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Chapter One
Dennis reached down giggilng as Leo was trying to slip his hand down his pants. Batting Leo’s hand away he finally got to his pocket and pulled out his phone. Looking at the time “Shit” Dennis said as he got it unlocked. ‘2:56am’ he thought. “I need to get home…” Dennis let the words trail off as Leo started to kiss his neck. “Hmmmm…. Come with me and ill drop you off before your parents wake.” They were up against a tree away from the rest of the party. It wasn't uncommon for them to sneak off because their group of friends weren't exactly the open minded type.
“Fuckkkkk…” Dennis hissed ass Leo finally slipped a hand passed his waist band and was stroking Dennis’s shaft. “Waitt….” Dennis said. “Goddamnit what now” Leo let out a sigh and slumped his head against Dennis shoulder. Dennis let out and light laugh half air half chuckle. “Thatll mean we only have four hours.” Dennis muttered trying to catch his breath. “Yeah so?” Leo said as he resummed his tortuously slow stroking of Dennis’s cock. “My parents wake at five and im olny giving you the extra thirty because my dad likes to take his morning shit while mom showers and talks his ear off.” Leos huffs a laugh at that “So six huh?” Leo says “ I can work with that.” Leo releases Dennis with a long drawn out sigh. “Go get your stuff and hurry up.” Dennis kissed Leo a final time before going to get his things.
As he got to the doors of the barn his on again off again girlfriend met him there. “Babyyy… where how long does it take to pee?” She asked. Dennis peeked over his shoulder making sure Leo was out of sight. ‘Thank God’ He thought. “ My bladder was really full thats all.” he said reluctantly kissing her, if only to keep up the appearances. See Dennis never liked her she was the mean girl type. And only started talking to her because his brothers saw him coming out of the restroom fixing his cloths a year ago. What they didn't know was Leo was also in there with him. Beth just so happened to be close by, and he knew how they would react if it was a boy they saw him with.
‘Dennis was ten and had just had his first kiss with Andrew from the farm next to theirs. What he didn’t know was Dean who was fourteen at the time and Denver who was twelve;were riding back on their bikes after fishing at the lake,and saw him and Andrew. As Dennis was feeling giddy and finally like he found a piece of his own puzzle he didn't even know he was looking for. He walked to the house thinking he was going to supper and not the punch that threw him into the wall. Dennis didn’t even have time to feel it when blows came raining down like confetti. His dad was screaming something but Dennins couldn't hear through the ringing in his ears. When his hearing finally cleared enough all he could hear was his mother praying. What he remembered was it was something about satan infecting her dear boy and how his soul was going to rot in hell.
When he registered what his dad was saying something deep inside broke. “I didn’t raise a fucking faggot” he heard his dad scream “My sons wont take it up the ass” Dennis could smell the alcohol and knew it was gonna be a long night. That wasn’t even the worst part of that godforsaken night. The worst part was when his dad forced his brothers to join. Dennis couldnt walk properly for two weeks after. That night his mom came into his room he was facing the wall trying to stay as still as possible because every little movement hurt like hell. She sat on the end of his bed praying his soul wasn’t damned.’
He snapped out of that god awful memory. Focusing back on beth. I gotta go I have a test tomorrow. He pushed past her and climbed to the loft where his things where, grabbed his jacket and back pack gave Beth a chast kiss and headed to find Leo’s truck and Dennis leaned over to give him a kiss . Leo smiled and asked “Ready?” “ Yep” Dennis replied. Leo started the truck and headed to his house in town.
As Dennis got back home and was sneaking back through his window his door burst open. There stood his dad with Beth “Im sorry.” she said. “What did you do?” Dennis asked his voice almost pleading “Strip” his dad said. “Please Dennis begged dropping to his knees. “STRIP!!” his dad bellowed. “Whats going on? His mom asked wiping sleep from her eyes. “Go get my whip Danise” his dad told her all while Dennis stripped because he knew the alternative. Dennis couldn’t lie down for a month after. And his father barley said two words to him. Who was he kidding at that point in his life the best he got was a good five and that was on a good day.
Two weeks later Leo’s photo was on the news as missing because he hadn't showed up to work and in a small town like Broken Bow that was unheard of. His dads and brothers came home with dirt on them after being out for three days. That night Dennis cried himself to sleep. The next monday his mother forced him to church where the paster to pray the gay away. He told Dennis to repent and that he had a good way to do it. The first time he took Dennis to his office Dennis kicked and screaming what he got for his trouble was a black eye and broken rib after he got hit with the paper weight and chair till it broke. After Dennis felt disgusting. Thats when Dennis started the cutting just his inner thighs. Noone would know and he could finally cleanse his gayness and all the things that the fucking paster did to him. To top it all off it was his fourteenth birthday. Happy fucking birthday to him right.
One Year Later
It was Dennis fifteenth birthday and they were at Calvins one of Dennis’s friends big birthday bash he threw one every year. There where boos and of course everyone was drunk and Dennis’s had smoked some weed to forget everything. The next day he woke up in the loft hay everywhere, naked with Beth beside him. He had never gotton dressed so fast in his life. When he got home he puked and cut. That cycle repeated for the rest of the day.
Its wasn’t until two months later that Dennis realized he made the worst mistake in his life. Up until that point Dennis and Beth hadn’t talked since that horrible day with Leo. Dennis remembered snippets of that night. Her begging to talk, leading him away then nothing. She showed up at his doorstep with her parents who where furious. His mom answered, both of their parents decided it was best if they got married.
That night Dennis took the knife he kept in the bottom of his desk drawer and slit his wrist.
Five minutes later Deacon Jr came up the stairs he was twenty at the time and found Dennis in a pool of his own blood. ‘YOU STUPID IDDIOT!!!!’ Jr shouted
Dennis remembered bright lights and then nothing.
He woke with a groan. Squinting at the bright overhead lights above him. Then he realized he had failed just like everything else in his life. He was in a psyche ward for seven months and couldnt be trusted with anything. He tried killing himslef five times in those seven months. Dennis got put on the strongest anti-depressents at that time.
The moment he got back home his mom slapped him so hard his head reeled to the side and spat “Your a cowered taking the devils way out” and walked away like he was nothing. The only repreve he had was the paster died of a heart attack while he was away.
Dennis got married a week later at the towns court house after was a blur. Alexander Whitaker was born August 22nd. On Dennis sixteenth birth day he tattoo of a angle holding a little boys hands walking toward the gates the hell. It was meant to signify the lose of his childhood the fist of many.
On his twenty-first birthday his daughter Danielle Whitaker was born.
It wasn’t until Danielle’s second birthday that everything blew up. After coming home from a extremely long day with his construction job and classes after that when Dennis came home he find Beth gone no clothes in the closest and all the money in their safe gone. But that wasnt the worst part. It was the fact she left their eight year old alone with their two year old who was screaming. All Dennis could do was hold both of his children and cry.
It was at that moment he promised to be better and show his kids the love he wished he had. So he switched his major and worked to become a doctor
(Four years later)
Dennis opened the email holding his breath. As he read he let a few tears slip he was matched to a hospital in Pittsburgh over a thousand miles away and could be his new start.
He started to look for apartments right away he had been smart with his money and had an ok cushion in savings. Then he paused. How was he going to tell his kids?