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Captain's Log, Stardate 8399.6
The Enterprise is in standard orbit around the planet housing the Guardian of Forever. Our mission is observational: the temporal ripples and spatial distortions that normally emanate from the time portal have ceased entirely.
Under ordinary circumstances, I would not object to a little peace and quiet from a phenomenon that has already caused this crew more than enough trouble. And yet, the Guardian's silence troubles me.
The Guardian of Forever is a gateway, through which it is possible to observe but also alter history on a fundamental level. Used as a weapon, the Guardian could erase civilizations, alter wars before they begin, or reshape the balance of power.
I find myself hoping for a natural explanation for the Guardian’s silence even as experience tells me such hope is rarely rewarded.
End log.
Kirk frowned at the planet on the viewscreen.
Even from orbit it looked spooky: barren, ancient, and deceptively quiet. This time, there were no energy flares. No temporal distortions. No sign of the vast, impossible intelligence embedded in the rock below. And no Starfleet ships.
"That's what I don't like," Kirk said quietly. "Normally this place is guarded like a vault."
Spock inclined his head slightly. "During the recent crisis involving the alien probe, all available Starfleet vessels were redeployed. The ships assigned to guard this planet were recalled and have not yet returned."
Kirk's jaw tightened. "Which means the time portal has been sitting unguarded for weeks."
"So far," Spock said evenly, "there is no evidence that the Guardian of Forever has been misused. No altered historical records, no paradoxes, no temporal shockwaves. It would therefore be illogical to assume the worst."
"I'm not panicking," Kirk shot back without taking his eyes off the screen.
Spock raised an eyebrow. "I did not state that you were."
McCoy snorted from his place near the science station. "You don't have to, Spock. I've worked with him long enough to recognize the look. That's Jim panicking."
Kirk turned. "Bones."
"Captain," Spock interrupted, smoothly reclaiming control of the conversation. "Given the absence of external disturbances, the most prudent course of action would be a surface investigation. A direct interaction with the Guardian should clarify the situation."
Kirk nodded. "Agreed. Spock, you're with me. Bones …"
McCoy's head snapped up. "Oh no. No, absolutely not. Haven't we caused enough trouble on that planet already?"
Uhura glanced back from her station, a wry smile touching her lips. "Not only that planet, Doctor. Last time I was anywhere near that thing, I got to watch the Enterprise and my entire timeline … vanish."
Scotty grimaced sympathetically. "Aye, well, this time you'd disappear without even noticing, lass."
Uhura stared at him. "That's supposed to make me feel better?"
McCoy considered this. "Actually," he said thoughtfully, "it kind of does. If you don't notice it, you don't have time to be terrified."
"That is not reassuring," Uhura said.
McCoy turned back to Kirk. "Which brings me back to my original question. Why exactly do I have to go? That Guardian might still be holding a grudge. Last time we were there, I jumped through it drugged out of my mind and nearly rewrote history. If it's got opinions, I'm guessing I'm not its favorite person."
Kirk was already heading for the turbolift. "You'll have a chance to apologize."
McCoy stared after him, scandalized. "Apologize? Jim, you don't apologize to a godlike time portal! And actually, none of it was my fault. If anything, it should apologize to me."
Spock followed Kirk without comment, then paused just long enough to observe, "Doctor McCoy appears to be in an especially irritable mood today, Captain."
McCoy huffed and stalked after them. "I heard that, Spock."
"Undoubtedly," Spock replied.
o0o
The transporter deposited them in silence.
For a heartbeat, there was nothing but dust, broken stone, and the wind threading through the shattered columns of the ancient city. Time had worn everything smooth and pale; the ruins looked as if they had been standing and crumbling forever.
And there, in the center of it all, the Guardian of Forever. The great stone arch stood exactly as Kirk remembered it, vast and immovable.
Kirk approached cautiously, hand resting instinctively near his phaser. "Guardian?" he called, voice echoing faintly against the ruins. "We're here to talk."
No response. No voice. No ripple of energy.
Kirk suppressed a shiver. The memories associated with this place weren't pleasant. Pain, loss, helplessness.
Behind them, McCoy moved along the broken perimeter, tricorder sweeping methodically. His brow furrowed as he adjusted the settings.
"There's… something here," he said after a moment. "Not life. Not in any way I'd recognize, but there's a presence. Like a pressure on the sensors. Subtle, but real."
Spock consulted his own readings. "Your assessment is accurate, Doctor. The unusual readings do not emanate from the time portal, however."
Kirk opened his mouth to reply, when suddenly the ground shifted.
A low hum rose from beneath the stone, vibrating up through their boots. Two columns, white, broke through the ground behind the Guardian. Lines of pale energy flared along them in sudden, intricate patterns.
"Captain," Spock warned sharply.
Too late.
A mechanism within the structures activated with a grinding, alien sound. From the two separate columns, twin bolts of crackling energy lanced outward.
Kirk reacted on instinct, dove to the side, rolling hard across broken stone. The first bolt seared past where he had been standing, close enough that the air burned.
He twisted, already bracing for the second. Pain exploded across his right shoulder, as it grazed him. His arm went numb as he hit the ground again, breath punched from his lungs. For a second all he could see was white.
"Spock!" he heard himself shout, more from reflex than thought.
When his vision cleared, he looked up and saw Spock already moving fast. His expression tight in a way Kirk had rarely seen. He pushed himself up on his good arm, teeth clenched. "Spock, I'm …" he snapped, irritated that his first officer was acting as if he'd been fatally wounded, but the last word died in his throat as Spock sprinted past him without even glancing down.
Kirk twisted around. McCoy was on the ground. He had been too focused on the tricorder readings to dodge the bolts properly. The second blast had struck him full-on, hurling him backward against a broken pillar. His tricorder lay smashed several feet away. He wasn't moving.
Kirk surged to his feet despite the pain tearing through his shoulder that was already spreading down his arm, but he barely noticed it now.
"Bones!" he called, voice suddenly tight.
Spock reached McCoy first, dropping to his knees beside him, hands already moving with precise urgency. Dust clung to McCoy's face and hair, and there was a dark scorch mark across his chest.
Kirk stumbled the last few steps, heart pounding too fast. Blood. More than he expected, dark and spreading fast across McCoy's uniform and the pale stone beneath him. McCoy's eyes fluttered open once, then closed again.
"Bones! Stay with me, damn it!" Kirk reached for him, but Spock stopped him, his voice tight but controlled.
"Captain, there's no time. Immediate transport to Sickbay is required."
Kirk nodded, fumbled for his communicator, seeing Spock's hands that were pressing down on the wound in McCoy's chest were covered in blood already.
Why exactly do I have to go? That Guardian might still be holding a grudge, Kirk replayed McCoy's complaint in his head.
He activated his communicator, swallowing his panic. "Uhura, we need an emergency transport, now! Direct to Sickbay!"
The air around them shimmered as the transporter beam began to envelop them.
Kirk reached for McCoy's hand. "Hold on, Bones… we've got you."
Spock's gaze flicked to Kirk for a fraction of a second, dark and unreadable, then back to McCoy. The last thing Kirk saw before the world dissolved into the transporter glow were the white cuffs on Spock's uniform sleeves turning red as they soaked up more of McCoy's blood.
0o0
The transporter beam dissolved around them, and a familiar, ordered chaos Kirk always associated with sickbay during an emergency replaced the alien stillness of the ruined city. He barely had time to breathe before a pair of nurses ushered him and Spock aside. Dr. Chapel was already moving with brisk, determined efficiency, ignoring the captain and first officer entirely.
"Into the OR, now!" she said, and before either man could react, McCoy was swept away.
Then, quiet again, only the faint hum of machinery and the ventilation system.
Spock removed his jacket without ceremony, disposing it into a container, then stepped to the sink in his undershirt and methodically washed his hands, eyes fixed on the water that turned red fast.
Kirk peeled off his own jacket more slowly. His shoulder throbbed, sharp and persistent, but the pain wasn't unwelcome. It distracted him. He flexed the arm once, twice, then again, focusing with interest on the pain the movement produced, then took off his undershirt carefully.
A nurse hovered nearby, uncertain, almost afraid to speak. She set about cleaning the blood from his shoulder with gentle, hesitant movements, then used a dermal regenerator. Finally, she handed him some surgical scrubs, silent except for the faint rustle of fabric. Kirk accepted it, his hands steady, though his jaw was tight.
Time stretched. Spock had finished cleaning his hands, now sitting on one of the biobeds staring at the floor.
Kirk shuddered. Spock didn't stare. Most certainly not at floors.
Finally, Dr. Chapel returned. Her face was pale, her eyes wet. She did not speak immediately; the words seemed heavy before she even tried.
"I… we did everything we could," she said finally, voice so quiet Kirk had to concentrate to understand. "But it wasn't enough. He survived surgery… but he won't survive the night."
Kirk's hands clenched at his sides. "That's… No. Christine, Bones is a fighter! He always comes through!"
Spock rose from the biobed taking his attention from the floor, to stand beside Kirk. "Is he conscious, Doctor?"
Christine shook her head, then shrugged. "He may come to once more. Or maybe not, hard to tell."
"What are you saying? You repaired the damage, didn't you?" Kirk's voice rose.
Spock's hand touched his arm, not harshly, not patronizing, but firmly.
Chapel closed her eyes briefly, took a breath, then opened them and faced her captain again.
"Yes. Still, the blood loss, the shock, the trauma … It was too much for him to survive, Jim. I am sorry."
Kirk frowned, then glanced at Spock's hand on his arm. The Vulcan avoided touch. But he also didn't stare at floors. When Kirk looked at Spock's face, he saw emotion … grief. It startled him more than the bolt, more than the sight of McCoy flat on the ground, more than the blood. Spock must have noticed Kirk's reaction, for he schooled his face back into his usual calm and emotionless expression a second later.
"Emotional reaction," Spock addressed him, "while entirely understandable, will not alter the physiological realities, Captain. Panic or anger will not prolong his life."
Kirk's shoulders sagged slightly. "I know he's a fighter," he muttered, voice tight. "He just has to … I can …"
"You cannot change the outcome, Jim," Spock said softly, though there was a weight in his tone that spoke more than mere logic. "If he wakes, he will need you composed."
Kirk exhaled sharply, his fists unclenching. He sank into a nearby chair. Before he knew it, he found himself staring at the floor, just as Spock had done moments before.
o0o
They brought McCoy in still unconscious.
He looked smaller that way, too still beneath the sheets, his face drained of all color, his breathing shallow. The surgical bandages were stark white against skin that already had the waxy pallor of someone hovering far too close on the edge of death.
Chapel said nothing this time. She simply stepped back, giving them space.
Kirk remained at the bedside. He did not sit; he stood very straight, one hand resting on McCoy's cold hand, the other hanging uselessly at his side. His shoulder throbbed, a distant, irrelevant thing.
Spock stood opposite him, motionless, hands clasped behind his back. If there was tension in his posture, it was invisible to anyone who did not know him well.
Minutes passed.
The monitors continued their steady, pitiless rhythm, beeping, occasional alarms shrilling, until Spock reached up to silence them. They weren't useful anymore. That's when the realization settled over Kirk with quiet, dreadful clarity: they were not waiting for McCoy to wake up. They were waiting for him to die.
The thought made his chest tighten. Kirk's mind, unbidden, went back to another friend's death, another last moment, not so long ago. Spock hadn't died on a biobed in sickbay, but in the engine room. He'd died for the ship, for the crew, a sacrifice that had saved them all. He had spoken, I have been and always shall be you're your friend. It had hurt, but there had been some meaning, last words he would remember until the end of his life even though they hadn't been his actual last words.
And here was McCoy, who had spent his life battling death, who had argued, cajoled, and dragged people back from the brink with sheer stubborn will, now reduced to waiting for it to take him.
A faint movement drew his attention, McCoy's eyelids fluttered. Kirk leaned forward immediately, forcing his face into something like a smile, carefully squeezing the cold motionless hand under his own. "Hey, Bones."
He blinked once, slowly, his eyes struggling to focus. When they finally settled, Kirk saw recognition there. His gaze flicked from Kirk to Spock and back again.
His lips parted, but no sound came. His chest hitched, and even that small effort seemed to cost him. Pain tightened his features, sharp and involuntary.
Chapel stepped closer, hypospray in hand but hesitated. Kirk understood why. An analgesic would ease McCoy's suffering. It would also almost certainly hasten the end.
Spock moved first. He stepped closer to the bed, lowering himself slightly so he was on McCoy's level. His voice, when he spoke, was quiet, steady, and entirely without artifice.
"Doctor McCoy," he said, then lowered his voice, "Leonard. Your conduct was exemplary. You acted with courage, competence, and compassion. You have fulfilled your duty beyond any reasonable expectation."
McCoy's eyes fixed on him, searching his face. Spock inclined his head just enough to be unmistakable. "You have earned your rest."
Kirk felt the words like a blow. He recognized exactly what Spock was doing.
Permission.
Not logic. Not command. Not consolation.
Permission.
Kirk hesitated. Every instinct in him rebelled against it. Against letting go. But McCoy was looking at him now.
Waiting.
Trusting.
Kirk leaned closer, his voice low, rough around the edges. "You did good, Bones. You always did.“ His second hand came to rest on McCoy's. "Spock and I … we'll take it from here. We've got it."
For a heartbeat, something like relief softened McCoy's eyes but then another wave of pain hit.
Chapel swallowed, then finally pressed the hypospray to his neck.
McCoy's breath shuddered once as the medication took effect. His gaze lingered on Kirk, then moved to Spock, as if committing them both to memory.
Then his eyes slid shut.
His breathing slowed… stuttered… and stopped.
Just like that.