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Spilling your guts on the toilet is not going to make it better, you know that Mi-yeong. But well, I guess it makes you feel better, even for a tiny moment, then go right ahead! Not like you deserve to.
What kind of idol are you? Feeling bad because your fans were cheering for you?
They were so happy Mi-yeong, just by seeing you their day became infinitely better, maybe their whole week was saved by your presence!
And... Oh!
There you go again.
Dammit girl, think of the poor guy that's gonna have to clean your puke.
Wait, why am I asking you to think of others when that's the whole fucking problem?
Is that it? You are puking your guilt out?
Because you don't want your fans to know your dirty little secret? Because you don't want those two to find out what you did?
Well, it's not like you are going to be able to hide it much longer.
These are most definitely the longest 15 minutes of your life. Every second that goes just sinks you further and further into madness. And, by the way~
Mi-yeong you probably picked the worst possible moment to do the test - the celebration party for your second album being in the top global charts is not a place to be lock up in a bathroom puking the food you didn't even eat out - You truly don't know what the fuck you are doing, huh?
To be honest, you haven't actually known for years now.
Sure, you trained and planned for the whole Kpop Idol and Hunter for years, but nothing else really. Not one hobby, pastime or side thing to do while you were doing that.
Oh!
And let's not forget!
Despite the training, the compromise you have with the whole thing...
You still...
YOU STILL FELT OVERWHELMED?!
Goddammit Mi-yeong!
Are you serious?
Years of training, of hearing your master tell you again and again how hard it will be. You said: "Yeah, don't worry about it."
But noooo~
Poor baby, Mi-yeong!
She felt so overwhelmed :(
The fan's expectations were so much.
The Studio to demanding.
And that night Celine was going on and on with her whole "Don't let them see your fears yada yada" thing.
So...
Poor Mi-yeong decided she needed to unwind.
A lonely club in downtown Seoul.
Lights blinding your sight.
Music piercing your ears.
Drinks drowning your senses out.
The bodies colliding.
He was so damn hot.
No resistance when he kissed you.
So damn warm...
So damn good he made you feel.
So damn good to be a piece of drunk meat for a night.
No expectations, no fans, no demons or responsibilities.
Just you, the music, the lights, the drinks and a fucking hot stud you will never see again.
Oh poor Mi-yeong.
If she could have only sensed...
But she was too drunk for that.
See...
The lights blinded her.
The patterns in that man's body.
But of course she didn't.
She was too busy getting her world rocked to do so.
And deep down.
If she had actually see it.
I'm sure she wouldn't have cared.
1 month after that whole charade and here's the result.
Her hands shake as she reaches for the pregnancy test. It should have the results for know. The results of her childish tantrum, of her lack of responsibility, of her faults and fears. Whatever it's in that thing, it's her complete fault...
It's going to be her fault if things change.
She doesn't want them to change, but that's what's going to happen if that test says otherwise.
No more concerts.
No more hunting nights.
No more drinks, fun or music.
Not the same admiration in her fans eyes.
Celine will not look at her the same.
she also wouldn't.
At least for a while...
Hands shakes from the fear and the fact she has been getting her insides out for 30 minutes.
Tears in her eyes.
Mi-yeong grabs the test and sees.
...
You goddamn fucking whore.
Of course!
Of course you went and got pregnant with a child from a man who you don't even remember the name of.
You fucking, stupid, good for nothing whore!
What were you thinking?!
WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!
What?!
You can think, right?!
Your brain does work so... Explain!
And no, no, no nononono
No
NO
Feeling "overwhelmed" and "pressured" it's not a fucking excuse.
You got pregnant, you had sex with a stranger!
What will your parents say?
What will your mentors say?
What about the studio?
What will the media say?
And the fans?!
What's Celine and going to?! You know how they feel about you and you still went and...
Oh Mi-yeong... What have you done?!
...
I already told you.
Puking your heart out is not going to make it better.
Are you really that desperate for a little bit of numbness?!
No, you don't get to do that.
Not now.
You don't get to ignore this, not even for a moment.
And seems your body agrees with me.
No matter how much she pushes, nothing comes out of her mouth.
She so desperately tries to puke it out.
To puke the poison, the guilt, the fear, the shame, the baby out.
Nothing does.
Even her body betrays her.
Refusing to give a anything more to the person that brought it to the point of collapse.
She can't even cry without it hurting. Every tear felling like acid coming out of her eyes.
...
10 minutes later of hanging in that toilet for dear life and the pregnancy test clutched tight in her hands, Celine knocks at the door.
"Are you okay?" She sound so worried... If only she knew what you did. "It's been 40 minutes" She wouldn't be this worried, this caring if she knew the whore you are. You should tell her right now. Let her know the truth and deliver the punishment you so rightfully deserve.
Instead, she pushes the scary thoughts deep inside her brain and gives in the desire of having one last happy night before things come crashing down tomorrow.
"Everything alright!" She manages to say. "Just tired. I'm coming out!"
Mi-yeong washes her face as best as she can. She washes away the pain, and the ruined makeup. She let's everything drain away with the water and pushes a smile out.
Just one more night.
You goddamn fucking liar, whore, traitor.
Just let me be happy for this night.
Don't you have any shame? Don't you respect them enough to tell them the truth?
Please, just for now...
Coward. You don't deserve to be happy, you don't deserve this party, you don't deserve their praises, their admiration, their love.
Let's pretend that night didn't happen.
...
And just when she tries to open the door.
Oh!
Turns out she still had something inside of her to puke.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
She didn't even had 30 minutes of peace after that. Celine found out immediately after she dropped the pregnancy test while they were dancing.
And yeah... They did look at Mi-yeong very differently.
Both Celine and looked so hurt, so betrayed.
They gave you their hearts and you broke them.
Couple of shouts, insults, tears and a love confession that came too little to late, and the Sunlight Sisters are taking a hiatus!
Congrats Mi-yeong!
Her parents and mentors reaction wasn't good either, and it's better if we don't think about the studio's.
For now, their priority seems to sell as much of the Sunlight Sisters as possible and as fast they can before the media finds out about her unplanned pregnancy and kill her entire reputation.
The search for the father is ongoing too. It's hard to look for someone she barely even remembers thanks to the alcohol, but her mentors do what they can.
Mi-yeong on the other hand...
Rest and taking her of herself for the baby's safe arrival.
Abortion was out of the question. Something about being a "sin" or "inmoral".
"The baby did nothing wrong." Her mother said.
Regardless, taking care of herself is hard when her self hatred is bigger and stronger than her non existent love for the baby.
Celine and are not talking to her either, but they do care for her. They cook, clean, go shopping and go with her to doctor appointments.
During the third week, when Mi-yeong spent all day locked up in her room refusing to eat, those two did nothing.
Why would they do?
Caring for the girl that kind of betrayed them was nuts!
At least that's what she thought until she went out at night to the bathroom and found food by her door.
All that love...
All that care...
And you betrayed them.
Mi-yeong tried to eat that night but ended up puking it 10 minutes later.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
6 months in and no one can no longer ignore it. Specially Mi-yeong, the damn thing is growing inside of her, connected to her as much as the Honmoon is.
Being a hunter comes with a lot of perks, and one of them is sensing when a demon is close. Celine gets a shiver every time one is near, and gets a gut feeling so hard it feels like a stab. Mi-yeong on the other hand, she usually just knows one is near her.
And so...
Imagine her surprise when she felt a demon... Inside of her.
It was impossible, right?
Demons can't shrink to that level or manifest inside someone.
And she has de Honmoon protection, it's simply impossible!
Unless...
The demon inside her is the baby.
She tried not to think about it hard as she could.
It was impossible, it was wrong, it was simply unacceptable.
Well, it's not something anyone would want to deal with. Because it would be fucking mortifying.
Her, a demon hunter, pregnant with a demon.
Haha, yeah, sure, and trees can fly.
...
Then why has that feeling only grown with each month passing through?
Pregnancy hormones fucking with her connection to the Honmoon? Perchance.
But that doesn't explain why the others feel it too.
Mi-yeong sees it every time Celine puts her eyes on her belly. She looks like she's about to get her swords out and-
Better not to think about it.
Because, again, it's impossible!
Impossible...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
8 months in and it's become apparent to everyone and herself.
She's pregnant with a demon.
A half breed.
An unholy abomination.
A mix between the sacred and the corrupt.
A fucking monster.
You fucking slut. You got knocked up by a demon.
You idiotic moron.
What have you done?
It's too late to get that abortion she so desperately begged for. Right now the plan is to make her give birth and kill the thing that comes out of her immediatly.
A fucking nightmare, being forced to give birth to a monster.
The ultrasounds say otherwise, there Mi-yeong sees what the doctor describes as a healthy little girl. But she knows the truth. That thing isn't an innocent little baby, it's a fucking demon. A liar, a bloodlust monster, a psychopath, an insult to nature, a something that shouldn't even exist.
Just like it's father.
And thinking that makes her feel two things:
1) Fucking dirty.
Turns out that wasn't a drunk hot man. It was a demon that knew 100% what it was doing and took advantage of her.
To think that kind of monster had her hands on her.
To think she kissed and...
All the things they did that fucking night.
Maybe that's what you deserve for going out that night and getting drunk because you felt "overwhelmed"
You fucking demon loving slut.
Let's just say the bath she took the day they confirmed the thing inside her is a demon was a long one.
Every single bath she has taken since then has been extremely long.
No matter how much she tried to scrub the filth IT gave her, it simply wasn't going away.
Celine had to take the soap out of her hands before she damaged her skin further.
The bathroom ended up covered in her blood that day.
Celine just wanted to stop her from hurting herself further.
But Celine doesn't understand, doesn't understand, no one understands!
That thing touched her.
That thing was inside her.
That thing kissed her and praised her and called beautiful and...
She let it.
She let it do all that and...
Don't they see?
They should see!
The filth that covers her entire body, her entire soul.
Your body still remembers his touch, whore.
The puking has gotten worse too.
Everything has gotten worse.
Mi-yeong barely sleeps, eats or takes care of herself in general. Celine and have to literally hold her down while forcefully feeding her.
"The fact we are going to kill that thing doesn't mean you should die too." Celine says.
But honestly?
Mi-yeong would rather die than give birth to a monster.
And that's something everyone knows very well at this point.
They had to hide all the sharp objects in the penthouse and be vigilant of her 24/7. Otherwise she could try something like the stairs "accident" again.
...
Almost forgot!
2) Guilty
For wanting to kill the thing inside her?
Fuck no! She can't wait to be free of it.
The Honmoon knows how much she despises being like this.
With a bloated belly that doesn't let her move right, with her energy being constantly drained by that thing and generally... Not herself.
She can't run, she can't jump or sing loudly anymore.
Her diet has changed, her routine.
This isn't her body anymore, this isn't her life anymore.
Her food is no longer hers. Her water, her room, her feelings, brain and health.
The thing inside her took that.
She can't wait to take it back.
Rather, guilty of being the reason all of this happened in the first place. And that's something everyone reminds her of. Not directly mind you, but they do it anyways.
She can't fucking take the way Celine and look so pitifully at her.
She doesn't want nor deserve their love, kindness, care pity.
She knows they mean well, that they already forgave her and just want to care for her through this nightmare.
Forgave huh…
But that doesn't mean Mi-yeong fucking wants it. Don't they see that she would rather die than that?
Still, no matter how much she screams at them, how many times she hits them or points her bow at them. Celine and still come back and hold her while she cries.
She loves them and they love her. Despite everything they still love her and that fucking breaks her.
Right now the only thing she wants to do is go back in time and stop herself from committing the biggest mistake in her life. To slap sense into her younger self and make her confess her feelings for her two band mates that same night instead of going to some cheap club and getting knocked up by a demon.
Why didn't she do it?
Why didn't she tell them?
None of this would have happened if...
They loved her, they cared for her and she...
Better to get railed by a demon that being cuddled and loved by Celine and right slut?
But that's not possible so...
She helds for dear life to Celine as she pukes for the 18 time of the day.
~~~~~~~~~~~
The demons kidnapped her the moment after her water broke.
Who knows how they got passed the barrier, but they did and now she's in their hands.
Mi-yeong tried to fight them, but being about to give birth, in unbearable pain and scared... Yeah, she couldn't do much about it.
Celine and couldn't too. The attack was so fast and out of nowhere that no one could do anything about it.
Mi-yeong only managed too hear Celine's scream as they took her away from the only people that cared for her.
The demons take her as far away as they can. She trashed around and made the journey a pain for them as much as she could. But 2 hours and a mysterious mist later and God knows where she is now.
The sudden warm, smell and the sound of the ocean waves are quick to inform her.
The temple is nowhere near an ocean. Celine and can't save her.
The house they are in is filled with demons, high and low, just looking at her.
And between the demons Mi-yeong finds someone she never wanted to see again.
The guy she slept with that night stands in front of the demons, now fully revealing its true form to her.
That thing kissed her.
Mi-yeong screams, insults and curses him as loud as she can before they put a gag in her mouth.
The man demon gets close to her and says something she can't even understand before it steps aside and let's the others do their job.
They get her naked and tie her down on the floor, spreading her legs wide open.
Every demon in the house has its eyes on her.
She can feel their hungry gazes examining every inch of her body. It burns, it's grotesque, she doesn't want it-
She cries and cries.
She tries to scream for anyone, anything to save her.
She begs and pleads to the heavens, to the demons, to Gwi-ma to let her go.
She wants the pain to go away.
Mi-yeong tries to curl herself, to cup her belly up or do something to make the damn thing inside her stop moving and torturing her.
Maybe it knows you want to kill it.
No one answers.
Not even her supposed daughter hears her screams and continues to hurt her.
The demons just look at her.
For a moment she gets so desperate that Mi-yeong looks at the demon that she loved for a night and begs him, pleads with her eyes for him to do something. To hold her hand, or hug her or something.
The demon does nothing.
The hours go by and things continue to get so much worse and painful for her.
The demons do not even try to help her or have the knowledge or tools to do so.
Instead they just keep looking at her.
She wants to scream to them, to tell them that the baby is coming and do something but the gag in her mouth-
At some point of the night, a new demon appears from a purple mist. This one the same kind as human looking as it, but this one... It looks like an older woman.
"What the fuck are you idiots doing?!" She screams at the demons. "Untie her right this instant and bring her to the bed!" The female demon commands with a thundering voice that echoes through the honmoon and makes the other demons obey her. She then looks at Mi-yeong so full of... Compassion. "I'm so sorry for this, dear. These idiots don't know how to treat a lady properly. I'm going to help you, okay? I used to be an assistant of the empress while I was alive. I promise I'm going to help you, I'm going to make you feel better, but you have to trust me." The woman looks at her, and her gaze is warm and caring and nothing like... She takes the gag out of her mouth and gently smiles at her.
It's not the help she wanted or the compassion she wished for, but Mi-yeong isn't in a good position to refuse it.
They untie her and place her in the bed.
The older woman barks orders to the others demons and in no time Mi-yeong feels slightly better than before.
She holds the older womans hand for dear life as the thing inside her makes its way out.
"You are doing so good sweetie, just keep pushing."
She doesn't want this.
She wants to be in the temple with her family.
She wants to be surrounded by them and their love and not by these demons.
She doesn't want to hold this woman's hand.
She wants her mother to hold to.
She wants her mother to call her sweetie and to help her now.
She wants Celine and beside her.
She wants a normal baby to come out of her.
She wants her life back.
The pain is too much.
The pain is unbearable.
No matter how much she pushes the monster inside her refuses to come out.
Does it hate her that badly? Does it want to make her suffer that much?
What did she even do to deserve this?
You betrayed your loved ones, you broke your promise, you hurt your fans, you slept with a fucking demon and got knocked up with a freak of nature.
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MEEeeEEEEee!" Mi-yeong cries before everything goes silent.
And then the cries of a baby fill the room.
"Yeah, that's it..." The older woman says as she wraps the baby in a blanket. "Hey there little one." The baby reaches a hand upwards.
A normal, human hand...
"Look dear." The older woman passes the baby to Mi-yeong hands. "Isn't she precious?"
...
Oh...
Now you feel bad for her too...
Great, fantastic!
Of course you would feel about the baby. Of course you would feel bad for an abomination.
And why?
Just because it looks normal?
Well, it's not!
That thing is still half demon, don't say you haven't notice that tiny demon mark in its arm.
That thing made you suffer for 9 months.
That thing fed on you.
That thing made your body feel like hell.
That thing still took your life away.
That thing shouldn't even exist.
...
Hey...
Now that you mention it.
That thing shouldn't exist.
That thing didn't ask to be born like this.
That girl doesn't even know anything about demons and the world, the situation they were born in.
You should feel bad about her, Mi-yeong!
She is a freak of nature because of you.
She needs to die because of you.
You are the reason any of this happened!
Mi-yeong, you fucking demon whore, this is your fault!
Her baby calms down the moment she sees her.
She's precious and looks at her with something... A love so new and foreign to her.
She starts crying.
Mi-yeong sees the demons reflection on the baby's eyes. He's crying to.
She hugs her daughter as gently as close as she can. She feels the baby's breath in her face, one of her tiny hands reach for her cheek.
"I'm sorry."
An arrow manifest in her hands.
She tries to stab her baby.
The father of the girl takes her away before she can.
Demons pile on her ro restrain her.
Mi-yeong trashes around, crying and screaming.
"Please stop! Please stop, dear! You are bleeding out!" Pleads the older woman.
But in her blind rage, Mi-yeong ends up stabbing and killing the woman that helped her.
Still, she doesn't even realize that.
Her whole attention is on those two.
The father of her baby holding her as close as he can, shielding her. He dares, IT fucking dares to look at her with fear.
It's scared of her.
Mi-yeong is about to laugh when she sees...
Her baby it's scared of her too.
...
How dare they?
How fucking dare they?
After everything they made her go through?!
She's going to kill them, she's going to make them scream sorry and she's going to...
A purple fire covers the whole room.
Gwima is here.
"Let me look at her." He commands and the demon puts the baby infront of him. "Excellent work, now..."
The baby starts crying.
Something inside Mi-yeong changes.
"Get the fuck away from her!" Whatever did, it made her have enough strength to push the demons that were holding her aside. "Give me back, my baby!" She gets her bow and arrows out and jumps to the attack.
Her legs hurt like hell.
Her waist is killing her.
And her back recoils with every arrow shot.
She's bleeding out.
But that doesn't stop her.
Call it adrenaline, maternal instincts or the rage she bottle up for 9 months, but Mi-yeong does the job she was born to do.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5 demons out.
The monster that raped her goes down with a single shot and Mi-yeong has her baby back.
She stops to catch her and briefly looks at her. She's calm again once she's in her mother's arm.
...
Something changes again.
She grabs one of her arrows and...
A demon punches her.
The world comes crashing down again.
She's surrounded and whatever strength she had before is gone.
She backs down to a corner and collapses with the baby in one hand and the other hand with an arrow pointing at the demons.
"That was stupid." Gwima says. "Now give me the child." He orders.
...
She feels relieved when she hears him say that and is about to do so when...
"MI-YEONG!!" Celine breaks through a window and begins killing demons left and right.
Her parents knock down the door of the house with the rest of her mentors.
breaks through another window and makes her way to Mi-yeong.
"Mi-yeong!" Celine screams as she and finally reach her. Their touch brings her the warm and love she has missed for so much, one she needed so desperatly. "We have to get you out of here."
"Can you walk?" asks as she helps her stand up.
"I-I..." Words aren't coming out. Her body is relaxing now that it feels safe. She's going to pass out. "I-I ca-can't" Mi-yeong tries her hardest to held to them, to stay awake and with them.
"It's okay, we can carry you-"
"YOU ARE NOT TAKING HER AWAY FROM ME!" Gwima shouts as his flames being to consume the entire house.
"Take Mi-yeong and run!" says as she gets her axes out. "We will hold him off! " The rest shout with her.
"W-Wait..." Mi-yeong tries to protest but Celine is already running. "N-No! Celine wait!" The purple fire engulfs her sight, the house falling apart. "Mom! D-Dad!" Her parents and everyone else fading away from her view as Celine runs. "N-NO!"
Celine grabs her and runs towards the exit. The whole group make a path for her and she manages to escape with Mi-yeong in her arms. Celine dashes through the beach as fast as she can.
"N-NOOOOOO!!!" Her heart breaks more. "Celine go back! Go back we have to-!" Celine is crying as much as her.
"Are you crazy?!" She looks at Mi-yeon completely bewildered. "I-I'm getting you out of here and-!"
A little bit of strength comes back to her and Mi-yeong manages to break free from Celine.
She lands on the ground, her whole body screaming in pain. She tries to get up and run to the house.
She needs to save them, she needs to help them...
Her legs don't respond... She can't walk...
Mi-yeong tries to crawl her way to the house when...
A scream.
And an explosion of demonic fire.
The house is gone.
Mi-yeong feels the Honmoon wail in pain after the death of so much of its protectors.
"N-no..." Her parents, her mentors and "No-No-No-Nononono- NO!" The tears don't stop coming.
Celine comes from behind and hugs her.
Mi-yeong trashes and screams in her lovers arms.
They both cry.
Celine does her best to support Mi-yeong but...
"Your fears must never been seen."
The two surviving hunters console each other.
The waves come through them and attempt to take away with them their pain.
Time goes by and the only thing that can be heard in that beach is the wails of two woman, the sea and the fire that took everything away from them.
And suddenly...
Another thing can be heard.
"Mi-yeong..." Celine looks down at her. And when she does too...
She still has the baby in her arms.
After everything she still...
Her daughter tries to reach for her.
...
You.
Mi-yeong clutches an arrow in her hand.
Because of you.
She throws that thing away from her. It cries in pain.
Everyone is dead because of you.
She raises the arrow.
If only you haven't been born.
She comes crashing down with the arrow in her hands. The wind pierces through her as she falls down.
Everyone would be alive if you haven't...
When she's about to pierce the thing.
Celine stops her.
...
Their eyes meet.
Celine is scared of her.
...
None of this would have happened if you haven't gotten pregnant.
None of this would have happened if you haven't been a childish brat and went to have sex with the first stranger that looked hot enough.
All of this.
All of this pain.
It's your fault Mi-yeong.
...
She looks down at her baby.
...
Look what you did Mi-yeong.
You got her all covered in blood.
...
Her strength leaves her.
Her energy runs down.
Her time is up.
Life itself leaves her.
Mi-yeong collapses beside her daughter.
The last thing she sees?
Celine's face.
She's covered in her blood too.
The last thing she hears?
Her daughter's cries of pain.
...
Mi-yeong dies in pain.
...
Yeah... She 100% deserve it.