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I plan on using this book to learn about my own sexuality. But don't worry, it's still just a smut book. Only the first chapter has stuff relating to this.
I'll also try to use this as a way to keep my writing going when I hit a writer's block. I hope to write something real in the future and not just smut. This just feels like an easy way to keep it up.
Uploads/Requests
I have a hard time to bring myself to write sometimes for various reasons, so keep that in mind if you like the book and hope to read more.
I mainly write whenever I have the time (an entire day) and enough energy and inspiration, and sadly those things come pretty rarely together. There are times when I might disappear for a long while, but I hope to come back each time :)
You can give me any ideas or requests in the comments, but I can't promise to do them. I promise to write them down and keep them in mind, though. I have a special little notebook made just for this book that I keep updating with random sparks of inspiration :)
Rewriting/Fanfics
In case you prefer fanfics over OG characters:
If there's a story you want to read as a fanfic or just with different names/characters, please let me know. I’m willing to copy/paste an entire chapter and publish it again with different names. That should be easy enough to do without needing to wait for the time/energy.
Just keep in mind that if you want me to rewrite a chapter as a fanfic and I'm not familiar with the characters, I can't do much else to make it accurate than changing the names.
What I'm (Not) Willing To Write
I can be kinky, and while I realize that this is a smut book, there are limits to what I'm comfortable writing about. I've been struggling with my sexuality and plan on using this book to explore it a bit more, but there are things I already know what I like and what I don't.
Won't be writing about:
- Girl-penetrative sex: this is a big one and feel like it's bound to make some of you lose interest. But even as a girl myself, I really struggle dealing with girls in such positions. This is my main struggle with my own sexuality and absolutely refuse to write about it. This includes: vaginal sex, vaginal fingering, vaginal penetrative toys, and vaginal eating out, and I'm pretty positive I'll never even be able to write about a girl taking a dick in her mouth since technically it's still penetrative. I'm sorry.
- Girls in submissive positions: most likely relating to my problem with girls being penetrated; it makes me uncomfortable and anxious.
- Girl-centered sex: This relates to my problem with girls in submissive positions, I don't want her pleasure or body to be the main focus. It has to be the guy regardless of who's POV it's coming from. Meaning, there won't be any mention of “pussy” or “tits” and barely any mention about her pleasure/orgasms.
- Feminization: somehow relating to my previous problem. Overly feminized girls or femboys. I'm sorry, I don't think I can write about either.
- Girl x Girl: I have no problem with writing a romantic relationship between girls, but I can't make it sexual. Unless the relationship involves them focusing on a guy, then I can make it work (read more below)
Can/Will write about:
- Submissive guys: my revenge on not liking girls in such positions, I'll put the guys in there. I'm okay with guys being fucked/pegged, tied up, (wo)manhandled, ordered around, etc. Bonus points if they're blindfolded ;)
- Overstimulating guys: guys being rough-housed and pushed to their limits. Guys whining, whimpering, groaning, crying, begging, screaming, shaking, trembling… oh and just regular moaning is good too :)
- Guy x Guy: I mean, who doesn't like the whole “boyfriends who are boyfriends” trope? But just the guys alone too? Yes please! When it's between two guys (or dom girl and a sub guy) I'm suddenly okay with penetration (Maybe because then I don't have to picture myself as the girl and it doesn't make me as uncomfortable?) So, I'll try my best to write about gay sex as a virgin female :)
- Girl x Girl x Guy: like mentioned before, I don't like the thought of girls being submissive or sex-centered, so if I'm going to write about a sexual relationship between two girls and a guy, the guy has to be the main focus. Same goes for Girl x Guy x Guy; the girl cannot be the main focus, but can definitely be the (main) dom
Things to expect:
- I really love edging and guys crying during sex, so most chapters are going to have at least one of those.
- I can get somewhat rough and get close to the gray area of consent, but that doens't mean I'm into or support rape or other sexual violence. All is written with consent in mind
- I try to publish each chapter as soon as I've had it written, just so I won't give myself any time to start hating it and ending up deleting it. So there might be some mistakes. I do do some amount of proofreading first, though, so there shouldn't be that much :)
- When it comes to my characters, I try to keep from describing them too much because I find it more fun to read with my own type in mind ;)
If anything makes you confused or if you're just curious, don't be scared to ask. I'm willing to even talk about my sexuality with you if you feel like you can relate and want to vent :)
On the other hand, though, if you have any complaints: this is my book and smut is a very popular subject, I'm sure you can find what you're looking for somewhere else; you don't need to stay if you are against anything in here. This is for those who WANT TO stay here.
Okay, let's get started!