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I made it, but what was the cost? Leaving my troupe members behind was probably the worst part of this journey. Our troupe was made to save the theme park, so more people would come and it would stay open, but it’s not needed anymore. I thought my main goal was to be the world’s future star, but I was wrong. Finally being able to remember the past I see that all I wanted was for people to smile. Seeing my sister Saki and my parents smile and be so happy when we saw that play made me so happy. They were finally able to forget about my sister’s illness, forget about the hospital bills, forget everything bad. So I started making plays for my sister while she was in the hospital. Everyday I visited, my character would go on another adventure for her to enjoy. I was able to see and make her smile everyday even through all the pain I knew she was going through.
In high school I met my troupe members through a job interview. Somehow, through a bunch of random shenanigans, we came up with the goal of performing plays at a theme park owned by the family of one of my troupe members so it didn’t get erased. Through our performances I was able to see so many children and adults smile and then enjoy the park. While we’ve had our mishaps, my troupe is very dear to me and we stayed together for the entirety of highschool.
That happiness together was bound to end. We knew eventually we’d go our separate ways. Our director Rui, with his smarts in machinery, would become an engineer. I knew that would be a good career for him since all of the interesting parts of our plays had his machines. Even one of the actors was a robot! Obviously Robo-Nene had to be controlled by a human for the acting parts, but it was great since we had a limited number of people. Nene herself, our diva and the person Robo-Nene was made for, also continued her acting career. Finally gaining her full confidence and getting over her stage fright had landed her in an internship with the person that inspired her. Emu would help her brothers with the family business and the theme park. With her amazing ideas for people to enjoy things to the fullest I’m sure that things will start looking up for her.
I was left alone after we disbanded. Of course we still had contact with each other, but with everyone being so busy it was hard to meet up in person. I was able to stay in contact with a few other friends from high school that helped me further my career. Mizuki was able to help me with her interest in design. She helped me make the backgrounds of my plays. Her along with Akito were able to help me make better costumes that fit better with the many different themes of plays I now did. I landed a job at a theater and was able to work with many different people. I was working there for a few years until I landed a job as an actor. I travelled the world for many different projects. I only felt comfortable leaving knowing that Saki would be safe with her band she made with her childhood friends. I know I can trust them to take care of her as they’ve stayed by her side even when she was stuck in the hospital.
For some reason, I still feel sad and lonely. I don’t understand why? I have friends and people waiting for me when I go back home. All my friends have been successful in their jobs and have solved any other problems they may have faced. What reason do I have to be sad? I’m successful in my career and my family is happy and healthy.
I miss performing with my troupe. I miss watching Akito, Toya, An, and Kohane perform in their street band and seeing them grow and then surpass RAD WEEKEND. I miss watching MORE MORE JUMP’s lives and their performances as idols. Just being able to hang out with Shizuku would’ve been enough for me, but she’s still busy with continuing her dream of being an idol. I miss my sister and seeing her band practice songs together. My true feelings were for people to smile and be happy, but why do I have to be sad to make everyone else happy. Why do I have to be the one to suffer?