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i want to hold you close, skin pressed against me tight by manicpixiedreamjop
Fandoms: SAS: Rogue Heroes (TV)
05 Mar 2025
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“Alright?” Johnny asks softly.
“Yeah,” grunts Reg. “Just— fuck, sorry.” He rubs a hand over his face. “I’ve never actually met up with someone from— don’t fully know how this works, if I’m being honest.”
Johnny’d had a feeling.
“That’s fine,” he says with a shrug. “I can kiss you now, if you’d like.”
Reg looks at him and swallows hard. “Yeah, alright.”
Just after Johnny Cooper moves back to London from university, he hooks up with a man off of Grindr. He doesn’t expect to see him again.
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- Part 1 of hold you close
- Part 1 of hold you close main plot only
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you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak by manicpixiedreamjop
Fandoms: SAS: Rogue Heroes (TV)
30 May 2025
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“What do you want, then?” she asks, voice still steady, tears not yet falling. It’s the question that Reg has been asking himself for ages — for thirteen years, for longer — but he doesn’t expect it to cut so deep falling from her lips. He had dated her because they were best friends, joined the military because that was what the men in his family did, married her because her father died and he knew his salary could help support her family, and given up his planned military career when the condom had broke the night he returned for leave and she’d informed him she would be keeping the baby. Every bit of his life has had a firm cause and effect, and his wants have never really come into it. He wants to be a good father, a good husband, a good teacher, and yet he doesn’t think that any of that is what Monica is asking him.
Fresh off of a divorce and desperate for something new, Reg Seekings lets himself figure out, for maybe the first time in his life, what he really wants.
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- Part 3 of hold you close
- Part 2 of hold you close main plot only
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you'd be like heaven to touch, i want to hold you so much by manicpixiedreamjop
Fandoms: SAS: Rogue Heroes (TV)
09 Nov 2025
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Eoin has always thought — or maybe wished — that he’ll be able to tell the moment he meets the love of his life. Their eyes will meet, and it’ll be a sudden realisation, a flash of lightning, and he’ll simply know. He’ll know, and they’ll be able to start their lives together right away, because Eoin McGonigal is a man of many virtues but patience has never been one of them.
He meets Paddy on a Friday.
There is no realisation, no lightning. Eoin doesn’t even know his second name. All he gets is a nickname, the vague sense that he’s forgetting something, and a moderate to extreme level of attraction toward the man who had been sitting in front of him.
If he’d been told Paddy’s second name, maybe it could’ve explained all the other things away. Maybe then he would’ve remembered where exactly he knew him from, and the day he’d had that feeling, lightning and all, all those years ago.
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- Part 4 of hold you close
- Part 3 of hold you close main plot only
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who am I that I should get to hold you by manicpixiedreamjop
Fandoms: SAS: Rogue Heroes (TV)
01 Feb 2026
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“Come on then,” says Paddy, unbuckling his seatbelt. “We’re going to miss our train.”
“You know," says Eoin, "if you’re taking me to another country to kill me, legally you have to tell me."
“Christ, lad, you think I'd let you die in France?”
“We're going to France?”
"Aye, well, I figured that if we were going to keep seeing each other then it was probably about time you met Augustin."
“Oh, excellent,” says Eoin, “I’ve always wanted to go to Paris for the first time so that I can meet my boyfriend’s ex.”
June, 2025. Paddy takes Eoin to Paris, and carries his bags for him.
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- Part 5 of hold you close
- Part 4 of hold you close main plot only
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hold onto me (i'm a little unsteady) by manicpixiedreamjop
Fandoms: SAS: Rogue Heroes (TV)
02 Apr 2026
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Bill Fraser was born during a thunderstorm.
His mother took it as a sign, convinced he would be a difficult child, and so when he proved her wrong there was very little fanfare surrounding it. No matter how good he was, no matter how dutiful and obedient, she was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. So Bill learned to walk quietly, to pretend his gait was just the same as all the other kids, even with one foot bare.
Set between 2015 and 2025, Bill Fraser slowly learns what it means to get better.
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- Part 7 of hold you close
- Part 5 of hold you close main plot only
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now i'm wondering if i ever wanted to hold you by manicpixiedreamjop
Fandoms: SAS: Rogue Heroes (TV)
24 Apr 2026
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“You have never been in love then."
“No,” says Bill flatly. “And I don’t plan on it. I’m doing perfectly fine without it, in fact.”
“Are you?”
Bill learns to allow himself to desire. The problem with desire, though, is that it's a slippery slope into other, far more dangerous things.
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- Part 8 of hold you close
- Part 6 of hold you close main plot only