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“You can only be jealous of someone who has something you think you ought to have yourself.” -Margaret Atwood.
“Jealously is an ugly emotion, but it tells the truth.” -Susan Cain
“Jealously, that dragon which slays love under the pretense of keeping it alive.” -Havelock Ellis
Obi-wan wouldn’t say she was a jealous person. It was quite hard to be jealous when the esteem Maverick Jedi Master Qui-gon Jinn at first didn’t want her as an apprentice; was set on sending her to the AgriCorps, but Obi-wan is selfless, and was willing to sacrifice her life to stop her brother-Padawan, Xanatos. And even then after the whole ordeal, Qui-gon looked at her with such regret and uncertainty that Obi-wan knew for a fact she couldn’t be jealous.
No, Obi-wan wasn’t a jealous person even when Qui-gon died and entrusted the ‘Chosen One’s’ training to her. A pathetic lifeform that her deceased master shanghaied away from the backwaters of Tatooine, Obi-wan couldn’t be jealous because Anakin Skywalker needed her.
Obi-wan definitely wasn’t a jealous person when her Padawan grew up in her care, under her tutelage, into the fine young man he was before a certain senator from Naboo flaunted her looks and made bedroom eyes towards her apprentice.
No, Obi-wan wasn’t jealous until the moment she appeared. A woman out of her time, presented at the beginning of the Clone Wars to turn her former padawan, now Jedi Knight, away from the senator of Naboo towards the young woman who is nothing but just a schutta of a woman.
Obi-wan wasn’t a jealous person, until a younger version of herself appeared in her universe.
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Obi-wan wakes from her peaceful slumber on her tiny cot built for one in her humble little cave near the Sith Temple on Malachor. She does her morning stretches in nothing but her bra and panties before she dons her stylish dark gray leather tabards and her high-heeled black boots. She turns back to her cot to peruse her lightsaber but hesitates to take hold of it before she clips it to her belt and then ties up her strawberry blonde hair with hints of grey trickled about into a ponytail. She exits her cave to begin her katas. And even though she knows that something is bound to happen any day soon, she waits patiently with a loth-wolf smile adorn on her facial features and yellowish eyes that even the deceased Darth Sidious would tremble in his wrinkly old-ass skin.
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Obi-wan didn’t have to wait too long for a visit that was bound to happen. She knew that her younger self would have been turning 39 this Name-Day while she is turning 45. A Corellian G9 Rigger similar to the Twilight that her former padawan used to own and operate during the Clone Wars touchdowns near her demure homestead. This version of the Twilight dons peculiar colorations as it is patterned with a blue and red schema. Obi-wan shakes her head in fond amusement before she blinks once to revert her eye color back to her normal blue-gray tone. Then she steps out from her cave, spotting a familiar presence dashing towards her as well as trying to brush against her mind.
Obi-wan chuckles to herself before she closes off her mind and makes a mad dash towards the young man, whipping out her saber to begin the practiced dance from so long ago.
The young man panics at first but collides with Obi-wan’s saber with his own to defend himself from the unexpected attack. His azure eyes go wide in surprise that Obi-wan’s saber has bled to a violet hue that borders on red, the pigmentation for a Sith.
“You’ve fallen Master…” whispered the young man as he parried another round of attacks from his former Jedi master.
Obi-wan cackles, revealing her yellowish irises to her former apprentice, and instead refuses to answer her wayward apprentice as she continues her onslaught of barrages.
As Obi-wan battles, her memories of the 3 hellish years of the Clone Wars as well as what persisted outside of the battles in the war fuels her anger, her hatred, her jealously, making the Dark Side that resides in her that much stronger. And when Obi-wan sees an opening, she takes it as she cleaves her former padawan’s right mecho-arm, disengaging his blue saber and causing Anakin Skywalker, nicknamed the ‘Chosen One’ as well as the ‘Hero With No Fear’ during his time in the Clone Wars, to howl in anguish from the pain of losing his arm once more.
Just before Obi-wan could torment her former student some more, she whipped her head to see two children walking down the ramp of the G9 Rigger. Twin children, a girl and a boy, probably about the age of 3 if not turning 4 soon. Their presence in the Force is so strong, so palpable, that Obi-wan almost suffocates from the sheer strength of their Force presence in the Light Side.
Almost is the key as Obi-wan sweeps that presence away from her and turns off her saber to clip it to her belt. She slants her vision to scan before her to the twin children and her former student.
The twins are fraternal but what is striking is that they easily resemble the father (for the boy) and the potential mother (for the girl). The boy has the same blonde crop of hair that Obi-wan remembered seeing on her former padawan when she first met him on Tatooine while the girl, the girl has copper shimmer hair tied up into 2 buns with blue-gray eyes.
Obi-wan stalks towards her former student and bellows out, “Who is the mother?!”
Anakin, to his shame, can’t look at his former master and mouths out, “Her, Master…”
Obi-wan then sees red as she utilizes the Force to call both Anakin’s lightsaber and severed arm to completely decimate them to ashes.
“Master!” choked out Anakin before his former master levitates him with the Force and slowly restricts his breathing.
“Father!” screeched the twin children before they ran to protect their father from Obi-wan’s wrath.
Obi-wan glanced towards the two and perceived the defiance in both their protective stances as well as in the Force. She eventually dropped her former apprentice to the ground and while he was gagging for air, Obi-wan begun to pace back and forth, soon starting to rant to her former student.
“Anakin, I warned you! I explicitly said at the beginning of that relationship with that schutta of a woman that’ll end badly. But no! You pursued her anyways! And how did that turn out?! Huh?!”
Obi-wan halted her pacing to stare daggers at her former padawan who gulped out, “She died in childbirth…”
Obi-wan’s power of the Dark Side was so formidable that when she lifted her hand and snapped her fingers, Anakin was soon being crushed as if he had 10 times the gravity just suddenly dropped on him.
“Please!” wailed the twin children who beseeched Obi-wan with tears in their eyes.
Obi-wan relented her hold before she spoke up, “What are you names children?”
The twins looked at one another before the boy introduced himself with his best confident voice, “Luke Skywalker.” while the girl replied with an authoritative-like tone, “Leia Kenobi.”
“I see…” begun Obi-wan before she all of a sudden embraced the twins.
The twins were skeptical at first to return the hug, but Obi-wan soon probed their mind to form a familial bond and stated inside their minds, ‘I am your mother.’ which resulted in the twins reciprocating the hug just as fiercely as Obi-wan was with them.
Anakin wept from the touching sight and wished that his former master, the one right in front of him, in this universe truly was the mother.
Obi-wan smiled wolfishly before she harnessed the Dark Side to succumb the Skywalker-Kenobi clan to a deep slumber.
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‘My name is Obi-wan Kenobi and I’m 29 years old. In my universe, the Clone Wars concluded before Anakin and I got Knighted.’
‘The Anakin Skywalker in my universe is actually my lover, but he wouldn’t mind if I partake of you, dear one.’
‘What your former master who is my older self doesn’t know, the better. Let’s have a good time, dear one.’
‘You want kids, sure. But you’re gonna have to wait for it, okay, dear one?’
‘You’re just jealous that it’s a younger self of us that actually gets to ravage the ‘Chosen One’. You wished it were you.’
‘Why didn’t you tell me?!’
‘You’ve fallen. -Pause- Please take care of them when it happens. I’ve known we had our differences but please, promise me you’ll take care of them. There’s still good in you.’
Obi-wan recounted all the key conversations she had with her younger self or conversations she had accidentally overheard in her cave on Malachor while her family was still indisposed.
Meeting her younger self, finding out that her younger self had the hots for her former apprentice, overhearing the secret rendezvous with her younger self and Anakin, eavesdropping on the potential future family talk, denying her feelings about her former padawan towards her younger self, having that specific talk with her former self as she realized she got pregnant too late, and lastly, seeing her younger self one last time before Obi-wan knew the inevitable was going to happen.
The sacrifice that Stewjoni woman have to make is heart-wrenching to give birth to children. There is a certain window that when a woman reaches the age of 35, she must get pregnant within the first two months after her name-day. And if she doesn’t give birth before she turns 36, she will die during childbirth. It’s basically to control the population size on Stewjon as there’s an abundance of women compared to men.
Her younger self got pregnant 2 and half months after her name-day and due to her carrying twins, they stayed in longer than the nine-month mark causing the younger Obi-wan to perish during childbirth.
However, what made Obi-wan fall is that she kept denying she was jealous of that relationship.
Throughout the Clone Wars, the younger Obi-wan and Anakin were inseparable. The Holo-Net News didn’t care if there were 2 Obi-wans, neither did the Jedi Council as they were nicknamed the ‘Team’ who triumphed over every obstacle including the unmasking of Sheev Palpatine as the puppeteer of the Clone Wars as well as Dark Lord of the Sith, Darth Sidious.
When peace was obtained, Obi-wan decided it was best to retire from the Jedi as she couldn’t admit her feelings for her former apprentice. Anakin was distraught and wanted her to stay but Obi-wan put her foot down that she couldn’t stand being a Jedi anymore (as well as being a hypocrite for her true feelings for her former padawan).
She left and settled in Tatooine for a bit before she had an unexpected visitor travel to her homestead at the Jundland Wastes.
That was the conversation Obi-wan had with her younger self when she found out she was finally pregnant. Obi-wan still denied her feelings, sending her younger self away before the former Jedi master left Tatooine in favor for a much needed change of scenery, Malachor.
The last time Obi-wan saw her younger self, she was 8 and half months pregnant as she traveled in secret to visit her older self one more time. This was the conversation that made Obi-wan finally admit her feelings about her former padawan which made her surrender to the Dark Side with that acceptance.
Obi-wan remembers that promise she made to her younger self and when her former student finally appeared today, she wasn’t anticipating the twins to be along for the ride.
Obi-wan casts her yellow irises to her former apprentice, Anakin Skywalker, who finally admits that he should have listened to his former teacher and then towards the twin children of the man she loves and her younger self.
“I love you Anakin, but these children are no longer yours…” whispered Obi-wan as she weaved the Force to manipulate the memories of the twins to exclude their father and replace them with her as the parental figure. And then after she handled the twins’ psyche, she performed the same treatment to her beloved, only to erase all memories of Obi-wan’s younger self from his mind, leaving Anakin to remember who he belonged to because Obi-wan finally admitted she was a jealous person. She was just jealous of herself.