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Fern woke with her breath caught in her throat and her thighs pressed hard together under the sheets.
For a few long seconds she stayed exactly like that, staring into the dark, too hot all over and painfully aware of the damp cooling against her skin. The room had only just begun to pale at the edges. Dawn was still outside somewhere, not here yet. Her body had gotten there first.
The dream clung in pieces.
A hand sliding slow across her stomach. The weight of hair over her bare arm. Frieren above her, warm and heavy and looking down at her with those half-lidded eyes like she had all the time in the world and no reason to hurry. In the dream Fern had known where to put her hands. She had known how to open her mouth. She had known what that look meant before Frieren said anything at all.
And Frieren had said things.
Quiet things. Soft enough to sink straight under her skin.
Have you always had that freckle there.
I never noticed how pretty your throat is.
You smell sweet when you’re trying not to.
Let me inside, Fern.
Fern shut her eyes.
That only brought it back sharper.
Methode’s letter had touched something in her. The book had finished the job.
She had gone to sleep with both of them in her head, all those exact descriptions, all that dry knowing, and her own stupid body had decided to answer in kind.
She rolled onto her back and pressed the heels of her hands to her face.
Methode had written it almost lightly. As if losing your balance around someone like that was something you could laugh at after enough time had passed. Sense had sounded tired in her note, too tired to waste words, and now Fern understood that in a way she deeply resented. It was not funny. It was not even especially romantic. It was humiliating. It was waking up wet because she had spent the night dreaming about her master’s mouth. Her, no, she wasn’t going to say it.
She dragged the blanket down and sat up fast.
Heart pounding.
The air had changed.
This was deep scent, spiced at the edges, soaked into the air like steam off summer stone. It sat low and thick in the house, clinging to the curtains, the floorboards, the inside of her lungs. It was worse because it was familiar.
Frieren.
Frieren everywhere.
The potion should have blunted the behavior. The book had been clear about that. The body would slow, redirect, pull inward.
It had said nothing about mercy.
Fern was out of bed before she had fully decided to move. She stripped the ruined shift off with quick, angry hands, dragged on the first clean robe she found, and tied it badly on the way to the door.
She didn’t bother knocking.
Frieren’s door creaked open with one soft push.
And there she was.
Sprawled on her stomach. Blankets kicked down. Nude.
Sweat-dampened sheets clung to her like silk. Her hips shifted slightly, the way they did when she was dreaming.
Her thighs glistened faintly with sweat, and the bedding under her hips was in disarray, tugged and wrinkled from restless movement. Fern’s eyes caught on the tense, unmistakable shape of it and stopped there.
Fern stopped breathing. She knows it’s happening, but seeing it….she had to tear her eyes away.
Curiosity burned through her before shame could catch it. Sharp. Immediate. She wanted to know what it felt like. The thought went through her like too hot tea and stayed there.
One hand was loosely curled beneath her. The other rested near her flushed cheek. Her mouth was parted just enough that the sound slipping out of it barely counted as a moan. Her breath came shallow. Uneven.
Fern stood there long enough for the sight to burn itself in her.
Then she stepped back and closed the door with a barely audible click.
She stood in the hall with her hand still on the latch.
The potion changed behavior, she told herself. Not everything. The book had said the scent could linger, even build, especially in a closed room. Bathing more often helped. Cool water helped. Fresh linen. Open windows. She knew this. She knew it.
Her body and mind lately had been disconnected.
By the time she got to the kitchen, Sein was already there, sleeves rolled, turning eggs in the pan with lazy concentration. He had a dark mark at the side of his neck, half hidden by his collar until he moved.
He looked up once, sniffed the air, and stopped turning the eggs.
“It reeks in here.”
Fern did not answer.
Sein flipped the eggs and sounded entirely too pleased with himself for the hour. “Best possible ending to a losing night, by the way.”
Fern glared at the table.
“The hottest older Alpha woman I’ve met in months gave me her number after I admitted I was going to lose anyway,” he went on. “Said if I was determined to pay up, I might as well do it properly.”
Fern still didn’t look at him.
He sounded deeply pleased with himself.
He also sounded rested, which felt offensive.
Stark wandered in next with his hair sticking up and one sleeve twisted half under itself. He yawned, scratched at his jaw, and stopped at the table.
“Morning,” he said. Then he sniffed. “Why does it smell like that in here?”
Sein slid eggs onto a plate. “That’s not breakfast.”
Stark sniffed again. “Vanilla. And pepper. And something else.”
Fern’s whole face heated again for reasons that had nothing to do with the scent.
“Anyway,” Stark said, dropping into a chair with the air of a man sitting down inside a thought he liked very much, “she kissed me.”
Sein looked over at him. “How cute.”
Stark lifted his chin. “It was.”
“A virgin’s first victory.”
Stark looked offended. “I’m not a virgin.”
Sein paused with the pan still in his hand. “Since when.”
Stark frowned. “Since like forever…well a few years ago.”
Fern stopped breathing for one flat second.
Sein’s eyebrows went up. “This was hidden lore.”
“She was really nice,” Stark said, warming to it now that he had started. “Worked above the tavern. black hair. We only, you know, for like a week. Maybe five days.”
Fern made a face. “I’m learning too much about you.”
Sein set the pan down. “I clearly don’t know enough.”
Stark looked between them. “Why is that weird? I’m an adult.”
“You are many things,” Sein said. “Adult is sometimes one of them.”
The floorboards in the hall gave a small warning creak.
Everyone looked up.
Frieren came in half asleep and already overheated.
She had managed a nightshirt somehow. It hung crooked, one shoulder slipping, the hem twisted around one thigh. Her hair was loose and tangled from sleep, silver against the flushed line of her neck. Her eyes were only half open.
The scent hit the room a second before she did.
Stark sat back so fast the chair legs scraped.
Sein pinched the bridge of his nose. “Goddess.”
Frieren blinked at all three of them like they were the strange ones. “What?”
Fern was on her feet before she knew she had stood.
“Mistress,” she said, too fast, then tried again. “You need to bathe.”
Frieren looked at her, then at Stark, then at Sein. “Why.”
Stark made a helpless gesture at the whole room. “Because it smells insane in here.”
Sein nodded without opening his eyes. “Bath. Immediately. Please. I had a very good night and would like to keep some memory of it.”
Frieren frowned faintly, still not fully present. “I took the potion.”
“Yeah,” Fern said. “But you have to bathe. Daily.”
That was part of what made this so maddening. The potion had done what it did to the body, slowed the sharper instinct, dulled the edge enough that Frieren had slept instead of roaming the halls or climbing into Fern’s bed or turning every small touch into a crisis. But the scent had still filled the house. It was in the wood, in the curtains, in the back of Fern’s throat.
Bathing helps, the note in the margin had said. Fresh linen. Open air.
Fern clung to that now with both hands.
Frieren rubbed at one eye. “I was sleeping.”
“You can sleep after,” Fern said.
Stark nodded hard. “Yeah. After.”
Sein reached for his cup, thought better of it, then stood. “I’m gonna open every window in this house.”
Frieren looked at them one by one. Her gaze settled last on Fern, who was acutely aware of the ruined sheets waiting down the hall and of everything she had seen when she opened that door.
Fern kept her face still by force.
For a second she thought Frieren might ask a question she could not answer.
Instead Frieren yawned. “Alright.”
She turned and drifted back toward the bath room with the same loose, sleepy steps she had come in with.
Only once she was gone did anyone breathe normally.
Stark looked at Fern. “Is it bad bad?”
Fern answered without looking at him. “Yes.”
Sein was already at the nearest window, shoving it open. Cold morning air pushed in at once, and even that only thinned the scent instead of clearing it.
Stark sniffed once more, then made a face. “I can still smell it.”
“Congratulations,” Sein said. “You have a nose.”
Fern crossed to the back door and opened it too. Morning came in cool and wet from the grass, bringing birdsong and damp stone and the ordinary smell of day. It helped. A little.
From down the hall came the faint sound of water starting.
Fern shut her eyes.
For one useless second her mind gave her the dream back with perfect cruelty. Water on pale skin. Wet hair down Frieren’s back. That same voice, lower in sleep, saying small unbearable things close to Fern’s ear.
She opened her eyes at once.
This was not sustainable.
At the table, the eggs were cooling. Stark was still thinking about his kiss, though now with one eye on the hallway. Sein touched the mark on his neck absentmindedly and looked more irritated by the scent than worried, which was reassuring in a strange way.
The house still smelled like an Alpha.
Less now. The windows were helping. The bath would help more. Fresh sheets. Fresh water.
Fern looked toward the hall again, then stood.
“I’m changing her sheets.”
Stark nearly choked on his eggs. “You’re what?”
“They need changing.”
Sein waved his fork vaguely. “A statement no one in this room doubts.”
Fern ignored both of them and went.
The scent struck her before she fully crossed the threshold.
It had changed now that the bathwater was running. Less concentrated, not as sharp, but still all through the room. In the linen. In the blanket kicked halfway to the floor. In the damp pillow beneath where Frieren’s hips had rested. The potion had done what the book said it would do. The behavior had stayed mostly inward. The body had not.
Fern breathed through her mouth and set to work.
It helped to have something to do.
She stripped the bed with fast, practiced motions, not looking too long at the darker patches in the sheets, not letting herself think about how they had gotten there. The pillowcase was worse. She snatched it off, turned it inside out with more force than necessary, and dropped the whole bundle into the laundry basket.
Fresh linen. Cool water. Open air.
The notes in the book had been maddeningly calm about all of it. As if any rational person could stand in this room and remain clinical.
She opened the window wider. Sunlight was only just reaching the sill, pale and thin, but the breeze helped. A little.
By the time she had pulled the clean sheet smooth across the mattress, her pulse had come back down to something workable. She tucked the corners in tight enough to satisfy herself and shook out the blanket once before laying it flat.
She had the worst thoughts, if she put her nose in the sheets a little, that wouldn’t be bad. She just needed a little of the scent, it was calling to her.
She breathed in and a floorboard creaked behind her.