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1. You're Always Reading The Despair. by CrushedBerries

   Fandoms: Kuroshitsuji | Black Butler  

   • Explicit
   • Rape/Non-Con, Underage Sex
   • Other
   • Complete Work

   12 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Rape/Non-Con
   • Underage Sex
   • Ciel Phantomhive/Original Character(s)
   • Sebastian Michaelis & Ciel Phantomhive
   • Sebastian Michaelis & Original Character(s)
   • Sebastian Michaelis
   • Original Characters
   • Ciel Phantomhive
   • The explicit intimacy will be in the second chapter
   • Obsession
   • Hypersexuality
   • Hypersexual ciel phantomhive
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • The love is toxic
   • but intoxicating
   • Non-Consensual Somnophilia
   • Non-Consensual Touching
   • Loss of Virginity
   • Degradation
   • Verbal Degradation
   • Religious Guilt
   • Extremely Dubious Consent
   • Light Voyeurism
   • AFAB Original Character
   • Creampie
   • twice!!
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • No type of birth control

   Summary

   Ciel counts the letters in the book of who he and they are as a pair. Counting everything, but only understanding it in a convoluted, detailed way that makes sure he doesn’t miss anything, which means he understands and knows every single twitch, every single unsaid admission. Cierri reads what their worries want them to see. Only blinder than those who can not see.

   Ciel sucks at reading himself.

   Cierri sucks at reading others.

   You would think someone who’s watched Ciel grow up would know more about him.

   A butler can know more, of course.

   For one who thinks they’re evil, Ciel has one up over them.

   (aka, Ciel but if his trauma response was hypersexuality)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   10,921

   Chapters:

   2/2

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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