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So much blood.
His hands were dripping in pink, sickening blood. There was blood on his thighs. There was blood on his face. There was blood on his whole body. He couldn't bear to look at himself. White Diamond laid stiffly on the ground, bleeding out profusely, her face entirely mangled and her body ripped open. Her gem was shattered embedded on her head, shards covering Steven's trembling hands.
"W-what...why didn't it work?" He stammered.
It was deathly silent in the dark chamber, the only sound being the groaning of Connie nearby. Pearl was whispering panicked questions towards her, as she herself was bleeding. She was coughing, shifting positions trying to lift herself up. Garnet was too stunned to move, her visor completely off and cracked on the floor. Amethyst was crying already, stifling her weep as she shuffled over to Garnet. "Steven?" Connie coughed, her upper arm gripped tightly by Pearl. "Steven?!"
"...I feel worse than before! I... I--Wh-" Steven began to mumble anxiously, his hands reaching up to grip his unruly curls, his eyes wide with fear. His thoughts began to mush together, his head spinning faster to the point of his ears ringing.
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
I KILLED SOMEONE
"I-I KILLED HER!!" He screamed, his eyes darting to her mutilated body, still bleeding as the puddles reached his knelt position. He squeezed his temples tighter now, trying so hard to just form a single thought of clarity in his head, tears gushing from his eyes as his expression scrunched up into a sob. "Steven!" Connie yelled, trying to get through to Steven. Pearl was trying to hold her down, though Connie pushed her off weakly, trying to get to him.
"I-I THOUGHT I'D FEEL B-BETTER... Oh god..." He cried, closing his eyes to double over, the unbearable guilt and pain consuming him. His breathing was erotic and heaving, as he scratched at his head repetitively. The disgusting blood on his face mixing with his salty tears was dripping now on the already wet floor, He put his hands to his face, hyperventilating loudly as he wailed, "No...nononoNONONO!!" He began to glow a neon pink, engulfing the chamber in a penetratingly bright hue. "I'M JUST LIKE HER! I--" Steven screeched, his pulsing gem heating up to the point of searing through his skin.
"I'M A MONSTER!!!"
[This part forward is my own interpretation of what happens afterwards]
The force of his soundwave shook the whole building, shockwaves of pink echoing through the chamber, stunning and sending all the gems back violently, poofing on impact. Connie cried out, stumbling back from his scream. He was wailing now, his hands clenched on his hair tightly as he hunched over his gem, shivering with each ragged breath. His glow burned brighter, the throbbing pain too much to handle, sending waves of agony all over his body. Connie was breathing heavily, stumbling over to Steven's trembling, glowing body. "S-STEVEN PLEASE..." She touched his side, causing Steven to flinch backward, bug-eyed and wild with panic. "DON'T TOUCH ME! D-DON'T, I-I" He yelled at her, choking on his tears. He shuffled further away from Connie, White's blood still trailing off behind him. He couldn't bear to look at himself. He never could. Steven covered his ears, the ringing returning more painful than ever.
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I KILLED HER
I'M NOT MY MOM I'M WORSE
I'M NOT MY MOM I'M WORSE
I'M NOT MY MOM I'M WORSE
I'M NOT MY MOM I'M WORSE
Connie just...knelt in front of him, her face anguished and tearful as well. She hesitantly reached to hug him, purely out of concern and instinct, the gnawing pain in her right cheek now numb. Steven stumbled further and further until he reached the frigid wall, cowering like a stray puppy. He hugged himself tightly, his neon skin refusing to calm down. "P-Please don't!" He pleaded, staring dead into Connie's dark brown eyes. Connie ignored his begging. diving forward to give him a hug, squeezing his torso and putting her head over his shoulder. Steven, unmoving, began to glow less, eventually dissipating completely, his weakened state just giving into Connie. He just cried. And cried. And cried. Connie embraced him silently, rubbing his back as he sobbed unevenly. "I'm s-so sorrryi'mssosorrys-sorry..." He whispered continuously with a raspy, broken voice, as if him apologizing repeatedly would undo his actions. Connie stayed quiet, ignoring the blood that was all over of them both. She stayed still, hugging him for an eternity.