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Jeongguk was fine.

He was fine when they fought, he was fine when his partner slammed the door, he was the epitome of fine when his partner left him a letter on his pillow.

The letter can be summarized in one sentence, his partner left him and he wasn't coming back soon. To say the least, Jeongguk’s heart was absolutely broken. He loved so much, and he lost even more because loving was so easy, it was the easiest thing in the world.

On the first day, he couldn't bare leaving the bad, all the memories flashing before his eyes when he can’t stop staring at the empty side of the king sized bed.

On the second day he deleted impulsively all of their shared photos he had on his phone, he just didn’t want to go through the hurt of watching their happiest moments again and again.

On the third day he regretted deeply about his actions since he missed too much. He craved his partner's touch, his voice, his smile. he missed everything about him. he ends up getting all of the photos out of the recently deleted, not being able to let the photos go.

On the first week his friends has started to worry about his mystery absens and came knocking on his door until he dragged his legs over to the door, opening the door to wide eyes, not even sharing a second glance towards his friends before returning to his bed. To say the least, his friends were very worried and upset about his current mental and physical health as jeongguk was with big black circles under his eyes and messy hair, they said it seems like he hasn't showered for a week and he didn't even remember when was the last time he had warm water running over his head. Unfortunately, his friends also noticed his puffy and how red his eyes were from crying. They forced him to tell them everything while they soothed him and played gently with his hair.

On the tenth day his apartment was clean and he wasn't crying as much thanks to his friends who cleaned it for him and promised to stay with him until it gets better. They did stay. jeongguk couldn't even begin to explain how much grateful he was for having them, in his life.

On the third week he stopped crying at all, he was starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and he started going to work again, even to hang out with his friends.

On the fifth month he started to hook up again thanks to the encouragement from his friends. it took a long period on convincing, but his friends assured him that it's simply another step towards complete healing from the heartbreak. Jeongguk wasn't so heartbroken anymore, he was happy and he loved his job and his friends but he couldn't bring himself just yet to date again. It was easier to hook up since there are no feelings involved, it's never anything beyond pleasure with some cute guy he saw on the bar and it was okay.

But none of them were Taehyung.

None of the were the love of his life who knew him like no one else did. They didn’t know him or cared for him. They were just there to fill the hole in his heart, the hole shaped taehyung that was deeply engraved inside of Jeongguk heart. And he was okay with it. because deep down he knew he will always love Taehyung. he knew that the love he had for Taehyung wouldn’t just disappear one day with the wind. It was a process he was willing to go through because he know that a great love like he and Taehyung had, a love you could only find in the romantic books where you know these characters are meant to be. Jeongguk knew that he and Taehyung had the greatest love possible.

And for that, he was willing to suffer through the fights, the break up and the pain. It's all because he knew they will find the way back to each other, they will find happiness together, he was sure of it.

✧

The two boys met when Taehyung was in eleventh grade while Jeongguk was in ninth grade. Even though there are two years separation between them, the two become best friends almost immediately, as they both took part in the photography club in school.

Jeongguk was a shy, growing boy who seeked help and comfort at the beautiful older boy named Taehyung. Jeongguk wasn’t very good at photography at first, and when Taehyung offered him help, he took the opportunity, eager to prove himself to the sweet Taehyung and the rest of their class. At first, the two only spoke at the photography club, but the more time passed and the more projects they did together the closer they become and a precious friendship blossomed between them.

Jeongguk was extremely grateful for Taehyung’s help, he improved mirculasy and Taehyung always flattered him, saying he will be better than him soon. Even though as a growing, confused boy he sometimes thought he was clinging too much to Taehyung when he came to him at the cafeteria when Taehyung was with his other friends, or when he suggested to meet after school, but Taehyung has always assured him that he hang out with him because he liked him.

As time passed by, Jeongguk was sure he liked Taehyung more than he liked other people but in his innocent state of mind he was sure it was simply because of the closeness he felt to Taehyung who became like home to him. It was easy for Jeongguk to fall in love with Taehyung, the warm Taehyung with the prettiest smile Jeongguk has ever seen, who was always there to help Jeongguk when he needed it the most. The Taehyung who was there for him when he was both happy and sad. He just didn’t know that all these things he felt towards Taehyung weren’t platonic feelings.

The first time Jeongguk understood that the liking he had towards Taehyung wasn't just a simple liking caused by a closeness, that he loved Taehyung and not like friends are supposed to love each other was when he saw Taehyung starring as the lead in their school play.

He saw the way Taehyung moved, he saw his aura, how it shined towards him. And Jeongguk couldn't tear his eyes from Taehyung and every time he spoke Jeongguk could hear his heart beating in his chest. Saying that he was mesmerised by his best friends is an understatement. Jeongguk fell in love with his best friend, with Taehyung. It suddenly hit him like a ton of bricks. He loved Taehyung, more than friends were supposed to.

After the terrifying discovery Jeongguk made, he tried to avoid Taehyung with every power he had in him. Unfortunately to jeongguk, not a week passed before he confronted jeongguk about his weird behavior, asking if he is okay, if something happened. At first Jeongguk tried to lie but Taehyung could read him like an open book and he knew something was wrong.
Jeongguk remembered Taehyung saying “I know you, Jeonggukie. just tell me whats wrong” he remembered how it felt like his heart was about to burst out of his chest.

He didn't want to say anything in fear to ruin to friendship forever but he also couldn't lie to Taehyung who was staring at him with his worried, warm eyes, just wanting to help. “I love you” Jeongguk said, immediately regretting for ever opening his mouth. His cheeks become rosy and he got up so fast ready to leave the place, the shame deeply rooted in him. Taehyung held his wrist, stopping him from leaving.

“Don’t go” Taehyung said, his eyes are full of yet to fallen tears. Jeongguk turned around, and the moment he did, Taehyung kissed him. A lip to lip, full chaste, sweet kiss. A kiss that held a young love.

And from that moment forward, Jeongguk never stopped, not even for a second loving his first love. Taehyung was the love of his life since his was 16.

Jeongguk loved Taehyung deeply, he always have and always will. He will stay with Taehyung until the end.

✧

When Jeongguk was 19 and Taehyung was 21 they both attended the korea national university of arts. Jeongguk was in a freshman year majoring in photography while Taehyung was in senior year majoring in theater. They both knew how incredibly lucky they were for being able to study together in such prestigious university.

The two lovers woke up every morning in each other arms, walking each other to class while holding hands and sharing little kisses every time they say a little goodbye.

After a while of sleeping at each others dorm they decided to move in together as they are already spend every possible second with each other and seems like they can’t get enough of each other, to the outside it seems like they are in an honeymoon phase but in reality they have been in a relationship for three years by that time.

Whenever Taehyung acted in a play jeongguk would be mesmerized and couldn't tear his eyes away from him, just like in the first time he watched him acting. Jeongguk would wait with a flower bouquet at the exit from backstage, waiting for Taehyung, wanting to congratulate him and tell him how incredible and beautiful he is now that the theater curtain is closed. Taehyung would always thank him and say he wouldn't have done it without the he got from him, kissing his deeply right before they leave to celebrate another successful play.

It was always the same when Jeongguk presented his photography works in galleries in a school event. Taehyung would always came and gushed to whoever was willing to listen about how wonderful his boyfriend is and how much talent he holds. Taehyung always saw how hard Jeongguk worked to be able to present his best works at the gallery. Taehyung enjoyed to reminisce about the long nights where Jeongguk laid his head on Taehyung’s chest, trying to come up with project idea, giggling together while Taehyung played with Jeongguk’s soft hair, sucking joy from watching his partner looking so passionate about the things he loves doing.

Their close friend circle including their friends Hoseok, Yoongi, Seokjin, Namjoon and Jimin would always tell the, about how they always looked at each other with heart eyes. Jimin constantly keep talking about how he is going to be the best man at their wedding. But no pressure they always laugh.

At first living together was havenly and of course they loved living together but there were some serious fights between the couple. From silly things like not being enough toilet paper to serious things such as not caring as much as before but those fights always ended quickly with the understanding of how much they loved each other. They would kiss and make up, spending the night as lovers in bed.

There was not a day in their shared life that hadn't started with a good morning kiss and ended with a good night kiss, even when they were pissed at each other, they had this code that they won’t end or start the day without a kiss. “I love you” was a part of their daily routine to. The two loved each other and they never wanted their partner to forget it.

“He is my baby” Jeongguk would always say as he dreamly stared at Taehyung with heart eyes. “god you're so in love” Hoseok would always giggle in responds.

“Well sue me for being so in love with my talented, handsome, smart and loving boyfriend.” Jeongguk said, glancing at Hoseok. “And you like someone too, it just about time you would do something about it” Jeongguk eyes Hoseok’s crush.

“Oh shut up” he gave Jeongguk a slight, friendly push in the shoulder, embarrassed. “Not all of us are dating our first boyfriend since we are sixteen.” Hoseok defended himself. Jeongguk always knew how lucky he was finding Taehyung so early in his life. Sometimes he couldn't believe how much lucky he was to have Taehyung, the incredible taehyung who he loves so much he melts from the inside everytime he smiles at him his famous foxy smile. And he knew Taehyung loved him just as much.

“I'm thinking of proposing” the 25 year old Taehyung said excitedly one day to his best friend Jimin. “Oh my god!!! really?” Jimin responded happily, almost jumping up and down from happiness.

Taehyung grinned a grin full of happiness knowing how supportive is best friend is when it comes to his relationship with Jeongguk. “hold your horses Jimine” he laughed at the excitement. Jimin stopped jumping up and down and sat on the couch next to Taehyung excitedly, holding his hands tightly while his body faced towards him.

“I know, I know you haven't proposed yet. I'm just very happy for you, for both of you” Jimin said, the happiness was dripping from his voice. “Soooooo how are you planning on proposing?” he asked, and Taehyung understood he never actually thought about how to propose. All he knew is that he wanted to be with Jeongguk for the rest of his life.

“I actually never thought of that” He answered honestly. He started to think of ways he could propose in. “Just do something from your heart and I know Jeongguk would love it, he would say yes no matter how you ask it” Jimin encouraged Taehyung happily. Taehyung knew Jimin was right and yet he wanted the proposal to be perfect.

“I just want it to be perfect you know? we've together for seven years and I want it to be nothing but perfect, Jeonggukie deserves nothing less.” Taehyung said confidently, a small smile forming on his lips. “Maybe you should do it somewhere where it would be just the two of you, but that place should hold A special meaning for the both of you” Jimin advised. Taehyung grinned thinking about all of their meaningful memories who holds a special place in his heart.

At the end, Taehyung decided to do something special for Jeongguk at the couples favorite gallery. This gallery was their first date location back when they were teenagers. It hold one a really special memories for the couple. Taehyung was incredibly happy with the chosen location for the proposal since he knew Jeongguk loved coming back to here and reminisce that happy memories of their first date. Yes, Jeongguk was a very romantic and adorable guy which was one of the many things taehyung adored about Jeongguk.

Jeongguk remembers that right before the proposal, Taehyung suggested they would take a photo together in front of the paintings. They asked from one of the staff to take a picture of them. They gave the staff Jeongguk’s phone and stood in front of the painting. Both of them smiled widely as they stared into each other’s eyes. “I love you” Jeongguk whispered. “I love you too” Taehyung said back, kissing Jeongguk cheek. When they thanked the staff and took the phone back from. Jeongguk stared at the photo, at Taehyung’s beautiful blonde hair and how well it blended with Jeongguk black hair. He loved the photo so he made it his home screen. It stayed as his home screen even after their break up.

Jeongguk will forever remember how happy he was in that moment. How confused he was at first when Taehyung started to mumble shyly some words and nervously got down on one knee. He remembers how he couldn't stop the tears at the end of Taehyung's speech when he said “Jeongguk, the love of my life, I want to spend eternity with you. Do you want to spend eternity with me to? would you marry me Jeon Jeongguk?” he remembers how he screamed “yes, of course I would marry you” at the top of his lungs. Tears of joy streaming on both his and Taehyung’s eyes who got up from one knee and kissed him passionately, all the love they had for each other centered into one kiss.

Jeongguk remembers how overjoyed the both of them were, how they ran to their apartment, holding hands. He remembers the soft touches, the soft kisses all over the body, the never ending whispers of “I love you” and “I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you”

It was the happiest moment of his life.

✧

You can say it all went downhill from there. And not because there wasn't enough love. There was so much love. But sometimes, as Jeongguk understood the hard way, love is not always enough.

The trouble began when Jeongguk started working on this big project after a quite famous gallery located in downtown Seoul offered him a spot as part of the artists in a prestigious exhibition. It was just a couple of days after their engagement, they have already started to think of venus and other things for the wedding, wanting to be married as soon as possible, but also with the perfect wedding.

At first, Jeongguk remembers he was insecure and didn't know if he was good enough for such prestigious exhibition. He also didn’t know whether he should take this project during this kind of important time, when they are planning their wedding. He knew how invested he can get in things, especially when it comes to photography. But, after encouragement from Taehyung and the rest of his friends, Jeongguk took the offer. Jeongguk wav very nervous and wanted to prove that he is deserving of the spot, he immediately began working vigorously towards the perfect project.

At the beginning he took pictures of everything, trying to see what would work the best. He even took Taehyung to model for him in a field of flowers but he felt like it was too ordinary and unoriginal. While Jeongguk was in a hunt after the perfect subject, Taehyung went to less auditions and took less projects so he could focus at the couples upcoming wedding. Taehyung was happy to take a slight break from work to focus on the wedding while Jeongguk was working, he was incredibly proud in his fiance and happy for him.

Slowly, Jeongguk getting busier and less available to help Taehyung with the preparations for the upcoming wedding, but he tried as hard as he could to balance between the two. As much as Taehyung tried to ignore it and just be happy for Jeongguk, his absence became a burden and planning a wedding without his partner was harder than Taehyung initially thought.

So, Taehyung tried to reach out to Jeongguk one night in the middle of february, trying to gently ask him for more help but all he got in response was a loving look and a “I know you can do it baby, you're amazing, thank you for being so amazing and thoughtful, I love you” and a kiss. It’s not that Taehyung was necessarily disappointed with Jeongguk’s responds, he was simply annoyed that Jeongguk didn't care as much as he wished about the wedding. But he let that go, with the hope it will get better.

A week later was an argument that Jeongguk sees as the start of the end of their relationship,it wasn't that bad of an argument, but looking back Jeongguk knows, it was the start of the end. “I just want you to help a little more” Taehyung complained quietly, needing a little consideration.

“I'm not asking from you too much” he stressed. “I know it’s hard Taehyung, but I want my project to be perfect, you know it” Jeongguk defended himself, scooting closer to Taehyung and caressing his hand softly.

“I know it and you know how proud I am in you but it wouldn't cause any harm if you gave me and our wedding more of your time” Taehyung answers, his words justifying the argument. “I’m trying” Jeongguk justified himself.

“Maybe you're not trying hard enough” the caged anger started to bubble out of Taehyung.

“Maybe if the wedding was as important to you as our wedding, you would help me more” Taehyung tried calmed himself down and decided that telling his thoughts gently would be better than screaming angrily.

“Hey, hey baby” Jeongguk said and leaned forward to Taehyung slowly laying his down on the bed while he is above him, their foreheads touching. The last thing Jeongguk wanted was for taehyung to think he didn’t care about the wedding, because he cared deeply. Maybe he just didn't show it enough.

“Of course i care about our wedding” he whispered, kissing Taehyung's cheek gently. “I would try to help more, I promise” kissing Taehyung deeply. “Thank you Jeonggukie, I love you” Taehyung smiles into the kiss.

✧

The weeks after the little are smooth sailing. The couple is happy and Jeongguk clearly puts more effort into the wedding planning. Taehyung sees the effort and he deeply appreciate it,
But he doesn't feel like they are communicating well as they are arguing over every little detail every time Jeongguk helps with the wedding planning. “Are we sure on this shade for the napkins? I think baby pink is a classic” Jeongguk would innocently ask.

“We are sure, it's more fitting for the theme of the wedding” Taehyung insisted and checked napkins out of the long list. “But babe-” Taehyung glanced at him. “Whatever you say baby, you're the boss” he smiled instead, and Taehyung smiled back at him.

“I don't get why you wanted me so badly at the wedding planing with you when you don't even care about what I think” Jeongguk complained one day when he and Taehyung sat at the couch in the end of march. It was rainy outside and the couple just came back from suit fitting and a appointment with their wedding dj. “Of course i care about what you think, what are you talking about?” Taehyung was confused, he always tried to include Jeongguk in everything he did.

“No matter what we do, you never consider my opinion” Jeongguk told Taehyung nervously, he didn't want to get into a fight. “That is not true. Are you trying to get out of doing this wedding planning with me? is that why you are saying this?” Taehyung asked, a little bit oblivious to Jeongguk’s feelings and actions.

“Why the hell are you picking a fight?” Jeongguk got pissed. “I’m talking about the napkins, most of the music, the flowers, the colors.. I feel like i'm not contributing anything!” Jeongguk explained. “Were partners, in this and in everything, I just want my opinion heard more, okay?” he said softly.

“Wait, i’m sorry” Taehyung buried his head in his hands, tears forming in his eyes. “I'm sorry I said you are trying to get out of the wedding planning, I know you aren't” Taehyung apologized, not picking his head up from his hands.

“I'm so sorry, the stress is just, it getting to me i'm so sorry Jeonggukie. I didn't mean any of that” he apologized. Jeongguk patted Taehyung’s back slowly as Taehyung brought his head up and the two leaned at the sofa. Taehyung laid his head on Jeongguk’s shoulder, small tear drops out of his eyes. “I know you didn't and it's okay” Jeongguk comforted him.

“Weddings are stressful, and you have your little acting gigs which i’m so proud for, you're incredible for balancing between the two.” Jeongguk encouraged Taehyung with his warm words while playing with his hair.

“You're doing a way better job than I am, with your project and the wedding” Taehyung said, closing his eyes. “Will you write me down what kind of flowers you like and your favorite songs?” Taehyung suddenly asked.

“What?” Jeongguk got confused. “You said you wanted your opinion to be more heard, and since you won't be available because of your project, i’m asking now” Taehyung said softly, playing with Jeongguk fingers on his free hand.

“Thank you baby for being understanding” Jeongguk said, smiling. “No, thank you״ Taehyung grinned, lifting his head and kissing Jeongguk sweetly on the lips. Jeongguk knew in that moment that they will get through every fight, because at the end of the day, they loved each other and always tried to understand.

✧

In mid april, Jeongguk became more focused on his project as the opening of the exhibition was approaching, Taehyung felt like he is drowning in wedding preparations. “A little help here would be useful” Taehyung yelled from the living room. Jeongguk was in the bedroom, finalizing his photos, wanting them to be perfect.

“I'm busy, sorry babe” he responded as he continued polishing the photos on photoshop. Taehyung got annoyed and he didn't know how to respond, he and Jeongguk had so many fights lately and he didn't know if it was from the wedding stress or that they were not communicating as well as before, because in all of their seven years of relationship they never fought like that.

Taehyung just couldn't bare all this fighting anymore and sometimes he just wanted to give up and break up, he knew that those feeling were temporary and short, and those short moments would happen more frequently than he would want. But deep down he knew their relationship is strong, it can survive this hard patch. Taehyung walked into the bedroom, watching Jeongguk work for a few seconds. “Can't you just stop for a few minutes and help me?” Taehyung leaned on the door lintel.

“I'm finishing in like an half an hour and then” Jeongguk said, not even glancing towards Taehyung.

“God you're annoying” Taehyung mumbled and walked away back to the living room. “what did you just say?” jeongguk called out.

“I said that you're annoying. I’m not the only one getting married remember?” Taehyung said loudly, sitting down on the couch. “And who’s picking up a fight now” Scoffed Jeongguk as he got out of the bedroom.

“Ohhh his eminence had finally left his room” Taehyung said sarcastically, sighing lightly. “I told you I was working” Jeongguk said annoyingly.

“And I told you I need help, this wedding is in a month” Taehyung said loudly, he got up and stood in front of the crossed hands Jeongguk.

The last thing Taehyung wanted was to fight, again, but he couldn't help himself when he said the next thing. “You know what Jeongguk, admit it, you don't give a shit about this wedding and frankly, it doesn't feel like you care about me all that much anymore” Taehyung said quietly but the annoyance and sadness were clear in his voice. “Admit it!” he yelled.

Jeongguk could feel his world collapse as he heard Taehyung say those words, that he doesn't care about him anymore because of course that he cared, he loved him. The thing is, that instead of being smart, acting calm and explain, Jeongguk decided to put the blame back on Taehyung. And looking back, there was nothing he regretted more than this decision. “Maybe you're the one who doesn't care about me! and you supported me doing this, so why are you suddenly acting like this huh? are you jealous that my career is isn’t as successful as yours” and in that moment, Jeongguk knew he crossed the line, but he didn’t take it back.

“Are you serious?” Taehyung said quietly, almost like a whisper, having a hard time to mask how offended he was.

“And if I am?”Taehyung winced slightly as he heard those words.

“All I wanted was for my fiance to help me with our wedding and maybe spend some time with me…” He whispered, no one has ever offended him in his life as much as Jeongguk did in those few minutes.

“But it's good to know how low you think of me” Taehyung sat back at the couch, wanting to be as far as possible from Jeongguk as the later still leaned crossed hands on the wall, his face not showing any emotion.

“I constantly support you because I know how much you love to do it. of course I would tell you to go for this project, it could be a fantastic opportunity for you.” Taehyung explained his point of view. “I just never expected you to forget about me”

“We talked about this multiple times Taehyung, you acknowledged me being busier so where is this coming from?” Jeongguk defended himself. “We talked about you being busier, not about you practically disappearing. I only get to see you when i’m half asleep” Taehyung fought back, he knew his truth, he wanted to talk about things and not hide them.

“Also, don't act like you didn't imply that I try to sabotage your career out of jealousy” he reminded.

“Well i'm sorry for caring about my project so much” Jeongguk mumbled angrily. “I'm not ignoring” he added loudly.

“I simply think that you don't want to admit that i'm right” Jeongguk doesn't believe a word that just came out of his mouth and yet he said it, because he was angry and let his emotions to take over his judgment “I can't stay here” Taehyung said as he grabbed his keys and wallet.

Taehyung walked out of the apartment, slamming the door harshly.

If Jeongguk could go back in time, he would not think twice before going back to the start of this conversion. The moment Jeongguk fully understood what he blamed Taehyung for, he started crying. He never meant for his anger to take control like that, for saying such mean things. He felt like the worst fiance ever, and he probably was. Jeongguk was seating, his knees up to his stomach, his head on his knees and tears streaming on his face. Jeongguk didn’t know Taehyung was crying so hard in the car parking in their parking lot. He cried so hard for what felt like hours, so he decided to spend the night at Jimin’s.

✧

Unknown to Jeongguk, a hard knocking was heard on Jimin’s door at that evening. Jimin got up from the sofa to the sudden sound of the stressed, quick knocks. As he open the door he was welcomed with a swollen cheeks, red, teary eyed taehyung. “Oh my god Taehyungie” he immediately took Taehyung into a warm hug.

“What happened?” Jimin asked as Taehyung began sobbing on his shoulder. “J-jeon-kk” he choked, he couldn’t get words out of his mouth and just sobbed louder. “You can tell me later, it’s okay” he soothed, gently patting his back.

It took Taehyung over an hour to calm down before he was able to tell Jimin about the recent fight and how it all went down. “I can't believe he actually said that” Jimin said after Taehyung finished his story.

“Imagine how I felt” taehyung sighed loudly. “What are you gonna do?” Jimin asked, not knowing how to approach the wedding subject. “I don’t know, I need to think about it” Taehyung said truthfully.

“I am really hurt by him” Taehyung confessed, “and it is completely understandable” Jimin commanted.

“The thing is, I know he loves me” Taehyung said, leaning at the sofa, Jimin’s eyes on him. “But I don't know how I can forgive him for saying such mean things” he added. Taehyung truly didn’t know if he could forgive, he obviously wanted to but jeongguk words got to him. does jeongguk really thinks he doesn't want to support him because he is more successful? did Jeongguk think he was failure? those thoughts ate him from the inside. All Taehyung knew is that he must talk to Jeongguk before making decisions.

“You want to hear my opinion? Jimin asked sweetly. “Always” and he did, Taehyung has always loved getting a second opinion of an outside viewers in a topic like that, especially coming from his best friend.

“Maybe you could use some break from each other” Jimin looked at Taehyung with worried eyes, seeking for a mark to continue. As Taehyung nodded at him, he continued. “I mean, look at how much you have fought is this past few month, and you are so sad because of it, i hate to see you sad.” Jimin explained.

“I think a break could be good for your mental health, honestly, it's kind of dismaying watching you do this crash and burn things, this stress i ruining your relationship” As much as jimin have always supported the couple’s relationship, how cute he thought they were his best friend well being was above everything.

“A break? Like how long? two days?” Taehyung questioned. “Maybe longer” Jimin coughed. “No no no no, i'm not breaking up with him” Taehyung said, immediately realising what Jimin was trying to hint at.

“Im hurt, that's true but we can work this out, I know we can” Taehyung was really confident that they could work about their problems, he loved jeongguk and deep inside, buried by all the new insecurities he knew Jeongguk loved him too. “Just a minute ago you so said you don't know if you will be able to forgive him” Jimin reminded him, sighing.

“That's because the wounds are fresh, of course i'll be able to forgive him once we work this out, we are Taehyung and Jeongguk, we've been together since high school.” Taehyung insisted, Jimin scooted closer to Taehyung. “Look to me in the eye and say you weren't deeply hurt by him today” Jimin looked deep into Taehyung's eyes.

“I can't lie to you” Taehyung whispered. “Exactly! your relationship is not doing good, you know it too” all Jimin wants is to see his best friend happy, it's all that matters to him.

“I don't want to break up with him, maybe we could go to a couple’s therapy, i'm not giving up on us, there many ways to deal with this kind of problem.” Taehyung insisted, his eyes looking down at the white carpet. he knows that through all this hurt he and Jeongguk will come out stronger than ever, he believes in them.

“Lets sleep the night, you'll have time to rest, to think, and you will see tomorrow what to do” Jimin suggested, getting up from the sofa, “good idea” Taehyung said as he got up from the sofa as well. The due walked slowly to the bedroom, Jimin holding Taehyung by his waist, feeling happy he could be there for his best friend.

“Will you let me cuddle you?” Taehyung asked as the two entered Jimin’s bedroom. “You know I will” Jimin smiled as he threw himself on the bed, closing his eyes, feeling Taehyung’s weight sinking besides him.

Taehyung was very thankful for his best friend.

✧

On the next day, Jeongguk barely left the bed. The only reasons he left the bed for was to drink water and pee, even though he didn’t feel to leave the bed at all. Jeongguk didn't see the point, now that Taehyung wasn't there. Jeongguk knew he deserves it, he was harsh, and said ugly words which he knew would hurt Taehyung. All he wanted to do was beg for forgiveness, to show he cares, that he didn't mean those words. He knew he should give Taehyung his space and decided to wait patiently until Taehyung would come back to talk over things. He knew Taehyung, and he knew he would come back and talk when he was less mad, he knew he wouldn't leave things like that or at least he hoped he wouldn't.

On the afternoon, his phone wouldn't stop ringing, and as he assumed it was from the exhibition organisers, his hand reached to the nightstand on which his phone was on, and he turned off his phone. Jeongguk laid flat on his back again, his eyes fixed on the ceiling. He wished Taehyung would be here with him, to kiss him and hold him. He knew he doesn't deserve to do it and he hoped with his whole heart that Taehyung would be able to forgive him, for making him feel like he didn't care anymore and mostly for blaming him for being jealous and trying to sabotage his project.

On the next day, as Jeongguk woke up to an empty bed, he knew he had no choice but to work. He woke up at six am and straight away took his laptop, quickly finishing the editing of the last photos. At nine, he went to the gallery talking with the owners and calculating what size each photo should be, it gave him a nice destruction. At the same time, there were knocks from his worried friends Hoseok and Yoongi, but no one inside the apartment to respond to those knocks. The two assumed he was asleep, drowning in sorrow, and when they tried to call, worried about Jeongguk and with news he needed to hear, they got no respond at all.

Jeongguk went later that day back home, hoping Taehyung would be there. much to his disappointment, even though he understood Taehyung needed time, Taehyung wasn't there. Jeongguk made himself ramen, watched some sad movies to let the tears out, and he went to sleep with hope in his heart that he will see Taehyung tomorrow.

His hopes were broken again and again,a day by day when Taehyung wouldn't come back. He missed Taehyung deepy and each day he came back home to see the apartment without Taehyung, his hopes to ever having Taehyung back again shattered. The day of the exhibitions arrived and with it a very tired, heartbroken Jeongguk who only hoped Taehyung would show up at the gallery. As Taehyung never missed any exhibitions Jeongguk ever took part in, Jeongguk allowed himself to have a little hope Taehyung would show up.

Yoongi and Hoseok, as his best friends obviously came to the exhibitions, a little teary eyed to Jeongguk confusen, but he was really thankful they came to watch his works, that they were proud of him. They hugged him tightly, murmuring how proud they were in him. At first he felt like they were hiding something from him, but after a few minutes where many people approached him to praise his work, it slipped his mind.

Jeongguk knew that Seokjin, Namjoon and Jimin wouldn't show up, Jimin as Taehyung’s best friend, Namjoon as Taehyung’s brother and Seokjin as his brother’s husband. So he didn’t allow himself to feel sad over it. As more and more different people approached to talk over his project, he decided to set everything aside for two hours and enjoy the results of his hard work. It was hard to forget about Taehyung, to mask his sorrow over him not arriving, but he did it.

By the end of the exhibition, his face hurt from smiling, but it all felt fake, it didn’t have worth without Taehyung by his side. He almost lost all hope, but a sliver of hope was left in him as he knew Taehyung simply needed time and maybe a week wasnt enough, he did hurt him deeply.

As Jeongguk entered his apartment, he opened the lights and felt like something changed. as he couldn’t point towards where the feeling of weirdness came from, he went to the refrigerator and took out a bottle of water. He opened the bottle while he walked into the bedroom, the first thing he noticed as he switched the light on with his available hand was the latter placed on his pillow.

Jeongguk slowly walked towards the bed, confused as to why would there be a letter on his pillow? had Taehyung left it? when was he there? Jeongguk sat on the bed, his hands reaching for the letter and opening it, as he began to read the letter, he felt like his heart was breaking into a million pieces.

By the middle of the letter, his hands were slightly shaking, and his cheeks were wet from the multiple tears falling down from his red eyes. As if he was in a trance, when he reached the end of the letter Jeongguk got up and opened the closet door, all he saw in there was his cloth, all of Taehyung's cloth were gone. An agony scream left his throat as he searched the apartment and saw all of Taehyung’s belongings gone except for their shared framed photos.

Jeongguk felt like his heart was breaking again and again and again, the tears won’t stop flowing, his head hurts. Jeongguk sits on the floor, his back attached to the bedroom door, replaying in his mind all over again where he went wrong, where he could have fixed things, what he needed to say but he didn’t. All the “I love you’s” he never said.

For the whole night, he read the letter for so many times he lost count, the words mixing in this tired mind, but he couldn't stop knowing it's all his fault.

My Jeonggukie,
I’m incredibly sorry for not coming to talk, I just couldn't bring myself to do so.
In the past week I thought many times over all the places we went wrong in them, my mind knew I should come and talk but my heart didn't allow me.
I'm writing you this letter, and I wanted to say i'm sorry, i'm sorry for not coming back to talk, i’m sorry for making you feel like I didn't care about you and your career enough when I constantly asked from you help.
I want you to know that even though I am not mad anymore, I can’t just yet to forgive you for the things you said to me and the way you made me feel.
I still love you, and I wanted to forgive you, I truly tried.
This letter is a goodbye for the time being, i'm sorry for not being able to forgive you and i'm sorry for ending our relationship in a letter, it would be to hard for me to fo it face to face. You will forever be my first love, and I owe you a lot. I have hopes in me that in the future you will be able to understand why im doing it, and I know that Yoongi and Hoseok would take care of you for the time being. I wish for us to meet in the future, and meet up, talk about things and who knows, maybe more.
I will always love you, please don’t beat yourself up too much.
Love, your baby <3

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Reminiscing those memories is extremely painful to Jeongguk. It’s been six months since Taehyung left and Jeongguk has yet to see him. He didn't know if he wa grateful or sad, he missed Taehyung deeply and wished he could change something, be better. If only he controlled his anger, Taehyung would have been with him as his husband.

They say time heal all wounds but Jeongguk disagree, time doesn't heal the wounds of the heart, it just makes it easier to move on, the memories keep fading away. Jeongguk deliberated with himself about whether to move to another apartment, at the first two month the memories of their last fight and the letter were just too painful to bear. At the end, he understood that the happy memories overpower the painful ones.

Jeongguk never took down all of their photos full in their happy moment, their kisses, shared smile. He didn't want to take them down as a reminder of the good times, he promised himself that once he will feel ready to completely move on he will take the photos down.

“Kook, you need to take a project” Yoongi told him one evening as them and Hoseok ate together in Jeongguk favorite restaurant. “I don't want to” Jeongguk responded, using his fork to move his food a side to side anxiously. “and why is that” Hoseok asked, confused as to why he kept refusing to photography jobs.

“Emmm let's see I lost Taehyung because all I focused on was one stupid project and lost all of my inspiration” Jeongguk laughed a bitter laugh. “You need to move on” Yoongi said, tired of seeing his best friend so depressed. “You have to continue with your life, you can’t hung up to hopeless wishes” He add.

“It's not hopeless” Jeongguk stared at him harshly. “It is! it's been six month and you haven't seen him again!” The truth may hurt, but Yoongi couldn’t hold it anymore. “Yes, you go out again and were extremely proud of you but you need to find inspiration, you must work again soon.” He harshly added, Hoseok just sitting between them, not knowing what to say.

“Maybe I could get another job” he murmurs. “No one said I need to work in photography” he added, actually starting to think it won't be so bad if he would find a new job. “What kind of job have you thought about?” Hoseok asked, being the calm one in the discussion, trying to prevent from Yoongi to be to hard on Jeongguk.

“I don't know maybe a flight attendant? barista? I don't know I haven't thought about it” Jeongguk explained as he thought about those different jobs and what would fit him. “Flight attendant? really?” Yoongi smirked, slightly annoyed at Jeongguk giving up on his passionate for photography, something he worked so hard to be as amazing as he is. Yoongi simply didn't want Jeongguk to throw it all away. “I love traveling” Jeongguk commanted with his mouth half full.

“But kook, that’s not what you're truly passionate about. Yes, it could be a fun experience but you love photography! you worked so hard to be where you are today” Yoongi insisted, sighing from frustration when he finished the sentence. Hoseok laid his hand on Yoongi’s thigh, trying to prevent from his boyfriend to get really annoyed.

“I've already told you, I have no inspiration anymore! I can't do photography with no inspiration!” Jeongguk said a bit more loudly than he planned, his cheeks becoming a little red, he hoped no else heard him. “Than find inspiration!” Yoongi tried to encourage him, taking another sip from his drink right after. “Omg! how haven't I thought of it, my bad. Problem solved!” Jeongguk smiled sarcastically, Hoseok giggled to it but quickly covered it up by coughing.

“Hey, being sarcastic is my part in this group, don't steal it” Yoongi laughed, making Jeongguk smile. “But in all seriousness, maybe you could go to that gallery, you used to go there every time you needed inspiration.” Yoongi suggested and Jeongguk face fell so fast, his soft smile quickly changed with sealed lips.

“The gallery?” Jeongguk asked, his voice shaking. “..Yes?” Yoongi murmured, Hoseok who unlike Yoongi got right away what was happening, had tried to signal him by shoving his elbow into the other’s side, but except an “ouch”, Yoongi didn’t get this hint. “The gallery? the one where I went to in my first date with Taehyung? the one Taehyung proposed me in?” the hurt in Jeongguk voice was clear.

“I-” Yoongi tried but Jeongguk cut him off. “Oh absolutely! just the place to remember all the happy memories with Taehyung, my ex, great idea!” Jeongguk scoffed, Yoongi winced to the sound of the hurt Jeongguk.

“He didn’t mean it like that!” Hoseok rushed into the conversion, trying to calm Jeongguk down. “All Yoongi is trying to do is help, and as painful as going to the gallery can be, pain can be converted into inspiration” Hoseok explained, he wanted to help Jeongguk to, he hated seeing the shadow of Jeongguk instead of the happy guy with the cute bunny smile. Jeongguk calmed down thanks to Hoseok’s words.

“Also, it can provide you some kind of clouser, going back to there, I think it will help you” Hoseok added, seeking some sort of light in Jeongguk eyes.

“Oh” Jeongguk mumbled, can’t believe that he is actually considering it. But what hoseok and yoongi said did make sense. “Do you really think it would help?” he asked, uncertain. “I'm sure of it too, we both hate seeing you so sad, we really think it would help you move on” Yoongi added with a small smile.

“Also, I know how many offers you have, maybe if you will get this boost of inspiration, you will be able to take those jobs and stop leaving off ramen” Jeongguk groaned with a soft smile on his face. “All of this just because you want me to earn money and eat healthier? come on Yoongi” Jeongguk complained, giggling. He felt lighter, with the thought of having a clouser because as much he didn't want to move on, as much as he wanted to hung onto the silver of hope Taehyung will be back, he knew he couldn't continue like this. Sometimes being stubborn isn't worth it, he should expect reality and move on, forgive himself for how everything went down.

“Downsides of capitalism” Yoongi laughed, siping from his drink as he Hoseok smiled at him. “So, will you do it? will you go to the gallery?” Hoseok looked at Jeongguk hopefully. “I think I will” Jeongguk smiled softly.

“Thank you guys for suffering me this past months, I know it must have been a nightmare but i’m really thankful for you” Hoseok jumped out of his seat, hugging Jeongguk tightly, kissing the side of his head. “We’re your friends, we were not suffering, we helped you because we wanted to” Yoongi smiled, enjoyed the sudden change in the mood.

“Thank you, again, really, I don’t know where I would have been without you” Jeongguk thanked them again, feeling a little bit happy in his heart.

✧

The day after his conversion with Yoongi and Hoseok, Jeongguk decided that he would go to the gallery. Jeongguk finally understood how badly he needed the clouser, that no matter how badly he hurt Taehyung he should forgive himself. All day long, Jeongguk tried to distract himself from thinking, he cooked, went to the gym, dyed his hair on his own, although it came out horrible. At the evening, he decided that it's time to stop with the destructions. So he picked up the courage which was buried deep inside of him, changed cloth hastily before he changed his mind, picked up his phone, his airpods and wallet and went out of the apartment.

As Jeongguk walked to the gallery he felt his stomach flipping upside down, he tried to calm himself by breathing, focusing on the music he was listening to while breathing the fresh air. Jeongguk was nervous, he haven't been in the gallery since the marriage proposal, at first it was because he was busy but later he just couldn’t bring himself to go there. As he arrived to the gallery, he took out his airpods and payed at the entrance quietly greeting the workers as he went into the gallery. Jeongguk could feel his heart throbbing all over his body, he felt pressure, the place brought too many memories. He decided to ignore those feeling and heartended himself, mumbling “I can do this” to himself.

It worked for him, he watched the paintings, they were extremely pretty and unique to his opinion. Now, he understand why Yoongi and Hoseok thought this place would inspire him, because it did. The environment was calming his nervousness, some ideas popping in his mind as he sees more and more artworks and photographs. He connected some works to his personal life, to his relationship with Taehyung, it was painful, thinking about their first day, how excited and happy he was, how it all have changed. But pain was part of healing, it was an healthy pain that will help him progress and develop as a person.

There was one painting the stuck into his mind. It was filled with warm colors, with yellow, red and orange mixed with purple. Purple is Taehyung’s favorite color. The painting presented two people wanting to hug in a middle of a sunset, their hands trying to touch, to reach, but they can’t. Jeongguk thought it was a beatiful, high quality painting, he felt like it represented his feelings perfectly, wanting someone that is outside reach, someone you're unable to be with, someone that is warm but have wit in them, someone like Taehyung. “This is beautiful” he heard a mumble from behind him. Jeongguk turned around to see who is the person speaking. That person looked just like Taehyung, it was Taehyung, Jeongguk conclude.

Jeongguk ran to the bathroom, upon realising Taehyung was just standing beside him. Taehyung, the love of his life which he haven't saw for six month, the one he was trying to get over, the one he hurt, the one he loves. Jeongguk throw up his gut out inside the toilet. his throat burned, his mind pounded, his heart hurt.

“Are you okay?” Jeongguk heard Taehyung’s voice calling from outside of the stall. All Jeongguk could do in response is to groan and turn his head into the toilet, throwing up once again.

“I guess not” Taehyung said, understood the answer to his question. “I saw you running to here right after I spoke so I thought I should check on you” Taehyung said, rumbling his way through explaining why he came after him. Jeongguk smiled weakly, he always loved to see the caring side in Taehyung. “What is your name?” Taehyung asked, and Jeongguk realised that Taehyung didn’t recognized him, he wouldn't come after him if he did.

“Emm” Jeongguk mumbled, the whole purpose of him going to the gallery was to try and start to get over Taehyung, not to meet him and have Taehyung coming after him to the bathroom and no even recognizing him. Jeongguk coughed, trying to cover the fact he doesn’t want to answer.

“Do you need water?” Taehyung asked worriedly, his body leaning on the counter. “Mmm, yes, thank you” he groaned, knowing that eventually he will have to face Taehyung, he wasn't ready for it to be now but it seems like he doesn't have any chance of avoiding it. He heard some noises so he assumed Taehyung went to bring water, Jeongguk sat down after flashing down the toilet once again and hold his head up, trying to breath a little.

After what felt to Jeongguk like a few minutes, he heard Taehyung entering the bathroom. Taehyung knocked on the door, and Jeongguk mumbled “I'm coming out” as he opened the door. Jeongguk heart was pounding so fast, he was afraid of Taehyung’s reaction. When Taehyung perceived who was standing in front of him, he was shocked.

“Oh, Jeongguk, emm hey” Taehyung said, his eyes scanning him upside down. “H-hey” Jeongguk tried to smile, his hand scratching the back of his neck out of embarrassment. “Are you sick?” Taehyung asked with worried eye. “Maybe” Jeongguk forced a laugh out of himself. “I don’t know” he added.

Taehyung suddenly remembered the water bottle and handed Jeongguk the bottle, Jeongguk thanked him quietly as he took the water bottle from his hand. He almost drank The whole bottle in one sip, the water helping the burning in his throat. Jeongguk didn’t understand why Taehyung continued to help him even after he saw that the stranger he thought he helped was actually him, his ex. He always knew how caring Taehyung was to his surroundings, he admired it about him. He felt happiness bloom in his heart when he understood that Taehyung, even after everything, still cared for him. “Let’s take you to your apartment, I don't want you to go on your own.” Taehyung said, his worried eyes still scanning him.

“What?” Jeongguk asked as he washed his hands, confused. “I will walk you, unless you are here with someone but I didn't think so since no one else but me came sorry that I assumed” taehyung rumbled, a little bit of fear in his eyes.

“I'm not here with anyone” Jeongguk clarified, smiling a bit inside of his head. “Thank you for wanting to help me, its sweet” he smiled towards Taehyung. He truly was happy about it, he felt like even though his goal coming here was completely different, seeing Taehyung was freeing, he felt lighter.

“Do you still live where we used to?” Taehyung questioned as the two walked out of the bathroom. “Emmm yes” Jeongguk answered, hoping it won't be too awkward. “Let’s go” Taehyung said as they walked out of the gallery. It was painful for Jeongguk to walk on this road next to Taehyung, it held one of the most precious moments for him of them as a couple. When they run to their apartment hand in hand after they got engaged, when they couldn’t stop smiling out of pure happiness. It was painful because it is gone, because it won't come back and right now he walked right next to the person he seeked and needed he most.

They walked side by side in silence for a few minutes, when they arrived Taehyung smiled fondly “Haven’t been here in a long time” he said.

“I missed this place” he added, looking at the apartment from the outside. “Thank you so much for walking me, you didn’t have to” Jeongguk thanked Taehyung and he was truly thankful, Taehyung didn’t need to do any of it and yet he did.

“No need to thank me, I did it because I wanted to” Taehyung admitted with his boxy smile. It shocked Jeongguk hearing that Taehyung wanted to help him, to walk him, to be next to him. But it made him so happy. “And still, thank you.”Jeongguk said once again as he entered the apartment. “Will I see you soon?” Taehyung asked before Jeongguk closed the door.

“Yes, I hope so” Jeongguk said with a soft smile. “Bye” Taehyung waved as Jeongguk closed the door. “Bye” Jeongguk answered.

This evening went down it a way he couldn't even dream of, as much as he wanted to move on before hand, seeing Taehyung reminded him that he still loved him. And as unexpected as it was, Taehyung seemed to miss him too. Jeongguk had no regrets, he may not move on just yet as he planned, but suddenly he didn't feel the need to do so. He felt inspired to create, and to photograph, he found inspiration.

This night couldn't have gone any better, Jeongguk conclude.

✧

Taehyung walked quietly into his and Jimin’s apartment after returning from the gallery. After his surprising encounter with Jeongguk at the gallery, Taehyung drive back home was full of thoughts. He was didn’t expect to see Jeongguk in the gallery, he haven’t seen the other in a very long time, and he kinda missed him if he was honest. Taehyung didn’t plan on meeting Jeongguk, but it wasn’t as bad as thought it would be, it was actually nice. He hoped Jeongguk is okay, that he isn’t too sick. And as he said to Jeongguk, it would be nice to meet with him again, maybe understand some more, maybe he will remember again.

Taehyung arrived to the apartment, silently unlocking the door and opening it. “Jiminie! are you here?” Taehyung asked loudly as he stepped into the apartment, closing the door. “in the kitchen!” Jimin responded. Taehyung walked into the kitchen and sat beside the little dinner table which is against the wall and is 4 meters from the kitchen counter.

“What are you making?” Taehyung asked playfully, watching Jimin cooking. “Bibimbap” Jimin responded, turning to face Taehyung, leaning on the counter as the rice is cooking. “Yummy” Taehyung smiled, as he wondered whether or not to tell Jimin about his encounter with Jeongguk.

“Sooooo, how was in the gallery?” Jimin asked curiously as he went back to cut vegetables. “Beautiful” Taehyung answered dryly, playing games in the phone. “That’s it? beautiful? you were so excited to go!” Jimin frowns, confused at Taehyung’s bored behavior.

“What do you want me to say?” Taehyung asked, continuing to play in his phone. “How was it? what was the most beautiful art? did it inspire you?” Jimin asked, trying to get some information out of Taehyung.

“Usually when you come back you can’t stop talking, was the exhibition in there was that bad?” Jimin questioned more, not knowing what caused this weird behavior. “It was great, really beautiful, all of the arts were incredible” Taehyung answered, putting his phone down and looking at Jimin. Jimin stared at him sharply, trying to figure out what’s going on.

“But something did happen in the gallery” Taehyung said carefully and Jimin turned the cooking fire off, sitting down in front of Taehyung to be able and give him his full attention. “What happened? are you okay? did you get hurt? I can take you to the hospital!” Jimin said worriedly, his eyes scanning Taehyung up and down, trying to see if there are any wounds.

“No no. Don’t worry, nothing like that” Taehyung said quickly, not wanting Jimin to get too worried over nothing. Jimin calmed down, sighed happily, grateful that Taehyung is okay. “So what happened?” Jimin asked curiously, crossing his hands. “I met someone” Taehyung said, biting his nails, afraid of Jimin’s reaction.

“What do you mean, you met someone?” Jimin asked, confused at what Taehyung was referring to. Taehyung took a deep breath, getting up from his chair to get water, trying to calm his nerves. “I met Jeongguk..” He confessed, sipping from his water as he sat back down. Taehyung tried to read Jimin’s face expression to see if he was mad, worried, sad or happy. All he saw on Jimin’s face was shock. “Oh, really?” Jimin asked quietly, the surprise obvious in his voice. “Yeah” Taehyung answers, taking another sip from his water.

“And did you talk? how did it go?” Jimin asked worriedly, trying to see the answer he is looking for in Taehyung’s eyes. “He was sick” Taehyung said, crossing his hands. “I didn’t notice it was him at first, he was standing in front of me while we both watched the same painting which was gorgeous by the way” Taehyung started telling the story of how he met Jeongguk again to Jimin who listened carefully.

“Anyways, he suddenly ran towards the bathroom, so I got worried you know, it was weird.” He continued, trying to remember the exact details of the encounter. “I went after him to the bathroom, he was throwing up like crazy so I brought him water.” Taehyung explained to Jimin. Jimin haven’t spoken since Taehyung started telling the story and it kind of made him nervous but he chose to believe Jimin just wanted to know everything before saying anything.

“Then, he went out of the bathroom and believe me when I say this, I was completely shocked to see him. He didn’t seem as shocked to see me, probably recognized my voice.” Taehyung continued the story. “It was really awkward but was really worried about him because he was really pale and seemed really sick so I offered to walk him home.”

“Wait, you walked him home?” Jimin asked, confused. Taehyung nodded as he added “yeah, apparently he still lives where we used to live.” jimin was looked really surprised to hear Jeongguk still lives in the couple’s old apartment. Taehyung was surprised too, but for some reason it didn’t bother him and actually made him happy.

“And… he didn’t say anything you’d see as weird?” Jimin asked cautiously, his eyes transmit worried. “No?” Taehyung answered, completely confused because why would Jeongguk say anything weird. “Oh okay” Jimin said, calming down.

“You walked him home and that's it?” Jimin asked, curious to know if there's more to the story. “Yep” Taehyung answered, smiling. “Can we eat? i'm starving.” Taehyung complained. “Let’s eat” Jimin smiled, getting up from his chair.

✧

At the morning after Jeongguk’s encounter with Taehyung in the gallery, he almost screamed out of happiness. He laid in his bed, staring at the ceiling and he couldn’t stop smiling. By the time he figured he should call Hoseok and Yoongi who were probably curious and tell them about what happened in the gallery it was already two am. So Jeongguk decided he would call them first thing in the morning and will go out with them to tell about the gallery encounter and maybe they will help him to decide what offer for a project he should take first. Jeongguk went to sleep with a big smile on his face.

Jeongguk woke up at 11am, he got up and brushed his teeth, stretched a bit before going to his phone. When he picked up his phone from the nightstand he saw numerous text messages from both Hoseok and Yoongi as well as a few phone calls. He called Yoongi and sat back on the bed, leaning on the bed. “Jeongguk, finally! we were so worried” Yoongi immediately picked up the call, he sounded distressed and it seemed like he was waiting for the phone call.

“Hey, sorry I made you worry” Jeongguk apologized, small smile on his face. “Yeah yeah.. how was it?” Yoongi asked, clearly he was very curious. “Not really for the phone, let's meet in the usual place in two hours?” Jeongguk asked, he felt like it was too important for it to be talked over on the phone, there was so much he wanted to say.

“Eh yeah I guess?” Yoongi agreed, kind of confused as to why it needed to be face to face, what was so important. “Will Hoseok come too?” Jeongguk questioned, Hoseok was a really close friend of him, and Yoongi dated Hoseok, so they were always together.

“I don’t think he’ll be able to come, he’s working really hard on his designs for the fashion show right now.” Yoongi explained. “Is it important? because he would want to be there if it is” he added. “It kinda is” Jeongguk answered. He hoped Hoseok would come, but he understood he if he couldn’t. “We will be there” Yoongi said and hung up the call.

Jeongguk got ready to meet up with Yoongi and Hoseok. He wore a white shirt combined with black pair of jeans and a bucket hat to over his hair. He was nervous, didn’t know how Hoseok and Yoongi will respond. He left his house in 1.30pm, and drove to their usual restaurant. He arrived before Yoongi and Hoseok, he sat in a corner table, playing games on his phone to pass the time before Yoongi and Hoseok would arrive. He asked from the waitress for some water to calm he nervus down. After a few minutes of waiting, Yoongi and Hoseok arrived, hurrying to sit in front of Jeongguk. “What happened?” Hoseok asked right as he sat down, distressed.

“Yoongi said it was important, I was so worried I couldn’t even work properly in those two hours” he added, Yoongi trying to calm his boyfriend down, his hands wrapping his arms around his shoulders. “Okay okay I will tell you everything please calm down Hobi hyung” Jeongguk said, not wanting Hoseok to be stressed too much.

“Start then, we are really curious” Yoongi smiled, signaling Jeongguk to begin. “Let’s say, it didn’t go as expected” Jeongguk admitted, taking a sip from his drink. Hoseok and Yoongi’s face looked extremely confused. “What do you mean by that?” yoongi asked.

“At first I was very nervous, but when I entered the gallery it was fine, I managed to focus on the art and it made me feel pain, I was inspired” Jeongguk told them, a smile rested on his face while he did. As Yoongi and Hoseok heard the end of the sentence they both had smile on their face, they seemed happy for him. “Awww my Jeonggukie i'm so so so happy for you” Hoseok smiled widely, getting up from his chair to hug him tightly, Jeongguk hugged him back, happy. “That’s great jeonggukie! i'm very proud of you” Yoongi said, exposing his sweet gummy smile.

As Hoseok went back to his seat, Jeongguk broke his news. “But this isn’t what I wanted to tell you” he said, much to his friends confusion, they looked a bit worried. “I met Taehyung there” Jeongguk said quietly, not sure how they would react. Both of them had a shocked face mixed with worry.

“Oh my god, are you okay?” Hoseok asked, concerned about Jeongguk, about his mental state. “I threw up” he confessed, he lowered his face, staring at the the table, embarrassed. “Oh Jeonggukie” Hoseok mumbled, feeling a bit sorry for Jeongguk. “I think it’s a normal reaction considering the circumstances” yoongi commanted, not wanting jeongguk to feel way too embarrassed.

“Think about it, you spent months crying over him, you went to the gallery to find a way to move on and suddenly you meet him out of nowhere. Its normal, don’t feel bad” Yoongi said encouraging Jeongguk. Yoongi could tell how bad Jeongguk felt, how embarrassed he was, he wanted to comfort him, to let him know it is okay.

“He’s right” Hoseok added, reaching out over the table to hold Jeongguk hand, wanting to provide him comfort as well. “Thank you guys” Jeongguk thanked them, he was truly grateful to his friends, knowing he is incredibly lucky to have friends like them.

“The thing is, he came after me to the bathroom, he brought me water, and he didn’t even knew it was me at first” Jeongguk told them, he held Hoseok’s hands, allowing himself to be comforted. “Wait guys don’t look sad, there's happy ending” Jeongguk added as he saw the sadness in his friends eyes.

“When I came out of the bathroom stall, he seemed really shocked to see me, but he didn’t backed down or something, he stayed to help me.” Jeongguk said, smiling happily as tears are forming in his eyes. “That’s sweet of him.” Yoongi smiled. “It really is” Hoseok added.

“He said I looked really sick and offered to walk me home” Hoseok awed quietly. “He walked me to my apartment and at first it was really awkward, none of us knew what to say, but it was really nice” Jeongguk admitted, smiling. He truly thought at first that his first encounter with Taehyung after so long would be much worse, he was really surprised, but in the good kind of surprised.

“You know something was a bit odd, he acted as if he hadn't see me for years, he even said he missed the apartment.. it was kind of weird when I think about it” Hoseok and Yoongi stared at each other, like they are speaking through the eyes. “Maybe he just missed you and the apartment, you lived there together for a few years.” Yoongi rushed to say.

“Are you okay though?” Hoseok asked, a bit worried over Jeongguk. “I'm happy, actually, he even said he hopes to see me again” Jeongguk admitted. He hoped he could meet Taehyung again, to talk over things so he could finally apologize to Taehyung face to face, he desperately needed Taehyung to know how sorry he is. “Really?” Hoseok asked, surprised. “Yeah, I was really shocked.” Jeongguk confessed.

“I hope I will be able to see him soon, I never got to apologize to him” Jeongguk said, remembering everything he went through in this past six month. “

Yo you really want that? you went to the gallery to get over him” Yoongi reminded him. “When I saw him, I understood how much I still love him. of course I really want that” Jeongguk said, smiling as he thinks about Taehyung. “We just don’t want you to get hurt.” Yoongi said. Jeongguk got hurt too during the break up, Yoongi simply didn't want that to happen again.

“I won't, I believe in our love.” It was the first time Jeongguk has said out loud anything like that since his break up with Taehyung, the first time he was willing to admit it. Hoseok and Yoongi stared at him, and Jeongguk understood, they were worried over him, it make sense that after everything they would be worried about him.

“Let’s leave this topic for now, please” Jeongguk asked. “Help me decide what offer I should take first” Jeongguk switched the topic conversion. “Oh! Yes!! you gotta take something amazing” Hoseok said excitedly, immediately digging into the offers.

✧

The next day Jeongguk started early, after he finished responding to a few offers, accepting the ones he decided on with Hoseok and Yoongi, Jeongguk got into the shower, wanting to be feel fresh and clean.

While he rubbed the soap on his body he had many thoughts concerning Taehyung, about if they meet soon, how he would apologize, what he would say. He wondered what would be Taehyung’s reaction, if he had already forgiven him, if has things he want to say he never did in his letter. Jeongguk wanted to know all those things, as soon as possible for his peace of mind but at the same time he knew he needs to be patient, he didn’t want to scare Taehyung off. When he went out of the shower he wrapped himself in a towel and stared at himself, looking at his own reflection in the mirror. He touched his hair, saw how badly he dyed his roots the day before. He promised himself to go to the hairdresser to fix the bad hair job he did on himself.

After he wore some clothes, he sat down in front of his laptop and checked if he received any emails regards the offers he accepted. Jeongguk answers some, asking what kind of photos are they expecting, if there’s any theme. When he finished answering the important emails Jeongguk made an appointment to the hairdresser for the evening.

To pass the time, he stated to research the artist of the painting he loved in the gallery, to see if there any more works of them that he will like. He saw a few that he liked, clicking on them to see them in a bigger form. After viewing a few paintings of the artist he could tell the artist has gone through a phase of love, later a phase of loss, of regret and lastly, their newest works shows redemption, how forgiveness for wrongdoing could happen even after a heartbreak. Jeongguk could easily relate to this artist’s experience, he felt like those paintings represent everything he went through and his hopes for the future. Looking at those paintings made him understand that many people go through the same things he did, that he isn’t alone with his heartbreak and hopes. Jeongguk promised himself he would do everything to receive taehyung’s forgiveness, to make up for his words, his actions.

After thinking long and hard about his life choices, Jeongguk figured he should give his mind a little break and closed his laptop to make himself some food to eat. He boiled water and sat on the couch, turning the tv on and putting itaewon class on netflix. Jeongguk texted a bit with Yoongi, updating him about the progress he made with his offers. He asked about his day, what he is planning to do. Jeongguk read about Yoongi’s day while he put the rice in the boiling water, waiting for them to absorb the water. After finishing texting with Yoongi the rice was cooked so he poured rice into his bowl and sat back on the couch, continuing the episode of itaewon class as he ate.

A few hours later Jeongguk drove to the hairdressing salon. He wore a black tshirt with gray tracksuit, combining with it a black hat to cover his hair. Jeongguk entered the hair salon, greeting the hairdresser as he sat down on the waiting sofa. He pulled out he phone, reading some articles about new computer games that are supposed to come out soon, waiting to be called for his turn. A few minutes later, he felt the sofa sink a bit, he picked his head up from his phone to see who sat beside him.

“Oh, Taehyung” he mumbled once he realised the person who sat beside him was no other than Taehyung. It seemed like fate was determined to bring them back to each other, after not seeing the other for half a year, he suddenly see him twice in a gap of two days. Taehyung seemed surprised to see him, probably just as surprised to see him.

“Hey, Jeongguk” Taehyung said, a soft smile on his lips despite his surprised face. Jeongguk scooted a little, not wanting to make taehyung uncomfortable by sitting too close to him. “What are you doing here?” Taehyung asked, looking at Jeongguk with soft yet curious eyes.

“I need to fix my hair dye” Jeongguk laughed, embarrassed. He took his hat off, showing Taehyung how bad his roots look. “Oh god” Taehyung giggled, covering his mouth not wanting to show how bad he really thought it looked. “Yeah..” Jeongguk said, putting the hat back on his head.

“So why you are here? I don't see any bad dye job” Jeongguk asked, looking at Taehyung’s hair. “Oh, i'm perming my hair’’ Taehyung said, ruffling his own hair with a smile. and oh, Jeongguk missed his boxy smile so much.

“You have wanted to perm your hair for a long time, i’m happy you got the chance” Jeongguk said, hoping he didn't cross any lines. Taehyung frownd, a bit confused, he doesn’t remember ever mentioning wanting to get a perm to Jeongguk but again, there are many things he doesn’t remember. “Yeah” Taehyung answer with a smile, trying to cover up the fact he doesn’t actually remember those stuff.

“Are you feeling better?” Taehyung asked, switching the topic conversation once he remembers the sick Jeongguk from two days ago. “Totally, thank you for helping me” Jeongguk answers, moving uncomfortably. He was never sick in the first place, he threw up because he saw Taehyung and he was overwhelmed. He didn’t think that Taehyung needs to know it, but he also didn’t want to lie. He just preferred leaving this topic alone and never mention it again.

“I’m happy I could help” Taehyung responded, grinning. Soon the air became awkward, both of them not really knowing what to say. To avoid the awkwardness, Jeongguk turned back to his phone, waiting to be called.

Jeongguk obviously wanted to talk to Taehyung, but it wasn’t the place to do it and it needed to be somewhere that would be more private and suiting for that kind of conversion. “Jeon Jeongguk” it was called, right on time. Jeongguk was thankful, it saved him from the growing awkwardness. Jeongguk got up, glancing at Taehyung who just glanced back at him.

“Would we meet soon?” he asked, wanting to know if he will get his opportunity to finally apologize. knowing that now, despite the awkwardness is the time. “Yeah, i’d want that” Taehyung smiled at him.

“Is your number still the same?” Jeongguk asked, looking at Taehyung. “Emm I don’t think so” Taehyung answerd, Jeongguk handed him his phone, so he could write him his new number. Jeongguk forgot his wallpaper was still a photo of both of them, and he immediately regretted giving Taehyung his phone while it was on the homescreen. He saw Taehyung realising it was a photo of them, his eyes wide in shock.

What Jeongguk didn’t know, was that Taehyung couldn’t remember ever having this kind of hair style, especially when he was still with Jeongguk. Taehyung typed his number under ‘Taehyung’ in his contacts and gave jeongguk his phone back. “Jeon Jeongguk” He got called once again.

“I need to go, i’ll be in touch with you?” Jeongguk asked as he took back the phone. “Yes, i'll wait for a message” Taehyung says with a smile as Jeongguk heads towards the place he was called to sit in.

It may have been a short encounter, but it was Jeongguk key to healing.

It was also the key for Taehyung’s healing, but not the same type of healing was needed in those two cases.

✧

When Taehyung was finished getting his perm, he was eager to speak with Jimin, ask him about the photo he saw on Jeongguk phone. He left the hair salon hurriedly when he finished getting his perm, his hair freshly curled. When he was in the car, he asked siri to dial to Jimin. when Jimin picked up, Taehyung asked if he was home, wanting to talk to him as soon as possible. Jimin answered that he was home and added that Seokjin and Namjoon were with him as well.

Taehyung didn’t mind Namjoon and Seokjin at all, he loved his brother and his husband dearly. They were there for him when he went through tough time, they loved him and have always supported him. Them and Jimin is all he have so he didn’t mind for them to be there in his argent discussion with Jimin.

As Taehyung parked his car, may thoughts ran in his mind, possibilities, feelings he didn’t recognized. He trusted Jimin, he knew he would tell him the truth about the weird photo. Taehyung came out of the elevator, walking to his apartment door. When he opened the door he was greeted by Jimin, Seokjin and Namjoon, sitting in front of the tv with bottle of suja. “Hiii” Taehyung greeted happily, going to hug namjoon right away.

“Missed you hyung” he said, hugging Namjoon tightly. “Well little brother, you should come visit” Namjoon answered as Taehyung went over to hug Seokjin. “You should definitely come to ours more often” Seokjin agrees.

Taehyung sat down next to Namjoon, happy to have a chance to see his brother. “Am I not getting a hug?” Jimin pouted, Taehyung giggled and went to hug him his best friend.

“I need to talk to you Jiminie” Taehyung whispered into Jimin’s ear, detaching from the hug a moment later. “Why? did something happened?” Jimin asked, whispering back worriedly.

“Hi! no secrets between friends” Seokjin complained to the sight of Jimin and Taehyung whispering. “The perm looks great Taehyung by the way” Seokjin added with a smile. “Well thank you” Taehyung smile, touching his hair proudly, acting as if he's whipping it back. “No secrets, I just wanted to tell Jimin something”

“We want to know too” Namjoon and Seokjin said at the same time. “Well, I met Jeongguk again” he announced. Seokjin and Namjoon looked worriedly at Jimin, but quickly their face turned into shock. “What do you mean, again?” Namjoon asked confused. Taehyung forgot he never got the chance to tell Seokjin and Namjoon about his first encounter with Jeongguk at the gallery.

“Yeah, at the gallery two days ago, I forgot I never told you” Taehyung rubbed the back of his neck, embarrassed. “But anyways, that's not what I wanted to talk about” He said, turning his eyes to Jimin.

“I met him today at the hairdresser salon, and we talked for a little bit, he asked me if I wanted to meet up with him soon and I agreed” Taehyung announced. Jimin looked terrified. “You agreed? why would you do that?” Jimin asked, fear in his eyes.

“Because I lost two years of my memories! I want to get to know him again, to know what he is like now” Taehyung explained. “I don’t think that’s a good idea Taehyung” Jimin says.

Taehyung didn’t understand what Jimin had against Jeongguk, why he was so anti when it came to him. “I agree, he broke your heart Tae” Namjoon says, Taehyung knows his big brother has always been protective over him, but he wasn't having it today. “And I don’t even remember any of it! you said we broke up two years ago, he must have changed, I need to meet him at least once” Taehyung was stubborn, His heart told him he needs to meet Jeongguk, to open locked places in his mind and Taehyung always listened to his heart.

“I agree with them, it's really not a good idea” Seokjin says, his eyes staring at Jimin, as if lost and not knowing what to do. “Im sorry but i'm an adult, im 28 for god's sake you can't tell me what to do” Taehyung got up from the sofa abruptly, mad. Taehyung felt pissed off, he never liked when people told him what to do and how to act.

“And we know it and respect it, but unlike you, I remember what your were like when you two broke up was the one who comforted you when he broke your heart, all I want, all I ever wanted is for you to not get hurt again” Jimin got up too, looking straight into Taehyung’s eyes. Taehyung knew how much Jimin cared about him and he was very grateful, but Jimin can’t baby him forever and hide him away from the pain. “And guess what Jimin, I want to remember that too!” Taehyung said loudly, it almost sounded like a scream.

Seokjin and Namjoon just there, not knowing what to say as Jimin and Taehyung argued. “You know just as well as me meeting Jeongguk could help me get my memory back, I always avoided contacting him because you said he doesn't want to see me. But he does! I have a chance to get all those memories back. Can’t you just be happy for me?” Taehyung signed, looking at Jimin with sad eyes like a lost puppy.

“I- I don't know i'm sorry” Jimin apologized, sitting back at his chair, burying his head in his hand. As Taehyung saw how sad his friend really was he sat back on the sofa in silence. “Don’t fight, please” Seokjin asked from the two, upset at the sight of his friends fight. “Taehyung, Jimin is just trying to help” Namjoon said, trying to create peace between his brother and Jimin.

“I'm sorry Jimine, i'm not mad at you” Taehyung apologized, rubbing his hands over Jimin’s back, trying to comfort him. “I know how much you care about me, and I will always be thankful for it, but you can’t protect me from everything” Taehyung said softly.

“But there is one more thing related to this, when I gave Jeongguk my phone number and I saw a photo of the two of us in his home screen, and I don't remember being blonde while we dated, not when I remember at least” Taehyung said, looking at the guys. Seokjin averted his eyes to the floor, while Namjoon tried to act surprised and Jimin almost jumped off his chair. Taehyung noticed it all, and it was very weird. “M-maybe you had it right before you broke up” Namjoon said, trying to get himself together.

“No you don’t get, we looked really really happy, it was in the gallery, it didn’t seem like a couple that is about to break up” he explained. “Maybe, we met and I didn’t tell you, maybe we made up and I didnt tell you” taehyung theorized, looking for a reasonable explanation.

“Maybe, I don’t know” Jimin sighed. “then I will meet him soon! you will see we all would be so happy if I will get my memory back” Taehyung jumped happily while the other guys just stared at each other uncomfortably. “Yeah” Seokjin said, giving Taehyung the best fake smile he could offer. “Happy for you” Namjoon mumurmed, giving Taehyung a little hug, but he couldn’t look to him in the eye.

In that moment, Jimin couldn’t move. He knew he was screwed, he knew Taehyung will find out the truth soon, the truth he tried so hard to hide. All he did, all the lying was because he knew that was the best for Taehyung at the moment. He loved Taehyung, he was his soulmate, his best friend. All he could do was to hope that once Taehyung figures everything out, he would still want to be his friend.

✧

After finishing with his hair at the salon, Jeongguk drove to Hoseok and Yoongi’s to talk with them about Taehyung, and what he should do next. He wanted to share with them, his best friends his happiness from meeting Taehyung, from having a chance to make amendes.

He knocked on their door happily, waiting for them to open the door. He hears rushing inside the house, and the door opens to the sight of Yoongi with his shirt backwards. “Hey” he pants as Jeongguk is looking at him, giggling. “Am I interrupting?” Jeongguk asks laughing loudly at the disturbed Yoongi.

“Kind of” Yoongi rubs his neck, embarrassed. “Well since I have already disturbed the...love making session” Jeongguk enters the apartment, passing Yoongi who was standing at the entrance. “Brat” Yoongi mumbled and unwillingly entered the apartment after Jeongguk, closing the door.

“Hobi, Jeongguk is here” Yoongi called to Hoseok from the bedroom as Jeongguk waited for the two of them in the living room. “Jeon Jeongguk!” Hoseok yelled as he came out of the bedroom, clearly annoyed at the interruption.

“Sorry hyung, please don’t kill me” Jeongguk left, apologizing for interrupting. “Why are you here?” Yoongi asked, sitting on the chair in front of Jeongguk.

“I wouldn’t have come if it wasn’t important” Jeongguk muffled, suddenly feeling bad for interrupting, they deserved some alone time and he could see by their face expressions that they really wanted time alone. He regrets entering the apartment so carelessly, he should have just gone back home.

“We know” Hoseok said, smiling at Jeongguk while giving him a cup of water. “Were not really mad” yoongi added, not wanting to make Jeongguk feel guilty. “Thank you for not being mad, I know I can be overbearing sometimes” Jeongguk apologized once again, feeling the regret for being impulsive and interrupting his friends in their private time.

“Jeonggukie, please don’t feel bad. I promise you we have plenty of time” Yoongi comforted him, not expecting Jeongguk to feel so bad over simply wanting to share with them something and accidentally interrupt them in the middle of sex.

“Seriously Jeonggukie, you're like our baby, we really don’t mind” Hoseok added to Yoongi’s saying, going over to Jeongguk, patting his hair a bit to make him feel less sad. “So, what are the news?” Yoongi asked, looking at Jeongguk.

Jeongguk took his hat off, showing them his freshly new dyed hair. “I was at the hair salon, I met Taehyung there” Jeongguk said, feeling Hoseok’s hold of his shoulders tightening. “Really?” Yoongi asked, his face present an expression of surprised. “Yeah” Jeongguk nodded, holding onto Hoseok.

“How was it?” Hoseok asks from besides him. “Kind of awkward” Jeongguk admitted, thinking of the silence that went down between them. “But, he gave me his new phone number and we are going to meet up” Jeongguk said, his eyes lighting up at the thought of having a proper, serious conversation with Taehyung over everything that went down between them.

“Oh?” hoseok Mumbled, not expecting to hear such things, looking at Jeongguk. “Yeah!” Jeongguk answered happily, knowing he finally get to apologize.

“This is why I came actually, I didn’t know what to text him.” Jeongguk confessed, looking at his hyungs worried faces. “What do you mean?” Yoongi asked, moving uncomfortably in his chair.

“I finally have a chance to talk with him about everything that went between us, to apologize to him” Jeongguk admitted, looking anxiously at his hyungs, not knowing what they are going to say. “Oh Jeonggukie” Hoseok smiled at Jeongguk, hugging him even more tightly.

“I'm happy for you, you're a really good person” Yoongi softly observed Jeongguk, happy to see how important it is for Jeongguk to be a better person.

“For wanting to apologize?” Jeongguk asked, wondering what makes one a good person. He felt like they had this kind of conversation million time over the past half year, but they really hadn’t, Yoongi just reminds him that he is a good person once a week. “For acknowledging your mistakes and being so determined to make up for them” Yoongi smiled as he explained it to Jeongguk. Yoongi truly believe that there are many people like Jeongguk, who work so hard to make amends to the people they have hurted in the past.

“I just think its the right thing to do” Jeongguk explained his actions, smiling gratefully at Yoongi. “So, what do you want to text him?” Hoseok asked curiously, wanting to know how things will develop between Jeongguk and Taehyung. “I don't know, all I know is that I have to make it clear I want to talk over our break up” Jeongguk said, moving out of Hoseok’s grasp, pulling his phone out of his back pocket.

“That’s good, you should be straightforward” Yoongi says, smiling softly yet his face look serious. “Maybe you should just say you would love to meet up, talk about everything” Hoseok said, he himself not really knows what you do in this kind of situations. “I think you should do it do, don't bullshit, just say what you want to say” Yoongi agrees.

Jeongguk started typing a message, going back and forth with deleting. When Jeongguk felt like the text is good enough, he should both Hoseok and Yoongi the text, wanting their opinion. “I think that’s good, send it” Yoongi said, hoseok nodding, agreeing. “Should I?” jeongguk asks, insecure. “Yes!” Hoseok nods, smiling. “Okay” Jeongguk murmured as he pressed send, immediately turning his phone off nervously.

“Don't be nervous, I'm sure he will agree” Yoongi said, encouraging Jeongguk. “I hope so” Jeongguk bit his nail, stressed. “Who wants ice cream?” Hoseok asked, jumping from his seat, looking over at Jeongguk and Yoongi. “I would love it” Jeongguk mumbled.

Yoongi and Hoseok both knew there was no point in trying and keep the truth about Taehyung from Jeongguk. All they did was to support him since the beginning, and all of their actions were from the belief it is what is best from both of them, but they weren't so sure about that anymore. They weren't sure of it for a long time. They just hoped Jeongguk won’t be too mad.

✧

When Taehyung got the text message from Jeongguk he was estetic. He would finally get the answers to the questions that have bothered him for so long. At first he was a bit surprised from how straight forward Jeongguk was, right away saying he wanted to talk about their break up. But again, for as long as Taehyung knew Jeongguk, he was a very straightforward person.

What did surprise Taehyung is that despite the photo he saw on Jeongguk phone, they haven’t spoken about their break up that according to Jimin happened two years ago, if that’s even true. Taehyung didn’t want to think of his best friend as a liar but he felt like he is left with no other choice. He saw how weird his best friends reacted whenever he spoke about Jeongguk. All he could hope is that Jimin isn’t lying, he wanted Jimin to be right.

He agreed to meet with Jeongguk, praying everything he would say confirm everything Jimin told him, but he knew it wasn’t likely.

When he went out to the meeting with Jeongguk, he didn’t know what to expect. How did his and Jeongguk relationship ended? he remembers how shocked he was when Jimin told him they broke up. Because for all he could remember, he loved Jeongguk deeply, and those feeling felt like they were never gone. When Taehyung arrived to the restaurant he and Jeongguk decided to meet at, he was nothing but nervous. Taehyung arrived first, so he sat down at the table the host lead him to and tried to calm himself down. It wasn’t as easy as he thought, he was suddenly nervous from the unknown. Taehyung doesn’t even know if their break up was in a good manner or a bad one, he didn’t even know if Jeongguk knows about his memory loss he suddenly realized. It all made him so nervous.

Taehyung looked over the entrance every few seconds, biting his nails as he waited for Jeongguk to arrive. When he saw Jeongguk entering the restaurant and approaching him, Taehyung moved anxiously in his seat, feeling unprepared for whatever comes next. As Jeongguk arrives to the table, looking just as nervous, he says “Hey, thank you for agreeing to meeting me.” Before sitting down, Taehyung giving him a small smile.

“Of course” Taehyung nods weakly, the stress eating him from inside out. He exams Jeongguk, looking at him, desperate for knowledge. Despite the stress he feels, he really just want the truth, he simply is afraid he won’t like the truth. “Do you want to order first?” Jeongguk asks, as he sits down, getting comfortable in his chair while looking at Taehyung with doe eyes. As much as Taehyung was itching to hear everything Jeongguk has got to say, he was really hungry.

“I would love that” Taehyung answers, grateful for the consideration. Taehyung can tell that Jeongguk is scared, maybe even scared of him. Taehyung knows they must have broken up if Jeongguk hasn't contacted him in the past six month since the car accident, he just didn’t know why. He was curious, why Jeongguk was so scared about, and he thinks it is because of the break up, and he is about to find out.

The two of them order food, Taehyung orders naengmyeon while Jeongguk orders samgyeopsal. Once they finish with their orders, Taehyung assumes it's time for them to start their conversion, and at the first few seconds non of them knows what to say.

"Can I start?” Jeongguk asks, not wanting to make Taehyung uncomfortable, maybe he would want some time to adjust. “Yeah” Taehyung answers as he stares at Jeongguk, the stress can be seen just by looking at his eyes.

“So first I want to apologize for the things I said in the day you left” Jeongguk startes and Taehyung could not have been more confused. “I know I should have never said those things, and I need you to know I don’t mean any of it, I love-” He coughs. “I loved you so much, I never, not for a second truly believed for a second that you were jealous of me or that you tried to sabotage my career.” Jeongguk explains and the realization is falling on Taehyung.

They did break up and by the look in Jeongguk eyes, it was a really painful one. It makes Taehyung wonder what changed so much from the period he remember to the period he doesn’t. Jimin tells him that they broke up 22 month ago, while Taehyung doesn't remember the past two years. What could have changed in two month? for all Taehyung can remember, he and Jeongguk loved each other deeply. Loving Jeongguk was so easy, it felt neutral to love him, like river water flowing to the sea, like riding bike. Loving Jeongguk has always been so easy to Taehyung. So what has changed?

“I really don’t know what to say” Taehyung doesn’t want to lie to Jeongguk, he simply doesn't know what to say. How can he break it to him that he actually have no memories of this happening, any of those things he is apologizing for.

“You don’t have to say anything” Jeongguk immediately says and despite all of those things it seems like the break up hurted Jeongguk badly too. “I'm also sorry for letting you plan the wedding alone” Jeongguk apologize and Taehyung feels like his mind is deceiving him. Marriage? wedding? Jimin never mentioned any of those things to him. Taehyung can’t open his mouth, like his mind has yet to process this information, like it’s looking for the memories.

“If I could have gone back in time, I would never take this project, I would put all of my time into our wedding. I know it seemd at times that I didn’t care as much as you did, but I promise you I cared so much” Jeongguk addes, and it breaks Taehyung heart to see him so sad, his eyes glossy from tears.

“I don’t remember any of this” Taehyung blurts, and the look of Jeongguk face presents betrayal and pain but mostly confused. “What do you mean by that…” Jeongguk voice is shaking.

“Not like anything you might think. I...I lost my memories half a year ago in a car accident” Taehyung confesses, not wanting to cause more pain to Jeongguk. “Oh my god” Jeongguk murmurs, he face shocked as tears stream down his face, his eyes slowly becoming red. In that moment he understands that Jeongguk never knew, that he was left at the dark.

Jeongguk has never been more confused and betrayed. How come he never knew about this? how come Yoongi and Hoseok didn’t tell him? unless they didn’t know to. How much does Taehyung forgot? does he remembers their engagement? his graduation?

“Do you, perhaps know what date was your car accident on?” Jeongguk asks, curious to know how close to their break up the car accident. “Somewhere in the middle of april I think, i'm not sure” Taehyung said, not understanding why it mattered so much when was his car accident.

“Marriage tho? we were engaged?” Taehyung asks, his eyes shining. “Yes, we got engaged in last January” Jeongguk says, a smile resting on his face when he reminisces in their engagement.

Last January. That means they didn’t break up two years ago. That means that Jimin lied. “Are you sure? because Jimin told me we broke up two years ago..” Taehyung whispers, hoping with his all heart that he heard it wrong.

“Two years ago? we broke up six month ago, in mid april?” Jeongguk answers, confused, wiping the tears from his eyes. It all explains way to many things to Taehyung. Why Jimin was so nervous every time he mentioned Jeongguk, it explains the hair color he had in Jeongguk’s home screen. But why would Jimin lie to him?

“And the home screen photo?” Taehyung ask, even though now he knows that it is a recent photo according to the hair color, it was the photo that made him come to this meeting, to confront Jimin about hiding things, so he wanted to know more. “You saw that?” Jeongguk lowers his head, rubbing his shoulders out of embarrassment.
“It helped a lot don’t worry.” He says, hoping Jeongguk isn’t feeling too embarrassed. “When was it taken?” Taehyung asks, thinking about the photo, he can barely remember it.

“Our engagement night” Jeongguk smiles weakly, the memory became painful after the break up, but now he is the only one who remembers it, so it must return to be happy. “It was the happiest night of my life” he adds, hoping he isn't crossing the line by saying it.

“I'm sure it was mine too” Taehyung comments, and he truly believes in it, his heart is telling him it's true. Jeongguk grins at him, clearly very happy to hear it.

Their food arrives, and it look delicious but all Taehyung wants now is to know more. He is taking a bite just to calm his stomach down. “Can I see more photos?” Taehyung asks while he is chewing. Jeongguk nods, taking his phone out of his pocket. It takes him two minutes or so to find the photos and when he does he passes Taehyung the phone. Taehyung moves the photos, he sees how happy they are, from the photos of the two of them smiling at each other, to photos of taehyung alone staring at the photos, to photos of them after the engagement. In some they are locking lips, in some they are showcasing the engagement ring on Jeongguk ring finger like a traditional engagement photo, there a few of simply of Jeongguk’s finger with the ring on it. Taehyung could tell just through this picture that it indeed was the happiest moment of his life.

"I assume I proposed?” Taehyung asks as he give Jeongguk his phone back. “You did, you proposed me in the gallery” Jeongguk nods, confirming that Taehyung indeed was the one who proposed. “The gallery? the one we went on our first date to?” Taehyung giggles, surprised at him

self. “Yeah, it was very romantic” Jeongguk smiles, making Taehyung smile himself. It all confused Taehyung very much, because they clearly loved each other very much, they were happy together, what caused the break up? but when he really thinks about it, Jeongguk did mentioned something about a fight and him not helping enough with the wedding. It must have been a really shitty fight to cause them to break up.

“When did we break up?” Taehyung asks out of the blue, suddenly understanding that their break up must have been between January and April, because Jeongguk didn’t know about his car accident but they were very much together at January.

Jeongguk chokes mid bite to the sound of Taehyung’s question, his eyes becoming glossy again. “M-mid April” he coughs “April 16th, to be exact” Jeongguk says. Taehyung pulls out his phone, checking the medical record he received when he got out from the hospital. When he sees the date of his accident, he gasps.

“April 17th” he whispers, not even Jeongguk can hear him. “What?” Jeongguk asks upon not hearing what he just said. “M-my car accident was a day after… it was on April 17th” Jeongguk looks absolutely shocked and wrecked by this information, there was clearly something Taehyung doesn't know yet, why else would he be so hurt by the date? Something must have happened after their break up, jeongguk wanted to know since the moment taehyung mentioned his car accident when was it.

“There’s no way” Jeongguk mumbles, his eyes closed, tears falling out of it, he wipes his tears from his cheeks, moving his hair out of his forehead, basically not knowing what to do with himself. “What is it?” Taehyung asked worriedly, not knowing how to help Jeongguk. Jeongguk eyes look broken, his jaw tighten. Now Taehyung was sure, something did happened after their break up. He just hope Jeongguk wasn’t too broken to answer.

“For a week I- I wondered why you didn’t come back home.. We never officially broke up until… Until a week later there was a letter from you saying you wanted to break up because you couldn't forgive me. All of your stuff were gone from our apartment too” he explains, his eyes teary as he stares at taehyung. It makes taehyung so sad to hear it, his eyes becoming glossy to. From all the things he thought that would happen after their break up, this wasn’t what he had in mind.

Taehyung also knows that it make no sense, because he woke up 5 days after his car accident and when he asked where Jeongguk was, he was told that they were broken up, and it made him so confused back then because… He didn’t thought it was possible for them to break up, he knew how much they loved each other even with two years of memories gone. It really wasn't possible since apparently they never broke up, it was just a really bad fight.

“But it doesn't make sense since you didn’t even remember anything” He concludes. “I was never told about your car accident but maybe at first it was my fault I... I turned off my phone, I was your emergency contact, god” Jeongguk sighes remembering how many times his phone rang before he turned his phone off, seeing it wasn't Taehyung. If only he picked up, he would be in a whole other situation. It still doesn't excuse him not knowing at all but that's a topic for later.

“Those days I only went to work and back but... Later how could they have not told me?” Jeongguk was hurt, he was lied to, he could have been with Taehyung this whole time but no.. He could have fixed it all back then, helping Taehyung cope and maybe bring back lost memories but it was taken away from him. It was taken away from him most likely by people he calls them his friends.

“When I woke up at the hospital I asked for you and at first they didn’t answer me but later Jimine told me we broke up, 16 month before hand.” Taehyung explained to Jeongguk, and there was clearly something very fishy in this situation. “I promise you taehyung, if I would know, I would never leave you, I would have been there with you.” Jeongguk apologizes for never being there for him during the hard time.

“I know” Taehyung nods. And Taehyung did know that, solely based on things he heard now from Jeongguk and things knew beforehand, he knew that Jeongguk would never abandoned him.

After a minute when they both sit in silent, neither of them knows what to say or think, Jeongguk speaks up. “Taehyung, someone set us up” He determines through the tears, full of pain, thinking about what could have been. The thoughts of what could have changed are useless and Jeongguk knows it, it won't bring time back nor would it change anything. And yet, he couldn’t help himself but think about how different his life would have been if he didn’t fight with Taehyung and blame him of being jealous. If only he was more clam.

Even just answering his phone after the break up would have change everything. All he could know now is try to make up for all this things, starting with figuring out who would do such things to them, who would lie like this. “Do you have any idea who could it be?” Jeongguk asks, wondering who could it be. There aren’t many people who could since they must be close to both of them which limits the options to 5 people.

Taehyung had an idea, but he didn’t want to say anything to say before he is completely sure of it. He and Jimin have a lot of talking to do. They continue to talk, each of them promising the other they would talk with their friends and investigate, see what they know, if they have anything to do with it. They decided to meet again at the evening, tomorrow, after speaking with their friends.

And just like that, through all the anger and the sadness, they both have hopes for happiness again. Happiness within them only.

✧

Taehyung was devastated when he entered the car. He had a feeling Jimin has been lying to him since their conversation yesterday, but he didn’t want to trust his gut. He did enjoy his conversation with Jeongguk despite everything. He enjoyed seeing Jeongguk and learning about their relationship, it did make his heart throb a bit. And he won’t lie, hearing that they were engaged did make him happy, knowing that they were happy. He felt bad for Jeongguk too since it wasn’t entirely his fault. He was lied to, just like Taehyung. He was broken up by someone who wasn't even Taehyung. even if their last fight, like jeongguk apologized was his fault he doesn't deserve it.

He drove to his apartment, full of thoughts. So he just drived and listened to his favorite sad songs, wanting to ignore everything until he would have to face it. When he parked his car at the parking lot, he just sat there for a few minutes, he didn’t want to think of anything just for a few minutes.

Taehyung left the car unwillingly, knowing the hard conversation he needs to have with Jimin. Frankly, he didn’t want to deal with it al all, but he knows that he must. He entered the elevator, looking at himself in the mirror, happy that his eyes aren’t as red anymore because he did cry a lot at the past hour.

When Taehyung entered the apartment, he sees Jimin walking around the apartment nervously. Jimin doesn’t even notice him at first, biting his nails, not really knowing what to do. “Hey” Taehyung mumbled, still standing at the doorstep, looking at Jimin nervously. “T-taehyung” Jimin sutterd, surprised by Taehyung’s appearance.

Jimin looks at Taehyung in his eyes, seeing the almost fading redness in his eyes. Taehyung met Jeongguk, it is enough for Jimin to know. “You know everything, don't you?” there is so much fear in Jimin’s eyes. when Taehyung catches Jimin’s eyes, the later lowers his eyes to the floor, not able to look into Jimin’s eyes.

“Not everything, but i'd love for you to fill the holes” Taehyung says sarcastically. Jimin’s fear, his reaction, his question, it all confirms Taehyung’s worst fear “Like how me you lied to me? told me we broke up?” Taehyung smirks, sadness fills his body. “Please Taehyung, let me explain” Jimin beggs, coming closer to Taehyung.

“Please” Jimin begs once again, tear forming in his eyes. This is what Jimin didn’t want to happen, Taehyung finding out and hating him. All he can hope is that he can make Taehyung forgive him, to understand even just a bit. “I want to know everything” Taehyung says, sitting slowly on the couch, his eyes showing anger, but to Jimin, they are still soft as ever. “I will tell you everything” Jimin answers, teary eyed. He sits next to Taehyung, hoping for a chance.

“Go on” Taehyung says, nodding towards Jimin who feels like he has a lump in his throat. “Okay so it all the started in the night of the fight” Jimin started, looking at Taehyung in fear. “April 16th?” Taehyung asks, jimin nods as he continue.

“You came to me very upset, you sobbed for an half an hour at least. You were very upset about the thing Jeongguk told you. If you don’t know yet-” jimin tells, getting cut off by Taehyung. “I know” Taehyung answers, looking at the floor quietly.

“Okay so we talked over it and you said you wanted to stay with me for the night, to think. At first you said you don’t know how you will be able but later when I suggested you should take a break from each other because you fought a lot, you said that there’s is no way you would break up with him because deep down, even though you were really hurt, you still loved each other” Jimin explain, fiddleing with his fingers nervously.

Taehyung felt confused, he didn’t understand how from that conversation, it got to the place of him allegedly breaking up with Jeongguk. “I don’t understand.. how did it go from there to what there is today?” Taehyung asks jimin.

“The day after, you decided to go back to your apartment and talk over everything with him, and on your way there…” Jimin stops mid sentence, not wanting to say what next, it's a painful memory and he thinks it obvious. “I had my car accident” Taehyung completes the sentence, looking over at Jimin sadly. “Yeah…” Jimin whispers, he wants to hold Taehyung’s hand, to comfort him but he knows he shouldn’t, not yet.

“When the hospital called, I almost had an heart attack.” Jimin begins to explain what happened after the accident, and Taehyung listens carefully, his full attention on Jimin. “When I arrived, they said your number one emergency contact which is Jeongguk didn’t answer so they called me. I later called all of our friends, all of us tried to call Jeongguk but he simply didn’t answer. Yoongi and Hoseok even went to his apartment a few times but he was never there” Jimin says, hopeful that Taehyung is starting to grasp the idea of what happened.

“So when we couldn’t contact him for the whole time you were there, and we found out you got injured in the your temporal lobe and lost your memories I decided to lie” Jimin says, ashamed, not able to look in Taehyung’s eyes. “Why?” Taehyung asks, mad.

“I knew how hurt you really were, you just didn’t admit it. the two of you been fighting back and forth for month by then, I hated seeing you hurt” Jimin explains the motives behind his decision. “So when Jeongguk didn’t show up for the whole time and you lost your memory, it felt like a sign from fate that you shouldn’t be together for that point of time” Jimin says, scared of Taehyung’s reaction.

“A sign from fate?” Taehyung asks, his voice loud and clearly very mad. “I know it sounds dumb but… It really felt like that back then, like you weren't meant to be together, I was doing it for you, I didn’t want to see you hurt.” Taehyung smirks, not able to believe to what he is hearing. “Because that worked so well” He complained. “I know and i'm sorry, I shouldn’t have done it” Jimin apologize truthfully.

“Well sorry won’t change it” Taehyung spits, getting more and more annoyed at Jimin and his actions the more the conversation between them progressed. “I know” Jimin whispers with tears in his eyes, frustrated with himself. “The letter to Jeongguk, was it you too?” Taehyung asks, suddenly remembering what Jeongguk told him.

“Yes I- after I told you that you two broke up, I had to make jeongguk think the same. I wrote a letter based on the things you told me and i have been around the two of you enough to know how to write the letter” Jimin says, his eyes fixed at the floor, to embarrassed to look at Taehyung. “Gosh” Taehyung mutters quietly, slowly moves his hand over his hair, exhausted. “Since I had a key to your apartment, when I Knew Jeongguk wasn’t home, I placed the letter from his pillow and took all of your belongings to my apartment. “ Jimin confessed.

“You need to apologize to Jeongguk too” Taehyung declares, getting up from to sofa to get himself some water. “I know, I will” Jimin promises, stretching himself lightly. “One more thing” Taehyung says as he sits down. “Whatever you want to know” Jimin responds, his eyes red from the forming tears.

“Did the others know about this?” Taehyung questions. Now that he thinks about it, there is no way all of them didn’t know and never asked him about Jeongguk whereabouts or never mentioned that they were still together by the time of the accident.

“They did know, but don’t be mad at them, it was all me. I convinced Namjoon and Seokjin by telling them about what happened in the night of your fight and Jeongguk not coming to the hospital helped to convince them that it was the right thing to do, that it will you good for you” Jimin explains, looking at anywhere but Taehyung. Jimin truly knows that what he did was absolutely wrong and that there is no excuse for it but he wants taehyung to understand that all he did was for him, he had good intentions it just went wrong, he didn’t think enough.

Taehyung sighed, not really knowing what to say. It seems like everyone who he cares about have been lying to him in the past six month, including his brother. “And Yoongi and Hoseok?” Taehyung asked, wanting to know if his so called former friends, who are Jeongguk closest friends knew about this plan too.

“They only agreed because they saw how heartbroken Jeongguk was, they thought you losing your memory will break it even more. They came to me asking to tell the truth after about a month later, claiming that Jeongguk was in a horrible state thinking you hate him, that he needed to know the truth”Jimin answers, as he rolls his neck, stretch it. “And?” Taehyung asks, understanding it’s not everything if Jeongguk didn’t know anything.

“I convinced that thats its a bad idea and that my plan will be better for the long run, I truly believed it then” Jimin admits, not leaving any detail, wanting to be redeemed. “Got it” taehyung mumbles, taking a sip from his water, feeling uncomfortable. He didn’t want to discuss this topic anymore, it gives him a really bad headache.

“Look Jiminie, if i'm being honest, im very mad and upset with you. You are my best friend and you did so much to prevent from me being with Jeongguk, I acknowledge that you didn’t want me to get hurt but you did. I really don’t know how we will continue from here, I want to forgive you, to understand you but i can’t, not now” Taehyung confesses, telling to Jimin his feelings.

“I get that, I really do” Jimin answer shakily, tears streaming down his eyes, fear of losing his best friend is burning inside of him. “At the moment we both stay here, but I can’t make no promises, I will talk to Jeongguk tomorrow and see what I will do, okay?” Taehyung asks softly. As mad as he is at Jimin, his is a forgiving person, Jimin has been his best friend since kindergarten and he was dear to his heart. It is not easy to admit to himself that Jimin is the one who pulled the strings, the one who cause all the lying. “Thank you, thank you, thank you” Jimin chants quietly, so thankful for even getting a small chance.

“I don’t want to be mad at you, you know me, but it will take me a long time to forgive and honestly, I really don’t what I will do but you're my best friend, I still love you” Taehyung admits, slowly hugging the crying jimin. “I will do anything to make you forgive me” He cries, his tears falling onto Taehyung’s shirt, wetting it. “I know” Taehyung says, trying to comfort Jimin.

Taehyung still needs to talk with Namjoon and Seokjin tomorrow, but after this conversation with Jimin, he feels lighter, like things will improve soon. And Taehyung makes a decision to look only forward, to happiness. (With Jeongguk)

✧

The morning after the big discoveries Taehyung opened with major headache. Probably his brain signaling his to rest, that it is too much information at once. But Taehyung was very determined to find our more, but from another perspective. and for that, he needed to speak with Namjoon and Seokjin.

He got up tirelessly, rubbing his eyes as he entered the bathroom, brushing his teeth. Taehyung felt horrible, his head hurts even more than his heart. Even though he conversation with Jimin ended on somehow good not, he spends most of the morning avoiding him. After Taehyung finishes his quick shower, he flops on the bed, hugging his pillow and let his tears fall. He held his tears from most of the day before, but he is becoming so overwhelmed. He cries for so long it feels like his eyes will fall out of place any minute.

When he finally stops crying, he figures he should go to talk with Seokjin and Namjoon, to find out the truth from their perspective. He changed his cloth and took his head out of the door, just to make sure that Jimin is not there. When he confirms that Jimin is indeed, not there, Taehyung quickly yet quietly leaves the apartment, closing the door behind him.

Taehyung drove quietly, not even bothering to call Seokjin and Namjoon, he knows they will be home anyways, so why even bother. When he drives, he can’t stop thinking about the letter Jimin left in his name to Jeongguk. By the look in Jeongguk eyes when he told him about the letter, it broke him, whatever that was written there. But again, who wouldn't be absolutely wrecked if your fiance broke up with you via letter? how could Jimin do it, write the letter as if he was Taehyung, how did he not feel guilty, just doing it?

When he arrived to the building the couple lives in, slowly getting out of the car, rubbing his shoulders, tired and upset. He entered the elevator, thinking about how he should start the conversation? what he should ask? how will they answer? how much do they know? what do they know about his fight with Jeongguk? his mind was filled with those kind of thoughts.

He walked out of the elevator, taking a deep breath before knocking. He waits seconds before Namjoon opens the door for him. “Hey Taehyungie“ Namjoon greets him with a smile, his hair is still a bit messy from sleep. “We need to talk” Taehyung says, looking at Namjoon with a stern look, his jaw tight. “Ookay?” Namjoon says, allowing him to enter, confused at his brother cold behavior.

When he enters the apartment, he sees Seokjin in the kitchen, probably making coffee for himself and Namjoon. “Tata, hey” Seokjin says as he turns around and see Taehyung sitting on the couch in his living room, a bit surprised. Taehyung nods back, not bothering to say any words. “He wants to talk with us” Namjoon says instead, covering for Taehyung’s odd silence.

“Oh is… Everything okay?” Seokjin asks worriedly as he sits down, placing the two cup of coffee on the table. Taehyung feels everything burning inside of him with fear, fear of how much involved were they in this whole thing, of how much have they lied to him too. It all was stuff that he didn’t want to now, but he knows that he have no choice even though he is very overwhelmed.

"I know that you know the truth about me and Jeongguk” Taehyung says calmly, having no power in him too be angry, he was already overwhelmed. All he wants is to find out the full truth once and for all. He can see Seokjin and Namjoon exchange looks, a mix of fear and worry in their eyes. “Oh” Namjoon mumbles, scared from his little brother reaction even though he doesn’t know how much Taehyung knows.

“I just want to know how much did you know and why did you agree to lie to me?” Taehyung said, leaning back on the sofa, looking at the both of them. Seokjin nods at Taehyung and later looks Namjoon for confirmation as he drinks his coffee to wake himself up, he needs it more than ever. “And we will, we will answer all of your questions” Seokjin rushing to say, not even allowing Namjoon who was just opening his mouth to say anything. Taehyung sighs loudly, preparing himself for more information.

“How much did you know? from everything” Taehyung asks quietly, his face facing the floor, he feels without power, he just want everything to end. After his conversion with Jimin he had time to think and he understood how much he have been lied to in the past six month, how much did he lose. The only reason he believes that at the end, he will forgive everyone is because he won't be able to handle to lose anything else. Taehyung was tired and he couldn’t wait until all of this would be over and he could just go back to the life he had before the accident, even though he didn’t remember much of it he is sure that he was happier than he is right now.

“We did know everything, we know about the lies he told you and we know about the letter he left to Jeongguk, I even helped him to move all your stuff but all I did is because you are my little brother and I love you the most.” Namjoon explained, not wanting to keep anymore lies from Taehyung. Namjoon takes a deep breath, holding Seokjin’s hand for comfort. “What do you mean you helped him?” Taehyung asks, surprised as he wasn't expecting his brother to be very involved in the scum.

“After you left his apartment the morning after the fight, Jimin called me and told me everything, he was so worried after you. I knew before you had some arguments but it never got that bad, to the point you had to leave your apartment.” Namjoon begin to explain his actions to Taehyung, Seokjin nodding along, letting the brothers have their conversation as he comforts Namjoon, caressing his hand softly.

“When I was told about your car accident and arrived to the hospital I was never so scared, I immediately looked for Jeongguk thinking he must be broken but he wasn't even there. So when Jimin suggested that we lie to you, I felt like you deserve better, and agreed” Namjoon finished his explanation, looking shamly at Taehyung.

“I don't understand you all? why did you think lying to me was a good idea? i'm not some weak person who needed protection? what made you think it was a good idea to lie to me?” Taehyung asked, annoyed at Namjoon explanation. It may be the thing that annoyed him the most, with Jimin too. The fact that they all believed he needed some protection from Jeongguk whom he dated for 7 years, that they thought he wouldn't be able to handle things with Jeongguk, and they lied to him, making him believe things that are not true.

“I know now that what we did is wrong, but at the time it seemed like the best option that would hurt you the least, think about it, you woke up with memory loss, thinking everything with you and Jeongguk are fine and well only to find out that you are in a middle of a fight and he didn’t even bother to come to the hospital, while you're engaged, how would you react to it?” Namjoon asks, showing taehyung his perspective. Namjoon cared deeply about his little brother and the time it seemed like the most reasonable decision to make, now he knows that his judgment was clouded by his anger towards Jeongguk and the world, for taking the memories from his little brother.

“He didn’t know” Taehyung whispers, defending Jeongguk. He hates it, that they were all so mad at Jeongguk without understanding that was hurt as well, that even though the things he said were horrible, he still cared, love like they had doesn't just go away with one fight. We know that now.” Seokjin says, smiling weakly at Taehyung, trying to make the conversation to feel lighter.

“I'm so sorry Taehyungie I know that what I did is wrong and I will apologize to Jeongguk too, I know that I shouldn’t have done that, please understand that all i cared about is you being happy.” Namjoon looks at Taehyung softly, asking for forgiveness.

“Hyung truthfully, i’m exhausted, I have no powers to be upset or mad i'm just tired. There is nothing that I would love more than forgive and forget but as I said to Jimin, it might take time to do those things” Taehyung admits, hanging his head up high, trying to stop the tears from coming.

“Do you need a hug?” Seokjin asks, seeing how overwhelmed Taehyung is. “i’m sorry but I need to go” Taehyung answers, feeling way too overwhelmed to do anything else but leave. He is thankful that Seokjin is not pushing him but just nodding, he also know that it's not his fault, at the end of the day he is Namjoon’s husband and he trusts his judgment when it comes to his family.

“I promise that I will talk to you soon” Taehyung says as he get up from the couch. “I promise I will try to understand hyung, you are my big brother and you always have my back.” He turns to namjoon. taehyung goes quickly to the door, tears falling out of his eyes, his head aches, his whole body feels like it is about to crumble but all he does instead of stopping and breath is mumbling a quick “bye.” To Namjoon and Seokjin.

He feels like he could collapse any second, his body failing him. He tells himself that he is just overwhelmed, that once he will calm down it will pass.

✧

Jeongguk wakes up after his conversation with Taehyung slightly happy. Happy that Taehyung listened to him, that he understood him. But despite all of those happy things, he and Taehyung were being lied to for the past six months. Jeongguk was very sad about the discoveries last night because not only Taehyung had an accident and it was hidden from him for a long time as well by his friends.
And on top of that, he lost his memories and he didn’t remember anything from the past two years, he didn’t remember anything from their relationship in the past two years.

What did keep Jeongguk sane and happy is the light in Taehyung’s eyes when he saw the photos from the gallery, from their engagement, he seemed really happy to see it. He hoped that he was as happy as he looked.

Jeongguk got up from his bed, stretching his limbs as he went to the bathroom to brush his teeth. Jeongguk thought about the conversation he needs to have with both Yoongi and Hoseok. He knows how much the two of them cared for him, how much they both cared for him, he saw it in those six months. But what if they know, it's unlikely that they won’t know, they must have knowns about the accident and helped to hide it from him. He wanted to believe that it isn't true but he knows that the chances are slim.

After he brushes his teeth, he went back to the bed, staring at the ceiling. He wanted to talk to talk with hyungs, but he didn’t want to be mad at them, they were always there for him whenever he needed them no matter how busy they were. He hoped that if they did lie to him, they have somehow reasonable reasons.

When noon arrives after he spent the whole morning resting by watching tv and eating, he figures it's time to talk with Hoseok and Yoongi as he setted with Taehyung a meeting for that evening. He texts Hoseok and Yoongi in their group chat, asking to meet up as soon as possible, asking whether they prefer that he would come to theirs or them to his. Hoseok responds after half and hour, saying they'll come over. Jeongguk wonders how he will respond when they will explain everything to him from their perspective. He also wonders how Taehyung is doing, if he is fine, if he thinks about him? he wonders if Taehyung is doing okay, not drowning in thoughts like him. He wonders if Taehyung has already talked to whoever he suspected in, if he knows the truth by now, if he is doing fine with it.

Interrupting his flow of thoughts, he hears a knock on the door. Before getting up from his bed, he checks his phone and finds out he has been thinking for the past half hour. Jeongguk gets up from the bed, wearing his slippers and walks out of his room, towards the living room where the door is. Jeongguk knows that truth time has arrived, and he hopes for the best.

Jeongguk opens the door, looking at the worried Hoseok and Yoongi with a small smile, allowing them to enter the apartment. The two pass Jeongguk and enter the apartment, holding hands trying to calm themselves down, knowing what's up next. Jeongguk follows them into the living room, his stomach turning upside down as he feels nervousness inside of him, seeing Yoongi and Hoseok sit on his sofa. Jeongguk watches them as he sits besides them, turning his body towards them.

“What’s going on Jeonggukie?” Hoseok asks with a warm smile, trying to make it easier for all of them. “I think you know already” Jeongguk said, looking nervously at Hoseok and Yoongi, as he knows that they know about his meeting with Taehyung. Jeongguk doesn’t know what to expect from the conversation. “What do you want to know?” Yoongi asks, worry in his eyes, he is afraid of Jeongguk reaction. “Everything” Jeongguk answers, his eyes already glossy with just the thought of finding out the full truth and despite all of that, he still trusts them and believe in them.

“It all started with Taehyung’s car accident which I assume you already know about by now” Yoongi begins, looking at Jeongguk for confirmation, he receives a nod from Jeongguk so he continues. “When you didn’t answer we were worried sick, so we waited until Taehyung came out of surgery before we came over to you. When we came to your apartment, to check on you and tell you about the accident but you weren't here. On the next days we tried to get in touch with you but you never responded.” Yoongi explained, looking at Jeongguk, fear of being misunderstood, of saying too much.

“On the day Taehyung woke up Jimin called us, asking to meet. When we met, he told us about Taehyung memory loss and that he is planning to lie to him about your relationship for that time, as he was really hurt by you and you never came to the hospital, we agreed, not knowing how much impact it had on you. We thought that Taehyung memory loss will break your heart even more. On the day of your exhibitions, we saw how sad you really were behind your smiles, how much you anticipated Taehyung and yet, we thought it would be the best to withhold the truth for the time being, we stuck with our bad decisions which is something we are truly sorry.” Yoongi continued and Jeongguk began to understand how things happened, and he wasn't so scared anymore to hear the truth anymore.

Jeongguk nods at them, wanting them to continue with the story. “When you told us about the letter we were surprised as Jimin never told us anything about it, and at first we decided to go with it, thinking you would get over it, that we would be able to help you.” Hoseok explains softly, continuing from the point Yoongi stopped.

“But as time passed and we saw how hurt you were, we went to Jimin and asked him to stop with the lying so we could tell both of you, but Jimin didn’t agree, he told us that it would be for the long run for the both of you and in the end, we believed it” Hoseok finishes, looking at Jeongguk, wanting to know how he will react.

“That's actually less worse than I thought but i’m really upset that you lied to me.” Jeongguk determines, looking at his friends softly, his legs can’t stop moving. “The thing is I know you would never do anything you think would harm me, and you clearly regret doing it.” He added, and Jeongguk truly knows how much they care about him, like he is their little brother.

“You are not mad?” Yoongi asks, confused and hopeful. “Don’t get it wrong, I am a bit mad about you lying to me for so long but I know you will never try to hurt me intently, especially with the way you have been here for me” Jeongguk explains himself, knowing that he can't be too upset with them, seeing as they did regretted lying early on.

“My Jeonggukie, i'm so sorry” Hoseok said, rushing to hug Jeongguk tightly. “I love you Jeonggukie” he whispers, thankful that Jeongguk is not too mad. “I'm sorry as well” Yoongi apologize, a sad look in his eyes as he walk over to Hoseok and Jeongguk, joining the hug.

Once they all break apart from the hug, Jeongguk says “Thank you for telling me the truth.” He thanks them, and he is truly grateful as he knows that all they do is what they see as his own good. He knows that he is upset and a bit mad, but he knows he will feel better in no time. He still trust them, as weird as it sounds.

Jeongguk now understands some of their weird behavior during times he mentioned Taehyung but at the end of the day, despite their lie they always supported him, even helped him to set up a meeting with Taehyung, knowing the consequence of their lie. And for that, he knows he can’t be mad at them for long. Like Yoongi always told him, just acknowledging your own mistakes makes you a good person who deserves forgiveness and they acknowledged theirs.

✧

After his conversation with Seokjin and Namjoon, Taehyung just drove, for what felt like hours. Taehyung felt his world collapsing on him, not able to understand how the people who are the closest to him have been lying to him, working so hard to keep the lie from him. Tears are streaming down his eyes, his vision becoming blurry to the point he has to stop at the first gas station he sees to calm himself down before continuing to drive.

Taehyung wipes his eyes, staring at the outside through the window at his side. He feels so overwhelmed, he doesn’t know what to do with himself. He tries to understand what made them think lying to him was a good decision. It makes him so sad that the person he trusts the most was the one who started all the lying, the one who convinced everyone that it’s a good idea. He can’t lie, he understand that Jimin cares about him and he is pleased that he told the truth without hiding details, even the ones who hurt. Taehyung knows he promised he will try to forgive but the more he thinks about it, he doesn’t know how he will be able to do it.

Taehyung can’t stop crying, he feels overwhelmed, drowning in sea of feelings that make him hate everything. All he needs is a hug, someone who will sooth him and tell him that everything will be okay. Taehyung don’t understand how did it all happen, he wishes he would never fight with Jeongguk because if they never fought, he would never leave like they said, and if he never left, he would never loss his memory and be in this mess. After a while, the tears stop streaming, like there is no tears left for him to cry.

Taehyung checks his phone, knowing he still needs to meet with Jeongguk. He sees it has been three hours since he left Seokjin and Namjoon’s apartment. He figures he should head to Jeongguk place, but before doing that, he goes out of the car to the small shop to buy himself some water and bagel to calm his stomach. When he enters the car he puts his favorite song, that calms him down. And he drives, just wanting the day to end.

This time, when he drives he doesn't think about anything, his mind is simply empty, he is focusing on the drive. When he arrives to Jeongguk’s apartment, he walks slowly out of his car, scratching the back of his head, he is tired, his body just want to sleep. When he arrives to Jeongguk floor, he takes a deep breath, his eyes almost closing before knocking on the door. After a few second Jeongguk opens him the door with a smile. At least someone is in good mood, Taehyung assumes his conversation with Yoongi and Hoseok went well. “Hey Tae, you can enter” Jeongguk make way for Taehyung to walk into the apartment, Taehyung accepts the invitation and enters the apartment, nodding towards Jeongguk.

“How are you doing?” Jeongguk asks as Taehyung sits down and Jeongguk goes to the kitchen, taking cookies out of the jar, pouring water into a cup for Taehyung to drink, he seems pale.

“Not really great” Taehyung confesses, looking at Jeongguk who comes towards him from the kitchen. Taehyung feels his eyes closing, but he is stopping himself, trying to look okay, to not show weakness. “I assume the conversations with your friends didn’t go well?” Jeongguk questions, a bit of pity seen in his eyes.

“Not really. I don’t know how I will be able to forgive Jimin” Taehyung admits, sighing as he takes a sip from the cup of water Jeongguk served him. Taehyung is sad, he doesn’t even mention Seokjin and Namjoon because he knows that even though he promised Jimin he will try to forgive him, he just can’t see himself doing so in the close future.

“Are you able to forgive me?” Jeongguk asks, probably referencing to the things he told Taehyung yesterday, for their fight. Taehyung wonders for a moment, is he able to forgive? Jimin did say he was on his way to speak with Jeongguk, and Jeongguk clearly regret it and apologized. Taehyung does not have the power to be mad, and he feels like so many water had flown his the river between him and Jeongguk.

“I already have” Taehyung concludes, just want his heart to feel lighter, but he truly forgives Jeongguk. “Oh” Jeongguk looks surprised, looking at Taehyung with a big smile, happy knowing Taehyung forgives him.

“Do you want to talk about your conversation with Jimin?” Jeongguk questions, moving closer to Taehyung on the sofa. Taehyung feeling his stomach flipping just to the thought of his conversation with Jimin.

“I'm just so disappointed in him, he is my best friend and he lied to me for so long… Lying to me, leaving the letter here to you, convincing all of our friends to lie to us, it make me feel horrible” Taehyung admits, getting up from the sofa, his vision becoming blurry, his head hurting again.

“I'm so sorry Taehyung, I don’t know what to say.” Jeongguk say, truly not knowing how to help Taehyung, as the situation with Hoseok and Yoongi is way more simple, they tried to tell the truth but Jimin, Taehyung’s best friend was the one who stopped them.

“You don’t need to say anything, just be here for me and let me share my feeling.” Taehyung says, feeling his vision becoming black slowly, his head spinning. “I’m happy th-that I know the truth.” He sutters, feeling dizzy, leaning forward on the couch. “B-but I can't help but feel say, kno-” Taehyung says, his hand losing it grasp on the couch as he collapses, his body hitting the floor, his head following, hitting the floor hardly.

“Taehyung!” Jeongguk calls, rushing to Taehyung’s side, fear filling his limbs, he first checks Taehyung’s pulse at the side of his neck, glad to feel his heartbeats. At the moment Jeongguk thanks for the the moment he decided to the a first aid course as he runs to the couch to grab his phone, dialing 119, to order an ambulance. While he dails, he brings Taehyung’s legs up in 30 degrees, so the blood would flow to his brain better. “Hello? my friend just passed out, he hit his head and I need an ambulance” Jeongguk says immediately as his call gets picked up, telling them his address as well. On the phone, the lady has sent him an ambulance, saying its own his way.

Jeongguk freaks out internally, not really knowing what to do with his limited knowledge but he is doing the best he can. It scares him that Taehyung doesn’t wake up, but he seemed so place and he is probably so stressed over everything, maybe the new discoveries overwhelmed his brain to the point he couldn’t handle it.

jeongguk worries so much. taehyung is still the love of his life and watching him, laying on the floor, not moving, it makes him panic. he prays that taehyung is okay, not able to lose him again now that they had just found each other. he hoped with his whole heart that taehyung is alright, waiting anxiously for the ambulance to arrive. it comforts him that at least this time he is present to help taehyung.

"Please Taehyung,” Jeongguk begs, continuing to hold his legs up when all he wants is to caress his face, to comfort him and whisper that everything will be okay. Jeongguk eyes becoming glossy, he is holding his tears, wanting to be strong but it is so hard for him, Taehyung was everything to him, he loved him for so long, no matter what. “The ambulance will be here soon and they will take care of you.” Jeongguk promises, putting Taehyung’s legs on the floor gently, seeing it doesn't help. He goes over to Taehyung’s side, sitting next to his waist, his hand softly patting the side of his head.

Jeongguk sits there and it feels like forever, like time is not moving. The thing that bothers him the most is that he can only assume what caused Taehyung to pass out like that, he looked really pale since he arrived and his stress levels are probably in the sky, overwhelmed from the amount of information. He is worried, but he knows that he did everything he could to help in the meantime, so he waits.

Jeongguk continues to pat taehyung’s skin as he hears loud knocks coming from the door. he gets up quickly, rushing to open the door. “He’s here” Jeongguk says to the paramedics right as he opens the door, stressed. the paramedics enter quickly, walking towards Taehyung who is laying on the floor, his eyes closed. He looks peaceful to Jeongguk, his facial expression soft.

Jeongguk feels the air suddenly enters his lungs as he watches the paramedics taking care of Taehyung, giving him oxygen through mask to help him breathe properly. One of the paramedics take him to the side, asking questions. “Was there anything that caused him severe stress lately?” She asks, getting out her tablet, so she can write every information he gives her.

“Well, six months ago he had a car accident and he lost two years memory worth. Yesterday he found out that everyone around him have been lying to him since then, hiding some important information from him.” He explained, rubbing his back, not really knowing much byond it. “Was the information have big effects on his life?” she asks, writing everything he said on the tablet.

“Sort of yeah, “ he says, not really wanting to expose the things that went down between them. she nods, writing it as well. “Did he get hit in any place of the body?” the paramedic asks, writing all of the information down, everything will go onto Taehyung’s medical record.

“I think he hit his head” Jeongguk said, looking towards Taehyung as she nods, writing it all down, smiling emphatically at him. “Will you come with us to the hospital?” she asks, looking up at Jeongguk, holding her tablet. “Of course” Jeongguk nods, rushing to his bedroom to grab his wallet. When he comes out of the room he can see Taehyung still hasn't woke up, but the paramedics put him on the bed, he is still breathing well thanks to the oxygen given to him.

The paramedics take Taehyung out of the apartment and jeongguk follows. they take taehyung to the elevator and Jeongguk takes the stairs, he wants to be there for Taehyung in any given moment but he knows if he will take the stairs they wont need to wait for him and Taehyung will arrive to the hospital sooner.

Jeongguk feels like the world is about to collapse on him, finally have the time to understand what just happened. What if Taehyung got hurt in his head again? will he be okay? did Jeongguk did enough? is it his fault? maybe he shouldn’t have spoken to him in the first place? who should he call? should he call Jimin, even though Taehyung is mad at him? should he call Namjoon, Taehyung’s brother? he feels overwhelmed with worry, not knowing what to do with himself out of worry.

When he reaches the entrance floor, he can see from the see through door the paramedics uploading the bed with Taehyung on it, and he runs to them. “You can sit at the front” one of the paramedics says he as enters the seat next to where Taehyung’s bed is. Jeongguk nods, going over to sit at the front sit next to the driver.

When they start the drive, Jeongguk just blocks everything, its like he can’t even hear things from the outside world. He thinks of everything, just to not let the worry swallow him. Jeongguk was so worried, he can’t express it in words, the worry he feels. He just found Taehyung again, after being heartbroken over their fight, about Taehyung leaving him which he never really did. He can’t lose Taehyung, not again. He needs to win Taehyung’s heart again, he needs to have him back in his arms.

Jeongguk decided to text Yoongi and Hoseok, to let them know what going on.

Jeongguk:
Hyungs, i'm on my way to the hospital with taehyung, the one closest to my apartment, please come as soon as possible.

Hobi hyung:
Omg ): is he okay???

Jeongguk:
He passed out, i’m really stressed, please come.

Yoongi hyung:
We will be there gguk, please stay strong

Jeongguk:
Can you call Namjoon? I don’t think I can

Yoongi hyung:
We will call him, please don’t worry about those things

Yoongi and Hoseok were truly worried about Jeongguk. Yoongi assumed Taehyung passed out due to mental stress, being overwhelmed with information. All Yoongi could hope is that now that Taehyung passed out next to him, he won’t stress himself too much. While Hoseok goes out to the balcony to call Namjoon and let him know that Taehyung, his little brother has passed out and on his way to the hospital, Yoongi preppers a bag with some food and water for Jeongguk, knowing he will probably spend there the night. He hoped he can help Jeongguk as much as he can, especially now that he's finally free from the lies.

Jeongguk is grateful for Yoongi and Hoseok’s help, as it takes a bit from the worry off his shoulders. When they arrive to the hospital, Jeongguk jumps out of the of his seat and he sees the paramedics pulling taehyung’s bed out. Jeongguk notices that Taehyung’s eyes are slightly opened and he sighs in relief, knowing that Taehyung is already getting a bit better, and that he is going to be taken care of.

He walks behind the paramedics, watching them enter Taehyung into one of the hospital wings as he goes over to the reception, gives them Taehyung information as he was instructed. Jeongguk goes over what he told the paramedic, telling them about his past car accident, about the events from the past two days, about their last conversation and him passing out. The receptionist tells him to sit in the waiting era and that the doctor will update him soon. Jeongguk is tapping on the floor with his leg nervously, looking every few seconds towards the wing Taehyung was in.

After what he feels like hours of staring the hospital wing, he feels warm hands embrace him from the back, he turns his head and sees Hoseok, looking at him with a worried eyes yet offering a soft, warm smile. “How are you holding up Jeongggukie?” he asks, tightening his grasp on Jeongguk shoulders. How is he? Jeongguk doesn’t actually knows, he is so worried about Taehyung, but he is glad he could help Taehyung this time unlike the previous time.

“Worried” he mumbles, summing up all of his feelings into one word. Hoseok nods, undestading. Jeongguk continues to tap the floor while Hoseok kisses the side of his head as he sits right next to Jeongguk, trying to provide him comfort.

Jeongguk sees the paramedics that took care of Taehyung leave the hospital wing they put him in and they walk towards Jeongguk. Jeongguk gets up, walk towards them, needing to know if Taehyung is okay. “Is he okay? and I got to him?” Jeongguk asks quickly, the words flowing out of his mouth.

“They are taking care of him, due to his head injury and the fact that it took him a relatively to passing out, it took him a long time to wake up they will take him to a CT and i’m assuming that later you will be able to see him.” The paramedic informed him and Jeongguk visibly swallows, processing the information. “Thank you for your hard work.” Jeongguk thanks her and the paramedic give him a small, comforting smile. The paramedic walks away, giving his a pat on the shoulder and Jeongguk goes back to sit next to Hoseok.

After a few minutes Yoongi enters the waiting era with Namjoon and Seokjin, all of them have serious, worried expressions. Yoongi is standing far from them, almost running towards Hoseok and Jeongguk.

“Where is he?is he okay?” Namjoon asks, his lips quivers like he is about to cry from worry. Seokjin’s hand is around his shoulder, providing him comfort. Seokjin looks teary eyed as well, but he is trying to be strong for the benefit of his husband. “I-i don’t know” Jeongguk sutters, it all becoming way too real. “They are taking care of him, it’s all I know” Jeongguk buries his face in his hands, letting the tears flow. Namjoon nods, he sits down on the chair, Seokjin never letting Namjoon out of his grasp, patting his back gently.

“I'll call Jimin, he should know” Seokjin mumbles as he pulls with one hand his phone out of the pocket, calling to Jimin. Jeongguk is so upset and concerned about Taehyung that he doesn’t even comments about the fact that Jimin probably is the one who caused all this stress to Taehyung, that he shouldn’t be here, bother Taehyung and cause him even more stress, reminding him of all the lying, but deep down he knew Jimin cares deeply about Taehyung.

“Jimine, were in the hospital, Taehyung passed out” Seokjin whispered into the the phone, glancing towards Jeongguk. Jeongguk could feel his look, most likely an outcome of not seeing him for over seven month. Jimin answers to Seokjin something Jeongguk couldn’t hear and from the side of his eye, Jeongguk can see Seokjin nodding and hanging up the phone call, shoving the phone back into his pocket.

While they waited for updates from the doctor, Hoseok went to the cafeteria to bring all of them coffee, Yoongi offered Jeongguk some snack from the bag he brought, but Jeongguk truly can’t eat anything, he feels sick and worried, he can’t do anything until he knows that taehyung is okay. “Jeonggukie, everything will be okay.” Yoongi tried to comfort Jeongguk, patting his back. Jeongguk leaned on Yoongi, allowing him to embrace him as tears dropped out of his eyes. “You can’t know that” Jeongguk mumbles, his tears staining his own shirt while yoongi continue to pat his back.

“Hey Jeongguk” Namjoon calls, turning his head towards Jeongguk, his hands a bit shaky. Jeongguk gets out of Yoongi's grass, surprised that Namjoon is talking to him. They were good friends, before everything happened and Namjoon was very supportive of his relationship with Taehyung but once everything happened, Namjoon stopped talking to him. Jeongguk coughs “H-hi” he sutters due to the surprise.

“I'm sorry, for everything y'know” Namjoon says, loud and clear and honestly, and Jeongguk cannot believe that he is hearing an apology, but he was happy. “Thank you” Jeongguk nods with a weak smile, not really knowing what to say byond it. He doesn’t know how namjoon’s part in the lie but he knows how caring Namjoon is towards his little brother and Jeongguk was never a big fan of drama so even if just for tonight, he will forgive and forget, for Taehyung.

Hoseok returned with five cups of coffee, handing out the coffee for the guys, all of them whispering thank you. After giving everyone their coffee, Hoseok goes over to the receptionist, asking for an update. And Jeongguk is thankful for Hoseok’s help, he wouldn’t be able to do anything, let alone help others. From his seat, Jeongguk can see Hoseok nods before he comes back to his seat next to Yoongi.

A Few minutes later a doctor comes towards them, and they all get up quickly, ready to hear about Taehyung condition. “Are you Taehyung’s friends?” The doctor asks as he approaches them. “Yes” Namjoon answers while they are all nodding.

“We checked him up, his blood pressure is very high, he was hydrated as well so no wonder he passed out.” The doctor explained and Jeongguk can feel his lips quivers, he can’t hear bad news, just not bad news. “Regardless of the results of the CT scan we did to him, we will keep him for observation for the night.” He informs, and they are all nodding. Jeongguk feels relife washing him all over, knowing that Taehyung is in good, professional hands, that he will be okay.

“Aan we see him?” Seokjin asks, looking at the doctor while holding Namjoon’s hand tightly. the doctor nods, “He is in room 13 in the second floor, don’t enter all of you together, max is two people.” The doctor instruct them, and Jeongguk mumbles a quick thank you before he flees to the elevator, egear to see taehyung, to be there for him, to shower him with love. All the guys follow him, and they all enter the elevator together.

“Jeongguk you should enter first, your were the last person to be with him, it will make it easier.” Yoongi suggests. Seokjin is texting on his phone, probably updating Jimin about their whereabouts. “I agree” Namjoon says, looking at Jeongguk with soft eyes. Namjoon was really was sorry for his behavior, and he wanted to make it up to both Taehyung and Jeongguk (and Yoongi).

He also truly believes that Jeongguk can provide Taehyung the most comfort and help. Jeongguk nods, thankful that he is allowed to see Taehyung first, and alone. There is so much he wants to tell Taehyung, like how much he still loves him, how he will do everything to win him back. But for now, he will be here for Taehyung, he will help and do everything he can to make Taehyung feel wanted and safe.

Jeongguk goes out of the elevator first, he walk slowly as if he is in trance. He sees the room numbers as he passes. 5,7,9,11 and then, he is standing in front of room 13. as he stands in front of the room, he can feel his legs tremblings and his breath hitching. He doesn’t know why he is so stress, it's just Taehyung. But that's the thing, even after knowing Taehyung for so long, he can still get stressed around him, usually when he doesn’t know how Taehyung will react to things.

Jeongguk felt a hand which he assumed belong to Yoongi ot Hoseok, it was there to calm him down, to provide him comfort. “You don’t need to worry, just enter and be you, that's how my brother loves you the most.” He heard Namjoon’s voice, and he was so surprised, especially to hear him talking about his brother, taehyung loving him. Jeongguk nodded, not able to let out any words. He wanted to thank Namjoon, for saying warm things and trying to help hip although they haven’t spoken for a long time and how much he hurted his younger brother.

Jeongguk reaches for the knob, pressing it, opening the door. He takes a step in, careful and quiet, in case Taehyung is asleep. The first thing he sees is Taehyung laying on the hospital bed, connected to infusion. “Hey Jeonggukie” Taehyung mumbles, a weak smile resting on his face. Jeonggukie? that’s a good sign right? that he is calling him with a nickname. “How are you feeling?” Jeongguk returns the smile, sitting on the chair next to Taehyung’s bed.

“Pretty shitty.” Taehyung admits, scrunching his nose. Jeongguk frowns, not happy to hear that Taehyung is not well, despite being well aware to that fact, he never enjoyed seeing Taehyung sick. “Thank you for taking care of me.” Taehyung thanks him, his famous boxy smile resting on his face. Jeongguk smiles, happy that he could help Taehyung, that taehyung knows how much he cares. “Of course” he mumbles shyly.

“You know, I never actually got to see your final project for the exhibition” Taehyung comments out of the blu, as the thought popped into his mind, and because he doesn't want Jeongguk to worry too much. Jeongguk is in shock to say the leaset. After all the craziness yesterday, finding out the truth, finally apologizing, he never got to mention in their conversation the reason for their breakup. “W-what?” Jeongguk asks, wanting to make sure he heard correctly. Jeongguk feels like he has been waiting for an answer forever, his heart beating so fast.

“The exhibition, the one you got offered a few days after our engagement? the one we fought over because you weren’t as available as I wished?” Taehyung reminds him with a frown and Jeongguk doesn’t know how to respond. Does he? no no no he can’t have false hopes, there are no way.

“Taehyung, where did you take me for our anniversary last year?” Jeongguk asks, and he must make sure that he is not imagining, that there is a chance Taehyung does rememberers. Taehyung looks at him with a questioning face, unsure where did this question came from. “The Netherlands, I took you to the van gogh museum and you took me Giethoorn, to this rowboat place. It was so romantic.” Taehyung answers, and Jeongguk feels like time had stopped. He remembers. Everything.

Jeongguk takes Taehyung hand in his, soft smile on his lips, his eyes becoming glossy from excitement. “You remember.” He whispers gently, surprised, especially after the emotional roller coaster in this past few days, that a happy moment is finally happening. “Wait” Taehyung straights his back, realization falling on him. “I remember?” he asks, his lips curve into a smile, tears forming in his eyes.

“You do tae, all those things, happened in the past two years, you remember” Jeongguk explains excitedly, almost jumping out of his chair. Taehyung’s lips quiver, like it’s all falling down on him, after six month of uncertainty, he remembers. Suddenly Taehyung can remember their break up, their engagement, he remembers his fishing trip with Yoongi and Seokjin, his brothers wedding, Jimin’s dance showcase. He can remember so many lost memories he already gave up on. His heart feel full again. All the holes of lost memories are being filled with the happiness of remembrance.

“I-I” Taehyung starts to shake, Jeongguk rushes to hug him tightly. “The IV” Taehyung laughed through the tears and Jeongguk immediately moves his hand, not letting go of the crying Taehyung. “It’s okay” Jeongguk soothes him, feeling Taehyung’s tears stain his shirt.

Taehyung face nuzzles at the side of Jeongguk neck. Taehyung feels relief washing his body. He can finally start and move on, move forward to a new chapter in his life. Now that he remembers everything, he can put all the puzzle pieces together and make decisions based on his own insight of things, his own memories. “I’m so happy” Taehyung mumbles, his voice shaking.

“I’m happy for you” Jeongguk said, pulling away from the hug sitting back on the chair. Jeongguk feels like all the weight has been off his shoulders. Taehyung can remember, and he’ll understand and maybe even learn to love him again, that is everything he could have wished for and more.

”Thank you for telling the truth, by the way, about the whole fight between us. And just so you know, I meant to come back at the morning i just never made it, I would never leave like that” Taehyung says, looking right into Jeongguk eyes. Jeongguk feels relief hearing it, he always wondered about that, if Taehyung wanted to come back, if he would want to to talk him again. It’s a big reassurance because when Taehyung didn’t come back Jeongguk was devastated, he knew Taehyung would never leave like that, with a letter, without a proper discussion. He let his fears win over him, let his sadness rule, he should’ve known that that Taehyung wasn’t the one who wrote that letter, it was just so him. Jeongguk is extremely happy to know he was right. “I know that now.” He grins, happiness surrounding him.

“Good” Taehyung smiles, takes Jeongguk׳s hand in his. Taehyung wouldn’t mind, having a proper conversation, now that he remembers about how their fights and arguments, about where both of them could have tried more. He wouldn’t mind to try again because after all, a love like his and Jeongguk׳s it’s a once in a lifetime. For Taehyung, there was no else but Jeongguk.

“Should I call your brother?” Jeongguk questions, knowing Taehyung must want to see the others, especially his brother, maybe talk with him and Seokjin. Taehyung thinks for a second. Is he ready to see his brother after storming out so quickly this morning? will they understand why he left? now that he have his memories back, he knows he needs to talk and this time without leaving, but it doesn't need to be now.

”Maybe in a minute, I want to be with you, my savior” Taehyung giggles, understanding how much he really missed Jeongguk’s company.

Jeongguk nods enthusiastically, having a hard time to believe after all this time that Taehyung wants him around. “I don’t think i’ve ever got the chance to thank you for being the best person I know, for always supporting me” Jeongguk said emotionally. He himself doesn’t know where it came from, he just blurted it. Taehyung smiles, his cheeks becoming rosy, he is very flustered.

Since they were teenagers, Taehyung has always been by Jeongguk side. Taehyung continuously supported his dream to be a photographer, even when he wasn't that good in it. Taehyung was not only the love of his life, he was his best friend, one of his biggest believers and the one he desired the most. “Of course I would always support, I love you” Taehyung opened his mouth in shock, not believing what he had just said.

Taehyung face is all red, not believing he confessed his love abruptly like that, after reconciling just two days ago after not seeing each other for six month with lost memories of two years. Jeongguk chokes on air, beginning to cough.

Of course Jeongguk loves Taehyung, he never stopped, not even for a second. No matter how hard he tried, how much he wanted to stop because loving Taehyung without Taehyung being around pained him, he never stopped loving Taehyung with his whole heart. “What?” he coughs, can’t believe what he had just heard. Taehyung loves him. In the present. Love as in he still loves. Not as of I loved you when we dated. It felt surreal, to jeongguk.

Maybe he was so overwhelmed from the surfacing memories he just got back. Maybe because of that, he saying he loves him, because he is confused by all the memories of the sweet moments in their relationship. “I-I don’t know why I said it but I feel it, I can feel my love towards you” Taehyung admits, his eyes looking at everywhere besides Jeongguk.

Jeongguk feels like his skin is on fire. Taehyung loves him, he loves him despite knowing the full truth. Jeongguk have a chance to win him back, he can make up for everything, he the best boyfriend-fiancé and even the best husband. He have a chance to make Taehyung his again.

Jeongguk eyes become glossy, tears of happiness falling from them. He just can’t believe it, Taehyung loves him. It plays in his mind, over and over. He loves me he loves he loves he loves me. “Please don’t cry I-I’m sorry please don’t cry.” Taehyung mumbles, feeling bad for saying it so quickly without thinking, for making Jeongguk cry.

“I’m happy” Jeongguk breath out, a small laugh leaving his mouth, he feels happiness feeling his body knowing he can win Taehyung back, everything can go back to normal. Jeongguk wipes the tears off his eyes and cheeks, feeling embarrassed for crying so hard over one sentence, but the sentence means the world to him.

“Oh” Taehyung whispers in realization, smiling at Jeongguk softly, happy to see Jeongguk happy. In those minutes, Taehyung forgot everything besides Jeongguk. It’s like the accident never happened, like he didn’t pass out just mere minutes ago. Like no one has ever lied to him.

“I love you too” Jeongguk says in a small voice, finally, after so long, confident you say it out loud to Taehyung. After their fight, he realized how long he haven’t told Taehyung that he loved him, it was one of his biggest regrets, not showing his love enough.

“You don’t have to say it out of obligation” Taehyung responds. He doesn’t want Jeongguk to say it just because he said it. He want Jeongguk to mean it, to genuinely feel it.

Jeongguk seem offended by Taehyung’s responds. “I mean it, I never stopped loving you” Jeongguk admits to Taehyung with blushed cheeks. Jeongguk would never lie on such serious matter, especially when it comes to Taehyung.

They hear knocks on the door, probably the rest of the guys who want to enter and see Taehyung. Taehyung sighs, knowing he needs to talk with the rest of the guys. Taehyung takes Jeongguk hand in his. “Promise me we will talk about this later” Taehyung requests, holding Jeongguk hand tightly. All Taehyung want in the moment is to talk to Jeongguk, get back on track and move forward together.

“Of course” Jeongguk smiles and let’s go of Taehyung’s hand. Jeongguk gets up from his chair and leans forward. He leaves a chaste kiss on Taehyung forehead, taking in the moment before backing off once again.

Both of their cheeks are blushed, it feels like they are teenagers all over again, blushing over the smallest interaction with the other. “I’ll go to call your brother” Jeongguk mumbles, smiling one more time at Taehyung, not wanting the moment to be over yet.

✧

Namjoon felt awkward sitting in the hallway next to Yoongi and Hoseok. He haven’t seen them for a long time the couple for a long time, not since the last time they were at the hospital with Taehyung seven month ago. It was bizarre at first, as they parted way because of Taehyung and Jeongguk. Namjoon studied with Yoongi during their bachelor degree in psychology, they were close friends so it was weird for them stopped being friends.

That is what made things so awkward for Namjoon, he used to see Yoongi on a daily basis and now seeing him after so long, he didn’t know what to say. Namjoon noticed how Yoongi's hand was place on Hoseok’s thigh, how he was caressing it softly, giving Hoseok a small, comforting smile. Namjoon can’t imagine how they must feel, being in the hospital again under the same circumstances after not seeing Taehyung himself for a long time. they both seem nervous, maybe nervous for Jeongguk or worried about Taehyung.

“Yoongi…” Namjoon coughs, not knowing what to say, how to start a conversation. Seokjin gives him a questioning look, not understanding why he is starting a conversation suddenly. Namjoon responds with a reassuring look as he tightened his grip in Seokjin's hand.

Yoongi turns his head in surprise, not expecting Namjoon to address him in any way, especially after the other made it clear they can’t stay in touch while Taehyung and Jeongguk are not in speaking terms as it would make them bad friends or in his case brothers.

Needles to say, Yoongi was very hurt by the suggestion. He didn’t understand why would they need to cut ties with each other, they were friends for years and their friendship wasn’t dependent on the younger friends in their group. They could still hang out without them.

“What?” Yoongi asks coldly, trying as hard as he can not show how hurt he is, Hoseok place his hand over Yoongi’s, knowing how hurt he is from this situation.

“I’m sorry” Namjoon apologize, his voice loud and clear. Yoongi and Hoseok turns to him in shock. The last thing any of the expected is an apology. Yoongi was to hurt to think clearly, and he wasn’t exactly in a forgiving mood so he said the next thing.

“You know where you can shove your sorry.” He mumbles, loud enough for Namjoon to hear it. Hoseok looked at Yoongi in surprise, not expecting his boyfriend to react like it. Namjoon felt offended by yoongi’s words. It hurt him, but he deserves it for cutting him away.

“Everyone make mistakes Yoongi, don’t be so rude” Seokjin comments, defending his husband. He knows what Namjoon did is wrong and he’s happy that Namjoon is apologizing, But Yoongi shouldn't be so mean, all Namjoon does is trying to make amends. Yoongi rolls his eyes, not caring one bit about being rude to someone who hurt him and doesn't even acknowledges what he did wrong.

“I can do whatever I want just like you did” Yoongi smirks, not even sharing a glance towards Seokjin and Namjoon. Hoseok tries to calm Yoongi, he knows how hurt Yoongi was after Namjoon asked to stop meeting each other, but this isn’t a place to start a fight in. Namjoon frowns, his head looking down in shame. He knows that he was in the wrong, he knows he should have never suggested that they shouldn’t be friends.

Right when Namjoon opens his mouth, Jimin comes in running out of the elevator. He runs towards them, his cheeks puffy and his eyes red. Jimin looks full of worry as he approaches them. “H-how is he?” Jimin’s sutters, his voice shaky. Jimin faces Namjoon and Seokjin, as he has not noticed Yoongi and Hoseok yet. His hands are on the sides of his waist as breath out.

“He is given fluids, the doctor said he was most likely very overwhelmed” Seokjin shares the information, gesturing Jimin to come and sit next to him. Jimin nods and he sits next to him, Jimin looks around the room, frowning when he sees Hoseok and Yoongi which is he shocked to see here but not Jeongguk, again. Jimin is surprised that Jeongguk isn’t here, but he doesn't want to say anything out of line, especially now that his place in Taehyung’s life is unstable. He just hopes that Jeongguk is here for Taehyung, he probably needs him. The truth is Jimin doesn’t even know if Taehyung would want him here after their conversation last night, but he couldn’t not come, for him, Taehyung is still his best friend.

“Why.. .Are we sitting outside?” Jimin asks, staring at the closed door with the number 13 on it. Hoseok turns around to him, not expecting him to do much as he doesn't deserve to even be here after last time. After Jeongguk forgave him and Yoongi, Hoseok knows how important forgiveness is, but he can’t help and be mad about Jimin.

“Jeongguk is inside and the doctor asked to not overwhelm him even more, so we’re waiting outside” Hoseok informed him, trying to make it clear that this time, Jeongguk is here and he is here to help.

Jimin nods, happy that at least this time Jeongguk is here for Taehyung. Maybe now he will get a chance to apologize to Jeongguk like he promised to Taehyung he would. Jimin wants to apologize to Jeongguk for himself too, he wants to start acting better, to make up for the lies.

There’s no better time than the present to start and try to make everything better. “I hope you all know how sorry I am” Jimin apologizes, his eyes in the floor.

“I now know how much harm I caused you all and especially Jeongguk and Taehyung.” Jimin admits, looking directly at Hoseok and Yoongi, he knows he owns them an apology as well. Yoongi and Hoseok turns their head to Jimin’s direction, actually interested in what he have to say.

Yoongi knows it can be considered hypocritical to listen to Jimin, to be willing to forgive. Jimin was never that close to Yoongi, he was more close to Hoseok and Taehyung. Jimin does look sincerely sorry, and yoongi does appreciate it when people acknowledge their mistakes, something Namjoon didn’t do. Yoongi does want to make up with Namjoon, of course he does, but if Namjoon really was sorry he would’ve come earlier and say he wants to be friends again.

“I know I will need to work hard to earn forgiveness, and I will do it, just give me a chance” Jimin begs, looking at them with teary eyes. Jimin knows he made mistakes in the past, lots of them. Jimin will work hard to change himself, he desperately wants forgiveness from his friends, or his ex - friends.

“That’s good that you know you made a mistake, but there is someone who needs your apology more than us” Yoongi suggests, and Jimin is nodding aggressively as he knows he must apologize to Jeongguk.

Namjoon laughs bitterly. “Why are you willing to forgive him but not me?” He asks, looking at Yoongi sharply. Namjoon knows he was wrong, that he shouldn’t have cut ties with Yoongi but he can’t help but feel offended when Yoongi chooses to be cold to him.

“Because he didn’t hurt me like you did.” Yoongi says and gets up from his chair, not willing to suffer this conversation anymore. He goes down the hallway, he is so mad. Hoseok knows that he should stay in case Jeongguk comes out soon and he will need comfort, but he runs after he boyfriend, not willing to leave him alone.

When both of them are out of sight, Seokjin turns around to Namjoon face him, letting go of his hand. “Was this really the time for it? you’ve done nothing for six month and now out of all time is when you decided to try and talk to him? you knew how hurt he was!” Seokjin rants, annoyed by his husband's actions, cannot believe the poor timing choice. Namjoon hangs his head down, just so confused and annoyed by the situation.

“And your brother is in there! talk to him later, please” Seokjin sighs, leaning his head on the wall. Namjoon understands that it is not the right time, and of course he is worried about Taehyung. It was the first time he saw Yoongi is so long, he felt like it was now or never, he had to apologize.

“That’s it” Jimin mumbles and gets up from his chair. He walks towards the Taehyung’s room. He doesn’t want them all to fight, he knows how stressed they might be, he is himself feel like collapsing from stress. He decides to knock, maybe seeing Taehyung, seeing if he is okay, talking to him, will make everyone more calm.

“Why did you knock?” Seokjin asks, watching Jimin going back to his chair.

Jimin shrugs. “I think that you need to see Taehyung, you’re very stressed” Jimin shares, looking over to Namjoon who’s leg is now tapping anxiously on the floor. Seokjin smiles softly, happy to see Jimin in his caring mood. Namjoon looks up, grateful for Jimin as he wouldn’t knock on the door, too afraid to untutored but he did want, badly, to see Taehyung and make sure he is okay. Especially after what happened in the morning with the way Taehyung left their apartment so quickly.

“Just… I know I made a mistakes, we all did. But please, please stay calm, for Taehyungie” jimin requests thoughtfully. jimin knew that they all made mistakes, most of them starting in himself, but he would try his hardest to make up for everything and help the others move forward from this situation. he believes it would help is personal growth as well.

“Thank you, Jimin.” Namjoon mumbles. Seokjin stroking softly Namjoon’s back, as pissed as he is about his husband behavior, he knows he is stressed and in need of comfort.

Jimin hears a sound and he lifts his head up to see the door with number 13 on it slightly opened, he gets up, Seokjin and Namjoon doing the same. The door opens completely and from it comes out a smiling Jeongguk, he frowns when he notice Jimin’s presence, but the smile is not leaving his face. “Ehh Namjoon” Jeongguk addresses Namjoon, closing the door behind him quietly. “Taehyung is waiting for you.” He tells.

Namjoon immediately grabs Seokjin’s wrist, opening the room door and dragging Seokjin inside, eager to finally see his little brother, to see him and take care of him. Seokjin closes the door behind them, and Jimin is left alone with Jeongguk. They stand awkwardly, Jimin rubs his neck and stares at the closed door while Jeongguk just stands there.

“Emm, where is Yoongi and Hoseok?” Jeongguk asks, breaking the awkward silence. Jimin turns his head to the direction Yoongi and Hoseok went, understanding that Hoseok hasn't calmed yoongi yet.

“Yoongi sort of argued with Namjoon” Jimin says, turning his head back to Jeongguk. The later frowns, knowing how things went down between Namjoon and Yoongi after his fight with Taehyung. Jeongguk always felt bad that Yoongi lost his best friend because of him and his fight with Taehyung, he felt like it was unfair to Yoongi, who is not at fault at all. Of course he is hurt.

“Oh that make sense” Jeongguk murmurs in response, walking past Jimin and sitting on one of the chairs. Jimin sits as well, two sits apart from Jeongguk.

“Do you want me to go and call them?” Jimin asks, avoiding Jeongguk eyes. Jimin wants to apologize, he wants to prove he is sincerely sorry for all the lying and manipulating he did, he just doesn't know where to start, how to say it. Jeongguk contemplative the idea for a second, excited to share the good news with his friends, but for his peace of mind, he wants to talk with Jimin before.

“No, that's okay, I actually prefer to talk to you” Jeongguk confess truthfully. Jimin is taking aback, not expecting from Jeongguk to even want to be around him after everything that happened. Maybe he wants to scream at him, hit him (Although Jimin knows Jeongguk would never), which everything is understandable considering.

“Oh.. W-what do you want to talk about?” Jimin asks quietly, mentally preparing himself for the conversation. Jimin knows that whatever is going to come his way, he deserves it, after all the sadness he cause Jeongguk, he deserves it.

Jeongguk wants Jimin to know how much he have hurt Taehyung, he was surprised to see Jimin in here, considering the conversation he had with Taehyung and how upset Taehyung looked over it. Jeongguk knows how much Jimin cares about Taehyung, he saw it everytime Jimin brought lunch for Taehyung when he couldn’t, everytime Taehyung went to sleep at Jimin’s and came back so happy. Jimin is so supportive of their relationship in the past- which is what made them the most confused.

“Why did you do it? you used to be so supportive of us.” Jeongguk questions, looking at Jimin with sharp eyes.

“After seeing how sad Taehyung was during the wedding planning everytime you argued, and after seeing the broken look in his eyes when he came to my home the same day of your last fight, I felt that as his best friend it my job to help him.” Jimin begins to explain, looking at Jeongguk with worried eyes, not knowing how he will react. But he knows that he is doing a good thing, he is making progress within his heart, trying to set all the lies free and try to become a better person. This is the first step for him.

Jeongguk nods, signaling to Jimin to continue. “So when you didn’t arrive to the hospital, and I understood Taehyung lost his memories, I saw it as a chance to make things better for Taehyung, and impolvly done everything I have” Jimin says. Jeongguk can understand where Jimin is coming from, what he did was wrong on so many levels, and it will take him a long time to earn forgiveness. Jeongguk can try to understand because just like Jimin, will do everything for Taehyung’s happiness.

“Me out of it, you have hurt Taehyung badly” Jeongguk says, not caring as much about what Jimin did to himself, except the letter maybe, he cares more about Taehyung well being at the moment.

“I know, I will do everything in my power to make it better. I know he may never forgive me, but as long as he is happy, I am willing to step away. I know what I did was wrong and I deeply apologize, to you too” Jimin apologizes sincerely, Jimin is considering to go to therapy and work on himself, and he is willing to step away from Taehyung if he will ask him too. Jimin wips the few tears that are now falling from his eyes.

“Okay” Jeongguk whispers, not knowing what to say further. It is a conversion need to be made in the presence of Taehyung in another day. Jeongguk knows Jimin needs to say all of this to Taehyung again, once he will feel better and digest all of the information.

“About the letter you wrote to me as Taehyung, how did you know what to say?” Jeongguk asks, curious how Jimin knew what to write, how to sound like Taehyung. The letter was one of the things who hurted him the most, so he wants to know how he pulled it off.

“Taehyung told me everything about your fight and I have been around Taehyung and you for a long time, enough to know how to mimic Taehyung’s behavior.” Jimin said, his eyes staring at the floor, he is embarrassed by his actions.

“That actually… Make sense.” Jeongguk chuckles quietly, surprised he hasn't thought of it himself. Jimin wipes the tears from his cheeks, his mouth curves into a small smile after hearing Jeongguk chuckle.

"I hope that one day you will be able to forgive me.” Jimin says, looking at Jeongguk. Jimin truly hopes with his all heart Jeongguk will be able to forgive him and move forward, but he will understand if he can’t.

“We will see” Jeongguk gives him a soft smile and leans his head on the wall. Jeongguk sighs, knowing that for now the conversation is over. He gets up from his chair a moment later, walking down the hall, looking for Yoongi and Hoseok. assuming they haven’t gone far, he walks in the halls, hoping to find them soon and tell them the good news.

Jeongguk hear voices which sounds like Hoseok and Yoongi’s voice, so he walks towards those voices. When he sees them at the end of the hall, Hoseok cupping Yoongi’s and kissing him tenderly. By their body language just got to know during the years, Jeongguk can tell Hoseok is trying to comfort Yoongi, to help him. When they break apart, Jeongguk decides it will be okay if he would interrupt now it will be okay, they are probably curious.

“Hey” Jeongguk approaches the couple. They both turn around to face him, surprised to see him. Jeongguk could see the wet from the tears in Yoongi’s eyes but the later wipes them so he assumes it would be the best to ignore it.

“I’m sorry we disappeared” Hoseok smiles apologetically. He doesn't regret for going after Yoongi who clearly needed his help as his boyfriend, and of course Hoseok would do that. He does feel a bit guilty for not being there to help Jeongguk when he most likely encountered Jimin for the first time since the fight with Taehyung, for not being there when he got out of Taehyung’s room after speaking to him.

“It’s okay, I understand” Jeongguk smiles softly towards the two. He truly does understands, he knows the history of the events, he wouldn’t be mad or upset anyways, but he especially can’t now, after his amazing conversation with Taehyung. Yoongi smiles weakly, he assumes that they told him when he noticed their absence, and he is glad that Jeongguk is understanding and not mad. “Thanks” he mumbles.

“So??? what did you two talk about for so long?” Hoseok asked, voice high and curious eyes. Yoongi looks at Jeongguk with curious eyes as well, holding Hoseok’s hand tightly

“He got his memories back!” Jeongguk grins and Hoseok squeals, Yoongi smiles widely as well. Hoseok is jumping up and down, clapping his hands excitedly, then he realized that he is in a hospital, and tones it down. It make both Yoongi and Jeongguk to laugh. It make Jeongguk feel so good to see how happy his friends are for him.

“I'm happy for you, it's a good thing right?” Yoongi asks with a smile, it clearly is a good thing by Jeongguk’s wide smile and shining eyes but Yoongi just wants to make sure that it won't cause problems.

“Of course it’s a good thing! he remembers Jeonggukie and everything they have been through in the past two years, it's a great thing.” Hoseok explains, shoving Yoongi playfully. Jeongguk thinks it’s the best thing that could have happened. Taehyung remembers everything, he remembers their trips, their engagement, their fights. He could now judge for himself the situation.

“He told me he loves me.” Jeongguk blurted with a smile, nervous to see his friends reaction. Yoongi's smile is turning to a confused frown while Hoseok looks at Jeongguk with a questioning face. not really the reaction jeongguk hoped for.

“For real?” Yoongi asks, not sure whether it’s true or not. He knows Jeongguk wouldn’t lie about such sensitive subject and yet, it seems weird that Taehyung would confess his love so early on after getting his memories back. Yoongi doesn’t want Jeongguk to get hurt.

“Believe me, I was surprised as well when he told me” Jeongguk chuckled, trying to lighten up the mood.

“He said that he feels it, that he feels that he loves me, even though he didn’t mean to say it so early, but he loves me” Jeongguk explained, tears of excitement and happiness form in his eyes, it makes him so happy to just think about it. Frankly though he is tired of crying, he wants to be happy. He embrace the tears, knows that it’s normal and that he is just so so happy.

“This is great!” Hoseok sends a warm smile towards Jeongguk. Hoseok is truly happy for Jeongguk, it was one of the things Jeongguk wanted to hear the most, all Jeongguk talked about is how he would give everything to hear taehyung telling him he loves him.

“Yeah, you deserve your happy ending” Yoongi adds, smiling as well. Yoongi knew how important all of this was to Jeongguk, and he promised to himself he would do everything to help Jeongguk and make sure he is happy. Because even though Jeongguk was not mad anymore, he still wanted to make up for his mistakes.

“Thank you guys, I think i’m gonna talk to him again after everyone will see him, maybe even ask him to move in with me again? it could help him I think” Jeongguk tells Hoseok and Yoongi, dragging them back to the waiting chairs in front of Taehyung’s room.

“Do whatever feels right to you, no one knows him better than you and we support you in every decision” Yoongi speaks for both him and Hoseok, believing every word he says. Even if personally he thinks it’s too early, it seems like to the both of them time has never passed, they are both just as in love with each other.

“Thank you hyungs” Jeongguk smiles softly, hugging the both of them. Jeongguk was thankful for his friends support. they may have made a mistake, but they did it thinking it’s for the best, and have always supported him despite their lies, all they ever wanted was for him to be happy, and he knows that.

✧

Taehyung like to believe that the conversation he had with with Seokjin and Namjoon went good. He explained to them why he stormed out during their conversation that morning, that he was very overwhelmed and needed to be alone. He also told him about receiving his memories back, it brought both of them to tears, they seemed truly happy for him. The couple congratulate him and promised they will do whatever they can to gain his trust again, that they will help him with everything and support him in every decision he makes. Taehyung was thankful for their recent honesty and promised he would try to forgive and move on. Namjoon assured him that there were no pressure and they will give him how much time that he needs.

His conversation with Hoseok and Yoongi was way weirder. He haven't seen the both of them since a few days before his accident, so he didn’t really know what to say. The both of them were rather sweet, taehyung found out they knew about the conversation he had earlier with jeongguk. They said they support the both of them and they were very happy that he got his memories back. Yoongi apologized in the name of both of them, saying they were very sorry that they had taken part in all the lying.

Taehyung was happy that they apologized but he quickly let them know that it is all okay because if Jeongguk forgave them when he was the main person to get hurt by them, taehyung had no problem at all. Hoseok immediately said he would love that once taehyung is out of the hospital, taehyung happily agreed, saying he can’t wait.

The hardest conversion of them all was the conversation with Jimin. He was surprised that he came but at the same time he was not surprised at all. Jimin was always worried about him, and nothing will ever stop him for making sure taehyung is okay. Taehyung was grateful that Jimin kept his distance, Jimin sat far from him, explaining he only came to make sure he is okay and he will leave id taehyung asks him to.

There was nothing in the world Taehyung wanted more than to be able to forgive Jimin, his best friend, right away, but he can’t. He explained that to Jimin, saying it won’t be as simple as he initially thought. Jimin told him that he understands and will do everything to make it easier for Taehyung, that he would do everything Taehyung wants. What surprised Taehyung the most was when Jimin shared that he was thinking to go to therapy. Taehyung obviously encouraged him, telling Jimin he is very proud of him for understanding his own mistakes and trying to be better.

After all of those conversations, all Taehyung wanted was to be with Jeongguk, make up for the lost time. Taehyung enjoyed seeing the rest of the guys and making sure they are all in the same mind set, but all he wanted was to be with Jeongguk.

The same Jeongguk came in a few minutes after Jimin left with a bag of McDonalds and a big smile. Taehyung straighten his back on the bed, sitting, leaning on the pillow. Taehyung smiles at Jeongguk who sits on the chair near taehyung, putting the bad on his lap. “Hungry?” he asks, looking at Taehyung while getting a burger out of the bag.

“Yes!” Taehyung groans, snatching the burger out of Jeongguk hand, opening the paper around it quickly. jeongguk laughs, opening the paper around the burger, taking a big bite. Taehyung smiles to Jeongguk while he takes a bite from his own burger.

“Bon appétit baby” jeongguk says with a smile. Taehyung stops mid bite, shocked by the pet name. Jeongguk realized what he said, almost choking on the burger, wiping his mouth with a napkin.

“Oh my god, i'm so sorry I shouldn't have said that” Jeongguk apologized, terror in his eyes, afraid that he ruined everything, that he made Taehyung uncomfterble.

“It’s okay, I missed it, especially now” Taehyung gives jeongguk a reassuring smile, taking Jeongguk hand in his free hand, holding it tightly. jeongguk smiles at him, astounded of the fact that taehyung likes it, that it is okay. It's all still surreal to him after all this time apart, when he almost gave up on the two of them.

“When I said I love you, I meant it. For me, it is like time has not passed, I missed you, and I hope we can try again” Taehyung confessed, putting his burger down. Jeongguk does the same, getting up from his chair. He cups Taehyung’s cheeks, his face closing to Taehyung’s and suddenly their lips touching, Taehyung holds Jeongguk. They kiss passionately, making up for all the lost kisses. Jeongguk feels that his body is on fire, and he can’t stop kissing Taehyung, the kiss is sweet yet full of passion, they both missed it so much, the touch of the other’s lips.

When they both need air, they break apart, they giggle, smiling. Taehyung leans over again, kissing jeongguk once again quickly, can’t get enough of that. Jeongguk is the once to break the kiss, his stomach rumbling. “let’s eat and get back to kissing?” Jeongguk asks, blushing like a teenager. Taehyung nods, grabbing the burger again, biting the burger again.

They eat in a comfortable silence, both of them hungry. When they both finished eating, Jeongguk offers Taehyung wipes while he goes to the bathroom to wash his hands. When he comes back from the bathroom, Taehyung is laying on the bed. “Will you come lay next to me?” Taehyung asks with a small voice.

“Of course” Jeongguk nods happily, walking towards Taehyung’s bed. Taehyung scotts over, making place for Jeongguk. Jeongguk lays next to him, feeling closer to Taehyung than he ever had. taehyung smiles, laying his head on jeongguk chest, just like old times when they laid on their bed, his head on Jeongguk chest and they were just talking, he enjoyed those moments the most.

For the first time in a long while, Jeongguk felt at complete ease. Laying next to the love of his life, knowing that they love each other, that they can be together again, nothing makes him happier. Jeongguk trailed his fingers over taehyung’s body, aching to touch him, smell him, feel close to him. Taehyung smiles because now he is laying next to Jeongguk and it feels like there isn’t any worry on the world, like he isn’t in the hospital, like he never lost his memories. it may all happen fast, but it all feel so neutral.

“I would never let go of you again” Jeongguk says, kissing Taehyung’s hand. Taehyung gets up, leaning to kiss Jeongguk, feeling addicted to his lips. Oh, how much he missed feeling this kind if closeness, even from before the fight, now he remembers that with all the stress from the wedding and the project, they barely had any dates or some really romantic moments. “I know” he whispers back after laying back on the bed, his head resting again on Jeongguk chest.

“Would you be opposed to move back in with me? I know we just met again but I just.. missed your presence so so much, I really love you baby, I never stopped” Jeongguk asks with a confession and Taehyung’s eyes lit, he can see in Jeongguk’s eyes the happiness, the need to be close at all times, he wanted the same. To Jeongguk, it feels like time has not passed, he still feels just as in love with Taehyung, he feels its right to share it with him.

“I would love that” Taehyung says, holding Jeongguk hand tightly, not letting go of it while the later pulls the covers over them. The both of them want to stay in this moment forever, where the only thing exciting is love.

Everything is going to be better now, they will rebuilt their relationship, move in together and try to move on, continue with their life while having each other. They will learn to forgive and forget, they will be better from now on. But Jeongguk is not scared, he knows that as long as he has Taehyung by his side, he can do anything. “I love you so much” Jeongguk whispers tenderly, kissing Taehyung’s forehead while the other is already closing his eyes, the comfortness helps him to fall asleep.

“I love you too” Taehyung whisper back, half asleep, his lips curve into a small smile. And Jeongguk holds taehyung, on his way to sleep to. Jeongguk goes to sleep happy, ready to begin again with Taehyung, to prove he is better than before, he will shower Taehyung with love while still working, he can do this. He will do everything for Taehyung, and Taehyung would do everything for him.

“Would you take me to the gallery?” Taehyung suddenly whispers, smiling softly at the thought of going to the gallery, their special place but this time with Jeongguk.

“I would take you everywhere you desire” Jeongguk answers tenderly. It made him happy, the gallery. Their happiest moments were in the gallery, he hoped they could go there right when Taehyung will be out of the hospital.

Jeongguk is looking forward to make all his dreams with Taehyung come true, take him everywhere, kiss him, hold him. Love him. They can have it all, because no matter what, they love each other.

They love each other, and it is enough.

the end.