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Carry my soul into the night
May the stars light my way
I glory in the sight
As darkness takes the day
— "In Noctem" by Nicholas Hooper
“Avada Kedavra.”
He said them, twin blades of syllabic intent. Green light flashed, the colour of envy, which had always struck Severus Snape as the curse’s one small honesty. And Albus Dumbledore, architect of so many endings, met his own. Felled by Severus’s wand. By his own fractured soul. No matter the consequences, one truth remained.
The old man died on his own terms.
Severus would not be granted the same dignity. He was not the kind of man stories favor in the end. He was the kind of man stories require and then discard, the necessary unpleasantness, the dark chapter that makes the light look brighter by comparison.
He had simply not understood, until tonight, how completely Albus had always known it too.
Trust me, Severus.
He had.
Gods help him, he had.
Severus could not move, the weight of the act settling upon him like an old debt called in. Around him, the castle roared with the consequences of what he had done. The ramparts of Hogwarts loomed, bearing witness to his betrayal. To the unforgivable path he had just been forced to set himself upon.
This was his lot. The role he had been groomed for. Pawn, spy, turncoat, murderer. Titles bestowed and weaponized by two masters, each exploiting his secrets, his shame, his shattered sense of self. He was a hollowed out husk of a man, filled now only with bitterness and bile.
And yet, some distant ember still glowed within. A defiant filament that compelled him to see this through. Not for absolution—no, that possibility had long since shriveled to ash. But for vengeance, perhaps. Or if not that, then mere caustic spite. If he was to be a monster, then let him be the most indispensable fiend in the Devil’s fold.
The boy would hate him now, of course. Loathe him with the fire of his father and the righteousness of his mother. That hatred would hone the boy into the sacrificial blade the prophecy demanded.
Severus gathered his frayed composure and descended into the wreckage he had unleashed. There was no turning back now. Only the onward march into deepening shadows. He had always known his soul was forfeit, and now his life would be as well.
But this was only the beginning of the part he had yet to play. The true depths of his servitude were still to be plumbed. And if those fathomless depths consumed him entirely, then perhaps, in that final surrender, he would at last find something akin to peace.