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Trouble...
I wake up on the Summer Holidays thinking finally I can have even more fun with my friends! It’s like I hadn’t been sneaking out almost every night...
I feel guilty towards my dad. I hope he doesn’t know about the cigarettes and the alcohol I thought as I got up to brush my teeth and wash my face in the bathroom.
When I sat down for breakfast with my dad he spoke to me as soon as he saw me.
“Good morning Honey slept well?”
“Yes first day of Holidays Dad!” I grin happily.
“Holidays are good but I have to work” he sighed.
I chewed slowly on my sandwich while he said that but there was no awkward tension between us we just furthered eating calmly.
As evening approached I already had texted with my friends about how we would sneak out and who would bring the alcohol and other inappropriate stuff.
I was just getting ready to leave the Flat while my dad was fast asleep.
I’m wearing glitter-dark eyeshadow my outfit isn’t anything special black flared jeans and a loose dark blue shirt.
I had my own tricks making it look like I was just sleeping with pillows under my covers... or for heading out in shoes I wouldn't normally wear.
I never got really caught expect for one time my dad didn't think I would lie to him...
My friends and I are currently in a shed we stumbled on a while ago in the bushes across the street. No one would bother us or call us out.
Right now I’m sitting next to my Boyfriend Noah we're been messing around for quite a while. We’re passing the joint he brought back and forth.
"Finally Summer" he says breathing out the smoke.
"Yea finally! It’s going to be so fun!" I laugh nudging him.
"Yea it will be" He hands the joint back to me his arm rests lazily over my Shoulders.
Most of my friends didn't bothered to check the time on sneaking back home so I lost track of the time and suddenly it’s seven in the morning... I'm fucked.
"Hey Noah I think I really need to go it’s already 7 a.m. and my Dad is going to kill me" I slurred.
"Okay baby but we text later yea?" He gave me a kiss on the cheek that lastet longer then necessary.
"Yeah I will!" I called out as I stand up my legs were a bit unsteady at first.
“Bye guys!”
“Bye, Vik!” another friend added“and good luck with your dad!”
I turn the key slowly and "quietly" hoping my Dad is still asleep but as soon as I open the door "quietly" he stands right in front of me with his arms crossed over his chest.
"Viktoria! Where have you been?" he asks disappointed.
"Dad it doesn't looks what it looks like" I’m trying hard not to stumble over my own feet.
"And why do you smell like cannabis?" he asks sniffing the air again to make sure.
"Okay.Dad I’m so sorry...I just wanted to have a some fun with my friends..." I walk slowly toward my room holding myself against the wall he follows me wanting to further the conversation.
"You could have just asked if you wanted to spend time with your friends... How long has this been going on Viktoria?" he asks now his voice full of concern.
But as soon as he looks at me again I fell asleep on my bed peacefully a big contract to the situation right now.
„We will talk in the Morning“ he whispers to himself.
The next Morning I woke up with a Pounding Head of course I would we smoked weed and had a few drinks.
I couldn’t even fully wake up and my dad entered my room with a bottle of water and painkillers.
„Thanks Dad“ I smiled for second guilty and swallowed the painkiller with water I felt much better now.
„Viktoria you will be over summer break over Jon’s Farm“ he announced calmly endless arguing wouldn’t bring anything.
„Wait… like Jon? Your best friend he has a Farm now?“ my expression confused.
“Yes my best friend I still write him letters sometimes he does too“ he explains.
“Letters?“ my Brain couldn’t process everything but I got it now.
„Dad I can’t spend my Summer there!“ I speak urgently.
„You betrayed my trust Viktoria live with the consequences but how long have you been doing that anyway?“
I answered Honestly „almost a year but! Look I’m still here nothing had happened to me!“
„But it could… I wrote Jon a letter that you made some trouble so you have to spend your time at the farm“
„Wait... why letters? Dad you can just text him?“again I ask confused.
“There is no Net at the farm I could have called him but the letter would make it morer official“
“No No please I don’t wanna go“ I stand up from my bed to follow my dad out wherever he was going around the flat.
“This Conversation is ended you will head out Tomorrow to the Bus you got it?“
„with the bus?“ my mouth hangs open.
“but this supposed to be the Fun Summer Break with my friends!“ I groan.
“well you had your fun last night mhh?“ he looks at me the last time before continuing making breakfast for us.
Great just great did I really thought I would get away with this can't I just have some fun god isn't it that why we
are young? To have Fun to live free? Anyway I was on my way to Noah's place to talk... I guess.
His Parents arent that strict he just tells them when he leaves and comes back... wow to have that.
"Wow so... you have really to go to that farm?" he asks with symphathy.
"Yes pretty much I have to get the Bus tomorrow Morning long three-hours" I sigh.
It's not like that I would miss the dark haired boy with the skateboard there was no real emotional bond
it would feel more like a nostalgic time with him with litle touches and kisses.
"I really liked the time with you Noah..." I try to reach for his hand but he backs back a little.
"are you serious? Only becauce you have to leave for the Summer?" he implies offended.
Did i really meant for him something? I wonder for a second. "I just want to make things clear it could happen everything
during Summer... I mean we Graduated too."
"So your saying that we won't date after Summer..."he furrowed his eyebrows and continued speaking.
"Are you breaking up with me?" he asks surprised because he doesn't want to face reality.
"Yes because I don't want to go away and just keep wondering about what if's and what would be right and wrong?"
His expression turned more serious but he understood what I was getting at. "Yeah I think you're right... I didn't overreact did I?"
"No you had to react somehow... I should go now maybe we will see each other again sometime..."
I give him a gentle smile as I say goodbye. "Yea maybe... take care of yourself Viktoria."
After that conversation it felt pretty much like a new start...