured I could make myself useful.” She smiles then. “Besides, learning a little more about cooking will probably do me good.”

Kakyoin laughs. “Wait, now I’m kind of jealous. Tonio, would you give me lessons too?”

Tonio chuckles, shaking his head. “I don’t make Aya cook, she helps me with prep work.”

“That’s the majority of cooking,” Aya counters, and Tonio snorts.

“Only if you move as slow as you do,” he teases, and Aya gasps in outrage, and Kakyoin laughs again, something soft settling in his chest.

Rohan clears his throat then, wincing at his own sound, and Kakyoin remembers he’s there with a small pang of awkwardness. “Well, if you’re all settled, Mr. Kakyoin, I’m gonna head ou-”

“Wait!” Tonio calls, and Rohan blinks. “Wouldn’t you like some coffee? Or breakfast? The bread should be done soon.”

“I-” Rohan catches Kakyoin’s eye, and Kakyoin can’t help but be reminded of Pochi from the other day and how startled he was over Arnold’s friendliness. “Um-”

“The coffee is already brewing, it would really be no trouble,” Tonio says, and Rohan hesitates a little longer, glancing at his bag, before he sighs and slowly slinks into a chair at the table with Kakyoin and Aya.

“I… If you insist,” Rohan mumbles, and Tonio grins.

“Grazie! Can I see your hand?”

Rohan eyes him warily. “You want to use your stand on me?”

Tonio waves a hand. “I don’t have to, but I know you’re a, ah, what’s the word, mangaka?”

Rohan hums noncommittally, glancing at Kakyoin as if unsure, before he nods. “Mangaka, yes.”

Tonio nods. “I’m sure you have a lot of tendon pain in your wrists! It’s nothing my Pearl Jam can’t help with.”

Rohan blinks. “Oh, uh-” He pauses.

“Tonio gives me similar treatments,” Aya assures as she pulls off her gloves, then hair net, and Rohan glances at her. “Your hands will feel a little fizzy, like you have soda in your veins, but it’s not unpleasant.” She pauses. “Just… don’t look at them while it happens. The visual is kind of gross.”

Rohan’s face twists into disgust while Tonio scoffs and says good-naturedly, “I cannot help that my stand functions how it does.”

Aya snickers, but she pats Tonio’s arm placatingly. Kakyoin clears his throat then, and Rohan turns his suspicious gaze toward him. “I’d say it’s worth it.” Kakyoin turns to Tonio then, embarrassment squirming inside of his tongue as if trying to prevent him from speaking, but he still manages to meekly get out, “Speaking of your stand… I was wondering if you made any broth yet?” As if waiting for the cue, Kakyoin’s spine lets out a throb of pain, and he presses his lips into a line.

Tonio nods, smiling. “Yes! I can get a bowl for you.” He turns to Rohan. “So, Signore, are you okay with me using my stand?”

Rohan hesitates, squinting at Kakyoin and Aya for just a little longer, before he sighs, nodding his head and offering his hand. “I suppose.”

Tonio smiles, which quickly turns into a frown as he examines Rohan’s fingers, tutting as he does. “I was right. You have some swollen tendons.”

Rohan squirms, and Tonio drops his hand. “I’ll be back-”

“Oh, wait!” Kakyoin calls, opening the bag still in his lap and pulling out the dinner plate from last night. “Here’s this back. Thanks again for the food, Tonio.”

Tonio smiles as he takes the plate. “It was my pleasure. Did everyone have fun?”

Kakyoin thinks back to the group hug, and Reimi’s confident smile as she dubbed her stand the Show Must Go On, and the debate about fortune telling that Josuke and Reimi ended up having until two in the morning. He shakes his head clear of the memories and smiles. “Yeah. Yeah, I think the kids had a good time.”

Rohan is quiet, but he doesn’t object, and Tonio nods his head, smiling. “I’m glad to hear it. I’ll take this to the kitchen and get some breakfast out.” With that, he turns on his heel, and heads into the back of the restaurant.

Rohan clears his throat then, and Aya and Kakyoin turn to him. “I wasn’t aware you were living here?” He asks, looking at Aya.

“Oh,” she says before sighing. “Yeah, it’s… After my-” she pauses to grit her teeth, only for a moment “-my salon was blown up, Tonio offered me a place to stay until I can rent a new place.”

Rohan hums, looking down. Kakyoin hesitates, before asking, “How is that going?”

Aya sighs, cupping her chin with one hand. “Not easy. But,” she smiles a little then, “I think I’m closing in on a place. It’s not as conveniently located as my old one, but it has the space I need at a decent rate.” She lets out another sigh, but less edged. “The landlord’s a woman, so she actually listens to me when I say what happened wasn’t because of a damn hair curler being left on, even if I do still have to pretend it was an accident.”

Rohan hums again while Kakyoin smiles, his eyes crinkling. “I’m glad to hear it!” He says.

Aya smiles in turn, but before she can say more, Tonio reappears, two trays in hand. One has three steaming mugs and one cup and saucer, and the other a plate of some bread and a bowl.

Tonio sets the trays down with a flourish before he sits down at the remaining chair, taking his chef’s hat and slipping it off his head. “Ah, I hope you all enjoy! Aya and I already ate, but I figured we could go for another cup of coffee.”

Aya chuckles and takes her mug with a small thanks. Tonio passes Rohan his own mug, who says his own thanks, and hands the saucer to Kakyoin. Kakyoin sniffs it, and is hit with the sweet spice of ginger tea, and he sighs pleasantly. “Thank you, Tonio.”

Tonio smiles before passing him the broth and setting the bread, with some olive oil in a small dish next to it, in the center of the table.

They all take a moment to sip, and Rohan lets out a soft grunt in surprise as he tastes his coffee, immediately going for a second gulp, which makes Tonio smirk. After they all have their share, Aya turns to Rohan.

“So, you’re Miss Reimi’s friend, right?” She asks, and Rohan stiffens, but nods. Aya glances at Kakyoin, and Kakyoin mimes a line across his neck.

Aya turns back to Rohan and clears her throat. “Well, thanks for helping to watch them last night. Noriaki is too much of a grump to babysit alone.”

Kakyoin chokes on his tea. “What- hey!”

Rohan blinks at the direction of the conversation before he snorts, smirking. “Oh, I’m well aware. He attacked me when we first met.”

Tonio brightens, then. “Oh, he attacked me too! So did Miss Aya.”

Aya and Kakyoin both squawk then. “Wha-”

“You attacked my kids first!” Kakyoin defends, ignoring Tonio’s comment while Aya defends herself to him, saying I didn’t know what you were doing! I was nervous you were a creep!

Rohan raises a brow. “Your kids?”

Kakyoin growls. “My students! Yes!”

He just snorts. “Look, we’ve had this conversation. I was never going to actually kill them.”

Tonio and Aya halt in their own lighthearted bickering, blinking in surprise. Rohan glances at them, and despite the stares, he snorts, chuckling.

“It’s a long story,” he sighs, and Kakyoin shudders, the faint impression of Rohan’s weight pressing into the back of his mind as he inevitably recalls Hierophant puppeteering  him. He crosses his arms.

“You can say that again…” he mutters.

Aya and Tonio exchange glances before Aya takes another sip of her coffee and Tonio smiles. “Well, I’m glad Miss Reimi’s sleepover went well,” he says, and Rohan and Kakyoin both deflate, murmuring their agreement.

Kakyoin rubs his eyes while Rohan finishes his coffee, which makes Tonio smirk again, before Rohan abruptly stands up.

“Well, thank you very much, Mr. Tonio, Miss Aya,” he says, nodding at them. “For the coffee. And,” he gestures toward Tonio again, “for dinner last night. It was very good.”

Tonio and Aya blink before Tonio says, “Oh, uh- of course. But… weren’t you going to eat?”

It’s Rohan’s turn to blink. “Oh.” He glances at the bread on the table. “I don’t know… I want to get to the station in time for rush hour.”

Tonio’s brows lift in understanding. “Oh, do you have a train to catch?”

Rohan blinks. “Hm? Oh, no, I just-” he halts, his expression darkening. “... I’ve been haunting around various bus stops and the station since Kira disappeared.” Aya and Tonio both stiffen, while Kakyoin delicately places his cup down on his saucer before turning to face Rohan more fully. “I know a monster like that will have something that will draw attention to him no matter how normal he tries to act. I just need to look for it.” He turns then, digging in his shoulder bag, before he pulls out a camera. He places it on the table gently. “I’ve been taking pictures and such. So even if I miss something in person, I can double check to be sure.”

“Wow,” Tonio says softly.

“That’s… you’ve been working hard,” Aya says, a little dumbfounded.

Rohan’s face scrunches up a little then and he waves a hand.

Kakyoin remembers how almost desperate Rohan was to not take on Reimi’s quest to search for her killer, when they first met her in that alley, and the very reluctant way he rationalized helping her at first. I suppose it would be good material to draw from for my manga .

Kakyoin remembers what he’s learned since then, including Rohan’s connection to Reimi. I’m sick of good kids dying trying to save me.

It’s why, Kakyoin supposes, he’s not surprised over Rohan’s dedication to finding Kira. He swallows, suddenly guilty. What have I done in the meantime? It’s my fault he got away in the first place. I couldn’t focus on anything other than J-

Kakyoin shakes his head.

“I think I’m closing in,” Rohan says, and Kakyoin tunes back into the conversation. “I just- I can feel it. Standusers attract standusers, right?”

Kakyoin pauses, considering. That’s right… That philosophy has only been proven true over and over this summer. If Kira is still in Morioh – and the meddling of his father suggests that yes, he is – then it actually shouldn’t be hard to just let… what, gravity pull him in?

Kakyoin shakes his head. It’s a bit too passive for his taste, but…

“... Just be cautious,” Kakyoin says, and Rohan blinks. “You know, don’t engage. Kira is dangerous. Get some reinforcements before you confront him.”

Rohan scoffs a little. “I’m not one of your protégés, you know.”

Kakyoin sneers reflexively, but he doesn’t rise to the bait. Combined with Aya and Tonio staring at him intently, Rohan eventually sighs, shaking his head. “I’ll call everyone when I find something for certain. But I can’t afford to draw attention by gathering everyone to search with me.”

Kakyoin halts at that. He can’t deny the logic, but discomfort still twists in his belly. Aya and Tonio exchange glances, as if they feel the same.

Tonio clears his throat then, staring at Rohan. “Well… wouldn’t that be all the more you get some food in you?”

Rohan blinks. “Huh?”

Tonio waves a hand. “Doing field work is hard enough, let alone on an empty stomach. It’s still early, you can eat a bit of bread before heading to the station, right?”

Rohan hesitates. “I don’t know…”

Aya hums, cupping her chin again. “You’ll make mistakes if you’re not alert. It’s best to fuel up, you know.”

Rohan sighs before sitting back down. “Fine, if it’s so important to you.” Tonio grins triumphantly, Aya smirks like the cat who caught the cream, and Kakyoin smiles to himself before he lifts his spoon from the bowl of broth to his lips and sips.

The front entrance of the restaurant chimes as a customer walks in then, and Kakyoin glances reflexively before choking on his sip of broth.

Jotaro steps awkwardly into the restaurant, eyeing the group warily before his gaze settles on Kakyoin. Kakyoin isn’t breathing, but he can taste saltwater in the back of his throat like he was inhaling the ocean breeze deeply.

“Kakyoin,” he says, and Kakyoin’s entire chest twitches, his ribs scuttling like spider legs, which is sort of an alarming sensation. He clears his throat. “Er, Jiji said you called?”

Tonio lets out a noise while Rohan nibbles on a piece of bread dipped in olive oil, pauses, and then takes a bigger bite. Kakyoin can feel Aya staring into him but he ignores her. He clears his throat from his broth, coughing slightly, before he cleverly greets, “Ah, Jotaro, hi.”

Jotaro stares at him and Kakyoin’s skin itches.

“Noriaki, I didn’t know you called Mr. Jotaro! I would have made another cup of coffee,” Tonio says, rising from his chair.

“Oh, he doesn’t-”

“I don’t-”

Jotaro and Kakyoin halt, and Kakyoin stares intensely at the table cloth. The fibers are so small and delicate, but they weave together to form such a heavy and protective drape, Kakyoin thinks.

Jotaro clears his throat. “I- I can’t have coffee,” he mumbles.

“Oh! It’s no worries. I have some ginger tea?” Tonio pivots, and Jotaro must nod or something like that, because Tonio fully rises and moves to the kitchen.

It’s quiet then, and Kakyoin almost wants to wince. Why is this so awkward?

Bristling at his own feelings, Kakyoin turns his head up and finally meets Jotaro’s gaze again, who is still looking at him, his brows lightly pinched. Kakyoin’s fingertips twitch. He looks sort of lost, he thinks.

Aya clears her throat and Kakyoin damn-near jumps before he coughs lightly. “Ah- Come on, have a seat, I-” Hierophant manifests, and jerkily reaches for a nearby chair, dragging it over to the same table he, Rohan, and Aya are at.

Jotaro tugs his head down, shoving his free hand into his coat pocket. “Jiji said you called. Is- is everything okay?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Oh, no, everything’s fine, I just-” I just wanted to talk to you. Kakyoin shuts his mouth tightly, his teeth slotting against each other firmly. He can see Rohan raise a brow at him in his periphery, and Kakyoin avoids the urge to manifest Hierophant again to kick him. “I mean- come on, sit down, I just-”

Suddenly, a memory pops into his head from last night, and Kakyoin grabs onto it with both hands.

“Um- Josuke mentioned something about rats and bullets?”

Jotaro stiffens then, and Kakyoin regrets speaking. Rohan leans forward in his chair, interested, while Aya, voice high in amusement, chokes out, “What?”

“Good grief…” Jotaro mutters before he finally comes forward and sits in the chair Hierophant had grabbed for him, next to Kakyoin. “Why was Josuke talking about that?”

“We were talking about how Okuyasu got his dog,” Rohan pipes up, “and the standuser cat that he’s apparently friends with.”

Jotaro blinks. “Huh?”

“Oh, no…” Kakyoin moans, burying his face in his hands. “Did no one tell you?”

Jotaro frowns. “No. What-”

“I still wanna hear about these bullets?” Aya pipes up, and Jotaro turns to her, but before he can say anything, Tonio returns, an extra teacup and saucer in hand. He places them down in front of Jotaro before returning to his seat, smiling.

“I hope you enjoy, Mr. Jotaro,” he says, and Jotaro blinks.

“Oh, right. Uh, thank you,” Jotaro mumbles, and Kakyoin glances at him out of the corner of his eye. Jotaro picks up the cup, looks into the steaming tea, before he takes a small sip, and-

His shoulders slump near-immediately and his eyes close, a small, rumbling noise let loose from the back of his throat, almost like a purr. It’s low enough that Kakyoin isn’t sure if the others can hear it. His hair stands on end.

Jotaro’s eyes open again, heavily lidded, and a lump forms in Kakyoin’s throat. His lips part, but he doesn’t say anything.

Rohan clears his throat and Kakyoin almost jumps out of his skin, whipping his head back to stare at him. Rohan ignores him.

“So. Bullets?” He asks, and Aya nods her agreement to the topic.

“Huh?” Tonio asks, turning to face Jotaro himself.

Jotaro blinks before sighing, rubbing the brim of his hat between his fingers. “It’s not like there’s much to tell. As part of his rehabilitation deal, Otoishi Akira had to tell us about everyone – and every thing – he shot with the stand arrow. Turns out he shot some rats, because he’s an idiot.” Kakyoin chokes while Tonio and Aya exchange quizzical glances. Rohan smiles, amused.

“Standuser rats?” Tonio asks, and Jotaro sighs.

“Yeah. Two of them.” He rubs at the bridge of his nose then, and Kakyoin realizes he’s sitting close enough that he can hear the soft scrape of Jotaro’s rough fingertips against the smoother skin of his face, and the back of his neck prickles. “They had the grossest stands. They shot bullets that melted your skin.”

Aya’s face immediately twists in disgust while Rohan leans forward, his interest evidently piqued. Tonio winces. “Ouch…”

“Yeah, ‘ouch’ is right,” Jotaro says emphatically, and Kakyoin pauses as he remembers-

He’s too comfortable with the fact Crazy Diamond can heal him…

“You got shot with flesh-melting bullets?!” Kakyoin cries, and Jotaro’s head jerks up to look at him.

“I-” his face twists, just a bit. “... Josuke healed me, it ended up fine.”

“It- Jotaro- what?! It’s not fine! How many times were you shot?!”

Jotaro shrugs stiffly. “I don’t know. Does this matter?”

“You don’t-”

“What about the bullets you and Josuke had?” Rohan interrupts, and Kakyoin glowers, jerking his gaze down to the table cloth.

From his peripheral, Kakyoin can see Jotaro hesitate, staring at him, before he turns to Rohan and answers, “Yeah, I just- Crazy Diamond is a precision stand, like my own. So I taught Josuke how to fire some bullets with him. Give him a bit more of a range.”

Kakyoin blinks. That’s… actually a pretty good idea.  

They all pause, considering that, before Aya pipes up, “Where did you even get bullets, though?”

“Oh, I-” Jotaro shakes his head. “I live in the United States, in a state with pretty loose gun laws. It’s easy to get a firearm, let alone bullets.”

Aya blinks before she nods. “I see.”

Kakyoin sputters. “Do you- do you have a gun?”

Jotaro glances back at him. “What? No. I have Star Platinum. What would I need a gun for?”

Kakyoin stares at him, before, abruptly, he giggles. The sound just spills out of him, like water slipping out of an overfilled pot, and he immediately clamps his jaw shut and looks away.

Tonio and Aya chuckle too, and Rohan, with a smirk as he glances at his watch, stands, nodding toward Tonio.

“Well, it’s getting time that I really should head out,” he says, and Tonio inclines his head, smiling pleasantly.

“Of course. Thank you for coming in, Signore Rohan,” he says, and Rohan lets out a pleased hum, nodding at him.

He hands him a bill, and Tonio blinks. “Oh, thank you! But this is too much, do you-”

“No need,” Rohan declines as he grabs his camera and stuffs it back into his bag, standing. “You can keep the change.” He glances at Kakyoin then. “Er…” He sighs. “... Thank you. For everything, with Reimi.”

Kakyoin blinks, but he finds something in his chest loosens. “Ah… of course. She’s a good kid.”

Rohan smiles, but it doesn’t quite reach his eyes, making it wistful. “She is.”

With that, he turns, slings his bag over his shoulder, and heads to the door.

They watch him, and Kakyoin can’t help but think he’s not as annoying as he was when they first met.

… Not that he’s not annoying at all, though.

Jotaro clears his throat then, and Kakyoin snaps his gaze back to him, like he’s a magnet running to his opposite charge. “Okuyasu’s… dog?”

Kakyoin sighs roughly at the memory of the fight with Taro, while Tonio straightens, laying his hands on the table as he leans forward and starts the tale, “So, cuts of my meat had been going missing…”

Tonio retales the bulk of the story, Kakyoin not cutting in much, but when Tonio mentions their original thought – that Pochi was the one with the stand – Jotaro snaps his gaze to Kakyoin, and he knows he’s thinking the same thing.

Iggy… I wonder how he’s doing. He’s old for a dog by now, certainly, but he hasn’t slowed down much, according to Avdol.

Kakyoin wonders if Jotaro’s seen Iggy in the past ten years more than him or not, and he pauses. Kakyoin frowns a little and glances at Jotaro, only to freeze when he sees Jotaro looking right back at him. Jotaro doesn’t move his gaze, and despite himself, Kakyoin doesn’t, either.

Jotaro looks tired, but that’s not particularly new – Kakyoin isn’t sure he’s seen Jotaro particularly energized this whole time, and he wonders how he didn’t notice it when he first arrived in Morioh. Despite this, he seems comfortable in the warm yellow sunlight that streams in from the windows, the glow softening his normally harsh features, making him look his age for once, and Kakyoin-

“...Right, Kakyoin?”

Kakyoin jolts, turning back to Tonio. “Uh-”

Aya snickers, and Kakyoin glares at her, feeling heat prickle along his face, while Tonio just clarifies, “And so we decided Okuyasu could take care of Pochi, right?”

“Uh, right,” Kakyoin says, nodding his head. Jotaro huffs, pulling the brim of his hat down.

“A cat and a dog, huh? I wouldn’t have expected such a deep friendship,” he says, and Kakyoin’s lips press into a line.

“You never know when or where something will just click,” Aya comments, and something in Kakyoin’s chest hurts, tight and sharp right between his pair of fifth ribs, and he’s not sure why.

“Yeah…” He says, and they fall silent. Jotaro sips his tea again, closing his eyes, and Kakyoin can’t help that he turns his gaze to him. It reminds him of the visual of Jotaro floating on his back in the ocean with him, and he feels a little dizzy.

“Ah, I hate to cut our visit short, but I’ll be opening for real soon,” Tonio apologizes as he glances at the clock on his wall, and Kakyoin nods, rolling back from the table while Aya and Jotaro stand.

Kakyoin pulls out his wallet as Tonio begins gathering dishes, and he slaps down a couple of bills himself.

Tonio blinks, before looking up at Kakyoin. “Oh, Noriaki, I-”

“Take it,” Kakyoin insists, “it’s the least I can do for all the times you’ve fed me, you know.”

Tonio hesitates, and Kakyoin can’t help the fond squeeze in his chest for his friend.

“I insist,” he presses, and after a beat longer of hesitation, Tonio glances at Aya, who nods at him.

“I… alright. Thank you, Noriaki,” Tonio says, and Kakyoin smiles softly, nodding his head.

They wrap up and say their goodbyes, and Jotaro and Kakyoin walk out as a pair. As the door closes behind them, Jotaro clears his throat, and Kakyoin glances at him. “Uh…”

“It’s okay, you-” Kakyoin swallows, glancing at the steps in front of them. “You can touch my wheelchair this time, if you want to.”

Jotaro blinks, lips parting, and Kakyoin reflexively eyes his mouth, but he’s snapped out of it when Jotaro says, “I- uh, I was actually going to say-” Jotaro looks down, shoving his hands into his pockets. “... Your given name?” Jotaro croaks out.

Kakyoin blinks before the meaning of his words sink in, and he laughs a little awkwardly, feeling heat ride along his collar. “Oh- oh, yes, I-” Stupid, stupid, stupid, why did I assume he was going to ask about my wheelchair on the stairs- “uh, yeah, Tonio and Aya have- we’ve become fast friends, and so, it just felt right. So.”

Jotaro shakes his head jerkily. “No, I- it makes sense. I-” Jotaro halts himself, taking a deep breath. “… I can wheel you down. If… you’re really okay with that?”

They fade into silence then, Jotaro staring closely at his shoes, and Kakyoin staring closely at Jotaro. His shoulders are so broad still despite everything, they’re just slumped lower than the perpetual slouch near his ears they had been when they were teenagers, Kakyoin thinks. Kakyoin can feel the warmth bouncing off his white coat from the sun. He smells salt. Kakyoin’s neck tickles a little, still unused to being bare.

Kakyoin clears his throat. “I’m okay with it,” he says. Jotaro glances up at him, but Kakyoin doesn’t turn away.

Slowly, as if approaching a wild animal, Jotaro steps forward and gingerly grabs the back of Kakyoin’s wheelchair. Kakyoin takes a deep breath, but he doesn’t otherwise react. After a moment, Jotaro gently begins pushing him.

They gently ease down the stairs, and even though it’s only three shallow steps, Kakyoin feels his heart in his throat. He’s not sure anyone’s ever done this for him, even in the hospital. At most, his bed as a whole was moved while he was doped up on morphine. And then he was more in control of himself, and therefore Hierophant, and so angry, and…

They reach the street, and Jotaro lets go, and Kakyoin lets out a breath. Jotaro comes back in front of him, and they stare at each other for a moment. Jotaro’s eyes look so clear in the rising sun, Kakyoin thinks. They’re the calmest sea he’s seen since this all started.

Jotaro opens his mouth, inhaling, but he doesn’t say anything for a second. Kakyoin waits for him.

After a beat, Jotaro repeats, “Jiji said you called. Was it- just for this?”

Kakyoin very nearly drops their gaze, but he fights the urge. His skin itches, and he feels prickly, his hair standing on end, and he feels warm as the sun heats the fabric of his cardigan.

Kakyoin similarly opens his mouth, inhaling, but he finds the words weren’t right at the tip of his tongue, and need a moment to spill out, like honey instead of water. Similarly, Jotaro waits for him.

“I wanted to talk,” Kakyoin admits. “It’s… nothing important, really. I didn’t have anything in mind, I mean. Just…” Just as long as it’s you.

Jotaro stares at him a little longer, his gaze rolling over his face like the breeze off the coast, and Kakyoin feels flayed and yet the salt in the air doesn’t sting.

“Okay,” Jotaro says simply, and something in Kakyoin’s stomach relaxes, allowing him to sink down a little more into his wheelchair, like the tension was pulling him out of it.

Jotaro clears his throat, finally breaking eye contact to look around. “Did you have a place in mind?”

“Not really,” Kakyoin admits. “I guess I assumed it’d be the hotel, though.”

Jotaro nods, glancing back at him. “Alright. Let’s go back to the hotel, then.”

He says it so simply. Kakyoin wishes it could have always been this simple.

His fingertips dig into his armrests. I think it’s more that he’s scared he’s weak, Holly had said.

As they begin walking back together, Kakyoin’s never felt so warm in his life.

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Chapter 46

Summary:

Jotaro looks up at the sound, just a peek past his hat, and the flash of his blue eyes just makes Kakyoin smile wider, tilting his head a little as he looks at where Jotaro is- cowering, really, he’s cowering, and it’s-

Cute.

Kakyoin lets himself think that, this time.

“Why do you ask?” Kakyoin asks gently, humor twined in his tone, and Jotaro grunts, turning on his heel and beginning walking again, still holding his brim down over his face. Kakyoin chuckles but follows him. “Jotaro?”

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Chapter Text

They walk aimlessly for a while, and while the silence isn’t necessarily uncomfortable, Kakyoin fidgets in his chair.

As they finish crossing a street together, Kakyoin takes a breath. “How was… the beach today?”

Jotaro blinks, glancing at him. Kakyoin doesn’t take it back, glancing up in return. Jotaro looks away and swallows, and Kakyoin allows himself to smile softly.

Jotaro clears his throat. “It was fine. They’re – the starfish – are honestly pretty consistent.” He smirks a little then. “Creatures of habit… they know what they like.”

Kakyoin snickers. “Kinda sounds like you.”

Jotaro blinks before huffing, tugging his hat down, and Kakyoin grins.

“It’s not a bad thing,” he clarifies, and Jotaro huffs again. “I mean it! I think it’s-” cute almost rolls off his tongue and Kakyoin chokes, teeth clenching down. Jotaro peeks at him from underneath his hat and Kakyoin plays it off as a slight cough, waving a hand. “I just mean, nothing wrong with consistency,” Kakyoin says meekly.

Jotaro grunts, but he drops his hand from his hat, letting his brim slide up his forehead again. “If you say so.”

Kakyoin puffs up his chest. “I do.”

Jotaro chuckles then, glancing at Kakyoin with his eyes crinkled, and Kakyoin has to avoid the urge to full-body twitch, a ball of heat and pressure in his chest forming. It sort of reminds him of when he was electrocuted by Red Hot Chili Pepper. Kakyoin clears his throat.

“What was all that about, anyway?” Jotaro asks, pointing back, even though Trattoria Trussardi is far behind them now. “I get you wanted to talk, but why at Trussardi’s if we were just going to leave right away?”

Kakyoin shifts a little. “Ah… I told you I train the kids, right?”

Jotaro grunts, nodding.

Kakyoin sighs, rubbing at his face, then. “Well… Reimi’s included in that. And, you know… She’s been alone for the past, what, 16 years?”

Jotaro’s face hardens then, ducking underneath the brim of his hat again, and Kakyoin hastily continues.

“Anyway, just- the kids wanted to have a sleepover to make her feel better. We did some random occult stuff with a bunch of food so Reimi could actually eat it. It was-” Kakyoin is well aware of how his voice softens, but he can’t care to cover it up, all the brambles in his chest clearing away for only soft grass “-it was fun.”

Jotaro is quiet, and it draws Kakyoin back from the memories. He clears his throat.

“Anyway, Tonio was kind enough to make dinner for it, so I was just returning his plate.”

“Mm.” Jotaro falters for a second, and Kakyoin raises his brow, but stays quiet.

After a few more steps, Jotaro audibly clears his throat, and says, “Ah, I don’t mean to be intrusive, but…”

Kakyoin’s brow raises higher. After Jotaro stays trailed off for a few seconds, he prompts, “Yes?”

Jotaro shifts his jaw, and Kakyoin’s fingertips twitch. “Just… I know you already explained about the names, but-” He sighs roughly. “Are you and Tonio…?”

Kakyoin blinks before screeching his wheelchair to a halt, swerving so he can face Jotaro with his whole body. “Am- are we- what?”

Jotaro shifts, slowing to a stop alongside Kakyoin, but he doesn’t face him. “I know it’s not my business, I’m just… curious if- you know. You two…? You just- seem close, is all.”

Kakyoin blinks rapidly, mouth opening and closing. Heat prickles along his neck and he winces, slapping a hand to his nape and rubbing the skin sheepishly. “No, I- no, no, we’re not- not anything- Tonio has a fiancee,” Kakyoin spits out, wincing at his jumbled mess, but it’s the best he can do right now.

Jotaro blinks. “... Ah,” he says, retreating even further underneath his hat, and Kakyoin jerks.

“She’s just- she’s in Italy still. Tonio wanted to get everything with his business set up before she arrived.”

Jotaro shuffles. “Ah.” There’s a beat where Kakyoin considers ripping his ponytail clean off before Jotaro just says, “That makes sense.”

Kakyoin stares at him, and Jotaro stays stock still, like if he doesn’t move, this conversation wouldn’t be able to find him. Despite everything, the thought makes the tight knot of embarrassment unravel in Kakyoin’s chest, and he leans back in his wheelchair, laughing quietly to himself.

Jotaro looks up at the sound, just a peek past his hat, and the flash of his blue eyes just makes Kakyoin smile wider, tilting his head a little as he looks at where Jotaro is- cowering, really, he’s cowering, and it’s-

Cute.

Kakyoin lets himself think that, this time.

“Why do you ask?” Kakyoin asks gently, humor twined in his tone, and Jotaro grunts, turning on his heel and beginning walking again, still holding his brim down over his face. Kakyoin chuckles but follows him. “Jotaro?”

“Just- like I said, you guys were close. I wasn’t… sure,” Jotaro answers, and Kakyoin’s smile widens.

“Well, I suppose he is attractive,” Kakyoin sighs, thinking back on his small crush with a small twinge of embarrassment. Jotaro tilts his hat further down and Kakyoin eyes this before he shakes his head. “But Tonio’s too- you know.” Kakyoin gestures vaguely. “Even if he was single, and even if he was into men, he’s too…” Kakyoin frowns, the words escaping him. He’s tall, he’s kind, he has striking eyes, Kakyoin wants to protect him, what about him is not up to his standards now, when he was just a few months ago?

Kakyoin glances at Jotaro then, and swallows.

“... We’re just better as friends,” Kakyoin finishes.

Jotaro lets out a sort of odd, throaty noise, that Kakyoin thinks was supposed to be one of his usual grunts of acknowledgement, but it came out wrong. Kakyoin’s heart squeezes fondly in his chest and he chuckles again.

“I guess I’m just shocked you’d want to talk about these things. You-” Kakyoin hesitates then, before he gently continues “-you would get really short with Polnareff whenever he asked about dating.”

Jotaro’s hand tilts his hat down further, and at this point it’s more over his face than his head. Kakyoin has to bite back a laugh. Why is he so embarrassed about this? “I already told you, I was just curious,” he gruffly replies.

Kakyoin snorts. “I know that,” he says, gently bumping Jotaro’s shoe with his wheel, which makes him jump, jerking to glance down at Kakyoin. Kakyoin smiles up at him, and Jotaro nearly stumbles as he begins walking again, Kakyoin biting his hand to avoid laughing. “I just mean you never were curious before.”

“Why does it matter?” Jotaro snaps back at him, and Kakyoin raises a brow.

“It doesn’t,” Kakyoin says, and Jotaro huffs.

They continue walking then, Kakyoin soaking in the sun as it begins to heat up his cardigan, and he feels a bit like a reptile. He cranes his neck, stretching the muscles out, and lets out a sigh at the lack of complaint from his spine. Tonio’s was a good idea… It would have been so annoying to deal with my back otherwise.

“I guess,” Jotaro pipes up then, and Kakyoin turns his gaze back to him, “I guess I just… I couldn’t help but think about it, when you said you had an ex.” Kakyoin flinches as he recalls his stuttery attempt to relate to Jotaro’s divorce, but Jotaro doesn’t seem to mind and keeps going. “And seeing- I just-” Jotaro growls at himself then, and Kakyoin jolts at the sudden sound, but he can’t help but be utterly charmed. “I don’t see you like that with a lot of people,” Jotaro finally says, “so I just… was curious.”

Kakyoin grunts a soft acknowledgement. “I guess that makes sense…” He chuckles. “Trust me, though, I acted pretty different with the girl I actually dated.”

They come across a small park then, small knolls of green grass with various trees dotted about. There are compacted dirt paths, so with no more discussion than just a shared glance, they turn into it, still side by side as they walk in the morning sun.

It’s quiet for a few moments before Jotaro pipes up again, “What did you act like, then?”

Kakyoin glances up at him. Jotaro’s staring straight ahead, his profile contrasting the sun’s early rays, and Kakyoin lets out a long breath, running his hand through his long bang.

Kakyoin slows to a stop near a bench, and Jotaro glances at him, but Kakyoin just waves a hand. Jotaro hesitates for a second before moving and sitting down at the bench, next to Kakyoin.

Kakyoin stares at the grass for a second, trying to claw through the drug-addled fog his college memories are always swathed in, trying to remember what was a dream and what was real.

Oh, I’m treating her like Jotaro does me, he had thought in his dorm room a long time ago. Kakyoin blinks, suddenly seeing an opening to a conversation he only just realizes he wants to have.

So he leads in, “It’s… it’s not great. How I acted, I mean.” Kakyoin rubs at the bridge of his nose. “There’s a reason it only lasted as an official thing for a day.” Despite how mortifying the words are, Kakyoin can’t really feel the heat of shame that they normally would invoke. Ends justify the means.

Jotaro lets out a soft noise, and Kakyoin glances at him. Swallowing casually, Kakyoin straightens up, and continues anyway, “I was… distant. I never told her the truth about things I should have,” he says delicately. Please understand the double meaning here, Kakyoin thinks.

Jotaro shifts his jaw, finally breaking his staredown with the horizon and glancing at him. When he sees Kakyoin looking at him, he drops his gaze again, but doesn’t turn away. Kakyoin’s chest hurts.

Kakyoin clears his throat and turns away slightly before continuing. “I just…” Kakyoin takes a deep breath, steeling himself for the next thing he’s about to say, ignoring the preemptive ruffling of his hackles. “I… I needed help. But I didn’t want it.” Kakyoin chuckles a little, then. “Isn’t it funny when you need something, but you don’t want it? It’s like saying you don’t want to survive.”

Jotaro is very silent beside him, and Kakyoin can’t bear to look at him, squeezing his eyes shut.

He continues. “I scared her, and more than that, I hurt her.” Despite himself, he can’t help but chuckle. “I made her so mad. She slapped me when I woke up in the hospital.”

Jotaro tenses so suddenly that Kakyoin can hear the shift of the fabric of his clothes. Kakyoin turns his head, and Jotaro is staring right at him this time. His heart jumps to his throat, but Kakyoin doesn’t look away.

“What happened?” Jotaro asks sternly, his eyes intense like he’s neck-deep in dense seawater, and Kakyoin swallows. Guess no one ever told him.

“I… I accidentally overdosed,” Kakyoin admits in a hoarse whisper. He’s still staring at Jotaro, he realizes dimly, but it’s like he can’t actually see. The world is blank around him, and Kakyoin feels like he’s in a bubble of sorts, everything muffling around him. “I became really tolerant of my painkillers, and…” And what more can he say? Kakyoin swallows. “I hurt her. She’s had to go through it before – seeing someone close to her… like that,” he says delicately. “I made her go through it again.”

Jotaro sucks in a breath, and it’s a soft noise, but it’s enough of a prompt that Kakyoin’s brain remembers to make sense of what his eyes are looking at, and he can suddenly actually see Jotaro again. His brow is creased, eyes scanning over Kakyoin’s face, his hat’s brim low. He’s close enough that Kakyoin can smell his deodorant again – some sort of store brand thing with a hint of spice, and it’s so nothing. It’s becoming Kakyoin’s favorite smell.

“Are you- okay?” Jotaro asks suddenly, and Kakyoin blinks, refocusing his gaze again.

“... What do you mean?” Kakyoin asks, and if he didn’t know better, it would seem like Jotaro squirms.

“Are you okay? You overdosed, I-” Jotaro cuts himself off, pressing one hand to his face, and Kakyoin can’t help but remember Rachel, his stomach twisting up. I don’t have a stomach.

“It was years ago,” Kakyoin says gently, and Jotaro lets out a breath. “I-” Kakyoin laughs a little humorlessly. “To be honest, I came out doing better than the doctors were expecting. They were really worried about my liver, but so long as I don’t have alcohol anymore, it does its job just fine still.”

Jotaro nods silently beside him, and Kakyoin shifts his jaw.

“Are… you okay?” Kakyoin asks, and Jotaro pauses before he drops his hand and turns to him.

They stare at one another for several moments, and Kakyoin needs to swallow. Jotaro’s eyes dart to his neck, eyeing the bob of his throat, and Kakyoin feels the urge to jump like Jotaro was touching him instead of just looking.

Kakyoin is the one to drop their gazes then, rubbing at his nose again. “Sorry, I kind of- sorry to just say all of that,” he says. “I’m okay. I didn’t mean to-”

Jotaro lets out a soft noise, shaking his head. “It’s fine, Kakyoin.” He pauses, hesitating. “I… I just didn’t know.”

Kakyoin sighs, inclining his head back. “I didn’t want people to know. It was… hard enough-” with Polnareff, Avdol, and Joseph knowing “-as it was.” The humid air is cold to his throat, and Kakyoin thinks of his scarf again, and thinks of Rachel. His heart squeezes in his chest and he closes his eyes. “I’m so lucky she doesn’t hate me.”

“Mm?” Jotaro sounds out, tone pitched high with puzzlement, and Kakyoin opens his eyes again, rolling his head to the side to look at Jotaro lazily. Jotaro quickly looks away when he catches his gaze, hunching forward a bit, and Kakyoin hums before sitting back up again, not allowing Jotaro to run, even in this small way.

“How-” Jotaro pauses, clearing his throat. “I mean, how do you know?”

Kakyoin blinks. “Huh?”

Jotaro swallows, keeping his gaze firmly averted from Kakyoin. He stares down at the grass, and as Kakyoin inhales, he smells the musty tang of the blades gently blowing in a small breeze. Underneath it, he can still catch the spice of Jotaro.

Kakyoin’s brought back to himself when Jotaro clarifies, voice ironed flat like Jotaro spent the pause in the conversation taking a rolling pin to his throat, “How do you know… she… doesn’t hate you…” He winces as he says the words. “I just mean- not that I think she should, just-”

Kakyoin laughs quietly, but it shuts Jotaro up as effectively as when he told him he got an innocent man killed. Kakyoin quiets himself then, cowed at the memory. His fingers twitch, and he looks around, glancing over his shoulder. No one’s around; it’s mid-morning on a work day, after all, Kakyoin supposes…

Bringing Hierophant out to keep watch, Kakyoin casually reaches and brushes his fingers against Jotaro’s. Jotaro jolts, finally turning to look at him again, and Kakyoin feels a thick warm syrup in the middle of his chest, like the cartilage holding his ribs together is slowly melting.

Jotaro scans his face, brows pinched, and it hurts Kakyoin to breathe. He wants to touch his face. He wants to touch his chest, feel his heart beat. He wants- he just wants Jotaro.

Jotaro glances down at their hands, and Kakyoin can’t help himself, breathily murmuring, “Jotaro,” and Jotaro shudders, Kakyoin close enough to see how his shoulders twitch with the movement.

Kakyoin swallows. “I know because she told me,” he says softly. Jotaro blinks.

“... Huh?”

Kakyoin rubs at his nose, his spine tingling at the memory of withdrawal, his skin prickling at the phantom sensation of sweat on his skin. Suddenly, he wants his cardigan off, and he absentmindedly slips it away from his shoulders, hanging on the back of his wheelchair, before he answers. “After she slapped me-” Jotaro lets out a high-pitched noise, and Kakyoin politely ignores it “-and we argued a little, we both calmed down enough to actually talk.” Kakyoin lets out a breath, pointedly not glancing at Jotaro, suddenly scared he’s being too on the nose with this confession and what he wants Jotaro to get out of it. “Particularly me. I calmed down.” He rubs his nose again. “I wanted to talk one last time. To apologize,” he says quietly. “And she accepted it even if she couldn’t forgive me.” Kakyoin looks down, his voice raspy, as he says, “Not at that time, at least.”

Jotaro is quiet beside him, not even moving as far as Kakyoin can tell. Kakyoin jolts when he feels Jotaro’s hand nudge his, and he glances back at him.

Jotaro swallows. “She doesn’t forgive you, but she doesn’t hate you?”

Kakyoin smiles bittersweetly at the grass, lips pressed together but the ends unable to avoid turning up a little. The vibrant green is so different from the browns and grays he knew in college. “No.” He sighs then. “It was… complicated. So the responses – hers included – were too.” Kakyoin pauses. “But she told me- she told me she doesn’t hate me. She told me it means a lot to her. She-” his voice catches, but he murmurs, “she told me she wants me to get better.”

“And you believe that?” Jotaro asks, and Kakyoin blinks before turning to stare at him. Jotaro doesn’t look at him, instead choosing to stare daggers at the grass. His eyes seem to glow underneath the shadow of his hat.

Kakyoin shifts his jaw. “I do,” he says, voice deep with how firm it is, and Jotaro finally glances at him, only to immediately jerk his gaze away once again when he sees Kakyoin staring. Kakyoin isn’t deterred though, and keeps looking, leaning a little into Jotaro’s side, and he can see the bob of Jotaro’s throat as he swallows, can see the dart of Jotaro’s pupils as he glances at him from his periphery.

Jotaro doesn’t move away.

Kakyoin stops pushing his luck and leans back to his own space.

After a beat, Jotaro nods, Kakyoin only just catching it from his own periphery. It’s quiet for several minutes then, and Kakyoin takes a deep breath, the earthy tang of the grass, the muggy humidity, and Jotaro’s ever-present salt, trying to reorganize his thoughts. Kakyoin shakes his head, as if to ward off the static of emotion, and refocuses on his goal. He glances at Jotaro and swallows.

“So… yeah. I…” He sucks in a breath through his teeth. “I really fucked up.” He chuckles, before chancing, “I guess I do that a lot with the people I like.”

If Jotaro catches the nudge, he doesn’t notice, staring down at the grass. Kakyoin avoids the urge to turn and fully face him again, and instead finishes his thought, “But even with such a major screw up… We made up. And we moved on. We’re-” happy. Kakyoin pauses. Is he happy? Sitting here with Jotaro under the late morning sun, in a park neither of them know the name of, smelling the thick tang of grass, sweating as the humidity begins to stick to their skin, right next to each other – is that happiness?

Kakyoin stares at his shoes. He can see Jotaro’s, too.

“We’re happy,” Kakyoin says softly. “Even apart.”

Jotaro is quiet. Then,

“Do you think-” Jotaro pauses, tongue darting out over dry lips, and Kakyoin politely stares at his chin to avoid tracking the movement. “Do you think you could be happy with her?”

Kakyoin hums, attention drawn away from Jotaro’s fidgets. He thinks of Rachel’s earth tones for the first time in years, thinks of the way she held his hands and grinned but steadily replied yes to his request for a date, he thinks of how she called him cute and he thinks of how they studied together before everything fell apart.

“Maybe,” Kakyoin murmurs. “I think- I think she’s moved on. But if she wanted to try… If we- if we could try again. Maybe.”

Jotaro’s voice comes out so strained it’s more like a whistle. “Even though you hurt her?”

Kakyoin ducks his head, his long bang swaying. “That’s why it’d have to be her- it’d have to be her decision to try.” Kakyoin swallows, his own throat tight. “But- I know better now. So it could work better.”

“Would you want it to?” Jotaro nearly rasps. Kakyoin swallows, adjusts his jaw, and looks back up into Jotaro’s water tones, his icy blues and sea greens and white, and responds in just as raspy a voice,

“Maybe.”

Jotaro’s face twitches then, his throat bobbing as he swallows, and his lips part to respond, but Kakyoin continues with, “but I want- I wouldn’t-“

Kakyoin sighs, shaking his head. Jotaro is silent.

“I could… be happy with her. But it’s not- that happiness isn’t my first choice.”

Jotaro’s throat clicks. “…What is?”

Kakyoin huffs a small laugh, shoulders slumping as he looks back up and stares Jotaro right in the face. “Isn’t it obvious?”

Jotaro snaps his gaze away, but he remains facing him, and Kakyoin holds his breath.

There’s a beat, then Jotaro sucks in a breath and turns away, and Kakyoin feels himself creak like his bones are eaten-through wood, no longer able to support their own weight, let alone this conversation’s heft.

“Jotaro-” Kakyoin spits out, and Jotaro snaps his head back to face him even if his body stays faced away, Kakyoin’s voice coming out wet and- scared, fragile and creaky, just like his bones.

Coward, a part of him reflexively notes, embarrassing, but it’s muffled in the overwhelming need for Jotaro to not go-

Kakyoin grabs onto Jotaro’s hands with both of his own, just barely burying the urge to tug him forward even closer, and says, “Jotaro, you- you’re my best friend,” voice taking on a desperate lilt, and he hates himself for it, but not as much as he wants- he wants- “Jotaro, you’re my best friend. We’re friends. You said we could be friends.”

Jotaro stares at him and Kakyoin sees his own fear echoed in his face, and he remembers timestop and Jotaro in that alleyway and how scared he is-

Kakyoin wonders if Jotaro has never not been scared since he was 17 years old, if he was ever not scared even before then.

He remembers Holly’s words – He told me that he didn’t know how to protect her, he asked if he would be enough – he remembers his own promise – Jotaro… I’m not letting you stay alone ever again – he remembers the beach – It was never just you, it doesn’t have to keep being just you

“Stop- stop trying to run away from me,” Kakyoin requests, his voice breaking, and Jotaro turns to face him fully again.

They stare at one another for several moments, and as far as Kakyoin is concerned, the park fades away. He can’t feel the sun, or the breeze against his sensitive neck, he can’t feel the blooming heat, can’t feel his spine, can’t hear the birds or the grass – nothing matters but Jotaro.

Finally, Jotaro opens his mouth, and says in a raspy voice, “I can’t- your happiness?”

Kakyoin feels a lump form in his throat, blowing up to block his airway and press against his adam’s apple, making it tight and heavy. He slowly nods his head anyway.

Jotaro closes his eyes, but he doesn’t turn away. “Kakyoin-” He sighs, and Kakyoin twitches.

“J-”

“I can handle you not hating me,” Jotaro murmurs, and Kakyoin falls silent. “I can- I can accept you even want to be friends again, but-” Jotaro holds his breath, and Kakyoin feels his heart join the lump, every pulse sending a wave of aching pain throughout his throat. “But you- you can’t choose me as your happiness,” Jotaro finally utters, and Kakyoin blinks.

“What?” Kakyoin asks, frowning. Can’t?

Jotaro just nods, body starting to turn again before he jerks and stays, and the ache in Kakyoin’s throat spreads down to his chest, opening up like a vicious root system, making every single thread of muscle a part of the seed of despair. “You can’t,” he restates, voice hoarse, and Kakyoin’s face screws up.

“You don’t want to?” Kakyoin clarifies. “Or I can’t?”

Jotaro halts then. He opens and closes his mouth, staring at Kakyoin desperately, and Kakyoin-

“Of course I want to,” Jotaro’s voice cracks then, and the root system in Kakyoin’s chest and throat burn alight, eaten up by a new, desperate fuel, surging up from his stomach. “But you can’t- I can’t.” He drops his head then, shoulders bunching up near his ears.

“Jotaro-” Jotaro shudders, and Kakyoin clings to it, squeezing Jotaro’s hands tight. Jotaro doesn’t look up, but he doesn’t jerk his hands away. “Why not?”

Jotaro takes a shuddering breath. “Becuase I- I can’t- I can’t keep it secure,” he utters, voice wispy, and Kakyoin’s brows pinch together even further, the gray of confusion muddling the pool of desperation rocking in his chest. “I can’t keep- you secure.”

Kakyoin jerks his head then, flames he’s familiar with but not in the same flavor he’s so used to filling up his chest, the smoke tasting different in his throat, using the desperation as a forest to burn on. “What?!” Jotaro winces, so Kakyoin softens his tone, but his voice is just as pressed as he says, “Who decided it would be only your responsibility? That I would be your responsibility?”

Jotaro stops then. Even his breathing halts as he falls still. If it weren’t for the warm hands Kakyoin’s holding, he’d be worried Jotaro dropped dead, or time stopped, or-

Kakyoin holds on. Jotaro doesn’t let go. “Don’t you remember what I said?” Kakyoin murmurs. “It was never just you. On the journey, or- or now.”

After several seconds, Jotaro takes a shaky breath. “Kakyoin, do you remember what you said, when I… brought you down from the water tower?”

Kakyoin stills. “... No,” he says uneasily, brows pinching. “What did I say?”

Jotaro swallows, gaze flitting over Kakyoin’s face, and Kakyoin needs to avoid the urge to shudder, not wanting to startle him. “You called me-” Jotaro’s breath hitches, but he continues, “You told me I was your best friend then, too.”

Kakyoin blinks. “I-”

“You- you told me you sent a message.” Kakyoin goes completely still, his hands falling so slack that they slip from Jotaro’s. “You asked if I got it.” Jotaro pauses, breathing audibly, before he continues. “I- I asked why- You said- you said it was the least you could do. For-” Jotaro grits his teeth “-for your ‘best friend.’” He shakes his head. “What kind of best friend lets you get killed-”

“Jotaro,” Kakyoin cuts in, “You didn’t let me do anything. I didn’t get k- I’m not dead. I’m not going to die.”

Jotaro quakes in his hands, shaking his head, and Kakyoin’s heart races. “The last time you said that,” Jotaro counters, “you almost died. You- you did die! On the operating table! So many fucking times-” Jotaro’s voice cracks and he falls silent again.

Kakyoin opens and closes his mouth for a second – was Jotaro there, in the room with him, even while he was getting his mangled body put back together again? – but he shakes his head and presses, “But I didn’t. I didn’t die. And I’m not going to die.” Jotaro opens his mouth again, but Kakyoin cuts in, “I’m not going anywhere, Jotaro. I am staying right here, by your side, and no one is going to move me, least of all you-” mortifyingly, Kakyoin’s voice cracks, but he stays firm, staring at Jotaro intensely, squeezing his hands again.

Jotaro is shaking, tremors racing down his shoulders, and he shakes his head. “Kakyoin, I can’t-”

“So I will,” Kakyoin presses, and Jotaro shakes his head again, and Kakyoin grits his teeth.

“You can’t promise-”

Kakyoin twitches before, unthinking, he yanks Jotaro’s hands forward, pulling Jotaro into his space, up until he forces Jotaro’s palms flat against his chest.

Kakyoin’s heart is beating so fast and so hard, blood surging through the trunk of his body, that there’s no way Jotaro wouldn’t be able to feel the rush of it, and Kakyoin pins him there, even as his cheeks heat up at the realization of their position. He’s thankful he brought out Hierophant Green to keep watch earlier – he wants no one else to see this.

Jotaro doesn’t have the mind to spare for embarrassment – Kakyoin’s jerking of his body forced his head up from that sad, out-of-character hanging, but he stares, hard, at Kakyoin’s chest, not his face. Kakyoin swallows, squeezes his hands, and presses them even further. He takes a deep breath, and his ribs push out, pinning Jotaro’s hands completely.

Jotaro shudders, but he doesn’t say anything. He just stares at Kakyoin’s shirt, and Kakyoin wonders if he’s having the same thoughts Kakyoin had when he first felt his pacemaker. Kakyoin squeezes his hands again before he looks around, glancing over his shoulder. With Hierophant watching, he already knows the park is deserted – most people are probably at school or work, Kakyoin thinks, remembering that it was a typical work day – but he double checks, just to be sure, with his own eyes.

He turns to Jotaro then and drops his hands gently. Jotaro glances up at him then, and Kakyoin smiles at him, exhausted, brows still furrowed together.

“Let me show you something,” Kakyoin murmurs, and Jotaro swallows thickly. He stares Kakyoin right in the face, and in the distance, Kakyoin can hear gulls. He nods slowly.

Kakyoin lets out a small breath, nodding in turn. Jotaro blinks, before he seizes when Kakyoin grabs the hem of his shirt and starts to pull up.

“Ka-”

Kakyoin glances up, catching his eye, and Jotaro looks utterly caught.

“Kakyoin,” he rasps, and Kakyoin swallows.

“Trust me,” he rasps back, and Jotaro shudders. Kakyoin pulls his shirt up to his neck.

He shudders as the cold air nestles right up to his skin like an animal, leeching the small bit of body heat he’d accumulated from sitting in the sun, but he holds it up.

Jotaro’s eyes are pinned on his scar – the big one at least, the remnants of his skin grafts not nearly as eyecatching.

Jotaro’s hands creep up before he seems to consciously realize it, flinching away from Kakyoin once he notices, and Kakyoin feels a surge of warmth bloom throughout his body, making the air more bearable.

“You can touch,” Kakyoin murmurs, echoing himself when Jotaro touched his eye scars for the first time. “It’s been healed for a long time, you know.”

Jotaro glances up at him before he hesitantly reaches forward. His fingers tremble, just a bit, and Kakyoin only notices because he’s staring so hard at them. His chest feels structureless.

When Jotaro finally touches him, Kakyoin can’t feel it, but he watches as Jotaro gently traces his finger down a strand of the knotted scar tissue that makes up his upper torso, tracing the bumps and ridges almost reverently.

“I’m alive,” Kakyoin repeats softly, and Jotaro shudders, fingers halting. “I’ve been away from that operating table for a long time.”

Jotaro swallows, his face crumpling, before he presses his whole hand against Kakyoin’s skin and leans forward, resting his head on Kakyoin’s shoulder. Kakyoin can’t help but lean into it, letting his shirt drop back down so he can wrap his arms around Jotaro’s shoulders, pressing his nose deep into his hair. He smells like salt and the spice of that deodorant, of course, with the small waxy impression of generic soap, and Kakyoin can’t help but snort when he realizes Jotaro’s been using whatever the hotel provides his room rather than buying any of his own.

They stay there for several moments, and it’s enough for the heat to seep back into Kakyon’s torso, which he lets out a soft sigh about, relaxing even more into Jotaro. His shirt slips back down fully, but Jotaro’s hand stays underneath it, against his scar. For the first time, Kakyoin can feel the circulation that had to be forced back into the skin there, and it feels warm. Kakyoin closes his eyes.

“Can’t this be enough?” Kakyoin asks into Jotaro’s hair, quietly, and Jotaro curls into him.

He doesn’t say anything for a long time, and neither does Kakyoin, content to hold the pose, to stay there all day really, with Jotaro in his arms. The sweet scent of humidity blankets around them, obscuring the soap smell, but the seasalt that follows Jotaro everywhere is still tangible. Kakyoin’s feeling warm enough to start sweating, but he stays still, ignoring the small tingling as it beads on his forehead and back.

After a while longer, Jotaro does shift, and Kakyoin lets his arms creep away from him, letting Jotaro sit back up. Jotaro looks exhausted, the circles underneath his eyes visible, but he looks up and catches Kakyoin’s gaze anyway.

“I-” Jotaro pauses, swallowing. “I can’t make that choice.”

“Then-” Kakyoin says, frustrated, “can’t I?”

Jotaro blinks. He opens and closes his mouth once, before leaning back.

“Can I?” Kakyoin presses, and Jotaro just stares at him, but the brim of his hat is finally pushed away from his face, no longer obscuring him in shadow.

“You really want this,” Jotaro observes, before they both wince at his bluntness, heat riding up along Kakyoin’s collar, but he refuses to look away.

More than anything. “I want the chance to make a choice.” Kakyoin pauses, chewing on his words, trying to find a non-confrontational way to convey what he’s thinking. “... You got to the first time,” he says gently, “so isn’t it my turn?”

“... I can’t,” Jotaro repeats, voice quiet.

Kakyoin refuses to let him go. “I can,” he insists. “I will.”

Jotaro’s face pinches, but he stays staring at him. If Kakyoin weren’t looking so hard, he would have missed the small shift in his eyes as something unshutters inside them. It looks like storm clouds beginning to part, a hurricane finally ending. Despite everything, Kakyoin feels the beginning of a sunrise in his chest.

They don’t say anything else, in silent agreement that the conversation is done for now. Kakyoin recalls Hierophant and Jotaro stands, and as they begin the journey back to the hotel, they go side-by-side.

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