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Shane paused. Then, with deliberate slowness, he said, "Let me get this straight. You want to bottom... so you can chirp better?"
"Well, it is not very straight, that is kind of point, yes?"
Shane took a deep, long-suffering breath.
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- Part 1 of chirpverse
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05 Jun 2026
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In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.
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04 Jun 2026
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think twice (and come back for a third time) by lipsticktraces
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
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02 Jun 2026
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rock me like my backbone was his own by QueerOnTilMorning
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
23 May 2026
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If Ilya could do it all over again, there is one thing he would change.
It's not a big thing. It’s so tiny, in comparison to everything Shane gives him: all his love and patience and kindness and his mocking smiles on the ice and his quiet laughter in the mornings and long summer days at the cottage and, yes, his body, his beautiful insatiable body that craves Ilya and welcomes Ilya and belongs to Ilya, as Shane swears over and over again. Ilya is so fucking lucky, so fucking amazed every time they touch, still overwhelmed with gratitude that never fades no matter how many times and how many ways they savor each other. It doesn't matter at all, really, that there is one way he's never had Shane, and never will.
But still. If he could do everything over from the beginning, he would ask Shane to fuck him, first.
Or: Ilya really wants Shane to fuck him. He figures out a way to persuade Shane to want it too.
Or: whoops, I over-identified with Ilya Rozanov (as a bisexual of Annoying experience) and then I needed him to get railed.
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24 May 2026
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Chrissy is beginning to think Ettie has sampled too much of her own product. “I don't know what you're talking about,” she says.
Ettie huffs in exasperation. Enunciating carefully, she says, “Have you tried masturbating?”
Chrissy stares at her. “No.”
“Might be a good place to start, before you spend a bunch of money on self-medication,” says Ettie. “Relaxing and free.” Her face is slightly pink, but maybe that's Chrissy's imagination, or the lighting in the trailer, or something.
“No,” says Chrissy again, feeling unmoored. “I don't do that. I mean. I can't do that.” Stupidly, she gestures to her cheer uniform, her short skirt. “I'm a girl.”
Chrissy comes to Ettie for something to help her sleep. Ettie's suggestion makes her realize she's been missing out on a lot of things.
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17 May 2026