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Picture of Clea from Clair Obscur: Expedition 33. She is smiling slightly and holding red flowers



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  1. Public Bookmark 44

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    Just then, the last of the blood slipping from that boy into Spike, him and Dru grabbing for each other with their fangs in each other’s mouths, then walking hand in hand up Fifth Avenue, all the way back home, a little prayer croaks out of him, before he realizes enough to grab it back—

    Please. Please, let it be like this always.

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    (In which New York City is one of the various loves of Spike's unlife, he can’t stop thinking about the Slayer, and in which, mostly, he just really wants to belong somewhere, if anyone will have him.)

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Originally a standalone fic, the first installment has now spawned a trilogy because I've lost control of my life! Part 1 is a season 4 era slow burn; parts 2 and 3 explore AU versions of s5 and s6, respectively, where spuffy are in an established relationship throughout.

    Parts 2 and 3 are planned/mostly written! Other fics in this universe, including missing scenes, bonus content, and possibly an AU s7 (but don't hold me to it) may be to come.

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    09 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 66

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    Buffy's career is going nowhere, her love life is dead in the water and her roots are showing, but there's no time to spare on any of those problems: she has a whole wedding to plan.

    And that’s only before she decides to do the stupid thing.

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    05 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 5

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    "Come," she demanded. "I will not allow the two of you to be useless today."

    The insult bore more weight than the perfunctory way she said it, as if merely remarking on the morning's bleary weather. To him, uselessness alluded to the black trousers tied-off flush against his residual knees, and the burns that stretched upward toward his waist, obscured by the thick fabric.  Those scars and phantom pains he measured alone every night as he laid in the bath, wondering how it might feel to slip his head beneath the soapy water.

    Perhaps it was rude of him to ascribe that cruelty to his injuries rather than acknowledging it as Clea being... Clea. She didn't know how to express love unless it was on the edge of a dagger.

    "Fine, then," he muttered. "Lead the way."

    A year after the fire that terribly injured her siblings, Clea drags Verso and Alicia along to restore their mother's garden for her birthday.

    Written for the Clair Obscur Exchange 2026!

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    01 Jun 2026

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    He seems comfortable enough sitting with his thoughts that he's not using the wine to get out of his own head, at the very least. Maybe he's just lonely. Verso does like talking, and entertains himself by climbing into her head when she's free enough to make merry. Julie is… strangely unbothered by that part of their routine.

    The part that does bother her is the meta aspect: the routine itself.

    Verso is there every night.

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    AKA Julie eases Verso off the slippery slope of drinking to forget his past.

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    06 May 2026