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I love you " eren whispers his voice barely reaching my ears but I still feel my heart skip a beat , I can feel myself blushing
" I had loved u for so long I want to... ah I want to go on a date with u mikasa pls."
MIKASA...MIKASA......
and just like the spell broke I find myself in eren bedroom as eren does his nervous walk around the room
I feel my heart drops ears still ringing with mikasa's name .
"Ahh how does this sound armin do u thing she will say yes? " Eren looks at him his eyes glisten with hope looking for his best friend confirmation.
Ooh God how I hated these words best friend I wanted to be more to him so much more and maybe I could have been but....
"Yea eren just be confident and be clear about what u want to say she will definitely agree . But remember if not don't push her ok" I gave him a sincere smile but inside I felt like dying .
My best friend since childhood my crush was gonna confess to my other best friend after pinning for her for so long . But I wish he didn't I wish he would would look at me the way he looks at her . I wish he would smile at me love me like he loves her .
I am selfish I thought they are my best friend and were in love with each other since I remember so why why does it hurts so much . Why can't i take this
I feel like I am burning with every seconds that passes it increases and I don't know how long can I hold it in. I....I
"Oi armin are u listening " eren voice brings me back to the reality I stuttered as I reply to him "yeah ah I am " I smile back at him which makes him frown .
Alarms bells rings in my minds as I thing of an excuse
" oh no eren I should leave I told Connie I will meet him at the park today " I start to pack up things as eren holds my writs . My heart skip a beat I look into his green eyes feeling myself getting lost in them
"Are u ok ? " He looks worried oh how I want to kiss that worry away but I just can't so I just smile at him as I move my hands away still missing his touch .
"I should leave all the best eren " with those words I run as far as I could feeling my vision getting blurred as I ran and ran until I reach my home .
I slam the door shut . Dragging myself down I put my head between by knee .
STOP STOP STOP IT stop falling they are happy what else do I need it s ok you should be happy they are your friend they will finally have what they deserve and she is so much better than you
STRONGER
PRETTIER
He is better off with her . So stop falling pls.
I hear the Door open but I couldn't care less about it .
the pain in my chest was just too much to worry about who saw me
"Armin!!!"I hear dad voice as I feel his arms around me " what happened is somthing wrong coconut . "
"I...sniff..sniff.... I loved him Dada I loved him so much I...I" started crying again
"Oh coconut shhhh it gonna be ok . "
I feel dad rocking me back and fro as he trues to subside by cries but all I feel is this unbearable pain and a I wish that no one can fulfill a wish to be loved .
A wish it was me