James' ED
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James stared at the number on the scale. It was higher than last time, what had he been doing wrong? He had skipped meals more than ever, he had taken walks and avoided his friends. He had started this in hopes he'd look as beautiful as Sirius. James was jealous of the way their collar bones stuck out, jealous of the way her hip bones seemed to be trying to poke out of their skin. He knew it was wrong, wrong to feel this way about his best friend. James knew it was wrong to starve himself. But it was better than cutting himself. Right?
Well, clearly not. James need to skip more, he craved that hallow feeling in his stomach. Food made him want to cry and it made him feel ill. The only downside to trying to make himself perfect for his someone is that he judged all his friends when they ate. James would never say anything out loud but he wondered how they simply ate, not caring about how they looked. And he was jealous of how little Sirius tried to be perfect, how much he ate and still stayed skinny. He resented it, he was so fucking jealous. And James was jealous of Peter. James was jealous of how Peter was confident with his body.
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- Part 1 of James' ED
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James' final letters to his family and everyone's reactions.
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- Part 2 of James' ED