A journey to intimacy
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Trials and Tribulations: Intimacy in five parts by whateveridk
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
24 Jul 2024
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“I lost my virginity to one of the Ravens,” Jean had said with a shrug in a moment of silence. “Does that count?”
The two of them had shared story after story and if Jean was normal in that silence he would’ve shared his own. But he isn’t normal, so he didn’t. He instead said that and didn’t realize the effect it would have until it was too late.
Jean did not talk about it a lot, at all really, not since Grayson had shown his face and allegedly killed himself a week later. But the girls knew enough.
Jean had looked up to see small, sad smiles staring back at him. He had meant the words to be casual but the implication made them sink fast like heavy weights dropped into still water. He felt the intense need to claw off his mouth with his nails, but Jean had learned quickly with the Trojans that it was not a thing well-adjusted people do and caused unnecessary worry. Instead, since Jean was still in grips with his sanity, he clenched his hands into fists and let the nails bite into the skin of his palms. Effective and discrete.
“No, Jean,” Laila had said sweetly. “That doesn’t count. Not if you don’t want it to.”
Jean hadn’t understood.
Or Jean’s exploration of intimacy and love
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- Part 1 of A journey to intimacy
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The push and shove and violent collision of bodies on the court feels just as normal to Jean as breathing. He tolerates the small touches his team gives him, high fives or pats on the shoulder passing by. But, even when benign, lingering touches, the suffocating heat of a body next to his, or the drag of breath against his skin, brings bile to the back of Jean’s throat and an overwhelming need to claw off his skin that Jean is not great at resisting.
Jeremy, though...Jeremy touches Jean like he is something to be revered.
Or an introspection on touch. Technically a missing scene from Trials but easily read as a one-shot.
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- Part 2 of A journey to intimacy