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The smell of roasted flesh still clung to the air.
It turned Odysseus’ stomach.
Not from hunger- though the ache was there, hollow and gnawing- but from something deeper. Something fouler. The scent carried fat and smoke and salt… and sacrilege.
The cattle of Helios had been sacred. The gods’ very own friends.
They had known that. He had told them.
They had done it anyway.
Odysseus stood at the edge of the firelight, his shadow long against the sand. The crew avoided his gaze. Some still chewed in silence. Others stared at their hands as if in a daze, distant and muddled after the weeks of hunger.
Only one man met his eyes.
Eurylochus stood near the center of the camp, jaw set, shoulders squared. He wasn’t proud, not quite- but unyielding.
A leader, now.
Or something pretending to be one.
Odysseus stepped forward. He had long cut the ropes they’d bound him with, but the memory of the restraints haunted him.
Was he truly such a monster that not even his own crew could trust him?
The murmurs died.
“You’ve eaten,” he said. His voice was quiet, but it cut through the crackle of flame. “So tell me, Eurylochus- does it taste like victory?”
The beach was silent, waves lapping at the shore as crickets chirped around them.
Eurylochus exhaled slowly, taking his time before he responded, “It tastes like survival.”
A ripple moved through the crew- subtle, but there.
Odysseus’ gaze sharpened.
“Survival,” he repeated. “Is that what you call this?”
“What would you call it?” Eurylochus shot back. “Would you rather be heading the ship as you watched your men starve? Just so that you could cling to the favor of gods who have done nothing but torment us since we left on this godsforsaken journey?”
A few heads lifted now. Eyes flickered between them.
A line had been drawn.
Odysseus took another step closer. “I would call it obedience. I would call it restraint. I would call it the one thing standing between us and annihilation.”
A bitter laugh escaped Eurylochus. “Annihilation?” He gestured to the crew. “Look at them. They were already dying.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I do.” His voice hardened. “I saw it. Every day you waited. Every day you told us to endure. Endure what? Hunger? Despair? Your silence?”
Odysseus’ jaw tightened.
“I led you this far.”
“You led us here.”
The words landed like a blow.
Silence followed- heavy, suffocating.
Odysseus’ voice dropped, low and dangerous. “Stop.”
“No,” Eurylochus said, louder now. “No more careful words. No more pretending.” He stepped forward, closing the space between them. “You lost us long before today.”
There was a murmur of hesitant agreement from the crowd.
Odysseus heard it.
Felt it.
Something in his chest twisted, sharp and sudden.
“I held you together,” he said.
“You drove us to this.”
“You doomed us.”
“You abandoned us first.”
“I warned you. I pleaded for you to listen. I did everything but abandon you, Eurylochus, all I want is for us all to get home!”
“And yet, you couldn’t find it in you to fight one last time for your friends. You turned to sacrifice them instead. Is your wife truly worth so much more than us- your comrades who have been through war and hell with you?”
The question hung in the air, a judgement waiting only to be read.
Odysseus went still.
For a moment, no one moved. Even the fire seemed to quiet, as if the world itself were holding its breath.
Then he laughed.
It wasn’t loud. It wasn’t wild.
It was worse.
Soft. Incredulous. Cold.
“You wanted this,” he said, almost gently in his disbelief. “You wanted to lead.”
Eurylochus didn’t answer.
He didn’t need to.
Odysseus nodded slowly, as if confirming something to himself.
“Then lead.”
A flicker of uncertainty crossed Eurylochus’ face.
Odysseus stepped closer, close enough that the firelight carved sharp shadows into his features, close enough that every man could see the fury burning in his eyes.
“Lead them,” he repeated. “Lead them even now that they have eaten.” His voice rose, not in volume, but in intensity. “Lead them even when the winds turn against us. Even when the sea rises. You will lead them even when the sky itself splits open to answer for this-”
A distant rumble of thunder rolled across the horizon.
Several men flinched.
Odysseus wasn’t one of them.
“This,” he said, each word deliberate, “was your choice. That the one who carried the power should shoulder the blame. You are no longer mine to carry, none of you are. You have a new captain now.”
Eurylochus swallowed, but held his ground. “I did what had to be done. I didn’t want to, you forced my hand.”
“No.” Odysseus’ voice snapped like a blade striking stone. “Do not dress this in necessity. Do not call it mercy.”
He took another step, and now there was nowhere left for Eurylochus to retreat.
“You were scared.”
Eurylochus’ hands clenched at his sides.
“This was weakness.”
The crew shifted uneasily.
“And when the gods demand justice,” Odysseus continued, “it is your name that will be given to them.”
A flash of lightning split the sky.
For a heartbeat, everything was white.
When the darkness returned, the crew looked different.
Smaller.
Fractured.
Someone dropped what remained of their meal.
Another man backed away from the fire, as if the light itself might condemn him.
Eurylochus stood in the center of it all.
Not triumphant.
Not defiant.
Just… alone.
“Why would they care?” he asked, but the certainty in his voice was gone. “They were just some stupid cows!”
“I told you what would happen if you touched those cattle.” His gaze swept over the crew- each man, each face, each flicker of guilt and fear. “I told you the cost.”
He looked back at Eurylochus.
“And you chose to pay it.”
Another rumble of thunder.
Closer this time.
The wind began to rise, tugging at cloaks and hair, carrying with it the distant scent of rain- and something sharper beneath it. Something electric.
The first drop fell, hissing as it struck the fire.
Then another.
And another.
No one spoke.
No one moved.
Odysseus turned away first.
Not in defeat.
Not in surrender.
But in something colder.
Acceptance.
“Remember this moment,” he said, without looking back. “When you have run out of arguments to hide behind. I won’t be there to save you this time.”
Eurylochus didn’t answer.
Behind him, the storm gathered.
And the weight of command- of choice, of consequence- settled heavy on his shoulders, pressing down until even standing felt like a strain.
For the first time since the fire was lit, no one ate.