Sometimes I feel like I can't reach my parents/families expectations. I was struggling, so I wrote a poem expressing how I feel.
I also have no idea what to call it so..feel free to suggest a title!
Constructive critisism and possitive comments are welcome!
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Context for the poem is included in the end notes
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Pressure encases me
Expectations are high
I can't seem to be enough
No matter how hard I try
Now I fail at every turn
Every breath I make is wrong
And no matter what I do
I'll never sing the right song
I say I'm sorry, but it's never enough
Each appology calling for more
Each time I try to fix the flaw
I end up on the floor
"One day I'll be there," I say with a sigh
Looking up at all those around
But tomorrow will never be today
And today is where I am now
Context for this poem:
I am the second oldest of 7 kids. My older sister is the perfect child. She isn't perfect (obviously, because no one is), but she is my parents dream child basically. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death, but its hard knowing that I can never be as good as her. She is super smart. She is very religious and faithful (infact, she is currently on a church mission). She is straight. She is kind. She is everything my parents expect me to be.
I have spent years trying to be like her, trying to make my parents proud of me. I had a mental breakdown one night because of it. It's not the first time this has happened, but this time I wrote down some of the things I was feeling. It became this poem.