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Absolution by nonameatnight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Dec 2025
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"You're not yourself right now, I think-"
Startled, he turned around, finally facing the other with an icy look and raised his voice, "I am exactly myself, Hollander. I am him, this is who the fuck Ilya Rozanov is, idi na khuy," spitting the words like a threat.
Moving so they were almost touching, he hated when Shane took a step away from him, resenting the way he let him encroach on his space; always submitting to an authority he was desperate to hand back.
"Also, no, you don't think. You only care about hockey and brand deals and wasting women's time."
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Messing with time, beginning at episode 4.More in bio.
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tear me asunder, let your light stitch me up by xTarmanderx
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Dec 2025
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Ilya Rozanov should feel on top of the world after defeating Montreal in a grueling game. So why does he feel like this?
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Shane Hollander’s life changed with his career ending hockey injury. It started again when Ilya Rozanov walked into his parents’ candy shop.
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A recessive Alpha and a stubborn Omega meet and fall in love.
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Let Me In by ompalompap
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Dec 2025
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“I said I’m fine.”
“You don’t sound fine.”
“Why does it matter how I sound?” Ilya spins back around, frustration spilling over. “Why is there always something? Tone, face, body language. Maybe I’m just fucking tired, Shane. Maybe I don’t have the energy to be ‘okay’ correctly.”
Shane swallows. “I’m not asking you to be okay.”
“It feels like it,” Ilya scoffs. “It feels like if I don’t say the right words, if I don’t say them the right way, you’ll keep pushing until you get something out of me.”
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Ilya’s mother’s birthday sends Ilya down a rough episode, in which Shane tries understanding him.
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don’t wanna be young and sad another day longer by ecavery
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Dec 2025
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Ilya has everything he is supposed to want.
It still isn’t enough to quiet the noise in his head.
When Shane hears it in his voice, he comes anyway.
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2 times Ilya knew Shane could never love him (+1 time he was wrong) by InheriGirl
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Dec 2025
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Ilya turned sharply towards the refrigerator and yanked open the door, hand moving on its own accord to the shelf where he kept his vodka. His hand stopped midair when his eyes finally caught up.
The bottle sat exactly where it always did.
And beside it?
Five cans of ginger ale.
Something sharp and vicious, dripping in rageful self loathing, twisted through his chest at the sight.
He loved Shane Hollander.
The realization was a punch to the gut. He almost laughed, bitterness coating his insides. Of course he did. Of course he was that stupid. Confusing sex for emotions. Pathetically falling for his rival.
And worst of all, he was the biggest fucking idiot for believing there was even a remote possibility that Shane may love him back.
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in the blue and red arena, trying to pretend that we’re the same by Miss_Anthr0pocene
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Dec 2025
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Shane and Ilya, if Shane grew up 60 km west, and Ilya moved there their senior spring of high school.
After a nervous collapse, five years later, Shane returns home, only to be brought back into contact with the only person who saw through him.- Language:
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Ilya slips up and Shane leaves, but the real mistake is leaving so much left unsaid.
Or, "Hollander. Hollander," but it means so much more than just a last name.
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Shane grew up with a few facts. 1. He was going to play in the NHL. 2. He was going to be a beta. 3. He was going to have a soul mark.
Ilya grew up with a few facts. 1. His father was always right. 2. He shall not fail his family name. 3. Marry well and give alpha sons.
Fate works in mysterious ways, and there is nothing easy about this match. When a chance encounter can turn a late-blooming Shane Hollander into a powerhouse in the Hockey world and a delectable mate carrying around Ilyas' handwriting on his collar. When responsibilities come knocking, what can they do? How could fate play a trick so cruel?
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Ilya’s past has a way of finding him, even on the minimal days off the season lets him have
When a call from Russia leaves him hollowed out, Shane does what he always does, hovers, fidgets and stays.
or : alexei calls ilya, makes him depressed, and shane makes ilya feel better ;)
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With their first season as husbands on the ice finished, Shane and Ilya navigate their marriage and relationship. With the summer finally on the horizon, the two boys fall deeper in love and enjoy their time off.
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transfixed in the afterglow of you by artemismuse
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Dec 2025
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After five years of touches that aren't enough, of words that are never said, Shane finally knows what sex with Ilya Rozanov feels like. It feels like the beginning of something more - something that will take them past this silly rivalry and into each others arms. It's perfect. It's all he's ever wanted, before he even knew he could have it.
But by the next morning, he's faced with news that derails everything. And Ilya has no idea.
*spoilers for future series/book events ahead!
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Strong Enough to Bring Sun to the Darkest Days by lucianowriter
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
15 Dec 2025
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It is their wedding anniversary and Ilya has plans that involve a black and white photograph that Jackie took. Too bad his depression decided to rear its ugly head. Shane is there to pull him out with love and support.
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- Part 4 of Hollanov Family
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'A sequence of introspective vignettes, each one representing a turning point.'
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Ilya, Ill-loved by DrtLilRhod
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Dec 2025
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Hollander. Hollander.
The couch still held imprints of Shane’s warmth where Ilya hadn’t moved, the cushions pressed into the shape of someone who used to be possible – and wasn’t that always the way of it? That the best things left only their impressions, the ghost of heat, the evidence of having been.
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Love was foreign in his foreign body. And Shane - Shane was gone.Series
- Part 1 of Ilya, Ill-loved
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cradle me in your arms by Internallyscreamingpossum
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Dec 2025
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Shane’s eyes wandered around the room looking for what woke him up. His eyes landed on Ilya’s back, it was still for a second and then shook with his next exhale. Ilya’s hand was over the side of the crib gently stroking the face of their sleeping baby.
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too broken to fix by sochilya (93kooker)
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 Dec 2025
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“Are you going to be a dick and not talk about it?” Shane finally asks.
Ilya is not a dick. Not always. Only when he really wants to be.
“I get worried when you’re like this.”
“You will have panic attack, Hollander.”
“Ilya.” Shane rolls into him and buries his face into Ilya’s chest. Ilya leans down to take a long breath of his damp hair. Being close to him should be enough. Isn’t it enough? “I’m serious. I notice things.”
(or; Ilya is fucking depressed again. The only person who helps is Shane.)
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the pit by facingthenorthwind (spacegandalf)
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Dec 2025
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Ilya had been doing well, and nothing had precipitated this. He just woke up one morning, and everything felt insurmountable for no reason.
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I have had several ideas for these boys, Hollanov especially, but also for Troy & Harris feat.the rest of the queer squad! Along with the Ottawa Centaurs. Some of the ideas will reference events that have happened in Heated Rivalry, The Long Game and Role Model.
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Chap 1 - Ilya woke up feeling not great, aka depression times. Shane's right there to hold him and love him! -
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Ilya knew it should scare him more. It had terrified him, the first few times he caught his thoughts slipping in that direction. Now it was a fact of life, the thoughts that came when the high of hockey faded, especially now that he could no longer distract himself with a quick fuck, or a fast car, or some combination of the two.