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He was tired, well they were all tired, and understandably so, today had been a fucking day.
Leo now layed in bed, and even though he was just talking about how tired he was he couldn't seem to go the sleep, tossing and turning to no avail.
So what he does sometimes is make up a story about some characters, or if that doesn't work and he's feeling brave, think about the day's earlier events.
So why not think about today's events right? Oh and when Draxum threw him off a roof! I mean it was kinda funny. How was he even able to hold on by his own mask tails? Probably by sheer will or something. And honestly when Raph said that Draxum was lying he had a small sliver of hope. For less than a second
Because Draxum wasn't lying. And Leo doesn't blame Raph for it.
Raph probably does though, maybe in the morning or whatever Leo will assure him that it isn't his fault.
And then Leo started falling.
You know its different then watching it happen on tv surpise to no one
But you really don't think about it till it happens
And the absolute terror when it does.
Leo was falling. He was falling so damn fast.
He heard that sometimes in trauma you dont really remember what happened. Only the aftermath and/or how absolutely terrifying it was.
But Leo remembers everything.
He remembers hearing the wind just rip past him as he was falling, he remembers hearing Raph yell, which assured him a bit actually.
When you fall you really cant see much, so in all honesty Leo just thought nobody was seeing him, or coming to get him.
Was this traumatic? Then Leo kind of laughs at himself. He was thrown of a damn roof! Of course it was traumatic!
But he seems fine so maybe it wasn't that bad?
He remembers fearing for death and then accepting it all quite fast. Not really how he would plan to go out but nothing that can really be done about it ya'know?
Leo remembers for a glimpse seeing Raph fall too, and he thinks he felt a grim dread amongst everything else going on.
He and Raph were going to die, leaving Donnie and Mikey to themselves, oh and with dad but-
Would they be fine? Can they take care of themselves one their older brothers are gone?
Raph's yells had gotten louder, at some point Leo turned back around and saw so much red coming for him.
For a millisecond he thought he'd hit the ground already, and that was his-
Leo took in a sharp breath, snapping his eyes open and realizing that he completely tensed up. His breathing was going out faster then he last recalled, and his hand had been completely gripping his blanket while the other one was just squeezing itself.
So much for trying to sleep
His eyes darted around in the dark room, okay so he was panicking whats that thing Raph taught him to do?
Oh yea name five things you can see.
Well that one was going to be a challenge.
Leo got out of bed, not without stumbling first, and quickly turned on the light. He blinked rapidly to get use to it while one hand was tapping at his chest and the other squeezing the bottom side of his shirt.
Ok five things you can see Leon five things...
His bed, pretty disheveled from his failed attempt at sleep, his shelf that holds a Jupiter Jim figurine, His odachi laying on the floor, he remembers just dropping it after coming in the room once they got back, bone tired from earlier's events. Alright two more things, he spots a vent near the ceiling, and a Jupiter Jim poster!
Alright 4 things you can feel.
Leo's fingers, who never left the hem of his shirt begin rubbing it, he reaches his other hand up and touches his cheek, it feels a bit buzzy, maybe it's his hand still slightly shaking or the aftermath of his near panic attack. Leo walks up his bed and grabs his blanket which was halfway on the floor, the softness of it comforting him as he rubbed it with one hand. Ok one more thing... ah!
Leo walks over to his Jupiter Jim poster and just puts a hand over it, yep thats poster paper alright.
Leo softly snickers at it, he doesn't know why its funny, nothing about really made it funny, maybe its just the randomness of him just plopping a hand right on top of Jupiter Jim's face, if someone came in and saw him he would look pretty weird.
Oh yea he was doing a thing. Now for three things you can hear.
Well one prominent thing is Splinter's snoring, coming from the vent Leo had mentioned earlier. The second thing was a lost quieter, and could quickly get over-powered by any loud noise, but if you listen closely, you can hear the sound of water dripping and running, some may find it aggravating to deal with but Leo finds it comforting. Even if so muched change he can always count on the sewer to keep doing it's thing. Something constant among the almost daily chaos. Leo's hand was still on the poster, and at some point he began tapping his fingers on it, creating a small rythmic sound. Soooo that seems to count as a third thing.
Alright two things you can smell.
Leo took in a large breath, smelling in the sewers, he smells well- the sewer. It smells dirty and watery but Leo has lived here long enough to get used to the smell. Leo smells somthing else and realizes its comimg from his shirt, when did he first put this to sleep? Probably at least a week man he should probably put this in his hamper in the morning.
Well whether its nasty or not that was two things so Leo can now move on to the next and final thing.
One thing he can taste.
Well his mouth tastes pretty stale, he hasn't eaten much since before the whole thing at Big Mama's hotel, which was right around sunset. But he can taste the slight sweetness left in his mouth from some candy he ate on the way home, he couldn't stomach much food at the time but still needed a pick me up to why not a lollipop from his pouch?
Leo takes in a deep breath and looks a around his room. He's here. He's not falling he's not in Big Mama's Hotel or anywhere else. He's here in his room in his home.
He breathes out, albiet just slightly shaky, but he feels better and more present so thats good. Leo pushed himself off the wall, remembering just how tired he was and slumped back in bed. He somewhat curls in on himself while getting comfortable with his blanket.
And maybe he didn't go to sleep right away. But eventually he did because he then wakes up to the sound of Mikey making breakfast.
He considers getting up, but he finds himself too comfortable in bed. So why not sleep in for a little bit? He thinks he deserves it.