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Kenna POV
All week the conversations i've had with Lilianna go two ways- either she complains about the stupidly high heels shes forced to wear- or she complains about the ridiculous amount of lace on that fucking dress. Don't get me wrong, she looks good in white, ethereal, like a goddess that's just descended from the heavens. But the fact that in a few hours she will wear that dress and bind herself to a man. Kills me inside.
Lilianna POV
Honestly, I've had the same conversations with Kenna all week, i'm surprised she hasn't told me to piss off and bother someone else about the heels or the amount of itchy lace on this dress. It is a pretty dress- and as much as I like my suitor- he’s good looking- don't get me wrong. But I can't shake the feeling that it doesn't feel right marrying him. I don't know- i feel like I'm wasting my youth. I'm only 19! I just think that maybe- im not the girl he thinks he wants.
Kenna POV
If you ask me, I'd tell her to cancel this wedding- call it dodging a bullet. He seems nice and all but he's in his 30s- I'm pretty sure and she's 19. It just seems dodgy to me.
Lilliana POV
“Kenna, I dont know- im kinda having second thoughts.” I look at myself in the mirror of the dressing room- Kenna laces the back of the dress up behind me- her fingers every now and then brush against my back- sending shivers up my spine- i want her to- “if you're having second thoughts Lily. you shouldn't go through with it. It's not too late to take this dress off.” Kenna simply says, I suppose she's somewhat right. “I know.. Hes nice but i feel rushed” I say eyeing Kenna’s face in the mirror- she has a solem expression, she looks so fucking bored- but then she rolls her eyes. “What are you making that face for?” I ask- a slight stutter in my voice- why am i so nervous
“He may seem nice, but it could just be an act. Just saying Lily- i don't wanna boost your ego anymore but i think you're too damn good for him” I can feel that she's finished lacing the back of the dress.
“Aw, thank you- i'll take it as a compliment”
Kenna laughs and shakes her head “you should” she says, but then her face goes serious again- “you have at least 3 hours to decide what you're gonna do- choose wisely. If there's someone else you'd rather have Lilianna. You need to tell them now”. She gives me a strange look- like she's trying to tell me something that either i'm too stupid to get or.. Yeah no idea.
“Kenna- I, what are you-” I start, but i have no idea what i'm trying to say. Kenna turns her back to me.
Kenna POV
Yeah, I can't look at her- so I turned my back. I don't know why in the world I just said what I did but it's too late now.
“Kenna- what are you getting at? Can you turn around please- im getting worried” Yeah, i can hear the worry in your voice Lily. But I can't say what I want to say.
“It doesn't matter, like i said if you're having seconds thoughts- cancel it before it's too late”
“Kenna, I get that but, ‘someone else’? Who are you- What?”
I give up, turn around- for the confusion she had in her voice just a second ago- her face doesn't reflect that when i turn around, it seems like she's realised something, but ill ignore that.
“Lily- i told you it doesnt matter- just forget i said that, i dont even know why i said it anyway”
“No- Kenna, I think you're right…”
Lilliana POV
“No- Kenna, I think you're right…”
I think i get it now- i think she can tell “ you can tell, cant you? I ask her, I hate where the same height makes it so awkward.
“You mean the way whenever you stood next him- your eyes stray back to someone in our group? Yeah, I just didnt wanna say it myself” She says, slightly laughing as she speaks- she continues
“So.. you wanna say something? Theres like nearly 2 hours left you know”
As much as I hate to admit it, Kenna’s right- I have been looking at someone else when I should be looking at him, there have been times I've kissed him wishing it was someone else- times he's touched me and I've nearly said the wrong name.
“Kenna, I don't think I can…” I look Kenna in the eyes and god damn does she look so annoyed with me- so I avert my gaze to the corner of the room.
“Lilianna,” she brings her hands to my face and pinches my cheeks “ you gotta say something or do something! Do you really wanna spend the rest of your life with this man or not?”
“Kenna! Let go of my cheeks-” i grab her wrists trying to pry her hands away from my cheeks- it doesnt work.
“LILIANNA”
“Damn! Okay, okay.. Ill tell them” I don't need to go far to do so
Kenna lets go of my cheeks “okay, okay, good luck” she gives me a small smile, like shes fully expecting me to walk away from her and go to the doorway and leave, but i dont. Instead I grab her face and press my lips against hers.
Kenna POV
Okay.
Okay?
Lilianna is kissing me.
Shes grabbed my face and kissed me.
WAIT WHAT?!
Out of shock- i pull back- regretting it as soon as i do so- fuck Kenna you dumb bitch. We both stand there, looking at each other like idiots- but then Lily begins to freak out.
“OMG- KENNA I- omg why did i do that” Lily takes like 5 steps away from me- almost tripping over a chair leg, which she decides to fall into the chair instead covering her face in her hands”
“Lily- I”
“No! No, let me talk please” she lowers her hands and places them on her lap- doesn't look at me though.
“Im sorry Kenna, we've been friends for years now, and i guess along the way i didnt wanna just be friends anymore- i guess after that day i broke up with you know who- and you comforted me, kissed my forehead- held me in your arms as i cried myself to sleep. I realised that i liked it when you touched me- when you- god what am i saying”
Lily continues to look at the floor or her feet- i dont know- but i can stand here like an idiot anymore. Especially when she looks like shes about to burst into tears
Lilianna POV
Kenna grabs my hands of my lap and pulls me up until I'm standing- then pulls me into a hug. Which i cant help but melt into and burst into tears.
“Lily, i knew you'd start crying as soon as i did that” Kenna laughs and places her hand on my head, stroking my hair.
“Shut up” i mumble- bury my head into her shoulder. I can hear her start to speak but she hesitates for a seconds, sighs and then speaks:
“Lily, you dont need to be sorry, to be honest i feel the same way- ive liked you for a long while now, i just didnt realise untill that night you came to my apartment crying over that bastard. It broke me seeing you cry, and i guess after you fell asleep it solidified what i was trying to deny or pretend didnt exist- existed”
Kenna pulls back, to look me in the face
“I guess you could say that after that night, i knew that i loved you Lily, and that i wanted you to be happy- even if the one to make you happy was me or some other”
She gives me the same soft-eyed smile shes always given me- now i understand what it means. Not friendship but love.
“Kenna- I” words cannot form what i wanna say- so i dont, I press my lips to hers once again, and this time she kisses me back- its soft, nice, theres no lust behind it. She pulls away sliding her hands from by back to my waist and leaning her forehead against mine, she begins to slightly laugh.
“Kenna- what are you laughing at?”
She shakes her head “nothing- just, i suppose i can take this dress off you now huh?”
“Or we can steal his suite and put you in it” i pull one of my hands from around her neck and trail it down her arm “im sure youd look better than him in it- id rather your last name then his”
“Mhm, maybe- but id rather spend a few years with you before i consider giving you my last name”
I cant help but laugh at her words “imagine- Lili-”
“Save my sanity Lily- your gonna drive me crazy, its only been five minutes since we just first kissed”
“So kiss me again”
“Eh- i dunno”
“Kenna!”
Kenna POV
The more i kiss Lily- the more i know im fucking crazy for this girl- its been around a week since the whole kissing in her dressing room 2 hours before her wedding- we got caught doing so. Pidge walked in- asking what the fuck was taking so long- and well lets say pidge was not surprised.
Her suitor however, looked like he wanted to chop my head off for laying a finger on ‘his’ Lilianna. Well shes mine now.
“Ah- Kenna! What are you spacing about now? Lily whines beneath me.
“Nothing” i say, placing a kiss on her neck “just about how life would have gone if you married him last week”
“Your thinking about that as you fuck the life out of me with your fingers? Seriously”
Her response makes me laugh and i bite her neck- sure to leave a mark
“Kenna! Ouch- no biting! What are you a dog?”
“Stop scratching the shit out of my back then! What are you a cat?”
“Touche”
After a beat of silence and staring at each other We both burst into laughter- and i cant help but bite her neck again
“KENNA!”
Lilliana POV
“You know- im starting to think your a fucking vampire- who leaves this many marks?” I say- rubbing at the obvious love bites Kenna left all over my neck
“Eh- stop complaining- you told me like 3 minutes ago you like my filthy mouth”
Kenna teases, as she sips on tea she made- i mean who has tea after sex? Weirdo.
“Your mouth isnt just filthy its fucking freaky”
“Thanks for the compliment sweetie”
I scoff and roll my eyes- joining Kenna on the couch
Kenna POV
So a few months passed- maybe like 6 or 7. Lilliana only continues to prove how she drives me crazy- in all ways. Seriously.
“Y’know i cant believe its been half a year since i kissed you in that dressing room”
Lily says as we watch the most boring show we've ever agreed to watch- online ratings like to lie. A lot. She’s fidgeting with the strings on her sweatpants though.
“To think i could have married him.” she continued.
“Hm, well you didnt- you chose to basically run away with me instead”
Lily laughs “yeah, im glad i did”
“Yeah?” i turn to look at her
“Yep. each week that goes by- ive never regretted not marrying him- and each day i spend with you the more i know i made the right decision, despite what some of my family ot your family says. I know I love you- i dont think anything you can do will change that”
“Lily- get to the point sweetie, you wanna say something, i know you do”
She sighs
“Kenna, i love you so much”
“I know, i love you too”
“But- i was wondering”
“Yeah- i dont mind kids, if that what you want- but lets at least get married first”
“You- howd you know what i was gonna say!”
I shrug my shoulder “i can read your mind” i say, then take a sip of my tea
Lily rolls her eyes
“So when are we getting married then?
I spit out my tea.
Lilliana POV
Its now been around 3 years since the fateful day in that dressing room, and now im back but this time Kenna isnt the one lacing my dress- she’ll be the one i see at the end of the aisle instead. And i cannot wait to see her in a suite- since she refused to wear a dress. And i cannot wait to be declared Mrs. Lilianna Kogane.
Kenna POV
Its actually been 6 years since that day. The day Lily grabbed my face in that dressing room and kissed me. We were both 19 at the time, young and stupid, married at 22- people called us stupid for doing so- so soon, but it felt right, watching her walk down the aisle in that white dress and the silly smile she had on her face made me cry- and i never cry, but it was the best decision of my life.
“Kenna, my love, what are you thinking about? Youre smiling”
Lily comes and sits across from me at the dining table, grabbing my left and and running her thumb across the ring of my finger
“About the day we put those rings on eachother”
“I thought so- the day is first saw you cry and the day you made me a Kogane”
“Best decision of my life”
“Yeah, same here- wouldn't change it for the world. 25 and happily married to someone i once considered as still do my best friend”
“Crazy its been 6 years though”
“Time sure flies huh?”
I lean over and place a kiss to her lips, which she giggles into.
Lilianna POV
A few months later, we decided we were ready. The next step in our relationship- starting a family.
“Adpotion really- cause you know”
“Kenna, Can you actually read my fucking mind or what?”
“Nah”
“Breaking the fourth-wall for what”
“Lily- were getting too self-aware right now”
Right okay, we decided to adopt a little girl- around a few months old, her name is evelynn, evelynn roe and obviously Kogane. To say she isnt biologically related to Kenna, she does kind of look like her- dark hair, dark eyes. Honestly shes the perfect little addition to our lives. Kenna finds it slightly creepy evelynn looks like her, i find it extremely cute.
Kenna POV
Well, its been around another 2 years, both of us just recently turning 27, Evelynn now 2 years old and yeah, Lily was right she looks eerily similar to me despite not being biologically related at all. I still think its slightly creepy, Lily still thinks its the best thing in the world.
“Ugh god, i cannot believe in 30 in 3 years” Lily says, sat on the floor passing Evelyn coloured crayons she asks for- its quite adorable.
“My love, your going on 30 not 50- youre still in the prime of your life- and still as gorgeous as you was when you were 22, besides were the same age, so it doesn't matter”
“So its been what? 8 years since the dressing room when we were 19”
Now i think about it, we always refer back to that day in the dressing room, Lily agrees. Well it was the beginning of our relationship from being pining best friends to romantic partners.
“Dressing room? Whats that?”
“Oh! Evelynn, sweetie is a room that you get dressed in- for like weddings or fashion shows, like on TV” Lily goes to pick Evelynn up from the floor and sits her on her lap
“Ah, its that where you and mommy met?”
“No, we met when we were like 14, its the place where i told your mommy that i loved her”
“Oh… okay!”
And with that Evelyn hops off Lily's lap and goes back to drawing on the floor
“She really is adorable” Lily coos
“Reminds me a lot of you- she talks like you aswell”
“Kenna. You did not just compare my speech patterns to a two year old”
“Yeah, i just did”
Lily rolls her eyes at me but laughs after, passing evelynn another crayon shes asked for- well sorta shouted for.
Looking back on the past 8 years, theyve been perfect really, sure me and Lily have our moments where we wana slap the shit out of eachother, but we work through it. Despite both of us being stubborn as shit.
I was once asked by someone, if i could go back and change anything would I
“Hey, Kenna- if you could go back and change anything would you?”
“No i wouldnt, im where i am now because of you Lilianna”
“Yeah, same here”
“I love you so much Lily”
“I love you too, Kenna. So much”