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It starts with an email—
JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]>
Hello!
We are sending this email to inform you that our artist, Agust D, would like to invite you for a video call—
Wait— what? Did Jeongguk read that right?
No, no. It doesn’t start with an email. It actually begins with a comment—
@user-bts61307 · 4 hr ago
Hello, I’m JinHit Entertainment.
My comments are getting filtered out ☹️
So, I’m commenting using a different username.
We have sent an email that is provided in the profile information.
We’ll be waiting for your reply.
@JinHitEnt · 4 hr ago
I’m here! 😊
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It’s almost mid morning, and Jeongguk is sitting on his chair at the dining table. He is still in his pajamas while he attempts to eat the breakfast that halmeoni prepared while she waits for him to wake up earlier. Usually, this time around is when he helps her reply to the nice comments she received from the videos Jeongguk posted for her.
Today isn’t anything different, though halmeoni is a little more excited since Jeongguk uploaded her latest video last night, and most of the time, the couple of thousand followers that she has leaves comments that absolutely makes her day.
Jeongguk is scrolling through his phone for something he can share to halmeoni when he notices that most of the comments are made up of people sharing a link, and— the video has— holy shit, the video has almost a million views?! What in the world is happening?
Are they getting canceled?
The thought is a little ridiculous if Jeongguk thinks about it more. But— it isn’t impossible either even if the videos are nothing but praises for Agust D. The internet is a strange place, after all.
For a few months now, Jeongguk has been posting videos of halmeoni talking about the rapper artist Min Yoongi, also known as Agust D. The channel is connected to Jeongguk’s social channels. Before he started posting halmeoni ’s videos, he only had a handful of short videos there, mostly travel vlogs of the few places he visited. He rarely even shows his face.
His halmeoni ’s first official video in his channel is when she listened to Agust D’s latest album for the first time. And really, they recorded it just for fun. Jeongguk has been a fan of Agust D for a long time now—ever since he heard Agust D’s first album a couple of months after the release.
Meanwhile, halmeoni has become familiar with Agust D as the years pass by. She’s used to hearing Jeongguk play his songs, and rap along with them. But then— it’s when she heard Snooze that she starts asking about Agust D to Jeongguk.
“ Halmeoni ,” Jeongguk mutters while he stares at the number of views on the video. “The video last night got so many views.”
“Oh, did it?” Halmeoni says, looking up from the scarf that she is knitting. It has become her hobby lately, picking it up just a few months ago. She likes sending them to the ones that always attempt to chat with her in the comments. “Did the kids message me? I was planning to ask Yuna-ssi what her favorite color is, so I can knit a scarf for her. She’s a very lovely child, isn’t she?”
“I’ll ask,” Jeongguk offers her a quick smile before finally giving in and clicking the link that everyone is sharing in the comments.
There is a short silence when Jeongguk sees the comment that is most probably the reason why the video got so many views. His hold on his phone almost loosens, suddenly feeling his heartbeat pick up and quickly steal the air in his lungs.
Hello, I’m JinHit Entertainment. My comments are getting filtered out, so I’m commenting using a different username—
Is he— did he— wait, is this right?
Jeongguk quickly glances at his halmeoni before looking back at his phone again, unsure if his brain is playing tricks on him. Did he read too much fan fiction last night?
We have sent an email that is provided in the profile information. We’ll be waiting for your reply.
Jeongguk doesn’t know what to think. It’s the middle of the morning on his day off. He pretty much deactivated his brain cells for the weekend, planning to just spend it with his halmeoni and maybe run some errands. Getting a comment from some big entertainment company asking him to check his email is not on his to-do list today.
So he goes ahead and opens his email app.
And— there . There really is an email from JinHit Entertainment! What the f—
“What made you frown like that, soondoongie ?” Halmeoni suddenly asks, stealing Jeongguk’s attention from his phone. “Are there bad comments?”
Jeongguk immediately shakes his head and offers halmeoni a smile. She may not be someone who likes to get her hands on technology, but she understands that there are unpleasant people on the internet.
“No, ah, I’m just checking my emails, halmeoni ,” He explains, taking a deep breath immediately before returning his attention to his phone. He feels his halmeoni ’s hand patting his shoulder before continuing to her task.
Instantly, Jeongguk feels better compared to his anxious state earlier.
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JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]> Sat, Mar 16, 8:34AM
Hello!
We are sending this email to inform you that our artist, Agust D, would like to invite you for a video call.
It came to our attention the positivity and enthusiasm that you always show on your videos, and when our artist Agust D saw them, he immediately requested a way to thank you for your support.
Additionally, we would love to send official merchandise.
You may let us know your available dates for a video call, and provide us an address that we can send the merchandise to if you would like.
If you prefer not to accept our offers, we understand.
Please kindly let us know.
Warm regards,
Kim Namjoon
JinHit Entertainment
Jeongguk reads it a couple more times. He doesn’t know what to think.
He looks at his halmeoni. She’s humming a song that’s suspiciously in the tune of People from D-2 while still knitting. It’s also a slow day for her as Jeongguk is on his day off, and their lunch isn’t prepared until a little later. Jeongguk usually cooks for them on weekends while he encourages his halmeoni to do other things she’d like.
Halmeoni and harabeoji are the ones that raised Jeongguk ever since he lost his parents in an accident when he was younger. Sometimes, Jeongguk thinks it’s unfair that they lost their only son so soon. They did their best in raising Jeongguk, and he will always be grateful for it. When they lost harabeoji just a few years ago, Jeongguk took it to himself that he’s going to make halmeoni happy.
“Halmeoni,” Jeongguk calls, immediately smiling when she meets his eyes. “What do you think about meeting Agust D?”
Slowly, like the sun finally breaking through the dawn, halmeoni smiles back at him.
Yeah, Jeongguk will do anything to make her happy.
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Jeon Jeongguk <[email protected]> Sat, Mar 16, 10:21AM
Hi there,
Thank you so much for reaching out! My halmeoni would definitely love to meet Agust D-nim. She’s been a huge fan, and she likes to talk about him.
Please let me introduce myself. I’m Jeon Jeongguk, and I’m usually the one who handles the “behind the scenes” of her videos. She loves making them because, like I mentioned, she likes talking about Agust D-nim. She gets a lot of stuff from fellow fans whenever she joins events, but she doesn’t have a lot of official merchandise. I’m sure she would love to receive them. Please see our address below. I’ll also add my contact number if it’s needed for the shipping.
Address: Gyeonggi-do, Gwacheon-si, South Korea
Contact number:+82 1234 5678
Please let me know if there’s anything that I need to provide, or if there’s anything that I can help with. I just want this to be very memorable for my halmeoni.
Best,
Jeon Jeongguk
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JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]> Mon, Mar 18, 8:21AM
Hi Jeongguk-ssi,
We appreciate your quick response! We’ll make sure to send the merchandise as soon as possible. We will also let you know once the package has been shipped. May we ask for her complete name as well?
Your halmeoni seems very lovely. We have seen her videos, and it’s safe to say that our team (and the others!) appreciate her for always speaking highly of Agust D. He also enjoyed watching halmeoni talk about his music, and how he’s as cute as a cat (but don’t tell him we said that—he gets all pouty. He secretly likes it, though!). We are sure your halmeoni and Agust D will have a lovely time together.
With this, would it be possible for them to do the video call this upcoming Saturday? Let us know if you and halmeoni prefer a different day.
Warm regards,
Kim Namjoon
JinHit Entertainment
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Jeon Jeongguk <[email protected]> Mon, Mar 18, 6:48PM
Hello Namjoon-ssi,
Apologies for a late revert this time as I was working.
My halmeoni ’s name is Park Yeonghui. And thank you for your kind words for her. I’ll make sure to mention how she makes others happy. She’ll love that.
Saturday is okay! Let me know what time it will work best for Agust D.
Best,
Jeon Jeongguk
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JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]> Wed, Mar 20, 1:49PM
Hi Jeongguk-ssi,
We sent the package for halmeoni already. Please expect it within the day, and let me know when it arrives.
Additionally, I have confirmed with Agust D about his schedule, and he would prefer to meet halmeoni around 2PM.
Will this work?
Warm regards,
Kim Namjoon
JinHit Entertainment
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Jeon Jeongguk <[email protected]> Wed, Mar 20, 7:08PM
Hi Namjoon-ssi!
Hope you’re having a good week so far.
We received the package already, and halmeoni was very happy with all of it. She loved the signed albums from Agust D-nim, and already asked me to get protective cases for them. We actually did an unboxing—mostly for the memories, but I just want to ask if it’s okay that we post it as well? Although the channel has grown a little more after you have commented in the video, halmeoni likes to chat with the friends she made there.
I’ll also understand if you would prefer to keep this between us. I’m still grateful for the favor that you and Agust D-nim are giving to my halmeoni .
Before I forget, 2PM is perfect!
Best,
Jeon Jeongguk
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JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]> Fri, Mar 22, 10:08AM
Hi Jeongguk-ssi,
Thank you for being cooperative and making this easy.
Yes, you can definitely post a video of halmeoni unboxing the package. I can also assume that everyone are expecting for some sort of update, and it would be nice to share halmeoni ’s happiness. Agust D would also love to see her reaction, so the video will be nice for him as well.
Lastly, can you provide me with your Katalk ID?
Warm regards,
Kim Namjoon
JinHit Entertainment
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Jeon Jeongguk <[email protected]> Fri, Mar 22, 6:19PM
Hi Namjoon-ssi,
Thanks for that! I’ll make sure to upload it soon.
My ID is jeon.j97.
Best,
Jeon Jeongguk
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Ever since Jeongguk became a fan of Agust D, he never anticipated that there would come a time where he would be setting up a space with good lighting for a camera. But here he is, making sure that the camera is at the right distance and the light isn’t too glaring.
And it’s nice. Especially because he’s doing it for his halmeoni.
“Soondoongie, come try this chamchijeon and tell me how it tastes,” Halmeoni calls before entering Jeongguk’s room. On her hand is a piece of tuna pancake that’s already being offered to him. “Did you write down the recipes? I know Agust D-ssi won’t be able to come taste this, but I hope he can give the recipes a try. I’ll just show him what they look like!”
“ Halmeoni—” Jeongguk tries, but the words come out muffled from the food he’s chewing. “It’s delicious— but— aren’t you supposed to be getting ready?”
Halmeoni places her hand on her chest. “Oh, yes. Do you think I should wear the shirt from his last concert? Or maybe the one from his latest album?”
“Maybe you can wear the one from the album? Since you like that a lot.”
“Yes, that’s true,” Halmeoni nods. “I’ll get ready quickly now. Oh, I’m so nervous, soondoongie!”
Jeongguk can’t help the smile that’s been stuck on his face for a while now. From the time that he shared to halmeoni about the video call, she has been nothing but happy and cheerful. Although halmeoni is a ray of sunshine personified, the excitement is enough to make her shine brighter.
It’s only what Jeongguk wants. For so long, his grandparents raised him and did their best. They tried to give him everything he could ever ask for, and showered him with so much love that even if Jeongguk doesn’t have his parents with him, he can still feel them through halmeoni and harabeoji . Although it’s a little regretful that they recently lost harabeoji before Jeongguk can spoil him the way he tries for halmeoni now, he’s still forever grateful.
“Soondoongie, come and look,” Jeongguk hears his halmeoni call from her bedroom just beside Jeongguk’s. “What do you think?” She asks when Jeongguk arrives at her bedroom. “Do I look–what’s that–cool?”
The words and halmeoni’s attempt for a cool pose pulls laughter from Jeongguk, unable to stop when his own halmeoni is laughing as well.
“Of course, halmeoni. I think you look very awesome!”
Halmeoni smiles, the one that is small yet so gentle and just for Jeongguk. “Thank you, soondoongie.”
It only takes a short while for Jeongguk to set halmeoni up in front of the camera. He already prepared everything earlier, and everything should be in good condition. They’re a little early from the agreed time, but it’s more on the nerves that woke them up earlier energized and excited.
And now, Jeongguk is behind the camera while halmeoni is in front of it, waiting for the call to finally connect.
He can feel his heart trying to jump out of his ribs.
Jeongguk tries to breathe.
“Hello, Yeonghui halmeonim.”
Jeongguk is sure that his heart stopped for a whole minute at the voice that came from the speaker of the phone. He can’t even see him from where he is sitting, but he knows that voice. It rapped and sang to him for years, he listened to him talk about mundane things and his interests and everything in between.
He’ll recognize Min Yoongi anywhere.
“Aigoo– Agust D-ssi, hello!” Halmeoni startles a little, but ends up laughing. “You surprised me!”
Jeongguk hears Yoongi laugh softly, and he can already see in his mind’s eye how Yoongi’s lips pull at the corners, adoration kissing the side. He can’t help the smile that grows on his lips.
“Ah, I’m sorry, halmeonim. I’m just excited to see you. How have you been doing?” Yoongi asks.
“I’m doing well. How about you? Are you eating well?” Halmeoni replies.
“Yes, halmeonim, I’m eating well and doing good.”
“That’s good. I know your job can be demanding, but you must take good care of yourself, Agust D-ssi.”
“I will, halmeonim. And please, just call me Yoongi,” Yoongi says. “I saw that you enjoyed my last album. You never mentioned in the video which is your favorite, though.”
Jeongguk giggles softly, finding the interaction nice. Although they’re still a little formal, he can already see his halmeoni itching to talk about various things. She has been very curious about the idol industry nowadays, stating that it’s so different from before.
“Ah, Yoongi-ya. You never ask a fan what their favorite song is. It is one of the hardest things to answer,” Halmeoni answers, and Jeongguk tries not to laugh out loud because it’s literally the same thing he told her when she asked what is his favorite.
Yoongi laughs. “Spoken like a wise person, halmeonim. Honestly, if you ask me which song is my favorite, I don’t think I can answer as well. I love them all in my own way, you know?”
The two continue to chat as Jeongguk listens, patiently waiting as they have all sorts of topics and have strayed away from all the formality. Halmeoni has started talking about how Jeongguk plays Yoongi’s songs ( “My soondoongie likes you a lot, and he’s the one who introduced you to me.” ), and Yoongi asks so much question while sounding so interested ( “Isn’t it a turn off that I curse a lot in some songs? I know some older people don't like that.” ), to halmeoni sharing about the food she and Jeongguk prepared earlier ( “My soondoongie is such a good cook, Yoongi-ya. He helped prepare food that I think you would like. I’ll ask him to send it to you.” ), and finally—
“Halmeonim, I’m curious. Is it true that there are pictures of me posted in random places at your home?”
Jeongguk almost chokes at the air he’s breathing at the sudden question. He tries his best to hide his cough, and stares at his halmeoni with wide eyes. How does Yoongi know about that? Halmeoni probably just mentioned it once from an old video!
“Ah,” Halmeoni chuckled. “It is true, Yoongi-ya! My Gukkie started posting your pictures at random places to make me smile. There’s even a photo of you stuck in our fruit basket! He says the tangerines make you happy—”
“Halmeoni— ” Jeongguk tries to whisper loudly. He knows no one can see him, but he is sure that his face is dusted in red from the warmth he can feel all over him.
“They make me very happy— you know what?” Halmeoni starts to stand, so Jeongguk immediately pushes himself up before he can even react. “I’ll show them to you. Hold on for a moment, Yoongi-ya— soondoongie , how do you get this phone? I want to show Yoongi-ya the pictures.”
Jeongguk wants the ground to swallow him. It’s not that he’s embarrassed with what he did. He’s actually proud of that idea. Halmeoni always laughs loudly when she finds a photo in the most random places like the lid of their rice dispenser, or at the corner of their television. He just didn’t expect that Yoongi would see them.
Unfortunately, the ground remains intact and Yoongi is even encouraging halmeoni that it will be fun to see them.
Jeongguk breathes deeply, a poor attempt at calming himself. He’s not sure how they got from here. He didn’t even expect that it would take more than five minutes for them to chat, but it’s been like—what—almost half an hour?
“Hold on, halmeoni,” Jeongguk mutters, feeling proud because his voice is steady even if he feels otherwise. “Uhm— Sorry, Agust D-ssi— Min Yoongi hyungnim, I’m gonna have to show my face…” He calls out, not wanting to surprise the other.
Even though Jeongguk’s body is already moving, he feels like floating while shaking, a little flustered and overwhelmed.
No one told him that he’s going to see Yoongi. And Yoongi will see him as well, no matter how short it is.
Wait— does he look okay?
Fu—
“This is my soondoongie, Yoongi-ya,” Halmeoni proudly states while she raises his hand to pat Jeongguk’s hair when he’s finally close to her. “He’s very smart and sweet!”
“Ah— hello—” Jeongguk bows quickly on the camera. He hopes that his burning face is not obvious. “Please excuse me while I take the phone for my halmeoni.”
“Sure, of course!” Yoongi replies.
It’s only when Jeongguk stands straight and moves closer to take the phone that he finally sees Yoongi.
Sometimes, Jeongguk thinks that his brain should be studied. He knows that his responses have explanations from Psychology and all that, but the warmth and happiness that quickly spreads inside him like sunshine whenever he sees Yoongi still startles him.
Yoongi just makes him happy.
“Oh,” Yoongi breathes out softly, then he steals Jeongguk’s breath away with a smile. “Hello. You must be Gukkie.”
Never in Jeongguk’s life did he imagine Yoongi calling him with the nickname that his grandparents have for him. But here he is, barely breathing while his heart attempts to escape from his chest. There is a kaleidoscope of butterflies inside him while he stares at Yoongi.
“Yes— I’m— Gukkie— Jeon Jeongguk, hyungnim,” He stutters, melting more with the smile that Yoongi is giving him.
“It’s very nice to meet you, Gukkie.”
Jeongguk smiles back despite the whole garden that is blooming inside him, it is Yoongi that grounds him.
“I’m happy to meet you, too, uhm— Agust D-ssi,” he says. “I’ll just focus the camera on my halmeoni . Halmeoni won’t see you while she tours the place but— uh— I’ll change the camera after.”
Yoongi tilts his head slightly, but the smile doesn’t leave his face. “Sure. And hyung would be okay, Gukkie. I’d like that.”
Jeongguk glances at halmeoni who is smiling at them before looking back at the screen. “Okay. Okay, hyung— ,” Jeongguk smiles even though Yoongi can’t see him. “Let’s go?”
The house where Jeongguk lives with halmeoni is the one where his appa grew up in Gyeonggi-do. It is a traditional hanok fit for a family of four-maybe five—and so different from the modern houses nowadays. Though from what Jeongguk can remember, he lived shortly in an apartment in Seoul with his parents, most of his memories now are here and he loved it.
“There’s a picture here,” Halmeoni says while she waves her hand for Jeongguk to follow. They walk to their dining area where at the middle of the table sat a picture of tiny Yoongi sitting on a bench while sporting a pout and eating tangerine. “I think this is one from your behind the scenes video!”
“Ah, halmeoni, why do I look so small there?” Yoongi laughs. Jeongguk watches as Yoongi pulls his chair close to the screen, probably to see what halmeoni is showing better. “Is this the fruit basket that you mentioned?”
Jeongguk giggles as halmeoni nods proudly and Yoongi laughs on the screen when he sees a small standee that stands just beside the fruit basket. It’s their food guard, as halmeoni liked to call it.
“That’s right, Yoongi-ya. We always buy fruits and tangerines to make the basket happy,” Halmeoni explains before waving to Jeongguk again. “And, oh! Here’s what we prepared! I wish I could send this to you, but I know that might be hard. Still, do this old lady a favor and eat well, Yoongi-ya. Gukkie can send you recipes, if you’d like!”
“Those look delicious, halmeoni. Did you cook them?”
“My soondoongie and I did!” Jeongguk almost melts when Yoongi smiles again, although he is a little flustered because halmeoni keeps mentioning him. “He’s an amazing cook. You’ll like it.”
“Wow, I haven’t had home cooked meals in a while,” Yoongi says, leaning back to his chair. “You’re making me miss them, halmeoni.”
Seemingly distracted by the topic when halmeoni sits at one of the chairs, Jeongguk tries to rotate the camera so halmeoni can see Yoongi. “Aigoo, Yoongi-ya, you have to talk to your manager about it. You should eat healthy! If I just live in Seoul, I will scold your manager.”
Yoongi laughs loudly. “It’s kinda my fault, anyway. Oh— but, halmeoni , are you going to my concert?”
Halmeoni lets out a soft gasp then she claps her hands together. “That sounds lovely, Yoongi-ya. I think my Gukkie will try. Why don’t you ask him?”
Jeongguk doesn’t know if he should laugh or cry from how his halmeoni is trying to involve him even though this is for her. Nevertheless, he’s grateful even though he feels flustered.
“Uh— I’m gonna try for tickets—” Jeongguk replies from behind the camera. “I wasn’t able to get one from the last tour, but— yeah, I’m hoping I’ll be lucky to get our tickets.”
“Oh, I didn’t realize it can be that hard to get tickets?” Jeongguk hears someone reply to Yoongi, but it’s too quiet for him to understand.
“Yeah,” Jeongguk chuckles, the image of Yoongi trying to get a ticket from his own concert is a little entertaining. “You should try it to see.”
“Okay, so— uh, can you turn the phone to you, Gukkie? Can we talk?” There is a moment where Jeongguk just stares at his smiling halmeoni before Yoongi calls for him again. “Gukkie?”
Jeongguk knows he’s shaking now. He hopes that it’s not obvious on the phone, and Yoongi isn’t getting headaches, but there is something warm and a feeling too big inside his chest. He tries to settle it by breathing deeply.
“Uhm— hi,” Jeongguk breathes when he turns the camera to him. Does he sound too breathless?
On the screen, Yoongi just smiles and leans closer to the camera, making Jeongguk’s heart stop. “Hi again, Gukkie,” Jeongguk thinks he smiles back, because Yoongi chuckles. “So, Gukkie,” he says softly.” Halmeoni can’t hear me?” Jeongguk shakes his head so Yoongi continues. “What if in exchange for the banchans, we surprise halmeoni with a ticket?”
Oh .
“Oh.” Jeongguk glances at his halmeoni who is peeling a tangerine. She offers one to Jeongguk when she sees him looking, so he grins at her.
“What do you think?”
Jeongguk looks at Yoongi again. “Is that okay? If it is… I think halmeoni would really love to watch your show.”
Somehow, Yoongi’s gaze turns a little softer. “Of course, Gukkie,” he says. “And I heard you’re a good cook, so I’d really like to try the food.”
Jeongguk giggles, not expecting the response. “She just likes to brag about me like a typical halmeoni .”
“There must be a reason, right?”
Jeongguk blinks. Once again, he feels like his heart is stolen.
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JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]> Mon, Mar 25, 9:08AM
Hi Jeongguk-ssi,
I heard good things from Agust D regarding his meeting with halmeoni ! I’m very glad that they both had a good time. Additionally, I’d like to thank you for making Agust D comfortable and safe. He told me he was very comfortable and that’s why he ended up talking for hours. We appreciate this a lot.
With this, I would like to talk to you about the ticket for Agust D’s tour. As you know, the ticket selling will be next month. Don’t worry as there isn’t really anything that you need to do as everything will be done on our end, and I will be in touch regarding anything.
Also, I would just like to mention this because his manager is telling us that Agust D insists that he’d like to try the banchan s. Would it be okay that you send the recipes? It was mentioned that you are planning to do so. We’ll appreciate it if you will send it.
Thank you!
Warm regards,
Kim Namjoon
JinHit Entertainment
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Jeon Jeongguk <[email protected]> Mon, Mar 25, 7:19PM
Hey Namjoon-ssi,
I want to thank you for making my halmeoni meet Agust D-nim possible. She was very happy, and couldn’t stop talking about it until now. I think her love for Agust D-nim just multiplied a million times!
I’m very glad the Agust D-nim was very comfortable. As a fan, I want to make sure he feels that. I never want to compromise his safety and comfort for anything.
I’ll be attaching the recipes here. But if you ask my halmeoni , she’d love to cook for Agust D-nim. She always wonders if he ate, and hopes that he’s eating well. It’s her way of affection.
As always, I’m thankful for everything that you all do for Agust D-nim and my halmeoni . I’ll never forget this!
Best,
Jeon Jeongguk
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JinHit Entertainment <[email protected]> Tue, Mar 26, 11:23AM
Hi Jeongguk-ssi,
Thank you for sending the recipes. I’m sure Agust D will love this.
We’re also grateful for the support that you and halmeoni have for our Agust D. He’s very thankful to have people like you and halmeoni .
We’ll be keeping in touch!
Warm regards,
Kim Namjoon
JinHit Entertainment
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One day, a week or so after halmeoni met Yoongi, Jeongguk receives a message–
Unknown [10:34 PM]
Hi Gukkie (and halmeonim !). This is Min Yoongi. I’m sorry for suddenly reaching out, but it took a while before I was able to convince my manager to do this. Also, although I feel uncomfortable doing this especially since you and halmeonim have been so respectful and kind already, it’s the only way my manager would compromise.
One from my team will be sending you an NDA form. I won’t be asking halmeonim to sign it as I know she’s not really involved behind the scenes, and everyone knows I already met her through video call but I must ask you to sign it as it’s you who I’ll be contacting most of the time. Let me know what you think? Thank you.
Gukkie [10:48 PM]
i'm sorry, what do you mean this is min yoongi???
Unknown [11:03 PM]
Hi Gukkie! Yeah, this is Yoongi.
Gukkie [11:04 PM]
DUCK
UHM
SORRY THAT WAS AUTOCORRECT
BUT
AH
Hello, Min Yoongi-ssi!
Unknown [11:05 PM]
ㅋㅋ that’s okay.
I thought I told you to call me hyung?
Gukkie [11:06 PM]
ah yes uh that happened
wait what NDA
i thought those only happens in au
Unknown [11:08 PM]
Au?
Gukkie [11:09 PM]
oh nothing, hyungnim!
okay uh i signed the NDA
what was that about?
hyungnim
sorry
duck this is weird
oh my god sorry
Unknown [11:11 PM]
Wait, did you sign it without reading???
Gukkie [11:13 PM]
uh yeah
isn’t that just basically keeping you safe and i can’t gossip about u
not that i gossip
but holy shirt
GOD THIS AUTOCORRECT I’M SO SORRY
Unknown [11:14 PM]
Gukkie you can’t just sign contracts without reading them????
Gukkie [11:15]
uh
well to be fair i only did that the first time
i usually read contracts
Unknown [11:16 PM]
As you should???
You might be signing a contract where they’re making you sell your agust d merch
You never know
Gukkie [11:17 PM]
not my merch, hyungnim! those are protected and precious
and halmeoni would scold me
she knows how hard i worked to get those
omg she has more merch than me???
Unknown [11:18 PM]
Wait, did they not send another set for you?
Let me talk to Joon
Gukkie [11:19 PM]
OH NO PLEASE HYUNGNIM
i’d love a merch but my conscience will not be able to take it!
please i beg
i will dye
Unknown [11:20 PM]
What dye?
Gukkie [11:21 PM]
i’m sorry for my humor, it’s how i cope
i also forgot you’re chronically offline
it’s just a meme, hyungnim!
Unknown [11:23 PM]
I think I’m usually online?
Gukkie [11:24 PM]
uhm just stay online on your safe side, hyungnim
the stan twt is a crazy place
Unknown [11:25 PM]
Really?
Gukkie [11:26 PM]
yeah, it’s fun though! but it’s just for fans, sry
uhm
why are we talking
NOT THAT I DON’T WANT TO TALK, HYUNGNIM
THIS IS JUST
i don’t have rational explanation to this
i’m sry haha i’m very very nervous
good nervous, don’t worry
Unknown [11:28 PM]
Sorry, I hope I’m not making you uncomfortable
Gukkie [11:28 PM]
definitely not, hyungnim
it’s okay
i’m just nervous
i’m an awkward person
and you’re
you
Unknown [11:29 PM]
Hey, it’s okay. I understand. I’m not good with new people, too!
It’s just me, hm? Just Yoongi.
Gukkie [11:30 PM]
uhm okay
hyungnim
so uh what can i help you with?
Unknown [11:31 PM]
Oh, yeah. Actually, I’m trying to cook some of the recipes you sent, but I’m missing some ingredients.
I’m afraid if I change the recipe, it won’t taste like yours?
I know it doesn’t sound like a big deal
But I just really would like to try it the way it’s supposed to be prepared and cooked by you and halmeonim .
Gukkie [11:32 PM]
oh that’s okay, hyungnim. it won’t really be noticeable!
but uhm
if you’d like
i can send some banchan ?
maybe you can have someone meet me to pick it up?
i work around yeoeuido-dong
Unknown [11:33 PM]
Wait, I thought you live in Gyeonggi-do?
You travel every day?
Gukkie [11:34 PM]
yeah, hyungnim.
i’m used to it!
i also work at home sometimes, so it works
Unknown [11:35 PM]
Ah, I see.
Gukkie [11:36 PM]
so don’t sweat it, hyungnim. i’ll just bring some to you tomorrow!
Unknown [11:37 PM]
Is that okay?
Gukkie [11:37 PM]
of course, hyungnim. halmeoni would be happy.
Unknown [11:38 PM]
That would be nice, Gukkie. Thank you.
Gukkie [11:39 PM]
i’m just glad you’re eating well, hyungnim.
anyway uhm
sorry i have to cut this short, hyungnim
i’d love to talk! i promise
but i have to get up early tomorrow for work
so
yeah
Unknown [11:40 PM]
Oh, no, it’s okay! I get it.
I’m sorry, I almost forgot we have very different time at work and all that ㅋㅋ
Thanks for replying, and for the banchan, Gukkie.
Have a great day at work.
Gukkie [11:41 PM]
thanks, hyungnim!
good night!
Unknown [11:42 PM]
Good night.
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Yoongi hyungnim [2:42 PM]
Gukkie, you sent so much! I just saw them now.
Thank you for this.
Gukkie [2:45 PM]
ah hyungnim! i hope you like them.
are you just eating now?
Yoongi hyungnim [2:49 PM]
Yeah, I had a schedule earlier that finished just now.
Did you cook all this?
Gukkie [2:51 PM]
kind of. but it’s mostly halmeoni ’s recipes!
she has a bad back so i try not to make her work around the house a lot
Yoongi hyungnim [2:53 PM]
Oh, is it that bad?
Gukkie [2:59 PM]
not as much now since she takes medicines and supplements, hyungnim.
Yoongi hyungnim [3:01 PM]
I see. That’s good, then. It can be bothering to them if it hurts a lot.
Gukkie [3:03 PM]
yeah. thankfully, she’s fine. i make sure she gets it checked once in a while, though. she’s so stubborn about it sometimes, but i try to use my only grandson card ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [3:04 PM]
Oh, you’re the only grandson?
Gukkie [3:11 PM]
i am, actually! uhm i lost my parents before i can get a sibling so
Yoongi hyungnim [3:13 PM]
Ah, I’m sorry to hear that, Gukkie. I thought you’re just really close with halmeoni .
Gukkie [3:16 PM]
it’s okay, hyungnim! it’s been a long time. it’s halmeoni and haraboeji that raised me.
Yoongi hyungnim [3:18 PM]
Ah, I see. I didn’t see harabeoji when I called you, though?
Gukkie [3:19 PM]
oh, we lost haraboeji a few years ago, so it’s mostly me and halmeoni now. sometimes, her siblings visit her, but they live so far away, and some are in different countries.
Yoongi hyungnim [3:20 PM]
This is terrible, I feel like I’m bringing the atmosphere down.
Sorry, Gukkie.
Gukkie [3:24 PM]
oh no, don’t think like that, hyungnim! i know it’s sad, but i’m fine talking about them. i don’t have a lot of memories with my parents, but i like remembering them and harabeoji .
halmeoni said it’s okay to be sad that we lost them, but their lives and our love for them is a celebration that should be shared.
i have good memories with them, hyungnim. so don’t worry!
Yoongi hyungnim [3:27 PM]
That makes sense. Grief is hard to deal with, but we just have to feel it.
After all, we feel the grief because we love.
Gukkie [3:31 PM]
exactly, hyungnim. so don’t feel bad. you can ask me about them, and i’d be happy to talk about them!
Yoongi hyungnim [3:32 PM]
I’m glad.
Can I ask who is halmeoni ’s child from your parents?
Gukkie [3:34 PM]
of course, hyungnim ㅋㅋ it’s appa .
Yoongi hyungnim [3:35 PM]
Ah, I see. How about your eomma ’s grandparents?
Gukkie [3:38 PM]
okay
not to be such a downer, hyungnim ㅋㅋ
but my grandparents from eomma passed away before i was born
Yoongi hyungnim [3:40 PM]
…
I think I’m not good at small talks like this.
Gukkie [3:41 PM]
ㅋㅋ noooo it’s okay, hyungnim! don’t worry about it
ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [3:42 PM]
Fine, fine ㅋㅋ
just
tell me about you, then?
Gukkie [3:43 PM]
about me?
Yoongi hyungnim [3:45 PM]
And halmeoni ?
Sorry, is it too much? Am I freaking you out?
This is the most conversation I had with, you know.
A fan?
I’m really glad it’s someone nice and respectful
Gukkie [3:48 PM]
oh hyungnim
ngl, i am freaking out ㅋㅋ but i’m also just grateful
i think talking about halmeoni to you really grounds me as well so i don’t just panic and all that ㅋㅋ
i’m glad you feel comfortable with me and halmeoni
Yoongi hyungnim [3:50 PM]
Thanks, Gukkie. I hope you’re comfortable with me, too.
Gukkie [3:53 PM]
i am, hyungnim.
i’m just really grateful for what you did to halmeoni
Yoongi hyungnim [3:54 PM]
It’s nothing. Besides, she’s so sweet and kind.
She always reminds me of my halmeoni . My halmeoni always reminds me to eat all the time, too ㅋㅋ
I actually visited her just this week because she’s pouting and saying I haven’t visited her in ages
I visit her twice a month! ㅋㅋ
Gukkie [3:59 PM]
oh, did you get your pouting from her?
ㅋㅋ i’m just kidding, hyungnim!
Yoongi hyungnim [4:01 PM]
What? I don’t pout
Do I?
I just asked my manager and he looked at me and was like “you pout all the time”
This is a slander
Gukkie [4:02 PM]
i’m sry hyungnim i’m afraid it’s true
u do pout a lot
do you want me to send pictures
Yoongi hyungnim [4:03 PM]
Gukkie, I trusted you!
Gukkie [4:07 PM]
i’m only being honest! ㅋㅋ
it’s cute, hyungnim, don’t worry
everybody loves it
Yoongi hyungnim [4:09 PM]
…fine
ㅋㅋ
Gukkie [4:11 PM]
hyungnim, i’m sorry to cut this short but i have to attend a meeting
i enjoy talking to you! i promise
it’s just, yk, work
Yoongi hyungnim [4:12 PM]
Oh no, was I bothering your work? I’m sorry!
I forgot I have an abnormal schedule that deviates from yours
Gukkie [4:13 PM]
ㅋㅋ it’s fine, hyungnim. your messages literally brightened my day
office stuff isn’t all very fun so i’m glad u messaged
Yoongi hyungnim [4:14 PM]
Now, I’m very curious about that, but I’ll let you go for the meantime.
Thank you, Gukkie.
Gukkie [5:21 PM]
thank you, hyungnim.
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Yoongi hyungnim [10:14 AM]
Good morning, Gukkie.
I know you might be busy with work, but can I ask for halmeoni ’s number? I want to thank her for the banchan .
Gukkie [10:16 AM]
good morning, hyungnim! it’s okay! let me send it.
yeppeuda halmeoni: +82 8787 8989
Yoongi hyungnim [11:21 AM]
That’s cute. Thank you, Gukkie.
How’s your day so far?
Gukkie [11:33 AM]
ah hyung, just the usual! you’d think there’s not a lot of work in HR but there are actually a lot ㅋㅋ
how about you?
Yoongi hyungnim [11:35 AM]
Really? Honestly, I didn’t expect that you’re working in HR.
Ah, I’m actually on a schedule, but I'm having a short break.
Gukkie [11:36 AM]
why didn’t you expect it?
that sounds exciting, hyungnim! is it a photoshoot? for the tour? aaah! don’t tell me! ㅋㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [11:37 AM]
I watched your videos, and they’re really good, so I thought you’d work on production or something like that.
ㅋㅋ it’ll be a surprise. It’s gonna be posted soon!
Gukkie [11:38 AM]
ah, i was part of some clubs back in high school and in university, but i had a good offer at the company i’m working at right now compared to others, so i stayed here.
the videos became a hobby, though!
Yoongi hyungnim [12:31 PM]
It’s good that you still do what you enjoy.
Did you plan to work in production before, though?
Sorry, I was working ㅋㅋ
Gukkie [12:41 PM]
it’s okay, hyungnim! you must be busy
and, yeah, i had a thought of working in production
i actually applied to some entertainment companies!
but my job right now has more stability, and i really wanted to take care of halmeoni and harabeoji .
working in entertainment also means a lot of time outside, and i don’t like leaving them alone, especially halmeoni now.
so i think i did good!
Yoongi hyungnim [12:46 PM]
You did. It can be hard to decide on something like that.
I think you did really well, too, Gukkie.
Gukkie [12:48 PM]
thank you, hyungnim.
you really helped, too.
it might sound weird? ㅋㅋ but your songs have been really helpful.
Yoongi hyungnim [3:36 PM]
Really? I’m glad they helped you, Gukkie.
Bringing comfort is one of the reasons why I love music.
Gukkie [3:57 PM]
yeah, hyungnim. i think that’s why halmeoni really likes your music, too.
they can bring comfort
she said there’s something melancholic yet hopeful on your songs
and that you understand anger, sadness, and that i can be happy despite
i think it makes sense
when i was angry, i had you making me feel that i shouldn’t be afraid of my anger
when i was sad, i had you making me feel that it’s okay to be sad and it will be okay in the future as well
when i was feeling hopeless or scared, and just wants to be, you reminded me that i can just be
so yeah
ㅋㅋ sorry, hyungnim, that was a lot
anyway!! you might be busy, but please don’t forget to eat!
Yoongi hyungnim [7:03 PM]
Ah, I didn’t expect that.
Sometimes, I still get surprised when I receive words like that. You’re too kind, Gukkie.
I’m happy to be very helpful to you and others.
Gukkie [7:07 PM]
oh yeah, you’re bad with compliments
should i compliment you everyday? ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [7:28 PM]
Hey, I’m not bad at compliments.
They’re just awkward ㅋㅋ
Gukkie [7:31 PM]
yep, you’re bad at them ㅋㅋ
it’s okay, hyungnim. you’re just shy.
with all your rapping skills and swag
it’s cute ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [8:04 PM]
Why does it feel like I’m being teased?
Gukkie [8:07 PM]
what? noooo, i’m not teasing you
ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [8:46 PM]
Halmeoni is right
You’re kind of a cheeky brat, huh?
Gukkie [8:49 PM]
halmeoni ??
wait
she’s asleep!
i’m so confused
Yoongi hyungnim [9:41 PM]
ㅋㅋ I was messaging with her earlier, too.
Gukkie [9:45 PM]
what?? she hates messaging! she prefers calls
she messages you?
wow, the favoritism
she knows i don’t like calls but she calls me instead of messaging me
Yoongi hyungnim [11:31 PM]
ㅋㅋ Sorry, Gukkie. I guess I just have the charm.
Good night, Gukkie. 😊
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Gukkie [6:51 AM]
good morning, hyungnim! sry, i fell asleep last night. 🥲
but i hope you rested well, and you have a great day ahead!
Yoongi hyungnim [10:34 AM]
Good morning, Gukkie.
Thank you. Have a great day, too!
Halmeoni said you forgot your lunch, so make sure to eat something
Gukkie [11:06 AM]
she even tell you that???
can never hide anything, huh
ㅋㅋ
i’ll eat at the cafeteria, thank you, hyungnim.
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Gukkie [7:09 PM]
hm
i think halmeoni is gossiping with the neighborhood ladies
our district is pretty quiet, so i wonder what they talk about
Yoongi hyungnim [7:11 PM]
Gossiping? How?
Gukkie [7:13 PM]
first, our banchan and gansik are almost gone. usually they last for almost two weeks
it’s just thursday
and then when i got home, there’s extra set of cups
i mean i don’t rly mind
i like that halmeoni is meeting up with friends!
i’m just curious what they’re talking about since she usually shares it to me ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyungnim [7:17 PM]
Maybe she’s talking about you behind your back
ㅋㅋ
Gukkie [7:18 PM]
eh that’s not new, hyungnim
gASP WHAT IF IT’S A DATE
IT’S A POSSIBILITY
Yoongi hyungnim [7:19 PM]
How did it jump from gossiping to a date?
You’re so silly ㅋㅋ
Gukkie [7:20 PM]
noooooOOOO
think about it, hyungnim !!! she’s keeping it a secret!!
she even used our nice teacups!!
SHE’S TRYING TO IMPRESS THEM
Yoongi hyungnim [7:21 PM]
Hmm that’s a possibility
Maybe she’s getting to know them before introducing them to you
Gukkie [7:22 PM]
SEE!! IT’S A POSSIBILITY
Yoongi hyungnim [7:22 PM]
ㅋㅋ What if she’s really dating someone? Is that okay?
Gukkie [7:23 PM]
eh? of course, as long as they’re kind and nice
i don’t rly mind
halmeoni loves my haraboeji , i know that and i saw that
but i don’t want her to be lonely
i’m usually at work and busy even when i try to work at home
i just want her to be happy
Yoongi hyungnim [7:24 PM]
Mhm. I’m sure she’s happy.
She has you.
Gukkie [7:25 PM]
aww hyungnim , you’re such a sweet talker!
Yoongi hyungnim [7:26 PM]
Yah, I’m just telling the truth!
Gukkie [7:26 PM]
ㅋㅋ it’s okay, hyung. you’re a sweet guy.
i believe u! 🙂↕️
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If anyone told Jeongguk a year ago that he will be exchanging messages to an idol that he’s a huge fan of, he’ll call that someone crazy. Because how the hell can that ever happen?
But here he is with Yoongi’s contact number on his phone, and a message from him almost every day.
It has become a routine, really. Sometimes, they talk all day, sometimes, it’s just a couple of messages. But still, there never is a day without Yoongi’s name in Jeongguk’s inbox.
He’s not entirely sure how he got from here.
They’re friends—they’ve become friends, somehow. With all the teasing, and talking about everything and nothing, Jeongguk has fallen into the comfort of knowing Yoongi as just… Yoongi.
He still finds it crazy sometimes, especially when he scrolls through social media, or when people leave comments on the videos he post. But when Yoongi sends him a random message, or a funny video, or a cute photo of cats, Jeongguk can’t find it in himself to mind the craziness. Especially when halmeoni also talks about Yoongi as if he’s just their neighbor that she talks to everyday.
And— and it’s nice.
Because Jeongguk doesn’t really expect anything—too afraid to do so. He knows he’s just a fan and Yoongi is an idol. But suddenly, Yoongi is a friend, too. Someone who teases him a lot, and talks about halmeoni , and just a hyungnim who loves music.
Yoongi never makes him feel like there is a barrier between them. Maybe that’s why it’s easy for Jeongguk to fit into the shoes of being a friend.
“Hyungnim, ” Jeongguk types on his phone. He can’t stop the grin on his face as he stares at the video of two kittens playing together that he attached to his conversation with Yoongi. “ Look at them. Aren’t they cute? ”
This also is a habit he formed as he got closer to Yoongi. They always exchange photos of most random things, although it’s mostly photos and videos of cats that they share the most with each other.
Jeongguk stares as the three dots that indicate Yoongi is typing in their conversation shows up. He tries to wait, but his attention is taken by one of his colleagues.
“Are you sure you’re not getting anything?” Jimin asks while he holds a plastic bag that contains a cup of ramyeon and bibimbap on his hand. “This might be our only chance to get dinner.”
“I have some ramyeon on my desk,” Jeongguk says, remembering the early days that’s similar to this—having to stay up late at work to finish something. “I’ve had enough experience to be prepared, hyung.”
Jimin chuckles as they start to walk back to their company building. He’s the newest one in their team, only joining around four months ago. Despite that, he’s Jeongguk’s closest friend in the company—mostly because Jimin is the nicest, and they're closer in age compared to the other seonbae s. He even met halmeoni a couple of times already.
“Good for you,” Jimin teases while they wait for the elevator to arrive. “I always forget to buy some food even though I know I should. I used to stay later in my previous company!”
“I told you I can give you my extra.”
“Nah, I wanted some bibimbap , so it’s fine.”
Jeongguk hums in agreement because even though he’s not exactly craving for bibimbap , the night air outside is a good way to energize himself.
“Hopefully we can finish before ten,” Jeongguk feels his phone vibrate, so he pulls it out. “I don’t want to travel too late, and I hate making halmeoni wait.”
“You can leave before ten, Guk-ah,” Jimin says, he’s starting to peel the plastic off from the bibimbap . “I can do the rest if it gets too late. I live nearby.”
“But hyung—”
“Seriously. I bet even if you leave before ten, I’ll end up getting home earlier than you.”
Jeongguk frowns at Jimin’s insistence, but he ends up not saying anything when the elevator door slides open. He steps inside with Jimin while he checks his phone.
“ Aw, they’re so cute, ” Yoongi replies, his message full of heart emojis and a smile. Then, it follows with a— “ Are you still at work? ”
“Yeah, hyungnim,” He types back. “We’re trying to rush something since there were sudden changes, and we need it tomorrow.”
Yoongi quickly replies, probably because he’s done with work for the day. “ Won’t you have a hard time going home? It’s late.”
“I hope not, ” Jeongguk adds multiple crying emojis. “ It doesn’t really happen often, but I hate when it does. I don’t like leaving halmeoni alone for too long. ”
“ I get it. Let me know when you’re done? ” Yoongi asks.
Jeongguk tries to bite down the smile on his lips. It’s this kind of moment that makes his heart burst like sunshine and his stomach feels like a garden full of flowers and butterflies. He knows Yoongi is just nice, but— it’s still sweet and unbelievable .
“ Sure, hyungnim. Jimin hyung is forcing me to leave before ten, though, ” Jeongguk types, almost stumbling while they walk to their office. “ He said he can finish it, and he didn’t want me to take the bus so late .”
“ He’s right. Finish up before ten, okay? ” Yoongi agrees. “ I’ll let you be for now so you can focus on that .”
“ Okay, hyungnim. I’ll talk to you later! ”
“Who got you smiling like that?” Jimin calls out suddenly, words a little muffled from the bibimbap he’s chewing. It reminds Jeongguk to grab his cup of ramyeon so he can add water to it.
The teasing in his voice and the mischief in his gaze makes Jeongguk roll his eyes. He tries to bite down the giggle that wants to escape from him, because Yoongi always makes him feel good, and Jimin is already one of his closest friends that likes to tease him just because he’s younger than him.
Jeongguk shrugs before returning to his desk, he tries to face Jimin’s desk so they can suffer together. “Just a friend. I sent the videos of the cats, and he likes them.”
It’s not really a lie, but Jeongguk didn’t really tell anyone that he’s… friends with the Min Yoongi. The greatest artist ever that is Agust D.
He trusts Jimin, but aside from signing an NDA, Jeongguk just wants to keep this to himself.
“Ah, well, they are cute,” Jimin giggles as he tries to work while he eats. “I wish I could adopt one, but I’m allergic and my apartment doesn’t allow pets.”
“That sucks, hyung,” Jeongguk frowns. Jimin’s comment makes him think if he should adopt a dog or cat for halmeoni .
Jimin hums. “Yeah, so I try to get by in watching cute videos.”
They continue to work in relative silence, and an occasional bickering and exchange of updates. After a while, they decide to finish up the things they can only work on at the office, and just continue working on the presentation at home, or early tomorrow.
Jeongguk thinks that working with Jimin makes his workload much easier. There used to be a different guy in their department that worked with him, but since he was Jeongguk’s seonbae and older than him, Jeongguk always ended up doing the brunt of the work.
Working with Jimin and talking with Yoongi taught Jeongguk that there are people who will respect you even if they are older, and won’t use their age and experience against you.
“Jeongguk-ah, you should pack up,” Jimin calls out after a while. He’s now compiling all their materials for tomorrow. “I got this.”
“But hyung—”
“It’s fine. Get me a coffee tomorrow if that makes you feel better,” Jimin grins. Jeongguk watches as his hyung stretches his back then grabs Jeongguk’s bag. “Don’t keep halmeoni waiting.”
Jeongguk softens, smiling at Jimin. “Thanks, hyung.”
Grabbing his stuff, Jeongguk is reminded to message Yoongi.
He tries to ignore the sunshine in his chest, but—
“ Hyungnim! Jimin hyung is kicking me out ㅋㅋ, ” He types quickly while placing his things on his bag. “ I’d probably be home before midnight .”
Not even a minute after Jeongguk sent the message, his phone vibrates. “ That’s nice. You’re working at K&Y Group, right? I think halmeoni mentioned it. ”
“ Yeah, ” Jeongguk ignores Jimin’s wolf-whistle and teasing. He knows Jeongguk isn’t good in texting, but—
This is Yoongi.
“ Alright. ” Yoongi replies. Then, Jeongguk’s phone vibrates again. “ Uhm. So. It’s okay if you don’t want to, but…”
Jeongguk punches the descend button of the elevator, which quickly opens up. “But?”
“Bye, Jimin hyung! See you tomorrow!” He calls before the door slides closed. He hears Jimin saying it back to him, but his attention is taken by his phone again.
“ So uhm. I’m outside your building .”
Jeongguk freezes.
Uh.
Back up. Did he read that right?
I’m outside your building .
I’m outside your building .
I’m outside your building .
Jeongguk frowns at the screen on his phone. What did Yoongi mean?
Just— what?
“I’m sorry, hyungnim, but— what?? ” he quickly types. The elevator door is already sliding open, but it takes a minute for Jeongguk to move.
“ So ㅋㅋ funny story,” Jeongguk reads from the screen. “ I was texting halmeoni earlier, and you know she always worries when you have to stay late at work, so I miiiight have promised her that I will drive you home?”
Jeongguk pauses for a moment. He’s familiar with the garden and butterflies in his stomach, but he does not know what to do with the electricity that seems to hum under his skin.
“Ah, hyungnim, ” he tries to breathe while typing, but with the way his heart is looping around his ribs, Jeongguk ends up reminding himself to take in air. “ Where are you? ”
“ Uhm in the CU near the building. ”
Jeongguk takes a lungful of air. His reflection in the elevator door shows him the slight wrinkles on his shirt, mostly on the sleeves that he keeps rolled up, and the loosened necktie. He’s sure he looks tired, but it’s late and he’s been working for almost thirteen hours. One side of his hair has fallen on his forehead from how much he runs his fingers through it, but— it’s not so bad, right? It can look kind of deliberate.
This isn’t exactly how Jeongguk imagined or even dreamed his first meeting with Yoongi. Most of it is made up of fansigns or hi-touch, and the most delusional one is meeting him randomly in some coffee shop where they end up chatting together. But then again, Yoongi ended up being his friend who he gets to text every day, and most probably also calls Jeongguk’s halmeoni .
What craziness can even happen anymore?
You might embarrass yourself.
Jeongguk scowls at his reflection before walking away, each step is accompanied by his brain either cheering him up or making him think of all the possibilities that he can humiliate himself.
What if he ends up saying nonsense? What if he can’t speak ? Too stunned in front of Yoongi? But this is Yoongi, they’ve been chatting everyday for a while now! Then again, that’s just over messages. What if he doesn’t—
Jeongguk stops.
“Hello, Gukkie.”
When Jeongguk was nineteen, he realized that his life wasn't special. He goes to school, then helps out at home. He has extracurricular activities for arts that he attends with some of his friends, but that’s mostly it. He wasn’t even sure if the major he’s choosing in university is right, but he didn’t really try to have a lot of choices. Even his other hobby of listening to music sounds so boring to others.
Honestly, his life was as mundane as it can be.
And then— Jeongguk heard him.
Agust D.
It was just the music at first. Agust D is a genius with the way he makes and produces his songs. They never fail to reach Jeongguk, and make him feel whatever emotions that Yoongi wants to deliver. Min Yoongi’s talent is unparalleled, and even time proves him.
Then came the performances. They’re a work of art that tells a story about his song; his album; himself. Yoongi always had a large presence that commands a room to listen and look at him—that you’re supposed to listen and watch him.
Usually, it ends in that. But Jeongguk decided to click on a suggested video after watching a performance video.
It was just a compilation, snippets from videos where Yoongi was playing around, smiling so softly, and talking gently. Jeongguk was endeared as he continued to watch the other versions.
He didn’t even notice it immediately, but Jeongguk had fallen in the rabbit hole of being a fan.
He never regretted it.
“Yoongi hyungnim,” Jeongguk greets him, softly, sweetly because he can’t help the blooming garden on his ribs around his heart. “You’re here.”
Yoongi chuckles, and it makes Jeongguk’s head spin a little because— he’s a meter away and his laugh drips in honey.
“Yeah… is this okay?” Yoongi asks, and though his smile is shy, he gazes at Jeongguk with worry on his forehead. “I can, I don’t know, get a driver to take you home if you’d like…”
“Hyungnim, of course, it’s okay. I just— I didn’t expect you’d be here. I— don’t want to bother you,” Jeongguk confesses because even if he’s almost floating at the sight of Yoongi here, he still knows that Yoongi is a busy person.
Yoongi softens, and tilts his head to the side while he watches Jeongguk. “It’s never going to be a bother. We’re friends and— I thought it would be nice to meet, while also making sure that you safely get home.”
Ah, that’s—
“Don’t you have a schedule tomorrow, hyungnim?” Jeongguk asks instead.
Yoongi shrugs then starts to move towards a car parked in front of the CU. “Not really. It’s just mostly practice, and I don’t usually have schedules except if I want to work in the studio,” Yoongi glances at him, waiting for him to follow. “It’s really rare nowadays that I’m required to have a schedule since I have a tour coming.”
“Oh, how about before?” Jeongguk tries to match Yoongi’s pace. They walk side-by-side, their shoulders at an acceptable distance for people who already know your routine everyday as if it’s their own.
Yoongi pulls open the car door before answering. “Kind of, but it’s mostly when I have to film something or do a photoshoot. But I’ve been in this industry for a while now, so…”
Jeongguk hums as he gets inside the passenger side. His eyes wander around while he waits for Yoongi to get inside.
The interior of the car is spacious and sleek, elegant with its black design and smooth finish. Jeongguk isn’t very familiar with car units, but he knows that it’s an SUV. Probably the make and model of what Yoongi advertised just half a year ago.
“Have you eaten dinner?” Yoongi asks as he sits in the driver’s seat and fastens his seatbelt. “We can get some take out.”
Jeongguk shakes his head as he copies Yoongi. “I’m okay, hyungnim. I ate with Jimin hyung at the office.”
Yoongi hums. He starts the car and turns on its light before proceeding to drive.
It’s silent for the most part, except for the low volume of the music that is connected to the speaker. Jeongguk can see Yoongi glancing at him once in a while, so he decides to be a menace and turns to watch him instead of the road.
“Yeah?” Yoongi asks after a while, and a couple of quick looks.
Jeongguk chuckles, because the reality is they are friends and Yoongi is still Yoongi with all those awkward shyness despite being the artist Agust D.
“You keep looking,” he replies. “Do you want to say something, or…?”
Yoongi clears his throat. His right hand is on the steering wheel while the other is propped up against the window with his hand curled in fist which lets him rest his chin on it. “Well…” Yoongi glances at him again, making him laugh. “You still call me hyungnim , while you call Jimin-ssi as hyung. So…”
“So…?” Jeongguk teases. He can imagine Yoongi’s skin blooming in red even though it’s dark.
“I just thought— you know—” Yoongi tries, clearing his throat before continuing. “We’re close enough to not be too formal,” he explains, and Jeongguk just keeps on staring at him, enjoying how Yoongi is slightly flustered. “I mean— ah— come on, Gukkie, you’ve sent me baby pictures of you with halmeoni ! You’ve seen my pictures with Holly. And you still call me hyungnim .”
Jeongguk laughs brightly and cheerfully. It is true that he has so many pictures of Yoongi that are unseen by the public—he even has one of Yoongi’s photos with his first piano from when he was younger.
Jeongguk has gotten to know a lot of things about Min Yoongi that he never knew before.
“Thank you, hyung,” Jeongguk can’t help the affection from spilling in his words while he watches Yoongi’s profile. He doesn’t have any trace of those idols one usually sees in advertisements—his face bare while in hoodie and sweatpants. His hair is a little longer than from the pictures they post online, already reaching his nape and tracing his chin.
Jeongguk adores Agust D, but…
Yoongi looks at him when they stop at a red light. There is that familiar kindness and gentleness in his eyes that comes from Yoongi that always comforts Jeongguk.
Jeongguk smiles then continues. “For being Min Yoongi.”
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Jeongguk [11:54 PM]
hyung i almost forgot to message u!! im home!!
Jimin hyung [11:55 PM]
oh hey, that’s quick! i’m glad. thanks for today, gguk-ah.
Jeongguk [11:58 PM]
ah yea uh a friend drove me
Jimin [12:03 AM]
a friend? are you sure? 🤨
a friend that u kiss, maybe??? 😏
Jeongguk [12:04 AM]
hyung!! a friend, i promise!!
he’s a hyung and he takes it very seriously.
Jimin [12:06 AM]
hmm if u say soooo
Jeongguk [12:08 AM]
i am!!! i’m sleeping, good night!!
Jimin [12:09 AM]
it’s always fun teasing u ㅋㅋ
good night!
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“Hyung?”
The soft glow of the moon shines down and traces the figure that sits beside the open door of the living room. There is gentleness in the way the light paints Yoongi’s face when he turns to Jeongguk.
“Hey, Gukkie,” Yoongi smiles, and Jeongguk’s breath is stolen away.
Slowly, he walks to where Yoongi is sitting and takes the space on the other side of the doorway. Like this, their legs are close to each other.
“What are you doing here?” Jeongguk asks. He allows himself to look at Yoongi and take him in. Yoongi looks like he belongs sitting under the moonlight and twinkling stars in the living room that overlooks a courtyard of plants and flowers.
Jeongguk’s heart shakes a little.
Yoongi stares at him. “Just thinking.”
“It’s late, though,” Jeongguk pulls his knees to his chest so he can wrap his arms around them. “Are you having a hard time sleeping?”
Yoongi giggles softly before shaking his head. “I can literally sleep anywhere, Gukkie. I just… this place is nice, so…”
Jeongguk hums without looking away from Yoongi. He gets it, the comfort of the moon and stars, and the swaying of the leaves, and the occasional singing of the insects somewhere in their yard. There is serenity in this kind of moment that blankets you from the fast-paced world.
“Do you want to talk about it?” he asks.
Yoongi leans his head to the door and stares at Jeongguk. He takes a moment in watching him before looking out to the moon again.
“Sure,” Yoongi chuckles, his hand rubbing the back of his neck, an action that Jeongguk is familiar with whenever Yoongi is shy and flustered. “I’m just thinking… if I barged into your life, and you’re letting me because you have to even if you are uncomfortable.”
Jeongguk frowns. “But I am comfortable with you, hyung.”
Yoongi nods quickly before his words tumble from his lips as if he’s afraid that his words might be misunderstood. “Yeah, no, I know that, Gukkie. I was just…” he breathes deeply before continuing. “I think you’re comfortable with me as… as your hyung . As Min Yoongi. But I think you get a little… shy? Worried? When it’s about me as Agust D.”
“What do you mean, hyung?”
Yoongi breathes, then turns his whole body towards the courtyard. Although he’s not facing Jeongguk directly anymore, they’re closer like this, their shoulders a few inches away from each other.
It’s— warm. Especially against the night air that kisses their skin once in a while.
“When I do stuff for you as Agust D— like giving you merchandise, or spoiling you about a project, or even the concert ticket, I see you hesitate in accepting them,” Yoongi says, turning to look at him for a moment before staring up ahead. “And then when it’s stuff like— I don’t know— something very normal? Like me chatting with you, or this time when I drove you home, or when I reminded you to eat lunch— I just feel like you accept those easily.”
Jeongguk stares at Yoongi, unsure what he should say when he realizes that— it’s true.
He finds it easier to accept what Yoongi is offering when he doesn’t stop and think about the privilege of knowing Agust D.
“I’m just— scared, hyung,” Jeongguk breathes out, his words small because they are the truth of his fears. “I just… at first, I didn’t want you to think that I’m taking advantage of you or whatever you are offering. I’m always just so grateful for you. And then… I got to know you, you know?” Jeongguk looks up at the moon when Yoongi turns to face him. His heart is hammering on his chest and he worries Yoongi will hear it. “It’s so easy to let you in, hyung. I thought, what if it’s because I feel connected with you as Agust D?”
“Is that so bad?” Yoongi asks. Jeongguk turns to Yoongi just to find the older watching him, his gaze deep and thoughtful.
Jeongguk shakes his head because it’s not . It scared him at first, and made him overthink and worry, but…
“You’re Agust D as much as you are Min Yoongi.” Jeongguk smiles to himself. “I easily let you in because you’re you, hyung.”
For a moment, the two of them just stare at each other as if taking everything in. Jeongguk allows himself to trace Yoongi’s face with his eyes, wondering how it will feel to touch him with his fingertips; how it will feel to—
Jeongguk feels like—
“It’s nice,” Yoongi mutters. Jeongguk can hear the wind chime dancing with the wind again, and it makes Yoongi’s voice sound sweeter. Like a lullaby. “When you let me in. A lot of people asked me why I still talk to you, you know? They ask how come I ended up being friends with you. What if you’re just taking advantage of me, what if you just can’t say no? I think about that a lot of times. Maybe that’s why I also ended up here.”
Jeongguk frowns. “Here?”
“Yeah,” Yoongi nods. He pushes his hair behind his ear when the wind blows harder. “ Halmeoni said we will always miss the best things in life if we let our fears control us before we can even give it a try. I remember she asked me, ‘it’s the unknown that scares you, so why don’t you learn about it now that you have a chance?’ and I think that really stuck to me.”
“That sounds like halmeoni ,” Jeongguk giggles. “I think that’s why she likes your music, too. You have a way with words to others, hyung.”
Yoongi wrinkles his nose. “Ah, you’re flustering me.”
“What, I’m just telling the truth!”
“It’s just— ah— you fluster me so easily,” Yoongi admits, his face blooming in red. “I think it’s your eyes— they’re so— honest.”
“Honest?” Jeongguk repeats. He’s used to other people paying attention to his eyes, always telling him that it’s wide and expressive that it can never hide what he feels.
Yoongi tilts his head to the side and grins. “Yeah. I think that’s why it’s so easy to trust you, Gukkie.”
“It’s because you never make me feel like you’re unreachable, hyung,” Jeongguk smiles, because isn’t that what he wants? To make Yoongi comfortable and have trust in him? “You know so much about me already.”
“I like everything I learn about you.”
Jeongguk feels the whole universe inside him.
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Yoongi hyung [12:39 PM]
I’m in the company now, Gukkie.
Thank you.
Gukkie [12:40 PM]
that was fast!!
thank you for yesterday and today, hyungnim!
Yoongi hyung [12:41 PM]
Hmm.
I thought you’re calling me hyung?
Gukkie [12:41 PM]
hehe
i was just teasing.
but really, thank you, hyung.
you didn’t need to stay so long just because halmeoni asked, but you did anyway.
i hope it didn’t mess up any of your schedules.
Yoongi hyung [12:43 PM]
Hey, Gukkie, it’s okay. It didn’t mess up any of my schedule. I’m mostly just rehearsing lately, and everything is all set.
I just asked for a late start today. Nothing big, hm? It gave staff time to rest, too.
And it’s always a pleasure to spend time with you and halmeoni .
Gukkie [12:45 PM]
i'm happy to know that, hyung.
Yoongi hyung [12:46 PM]
Good because it’s true.
Also, you weren’t late when you arrived at work, right?
Gukkie [12:47 PM]
no, hyung, i’m actually early! besides, i already did some work at home before we left.
Yoongi hyung [12:48 PM]
That’s good to hear. I was a little worried.
Gukkie [12:49 PM]
i arrived earlier than jimin hyung, and he lives closer ㅋㅋ
but anyway, i'm gonna have to set up for our event now, hyung. i might not reply immediately
Yoongi hyung [12:51 PM]
That’s okay, I get it. I’ll probably be busy as well
I’ll talk to you later?
Gukkie [12:52 PM]
have fun rehearsing, hyung!! i’m so excited ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyung [12:53 PM]
Thanks, Gukkie. Have fun at work.
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Yoongi hyung [10:31 PM]
Hey, Gukkie, what’s your stan account?
Gukkie [10:31 PM]
what
hyung what
Yoongi hyung [10:32 PM]
I always see them on twitter?
Gukkie [10:33 PM]
yeah, but why are u curious
i don’t have a stan twt
uhh why would i
Yoongi hyung [10:34 PM]
Really?
Gukkie [10:36 PM]
honestly? i don’t ㅋㅋ i’m not very active in social media, hyung. everything is in my personal accounts. i usually post on youtube, anyway.
Yoongi hyung [10:37 PM]
Oh, yeah.
But you rarely post yourself, though.
Gukkie [10:38 PM]
myself?
Yoongi hyung [10:38 PM]
Yeah.
I’ve seen your videos. The first videos were vlogs? But you rarely show yourself?
They’re really pretty, though.
Then this year, it’s usually halmeoni with a little bit of you, but you mostly talk behind the camera so
Gukkie [10:40 PM]
ahh. well. i’m just
i’m shy, hyung
Yoongi hyung [10:41 PM]
I figured ㅋㅋ
I like knowing your thoughts, though.
Gukkie [10:42 PM]
you do?
Yoongi hyung [10:43 PM]
Yeah
It’s nice
It makes me think about different things and look at a different perspective
Gukkie [10:45 PM]
oh
thank you, hyung
i like that you listen, too
Yoongi hyung [10:46 PM]
Of course
Don’t hesitate in telling me, okay?
Gukkie [10:47 PM]
okay, hyung ☺️
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Gukkie [9:57 AM]
good morning, hyung!!
halmeoni said you’re going to video call her??
Yoongi hyung [10:02 AM]
Good morning, Gukkie 😊
Yeah, we texted yesterday.
Tell me when you two are free today.
Gukkie [10:08 AM]
oh, you can call anytime, hyung!
i’ll be preparing our lunch and some banchan so you might see me in the background moving a lot
i don’t know why but our banchan and gansik are almost gone again 🤔
GASP what if u ask halmeoni if she’s going on dates
Yoongi hyung [10:10 AM]
Gukkie, you’re cute but I don’t think halmeoni will want to gossip with me in front of you
Gukkie [10:11 AM]
uh
yea
you’re right
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
anyway
uh just call when you can, hyung
halmeoni is with me anyway
Incoming video call: Yoongi hyung
✧ ˚ · .
Gukkie [8:11 PM]
hyung!! i saw the behind the scenes of your photoshoot!! 😭
aaaaaaaaahh did i tell u that you’re so cool???? 🥹
Yoongi hyung [8:13 PM]
ㅋㅋㅋ hello to you too, gukkie
Really? Did you enjoy it?
Gukkie [8:14 PM]
yes!! it’s always so cool watching the behinds, especially when they’re music videos
i really enjoyed your recent videos too
and then the behinds were posted and i just thought it’s so cool!
Yoongi hyung [8:17 PM]
I’m not really involved when it comes to editing, but you can visit here and watch sometime if you’d like.
I think you’ll enjoy it a lot.
The staff are really nice and friendly.
Gukkie [8:18 PM]
omg no hyung, that’s too much!! i’m happy with the behinds
i don’t want u and others to feel like i’m using our connection
never want to make u feel awkward, hyung
Yoongi hyung [8:19 PM]
Yah, Gukkie, I don’t think you’re using connections or what.
I invited you. I want you to be here.
And so what if I’m using my connections for you? It’s nothing bad, you’re just going to visit and watch.
It’s okay, Gukkie.
Gukkie [8:20 PM]
but hyung
are you sure?
Yoongi hyung [8:21 PM]
I’m very sure. I won’t offer if I don’t want to.
You know me, Gukkie. When did I ever force myself on something I don’t like?
Gukkie [8:22 PM]
i guess that makes sense
i’m sorry, hyung.
i really enjoy being friends with you but i don’t want you to get into trouble or something
Yoongi hyung [8:23 PM]
I won’t, I promise.
You don’t have to worry, and just be yourself, okay?
We’re friends. Even if you are a fan, I don’t see any issues in that.
I’m glad that you are a fan. You’re MY fan.
I think being a fan is living with so much love, and I’m very grateful to be able to receive that. Let me appreciate you, too, okay?
Gukkie [8:25 PM]
hyung, that’s so sweet of you
thank you.
i’m happy to be your fan, too. ☺️
Yoongi hyung [8:26 PM]
Gukkie
You’re just so sweet, aren’t you?
Gukkie [8:27 PM]
aaah hyungggg 😣
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Yoongi hyung [10:39 AM]
Hi, Gukkie
Halmeoni said you forgot to bring your lunch again?
Gukkie [10:44 AM]
oh hi hyung!
yeah ☹️ i woke up kinda late
i’ll just grab food later when my work today eases up
Yoongi hyung [10:45 AM]
Oh okay. Message me when you do, alright?
And inform halmeoni , too.
Yoongi hyung [11:14 AM]
Gukkie?
Yoongi hyung [11:29 AM]
Gukkie, don’t forget to eat.
Gukkie [12:14 PM]
ahh hyung, i’m sorry, i just finished reporting!
i’ll eat later, maybe after this meeting?
i’ll message halmeoni !
Yoongi hyung [12:17 PM]
Alright, Gukkie. Take it easy, okay?
Gukkie [12:34 PM]
i will, hyung!
Yoongi hyung [12:49 PM]
Have you eaten your lunch?
Halmeoni said you didn’t eat breakfast
Gukkie [12:57 PM]
we’re not done yet, hyung ☹️
Yoongi hyung [1:03 PM]
still at the meeting?
Gukkie [1:09 PM]
yeah, so ☹️
Yoongi hyung [1:13 PM]
It’s okay, Gukkie.
I got you.
Gukkie [1:24 PM]
i think we’ll be done soon!
Yoongi hyung [1:48 PM]
Tell hyung once you’re done, okay?
Gukkie [1:56 PM]
hyung, we’re done!
ugh i hate long meetings
Yoongi hyung [1:57 PM]
Understandable. I’m sure you did well!
Gukkie [2:00 PM]
thanks, hyung.
ugh i’m sooooo hungry
Yoongi hyung [2:01 PM]
So about that…
I’m near CU? And I got you food?
Gukkie [2:01 PM]
you got me food??????
Yoongi hyung [2:02 PM]
Yeah. I figured it’d be easier and faster?
Gukkie [2:03 PM]
hyuuung you’re so
you’re so sweet
Yoongi hyung [2:04 PM]
Well
Halmeoni is worried
And I am
too
so
yeah
Gukkie [2:04 PM]
ㅋㅋ i’m in the elevator. see you, hyung!
Yoongi hyung [2:11 PM]
Sorry I had to go, I have a schedule at 3:30 PM so
Gukkie [2:12 PM]
it’s okay, hyung!! thank you for this.
it’s rly so sweet of u
Yoongi hyung [2:13 PM]
You’re always welcome, Gukkie 😊
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Yoongi hyung [9:04 AM]
Good morning, Gukkie. Halmeoni said you two are bringing lunch?
Gukkie [9:05 AM]
morning, hyung! yeah! halmeoni has a doctor's appointment, so i have a free day today. she said she wants to bring you lunch if it’s okay?
Yoongi hyung [9:06 AM]
Doctor’s appointment? She didn’t say anything about that.
She actually asked me if she could drop some food.
Is she okay?
Gukkie [9:08 AM]
ah, yes, hyung. she’s okay, just a quarterly check up!
Yoongi hyung [9:09 AM]
Ah, that’s good. I thought something happened.
You can drop by anytime, I’ll tell them to let you and halmeoni in.
But uh
Gukkie [9:10 AM]
but?
Yoongi hyung [9:11 AM]
Do you mind sending a photo? So they’ll know it’s you.
Gukkie [9:12 AM]
oh sure, hyung! hold on
will my ID be okay?
Yoongi hyung [9:13 AM]
That’s okay
Or maybe what you look and wear right now?
I don’t have any recent pictures of you so
Gukkie [9:14 AM]
oh yeah that makes sense
i thought they’d ask for ID so
Yoongi hyung [9:15 AM]
Mhm they might
But just to be sure
Gukkie [9:16 AM]
i see
do you just like
want to see me
u don’t have to be so discreet
u literally saw my middle school photos
i sent them to u hyung ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyung [9:17 AM]
I mean
Yeah, but I will really show it to my staff!
So uh
Gukkie [9:18 AM]
hyung you’re cute
Yoongi hyung [9:19 AM]
Uhm
Tae said you look like a boba ball
You look cute
Gukkie [9:20 AM]
tae? kim taehyung???
Yoongi hyung [9:21 AM]
Uh yeah
He keeps trying to peek on my phone
Cause I’ve apparently “never texted this much”
Gukkie [9:22 AM]
kim taehyung saw me????
this is crazy
Yoongi hyung [9:23 AM]
Yeah, but I’m gonna kick him out
Gukkie [9:24 AM]
sometimes i forget that you’re literally famous and you’re friends with famous people
Yoongi hyung [9:26 AM]
Oh, yeah?
Gukkie [9:27 AM]
yeah
you’re just so yoongi hyung
like
my yoongi hyung
uh
like a close friend
yeah
Yoongi hyung [9:28 AM]
Oh. That sounds nice, then.
I like that I’m your Yoongi hyung.
Gukkie [9:29 AM]
yeah ㅋㅋ
so ah
halmeoni and i are about to leave the house
i’ll meet you later, hyung?
Yoongi hyung [9:30 AM]
Of course, Gukkie.
Gukkie [9:31 AM]
i’ll message you when we get into the bus!
Yoongi hyung [9:32 AM]
Sure, Gukkie
Call me if ever you arrive and I’m not replying, okay?
Be safe.
Gukkie [9:31 AM]
yes, hyung. thank you!
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Jeongguk [9:44 AM]
jimin hyung
can i ask something
Jimin hyung [9:49 AM]
what’s up, gguk-ah
is everything okay?
you’re taking halmeoni to the doctor, right?
Jeongguk [9:51 AM]
oh, yes! everything is okay, we’re on the way to the doctor now
i’m just thinking
idk what to think tbh but
Jimin [9:52 AM]
what?
Jeongguk [9:53 AM]
what does it mean
when someone
calls u cute
Jimin [9:55 AM]
oh
is ur hyung calling u cute
Jeongguk [9:56 AM]
what noooo
Jimin [9:58 AM]
gguk-ah he’s flirting with u
Jeongguk [9:59 AM]
what? no?? that can’t be
hyung
nooo??
are u sure??
hyung???
hyuuuuung???
jimin hyung??????
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Gukkie [10:35 AM]
hyung, we’re here! but we’ll go to halmeoni ’s appointment first. it should be done before lunch!
Gukkie [10:49 AM]
halmeoni is next in line, it’s pretty quick.
we might be there sooner than i expected
Yoongi hyung [11:04 AM]
Hey, Gukkie, let me know how it goes.
Gukkie [11:39 AM]
everything is all good, hyung! although the doctor wants halmeoni to get some exercise, so she’s gonna have to do some walking
other than that, everything is fine.
we’ll be there soon!
halmeoni is so excited
this is exciting!
Yoongi hyung [11:47 AM]
That’s good!
I have someone waiting for you and halmeoni , but let me know if there’s any issues.
Gukkie [12:07 PM]
JUNG HOSEOK AND KIM TAEHYUNG ARE WAITING FOR US???
HYUNG
YOONGI HYUNG
HOLY SHIRT
Gukkie [12:18 PM]
i know we’re all talking while eating but
HYUNG
i can’t believe i’m eating with THE kim taehyung and jung hoseok
they’re like
super famous
i mean you’re super famous, too
but like
i SAW your baby pics
YOU sent them to me
you’re just a cutie pie now for me
Gukkie [12:41 PM]
omg hyung stop teasing meeeeeee
i’m not a bunny
well if i’m a bunny then you’re a cat
Yoongi hyung [12:43 PM]
Gukkie, you can speak.
They’re nice!
Gukkie [12:44 PM]
i know, hyung
but like
aaaaaaah
i’m shy
i’m glad they’re enjoying chatting with halmeoni though!
she’s so extroverted
she’s rly my token extrovert ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyung [12:46 PM]
Halmeoni is really charming so
If you’d like, you can let Tae and Hoba just take her around
There’s lots of stuff to check out
You can just stay and watch me rehearse
Gukkie [12:47 PM]
omg hyung
wait is that okay???
Yoongi hyung [12:48 PM]
Definitely.
You won’t need to worry about being spoiled, too.
There will be a lot of changes on stage. It’s still going to be different when you watch.
Gukkie [12:49 PM]
oooh hopefully i get tickets!
i’m trying to get tickets for both days ㅋㅋ
Yoongi hyung [12:50 PM]
Get tickets? I’m giving you the tickets, though?
Gukkie [12:51 PM]
ohh
i mean
won’t that be awkward?
Yoongi hyung [12:52 PM]
It won’t be, Gukkie. Besides, who will be with halmeoni ?
You’ll get tickets and backstage passes, don’t worry.
Gukkie [12:53 PM]
backstage passes??????
Yoongi hyung [12:54 PM]
Yeah. I usually give that to my friends.
Gukkie [12:55 PM]
oh
wow hyung you’re super famous and cool
Yoongi hyung [12:56 PM]
Yep, I am. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Let’s go walk for a bit with the others?
Then you can watch me rehearse.
Gukkie [12:57 PM]
yes hyunggg!!
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Gukkie [8:33 PM]
hyung, we’re home!
you didn’t need to get us a driver, but i rly rly appreciate it
Yoongi hyung [8:40 PM]
Hi Gukkie, I’m glad. 😊
Don’t worry about that, I wouldn’t want you and halmeoni to have a hard time going home when I can do something about it
Gukkie [9:03 PM]
thank u hyung
i had a great time
and your friends are super nice!
ohh i’m also glad to finally meet namjoon hyungnim!!
he’s so nice to me
Yoongi hyung [9:19 PM]
Namjoon has been my friend since I debuted!
He was an intern and was assigned to work with my manager
I’m glad you enjoyed spending time with them.
Gukkie [9:21 PM]
ooooh that sounds nice!
i rly like knowing stuff that you don’t rly talk in public
it’s like our thing
Yoongi hyung [9:23 PM]
Yeah?
I can talk about all their embarrassing moments ㅋㅋ
I’ll be home in a bit. Call?
Gukkie [9:25 PM]
oh sure, hyung! get home safely.
Yoongi hyung [10:04 PM]
Home now, Gukkie.
I’ll call.
Incoming video call: Yoongi hyung
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“Halmeoni,” Jeongguk calls from the entrance while he toes off his shoes, a frown taking over his forehead when he sees an unfamiliar pair of shoes next to his house slippers. “Do we have a guest?”
It’s not very often that they have someone over. Sometimes, some of the neighborhood halmeoni and ahjumma visit halmeoni for a chat, but they mostly spend it in the living room that overlooks the courtyard.
“Soondoongie? ” he hears halmeoni ’s voice somewhere in the dining area. Jeongguk places his work bag and laptop on their couch before walking over. “You’re early today?”
“Yeah, I’m gonna be working from home—” Jeongguk pauses when he sees the view of their dining room. “ Hyung? ”
There, in the middle of their dining area sits Yoongi with a gummy smile on his face that reaches his eyes. On his hand is a knife that he’s using to chop some garlic, looking at home and comfortable.
“Welcome home, Gukkie,” Yoongi greets, and—
And Jeongguk feels this sticky sweet and warm feeling inside his chest.
It makes him want to melt.
“Hyung— hyung, what? ” He attempts to say, still a little confused in seeing Yoongi in their dining room, wearing a black hoodie that’s so similar to Jeongguk’s favorite one.
Jeongguk doesn’t know how to handle the thought of seeing Yoongi so comfortable and at home. Like he’s always here, and he knows the house inside out.
“Well, actually…” Yoongi starts. He glances at halmeoni who is watching them with a smile on her face. “I, uh, have been visiting halmeoni .”
“Visiting?”
“Yeah, like— uh— when you’re not home for work? I usually visit her in the morning before I go to work, and uh—” Yoongi places the knife on the table and scratches his neck, wincing slightly at the realization that he’s just holding garlic earlier.
“Yoongi-ya keeps me company, soondoongie ,” Halmeoni finally says. “Why don’t you two chat while I prepare dinner, hm?”
“Okay, uhm—” Jeongguk glances down at his clothes and is reminded that he wants to change. “I’ll just change into comfortable clothes, and— yeah.”
It takes Jeongguk around five minutes or so to change from his work clothes to his comfortable hoodie and sweatpants, then washing away the makeup from his face. It’s enough to let the surprise of seeing Yoongi at their place on a Friday night mellow out to something fluttering and giddy inside his chest, as if there are butterflies gliding around his ribs.
Jeongguk doesn’t stop himself from smiling when he goes back to the living room. He finds Yoongi sitting by the threshold of their living room that overlooks the courtyard, so he sits near him. It’s the same position they had just a couple of weeks ago.
“Hyung,” Jeongguk calls as a greeting. “I didn’t expect you’d be here, but I’m glad. What’s up?”
Yoongi hums. “Just thinking.”
“About? You look… serious.”
“I was… just thinking if I’m lonely,” Yoongi mutters, his voice as soft as the wind that caresses their skin.
Jeongguk frowns as he stares at Yoongi. “Why?”
Yoongi glances to the direction of the dining room, but the structure of the house and walls hides it from their view. “Because I ended up friends with someone who I’m just grateful for support.”
Jeongguk scrunches his nose before offering a smile to him. “You mean me.”
“And halmeoni ,” Yoongi looks at him again and this time, his eyes stay on Jeongguk. “I don’t regret it. I’m glad that I did end up getting to know you and halmeoni , but… it makes me think if it’s because I’m lonely.”
Jeongguk hums because he gets it. Loneliness is something he is familiar with. It looks different on each person, but the coldness and void is similar.
“I’ve been in industry for a while, and I do know people. I have friends—the closest people to me work here, too,” Yoongi continues. “But I wonder sometimes… just— you and halmeoni easily bring my guard down.”
This time, it’s Jeongguk that needs to look away from Yoongi’s gaze and focus on the moon. It’s almost full, probably in a couple of days it will be, but the brightness is the same.
It’s still enough to make Yoongi look ethereal, like he came out from Jeongguk’s sweetest dreams.
“I know, I think,” Jeongguk starts. “Sometimes… I still feel like talking to you will stop anytime. Like all of this is just a dream, or maybe this is something that will happen just for now.”
It’s a little scary to finally admit the fear that gnaws Jeongguk, but it is something that he’s been trying to hide. And now that Yoongi is here with his honest heart, Jeongguk can’t help but share his as well. “I know you’re not like that… especially now that I got to know you as Min Yoongi, too. But sometimes, our brains get a little silly and unreasonably scared.”
“Do you want to know what I think?” Yoongi asks, so Jeongguk looks back at him and nods. “Even if I’m not an idol, and we met normally, I’d still like to get to know you.”
Jeongguk can’t help but chuckle. “That’s good. I’m a delight, after all.” Yoongi laughs, and Jeongguk can feel it wrapping his ribs, etching the sound around his heart.
“You definitely are, Gukkie.”
It’s sweet, the smell of the air that kisses their skin. Yoongi’s smile is wide and bright.
“I would have found you,” Jeongguk says. He feels himself stop for a moment, as if waiting for Yoongi. “Even if you weren’t an idol, hyung. I think I would have found you.”
Yoongi stares at him and even tilts his head slightly to the side. Maybe it’s the lateness of the night, or maybe it’s the moonshine, but Jeongguk thinks Yoongi looks like he’s painted in dreams like this.
“I would probably have looked for you, too, Gukkie.”
Jeongguk hears the soft twinkling of the wind chime somewhere on their side. It reminds him of a wish—
“I’m glad I met you, Yoongi hyung.”
It makes his heart feel—
“Me too, Gukkie.”
—cosmic.
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Jeongguk [10:37 PM]
jimin hyung
i feel weird
Jimin hyung [10:39 PM]
weird how?
Jeongguk [10:41 PM]
do u remember that hyung
Jimin hyung [10:42 PM]
of course, u always talk about him
im curious what he looks like
but what’s up
Jeongguk [10:44 PM]
it’s just
i think
i just
i think
i like him
Jimin [10:46 PM]
why do you think so?
Jeongguk [10:47 PM]
he makes me heart hurt so good
Jimin [10:48 PM]
he makes you happy?
Jeongguk [10:50 PM]
so much
Jimin [10:51 PM]
that’s a good start.
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“Hyung, you should really just stay the night,” Jeongguk says while he cleans up the plates in the coffee table where they had their dessert. “It’s late. I can just lend you some clothes.”
Yoongi hums then follows Jeongguk. “I guess so. I’ll call my manager.”
“I’m sure he’ll agree. That’ll be safer than driving this late,” Jeongguk turns to see Yoongi bringing the rest of the cups, and the leftover cake. “You already spent the night before, anyway.”
“Yeah,” Yoongi nods, then places the glasses of cups in the sink. “Let me just talk to him. Some fresh clothes would be nice, too, Gukkie.”
Jeongguk chuckles before starting to wash the plates and cups. “Go, hyung. I’ll get you clothes after this.”
“Thanks, Gukkie,” Yoongi pats Jeongguk’s hair before walking away to call his manager just like he said.
It was already past midnight when Jeongguk checked after the movie they put on ended. Since it’s almost the weekend, and they had a visitor, halmeoni insisted earlier that they spend more time together. So as she knits a scarf, they put on a movie wherein Kim Taehyung is the main character while Yoongi shares some information that he knows to them.
Jeongguk can’t help the smile on his face while he remembers how Yoongi was so excited telling him and halmeoni about the time that Taehyung barged into his studio just to make him read the script and help Taehyung rehearse. He likes it, knowing about things that Yoongi has never shared in public before.
They become more precious, something that Jeongguk knows is shared to him because of friendship and trust.
After washing the dishes, Jeongguk decides to get Yoongi some clothes, and an extra toothbrush. He passes him by pacing in the threshold with the door half open, just enough for the moon to peek inside their living room.
“Hyung, I’ll wash up first, then I’ll prepare your bed, okay?” He calls, receiving a soft acknowledgement from the rapper.
Jeongguk quickly grabs his pajamas and then heads up to the bathroom to shower, trying to be quiet while he passes by halmeoni ’s room since she’s already asleep. She went to bed just before midnight, which is already quite late for her since she usually goes to bed an hour or so after dinner.
Sometimes, Jeongguk still thinks how bizarre that he is now in this situation. If anyone told him a year ago that Yoongi will be a part of his life, and will be his friend, Jeongguk might just call them insane.
Now, Yoongi is just outside in their living room, talking to his manager about staying the night.
Like— what?
But… it’s also nice, especially now that they’ve been friends for months already.
Jeongguk just feels… connected . He’s not entirely sure how to explain it, but having Yoongi in his life like this feels like they’re not different. That even with the fame and spotlight on Yoongi, they are not so different with their feelings and emotions; their fears and regrets; their dreams and happiness.
Of course Jeongguk knows that even if they didn’t meet, both of them will go through life just like this, but… it just makes it easier.
Jeongguk feels like he’s not alone.
When Jeongguk steps out of the bathroom, he sees Yoongi standing in the hallway while staring at the row of photos that are hanging on the wall.
“Hyung?” Jeongguk calls, just to make sure he announces his presence and not to surprise Yoongi even though he’s sure that Yoongi probably heard him get out of the bathroom.
Yoongi turns to him, a soft smile pulls the corners of his eyes into something sweet and fond.
It makes Jeongguk want to—
“You have your eomma ’s eyes, Gukkie,” Yoongi says.
Jeongguk breathes, his chest shaking slightly. It always happens at random moments, especially when Yoongi looks at him like this.
“Uh— yeah,” Jeongguk nods then walks closer to where Yoongi is standing. “ Halmeoni always says that I always remind her of eomma . Like, I look like appa , but the eyes are undoubtedly eomma .”
“Yeah, I can see that,” Yoongi agrees, glancing at the only family photo that Jeongguk has with his parents. “You have such big eyes… it makes you look younger and more innocent.”
Jeongguk wrinkles his nose. “I guess. I used to get teased when I was a kid because of it.”
“What? Why?”
“I don’t know. Kids are just like that.”
“I think it’s pretty,” Yoongi says, making Jeongguk stare at his profile. They’re close—closer than Jeongguk realizes. He can even see the freckle on Yoongi’s cheek. “When I first saw you, I was a little startled because you look so… I mean, your eyes seem to twinkle. I know it’s probably the lights, but sometimes, I think you have stars in your eyes. You’re just so— uh… they’re pretty.”
Jeongguk almost melts. “Thank you, hyung,” he replies, trying to keep his breathing even despite the way his whole chest is bursting at the seams. “It’s nice when people say that my eyes are pretty. I think it also means that they find my eomma ’s eyes pretty,” he giggles. “ Appa loved eomma ’s eyes because they’re so honest and filled with love. Halmeoni says it’s like that because eomma really loves appa .”
Yoongi faces him, and— maybe it’s because of the soft light overhead, and the serenity of the night, but… he looks like he’s painted with dreams.
It startles Jeongguk’s heart.
“I— I think that makes sense,” Yoongi’s voice is soft, almost a whisper. Jeongguk can’t help but lean closer and watch Yoongi’s lips, feeling a little mesmerized. “Your eyes— they’re— I mean, it’s like— uh— I think that’s one of the reasons why I trust you completely. You just— you look at me like— like—”
Jeongguk breathes. He can smell Yoongi’s perfume, musky yet gentle. “Like what, hyung?”
“Like—”
It’s dizzying, the warm breath that caresses Jeongguk’s skin, the touch so light it’s like butterfly fluttering on the space between him and Yoongi.
And— he can almost count Yoongi’s lashes, though he ends up just watching them brush against the apple of Yoongi’s cheeks.
Does— Is— is Yoongi—
“Hyung—”
The world stops.
Jeongguk didn’t even notice that he’s calling for Yoongi, only realizing it the moment he heard it and their eyes met.
They’re so— close.
A breath away.
Jeongguk quickly straightens his back, feeling like a whiplash.
“I— I— I’ll get you clothes—” Jeongguk stumbles, quickly backing up. “Hyung— I’ll— leave it outside the— the bathroom.”
Yoongi stares at him unmoving. He looks like he’s holding his breath. “Okay— I— that’s fine.”
As if there is someone chasing him, Jeongguk almost flees the scene, head spinning with what— what almost happened, and his heart hammering inside his ribs.
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Yoongi hyung [4:43 AM]
Hey, Gukkie.
Thanks for last night.
Sorry I didn’t stay this morning.
I have some schedules so
I also messaged halmeoni
So yeah
Gukkie [7:33 AM]
oh hey hyung, good morning.
that’s okay
uhm you forgot the gansik
and banchan
Yoongi hyung [10:04 AM]
Ah, did I?
I’ll get it on a different day.
Gukkie [10:08 AM]
sure, hyung!
Yoongi hyung [10:17 AM]
Yeah
So
Uh I have a meeting
I’ll talk to you later?
Gukkie [10:24 AM]
sure, hyung, no worries!
uhm
have a great day!
Yoongi hyung [10:29 AM]
You too, Gukkie 😊
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Gukkie [9:39 PM]
hi hyung
uhm
i’m home
sry i was busy today
uhm yeah
please let me know when you got home
good night! ☺️
Yoongi hyung [11:39 PM]
Hi, Gukkie
I’m glad you got home early
Yeah, I was a little busy
I’m actually working
So uh I’ll let you rest
Good night, Gukkie 😊
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Yoongi hyung [6:03 AM]
Hi Gukkie
I’m dropping by there. I promised halmeoni that I’ll get the banchan and ganshik
Do you maybe want to ride back to Seoul together?
Gukkie [7:31 AM]
hi hyung!!
ah well
i’m actually gonna need to be in the office earlier than usual
so uhm
maybe next time?
Yoongi hyung [7:37 AM]
Oh of course!
Be safe, okay?
Gukkie [8:03 AM]
you too, hyung!
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Gukkie [10:04 PM]
hi hyung
can i ask something
Yoongi hyung [11:32 PM]
Gukkie, hey.
Of course. What is it?
Gukkie [11:34 PM]
uhm
i just
ah
well
are u visiting soon?
uh
halmeoni misses u so
Yoongi hyung [11:39 PM]
Oh, does she?
Gukkie [11:44 PM]
yeah!
uhm i know you’re super busy
but yeah ㅋ she misses u a lot
Yoongi hyung {11:51 PM]
I miss her too
A lot
I’ve been busy
And just
Dealing with stuff
But I really want to see her
Gukkie [11:56 PM]
uhm she rly wants to see u too
she made your favorites
so u know
when u visit
Yoongi hyung [11:58 PM]
Ohh. That’s sweet.
I’ll try to visit soon.
Uhm I think she’s busy?
Do you know if she’ll be home this week?
Gukkie [12:03 AM]
oh yeah!
i mean
we’ll be home
she and i
so
Yoongi hyung [12:04 AM]
Okay, that’s good.
I’ll visit and give the tickets?
So we can see each other.
I miss her a lot.
Gukkie [12:05 AM]
okay, hyung
she misses u a lot too.
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“Yoongi-ya looked like he lost weight when he visited earlier,” Halmeoni says thoughtfully while they fold their laundry. On their TV is a variety show where Yoongi guested months ago. “He’s getting busy with the concert, isn’t he?”
Jeongguk glances at halmeoni before returning to the shirt that he’s holding. It’s been a while since… that night. Their messages have been sparse, too, with Yoongi sharing that since the concert is so close, most of his time is spent rehearsing or basically just working. In just a few days, the first night of the concert will happen.
“Yeah, halmeoni ,” Jeongguk nods in agreement to halmeoni because it’s weird if he doesn’t. “Sometimes, he replies to my messages past midnight. I think it’s because the concert is almost there.”
“Oh, yes. I always remind him to eat on time and get some rest,” Halmeoni replies. Jeongguk looks at her while she watches Yoongi on the TV. “He tries to text me back immediately, but it’s not as often as before. I didn’t expect that idols would be this busy. I just hope he’s eating well.”
Jeongguk hums, not sure what to tell her. A part of him is relieved to know that Yoongi is really just busy and is not purposely avoiding him. Truth be told, it is Jeongguk that seems to find ways and excuses not to reach out to Yoongi like before.
Ever since that night, Jeongguk has been a mess of emotions and thoughts. He didn’t know what caused him to act like that—he didn’t even notice what he was doing, and just realized it when Yoongi was close to him.
If they didn’t stop, would have they—
Jeongguk sighs.
He can’t stop thinking about that— almost kiss. What does it mean?
Of course, Jeongguk isn’t blind. Yoongi is beautiful and attractive, and it always blows his mind how he is allowed to see him. But after getting the chance to get to know him more than someone that Jeongguk sees in videos and hears on songs, he can’t help but just… hold him dear to his heart.
“ Halmeoni , what do you think of Yoongi hyung?” Jeongguk asks, stealing a glance at halmeoni before going back to folding their clothes.
“Yoongi-ya?” Halmeoni says. “I think… he’s incredibly sweet and kind. He’s a very gentle person, Gukkie.”
Jeongguk nods. “I think so, too. He’s just… he never makes me feel that there is a barrier between him and me, you know? Like I’m a fan, but he’s so respectful of that fact. He says being a fan is living with so much love. I think— I think that’s nice, halmeoni .”
“That does sound nice,” Halmeoni agrees. “You’re his friend now, too, Gukkie.”
“Do you— do you think so, halmeoni ? What if it looks like I’m just— I don’t know… using our connection to be close to him?”
“Gukkie,” Halmeoni calls. She reaches out to grab Jeongguk’s hand and squeeze it. It does a lot to calm his heart. “You can idolize and support him while being a good friend. You two have been caring and kind to each other. I’ve seen how you two are around each other, and I know that what you two have isn’t you taking advantage of knowing him personally, and Yoongi just being kind to a fan.”
Jeongguk frowns. “Do you really think so, halmeoni ?”
“You don’t need to separate being his fan to being a good friend to him. Clearly, Yoongi is not separating the fact that you are his fan and his friend. Isn’t he grateful for your support, and even gives you the chance to be there for him?” Halmeoni asks, leaning a little so she can look at him. “It might be scary, Gukkie. But I think Yoongi will always be there for you.”
“ Halmeoni …” Jeongguk breathes. He can feel his heart hammering on his chest. “I— I just… Hyung and I almost… almost kissed, so—”
“Mhm, I know.”
Jeongguk pauses. He stares at his halmeoni who is almost done folding the rest of the laundry.
“You… know?” Jeongguk repeats, dumbfounded.
Halmeoni glances at him, offering a small smile that’s full of understanding. “Yoongi talks to me about a lot of stuff, but… it’s mostly about you. Last time he visited, he talked to me.”
“He did? About what?”
“I think he can tell you about that,” Halmeoni chuckles. “What about you, Gukkie? What’s on your mind?”
Jeongguk breathes deeply, remembering all his uncertainty and worry. Now that he knows that Yoongi talks about him with halmeoni , it only makes him think more.
“I’m just… scared, halmeoni . I think— I think—”
“You like Yoongi?”
Jeongguk takes a moment to reply because… saying it makes it so real. Like it’s a secret that he cannot hide anymore.
“I— I do, halmeoni . But— I’m scared that he’s… he’ll think it’s just because he’s someone I liked as an artist.”
“He’s still Yoongi, Gukkie.”
“I know, halmeoni . It’s just that…” Jeongguk sighs, the anxiety and fear heavy on his shoulders. “It’s scary.”
Halmeoni looks at him then takes both of his hands, holding them for comfort. “Love can be scary, Gukkie. But you know what I think?”
“What?”
“It’s better to love and risk getting your heart broken, than to live in the shadows of what ifs and could have been.”
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Gukkie [9:41 AM]
hi yoongi hyung
uhm
good luck on your show ☺️
Yoongi hyung [9:42 AM]
Hi, Gukkie.
Thank you. Finally, it’s the d-day 😊
I’ll see you later?
Gukkie [9:43 AM]
yes, hyung, see you!
Yoongi hyung [9:54 AM]
Gukkie, can you stay after the show?
Seokjin hyung wants to meet halmeoni . I mentioned that we’re close.
Gukkie [9:55 AM]
oh of course, hyung! halmeoni will love that. ☺️
Yoongi hyung [9:56 AM]
Thanks, Gukkie
Make sure to watch me. 😊
Gukkie [9:58 AM]
i always watch you, hyung
have fun on stage
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The concert was something Jeongguk never expected. Maybe because he knows Yoongi better now. But, Jeongguk thinks he is beyond amazing. He was electrifying on stage, captivating all his attention and making Jeongguk just look at him . Even though Jeongguk had seen parts of it in rehearsal, it was still different seeing it performed on stage with a live band and Yoongi performing with all his heart.
But… even if Jeongguk doesn’t personally know him, he thinks he will always find Yoongi incredible.
It doesn’t really matter anymore. He is Jeongguk’s Yoongi hyung as much as he is Min Yoongi and Agust D.
“Oh, Gukkie, are you sure we can go inside?” Halmeoni asks while they make their way to the staff that assisted them earlier in their assigned seat. As per her conversation with Jeongguk, she’s the one who they can go to if ever they need anything.
Jeongguk holds halmeoni ’s hand and squeezes it. His heart is jumping around his chest like it’s trying to chase after the butterflies that are flying around inside him. They’re supposed to meet Yoongi soon, and it’s going to be the first time Jeongguk will see him after that night.
“Yoongi hyung wants you to go backstage, halmeoni ,” Jeongguk assures. He wraps his hand around halmeoni ’s arm to squeeze it lightly. “I’m sure he’ll want to know how much you enjoyed the show.”
“Oh, I definitely did! Everything is so exciting! And everyone was all singing and jumping,” Halmeoni gushes, her eyes twinkling from excitement.
“Hyung would definitely be happy to hear that, halmeoni ,” Jeongguk giggles.
When they finally arrive backstage, Jeongguk is surprised with how everyone is rushing to be where they need to be and what they need to do. There are people with cameras and cords, and some just have themselves, but with a rushed expression on their faces.
Jeongguk finds it interesting, especially when he remembers both the similarity and differences of what he sees in videos.
“Jeongguk-ssi, halmeonim , Yoongi-ssi is in the green room,” the staff told them while they walked their way to who knows where. “I’ll take you there. It should just be somewhere here.”
“That’s so kind of you,” Halmeoni smiles. “How did you know, by the way? You’ve been with us the whole time!”
The staff chuckles then shows her ear where a bluetooth earphone is placed. “I have this device where I can hear and talk to other staff. It makes communicating easier, halmeonim . Especially since the crowd is loud.”
Halmeoni , being the ever lovely person that she is, continues chatting with the staff while Jeongguk just follows them while trying to make sure that his heart is not jumping out of his chest. What is he supposed to say to Yoongi when they meet? Is telling him that the show is fun and incredible enough? Will they need to talk about that night?
For some time now, Jeongguk has accepted the fact that he likes Yoongi so much—that he might be falling for him too fast and too hard. How can he not when Yoongi is so perfect? So kind and sweet to him and his halmeoni ? There is so much warmth and gentleness from Yoongi’s being that Jeongguk can’t help but melt into.
“Yoongi-ssi should be here,” the staff finally announces to them, giving them a smile before knocking at the door and turning the knob open. “He’s expecting you.”
Jeongguk knows that. It doesn’t stop the way butterflies flutter inside him.
A group of people welcomes Jeongguk and halmeoni once they enter the room, most of them recognizable by Jeongguk as he already met them when he visited Yoongi in the company. Despite that, his eyes immediately goes to the person that sits on the arm of the couch, the familiar smile that shows his teeth and gum welcoming them.
“Oh, halmeonim is here!” It’s Taehyung who immediately greets them with his arms wide open for halmeoni . Behind him is Hoseok, and a guy he hasn’t met. “Hello, halmeonim, Jeongguk-ssi.”
Jeongguk bows slightly to them as a greeting. He watches while his halmaeoni greets all of them and gives Taehyung a pat on the head.
“Hello, halmeonim, ” One of them greets. Jeongguk bows his head once more at the realization that it is Kim Seokjin that stands with Taehyung and Hoseok. “I’ve heard many things about you and Jeon Jeongguk-ssi. My name is Kim Seokjin.”
“Aigoo, all these handsome men. My dear husband is going to be jealous,” Halmeonim chuckles, earning a laugh from the others. Jeongguk wrinkles his nose but ends up joining them. “I hope it’s all good things, Seokjin-ssi.”
“Don’t worry, halmeonim ,” Hoseok places his hand around Seokjin’s shoulder. “It’s all wonderful things. Yoongi hyung here keeps bragging about him being your favorite, too.”
“What? I’m just telling the truth!” Yoongi responds, and Jeongguk can’t help but look at him before looking back at the others out of nerves.
Halmeoni smiles. “I must say, it is true. Yoongi-ya, you did so well on your performance. It’s so amazing!”
“Ah, halmeoni , thank you,” Yoongi stands and offers a hug for her. “I’m very happy that you liked it.”
“Oh, I did. You can ask soondoongie here, we were enjoying the whole show.”
The sudden mention of him makes Jeongguk feel all hot and flustered. He’s already certain that his whole face is burning red, especially from all the attention from the others, and especially from Yoongi.
“Ah— yes, uhm, it was— it was amazing, hyung,” He tries to speak, though the words come tumbling. Despite that, Yoongi’s smile becomes bigger if that’s possible. “You were— you’re so cool, hyung.”
“Thank you, Gukkie,” Yoongi says, voice soft and gentle that it almost gets lost from the chaos of his friends.
For a while, all of them talk about the concert while they ask halmeoni about her thoughts. She has a lot of questions which the others happily answer, especially Yoongi. Watching them is enough to make Jeongguk happy, even though he rarely joins their conversation. He’s more content in seeing his halmeoni interact with them, charming them just like the person that she is. And it’s nice because they indulge her, making sure to answer all her questions and even share some details and information on how everything goes.
“Oh, there was some discussion if we should use an upright piano, or a digital piano,” Seokjin shares when halmeoni asks about the piano Yoongi used in one of his songs. “But Yoongichi and I agreed that it would be impractical to travel with something delicate, so it would be best to use a keyboard.”
“That’s interesting. I thought it looked so nice when I saw it in the screen,” Halmeoni comments.
“It’s actually pretty up close, halmeoni ,” Taehyung adds. “We can take you to see it?”
“Oh, will that be okay? I always love Yoongi-ya’s songs with the piano,” Halmeoni tells them, making Yoongi fluster while the others tease him. “My soondoongie likes to play them at night, so I always hear them.”
“Jeongguk-ssi, you’re the one that converted halmeoni as a fan, right?” Seokjin addresses him.
Jeongguk glances quickly to Yoongi and sees him nod with a smile before turning to Seokjin. He finds it comforting to see Yoongi despite the nerves of being focused on by the man that built a whole entertainment company from the ground up.
“Uh, yes. I’ve been a fan around hyung’s debut, so halmeoni is familiar with his songs even before,” Jeongguk replies. “But she really liked the songs from the latest album, and she started to ask more and actively listen. It’s fun letting her talk about it, and I think some fans enjoy knowing her thoughts.”
“Yeah, that’s how Yoongi found you,” Seokjin nods.
“I liked talking about Yoongi-ya’s songs, too. I found very nice people because of it,” Halmeoni adds, and it makes Jeongguk smile because it’s true. “They’d be so happy to know that I saw your concert!”
Hoseok giggles. “That’s so cute, halmeoni . Come on, we’ll help you take pictures and videos so you can share it with them!”
“Oh, that’s very thoughtful, Hoseok-ah. I’d love to,” Halmeoni nods.
“Okay! We’ll go take pictures and leave you two here,” Taehyung announces. Jeongguk can’t help but look at them with wide eyes.
Halmeoni turns to Jeongguk and pats his hand before squeezing it. She looks at him with encouragement and Jeongguk isn’t sure what to tell her.
“You stay here while Yoongi-ya rests, soondoongie ,” she tells him. “I’m sure he’s tired, so I’ll let these handsome men help me with pictures, okay?”
“Heard that, Yoongichi? Halmeoni just called me handsome,” Seokjin cackles, and it was such a friendly sound that Jeongguk smiles as well.
“Yah, she called us all handsome,” Taehyung interrupts, though he is already by the doorway. “What can you say, hyung?”
Yoongi slumps at the couch while waving them away. “I’m still her favorite.”
Jeongguk giggles before nodding, though he knows he’ll need to talk to Yoongi. “Okay, halmeoni . Have fun.”
It takes a moment for their group to settle down with all the teasing and bickering around halmeoni before they all finally leave Yoongi and Jeongguk alone.
The silence is unnerving and unfamiliar, especially since despite everything, the two of them have been comfortable with each other. But after that night, the silence turned tangible.
All they did was run away from it.
“Gukkie,” Yoongi calls. His voice is gentle despite the roughness around the edges, probably due to the concert. “Come sit?”
Jeongguk turns to him and offers him a small smile. His chest is full of butterflies fluttering around his heart. “Hi, hyung,” he greets, then sits on the middle of the couch, near enough that Yoongi won’t think he’s avoiding him, but far enough that it won’t be awkward.
Yoongi watches him, tilting his head on the side a little before straightening up from being slumped on the couch. “Did you like the show?”
“Of course, I—” Jeongguk quickly answers, but the smile on Yoongi’s face makes it hard to think of anything except how good he looks. “You’re so cool, hyung.”
Yoongi chuckles. He places his elbow on his knee and plants his chin on his hand. “I’m glad,” he says. “I… I wanted to look cool for you.”
Jeongguk’s gaze quickly snaps up to meet Yoongi’s eyes at the quiet admittance of the other. “You… you did?”
“Yeah, I…” Yoongi shrugs before smiling. “Isn’t it silly? I want you to look at me.”
“I… I…” Jeongguk tries, but the thoughts in his head are too fast and too much, and all he can think is he loves looking at Yoongi. “I always look at you.”
“Do you?” Yoongi raises his eyebrows, and Jeongguk can’t help but look away at how Yoongi’s eyes that don't stray away from him. It feels intense, especially with the warm, sticky feeling that’s melting around his heart. “It feels like you’re looking away whenever I look at you.”
Jeongguk’s breath hitches on his throat. He can almost hear it, the way his heart is hammering on his chest as if it wanted to escape from inside him and jump on Yoongi’s hands.
Can he lay his heart bare to him?
“You— you—” Jeongguk tries. He swallows the lump on his throat before continuing. “You— fluster me, hyung.”
“Do I?” Yoongi asks. “You always see me, though.”
Jeongguk closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. He doesn’t know what will happen, but he might as well be honest. What can go wrong anymore?
“Yeah, but—” Jeongguk whispers. His hand found the ID that indicates a backstage pass in front of his chest, making him clutch to it for support. “That’s before— uh—”
“Before I almost kissed you?”
Jeongguk feels his whole world stop. Did he— Is— Wait— What— ?
Jeongguk opens his eyes to look at Yoongi. He finds him playing with the hem of his shirt, while his whole face and neck is blooming in red.
“I’m— I— But, I almost kissed you,” Jeongguk stutters, unsure with what is going on.
He’s the one that leaned close that night. What is Yoongi saying?
Yoongi frowns slightly before meeting his gaze. “I did… that’s why I thought you avoided me.”
“What? No, no, hyung,” Jeongguk immediately shakes his head, moving closer to where Yoongi sits. “That’s— no, hyung. I— I thought I was— it’s just that— I realized that I wanted to kiss you, and I got… scared.”
“Scared?”
Jeongguk nods then breathes deeply. “I didn’t want you to think that I was— taking advantage of our friendship…”
“Gukkie… you’re saying that you wanted to… kiss me?” Yoongi says slowly as if he’s trying to find the right words to say.
Jeongguk can’t help but look away, nodding slightly. His whole being is a mess of warmth, as if there is a sun shining down a garden filled with flowers and butterflies inside his chest. He’s been familiar with the feeling for a while now, especially since he always feels it whenever he’s talking to Yoongi or he is around.
“Hyung, you make me feel—”
“I like you.”
The whole world stops.
Or maybe, it’s just Jeongguk. Because all he can see is Yoongi, the words that he said slowly wrapping around the ribs in his chest, branding them with something akin to tenderness.
“You… like me?” Jeongguk whispers, though it still sounds too loud, too real.
He watches as Yoongi takes a deep breath and asks for his hand. Jeongguk allows himself to intertwine his fingers on Yoongi’s.
“Ah— I was supposed to say this in a more romantic place instead of the green room, but…” Yoongi nibbles his lip before smiling fondly at him, his gaze is so shy and it shows with the way his whole face is kissed in red. “I didn’t even notice it. I don’t know when it started or how, I just know that I love talking to you and being with you. The more that I got to know you, the more I thought how sweet and kind you are. I just… should this even make sense, Gukkie? I just… I like you.”
Jeongguk has to take a breath before speaking, his hold on Yoongi’s hand is tight, but he can’t find it in himself to let go when it is what grounds him.
“Hyung, I— I’ve always thought that— I was so scared at first that I’m like this because I’ve always admired you, but…” Jeongguk squeezes Yoongi’s hand. “When I try to even understand what I feel for you, it’s too big to completely comprehend and I just… hyung, you— it always feels like there’s a garden filled with butterflies inside me because of you. I— I feel the whole universe when I’m with you.”
Yoongi chuckles softly before letting his head fall on Jeongguk’s shoulder, leaning on him until they’re so close. It’s the closest they have ever been before that night they almost kissed.
Jeongguk feels warm all over him.
“Ah, Gukkie. You make me feel like—” Jeongguk feels Yoongi’s breath on his neck, making him shiver slightly at the sensation. “I feel so warm inside. You would think a lyric writer would say better words, but… I just feel happy and warm.”
Jeongguk hums, content with their closeness especially when Yoongi moves to snuggle close. “Like sunshine?”
Yoongi leans back to look at his face. It’s still there, the flustering feeling of being so full of affection, and the realization that their feelings for each other are the same, and— it’s nice.
“Yeah,” Yoongi nods, quickly leaning close to drop a kiss on Jeongguk’s nose and pulling a laugh from him. “Like sunshine.”
Jeongguk smiles at him, then plants a light kiss on his cheek. It’s like the whole universe is inside him.
✧ ˚ · .
Min Yoongi <[email protected]>
Hello!
I am sending this email to inform you that our artists, Min Yoongi and Agust D, would like to invite you for a date.
It came to their attention about you who have been so supportive and lovely. They know how much you do your best even on little things. They love how much you make sure to take care of your halmeoni . They think you’re someone they’d love to have in their life for a long time.
Our artists Min Yoongi and Agust D hope that you’d let them take you out on a date and maybe let them be part of your life for a long time as well.
You may let us know your available dates and hopefully, all the available dates in the future.
Min Yoongi and Agust D would also like to tell you that you’re very pretty.
The one and only,
Your Yoongi hyung
✧ ˚ · .
Jeon Jeongguk <[email protected]> Mon, Nov 25, 7:19PM
Hyung, you’re so silly. Of course, I’d love to go on a date with you.
I’m free this Saturday for a date. And maybe the next day, too. And the next. I think I’ll go on a date with you for a long, long, long time, hyung.
Your one and only,
Jeon Jeongguk
✧ ˚ · .
The moon is hanging high up in the sky again, shining proudly at Jeongguk and Yoongi while they sit together on the threshold of the living room. They are warm against the wind that makes the wind chime sing, accompanying the music of the night with its own twinkling.
It’s a little late now. Yoongi arrived a couple of hours ago to visit halmeoni and surprise Jeongguk with some banchan that he personally made—a change from their usual where Jeongguk cooks for Yoongi.
“Hyung,” Jeongguk suddenly calls for Yoongi’s attention. “You never told me why you decided to invite halmeoni for that video call.”
Yoongi hums before straightening up. His hand reaches out to brush the strands of hair that’s on Jeongguk’s forehead—it’s getting long, but Yoongi said he likes it, so…
“Should I tell you?” Yoongi asks, his tone teasing despite the smile on his face. Jeongguk just pouts and immediately buries his face on Yoongi’s chest while nodding. “Okay, okay. You’re so cute, you know?” Yoongi chuckles when Jeongguk wraps his hands around Yoongi’s waist and squeezes him. “I usually watch videos like that. It’s fun, you know? And I hear their perspective. But… most of my fans are around our age. I think that’s why halmeoni got stuck in me. She always has something interesting to say, and… I like how she interacts with other fans. She’s just really sweet and nice.”
Jeongguk nods, because it’s true. “Yeah, halmeoni can charm anyone like that,” he says, though it comes out muffled so Yoongi chuckles at him.
“That’s true. That’s one of the reasons why,” Jeongguk feels Yoongi’s hand run soothingly on his back, making him lean back and look at him. “It’s also so funny when she talks to you. Did you know you two bicker a lot?”
“What? We don’t,” Jeongguk straightens up and frowns, unsure if he’s right. He does like spoiling his halmeoni , but she also likes to tease him, so he does it, too.
Yoongi laughs softly. “You do! But it’s cute. It’s just so nice, so I got curious, especially because she always talks about me to this soondoongie person behind the camera. That’s when Namjoonie contacted you.”
Jeongguk wrinkles his nose, but relents with a smile when Yoongi pulls him closer to a hug. “Alright, I guess it’s true.”
“You’re so cute, aren’t you?” Yoongi chuckles, cupping Jeongguk cheeks before placing a kiss on his forehead. “Makes me wanna kiss you.”
“Hm, why not?” Jeongguk asks, a little cheeky, making Yoongi laugh louder.
“Yeah, I guess this moment is romantic enough,” Yoongi brushes his thumb on Jeongguk’s face, leaving a trail of warmth and adoration. “Can I finally have our first kiss under the moonlight?
Jeongguk giggles. He watches as Yoongi’s eyes twinkle from happiness and the glow of the moon.
“You’re so silly, hyung,” he says. “It makes me like you so much.”
“Good, because I like you very, very much.”
When they kiss, it’s warm, and sweet . There is the softness that comes from Yoongi, and it envelops Jeongguk’s being. He can’t help the smile that slips between their kisses, especially because Yoongi kisses him just like he treats him—with gentle fondness and adoration. Like he wants to take his time doing it; like he’s already falling for him.
When they lean back to look at each other, Jeongguk smiles at him. Yeah, he’s falling in love. And it feels like—
Jeongguk feels cosmic.