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hey
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ILYaSOmuch:
hey there
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HollyzDays:
thx for giving me ur sn
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ILYaSOmuch:
ya np. was cool 2 meet u at hockey camp.
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HollyzDays:
ya!! it was cool how our camps played against each other and then we got to have that banquet @ the end
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol ya
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HollyzDays:
so do u live near ottawa or did u just go there for ur camp
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ILYaSOmuch:
ya family immigrated here two years ago when was nine years old
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HollyzDays:
oh cool. i live in montreal. so did u just start learning english 2 yrs ago??
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ILYaSOmuch:
u ask lot of questions
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& u fall & u crawl & u br8k & u t8ke & u turn it into
honesty & promise mii i’m nvr gna find u f8king
NOTE 2 SELF
BE LESS WEIRD OR ILYA WILL THINK UR WEIRD
COME ON SHANE BE LESS WEIRD COMEONCOMEONCOMEON
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HollyzDays:
i forgot to ask u when we were talking @ the banquet why did u start playing hockey
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HollyzDays:
lol i kno it's another question so shut up i'm just curious
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ILYaSOmuch:
my mama was figure sk8r & taught me how 2 sk8 when was young
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ILYaSOmuch:
& so my father made me start playing hockey
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HollyzDays:
do u like it or do u just do it cuz ur dad made u lol
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ILYaSOmuch:
um both
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HollyzDays:
cool
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HollyzDays:
so is it just u & ur parents
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ILYaSOmuch:
no i have brother 2
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ILYaSOmuch:
his name is andrei
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HollyzDays:
nice
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HollyzDays:
im an only child
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol i can tell
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HollyzDays:
?
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ILYaSOmuch:
nvm
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i had 2 fall 2 lose it all
but in the end it dsnt even mtr
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ILYaSOmuch:
r u online
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ILYaSOmuch:
it says ur away but sometimes i put that i'm away when i'm rly here
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ILYaSOmuch:
just need some1 to talk 2
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ILYaSOmuch:
ig ur not here
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ILYaSOmuch:
nvm
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dear diary 2 august 2002,
mama is doing bad today. she cries and cries and cries.
says that even though russia was bad it was still home and this is not home. my father yells at her for this. he says she is ungreatfell ungrateful and shud should keep her mouth shut.
i try to stop father from yelling but then hate takes his angre anger out on me and it hurts
from ilya
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HollyzDays:
hey
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HollyzDays:
sry i was at hockey practice when u msgd me lst nite
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HollyzDays:
everything ok?
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ILYaSOmuch:
ya nvm
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HollyzDays:
r u sure
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol i said nvm do u think i would lie
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HollyzDays:
i guess i don't know u that well
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HollyzDays:
i mean we only talked like 4 or 5 min at the banquet n then we only just started talking here lol
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ILYaSOmuch:
well i am not liar
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HollyzDays:
ok
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HollyzDays:
um so i got a new book 2day it's about new hockey tekniques lol idk how to spell that word
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ILYaSOmuch:
do u only talk about hockey
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HollyzDays:
idk it is the thing we have in common and i rly like it
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ILYaSOmuch:
ur a funny person
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& i aint giving up
till i get that gangsta l<3ve
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HollyzDays:
hi
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ILYaSOmuch:
hi
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HollyzDays:
let's talk abt not hockey
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol ok like what
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HollyzDays:
tell me something abt u
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ILYaSOmuch:
idk lol
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HollzyDays:
anything
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ILYaSOmuch:
um ok i am russian
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HollyzDays:
well i guess i knew that already cuz when we met u had an accent
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ILYaSOmuch:
u said tell u anything
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HollzyDays:
fine ok what was it like immigrating here
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ILYaSOmuch:
was hard. my mama has not had good time and has been missing home
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HollzyDays:
im sry to hear that
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HollzyDays:
what about ur bro and dad
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ILYaSOmuch:
they r fine. assholes in russia assholes in canada
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HollzyDays:
oh do u not get along with them
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ILYaSOmuch:
no i hate them
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HollzyDays:
well at least u have ur mom
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ILYaSOmuch:
yes
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ILYaSOmuch:
u tell me smthing abt u now, not abt hockey
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HollzyDays:
im ½ japanese
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HollzyDays:
but i dont speak japanese so dont even ask me to lol
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ILYaSOmuch:
is why ur eyes looked like that
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HollzyDays:
like what? wtf
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ILYaSOmuch:
no i did not mean anything bad
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ILYaSOmuch:
they just were very
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ILYaSOmuch:
fuck nvm
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fml
fmlfmlfmlfml
WTF ILYA WTF!!! i didnt kno friends could hurt ur feelings. this was the first time ilya hurt my feelings.
breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathebreathebreathebreathebreathe
fuck my mom for making me like this its her fault i wish i didnt look like this
that was so mean oh my god i take it back fuck i take it back GOD if u can hear me i didnt mean it oh my god
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ILYaSOmuch:
shane
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ILYaSOmuch:
i asked jeeves some things & i think u think i was being what jeeves says is racist
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ILYaSOmuch:
is not true at all. did not mean anything like that about ur eyes
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ILYaSOmuch:
pls talk 2 me
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ILYaSOmuch:
just was trying to compliment ur eyes
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ILYaSOmuch:
they were very pretty not like anything i had seen b4
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ILYaSOmuch:
pls do not leave me I need friend
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it nvr had 2 b this way
u shld have nvr played the games u played
dear diary 22 august 2002,
i have never been so afraid in my life. i did not mean to say anything wrong. i only meant to compliment him.
was maybe wrong because boys are not subbosed supposed to compliment boys, but i for some reason want to compliment him all of the time and i do not know why that is.
i hope he forgives me i cannot imagine how lonely i would be without my new friend
from ilya
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HollyzDays:
u should probably not call boy eyes pretty
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HollyzDays:
ppl will think ur gay. prolly its a russian translation thing so i dont think ur gay dont worry
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HollyzDays:
but also thx.
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ILYaSOmuch:
so u r not mad?
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HollyzDays:
i was mad for a bit but now im not
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HollyzDays:
so r we friends
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol shut up
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HollyzDays:
we r
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HollyzDays:
u said it
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ILYaSOmuch:
will take it back
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HollzyDays:
i know the school yr is starting soon but maybe my mom can call urs and we can skedule smthing 2 hang out
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ILYaSOmuch:
probably not. my father would not allow
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HollyzDays:
y?
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ILYaSOmuch:
he is strict. it is only school and hockey practice for me
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HollzyDays:
so when do u see ur friends
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ILYaSOmuch:
at school
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HollzyDays:
but during the summer?
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ILYaSOmuch:
do not see friends during the summer.
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HollzyDays:
oh
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~& i want 2 get free~
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HollyzDays:
i hope u have a good first day of school 2mrw
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ILYaSOmuch:
thx u 2
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HollyzDays:
what r u gonna wear
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HollyzDays:
i cant figure out what 2 wear & im stressed lol
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol idk i dont think abt stuff like that
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HollyzDays:
oh
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HollyzDays:
is that weird
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ILYaSOmuch:
no is not weird
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ILYaSOmuch:
is cute
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HollyzDays:
lol sometimes u say things like that & it sounds kinda gay
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ILYaSOmuch:
ok
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HollzyDays:
im thinking jeans & this light blu tshirt i have but sometimes i look kinda fat in it
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol u r not fat wtf
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HollyzDays:
lol thx i guess
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ILYaSOmuch:
why r u so stressed
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HollzyDays:
idk i have always been like this
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HollzyDays:
just get so anxious 4 no reason
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ILYaSOmuch:
im sorry
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HollzyDays:
my mom puts a lot of pressure on me & i think that is part of it idk
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HollzyDays:
sry i dont wanna complain
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ILYaSOmuch:
is ok is what friends r 4
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HollzyDays:
see we R friends hehe
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ILYaSOmuch:
shut up lol
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u cant spell school without COOL
jk school is for losers see u losers tmrw
dear diary 13 september 2002,
father says i should practice английский english more.
i feel very lucky to have shane to talk to on the AIM. but i do think my english is better than his maybe becuzau because he uses lot of abbrevviattions abbreviations that make no sense but maybe is silly canadian thing. i use abbreviations too with him so he does not feel alone.
from ilya
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ILYaSOmuch:
happy halloween shane
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HollzyDays:
happy hallowwen ilya
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ILYaSOmuch:
u spelled it wrong
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HollzyDays:
w/e
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol
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HollzyDays:
what r u dressing as
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ILYaSOmuch:
nothing
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HollzyDays:
nothing? so ur not trick or treating or going to any parties or anything
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ILYaSOmuch:
no father would not allow
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HollzyDays:
i h8 him
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ILYaSOmuch:
lol how do u think i feel
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HollzyDays:
ur right sorry
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HollzyDays:
so ur just staying home 2nite
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ILYaSOmuch:
ya
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ILYaSOmuch:
what is ur costume
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HollzyDays:
nightwing
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ILYaSOmuch:
what is a nightwing
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HollzyDays:
lol a comic book character
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ILYaSOmuch:
cool
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HollzyDays:
my friend hayden and i r trick or treating w/ his gf jackie and her friend zoe
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ILYaSOmuch:
who is zoe
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HollzyDays:
idk some girl
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ILYaSOmuch:
do u like her
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HollzyDays:
idk ive only hung w/ her a few times i think she likes me tho
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ILYaSOmuch:
r u gonna kiss or something 2nite lol
(5:12:15 PM)
HollzyDays:
ew gross no idk lol
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ILYaSOmuch:
girls are gross did u kno they shit
(5:14:46 PM)
HollzyDays:
shut up no they dont lol
(5:21:57 PM)
ILYaSOmuch:
w/e nvm go have fun
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dear diary 31 october 2002,
who the fuck is zoe
i do not like this zoe she sounds terrible bad influence for my friend shane
from ilya
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HollyzDays:
she kissed me and all i could think about was her shitting thx
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HollyzDays:
it was gross
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HollyzDays:
just wanted 2 leave and come back here & talk 2 u lol
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HollzyDays:
i kno im weird
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XxX sTaB mE iN tHe BaCk XxX
xXx LiKe MiChAeL mYeRs xXx
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ILYaSOmuch:
happy almost new yr
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HollzyDays:
hey happy almost new yr lol
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ILYaSOmuch:
i feel like we havent talked a lot l8ly
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HollzyDays:
i kno
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HollzyDays:
hockey has been crazy & zoe has been taking up so much time
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ILYaSOmuch:
ya hockey has been crazy for me 2
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ILYaSOmuch:
how is zoe
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HollzyDays:
she is fine
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ILYaSOmuch:
r u gonna see her 2nite
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HollzyDays:
ya we r hanging w/ hayden & jackie prolly going there @ like 5 or 6
(12:26:31 PM)
ILYaSOmuch:
gonna get ur new yr kiss lol
(12:27:11 PM)
HollzyDays:
i guess
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HollzyDays:
how has hockey been tho r u still playing center
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ILYaSOmuch:
duh
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ILYaSOmuch:
i can't wait for camp this summer so u can see how much better i got
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HollzyDays:
no UR gonna see how much better I got
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HollzyDays:
im gonna smoke u
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ILYaSOmuch:
big talk for sissy boy w/ gf
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HollzyDays:
dont wanna talk about her
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HollzyDays:
whats new w/ u
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ILYaSOmuch:
nothing rly
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ILYaSOmuch:
mama has not been doing so well. she has been very sad lately
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HollzyDays:
ilya im sry
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HollzyDays:
why does she get so sad
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ILYaSOmuch:
is something i do not know
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ILYaSOmuch:
maybe my father. and my brother. they r not nice 2 her
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ILYaSOmuch:
i do not want 2 talk about this
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HollzyDays:
thats ok ilya so what r u doing for new yrs
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ILYaSOmuch:
shane u should know answer by now
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HollzyDays:
nothing?
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ILYaSOmuch:
yes
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HollzyDays:
im sry
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HollzyDays:
sometimes i wish i lived in ottawa
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ILYaSOmuch:
but then u would not be with ur pretty gf zoe
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HollzyDays:
ive known u longer
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HollzyDays:
ur more important
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haven’t talked 2 u since last yr!!!!
lol happy 2003~~~
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ILYaSOmuch:
fond my fathers vodkea
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ILYaSOmuch:
wish u were here n =d not with zoe
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ILYaSOmuch:
is not fairt hat u get to live life an di iam stuck in prison
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ILYaSOmuch:
y r u nt here w ith me
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ILYaSOmuch:
is not happy nw yr fuck 2003 I liked 2002 when we mert in summer nd everything wad good n not compilictrd
(2:50:10 AM)
HollzyDays:
ilya? we r 11 why r u drinking? r u ok?
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ILYaSOmuch:
fuck I didntl kno u wld b online its sys uru away go bck 2 zoe
(12:54:59 PM)
ILYaSOmuch:
fuck shaynea
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haven’t talked 2 u since last yr!!!!
lol happy 2003~~~