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"they keep thinking im dating like every one of my friends that are girls, like jesus i can't even think of being in a relationship... they should just stop hoping" violet said to leah as she blew smoke from her cigarette out.
she sighed "damn" she said while looking at her nails, she honestly didn't really care. violet sighed, "like i like guys too you know" she rolled her eyes. Leah nodded "what about you and that other girl, the one who wears the hat all the time" she asked and violet bit her lip
"shit." she thought for a little then shrugged "I dont know." she took a hit of her cigarette and scratched the scar on her leg. that girl was you, you guys were friends, good friends, you just didn't talk a lot. you really wish you guys did though.
violet told youd she'd talk to you everyday if she wasn't so busy, but she didn't even try. "oh" Leah said "i mean i know you don't like it, but it seemed like you guys were together or something" she told her and violet just ignored it.
after a little while Leah got her bag and got up "Well, I'm gonna head home" violet nodded "see ya" she said and Leah left. violet sat her cigarette butt in her pink cup she'd put them out in and walked to turn her light off.
she was thinking about you she couldn't help it, but she didn't really want to think or care about you so she laid down and slept.
the next morning, you jumped at your alarm before you shut it off. you looked at the ceiling for a little, you were so tired but you remembered you bought a new shirt. a dark red babydoll top that you couldnt wait to wear. the truth is, you really wanted violet to see you looking pretty in it.
you jumped out of bed and turned your lamp on. you strecthed and started to undress, you moisturized with your strawberry body lotion that violet complimented once and started to get dressed. you sprayed yourself with perfume, got your school bag and walked downstairs.
it was a quiet morning, your mom and her boyfriend were still asleep and it was still dark. you pulled out your pink ipod and started to play music as you went to get strawberry pop tart. you ate one and walked out of the house, making sure you closed the door quietly so your mom could stay asleep. you started to walk to the bus stop, but before you did you ran into Leah.
you looked at her and smiled "hey" you said softly, you saw she hung out with violet a lot, it didnt bother you you just noticed is all. "hey" she said "listen you dont have to take the bus, you can just ride with me if you want" she asked not seeming like she would care either way. you were surprised but you nodded "i would love too!" you smiled and walked to the passanger seat.
she started the car and started to drive to school, you looked out the window and thought about violet. she was all you thought about lately, you fantasized about her while trying to sleep, do homework, eating whatever you just could not get your mind of her. you looked at Leah and thought youd ask her something "does violet ever talk about me?" you asked her softly
she furrowed her eyebrows, "uhm not really" she told you and your smile dropped "oh" you looked down. Leah glanced over at you, "yeah" she sighed and turned the radio down a little "yesterday we were talking and she talked about how annoyed she was at people thinking she was dating you and other girls" she told you and your heart dropped, she was basically annoyed by you.
you now felt embarressed and dissapointed, you kind of wanted to cry but you didnt let yourself. Leah pulled into the school and parked, turning the car off. you guys walked into school together then seperated to go to your classes. the whole day it was hard to focus because you were lowkey bothered by what Leah told you... you really liked violet but she barely even acted like she liked you really.
when the bell for your last class rang you jumped, it interrupted your thoughts. you put your books in your bag and got ready to leave, you didnt see violet at all today... she didnt come. you didnt ride with Leah or ride the bus, you just walked home. thinking about the contrast between you this morning really exited for violet to see you in your new shirt, now sad and feeling depressed about your feelings for her
as you were walking home you heard a notification, you jumped at it because you never get texts. you opened it quickly and saw it was violet. holy shit, you thought to yourself. a text from violet. you wish you could say you werent but you were so happy to get a text from her, she always acts like she doesnt want to text you. you read it, could you come?, you raised your eyebrows. she was asking you to come over to her house
youve been there a few times, you liked it there, you stayed when your house didnt feel good. you smiled and walked fastly to violets house, which wasnt to far from the school. when you arrived you paused your music and put your ipod in your backpack, you knocked on the door and waited a little before she answered. she looked tired and annoyed which scared you, you didnt want to annoy her
she moved to let you in and shut the door behind you. "hi violet" you said shyly, you were extremely nervous more than youd ever been with her, you guys havent talked in a while and what you heard she said about you. she looked at you "hey" she walked past you and walked up to her room you following her. you walked in and stood akwardly... "so what did you invite me over for?" you asked, if Leah hadnt have told you what she said you would have thought violet invited you because she liked you.
violet sighed and took a cigarette out lighting it and blowing smoke out of her mouth, "can i not invite you over anymore" she asked you and you felt your face heat up, you made her upset. "no no! its just that.. you never talk to me" you said softly... she blew smoke from her mouth and sighed. "yeah i know i told you im really busy" she told you "i would talk to you all day if i-" you cut her off "if you werent so busy? you told me that already...." you furrowed your eyebrows. "but you hang out with Leah all the time" your lips trembled and you couldnt believe you were getting so weak but then again thats just like you to do..
violet looked at you and widened her eyes, she put her cigarette out on her dresser and walked over to you. "w-what? whats wrong with you" she asked confused. you bit your lip to try to stop yourself from crying in front of her, "i like you, you know that" you sighed. she sighed, she did know and she knew that she wanted you too. "and leah told me what you said that i annoy you? and that i should stop hoping?" you sniffled and she furrowed her eyebrows
"she told you that?" she stepped closer to you and caressed your cheek, "listen, that wasnt for you" she said softly "i wasnt talking about you...gosh youre so sweet i just dont deserve you" she sighed and you shook your head. "violet no... were good for each other you know that" you told her and she looked into your eyes, you knew she was just scared of getting hurt but you would never hurt her you just wanted her to know.
you took her hand and looked up at her, "i just want to love you..." you said softly. she pulled you close and kissed your soft lips hard. she laid her hand on your waist and squeezed you softly. you wrapped your arms around her neck, youve wanted to kiss her since forever, this was perfect. she laid you on the bed and climbed on top of you, she tucked some hair behind your ear and started at you.
you blushed and just looked at her, "youre so pretty" she said softly and you smiled "youre pretty too violet" she got off of you and sighed "im not that pretty" she told you and you shook your head. "you are!" you smiled and she did too "youre smiles so pretty, everything about you is perfect." she lit her cigeratte and blew smoke again, you blushed, she was so interesting to you.
smiled and moved closer to her, sitting your head on her lap. she was taken aback but she started to caress your hair. she smoked and rubbed you, you were so comfy and calm and safe with her you loved her and you knew she loved you, you guys were happy together.