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   It's the Dirtiest Clean, I Know by soleildownwithme

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Teen And Up Audiences
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   25 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • Rose Landry
   • Hayden Pike
   • Jackie Pike
   • Eating Disorders
   • Not Beta Read
   • no beta we die like ilya's mom
   • Body Dysmorphic Disorder
   • Self-Harm
   • self-harm but it's food related
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Ilya Rozanov probably needs a hug too
   • Anxiety Disorder
   • Panic Attacks
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • lowkey no canon at all if I'm being honest
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Purging
   • BUT VERY VAGUE
   • i think
   • Vomiting
   • Minor Violence
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • by this I mean someone gets punched
   • in a hockey fight so...
   • Obsessive Behavior
   • Bulimia
   • I probably should have tagged that earlier whoops!

   Summary

   Shane Hollander's life wasn't something he had ever truly controlled, every second of every day was a calculated event for his future.

   It had always been like that and Shane believed it always would.

   So, instead of focusing on what he did everyday, Shane focused on what he ate.

   He recorded and planned every meal, making sure his body was perfect so he at least had something to be proud of.

   But relationships with food are rarely so easy.

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