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Sometimes things just suck.
But not really. It’s not like my whole life just crashed. Just my expectations of myself.
Living a privileged life is actually really great.
I can study a topic I once loved, I don’t have to work while studying and my parents are always proud.
I should be such a chill life. No expectations, only living how you want to.
But then why do I feel horrible all the time.
Nothing I do, I enjoy. Always dreaming of a better future while forgetting to live in the present, even though I have every resource to do exactly that.
Am I actively sabotaging myself? But for what reason?
How can a privileged person have the audacity to have a shitty feeling life?
You don’t starve, you don’t go thirsty, you don’t have to work yourself into the ground.
You have everything another one dreams about.
But now you are crying because you failed once in your studies. You are young and bright. Why are you making life so difficult for yourself?
At the end of the day you will die someday, so why don’t just enjoy living while you can? You are in a position where you don’t have to suffer anything. So why do you choose to do so.
What do you even want to achieve? You don’t even know it anymore.
But giving up your way would mean weakness, wouldn’t it?
That would mean that you would have failed.
That’s why life sucks.