Please, God, I'm finally loved

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Listing Series

• Sound of sirens, rush of pain (I almost thought I heard you call my name) by 17darwinism

  Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  26 Dec 2025

  Tags

  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
  • Ilya Rozanov
  • Shane Hollander
  • Galina Molchalina
  • Anya | Ilya Rozanov's Dog
  • Wyatt Hayes
  • Zane Boodram
  • Harris Drover
  • Svetlana Vetrova
  • Hurt No Comfort
  • Hurt/Comfort
  • Suicidal Thoughts
  • Suicide Attempt
  • Depression
  • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
  • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
  • Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
  • Angst
  • No Character Death
  • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
  • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
  • Title from a Halsey Song
  • Ottawa Centaurs (Game Changers)
  • its very very sad but i will fix it

  Summary

  "He imagined Shane would be similarly unforgiving if Ilya took his own
  life. Not that Ilya ever would. Unless he couldn’t help it." (The Long Game)

  or,

  Two years after being diagnosed with depression, Ilya wants to commit suicide.

  Series

  • Part 1 of Please, God, I'm finally loved

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  10,846

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

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  Kudos:

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  Bookmarks:

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