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“h-hello. oh, is this working? yes- i think- alright, i think this is how voicemails work. okay, tony- hold on, let me just- let me start over again. *inhales* you got this, rogers.
hello, tony. i hope you have been doing well, at least better than me, i haven't been doing well, things are really hectic right now, we are on the run again. we went out for lunch the other day and some people recognised us, i admit, we hadn't put on the best disguises, we were all just wearing hoodies and caps, i would say that it was perfect but i was clearly proven wrong. it’s getting tiring to keep running and moving, i guess when you had a home, you never have to worry about this until you lost your home. and you know, without you, i'm so lonely.
i just- i wish you’re here- i- enough about me, this is about you. i know i gave you the phone to call me when you need me and honestly, i wasn't expecting you to call. and i'm not sure why i've been waiting for your call every night but i can't wait no more. so- i thought i'll take things into matter myself and i know- i- you might be expecting that i'm calling you for a favor but i’m not- i just- i- i just wanted to call you- just want to know if you- you are doing fine. because i haven't and i- i probably sound like i wish you aren't doing well like me but in all honesty, if there is any left of that in me- if you still believe me, that is, i really hope you are doing fine.
this is getting a bit long, i'll just get to the point. i hope that you are doing fine and that everything is going well for you, it's been too long since we have spoken, from the last fallout and how we- no, i hurt you, i’m sorry and i wish you have- i know this is a bit much to ask from you, but i really wish that you have forgiven me, even a little bit, even just one percent. and even if it's late, well, when have i never been late? i'm a man out of time but for you, i’ll give you all of my time, i'll treat you better, i'll see you better so please, i'm always one call away.
i- i swear i had more to say to you when i planned to do this but now that i am actually talking to you, or rather recording this for you to listen to later, nothing is really coming out right. but i got to let you know, you got my heart like it’s yours. so i had hoped to make it up to you, some way or another because that's how much i had regretted hurting you back in siberia. and i don't think it's ever possible for me to do that but i still hope that maybe one day, if i am not too selfish for asking you of this, but i hope that we can still visit the smithsonian museum together, watch the truman show together or spend the sunset at the top of the avengers tower together. we can be all we need, promise i won't take you for granted.
and in the end, all i can only do is apologise, i'm sorry- i- i don't want to let you go, i can't think of being alone. what am i supposed to do? and i just really wish you are here with me right now, i'm sorry for ruining that, for you and for us. i'm sorry, tony. i still love you, so dearly. darling, i'll keep dialling your number in hopes that one day, you will pick up my call. i'll keep waiting for you, for us.”