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Flickering Flames
The falling snow lashes against Jean’s face like needles, the wind slicing through his cloak and numbing every exposed inch of skin. He can barely feel his toes, and each step through the white landscape feels like trudging through wet cement. They’ve been walking for what feels like hours, the frozen wilderness stretching out in every direction, endless and desolate. His breath fogs in front of him, a thin cloud that’s instantly snatched away by the howling wind.
He pulls his cloak tighter, casting a scowl at Eren, who is ploughing ahead without even a hint of discomfort. It’s infuriating. Of course Eren Yeager, of all people, would somehow manage to look perfectly at ease in this blizzard, barely flinching as the snow swirls around him, sticking in his dark hair and framing his face in a way that’s almost… enchanting. Jean huffs, brushing snow out of his own face, annoyed at the thought. It’s just the cold getting to him—that’s all.
“Remind me again why we’re out here,” Jean mutters, raising his voice to be heard over the wind. “We should be back at base, not freezing to death out in the middle of nowhere.”
Eren glances back, his face partially hidden by his scarf, only his piercing green eyes visible through the snowfall. “We’re supposed to be mapping the rest of the island, remember? Besides, no one else was available, so it’s just us. Isn’t that what you wanted—get away from everyone?”
Jean curses under his breath. Sure, he’d wanted a break from the cramped barracks and their noisy comrades, but he hadn’t counted on a full-scale blizzard. They’re supposed to be charting the farthest edges of Paradis Island now that it’s finally safe—no Titans to worry about, no monsters hiding in the forests. Just them and the land stretching out before them. But he hadn’t imagined it would mean braving one of the harshest winters he can remember, the snow piling up in thick drifts, transforming the landscape into an endless, frozen wasteland.
Jean sighs, watching as Eren trudges ahead, his breath visible as he mutters to himself. Snowflakes have settled into Eren’s hair, catching on his lashes and dusting his shoulders. There’s a kind of ethereal glow about him, softened by the winter light filtering through the storm, and Jean finds himself staring despite the annoyance tugging at him.
“Keep up, Jean,” Eren calls back, his voice muffled but somehow still managing to sound smug. Jean clenches his teeth and pushes forward, his resentment boiling under the surface. It’s like this every time—they’re on the same mission, doing the same gruelling work, but Eren always has that damn look, like he’s already overcome the obstacles, and Jean’s just tagging along. Yet, even as he tries to focus on the irritation, he can’t deny the draw of Eren’s presence, his impossible resilience, his ridiculous confidence.
The wind picks up again, a piercing gust that nearly knocks them both off balance, and Jean feels his whole body tense up as the cold digs deeper, searing into his bones. This island may be their home, but the unforgiving winter makes it feel like enemy territory. Just as he’s about to demand they turn back, Eren pauses, his eyes narrowing through the snow.
“There,” he says, pointing. Jean squints, and through the blur of falling snow, he can just make out a cabin up ahead—a weathered building, half-buried in a snowdrift. Relief floods through him. Shelter.
They stagger toward it, battling against the wind, and by the time they reach the cabin, Jean’s fingers are so cold he can barely manage to turn the handle. He stumbles inside, Eren close behind, and they push the door shut against the biting wind.
The cabin is dark and draughty, a stale chill lingering in the air. Dust coats every surface, and the old wooden walls creak under the weight of snow piled against them. But at least they’re out of the storm. Jean rubs his hands together, trying to regain feeling in his fingers, while Eren moves to the hearth, crouching down and examining the stack of firewood left by whoever last used the cabin.
“Think you can get a fire going?” Jean asks, hoping his voice doesn’t betray just how badly he’s shivering.
Eren nods, already focused on the task. He strikes the flint, and soon, a small flame catches, growing steadily until the hearth is ablaze, casting a warm, flickering light that fills the small space. Jean settles himself by the fire, holding his hands out to the heat, and finally, finally feels the cold start to release its grip on him.
But Eren, of course, makes even this look effortless. He settles down across from Jean, his face illuminated by the firelight, and Jean finds himself transfixed by the way the flames dance in Eren’s green eyes. The snow still clings to his hair, little droplets melting into his dark curls, and he looks… Jean hates to admit it, but there’s no other word for it. Eren looks beautiful, the kind of infuriating, unshakable beauty that Jean can’t help but resent.
Eren’s voice breaks the silence. “You’re shivering. Move over.”
Jean stiffens, resisting the urge to snap back. The suggestion makes sense, and he knows it, but that doesn’t mean he wants to give Eren the satisfaction of being right. Still, the cold is relentless, and after a moment’s hesitation, he shifts closer, letting Eren wrap his cloak around them both.
The warmth is immediate, but Jean’s body tenses up again, this time for an entirely different reason. Eren’s shoulder presses against his, solid and scorching, and Jean finds himself hyper-aware of every inch of contact. He tries to keep his gaze on the fire, but his eyes keep drifting to Eren’s face, to the way his lashes cast faint shadows on his cheeks, the way his lips are chapped from the cold, and those eyes—sharp and bright, even after everything.
“It’s weird, right?” Eren says, his voice soft, almost thoughtful.
“What is?”
“This,” Eren gestures vaguely around them. “Us sitting here, alone. Not fighting.”
Jean huffs, unsure how to respond. “I don’t exactly like it. Just… never thought I’d end up like this. With you, of all people.”
Eren smirks, and the familiar expression grates at Jean’s nerves, as always. “I know. You’ve always made that pretty clear.”
Jean scoffs, but the bitterness isn’t there. If anything, it’s overshadowed by the strange sense of comfort settling over him. He’s used to clashing with Eren, to the constant push-and-pull, but here, in the quiet of the cabin with only the crackling fire to break the silence, the old grudges seem distant, unimportant.
After a long stretch of silence, Eren glances at him, his expression uncharacteristically vulnerable. “Jean, you know I don’t hate you, right?”
The words catch Jean off guard, and he feels his stomach do a strange little twist. He’d never thought about it before, not really. But the longer he looks at Eren, the harder it becomes to deny the truth of it—that his anger toward Eren has always been laced with something else, something that feels suspiciously like admiration.
He clears his throat, looking away. “I… I don’t hate you either. Doesn’t mean you’re not insufferable.”
Eren’s laugh is soft, the sound mingling with the crackle of the fire. “Yeah, I figured as much.”
He reaches out, almost hesitantly, and places a hand on Jean’s shoulder, the touch unexpectedly gentle. Jean’s heart races, and he’s not sure if it’s from the shock of Eren’s hand on his shoulder or from the realisation that he doesn’t mind it. In fact, he’s starting to understand that his irritation toward Eren has always been a mask for something far more complicated. Something he’s not sure he’s ready to admit, but that fills the cabin with a warmth that goes beyond the fire.
Eren’s gaze softens, his green eyes bright, intense, and Jean feels his own annoyance melting, replaced by something new and undeniable. Maybe he’s always liked Eren. Maybe that’s why he can’t look away.
The silence between them grows heavier, the faint crackle of the fire the only sound in the small cabin. Outside, the storm rages on, the wind battering against the walls as if it’s trying to break through. But inside, there’s only warmth, and this strange, charged stillness that Jean can’t seem to shake. He shifts slightly, feeling the weight of Eren’s shoulder pressed against his, the heat radiating through their shared cloak. It’s unnervingly comfortable, and Jean’s mind keeps circling back to the fact that he doesn’t want to move, that he wants to stay here, just like this.
Eren stares into the fire, his eyes reflecting the flickering light—looking almost golden in the luminescence of the fire—the snow in his hair slowly melting, forming droplets that glisten like tiny crystals before sliding down his dark locks. There’s a softness about him in this moment that Jean doesn’t often get to see, a vulnerability that makes Eren look almost unreal, like some figure out of a dream, framed by the shadows and the warm, golden glow. Jean hates himself for noticing, for letting his gaze linger on the curve of Eren’s jaw, the way his lips are parted slightly as he breathes, steady and calm.
Eren catches him staring, and his brows raise in that infuriatingly familiar way. “What?” He asks, his voice a little lower than usual, a hint of curiosity behind his usual sharpness.
Jean scowls, trying to play it off, but he can feel a blush creeping up his neck. “Nothing. Just… you have snow in your hair. You look ridiculous.”
Eren rolls his eyes, brushing a few stray flakes from his hair with a smirk. “And you look like a half-frozen corpse, so I guess we’re even.”
Jean snorts, but the banter lacks its usual bite. Instead, it’s softened by something else, a warmth that he can’t quite ignore, and he finds himself relaxing a little, the tension ebbing away with each second they sit here, huddled together. The cold outside feels like a distant memory now, replaced by the gentle heat of Eren’s presence beside him, a steadiness that Jean hadn’t realised he’d been longing for.
Jean clears his throat, trying to push back the unfamiliar feelings that keep rising to the surface. “You know,” he says, his voice barely above a murmur. “For the longest time, I thought I couldn’t stand you. Thought you were just… too much. Always pushing forward, always fighting, even when it didn’t make sense.”
Eren’s eyes flicker with something unreadable, and he shifts closer, their shoulders now pressed firmly together. “And now?” Eren asks softly, almost as if he’s afraid of the answer.
Jean hesitates, his gaze fixed on the fire. “Now… I don’t know. I guess I’m just used to it.” He forces a laugh, though it sounds hollow. “Or maybe I just got used to you.”
He can feel Eren watching him, the intensity of his eyes sending a shiver down his spine that has nothing to do with the cold. There’s a vulnerability on Eren’s face now, a softness that Jean never expected to see, and it makes his chest tighten in a way that’s both thrilling and terrifying. He’s spent so long trying to deny these feelings, trying to ignore the pull that’s always been there, buried beneath layers of irritation and rivalry. But here, in this quiet, firelit cabin, with Eren’s warmth pressed against him, it’s harder to keep lying to himself.
“I think I get it now,” Eren says quietly, his voice barely more than a whisper. He shifts again, his face so close that Jean can feel his breath, warm and steady against his cheek. “Why you’re always so… I don’t know. So worked up around me.”
Jean’s heart pounds, his breath catching as he meets Eren’s gaze. There’s something there, something raw and unguarded that he’s never seen before, and it makes his throat tighten. Eren’s hand lifts, almost hesitantly, and brushes a strand of hair from Jean’s face, his fingers lingering just a second too long. Jean’s pulse races, and he can feel himself leaning into the touch, against his own better judgement, against every warning in his head telling him that this is a mistake.
But then Eren’s hand slips to the side of his face, warm and steady, and Jean doesn’t pull back. He can feel his own heart pounding, loud and insistent, and he realises, in this moment, that he doesn’t want to hold back anymore. He doesn’t want to pretend.
He leans in, his breath mingling with Eren’s as the space between them disappears, and he hesitates for just a second, searching Eren’s eyes for any sign of hesitation. But there’s only warmth, only that same strange softness that’s been there all night. And then, before he can talk himself out of it, he closes the distance, pressing his lips to Eren’s in a tentative, almost nervous kiss.
The world seems to go silent, the fire and the storm fading into the background as Jean loses himself in the warmth of Eren’s mouth, the softness of his lips, the steady pressure that sends a thrill racing through him. He can feel Eren’s hand slide up to the back of his neck, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss with a confidence that makes Jean’s heart ache.
Eren tastes like warmth, like something familiar and yet completely new, and Jean finds himself melting into the kiss, letting his guard down in a way he never thought he could. Eren’s other hand slides around his back, pulling him close until there’s no space left between them, and Jean’s fingers find their way into Eren’s hair, tangling in the damp strands as he loses himself completely in the moment.
When they finally pull apart, Jean’s breath is ragged, his heart still racing. He meets Eren’s gaze, and the look in Eren’s eyes—soft, almost vulnerable—makes something twist in his chest.
Eren lets out a quiet laugh, his hand still resting on Jean’s shoulder. “Didn’t think I’d ever see the day Jean Kirstein would shut up for once.”
Jean rolls his eyes, but the annoyance he usually feels is softened by something else now, something warm and unfamiliar. “Yeah, well, don’t get used to it. This doesn’t mean I’m going easy on you.”
Eren chuckles, his thumb brushing absently over Jean’s shoulder, a small, affectionate gesture that makes Jean’s heart skip a beat. “Good,” he says, a smile tugging at his lips. “I wouldn’t want it any other way.”
They settle back by the fire, Eren’s arm still draped over his shoulders, and Jean lets himself relax, leaning into the warmth of Eren’s embrace. Outside, the storm rages on, but here, in the quiet of the cabin, Jean finally feels at peace, the weight of his unspoken feelings lifted, replaced by something new and exhilarating.