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She was so mad at James for something she can't even remember anymore, but it didn't matter 'cause as long as he didn't apologize she would continue with this. Now, being with Bellatrix was a place comfortable enough for Lily. She knows how horrible the Black is and what she actually thinks about her and other muggle-borns, but when they are together Bella isn't that girl to her.

"I know what you're thinking, Lils. And I confess, it's annoying the hell out of me."

"How can you know what I'm thinking?"

"Because I know you, my sweet Lily. Better than anyone." Even James? The Evans wonders but doesn't speak.

"So tell me, Bella. What exactly am I thinking?"

"About me and you, about you and James. And how this thing we have is close to an end."

"Why you're saying that?"

"It's the truth, you know it, but you don't want to admit it."

"Are you sad or angry?"

"No, I wasn't expecting you to be this long with me. You like me, but you love him and that's okay. I don't love you if that's what you're afraid of." But maybe I would like you to...

"Let's not talk about this now or ever again, please. I just want to enjoy this moment with you. It's just us, ok? There's no one else."

Bellatrix knows they should talk about this kind of stuff, she knows they shouldn't be together, even more than that, she knows she shouldn't like her but she does, at least like this. Bella wants to say all those things to Lily, she prefers to do what the muggle born told her to. They stay a few more minutes in the Room of Requirement before it gets too dark.

"You're right, we shouldn't see each other anymore. But I want you to know that being with you was really good, I want you to know that you can be good, Bella."

"I like this is what you think of me and I hate to be the one to break it to you, Lils. But I'm a lost cause. There's no good in me, maybe you saw the last of it but that's it. As soon as we get off this room I'll back to tormenting you every day like I'm supposed to."

"It breaks my heart, but at least I know that you'll always have the memories of our time together. I'll always be a part of you even if it's deep down inside."

"You really are my sweet Lily."

"Can I give you a last kiss?"

"If you didn't ask I was gonna do it anyway."

Lily gives an end to the space between them and Bellatrix initiates the kiss making it more passionate than it usually was. Lily's the one to break it in tears.

"Goodnight, Bella. And goodbye."

"Goodnight, Lils."