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Overview and Disclaimers:

This is a work with Multiple Implied Ships with both Doomed Yuri or W/W and Doomed Yaoi or M/M.

There will also be Comp(licated) Ships like "Monster x Human" and the ever dreadful "Immortal x Mortal" that Twitter seems to hate. (But somehow they don't hate Edward or Bella's relationship when Edward is 104 years old while Bella is a 17 year old. Sidenote: This goes out to the Genshin Impact Shipping Fandom, no hate to the rest of the fandom though.)

I will be tagging the implied ships as the slash line because i like to see people suffer and cry when their ship gets heavily implied, but, because that isn't the main focus, they can only take the breadcrumbs, kind of like the actual anime. (I see you Asagiri with your heavily implied Shin Soukoku and Soukoku, your not sly, especially not to BSD fans.)

There will be many references to different songs, mostly Chappell Roan references since... Chappell Roan is Chappell Roan. You can't go wrong with that.

I also don't know if i will add the "Hurt no Comfort" or the "Hurt with Comfort" tag because, again, the "ships" aren't exactly the main focus of the fanfic, and the two tags are mostly for shipping purposes.

This is also my own AU, so there will be things that aren't exactly canon. Like how Fukuzawa's divorced with Mori and Fukuchi, Chuuya and Dazai also being Divorced, Bram's wife being reincarnated as someone (maybe an original character or one of the actual BSD characters, I haven't chosen yet), Verlaine being a widow, etc.

I don't know if this should count as Dead Dove: Do Not Eat since I'm planning for the future chapters to have sensitive topics like body dysmorphia, explicitly describe insides and death, and just really gorey contents. So I will try to update this.

The tags on this fanfic are already maxed so, I won't be able to add the "Dead Dove: Do Not Eat" tag when and if it's Dead Dove, so I will be leaving this first chapter as a warning about my plans and updates for this fanfiction. But right now, I won't flag it as Dead Dove because I don't want to mislead my audience.

This is also a really bad fanfic in my opinion, especially since English isn't my first language and isn't exactly good. I also don't pre-read my works after I'm done with them, so if there are any inconsistencies and mistakes that you find, feel free to comment it.

Honestly, whenever I read comments, I feel so motivated to continue writing so please, feel free to comment the support really means a lot to me.

This is my first update on the disclaimers because the tagging system is full, and I can't add more, but, a tag I'd like to add is the self-harm tag, which will be emphasized in the later chapters along with somewhat questional infected behaviors since their meant to be rotting parasites, so, disclaimer about that.

Second update on the disclaimers, but, when I said "all ships are implied" I mean you'd assume I was leading you all in a rabbit hole of doomed ship territory, especially now that I re-read the chapters I'll soon post, finish and proof-read, so, yeah, just a warning. I don't know if I should say "yearning" or other tags, more like Atsushi and Chuuya reminiscing all the times their "other black" partner were acting like a pain-in-the-hole.

Third update... I might rewrite the first chapter beecause, while re-reading this, it seems so... off... I might do it, but, yeah, who knows.

Thank you!

—Yours Truly, Loucine.