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Izuku’s life was definitely not normal for his age. Since he entered U.A., life has been really -- if you want to put it lightly – intense . From hero studies, to villain fights, to heaps of injuries, kidnapping, media fights, the list could go on.
In conclusion: Nothing normal.
What has always been kept normal, though, was how the class interacted with each other. After all, they were just teenagers who wanted to live their hectic lives to the fullest, dreaming to become pro-heroes one day. When villain attacks wouldn’t ensue, their conversations and the activities they did together on weekends almost made them live like normal teenagers for once. With the addition of the class currently living in dormitories, movie nights, all-nighter study sessions, and a class group chat became normal and a good change to the crazy times they were going through.
With all those “typical normal teenage experiences” there was one that wouldn’t go by them either: crushes.
Izuku always thought crushes wouldn’t bother him much. Yes, he was a nervous mess around girls and yes , he just discovered a while ago that he also did show certain interest in boys. After a lot of researching and questioning himself and his preferences, he came to the conclusion that he liked both boys and girls, and he was surprisingly content with this fact. However, he finally figured out why he was questioning his sexual orientation in the first place: Todoroki Shouto’s existence.
They became friends, something Izuku never thought would be possible at the beginning of their school year. Todoroki was never the type to open up and socialize with others, so Izuku pretty much had zero idea how to get near the mysterious boy. However, the Sports Festival ended the barrier between them. Even though the reason why they became closer wasn’t really of good circumstance, Izuku was glad that he was finally on the way to becoming Todoroki’s friend.
As the two talked more, even exchanged numbers, Todoroki became more social with their class, which made Izuku really happy. Even though Todoroki still remained to be his typical self, he went from isolating himself from interaction to becoming, at the very least, comfortable to be around. Once finding a common topic you could talk about, you could chat meaningfully and have fun. He just needed time but that was okay, not everyone had the same pace. Within the months of the Sports Festival, Izuku noticed how easy it became to talk to Todoroki and how much he found himself enjoying it. Izuku realized that he would unconsciously search for Todoroki in crowds or on school grounds, usually near the dorms. He had to admit, he was a little bit disappointed that their dorm rooms where kind of far from each other.
With these recurring thoughts eating him up inside, he decided to talk to Uraraka and Iida about it. They were his best friends and they would understand him, right? They wouldn’t hate him if he told them about his bisexuality.
“So…” Izuku fumbled with his fingers nervously. He knew they wouldn’t be mad about him not telling them right away, but to finally say it out loud was more difficult than he thought it would be. He’s never said it out loud, nevertheless tell anyone. The three just were talking about their day, not knowing exactly why Izuku wanted them to meet up. He only told them that they hang out together in his room and talk since they did haven’t for a while.
“Uhm… I actually wanted to tell you guys something. Well, it’s more like I wanted you to know something about me. I thought it would be good to tell you two first since you’re two of my best friends and I trust you, n-not that I don’t trust the others but still. I thought you two should know first, and it would be really the first time I tell people this, so it might sound a bit weird. You have to tell me if it’s weird, though, because the possibility for that is also high, but not that I would think you two wouldn’t -“
“Deku. Rambling!” Uraraka waved at him. He became quiet immediately and mentally berated himself for it.
“What is it that you want to tell us, Midoriya? If you start your muttering you must have put a lot of thought into it!” Iida said, raising his arm.
“I’m bi,” Izuku said quickly, looking to get it over with now. He sheepishly scratched his cheek while glancing at them. They both looked at him a little surprised about the new information but soon both looked at him with a smile.
“Well it’s great that you figured it out! To know something like this also helps with your mental stability. A very good thought that you didn’t try to deny it, and even better that you would tell us! Well done Midoriya, I didn’t expect anything else from you.” This answer was probably the most typical Iida answer Izuku should have expected, but he was happy his friend accepted it so easily.
“Yeah! So, any idea why you suddenly realized it, or did it just come to you?” Uraraka asked curiously.
“Ahaha well. Uh – uhm… m-maybe someone gave me the idea because I might, just maybe, have a really small c-crush on them,” Izuku stumbled nervously over his words and tried to laugh it off.
“Hmm?” Uraraka now looked at him with even more interest. Truth to be told was that though her thoughts about having a crush on Midoriya concerned her a lot, she had to admit that they just wouldn’t fit together. They were really close friends and she would do anything for him, and Midoriya felt the same. He just never gave any other impression of being more than just her friend. He got as nervous around her as he got around every girl, but she felt a certain comfortable feeling whenever they would talk, and Midoriya even admitted that he found it easy to talk with her because he felt that she would never judge him for anything. After a while of thinking back and forth of actually talking to him about it, she knew that now was not the time for it. They had this good and healthy close friendship with each other that would feel weird if it would be more. Now that she knew he had a crush on someone that wasn’t her, she could see on her own how he deals with this whole topic.
“Come on! Tell us! I want to know the details, and you can’t just start and then not tell us. That would be unfair. You know we would never tell them so!” She shook his shoulders gently, itching with curiosity now. “Oh, wait! Iida, who do you think it is?”
The blue haired boy thought about it for a little bit. “Well, I’ve never really thought about it before, so I can’t give a good answer. Well, you do have a pretty interesting past with Bakugou, your relationship seems to be a bit complicated, though special.”
“Kacchan?! No, it’s not him. He’s special to me in a different way, honestly. We’re more the friendly rival types, and I think we’re good how we are,” Izuku explained, light blush dusting his face.
“Good guess Iida, but I think I know who it is.” Uraraka glanced at Izuku with a smug smirk, which only made him nervous again. Was he really that obvious, or was she just messing with him?
“Todoroki-kun!” she said and Izuku’s heart jumped.
“Am I that obvious!?” he asked, already panicking.
Uraraka giggled. “So I was right! And no, you’re not obvious. It’s just that now I know that you like guys, it makes pretty much sense that you would have a crush on him because of the way you act around him. But trust me, Todoroki-kun is too dense to notice it.”
Izuku breathed out a sigh of relief. “Thank god.”
“Now that you say it, it really does make sense,” Iida spoke up. “I noticed how familiar you already were with each other in the hospital in Hosu. Even after that, you two would always stick together.”
Izuku waved his hand. “Ahaha… but really, let’s not think about it too much, okay? He probably just thinks of me as a friend, and this whole crush thing is nothing big. Our friendship right now is fine as it is.”
“Are you sure, Deku?” Uraraka asked. He just nodded. “Well, we did promise. You can count on us to not tell him, but if you need any help or advice or just want to talk, we are here to listen!” Uraraka and Iida both gave him a thumbs up and honestly, Izuku couldn’t ask for better friends in his life.
After that, Izuku had to admit that he felt way better than before. Telling his two best friends about himself and the whole situation was relieving. He trusted them to not talk to anyone about his crush and it felt good to know that people he is close too didn’t judge him.
Of course, he still crushed over Todoroki and couldn’t believe how incredibly beautiful this boy was. How that little smile he sometimes gave Izuku just made his heartbeat speed up. Thank god he didn’t have Todoroki’s quirk, or the school would have a long term fire emergency from Izuku burning up all the time.
Everything was perfectly fine until one evening, when a message came in their class group chat.
Class 1-A PLUS ULTRA [18 other members]
shoutout
For fucks sake, if Mineta talks to me about the sizes of our classmates boobs one more time I’m gonna going to freeze him and throw him into a volcano. 1. It’s fucking disgusting how he fucking thinks of every girl on this planet as an object and 2. I am so fucking gay. He could read a newspaper to me and it would have the same effect: I don’t fucking care because I couldn’t care less about things like that. My gay ass can’t take this shit.
shoutout
@ all the girls in our class. No offense against you. You all surely are nice on your own and I don’t want to question anyone’s looks but you get me.
alienqueen
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY RIGHT NOW AND I DON’T KNOW WHERE TO START
invisigal
Savage af I’d say omg
electrotype
Man you changed since you have to take those extra lessons with Bakugou. Didn’t know he was that much of a bad influence!! All the cursing
scotchtape
True I didn’t even know he could swear like this
explosionkill
fuck you want from me you fuckers
toohardtofunction
Valuable point, but are we gonna all ignore how MANLY that just was!? Like damn you are so right. Someone needs to tell the little grapist that for once
alienqueen
UHM we also can’t ignore the fact that THE Todoroki Shouto, class No.1 hottie, just complimented us girls all at the same time.
tailsfromsonic
And admitted at the same time that no one of you will ever have a chance on him.
seeyouinspace
I am so proud of you right now Todoroki-kun :’)
yaomomo
To just tell it as a “by the way I am gay”. Really impressive and straight forward. That’s how it should be. I am very glad you chose this for yourself and are comfortable enough to tell it to us.
froppy
Is Mineta even in this chat? I can’t remember ever seeing him around here.
seeyouinspace
Not really but hey, still good to read!
shoutout
I might have lost my temper in the heat of the moment. I am sorry for my outburst. I just needed to get this off because I don’t want to hear it anymore. Sorry I made anyone uncomfortable with this.
cantsee
Still very proud of you <3 also why uncomfortable?
shadowraven
Every one of us here is at least a little extra but we accept a lot of things especially this!
iida
This is a safe and tolerating environment for everyone and no one should be afraid of telling us!
electrotype
Haha outburst. In the HEAT of the moment. It’s ironic when Todoroki loses his temper. Too HOT headed I guess
scotchtape
That joke hurt. Good one bro.
electrotype
<3
mightbedeku
I’ll join the others in this one and also say that I am proud of you Todoroki-kun!!
explosionkill
can we please stop fawning over Half’n Half. That’s disgusting
toohardtofunction
May I add that when Baku read Todoroki’s first message, he whistled and said “not bad, icyhot”
explosionkill
SHUT THE FUCK UP SHITTY HAIR
mightbedeku
He didn’t even deny it!
explosionkill
fuck you, Deku.
fullbeats
He didn’t deny it because it’s true. I am glad someone said it for once. Even if he isn’t in the chat just to hear this was so much of a satisfaction.
toohardtofunction
A soft Baku for once even cares about his classmates. Todoroki being the first one to come out of the closet in this class. Mineta getting told what he deserves. This is a wonderful end of the day.
Izuku had to admit, when he first read Todoroki’s message, he stared at it in disbelieve and almost dropped this phone. It wasn’t because of the vocabulary that Todoroki used, mostly because when they were studying for hours and Todoroki became tired, he started to curse more than usual. This was nothing new, but still a development for him. Izuku found his heart swelling in hope at Todoroki admitting that he liked boys. At that moment, he thought he could have a chance with the boy, though at the same time the realization came in. Todoroki was Todoroki . Even with this newfound knowledge, nothing would change. Defeated, Izuku wanted to put his phone away when he got another message in private.
seeyouinspace
See Deku, your chances are good ! ;) You now know that he is available for you!
mightbedeku
Please gosh no. It’s still fine as it is! (●/// ▽ ///●)
seeyouinspace
Don’t wanna break your bubble, but you noticed how Kirishima said “Todoroki being the first one to come out.” If you think it’s fine as it is you should stop giving him such obvious looks !! I never told anyone anything and I’m not sure if I just see it because I know it, but you start to be pretty obvious. You’ve got it bad, Deku. But fear not ! Everything will be fine !!
Izuku wanted to sink into the ground and never come up again. He knew his feelings actually got stronger since he and Todoroki had a few meetings in the last days again. Not just study-wise, but also just as regular friends. They did things like getting to the shop to buy food together or sitting next to each other when they put on a movie for the whole class and quietly chat about everything.
Izuku knew his feelings were stronger, but he didn’t know that he also made it obvious to others. His cheeks went hot at the thought. What if Todoroki noticed too?! What if he found it weird or was uncomfortable! Izuku groaned, not wanting to think about all the possible what if’s, he chose to call it a night and went to bed.
However, sleep was a luxury that Izuku just wouldn’t recieve. After rolling around for what felt like hours, he gave up and left his bed. He could as well just go down to the kitchen and get himself a drink of water to calm his nerves. His thoughts were a mess right now. He didn’t want to have hopes. Todoroki had a hard time opening up to people, so Izuku didn’t want to overwhelm him with his feelings. On the way to the kitchen, his head was too crowded with anxiety to notice that there was already light coming from the kitchen.
When he finally noticed, he wondered who would share the same fate of a sleepless night with him. His heart made a little jump when he actually saw red and white hair attached to someone sitting at the round white table in the middle of the kitchen. Todoroki turned around to see the source of the quiet footsteps inching closer, and the second Izuku saw him he knew something was up with the boy. Thoughts immediately forgotten, Izuku could only concentrate on the paleness of Todoroki’s face, and how his eyes were wide and rimmed red.
“Todoroki-kun! Is everything alright with you? Didn’t expect you here at this time.” He said softly as he went into the kitchen next to him.
“Could say the same about you.” His voice was also a little shaking.
Izuku saw that Todoroki didn’t made himself anything to drink and he knew that he loved to drink tea so he started to make both of them a cup of tea, since he guessed neither of them would go up again so fast.
“Not that I want to pry or anything but is really everything okay? You seem like you have something on your mind.”
“No surprise that you would notice that.”
“I-I’m sorry!” Izuku hasty said. “If it makes you uncomfortable that I always ask you have to tell me!!”
“No … that’s not it.” He slowly answered. “I think I am glad you do … I just am not used to people actually seeing how I feel. That’s all. And I know it’s in your nature to see problems like this. You always do that.” He said quiet. Izuku noticed that it really didn’t made him feel uncomfortable so he relaxed again, still worried though. He finished both of their cups and put one in front of Todoroki who did only notice now that he actually never made himself a drink. “Thank you.”
“No problem.”
They sat in silence. Izuku didn’t want to push Todoroki but he also didn’t want to leave him alone and if he wanted to be alone he would tell him.
“It’s nothing bad, you really don’t have to worry.” Todoroki said after a while. “Actually it’s something I am used to. Sometimes my past keeps following me in my dreams and I see things that I wanted to forget.” His voice was soft and barely hearable but Izuku listened closely. It hurt him to see Todoroki like this and he felt bad. While his cause of not being able to sleep was actually just his feelings, Todoroki had to go through a nightmare on his own.
“Today was worse than usual because I actually dreamed about the moment I got my scar.” He brushed it lightly with his fingers. “How in that moment I saw myself standing there with my mother. We talked about this the other day again. We really both want to get over it but it will always stay in our life as something that happened. Maybe that’s why I dreamed it. I dreamed that I watched my younger self, as he turned around and actually asked me why I didn’t help. Why I didn’t change the situation and now I am actually asking myself if I could have changed something?” It became quiet again and Todoroki took a sip of his tea. “I am sorry I don’t want to burden you with this again. You don’t have to answer.”
“It’s fine! I think talking about it helps and maybe I can’t help you with a complete solution about this but listen. I think you couldn’t have changed anything. Things went by as they did but you were still young and had to deal with problems others didn’t do. Neither you nor anyone there could have changed the way your father was. It happened and it’s in the past. I will never forgive Endeavor for what he did to you though. Still what is important is now. You and your mother actually are talking again and rebuilding your relationship. This already is a courage not everyone has. You actually try to change things again to the better. This is something you should think about. Not everyone would do this but you do it. Who knows if you could have changed something in the past but you change something now.” Izuku wanted to take his hand. He wanted to just give a sign that he cared so much about him and that he was there for him.
“You are probably right but still …thank you.” He sighed. “It’s hard to think right now what actually the right answer is but it’s always helping me to talk with you. Just you listening did make it easier, maybe because I know I am not alone. I hope I don’t trouble you too much with it.”
Izuku blushed. He was happy though. “I am glad I can help. Anytime again. I can’t help it but when I see you being troubled I just want to change that as fast as possible. Not matter how.” He laughed nervous but looked up to him honest. “I really like you being happy. I would do anything for it!”
Now it was Todoroki’s time to blush and Izuku did indeed notice that. “Well I’d love to say the same but I am not as talented as you are with this whole emotion troubles. Though I like to see your smile so I guess it’s the same for me. I like to see you happy and I would go far just so I can always see it.”
Izuku laughed but also had to control his heartbeat which he was 100% sure, was hearable through the whole room. “Well you showed really well your emotions in today’s chat.”
“That was …something yeah.” Todoroki looked sheepish and Izuku did want to take a photo exactly right now, frame it and hang it above his bed. “I am just glad that even though I didn’t intend to actually say all those things, you all took it in so easily. It was good to have such an uncomplicated conversation. I am still too used to arguing with the old man.”
“Oh don’t worry. No one is like HIM here. Not even Kacchan and that tells us something!”
Izuku wasn’t prepared for Todoroki’s laughing but in this moment he decided that this was his new reason to live. At the same time he thought this boy would be the death of him.
“You really know how to lift my mood but we actually both should sleep now.”
“You are right.” They put their cups away and went up.
“I noticed …I never asked what your reason was for not being able to sleep. Sorry we only did talk about me.” Todoroki asked before their ways parted.
Your face. Your personality. You. His mind wanted to scream. “A-Ah I guess just thoughts but nothing bad or so. I just had a lot on my mind, but I am really honestly fine!” He said.
“If you say so, but if you want you also can come to me, when you need to talk. I really want to help you too with your thoughts.” Todoroki gave him a soft smile.
“Thank you! I will come back to it. Good Night Todoroki-kun! Hope you can sleep better now!”
“Definitely. Good Night, Izuku.”
They parted and Izuku was laying in his bed again. Right as he was about to fall sleep his eyes shot open. “DID HE JUST SAID GOOD NIGHT IZUKU ALL CASUAL?!” He muffled in his pillow. He really had to do something about this. Uraraka was right. Tomorrow.
After all Izuku managed at least a little sleep this night but that still didn’t held him up from yawning.
“Were you not able to sleep after?” The sudden soft voice behind him that haunted his dream actually made him jump a little. “Uh I managed to sleep a bit! But I am still tired. You?”
“Hm. Same. I actually had a lot to think about too, but to my joy it wasn’t anything about my father.”
“Well I guess this is good then! Though we both are tired but we just try it better today!”
Izuku wanted to hit his head on his desk during the lessons. He wanted to be able to talk to Todoroki normal again. He felt like this wouldn’t end up good if he stayed that nervous. Why couldn’t he control his emotions? Why was it so hard? Would it be better to talk about it with him? Put it out of this world. Hoping that if he doesn’t feel the same, that he would still be willing to be his friend. Maybe Izuku could start to forget then. They would be normal friends again and when they grew up Izuku would be at Todoroki’s wedding with someone beautiful and great by his side who gave him the love he deserved. Izuku would look from the side and tell them he wished them all the best.
“Midoriya-kun.” His head snapped up and Present Mic looked at him confused. Actually everyone was. He looked around and most of them looked even worried at him. Suddenly he noticed that he actually was crying and wow when did he started.
“Are you alright?” Present Mic ask.
“Ah don’t worry sensei. Just in a gay crisis right now. I imagined the love of my life marrying someone else and I had to watch! And this thought just destroyed me but I get over it.” He thought. Or in his case …spoke out loud while the whole class inclusive the said “love of his life” were listening.
“Ah … well. Present Mic-Sensei would you excuse me and allow me to go? Burry myself? Really, really far away?!” He said with a nervous laugh and thank god he was never happier to actually hear the school bell ringing. He ran without waiting for anything. This was probably the most embarrassing thing in his whole life. Also damn Izuku you were really creative with the whole outing stuff. Problem out of this world. How often did he wanted to hit himself again?
He ran so fast he even nearly ran over All Might.
“Midoriya my boy! Why the hurry? Everything alright?”
“Ah don’t worry All Might! I am fine.” My life is just over now but that’s okay. You wanted me to actually carry on One For All? Well obviously I can’t even carry on the burden of loving Todoroki Shouto!
When he finally managed to get out of the school on their sport field he stopped running and leaned his body against a tree. “Okay how do I get in my class the best way again without anyone worrying? I have to go back do I? For sure I have! I actually like my class. I don’t want to go anywhere else. They are my friends. Well I have to apologize to Present Mic for crying in his lesson. Oh god I just cried and I have to explain why. Wait. I did explain. Well great. Problem solved.”
…
“Or I could just leave and go to America.”
“If you do that I would drag you back because I know exactly that you don’t want to go to America unless it would be for a training trip or to help someone or we both would go there to see the world. But you would come back again with me. And if we are on it you could actually tell me what’s going on in your head. It would be only fair don’t you think?”
Izuku’s head turned around and now his life really was officially over. “Todoroki-kun …” He said and the urge to cry again actually came over him. Why was he so emotional? Was it the sleepless night?
“I …” He took a deep breath. This couldn’t go on like this. He wasn’t himself and this wouldn’t help anyone. “I have a really huge crush on you and I have no idea how to handle that actually.” His face felt so hot and he closed his eyes. Would he just go? No this was Todoroki. He would talk with him because that was the kind of person he is and the kind of relationship they had. They talked about their problems. Izuku wasn’t as honest though but now was better than later.
“Shouto …”
“Huh?” Izuku opened his eyes again and saw another one of “the most precious looks on Todoroki Shouto” for is inner album.
“I would be more than happy if you would start to call me Shouto. And if you would finally date me.”
Izuku’s mouth stayed open and he stared at his friend … or more than friend?
“Uraraka asked me to go after you when we all saw you running out of the classroom. She looked like she knew exactly what was going on and everyone else also seemed really …relieved? Except for Bakugou who looked as annoyed as always and that one prick we don’t talk about. It would be the best she said and while running after you, I knew finally why. It made me also happy but it made me worried that you cried.”
Izuku finally was able to snap out of his thought. “YES.” He shouted. “I mean… I am sorry I made you worried but yes, I’d love to date you.” He spoke it out. “I just can’t believe right now that this is happening.”
“Why?” Shouto asked and carefully took Izuku’s hand. It felt warm.
“Because I am me.” He felt how his whole body was shaking but through Shouto’s hand he felt that the other wasn’t calm either. He still couldn’t believe this was happening right now.
When he felt how Shouto was slowly closing the gap between them but waited for Izuku’s permission, his whole heart felt warm. This boy in front of him liked him back. This great person liked him. They felt the same. He had no time for such worries and he also had to respect this. He wanted this.
He closed the gap between them and felt soft lips on his own. He was still holding Shouto’s hand and felt the light pressure the other gave him. Neither of them wanted this moment to end. When they parted they looked at each other, both of them not believing what actually happened right now. Shouto was the first one. “It’s because you are you. That’s why I like you. That and a lot of other reasons. Because you make me feel safe and you make me feel accepted. I could tell you a lot of other reasons that made me fall for you but you get my point right now?”
Izuku smiled. “And you said you are not good with the “emotion stuff”. I’m speechless.” He couldn’t help himself and gave Shouto another kiss. This also reminded himself that he could now do this more often. Every day if he wanted to.
“If I am able to make Midoriya Izuku speechless then I did something right I guess.” Izuku leaned his head against Shouto’s shoulder. “You did so much. You are wonderful.” He felt Todoroki’s blushing through his quirk which was mentally noted by Izuku with a small laugh.
“Ugh we should go back. I don’t want you to get in trouble because of me.”
“Ah I wouldn’t mind being in trouble right now.”
“Shouto!” Izuku shook his head smiling and took his hand. He had to apologize to the others as well for his outburst.
When they came in the classroom still holding hands everyone grinned at them knowingly and Izuku felt again why he wanted to vanish in the ground.
“I see the gay crisis is solved?” Kirishima pointed at their hands with a smug face.
Izuku nodded embarrassed but he also did feel proud. One look at Shouto through his poker face told him that he felt as happy as he did. His boyfriend.
“Good. Then you don’t have to worry anymore about another man holding the hand of your boyfriend. Great that we solved this problem, Deku! I dare you to randomly start crying again in the classroom. For a moment I was really worried that something was wrong!” Uraraka was able to scold and tease him at the same time. Incredible. “Promised!”
“You have to tell Mic-Sensei the news. He wasn’t well in hiding the fact that he was really curious to know the outcome of this, after he saw Todoroki running after you.”
Izuku buried his face into Shouto’s arm. Why did he had to confess in the most complicated way possible?