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Your Love's Got Me Going (Like You Couldn't Imagine) by Ma_Dude
Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater
16 Aug 2025
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Adam didn’t know how to feel on the way back to the Barns, to Ronan, to his home. Adam tried not to think about love, and so it crossed his mind nearly once a day.
Did he love Ronan?
Adam wanted Ronan; Adam knew Ronan. These he knew to be fact. It was easy to find evidence of his desire for Ronan, his knowledge of Ronan. Adam didn't need to look farther than the memories of this morning to see that he wanted him. More than the physical, Adam wanted his time, his attention, for Ronan to never look away. He wanted Ronan so badly that the thought of Harvard and its eight hour distance was more torturous than desirable. That was what it meant to want Ronan Lynch.
He knew Ronan too. He knew the shape of Ronan's smile and the feel of his lips against his. He knew when Ronan needed an open road and a night sky. He knew to find Ronan in his parents' room when it was three AM, to remain quiet as he wiped away his tears. He knew Ronan's anger, his loud self destructive violence and his quiet grief. And he knew, deep in his bones where vines used to live, that Ronan loved him.
But did he love Ronan? How could he? When he couldn't even point to the proof.