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Morning light filtered through the motel curtains in thin gold lines, striping the musty carpet, the nightstand, and the rumpled blankets. Dust drifted lazily through it, some landing on the clock beside him, blinking 7:03 in dim, red numbers.
Sam stared at the water stains on the ceiling.

The sheets clung damply to his skin, twisted around his legs from a night spent turning over and over and over. His head throbbed faintly behind his eyes.
Fragments of his dream still lingered. Something chasing someone, or someone calling for help from very far away. It had left the same sour and urgent feelings some of his bad dreams would tend to leave. A heavy certainty that something terrible had already happened and he’d simply forgotten it.
He strained to remember the details. A white house and a young woman. Something about water?
He lay still and waited for it to loosen the way dreams usually did, dissolving at the edges until only the feeling remained, and even that faded. But it didn’t. Whatever it was, it had left something behind.
Sam pressed the heel of his hand against his sternum without thinking about it. Pushing until he could feel his own heartbeat.

In the other bed, his brother slept on his side, facing the wall, one arm half hanging off the mattress. His breathing slow and steady.

Sam swallowed against the weight in his chest.
For a few seconds, instinct kicked in before thought did. He had to get up, shower, find coffee, do research.
Then it hit him.
Nothing was waiting for them today. No job. No hunt. No place they needed to be by noon. No phone call coming. No emergency except the ones already buried too deep to fix.

The realization settled over him strangely, like missing a step in the dark.
He could stay here all morning if he wanted.

He closed his eyes for just a second. That was all he meant to do.
The mattress dipped faintly as his body relaxed back into it, the cheap springs creaking beneath him. Outside, tires hissed against the wet pavement. Somewhere nearby, a door slammed hard enough to rattle the walls.
Then, even those sounds drifted away.

He was standing beneath a flickering motel sign. Not this motel. At least, he didn’t think so.
The letters buzzed overhead, one of them half-dead and sputtering weak orange light into the rain.

The missing A blinked on and off inconsistently, humming loud enough to make his teeth ache.
The parking lot was empty.
No.
There was a dark colored car parked near the far curb. Its headlights were still on, cutting pale tunnels through the rain, but the engine wasn’t running.
Sam started towards it automatically.
Water soaked through his shoes almost immediately. The asphalt looked wrong beneath his feet. Somehow soft, rippling faintly like water disturbed by wind.
The closer he got to the car, the harder it became to breathe.
The air was thickening.

Then he saw the driver’s side door hanging open. Something inside the car was ringing. A phone, maybe? No, not ringing. Buzzing. Steady and violent as if it had been vibrating for a long time.
Sam stopped a few feet away. There was someone sitting in the driver’s seat.
He could only see their outline through the rain-streaked windshield. Head tilted strangely against the window and motionless.
The buzzing wouldn’t stop.
For some reason, dread curled sharp and immediate beneath his ribs. Don’t look. Don’t get closer.
But his body kept moving anyway. One step, then another.
There was blood pooling under the open door.
The figure shifted. Its head turned slowly toward him–
“Sam”

His eyes snapped open.
For one awful second, the dream clung to reality hard enough that he expected rain against the windows and that awful buzzing in his ears.
Instead, there was only pale late morning light and the stale smell of the motel room.
His brother stood beside the bed, already dressed, concern creasing his face.
“Jesus,” he said quietly, “You okay?”
Sam blinked up at him, disoriented. The clock read 10:47.
“You were dead asleep,” Dean folded his arms loosely, “I almost checked your pulse, man.”

Sam pushed himself upright too fast, a dull headache pulsing instantly behind his eyes. His shirt clung coldly to his back with sweat.
“I’m fine.”
The answer came automatically.
Dean didn’t look convinced. “You sick?”
“No.”
“You look sick.”
Sam rubbed a hand over his face, trying to scrape away the lingering image of the figure in the car. He could still hear the buzzing faintly in the back of his mind.
“Thanks,” he rolled his eyes, “I just slept bad.”
“That bad?”
Sam looked back towards the curtained window. Thin bars of sunlight stretched across the carpet exactly where they had hours earlier, only brighter now.
His brother was still watching him carefully, like he was trying to decide whether to push harder. Sam opened his mouth and then stopped because, for the briefest second, completely unprompted, he suddenly knew with absolute certainty that somewhere nearby, a phone was about to start ringing.

The diner smelled like burnt coffee and grease. Dean was almost halfway through his second cup already, his empty plate pushed to the side, and his elbows spread across the booth like he owned the place. The morning rush had thinned out around them, leaving behind only the low murmur of conversations and the clatter of dishes from the kitchen.
Sam poked at his food without much interest. His eggs had gone cold ten minutes ago.
The headache from earlier still lingered stubbornly at the base of his skull.

Dean flipped the page of the newspaper, “Okay, listen to this,” he cleared his throat dramatically, “local man claims raccoon stole toaster in broad daylight–”
“That’s not supernatural.”
“Depends how determined the raccoon was,” he huffed a laugh, but Sam let Dean’s voice blur into the background again.

Outside the window, rainwater still clung to the streets from earlier that morning, turning passing headlights watery. A woman crossed the street holding her phone tightly against her ear, expression tense.
For some reason, Sam couldn’t stop watching her.
Dean kept reading.
“Mm. Missing person case, probably nothing. Gas leak in–”
He stopped flipping pages.
“Huh.”
Something in his tone pulled Sam’s attention back.
“What?”
Dean skimmed silently for another second. Then, “Family reports multiple late-night calls received from the missing woman’s number several days after her disappearance.”
He kept reading after a short pause. “Police state the calls contained only static and what relatives described as ‘wet breathing noises’. Authorities believe the calls are likely pranks or technical malfunctions–”
“Wait.” The word came out sharper than Sam intended. Dean blinked. Sam was already reaching across the table, tearing the newspaper from his hands.
His brother reeled back.

Sam skimmed over the article.
Woman missing after hiking trip with friends. Massive downpour that night. Body never recovered. Family receiving calls at odd hours. No voice on the other end.
A cold feeling crept slowly down Sam’s spine. This was all so familiar. His stomach turned unpleasantly.
“You good?” Dean asked.
Sam barely heard him.

He remembered standing in the motel parking lot in the dream. The headlights cutting through the rain. The blood in the driver’s seat.
His fingers tightened slightly against the newspaper.
“You said this was local?”
Dean’s expression shifted immediately at Sam’s tone. More alert now.
“About forty minutes out.”
“We should check it out.”
Dean leaned back slightly. “Sam–”
“I’m serious.”
Too quick again. He forced himself to loosen his grip on the paper.
“I mean…” he searched for something believable. “Missing woman, creepy phone calls, possible ghost thing. Sounds worth checking.”
“You really think this is something?”
Sam hesitated. He didn’t know how to explain the feeling crawling beneath his skin. That awful certainty and an odd sense of deja vu.
“Yeah,” he said quietly,” I just have a strange feeling.”

The storm clouds had taken over the blue sky quickly. Rain drifted lazily across the windshield. The wipers pushed it aside in slow rhythmic sweeps that made the world outside blur before sharpening again.
Dean drove with one hand hooked over the steering wheel, the other drumming absently against a paper coffee cup balanced near the gearshift. The radio crackled quietly.

Sam leaned against the passenger side window. Fields slid past in washed-out greens and browns. Telephone poles. Rusted fences. The occasional farmhouse sitting far back from the road.
He felt strangely hollowed out. There was the quiet absence of something he couldn’t quite place. Kind of like waking up after losing a tooth and expecting your tongue to find it.
Dean talked occasionally. Little comments about the road, bad coffee, and some billboard they passed. Sam answered when he had to, letting the words leave his mouth automatically before settling back into silence.
Exhaustion sat heavy in his bones, even with the extra sleep he’d gotten. Albeit, it hadn’t been good sleep.
Outside, telephone wires dipped and rose alongside the highway, swaying gently in the wind. Stretching from pole to pole until they disappeared somewhere over the horizon.

Dean adjusted the heat a little higher. Warm air drifted through the car, smelling faintly like motel soap and stale coffee and the dampness of rain-soaked clothes.
It smelled like home, in a strange, temporary sort of way.
But that’s what it was, wasn’t it? Home.
Highways and cheap rooms and greasy dinners. Falling asleep in one town and waking up in another without ever really belonging.
Most days, he didn’t let himself think about this too long. It left too much room for uninvited things to creep in.

The pressure behind his eyes still lingered. He rubbed tiredly at one eye.
“You sure you’re not getting sick?” Dean said suddenly, snapping Sam back into focus.
“What? Yeah.”
“You’ve barely spoken six words since breakfast.”
“I’m just tired,” he shrugged. “Didn’t sleep great.”

The silence stretched. Dean turned the radio knob impatiently. Static burst loudly for half a second before a country station finally came through.
Sam closed his eyes for a moment, pressing them hard enough to see shifting colors behind his eyelids. Sleep would probably help, the thought came bitterly.
Except lately, sleep felt less like resting and more like wandering somewhere he wasn’t supposed to be.
“You think it’s actually a case?” Dean asked after a while.
Sam opened his eyes again.
“What?”
“The phone thing.”
Dean shrugged. “I mean, ninety percent of these turn out to be carbon monoxide poisoning, black mold, or somebody screwing with their relatives for attention. You know?”
Sam stared out at the road again. Rainwater shimmered black against the asphalt.
“I think something happened to her,” he said quietly.
Dean snorted softly. “Well, yeah. She’s missing.”
“No, I mean–” he sighed, “I don’t know.”

Dean glanced at him, “You’re acting weird today. Weirder than usual,” he said matter-of-factly.
The lack of accusation somehow made Sam feel worse.

Outside, the world kept slipping past in blurred streaks of gray and green.

For a moment, watching it, Sam had the strange, unsettling feeling that he could disappear completely and nothing around him would change speed at all. The road would keep stretching forward. The rain would keep falling. Dean would keep driving.

The farther they drove into the town, the narrower the roads became. Trees pressed close to both sides of the asphalt, their branches dripping rainwater in uneven bursts. The clouds hung low enough to swallow the tops of the hills entirely.
Dean slowed as they passed through the center of town. There was a gas station, a diner, a hardware store with dark windows and a flickering OPEN sign.
Everything looked waterlogged, like the place had been waiting too long for the storm to end.
Sam watched people through the window as they passed. A woman was smoking beneath an awning. A kid splashed through the puddles in oversized rainboots, and an older man spoke on the telephone outside the grocery store.

Dean turned down a residential street lined with small houses and dying flowerbeds.
“Place is real cheerful,” he muttered before pulling up in front of a faded blue house near the edge of town.
The yard was overgrown from neglect. Rain-darkened wind chimes stirred softly on the porch. A pair of muddy hiking boots sat beside the front door.
Sam stared at them too long. One of the laces was snapped.
“Sam.”
He blinked, realizing Dean had already gotten out of the car.
“Yeah.”
The air outside smelled like wet dirt and pine needles. By the time Sam reached the porch, Dean was already knocking, and the door opened a few seconds later.
The woman standing there looked exhausted in the particular way grief exhausted people. Like sleep no longer reached the parts of them that needed it. It was that specific look in the eyes that the brothers had seen far too often.
“You’re the reporters?” she asked quietly.
Dean got into the role easily, slipping his fake badge back into his pocket.
“Yes, ma’am. We heard about your daughter and were hoping to ask a few questions if that’s alright.”

The house was warm compared to the outside. It smelled like eggs, damp clothes, and something floral, trying unsuccessfully to cover both.
Family photos crowded nearly every wall.
Claire at graduation. Claire holding up a fish beside a lake. Claire squinting into the sunlight with friends around her.
Sam moved slowly through the room while Dean spoke with her mother, his eyes catching on little details without meaning to.
There was a half-finished mug left beside the couch and a phone charger plugged into the wall with nothing attached to it. A rain jacket was folded and carefully draped over the armchair, waiting for its owner.
Claire had existed here so fully that her absence has become its own physical thing.

Dean sat at the kitchen table across from Claire’s mother.
“You said they were hiking Gray Saddle?”
The woman nodded.
“It was supposed to just be a day trip.” Her hands twisted tightly together in her lap. “She went with three friends from school. They left early that morning.”
“Did they get separated?”
“Claire’s an experienced hiker, but she likes to take her time. She must’ve gotten left behind.”
Dean’s expression hardened slightly. “And they left her alone out there?”
“They’re just kids,” the woman said automatically, like she’d repeated the defense enough times to almost believe it, but anger still cut through her grief, “But yes.”

Rain tapped softly against the kitchen windows. Sam imagined it without meaning to.
The dark woods. Wet leaves. Phone screen glowing weakly in someone’s shaking hand.
He swallowed hard before asking gently, “Did she call people that night?”

The woman reached automatically for the phone sitting on the table beside her, like she was afraid that it might ring if she didn’t keep hold of it.
“She called everyone,” the woman stared down at the screen. “Her friends, me, emergency services,” her voice cracked faintly, “the storm knocked out reception in parts of the mountain. Most of the calls never connected.”

“Could you tell us a little about the calls you’ve been receiving?”
The woman swallowed thickly, “The first one came early the next morning. Most of the time it’s just silence, but sometimes I can make out breathing,” her grip tightened around the phone, “but it’s not normal, it’s wet and labored.”
She paused for a moment before continuing, looking pained, “The rangers, they’re still looking, but there was so much rain that night. They think the saddle got flooded and she was–” she took in a shaky breath, “I keep picking up. She’s still out there, I know it.”

Try as he might, Sam couldn’t banish the image of Claire alone in the dark, clutching her phone with numb shaking hands, trying over and over again to make someone answer.
He imagined the desperation, the awful, exhausted certainty that nobody was coming. Somehow, that was the part that got to him most.

The kitchen felt too warm suddenly. Sam looked down at the table, focusing on the scratches in the wood while a dull pressure bloomed slowly behind his eyes again.

The house phone rang upstairs.

The sounds sliced through the kitchen so suddenly that everyone froze. Claire’s mother went pale but not startled. Some part of her had been listening for it the entire conversation.
The ringing came again.
Claire’s mother’s chair scraped hard against the floor when she stood up. “I should–” her voice broke off.
Dean rose halfway. “Ma’am, you don’t have to–”
“Yes, I do.”

She hurried towards the living room and grabbed the phone from its stand with visibly shaking hands. The brothers followed automatically.
She answered immediately, “Claire?”
Nothing. Static crackled faintly through the speaker. Then came the wet, uneven breathing. The sound filled the room horribly fast, too intimate over the tiny speaker. Like someone was struggling for air inches away from them.
Claire’s mother pressed a trembling hand over her mouth.
“Baby?” she whispered.
Sam felt rooted in place because beneath the breathing, faint and distant, he could hear rain. His mind suddenly supplied the image without permission. Dark ravine walls, mud sliding loose beneath frantic hands, water rising inch by inch in the dark.
Claire’s breathing hitched sharply through the speaker. Then distorted and cracking apart: “Mom?”

The mom made a wounded sound in the back of her throat, “I’m here,” she said, “Claire, honey, I’m here. Where are you?”

A horrible choking noise crackled through the phone.
“Where–”
The line cut violently dead.

Nobody moved. Rain continued pattering against the window.
Claire’s mother stared at the phone screen like she could force the call to come back through sheer desperation. Beside her, Dean’s expression had shifted completely now. Less skepticism, more calculation.

The unexpected phone call had rendered the brothers quiet back in the Impala. Dean sat with his hands resting on the steering wheel, still watching the house from the windshield.
“That was something,” he stated calmly.
Sam nodded. His mind was still in the living room, stuck on the sounds that had come through the tiny speaker.
“Sounds like Claire needs some help getting to the other side.”
“What?” Sam finally tore his eyes from the house.
“What?”
“You think she’s dead?” he asked.
“Not to be a pessimist, but do you really believe she survived two nights out in the mountains? In a flood?”
Sam looked back at the house. The wind chimes on the porch turned slowly. “No, I don’t know. Maybe.”
“Phone calls, static, the breathing,” Dean shrugged loosely, “classic salt and burn. We find the body, put her to rest, the calls stop “.
“Yeah.”
Dean glanced at him and sighed before finally starting the car. “Alright. I say we talk to her friend. Get her side of the story before we head up there.”
Sam watched the house until it disappeared in the side mirror. Claire’s mother was probably still standing in the living room holding the phone. Waiting for it to ring again.
“Yeah,” he said, “Okay.”

Mara’s apartment was on the second floor of a building that smelled like old carpet and radiator heat. The kind of place a college student moved into temporarily and somehow never left.
Dean knocked twice. There was a long pause before the locks turned.

The girl who opened the door looked like she hadn’t been sleeping either. Her eyes were swollen, and her dark hair was pulled back messily.
She looked at them both, then at the badges.
“I already talked to the police,” she said.
“We know,” said Dean, east and practiced, “We just have a few follow-up questions. Shouldn’t take too long.”
She stepped back to let them in after another pause.

The apartment was small and dim, curtains half drawn against the gray afternoon light. There were textbooks spread across the coffee table that clearly hadn’t been touched in days.
Mara sat on the edge of the couch with her knees pulled together and her hand folded tightly in her lap.
Dean took the chair across from her. Sam stayed near the wall, which was where he tended to settle when he wanted to watch a room rather than participate in it.
“Can you walk us through that morning?” Dean asked, “From when you arrived at the trailhead?”
Mara nodded carefully, “The six of us got there around eight. The plan was to just do the loop and come back before dark,” she paused, “the weather was supposed to be fine.”
“But it wasn’t.”
“The storm came in so fast,” her jaw tightened slightly,” like out of nowhere fast. We started heading back, but visibility dropped, and the trail got bad.”
She watched her hands. The fingers pressing against each other.
“And Claire got separated?” Dean asked.
Something moved across Mara’s face. Too quick to name.
“She was behind us.” Her voice stayed level, but her gaze dropped to the coffee table. “We didn’t realize how far she’d fallen until it was already dark.”

The room was quiet for a moment. Rain tapped softly against the window.
“What did you do when you realized?” Sam said.
Mara looked up at him, slightly startled, like she’d almost forgotten he was there. “We tried calling her, but the reception was already going in and out.”
“Did you go back for her?”
“We couldn’t,” she said. “The trail was flooding. It wasn’t safe to–” she swallowed thickly. “We called emergency services as soon as we got back to the car.”
Dean nodded slowly, not pushing. Sam kept his eyes on her face. She believed what she was saying. Or at least she was trying very hard to.

Dean shifted forward slightly. “You mentioned three of you. We only have two other names on the report.”
“Diane drove separately,” Mara said, “She wasn’t actually enrolled with us; she just– she and Claire have been friends since high school. She came because Claire invited her.” Her voice caught faintly on the name. “She drove up from Millhaven. She hasn’t gone home yet. I don’t think she knows how to.”

Sam nodded slowly. Something about that sat heavy without him really knowing why.

At the door, Dean handed Mara a card with a number she’d never be able to reach them at.
“One more thing,” Sam said. “Have you been receiving calls?”
Mara’s expression changed immediately.
“Yeah,” she said quietly.
“How often?”
“A few times a day.” She crossed her arms over her chest, “I don’t pick up anymore. I just–” she pressed her lips together. “I can’t.”
Sam nodded. “Has anything else seemed off? Anything unusual?”
“No,” she said, hesitating. “Nothing.”

Outside, the rain had started again. It came down in thin gray sheets, blurring the parking lot into soft, indistinct shapes.

They sat in the Impala for a moment without moving. The engine ticked quietly. Rain tapped against the roof in an uneven rhythm.
“She was lying,” Sam said.
“Yeah.” Dean’s hands rested on the steering wheel without gripping it.
Sam looked back at the building. Mara’s window was still lit on the second floor. “She knows something she doesn’t want to say out loud.”
“Makes two of us,” Dean said and started the car.

They didn't talk much on the drive back to the motel. Sam watched the rain against the window and thought about Claire's mother standing in her living room holding a phone that would never have good news on the other end of it. Whatever Claire had become, she wasn't staying on the mountain anymore.
Dean must have been thinking the same thing, because when they pulled into the motel lot, he didn't cut the engine immediately. Just sat there.
"Tonight," he said. Not a question.
Sam nodded. "Tonight.

Gray Saddle lived up to its name.
The trail had been closed since the search teams came through, but the tape across the trailhead was halfhearted, and the lock on the gate was old. Dean had it open in under a minute.

They went up in the dark with flashlights and didn’t talk much. The rain had stopped, but the trees still dripped steadily, and the path had turned to soft mud that sucked at their boots with every step. The air smelled like wet earth and something underneath it that Sam didn’t want to name.

The ravine was worse.
The flooding had reshaped everything. Whole sections of the trail had simply slid away, and the creek at the bottom had swollen into something unrecognizable. Dean swept his flashlight along the bank without comment. Sam followed the beam.

They found her twenty minutes later.
The flashlight beam caught her before Sam’s mind did. Just shapes at first, something was wrong about the way the shadows fell at the base of the ravine wall. His stomach dropped hard when his brain finally assembled it.
Dean went still beside him.

She was half-submerged in the mud where the floodwater had left her.
Sam’s flashlight found her in pieces. A boot. The pale curve of a wrist. Then all of it at once, and his brain went briefly, mercifully blank before it caught up.

The flood had taken everything else. Her pack, her jacket, anything loose. It had moved her too, deposited her against the ravine wall with one arm stretched above her head, and her face turned towards the dark water still running inches from her shoulder. Like she’d been listening to it.
Or like something had arranged her that way. Sam knew it wasn’t true. He knew it was the water, the current, the blind mechanical logic of a flood. He knew that.
He still took a step back without deciding to.
Beside him, Dean had gone very still in the particular way he did when he was forcing himself not to react. The flashlight beam in his hand didn’t waver. His jaw tight.

The trees groaned overhead. The sounds of the water filled the ravine, low and constant, almost like the mountains were breathing.

“Okay,” Dean said quietly to steady himself before taking out the supplies from his pockets.
Sam kept the light steady and didn’t look at her face.

When the fire finally caught, it burned pale and strange against the wet ground, throwing long shadows up into the trees. Sam watched it without feeling the relief he was supposed to feel.
Dean appeared beside him, and they stood there until the embers died away.
On the way back down the trail, Dean said, “She’s at peace now.”
Sam nodded. He wanted to believe that.

The drive from the mountain to the motel wasn’t long, even though the hypnotizing rain on the asphalt had stretched the road on for miles.

They finally pulled into their spot, and Sam was halfway out of the car when he saw it.

The sign right above the office. One letter dark, the others buzzing faintly against the gray dusk.

He stood there with the car door still open, rain hitting his shoulders, not moving.
“Sam.” Dean’s voice came from somewhere near the trunk. “You gonna grab your bag or what?”
Sam looked at the sign for another second. The dead letter. The orange hum of the others.
“Yeah,” he said. “Sorry.”
He grabbed his bag and didn’t say anything else.

The motel room felt smaller than usual somehow. Or maybe Sam just felt too aware of it. The classic water-stained ceiling, the thin carpet, and suspicious stains. He sat on the edge of his bed, pondering whether he should brave the shower.
Dean had started cleaning one of the guns at the small table by the window, which he only did when he needed something to do with his hands.
“You eat enough today?” he said, not looking up.
Sam glanced over. “What?”
“At the diner. You barely touched your food.”
“I wasn’t hungry.”
Dean set the cloth down slowly. “Okay,” he said, in the tone that meant it wasn’t okay and they both knew it.
Sam didn’t say anything. There wasn’t much more to it than what he’d already said, and explaining that felt exhausting in a way he couldn't justify.

“Are you preparing for a beauty pageant or something because you didn’t eat this morning either,” Dean said suddenly, his voice landing somewhere between a joke and an accusation.
Sam huffed a short laugh despite himself, “No. Like I said: I just wasn’t hungry.”
Dean hummed. Then he set the gun down entirely and looked at him. “Come on, man, what’s going on with you?”
“Nothing,” he shrugged.
“You’ve been quiet and… I don’t know, just off.”
“I’m tired,” Sam said. “I’ve had this headache since this morning, and this conversation isn’t helping it.” he paused, registered the disbelief on Dean’s face, and looked away first. “I’m gonna shower and sleep. We can find something new in the morning.”

He got up before Dean could answer and locked the bathroom door behind him.

He stood with his back against the door for a moment, listening to the silence on the other side of it.
He knew he’d been pensive. He wasn’t oblivious to that, but he hadn’t thought it was so visible, or that Dean would push on it the way he just had. It wasn’t like joy had been radiating off of him in the weeks before this, either. The skipped meals, the bad sleep, the feeling of moving through days that were slightly out of focus– none of that was new. It had been accumulating quietly for a while now, long enough that he’d stopped registering as anything worth naming.

The dreams were newer. Those had only started a few days ago.
He pushed off of the door and turned the shower on, waiting for the water to get hot. Steam gathered slowly against the mirror until his reflection blurred and disappeared.
Outside, the rain kept falling. Somewhere in the parking lot, a car door slammed. Sam didn't hear it.

Morning came gray and cold through the motel curtains.
Sam woke slowly, heavy with the kind of sleep that felt more like temporary unconsciousness rather than actual rest.
Dean was already awake. Sam could hear the drawers opening and closing, the rustle of clothes being shoved into bags, the muted clink of weapons carefully being packed away. The sounds were familiar enough again by now that Sam found it comforting.
“You planning on joining the land of the living anytime soon?” Dean asked.
Sam turned his head slightly. Dean stood near the table, pulling on his jacket, hair still damp from a shower. The TV muttered quietly in the background, some local morning news station that neither of them was paying attention to.
“I’m up.”
“Debatable.”
Despite himself, Sam huffed faintly and pushed himself upright. His headache had dulled overnight into something softer but deeper, a pressure lingering behind his eyes.

Outside, the rain had finally stopped. The parking lot glistened wet beneath a dull overcast sky as they stepped out of the room a few minutes later, motel room keys in Dean’s head, bags slung over their shoulders.
The air smelled sharply of wet asphalt.

Dean headed toward the Impala automatically. “I say we grab breakfast, hit the road, and find another case where people aren’t dr–”
He stopped abruptly.
Sam looked up and followed his brother's gaze to a car parked near the far edge of the lot.

It was dark colored, headlights still on despite the daylight. The driver's side door was wide open.
For one long second, Sam couldn’t breathe.
The motel sign buzzed overhead.

One dead letter dark between three others.
Something cold dropped violently in his stomach.
Dean frowned. “Was that there last night?”
Sam didn’t answer because suddenly he could hear it again. The buzzing from the dream. The rain. The awful certainty sitting heavy beneath his ribs. His pulse began climbing hard enough to hurt.
“Sam?”
He barely heard Dean. His feet were already moving fast.
There’s no way. The thought repeated uselessly in his head as he crossed the parking lot.
No way.
No way.
But the closer he got, the more wrong the air felt around him. Like his dream was waiting beneath reality, just thin enough to bleed through.
Then he heard it. A phone was vibrating weakly inside the car.
Dean got there first, but his pace slowed abruptly near the driver’s side door.
“Son of a bitch.” The words came out low and sharp.

For a second, his mind refused to make sense of what he was seeing. A young girl, Diane, he guessed, sat slumped against the seat.
Her clothes were soaked through as if she’d been pulled from a river. Dark wet strands of hair clung to her face and through. One hand rested limply in her lap around a cellphone still glowing faintly against her palm.
Deep cuts and bruises riddled her body, blood mixing with the water steadily dripping from the edge of the seat to the floor mat below.

Dean stepped closer carefully, his expression sharpening into something grim and focused.
“Looks fresh.”
Sam barely heard him. His heartbeat thudded unevenly behind his eyes.
Dean rested one hand lightly against the roof of the car as he leaned down to get a closer look inside. The vehicle shifted, and Diane’s head rolled slightly toward the open door.
And for one horrifying second, Sam saw water spill from her mouth. A dark stream running down her chin as her head turned slowly towards him–
He stumbled backward hard.
When he blinked again, the body sat exactly as before.
Cold nausea surged violently through him.
“Sam–”
He turned sharply away before Dean could reach him, one hand clamping over his mouth as he staggered blindly toward the edge of the parking lot.
He barely made it past the ice machine before vomiting hard enough to leave his ribs aching.
His hands shook against the damp brick wall as he tried to steady his breathing.
Behind him, he could feel Dean moving quickly across the pavement.
He appeared around the side of the ice machine a few seconds later. He didn’t say anything immediately, just stood there taking in Sam’s posture, the hand still braced against the brick, the pallor of his face.
“You good?”
“Yeah,” Sam straightened carefully. “Sorry. I don’t know what–”
“You’ve seen worse than that,” Dean said. Not unkindly, but directly. His eyes hadn’t left Sam’s face. “A lot worse.”
Sam didn’t answer. She had been right there. He’d seen this. That car had probably been there when they first pulled in, and he hadn’t noticed.
“So what’s going on?”
Sam wiped his mouth again and looked out across the parking lot instead of at Dean. A crow had landed near the far curb and was picking at something in the wet asphalt. Completely indifferent.
“I haven’t been sleeping well,” he said. “The headache’s been bad, and I just– it hit me wrong. I’m sorry. That’s all.”
Dean was quiet for a beat. “It hit you wrong.”
“Yeah.”
“Sam.”
“I’m fine, Dean.”
Dean exhaled slowly through his nose. The sound of someone deciding how hard to push and not quite deciding.
Then:
“Okay, no,” he folded his arms loosely. “You don’t get to pull the ‘I’m fine’ thing after projectile vomiting in a motel parking lot.”
Sam let out a tired breath that almost could’ve been a laugh.
“I said I’m sorry.”
“I’m not asking for an apology.”
Dean’s voice stayed calm, but there was something firm underneath it now. Concern sharpened into irritation around the edges.
“I’m ready when you want to stop bullshitting me.”
Sam looked away again.
“I told you. I’m tired.”
“I’ve seen you tired. This isn’t ‘tired’.”
Sam rubbed hard at the back of his neck. “Can we not do this right now?”
Dean studied him for another long second. And Sam could feel it. Dean was trying to put the pieces together and not liking the shape they were making.
“You wanna tell me what happened back there?” Dean asked again, firmer this time.
Sam’s stomach tightened again because, for a terrifying moment, it almost sounded possible to say it out loud.
I’ve seen this already. The headlights, the sign, the body.
But the ethought collapsed under its own weight almost instantly. How was he even supposed to explain that without sounding completely insane?
He shook his head once. “There’s nothing to tell.”
The silence between them stretched long enough to become uncomfortable. Then, from somewhere behind them, a phone began to ring. Both of them turned automatically. Diane’s car sat exactly where they’d left it, driver’s side door hanging open. Her phone vibrated against the center console. Even from here, Sam could see the screen glowing.
Dean swore softly under his breath and stared at the car for a moment before turning back to his brother.
“Well,” he said grimly, “I guess we’re not done here.”

The headache has been building since breakfast.
Sam had been ignoring it the way he’d been ignoring most things lately. Filing it under manageable, keeping it at the edge of his attention while Dean talked through what they knew.
The diner was warm and smelled like grease and something sweet from the pie case near the register.
He listened to Dean’s rambling as best he could, most of his focus on the uncomfortable fullness from the breakfast he’d felt like he’d eaten at gunpoint from the way his brother stared him down the whole time.
He’d really been hoping that the headache would have tapered off by now, but it only seemed to grow with every heartbeat.
Then it spiked. Not gradually but more like someone driving a nail cleanly through the center of his skull. Sam’s vision whited out the edges, and he gripped the table’s edge hard enough that the empty plates rattled and his knuckles ached.
“--so I’m thinking we go back to Mara, push a little harder on the story, because clearly something–” Dean stopped. “Hey. You okay?”
A groan was all Sam could manage before he was already moving to the bathroom.

He locked the door shut and collapsed against it, one hand pressed hard to his forehead.
The bathroom felt too bright. The fluorescent light overhead buzzed loudly enough to hurt. Sam squeezed his eyes shut, breathing shallowly through another spike of pain twisting behind them.

Outside, he could hear muffled diner noise through the walls. Silverware clattering. Someone laughing. Dean’s footsteps pacing once outside the door before stopping.
“Sammy, what’s going on?” he called.
Sam swallowed hard against the nausea rising in his throat. Another spike of pain drove through his head, and all he could do was try to muffle a cry that tore its way from his throat against his arm. It came out as a whimper.

He dragged himself unsteadily toward the sink and turned the faucet on cold. Water rushed loudly into the basin. Sam gripped the counter, staring down at it while spots pulsed faintly against his vision.
The headache only kept building like pressure accumulating inside his skull with nowhere to go. His breathing shortened. Something was wrong.
Then the lights flickered, and Sam froze. The buzzing overhead deepened suddenly into harsh static.
The sink water kept running, but it sounded wrong now. Too loud, or too close, like it was right beside his ear instead of below his hands. He gripped the counter harder. A ringing started somewhere he couldn’t locate. Not in the room or outside it.
And then he wasn’t in the bathroom anymore, except that he was. He could still feel the cold porcelain under his fingers, still hear Dean’s footsteps outside the door, but he was also somewhere else entirely. He was in Mara’s apartment, but he had no body there, no weight, no way to move or speak or intervene. Just watching. Mara sat on her couch, phone pressed to her ear.

“Hello?”
Static, then Claire’s voice underneath it, distorted and wet.
“Mara?”

There was a flash of light, and he saw Mara again, now standing and pacing.
“No, this isn’t– this isn’t funny, Claire. Look, I’m sorry, okay–”

Another flash.

Mara was backed against the wall now, phone still pressed to her ear. Her free hand groped behind her like she was looking for something solid to hold onto.
The static on the line thickened, and underneath it something moved.
The phone in her hand began to vibrate so violently that it blurred. The screen cracked down the middle with a sound like a gunshot. And through the fractured glass, something dark and wet began to bleed through.
Mara screamed.

The thing that came through the phone wasn't Claire. Or it was Claire, the way a river was still water after it flooded everything. Something that had been grief and terror and desperate reaching for so long that it had curdled into something unrecognizable.
It moved wrong. Too fast and too slow simultaneously, the way things moved in water.
Mara's back hit the wall hard. Her hand flew up uselessly.
The phone dropped.

Then the door shook in its frame, and Dean’s voice drove through everything
"SAM." and the apartment tore apart like wet paper, and Sam was back. Both hands white-knuckled around the sink, water still running cold, the fluorescent light buzzing normally overhead as if nothing had happened.
He stood there for three seconds trying to locate himself. His hands were shaking. The headache was gone, completely, which was somehow worse than if it had faded. Like something had used it and finished with it.

He unlocked the door and shouldered past Dean, barely registering his brother’s hand catching his arm.
“We have to go,” the word came out wrecked and breathless.
“What– Sam, what’s happening–”
“Dean.” He turned and met his brother’s eyes, and whatever Dean saw there was enough.

The cold air hit him like a wall outside the diner.
His legs were already moving, feet hitting the wet pavement hard, and he was dimly aware of Dean keeping pace behind him without asking questions. The sound of their footsteps and his own breathing were all happening at a remove, like sounds heard underwater.

He didn’t know what was happening to him.
That was the part that kept trying to resurface through everything else. Not the vision itself, not Mara’s face or the thing coming through the phone, but the simple, terrifying fact that he didn’t know what this was. Dreams he could file away and headaches he could explain, but he’d been standing in a diner bathroom with both hands around a sink, and he’d been somewhere else entirely, watching something that would or was happening. He had no framework for that. No box to put it in.
The thought kept trying to resurface, and he kept outrunning it, feet hitting the wet pavement, because if he slowed down long enough to look at it directly, he didn’t know what he’d find and Mara didn’t have time for that.
He ran faster.
The only thing that felt certain was that if he didn’t get there in time, Mara was going to die the same way Diane and Claire had died. Alone and terrified, with a phone in her hand and nobody coming.
That, he could not let happen.

Mara’s building came into view at the end of the block. Second floor, curtains half drawn, exactly as they’d left it.
The door to the apartment was locked, but Sam didn’t slow down.
One hit and it gave, the frame splintering and swinging into the wall inside.

Mara was on the couch, phone pressed to her ear, face bone white, her hands shaking. Her eyes were wide with terror. The static coming through the phone was audible from across the room.
The temperature had already dropped by the time they came through the door. Mara stood frozen, phone still pressed to her ear, and she wasn’t looking at them. At the water running down it in thin dark lines that had no source. At the shape the wet was making.

Sam didn’t look at it directly. He didn’t need to. He crossed the distance in three strides and knocked the phone clean out of her hand. It hit the far wall and clattered to the floor, screen down. Silence collapsed over the apartment instantly.

Mara gasped, and both her hands flew to her mouth. She sat there for a moment just breathing, eyes squeezed shut, and her shoulders shaking.
Sam stood very still, his heart hammering against his chest. More worried about how he could possibly explain what had just happened, rather than the ghost that had almost crawled out of the phone.
Dean closed the broken door as best he could behind them.
The quiet stretched for another few seconds, then Mara opened her eyes. They went from Sam to Dean to the splintered door frame. The relief on her face curdled into something more volatile as her brain caught up with the rest of her.
“What–” her voice came out thin and shaking before it found its footing. “Who are you? What did you just–” she pushed herself up from the couch unsteadily, wrapping her arms tight around herself. “You broke my door. You just broke my door and grabbed my phone, and I don’t– what is happening?”
Dean stepped forward smoothly, voice dropping into something calm and practiced. “We can explain–”
“You were here before.” Her eyes had fixed on Sam. Sharper now that recognition had cut through the shock. “You’re the cops asking about Claire.”
The name landed in the room like something physical.

Her breath caught on it. And whatever anger had been rising in her face wavered suddenly, cracked through the middle, and underneath it was just the guilt that had been sitting there the whole time waiting to come out.
"What is happening?" she whispered. Not really to either of them.
Sam looked at her for a moment. Then quietly, "We think we know. But we need you to tell us what really happened on that mountain."

“I already told you!” she exclaimed, panic beginning to resurface.
“We all know there’s more going on, and we can’t help you unless you’re honest,” Dean said firmly.
Mara’s lip quivered, her gaze falling on the broken phone on the floor. Her resolve had cracked.
“It was supposed to be a joke, okay? We never meant for this to happen,” she took a shaky breath before continuing, “she always hikes so slow, so we wanted to scare her a bit and hid ahead of the trail. We waited for like 10 minutes, but she must’ve gone off trail or walked past us, I don’t know. We searched for her for hours, I swear.”

The brothers turned to each other, a silent understanding settling between them.
“She thinks you abandoned her,” said Dean. Not as an accusation but as a simple fact.
Mara nodded slowly, her tears falling freely.
“It was just a prank,” she said quietly, more to reassure herself than to convince the brothers.
“Did you or anyone you know ever find her things? Maybe her backpack or even just her phone?” asked Sam gently.
Mara shook her head. “No, I’m sorry.”

Dean pulled the front door shut behind them as best he could. It listed slightly on its damaged frame.
“Don’t answer the phone,” Sam said, turning back before they reached the stairs. Mara stood in the gap, arms still wrapped around herself. “Whatever number it comes from. Don’t pick. And call your friends, tell them the same thing.”
Mara nodded. Her eyes were red, and her face was still pale, but something in her expression had shifted slightly.
“Is it going to stop?” she asked quietly.
Sam hesitated.
“Yeah,” Dean said. “It will.”
They left her standing in the doorway.

The trail was worse the second time. Or maybe it just felt that way. The mud had settled and stiffened overnight, and the branches overhead dripped cold water down the back of Sam’s neck every few minutes with persistence.
Dean hadn’t said anything since the car. Sam had been waiting for it the whole drive up, the silence sitting between them with an unspent quality that was somehow worse than the conversation itself.
It finally came about ten minutes into the climb.
“Okay,” Dean said. The word landed with the weight of a hundred more unspoken thoughts. “Talk.”
Sam kept his eyes on the trail. “About what?”
“Don’t play dumb,” Dean’s voice came out flat. “I’ve been watching you check out for two days and have asked you repeatedly what’s going on, and I’m done getting nothing. So talk.”

The trees dripped around them.
“I’m fine–”
“Sam.” Sharp enough to cut. “You locked yourself in a diner bathroom. I heard you in there, and then you ran out looking like–” he stopped. Exhaled hard. “This whole case– Don’t tell me you’re fine.”
Sam’s jaw tightened. He picked his way over a root without answering.
“The headache got bad,” he said finally. “Really bad. And I was sitting there trying to get it under control, and I just– I started thinking about the case. About Mara.” He paused, choosing the words carefully. “She seemed like the second closest person to Claire. The calls hadn’t stopped, and Diane was dead. I just put it together that she had to be next.”
“You put it together,” Dean repeated.
“Yeah.”
“In a diner bathroom.”
“Yes.”
“While making sounds like someone was driving a screwdriver through your skull.”
Sam said nothing.
“That’s what you’re going with?”
“Dean–”
“I’m not an idiot,” Dean said, “I know what I heard in there. You looked half dead when you came out. You weren’t connecting shit.”
The words sat between them in the cold air.
Sam stared at the trail ahead. The trees pressed close on both sides. He could feel Dean looking at him, and he kept his gaze deliberately forward.
“I don’t know what else to tell you,” he said quietly
“The truth would be a start.”
“That is the truth.”

It wasn’t entirely a lie. He had connected the dots. He just hadn’t mentioned the part where the dots had forced themselves into his skull while he was on his knees on a bathroom floor.

Dean made a sound that wasn’t quite a laugh. Humorless and short.
“You know what I’m thinking about?” he said, after a moment. “You were what, in third grade? You told Dad you’d run your laps.”
Sam blinked. “What?”
“You hadn’t. You’d been reading that stupid astronomy book all afternoon instead, and you panicked and lied.” Dean stepped over a root without looking down. “You did this thing where you looked at him straight in the eye and said it completely normally, and I thought, huh, that’s pretty good actually. Except your left hand was doing this– “he made a vague tightening gesture with his fist, “–the whole time. Like you were trying to hold something still.”
Sam said nothing.
“You still do it,” Dean said simply. “You’ve been doing it since the diner.”
Sam looked down at his left hand without meaning to. He made himself stop.
“That’s not–”
“Is it Jessica?”
Sam’s head snapped up. “What? No.”
“Because it would make sense. Being back on the road, cases like this one–”
“It’s not about Jessica, Dean.”
“Then what is it? Because something has been eating you alive since we got here, and I’m running out of guesses.” He paused. “Actually, no, are you sick? Like actually sick, because the not eating and the headaches–”
“I’m not sick.”
“Then what?”
“It’s nothing like that–”
“Then what is it like?” Dean’s voice cracked at the edges with exhaustion. “I don’t wanna get all girly here, but I’ve been watching you disappear for these past few days, hell, even before that, and you won’t give me anything.”

The silence stretched long enough that Sam almost let it stay that way.
“I’ve just been–” he paused. “I don’t know. Feeling off. For a while now.
Dean didn’t say anything.
“Not like something’s wrong exactly. Like–” Sam searched for it. “Like everything is slightly out of reach. Like I’m trying to adjust to things and feel normal again, and it just keeps not happening.” He paused.
The creek rushed below them.
“Do you remember that winter in Flagstaff?” Sam said. “I was maybe sixteen. Dad was gone for three weeks, and you kept trying to get me to come outside, and I just– I couldn't. I didn’t want to eat or talk or do anything. I just wanted to lie there.”
Dean was quiet for a moment. “I remember.”
“It’s like that,” Sam said simply. “It’s been like that for a few weeks now. I didn’t really–” he exhaled slowly. “I didn’t really notice it creeping up. And then I did, and I didn’t know what to do with it.”

Dean's jaw worked slightly. He stared at the trail ahead, hands loose at his sides. Sam could see him trying to find something adequate and not finding it, which was somehow more comforting than anything polished would have been.
"Why didn't you just—" Dean started.
“I don’t know,” Sam said. Honestly. "It's probably nothing," he said, because he couldn't help himself.
Dean shot him a look. "It's cleary not nothing.”

Sam didn't answer. But he didn't argue either.
They walked in silence after that. A different silence than before. Something had shifted in it, some pressure released without either of them having to name what the pressure was.
The ravine opened up below them through the trees.
Dean slowed.
Then Sam felt it. The air changing. A specific quality of wrongness in the air they’d gotten very used to.
“Dean–”
The temperature dropped sharply. A ringing started somewhere below them.
Dean stopped immediately. “You hear that?”
Sam nodded once. The sound was coming from the ravine.
They carefully climbed down the muddy slope. The temperature kept dropping. They could hear the water rushing below them now.
The ringing stopped abruptly. Silence enveloped them.

Static burst violently through both their phones at once. Dean swore, jerking his from his pocket as the screen flashed white with interference.

Something was moving in the creek below. A dark shape pulled itself upright from the water. The figure unfolded wrong, jerking in broken half movements like someone drowning frame by frame.
Neither of them moved. The thing that had been Claire stood at the edge of the water and looked at Sam. Its head tilted slowly, like it was trying to remember something. Its mouth opened, but all that came out was water. It ran down her chin in a thin dark stream, and the sound underneath it, the sound trying to be a word, was the worst thing Sam had heard all week.

Dean raised the shotgun. “Claire–”

The ghost snapped toward Sam instead. Too fast for either of them to react. The thing hit him like floodwater. He lost his footing instantly as something slammed hard into his chest and drove him backward down the slope.
A rock tore through his jacket first. Then mud. Then branches whipped hard enough across his face to sting. He crashed violently against the ravine wall.
Pain exploded through his ribs. Before he could breathe, freezing water surged around his legs, pulling and dragging.
Sam clawed desperately at the mud as something wrapped around his ankle and yanked hard enough to wrench him downward another foot.
The ringing started again. Right beside him now. His chest seized. He gasped sharply as something raked down his arms. Sharp enough to split skin through the soaked fabric of his sleeve.
Another yank. His body slammed hard against the stone again. Water filled his mouth. For one horrifying second, he understood exactly how Claire had felt as the fight started draining out of him.

“SAM!”
A shotgun blast exploded through the ravine, and the pressure around Sam vanished instantly. Dean slid halfway down the slope beside him, grabbing the front of his jacket hard before the current could pull him farther.
“You with me?” Dean barked.
Sam coughed hard, choking water onto the mud.
Above them, the ghost shrieked.
“Her phone!” Sam choked out, trying to get his feet under him, “Find the phone–”
The ghost shrieked again, and Dean swung the shotgun up; the blast lit the ravine white for half a second.
“Go!” Dean barked. “Find it, I’ve got her–”
Sam grabbed the ravine wall and hauled himself upright. His ribs screamed. His legs felt unsteady beneath him, but he pushed off the rock anyway and stumbled along the waterline, scanning the waterline desperately. The creek churned dark around his ankles.
The ringing had stopped. He didn’t know if that was better or worse
.
Behind him, Dean fired again. The ghost’s shriek twisted halfway into something horribly human.
Sam dropped to his knees at the water's edge, hands plunging into the freezing mud.

Broken branches. Rocks. Matted leaves. He shoved everything aside frantically, fingers already going numb
Nothing.
He moved further. The current pulled at him. The canopy above cast dark shadows beneath him.
Come on, he thought. Come on.
Behind him, there was a sound like every window in the world shattering at once, and Dean cried out.
Sam's head snapped around. Dean was down.
The ghost stood over him, and it wasn't moving like something drowning anymore. It was completely still. Its head tilted slowly toward Sam. Then it started moving.

Sam turned back to the creek desperately..
His hand closed around something hard and rectangular in the mud. His breath caught. The phone. He yanked it free from the mud.
The screen was shattered, almost completely black, but faint light still pulsed weakly beneath the cracks.

His hands shook violently as he fumbled for the lighter fluid in his pocket.
Behind him, Dean groaned somewhere in the dark.
The ghost kept coming.
Sam dumped most of the lighter fluid over the phone. His lighter slipped once against his wet fingers.
“Come on–” he flicked it again.
Nothing. Again. Only sparks.
He could hear water dripping from the ghost onto the rocks behind him. Another flick, another useless spark.
Sam’s breathing turned ragged, then finally, a tiny flame caught. He shoved it against the soaked phone immediately. For one second, nothing happened. Then the fire spread violently across the cracked screen.

The ghost stopped. Sam turned around despite himself.
It had stopped a few feet away. Its mouth opened, but no sound came out. As suddenly as she had appeared, she was gone. For good, this time.
The ravine went quiet.
Sam stayed on his knees in the mud, chest heaving, the burning phone in his hands. The fire ate through the cracked screen and kept going. He held it until he couldn’t anymore and set it down on the rock beside him and watched it finish.
Behind him, he could hear Dean moving. Slow and pained, but moving.
“Sam.” his voice sounded rough. “You good?”
Sam looked at the small bright fire reflecting off the dark water.
“Yeah,” he said, “you?”
“Yeah.”

The motel room looked exactly the same as every other motel room they’d ever left.
Sam moved through the familiar motions automatically. Clothes into the bag. Laptop packed. Chargers pulled from the wall. He checked the nightstand drawer out of habit, even though he never put anything in it.
Dean was already outside loading the trunk. He could hear the familiar sounds of it through the thin wall. The creak of the Impala’s trunk. The thud of bags being dropped in.
Sam zipped his bag and stood there for a second in the middle of the room.
The water stain on the ceiling looked like a map of somewhere he’d never been. The carpet was the same suspicious color it had been two days ago when they’d checked in. The clock on the nightstand had been blinking 12:00 since they’d arrived, too stubborn or too broken to keep real time.
He picked up his bag.
Outside, the morning was pale and cold. His breath came out in small clouds. The parking lot was mostly empty now. The space near the far curb where Diane’s car had been was just asphalt. Wet and unremarkable like the rest of it.
The motel owner still hadn’t fixed the broken letter.

The highway opened up ahead of them. Fields and telephone poles and the sky pressed low and gray over everything. Sam leaned against the passenger window. Watched the world slide past.
He was still tired. That particular tiredness that lived somewhere below sleep. Rest wouldn’t touch it, he knew that. It would probably still be there tomorrow and the day after that, waiting quietly in the parts of him he didn’t want to examine too closely.
He thought about Claire. About her mom and how she’d never really know what happened to her. Maybe that was better.
He thought about Dean’s voice in the ravine.
And no matter how much he didn’t want to, he thought about the bathroom. The headache, and why he’d seemingly been drawn to this town. The way that the vision had forced itself in.

He didn't know what that meant. He didn't know if it had happened before in ways he hadn't recognized, or if it would happen again, or what it made him. He didn’t know if it was something that had always been there, dormant and waiting, or something new, something the road had shaken loose, or grief, or just the exhaustion of a person running low enough that other things could get in.
The not knowing sat in his chest differently than the other things he carried. Less like exhaustion and more like a door he'd discovered in a wall he thought he knew completely. He didn’t know what was on the other side of it. He wasn’t sure he wanted to.

Sam closed his eyes. Not to sleep but just to let the road carry him forward without having to watch where it was going.
It was enough for now.