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Fermín was used to being alone, used to being the odd one out in a group and he had gotten used to it. Found no problem with it, he had always been a nerd, a football nerd and understood that others didn’t always understand nor like his obsession. So instead he was left alone to the side to obsess and engross himself in the sport he loved so much.
It was first at La Masia he had found his people, boys who were equally as engrossed and obsessed with football as he was. He had found people like him, he had found a group and he belonged somewhere, with someone. He had never been happier. He had gotten friends, found his people and in a very cliche way found himself too.
He was a part of something he loved and the dream just grew and grew with the years that went. He knew he could and would make it, and with the confidence he got he grew, in the sport but also in himself, he grew upp and before he knew it he was there, in the first team, at the very top and it was everything he had ever dreamt of.
He belonged like never before and something else bloomed, a new belonging, a deeper and more intimate one, one he was so deeply affectionate about and one he cared for so much. It was much deeper than football, deeper than friends, it was something so very close to his heart, something so sacred to him he didn’t know what to do without it. He knew deep down that without this connection, without this special feeling of belonging he would no longer belong here.
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He stared at the two, sitting on the sofa together. They looked perfect together, like they were meant to be, Robert’s arms wrapped around Gavi’s smaller body, his nose pressed against the alpha's scent gland. It made something ugly in him stir, an emotion he didn’t want nor like but couldn't control.
He used to be a part of it, of them. He’d had his spot at their sides, they were like a puzzle, fitting perfectly together until one day he wasn’t a part of the puzzle anymore. It was like somebody had thrown his peace away and connected the other two tighter instead, like he never were a part of it. It hadn’t been quick and drastic, rather slow and drawn out. He had slowly lost it. Slowly eased out of his usual slot and made more space for them. He couldn’t tell when it began, maybe it was when Gavi became pregnant, maybe it was before. Maybe he had never been a part of it like he thought he had been. Regardless, it hurt, hurt so much he didn’t know how to handle the pain.
He bent his head down, his characteristic move, hunching down, making himself smaller than he was.
“Fermín!”
Gavi’s voice was filled with cheer and Fermín hesitantly looked up “Come here” the other omega smiled gently and he did, moving stiffly until he stood in front of them, not understanding their confusion. “Come” Gavi repeated as he tugged at his sleeve, causing him to sit down on his other side. His arm slung around him and he stiffened, he didn’t know why, they used to touch him all the time but not anymore, all touched reserved to each other, none left to him. Only when they had sex did he get it and it wasn’t that often anymore with the pregnancy and all that came with it.
“Fermín are you okay?” Gavi hummed softly, Fermín nodded didn’t know what else to do “I’m fine” he reassured, his voice soft but still tense just like he was. “You sure?”
“Mhm”
Gavi didn’t protest anymore but nestled closer to him, let his nose brush his neck, so so close to his scent gland and oh how long had it been since he was scented for real? He did everything he could to stop himself from begging for it. Gavi smiled at him, a soft loose so Gavi smile and Fermín basked in his attention. Robert didn’t say anything though, didn’t touch him or even acknowledge the fact that he was there and that made the situation another one of Fermín’s overthinking subjects.
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“Come here baby” Robert smiled softly, Fermín didn’t move a muscle at first, not until Robert frowned, touching his side. He quickly did as the alpha wanted, eager- no desperate to please him. He needed his validation, his approval. He hadn’t been close to him in a long time and his inner omega was craving him in any way possible.
Robert already had the lube on the bed, the bottle making a bitter taste appear in his mouth. He hated it, hated the fact that he needed it. He bit his teeth together as the alpha opened the bottle. Robert had never spoken about it, never hinted that he disliked it, he had always tried to soothe him and made sure he knew he loved him regardless. Fermín hadn’t gotten the memo, he just assumed he disliked it, reading every puff of air and every look as annoyance. And now it was worse than ever.
Robert prepped him quickly and he barely had the time to register that he was actually touching him until the alpha pushed inside and Fermín collapsed forwards on the bed. A month ago he would have read it like need and lust but now it just felt like he wanted to get it over with, like he was a chore he had to do before going for the main event, Gavi.
He did his best to swallow the emotions, to make his alpha happy but all the emotions made his head swim and all he needed was validation, proof, intimacy, words that confirmed they still loved him, still cared for him, still wanted him.
Robert fucked him hard and fast, like he usually wanted him to but today he felt like some sort of toy. He needed it soft, he needed affection not to be fucked quick and hard but he wouldn’t ever voice that thought, especially not as Robert seemed to enjoy himself, grunting and sending out happy, satisfied pheromones.
Robert didn’t knot him, just another thing that he couldn’t. Fermín blinked quickly as Robert pulled out, petting his waist. He breathed hard, understood that he was close and had to stop but he still had to bite his lip to not let the emotion run over him.
Robert kissed his shoulder before he moved “Gavi” he cooed and Fermín curled in on himself. He didn’t watch as Robert knotted the omega, just bit his lip to keep everything at bay. When Robert made a soothing noise he knew what was going on and he helped the alpha get Gavi into a comfortable position to stay still on the alpha’s knot. He usually helped them get cleaned afterward, knowing Gavi would hurt if they moved too much. He usually had no problem with it but today he felt like it was the only reason he was there.
He sighed, he needed contact, needed closeness. He was needy and desperate, they were already entangled, he hesitated but leant in eventually, the need was too big, too hungry. He couldn’’t avoid the call inside of him, the trashing of instincts and emotions. He moved closer, trying to get comfortable next to Robert, desperately searching for his affection. Robert’s growl made him flinch back, the tears already pooling as he stumbled to the doorway just staring at the two but Robert didn’t look at him, probably didn’t understand what he had done before sleep found him but Fermín had understood, he stood with his eyes filled of tears and hurt.
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Robert woke up feeling satisfied, last night had been nice, they had finally had time together all three of them and Fermín had finally let himself be touched. He nestled into Gavi, his smell so rich and full with the pregnancy, he loved it. “Morning” the omega murmured and he smiled “Morning”. He turned around after leaving a kiss on his shoulder ready to nestle closer to his other omega only to find the space empty, the bed cold and echoing with the absence of Fermín.
Suddenly he was really awake, blinking quickly “Fermín” he breathed but there was no sign of him, no sign of his omega anywhere, he desperately looked to the bathroom door, hoping he would see light under the door but he already knew, could already feel the absence of him. “Wha-” Gavi mumbled before he opened his eyes and sat up next to Robert “Where is he?” he asked worriedly and Robert shook his head “I don’t know”.
Robert hurried down the stairs and breathed out as he saw the omega curled on the sofa, his favourite blanket over his head and body curled in on itself “Fermín” he said softly and the omega stirred as Robert sat down on the side, one hand brushing his locks from his eyes “What’s up baby” he murmured “Why are you down here and not with us” he asked, he felt almost hurt but he also understood there was something going on, something had been brewing and Fermín hadn’t been himself but between games and trainings and exhaustion it had been easy to miss or wave off. “I-I didn’t think you wanted me there” came the low answer and Robert felt a pang of hurt “Why wouldn’t I?”
Fermín sat up a little, crumbling away from him “You- you growled at me” the omega whispered and Robert’s breath caught “What? When did I do that?”
Fermín swallowed, he couldn’t meet the alpha’s eyes and Robert scrambled through his memory to try and remember whenever that could’ve happened. “Last night when you- you had knotted Gavi and I came back I wanted- needed contact and you growled at me”
Robert felt his heart twitch, he couldn't believe that he did that “I am so sorry Fermín I- I can’t remember doing that I was probably half asleep which is not an excuse and I am so so sorry”
Robert felt hideous, the omega had searched for closeness after intimacy and he had pushed him away in a rough manner and now the omega was curled into himself on the sofa. He had neglected him after fucking him, not even thinking about helping him clean up or cuddle him extra after having sex for the first time in a long while. He felt his thought swamp and guilt souring his scent like poison.
“It’s okay” Fermín breathed but Robert felt like it wasn’t, wasn't at all okay and he drew his omega close, burying his nose in his neck and holding tight.
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Fermín was on his hands and knees, they had been a lot more touchier and Gavi had been extremely horny the last couple of days and Fermín had agreed because he couldn’t say no to Gavi’s soft touches and his big eyes when he asked if he wanted to join, he hadn’t last night. He'd laid on the sofa with tears burning in his eyes as he heard the soft moans from the bedroom. He felt like an intruder even when he knew he was invited but tonight he couldn’t live through it again so he agreed even if he didn’t feel like being touched at all. It was still better than having to be forced to listen or watch.
“Are you okay?” Robert asked softly, his fingers rubbing over his hip comfortably, he could see how tense he was, how he flinched slightly in every motion and movement. “Yeah yeah I’m okay” he murmured, just wanting this to be over with “We never have to-”
“Just do it” he cut him off feeling like he made excuses to not have to touch him even if it were far from the truth. Robert pushed in gently, trying to go slow and gentle but Fermín still clenched and breathed out a pained breath. “Relax” Robert said softly but Fermín couldn’t, he didn’t feel pleasure and comfort just even more hurt and more feelings swimming through his mind.
Robert started thrusting slowly, Gavi’s hands worriedly patting his body. Fermín’s eyes were shut so tight he couldn’t see the worried look the other omega sent Robert who slowed down but Fermín was slipping. His emotions running high and making him dizzy, it felt too much and everything was closing in on him.
“No! No! Stop!” he gasped and Robert immediately pulled out, Fermín could hear their voices but he couldn’t make out what they said, his vision swam and he pulled on his clothes in a hurry.
Fermín ran before he could think further, he had disappointed his alpha, he had deprived him of the pleasure and made him agitated. He could smell the stress and confusion in the air and he ran to the only place he could think of.