EyesVacantAndStained



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    Shane cups her cheek in his hand, running his thumb over the plush of her bottom lip. She looks at him through her fawnish lashes. He roves his eyes over her body. Her shoulders and biceps, her abs… She's so strong, so…

    Incredible.

    "I've never done that before," he admits, "Not with... with a woman, at least."

    "Right, well," she rolls her eyes, "Would probably be better with a real man, yes?"

    He shakes his head, "No. It wouldn't have been the same at all."

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    or, Shane comes to terms with his sexuality only to get thrown right back into confusion by Rozanov.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Feeling like maybe I’m not doomed

  2. Rec 63

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    Hayden’s chest goes taut with tension, his breath shallower the closer he gets to their room. The sounds have intensified in volume and now he feels like the worst kind of creep to walk the earth and an even worse fucking friend because he simply cannot stop his feet from moving forward.

    Clarity hits him like a punch in the gut, then, standing right in front of the closed door with shaking fingers hovering on the doorknob.

    “No, no, no– stop, ilya, I don't…” 

    “Hollander, I will put tape over your mouth if you don't shut up.”

    He feels sick, and he can't fucking move, why can't he move?

    In which a terrible misunderstanding occurs and Hayden finds out there’s very little he wouldn’t do for his best friend.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Hayden just wanted to surprise Shane with a guy’s night in. Shane had been flat lately, and he and JJ thought it would be nice to distract him with friendship.
    How they ended up stuck in a fucking closet watching Shane get dicked down harder than anyone in the history of the world has ever been dicked down, Hayden would never quite understand.

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    18 Mar 2026

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    Luca Haas grew up idolizing two hockey legends: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander.
    Now he’s on their team, skating beside them every day—and trying very hard not to embarrass himself in front of his captain.

    Unfortunately, Luca has never been particularly good at hiding his crush.

    Ilya notices everything.
    Shane notices too.

    Eventually, curiosity turns into an invitation.

     

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    The handprints keep flashing in his mind. Dark against Shane’s skin. Fingers splayed. Too deliberate to be an accident.

    Bruises happen. Hockey players bruise like breathing is involuntary. Like ice is cold.

    But those had not been from a hit or a fall or a puck to the wrong place.

    Those were hands.

    Ilya’s hands.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    “We’ve never met, but I’ve seen you before. Not in pictures, but in his face. In his smile. In his laugh,” Shane continues in Russian, slow and careful with each word as he looks out over the water. “On his good days. On the bad ones, too.”

    Oh, Ilya realizes distantly. His grip slackens on the mug in his hands. This is not for him.
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    [or, shane asks irina for her blessing.]

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Crying