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finn @jjsvoyagos
I was scrolling on the tl and apparently some hockey romance novel is getting adapted?? And the streets are saying that the main character is sort of like shane hollander?

> marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
please don’t mention riding the edge on voystwt, it’s a triggering subject for us all 😭

> > finn @jjsvoyagos
?? i’m new here, pls explain the lore

> > > marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
it’s a really weird smutty book that inadvertently sexualizes shane. the main guy is literally shane hollander with a different name. elite player, youngest captain in montreal franchise history, golden boy, half-japanese half-canadian, same exact personality and looks… idk even if the character is somehow not inspired by shane hollander, then it’s kind of suspicious how similar they are…

> > > > finn @jjsvoyagos
Oh… that is weird as fuck

or; a straight hockey romance becomes the biggest show on the planet. The internet is convinced (correctly) that the male lead is 100% based on Shane Hollander. Too bad almost no one knows Shane Hollander is gay.

Notes:

phew, it's been a while since i posted! sorry about that. i was writing, but i have like 5+ wips and i could never focus on one long enough to finish it. i'm also a student, so i was focused on school. it's summer break now, but i do have an internship, so we'll see if i have time to write more! recently i fell back in love with writing again, so i'm hopeful!!

ok, so for a bit of context: you might’ve heard about the straight hockey show (off campus). well, a popular fancast for one of the main hockey boys is ny islanders player matt barzal, and following the release of the show, i saw a bunch of tiktoks of matt barzal being like “mourning this fancast”. and then it got me thinking about all those harry styles fanfics being turned into movies, and then i was like: imagine if that happened to shane. imagine if a popular hockey romance with a mmc that’s obviously him (and who he was fancast as) got adapted into a show. imagine if that straight fictional version of himself followed shane around. and thus, this was born.

idk if i did a good job at explaining it (??) since this was a very original idea of mine. i'm just chronically online in both fictional and real hockey worlds, so this is an mixture of what i've seen.

i also didn’t want to make this canon compliant, so this fic is in some weird in between of game changers. i moved around when shane has free agency and when he wins his third cup, and also changed around the plot of role model. honestly it’s not a huge deal if you just ignore it.

this was written by me and only me. all mistakes are my own.

anyways, enjoy!

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

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January 2019

DEADLINE

Sophia Bailey’s Hockey Romance “Riding the Edge” TV Series Adaptation in the Works at Prime Video

Opposites are set to collide on and off the ice in a steamy sports drama adaptation. Prime Video is currently developing a television series based on Riding the Edge, the bestselling hockey romance series from author Sophia Bailey, which has sold over 8 million copies worldwide across multiple markets.

Principal photography is expected to take place in Montreal and Toronto, though casting and production details remain under wraps.

The series follows Derek Calloway, star captain of the NHL’s Montreal Voyageurs, a disciplined, media-polished golden boy of hockey. Half Canadian and half Japanese, he is the face of the franchise and has no time for his personal life. That is, until Isabelle Lovell, a graduate journalism student, enters his orbit.

Isabelle has spent her life avoiding hockey after being abandoned by her father, John Lovell, a former NHL player turned coach. When John is suddenly hired as head coach of the Voyageurs, she is forced back into the world she left behind. As Isabelle navigates fractured family ties and the suffocating spotlight of professional hockey, her path keeps crossing with Derek’s. What begins as tension between a coach’s daughter and the team’s captain quickly turns into a forbidden, high-stakes connection neither can ignore.

Prime Video has recently doubled down on romance adaptations following the success of YA-leaning hits, and Riding the Edge is expected to continue that momentum with a more mature, explicit tone aimed at adult audiences.

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hannah @lovelylovells
MY DERELLE IS COMING HOME TO ME 😭😭

> m <3 @dereksbelle
I’M CRYING HANNAH WE WON SO BAD

> sammy @callowaylover
I CAN’T WAIT AHHHH

 

jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
“fancast derek” mind you that is shane hollander

derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
rte getting adapted means we are officially losing the most universally agreed upon fancast of all time… oh fancast derek you will always be famous

> derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
who?

> > jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
girl SHANE HOLLANDER

> > > derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
i have no idea who that is?

> > > > jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
literally the guy in the pic? 

> > > > > derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
and? he’s just a popular fancast on rtetwt…

> > > > > > jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
for a huge fan of the books, how are you not aware that derek calloway is literally based on shane hollander? nhl allstar, 2x stanley cup winning, CURRENT REAL LIFE montreal voyageurs captain 😭😭 THE AUTHOR LITERALLY WROTE THE CHARACTER BASED ON HIM

 

vivian @isabelleslovell
idk how i’m going to get through the rte adaption… shane hollander is already my derek, i don’t think i’ll be able to accept anyone else. the stoic golden boy energy is too perfect

> joanna @shanespike
As a voyageurs fan, if you saw Shane acting in his commercials, you would not be saying this 💀💀


finn @jjsvoyagos
I was scrolling on the tl and apparently some hockey romance novel is getting adapted?? And the streets are saying that the main character is sort of like shane hollander?

> marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
please don’t mention riding the edge on voystwt, it’s a triggering subject for us all 😭

> > finn @jjsvoyagos
?? i’m new here, pls explain the lore

> > > marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
it’s a really weird smutty book that inadvertently sexualizes shane. the main guy is literally shane hollander with a different name. elite player, youngest captain in montreal franchise history, golden boy, half-japanese half-canadian, same exact personality and looks… idk even if the character is somehow not inspired by shane hollander, then it’s kind of suspicious how similar they are…

> > > > finn @jjsvoyagos
Oh… that is weird as fuck

 

24 FOR THE HART @hollanderera
Shane Hollander: leads the league in points, youngest captain in Montreal Voyageurs history, Olympic medalist, 2x stanley cup winner, 3x hart award winner, face of the NHL
BookTwitter: “he’s just like my book boyfriend Derek Calloway 🥰”

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моя любовь 💙

what is riding the edge? is it any good?

Oh God.
How did you hear about that?

it is getting adapted to a show
deadline.com//2019/10/riding-the-edge-tv-series… 

Are you kidding me?
Is that real?

i think so, i see lots of tweets about it

Fuck.
God, I’m never gonna hear the end of this.

why, what is it?

It's super dumb.
Like years ago the author published a hockey romance, and people noticed that the main male character, Derek Calloway, was me. Different name obviously, but same accomplishments, personality, looks, everything down to me being half Japanese.
So some people know it as the Shane Hollander hockey smut book.

but you are in relationship with a woman in this book.

Well, yeah. The author obviously doesn’t know that I’m gay.

but the book is spicy? i looked it up and it basically means porn.
if main character is supposed to be you, how does that work when you are tragic with women.

Oh, shut up.
I hate you.

i’m just saying. very curious now

Hayden told me Jackie read the whole series. She apparently finished it in two days and kept texting him quotes. He said she wouldn’t stop laughing when she realized it was me.

jackie read your porn book??? how did she rate book you’s performance?

Ilya, I swear to God.

does derek calloway have a filthy mouth too or is he vanilla with his fictional girlfriend

It’s not funny.

it’s a little funny
where is closest book shop
i’m reading it

Ilya.
I will actually break up with you.

🥰

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April 2019

Deadline ✔️ @DEADLINE
Christopher Sato and Juliette Laurent have been cast as Derek Calloway and Isabelle Lovell in Prime Video’s adaptation of “Riding The Edge”

🔗 https://deadline.com/2018/04/riding-the-edg…

 

ella @derekscallowaygf
THEY KEPT DEREK WASIAN 😭😭 Christopher Sato you are so fine I’m on my knees

 

derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
love the casting so much, but will always miss the fancasts. shane hollander (whose existence i finally learned of), you may rest…

 

vivian @isabelleslovell
Juliette Laurent is absolutely gorgeous but… she’s not a redhead?? Isabelle is supposed to be a redhead with freckles??? I’m mourning already

> hannah @lovelylovells
girl it’s just the casting, relax

> brooke @drkcllwy
well sophia bailey is involved with the series, so i trust her vision!! wait until the show comes out before u make any judgments calls pls

 

kaia :) is reading rte! @bookishgirl
I thought Derek was white I didn’t know he was Asian lol 

> ella @derekscallowaygf
bestie the book literally says half Japanese half Canadian on page 12… how did you miss that lmao

> Mia @calloderek
as someone who is asian and loves the rte books, i have to admit that she does a terrible job with derek’s asian identity. it’s obvious that she only made him half asian because she wanted derek to be like shane hollander lol.

 

hannah @lovelylovells
I’ve known juliette for two hours but i’ve decided she is perfect actually. i absolutely cannot wait to see her bring isabelle to life!!

> vivian @isabelleslovell
i really wish she was a redhead :((

 

brooke @drkcllwy
the fact that they cast someone who looks like shane hollander… Sophia Bailey you are not slick bestie we see you

 

Riding The Edge Updates @RTE_Updates
Sophia Bailey when talking about casting for Derek Calloway:

“People already had such strong images of what they wanted Derek to look like, and I found myself comparing every audition to one person in particular. I’ve always been honest that Shane Hollander was a huge inspiration for Derek. The leadership, the discipline, the way he carries himself on and off the ice—I took a lot from watching him over the years. I’m a huge Montreal fan, always been. Christopher just embodied that energy perfectly.”

> joanna @shanespike
and y’all tried to tell us that this wasn’t a shane hollander x original female character fanfic

> marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
the author really said “yeah i wrote a self-insert about shane hollander” on main lmaoooo

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моя любовь 💙

you know, this book is very entertaining

Did you finally read that book about the 1972 Canada/Russia series that I told you about?

no.
riding the edge

Now why would you read that.

because i am bored((((
no playoffs, no boyfriend, lots of free time

you could watch hockey, there’s still games every single night

not everyone is hockey obsessed like you
i don’t care about other hockey teams
i only want to watch montreal play

Wow, any reason why?

well there is a sexy captain that i like to watch)))))
he reminds me of my favorite book character, derek calloway

Oh, fuck you.
Please tell me you are not actually reading the book

but it’s so good
here:
Derek pulled me closer, his voice low against my ear. “You have no idea what you do to me, Isabelle. I’ve wanted this since the first time I saw you.”

Ilya. Stop.

wait wait this one is better
He kissed down my body slowly, whispering against my skin, “Let me take care of you, Isabelle. Let me worship you.”

Close the book now!

“Tell me you’re mine,” Derek growled, thrusting deeper as I moaned beneath him. “Say it, baby. Let me hear you.”

I hate you.

don’t be embarrassed солнышко
you’re doing great in the book
very impressive stamina

I’m blocking you.

you love me.
send me a voice note saying “you’re mine” like derek does and i’ll stop

Fuck you, I’m leaving.
My flight to DC is early tomorrow.
I’m gonna go brush my teeth.

facetime?

Facetime Call — 1:01:04

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May 2019

x – finn @jjsvoyagos
Montreal getting eliminated right after that hockey book’s casting got released… how do i blame it on them

> marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
DON’T WORRY WE’LL BE BACK FOR THE CUP NEXT YEAR!!

 

amelie @rozanovscens
the voyageurs got knocked out by washington of all teams and that makes me smile.

> x – mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
not you trying to talk shit when you’re not even in the club.

 

francine ! @shaydens
sad that montreal got eliminated, but the hug that shayden shared is so cute. i’m so glad they have each other during this time :((

> rachel @haydenxshanes
fr, i love my hockey boyfriends so much :(((

 

aria @hollanovs
at least shane getting eliminated means that he gets to spend more time with ilya—*gunshot noise*

> francine ! @shaydens
Me when I’m delusional:

 

amelie @rozanovscens
both shaydens and hollanovs arguing as if they’re not on opposite ends of the same insane asylum 😭😭

 

NHL Follow Tracker ✔️ @NHLFollowTrack
Ilya Rozanov (@rozanov81) followed 3 new accounts on Instagram:

✅ @ridingtheedgeonprime — Riding The Edge
✅ @juli.laurent — Juliette Laurent
✅ @christophersatofficial — Christopher Sato

#GoCensGo #NHL

> maris @rahrahrozanov
why is he the funniest person alive

> wyatt hayes akgae @hazysaves
Even in the off season rozanov manages to cause discourse. That’s my captain!

> parker is mourning the cens @censhockeysurvivor
imagine: you just got eliminated from stanley cup playoffs. you check your phone. your biggest rival (and business partner) has followed the cast of the smut book that is based on you.

> rachel @haydenxshanes
i knew he was weird and this just proves it. i feel so bad that shane was dragged into his pr cleaning mess. he’s actually a demon and i pray for his downfall.

> > maris @rahrahrozanov
please go outside and touch grass

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моя любовь 💙

have you cleaned up your locker room yet?

Just did.
I’m waiting for my turn to do press.
I’m already packed, so once I’m done I can head over right away.

i’ll be waiting for you here 💙

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моя любовь 💙

i’m 30 minutes away <3

come to yuna and david’s
we are cooking dinner for you ))))
salmon, your favorite

I love you so much

i love you too

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July 2019

Riding The Edge Updates @RTE_Updates
Professional hockey player Adam Forester (Toronto Hawks) will be the hockey double for Christopher Sato!

> ella @derekscallowaygf
THEY GOT AN NHLER TO DO HOCKEY FOR DEREK?? Omg this show will be so big!

> > Mia @calloderek
**AHL (the nhl team is actually toronto guardians), but yes very big!

> hannah @lovelylovells
not many books will get perfect show casting, a big budget, be put on a main streaming site, AND get a professional to work for it, but RTE has it all!

 

kaia :) @bookishgirl
It would be so funny if they had Shane Hollander be Derek’s hockey double! I heard it’s not hockey season, so he would’ve been definitely free to do it.

> joanna @shanespike
Why would Shane Hollander waste his time filming a show.

> > kaia :) @bookishgirl
“waste time” as in uplift women’s voices??

> > > joanna @shanespike
“uplift women’s voices” about a smutty hockey romance book?? This book sexualizes shane so much. i’m glad that he hasn’t acknowledged this and hope he never has to.

> > > jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
you truly have no idea all the things shane does. right now, he literally runs a mental health charity and does hockey camps alongside queer hockey players. trust me, he has better things to be doing than playing hockey for some straight hockey smut show.

 

Shane Hollander ✔️ @shanehollanderhockey
Successful week at Montreal’s Game Changers Hockey Camp! So fortunate to be surrounded by all these lovely people, supporting @IrinaFoundation

> J.J. Boiziau ✔️ @jjboiziau
🫡🫡

> Leah Campbell ✔️ @LeahCampbell74
Always a great time, thanks for having me and @MaxRileyHockey !!

> Ilya Rozanov ✔️ @rozanov81
Love to see it)))

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November 2019

Riding The Edge Becomes Prime Video’s Biggest Drama Launch Ever
The steamy hockey romance series has shattered viewing records in its first week, topping charts in 16 countries and becoming the most-watched new series of 2019…

What is ‘Riding The Edge’? The Spicy Hockey Romance Phenomenon Taking Over the World
Since its November 28 premiere, Prime Video’s adaptation of Sophia Bailey’s bestselling series has dominated water-cooler conversations, social media, and streaming charts. With its mix of forbidden romance, intense hockey scenes, and explicit chemistry between leads Christopher Sato and Juliette Laurent, the show has ignited a full-blown cultural moment…

Prime’s ‘Riding The Edge’ is this week’s most streamed show in the world—and it’s not even close
If you somehow haven’t heard of it yet, here’s your guide: Based on Sophia Bailey’s multimillion-selling hockey romance novels, the series follows disciplined Montreal Voyageurs captain Derek Calloway and the coach’s daughter who turns his world upside down…

‘Riding The Edge’ Review: Hot, Heart-Wrenching, and Really Pucking Fun
TV is in the middle of a hockey fever unlike anything we’ve seen before. While NHL purists may roll their eyes, everyone else is completely hooked. Christopher Sato delivers a magnetic, brooding performance as Derek Calloway that has already earned him “internet’s new boyfriend” status…

All About the Internet’s New Fictional Boyfriend: Derek Calloway
Newcomer Christopher Sato has taken the world by storm playing Derek Calloway—the stoic, half-Japanese, half-Canadian NHL captain. The character has drawn comparisons to real-life Montreal Voyageurs star Shane Hollander…

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Chiron’s Centaurs

Bood
Has anyone heard of Riding The Edge?
Cassie keeps on talking about it to me.

Young
my younger sisters are obsessed with that show!! they binged it in one night
they kept on asking me if it was hockey accurate
(it’s definitely not lmao)

Ilya
the hockey show?

Young
well, barely a hockey show
it’s more like hockey’s the setting, it’s a really steamy romance show

Evan
Yeah, Caitlin watched it!

Nick
So did Selena, I think. I saw her watching clips of hockey and thought she was watching the Voyageurs game for some reason, but turns out it was the show.

Wyatt
Yeah, I saw Lisa reading that book, too!
I asked her about it and she wouldn’t tell me.

Boyle
Wow, are all of our SAPs reading the book and watching the show?
9 people emphasized this message.

Troy
Yeah, it was their most recent book club book.

Bood
How do you know that?

Troy
Harris told me.
Wait.
Shit, I wasn’t supposed to know that.
Please don’t tell them I said anything.

Evan
Don’t worry man, the WAGs won’t kick Harris out of the gc for telling you their secrets. 

Troy
No I’m not afraid of them kicking Harris out of the chat, I’m scared they’re going to kill me!

Bood
Lmao you should be, I would never try to cross those women!

Luca
I looked it up, why did they choose Montreal of all teams as the setting?

Nick
Probably because they’re the best team in the league.
13 people reacted with “🍅” 

Ilya
more like they just wanted to write about shane hollander, not the voyageurs.

Wyatt
Shit, I didn’t even realize that!
That actor really does look like Hollander.
THE ACTOR IS HALF JAPANESE TOO??

Evan
Wait that’s literally crazy
I’m reading the summary right now and this character sounds exactly like Shane Hollander
The couple has like graphic sex in the books and show, right?

Bood
Please do not put the image of Shane Hollander having sex in my mind.
Imagine millions of people watching a fictional version of you doing softcore porn on TV 😭
And then everyone talking about that show.
If I was him I would never leave my house again.

Wyatt
I’m still stuck on the fact that it’s confirmed that this guy is literally Shane Hollander.
Omg our wives were reading and watching Shane Hollander fanfiction…

Ilya
what is fanfiction?

Luca
Fanfiction are works written by fans of a media. So the author of this book was probably a fan of the Voyageurs and had a crush on Hollander, so she wrote a book fantasizing about being with him.
I mean
I don’t know

Troy
Maybe we should watch it
Next team movie
So we have material to chirp Hollander about.

Ilya
oh yes, i’m sure you would like that.
we all know about your crush on shane hollander
5 people laughed at this message.

Troy
Bro that was last year and I told you that in secret!
Also I’m with Harris now!

Nick
Dude, we can’t watch it on the plane!
It’s pretty explicit

Wyatt
Yeah there’s like sex stuff shown, heard, and said.
Imagine Hollander saying that stuff.
I wouldn’t be able to look him in the eye.

Bood
Fuck that, I would love to see Shane Hollander’s reaction to the show.
It would be so funny.

Ilya
yes, imagine…

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моя любовь 💙

can movie night movies be shows?
i have a suggestion

No.

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December 2019

Post-Practice Press Conference
Montreal Voyageurs Media Availability

Reporter: Shane, the TV show Riding the Edge has become a massive hit. I feel like everyone has been talking about it. With the main character being captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, you must have heard about it. Have you watched the show yet?

Hollander: Oh, um, yeah… I’ve heard about it. I think we’ve all heard about it. [small laugh] It’s brought a lot of new viewers to hockey, which has been incredible. Montreal is a team with a dense history, so getting people watching what we do has been great for the sport.

Reporter: A lot of people are saying the character Derek Calloway is based on you. Have you heard about this? The leadership style, the background—

Hollander: Skip.

Reporter: The actor, Christopher Sato has said in interviews that he studied a lot of your tape and interviews to prepare for the role. Any thoughts on that?

Hollander: Skip again.

Reporter: The show has some very explicit scenes. Are you uncomfortable with the comparisons being made between you and Derek?

Hollander: …Next question, please.

Reporter: Do you think you’d ever consider making a cameo?

Hollander: [laughs quietly, rubs the back of his neck] Any questions about our season so far?

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mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
Reporters harassing Shane Hollander with stupid questions during his presser… shane get behind me I’ll protect you 😭

> finn @jjsvoyagos
riding the edge was the worst thing to happen to hockeytwt

 

derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
Omg Shane Hollander was asked about RTE during an interview and he kept saying “skip” to every Riding the Edge question. This is sending me. baby looked so uncomfortable lmaooo

> hannah @lovelylovells
the way he shut down every single question about the show 💀 polite king but you can tell he wants the ground to swallow him whole

> ella @derekscallowaygf
ok but he didn’t say no to the cameo question! i need derek calloway to meet his father shane hollander so bad (also i just want to see chris sato and shane hollander next to each other!)

> mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
KEEP MY WIFE’S NAME OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MOUTH

 

jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
What did you want Shane to say? “yes I’ve heard of the softcore porn show about me, next question”?? These reporters are so unprofessional. Shane is literally leading the league in points right now, ask him about that!

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Montreal Voyageurs

Comeau
Did you guys see that the cast of Riding The Edge was at the game ?
They were up in one of the suites.

Hayden
Holy shit, really?

Drapeau
Damn Gil, I didn’t know you liked girly shit like that 😂😂

Gagnon
How did you even know that

Comeau
My girlfriend likes it. I heard about it all the time, it’s so fucking annoying. But I recognized them while they were filming promo.

Koch
“Hear about it” sure buddy

Comeau
I’m serious. That show is basically softcore porn with hockey jerseys.

Andropov
That’s literally why women watch it.
10 people emphasized this message

Comeau
The main actress girl is so fucking hot at least
If I was single I would try to get with her lol
6 people emphasized this message.

Koch
Pretty sure she’s dating the guy she stars with though
7 people disliked this message.

Comeau
Yeah, because actresses are definitely lining up for hockey players instead.

Drapeau
Worked for Hollander once

Roy
We don’t talk enough about how badly he fumbled Rose Landry.

Coulliard
Actually tragic work from our captain
Imagine fumbling Rose Landry 💀💀

Shane
I didn’t fumble her, we just weren’t compatible
I’m gay, remember?
And she’s still one of my closest friends

Drapeau
Chill Cap, it was a joke

Comeau
Yeah you might be gay but you aren’t blind
That girl is sexy as hell

Drapeau
I bet she would be into you
Main guy looks identical to you anyway 😂
Might as well shoot your shot

Comeau
And then maybe our captain will finally have a WAG to bring along to stuff instead of showing up solo

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Shane, JJ, & Hayden

J.J.
Ignore them, Shane. They’re being assholes.

Hayden
When are they not being assholes?

J.J.
Yeah, right.
Are you okay?

Shane
I’m fine.
Just tired.

J.J.
You don’t owe them any explanation.
You already came out, they should respect it by now.

Shane
It is what it is.
I’m used to it at this point.

J.J.
Doesn’t make it okay.
We got your back, you know that right?

Shane
Yeah. I know.
Thanks.

Hayden
I’m really sorry man.
Are you still going to Comeau’s Christmas Eve party tomorrow?

Shane
I’m not sure.
I don’t think I can stand to see any of them.
I just want to see—
I just want to go home.

J.J.
I get that.
Well, we are here for you if you want to talk about it.
Shane loved this message.

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моя любовь 💙

I’m so fucking done with the team.
Thank God it’s Christmas break, I can’t stand them.

christmas eve is tomorrow
you are not allowed to be miserable
what happened, моя любовь?

I don’t know where to start
I have so many thoughts

Call — 2:31:43

sorry, phone died

It’s fine.
And thank you for listening. I know I probably sounded insane.
I’m just so stressed out lately. I used to love being on this team, and now half the time I walk into the room already feeling exhausted. I didn’t even realize how unhappy I’d become until I started thinking that maybe leaving Montreal would actually be the best thing for me.
They’ve been my family for so long, but it doesn’t feel like that anymore. Everything feels different now.
They’re constantly pushing at me, making jokes at my expense, pretending not to hear me when I talk… and maybe none of it sounds that bad on its own, but after a while it just wears you down.

and they are assholes for that.

I want out.
I can’t believe it, but I want to be out.

be out?
like, out out or out of montreal?

I’m not sure
Both?
Ugh, my emotions are so high that I don’t know how to think.

it’s late, моя любовь
maybe sleep on it and you’ll feel better
we get to see each other in person tomorrow)))))

Yeah, about that…

???

Open your front door.

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Bood

Merry Christmas, Bood)))
i have a question to ask you.

Merry Christmas, Ilya!
Sure, what’s up?

can i bring plus one to your party tomorrow?

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Chiron’s Centaurs

Evan
Why did i have to hear from COACH WIEBE of all people that Shane fucking Hollander was at Bood’s boxing day party???

Bood
Because you abandoned us

Evan
BRO I WAS IN MANITOBA
I CAN’T BE TWO PLACES AT ONCE
But believe me, if you told me Shane Hollander was there for some reason, I would’ve flew there immediately

Luca
Should we tell him?

Nick
Nah, this is funnier.

Evan
Tell me what.

Wyatt
Oh my God 😭

Ilya
you would already know if you had shown up)))

Evan
You guys are actually pissing me off now.

Holmberg
Crazy night honestly.
I’m so glad I didn’t miss it.
Great food, Shane Hollander, huge announcement…

Evan
WHAT ANNOUNCEMENT???

Bood
Guys stop bullying Evan

Luca
You all are being so mean.

Nick
That’s what he gets for ditching us
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Evan
I HAD FAMILY STUFF
PLEASE JUST TELL ME

Wyatt
Wait don’t tell him yet
This is entertaining

Troy
@Ilya you’re being suspiciously quiet right now…

Ilya
i’m enjoying this very much
evan is already losing his mind
i wonder what his reaction will be when he finds out that shane is my boyfriend

Evan
JGRKSUHSKDF
AS IN SHANE HOLLANDER??

Ilya
no, the other shane i brought to bood’s party
yes of course shane hollander 😭😭

Evan
ARE YOU FR??

Bood
By the way, Cassie wants Shane’s number to add him to the SAP groupchat
They promise that they won’t mention riding the edge to him.

Ilya
i will send his number to her
and don’t worry, i mention the book to shane all the time)))

Boyle
Hold on
You read the book?

Ilya
yes months ago
and the show is very good
shane will not watch it with me though((((

Wyatt
Don’t worry man, I’ll watch it with you

Bood
I will too!
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Ilya
thank you you’re are all real ones
you love me much more than shane
ghrjktsdfibi
sorry that was my boyfriend trying to beat me up
he doesn’t like it when i mention my favorite show(((

Evan
I genuinely cannot process the fact that Shane Hollander is sitting beside you right now.

Ilya
on top of me actually
we are in bed 😉

Bood
We did not need to know that.

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Mom

I looked around your contract, and there will be no way you’ll be able to get out of this season. Montreal is leading the league in points and are cup contenders. You’ll be a free agent in the summer, though. That would leave Montreal with nothing in return, but really it would be the only way for you to move to the Centaurs after this season.

I’m sorry, mom. I know you’re a huge Montreal fan.

I’m not a fan of current Montreal. I always root for you, Shane.
I’ll send you an outline of my plans.
Love you.

I love you too.

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January 2020

It’s been a month since the big ‘Riding The Edge’ season finale, and the momentum hasn’t stopped

A month ago, the biggest thing in the world was the highly anticipated ‘Riding The Edge’ season finale. Even now, with leads Christopher Sato and Juliette Laurent doing press for the show, the craze is far from over…

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J.J.

Now that we are in Ottawa for a game tonight, I have a question for you
Have you heard of Pitchers’? That sports bar downtown?

??
Yes, my old classmate’s parents own it.
Why?

Yes, they used to
But now your classmate owns it
I looked around a bit

You stalked my old classmate?

Not stalking
Looking around
And I found that your old classmate Matty owns the bar, and is single, and is gay

How do you even know that?
I haven’t even thought about him since graduation.

I have my ways.
I was just thinking you me and Hayden can hit that bar after the game, check it out, and maybe you could talk to him again…

JJ, I’m going to be honest with you
Please don’t be mad.
But I actually have a boyfriend

You do?
Fuck, you should’ve told me earlier!
Is this new?
How long have you been dating?

We’ve been officially together for about a year and a half now.

A year and a half??
You came out to us a year ago.
You had a boyfriend this whole entire time?

Yes.

Wow.
Fuck.
This is a lot for me to handle.
I’ve been trying to set you up with guys though.
Why didn’t you just tell me you had a boyfriend?

We didn’t want to tell anyone about it.
The team is already bad enough, I didn’t want to add more fuel to the fire.

But you know I’m not like the rest of them.

I know that.
It was just… private.

Fuck.
I don’t know what to say.
I thought you would’ve told me.
You can trust me.

I’m sorry, I do trust you.
I was just scared.
But that’s why I’m telling you now. I was planning on it before you texted me first.

Sorry, this is just a lot to handle.
I’m happy for you, though. I wish you would’ve told me, but I’m happy for you.

Yeah, we were very private.
But we’re slowly opening up again.
And I want you to meet him.
If that’s alright with you.

Of course I want to meet the guy you’ve been secretly dating for the past year and a half!
When?

How does after our game work?

…like tonight?
In Ottawa?
Damn, is he so down bad that he comes to watch your games on the road?

Something like that.

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J.J.

Hey, sorry if I came off weird or angry last night.
I was just really shocked.
Rozanov, of all people?

I know it was a lot to drop on you.
I didn’t mean to keep it a secret for so long. Ilya and I recently decided we’re ready to start telling people we trust. You’re one of my best friends, and I hope you don’t think less of me because of this.

Fuck that, Shane. You know I could never think less of you.
I’m really happy for you, man. Seriously.
Even though it’s Rozanov of all fucking people 

Yeah… that’s what everyone says.

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February 2020

Pop Crave ✔️ @popcrave
Prime Video’s “Riding The Edge” has been renewed for season 2

> hannah @lovelylovells
YESSSS (we all saw this coming, but YESSS!!)

> jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
Somewhere in Montreal, Shane Hollander fell to his knees.

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From: [email protected]
To: [email protected]
Subject: Post-Season Planning

Hi Shane,

I hope this email finds you will.

I’ve attached a few possible paths we can take following the season. Since we’re this deep into the year, leaving Montreal right now would create a massive amount of media attention, so I understand wanting to finish things there first.

The first attachment includes potential landing spots once free agency opens. As discussed, Ottawa remains our top priority, and they’ll be the first organization we reach out to once negotiations officially begin.

The second attachment contains draft statements and possible approaches regarding your coming out announcement, since the current plan is still to move forward with that this summer. Take your time looking everything over, and let me know if there’s anything you want adjusted or removed.

We’ll handle this carefully. I wish you luck on all of your games.

Best,
Farah

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June 2020

x – Voyageurs Montréal ✔️ @VoyageursMTL
Going into overtime.

On s'en va en prolongation.

#StanleyCupFinals #GoVoysGo

> finn @jjsvoyagos
VOYSMIN I’M LITERALLY ABOUT TO PEE MY PANTS

> x – freddie @pikesleftwing
one goal between the voyageurs winning the cup or being forced to go to vegas to play game 7… DO IT FOR CANADA I BEG

> marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
SHANE HOLLANDER GAME WINNING GOAL #WATCHTHISSPACE

 

Mia @calloderek
If someone told me that watching RTE would lead me to become a real life montreal voyageurs fan, i would’ve laughed in your face  😭😭 what is my life

 

x – 🦦 @oleolevoys
There has been so many close calls during this… i’m so scared.

 

jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
shane has had like 7 shots of goal in this overtime so far, ONE OF THEM IS GOING TO HIT

> jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
HOLY SHIT

> mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
OOMF YOU CALLED IT 

 

x – Voyageurs Montréal ✔️ @VoyageursMTL
HOLLZY!! OUR CAPTAINE DOES IT!! 🏆🏆

> joanna @shanespike
SHANE HOLLANDER GAME WINNING GOAL!!

> x – freddie @pikesleftwing
I CAN’T BELIEVE IT. WE ACTUALLY DID IT

> Michael D. @montrealmike
CALL THAT A DYNASTY!!

 

marcie ! 24 defender @hollzypuck
MONTREAL VOYAGEURS STANLEY CUP CHAMPIONS. SHANE HOLLANDER HAS CAPTAINED HIS TEAM TO THE CUP THREE TIMES. UNDER THE AGE OF THIRTY. THAT’S MY GOAT

 

francine ! @shaydens
HAYDEN TACKLING SHANE TO THE GROUND DURING THE CELLY 😭😭😭 my shayden heart is so full

 

aria @hollanovs
Shane keeps on looking up in the stands because ilya is there to watch him win—*muffled noises, sound of me getting dragged away*

> hollanov’s #1 defender @hollanovsdog
ARIA THEY’RE GONNA CRUCIFY YOU FOR THIS

> > aria @hollanovs
I’M SPEAKING #MY TRUTH!

 

derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
omg the montreal voyageurs won the cup and shane hollander looking up into the stands all emotional immediately made me think of the scene where derek brings isabelle on the ice and kisses her to reveal their relationship 🥹🥹

> mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
“derek brings out isabelle on the ice and kisses her to reveal their relationship” WHY ARE THEY REHEATING SCOTT HUNTER’S GAY NACHOS

> > derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
who’s scott hunter?

> > > mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
“who’s scott hunter” WHAT??? OH MY GOD THESE RIDING THE EDGE FANS INFILTRATING HOCKEYTWT IS THE WORST THING TO EVER HAPPEN 💀💀

 

Montreal CUP WINNERS @voyageursnation
3 Stanley Cups in the past ten years.

All three were captained by Shane Hollander, who is under 30 years old.

Shane Hollander, scoring the game winning goal in OVERTIME

Centre Bell is shaking. 

What. A. Night. #GoVoysGo

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Stanley Cup Victory Press Conference
Montreal Voyageurs – Shane Hollander (Captain)

Reporter: Shane, first off, congratulations on winning your third Stanley Cup! As captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, and doing it in dramatic fashion on home ice, it must feel pretty good. 

Hollander: Thank you. And yes, it does feel great.

Reporter: I bet! What’s going through your mind right now?

Hollander: [smiles softly] It’s surreal. This one feels really special. Winning the Cup is always incredible, but to do it here at the Centre Bell in front of our fans after everything this season… it means a lot. 

Reporter: What are your plans when it’s your day with the Stanley Cup? Any big parties or traditions?

Hollander: I’ll definitely spend some time with my family. But I’m hoping we can organize something with the Irina Foundation pretty soon. I want to bring the Cup to the kids and their families. That’s always been one of the most meaningful parts of winning it for me, just seeing the fans and the community that’s been supporting us for so long.

Reporter: You’ve always been regarded as one of the most vocal, vocal leaders in the NHL. This season, especially in the second half, you seemed noticeably quieter in the locker room and with the media. Was there anything affecting your leadership style this year?

Hollander: [long pause] I’m not going to get into that. We had one goal for this season, like always, and that was to win the Cup. We accomplished that. That’s what I want to focus on.

Reporter: There have been persistent rumors about tension between you and some of your teammates—that you weren’t as involved in team functions or as active in the group as you’ve been in previous years. How do you address those rumors, especially as captain?

Hollander: [slight shift in his seat] We were able to win the Stanley Cup despite whatever rumors or outside noise there was. I think that says enough. This group found a way to come together when it counted, and I’m grateful for every guy who contributed.

Reporter: Your contract expires this summer. You’ve spent your entire career on Montreal, and after winning your third Cup here, can fans expect you back in a Voyageurs jersey next season?

Hollander: [long pause, looks down briefly before looking back at the reporters] Um… [rubs the back of his neck, visibly uncomfortable] Well. [pauses, staring off in the distance like he doesn’t know what to say] That’s… that’s a big question right now. I haven’t made any final decisions yet. I’m going to take some time to enjoy this with my family and think everything through. I don’t have an answer for you today.

Reporter: Is there any part of you that wants to stay long-term in Montreal after everything you’ve accomplished here?

Hollander: [hesitates, opens his mouth then closes it] …I’m not taking any more questions on that right now. Thank you.

Reporter: One last one—the city is calling you a legend after that OT winner. How does it feel?

Hollander: It feels good. Montreal gave me so much my entire career, so it feels great to give something back. But it was never about me. It was about this team and this city. Thank you, everyone.

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rachel @haydenxshanes
They’ll extend Shane. I can’t believe people are trying to say that they won’t. He’s our captain, face of the franchise, and the best player in the league. If they had to pay in 15M/year to stay, they would do it. Something else would have to go on for Shane to leave Montreal. You can quote me on this.

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July 2020

Ottawa Centaurs ✔️ @Centaurs
OFFICIAL: We have signed forward Shane Hollander to a seven-year contract worth an average annual value (AAV) of $8,100,00. bit.ly/5uf824tn

> paulie ☆ @troyschiron
WHAT

> amelie @rozanovscens
UHH WHAT THE HELL

> rachel @haydenxshanes
please delete, a lot of people are asking you to delete, its triggering for so many people, there are people that are fainting and feeling sick, please i'm begging you to delete it, delete this right now im serious, people are crying and jumping off balconies

 

cece <3 @cenilyas
OHH THAT STANLEY CUP IS SO OURS

> jules ⋆˚ʚɞ @hollanottawa
OUR WASIAN PRINCE OF OTTAWA IS COMING BACK TO US #iprayedfortimeslikethese

> amelie @rozanovscens
Smiling through it all. Can’t believe this is my life.

 

in mourning @shaydens
Going dark. Don’t hit me up. Only real ones know.

 

rachel @haydenxshanes
i’m actually sobbing because wdym shayden is going to be seperated?? After spending their whole careers together? this feels worse than a break up i actually feel sick.

 

maris @rahrahrozanov
So…

rachel @haydenxshanes
They’ll extend Shane. I can’t believe people are trying to say that they won’t. He’s our captain, face of the franchise, and the best player in the league. If they had to pay in 15M/year to stay, they would do it. Something else would have to go on for Shane to leave Montreal. You can quote me on this.

> maris @rahrahrozanov
JUST GOT IMMEDIATELY BLOCKED BY OP LMAOOO

 

mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
I find it so insane that he took this massive of a pay cut to be on the team? On Montreal, he was getting paid 14M a year. There has to be something else going on here, this is way too suspicious.

> hollanov’s #1 defender @hollanovsdog
Ottawa is his hometown. Maybe he took a hometown cut for that?

> > mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
shane always said that he was a montreal fan growing up, though. why would he leave his childhood team for ottawa?

> > > jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
correction: shane said that his MOTHER’S favorite team was montreal. shane was a centaurs fan.

> > > >  mj loves the voys @hollywoodshane
it just makes no sense to me? I’m genuinely so upset. It’s not even a trade. Montreal isn’t even going to get anything in return for this. I’m so mad.

 

aria @hollanovs
Not to put my hollanov tinfoil hat on but do we remember who the ottawa captain is? Right, ilya rozanov. The SAME ilya rozanov who randomly signed to ottawa out of nowhere years ago. And what’s Ilya Rozanov’s number? 81. AND WHAT WAS THE DEAL THAT SHANE SIGNED TO???

> paulie ☆ @troyschiron
8.1 M a year is so sus…

> jules ⋆˚ʚɞ @hollanottawa
i’m not even a hollanov but this is frying my brain. these coincidences are crazy

> > aria @hollanovs
IT’S NOT A CRAZY COINCIDENCE, IT’S THE TRUTH!!

 

Mia @calloderek
for my riding the edge oomfs: this is like if derek calloway, out of nowhere, decided to leave montreal and start playing for ottawa.

Ottawa Centaurs ✔️ @Centaurs
OFFICIAL: We have signed forward Shane Hollander to a seven-year contract worth an average annual value (AAV) of $8,100,00. bit.ly/5uf824tn

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Chiron’s Centaurs

Ilya
I HAVE IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT

Ilya Rozanov has added Shane Hollander to the chat.

Wyatt
LET’S GOOOOO

Bood
Congrats on joining the best team in the MHL!

Evan
Just ignore how we were at the bottom of the division last year!

Wyatt
Don’t worry, we’ll be back this year! Especially with Shane Hollander on our team.

Shane
Thanks everyone!
Very excited to join the team :) 

Ilya
ugh, i forgot this team is now full of polite canadien boys
boring
anyway i have something to ask

Bood
Sure, what’s up?

Ilya
are you all free in two weeks?
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Evan
I think I’m going to my parents’ house that week

Holmberg
Gonna be in Sweden unfortunately

Ilya
oh, sucks.
well, we want to invite those who are available to our house in two weeks.

Bood
What for?

Shane
Our wedding.
20 people questioned this message

Evan
WHAT
Give me a sec, let me cancel my plans!

Wyatt
YOUR WHAT

Boyle
HELLO?

Nick
SINCE WHEN WERE YOU ENGAGED

Young
IN TWO WEEKS?

Troy
YOU TWO NEED TO ANSWER NOW
YOU CAN’T JUST DROP THIS INFO AND NOT ELABORATE

Facetime Call — 4:24:33

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September 2020

Shane Hollander ✔️ @shanehollanderhockey
I’ve been in the NHL since I was 18, and I’ve been around hockey since I learned how to walk. Every day I wake up and think: I can’t believe this is my life. I’m incredibly lucky for everything I’ve experienced. Being in the public eye has never been easy, especially when labels get attached to you. For a long time, it felt easier to just let things go and keep parts of my life private. But going forward, I want to be more open about who I am.

I am gay. 

I was gay when I got drafted second overall. I was gay each time I hoisted the Stanley Cup over my head. And I was gay when I met Ilya Rozanov for the first time. And, years ago, when Ilya and I began our committed relationship, we understood there would be challenges. That’s part of why we chose to keep it private. After a lot of time and honest conversations, we’ve decided we want to share publicly that we are, in fact, together.

We know this won’t be easy for everyone to understand. But we’ve never let our relationship interfere with our commitment on the ice, and I think our career accomplishments speak for themselves. 

To Montreal: thank you for everything. Playing here has been an honor I’ll never forget. To Ottawa, my hometown: I’m looking forward to what’s next. Not everyone gets the chance to play for their city alongside the person they love—but I do. I don’t take that for granted. I’m grateful for this next chapter, and I hope I make you proud.

– Shane

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Ilya Rozanov ✔️ @rozanov81
I’m bi. Here’s a picture of me and my sexy gay husband.

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> Shane Hollander ✔️@shanehollanderhockey
This is not the post we agreed on! 

 

jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
GET OUT OF FAMILY BUSINESS POPCRAVE

Pop Crave ✔️ @popcrave
NHL players Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov come out as queer, confirming that they are married.

 

in mourning @shaydens
I thought july 1st was bad enough. I’m legitimately deactivating.

 

aria @hollanovs
I KNEW THAT DOOR HAD A LOCK ON IT! AND EVERYONE WAS TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS LOSING MY MIND

aria @hollanovs
Not to put my hollanov tinfoil hat on but do we remember who the ottawa captain is? Right, ilya rozanov. The SAME ilya rozanov who randomly signed to ottawa out of nowhere years ago. And what’s Ilya Rozanov’s number? 81. AND WHAT WAS THE DEAL THAT SHANE SIGNED TO???

> jules ⋆˚ʚɞ @hollanottawa
Nonoomf, i have to applaud you for this

> hollanov’s #1 defender @hollanovsdog
THEY CALLED US INSANE. BUT WE GOT THE LAST LAUGH

 

Mia @calloderek
for all my riding the edge oomfs: this is like if derek calloway came out as gay.

Pop Crave @popcrave
NHL players Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov come out as queer, confirming that they are married.

> hannah @lovelylovells
And then confirmed that he’s been dating his hockey rival for years and recently married him.

> 𖤓 @satomotion
This is actually insane. One of the most insane days on rtetwt

> > rose @julilovette
saying that when you know letterboxdgate and pdfgate exists…

> > > 𖤓 @satomotion
WE DON’T TALK ABOUT THOSE DAYS

 

JuliChris Updates @julixchrisupdates
Christopher Sato and Juliette Laurent have commented on hockey player Shane Hollander’s coming out post on Instagram.

“Congrats on your marriage! ❤️” – Chris
“This is awesome, I’m happy for you :)” – Juliette

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October 2020

Behind the Hockey with Clara & Meg S03E29: Shane Hollander joins, 15:06

Clara McGee, married to Calgary Inferno player Brian, and Meg Bianchi, married to Anaheim Hammerheads player Jacob, join forces to bring you a look into what life is like as a wife of an NHL player. From game nights to constant travel, they share stories and exclusive interviews that fans don’t get to see. They strive to have conversations with the NHL’s most prominent names, and give you a look inside the world of hockey.

Shane: —and obviously there’s still work to be done with Ottawa’s power play. They’ve got so much talent, it’s honestly surprising they’re not clicking yet. I’ve played with Ilya before, so I know the chemistry is there. I’m just excited to get started with them.

Clara: I think the Centaurs are pretty excited to get started with you too! Okay, now onto some fun stuff.

Meg: Well, fun for us. I’m not sure if it’ll be fun for you.

Shane: Oh God. Well, let’s hear it.

Clara: So. Shane. Riding The Edge.

Shane: [pinches the bridge of his nose, shaking his head] Oh boy.

Meg: Ah, so you’ve heard of it!

Shane: It’s kind of hard not to.

Meg: So… be honest with us. Did you read it?

Shane: [laughs] No, I haven’t read it. I’ve heard plenty about it though. [smiles] My husband’s a fan, though.

Clara: Aww, we saw that big smile when you said “husband!”

Meg: Did Ilya actually read it?

Shane: Oh yeah. He read the whole series last year when the adaptation got announced. Ottawa didn’t make playoffs, Montreal was in the first round, so he had a lot of free time without me. He’d send me passages from it too, which was… embarrassing. 

Meg: That’s hilarious. And did you two watch it?

Shane: He did. With his teammates, of all people. I refused.

Clara: So, to confirm: Shane Hollander has not watched Riding The Edge.

Shane: No, I haven’t. I heard good things about it, though. I just… I just can’t. Because… well, you know.

Meg: I guess it would be weird to watch something based on yourself.

Shane: Yeah. It is.

Meg: Were you flattered at least?

Shane: Flattered? [tilts hand] Surprised is probably better. Also a little shocked. I didn’t think I was interesting enough to be someone’s inspiration like that. The fictional version of me feels… a lot cooler than I actually am.

Clara: Says the man who bagged Ilya Rozanov.

Meg: Come on, Ilya bagged him!

Shane: It was mutual bagging, let’s say.

Clara: Right. So Ilya’s probably a fan, since Derek Calloway is confirmed to be inspired by you. How does that feel? Especially with Derek being one of the most popular characters on TV right now. 

Shane: [sighs] I don’t know. I heard about it years ago, when Jackie Pike mentioned it to me. At the time I just thought—okay, that’s weird—and moved on. It was easy to ignore back then. But now, with how big the show’s gotten, it’s harder to separate him from me. Especially when his whole storyline—this perfect straight love story—is something I’ll never actually have.

Clara: That must be strange.

Shane: Yeah. It’s weird seeing the most popular character on TV be basically a version of you—same job, same career, same everything—but he’s someone people are obsessed with in a way you can’t really relate to. And then there’s this constant comparison. Derek Calloway gets this huge love story, and I just… don’t. Even though I’m happy in my own life, it still messes with your head a bit.

Clara: I can see that. Especially if you were keeping parts of your life private at the time.

Shane: Yeah. It made things complicated. I’d hear people talk about Derek and think—is that how people see me? Is that who they expect me to be? And meanwhile I’m just… not. I’m not straight. I will never love a woman in the way Derek does. But people seem to love Derek more than they like me, which made me kind of envious of his perfect fantasy life. Even though he’s fake. I know it’s dumb. I talked about it a lot with Ilya, honestly. It just felt strange carrying both things at once.

Clara: Did it affect your relationship at all?

Shane: [smiles] No. If anything it made it stronger. It just… clarified things for me. I’m really happy with him. That’s the part of my life that feels most real, honestly. I’ve had all the hockey stuff, all the awards, but Ilya’s the thing that matters most. At some point I just realized Derek Calloway is his own person. He’s not me. And I’m not him either.

Clara: That’s really nice, Shane.

Meg: It is. Speaking of you refusing to watch the show… I think you’re about to now.

Shane: Oh no.

Meg: And I hope you don’t mind—we brought a special guest. He actually lives with you and should be walking in soon—

Shane: …Oh no. Ilya—

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kaia @bookishgirl
Omg now that you have me thinking about it, a book series (or show) about two rival hockey players falling in love and having a secret relationship spanning across multiple years would be so good. Imagine the tension, the chemistry, the buzz… 

jenna²⁴ @H0LL4ND3RS
You know, Shane and Ilya’s relationship is really romantic. Rivals to lovers, secret relationship, slow burn… almost feel like it could be a hockey romance book too lol

> derelle lovebot @callowaysbelle
…nah, i love the idea, but i don’t see it.

> rose @julilovette
well it’s a good thing stantwt aren’t tv execs, because no one’s gonna tune into that 😭😭

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Notes:

ok a bit of context that you probably don't care about:

1. 8.1M is really low for a player of shane's caliber, but it's not unusual. sidney crosby (who shane is inspired by) is paid 8.7M a year, since 87 is his lucky number (jersey number, birthday, birth year). so i thought shane getting paid ilya's number would be sweet :)

2. the "behind the hockey with clara & meg" podcast is inspired by the "never offside with julie & cat" podcast, which is a real podcast run by two wags!

3. a stan says "keep my wife's name out of your fucking mouth", referencing the will smith slap. the slap happens in 2022, but who cares. time isn't real in this fic.

4. during play-offs, fan accs that have “x —” in their name shows that their team made playoffs! this is because on the nhl website, when a team has clinched a spot, it would appear as “X — [team name]”

anyway, that's all for this fic! i hope it was easily to follow and funny enough. it's really a dumb idea that i never saw before, so at least i hope it made everyone smile.

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