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1. Everything Seems To Be Estranged by hollowbirds (torturousthings)

   Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco, Fall Out Boy, Twenty One Pilots, Bandom, The Academy Is...  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   16 Dec 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie
   • Josh Dun/Tyler Joseph (Past)
   • Breezy Weekes/Dallon Weekes (minor)
   • Ryan Ross
   • Brendon Urie
   • Tyler Joseph
   • Josh Dun
   • Pete Wentz
   • Patrick Stump
   • Ashley Frangipane | Halsey
   • Dallon Weekes
   • Breezy Weekes
   • Andy Hurley
   • Spencer Smith
   • Zack Hall
   • Joe Trohman
   • William Beckett
   • Nicole Row
   • Gabe Saporta
   • Travis McCoy
   • Z Berg
   • Alex Greenwald
   • Alternate Universe - Soulmates
   • Falling In Love
   • Confusion
   • Ryden
   • joshler - Freeform
   • Peterick
   • Supernatural Elements
   • Tags to be added
   • Characters to be added
   • POV First Person
   • First Person POV Ryan
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Character Death
   • First Kiss
   • forbidden desire
   • ethical battles
   • looking at u ryan
   • Making Out
   • Lust
   • Teasing
   • Public Display of Affection
   • Payback
   • Oral Sex
   • Blow Jobs
   • Hand Jobs
   • Road Trips
   • drug mention
   • Alcohol
   • yes zack is the guy buying the pink tank top
   • Kissing in the Rain
   • Tattoos
   • Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Implied/Referenced Domestic Violence

   Summary

   Clear — a world of possibilities, a soulmate you have yet to meet.

   Crimson — a life of requited love and safety with someone you were destined to be with.

   Black — years spent in mourning for a lost lover that’ll never return.

   Blood runs red in most adults’ veins, but not Ryan’s. Every hope for a happy life drained away as he watched his blood turn black as a teenager. That is, until he meets Brendon, a young man with blood as clear as water.

   Has Ryan's own body made a mistake? Is Brendon even really alive?

   Series

   • Part 1 of Everything Seems To Be Estranged

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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   Chapters:

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