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1. Nothing by finelinelive

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   07 May 2026

   Tags

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   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau & Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau
   • oh jesus christ
   • Here we go
   • Suicide Attempt
   • on screen
   • like it's in depth and right at the beginning
   • feel free to scroll past it tbh
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Ilya Rozanov is Trying His Best
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Vomiting
   • Emetophobia
   • I'm Sorry
   • Mental Health Issues
   • ilya is a sad drunk
   • Sad with a Happy Ending
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • ilya is just having a hard time to say the least
   • but shane drops what he's doing to come take care of him
   • so that's a plus
   • Good Friend Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau Finds Out About Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • cliff is kind of an enabler but doesn't mean to be a bad influence

   Summary

   He looked down at the dirty floor; he needed to clean up. To get rid of the evidence that this had ever happened. Not that anyone was ever coming over anymore, it had been just him for months. He couldn’t bear the idea of someone being in his house, not after… Not after he was the last person here. And he ran away. And that settled something in Ilya about his worth that so deeply told him that that was the end of everything. Of them. Of himself. That he wasn’t worth anything. He was nothing.

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   Ilya knew he was depressed, he feared he took after his mother that way. No one else knew Ilya was depressed, and maybe that was part of the problem. Facing the aftermath and the guilt from failing to kill himself seemed to be a whole other issue. Especially when it came to Jane and Jane finding out what he did.

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