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1. when i look for you by lovelunar

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   24 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Character Study
   • Neurodiversity
   • Soft Ilya Rozanov
   • Established Relationship
   • Non-Sexual Intimacy
   • Panic Attacks
   • Shane Hollander Has Panic Attacks
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Anxiety
   • Fluff
   • Angst
   • they attend a talk on autism in athletes and ilya realizes how much it relates to shane
   • shane realizes it too and freaks out so bad
   • lots of hugs
   • Canon Autistic Character
   • Meltdown
   • Bathing/Washing

   Summary

   Ilya loves Shane exactly as he is - the routines, the precision, the way he moves through the world just a little differently than everyone else.

   He’s never tried to explain it.

   Then, at a charity fundraiser for accommodations in young, autistic athletes, someone else does.

   And suddenly, everything makes a little too much sense.

   Or: a character study on Shane's undiagnosed autism, through the eyes of Ilya.

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   English

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