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1. My bloody steps leave a trail (I beg you to follow) by That_humanpersonthing

   Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/F, F/M, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   08 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Christopher Diaz & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley & Christopher Diaz & Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley & Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Athena Grant/Bobby Nash
   • Henrietta "Hen" Wilson/Karen Wilson
   • Maddie Buckley/Howie "Chimney" Han
   • Eddie Diaz & Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV)
   • Maddie Buckley & Eddie Diaz
   • Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Evan "Buck" Buckley
   • Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Bobby Nash
   • Athena Grant
   • Henrietta "Hen" Wilson
   • Howie "Chimney" Han
   • Maddie Buckley
   • Karen Wilson
   • Ravi Panikkar
   • Helena Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Ramon Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Marisol (9-1-1 TV)
   • Tommy Kinard
   • Depression
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Eddie Diaz is a Mess (9-1-1 TV)
   • Eddie Diaz Is Not Okay (9-1-1 TV)
   • Worried Firehouse 118 Crew (9-1-1 TV)
   • Eddie Diaz Needs a Hug (9-1-1 TV)
   • Worried Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV)
   • Worried Maddie Buckley
   • Past Eddie Diaz/Marisol (9-1-1 TV)
   • Past Evan "Buck" Buckley/Tommy Kinard
   • Eddie Diaz Has Bad Parents (9-1-1 TV)

   Summary

   What if Eddie wasn't ok after Chris left. What if his days started with a practiced smile, and scratches on his thighs so he could feel something other then the numbness. To make him feel something, after being left with nothing when his son walked out the door. What if Eddie saw no hope in getting what he wanted back, he made a plan.

   Or what if Eddie gives himself two weeks to ensure everything will be ok, and then he'll be gone.

   Series

   • Part 16 of What I wanted to happen (Of course it didn't)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   27,456

   Chapters:

   21/25

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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   Bookmarks:

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