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As Hot Shot arrived with the things Ellaina would need, she looked up at him actually thinking how she liked his warm summer sunset like colors and tried thinking what he would look like if he were a person. Eventually, coming up with him being a red head but with either orange or red hair, she laughed, thinking how she used to always want to be with a orangish red haired guy especially one who was Celtic as she adored the accent.
"What's so funny? You definitely sound perkier then you were before." Smokescreen smiled but noticed that her body looked whiter than before and held his worry for her inside him.
"Oh it's nothing," she said, smiling and shrugging her shoulders with a giggle. "But it seems after that strange dream I've been good. I even feel happy. Well sort of." Sounding mellow when she used the last three words. Sighing heavily and trying to smile again, she still felt happiness inside her for some reason. "I just don't know why I all of a sudden am thrilled or happy. Can that even be normal from what I went through? I was expecting the depression state, not the acceptance state. Well at least this came quickly." She looked out to a light, and for a second she thought she saw an angel's wings, along with the outline of her sweetheart who was now at the gates, never to return to this lifetime in which she lived. The smile returned as she thought that second was to remind her he'd be with her. "It's…It's almost like I feel him with me everywhere I go or that my guardian angel somehow is protecting my sadness, like when I prayed to the Lord to take my pain and sorrow. Well I feel that He…that He did and much more. I'm feeling just thrilled and safe, I can even think of a song that fits what I feel like. I don't understand why it does but I feel all of a sudden like Anita from West Side Story when she sings I Feel Pretty. But I feel so safe and happy for no reason." Getting quieter and giving her puppy dog like eyes to the four boys and men around her, she let out a heavenly sigh, and with a heaven sent voice that could have been an angel singing, said, "Especially around you."
Shocked that she just said those last words everyone stirred a bit. Sure they heard this from the kids, well all besides Smokescreen, who only heard such things from what little time Fred and Billy were around, but none had heard it in years. More importantly the kids never said it immediately or at least to all of them that quickly. This girl was somehow different. She was very understanding and treated them like they were humans her size. This could be because they rescued her, but even then she didn't treat the Decepticons like they weren't human; she treated them like human men. This girl had only good intentions, but somehow she was different from regular humans; she wasn't like the rest of them nor like the kids. There was something special about her. They all thought as they questioned and feared maybe that had to do with why they choose her in particularly and went through so much trouble. They would have to look through files and tracking of the Decepticons and see if they had been anywhere near this girl beforehand. Somehow they each knew this girl had more to her and she had something hidden in her past that she probably didn't know about. What would be the reason for such interest from the bastards? There was no question that there was more than meets the eye with this girl.
She noticed the sudden movement and looked to see that she got them to think deeply as she usually was able to get people to do for some weird reason. She sighed and thought of a better way she could say what she had said. "I mean everyone of you are just so kind and accepting, you had no problem taking me in. It's almost like I found a second home now that my college one was destroyed. And I can never go back to my life until those creeps and pervert leave me alone. which I know will never happen. Anyways, you guys did save my life from being ruined or completely ruined."
Hot Shot cut the silence and smiled with a laugh. "Don't worry! I know what you meant. Here's a jacket." He opened his compartment and tossed a jacket that was purple, some gold here and there and white leather sleeves, towards her in a playful manor, which she caught right as it was about to cover her completely. She smiled and laughed back, "Hey!" then looking at the jacket she had in her hands in shock.
"This is my letterman! Where did you get it?"
They start walking along the corridor as the door to the command room closed behind them. "Oh, Prime had several of us go in and grab your stuff pretending to be human agents in the Protective Service. We reassure everyone that you were safe and in good hands. I had to pretend to be a son or some intern as I look to be someone around your age."
"How?"
"My age?" He laughed, knowing what she meant.
"No silly!" She nudged him as if he were a person. "How do you look like a person?"
"With holograms to enter building and such, including touching people. Well we use holoforms for those instances"
"Could I see yours?" Putting her jacket on he nodded his head and she saw a bright orangish blonde hair teenage boy in front of her. He wore a bright yellow shirt and orange jeans and red and orange Van shoes. He almost looked Celtic the way his build was. She smiled. "You look very cute." Making him blush. "Sorry. I kinda always thought red heads were cute. I'm just blurting things out today, I guess after everything. Sorry about that awkward statement." Quickly sliding into her lettermen and attempting to button it up.
He came over to her a helped her with buttoning her jacket. She was surprised that this seemed to be a human before her. As she stood there with her mouth open, he changed back to his Autobot self, but not before she saw a large smirk appear on his face.
"Yeah. It wasn't awkward. I know in a situation like yours anyone would blurt things out. Hey, it took me forever after my three best friends were captured to not blurt out things without thinking and well, as you saw or heard finding out the news, I did. That kinda just came back. I just can't help it when I'm angry and things come out."
"Yeah, I understand. Today was the first time in my life I swore maybe not saying anything against the Bible, but other things that shocked me to say them. I actually thought what you said was brave and was thankful when you stood up to them for calling me a woman prostitute."
"It was no problem."
"To tell the truth, besides doing sports and riding horses, which means I may not be a complete of medically true virgin. I have been a virgin my whole life and feared the worst when everything happened. When Bo showed up it was weird that I wanted to have sex or get hitched and then lose my virginity, it was so unlike me. I plan to be a virgin till the day I get marry. Hey, can I ask you something?"
"Anything."
"The Decepticons can become humans like you, can't they?"
"Yeah, pretty sure. Why?"
"Well, I guess if I needed to go shopping or anywhere it will be hard if they can all of a sudden capture me in a store and act like it's a robbery or just slip me out the door or something."
"Yeah. I suppose you'll have to stay at the base for a while."
"Yeah, I would like that. Anyways, I would hate to have to run into a holoform version of Demolisher or Cyclones after having him hitting on me, and there was someone who forced me to watch them shoot him. There was a wire that came from a different bot besides Starscream, and whoever it was, well… he tried to tickle my chin" she shivered when saying this it was to gross to think about. "But I think my bra is gone, unless someone took it off me here than it was taken off during one of the times I blacked out due to electricity.
Hot Shot stopped in his tracks. "Those stinking creeps took your bra and did what? Oh they'll pay and no one's going to stop me next time! Why didn't you tell Smokescreen?"
"Well…I did and got really upset to the point of throwing up, and I'm creeped out to be anywhere near those Decepticons. I knew they did something very…um…creepy and perverting. I had no clue what they had in mind but I feared becoming a sex slave, especially after the tickle chin thing." She shivered in her tracks, horrified and uncomfortable by being hit on by something so huge but so cruel.
"That's why I tried to run, I was going to run in any case. I may be a girl of my word but I wasn't staying with them. I knew that something happened but was too busy to piece it all together. I'm afraid of being used for sex. I may be safe but I'm still shaken. I still feel the cords around me and everywhere they touched. That's how I'm positive he touched down there as well." Keeping quiet about the last part having a hard time imagining that those Decepticreeps actually felt around her private area, as if trying to rape her at the spot.
"Why those no good mother fucking shitters of bastards…!" He continued until Ellaina stopped her tracks, gasping at all the swear words he said; She never heard so many words used together. He noticed this and just tensed his grip, almost causing dents in his own hands as he growled about the Decepticon menaces. Hot Shot finally found something else to think about but still clenched his fists, swearing that the next time he ran across one of those creeps he would rip as many cords as he could out of them and he would make sure this would happen. Trying to calm down his voice, he asked in an attempt to sound perkier, "Say. What were you watching on the monitor?"
"Oh, it was a movie Smokescreen chose out of my DVD bag I had for watching movies with my friends or should I say a movie with friends? It's one of my favs, well most movies turn out to be one of my favs. It was called Stardust. It's really good and takes place in the 1700's I believe. And there's like a alternate dimension or something connected by a wall in this city. Well, it's very complicated and I don't want to give much away, but this shooting star falls from the sky on the other end of the wall. This English boy goes to find it as a present for his dearest beloved and ends up in that world. Well the star turns out to be a human woman and she and him fall in love with each other as they try to run from people who are trying to capture her and kill her for their own evil selfish purposes."
"Kinda like you are. Your life is like the star's, isn't it?"
She sighed as he said this. Never before would she have thought she was exactly like the star, the star who the witches and other people wanted to grab and rip out her heart to make them young for eternity. The problem was they killed her Tristan and he was never returning. The thing was that the Decepticons killed him and in the end hurt and almost killed the heart they wanted for themselves. They wanted her to kill her heart to make her one of them, but she would never join them in her life; they would have to knock her cold stone death to even attempt to get her evil or work for them. That is the only reason she could find that they would want her to be a full sized bot.
Sighing heavily, knowing now she was the star without a Tristan to save her, but that was forever safe with the Autobots. "Yeah. I guess you could say that. It's just I have yet to find that English boy who will make me forget my troubles and fears of being away from my family. Who'd go out of his way and would protect me from all the messes I got in, and then in the end marry. So everything with the main character portion does relate." Sighing, Ellaina watched as a lizard and mouse ran chasing each other. She sighed again and looked into Hot Shot's optics to explain more, brightening her mood with the thought of the movie. "It's really good, especially when you find out who he truly is. I love the dead king's sons' ghosts. They're completely funny but inappropriate. Huh, its hilarious."
"Sounds like a funny movie."
"Oh, it is, but action packed and romantic in its own ways." She turned her gaze down towards a wall away from Hot Shot, realizing in her own way she actually was flirting unintentionally, with someone not human and right after the guy she was going to date, maybe not marry but date, died.
Ell, get a hold of yourself and your feelings! You just lost someone you loved and wished to be closer to, and would have been closer to, if you had made it out of that mess at that much. Ell, what in the world are you doing to yourself? Sure your friends have said you're guy crazy, but girl I'm not that guy crazy! Am I?
No! I shouldn't be! I'm not that kind of girl! It must be my emotions. Huh, but the way he stood up for me, even when he didn't know me…wow that was so gentlemen like of him. I just feel so comfortable with him, but why have my feelings gone for him? It just has to be my sorrow needing someone to fill the gap or help. No one I would talk to is around and he's the first or one of the few I'm now surrounded with that I can talk to. He's the closest Autobot to my age in human terms, I think, from what he seems at least, so maybe it's that. I wish my heart would stop pounding for every nice and cute guy it comes across.
Ugh! Why am I falling in love again? I just hope he doesn't catch on to my flirts. Why do I have to be so flirty all the time? Ugh. I mean how embarrassing, especially if he doesn't have the same feelings. I can't do that to myself again. I hurt myself one too many times. He may think I'm just one of those girls who plays guys, but how can I be doing this for what will be thought of as a whore, I think? ...Huh, dear Lord. Is love really this hard, and grief caused love in weird ways? I just don't like it. Bo died hours ago and now I have to deal with love again. This doesn't make sense! What am I doing?
At the thought of Bo, her face sunk and she stopped in her tracks, without tears she cried under a soft sad breath "Bo!"
Hot Shot obviously heard for he stopped before looking at her and walking over to where she was. He gently kneeled beside her and lent out his hand. She knew what he meant by the gesture but decided to run and just hug his arm.
He laughed. "You know I was going to lift you into a hug and…"
"I know. I just rather stay on the ground right now."
He giggled at her. "Ok, if you want I can…"
"No. I should walk. It's good to walk. One, it helps to release emotions, allows you to think and gives relief from sorrow, stress and hard times. I think it's best if I walk at least for now. But if I start becoming unable to walk I'll let you know."
He giggled. "Well alright. We should be just about there in any case. Is there anything I can do to help?" He asked worried.
She sighed. "I don't know…huh, let me think about that for a while. I…I just don't know at the moment. Maybe some fresh air will help." She tried giving a gentle smile despite her sadness and pain.
Hot Shot thought quickly and decided to use his holoform, turning his appearance to a human, and wrapped his arms around Ell. Surprised, she looked back in his face. "It's ok. I'm here to comfort you I know how you feel. But when I went through similar things of course the Autobots tried to help, but more than ever I had needed someone my age to talk to, when they were taken." She allowed his arm to be over her shoulder, surprising both Hot Shot and herself as she grabbed his hand that was around her with her right hand. Holding on so tightly but gently almost caressing his gentle heart and love by this single kind gesture.
He chuckled at this as she looked into his eyes and suddenly, for a moment, saw the feelings she held inside knowing she was seeing similar things from his eyes as if they both were reading each other's mind and thoughts. All of a sudden they both quickly turned away from their awkward gaze as if they both tried to hide it, for at this moment their feelings were not appropriate.
Ell suddenly laid her head against Hot Shot's shoulder. He brought his arm farther around her shoulder, caressing as much of her body as he could and pulled her closer to his side.
Hot Shot found it weird that he was loving every moment of having his arm around Ellaina, holding her gentle small hands, her head resting on his shoulder. His spark had fluttered the moment he saw her asleep on the couch, he found it weird that he had actually been so quick to defend her from the disgusting names the Decepticons were calling her. Although he had to admit no woman or teen had any right to be called such fowl things. Nevertheless, when he defended her so quickly there was something in his spark telling the words and not his usual angered. unthinking self. It almost felt as if his spark had known her before they ever met.
He was even more unsure and scared of his feelings when she hugged his shoulder, then that moment she held his holoformed hand. He wanted nothing else but to kiss her, for she was the most beautiful creature, if not teenager or woman, that he had ever seen.
If we had met each under other conditions, maybe if I was a human myself, I would try to kiss her. But no, that would only make it worst for her. People do crazy things when grief stricken. I doubt she feels the same way. I mean look at her. She…she's a human, a different species. It doesn't matter if I enjoy her. It's a matter of if she likes me or is just going through emotions and needs someone to fill the hole before moving on.
No, don't be silly! I can't see her as that kind of girl, and she well she feels more than that. I don't even know her and before I met her, I felt her near and felt my spark jump, every time we touch or she touched me my spark has jumped. Just her being near is enough for me to have my spark speed and jump. What in the world am I feeling? Huh, I can't believe I'm saying this, but in my own way, I think my spark has finally cooled down and fallen in love with its possible spark bond, who herself has a heart and not a spark.
But huh, I shouldn't. I shouldn't be in love. The girl's heartbroken by a guy she didn't know as well but felt she loved him as if she had. I shouldn't show these feelings until I'm sure about them. She's been through a lot. Our feelings could be just over expressed feelings that appear mutual. Face it! How could she like you?
Look at the facts. She is a human, not an Autobot or transformer, and your no human. If you were to have feeling for her, and she truly felt the same way for you just face it! There is no way in Primus we both could do it, even if we could, no children could be made from it. Then there's the fact that if we married she would grow old or a number of things could happen to her and she would die.
I would be left alone in a matter of Cybertron years, then what? Would my life be just like those Twilight books with that character Edward, who would rather kill himself or be killed if his love died but not have the heart or will to change her? Ugh, my life is no Twilight story and I am no Edward. Even if it were true I would be more the Jacob then the Edward. At least he has a need for speed, danger, and has a mouth and anger to match it. Jacob never wanted her to be turned and protected her with his pack from the other Vampires. She's being protected by us from the Decepticons, who want to take her and change her just like the Volturi wanted to change Bella, kill the Cullen's family and tried to wipe out all the werewolves, which turned out to exist still as shape shifter like wolves. The Decepticons want all Autobots dead and have tried to wipe us out. Maybe our life story is the same.
But still. She's not the type to fall for a Decepticon after what they did. If this is Twilight, its missing the Cullen's family and there is no Edward, unless you counted the kids as the Cullen's as three have been changed. The other two have girlfriends but also have moved to separate towns by which they are safe. Well, that does equal the same amount of girls and boys with one not having someone. But I doubt it, for none of my friends would have gone for Alexis. Well, except Rad seemed to like her, but he also liked most girls and she didn't seem to have any mutual feelings for him nor Carlos.
Ugh! Why do fictional characters and stories have to relate to everyday lives? Anyways, in Twilight Bella never saw anyone close to her die, so it's not like our lives!
I should just be there as a friend for Ell. At the moment, she has no one good nor best friends around so I'll just be there for her.
Sighing softly he walked, turning back into his Autobot self and startling her but she didn't say a word. Instead Hot Shot saw Ell look somewhere off into the distance as if she too were in deep thought.
When he heard the high pitched sound of the Killdeer and crickets outside he let out a sigh of relief, happy that the walk was almost over and that the awkward sound of silence and jerk of feelings was almost to an end. He knew what followed was maybe some talking, but mostly her thinking possibly about Bo or the times she knew him. Hot Shot could keep himself distracted out there at the sights and sounds, but at the moment all he wanted to do was speed and drive somewhere.
It was strange that he hadn't gone to blow off steam since the Decepticons stopped coming to Earth and stopped talking to them. Even the Mini-Cons seemed to stop going off as if they knew the children were captured and needed to be rescued first. Only when Hot Shot got into arguments with the Autobots had he ever gone out to speed to blow off steam.
He was still the fastest thing in the universe, in his point of view.
Ell couldn't surpass the feelings she had. When she saw the look in his eyes she felt her heart skip a beat and time seemed to stop for her. It was what she had when she saw or was with a hot guy, but this was different. Her heart raced as always, she would breathe in an attempt to stay calm, words couldn't come to her lips and the heavenly feeling that made her feel like her knees would buckle would escape her body. But it was more than that. She felt a heavenly presence or cool heavenly breeze at the look in his eyes. More surprising her feelings were similar and it took away the doubts of a few seconds before.
Surprisingly, she felt an urge to want to actually kiss him, but was unsure how and more unsure about kissing him after what she went through and the fact of how awkward it would be. What would he even think of her? Would he probably think she was a player of some sort. Hot Shot probably didn't feel the same way about her. The look could have been anything, most of all it could have been sympathy which was something that she didn't need for the most part.
As he backed away Ell was surprised, but not scared, and just acted and stayed normal, because he just changed to his old self. But she was confused when he sighed and couldn't tell what the sigh was about other then something he was thinking about.
As she heard the sound of crickets and then the infamous bird she disliked, for they annoyed her in her old house when they lived near the Elementary school she attended. They wouldn't shut up nor would they leave them alone when they walked at school. Inside she was groaning, hoping the birds were farther away.
As she heard the distant sound of the Killdeer and the crickets, she heard Hot Shot give out a relieved sigh of "Phew" as if the quite walk or the awkward moments they had were enough for him and he rather be out in the open then be in the awkward silence they both gave. Oddly enough, she felt the same way, for her feelings weren't helping her and if she had stayed quite any longer or been in the silence she may have burst into some rash action that went with her feelings. In her mind she was saying the same thing that Hot Shot let out. Her body loosened up and she suddenly felt relaxed as the cool almost spring wind blew into the opening of the base or mountain cave and swept along her back, bringing the fresh smell of Evergreens that she loved so much.
When Hot Shot noticed she was less tense his body also loosened up. He had the same fear that he would do a crazy thing that would get him, if not her, in trouble if they stayed quite. He knew he was bottling up feelings he had for her since he first saw the beautiful brown flower scented hair, gorgeous star struck eyes and heard that beautiful, if not gorgeous operatic voice of an angel. If she had not been in pain and mourning someone, she wished to date and would have dated. Then, well, he knew he wouldn't have bottled up what he felt and actually told her everything he was sure of at the moment and hope she felt the same. He knew if this cave was any longer and they weren't near the exit now he wouldn't be able to hold his sanity and even if she cried over Bo he would tell her his feelings within the next couple steps.
'Thankfully,' He thought. 'It won't come to that for the exit is right there. I don't have to worry, at least for now that nothing would keep me occupied and able to hide these feelings. When we're outside the trees, killdeer, nocturnal creatures will and can keep my mind occupied, and if not I always can go on a quick drive to get my mind off her if she doesn't mind. But how could I just leave her out there?'
All of a sudden, he realizes she will be thinking of that guy Bo and that she may talk about him and reveal her feelings for him. 'Just great! I have to sit with the girl my spark has longed to be with since first knowledge of a girl being captured. And now I have to listen about her loving another guy. I knew she needed a shoulder to cry on, that's why you volunteered to be that shoulder and maybe more in time. But how can I sit there and listen to that? How could she even feel for me after all this?'
He heard her take in a breath and sigh with joy. This came to his mind that some smell is out there that she must love, unless she was taking in the fresh air afraid she would never breathe it again. No. !hat smile on her face and look in her eye's says otherwise. It's the look of delight and joy of something, but what?
Scanning the local surroundings for at least half a mile away, he gets several readings of flowers but none large enough or close enough to be smelled in the cave.
Finally, he decides to ask, "What is it that you like or you are enjoying the smell of?"
Startled by the question (for they were in silence for so long) she jumped back. The smell of evergreens took her back home and to the Island, she just had memories that made her smile when she smelled the sweet evergreen tree smell. Finally she spoke up. "Oh, um, it's nothing much, just the evergreen smell. My home state is known as the Evergreen State and at least on the West side of the Mountains there everywhere. I grew up around evergreens and love the smell. I guess the smell reminds me of my childhood, when I was innocent and young playing with friends hide and seek, tag, cops and robbers, mafia, or at least something in the woods and playing in forts and stuff. It's just how I grew up, and I always feel safe and at home with the smell."
She paused for a few seconds. "Well actually the one smell that makes me feel the most safe is the smell of baking as my mom, dad, and I all cook really well and so I have grown to love that smell but it's like the third favorite or third safe feeling smell." Pausing again. "Well, then my second safe feeling smell is mixed from lavender, sage, a couple different kinds of flowers and other thing, then the smell of the beach or salt water and cut grass. Well I have two that are the most comfortable to me, one is the smell of Chlorine since it reminds me of the spa. Then the other one is the most beautiful rose to me. It comes out in several different colors, never looking the same as the other. To me it's a rose that symbolizes life, people, and ones personality and it's called the Disneyland rose. But its scent is to die for, its such a beautiful and strong scent!"
"Wow! So that smell relaxes you?"
"Yes. it reminds me of home."
I know a way to make her feel at home! I'll just make her some natural scents of her favorite items, but with Red's help, of course. Ok, maybe Red does the work and I get the items that would make her happy. I like seeing that sweet smile. I can only hope she would someday aim the smile at me.
Oh, finally were outside…
Were outside! No! No! How can I keep from telling her my feelings? I'm only going to be ruining her already horrid night! I can't focus on other things. Why can't I focus on anything but her? Ugh, you stupid bot! Think of her another day! Your stupid spark likes a girl you barely know and she just lost her life and loved one so quit it…
A cough brought him out of his thinking process and he looks down to see some blood on her hand and her body seems a bit whiter than usual.
"Are…are you ok? You just coughed up blood."
Ell heard his question but tried to think of what to say, if not avoid his question and act as if things were normal. She was scared to death about coughing up blood. The last person she knew to cough up blood was her Nana once on a couch, and that was weeks before she died. She didn't want to think she was going to die yet, but wanted to light a candle for Bo now, then maybe she would ask if she could be looked at tonight rather than the morning. She didn't want to feel like she was going to die.
"Um, uh yeah…yeah I'm fine, no worries."
"That doesn't sound like no worries."
"I'm serious."
"Ellaina Summers Dunn, That's the worst lie I've heard in a stellar cycle."
"Huh, fine, it could mean several things. It's just my Nana. Before she died, she had coughed up blood several times and several weeks before. I don't want to worry now! All I want to do is light the candle for him and then go back." She said, kinda angered that he figured her out so easily. "And don't call me by my full name like I'm some kid! I'm a young adult, not a child being scolded!"
"Whoa! Sorry miss cranky pants."
"What did you call me?"
"Geez, who knew a girl could be so feisty! I'm only having fun!"
"Huh, I know, it's just been a long day. My emotions aren't right. If anything my emotions are like a pregnant woman."
Hot Shot chuckled. "That can happen." She sat down on the ground.
"Can I have the candle and match please?" Ellaina held her hands out as Hot Shot dug around in his sub space.
"Here you go. So are you going to sit here in silence, talk about him or what?"
"I don't know, we'll see. It'll be whatever I feel like doing." Pausing for a second thinking. "Knowing me, I'm probably just going to sing a song or two then maybe talk about things. I didn't know him as well even if I would have run off with him. He was extremely cute and my mom approved of him, always asking me if I had gotten together with him yet. It's funny how parents are always trying to set their children up. My mom…well its funny how she tried several times and it's never worked out. Maybe I'm supposed find Mr. Right on my own without her or dad's say. It's actually always felt like that to me."
She sighed deeply. "Hey, do Autobots have parents?"
"Yeah. Babies are usually called sparklings. They're born just like human babies, except carried in the spark. Transformers can also be built kinda like the lab babies they do here, but they put them in the mother unlike Transformers, who can be built and don't need a parent except to teach them. But most of us have parents."
"Not to pry into your personal life, but what are your parents like."
"Well, my mom is very sweet. She was a neutral from Telacross and her name's Sheriawise. My dad, he was a Autobot soldier, kinda like me, and his name was Streats. he was killed in the war, but I'm glad to have known him as a sparkling. Mom ran back home after his death to finish raising me, but she couldn't keep me from joining the war. She's now back on Telacross waiting for the end of this blasted war. What are your parents like?"
"My parents, well my dad's a traditional Christian and mom is somewhat, but kinda not. She's more outgoing, but he can be very outgoing at times. Both were born in Washington, but my mom's an Asthmatic so her family at the time had few options and had to move to California. She went back to Washington after her first marriage, and years later met dad. Both of them love music so that's what I grew up around. He works at a radio station so that's also why mom did work. But due to several things she decided to become a stay at home mom."
"Wow! That's a lot."
"Yeah. I wish they were my true parents."
"Wait! What do you mean?"
"I was adopted from birth. I never knew my biological parents. All I know is I got ADD and short term memory from my biological mom and possibly my dad. Then my parents both cheated on their spouses…um, and I have older siblings and a younger sister on one side, and a older sister on the other. That, and that both my parents were best friends since childhood."
"Wow! That's interesting."
"Yeah. I look so much like my parents, though I wish I was their real child. I don't count my biological parents as my true parents." She sat the candle down and leaned over it as she lit the match, taking several swishes before it actually lit up. She gently moved it to the wick and lit the candle aglow before shaking her hand to blow out the match and laid it in a little puddle nearby just in case. Hot Shot sat down against a rock wall, leaning his back on it. He was very comfortable for some weird reason. She looked up at the stars."They're beautiful tonight, almost heavenly."
"Yeah I.." He was about to say he guessed, but somehow the look of Ellaina in the glow of the candle and the look of the stars above told him so. He thought the woman before him was an angel herself. He had never noticed it before, but it was like heaven and earth were one tonight and he, for the first time in a long time, looked at the stars and saw beauty. He looked down at Ellaina to see she was smiling up at him and he saw the stars in her eyes, making them even more beautiful. He could not help but say, "Yeah, they are. So are the stars in your eyes"
She chuckled a little at this as tears floated down her eyes, but she didn't protest his words nor make any sort of move against them. She simply sat right near his hips, grabbing what she could reach from her sitting position she gently laid a hand on his leg and that's all she did.
He noticed the gentle flow of tears and couldn't help but move his hand and draw a finger over her cheeks to wipe away the tears. By this move, she stopped and the gentle hiccupping crying she had that he hadn't noticed until that moment stopped. The two just stared at each other as his finger stayed on her cheek holding it still. They just sat there for a minute staring into each other's eyes, well that is, she stared into his optics and he stared into her eyes.
"I thought you said he didn't want you crying anymore tears for him."
"He did and I wasn't."
"Then what were you?"
"I'm not sure exactly. Maybe it has to do with what you said, but not in that way. It was just something that I don't know. I don't think I've felt the things I did before by the word you said in a long time." She kindly and breathlessly said, her voice sounded too heavenly that any living, even breathing creature, in ear shot to her voice would hear heaven's song or angel trapped in her sweet rose blossom lips. She moved his finger off her check and pushed it towards the ground. He thought she was pushing it away, but instead she rested it on the ground and held it with her small hands. She looked to the sky and looked as if she was in deep thought and sighed heavenly. "It's hard not to cry for him, no matter how he wouldn't want it. It's hard not to."
And with that she started crying away from Hot Shot and quietly sang a heavenly beautiful song.
There are places I remember
All through my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some are gone and some remain
She began crying over the fact that he could have been her lover, if not a man who was as good as a friend that she barely knew.
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I loved them all
Hot Shot couldn't help thinking how this reflected her life as well as the life she had to leave behind to be protected from being a hostage. He felt worst for her and his spark ached, knowing the pain she was suddenly going through; he could feel it more so in the song.
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one that compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For the People and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Do do do do do do
Do do do do do do
Ba bada ba bada babada ba
Ba daba daba dab a daba ba bad a ba bada bada ba ba da
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do
DO do do dodo
Do do do
Do do do
do
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For People and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more
By now Hot Shot couldn't help but pick Ell up and hold her to his chest, trying to comfort her uncontrollable sobs. "I still can't believe he's gone," She said quietly. And that was all she said through the sobs.
Ellaina actually was becoming quite comfortable with him holding her and his hug. She loved how she could hear the sound of his heart or whatever it was that Autobots had for hearts. Where he held her was quiet warm. She could fall asleep like this; something just told her that this was where she belonged at the moment.
Her sobs stopped as she heard something beep.
Hot Shot sat her down for a second knowing that the camera was going to be watching them. He didn't want the Autobots thinking anything by the position they were just in; he knew he could be dead being found like that when she was mourning.
"Hey, it looks like I won't be able to take you on that ride after all."
Ellaina waited for a bit then shrugged her shoulders. "Mm that's fine. I knew something like this would happen, but I don't blame them. After what I went through, there's no surprise it's probably best I don't anyways. Plus, sometimes things like that are better to wait for." She was surprised how bad her voice sounded. She knew she was not all that well and probably had some injuries but her voice sounded so weak even to her.
"They told me that your voice sounded really weak, and that if anything happens to you while we're out here I'm dead. So I'm supposed to bring you in soon. I have to admit, your voice did sound very week there it surprised me."
"Me too. I guess I'm not as healthy as I thought."
"I guess not." He chuckled but looked at her with concern.
"I think I want to stay just for a few minutes. A last goodbye maybe one more song."
He nodded his head. "Was that last song about you or him?" He asked her.
"Both. We both lost everything but it was his life that was lost, not mine. But my life is almost like I was dead. I mean the life I left behind, but I'm used to new starts. I've done it before and that's what happens in college so it's nothing, much."
They both quietly look at the stars, however Hot Shot noticed her shiver from the cold. Actually, he could tell the weather wasn't that cold and knew it must be her body temperature lowered, trying to help her body fight the injuries she may have. Hot Shot opened his compartment and took out the blanket she was asked to bring. He quickly, to her surprise, wrapped it around her if not gently and almost lovingly. She smiled up at him, letting the gleam in her eyes tell him thank you.
She thought of another song; she knew one that she also had learned in her high school choir.
Walk down that lonesome road all by yourself
Don't turn your head back over your shoulder
And only stop to rest yourself when the silver moon
Is shining high above the tree's
If I had stopped to listen once or twice
If I had closed my mouth and opened my eyes
If I had cooled my head and warmed my heart
I'd not be on this road tonight
Carry on,
Never mind feeling sorry for yourself
It doesn't save you from your troubled mind
Walk down that lonesome road all by yourself
Don't turn your head back over your shoulder
And only stop to rest yourself when the silver moon,
Is shining high above the trees
Ellaina allowed her tears to fall down her face again. "Hot Shot, thanks for that hug earlier. Is it alright if we hug again? I really need some comfort at the moment."
"Yeah, sure. Anything to make you feel better, Ellaina." Inside his spark was beating fast. He couldn't believe she enjoyed that hug earlier that came out of nowhere, but he didn't show his emotions.
He picked her up and held her along his chest as she rested against it. With a sigh and smile they just sit there and listen to the night.
"I think I'll save the talking of memories till the funeral, if I'm able to go or at least till I can visit his grave."
"Anything you wish." He sighed, feeling as comfortable as she and him were like this just felt right.
Moments passed until she started shivering, her body was turning whiter.
Moments later she shivered again and stated, "I'm…I'm so cold…it's freezing out."
"It's not that cold from what I'm reading." He laughed, but something isn't right.
Suddenly her body slid a little before he caught it. What he saw took him by surprise. He couldn't believe her body was ghostly white, her lips were a purple tint, she was still breathing but barely, and her body was colder than it should've be. He scanned her, only to have dread cross his face. He may not be any doctor but he knew one thing for sure; she was dying in his arms from injuries he didn't know. All he could do was jump up and rush into the base before it was too late, if it already was too late to save her.