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1. i've been waiting my whole life to know i wanted you by literaryashtray

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   05 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Original Characters
   • Yuna Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Shane Hollander has a panic attack
   • Character Study
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • i don't know a lot about hockey
   • but i do know a lot about being a neurotic athlete
   • Canon Compliant
   • healthy relationship once we get there
   • slow burn because shane is working through his feelings
   • im doing this for the republic of wasia

   Summary

   heavily exploring the pressure shane hollander’s under during his rookie szn—undereating, overexercising, missing home, being a baby-faced teenage phenom, and, of course, being mixed with an asian mom :p basically a character study into shane’s habits of restriction and self-punishment. he has denied himself every pleasure in life… up until ilya rozanov. he’s the one thing he can’t refuse.

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

   19/?

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